of_o my_o death_n obtain_v for_o i_o wretched_a sinner_n confidence_n in_o his_o mercy_n which_o be_v as_o thou_o know_v above_o all_o his_o work_n i_o be_o not_o worthy_a to_o love_v but_o he_o be_v worthy_a of_o all_o love_n and_o adoration_n i_o can_v without_o great_a joy_n remember_v these_o follow_a word_n of_o the_o prophet_n i_o say_v hope_v his_o goodness_n will_v for_o his_o own_o sake_n give_v i_o leave_v to_o apply_v they_o to_o i_o poor_a and_o sinful_a soul_n though_o i_o deserve_v nothing_o of_o myself_n never_o have_v do_v he_o any_o faithful_a service_n in_o all_o my_o life_n chap_n 43._o v._n 1._o and_o now_o thus_o say_v our_o lord_n that_o create_v thou_o and_o form_v thou_o fear_v not_o because_o i_o have_v redeem_v thou_o and_o call_v thou_o by_o thy_o name_n thou_o be_v i_o 2._o when_o thou_o shall_v pass_v through_o the_o water_n i_o will_v be_v with_o thou_o and_o the_o flood_n shall_v not_o cover_v thou_o when_o thou_o shall_v walk_v in_o fire_n thou_o shall_v not_o be_v â—uâ—ned_v and_o the_o flame_n shall_v not_o â—urn_v inâ—_n thou_o o_o bless_a saint_n make_v intercession_n for_o i_o that_o i_o may_v be_v confident_a in_o he_o who_o thus_o abound_v with_o mercy_n amen_n 3._o because_o i_o be_o the_o lord_n thy_o god_n the_o holy_a one_o of_o israel_n thy_o saviour_n 4._o since_o thou_o become_v honourable_a in_o my_o eye_n and_o glorious_a i_o have_v love_v thou_o 5._o fear_v not_o because_o i_o be_o with_o thou_o 6._o and_o every_o one_o that_o invocate_v my_o name_n for_o my_o glory_n i_o have_v create_v he_o form_v he_o and_o make_v he_o 8._o bring_v forth_o the_o blind_a people_n and_o have_v eye_n the_o deaf_a and_o he_o that_o â—ath_v ear_n 9_o let_v they_o give_v their_o witness_n &_o be_v justify_v 10._o in_o very_a deed_n you_o be_v my_o witness_n say_v our_o lord_n and_o my_o servant_n who_o i_o have_v choose_v that_o you_o may_v know_v and_o believe_v i_o and_o understand_v that_o i_o myself_o be_o 11._o i_o be_o i_o be_o the_o lord_n and_o there_o be_v no_o saviour_n beside_o i_o and_o there_o be_v not_o that_o can_v deliver_v out_o of_o my_o hand_n 16._o thou_o say_v our_o lord_n that_o give_v away_o in_o the_o sea_n and_o a_o paâ—h_n in_o the_o uâ—hâ—menâ—_a water_n 18._o remember_v not_o former_a thing_n and_o look_v not_o on_o thing_n of_o old_a i_o be_o he_o that_o take_v clean_o away_o thy_o iniquity_n for_o my_o own_o sake_n and_o i_o will_v not_o remember_v thy_o sin_n 26._o bring_v i_o into_o remembrance_n and_o let_v we_o be_v judge_v together_o tell_v i_o if_o thou_o â—ave_n any_o thing_n that_o may_v be_v justify_v hethertho_n the_o word_n of_o the_o prophet_n i_o say_v s._n john_n 2._o v_o 12._o i_o write_v to_o you_o little_a child_n because_o your_o sin_n be_v forgive_v you_o for_o his_o name_n and_o now_o my_o child_n abide_v in_o he_o that_o when_o he_o shall_v appear_v we_o may_v have_v confidence_n and_o not_o be_v confound_v of_o he_o in_o his_o come_n my_o dear_a believe_v not_o every_o spirit_n and_o every_o spirit_n that_o dissolve_v jesus_n be_v not_o of_o god_n fear_n be_v not_o charity_n but_o perfect_a charity_n cast_v out_o fear_n let_v we_o therefore_o love_n god_n because_o god_n love_v us._n this_o be_v the_o charity_n of_o god_n that_o we_o keep_v his_o commandment_n and_o his_o commandment_n be_v not_o beauty_n o_o infinite_a goodness_n who_o be_v charity_n it-self_n pour_v thy_o grace_n abundant_o into_o my_o poor_a foul_a i_o invoke_v thou_o my_o god_n by_o the_o merit_n and_o intercession_n of_o