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that_o i_o entertain_v of_o thing_n spiritual_a permit_v i_o not_o to_o discern_v truth_n and_o there_o be_v still_o flash_v in_o my_o eye_n the_o very_a power_n of_o truth_n and_o yet_o i_o avert_v my_o timorous_a mind_n from_o the_o cogitation_n of_o any_o thing_n incorporeal_a to_o lineament_n and_o colour_n and_o swell_a magnitude_n and_o when_o i_o can_v not_o see_v these_o in_o my_o mind_n i_o think_v that_o neither_o can_v i_o see_v or_o discern_v my_o mind_n and_o whereas_o i_o love_v the_o harmony_n that_o be_v in_o virtue_n and_o loathe_v the_o discord_n of_o vice_n i_o note_v a_o unity_n in_o the_o one_o and_o in_o the_o other_o a_o kind_n of_o division_n and_o i_o conceive_v the_o rational_a soul_n and_o the_o nature_n of_o truth_n and_o of_o the_o summum_fw-la bonum_fw-la the_o chief_a good_a to_o consist_v in_o this_o unity_n but_o in_o that_o division_n i_o silly_o suppose_v that_o there_o be_v i_o know_v not_o what_o substance_n of_o a_o irrational_a vitality_n and_o 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thou_o and_o be_v repel_v from_o thou_o and_o confine_v unto_o the_o shadow_n of_o death_n because_o the_o proud_a be_v always_o resist_v by_o thou_o and_o what_o thing_n proud_a than_o i_o who_o by_o a_o strange_a madness_n maintain_v that_o myself_o be_v natural_o what_o thou_o be_v for_o when_o i_o be_v a_o thing_n mutable_a which_o be_v from_o this_o apparent_a to_o i_o that_o i_o in_o covet_v wisdom_n seek_v from_o something_o worse_a to_o become_v something_o better_o yet_o i_o have_v rather_o conjecture_v thou_o mutable_a also_o than_o myself_o not_o to_o be_v the_o same_o which_o thou_o be_v therefore_o be_v i_o repel_v by_o thou_o and_o thou_o do_v resist_v my_o stiff-swoln_a neck_n and_o i_o somniate_v corporeal_a form_n and_o be_v flesh_n i_o notwithstanding_o accuse_v the_o flesh_n 78.39_o psal_n 78.39_o &_o be_v a_o wind_n that_o pase_v i_o return_v not_o unto_o thou_o but_o pass_v i_o pass_v unto_o those_o thing_n which_o have_v no_o be_v nether_a in_o thou_o nor_o in_o 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she_o run_v to_o the_o church_n and_o to_o that_o fountain_n of_o live_a water_n spring_v up_o unto_o life_n eternal_a and_o hang_v upon_o the_o sweet_a lip_n of_o thy_o servant_n ambrose_n for_o she_o love_v and_o reverence_v that_o man_n as_o a_o angel_n of_o god_n because_o she_o know_v that_o by_o his_o mean_n i_o be_v reduce_v to_o this_o fluctuate_a and_o aguish_a condition_n and_o she_o certain_o presume_v that_o my_o disease_n be_v now_o bring_v to_o a_o crisis_n as_o physician_n speak_v i_o shall_v after_o the_o access_n of_o a_o sharp_a fit_a be_v advance_v to_o a_o perfect_a health_n chap._n ii_o her_o great_a piety_n sobriety_n obedience_n to_o bishop_n ambrose_n prohibit_v charity-feasting_n at_o the_o tomb_n of_o martyr_n than_o a_o usual_a custom_n in_o africa_n therefore_o when_o according_a to_o the_o custom_n in_o africa_n she_o have_v bring_v with_o she_o to_o the_o oratory_n of_o the_o saint_n bread_n wine_n and_o pultes_fw-la and_o pultes_fw-la other_o edible_a 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at_o