be_v so_o suit_v to_o some_o reason_n and_o doubt_n that_o i_o have_v upon_o my_o mind_n and_o come_v so_o seasonable_o at_o my_o first_o fix_v at_o chattisham_n i_o be_v much_o affect_v with_o it_o and_o look_v upon_o it_o as_o a_o token_n for_o good_a that_o i_o shall_v have_v god_n presence_n with_o i_o and_o the_o teach_n of_o his_o spirit_n at_o chattisham_n as_o i_o have_v have_v they_o at_o colchester_n the_o encouragement_n which_o he_o thus_o take_v be_v not_o vain_a and_o empty_a god_n remember_v his_o word_n unto_o his_o servant_n wherein_o he_o have_v cause_v he_o to_o hope_v for_o he_o not_o only_o incline_v the_o heart_n of_o the_o people_n among_o who_o he_o live_v though_o stranger_n to_o he_o to_o pay_v he_o that_o respect_n and_o honour_n which_o be_v due_a to_o he_o and_o indulge_v he_o the_o liberty_n of_o private_a preach_v as_o he_o have_v before_o enjoy_v but_o moreover_o open_v to_o he_o in_o this_o place_n a_o door_n for_o the_o frequent_a public_a exercise_n of_o his_o ministry_n which_o be_v shut_v against_o he_o at_o colchester_n the_o minister_n of_o the_o parish_n have_v another_o cure_n by_o reason_n whereof_o he_o can_v attend_v this_o at_o chattisham_n but_o once_o a_o fortnight_n do_v in_o his_o absence_n not_o only_o willing_o but_o thankful_o indulge_v to_o mr._n stockton_n the_o liberty_n of_o his_o pulpit_n and_o have_v a_o very_a small_a maintenance_n and_o some_o burden_n lie_v heavy_a upon_o he_o which_o after_o a_o few_o year_n make_v his_o residence_n there_o very_o uneasy_a to_o he_o he_o desert_v his_o charge_n and_o leave_v this_o flock_n to_o shift_v for_o themselves_o whereupon_o at_o the_o request_n of_o the_o people_n mr._n stockton_n frequent_o supply_v that_o vacancy_n and_o his_o zeal_n provoke_v and_o encourage_v other_o also_o both_o minister_n and_o people_n for_o other_o neighbour_a parish_n be_v destitute_a of_o minister_n for_o want_v of_o maintenance_n call_v in_o the_o help_n of_o nonconformist_n who_o in_o these_o place_n so_o much_o below_o envye_a have_v enjoy_v the_o liberty_n of_o their_o public_a preach_v for_o the_o most_o part_n to_o this_o day_n so_o as_o not_o only_o the_o parish_n where_o he_o live_v but_o the_o neighbour_a vllage_n have_v abundant_a cause_n to_o bless_v god_n for_o send_v to_o they_o so_o happy_a a_o instrument_n so_o willing_a and_o zealous_a so_o able_a and_o industrious_a to_o serve_v their_o soul_n in_o the_o gospel_n of_o christ_n when_o it_o please_v his_o majesty_n to_o set_v forth_o his_o most_o gracious_a declaration_n for_o indulgence_n he_o be_v choose_v both_o by_o a_o congregation_n in_o ipswhich_n and_o another_o in_o colchester_n to_o preach_v to_o they_o and_o both_o be_v very_o desirous_a of_o he_o he_o comply_v with_o their_o desire_n as_o far_o as_o he_o can_v and_o undertake_v half_o the_o service_n of_o either_o and_o so_o with_o other_o divide_v his_o labour_n between_o they_o during_o his_o life_n to_o their_o great_a satisfaction_n and_o edification_n his_o labour_n be_v abundant_a his_o ministry_n be_v his_o whole_a business_n beside_o his_o lord_n day_n service_n wherein_o he_o not_o only_o preach_v twice_o but_o oft_o expound_v the_o scripture_n and_o catechise_v the_o young_a sort_n and_o many_o time_n discourse_v particular_a christian_n that_o apply_v themselves_o to_o he_o for_o counsel_n and_o instruction_n about_o their_o spiritual_a case_n he_o moreover_o preach_v a_o lecture_n at_o ipswich_n on_o the_o weekday_n once_o a_o fortnight_n and_o scarce_o a_o week_n pass_v but_o he_o preach_v at_o some_o other_o lecture_n or_o funeral_n beside_o keep_v of_o private_a fast_n which_o he_o frequent_o practise_v both_o at_o home_n and_o abroad_o the_o providence_n of_o god_n over_o he_o while_o he_o be_v thus_o zealous_o and_o constant_o employ_v in_o his_o work_n in_o so_o many_o place_n be_v so_o remarkable_a that_o it_o must_v not_o be_v pass_v over_o without_o special_a observation_n notwithstanding_o the_o severity_n of_o the_o law_n the_o malice_n watchfulness_n and_o endeavour_n of_o adversary_n yet_o god_n suffer_v not_o a_o hair_n to_o fall_v from_o his_o head_n though_o complaint_n information_n indictment_n conviction_n warrant_v presentment_n excommunication_n be_v make_v against_o he_o yet_o be_v he_o never_o imprison_v apprehend_v distrain_v or_o bring_v before_o any_o court_n or_o magistrate_n he_o be_v much_o affect_v with_o this_o care_n of_o god_n over_o he_o and_o thankful_o accept_v and_o record_v it_o as_o the_o instance_n of_o god_n faithfulness_n and_o performance_n of_o his_o promise_n as_o the_o answer_n of_o his_o own_o faith_n and_o prayer_n and_o as_o the_o reward_n of_o his_o love_n and_o zeal_n and_o courage_n for_o god_n and_o his_o church_n by_o the_o power_n whereof_o he_o live_v above_o fear_n and_o danger_n for_o thus_o he_o write_v apr._n 16._o 1655._o be_v lord_n day_n in_o the_o morning_n i_o awake_v with_o that_o scripture_n in_o my_o thought_n 1_o tim._n 1._o 15._o i_o dwell_v a_o while_n upon_o it_o and_o draw_v comfort_n and_o relief_n for_o my_o faith_n by_o the_o help_n of_o god_n i_o have_v be_v before_o under_o a_o great_a sense_n of_o the_o sinfulness_n of_o my_o heart_n the_o comfort_n i_o have_v be_v that_o christ_n come_v to_o save_v the_o chief_a of_o sinner_n that_o this_o be_v a_o faithful_a say_n that_o it_o be_v worthy_a all_o acceptation_n or_o to_o be_v embrace_v by_o every_o one_o and_o that_o this_o salvation_n be_v from_o sin_n as_o well_o as_o from_o hell_n math._n 1._o 21._o consider_v whether_o he_o will_v save_v i_o as_o i_o be_v go_v to_o wash_v in_o the_o morning_n i_o be_v satisfy_v from_o joh._n 6._o 37._o he_o that_o come_v to_o i_o i_o will_v in_o no_o wise_a cast_v out_o it_o be_v then_o a_o time_n of_o danger_n as_o to_o the_o keep_n of_o my_o meeting_n because_o many_o soldier_n be_v in_o town_n i_o be_v dubious_a whether_o i_o shall_v admit_v the_o people_n to_o come_v to_o my_o house_n when_o i_o consider_v that_o christ_n take_v it_o as_o a_o act_n of_o love_n to_o feed_v his_o sheep_n joh._n 21._o 15._o and_o that_o he_o expose_v himself_o to_o death_n to_o save_v i_o and_o bring_v under_o a_o sense_n of_o the_o comfort_n that_o the_o lord_n have_v give_v i_o in_o the_o morning_n in_o my_o meditation_n on_o the_o 1_o tim._n 1._o 15._o i_o be_v willing_a to_o adventure_v myself_o on_o the_o providence_n of_o god_n sept._n 19_o as_o i_o be_v expound_v in_o my_o family_n the_o 91_o psalm_n on_o a_o