When I awake I am alwayes with thee thanking and praising and adoring thy Majesty who continually keepest the world from returning to nothing from whence thou first mad'st it Unto thee lift I up mine eyes O thou that dwellest in the heavens with the affection and reverence of a child with the fear and solicitude of a servant Psal. 123.1 2. Holy holy holy Lord God Omnipotent which was and is and is to come glory and honour and worship be to thee world without end Amen Rev. 4.8 Keep thy servant by thy grace O Lord that Hypocrisy Pride Envy Anger Gluttony Covetousness or Sloth or any other grievous sin may never have the dominion over me and become habitual and customary to me and ever keep me O Lord most holy from Fornication Drunkenness Theft and Dishonesty Idolatry Manslaughter Cursing Swearing and Lying Extortion and Oppression and all other scandalous and heinous actions and practices But engraft in my heart the contrary fruits of thy holy Spirit Piety Humility and Mildness Faithfulness and Honesty Modesty Temperance and Chastity Content and Quietness Compassion Charity and Liberality Prudence Care and Diligence and let this be my habit my custom and my life for Jesus Christ his sake Amen V. Thursday THe Lord is my strength and my praise There is none holy as the Lord neither is there any rock like our God. The Lord killeth and maketh alive he bringeth down to the bed and to the grave and bringeth up He keepeth the feet of his saints and exalteth the horn of his anointed Hallelujah My heart rejoyceth in his salvation 1 Sam c. 2. Thou art my hope in the land of the living thou art the hope of all the ends of the earth and of them that dwell in broad sea yea thou O God art my hope and joy to all eternity Amen Psal. 141.4 The Providence of the Father almighty guide me the Wisdom of his eternal Son enlighten me and the Power of his holy Spirit quicken me Amen What now shall I render unto the Lord for all his benefits â—or my Birth my Education my Baptism Catechism and Confirmation What for the blessed Eucharist for the Sermons and the Prayers of this Church What for Sundry Deliverances and special Blessings through so many years of living Yea what shall I render unto thee holy JESUS for thy expiatory Blood for thy grand Example for the Mission of the Holy Ghost with various and unexpressible Grace and for the reserve of everlasting Blessedness O Lord what shall I render unto thee Take O take again most merciful Lord these Gifts together this Soul and Body and their abilities which I now kneeling humbly and faithfully offer to thy everadored Divinity O despise not but take again the works of thy own hands and receive all into the bosom of perpetual happiness Amen Hallelujah Or Is not this to be my last day and then Eternity O prepare me for thy self holy JESUS I know not the day nor the hour of thy Judgment Matth. 24.30 Or receive to thee in peace or visit this dearly purchased soul this piece of Immortality drencâ—t in thy Blood. Yea come quickly Lord Jesus Amen I will magnifie thee O God my King and praise thy name for ever and ever Every day will I give thanks to thee and bless thy name for ever and ever Great is the Lord and marvelous worthy to be praised There is no end of his Greatness no end of his Mercy Hallelujah Psal. 145.1 23. c. Grant me I humbly beseech thee Almighty and most merciâ—ul Father a quiet Mind and a â—ound Body a good Report and a liberal Conversation in all Piety Prudence Charity Honesty and Chastity and at last if I may not be a Martâ—r for thy Truth grant me a mild Death and happy Immortality for Christ Jesus his sake the Source of all Blessings as well visible and secular as invisible inconceivable and everlasting Amen Christ is ascended up on high hath led captivity captive and given gifts unto men that God might dwell amongst us Set up thy self O JESUS above all the heavens and thy Glory above the earth I now worship thee with all humility and affection as thy Apostles did when thou departedst from mount Olivet to the Joy of supercâ—lestial Glory The fowls of the air are thine O bountiful Creatour and the fishes of the sea and whatsoever passeth through the paths of the sea and thou feedest them and multipliest them Wherefore I will seek the kingdom of God before food and rayment For our heavenly Father knoweth that we have need of these things Matth. 6.25 VI. Friday I Awakt and lookt up and my sleep was sweet unto me Blessed be the Lord our God the God of our fathers who satisifieth the weary soul and replenisheth every sorrowful heart who converteth the shadow of death into the morning and daily renews the face of the earth and maketh the evening and the morning alternately to praise him Ier. 31.25 26. Psal. 104.30 and 65.9 Who holdeth our soul in life and suffereth not our feet to slip who ruleth with his power for ever Hallelujah On this day O crucified Saviour have mercy on me and all mankind Amen I will walk this day God being my helper soberly chastly decently humbly and in diligence and content as a child of light and of God. Sufficient to the day is the evil and trouble of it I fully trust in the perpetual Grace of my heavenly Father through his Eternal Son. Amen Or I have remembred thy name O Lord in the night and have kept thy law Psal. 119.55 Our help