who_o be_v most_o avert_v from_o i_o and_o be_v like_a to_o be_v most_o contradictory_n and_o troublesome_a to_o i_o and_o of_o this_o mind_n with_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n i_o purpose_v to_o be_v while_o i_o liuâ—_n though_o i_o live_v never_o so_o long_o and_o shall_v by_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n be_v content_v if_o not_o rejoice_v that_o i_o be_o and_o shall_v be_v hold_v insufficient_a and_o unworthy_a of_o any_o office_n or_o employment_n of_o worth_n or_o credit_n 2._o and_o on_o the_o otherside_n there_o be_v not_o or_o shall_v be_v any_o office_n or_o employment_n so_o mean_a base_a contemptible_a painful_a or_o otherwise_o ungrateful_a but_o that_o i_o will_v accept_v of_o it_o if_o it_o be_v the_o will_n of_o god_n and_o abide_v iâ—_n it_o so_o long_o as_o it_o shall_v please_v god_n out_o of_o pure_a obedience_n to_o his_o holy_a will_n though_o the_o office_n or_o employment_n be_v to_o continue_v all_o my_o life_n â—yme_n &_o that_o i_o live_v and_o die_v the_o most_o abieâ—â—â—_n neglect_v and_o contemptible_a person_n not_o only_o of_o all_o the_o house_n but_o even_o of_o all_o other_o that_o be_v in_o the_o whole_a world_n this_o present_a matter_n of_o resignation_n be_v very_o necessary_a to_o be_v use_v in_o prayer_n but_o more_o necessary_a to_o be_v stand_v unto_o in_o practice_n when_o the_o occasion_n happen_v advice_n read_v consider_v &_o practice_v the_o virtue_n of_o prayer_n be_v practise_v out_o of_o prayer_n this_o be_v the_o rule_n of_o rule_n and_o the_o only_a advice_n as_o â—ften_o it_o do_v for_o god_n seeinge_v the_o soul_n to_o have_v over_o much_o pride_n and_o to_o want_v that_o humility_n he_o will_v have_v in_o she_o will_v not_o perhaps_o have_v she_o to_o be_v choose_v to_o such_o a_o office_n or_o place_n of_o authority_n or_o dignity_n which_o he_o forsee_v will_v increase_v pride_n in_o heâ—_n at_o least_o will_v not_o work_v in_o she_o that_o humility_n which_o be_v requisite_a for_o she_o and_o therefore_o he_o provide_v out_o of_o his_o great_a love_n to_o she_o that_o some_o other_o who_o perhaps_o seem_v to_o be_v much_o inferior_a in_o worth_n aâ—â—_n talent_n to_o be_v choose_v to_o itt_v and_o oftentimes_o god_n for_o her_o further_a humiliation_n in_o leiâ—_n of_o the_o high_a place_n do_v cause_v she_o to_o be_v choose_v to_o some_o other_o lâ—w_o or_o base_a place_n which_o she_o in_o her_o nature_n contemn_v and_o a_o soul_n that_o mean_n or_o desire_n to_o be_v good_a do_v observe_v the_o divine_a ordinance_n and_o disposition_n about_o she_o and_o do_v thereunto_o conform_a and_o subject_n herself_o though_o extreme_o perchance_o against_o the_o inclination_n of_o her_o nature_n but_o a_o soul_n that_o neither_o be_v humble_a nor_o desire_n to_o be_v humble_a but_o will_v exalt_v herself_o above_o and_o against_o god_n â—ill_n by_o contradictinge_v his_o divine_a providence_n do_v groâ—_n and_o become_v wilful_a impatient_a and_o take_v occasion_n by_o itt_n of_o much_o harm_n yea_o perhaps_o of_o utter_a ruin_n and_o fall_n as_o it_o appear_v by_o almost_o infinite_a example_n that_o heretofore_o have_v fall_v out_o and_o do_v yet_o daily_o fall_v out_o for_o this_o have_v be_v the_o very_a cause_n of_o apostatisinge_v of_o all_o arch-heretiâ—es_a as_o luther_n beâ—nardinusâ—_n ochinus_n and_o other_o and_o in_o very_a deed_n if_o you_o observe_v itt_fw-mi you_o shall_v find_v even_o at_o this_o day_n and_o as_o it_o have_v so_o ever_o it_o will_v be_v the_o cause_n and_o root_n of_o all_o the_o stir_n faction_n and_o contest_v that_o be_v in_o all_o religâ—ous_a conuent_v do_v most_o common_o if_o not_o alâ—ayes_o arise_v out_o of_o pride_n ambition_n &_o irresignation_n in_o the_o point_n of_o office_n and_o place_n now_o last_v mention_v which_o be_v that_o either_o we_o covet_v place_n of_o honour_n or_o credit_n for_o ourselves_o or_o for_o our_o friend_n who_o be_v in_o the_o place_n will_v favour_v we_o or_o else_o we_o repine_v at_o the_o puttinge_n in_o of_o those_o who_o our_o nature_n do_v not_o affect_v for_o the_o place_n let_v we_o therefore_o with_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n overcome_v ourselves_o in_o itt_n and_o stand_v unto_o the_o most_o love_a providence_n of_o god_n for_o our_o humiliation_n and_o final_a perfection_n in_o his_o love_n which_o be_v the_o proper_a