day_n of_o humiliation_n i_o be_v much_o encourage_v to_o go_v on_o in_o my_o call_v notwithstanding_o the_o difficulty_n that_o attend_v the_o same_o by_o reason_n of_o many_o adversary_n from_o v_o 11_o 12_o 13._o though_o the_o adversary_n to_o private_a meeting_n and_o the_o preach_a of_o nonconformist_n be_v of_o several_a sort_n as_o strong_a as_o lion_n as_o full_a of_o venom_n as_o the_o dragon_n such_o as_o be_v greedy_a of_o and_o roar_v after_o the_o prey_n like_o the_o young_a lion_n as_o subtle_a and_o pertinacious_a and_o obstinate_a in_o their_o way_n as_o the_o adder_n of_o which_o see_v ps_n 58._o 4_o 5._o yet_o the_o angel_n have_v a_o charge_n to_o keep_v we_o in_o all_o our_o way_n and_o the_o promise_n be_v that_o we_o shall_v trample_v these_o under_o our_o foot_n this_o promise_n give_v i_o courage_n whilst_o at_o colchester_n and_o i_o see_v it_o make_v good_a for_o i_o go_v on_o in_o my_o call_v and_o have_v no_o harm_n from_o they_o i_o observe_v also_o in_o read_v dan._n 6._o 23._o the_o power_n of_o faith_n to_o deliver_v out_o of_o great_a and_o imminent_a danger_n daniel_n be_v cast_v into_o a_o den_n of_o hungry_a lion_n yet_o no_o manner_n of_o hurt_n be_v find_v upon_o he_o because_o he_o believe_v in_o his_o god_n sept._n 22._o in_o my_o family_n exercise_v as_o i_o be_v read_v ps_n 146._o 9_o the_o lord_n preserve_v the_o stranger_n my_o faith_n receive_v strength_n i_o enjoy_v much_o peace_n and_o security_n in_o colchester_n i_o have_v meet_v with_o no_o molestation_n either_o from_o the_o town_n or_o county_n but_o be_v come_v into_o a_o strange_a place_n where_o i_o be_v not_o know_v and_o have_v no_o friend_n to_o shelter_v or_o speak_v for_o i_o i_o apprehend_v myself_o to_o walk_v in_o more_o danger_n than_o before_o this_o word_n the_o lord_n preserve_v the_o stranger_n do_v help_v my_o dependence_n upon_o god_n oct._n 28_o 1666._o be_v sabbath_n day_n i_o go_v forth_o to_o preach_v at_o manitree_n in_o the_o morning_n before_o i_o go_v the_o lord_n give_v in_o that_o promise_n isa_n 55._o 12._o you_o shall_v be_v lead_v forth_o with_o peace_n it_o be_v a_o time_n of_o trouble_n and_o danger_n for_o nonconformist_n to_o preach_v public_o the_o promise_n be_v the_o
something_o to_o it_o before_o prayer_n often_o exhort_v his_o family_n to_o a_o reverend_a demeanour_n of_o themselves_o in_o the_o worship_n of_o god_n and_o will_v be_v much_o trouble_v when_o he_o understand_v or_o discern_v any_o thing_n to_o the_o contrary_n once_o a_o week_n for_o the_o most_o part_n he_o do_v catechise_v both_o child_n and_o servant_n either_o out_o of_o the_o assembly_n or_o his_o own_o scriptural_a catechism_n and_o explain_v it_o to_o they_o and_o once_o a_o fortnight_n if_o not_o divert_v by_o urgent_a occasion_n he_o go_v over_o some_o principle_n of_o religion_n open_v and_o explain_v it_o in_o a_o catiehistical_a way_n which_o his_o child_n and_o servant_n be_v to_o give_v he_o a_o account_n of_o the_o next_o fortnight_n and_o when_o they_o have_v so_o do_v he_o proceed_v to_o another_o principle_n and_o thus_o he_o do_v from_o time_n to_o time_n what_o sermon_n the_o youth_n of_o the_o family_n hear_v upon_o the_o lord_n day_n or_o at_o any_o other_o time_n they_o give_v a_o account_n thereof_o to_o he_o as_o they_o can_v remember_v he_o keep_v private_a day_n of_o humiliation_n with_o his_o family_n as_o often_o as_o he_o can_v gain_v opportunity_n for_o it_o on_o which_o day_n he_o will_v if_o not_o prevent_v deal_v particular_o with_o every_o one_o or_o as_o many_o as_o he_o have_v time_n for_o that_o be_v under_o his_o charge_n about_o the_o matter_n of_o their_o soul_n and_o take_v care_n that_o all_o in_o his_o family_n shall_v call_v upon_o god_n and_o pray_v to_o he_o in_o secret_a as_o well_o as_o be_v present_a at_o family_n duty_n and_o when_o any_o of_o his_o brethren_n come_v to_o usit_fw-la he_o he_o be_v not_o willing_a to_o let_v they_o depart_v without_o prayer_n his_o family_n be_v a_o house_n of_o prayer_n these_o his_o labour_n in_o his_o family_n god_n bless_v and_o succeed_v to_o the_o spiritual_a good_a of_o several_a that_o come_v under_o his_o roof_n he_o be_v most_o tender_o conscientious_a in_o keep_v holy_a the_o sabbath_n day_n whereof_o he_o be_v a_o strict_a observer_n and_o take_v care_n that_o all_o under_o his_o roof_n shall_v do_v the_o same_o he_o keep_v a_o very_a severe_a watch_n not_o only_o over_o his_o word_n and_o action_n but_o his_o very_a thought_n also_o quick_o reflect_v thereon_o not_o only_a when_o vain_a and_o sinful_a but_o when_o impertinent_a to_o the_o holiness_n and_o duty_n of_o the_o day_n whereof_o he_o have_v leave_v the_o follow_a testimony_n april_n 29._o 1666._o my_o heart_n be_v much_o out_o of_o frame_n upon_o the_o lord_n day_n full_a of_o vain_a and_o sinful_a thought_n as_o i_o be_v go_v to_o prayer_n in_o the_o afternoon_n alone_o god_n bring_v to_o remembrance_n ps_n 40._o 12_o 17._o innumerable_a evil_n have_v compass_a i_o about_o my_o iniquity_n have_v take_v hold_v upon_o i_o so_o that_o i_o be_o not_o able_a to_o look_v up_o yet_o the_o lord_n think_v upon_o i_o this_o be_v a_o stay_n to_o i_o apr._n 4._o i_o go_v forth_o on_o several_a occasion_n none_o of_o they_o succeed_v the_o first_o contrivance_n of_o that_o journey_n be_v cast_v into_o my_o thought_n on_o the_o lord_n day_n in_o a_o time_n of_o prayer_n i_o lay_v it_o aside_o till_o monday_n and_o then_o consider_v further_o of_o it_o and_o see_v it_o convenient_a for_o the_o best_a order_v of_o my_o affair_n but_o not_o humble_v my_o soul_n for_o those_o contrivance_n so_o unreasonable_o arise_v in_o my_o mind_n i_o be_v cross_v in_o they_o hereupon_o i_o determine_v for_o time_n to_o come_v when_o any_o thought_n or_o contrivance_n about_o order_v my_o affair_n be_v cast_v into_o my_o mind_n on_o lord_n day_n or_o on_o other_o day_n in_o time_n of_o holy_a duty_n to_o lay_v they_o aside_o till_o a_o more_o convenient_a time_n and_o if_o upon_o deliberation_n that_o way_n of_o order_v my_o affair_n seem_v best_a which_o be_v cast_v into_o my_o mind_n in_o time_n of_o holy_a duty_n i_o will_v not_o hereupon_o neglect_v that_o way_n lest_o satan_n shall_v get_v advantage_n of_o i_o but_o i_o will_v first_o humble_v my_o soul_n for_o its_o wander_n and_o suffering_n such_o thought_n to_o arise_v so_o unreasonable_o and_o take_v to_o christ_n for_o pardon_n of_o the_o irregularity_n of_o my_o heart_n and_o then_o not_o fear_v