all_o thy_o saint_n in_o heaven_n and_o servant_n on_o earth_n to_o have_v mercy_n on_o i_o now_o in_o this_o my_o last_o extremity_n al_n i_o desire_n be_v that_o in_o life_n and_o death_n i_o may_v be_v dispose_v of_o according_a to_o the_o multitude_n of_o tâ—y_n most_o abundant_a mercy_n a_o fountain_n never_o draw_v dryâ—_n all_o my_o joy_n be_v in_o that_o thou_o be_v my_o god_n and_o that_o i_o be_o at_o thy_o dispose_n though_o i_o be_o poor_a in_o all_o vertnes_n yet_o i_o be_o confident_a to_o be_v partaker_n of_o thy_o merit_n o_o sweet_a jesus_n which_o thou_o liberal_o bestow_v according_a to_o thy_o will_n and_o pleasure_n o_o be_v thou_o bless_v in_o all_o thou_o dispose_v o_o my_o god_n who_o be_v all_o i_o desire_v into_o thy_o hand_n i_o commend_v my_o spirit_n who_o be_v bless_v for_o ever_o amen_n the_o most_o learned_a of_o d._n s._n augustin_n say_v aiâ—_n eruditissimus_fw-la doctorum_fw-la augustinus_n o_o eternal_a truth_n and_o true_a charity_n and_o o_o aeterna_fw-la veritas_fw-la &_o vera_fw-la charitas_fw-la dear_a eternity_n thou_o be_v my_o god_n to_o thou_o &_o chara_fw-la eteruitas_fw-la tu_fw-la es_fw-la deus_fw-la meus_fw-la i_o suspire_v day_n and_o night_n this_o be_v that_o sublive_a tibi_fw-la suspiro_fw-la die_fw-la ac_fw-la nocte_fw-la hic_fw-la est_fw-la sublimis_fw-la ille_fw-la contemplative_a augustine_n contemplator_n augustinus_n cvius_fw-la cor_fw-la charitas_fw-la christi_fw-la vulneraveraâ—_n who_o hart_n the_o charity_n of_o christ_n have_v wound_v o_o my_o dear_a saâ—nt_n who_o great_a humility_n i_o can_v never_o to_o much_o praise_n and_o admire_v pray_v for_o she_o to_o who_o thou_o have_v be_v in_o her_o great_a affliction_n and_o misery_n even_o as_o a_o father_n and_o mother_n for_o which_o be_v exhibit_v honowr_n to_o thou_o by_o the_o most_o sweet_a hart_n of_o jesus_n our_o saviour_n the_o son_n of_o the_o live_a god_n by_o which_o and_o from_o which_o do_v most_o abundant_a sweetness_n flow_v to_o all_o the_o elect_a in_o the_o power_n that_o he_o give_v thou_o be_v one_o by_o who_o he_o bind_v and_o loose_v sinner_n give_v a_o abundant_a benediction_n to_o thy_o poor_a servant_n and_o beg_v of_o my_o god_n that_o i_o may_v never_o seek_v or_o intend_v any_o thing_n for_o time_n or_o eternity_n but_o his_o honour_n and_o glory_n and_o that_o i_o may_v so_o humble_a and_o subject_v myself_o under_o his_o mighty_a hand_n thaâ—_n for_o his_o love_n i_o may_v willing_o submit_v myself_n in_o what_o manner_n he_o please_v to_o all_o creature_n let_v i_o commit_v and_o commend_v myself_n to_o thy_o protection_n who_o be_v a_o careful_a receiver_n of_o all_o my_o petition_n and_o who_o art_n one_o who_o in_o a_o most_o particular_a manner_n godâ—_n have_v give_v i_o confidence_n in_o in_o all_o â—he_n necessity_n wherein_o my_o soul_n do_v stand_v need_n of_o a_o advocate_n and_o friend_n o_o happy_a change_n to_o leave_v all_o friend_n on_o earth_n to_o find_v the_o more_o certaiu_fw-la &_o assure_a friend_n and_o intercessor_n in_o heaven_n who_o be_v never_o absent_a never_o uncertain_a nor_o ever_o do_v they_o fail_v as_o those_o in_o this_o world_n be_v subject_a to_o do_v be_v therefore_o mindful_a of_o i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o in_o my_o life_n &_o also_o in_o my_o last_o extremity_n and_o remember_v that_o when_o affright_v with_o the_o multitude_n and_o greivoush_n of_o my_o sin_n and_o imperfection_n i_o dare_v scarce_o cast_v up_o my_o eye_n to_o heaven_n or_o call_v upon_o god_n