favour_n to_o tremble_v at_o thy_o frown_n to_o submit_v to_o thy_o rod_n to_o think_v nothing_o too_o dear_a to_o part_v withal_o to_o purchase_v thy_o grace_n to_o promote_v thy_o glory_n thou_o o_o lord_n love_v not_o a_o cowardly_a christian_a if_o i_o prefer_v any_o thing_n to_o thy_o love_n i_o be_o most_o unworthy_a of_o it_o that_o friendship_n be_v too_o dear_o buy_v which_o can_v be_v enjoy_v without_o the_o loss_n of_o thy_o favour_n if_o my_o brother_n offend_v i_o i_o will_v labour_v to_o restore_v he_o with_o the_o spirit_n of_o meekness_n lest_o whilst_o i_o study_v to_o rebuke_v another_o i_o become_v guilty_a myself_o no_o sin_n shall_v pass_v i_o without_o some_o show_n of_o distaste_n without_o some_o feel_n of_o my_o maker_n injury_n and_o my_o brother_n misery_n if_o i_o be_v not_o move_v with_o compassion_n for_o another_o sin_n i_o shall_v never_o be_v move_v with_o contrition_n for_o my_o own_o such_o comfort_n as_o i_o can_v willing_o afford_v another_o i_o may_v well_o hope_v shall_v be_v gracious_o confer_v on_o myself_o in_o my_o reproof_n of_o sin_n i_o will_v observe_v these_o holy_a caution_n lest_o while_o i_o endeavour_v to_o become_v serviceable_a unto_o thou_o i_o prove_v injurious_a to_o my_o neighbour_n private_a sin_n shall_v not_o have_v public_a reprehension_n neither_o shall_v public_a sin_n be_v undecent_o reprove_v by_o i_o a_o private_a person_n piety_n must_v not_o confound_v charity_n nor_o religion_n policy_n lord_n i_o may_v easy_o transgress_v even_o in_o my_o best_a intention_n how_o grievous_o have_v i_o then_o fail_v in_o my_o rebellious_a action_n when_o i_o have_v not_o fear_v thou_o with_o that_o sincerity_n of_o heart_n which_o become_v thy_o child_n when_o i_o have_v not_o love_v thou_o for_o that_o beauty_n for_o that_o richness_n for_o that_o goodness_n which_o thou_o be_v but_o for_o those_o outward_a blessing_n which_o i_o enjoy_v from_o thou_o when_o i_o serve_v thou_o for_o base_a and_o by_o respect_n such_o and_o so_o unbeseeming_a my_o profession_n so_o far_o below_o that_o soul_n which_o thou_o have_v give_v i_o that_o thou_o may_v just_o now_o withhold_v thy_o blessing_n from_o i_o when_o i_o have_v hitherto_o seek_v but_o myself_o in_o thou_o when_o my_o thought_n have_v be_v carnal_a my_o word_n hypocritical_a my_o service_n deceitful_a to_o thy_o glory_n lord_n and_o my_o own_o deserve_a shame_n i_o willing_o confess_v that_o i_o have_v not_o only_o sin_v through_o the_o frailty_n of_o my_o nature_n but_o i_o have_v sin_v also_o with_o a_o high_a hand_n sin_n have_v not_o only_o surprise_v i_o at_o unaware_o but_o i_o have_v obey_v it_o in_o the_o lust_n thereof_o with_o willingness_n with_o greediness_n with_o joyfulness_n i_o have_v not_o only_o corrupt_v my_o own_o way_n before_o thou_o by_o my_o own_o sin_n but_o i_o have_v also_o foolish_o contract_v other_o fault_n by_o hear_v and_o see_v thou_o my_o god_n dishonour_v in_o vain_a and_o sinful_a discourse_n in_o more_o vain_a and_o sinful_a excess_n without_o show_n of_o dislike_n without_o thought_n of_o reproof_n yea_o lord_n i_o have_v add_v unto_o other_o sin_n by_o my_o example_n while_o i_o have_v fear_v to_o reprove_v that_o which_o i_o have_v know_v to_o be_v distasteful_a unto_o thou_o while_o i_o have_v seem_v to_o love_v that_o which_o have_v be_v hateful_a to_o i_o own_o soul_n with_o those_o time-pleasing_a ruler_n in_o the_o gospel_n i_o have_v believe_v in_o thou_o but_o because_o of_o the_o pharisee_n because_o of_o outward_a respect_n i_o have_v fear_v to_o confess_v thou_o and_o have_v love_v the_o praise_n of_o man_n more_o than_o the_o praise_n of_o god_n but_o thou_o lord_n who_o art_n infinite_o good_a and_o ever_o ready_a to_o forgive_v who_o wise_a and_o over_o roll_a providence_n be_v only_o able_a to_o produce_v the_o great_a good_a out_o of_o the_o great_a evil_n pardon_v and_o pass_v by_o my_o many_o and_o my_o weak_a compliance_n of_o sinful_a nature_n supply_v my_o defect_n accept_v my_o desire_n encourage_v my_o endeavour_n let_v thy_o power_n be_v magnify_v in_o my_o weakness_n thy_o love_n in_o my_o wilfulness_n thy_o grace_n in_o my_o sinfulness_n suffer_v i_o not_o o_o lord_n to_o run_v from_o thou_o by_o a_o base_a and_o servile_a fear_n of_o thy_o justice_n o_o let_v i_o rather_o run_v into_o the_o bosom_n of_o thy_o love_n by_o a_o filial_a fear_n in_o sweet_a and_o safe_a assurance_n of_o thy_o mercy_n lord_n make_v i_o to_o see_v the_o fearfulness_n and_o ugliness_n of_o sin_n by_o the_o bright_a ray_n of_o thy_o celestial_a beauty_n o_o let_v i_o patient_o and_o joyful_o and_o thankful_o endure_v thy_o sweet_a chastisement_n for_o it_o and_o speedy_o and_o constant_o withdraw_v my_o long_n from_o it_o give_v i_o a_o yearning_n and_o relent_a soul_n for_o grieve_v thy_o good_a spirit_n give_v i_o o_o lord_n that_o chaste_a and_o bless_a fear_n belong_v only_o to_o thy_o child_n that_o i_o may_v not_o fear_v thou_o to_o tremble_v at_o thou_o but_o to_o love_v thou_o to_o honour_v thou_o to_o delight_v in_o thou_o to_o enjoy_v thou_o lord_n make_v i_o jealous_a of_o every_o deed_n of_o every_o word_n of_o every_o thought_n that_o may_v displease_v thou_o and_o true_o penitent_a for_o all_o those_o sin_n by_o which_o i_o have_v so_o much_o dishonour_v thou_o endue_v i_o with_o a_o loyal_a heart_n to_o love_v thou_o true_o as_o i_o ought_v strengthen_v this_o love_n with_o holy_a confidence_n and_o happy_a perseverance_n that_o may_v for_o ever_o hanish_v this_o unholy_a fear_n that_o so_o my_o joyful_a soul_n may_v live_v above_o the_o reach_n of_o humane_a misery_n that_o i_o may_v be_v capable_a of_o no_o fear_n but_o of_o offend_v thou_o and_o that_o i_o may_v not_o only_o fear_v thou_o myself_o but_o be_v jealous_a also_o of_o thy_o fear_n in_o other_o lord_n let_v nothing_o in_o this_o life_n withdraw_v i_o from_o a_o zealous_a and_o a_o constant_a love_n to_o thy_o service_n from_o a_o faithful_a and_o devout_a endeavour_n to_o promote_v thy_o glory_n that_o so_o i_o may_v be_v ever_o find_v true_o obedient_a unto_o thou_o my_o god_n religious_o acquaint_v with_o the_o affair_n of_o this_o life_n