to_o order_v my_o affair_n in_o that_o way_n that_o seem_v most_o agreeable_a to_o reason_n and_o near_o the_o rule_n of_o god_n word_n though_o the_o contrivance_n be_v first_o cast_v into_o my_o mind_n at_o a_o unseasonable_a time_n have_v a_o letter_n of_o spiritual_a advice_n and_o counsel_n to_o write_v to_o a_o friend_n and_o have_v no_o spare_a time_n but_o on_o the_o lord_n day_n to_o do_v it_o i_o be_v doubtful_a whether_o i_o may_v spend_v some_o part_n of_o that_o day_n on_o such_o employment_n as_o i_o be_v muse_v on_o my_o bed_n what_o i_o have_v best_o do_v that_o scripture_n come_v to_o my_o mind_n rev._n 1._o 10_o 11._o i_o be_v in_o the_o spirit_n on_o the_o lord_n day_n and_o i_o hear_v a_o voice_n say_v what_o thou_o see_v write_v in_o a_o book_n and_o send_v it_o to_o the_o seven_o church_n whence_o i_o conclude_v it_o to_o be_v lawful_a to_o write_v as_o well_o as_o read_v hear_v meditate_v and_o discourse_n of_o spirital_a matter_n on_o the_o lord_n day_n his_o charity_n have_v no_o less_o measure_n than_o the_o rest_n of_o his_o grace_n which_o he_o account_v one_o of_o the_o best_a character_n of_o a_o christian_n lament_v sometime_o the_o division_n among_o professor_n of_o religion_n he_o will_v say_v he_o do_v not_o value_v a_o christian_a by_o his_o great_a knowledge_n and_o eminent_a part_n but_o by_o his_o great_a charity_n and_o love_n to_o his_o brethren_n this_o he_o extend_v to_o various_a sort_n of_o object_n as_o towards_o those_o who_o be_v at_o difference_n one_o with_o another_o he_o be_v a_o industrious_a peacemaker_n offer_v himself_o to_o interpose_v to_o make_v up_o the_o breach_n take_v journey_n when_o at_o distance_n in_o order_n to_o it_o towards_o those_o that_o have_v difference_n with_o himself_o about_o worldly_a concern_v from_o which_o he_o be_v not_o altogether_o free_a though_o altogether_o innocent_a when_o he_o suffer_v wrong_a by_o any_o his_o care_n be_v that_o they_o shall_v suffer_v none_o by_o he_o or_o he_o either_o in_o word_n or_o deed_n always_o practise_v himself_o and_o counsel_v other_o to_o do_v good_a against_o evil_n he_o will_v make_v the_o best_a construction_n that_o be_v possible_a of_o the_o word_n and_o action_n of_o his_o adversary_n often_o make_v mention_n of_o that_o scripture_n 1_o cor._n 13._o 5._o charity_n think_v no_o evil_a towards_o his_o friend_n his_o friendship_n be_v hearty_a ingenuous_a faithful_a and_o open_a he_o receive_v they_o into_o his_o house_n glad_o entertain_v they_o liberal_o converse_v with_o they_o cheerful_o sympathise_v with_o they_o in_o their_o affliction_n affectionate_o and_o serve_v they_o as_o he_o have_v occasion_n industrious_o towards_o those_o that_o persecute_v he_o and_o other_o for_o conscience_n and_o religion_n sake_n he_o observe_v the_o command_n of_o christ_n math._n 5._o 44._o he_o affcctionate_o pity_v they_o and_o pray_v for_o they_o daily_o and_o when_o he_o hear_v any_o passionate_a expression_n against_o they_o for_o their_o violence_n and_o unrighteousness_n he_o will_v be_v offend_v and_o charge_v people_n to_o pray_v more_o earnest_o for_o they_o and_o seek_v opportunity_n to_o do_v they_o good_a towards_o those_o that_o dissent_v from_o he_o in_o the_o matter_n of_o god_n he_o have_v a_o spirit_n of_o meekness_n and_o forbearance_n embrace_v all_o with_o christian_a love_n who_o practice_n do_v not_o destroy_v their_o profession_n of_o christianity_n colchester_n be_v a_o very_a divide_a place_n when_o he_o be_v call_v thither_o upon_o the_o account_n of_o diverse_a persuasion_n yet_o he_o so_o behave_v himself_o with_o all_o humility_n modiration_n tenderness_n brotherly_a kindness_n and_o charitable_a judgement_n that_o they_o be_v general_o unite_v in_o their_o respect_n and_o esteem_v for_o he_o and_o though_o he_o can_v not_o with_o satisfaction_n to_o his_o conscience_n conform_v to_o all_o that_o the_o law_n require_v yet_o he_o judge_v many_o that_o do_v to_o be_v very_o good_a man_n and_o have_v a_o real_a honour_n for_o they_o towards_o the_o poor_a and_o such_o as_o be_v reduce_v to_o straits_n and_o difficulty_n in_o this_o world_n he_o be_v pitiful_a and_o bountiful_a he_o devise_v liberal_a thing_n and_o draw_v out_o his_o soul_n to_o the_o hungry_a in_o the_o exercise_n whereof_o he_o observe_v our_o saviour_n rule_n math._n 6._o 1_o 2_o 3._o this_o indeed_o be_v one_o of_o his_o secret_n which_o he_o always_o industrious_o conceal_v as_o much_o as_o he_o can_v yet_o variety_n of_o object_n bare_a
sufficient_a to_o resist_v and_o overcome_v my_o sin_n yet_o god_n grace_n be_v sufficient_a paul_n be_v insufficient_a to_o any_o good_a of_o himself_o as_o i_o be_o 2_o cor._n 3._o 5._o he_o have_v a_o body_n of_o sin_n and_o death_n as_o well_o as_o i_o rom._n 7._o 23._o 24._o and_o satan_n assault_v he_o here_o as_o well_o as_o i_o and_o therefore_o if_o god_n grace_n be_v sufficient_a for_o paul_n why_o not_o for_o i_o also_o what_o god_n speak_v to_o paul_n i_o apply_v as_o speak_v to_o i_o according_a to_o math._n 22._o 31_o 32._o christ_n say_v what_o be_v speak_v by_o god_n to_o moses_n be_v speak_v to_o they_o though_o many_o hundred_o year_n after_o moses_n dec._n 10._o i_o have_v about_o a_o month_n before_o make_v though_o not_o a_o formal_a explicit_a vow_n yet_o a_o kind_n of_o mental_a implicit_a vow_n which_o i_o break_v and_o be_v under_o the_o sense_n of_o guilt_n be_v revive_v by_o read_v a_o passage_n concern_v david_n in_o mr._n harris_n his_o work_n p._n 490._o who_o will_v ever_o have_v think_v that_o so_o many_o affliction_n as_o david_n have_v suffer_v so_o many_o mercy_n as_o he_o have_v receive_v so_o many_o vow_n as_o he_o have_v make_v so_o many_o piece_n of_o holy_a scripture_n as_o he_o have_v prove_v etc._n etc._n shall_v not_o have_v make_v he_o a_o whole_a man_n who_o will_v have_v dream_v that_o after_o all_o this_o so_o many_o dregs_o of_o adultery_n of_o treachery_n of_o murder_n shall_v have_v be_v leave_v remain_v in_o he_o yet_o when_o david_n remit_v his_o watch_n over_o his_o own_o heart_n how_o foul_o do_v he_o fall_v i_o be_v also_o much_o comfort_v against_o the_o sense_n of_o my_o sin_n from_o isa_n 54._o 9_o this_o be_v as_o the_o water_n of_o noah_n unto_o i_o for_o as_o i_o have_v swear_v that_o the_o water_n of_o noah_n shall_v no_o more_o go_v over_o the_o earth_n so_o have_v i_o swear_v that_o i_o will_v not_o be_v wroth_a with_o thou_o nor_o rebuke_v thou_o i_o look_v upon_o myself_o as_o