cause_n and_o end_n of_o our_o be_v religious_a or_o our_o undertakinge_v a_o spiritual_a course_n of_o life_n life_n the_o true_a end_n of_o our_o undertakinge_v a_o religious_a life_n and_o if_o we_o do_v not_o herein_o seek_v to_o subdue_v ourselves_o but_o yield_v to_o ambition_n we_o do_v hereby_o resemble_v and_o serve_v the_o most_o ambitious_a lucifer_n &_o shall_v without_o adherent_n be_v partaker_n with_o he_o and_o his_o adhâ—â—rentsâ—_n in_o his_o unspeakable_a everlasting_a torment_n from_o which_o god_n of_o his_o goodness_n preserve_v us._n amen_o 3._o i_o resign_v myself_o to_o undergo_v not_o only_o such_o cross_n and_o difficulty_n as_o shall_v fall_v upon_o my_o own_o person_n of_o which_o kind_n be_v all_o the_o precedant_fw-la act_n of_o resignation_n but_o alsoe_o all_o such_o calamity_n cross_n pestilence_n famine_n scandal_n infamy_n desolation_n devasâ—ations_n disgrace_n povertye_n and_o other_o affliction_n of_o what_o kind_n soever_o thâ—_n divine_a providence_n shall_v by_o any_o mean_n permit_v to_o fall_v on_o this_o community_n or_o upon_o any_o particular_a member_n or_o member_n thereof_o and_o i_o purpose_v with_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n ever_o to_o serve_v and_o adhere_v to_o he_o even_o in_o the_o midst_n of_o those_o calamity_n or_o troublesome_a alteration_n 4._o in_o like_a manner_n i_o resign_v myself_o upon_o all_o public_a scandal_n give_v by_o other_o and_o upon_o all_o public_a calamity_n fall_v on_o the_o whole_a church_n or_o any_o member_n of_o it_o or_o upon_o any_o particular_a country_n and_o namely_o upon_o our_o own_o or_o upon_o the_o city_n or_o country_n wherein_o this_o monastery_n college_n or_o house_n be_v fearedâ—_n and_o in_o all_o case_n to_o continue_v my_o adhereinge_n love_n and_o good_a will_n to_o god_n as_o if_o such_o accident_n have_v not_o at_o all_o happen_v 5._o i_o resign_v myself_o to_o die_v when_o and_o in_o what_o manner_n it_o shall_v please_v god_n and_o in_o particular_a to_o live_v in_o a_o house_n the_o like_a for_o any_o other_o danger_n which_o hang_v over_o my_o head_n so_o long_o as_o god_n shall_v so_o ordain_v that_o be_v very_o like_a to_o fall_v and_o thereby_o oppress_v and_o kill_v i_o and_o that_o â—oe_v sudden_o that_o i_o shall_v not_o have_v the_o time_n or_o space_n to_o say_v or_o think_v so_o much_o as_o lord_n have_v mercy_n upon_o i_o or_o perhaps_o i_o shall_v be_v fast_o a_o sleep_n when_o it_o shall_v fall_v upon_o i_o and_o oppress_v i_o ere_o i_o be_v awake_a or_o peradventure_o the_o fall_n will_v not_o sudden_o bereave_v i_o of_o my_o life_n but_o will_v bruise_v my_o body_n or_o my_o limb_n and_o make_v i_o live_v in_o such_o intolerable_a pain_n that_o death_n will_v be_v a_o great_a â—ase_n and_o pleasure_n to_o my_o nature_n i_o resign_v myself_o i_o say_v herein_o and_o the_o like_a to_o the_o divine_a will_n and_o providence_n in_o all_o such_o like_a case_n still_o cravinge_v and_o beg_a of_o god_n that_o in_o whatsoever_o manner_n time_n or_o place_v my_o death_n may_v happen_v that_o i_o may_v die_v in_o his_o holy_a grace_n and_o favour_n for_o the_o salvation_n and_o eternal_a weal_n of_o my_o soul_n 6._o final_o i_o render_v and_o resign_v myself_o to_o thou_o almâ—_n god_n who_o i_o be_o by_o justice_n &_o from_o who_o this_o my_o be_v depend_v with_o all_o that_o i_o be_o have_v or_o can_v do_v or_o suffer_v in_o soul_n and_o body_n fame_n or_o external_a good_n for_o time_n and_o eternity_n so_o that_o i_o do_v reserve_v to_o myself_o no_o will_n at_o all_o but_o in_o all_o do_v accept_v thy_o will_n utter_o forsake_v neglectinge_v &_o contemninge_v my_o own_o will_n as_o if_o i_o have_v no_o will_n at_o all_o by_o which_o thou_o only_o dear_a god_n may_v reign_v in_o i_o doeinge_v with_o i_o and_o about_o i_o as_o be_v but_o a_o instrument_n of_o thy_o what_o thou_o best_a like_a and_o please_v now_o and_o ever_o more_o fiat_n fiat_n amen_n amen_n a_o exercise_n of_o devotion_n to_o our_o blissed_a lady_n mother_n of_o god_n 1._o haile_o sweet_a mary_n hail_n most_o sacred_a virgin_n who_o god_n before_o all_o age_n do_v choose_v for_o his_o most_o sacred_a mother_n 2._o thou_o be_v betwixt_o god_n and_o man_n that_o bliss_v mediatrix_fw-la by_o who_o the_o high_a thing_n be_v join_v to_o the_o low_a 3._o thou_o be_v the_o begin_v of_o life_n the_o gate_n or_o entry_n of_o grace_n the_o safe_a haven_n of_o the_o world_n suffer_v shipwreck_n