pious_o affect_v to_o the_o good_a of_o my_o own_o soul_n amen_n chap._n 22._o upon_o the_o great_a neglect_n of_o reckon_v daily_o with_o our_o conscience_n and_o the_o benefit_n lose_v thereby_o consider_v o_o my_o soul_n how_o venomous_a the_o nature_n of_o sin_n be_v if_o thou_o can_v afford_v to_o sleep_v in_o small_a sin_n thou_o will_v not_o stick_v to_o welcome_v great_a sin_n be_v of_o a_o encroach_a nature_n if_o thou_o suffer_v it_o to_o sleep_v in_o thy_o bosom_n it_o will_v expect_v to_o dwell_v there_o little_a sin_n be_v harbinger_n to_o big_a one_o if_o thou_o lodge_v these_o those_o will_v challenge_v entertainment_n let_v each_o evening_n therefore_o take_v a_o strict_a account_n of_o that_o day_n action_n and_o where_o thou_o find_v thyself_o fail_v pray_v hearty_o for_o pardon_n in_o thy_o entrance_n upon_o this_o holy_a course_n thou_o will_v sure_o find_v three_o potent_a opposition_n satan_n will_v tell_v thou_o that_o god_n require_v no_o such_o strictness_n at_o thy_o hand_n the_o world_n will_v tell_v thou_o thou_o have_v this_o or_o that_o employment_n to_o consider_v of_o thy_o own_o corruption_n will_v persuade_v thou_o that_o nature_n will_v abhor_v this_o discontent_a course_n that_o thy_o spirit_n will_v be_v too_o much_o dull_v and_o thy_o life_n will_v prove_v uncomfortable_a alas_o my_o soul_n these_o be_v delusion_n to_o betray_v thou_o to_o a_o great_a mischief_n as_o there_o be_v degree_n of_o sanctification_n so_o there_o be_v of_o pollution_n no_o man_n become_v evil_a in_o a_o instant_n from_o hence_o it_o be_v that_o sometime_o the_o soul_n can_v start_v even_o at_o the_o very_a thought_n of_o that_o sin_n which_o by_o degree_n it_o can_v digest_v without_o disturbance_n if_o holy_a david_n have_v account_v with_o his_o conscience_n after_o his_o lustful_a look_n on_o bathsheba_n doubtless_o those_o fearful_a sin_n of_o he_o have_v never_o be_v commit_v o_o let_v not_o any_o vain_a pretence_n deter_v thou_o from_o this_o task_n but_o the_o bless_a benefit_n allure_v thou_o if_o the_o entrance_n be_v harsh_a the_o progress_n will_v be_v safe_a the_o continuance_n sweet_a the_o end_n happy_a by_o this_o enquiry_n thou_o shall_v see_v thy_o sin_n those_o great_a disturber_n of_o thy_o pâ—ace_n arraign_v convict_v condemn_a and_o by_o the_o mercy_n of_o thy_o saviour_n daily_o die_v in_o thou_o satan_n repulse_v the_o gift_n and_o grace_n of_o god_n holy_a spirit_n strengthen_v thy_o mourning_n comfort_v thy_o infirmity_n sustain_v thy_o conscience_n quit_v thy_o rejoice_n exalt_v the_o holy_a angel_n delight_v and_o thy_o heavenly_a father_n well_o
deprave_a nature_n this_o sin_n have_v doubtless_o be_v a_o sad_a memorial_n to_o my_o grave_n such_o be_v the_o power_n of_o sin_n once_o grow_v habitual_a o_o let_v my_o sorrowful_a confession_n be_v the_o reader_n useful_a instruction_n that_o thou_o may_v have_v the_o glory_n i_o the_o shame_n of_o my_o mis-doing_a lord_n i_o have_v often_o sin_v against_o thou_o by_o my_o wretched_a violation_n of_o the_o truth_n in_o envious_a detraction_n from_o the_o good_a of_o my_o neighbour_n vainglorious_a aggravation_n of_o my_o own_o ability_n censorious_a taxation_n of_o my_o brethren_n infirmity_n indulgent_a diminution_n of_o i_o own_o iniquity_n i_o have_v often_o grieve_v thy_o good_a spirit_n by_o which_o thou_o have_v seal_v i_o up_o unto_o the_o day_n of_o redemption_n by_o my_o vain_a and_o idle_a communication_n by_o my_o rash_a and_o sinful_a exprobration_n by_o my_o weak_a and_o froward_a objurgation_n to_o the_o great_a dishonour_n of_o thou_o my_o god_n to_o the_o cominuall_a grief_n of_o thy_o saint_n to_o the_o sad_a disturbance_n of_o myself_o all_o this_o to_o my_o heart_n grief_n have_v i_o often_o do_v and_o by_o all_o this_o i_o may_v now_o plain_o see_v how_o much_o i_o have_v hitherto_o be_v the_o servant_n of_o sin_n and_o satan_n how_o great_a a_o enemy_n to_o thy_o glory_n and_o to_o the_o good_a of_o my_o own_o soul_n but_o now_o lord_n by_o thy_o assistance_n my_o special_a care_n shall_v henceforth_o be_v to_o allow_v myself_o no_o liberty_n of_o speech_n but_o what_o be_v aim_v at_o eternity_n if_o my_o heart_n be_v heavenly_a my_o word_n will_v be_v gracious_a my_o action_n holy_a my_o end_n happy_a and_o that_o all_o this_o may_v be_v so_o indeed_o by_o thy_o grace_n lord_n i_o will_v observe_v with_o carefulness_n and_o constancy_n these_o follow_a caution_n 1._o before_o i_o speak_v i_o will_v consider_v that_o i_o be_o in_o thy_o bless_a presence_n that_o what_o be_v once_o â—pâ—kâ—n_o can_v never_o be_v recall_v but_o be_v record_v for_o eterternity_n 2._o that_o each_o idle_a word_n must_v be_v account_v for_o and_o that_o my_o whole_a life_n hitherto_o have_v be_v little_a else_o but_o vain_a and_o empty_a discourse_n tend_v much_o to_o thy_o dishonour_n the_o hurt_n of_o my_o neighbour_n and_o without_o mercy_n in_o christ_n the_o destruction_n of_o my_o own_o soul_n 3._o that_o there_o be_v no_o true_a testimony_n of_o a_o graceless_a heart_n than_o a_o licentious_a tongue_n that_o if_o i_o be_v not_o holy_a in_o my_o discourse_n i_o can_v never_o be_v happy_a in_o my_o action_n 4._o that_o it_o be_v impossible_a for_o those_o prayer_n to_o be_v please_v to_o god_n which_o be_v offer_v up_o with_o that_o sinful_a member_n that_o be_v so_o shameful_o defile_v with_o evil_a and_o corrupt_a communication_n among_o man_n 5._o that_o if_o i_o make_v a_o mock_n at_o christianity_n by_o have_v only_o a_o form_n of_o godliness_n in_o my_o outward_a action_n but_o deny_v the_o power_n thereof_o in_o my_o usual_a conversation_n god_n will_v one_o day_n pay_v i_o home_o by_o show_v i_o the_o richness_n of_o his_o suffering_n but_o deny_v i_o the_o benefit_n thereof_o and_o the_o sweet_a enjoyment_n thereby_o 6._o that_o without_o helinesse_n no_o man_n shall_v see_v the_o lord_n and_o that_o such_o as_o be_v my_o common_a and_o most_o accustom_a discourse_n in_o my_o life_n i_o may_v well_o fear_v will_v be_v my_o last_o and_o most_o uncomfortable_a expression_n at_o my_o death_n 7._o unto_o all_o this_o i_o will_v add_v the_o shortness_n misery_n and_o uncertainty_n