entitle_v to_o this_o promise_n by_o virtue_n of_o what_o be_v say_v v._n 17._o this_o be_v the_o heritage_n of_o the_o servant_n of_o the_o lord_n i_o consider_v further_a that_o the_o covenant_n which_o god_n make_v with_o noah_n and_o be_v confirm_v with_o a_o oath_n be_v make_v with_o a_o non_fw-la obstante_fw-la multiplici_fw-la peccato_fw-la hominis_fw-la with_o a_o promise_n it_o shall_v stand_v valid_a notwithstanding_o the_o imagination_n of_o the_o heart_n of_o man_n be_v evil_a from_o his_o youth_n gen._n 8._o 21._o i_o consider_v further_a that_o notwithstanding_o the_o covenant_n with_o noah_n there_o may_v be_v immoderate_a rain_n which_o may_v prove_v a_o great_a affliction_n though_o there_o shall_v not_o be_v a_o universal_a deluge_n so_o notwithstanding_o this_o oath_n of_o god_n and_o his_o covenant_n with_o i_o i_o may_v meet_v with_o temporary_a affliction_n but_o i_o shall_v by_o virtue_n of_o the_o covenant_n be_v deliver_v from_o eternal_a wrath_n bless_a be_v god_n this_o scripture_n do_v much_o revive_v and_o comfort_v my_o soul_n notwithstanding_o all_o this_o goodness_n of_o god_n i_o find_v my_o heart_n still_o manifest_v its_o inbred_a corruption_n and_o i_o be_v foil_v again_o by_o my_o sin_n which_o do_v much_o cast_v i_o down_o and_o be_v to_o draw_v nigh_o to_o god_n at_o the_o lord_n table_n i_o be_v much_o discourage_v but_o before_o the_o sabbath_n come_v i_o be_v in_o prayer_n revive_v with_o isa_n 53._o 5_o 6._o and_o in_o conference_n by_o mat._n 11._o 28._o i_o find_v i_o be_v in_o a_o labour_a condition_n and_o such_o christ_n invite_v and_o also_o from_o psal_n 65._o 3_o 4._o david_n when_o he_o find_v iniquity_n prevail_v do_v yet_o conclude_v that_o upon_o his_o approach_n to_o god_n in_o his_o ordinance_n he_o shall_v be_v satisfy_v in_o read_v luke_n 8._o 27._o 30._o i_o be_v encourage_v to_o hope_v that_o the_o lord_n jesus_n will_v dispossess_v and_o cast_v out_o my_o sin_n out_o of_o my_o soul_n though_o they_o be_v many_o and_o have_v possess_v i_o a_o long_a time_n for_o it_o be_v as_o easy_a for_o christ_n to_o cast_v a_o sin_n as_o to_o cast_v a_o devil_n out_o mar._n 25._o 1666._o be_v lord_n day_n and_o the_o first_o day_n the_o oxford_n act_n for_o remove_v of_o nonconformist_n from_o the_o place_n where_o they_o have_v be_v minister_n and_o from_o corporation_n take_v place_n in_o the_o morning_n as_o i_o lie_v in_o my_o bed_n ponder_v on_o this_o providence_n these_o scripture_n come_v to_o mind_n heb._n 13._o 14._o here_o have_v we_o no_o continue_v city_n but_o we_o seek_v one_o to_o come_v whence_o i_o be_v instruct_v that_o the_o mind_n of_o god_n in_o this_o unsettle_a providence_n as_o to_o my_o abode_n here_o be_v to_o stir_v i_o up_o to_o seek_v more_o industrious_o after_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n jer._n 48._o 11._o moab_n have_v be_v a_o ease_n and_o he_o have_v settle_v on_o his_o lees_n and_o have_v not_o be_v empty_v from_o vessel_n to_o vessel_n neither_o have_v go_v into_o captivity_n therefore_o his_o taste_n remain_v in_o he_o and_o his_o scent_n be_v not_o change_v i_o learn_v hence_o that_o the_o design_n of_o god_n in_o this_o providence_n be_v to_o take_v i_o off_o from_o carnal_a ease_n and_o security_n and_o settle_v upon_o the_o lees_n of_o any_o sinful_a course_n and_o to_o purge_v away_o that_o tang_n and_o scent_n of_o sin_n which_o yet_o remain_v in_o i_o psal_n 55._o 19_o because_o they_o have_v no_o change_n therefore_o they_o fear_v not_o god_n whence_o i_o see_v that_o this_o change_n be_v to_o promote_v a_o great_a awe_n and_o dread_a of_o god_n upon_o my_o soul_n the_o lord_n great_a that_o this_o providence_n may_v have_v these_o effect_n upon_o i_o apr._n 8._o the_o lord_n warn_v i_o to_o take_v heed_n how_o i_o presume_v to_o sin_n against_o he_o upon_o the_o account_n of_o any_o mercy_n and_o favour_n he_o have_v bestow_v upon_o i_o or_o upon_o the_o account_n of_o any_o gift_n or_o grace_n give_v i_o from_o 2_o pet._n 2._o 4._o if_o god_n spare_v not_o the_o angel_n that_o sin_v but_o cast_v they_o down_o to_o hell_n the_o angel_n have_v be_v partaker_n of_o great_a goodness_n god_n have_v do_v great_a thing_n for_o they_o place_v they_o in_o heaven_n yet_o when_o they_o sin_v he_o do_v not_o spare_v they_o but_o cast_v they_o down_o to_o hell_n o_o my_o soul_n be_v not_o high_a mind_v do_v not_o presume_v to_o sin_n against_o god_n but_o fear_v to_o offend_v he_o apr._n 15._o corruption_n have_v prevail_v i_o be_v indispose_v to_o pray_v and_o can_v not_o meditate_v after_o i_o have_v be_v pray_v a_o second_o time_n though_o with_o much_o flatness_n and_o distraction_n god_n gracious_o revive_v my_o soul_n with_o rom._n 7._o 23._o 25._o and_o 8._o 1._o apr._n 21._o in_o the_o like_a case_n god_n revive_v i_o with_o isa_n 43._o 24_o 25._o may._n 2._o in_o the_o like_a case_n i_o be_v encourage_v from_o 1_o sam._n 12._o 20._o 22._o and_o from_o jer._n 31._o 37._o soon_o after_o i_o renew_v my_o covenant_n with_o god_n yet_o quick_o find_v my_o treacherous_a heart_n depart_v from_o god_n and_o revolt_a and_o relapse_v to_o sin_n yet_o still_o god_n comfort_v i_o with_o his_o word_n jer._n 31._o 31_o 32_o 33_o 34._o and_o rom._n 14._o 4._o he_o shall_v be_v hold_v up_o for_o god_n be_v able_a to_o make_v he_o stand_v it_o be_v speak_v of_o he_o that_o be_v weak_a in_o the_o faith_n v._n 1._o and_o encourage_v i_o to_o hope_v for_o the_o acceptation_n of_o my_o person_n and_o service_n from_o isa_n 56._o 6_o 7._o nou._n 23._o be_v a_o day_n of_o private_a humiliation_n for_o my_o unprofitableness_n under_o my_o affliction_n sigh_v under_o my_o incorrigibleness_n god_n mind_v i_o of_o jer._n 31._o 18._o 20._o which_o much_o refresh_v i_o and_o strengthen_v my_o faith_n blessed_n be_v god_n jan._n 1._o have_v some_o day_n before_o feel_v much_o of_o the_o sinfulness_n and_o filthiness_n of_o my_o own_o heart_n sin_v not_o only_o arise_v but_o lead_v i_o captive_n i_o be_v afraid_a that_o because_o of_o my_o sinfulness_n god_n be_v most_o holy_a will_v cast_v i_o out_o of_o his_o favour_n but_o the_o lord_n instruct_v i_o from_o psal_n 89._o 30_o 31_o 32_o 33_o 34_o 35._o that_o his_o holiness_n shall_v not_o deter_v i_o from_o expect_v the_o accomplishment_n of_o his_o promise_n but_o rather_o encourage_v i_o to_o hope_n for_o god_n have_v swear_v by_o his_o holiness_n that_o he_o will_v not_o take_v away_o his_o lovingkindness_n nor_o break_v his_o covenant_n etc._n etc._n notwithstanding_o he_o find_v sin_n jan._n 7._o it_o be_v a_o suitable_a word_n to_o my_o state_n and_o that_o which_o afford_v i_o some_o support_n which_o i_o