attention_n unto_o it_o or_o about_o judge_v what_o to_o be_v sâ—nnâ—_n and_o â—hat_n not_o and_o what_o to_o bâ—_n moral_n and_o what_o not_o or_o about_o any_o other_o thing_n that_o shall_v concern_v my_o confession_n or_o sayinge_v my_o office_n or_o otherwise_o concern_v my_o soul_n and_o conscience_n â—_o i_o â—esâ—gne_v myself_o to_o undergo_v and_o perform_v whatsoeuâ—r_v my_o supâ—â—ioâ—_n shall_v deliâ—eraâ—â—lye_v and_o absoâ—utelyâ—_n reqâ—iâ—e_v of_o mâ—â—_n â—lbâ—iâ—_n neuâ—r_n â—oe_v â—â—pugnâ—nt_v â—o_o â—ynâ—_n owâ—â—_n natural_a will_v or_o 〈◊〉_d and_o though_o it_o sâ—â—mâ—â—â—ueâ—â—oe_v repugnant_a to_o my_o natural_a reaâ—on_n aâ—d_a iudgâ—mentâ—_n and_o â—â—â—me_n to_o be_v â—ayne_o and_o impertinent_a or_o agâ—â—â—st_a reâ—sâ—nâ—_n 〈◊〉_d proâ—â—_n very_o pâ—â—nefull_a to_o my_o body_n or_o preiudiciouâ—_n to_o my_o fame_n and_o honour_n yea_o and_o though_o it_o seem_v a_o thing_n impossible_a to_o be_v do_v yet_o will_v i_o attempt_v it_o and_o endeavour_v to_o do_v it_o the_o best_a â—_o can_v provide_v always_o there_o be_v nothing_o command_v i_o as_o without_o doubt_n i_o hope_v there_o never_o will_v be_v against_o the_o law_n of_o god_n and_o his_o church_n 9_o i_o likewise_o resign_v myself_o willing_o to_o undergo_v any_o penance_n public_a or_o private_a that_o shall_v be_v enjoin_v i_o by_o my_o superior_a immediate_a or_o mediate_v yea_o though_o such_o a_o penance_n be_v never_o so_o great_a a_o confusion_n or_o shame_n unto_o i_o or_o stain_v â—o_o my_o honour_n or_o credit_n and_o â—hough_o i_o be_v never_o so_o innocent_a in_o the_o suppose_a crime_n for_o the_o which_o the_o pâ—â—â—anâ—e_n be_v impose_v and_o that_o â—ll_a other_o do_v esteem_v and_o judge_v meâ—_n guilty_a of_o the_o crime_n though_o indâ—ed_v i_o be_o nâ—t_a 10._o i_o resign_v myself_o so_o â—arre_o to_o overcome_v the_o bashfulness_n or_o other_o difficâ—lâ—â—â—â—â—haâ—_n iâ—_n oâ—_n shall_v â—e_v in_o i_o for_o the_o discoveringe_v of_o my_o secret_n bodilye_o necessity_n or_o other_o secret_n of_o my_o interior_a confession_n especial_o to_o do_v this_o in_o matter_n of_o confession_n that_o i_o will_v when_o there_o shall_v be_v cause_n for_o it_o therein_o mortifye_v myself_o and_o will_v with_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n open_v my_o case_n to_o my_o superior_a or_o ghostly_a father_n accord_v to_o the_o nature_n of_o my_o case_n and_o as_o it_o shall_v require_v albeit_o my_o natural_a will_v have_v never_o so_o great_a a_o aversion_n from_o such_o my_o discovery_n of_o my_o necessity_n or_o of_o my_o interior_a state_n the_o xiii_o exercise_n 1._o i_o resign_v myself_o that_o when_o charity_n obedience_n discretion_n or_o necessity_n shall_v require_v it_o i_o will_v visit_v and_o help_v any_o one_o lyinge_a sick_a though_o of_o the_o plague_n or_o any_o other_o infectious_a odious_a or_o horrid_a disease_n and_o will_v attend_v serve_v and_o comfort_v they_o accord_v to_o my_o ability_n without_o flinchinge_v any_o way_n and_o therein_o will_v regard_v neither_o life_n nor_o health_n nor_o will_v avoid_v itt_n for_o any_o horror_n or_o loathsomenesse_n that_o my_o nature_n shall_v find_v or_o conceive_v in_o the_o disease_n or_o employment_n yet_o it_o be_v not_o the_o will_n of_o god_n that_o i_o shall_v without_o cause_n desperate_o put_v myself_o into_o the_o say_a employment_n but_o it_o must_v be_v do_v accord_v to_o the_o rule_n of_o discretion_n and_o that_o good_a may_v come_v by_o it_o to_o the_o party_n that_o be_v infect_v or_o otherwise_o sick_a 2._o in_o like_a manner_n i_o resign_v myself_o to_o attend_v serve_v and_o watch_v with_o those_o that_o be_v sick_a or_o need_v help_v accord_v to_o their_o necessity_n and_o as_o charity_n obedience_n and_o discretion_n shall_v require_v of_o i_o 3._o i_o resign_v myself_o to_o undergo_v and_o put_v in_o execution_n all_o manner_n of_o remedy_n that_o shall_v be_v deliberatelye_a advise_v i_o by_o the_o physician_n with_o the_o consent_n of_o my_o superior_n for_o the_o betteringe_a of_o my_o health_n or_o savinge_v of_o my_o life_n be_v those_o remedy_n never_o so_o harsh_a bitter_a painful_a or_o odious_a to_o my_o nature_n as_o the_o take_n of_o moâ—â—_n bitter_a potion_n cuttinge_v of_o some_o of_o my_o limb_n or_o any_o other_o painful_a remedy_n ordain_v and_o