the_o tomb_n of_o the_o decease_a very_o much_o resemble_v pagan_a superstition_n she_o do_v most_o willing_o acquiesce_v thereto_o and_o in_o stead_n of_o a_o basket_n former_o full_a of_o the_o fruit_n of_o the_o earth_n she_o learn_v to_o carry_v to_o these_o sanctuary_n a_o heart_n full_a of_o more_o purify_a vow_n both_o to_o give_v to_o the_o poor_a what_o she_o can_v spare_v and_o there_o to_o celebrate_v the_o communion_n of_o the_o lord_n body_n in_o the_o imitation_n of_o who_o passion_n be_v the_o immolation_n and_o coronation_n of_o those_o martyr_n yet_o my_o mind_n persuade_v i_o that_o my_o mother_n will_v not_o so_o easy_o have_v yield_v to_o the_o reverse_v of_o this_o her_o custom_n have_v another_o person_n than_o ambrose_n prohibit_v it_o who_o she_o dear_o love_v for_o his_o advance_v my_o salvation_n and_o he_o she_o for_o her_o religious_a conversation_n so_o fervent_a in_o spirit_n and_o good_a work_n so_o frequent_a at_o church_n so_o that_o he_o espy_v 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the_o long_a course_n of_o river_n the_o vastness_n of_o the_o ocean_n the_o large_a circle_n of_o the_o star_n and_o leave_v themselves_o unadmired_a and_o yet_o now_o when_o i_o name_v all_o these_o thing_n i_o see_v they_o not_o with_o my_o eye_n yet_o shall_v i_o not_o have_v name_v they_o unless_o i_o have_v see_v they_o in_o my_o memory_n and_o there_o too_o with_o such_o great_a space_n as_o if_o see_v abroad_o both_o mountain_n and_o wave_n and_o river_n and_o star_n which_o i_o have_v see_v and_o the_o ocean_n which_o i_o believe_v yet_o do_v i_o not_o in_o see_v draw-in_a any_o of_o they_o neither_o be_v themselves_o with_o i_o but_o their_o image_n and_o i_o know_v through_o what_o sense_n i_o receive_v their_o several_a impression_n chap._n ix_o but_o not_o these_o thing_n alone_o be_v lodge_v in_o the_o great_a capacity_n of_o my_o memory_n here_o be_v lay_v up_o also_o all_o those_o rule_n of_o the_o liberal_a science_n which_o be_v not_o forget_v or_o as_o it_o be_v remove_v into_o some_o further_a corner_n thereof_o of_o all_o which_o i_o carry_v about_o i_o not_o the_o image_n but_o the_o thing_n themselves_o and_o at_o what_o gate_n they_o enter_v into_o my_o memory_n i_o know_v not_o chap._n x._o for_o when_o i_o learn_v they_o i_o credit_v not_o another_o judgement_n but_o ackowledge_v they_o in_o my_o own_o chap._n xii_o here_o also_o be_v lay_v up_o the_o innumerable_a form_n and_o rule_n of_o mathematical_a figure_n and_o number_n none_o of_o which_o enter_v by_o sense_n be_v thing_n much_o diverse_a from_o the_o sound_n of_o the_o word_n by_o which_o they_o be_v signify_v from_o the_o line_n draw_v by_o artificer_n though_o never_o so_o small_a and_o from_o all_o those_o sensible_a thing_n which_o by_o these_o number_n we_o number_n chap._n xiii_o all_o these_o thing_n i_o retain_v in_o memory_n and_o retain_v in_o memory_n the_o manner_n how_o i_o learn_v they_o and_o many_o false_a arguing_n against_o they_o have_v i_o hear_v and_o retain_v also_o in_o memory_n which_o although_o false_a yet_o be_v there_o no_o error_n in_o my_o remember_v of_o those_o error_n and_o my_o distinguish_n between_o