do_v much_o encourage_v he_o to_o give_v himself_o up_o to_o the_o ministry_n of_o the_o word_n 1._o the_o benefiting_a of_o his_o own_o soul_n in_o his_o meditation_n for_o preach_v for_o whilst_o he_o be_v study_v for_o other_o the_o lord_n make_v it_o a_o word_n of_o instruction_n to_o himself_o and_o he_o find_v it_o the_o best_a mean_n of_o growth_n to_o be_v water_v other_o yet_o herein_o he_o perceive_v he_o say_v great_a need_n of_o watchfulness_n and_o much_o care_n lest_o his_o heart_n shall_v put_v away_o that_o word_n from_o himself_o which_o he_o be_v press_v upon_o other_o 2._o he_o find_v his_o heart_n much_o divert_v from_o other_o study_n philosophy_n seem_v tedious_a to_o he_o he_o find_v not_o that_o satisfaction_n in_o study_v mere_a human_a author_n as_o in_o meditate_v on_o divine_a thing_n yea_o he_o think_v he_o disrelished_a all_o other_o study_n and_o they_o be_v unsavoury_a to_o he_o and_o he_o know_v not_o but_o that_o this_o may_v be_v of_o the_o lord_n thus_o to_o turn_v his_o heart_n from_o the_o one_o and_o incline_v it_o to_o the_o other_o study_n 3._o the_o lord_n have_v be_v please_v to_o bless_v his_o labour_n in_o some_o measure_n and_o order_v so_o by_o his_o providence_n that_o it_o come_v to_o his_o knowledge_n as_o particular_o at_o burwell_n at_o swafham_n at_o soham_n at_o land-beech_n at_o chesterton_n in_o cambridgshire_n at_o debenham_n in_o suffolk_n at_o wethersfield_n in_o essex_n this_o be_v a_o especial_a encouragement_n to_o he_o as_o it_o may_v well_o be_v to_o pursue_v the_o ministry_n in_o the_o year_n 1654._o he_o be_v choose_v catechist_n for_o that_o year_n in_o the_o college_n in_o which_o choice_n he_o observe_v the_o special_a providence_n of_o god_n for_o whereas_o former_o the_o master_n use_v to_o nominate_v the_o fellow_n for_o such_o office_n as_o they_o shall_v bear_v he_o this_o year_n bid_v the_o fellow_n agree_v and_o choose_v among_o themselves_o which_o they_o do_v according_a to_o seniority_n his_o business_n detain_v he_o from_o be_v present_a at_o the_o meeting_n of_o the_o fellow_n and_o every_o one_o have_v choose_v what_o they_o like_v best_a they_o cast_v the_o catechist_n place_n upon_o he_o judge_v he_o fit_a for_o it_o which_o he_o accept_v and_o according_o begin_v to_o discharge_v it_o in_o michaelmass_n term._n this_o be_v the_o first_o place_n where_o he_o settle_v himself_o to_o a_o constant_a course_n of_o preach_v wherein_o god_n do_v great_o encourage_v and_o honour_v he_o for_o the_o very_a first_o night_n he_o exercise_v one_o of_o the_o fellow_n come_v to_o he_o and_o tell_v he_o he_o have_v feel_v the_o power_n of_o god_n in_o that_o ordinance_n upon_o his_o heart_n the_o statute_n of_o the_o college_n oblige_v he_o to_o these_o divinity_n exercise_n as_o catechist_n in_o the_o chapel_n only_o in_o term_n time_n towards_o the_o end_n of_o the_o term_n he_o begin_v to_o consider_v whether_o he_o shall_v continue_v and_o proceed_v in_o the_o same_o exercise_n as_o well_o out_o of_o term_n as_o in_o term_n his_o conscience_n towards_o god_n as_o well_o as_o the_o local_a statute_n and_o his_o zeal_n to_o improve_v all_o opportunity_n to_o do_v good_a prompt_v he_o thereto_o be_v doubtful_a what_o to_o do_v he_o be_v determine_v to_o the_o affirmative_a by_o hear_v a_o sermon_n preach_v at_o st._n mary_n by_o the_o reverend_n and_o learned_a dr._n tuckury_n then_o professor_n of_o divinity_n there_o the_o scope_n whereof_o be_v to_o show_v what_o a_o bless_a and_o desirable_a thing_n it_o be_v to_o have_v the_o church_n of_o god_n multiply_v and_o increase_v and_o in_o the_o application_n he_o do_v in_o a_o especial_a manner_n direct_v his_o word_n to_o the_o university_n and_o do_v in_o the_o name_n of_o god_n earnest_o beseech_v every_o one_o in_o their_o place_n to_o endeavour_v the_o increase_n and_o multiply_v of_o the_o church_n of_o god_n both_o by_o add_v themselves_o to_o it_o and_o labour_v to_o add_v other_o to_o it_o his_o soul_n be_v much_o warm_v at_o this_o sermon_n and_o consider_v the_o seasonableness_n of_o it_o he_o look_v upon_o this_o word_n as_o direct_v special_o to_o himself_o and_o take_v encouragement_n from_o it_o to_o proceed_v in_o his_o work_n this_o practice_n of_o his_o be_v a_o proof_n not_o only_o of_o his_o ability_n but_o of_o his_o willingness_n also_o and_o that_o laborious_o to_o serve_v god_n in_o the_o work_n of_o the_o ministry_n about_o easter_n follow_v a_o motion_n be_v make_v to_o he_o by_o one_o of_o st._n andrews_n parish_n in_o cambridge_n in_o the_o name_n of_o the_o rest_n to_o supply_v that_o place_n which_o he_o decline_v promise_v only_o to_o give_v they_o one_o sermon_n afterwards_o the_o motion_n be_v more_o importunate_o renew_v to_o he_o he_o advise_v they_o to_o seek_v god_n to_o direct_v they_o in_o a_o business_n of_o that_o concern_v commend_v to_o they_o other_o of_o great_a ability_n and_o grace_n than_o himself_o to_o make_v choice_n of_o tell_v they_o he_o will_v at_o that_o time_n neither_o deny_v nor_o promise_v any_o thing_n about_o six_o week_n after_o 8_o or_o 9_o of_o the_o parish_n come_v to_o he_o in_o the_o name_n of_o the_o whole_a and_o signify_v to_o he_o that_o it_o be_v their_o joint_a request_n that_o he_o will_v preach_v with_o they_o on_o the_o lord_n day_n in_o the_o forenoon_n whereupon_o after_o a_o fortnight_n consideration_n and_o seek_v of_o god_n and_o consult_v friend_n he_o comply_v with_o their_o desire_n and_o undertake_v that_o service_n here_o god_n so_o bless_v his_o ministry_n both_o to_o the_o student_n in_o the_o university_n and_o people_n of_o the_o town_n that_o his_o encouragement_n be_v very_o great_a for_o which_o he_o always_o bless_v god_n in_o the_o college_n he_o so_o well_o discharge_v his_o office_n that_o the_o year_n now_o expire_a he_o be_v again_o choose_v into_o the_o same_o office_n next_o year_n and_o now_o be_v satisfy_v that_o god_n do_v call_v he_o to_o this_o work_n and_o office_n by_o the_o success_n which_o god_n give_v to_o his_o labour_n and_o the_o acceptance_n he_o have_v in_o the_o church_n he_o resolve_v thorough_o to_o devote_v and_o give_v up_o himself_o to_o it_o by_o solemn_a ordination_n for_o which_o end_n he_o repair_v to_o london_n and_o be_v there_o prove_v and_o well_o approve_v of_o was_z feb._n 13._o 