and_o his_o bless_a mother_n who_o may_v just_o disdain_v so_o ungrateful_a and_o contemptible_a a_o creature_n yet_o by_o thy_o mean_n and_o be_v incouradge_v by_o thy_o example_n and_o read_v thy_o life_n and_o book_n so_o full_o of_o conâ—idence_n and_o sweetness_n i_o find_v my_o hart_n lighten_v and_o my_o spirit_n refresh_v and_o my_o soul_n exceed_o comfort_v find_v in_o thou_o and_o by_o thou_o express_v what_o a_o good_a god_n we_o have_v and_o that_o as_o his_o mercy_n be_v above_o all_o his_o work_n so_o he_o be_v able_a to_o forgive_v more_o than_o we_o can_v offend_v thou_o know_v thy_o very_a name_n when_o i_o be_o sad_a and_o afflict_a do_v refresh_v i_o to_o behold_v it_o and_o seem_v to_o smile_v upon_o i_o in_o my_o misery_n assure_v i_o of_o â—hy_a help_n in_o all_o my_o soul_n stand_v need_n of_o thou_o in_o this_o my_o pilgrimage_n and_o ban_v shment_n from_o my_o god_n who_o be_v my_o only_a love_n life_n desire_n and_o all_o my_o happiness_n tâ—_n who_o for_o ever_o be_v all_o glory_n honour_n anâ—_n adoration_n by_o all_o as_o well_o on_o earth_n as_o in_o heaven_n and_o who_o by_o his_o sweet_a mercy_n and_o thy_o intercession_n i_o desire_v and_o hope_n to_o love_n and_o sâ—rue_a for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n omnes_fw-la qui_fw-la habebant_fw-la infirâ—os_fw-la ducebant_fw-la ill_n ad_fw-la jesum_fw-la &_o sanabaâ—â—ur_n 4.40_o all_o that_o have_v disease_v bring_v thâ—m_n to_o jesus_n and_o they_o be_v curedâ—_n to_o who_o therefore_o shall_v i_o fly_v in_o my_o manifold_a infirmity_n but_o to_o thou_o my_o jesus_n my_o goâ—_n and_o my_o saviour_n who_o be_v worthy_a oâ—_n our_o love_n our_o thought_n our_o heart_n and_o our_o soul_n but_o
and_o ever_o will_v be_v to_o thy_o honour_n from_o who_o proceed_v all_o good_a if_o he_o i_o say_v stand_v need_n of_o gather_v out_o of_o thy_o soly_n scripture_n and_o the_o write_n of_o holy_a saint_n somewhat_o that_o may_v elevate_v his_o mind_n to_o thou_o when_o he_o grow_v more_o cold_a by_o reason_n of_o human_a frailty_n as_o he_o profess_v before_o his_o manuel_n who_o word_n i_o will_v hereafter_o bring_v in_o as_o be_v most_o sweet_a to_o i_o whaâ—_n need_v then_o have_v my_o poor_a soul_n to_o gather_v together_o certain_a devout_a and_o amouâ—rous_a word_n who_o scarce_o in_o the_o read_n thereof_o can_v lift_v up_o my_o hart_n to_o thou_o but_o my_o hope_n be_v in_o thy_o metcy_n whiâ—h_o be_v above_o all_o thy_o work_n and_o out_o of_o whiâ—h_n thou_o have_v say_v by_o thy_o prophet_n 35._o man_n and_o beast_n thou_o will_v save_v to_o this_o mercy_n i_o fly_v in_o this_o mercy_n be_v all_o my_o comfort_n and_o consolation_n i_o cast_v myself_n into_o the_o arm_n of_o this_o thy_o mercy_n and_o pity_n i_o have_v nothing_o wherein_o i_o can_v trust_v some_o have_v suffer_v for_o thou_o in_o their_o body_n other_o in_o their_o mind_n other_o in_o both_o some_o for_o thou_o have_v take_v great_a pain_n and_o undergon_v great_a labour_n and_o austerity_n other_o by_o couradgious_o support_v disgrace_n and_o misery_n have_v become_v thereby_o most_o dear_a to_o thou_o other_o while_o they_o be_v afflict_v and_o persecute_v pray_v to_o thou_o for_o their_o enemy_n and_o thereby_o procure_v pardon_n for_o their_o own_o sin_n but_o alaâ—_n my_o god_n as_o for_o i_o when_o i_o cast_v back_o my_o eye_n upon_o my_o life_n past_a i_o can_v find_v nothing_o do_v or_o suffer_v by_o i_o wherein_o i_o can_v hope_v wherein_o i_o can_v trust_v all_o those_o thing_n which_o i_o