prescribe_v unto_o i_o 4._o i_o be_o resign_v to_o undergo_v the_o molestation_n of_o little_a but_o payneful_o pinch_v bitinge_v and_o troublesome_a creature_n as_o flea_n louse_n eimise_n and_o other_o such_o like_a uâ—rmine_n so_o far_o as_o god_n will_v have_v i_o to_o be_v exercise_v by_o they_o and_o that_o i_o can_v rid_v myself_o from_o they_o yea_o though_o they_o shall_v so_o farâ—e_n prevail_v over_o i_o as_o to_o bereave_v i_o of_o my_o life_n â—as_v they_o have_v do_v to_o diverse_a i_o will_v and_o do_v sâ—â—â—he_a love_n of_o god_n therein_o reâ—â—gne_v my_o self_n to_o his_o will_n and_o providenâ—â—â—eerin_o â—_o i_o resign_v myself_o when_o obedience_n charity_n or_o necessâ—tie_n shall_v â—â—quire_v it_o to_o go_v to_o any_o house_n room_n or_o place_n and_o lodge_v and_o dwell_v â—here_o notwithstanding_o the_o fear_n of_o devil_n hobgobbling_n or_o other_o have_v spiritâ—_n that_o be_v say_v to_o be_v there_o 〈…〉_o will_v in_o thâ—_n name_n of_o god_n and_o when_o it_o shall_v be_v his_o will_n resort_v and_o abide_v in_o such_o a_o place_n albeit_o i_o shall_v there_o real_o see_v a_o 1000_o of_o those_o evil_n and_o malicious_a spirit_n yea_o and_o though_o god_n will_v permit_v they_o to_o beat_v buffet_n scratch_n and_o torment_v my_o body_n as_o he_o permit_v they_o to_o do_v to_o the_o body_n of_o s._n anthony_n and_o other_o saint_n for_o their_o exercise_n for_o i_o know_v well_o that_o all_o the_o malice_n of_o the_o devil_n will_v not_o be_v able_a to_o hurt_v my_o soul_n so_o long_o as_o i_o continue_v my_o good_a will_n and_o love_n to_o god_n which_o the_o devil_n can_v take_v away_o by_o molestinge_v of_o my_o body_n but_o he_o do_v thereby_o give_v i_o more_o and_o better_a occasion_n to_o unite_v my_o soul_n to_o god_n the_o which_o be_v do_v it_o little_a import_v what_o he_o do_v to_o my_o body_n which_o what_o harm_n soever_o he_o do_v in_o this_o life_n i_o believe_v and_o be_o assure_v will_v be_v well_o restore_v to_o i_o at_o the_o general_a day_n of_o judgement_n and_o in_o perfect_a health_n as_o i_o hope_v alsoe_o for_o the_o salvation_n and_o perpetual_a felicity_n of_o my_o soul_n 6._o and_o therefore_o and_o in_o like_a manner_n i_o do_v resign_v myself_o that_o if_o god_n will_v permit_v and_o have_v my_o body_n to_o be_v possess_v by_o the_o devil_n or_o by_o million_o of_o devil_n and_o to_o be_v vex_v and_o torment_v by_o they_o or_o to_o have_v witchcraft_n prevail_v on_o my_o body_n &_o to_o vex_v and_o torment_v i_o i_o shall_v take_v it_o patientlye_o and_o resigned_o as_o from_o the_o hand_n of_o god_n and_o be_v content_v that_o he_o and_o my_o enemy_n those_o devil_n do_v perform_v their_o malice_n towards_o my_o body_n my_o soul_n be_v still_o untouched_a by_o they_o over_o which_o they_o shall_v have_v no_o more_o power_n than_o my_o frewill_n shall_v give_v way_n to_o which_o by_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n shall_v be_v in_o nothing_o at_o all_o and_o some_o saint_n there_o have_v be_v who_o for_o their_o exercise_n &_o humiliation_n have_v desire_v of_o god_n that_o they_o may_v in_o their_o body_n be_v possess_v by_o the_o devil_n and_o have_v theruppon_o come_v to_o be_v possess_v 7._o for_o the_o love_n i_o bear_v unto_o god_n i_o do_v renounce_v all_o desire_n to_o any_o manner_n of_o office_n or_o employment_n that_o be_v of_o authority_n or_o dignity_n or_o in_o any_o sort_n grateful_a to_o my_o nature_n or_o sensuality_n and_o do_v purpose_n with_o the_o help_n of_o his_o grace_n for_o the_o keepinge_v myself_o in_o humility_n and_o for_o avoydinge_v of_o occasion_n of_o distraction_n not_o only_o not_o to_o desire_v or_o go_v about_o direct_o or_o indirect_o to_o procure_v the_o haveinge_n of_o any_o such_o office_n or_o employment_n 8._o but_o alsoe_o by_o all_o the_o mean_n that_o may_v be_v please_a to_o god_n to_o preâ—ent_v the_o have_v of_o they_o 9_o and_o be_v offer_v unto_o i_o to_o refuse_v they_o utâ—erlye_o so_o far_o as_o i_o may_v without_o displeasinge_a god_n it_o be_v continue_v the_o fourteen_o exercise_n 1._o and_o further_o i_o will_v endeavour_v and_o procure_v so_o far_o as_o shall_v stand_v with_o the_o pleasure_n of_o god_n that_o any_o other_o rather_o than_o myself_o though_o he_o be_v my_o junior_a oâ—_n of_o talent_n never_o so_o inferior_a to_o i_o shall_v have_v the_o office_n if_o he_o shall_v be_v judge_v fit_a and_o sufficient_a for_o the_o place_n yea_o though_o he_o be_v one_o who_o in_o my_o nature_n i_o have_v least_o affection_n for_o or_o one_o