1655_o solemn_o set_v apart_o to_o this_o office_n and_o work_v by_o fast_v and_o prayer_n and_o lay_v on_o of_o the_o hand_n of_o the_o presbytery_n to_o which_o god_n seem_v to_o set_v his_o seal_n both_o during_o the_o action_n by_o very_o gracious_a influence_n of_o his_o spirit_n upon_o his_o heart_n beyond_o his_o preparation_n for_o which_o he_o have_v record_v thanks_o to_o god_n and_o on_o the_o lord_n day_n follow_v viz._n feb._n 17._o when_o be_v desire_v to_o preach_v at_o the_o charterhouse_n both_o part_n of_o the_o day_n in_o the_o afternoon_n one_o put_v up_o a_o bill_n to_o he_o wherein_o the_o person_n that_o put_v it_o up_o acknowledge_v that_o he_o have_v long_o lie_v under_o the_o guilt_n of_o a_o know_a sin_n and_o be_v convince_v of_o it_o by_o the_o morning_n sermon_n and_o desire_a prayer_n to_o god_n for_o help_v against_o it_o other_o also_o in_o that_o congregation_n he_o observe_v to_o be_v affect_v at_o that_o his_o first_o sermon_n after_o his_o ordination_n in_o his_o return_v from_o london_n to_o cambridge_n upon_o the_o way_n he_o experience_v a_o very_a good_a providence_n with_o which_o his_o heart_n be_v much_o affect_v and_o which_o he_o thankful_o record_v as_o a_o instance_n of_o god_n special_a care_n of_o he_o the_o night_n overtake_v he_o ere_o he_o can_v reach_v to_o haste_v mill_n where_o the_o water_n be_v very_o high_a by_o reason_n of_o a_o flood_n just_a as_o he_o come_v almost_o to_o the_o water_n a_o man_n meet_v he_o who_o know_v the_o danger_n of_o the_o water_n and_o the_o safe_a passage_n through_o it_o offer_v he_o his_o service_n and_o very_o kind_o lend_v he_o his_o own_o tall_a and_o strong_a horse_n and_o ride_v back_o again_o on_o his_o horse_n before_o he_o lead_v he_o safe_o through_o which_o else_o he_o perceive_v he_o can_v not_o have_v pass_v without_o the_o hazard_n of_o his_o life_n be_v now_o return_v to_o cambridge_n to_o the_o charge_n he_o have_v undertake_v with_o what_o conscience_n faithfulness_n zeal_n and_o industry_n he_o apply_v himself_o to_o the_o work_n to_o which_o he_o have_v devote_v himself_o and_o be_v now_o solemn_o set_v apart_o i_o leave_v to_o the_o pious_a reader_n to_o judge_v by_o what_o follow_v in_o his_o own_o word_n july_n 7_o the_o 1656._o i_o set_v apart_o that_o day_n for_o fast_v and_o prayer_n to_o seek_v the_o lord_n for_o counsel_n whether_o i_o shall_v
preach_v in_o the_o afternoon_n at_o st._n andrews_n i_o have_v some_o thought_n of_o it_o and_o motion_n thereto_o some_o time_n since_o but_o now_o my_o time_n for_o chapel_n exercise_n be_v expire_v i_o take_v it_n into_o serious_a thought_n and_o have_v humble_v my_o soul_n for_o my_o sin_n and_o beg_v of_o god_n that_o he_o will_v settle_v my_o mind_n in_o this_o thing_n and_o teach_v i_o what_o be_v his_o mind_n therein_o after_o pain_n and_o search_v the_o scripture_n i_o come_v to_o this_o resolution_n i_o be_v full_o persuade_v that_o it_o be_v the_o mind_n of_o the_o lord_n that_o i_o shall_v also_o preach_v in_o the_o afternoon_n and_o that_o from_o these_o scripture_n 2_o tim._n 4._o 1._o 2._o i_o charge_v the_o before_o god_n be_v instant_a in_o season_n and_o out_o of_o season_n as_o we_o will_v answer_v it_o to_o jesus_n christ_n at_o the_o day_n of_o judgement_n we_o be_v to_o take_v all_o opportunity_n to_o preach_v his_o word_n i_o consider_v here_o be_v a_o fair_a opportunity_n put_v into_o my_o hand_n and_o therefore_o i_o be_o bind_v in_o conscience_n not_o to_o neglect_v it_o 1_o pet._n 5._o 2._o 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d as_o much_o as_o in_o you_o lie_v feed_v thy_o flock_n so_o calvin_n render_v the_o word_n 1_o cor._n 9_o 16._o 17._o necessity_n be_v lay_v upon_o i_o yea_o woe_n be_v unto_o i_o if_o i_o preach_v not_o the_o gospel_n though_o i_o preach_v the_o gospel_n i_o have_v nothing_o to_o glory_n of_o if_o i_o do_v this_o willing_o i_o have_v a_o reward_n eccl._n 11_o 6._o in_o the_o morning_n sow_v thy_o seed_n and_o in_o the_o evening_n withhold_v not_o thy_o hand_n for_o thou_o know_v not_o what_o shall_v prosper_v this_o or_o that_o this_o seem_v a_o clear_a resolution_n of_o the_o question_n 1_o cor._n 15._o 58._o always_o abound_v in_o the_o work_n of_o the_o lord_n gal._n 6._o 10._o as_o we_o have_v opportunity_n let_v we_o do_v good_a here_o be_v a_o fair_a opportunity_n and_o how_o it_o may_v be_v take_v from_o i_o or_o i_o from_o it_o i_o know_v not_o and_o therefore_o hold_v it_o my_o duty_n to_o lay_v hold_n on_o it_o hereupon_o i_o resolve_v to_o preach_v once_o a_o fortnight_n in_o the_o afternoon_n also_o and_o consider_v my_o weakness_n for_o such_o a_o work_n i_o be_v encourage_v from_o isa_n 41._o 10._o and_o math._n 28._o ult_n go_v teach_v and_o lo_o i_o be_o with_o you_o with_o you_o to_o help_v and_o assist_v you_o with_o you_o to_o bless_v your_o labour_n and_o make_v your_o work_n prosperous_a under_o your_o hand_n jul._n 13._o 1656._o i_o begin_v my_o afternoon_n exercise_v and_o enter_v upon_o the_o doctrine_n of_o repentance_n i_o have_v find_v god_n very_o much_o with_o i_o assisting_z and_o enlarge_n i_o and_o blessing_n my_o labour_n to_o some_o of_o my_o hearer_n i_o bless_v his_o name_n for_o put_v it_o into_o my_o heart_n nov_n 16_o i_o have_v not_o so_o much_o of_o the_o enliven_a presence_n of_o god_n in_o the_o afternoon_n as_o i_o be_v wont_a to_o have_v yet_o god_n bless_v his_o word_n one_o of_o the_o parish_n tell_v mr._n j._n he_o think_v their_o minister_n know_v their_o heart_n and_o add_v he_o be_v resolve_v to_o amend_v apr._n 21._o 1657._o i_o set_v apart_o this_o day_n to_o seek_v god_n by_o fast_v and_o prayer_n to_o show_v i_o my_o way_n and_o to_o direct_v i_o in_o a_o business_n that_o have_v be_v upon_o my_o spirit_n nigh_o half_a a_o year_n which_o be_v to_o preach_v once_o a_o fortnight_n on_o the_o week_n day_n at_o the_o church_n where_o i_o be_o place_v i_o engage_v the_o prayer_n of_o other_o also_o for_o i_o in_o this_o particular_a and_o when_o i_o go_v to_o the_o sacrament_n i_o lay_v the_o promise_n before_o god_n that_o he_o will_v guide_v i_o continual_o and_o teach_v i_o in_o the_o way_n that_o i_o shall_v choose_v as_o that_o which_o i_o desire_v might_n among_o other_o be_v seal_v up_o to_o i_o whilst_o i_o be_v thus_o deliberate_v with_o myself_o what_o to_o do_v i_o meet_v with_o this_o providence_n be_v at_o soham_n to_o preach_v the_o lecture_n there_o i_o sleep_v that_o night_n very_o disturbed_o