of_o a_o sinful_a life_n the_o horror_n and_o amazement_n of_o a_o wretched_a death_n the_o extremity_n and_o eternity_n of_o torment_n after_o death_n lord_n when_o my_o heart_n be_v thus_o guard_v by_o thy_o grace_n my_o lip_n i_o trust_v will_v be_v ever_o open_a to_o thy_o praise_n bless_a god_n if_o thy_o holy_a angel_n dare_v not_o give_v rail_v accusation_n against_o the_o devil_n if_o thy_o sainss_n in_o patience_n possess_v their_o own_o soul_n and_o their_o speech_n he_o season_v with_o salt_n administer_a grace_n to_o the_o heart_n of_o the_o hearer_n if_o thou_o the_o bless_a saviour_n of_o the_o world_n when_o thou_o be_v revile_v revile_v not_o again_o but_o as_o a_o lamb_n before_o the_o shearer_n so_o open_v thou_o not_o thy_o mouth_n with_o what_o comfort_n can_v i_o now_o appear_v before_o thou_o with_o what_o confidence_n expect_v a_o blessing_n from_o thou_o with_o grief_n and_o sorrow_n i_o confess_v that_o my_o heart_n have_v ever_o be_v full_a of_o corruption_n and_o naughtiness_n my_o mouth_n full_a of_o curse_v and_o bitterness_n my_o daily_a discourse_n full_a of_o folly_n and_o uncleanness_n the_o whole_a course_n of_o my_o life_n full_a of_o misery_n and_o wickedness_n o_o that_o my_o head_n be_v water_n and_o my_o eye_n a_o fountain_n of_o tear_n that_o i_o may_v weep_v day_n and_o night_n that_o i_o may_v mourn_v continual_o for_o my_o own_o and_o other_o sin_n lord_n purify_v my_o heart_n and_o rectify_v my_o tongue_n that_o both_o may_v be_v accept_v of_o thou_o and_o now_o and_o ever_o gracious_o direct_v by_o thou_o lord_n i_o acknowledge_v my_o fault_n and_o my_o sin_n be_v ever_o before_o i_o o_o let_v the_o sorrowful_a remembrance_n of_o my_o sin_n invite_v thou_o to_o a_o sweet_a remembrance_n of_o thy_o mercy_n that_o thou_o may_v have_v the_o praise_n and_o i_o the_o comfort_n of_o thy_o gracious_a pardon_n lord_n let_v my_o heart_n be_v inflame_v with_o thy_o love_n and_o my_o mouth_n fill_v with_o thy_o praise_n that_o i_o may_v sacrifile_v my_o soul_n unto_o thou_o that_o i_o may_v sanctify_v my_o soul_n before_o thou_o by_o devout_a thought_n by_o gracious_a word_n and_o godly_a action_n that_o so_o i_o may_v with_o joyfulness_n and_o thankfulness_n appear_v in_o thy_o fight_n not_o only_o all_o the_o day_n long_o but_o even_o all_o my_o life_n long_o that_o thou_o my_o god_n may_v be_v glorify_v thy_o saint_n delight_v and_o my_o sinfnll_a foul_a eternal_o comfort_v amen_n chap._n 39_o upon_o holy_a revenge_n for_o sin_n with_o motive_n and_o encouragement_n thereunto_o lord_n i_o have_v ever_o be_v too_o apt_a to_o revenge_v the_o small_a injury_n offer_v unto_o i_o by_o other_o in_o relation_n to_o my_o outward_a condition_n and_o too_o remiss_a in_o that_o holy_a revenge_n of_o those_o great_a and_o insufferable_a wrong_n which_o i_o daily_o and_o hourly_o obtrude_v upon_o my_o own_o soul_n this_o plain_o show_v i_o to_o have_v be_v too_o much_o savour_v of_o flesh_n and_o blood_n too_o little_a mindful_a of_o thy_o kingdom_n and_o the_o righteousness_n thereof_o that_o soul_n which_o be_v true_o sensible_a of_o its_o own_o injury_n will_v by_o thy_o grace_n be_v daily_o mind_v of_o its_o own_o redresle_n and_o that_o sinner_n which_o be_v uncapable_a of_o slight_a offence_n will_v in_o time_n become_v insensible_a of_o great_a my_o great_a enemy_n be_v those_o of_o my_o own_o household_n the_o world_n may_v allure_v i_o the_o devil_n persuade_v i_o but_o it_o be_v i_o own_o false_a heart_n alone_o that_o betray_v i_o and_o my_o own_o corrupt_a nature_n that_o enslave_v i_o my_o great_a care_n shall_v therefore_o be_v to_o bend_v my_o strong_a force_n against_o my_o own_o corruption_n to_o labour_n much_o to_o subdue_v my_o affection_n and_o to_o take_v a_o holy_a revenge_n upon_o my_o sinful_a action_n not_o to_o satisfy_v thy_o justice_n but_o to_o implore_v thy_o mercy_n that_o i_o may_v thereby_o true_o manifest_v my_o perfect_a hatred_n against_o sin_n and_o the_o sincerity_n of_o my_o soul_n to_o thy_o service_n there_o need_v none_o other_o motive_n to_o invite_v i_o to_o this_o holy_a duty_n than_o the_o woeful_a breach_n sin_n have_v daily_o make_v in_o my_o soul_n such_o as_o without_o mercy_n will_v never_o be_v repair_v this_o be_v too_o sad_o prove_v by_o the_o sensible_a decay_n of_o goodness_n and_o the_o too_o powerful_a growth_n of_o ungodliness_n in_o my_o corrupt_a heart_n as_o it_o be_v easy_a for_o that_o castle_n to_o stand_v a_o close_a siege_n that_o be_v well_o fortify_v mane_v and_o victual_v so_o be_v it_o impossible_a for_o that_o fort_n to_o hold_v out_o long_o which_o make_v no_o resistance_n lord_n as_o my_o own_o spiritual_a ruin_n have_v hitherto_o be_v cause_v by_o my_o own_o neglect_n so_o by_o thy_o gracious_a assistance_n my_o own_o repair_n shall_v be_v begin_v and_o finish_v by_o my_o present_a desire_n and_o future_a endeavour_n that_o time_n which_o i_o have_v lose_v by_o former_a carelessness_n and_o coldness_n in_o religion_n i_o will_v endeavour_v to_o redeem_v by_o holy_a vigilance_n and_o christian_a fortitude_n and_o that_o i_o may_v sincere_o be_v what_o i_o intend_v with_o willingness_n of_o heart_n i_o offer_v up_o this_o solemn_a vow_n unto_o
worst_a room_n in_o thy_o house_n be_v too_o good_a even_o for_o the_o best_a of_o we_o yet_o decency_n of_o place_n may_v be_v take_v with_o modesty_n if_o not_o seek_v with_o emulation_n during_o the_o time_n of_o this_o holy_a dispensation_n i_o will_v call_v my_o thought_n unto_o a_o strict_a attendance_n and_o make_v it_o part_n of_o my_o precedent_a prayer_n that_o i_o may_v satan_n be_v ever_o most_o busy_a when_o our_o intention_n be_v most_o holy_a which_o when_o he_o can_v divert_v he_o labour_v to_o corrupt_v and_o by_o this_o mean_n when_o i_o desire_v to_o grow_v better_a i_o become_v worse_o how_o careful_a ought_v i_o to_o be_v to_o avoid_v his_o cunning_n who_o can_v cozen_v i_o in_o my_o best_a action_n my_o soul_n shall_v more_o delight_v itself_o with_o the_o matter_n than_o my_o ear_n with_o the_o melody_n of_o thy_o sacred_a note_n church-music_n will_v be_v then_o true_o sweet_a unto_o i_o when_o my_o