standeth in the name of the Lord who made heaven and earth Psal. 124.8 O Lord God of hosts blessed is the man who putteth his trust in thee yea blessed is the man to whom thou imputest no sin Psal. 84.13 All the world doth worship thee sing of thee and praise thy name which is great wonderful gracious and holy Hallelujah Praise the Lord O my soul. O Father Eternal Almighty God Lord and Possessor of infinite perfection Majesty and mercy Maker and Upholder of all things visible and invisible O blessed Jesus Lamb of God Son of the Father who hast loved us and dyed on the cross for us O most holy Spirit founder and fountain of light and knowledge of vertue and grace of liâ—e peace and bliss everlasting with utmost humility intention of mind and affection I adore and glorifie thee All power and riches and wisdom and salvation and glory and honour and blessing be to the eternal Trinity now and for ever Amen Hosanna in the highest Hosanna I bless thee O Lord Almighty that thou hast made the world out of nothing and created me and all mankind after thy own image and hast set us over the works of thy hands and given thy holy angels charge of us to keep us in all thy ways and that after the early loss of paradise c. many and late transgressions and presumtions thou yet openest
me Psal. 23. The Lord hath granted his loving kindness in the day time and in the night season will I sing of him and make my prayer to the God of my life Psal. 42.10 My soul rejoyceth in the Lord and I have put my trust in his holy name Psal. 33.21 Blessed be thou Lord God of our fathers for ever and ever Thine O Lord is the Greatness and the Power and the Glory and the Victory and the Majesty For all that is in heaven and earth is thine and thou rulest over all for ever Amen 1 Chron. 29.10 11 13. V. Thursday EVerlasting Praise and Thanks to thee most gracious God and Father for my Life and Reason Integrity of Body and Soundness of Memory for my pious and generous Parents my Education in good Learning and Manners for my Regeneration by Baptism and my frequent access to the holy Communion of the Body and Blood of Christ my Saviour for my place and order in the Holy and Apostolick Church for my competent Estate Content Liberty and Quiet for my power and greater will for Alms-doing for my Profession in this place my good Name and various Friendship and for whatever I have well done or said throughout my whole life for my Relations and Benefactors for the divine Forbearance Clemency and Beneficence unto to this age of my life for sundry remarkable Deliverances of me and my friends from Diseases Troubles and Dangers for innumerable Blessings known and unknown remembred or forgotten spiritual and temporal most chiefly for the means of Grace of all sorts and for the hope of immarcessible Glory through Jesus Christ our Lord. O all ye blessed all ye righteous O all the world behold here the monument of Almighty Mercy Is not this a brand pluckt out of the burning Zach. 2.4 Or O holy Father the thoughts of thy infinite Grace and Mercy thy continual and almighty Providence how dear are they unto me Thy Redemption O blessed Jesus shall now lye next my heart and in the meditation of thine inestimable Passion and of thy numberless and everlasting Benefits will I go to sleep or to die as it shall seem best to thee my most gracious Lord and Saviour This night most Holy Pure and Eternal Spirit guard I humbly beseech thee and possess my soul whilst the meaner nature lies languid useless and insensible Amen VI. Friday THe Lord is my stony rock and my defence my Saviour my God and my might in whom I will trust my buckler the horn also of my Salvation and my refuge Psal. 18.1 With my soul have I desired thee in the night season and early in the morning have I sought thee When I awake by thy empire and pity let my soul be still with thee O Lord my God. Or And now Lord what is my hope my hope is even in thee My help standeth in the name of the Lord who made heaven and earth Psal. 132.2 From evil Designs and unlawful Desirâ—s from impure and vain Thoughts from the Illusions and Suggestions of the devil from inordinate Passions and Disturbances of Body and Mind good Lord deliver me this night Amen VII Saturday IT is a good thing to give thanks unto the Lord and to sing praises unto the name of the Lord most highest To tell of thy loving kindness in the morning and of thy faithfulness every night Psal. 92.1 2. Grant thy servant O Lord a Christian end of this day and this week and this declining mortal life Amen for Christ Jesus his sake Bless me also holy Father as thou didst this day at the finishing of thy Creation and sanctifie and separate me to thy Service for ever Amen He that keepeth Israel he that keepeth thee O Christian doth neither slumber nor sleep The Lord himself is thy keeper The Lord is thy defence on thy right hand The Lord preserveth thee from all evil yea it is even he that keepeth thy soul. Amen God most holy most mighty Or Lord Jesus Christ the cheerful Ray and Glory of the Father immortal heavenly holy and happy being come to close of this day and the confines of darkness we laud and magnifie the Father the Son and the holy Spirit of God thou indeed art worthy to be praised with holy voices O son of God giver of life Therefore