towards_o the_o morning_n i_o think_v i_o see_v the_o lord_n jesus_n christ_n in_o his_o glory_n who_o speak_v comfortable_o to_o i_o and_o encourage_v i_o in_o my_o work_n but_o speak_v very_o sad_a word_n to_o another_o mr._n of_o art_n that_o be_v with_o i_o who_o i_o dream_v to_o be_v a_o godly_a man_n yet_o one_o who_o be_v note_v for_o his_o unwillingness_n to_o preach_v in_o town_n when_o i_o awake_v i_o consider_v with_o myself_o what_o this_o shall_v mean_v i_o consider_v it_o be_v but_o a_o dream_n and_o so_o not_o much_o to_o be_v heed_v and_o again_o i_o consider_v that_o sometime_o god_n speak_v to_o we_o in_o dream_n and_o slumber_v upon_o our_o bed_n job_n 33._o 13._o 14._o 15._o whence_o i_o gather_v it_o may_v be_v something_o of_o encouragement_n to_o i_o in_o the_o morning_n when_o i_o be_v up_o it_o fall_v out_o in_o my_o ordinary_a course_n of_o read_v the_o scripture_n to_o read_v act._n 18._o and_o when_o i_o have_v read_v ver_fw-la 9_o 10._o and_o ponder_v what_o have_v befall_v i_o in_o the_o night_n i_o can_v not_o but_o wonder_n at_o the_o providence_n of_o god_n to_o cause_v this_o scripture_n to_o fall_v in_o with_o my_o former_a dream_n which_o make_v i_o ponder_v the_o more_o upon_o it_o i_o see_v god_n do_v sometime_o speak_v to_o his_o people_n in_o a_o vision_n i_o see_v the_o same_o reason_n why_o paul_n shall_v preach_v viz._n because_o there_o be_v much_o people_n belong_v to_o the_o lord_n there_o may_v be_v forcible_a to_o prevail_v with_o i_o for_o he_o incline_v a_o great_a multitude_n of_o people_n to_o attend_v upon_o i_o when_o i_o have_v consider_v of_o it_o i_o resolve_v to_o lay_v this_o up_o in_o my_o heart_n and_o not_o to_o slight_v it_o though_o i_o can_v not_o build_v on_o it_o any_o ground_n of_o my_o undertake_n my_o work_n consult_v the_o scripture_n these_o come_v into_o my_o mind_n act._n 6._o 4._o we_o will_v give_v ourselves_o continual_o to_o prayer_n and_o to_o the_o ministry_n of_o the_o word_n where_o i_o see_v that_o such_o as_o be_v call_v of_o god_n to_o preach_v the_o word_n aught_o to_o make_v it_o their_o business_n and_o give_v up_o themselves_o to_o it_o rom._n 1._o 1._o 14._o 15._o here_o i_o see_v that_o one_o separate_v to_o the_o gospel_n of_o christ_n be_v a_o debtor_n bind_v and_o shall_v be_v ready_a as_o much_o as_o in_o he_o lie_v isa_n 40._o 9_o o_o thou_o that_o bring_v good_a tiding_n to_o zion_n get_v the_o up_o into_o the_o high_a mountain_n lift_v up_o thy_o voice_n with_o strength_n lift_v it_o up_o be_v not_o afraid_a read_v this_o scripture_n in_o my_o ordinary_a course_n i_o find_v it_o set_v home_o with_o life_n and_o power_n in_o reference_n to_o my_o present_a doubt_n get_v the_o up_o lift_v up_o thy_o voice_n it_o remove_v the_o great_a obstacle_n of_o fear_n what_o will_v man_n say_v and_o think_v of_o my_o forwardness_n be_v not_o afraid_a i_o be_v the_o more_o confirm_v by_o consider_v this_o scripture_n be_v main_o direct_v to_o such_o as_o god_n have_v send_v to_o preach_v the_o gospel_n by_o compare_v this_o scripture_n with_o isa_n 52._o 7._o and_o rom._n 10._o 15._o and_o the_o scripture_n do_v the_o more_o affect_v i_o because_o it_o be_v in_o this_o manner_n set_v home_o after_o prayer_n when_o i_o have_v be_v seek_v god_n in_o reference_n to_o this_o doubt_n act._n 18._o 5._o paul_n be_v press_v in_o spirit_n and_o testify_v hence_o i_o see_v the_o minister_n of_o god_n may_v take_v encouragement_n to_o preach_v the_o word_n from_o inward_a pressure_n of_o spirit_n have_v these_o inducement_n to_o preach_v on_o the_o week_n day_n i_o set_v apart_o as_o before_o the_o 21th_o of_o april_n to_o seek_v god_n by_o fast_v and_o prayer_n to_o direct_v i_o what_o to_o do_v have_v put_v up_o my_o request_n to_o he_o in_o the_o name_n of_o jesus_n christ_n i_o shall_v consider_v what_o motive_n i_o have_v to_o it_o and_o what_o dissuasives_n from_o it_o and_o judge_v of_o both_o according_a to_o the_o scripture_n and_o do_v therein_o as_o the_o lord_n shall_v direct_v i_o by_o his_o word_n and_o spirit_n '_o the_o argument_n move_v to_o it_o be_v these_o 1._o i_o find_v god_n much_o enlarge_n my_o meditation_n so_o as_o i_o be_o a_o long_a while_n ere_o i_o can_v dispatch_v the_o subject_a i_o enter_v upon_o whereby_o i_o foresee_v i_o shall_v go_v over_o but_o few_o head_n in_o divinity_n while_o i_o stay_v unless_o i_o preach_v often_o and_o i_o know_v not_o what_o the_o meaning_n of_o god_n
suffer_v little_a child_n to_o come_v unto_o i_o and_o from_o observe_v how_o prevalent_a faith_n and_o prayer_n be_v with_o god_n for_o the_o remission_n of_o sin_n and_o salvation_n of_o other_o as_o well_o as_o our_o own_o soul_n math._n 9_o 2._o jesus_n see_v their_o faith_n say_v son_n be_v of_o good_a cheer_n thy_o sin_n be_v forgive_v thou_o so_o 1_o joh._n 5._o 16._o if_o a_o man_n see_v his_o brother_n sin_n a_o sin_n which_o be_v not_o unto_o death_n he_o shall_v ask_v of_o god_n and_o he_o shall_v give_v he_o life_n now_o i_o considere_v that_o though_o my_o child_n have_v sin_n incident_a to_o childhood_n yet_o it_o have_v not_o sin_v the_o sin_n unto_o death_n and_o therefore_o i_o conclude_v that_o if_o i_o ask_v of_o god_n he_o will_v give_v it_o life_n jam._n 5._o 15._o the_o prayer_n of_o faith_n shall_v save_v the_o sick_a and_o if_o he_o have_v commit_v sin_n they_o shall_v be_v forgive_v he_o math._n 15._o 22_o 28._o the_o woman_n of_o canaan_n faith_n and_o prayer_n avail_v with_o christ_n for_o the_o cast_v the_o devil_n out_o of_o her_o daughter_n now_o god_n help_v i_o to_o act_v faith_n for_o my_o child_n upon_o the_o account_n of_o his_o covenant_n and_o stir_v i_o by_o his_o spirit_n often_o to_o pray_v for_o my_o child_n i_o be_v thereby_o encourage_v to_o hope_v for_o its_o salvation_n when_o my_o child_n die_v the_o same_o day_n the_o small_a pox_n begin_v to_o appear_v upon_o my_o sister_n i_o know_v not_o what_o breach_n god_n may_v be_v about_o to_o make_v in_o my_o family_n but_o as_o i_o be_v hear_v the_o word_n the_o minister_n treat_v on_o god_n intention_n to_o glorify_v himself_o by_o all_o affliction_n that_o he_o lay_v upon_o his_o people_n from_o that_o scripture_n isa_n 5._o 15_o 16._o this_o word_n satisfy_v i_o that_o whatever_o judgement_n god_n shall_v bring_v upon_o i_o or_o my_o family_n he_o will_v exalt_v and_o glorify_v his_o own_o name_n by_o they_o hereupon_o i_o submit_v and_o resign_v up_o myself_o to_o god_n to_o do_v with_o i_o and_o i_o what_o he_o