behold_v other_o daily_o to_o practice_v be_v far_o fromme_v i_o have_v live_v in_o this_o house_n of_o who_o i_o may_v true_o say_v 23._o haec_fw-la est_fw-la generatio_fw-la quaerentium_fw-la faciem_fw-la dei_fw-la jacob_n this_o be_v the_o generation_n of_o those_o that_o seek_v the_o face_n of_o the_o god_n of_o jacob_n unmindful_a and_o ungrateful_a to_o the_o god_n of_o jacob_n yea_o my_o whole_a life_n have_v be_v full_a of_o sin_n and_o iniquity_n and_o without_o end_n or_o measure_n have_v my_o offence_n be_v against_o thou_o yea_o just_o may_v thou_o condemn_v i_o to_o the_o bottomless_a pity_n of_o hell_n but_o yet_o i_o will_v hope_v in_o thou_o i_o be_o sorry_a from_o the_o very_a bottom_n of_o my_o hart_n that_o ever_o i_o offend_v thou_o or_o stray_v from_o thou_o behold_v i_o now_o consecrate_v my-selfa_a new_a body_n and_o soul_n to_o thou_o take_v away_o from_o my_o soul_n what_o therein_o displease_v thou_o al_n thy_o angel_n and_o saint_n be_v intercessor_n for_o i_o especial_o thy_o dear_a mother_n the_o faithful_a helper_n and_o advocate_n of_o we_o sinner_n to_o our_o bless_a lady_n the_o advocate_n of_o sinner_n all_o hail_n o_o virgin_n crown_v with_o star_n and_o m_o one_o under_o thy_o foot_n obtain_v we_o pardon_v of_o our_o sin_n of_o christ_n our_o saviour_n sweet_a for_o though_o thou_o be_v mother_n of_o my_o god_n yet_o thy_o humility_n disdain_v not_o this_o simple_a wretch_n that_o fly_v for_o help_v to_o thou_o thou_o know_v thou_o be_v more_o dear_a to_o i_o â—hen_o any_o can_v expresâ—e_v and_o thâ—t_o i_o do_v congratulate_v with_o joy_n thy_o happiness_n who_o be_v the_o queen_n of_o heaven_n and_o earth_n thy_o help_a hand_n i_o lend_v that_o i_o may_v love_v and_o praise_v my_o god_n and_o have_v a_o happy_a end_n and_o though_o my_o sin_n i_o terrify_v yet_o hope_v still_o in_o â—hee_o i_o find_v my_o soul_n refresh_v much_o when_o i_o unto_o thou_o fly_v for_o thou_o most_o willing_o to_o god_n petition_n do_v present_v and_o do_v obtain_v much_o grace_n for_o we_o in_o this_o our_o baâ—nishment_n the_o honour_n and_o the_o glorious_a praise_n by_o all_o be_v give_v â—o_o thou_o which_o iâ—sus_n tâ—y_o belove_a son_n ordain_v eternal_o for_o thou_o who_o he_o exalt_v in_o heaven_n above_o the_o angeâ—s_v all_o and_o who_o we_o find_v a_o patroness_n when_o unto_o thou_o we_o câ—l_v amen_n o_o mater_n dei_fw-la â—e_n â—ento_fw-la mei_fw-la amen_n as_o also_o my_o good_a angel_n s._n joseph_n saint_n john_n evangelist_n s._n martin_n s._n augustin_n s._n thomas_n of_o aquin_n and_o thou_o my_o most_o holy_a father_n s._n benet_n to_o our_o most_o holy_a father_n saint_n benedict_n most_o glorious_a father_n in_o who_o school_n i_o live_v and_o hope_v to_o die_v god_n grant_v i_o may_v observe_v thy_o rule_n for_o in_o that_o all_o do_v lie_v for_o no_o perfection_n can_v be_v name_v which_o we_o it_o do_v not_o teach_v o_o happy_a she_o who_o in_o her_o soul_n the_o sense_n thereof_o do_v reach_n but_o many_o praise_n obedience`_v and_o thy_o humility_n and_o yet_o conceive_v not_o as_o they_o shall_v what_o either_o of_o they_o be_v the_o simple_a humble_a love_a soul_n only_o the_o sense_n find_v out_o of_o any_o discreet_a obedient_a rule_n and_o these_o be_v void_a of_o doubt_n yea_o under_o shadow_n of_o thy_o wing_n they_o up_o to_o heaven_n fly_n and_o taste_v here_o in_o this_o veil_n of_o tear_n what_o perfect_a peace_n do_v lie_v hide_v in_o performance_n of_o thy_o rule_n that_o lead_v unto_o heaven_n o_o happy_a soul_n who_o