outward_a joy_n be_v subservient_fw-fr to_o my_o inward_a man_n sinful_a weakness_n shall_v not_o make_v i_o slight_v thy_o holy_a ordinance_n if_o my_o pastor_n have_v fail_n i_o will_v pity_v and_o pray_v for_o he_o but_o not_o despise_v he_o if_o i_o look_v into_o my_o own_o soul_n i_o shall_v there_o find_v work_n enough_o to_o repair_v my_o own_o ruin_n this_o lord_n shall_v rather_o move_v i_o to_o extol_v thy_o mercy_n in_o uphold_v my_o own_o step_n to_o lament_v the_o sadness_n of_o my_o brother_n misery_n lord_n let_v i_o never_o think_v myself_o better_a than_o another_o because_o i_o know_v not_o how_o soon_o i_o may_v become_v worse_o i_o shall_v willing_o continue_v in_o that_o fold_n where_o thou_o have_v place_v i_o and_o hope_v to_o remain_v there_o with_o comfort_n till_o thou_o shall_v lead_v i_o out_o with_o safety_n while_o i_o be_o at_o thy_o feed_n i_o be_o happy_a one_o of_o thy_o morsel_n well_o digest_v with_o humility_n and_o thankfulness_n will_v yield_v i_o better_a nourishment_n than_o that_o other_o food_n of_o my_o 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peace_n and_o now_o o_o lord_n if_o thou_o shall_v call_v i_o to_o a_o strict_a account_n for_o all_o my_o misdemeanour_n in_o thy_o sacred_a worship_n with_o what_o confusion_n of_o face_n must_v â—needs_o appear_v before_o thou_o how_o many_o evil_a suggestion_n how_o many_o idle_a imagination_n how_o many_o sinful_a object_n have_v i_o often_o entertain_v to_o divert_v my_o thought_n from_o thy_o service_n i_o have_v too_o often_o sin_v in_o absent_v thy_o house_n but_o more_o often_o and_o more_o grievous_o in_o frequent_v it_o by_o come_v careless_o and_o out_o of_o custom_n by_o unbeseeming_a gesture_n cold_a prayer_n heartless_a hear_n profane_a scoff_a curious_a censure_v and_o even_o in_o the_o best_a of_o my_o performance_n by_o serve_v thou_o my_o god_n by_o half_n all_o this_o i_o hearty_o bewail_v and_o earnest_o desire_v thy_o pardon_n and_o forgiveness_n for_o it_o lord_n let_v this_o day_n rest_n of_o my_o body_n bring_v to_o my_o remembrance_n that_o eternal_a rest_n of_o my_o soul_n let_v i_o not_o now_o think_v my_o own_o thought_n speak_v my_o own_o word_n do_v my_o own_o action_n but_o come_v before_o thou_o with_o a_o sanctify_a and_o humble_a soul_n with_o a_o wound_a and_o contrite_a spirit_n repel_v all_o evil_a suggestion_n remove_v all_o idle_a imagination_n divert_v all_o sinful_a object_n enlighten_v my_o understanding_n rectify_v my_o will_n strengthen_v my_o memory_n subdue_v my_o affection_n that_o i_o may_v rejoice_v in_o thy_o love_n delight_n in_o thy_o law_n long_o for_o thy_o presence_n rely_v on_o thy_o promise_n thirst_v for_o thy_o grace_n and_o be_v for_o ever_o bless_v in_o thy_o glory_n amen_n chap._n 6._o upon_o our_o return_v from_o god_n house_n and_o the_o neglect_n of_o private_a duty_n lord_n he_o that_o know_v thou_o will_v undoubted_o delight_v to_o serve_v thou_o if_o i_o call_v thy_o sabbath_n a_o delight_n my_o thought_n in_o this_o day_n will_v be_v pure_a my_o word_n gracious_a my_o action_n holy_a that_o soul_n which_o can_v joyful_o familiarize_v itself_o with_o thou_o in_o this_o life_n may_v well_o be_v fearful_a to_o be_v see_v of_o thou_o in_o that_o to_o come_v when_o i_o serious_o consider_v what_o a_o rich_a favour_n i_o enjoy_v how_o great_a a_o distance_n i_o be_o at_o from_o thou_o my_o god_n how_o sweet_a a_o mercy_n thou_o afforde_o i_o to_o speak_v unto_o thou_o i_o can_v but_o confess_v my_o own_o unworthiness_n if_o i_o regard_v not_o what_o i_o hear_v if_o i_o rejoice_v not_o to_o recall_v thy_o bless_a word_n to_o my_o remembrance_n how_o dreadful_a be_v that_o voice_n that_o speak_v in_o thunder_n and_o how_o severe_a the_o word_n that_o then_o be_v speak_v how_o bless_a be_v this_o still_a music_n of_o the_o gospel_n and_o how_o delightful_a to_o my_o wound_a spirit_n lord_n let_v this_o raise_v my_o soul_n above_o the_o reach_n of_o earthly_a vanity_n let_v this_o encourage_v i_o to_o heavenly_a chearfullnesse_n in_o heavenly_a duty_n to_o be_v joyful_a in_o read_v fervent_a in_o prayer_n frequent_a in_o meditation_n constant_a in_o all_o that_o knowledge_n will_v make_v woeful_o wise_a which_o teach_v i_o to_o know_v and_o not_o to_o do_v thy_o will_n meditation_n be_v the_o life_n of_o hear_v practise_v the_o life_n of_o meditation_n and_o a_o sincere_a heart_n the_o life_n of_o practice_n when_o i_o look_v into_o my_o life_n past_a i_o find_v it_o to_o be_v all_o sin_n when_o i_o consider_v of_o my_o life_n present_a i_o can_v but_o confess_v it_o to_o be_v all_o shame_n i_o be_o still_o so_o far_o from_o grow_v better_a that_o i_o be_o become_v much_o worse_o this_o be_v that_o bless_a day_n which_o concern_v my_o peace_n if_o i_o embrace_v not_o this_o happy_a opportunity_n i_o may_v just_o fear_v these_o gracious_a offer_n will_v be_v hide_v for_o ever_o from_o my_o eye_n each_o word_n that_o i_o hear_v thy_o day_n be_v of_o weight_n if_o i_o become_v not_o more_o holy_a by_o my_o heavenly_a improvement_n by_o it_o i_o shall_v certain_o become_v sinful_a by_o my_o careless_a neglect_v of_o it_o thy_o work_n o_o lord_n will_v have_v its_o end_n and_o this_o end_n either_o to_o my_o happiness_n or_o ruin_n shall_v assure_o promote_v thy_o glory_n there_o be_v no_o vacuity_n in_o nature_n with_o thou_o the_o god_n of_o nature_n there_o can_v be_v none_o think_v therefore_o o_o my_o soul_n that_o this_o day_n instruction_n may_v be_v thy_o last_o as_o thou_o hope_v for_o heaven_n let_v it_o not_o pass_v thou_o without_o some_o profit_n consider_v serious_o how_o many_o million_o of_o world_n one_o lose_v soul_n will_v give_v to_o be_v restore_v to_o thy_o condition_n that_o to_o morrow_n thou_o may_v be_v as_o one_o of_o they_o and_o then_o judge_v how_o great_a will_v be_v thy_o folly_n how_o woeful_a thy_o misery_n if_o thou_o trifle_v with_o those_o sacred_a counsel_n which_o concern_v thy_o rest_n o_o thou_o god_n of_o infinite_a compassion_n look_v not_o upon_o those_o infinite_a fail_n of_o my_o sinful_a nature_n but_o behold_v i_o in_o the_o beauty_n and_o perfection_n of_o thy_o blessed_a son_n teach_v i_o o_o lord_n to_o see_v the_o rebellion_n of_o my_o own_o wicked_a heart_n by_o his_o perfect_a obedience_n my_o sinfulness_n by_o his_o righteousness_n my_o misery_n by_o his_o mercy_n forgive_v my_o many_o and_o sinful_a compliance_n of_o nature_n which_o have_v make_v i_o a_o stranger_n to_o thy_o grace_n and_o my_o own_o happiness_n the_o great_a neglect_n of_o my_o obedience_n unto_o thy_o command_n have_v just_o call_v for_o the_o great_a and_o heavy_a load_n of_o my_o affliction_n the_o careless_a withdraw_n of_o my_o affection_n from_o thou_o my_o god_n have_v occasion_v the_o sad_a departing_n of_o thy_o holy_a spirit_n from_o i_o o_o that_o my_o loss_n of_o tear_n
