eye_n to_o testify_v my_o spiritual_a sickness_n i_o stand_v in_o the_o way_n of_o tentation_n natural_o necessary_o all_o man_n do_v so_o for_o there_o be_v a_o snake_n in_o every_o path_n tentation_n in_o every_o vocation_n but_o i_o go_v i_o run_v i_o fly_v into_o the_o way_n of_o tentation_n which_o i_o may_v shun_v nay_o i_o break_v into_o house_n where_o the_o plague_n be_v i_o press_v into_o place_n of_o tentation_n and_o tempt_v the_o devil_n himself_o and_o solicit_v &_o importune_v they_o who_o have_v rather_o be_v leave_v unsolicit_v by_o i_o i_o fall_v sick_a of_o sin_n and_o be_o bed_v and_o bedrid_a bury_v and_o putrify_v in_o the_o practice_n of_o sin_n and_o all_o this_o while_o haâ—e_v no_o presage_n no_o pulse_n no_o sense_n of_o my_o sickness_n o_o height_n o_o depth_n of_o misery_n where_o the_o first_o symptom_n of_o the_o sickness_n be_v hell_n &_o where_o i_o never_o fee_v the_o fever_n of_o lust_n of_o envy_n of_o ambition_n by_o any_o other_o light_n than_o the_o darkness_n and_o horror_n of_o hell_n itself_o â—_z &_o where_o the_o first_o messenger_n that_o speak_v to_o i_o do_v not_o sayâ—_n thou_o may_v die_v no_o nor_o thou_o must_v die_v but_o thou_o be_v dead_a and_o where_o the_o first_o notice_n that_o my_o soul_n have_v of_o her_o sickness_n be_v irrecoverablenes_n irremediablenes_n but_o o_o my_o god_n job_n do_v not_o charge_v thou_o foolish_o in_o his_o temporal_a affliction_n nor_o may_v i_o in_o my_o spiritual_a thou_o have_v imprint_v a_o pulse_n in_o our_o soul_n but_o we_o do_v not_o examine_v it_o a_o voice_n in_o our_o conscience_n but_o we_o do_v not_o hearken_v unto_o it_o we_o talk_v it_o out_o we_o jest_v it_o out_o we_o drink_v it_o out_o we_o sleep_v it_o out_o and_o when_o we_o wake_v we_o do_v not_o say_v with_o jacob_n 28.16_o sure_o the_o lord_n be_v in_o this_o place_n and_o i_o know_v it_o not_o but_o though_o we_o may_v know_v it_o we_o do_v not_o we_o will_v not_o but_o will_v god_n pretend_v to_o make_v a_o watch_n and_o leave_v out_o the_o springe_n to_o make_v so_o many_o various_a wheel_n in_o the_o faculty_n of_o the_o soul_n and_o in_o the_o organ_n of_o the_o body_n and_o leave_v out_o grace_n that_o shall_v move_v they_o or_o will_v god_n make_v a_o springe_n and_o not_o wind_v it_o up_o infuse_v his_o first_o grace_n &_o not_o second_v it_o with_o more_o without_o which_o we_o can_v no_o more_o use_v his_o first_o grace_n when_o we_o have_v it_o than_o we_o can_v dispose_v ourselves_o by_o nature_n to_o have_v it_o but_o alas_o that_o be_v not_o our_o case_n we_o be_v all_o prodigal_a son_n and_o not_o disinherit_v we_o have_v receive_v our_o portion_n and_o mis-spend_v it_o not_o be_v deny_v it_o we_o be_v god_n tenant_n here_o and_o yet_o here_o he_o our_o landlord_n pay_v we_o rent_n not_o yearly_a nor_o quarterly_a but_o hourly_o and_o quarterly_a every_o minute_n he_o renew_v his_o mercy_n but_o we_o will_v not_o understand_v 16._o lest_o that_o we_o shall_v be_v convert_v and_o he_o shall_v heal_v us._n 1._o prayer_n o_o eternal_a and_o