the whole world glorisieth thee and worshippeth thee Amen 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 I will not give sleep to my eâ—es nor slumber to my eye-lids till I be at peace with all men till I have sought thy peace most gracious Father which the world cannot give and have confessed unto thy Majesty the Faults and Omissions of this day together with the more heinous Sins of my life Whatever I have devised said or done unworthy my Place my Age my Christianity and my Priesthood good Lord forgive me for the Bowels of Jesus Christ. Amen And let the grief and trouble of such Confessions henceforth deter me from the like Presumptions Transgressions and Neglects and from their several Causes and Occasions Amen Amen I will frequently read two or three Verses of the Holy Bible before I go to bed Here endeth the Larger Office at Rising and going to Bed. WHen I go not to Church I will say secretly or in the family Te Deum or Nunc dimittis and also the Collects for Peace and Grace and the Collects for all Conditions and the general Thanksgiving Our most gracious Father hear both the Church and me Oh hear them supplicating for me and all well employed and afflicted people Amen for the alone merits of Christ our Lord. PRIVATE DEVOTION At the HOLY COMMUNION CHAP. XI I. At the Offering MOst bountiful Father I return Mites for Talents received I offer to thee still of thy own Accept I pray thee most gracious Lord together with this small token of my Duty and Gratitude my Soul and Body and Action all which I here humbly dedicate unto thee at thy Altar And also forgive me all my Debts and Trespasses against thy divine Majesty for the one Oblation and transcendent Worthiness of thy beloved Son our Saviour Jesus Christ. Amen II. Before the general Confession HAving already in my retirement read over the Communion-service and also Matth. c. 28. and 1 Cor. 11.17 c. and thereupon leisurely and carefully examined and recollected as in the presence of the Living God what I have done what I have amended or not amended O wretched and inconstant creature since the last Communion and solemn Promise of a correct Life And having also satisfied to my power for all Injuries and Offences done by me against any man and likewise with hearty Sorrow Aversation and Repentance implored at home Gods Pardon for those sins and the rest of my whole life I now fasting Dan. c. 9.3 do again beseech the same indulgence with Humility Intention of Mind and enlarged Hopes here in the midst of his devout People before his Priest near his holy Altar and under the regard of glorious
through our Lord Jesus Christ. 1. Cor. 15.55 56 57. I will run with patience the race that is set before me for the crown of indefectible glory which it leads to looking unto a great cloud of witnesses of godly fortitude and constancy yea rather looking unto the meek Jesus the author and finishâ—r of our faith our hope and our resolution Hebr. 12.1 2. Thee onely do I fear O heavenly Father and in thee only do I trust Thy mercy is as ready as thy power and thy power maketh and maintaineth all things I will ever hope in thy mercy through Jesus Christ for I know no end thereof Amen Whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth and scourgeth every son whom he receiveth Hebr. 12.6 It is good for me that I have been afflicted I know O Lord that thy judgements are right and that thou of very faithfulness hast caused me to be troubled Before I was afflicted I went astray but now thy law is my delight and my attention O let my heart be sound in thy statutes that I be no more ashamed Psal. 119.67 71 75 80. Behold here I am let him do to me as seemeth good unto him 2 Sam. 15.26 O my Father not as I will but as thou wilt for his sake who for the life of the world once prayed thus unto thee with great affection tears and innocence Amen Matth. 26.39 My cup is not so bitter I am not yet come to the cross O Lord God of hosts blessed is the man that confideth in thee Psal. 84.13 The Profession of the Catholick Faith. CHAP. XIX I. AS I have often God giving me the grace and opportâ—nity professed and recited the sum of a Christian mans belief contained in the Apostles Creed and in the Nicene Creed in the Liturgy of the Church so now at my wished departure from this world I renew the same Confession and recognition desiring that heaven and earth might now hear me as I hope they will at the happy day of the Resurrection cheerfully thankfully and sincerely declaring II. I Believe in God the Father Almighty maker of heaven and earth I acknowledge fear and adore one God spiritual invisible eternal most holy Almighty and omnipotent distinguished into three glorious persons the Father and the Son and the holy Ghost I will always own and to utmost peril assert the infinite power and justice and mercy of God the Father who made the world out of nothing and every moment upholds and governs it by his gracious providence and in this Systeme hath made sustained and blessed me by wonderful favour And I believe in Iesus Christ his only begotten Son our Lord who was conceived by the holy Ghost O inestimable mercy and most astonishing mystery born wiâ—hout sin of the Virgin Mary suffered under Pontius Pilate a plenary sacrifice and expiation for the sins of the world was