long_a patience_n in_o thy_o great_a goodness_n in_o thy_o rich_a mercy_n in_o thy_o fatherly_a affection_n towards_o i_o i_o be_o woeful_o sink_v into_o the_o deep_a mire_n of_o sin_n where_o no_o stay_n be_v lord_n uphold_v i_o by_o thy_o grace_n that_o i_o perish_v not_o eternal_o o_o deliver_v i_o for_o thy_o mercy_n sake_n for_o i_o be_o helpless_a and_o poor_a and_o my_o heart_n be_v wound_v within_o i_o let_v my_o soul_n live_v and_o it_o shall_v praise_v thou_o and_o thy_o judgement_n shall_v help_v i_o as_o thou_o have_v raise_v i_o by_o thy_o power_n so_o rule_v i_o by_o thy_o providence_n that_o thy_o grace_n may_v be_v far_o sweet_a with_o my_o suffering_n than_o my_o pleasure_n with_o my_o sin_n restrain_v my_o loose_a desire_n renew_v my_o good_a purpose_n assist_v my_o weak_a endeavour_n correct_v my_o error_n sustain_v my_o infirmity_n give_v i_o a_o godly_a sorrow_n for_o my_o sin_n a_o thankful_a heart_n for_o thy_o favour_n a_o filial_a fear_n of_o thy_o judgement_n a_o sincere_a love_n to_o thy_o law_n a_o holy_a constancy_n and_o happy_a perseverance_n to_o my_o life_n end_v amen_n chap._n 13._o upon_o the_o great_a danger_n of_o presumption_n alas_o my_o soul_n how_o vain_a be_v thou_o how_o wretched_a to_o presume_v upon_o the_o mercy_n of_o thy_o god_n how_o can_v thou_o be_v so_o foolish_a to_o believe_v that_o god_n will_v favour_v thou_o in_o that_o which_o he_o so_o severe_o punish_v in_o his_o own_o son_n think_v thou_o that_o precious_a blood_n be_v spill_v to_o cherish_v sin_n be_v not_o mistake_v for_o as_o christ_n jesus_n come_v into_o the_o world_n to_o save_v sinner_n so_o he_o come_v also_o to_o call_v sinner_n to_o repentance_n do_v thou_o argue_v well_o to_o say_v because_o god_n be_v merciful_a long-suffering_a and_o of_o great_a goodness_n therefore_o i_o will_v abuse_v his_o mercy_n in_o sin_v his_o patience_n by_o my_o long_a continue_v in_o sin_n his_o great_a goodness_n by_o my_o great_a unthankfulness_n be_v not_o this_o to_o mock_v his_o mercy_n to_o bid_v defiance_n to_o his_o justice_n to_o arm_v he_o with_o fury_n to_o invite_v he_o to_o revenge_v assure_v thyself_o the_o long_o he_o be_v in_o draw_v his_o bow_n the_o more_o forcible_a will_v he_o send_v his_o arrow_n deceive_v not_o thyself_o therefore_o god_n will_v not_o be_v so_o merciful_a to_o thou_o as_o to_o be_v unjust_a to_o himself_o all_o the_o way_n of_o god_n be_v mercy_n and_o truth_n mercy_n to_o support_v thy_o weakness_n truth_n to_o correct_v thy_o wilfulness_n there_o be_v therefore_o mercy_n with_o he_o that_o he_o may_v be_v fear_v not_o that_o he_o may_v be_v slight_v not_o that_o he_o may_v be_v shameful_o dishonour_v how_o full_a of_o falsehood_n be_v thy_o bold_a presumption_n thou_o cry_v peace_n peace_n when_o sudden_a war_n be_v ready_a to_o destroy_v thou_o there_o be_v no_o peace_n to_o the_o wicked_a say_v my_o god_n heaven_n and_o earth_n be_v up_o in_o arm_n against_o thou_o and_o there_o be_v none_o leave_v not_o so_o much_o as_o thou_o own_o conscience_n to_o deliver_v thou_o thou_o have_v gracious_o receive_v the_o knowledge_n of_o the_o truth_n thou_o have_v grievous_o sin_v against_o the_o light_n of_o that_o knowledge_n thou_o have_v woeful_o continue_v in_o thy_o sin_n without_o remorse_n of_o conscience_n without_o desire_n of_o repentance_n and_o there_o now_o remain_v no_o more_o sacrifice_n for_o sin_n but_o a_o searfull_a look_v for_o of_o judgement_n and_o violent_a fire_n that_o shall_v devour_v the_o adversary_n o_o remember_v that_o the_o angel_n for_o one_o sin_n be_v throw_v down_o from_o heaven_n and_o that_o adam_n for_o one_o sin_n be_v cast_v out_o of_o paradise_n thy_o sin_n o_o my_o soul_n be_v innumerable_a thou_o have_v have_v line_n upon_o line_n and_o precept_n upon_o precept_n and_o yet_o thou_o adde_v sin_n upon_o sin_n and_o transgression_n upon_o transgression_n thou_o have_v sin_v against_o many_o precious_a promise_n against_o many_o gracious_a performance_n against_o many_o fearful_a judgement_n thou_o have_v grieve_v that_o good_a spirit_n by_o which_o the_o saint_n be_v seal_v up_o unto_o the_o day_n of_o redemption_n all_o these_o be_v heavy_a aggravation_n upon_o thou_o to_o fill_v up_o the_o measure_n of_o thy_o sin_n and_o hasten_v the_o swiftness_n of_o thy_o punishment_n ah_o how_o sad_a be_v thy_o condition_n thou_o have_v not_o only_o weary_v out_o thyself_o in_o wickedness_n but_o thy_o god_n also_o hear_v what_o he_o faith_n unto_o thou_o how_o he_o complain_v of_o thou_o by_o his_o holy_a prophet_n behold_v i_o be_o press_v under_o you_o as_o a_o cart_n be_v lade_v with_o sheaf_n amos_n 2.13_o and_o yet_o thou_o still_o adde_v more_o load_n but_o as_o thou_o adde_v sin_n upon_o sin_n so_o thou_o call_v for_o wrath_n upon_o wrath_n as_o thou_o have_v make_v a_o mock_n at_o sin_n so_o god_n will_v make_v a_o mock_n at_o misery_n as_o thou_o have_v thy_o measure_n in_o sin_v so_o god_n will_v have_v his_o measure_n in_o punish_v consider_v what_o he_o say_v unto_o thou_o by_o his_o prophet_n judgement_n will_v i_o lay_v to_o the_o rule_n and_o righteousness_n to_o the_o balance_n esay_n 28.17_o 18._o as_o he_o have_v a_o bottle_n for_o thy_o tear_n so_o he_o have_v a_o bag_n for_o thy_o transgression_n job_n 14.17_o their_o growth_n be_v record_v their_o number_n account_v their_o nature_n examine_v all_o seal_v up_o against_o the_o great_a and_o fearful_a day_n of_o the_o revelation_n of_o the_o