please_v yet_o i_o be_v then_o under_o the_o sense_n of_o sin_n which_o weaken_v my_o faith_n and_o make_v i_o fearful_a i_o shall_v not_o bear_v up_o cheerful_o if_o i_o shall_v be_v visit_v while_o under_o the_o sense_n of_o guilt_n but_o i_o be_v much_o encourage_v in_o meditation_n from_o mic._n 7._o 8_o 9_o when_o i_o sit_v in_o darkness_n the_o lord_n will_v be_v a_o light_n unto_o i_o this_o faith_n they_o hold_v when_o their_o affliction_n be_v attend_v with_o the_o sense_n of_o sin_n for_o it_o follow_v i_o will_v bear_v the_o indignation_n of_o the_o lord_n because_o i_o have_v sin_v against_o he_o i_o be_v also_o much_o encourage_v by_o view_v the_o promise_n that_o i_o have_v collect_v to_o comfort_v myself_o with_o when_o i_o be_v in_o danger_n of_o contagious_a disease_n especial_o those_o two_o viz_o ps_n 41._o 12._o as_o for_o i_o thou_o set_v i_o before_o thy_o face_n for_o ever_o and_o this_o be_v when_o under_o a_o evil_a disease_n v_o 8_o which_o be_v the_o fruit_n of_o his_o sin_n ver_fw-la 4._o and_o ps_n 38._o 5_o 7._o my_o wound_n stink_v and_o be_v corrupt_a my_o loin_n be_v fill_v with_o a_o loathsome_a disease_n etc._n etc._n though_o in_o this_o visitation_n he_o be_v afflict_v with_o the_o sense_n of_o sin_n and_o of_o god_n displeasure_n v_o 1_o 2_o 3_o 4_o and_o be_v deprive_v of_o the_o comfortable_a society_n of_o his_o relation_n and_o friend_n v_o 11._o yet_o he_o keep_v up_o his_o hope_n in_o god_n v_o 15._o in_o a_o little_a time_n after_o i_o have_v the_o sense_n of_o guilt_n take_v off_o while_o i_o be_v study_v my_o sermon_n to_o remove_v the_o fear_n of_o death_n jun._n 12._o as_o i_o be_v read_v act._n 6._o in_o my_o evening_n course_n by_o myself_o i_o observe_v by_o compare_v ver_fw-la 4._o 7._o that_o upon_o the_o apostle_n give_v themselves_o continual_o to_o prayer_n and_o to_o the_o ministry_n of_o the_o word_n the_o number_n of_o the_o disciple_n increase_v great_o in_o jerusalem_n and_o a_o great_a company_n of_o the_o priest_n be_v obedient_a to_o the_o faith_n i_o be_v instruct_v and_o affect_v with_o it_o and_o see_v it_o be_v necessary_a i_o shall_v pray_v much_o as_o well_o as_o preach_v much_o if_o i_o will_v convert_v many_o soul_n and_o that_o upon_o give_v myself_o to_o prayer_n and_o to_o the_o ministry_n of_o the_o word_n i_o be_v in_o the_o most_o likely_a way_n to_o convert_v many_o soul_n to_o christ_n the_o priest_n be_v the_o chief_a opposer_n of_o the_o gospel_n act._n 4._o 1_o 2._o the_o chief_a persecuter_n of_o christ_n math._n 16._o 21._o and_o 20_o 18._o the_o most_o active_a in_o put_v christ_n to_o death_n mar._n 15._o 10_o 11._o luk._n 19_o 47._o the_o multitude_n that_o come_v to_o apprehend_v christ_n be_v send_v by_o the_o priest_n joh._n 18._o 3._o the_o false_a witness_n be_v suborn_v by_o the_o priest_n math_n 26._o 59_o yet_o by_o the_o power_n of_o prayer_n and_o the_o word_n these_o priest_n be_v bring_v in_o by_o great_a number_n to_o the_o faith_n of_o christ_n and_o the_o obedience_n of_o the_o gosple_n jun._n 25._o about_o three_o of_o the_o clock_n in_o the_o morning_n be_v lord_n day_n my_o wife_n be_v deliver_v of_o a_o daughter_n and_o that_o morning_n the_o lord_n send_v a_o very_a plentiful_a rain_n the_o tuesday_n before_o we_o keep_v a_o day_n of_o humiliation_n for_o my_o wife_n safe_a delivery_n and_o to_o seek_v the_o lord_n for_o rain_n and_o the_o lord_n give_v a_o gracious_a answer_n to_o the_o prayer_n of_o that_o day_n both_o at_o one_o time_n jul._n 31._o i_o see_v the_o plague_n of_o my_o heart_n break_v out_o i_o argue_v against_o my_o corruption_n yet_o it_o overcome_v i_o and_o lead_v i_o captive_a it_o wound_v i_o that_o i_o shall_v still_o sin_v against_o god_n even_o while_o under_o his_o correct_a hand_n my_o faith_n be_v revive_v by_o that_o scripture_n isa_n 57_o 17_o 18._o i_o smite_v he_o he_o go_v on_o froward_o in_o the_o way_n of_o his_o own_o heart_n i_o have_v see_v his_o way_n and_o will_v heal_v he_o i_o be_v much_o encourage_v from_o that_o word_n i_o will_v heal_v he_o which_o import_v the_o subdue_a as_o well_o as_o the_o pardon_v of_o sin_n aug._n 2._o i_o be_v encourage_v to_o write_v something_o that_o may_v be_v useful_a for_o my_o generation_n from_o jer._n 36._o 1_o 2_o 3_o 4_o 5._o two_o thing_n especial_o from_o that_o scripture_n do_v put_v i_o forward_o to_o this_o 1._o writing_n of_o the_o word_n of_o god_n be_v a_o mean_n to_o convert_v soul_n and_o to_o lead_v they_o to_o repentance_n 2._o this_o command_n for_o writing_n be_v give_v when_o jeremiah_n be_v shut_v up_o and_o can_v not_o preach_v as_o usual_o and_o such_o be_v my_o case_n viz_o i_o be_v debar_v from_o public_a preach_n hereupon_o i_o apprehend_v god_n call_v i_o to_o write_v sept._n 6._o be_v fast_o day_n as_o i_o come_v from_o church_n i_o receive_v a_o letter_n from_o mr._n j._n which_o acquaint_v i_o that_o my_o son_n samuel_n be_v very_o ill_o that_o day_n i_o spend_v somewhat_o unprofitable_o i_o be_v not_o affect_v as_o i_o ought_v with_o public_a judgement_n and_o the_o misery_n of_o other_o and_o therefore_o it_o be_v just_a with_o god_n to_o bring_v affliction_n into_o my_o family_n the_o next_o day_n my_o wife_n and_o i_o go_v over_o to_o see_v our_o child_n and_o after_o we_o have_v be_v with_o it_o about_o five_o or_o six_o hour_n it_o die_v very_o sudden_o i_o be_v trouble_v that_o i_o do_v not_o pray_v with_o it_o before_o it_o die_v which_o be_v occasion_v by_o be_v in_o another_o family_n and_o my_o not_o apprehend_v death_n to_o be_v near_o this_o stroke_n come_v soon_o after_o my_o removal_n from_o colchester_n i_o commune_v with_o my_o heart_n whether_o i_o have_v sin_v in_o remove_v from_o that_o place_n and_o my_o conscience_n do_v not_o at_o that_o time_n charge_v i_o with_o sin_n in_o remove_v my_o habitation_n i_o be_v comfort_v in_o call_v to_o mind_n god_n deal_v with_o jacob_n who_o meet_v with_o many_o affliction_n in_o those_o remove_n which_o he_o make_v at_o the_o command_n of_o god_n he_o be_v pursue_v by_o his_o uncle_n put_v into_o great_a fear_n by_o his_o brother_n lose_v deborah_n his_o mother_n nurse_n and_o rachel_n his_o belove_a wife_n his_o son_n reuben_n simeon_n and_o levi_n fall_v into_o foul_a sin_n etc._n etc._n hence_o i_o see_v that_o god_n try_v his_o dear_a servant_n with_o sudden_a and_o sore_a affliction_n in_o those_o place_n to_o which_o they_o have_v remove_v at_o the_o call_n of_o god_n sept._n 24._o i_o enjoy_v the_o opportunity_n