come_v it_o natural_o or_o by_o any_o chance_n or_o accident_n 8._o to_o loose_v my_o life_n by_o sudden_a death_n or_o else_o by_o long_a sickness_n as_o it_o shall_v please_v god_n 9_o to_o receive_v harm_n in_o my_o imagination_n whereby_o i_o may_v have_v my_o brain_n crack_v or_o become_v a_o very_a fool_n or_o mad_a man_n and_o to_o be_v content_a with_o all_o this_o if_o god_n permit_v the_o case_n to_o befall_v i_o 10._o that_o my_o body_n putrify_v and_o corrupt_v slow_o and_o with_o length_n of_o time_n and_o that_o other_o observe_v and_o take_v notice_n of_o such_o putrifyinge_v and_o in_o their_o nature_n abhor_v it_o and_o i_o for_o itt_n 11._o to_o endure_v and_o suffer_v the_o agonye_n of_o death_n and_o the_o unwillingness_n and_o horror_n that_o nature_n have_v in_o the_o separation_n of_o the_o soul_n from_o the_o body_n iâ—_n be_v continue_v the_o iii_o exercise_n 1._o i_o be_o resign_v to_o die_v a_o natural_a death_n or_o otherwise_o a_o violent_a and_o painful_a death_n procure_v by_o other_o which_o of_o they_o may_v best_o please_v thou_o my_o lord_n 2._o to_o die_v when_o where_o and_o in_o what_o manner_n it_o shall_v best_o please_v god_n and_o that_o without_o the_o help_n of_o any_o of_o the_o sacrament_n if_o i_o can_v come_v by_o they_o 3._o be_v dead_a to_o want_v not_o only_o honourable_a but_o even_o christian_a burial_n and_o my_o body_n to_o be_v a_o prey_n and_o food_n to_o beast_n and_o fowl_n as_o have_v be_v and_o often_o be_v the_o case_n of_o martyr_n 4._o in_o the_o agonye_n of_o death_n to_o endure_v such_o terror_n affliction_n &_o temptation_n as_o the_o devil_n do_v then_o usuallye_o raise_v and_o procure_v or_o my_o dear_a god_n permit_v here_o follow_v resignation_n about_o external_a good_n 5._o to_o be_v deprive_v of_o the_o clothes_n i_o have_v or_o may_v have_v be_v they_o never_o so_o necessary_a for_o i_o the_o like_a for_o good_a book_n convenient_a lodging_n and_o to_o have_v these_o thing_n bestow_v upon_o one_o who_o in_o my_o nature_n i_o be_o most_o avert_v from_o 6._o to_o be_v drive_v to_o wear_v clothes_n that_o seem_v base_a or_o insufficient_a or_o unfit_a for_o the_o bodyâ—_n as_o over_o heavy_a &_o overhott_v for_o the_o summer_n or_o over_o thin_a and_o light_n for_o the_o cold_a winter_n or_o else_o clothes_n that_o be_v of_o hair_n rugged_a and_o painful_a to_o the_o body_n 7._o to_o be_v straighten_v or_o otherwise_o ilaccomodate_v for_o chamber_n or_o lodginge_v &_o hard_a beddinge_a &_o to_o want_v necessary_n in_o my_o lodginge_v and_o beddinge_a 8._o to_o want_v necessary_a clothes_n so_o as_o to_o be_v bring_v to_o that_o poverty_n that_o i_o be_o not_o only_o bare_o and_o base_o clothe_v but_o hard_o able_a to_o cover_v my_o nakedness_n whereby_o i_o may_v be_v wonderful_o contemn_v and_o despise_v by_o other_o 9_o to_o be_v turn_v out_o of_o door_n and_o to_o be_v deprive_v of_o all_o certain_a and_o proper_a place_n of_o habitation_n and_o thrust_v into_o the_o wide_a world_n and_o so_o entire_o leave_v to_o such_o destinye_a as_o god_n shall_v permit_v to_o fall_v upon_o i_o 10._o to_o have_v all_o the_o temporal_a good_n whereof_o i_o have_v the_o propriety_n or_o use_v take_v from_o i_o and_o to_o be_v leave_v as_o poor_a naked_a and_o desolate_a as_o ever_o job_n be_v or_o any_o man_n or_o weoman_n can_v be_v 11._o to_o endure_v the_o cross_n that_o in_o any_o sort_n spiritual_a or_o corporal_n may_v fall_v upon_o my_o friend_n or_o kindred_n or_o upon_o those_o who_o in_o my_o nature_n i_o most_o affect_v as_o to_o endure_v their_o death_n imprisonment_n dishonour_n loss_n of_o their_o land_n or_o good_n their_o extreme_a poverty_n or_o whatsoever_o else_o may_v happen_v unto_o they_o 12._o and_o on_o the_o other_o side_n to_o forbear_v and_o restreigne_a myself_o from_o all_o inordinate_a joy_n and_o complacence_n that_o i_o may_v take_v in_o their_o prosperity_n 13._o i_o be_o resign_v alsoe_o and_o hope_v to_o be_v well_o content_a that_o my_o friend_n and_o kindred_n lover_n and_o well_o wisher_n do_v alienate_v and_o withdraw_v their_o affection_n from_o i_o do_v forget_v and_o neglect_v i_o yea_o and_o come_v to_o be_v avert_v from_o i_o and_o to_o conceive_v and_o speak_v evil_a of_o i_o and_o