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way_n that_o thou_o may_v come_v to_o he_o there_o in_o thy_o country_n among_o all_o other_o thing_n let_v profound_a humility_n &_o ardent_a charity_n be_v thy_o great_a care_n let_v charity_n raise_v thy_o heart_n unto_o god_n that_o thou_o may_v cleave_v unto_o he_o let_v humility_n depress_v thy_o heart_n lesâ—_n thou_o become_v proud_a &_o so_o leave_v he_o esteem_v god_n a_o father_n for_o his_o clemency_n a_o lord_n for_o his_o discipline_n a_o father_n for_o his_o sweet_a power_n a_o lord_n for_o his_o severe_a power_n love_v he_o as_o a_o father_n devout_o fear_v he_o as_o a_o lord_n necessary_o love_v he_o because_o he_o will_v have_v mercy_n fear_v he_o because_o he_o will_v not_o suffer_v sin_n fear_v the_o lord_n and_o trust_v in_o he_o acknowledge_v thy_o misery_n and_o declare_v his_o mercy_n o_o god_n thou_o who_o have_v give_v we_o to_o will_v give_v we_o likewise_o to_o perform_v the_o sorrowful_a soul_n solace_v gather_v from_o saint_n augustine_n in_o his_o tract_n 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ever_o shall_v they_o praise_v thou_o my_o soul_n have_v thirst_v after_o thou_o o_o god_n when_o shall_v i_o come_v and_o appear_v before_o thy_o face_n why_o be_v thou_o sorrowful_a o_o my_o soul_n and_o why_o be_v thou_o so_o disquiet_v within_o i_o trust_v in_o the_o lord_n therefore_o will_v i_o now_o confess_v myself_o unto_o he_o the_o salvation_n of_o my_o countenance_n and_o my_o god_n show_v the_o light_n of_o thy_o countenance_n upon_o thy_o servant_n o_o lord_n save_v i_o for_o thy_o mercy_n sake_n let_v i_o not_o be_v confound_v for_o ever_o for_o i_o have_v call_v upon_o thou_o be_v not_o far_o from_o i_o o_o my_o god_n look_v down_o upon_o i_o and_o help_v i_o o_o my_o god_n the_o poor_a be_v leave_v unto_o thou_o thou_o will_v be_v the_o orphan_n helper_n thou_o be_v my_o refuge_n in_o my_o tribulation_n which_o have_v compass_v i_o o_o my_o joy_n deliver_v i_o from_o these_o that_o encompass_v i_o make_v haste_n to_o help_v i_o o_o lord_n god_n of_o my_o salvation_n for_o thou_o be_v my_o strength_n and_o my_o refuge_n my_o helper_n and_o my_o protector_n do_v not_o then_o leave_v i_o nor_o despise_v i_o o_o god_n of_o my_o salvation_n behold_v i_o come_v unto_o thou_o o_o my_o god_n who_o i_o have_v despise_v and_o offend_v for_o the_o whole_a earth_n be_v full_a of_o thy_o mercy_n therefore_o do_v i_o fly_v unto_o thou_o my_o most_o merciful_a father_n receive_v i_o according_a to_o thy_o word_n when_o thou_o say_v i_o will_v not_o the_o death_n of_o a_o sinner_n and_o let_v i_o live_v and_o confound_v i_o not_o in_o my_o hope_n o_o my_o god_n i_o do_v not_o pray_v unto_o thou_o for_o a_o life_n temporal_a but_o i_o call_v upon_o thou_o for_o the_o salvation_n of_o my_o soul_n who_o be_v life_n eternal_a o_o my_o sweet_a lover_n o_o my_o lord_n god_n for_o as_o much_o as_o i_o have_v offend_v thou_o for_o that_o i_o have_v neglect_v thy_o inspiration_n and_o admonition_n for_o that_o i_o have_v at_o any_o time_n love_v aught_o beâ—ide_v thou_o or_o without_o thou_o for_o this_o o_o my_o lord_n god_n for_o this_o do_v i_o grieve_v and_o i_o beseech_v thou_o that_o thou_o will_v give_v unto_o i_o so_o much_o grace_n as_o i_o may_v with_o all_o my_o heart_n grieve_v aâ—d_v lament_n during_o every_o moment_n of_o my_o life_n will_v to_o god_n that_o i_o may_v pour_v out_o and_o offer_v unto_o thou_o every_o drop_n of_o my_o blood_n with_o tear_n for_o grief_n and_o love_n into_o thy_o most_o sweet_a heart_n o_o sweet_a jesus_n i_o neither_o desire_v nor_o expect_v of_o thou_o life_n nor_o death_n but_o thy_o good_a will_n and_o pleasure_n may_v it_o be_v do_v unto_o i_o according_a to_o thy_o will_n if_o it_o be_v thy_o will_n o_o my_o sweet_a jesus_n that_o i_o shall_v die_v receive_v my_o spirit_n and_o although_o i_o come_v in_o the_o evening_n as_o the_o very_a last_o of_o all_o grant_v unto_o i_o that_o i_o may_v receive_v eternal_a rest_n with_o thou_o and_o in_o thou_o but_o if_o it_o be_v thy_o will_n that_o i_o shall_v 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or_o faint_v through_o pusillanimity_n but_o swallow_v up_o with_o the_o most_o burn_a heat_n of_o thy_o love_n i_o may_v only_o sigh_v after_o thou_o only_o desire_v thou_o and_o leave_v loath_a and_o contemn_v the_o world_n with_o all_o that_o be_v in_o it_o give_v thou_o thanks_o with_o all_o my_o heart_n for_o all_o thing_n whether_o minister_a unto_o i_o occasion_n of_o joy_n or_o sorrow_n o_o most_o love_a jesus_n i_o choose_v thou_o i_o wish_v thou_o i_o desire_v thou_o i_o meet_v thou_o and_o i_o renounce_v whatsoever_o thou_o be_v not_o in_o i_o what_o thou_o will_v i_o will_v what_o thou_o nille_v i_o will_v whatsoever_o thou_o abhor_v i_o abjure_v and_o though_o sometime_o that_o 〈◊〉_d be_v contrary_a to_o this_o will_n in_o i_o may_v be_v incident_a unto_o i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o o_o my_o god_n that_o thou_o will_v not_o impute_v it_o unto_o i_o nor_o judge_v i_o according_a to_o that_o depravednesse_n of_o will_n in_o i_o but_o according_a to_o this_o election_n of_o my_o 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