crucified with exquisite torment and anguish dead and buried to teach us profound humility and self denyal and martyrdom and to take away the sting and terrour of death He descended into hell The third day he rose again from the dead to justify all the faithful and to invite them to a new and noble and heavenly life He ascended into heaven where I long to see thee and to kiss thy seet most blâ—ssed Saviour Wash my soul first in thy bloud cleanse it from thy pierced side that it may be fitted and prepared for that most holy and sublime mansion And sittteth on the right hand of God the Father Almighty a most merciful and benign mediatour From whence he shall come with astonishing glory and pomp to juage me and all the quick and dead O judge impartial and Almighty I fear thee I prepare for thy advent I prejudge and condemn my self for the corruptions of my life I fly to thy cross I hide me in thy wounds My faith embraceth thy salvation Lord pardon me and receive me into thy favour I believe in the holy Ghost the efficacious and invisible guide and patron of all humble souls and the author of wisdom compunction holiness and constancy I believe and own the holy Catholick Church the choice and inheritance and the care and love of God called from all nations of the world into one faith and one hope wherein I have a part by infinite grace I believe the Communion of saints I hasten to the Church triumphant I believe the remission of sins by thy merits O holy Jesus the sure hope and comfort of the living and of the dying I believe the resurrection of the body of this diseased earthy painfull decaying body I know that my Redeemer liveth and that at the last day after death and corruption this very flesh shall stand up spiritual illustrious and immoral by the power and the example of Christs rising and be rapt up to meet him in the clouds Iob. c. 19. and 1 Thes. 4 7. Blessed ever-blessed be the glorious and glorifying JESUS Finally I believe the life everlasting even for me who am unworthy of another secular and incumbred life worthy of perpetual misery and firy indignation altogether unworthy of the vision of God and unchangeable felicity But thy grace is like thy self O Lord infinite and incomprehensible I receive it with all lowliness and confusion I humble my self to the dust for this unvaluable mercy Father fit me for thy promise and bounty Amen Amen III. I Heartily bless God that I was so early baptized into this faith I glorifie him that by his own support in frequenting the offices of the church I have so long lived in a firm profession of this saving doctrine And now God preserving me from the snare of the devil I resolve and I rejoyce to die in the same belief Moreover I humbly beseech the Church the pillar and ensign of truth and all my friends to pray for me that my faith fail not especially at the hour and agony of dâ—ath and also to implore Gods forgiveness as for the rest of my sins so especially if through the violence of my disâ—ase or pain I shall then speak unadvisedly and against the intention of a sober and Christian mind for the sake of the wounded and crucified Saviour Amen O my friends live better then I have done No service no care no vigor and zeal can any ways answer the bounty of Almighty God who nourisheth us upon his earth enlightens us from his heavens and concludes our mortality with everlasting life satisfaction and glory O love the Lord by whom you brâ—ath love the Lord that sent Jesus Christ into the world to save sinners IV. I Lay hold on this occasion to declare freely before Gods minister and my friends the more remarkable passages of my life from my birth to this hour that they may glorifie God for his many benefits and extraordinary indulgence to me a most unprofitable and ungrateful servant and may also beware themselves of the errors and offences which have disgraced and polluted my conversation and
am also ready to make reparation of fame and credit together with an ingenuous and humble acknowledgement to all that I have slandered and calumniated namely to c. And accordingly I forthwith take order that Restitution and Satisfaction be made to them all to the utmost of my ability and that their Release and Acquittance for all injuries done to them be obtained or else most justly and verily presumed before I adventure to crave the benefit of Absolution If I am ashamed of such a Confession and Restitution I am not ashamed nor afraid to be the everlasting contempt and scorn of the most holy Creator and of all that is blessed I am not ashamed nor affrighted to be the companion of devils and all villanous men that ever lived in darkness horror and torment Let no father patron or master think of bettering the worldly condition of his successours by his own dreadful condemnation for finally concealing and retaining his illgotten estate or frauds IV. Moreover with a charitable heart according to the bâ—st of my understanding and enquiry imploring the assistance of Gods Holy Spirit I â—ave made my Last will and Testament disposing the goods and estate God hath given me for his greatest glory Namely amongst my Relations and likewise in a due acknowledgment of sundry precious benefiâ—s received by me in this Apostolick Church of which â— hope to continue a part to my lifes