do_v i_o evil_a office_n yet_o so_o as_o i_o commit_v no_o sin_n or_o give_v no_o just_a occasion_n of_o such_o aversion_n from_o i_o 14._o and_o further_o i_o resign_v myself_o to_o be_v leave_v and_o forsake_v of_o all_o creature_n in_o the_o world_n so_o that_o i_o have_v no_o man_n or_o any_o thing_n to_o cleave_v unto_o save_v thou_o only_o my_o jesus_n who_o will_v abundant_o suffice_v i_o 15._o i_o be_o resign_v and_o indifferent_a in_o what_o place_n and_o in_o what_o company_n i_o live_v and_o in_o particular_a to_o live_v with_o they_o from_o who_o my_o nature_n be_v most_o avert_v and_o to_o live_v with_o stranger_n aswell_o as_o with_o my_o familiar_n 16._o and_o to_o live_v with_o they_o with_o who_o and_o from_o who_o i_o shall_v find_v and_o receive_v most_o contradiction_n discourtesy_n and_o hard_a usage_n if_o it_o shall_v be_v the_o bless_a will_n and_o pleasure_n of_o thou_o my_o lord_n to_o allot_v or_o ordain_v i_o to_o live_v in_o such_o company_n 17._o i_o be_o resign_v to_o abide_v in_o this_o life_n in_o all_o sort_n of_o affliction_n for_o so_o long_o time_n as_o it_o shall_v please_v god_n though_o it_o be_v to_o the_o end_n of_o the_o world_n 18._o and_o not_o to_o yield_v to_o the_o motion_n or_o inclination_n of_o my_o nature_n that_o will_v perhaps_o out_o of_o wearisomeness_n fain_o have_v life_n at_o a_o end_n but_o in_o this_o i_o whole_o submit_v my_o will_n to_o the_o will_n of_o god_n amen_o here_o follow_v resignation_n about_o good_a name_n honour_n and_o estimation_n the_o iv_o exercise_n 1._o i_o be_o resign_v not_o only_o not_o to_o be_v belove_v or_o well_o think_v of_o by_o superior_n brother_n sister_n or_o other_o but_o even_o hate_v and_o evil_a thought_n of_o by_o they_o yet_o will_v i_o take_v heed_n through_o god_n grace_n not_o by_o any_o sin_n to_o give_v just_a occasion_n of_o such_o hatred_n or_o evil_a opinion_n of_o i_o 2._o and_o i_o be_o resign_v that_o all_o other_o yea_o my_o enemy_n be_v in_o great_a grace_n favour_n love_n and_o good_a opinion_n with_o superior_n and_o all_o other_o than_o i_o be_o 3._o to_o undergo_v all_o manner_n of_o disgrace_n reproach_n slander_n infamye_n dishonour_v taunt_n contempt_n neglect_n scoff_v backbiting_n and_o injury_n in_o my_o fame_n and_o to_o endure_v all_o these_o be_v they_o do_v to_o my_o face_n or_o behind_o my_o back_n whither_o i_o have_v just_a occasion_n for_o they_o or_o no_o and_o i_o be_o sorry_a for_o the_o sin_n so_o far_o as_o there_o be_v a_o sin_n in_o it_o and_o i_o be_o glad_a of_o the_o occasion_n grow_v by_o it_o of_o my_o resignation_n and_o mortification_n 4._o and_o whither_o they_o be_v do_v i_o by_o my_o superior_n or_o better_n or_o by_o my_o equal_n or_o else_o by_o such_o as_o in_o the_o condition_n of_o the_o world_n be_v inferior_a to_o i_o 5._o and_o whither_o they_o be_v do_v by_o such_o as_o i_o esteem_v my_o friend_n and_o of_o who_o i_o have_v better_a deserve_v or_o by_o any_o profess_a foe_n or_o as_o such_o behave_v themselves_o towards_o i_o though_o i_o esteem_v they_o to_o be_v in_o charity_n with_o i_o and_o all_o the_o world_n 6._o i_o be_o resign_v that_o my_o life_n or_o manner_n of_o my_o death_n be_v execrable_a odious_a and_o hateful_a to_o other_o and_o be_v dead_a to_o be_v evil_a thought_n of_o and_o evil_a speak_v of_o by_o other_o and_o to_o have_v no_o man_n that_o will_v vouchsafe_v to_o pray_v for_o i_o be_v dead_a but_o to_o be_v either_o clean_o forget_v or_o to_o have_v a_o ill_a memory_n and_o esteem_v 7._o yea_o thought_n by_o all_o the_o world_n to_o have_v dye_v out_o of_o the_o state_n of_o salvation_n and_o so_o damn_v for_o ever_o yea_o moreover_o to_o have_v it_o so_o set_v down_o and_o express_v in_o a_o print_a book_n or_o chronicle_v not_o only_o to_o my_o own_o everlasting_a shame_n but_o to_o the_o shame_n and_o confusion_n of_o my_o kindred_n and_o family_n 8._o and_o final_o in_o this_o life_n to_o be_v hold_v for_o the_o scum_n and_o outcast_n of_o all_o the_o race_n of_o mankind_n and_o forsake_v by_o all_o both_o as_o to_o their_o do_n and_o to_o their_o affection_n towards_o i_o 9_o in_o sickness_n and_o other_o occasion_n and_o necessity_n to_o be_v chargeable_a and_o troublesome_a to_o other_o and_o myself_o to_o be_v profitable_a to_o none_o at_o all_o nor_o in_o any_o sort_n to_o be_v