it_o perform_v the_o way_n so_o sweet_a and_o even_o by_o prayer_n and_o patience_n be_v fulfil_v charity_n obedience_n by_o seek_v after_o god_n alone_o and_o give_v none_o offence_n the_o more_o i_o look_v upon_o thy_o rule_n the_o more_o in_o it_o i_o find_v o_o do_v to_o i_o the_o sense_n unfold_v for_o letter_n make_v we_o blind_a and_o bless_v yea_o a_o thousand_o time_n be_v thou_o who_o it_o haste_v write_v and_o thy_o sweet_a blessing_n give_v to_o they_o who_o true_o perform_v it_o for_o those_o be_v they_o which_o will_v conserve_v this_o house_n in_o perfect_a peace_n without_o which_o all_o we_o do_v be_v lose_v and_o all_o that_o be_v good_a will_v cease_v and_o praise_v be_v our_o glorious_a god_n who_o give_v to_o thou_o such_o grace_n not_o only_o he_o thy-self_n to_o seek_v but_o also_o out_o to_o trace_v a_o way_n so_o easy_a and_o secure_a if_o we_o will_v but_o thou_o hear_v to_o have_v relation_n to_o our_o god_n who_o be_v to_o we_o so_o near_o for_o at_o this_o thou_o do_v chief_o aim_v that_o god_n our_o soul_n do_v teach_v o_o if_o we_o do_v true_o obey_v he_o will_v by_o all_o thing_n preach_v his_o will_n to_o we_o by_o every_o thing_n that_o do_v to_o we_o befall_v and_o then_o as_o thou_o desire_v it_o shall_v he_o will_v be_v all_o in_o all_o o_o pray_v dear_a father_n that_o he_o ever_o be_v our_o only_a love_n and_o all_o eternal_o amen_n saint_n scholastica_fw-la s._n gertrude_n and_o in_o fine_a all_o in_o heaven_n or_o on_o earth_n that_o be_v please_v to_o thou_o be_v please_v to_o make_v i_o partaker_n of_o their_o merit_n and_o prayer_n and_o above_o all_o 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over_o this_o small_a treatise_n enâ—tituled_v the_o spiritual_a exercise_n of_o thâ—_n most_o religious_a and_o verruous_a dame_n gertrudâ—_n more_o etc._n etc._n with_o much_o comfort_n and_o edification_n see_v the_o fervent_a expression_n oâ—_n divine_a love_n in_o her_o pious_a soul._n and_o find_v nothing_o in_o it_o jar_a with_o the_o universal_a belief_n or_o christian_a morality_n of_o our_o catholic_a church_n i_o have_v willing_o approve_v it_o as_o such_o and_o set_v my_o hand_n hereunto_o at_o paris_n the_o 26._o of_o march_n 1658._o hen._n holden_n the_o approbation_n these_o confession_n or_o soliloques_fw-la write_v by_o the_o late_a decease_a dame_n gertrude_n more_o
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the_o most_o part_n in_o this_o world_n of_o true_a reason_n surely_n never_o be_v the_o world_n reform_v of_o its_o sin_n and_o error_n but_o it_o must_v be_v by_o the_o wisdom_n which_o come_v from_o god_n and_o be_v far_o different_a from_o that_o which_o be_v account_v wisdom_n by_o the_o world_n which_o as_o s._n paul_n say_v 3.19_o be_v folly_n before_o god_n certain_z other_z devotion_n of_o the_o same_o devot_fw-la soul_n d._n gertrude_n more_o which_o she_o leave_v write_v in_o her_o breviary_n in_o the_o fore_a part_n of_o her_o breviary_n she_o have_v frame_v and_o write_v the_o ensue_a prayer_n for_o her_o due_a performance_n of_o the_o divine_a office_n viz_o all_o you_o that_o bless_v our_o lord_n exalt_v he_o all_o you_o can_v for_o he_o be_v great_a than_o all_o your_o praise_n omnis_fw-la spiritus_n laudet_fw-la dominum_fw-la let_v every_o spirit_n praise_v the_o lord_n and_o i_o â—hy_a poor_a creature_n who_o be_o not_o worthy_a to_o name_v thou_o my_o lord_n my_o god_n and_o all_o my_o good_a do_v here_o in_o the_o preâ—sence_n of_o all_o thy_o celestial_a court_n desire_v 〈◊〉_d