most_o gracious_a god_n who_o consider_v in_o thyself_o be_v a_o circle_n first_o and_o last_o and_o altogether_o but_o consider_v in_o thy_o work_n upon_o we_o be_v a_o direct_a line_n and_o lead_v we_o from_o our_o beginning_n through_o all_o our_o way_n to_o our_o end_n enable_v i_o by_o thy_o grace_n to_o look_v forward_o to_o my_o end_n and_o to_o look_v backward_o to_o to_o the_o consideration_n of_o thy_o mercy_n afford_v i_o from_o the_o beginning_n that_o so_o by_o that_o practice_n of_o consider_v thy_o mercy_n in_o my_o beginning_n in_o this_o world_n when_o thou_o plant_v i_o in_o the_o christian_a church_n and_o thy_o mercy_n in_o the_o begin_n in_o the_o other_o world_n when_o thou_o write_v i_o in_o the_o book_n of_o life_n in_o my_o election_n i_o may_v come_v to_o a_o holy_a consideration_n of_o thy_o mercy_n in_o the_o begin_n of_o all_o my_o action_n hereâ—_n that_o in_o all_o the_o beginâ—nings_n in_o all_o the_o access_n and_o approach_n of_o spiriâ—tuall_a sickness_n of_o sinn_n may_v hear_v and_o harken_v to_o that_o voice_n 4.40_o o_o thou_o maâ—_n of_o god_n there_o be_v death_n in_o thâ—_n pot_n and_o so_o refrain_v from_o that_o which_o i_o be_v so_o hungerly_o so_o greedy_o fly_v to_o 13.17_o a_o faithful_a amâ—bassador_n be_v health_n say_v thy_o wise_a servant_n solomonâ—_n â—_z thy_o voice_n receive_v in_o the_o begin_n of_o a_o sickness_n of_o a_o sin_n be_v true_a health_n if_o i_o can_v see_v that_o light_n betimes_o and_o hear_v that_o voice_n early_o then_o shall_v my_o light_n break_v forth_o as_o the_o morning_n 58.8_o and_o my_o health_n shall_v spriug_n forth_o speedy_o deliver_v i_o therefore_o o_o my_o god_n from_o these_o vain_a imagination_n that_o it_o be_v a_o overcurious_a thing_n a_o dangerous_a thing_n to_o come_v to_o that_o tenderness_n that_o rawness_n that_o scrupulousness_n to_o fear_v every_o concupiscence_n every_o offer_n of_o sin_n that_o this_o suspicious_a &_o jealous_a diligence_n will_v turn_v to_o a_o inordinate_a dejection_n of_o spirit_n and_o a_o diffidence_n in_o thy_o care_n &_o providence_n buâ—_n keep_v i_o still_o establish_a both_o in_o a_o constant_a assurance_n that_o thou_o wilâ—_n speak_v to_o i_o at_o the_o begin_n of_o every_o such_o sickness_n at_o the_o approach_n of_o every_o such_o sin_n and_o that_o if_o i_o take_v knowledge_n of_o that_o voice_n then_o anâ—_n fly_v to_o thou_o thou_o wilâ—_n preserve_v i_o from_o fall_v or_o raise_v i_o again_o when_o by_o natural_a infirmity_n i_o be_o fall_v doâ—_n this_o o_o lord_n for_o his_o sake_n who_o know_v our_o natural_a infirmity_n for_o he_o have_v they_o and_o know_v the_o weight_n of_o our_o sin_n for_o he_o pay_v a_o dear_a price_n for_o they_o thy_o son_n our_o saviour_n chr_n jesus_n amen_n 2._o actio_fw-la laesa_fw-la the_o strength_n and_o the_o function_n of_o the_o sense_n &_o other_o faculty_n change_v and_o fail_v 2._o meditation_n the_o heaven_n be_v not_o the_o less_o constant_a because_o they_o move_v continual_o because_o they_o move_v continual_o one_o and_o the_o