of_o wit_n or_o judgement_n disabilitie_n to_o express_v my_o mind_n by_o word_n or_o write_n ignorance_n or_o unskilfulnesse_n in_o such_o kind_a of_o thing_n as_o other_o of_o my_o call_n usuallye_o can_v do_v rawness_n harshness_n lowness_n or_o unpleasantnesse_n of_o voice_n blemish_n or_o defect_n in_o face_n or_o favour_n or_o in_o any_o other_o part_n of_o the_o body_n or_o in_o stature_n or_o in_o any_o other_o real_a or_o seeminge_v defect_n in_o soul_n or_o body_n or_o in_o be_v descend_v of_o poor_a or_o less_o noble_a parent_n or_o have_v poor_a or_o obscure_a kindred_n or_o friend_n in_o these_o and_o all_o other_o such_o like_a point_n i_o resign_v myself_o to_o god_n and_o i_o do_v and_o will_v still_o accept_v of_o my_o condition_n such_o as_o it_o be_v or_o may_v be_v and_o do_v not_o desire_v any_o betteringe_v lesseninge_v or_o alter_v of_o itt_n but_o that_o it_o may_v continue_v and_o be_v publish_v to_o all_o other_o for_o my_o mortification_n and_o humility_n 4._o i_o resign_v myself_o all_o the_o time_n of_o my_o life_n prove_v it_o never_o so_o long_o for_o the_o honour_n of_o god_n and_o his_o divine_a pleasure_n to_o labour_v all_o that_o i_o can_v both_o corporallye_o and_o spiritual_o for_o gayneinge_v of_o perfection_n that_o be_v the_o perfect_a love_n of_o god_n albeit_o i_o never_o reach_v unto_o itt_n or_o near_o unto_o itt_n therein_o and_o in_o all_o other_o thing_n resigninge_v and_o whole_o submittinge_n myself_o to_o what_o the_o majesty_n goodness_n and_o wisdom_n of_o god_n shall_v please_v to_o determine_v about_o i_o 5._o i_o resign_v myself_o as_o to_o all_o propriety_n and_o affection_n to_o book_n and_o instruction_n print_v and_o writtenâ—_n which_o i_o either_o have_v have_v now_o have_v or_o hereafter_o may_v have_v and_o do_v resign_v myself_o to_o be_v deprive_v of_o they_o when_o and_o by_o such_o mean_n as_o shall_v please_v god_n to_o deprive_v i_o of_o they_o and_o for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n i_o do_v for_o the_o present_a and_o for_o the_o future_a renounce_v and_o give_v over_o all_o affection_n to_o they_o 6._o the_o like_a i_o do_v for_o all_o those_o thing_n that_o i_o have_v for_o the_o use_n of_o my_o body_n or_o exercise_n of_o devotion_n as_o chamber_n beddinge_a cassock_n or_o any_o other_o cloathinge_n and_o all_o other_o thing_n appertaninge_n to_o the_o body_n 7._o bead_n relic_n reliquary_n agnus_n dei_fw-la with_o their_o silver_n gold_n or_o other_o precious_a case_n picture_n medal_n and_o whatsoever_o other_o material_a thing_n appertayninge_v to_o devotion_n or_o that_o may_v be_v a_o recreation_n solace_n or_o pleasure_n to_o the_o mind_n the_o x._o exercise_n 1._o i_o do_v most_o willing_o resign_v myself_o to_o be_v deprive_v of_o all_o instructor_n i_o mean_v man_n or_o woman_n that_o may_v or_o do_v instruct_v i_o and_o of_o all_o confessor_n both_o in_o general_n and_o particular_a purposinge_v with_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n ever_o to_o serve_v he_o the_o best_a i_o can_v accord_v to_o the_o natural_a talent_n which_o i_o have_v as_o alsoe_o accord_v to_o the_o supernatural_a talent_n and_o grace_n that_o he_o shall_v bestow_v on_o i_o hopinge_v in_o his_o goodness_n that_o he_o will_v by_o one_o mean_a or_o other_o supply_v i_o with_o all_o knowledge_n that_o shall_v be_v necessary_a for_o my_o soul_n albeit_o i_o be_v deprive_v of_o all_o those_o ordinary_a help_n of_o book_n instructor_n and_o confessor_n 2._o i_o resign_v myself_o to_o have_v my_o superior_n and_o all_o other_o who_o my_o nature_n will_v have_v to_o be_v most_o friendly_a unto_o i_o to_o be_v in_o all_o thing_n cross_v and_o contrary_a unto_o i_o yea_o and_o to_o persecute_v i_o so_o far_o as_o the_o providence_n of_o god_n shall_v permit_v purposinge_v through_o his_o grace_n and_o for_o his_o love_n to_o endure_v all_o 3._o since_o the_o tongue_n be_v a_o occasion_n of_o many_o sin_n and_o imperfection_n i_o do_v for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n renounce_v all_o affection_n to_o the_o use_n and_o exercise_n of_o the_o tongue_n and_o to_o all_o manner_n of_o talk_v and_o discoursinge_v so_o that_o if_o it_o may_v please_v god_n i_o will_v be_v content_v for_o his_o love_n to_o be_v make_v dumb_a and_o to_o have_v no_o tongue_n at_o all_o so_o that_o i_o can_v not_o speak_v 4._o because_o nevertheless_o the_o necessity_n of_o his_o life_n will_v not_o admit_v