perform_v this_o my_o office_n with_o all_o diligenâ—â—_n and_o with_o a_o amorous_a affection_n towards_o thou_o my_o â—oâ—_n who_o have_v impose_v this_o sweet_a and_o most_o to_o be_v desire_v obligation_n upon_o i_o sinner_n who_o do_v not_o deserve_v any_o such_o honour_n or_o comfort_n from_o thou_o as_o to_o be_v admit_v to_o join_v my_o cold_a and_o freeze_a praise_n with_o all_o those_o who_o praise_v thou_o either_o on_o earth_n or_o in_o heaven_n where_o all_o to_o my_o comfort_n do_v without_o cease_v continual_o praise_v thou_o and_o for_o what_o be_v want_v in_o i_o for_o the_o performance_n thereof_o as_o i_o shall_v and_o ought_v to_o do_v supply_v it_o out_o of_o the_o superaboundance_n of_o thâ—_n merit_n and_o mercâ—_n i_o desire_v to_o say_v it_o with_o all_o my_o hart_n according_a to_o the_o intention_n of_o our_o holy_a mother_n the_o catholic_n church_n of_o which_o i_o desire_v through_o thy_o grace_n to_o live_v and_o die_v a_o true_a member_n be_v thâ—u_n according_a to_o her_o desir_n adore_v bless_a magnify_v and_o supreme_o superexalt_v by_o â—t_a let_v it_o be_v to_o the_o honour_n of_o thy_o all_o immaculate_a mother_n the_o lady_n and_o queen_n of_o angel_n and_o saint_n to_o these_o in_o a_o particular_a manner_n â—_o viz_o to_o my_o good_a angel_n our_o most_o holy_a father_n s._n benet_n s._n scholastica_fw-la s_o joseph_n s._n peter_n and_o s._n paul_n s._n john_n enangelist_n s._n john_n baptist_n s._n thomas_n and_o my_o dear_a s._n augustin_n s._n mary_n magdalen_n s._n gertrude_n and_o in_o fine_a all_o that_o be_v in_o heaven_n have_v by_o it_o to_o they_o exhibit_v by_o thou_o what_o thou_o will_v and_o desire_v shall_v be_v i_o beseech_v thou_o also_o that_o i_o may_v by_o it_o pray_v to_o thou_o or_o all_o afflict_a pain_a tempt_v and_o trouble_v that_o they_o may_v please_v and_o praise_v thou_o in_o 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those_o that_o afflict_v thou_o and_o render_v good_a for_o evil_a to_o those_o that_o molest_v thou_o and_o be_v a_o comfort_n in_o all_o thou_o can_v imagine_v to_o those_o that_o be_v afflict_v either_o in_o body_n or_o in_o mâ—nd_n without_o exception_n of_o person_n be_v include_v in_o the_o gain_n of_o that_o most_o to_o be_v desire_v promise_n ☞_o remember_v with_o joy_n and_o imitate_v the_o best_a thou_o be_v able_a the_o happy_a example_n of_o the_o late_a bless_a bishop_n of_o geneva_n of_o who_o it_o be_v report_v that_o one_o in_o his_o diocese_n exceâ—dinly_o molest_v afflict_a and_o persecute_v this_o holy_a saint_n yét_v he_o use_v he_o with_o all_o love_n gentleness_n and_o respect_n yea_o more_o than_o any_o other_o person_n at_o which_o patient_a proceed_n of_o his_o one_o of_o his_o subject_n wondrâ—ng_v at_o and_o speak_v to_o he_o of_o it_o ask_v he_o how_o he_o can_v use_v that_o man_n so_o mild_o who_o never_o requite_v he_o with_o other_o then_o il_fw-mi turn_v for_o all_o the_o grace_n he_o show_v he_o be_v as_o it_o be_v top_n full_a of_o bitterness_n against_o he_o to_o which_o the_o saint_n humble_o answâ—ered_v o_o â—aâ—th_n he_o if_o he_o shall_v put_v out_o one_o of_o my_o eye_n i_o will_v smile_v upon_o he_o wâ—h_n the_o other_o i_o beseech_v thou_o my_o god_n for_o thy_o own_o sake_n grant_v thy_o unworthy_a servant_n grace_n to_o imitate_v this_o example_n though_o to_o speak_v true_o none_o can_v do_v she_o a_o injury_n who_o deserve_v so_o much_o in_o punishment_n for_o her_o sin_n psal._n 41._o vers_fw-la 6._o and_o 7._o wby_o be_v thou_o