righteous_a judgement_n o_o consider_v this_o thou_o that_o forget_v god_n lest_o he_o tear_v thou_o in_o piece_n and_o there_o be_v none_o to_o deliver_v thou_o think_v how_o sudden_o thou_o may_v be_v snatch_v away_o by_o those_o infernal_a fiend_n to_o endless_a torment_n and_o then_o what_o tear_n will_v be_v enough_o to_o weep_v thy_o obsequy_n to_o quench_v those_o everlasting_a burn_n but_o then_o alas_o instead_o of_o tear_n of_o compassion_n thou_o shall_v have_v mock_n of_o derision_n the_o curse_a devil_n 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if_o thy_o head_n be_v surprise_v thy_o heart_n can_v long_o hold_v out_o examine_v thy_o affection_n try_v they_o by_o the_o bless_a rule_n of_o divine_a precept_n if_o they_o be_v not_o sharp_o correct_v they_o will_v soon_o be_v corrupt_v endeavour_v to_o resist_v the_o very_a first_o motion_n to_o sin_n for_o if_o satan_n can_v beguile_v thy_o affection_n he_o will_v undoubted_o command_v thy_o action_n quicken_v thy_o memory_n by_o the_o momentany_a pleasure_n of_o sin_n by_o the_o heavy_a judgement_n threaten_v against_o it_o by_o the_o sad_a consequence_n of_o it_o by_o the_o eternity_n of_o torment_n after_o it_o think_v how_o often_o thou_o have_v be_v already_o foil_v how_o many_o serious_a vow_n and_o faithful_a promise_n thou_o have_v already_o make_v to_o god_n of_o thy_o amendment_n how_o careless_o thou_o have_v dispense_v with_o they_o all_o and_o how_o presumptuous_o persist_v in_o thy_o folly_n o_o think_v how_o gracious_a thy_o god_n have_v be_v unto_o thou_o in_o 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he_o who_o every_o minute_n seek_v to_o devour_v i_o shall_v i_o dishonour_v thou_o my_o god_n grieve_v thy_o holy_a angel_n shame_v my_o profession_n wound_v my_o own_o conscience_n terrify_v my_o own_o soul_n seek_v my_o own_o ruin_n if_o i_o consent_v to_o this_o temptation_n that_o god_n who_o i_o dishonour_n will_v abhor_v i_o those_o bless_a angel_n who_o i_o grieve_v will_v forsake_v i_o those_o curse_a spirit_n who_o i_o obey_v will_v deride_v i_o that_o conscience_n which_o i_o now_o wound_n will_v accuse_v i_o that_o glorious_a gospel_n which_o i_o shame_n will_v condemn_v i_o and_o that_o ruin_n which_o i_o now_o seek_v will_n for_o ever_o seize_v upon_o i_o let_v this_o move_v thou_o o_o my_o soul_n as_o thou_o exspecte_v happiness_n to_o take_v up_o a_o bless_a resolution_n of_o resistance_n if_o the_o assault_n dismay_v thou_o let_v the_o conquest_n encourage_v thou_o if_o the_o beginning_n be_v sharp_a the_o close_a will_v be_v sweet_a if_o nature_n be_v deject_v grace_n will_v be_v strengthen_v and_o as_o grace_n increase_v here_o so_o shall_v glory_v hereafter_o consider_v last_o of_o all_o what_o saint_n james_n say_v and_o fix_v it_o in_o thy_o thought_n as_o chief_a of_o all_o bless_a be_v the_o man_n that_o endure_v temptation_n for_o when_o he_o be_v try_v he_o shall_v receive_v the_o crown_n of_o life_n which_o the_o lord_n have_v promise_v to_o they_o that_o love_v he_o jam._n 1.12_o thrice_o happy_a be_v that_o soul_n which_o be_v faithful_a in_o god_n service_n although_o it_o may_v often_o faint_a it_o shall_v never_o fail_v it_o may_v sometime_o be_v foil_v but_o shall_v never_o be_v overcome_v it_o shall_v never_o fall_v total_o it_o can_v never_o fall_v final_o for_o thou_o lord_n upholde_v it_o and_o in_o thy_o love_n it_o be_v sure_a of_o safety_n here_o of_o triumph_n hereafter_o bless_a god_n with_o grief_n of_o heart_n i_o willing_o confess_v that_o i_o have_v shameful_o dishonour_v thy_o great_a and_o glorious_a name_n by_o i_o often_o fail_n by_o my_o many_o faint_n and_o more_o wretched_a yielding_n to_o the_o shame_n of_o my_o profession_n the_o grief_n of_o thy_o good_a spirit_n and_o the_o terror_n of_o my_o frail_a condition_n lord_z how_o wretched_a be_v my_o soul_n without_o thou_o and_o yet_o how_o easy_o how_o willing_o be_o i_o entice_v from_o thou_o even_o at_o this_o instant_n i_o be_o ready_a to_o forsake_v thou_o and_o may_v most_o just_o fear_v to_o be_v forsake_v of_o thou_o the_o world_n allure_v i_o the_o flesh_n besot_v i_o the_o devil_n beguile_v i_o and_o my_o own_o false_a heart_n deceive_v i_o and_o be_v now_o ready_a to_o rebel_v against_o i_o o_o wretched_a man_n that_o i_o be_o who_o shall_v deliver_v i_o lord_n jesus_n assist_v i_o and_o let_v thy_o save_a grace_n be_v now_o and_o evermore_o sufficient_a for_o i_o lord_n rebuke_v these_o evil_a thought_n relieve_v my_o misery_n support_v my_o weakness_n strengthen_v my_o willingness_n give_v i_o a_o undaunted_a courage_n in_o thy_o service_n a_o unfeigned_a sorrow_n for_o my_o former_a fail_n and_o constancy_n of_o heart_n against_o present_a suggestion_n and_o future_a temptation_n that_o i_o may_v find_v no_o sweetness_n but_o in_o thy_o love_n no_o pleasure_n but_o in_o thy_o service_n no_o profit_n but_o in_o thy_o reward_n amen_n chap._n 26._o upon_o the_o infirmity_n of_o the_o saint_n lord_n with_o grief_n of_o heart_n i_o confess_v that_o i_o find_v a_o law_n in_o my_o member_n rebel_a against_o the_o law_n of_o my_o mind_n and_o lead_v i_o captive_a to_o the_o law_n of_o fin_n so_o that_o those_o thing_n which_o i_o will_v do_v i_o can_v and_o i_o daily_a and_o hourly_o do_v those_o thing_n which_o i_o will_v not_o yet_o my_o comfort_n be_v that_o i_o make_v not_o provision_n for_o the_o flesh_n to_o fulfil_v the_o lust_n thereof_o by_o the_o weakness_n of_o my_o own_o corruption_n i_o often_o fall_v into_o sin_n but_o by_o the_o bless_a assistance_n of_o thy_o grace_n i_o abhor_v to_o lie_v there_o sin_n oftentimes_o surprise_v i_o but_o by_o thy_o rich_a mercy_n have_v never_o yet_o reign_v over_o i_o it_o have_v often_o deceive_v i_o but_o i_o trust_v shall_v never_o destroy_v i_o it_o have_v please_v thou_o o_o my_o bless_a saviour_n to_o conclude_v all_o thing_n under_o sin_n that_o thy_o grace_n may_v abound_v while_o i_o strive_v against_o it_o and_o be_o afflict_v for_o it_o my_o sinful_a desire_n will_v i_o trust_v be_v gracious_o accept_v and_o in_o thy_o perfect_a obedience_n glorious_o reward_v be_v not_o dismay_v therefore_o o_o my_o soul_n