those_o truth_n and_o these_o falsity_n which_o be_v say_v against_o they_o this_o i_o also_o remember_v and_o i_o remember_v also_o how_o often_o i_o have_v compare_v and_o consider_v they_o and_o i_o repose_v in_o memory_n my_o present_a consideration_n of_o they_o that_o i_o may_v hereafter_o remember_v it_o therefore_o i_o remember_v also_o that_o i_o have_v remember_v they_o and_o if_o hereafter_o i_o shall_v call_v to_o mind_n that_o i_o can_v remember_v they_o it_o be_v by_o the_o same_o faculty_n of_o memory_n i_o do_v it_o the_o same_o memory_n also_o contain_v the_o passion_n of_o my_o soul_n but_o not_o in_o the_o same_o manner_n as_o the_o soul_n have_v they_o when_o she_o be_v affect_v with_o they_o but_o after_o a_o proper_a way_n of_o its_o own_o much_o different_a for_o i_o both_o remember_v my_o former_a joy_n not_o rejoice_v and_o call_v to_o mind_n forepast_a grief_n without_o sorrow_v my_o former_a fear_n i_o reflect_v on_o without_o any_o fear_n and_o be_o mindful_a of_o my_o former_a desiring_n without_o any_o desire_n nay_o sometime_o on_o the_o contrary_a i_o remember_v now_o past_a sadness_n with_o joy_n and_o with_o sadness_n my_o now_o past_a joy_n chap._n xvi_o what_o when_o i_o name_v oblivion_n and_o know_v what_o i_o name_n whence_o know_v i_o it_o unless_o i_o remember_v it_o i_o mean_v not_o here_o the_o sound_n of_o the_o word_n but_o the_o thing_n it_o signify_v which_o thing_n have_v i_o forget_v i_o can_v not_o apprehend_v what_o that_o sound_n mean_v therefore_o when_o i_o remember_v memory_n the_o memory_n be_v by_o itself_o present_a to_o itself_o but_o when_o i_o remember_v at_o once_o both_o oblivion_n and_o memory_n as_o i_o can_v remember_v both_o these_o oblivion_n also_o be_v present_a there_o too_o memory_n by_o which_o i_o remember_v and_o oblivion_n by_o which_o i_o do_v not_o remember_v yet_o what_o be_v oblivion_n but_o the_o privation_n of_o memory_n how_o then_o must_v it_o be_v present_a that_o i_o may_v remember_v it_o which_o when_o present_a i_o can_v remember_v be_v therefore_o oblivion_n when_o we_o remember_v it_o in_o the_o memory_n not_o by_o itself_o but_o by_o its_o image_n because_o if_o it_o be_v present_a there_o by_o itself_o it_o will_v make_v we_o not_o to_o remember_v but_o forget_v and_o who_o can_v find_v this_o out_o who_o can_v comprehend_v how_o it_o be_v here_o o_o lord_n i_o be_o at_o a_o great_a loss_n concern_v myself_o and_o be_o make_v unto_o myself_o a_o soil_n of_o hard_a labour_n and_o much_o sweat_n neither_o be_o i_o now_o quarter_a out_o the_o region_n of_o the_o heaven_n 3._o gen._n 3._o nor_o measure_v the_o distance_n of_o star_n nor_o dive_v into_o the_o foundation_n and_o poise_n of_o the_o earth_n but_o about_o my_o very_a self_n for_o it_o be_v i_o that_o remember_v i_o the_o soul_n it_o be_v not_o so_o strange_a if_o it_o be_v never_o so_o far_o off_o from_o my_o apprehension_n whatever_o i_o be_o not_o but_o what_o be_v near_o than_o myself_o to_o i_o and_o behold_v the_o power_n of_o my_o memory_n be_v not_o comprehend_v by_o i_o whenas_o i_o can_v so_o much_o as_o name_v my_o self_n without_o it_o for_o what_o shall_v i_o say_v when_o certain_a that_o i_o do_v remember_v forget_v shall_v i_o say_v that_o thing_n be_v not_o in_o my_o memory_n which_o i_o remember_v or_o shall_v i_o say_v that_o this_o forget_v be_v in_o my_o memory_n that_o i_o may_v not_o forget_v it_o both_o be_v most_o absurd_a chap._n xvii_o great_a be_v the_o power_n of_o memory_n i_o know_v not_o