sorrowful_a my_o soul_n and_o why_o do_v thou_o trouble_v i_o hope_v in_o god_n because_o yet_o i_o will_v confess_v to_o he_o the_o salvation_n of_o my_o countenance_n and_o my_o god_n o_o my_o soul_n hope_v in_o thy_o god_n who_o can_v do_v all_o thing_n o_o bless_a hope_n and_o confidence_n which_o be_v able_a to_o obtain_v all_o thing_n and_o overcome_v all_o thing_n v_o 11._o in_o the_o day_n our_o lord_n have_v command_v his_o mercy_fw-mi and_o in_o the_o night_n a_o song_n of_o he_o do_v thou_o not_o hear_v my_o soul_n tâ—y_a lord_n do_v require_v of_o thou_o mercy_n towards_o thy_o even_a christian_a for_o that_o he_o show_v to_o thou_o and_o that_o night_n and_o day_n thou_o wâ—lt_v sing_v his_o praise_n but_o lord_n thou_o know_v that_o thy_o praise_n be_v not_o seemly_a in_o the_o mouth_n of_o a_o sinner_n what_o then_o shall_v i_o do_v o_o hope_v in_o thy_o mercy_n certain_a comfortable_a say_n take_v out_o of_o the_o holy_a scripture_n for_o the_o encouradgment_n of_o those_o that_o desire_v with_o all_o their_o heart_n to_o love_n and_o please_v our_o most_o merciful_a god_n and_o first_o out_o of_o the_o prophet_n isaie_v chap._n the_o first_o 16._o wash_v you_o be_v clean_o take_v away_o the_o evil_a of_o your_o cogitation_n from_o my_o eye_n cease_v to_o do_v perverse_o 17._o learn_v to_o do_v good_a seek_v judgement_n succour_v the_o oppress_a judge_v for_o pupil_n defend_v the_o widow_n and_o come_v and_o accuse_v i_o say_v our_o lord_n 18._o if_o your_o sin_n shall_v be_v as_o scarlet_a they_o shall_v be_v make_v as_o whit_n as_o snow_n and_o if_o they_o be_v as_o red_a as_o vermilion_n they_o shall_v be_v whit_n as_o wool_n 19_o if_o you_o be_v willing_a and_o will_v hear_v i_o you_o shall_v eat_v the_o good_a thing_n of_o the_o earth_n 22._o thy_o silver_n be_v turn_v into_o dross_n thy_o wine_n be_v mingle_v with_o water_n but_o hear_v what_o follow_v o_o my_o soul_n and_o therefore_o be_v not_o discomfort_a though_o all_o thou_o do_v and_o suffer_v be_v very_o imperfect_a yet_o behold_v what_o he_o promise_v who_o can_v do_v all_o thing_n if_o he_o will_v he_o can_v make_v thou_o clean_o if_o he_o command_v the_o wind_n and_o sea_n will_v be_v still_o and_o there_o will_v eâ—sue_v a_o calm_a commit_v thy_o â—elf_n to_o he_o and_o he_o will_v help_v thou_o when_o he_o think_v fit_a o_o god_n thy_o will_n be_v do_v therefore_o in_o i_o for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n 25._o i_o will_v turn_v my_o hand_n to_o thou_o and_o boil_v out_o thy_o drâ—ssâ—â—il_n it_o be_v pure_a and_o will_v take_v away_o all_o thy_o tinâ—e_n 26._o aâ—ter_v these_o thing_n thou_o shall_v be_v call_v the_o just_a a_o faithful_a city_n shall_v i_o fear_v to_o be_v forsake_v by_o thou_o my_o god_n after_o all_o these_o sweet_a promise_n no_o i_o will_v hope_v in_o the_o multitude_n of_o thy_o mercy_n though_o i_o have_v hitherto_o sinue_v against_o heaven_n and_o before_o thou_o so_o that_o i_o be_o not_o worthy_a to_o be_v call_v thy_o child_n yet_o let_v i_o eat_v of_o the_o crumb_n which_o fall_n from_o my_o master_n table_n that_o i_o may_v grow_v strong_a hereafter_o in_o resist_v that_o which_o make_v i_o displease_v in_o thy_o pure_a eye_n hear_v my_o lord_n the_o voice_n of_o a_o sinner_n which_o will_v feign_v love_n tâ—ee_v and_o with_o her_o hart_n and_o soul_n as_o great_o please_v the_o as_o ever_o she_o bathe_v offend_v thou_o let_v i_o either_o love_n or_o not_o liâ—e_z i_o know_v thy_o â—_z be_v so_o great_a that_o tâ—ou_fw-mi have_v admit_v