that_o thou_o sometime_o be_v ravish_v with_o apprehension_n of_o thy_o heavenly_a joy_n and_o sudden_o relapse_v to_o the_o folly_n of_o a_o wretched_a heart_n the_o one_o thou_o happy_o enjoy_v by_o the_o sweet_a assistance_n of_o the_o heavenly_a spirit_n the_o other_o thou_o violent_o suffer_v by_o the_o strong_a torrent_n of_o my_o sinful_a nature_n lord_n such_o be_v thy_o great_a wisdom_n and_o inconceivable_a goodness_n 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frailty_n commiserate_v his_o infirmity_n forgive_v his_o iniquity_n lord_n purge_v he_o by_o thy_o precious_a blood_n clothe_v he_o with_o thy_o own_o righteousness_n enrich_v he_o with_o thy_o bless_a merit_n and_o plead_v they_o to_o thy_o father_n for_o he_o o_o thou_o holy_a and_o for_o ever_o bless_a spirit_n who_o be_v the_o pure_a fountain_n of_o eternal_a love_n be_v present_a with_o he_o relieve_v and_o comfort_v he_o in_o all_o these_o bitter_a pang_n of_o his_o last_o hour_n endue_v he_o with_o a_o willingness_n and_o cheerfulness_n to_o leave_v this_o transitory_a life_n and_o crown_v he_o with_o eternity_n of_o joy_n in_o that_o to_o come_v and_o now_o o_o lord_n we_o come_v unto_o thou_o for_o ourselves_o who_o be_v here_o at_o this_o time_n upon_o our_o sinful_a knee_n before_o thou_o lord_z open_z our_o eye_n that_o we_o may_v serious_o consider_v of_o that_o last_o and_o solemn_a hour_n of_o our_o departure_n lord_n sanctify_v our_o heart_n that_o while_o we_o be_v encompass_v with_o sinful_a flesh_n we_o may_v lament_v our_o often_o fail_n and_o infirmity_n and_o every_o day_n be_v more_o and_o more_o desirous_a to_o go_v home_o to_o thou_o who_o be_v the_o god_n of_o spirit_n lord_n give_v we_o grace_n that_o we_o may_v walk_v sober_o and_o righteous_o and_o holy_o as_o become_v thy_o child_n that_o at_o the_o resurrection_n of_o the_o just_a our_o soul_n and_o body_n may_v enjoy_v the_o bless_a consummation_n of_o their_o endless_a happiness_n lord_n hear_v our_o prayer_n and_o let_v our_o cry_n come_v unto_o thou_o for_o thy_o name_n sake_n for_o thy_o promise_n sake_n for_o thy_o bless_a son_n sake_n amen_n the_o conclusion_n bless_a lord_n god_n by_o who_o only_a mercy_n i_o have_v finish_v this_o imperfect_a work_n as_o i_o begin_v it_o by_o thy_o goodness_n so_o i_o desire_v to_o end_v it_o with_o thy_o praise_n lord_n accept_v of_o it_o and_o gracious_o afford_v thy_o blessing_n to_o it_o let_v not_o the_o weakness_n and_o the_o sinfulness_n of_o i_o the_o instrument_n be_v the_o reader_n discouragement_n but_o give_v glory_n and_o honour_n to_o thou_o the_o agent_n for_o of_o thou_o and_o through_o thou_o and_o to_o thou_o be_v all_o thing_n to_o thou_o be_v praise_n for_o ever_o amen_n soli_fw-la deo_fw-la gloria_fw-la for_o the_o comfort_n and_o assistance_n of_o those_o that_o be_v ready_a to_o depart_v this_o life_n i_o have_v hereunto_o add_v the_o die_a confession_n of_o mr._n anthâ—ny_n sadler_n minister_n of_o god_n word_n at_o westthorock_a in_o essex_n of_o which_o i_o be_v a_o earwitness_n obiit_fw-la vicesimo_fw-la die_v maii_n anno_fw-la 1643._o the_o lord_n have_v lay_v a_o gracious_a and_o a_o gentle_a visitation_n on_o i_o i_o do_v acknowledge_v with_o a_o thankful_a heart_n that_o this_o weakness_n of_o body_n this_o languish_a of_o nature_n these_o painful_a day_n and_o night_n be_v from_o he_o for_o misery_n come_v not_o out_o of_o the_o dust_n neither_o do_v affliction_n spring_v out_o of_o the_o earth_n job_n 5.6_o ah_o my_o friend_n little_o do_v man_n think_v how_o much_o the_o great_a disturbance_n of_o sickness_n how_o much_o he_o pain_n and_o infirm_a tie_n of_o a_o dec_fw-la ie_v body_n distract_v those_o bless_a thought_n those_o sweet_a and_o happy_a meditation_n which_o the_o trouble_a soul_n desire_n the_o spirit_n be_v willing_a but_o the_o flesh_n be_v weak_a lord_n jesus_n strengthen_v the_o inward_a man_n and_o lay_v no_o more_o upon_o this_o sinful_a bâ—dy_n than_o thou_o in_o mercy_n shall_v enable_v it_o to_o bear_v i_o be_o now_o very_o persuade_v that_o god_n have_v purpose_v to_o determine_v my_o day_n his_o bless_a will_n be_v do_v even_o so_o lord_n jesus_n come_v quick_o he_o that_o look_v into_o his_o life_n past_a that_o ransake_v his_o soul_n and_o call_v to_o mind_v the_o sinful_a fail_n of_o his_o youth_n will_v find_v it_o very_o hard_a and_o difficult_a to_o make_v his_o call_n and_o election_n sure_a i_o have_v earnest_o desire_v to_o leave_v no_o corner_n of_o my_o soul_n unsearched_a and_o i_o find_v myself_o to_o be_v a_o very_a great_a and_o wretched_a sinner_n i_o have_v commit_v grievous_a sin_n very_o grievous_a sin_n such_o sin_n as_o be_v not_o fit_a to_o be_v name_v before_o god_n saint_n i_o have_v examine_v my_o soul_n by_o each_o particular_a commandment_n and_o i_o find_v myself_o guilty_a of_o the_o breach_n of_o all_o and_o that_o in_o a_o high_a manner_n especial_o consider_v that_o weighty_a function_n god_n providence_n have_v call_v i_o unto_o i_o have_v not_o only_o sin_v against_o my_o own_o soul_n but_o against_o the_o soul_n of_o other_o too_o who_o i_o have_v corrupt_v by_o my_o ill_a example_n and_o that_o very_a often_o and_o now_o when_o i_o look_v upon_o the_o glass_n of_o the_o law_n and_o there_o see_v my_o own_o vildness_n i_o find_v god_n justice_n and_o my_o own_o desert_n even_o ready_a to_o surprise_v and_o cast_v i_o down_o into_o the_o nethermost_a hell_n and_o that_o most_o righteous_o but_o o_o see_v the_o goodness_n of_o a_o gracious_a god_n i_o now_o come_v to_o lay_v hold_n upon_o the_o promise_n but_o how_o not_o without_o repentance_n not_o presume_o i_o apply_v they_o not_o in_o a_o general_a but_o particular_a way_n i_o do_v not_o only_o believe_v that_o christ_n jesus_n come_v iâ—_n to_o the_o world_n to_o save_v sinner_n but_o i_o believe_v also_o that_o he_o die_v for_o my_o sin_n and_o rise_v again_o for_o my_o justification_n god_n have_v promise_v and_o all_o his_o promise_n be_v yea_o and_o amen_o that_o he_o will_v not_o forsake_v those_o which_o trust_v in_o he_o nay_o he_o have_v bind_v himself_o unto_o it_o by_o a_o oath_n by_o two_o immutable_a thing_n