prayer_n let_v my_o soul_n never_o faint_v under_o thy_o discipline_n nor_o grow-weary_a in_o confess_v thy_o mercy_n unto_o thou_o by_o which_o thou_o have_v draw_v i_o out_o of_o all_o my_o wicked_a way_n that_o thou_o thyself_o may_v become_v delicious_a unto_o i_o above_o all_o those_o charm_a seducement_n which_o i_o have_v heretofore_o pursue_v and_o that_o i_o may_v love_v thou_o entire_o and_o kiss_v thy_o deliver_v hand_n with_o all_o the_o bowel_n of_o my_o affection_n that_o thou_o may_v yet_o rescue_v i_o out_o of_o all_o temptation_n even_o to_o the_o end_n for_o behold_v o_o lord_n my_o king_n may_v it_o now_o be_v for_o thy_o service_n whatever_o useful_a thing_n my_o childhood_n have_v learn_v may_v it_o be_v for_o thy_o service_n that_o i_o speak_v write_v read_v account_n because_o in_o my_o learning_n vain_a thing_n thou_o do_v not_o cease_v to_o discipline_n i_o and_o after_o my_o delight_v in_o those_o vanity_n thou_o have_v forgive_v i_o my_o sin_n for_o i_o leanrt_v in_o they_o many_o useful_a word_n but_o these_o also_o may_v be_v as_o well_o learn_v in_o thing_n not_o vain_a and_o that_o a_o far_o safe_a way_n wherein_o to_o guide_v the_o unwary_a step_n of_o yet-unseasoned_n youth_n chap._n xvi_o inveighing-against*lascivious_a fable_n but_o woe_n unto_o thou_o precipitous_a torrent_n of_o humane_a custom_n who_o shall_v stop_v thy_o heady_a course_n how_o long_o ere_o thy_o pernicious_a stream_n be_v dry_v up_o how_o long_o shall_v these_o carry_v down_o the_o son_n of_o eve_n into_o that_o huge_a and_o dreadful_a ocean_n over_o which_o those_o that_o be_v best_a embark_v be_v with_o hazard_n transport_v have_v i_o not_o read_v in_o thou_o both_o of_o a_o thunder_a and_o of_o a_o adulterate_n jove_n not_o that_o these_o two_o be_v ever_o real_o coincident_a to_o the_o same_o god_n but_o thus_o feign_v that_o man_n may_v have_v some_o authority_n to_o imitate_v the_o true_a adultery_n be_v countenance_v by_o that_o fabulous_a thunder_n 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templa_fw-la coeli_fw-la and_o the_o like_a unless_o terence_n have_v introduce_v a_o lascivious_a youth_n propose_v to_o himself_o jove_n for_o a_o pattern_n of_o whore_v whilst_o in_o survey_v a_o tablet_n on_o the_o wall_n he_o find_v therein_o this_o lascivious_a picture_n how_o they_o say_v jupiter_n upon_o a_o time_n once_o shower_v into_o danae_n lap_n a_o golden_a rain_n and_o so_o deceive_v the_o gold-enamoured_n maid_n and_o thence_o see_v how_o he_o heighten_v his_o lust_n from_o that_o divine_a copy_n of_o it_o as_o it_o be_v and_o what_o god_n be_v it_o say_v he_o that_o do_v this_o rape_n be_v it_o not_o he_o that_o make_v the_o arch_a temple_n of_o heaven_n tremble_v with_o his_o echo_a thunder_n and_o may_v not_o i_o then_o a_o frail_a tempt_v mortal_a do_v the_o same_o yes_o sure_o i_o do_v it_o and_o that_o