end and also for the poor Blessing Almighty God for enabling me to give them some relief and so to lend unto himself his own temporal blessings to obtain far better riches in heaven Amen I rest upon thy merits and upon thy word O Triumphant Saviour Forgive and ye shall be forgiven Give and it shall be given into your bosom good measure pressed down shaken together and running over Luk. c. 6.37 and c. 11.9 Amen Finally I have given my Relations and Friends the best advise and counsel I could for the good of their neverdying souls and for their well-living in this world V. Having thus rid my self of all the cares and troubles and concerns of mortality having now perfectly done with this world with a clear and humble heart I address my self to thy Grace Almighty and most merciful God and Father beseeching thee to instruct exerâ—ise and prepare me for the succeeding gloâ—ious and immortal life to which by the Chrisâ—ian Profession thou hast advanced my hope and awful expectation Hallelujah through the glorified Jesus Hallelujah to all Eternity Amen But I foresee the passage to this Beatitude to be very dark and Dismall full of Thorns and Tears full of Confessions Remorse and Contrition for the many faults of a short life and also full of disease and pains and anguish reaching unto dissolution insensibility stench and rottenness By all thy agonies and experience help me O holy Jesus through this terror Amen REPENTANCE· CHAP. XVI See CHAP. VI. §. 5. and CHAP XI §. 2. I. Consession I Have sinned O Lord I have dealt wickedly I have led an unequal untoward and polluted life I have sinned before thee when ashamed of humane view before thee my Father my Judge my Benefactor my Worship and my God. O absurd and stupid wretch In thought word and deed with all the powers and abilities thou hast given me with affection and design have I sinned against thee most Mighty and most Holy Ungratefully and basely grievously and presumtuously particularly c. have I sinned and Lord how often secretly and openly in the chamber as c. anâ— in publick as c. treading upon thy earth and covered with thy heavens yea â— have sinned in the House of God and in the midst of my Prayâ—rs and Invocations as c. Is this then the Image of God is this a Christian an heir of eternal Life â—his a Priest and Dispenser of the pure Word and Sacraments of the Lord Jesus Ah this is nothing but clay and dirt uncleanness and misery II. Contrition THe soul that is troubled and the spirit that is vexed cryeth unto thee O Lord. I Relent I grieve I am heartily sorry for this demerit and irritation of thy Divine justice I am ashamed I abhor my self I am perfectly weâ—ry of this corrupt life What shall I do whiâ—her shall I turn I am ashamed to look up to heaven that behâ—lds my vileness to heaven which I have abused and despised I will bowe my self to the earth and the grave that waits to hide and devour such a wretch I will sâ—ite upon my breast with the conscious publicane upon my breast the box and origine of all this mischief And do thou strike this rock O holy Jesus that the waters may freely flow that my tears may mingle with thy blood my humble and sincere repentance reach thy propitiation and remission Dissolve thou sinful clod tremble thou earth earth earth at the presence of the Lord at the presence and vindication of the God of Jacob who turned the â—lint stone into a springing well I wish for the tears of David pierced with the matter of Uriah the mourning of Jeremiah and the dejection of Manasseh I recollect and confess in particular unto thee my more grievous sins the rest are without number in the bitterness of my soul. Thus and thus have I done c. I give glory to thee as Achan I confess and am confoâ—nded at the enormity and presumption and villanous circumstances of my offences as c. I hide not my unrighteousness as Adam in the garden who led the way of sinning and of repentance I hide not I cannot hide but with tears and dread remorse acknowledge to thy most pure and omniscient Majesty my faults my follies yea rather my wilfulness my hardness my vices my criminal and deplorable life And lo here I judge and reprove and condemn my self at the bottom of thy throne and yet I am not enough abased He cannot fall too low whose merit is hell My deformation and destruction is only from my self from my perverse and incorrigible self my relief and salvation is from thee only Father thou knowest my sins and thou knowest my anguish It is not easy to transgress thy commands and reflect upon the transgressions My flesh trembleth for fâ—ar of thee and I am afraid of thy judgments O Lord. I dread that great day when the thrones shall be set the books opened and my shameful life recited and all my works of darkness exposed in perfect light I tremble lest the blessed Jesus who shed his blood for my redemption and hath so earnestly urged and offered me pardon and peace and eternal life should then condemn me and the mighty angels and holy men of all ages and nations newly clothed with immortal and illustrious bodies hiss me from the righteous Tribunal and the mouth of hell receive my body and soul into exquisite torments without light or pity My present horrour and confusion is great but what is this to everlasting burnings III. Supplication GReat