which_o can_v fail_v his_o truth_n and_o his_o holiness_n heb._n 6.18_o and_o god_n have_v say_v that_o he_o which_o confess_v and_o forsake_v his_o sin_n shall_v find_v mercy_n 1_o joh._n 1.9_o i_o acknowledge_v they_o i_o confess_v they_o i_o be_o grieve_v for_o they_o i_o forsake_v they_o i_o abhor_v themwhat_o shall_v i_o do_v more_o god_n require_v not_o more_o of_o i_o tear_n these_o pause_n be_v supply_v with_o tear_n and_o yet_o for_o all_o this_o i_o can_v find_v myself_o assure_v of_o his_o favour_n methinks_v this_o sorrow_n be_v not_o so_o hearty_a as_o it_o ought_v to_o be_v and_o yet_o i_o know_v and_o steadfast_o believe_v that_o if_o god_n do_v not_o work_v with_o i_o this_o sorrow_n can_v not_o be_v and_o where_o he_o work_v there_o can_v be_v nothing_o want_v i_o know_v that_o the_o most_o righteous_a man_n alive_a can_v perform_v this_o work_n so_o perfect_o as_o he_o ought_v and_o therefore_o i_o believe_v that_o he_o which_o be_v ascend_v up_o on_o high_a have_v do_v it_o for_o i_o in_o that_o full_a and_o ample_a manner_n which_o be_v able_a to_o appease_v his_o father_n wrath_n and_o i_o now_o trust_v that_o by_o his_o perfect_a obedience_n this_o imperfect_a work_n of_o i_o shall_v find_v a_o gracious_a acceptation_n this_o be_v my_o hope_n and_o this_o my_o belief_n nay_o i_o can_v go_v yet_o a_o little_a further_o to_o strengthen_v my_o assurance_n that_o my_o peace_n be_v make_v with_o god_n i_o every_o day_n and_o every_o hour_n do_v pray_v unto_o my_o saviour_n to_o intercede_v his_o father_n for_o i_o and_o if_o i_o implore_v he_o he_o will_v intercede_v his_o father_n and_o if_o he_o intercede_v his_o father_n he_o can_v be_v deny_v o_o my_o god_n impute_v my_o sin_n to_o he_o transfer_v his_o righteousness_n to_o i_o and_o then_o i_o know_v i_o shall_v appear_v a_o glorious_a soul_n before_o thou_o amen_n finis_fw-la the_o content_n chap._n 1._o upon_o the_o sinfulness_n of_o our_o thought_n touch_v the_o sacred_a deity_n with_o holy_a caution_n to_o order_v our_o devotion_n aright_o pag._n 2._o chap._n 2._o upon_o the_o consideration_n of_o god_n love_n and_o man_n unthankfulness_n a_o meditation_n suit_v to_o the_o morning_n pag._n 9_o chap._n 3._o upon_o the_o consideration_n of_o divine_a providence_n a_o meditation_n for_o noon_n pag._n 14_o chap._n 4._o upon_o the_o consideration_n of_o the_o sinfulness_n shortness_n and_o uncertainâ—y_n of_o life_n a_o meditation_n suit_v to_o the_o evening_n pag._n 17_o chap._n 5._o upon_o our_o approach_n unto_o god_n house_n with_o necessary_a caution_n for_o our_o behaviour_n there_o pag._n 20_o chap._n 6._o upon_o our_o return_v from_o god_n house_n and_o the_o neglect_n of_o private_a duty_n pag._n 24_o chap._n 7._o upon_o the_o want_n of_o due_a preparation_n for_o receive_v of_o the_o lord_n supper_n pag._n 27_o chap._n 8._o contain_v pious_a ejaculation_n at_o the_o time_n of_o receive_v pag._n 30_o chap._n 9_o contain_v a_o brief_a meditation_n and_o pious_a thanksgiving_n after_o our_o receive_v pag._n 31_o chap._n 10._o upon_o a_o journey_n undertake_v and_o the_o many_o danger_n incident_a thereunto_o pag._n 32_o chap._n 11._o contain_v pious_a meditation_n and_o zealous_a ejaculation_n after_o a_o journey_n pag._n 34_o chap._n 12._o upon_o the_o great_a danger_n of_o security_n pag._n 37_o chap._n 13._o upon_o the_o great_a danger_n of_o prosumption_n pag._n 41_o chap._n 14._o upon_o quench_v of_o the_o motion_n of_o god_n holy_a spirit_n pag._n 47_o chap._n 15._o upon_o the_o consideration_n of_o god_n peculiar_a providence_n to_o his_o child_n pag._n 51_o chap._n 16._o upon_o sinful_a anger_n and_o the_o great_a disturbance_n thereof_o pag._n 55_o chap._n 17._o upon_o man_n inordinate_a love_n to_o the_o creature_n pag._n 58_o chap._n 18._o upon_o the_o sin_n of_o uncleaness_n with_o encouragement_n to_o avoid_v it_o pag._n 63_o chap._n 19_o upon_o immoderate_a mirth_n and_o the_o great_a inconvenience_n thereof_o pag._n 67_o chap._n 20._o upon_o the_o great_a danger_n of_o defer_v the_o hour_n of_o repentance_n pag._n 75_o chap._n 21._o upon_o servile_a fear_n and_o the_o danger_n thereof_o pag._n 79_o chap._n 22._o upon_o the_o great_a neglect_n of_o reckon_v daily_o with_o our_o thought_n and_o the_o benefit_n lose_v thereby_o pag._n 84_o chap._n 23._o upon_o unchristianlike_a dullness_n in_o affliction_n pag._n 87_o chap._n 24._o upon_o uncheerfulnesse_n in_o christianity_n with_o encouragement_n to_o avoid_v it_o pag._n 91_o chap._n 25._o upon_o man_n sinful_a frailty_n in_o the_o hour_n of_o temptation_n with_o motive_n to_o make_v resistance_n pag._n 94_o chap._n 26._o upon_o the_o infirmity_n of_o the_o saint_n pag._n 97_o chap._n 27._o upon_o desertion_n pag._n 101_o chap._n 28._o upon_o sudden_a danger_n pag._n 106_o chap._n 29._o upon_o the_o weakness_n of_o faith_n and_o sinfulness_n of_o thought_n tend_v to_o despair_n pag._n 107_o chap._n 30._o upon_o the_o great_a neglect_n of_o the_o duty_n of_o prayer_n pag._n 111_o chap._n 31._o upon_o the_o great_a neglect_n of_o read_v the_o sacred_a scripture_n pag._n 114_o chap._n 32._o upon_o the_o neglect_n of_o divine_a meditation_n pag._n 117_o chap._n 33._o upon_o unchristianlike_a dejectedness_n in_o poverty_n pag._n 119_o chap._n 34._o upon_o sickness_n and_o ungodly_a repine_v thereat_o pag._n 122_o chap._n 35._o upon_o the_o misery_n of_o life_n and_o blessedness_n of_o death_n pag._n 126_o chap._n 36._o upon_o the_o great_a neglect_n of_o opportunity_n in_o do_v good_a to_o the_o saint_n pag._n 131_o chap._n 37._o upon_o the_o deceitfulness_n of_o the_o heart_n in_o the_o performance_n of_o holy_a duty_n pag._n 135_o chap._n 38._o upon_o the_o unrulinesse_n of_o the_o tongue_n with_o necessary_a caution_n to_o restrain_v it_o pag._n 140_o chap._n 39_o upon_o holy_a revenge_n for_o sin_n with_o motive_n and_o encouragement_n thereunto_o pag._n 144_o chap._n 40._o upon_o the_o bless_a condition_n of_o the_o saint_n with_o motive_n and_o encouragement_n unto_o godliness_n pag._n 147_o a_o comfortable_a prayer_n to_o be_v use_v at_o the_o point_n of_o death_n by_o the_o visitor_n of_o the_o sick_n pag._n 157_o finis_fw-la