well-pleased_a nor_o happen_v it_o from_o this_o unclean_a discourse_n that_o those_o word_n be_v any_o whit_n better_o learn_v but_o by_o these_o word_n convey_v it_o such_o uncleanness_n be_v more_o impudent_o attempt_v not_o that_o i_o blame_v *_o the_o word_n be_v as_o it_o be_v choice_n and_o precious_a vessel_n but_o *_o the_n wine_n of_o error_n which_o be_v minister_v in_o they_o unto_o we_o child_n by_o our_o fore-intoxicated_n master_n of_o which_o if_o we_o refuse_v to_o drink_v we_o be_v beat_v and_o have_v no_o sober_a judge_n to_o who_o we_o may_v appeal_v but_o i_o o_o my_o god_n in_o who_o presence_n my_o remembrance_n of_o these_o thing_n be_v now_o fear-less_a and_o secure_a i_o poor_a wretch_n then_o swallow_v those_o potion_n most_o willing_o and_o with_o great_a delight_n and_o for_o this_o be_v call_v a_o hopeful_a boy_n chap._n xvii_o and_o *_o the_o mis-use_a of_o his_o wit_n permit_v i_o also_o o_o my_o god_n to_o say_v something_o of_o my_o wit_n thy_o gift_n on_o what_o foolish_a labour_n it_o be_v then_o employ_v for_o than_o be_v set_v i_o a_o task_n very_o vexatious_a to_o my_o spirit_n upon_o the_o price_n of_o applause_n or_o shame_n and_o fear_v of_o whip_v to_o render_v rage_a juno_n speech_n when_o she_o so_o doleful_o lament_v non_fw-la posse_fw-la italia_n teucrorum_fw-la avertere_fw-la regem_fw-la that_o she_o can_v not_o from_o italy_n divert_v the_o trojan_a prince_n which_o word_n i_o have_v hear_v that_o juno_n never_o utter_v but_o we_o trace_v error_n be_v force_v to_o follow_v the_o footstep_n of_o such_o poetic_a fiction_n and_o to_o vary_v into_o prose_n what_o he_o express_v in_o verse_n and_o he_o do_v it_o with_o best_a applause_n who_o retain_v the_o dignity_n of_o the_o person_n represent_v can_v reach_v to_o a_o high_a strain_n of_o the_o like_a passion_n of_o anger_n and_o sorrow_n with_o a_o agreeable_a sense_n handsome_o dress_v in_o a_o apt_a expression_n and_o what_o happiness_n be_v it_o to_o i_o o_o thou_o my_o true_a life_n my_o god_n that_o my_o exercise_n shall_v be_v pre-applauded_n beyond_o many_o my_o coequal_o behold_v be_v not_o all_o such_o thing_n fume_n and_o vanity_n and_o be_v there_o then_o no_o other_o better_a thing_n wherein_o to_o have_v exercise_v our_o wit_n and_o eloquence_n even_o thy_o praise_n o_o lord_n thy_o praise_n in_o thy_o more_o holy_a writing_n these_o may_v have_v be_v a_o divine_a subject_n for_o the_o tender_a branch_n of_o my_o spread_a fancy_n to_o have_v clasp_v about_o and_o depend_v upon_o without_z *_o be_v trail_v on_o the_o ground_n among_o such_o empty_a trifle_n and_o *_o have_v its_o fruit_n make_v a_o filthy_a prey_n to_o those_o ravenous_a spiritual_a fowl_n of_o the_o air_n for_o many_o way_n there_o be_v whereby_o the_o precious_a fruit_n of_o our_o youth_n become_v a_o sacrifice_n to_o those_o unclean_a spirit_n chap._n xviii_o misguide_v by_o vicious_a example_n and_o more_o ashamed_a of_o the_o breach_n of_o grammar-rule_n than_o of_o god_n law_n but_o what_o wonder_n be_v it_o if_o i_o be_v thus_o carry_v away_o through_o vanity_n and_o go_v out_o from_o thy_o presence_n 4.16_o gen._n 4.16_o 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