those_o to_o eat_v of_o the_o bread_n of_o angel_n which_o heretofore_o feed_v of_o husk_n like_o swine_n yea_o s._n gertrude_n say_v that_o the_o more_o base_a vile_a and_o contemptible_a the_o creature_n be_v to_o who_o thou_o show_v mercy_n the_o more_o extol_v art_n tâ—ou_fw-fr by_o all_o thy_o angel_n and_o saint_n in_o heaven_n i_o will_v therefore_o hope_v in_o thou_o and_o beseech_v all_o tâ—y_a saint_n to_o pray_v for_o i_o and_o praise_n tâ—ee_v for_o take_v pity_n of_o i_o who_o be_o not_o worthy_a to_o cast_v up`mine_n eye_n to_o heaven_n much_o les_fw-fr to_o think_v upon_o or_o praise_n tâ—ee_v to_o thou_o o_o my_o god_n and_o all_o my_o desire_n be_v give_v perpetual_a praise_n and_o adoration_n for_o all_o eternity_n by_o all_o creature_n amen_n chap._n ii_o 3._o come_v let_v we_o go_v up_o to_o the_o mount_n of_o our_o lord_n and_o to_o the_o house_n of_o the_o gâ—d_n of_o jacob_n and_o he_o will_v teach_v we_o his_o way_n aâ—d_v we_o shall_v walk_v in_o his_o â—athes_n 5._o houâ—e_v of_o jacob_n come_v you_o and_o let_v we_o walk_v in_o the_o light_n of_o our_o lord_n o_o my_o god_n happy_a be_v they_o that_o walk_v in_o this_o light_n in_o this_o light_n none_o walk_v but_o the_o humble_a and_o clean_a of_o hart_n and_o those_o that_o serve_v thou_o for_o love_n who_o joy_n thou_o thy-self_n be_v and_o who_o sing_v with_o the_o prophet_n rennit_n consolari_fw-la anima_fw-la mea_fw-la my_o soul_n refuse_v to_o be_v comfort_v these_o do_v in_o some_o sort_n more_o or_o less_o as_o thou_o please_v find_v how_o sweet_a and_o happy_a a_o thing_n it_o be_v to_o seek_v and_o sigh_v after_o thou_o alone_o return_v my_o soul_n to_o thy_o belove_a return_v seek_v for_o no_o consolation_n but_o put_v thy_o hope_n in_o god_n commit_v thy-self_n unto_o god_n and_o let_v he_o do_v with_o thou_o what_o please_v he_o never_o seek_v thy_o own_o glory_n never_o desire_v thy_o will_n may_v be_v do_v but_o in_o all_o thing_n intend_v love_n and_o prefer_v the_o glory_n and_o will_n of_o god_n if_o any_o come_v unto_o he_o he_o shall_v not_o return_v empty_a because_o he_o willng_o give_v water_n to_o the_o thirsty_a in_o the_o bowel_n of_o thy_o mercy_n my_o god_n remember_v i_o poor_a beggar_n bear_v and_o live_v in_o blindness_n grant_v i_o that_o i_o may_v see_v and_o walk_v in_o â—hy_a light_n that_o my_o soul_n may_v become_v true_o please_v to_o thou_o o_o my_o lord_n god_n who_o only_o i_o desire_v to_o love_v serve_v and_o praise_n make_v i_o in_o all_o thing_n conformable_a to_o thy_o holy_a will_n who_o be_v bless_v for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n amen_n amenâ—_n scio_fw-la cui_fw-la credidi_fw-la &_o certus_fw-la sumâ—_n i_o know_v who_o i_o haâ—e_v trust_v and_o be_o secure_a say_v s._n paul_n o_o glorious_a s._n augustin_n my_o dear_a patron_n who_o from_o my_o infancy_n in_o my_o poor_a maver_z i_o have_v honour_v in_o a_o particular_a manner_n and_o who_o have_v be_v always_o ready_a to_o assist_v i_o in_o call_v upon_o thou_o i_o beseech_v thou_o for_o the_o love_n of_o he_o by_o who_o love_n thy_o hart_n be_v so_o inflame_v to_o assist_v i_o at_o the_o hour_n of_o my_o death_n and_o obtain_v for_o i_o of_o our_o lord_n that_o live_v and_o die_v i_o may_v be_v whole_o conformable_a to_o his_o bless_a will_n neither_o desit_v for_o time_n or_o eternity_n any_o other_o thing_n then_o that_o his_o divine_a pleasure_n be_v perfect_o accomplish_v in_o i_o his_o unworthy_a &_o ungrateful_a creature_n and_o in_o that_o dreadful_a hour_n