such_o mortification_n of_o absolute_a dumnesse_n in_o practice_n but_o that_o i_o must_v often_o speak_v either_o for_o my_o own_o need_n or_o for_o charity_n sake_n or_o for_o my_o ow_v recreation_n or_o for_o some_o other_o iuâ—t_a occasion_n i_o purpose_v with_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n that_o all_o my_o word_n and_o talk_n shall_v not_o be_v out_o of_o affection_n to_o talk_v but_o out_o of_o a_o reasonable_a necessity_n with_o a_o religious_a wariness_n that_o i_o offend_v not_o in_o the_o matter_n or_o manner_n of_o my_o speak_v givinge_v over_o so_o soon_o as_o convenient_o i_o may_v ever_o affectinge_v at_o least_o in_o my_o superior_a will_n if_o not_o in_o my_o nature_n or_o sensuality_n to_o have_v no_o use_n of_o my_o tongue_n at_o all_o nor_o wishinge_v to_o have_v need_n or_o just_a occasion_n for_o it_o save_v only_o for_o praysinge_v &_o honouring_n god_n so_o that_o by_o this_o mean_v my_o error_n &_o escape_v by_o occasion_n of_o talk_v do_v not_o proceed_v out_o of_o affection_n to_o talk_v itself_o but_o that_o the_o talk_n itself_o be_v necessitate_v and_o the_o which_o we_o can_v not_o well_o forbear_v 5._o for_o the_o love_n and_o honour_n of_o god_n i_o do_v renounce_v all_o manner_n of_o desire_n of_o honour_n and_o honourable_a place_n dignity_n and_o office_n that_o be_v oâ—_n authority_n command_n or_o direction_n or_o whatsoever_o may_v breed_v i_o estimation_n with_o other_o and_o thereby_o feed_v my_o proud_a nature_n 6._o and_o in_o steed_n thereof_o i_o will_v undergo_v any_o office_n place_n or_o employment_n that_o my_o nature_n do_v scorn_n and_o abhor_v if_o that_o obedience_n charity_n or_o the_o will_n of_o god_n do_v impose_v itt_n on_o i_o 7._o for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n i_o do_v renounce_v all_o vain_a complyinge_a conversation_n and_o correspondance_n with_o the_o world_n by_o letter_n token_n message_n or_o otherwise_o and_o all_o seeking_n to_o please_v the_o world_n with_o which_o in_o affection_n i_o desire_v to_o have_v no_o more_o to_o do_v then_o if_o i_o be_v real_o dead_a and_o bury_v desiringe_v only_o to_o serve_v and_o please_v god_n yea_o i_o desire_v so_o much_o to_o be_v forget_v by_o the_o world_n that_o it_o may_v not_o remember_v or_o know_v thaâ—_n there_o be_v or_o ever_o be_v any_o such_o creature_n as_o i_o be_o or_o as_o if_o i_o have_v never_o at_o all_o be_v bear_v 8._o for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n i_o renounce_v all_o inordinate_a affection_n to_o my_o parent_n friend_n and_o kindred_n as_o if_o i_o be_v another_o melchisedec_n who_o parent_n and_o kindred_n be_v utter_o unknown_a both_o to_o himself_o and_o to_o all_o other_o and_o do_v resign_v myself_o to_o be_v neglect_v and_o forsake_v by_o they_o all_o yea_o and_o to_o have_v they_o without_o any_o just_a occasion_n give_v by_o i_o avert_v from_o i_o so_o that_o they_o abhor_v to_o hear_v i_o name_v nor_o can_v endure_v so_o muchâ—_n as_o to_o think_v of_o i_o 9_o for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n i_o renounce_v all_o affection_n to_o meat_n and_o drink_v as_o to_o any_o pleasure_n or_o delight_n that_o i_o willing_o intend_v in_o they_o and_o do_v rather_o if_o it_o may_v please_v god_n to_o grant_v itt_n unto_o i_o choose_v for_o the_o mortification_n of_o my_o sensuality_n that_o i_o may_v never_o need_v to_o eat_v or_o drink_v at_o all_o but_o be_v deliver_v from_o the_o necessity_n of_o itt_n and_o in_o such_o case_n will_v i_o desire_v to_o live_v so_o long_o as_o it_o shall_v please_v god_n that_o i_o abide_v in_o thâ—â—_n lise_fw-fr i_o mean_v without_o eatinge_v or_o drink_v and_o without_o need_n to_o eat_v or_o drink_v or_o to_o take_v any_o thing_n that_o may_v be_v please_a to_o my_o body_n or_o nature_n 10._o but_o since_o it_o can_v be_v so_o but_o that_o i_o needs_o must_v eat_v and_o drink_v i_o will_v do_v it_o for_o the_o love_n and_o service_n of_o god_n and_o not_o mere_o or_o at_o all_o for_o my_o own_o will_n and_o pleasure_n it_o be_v continue_v the_o xi_o exerciseâ—_n 1â—_n in_o the_o like_a manner_n i_o resign_v myself_o as_o to_o the_o affection_n for_o sleepinge_v recreation_n and_o all_o other_o corporal_a refreshment_n and_o solace_n to_o take_v they_o only_o for_o god_n and_o not_o for_o my_o own_o will_n or_o satisfaction_n and_o to_o be_v willing_a altogether_o to_o