same_o way_n the_o earth_n be_v not_o the_o more_o constant_a because_o it_o lie_v still_o continual_o because_o continual_o it_o change_v and_o melt_v in_o all_o the_o part_n thereof_o man_n who_o be_v the_o noble_a part_n of_o the_o earth_n melt_v so_o away_o as_o if_o he_o be_v a_o statue_n not_o of_o earth_n but_o of_o snowe_n we_o see_v his_o own_o envy_n melt_v he_o he_o grow_v lean_a with_o that_o he_o will_v say_v another_o beauty_n melt_v he_o but_o he_o feel_v that_o a_o fever_n do_v not_o melt_v he_o like_o snow_n but_o power_n he_o out_o like_o lead_n like_o iron_n like_o brass_n melt_v in_o a_o furnace_n it_o do_v not_o only_o melt_v he_o but_o calcine_v he_o reduce_v he_o to_o atom_n and_o to_o ash_n not_o to_o water_n but_o to_o lime_n and_o how_o quick_o soon_o than_o thou_o can_v receive_v a_o answer_n soon_o than_o thou_o can_v conceive_v the_o question_n earth_n be_v the_o centre_n of_o my_o body_n heaven_n be_v the_o centre_n of_o my_o soul_n these_o two_o be_v the_o natural_a place_n of_o these_o two_o but_o thoâ—_n go_v not_o to_o these_o two_o iâ—_n a_o equal_a place_n my_o bâ—â—dy_n fall_v down_o without_o push_v my_o soul_n doâ—â—_n not_o go_v up_o without_o puâ—ling_v ascension_n be_v mâ—_n soul_n pace_n &_o measure_n but_o precipitation_n my_o body_n and_o even_o angellâ—_n who_o home_n be_v heaveâ—_n and_o who_o be_v wingeâ—_n too_o yet_o have_v a_o ladder_n 〈◊〉_d go_v to_o heaven_n by_o stepâ—_n the_o sun_n who_o go_v 〈◊〉_d many_o mile_n in_o a_o minuâ—â—_n the_o star_n of_o the_o fiâ—â—mament_n which_o go_v so_o very_a many_o more_o go_v not_o so_o fast_o as_o my_o body_n to_o the_o earth_n in_o the_o same_o instant_n that_o i_o feel_v the_o first_o attempt_n of_o the_o disease_n i_o feel_v the_o victory_n in_o the_o twinkle_n of_o a_o eye_n i_o can_v scarce_o see_v instant_o the_o taste_n be_v insipid_a and_o fatuous_a instant_o the_o appetite_n be_v dull_a and_o desirelesseâ—_n instant_o the_o knee_n be_v sink_v and_o strengthless_a and_o in_o a_o instant_n sleep_n which_o be_v the_o picture_n the_o copy_n of_o death_n be_v take_v away_o that_o the_o original_a death_n itself_o may_v succeed_v and_o that_o so_o i_o may_v have_v death_n to_o the_o life_n it_o be_v part_n of_o adam_n punishment_n in_o the_o sweat_n of_o thy_o brow_n thou_o shall_v eat_v thy_o breadâ—_n â—_z it_o be_v multiply_v to_o i_o i_o have_v earn_v bread_n in_o the_o sweat_n of_o my_o brow_n in_o the_o labour_n of_o my_o call_n and_o i_o have_v itâ—_n and_o i_o sweat_v again_o &_o
unto_o i_o if_o i_o be_v aloneâ—_n elias_n himself_o fainteâ—_n under_o that_o apprehension_n loe_o 14_o i_o be_o leave_v alone_o anâ—_n martha_n murmur_v at_o that_o 10.40_o and_o say_v to_o christ_n lord_n do_v not_o thou_o care_n that_o my_o sister_n have_v leave_v i_o to_o serve_v alone_o neither_o can_v jeremiah_n enter_v into_o his_o lamentation_n from_o a_o high_a ground_n then_o to_o say_v 1.1_o how_o do_v the_o city_n sit_v solitary_a that_o be_v full_a of_o people_n o_o my_o god_n it_o be_v the_o leper_n that_o thou_o have_v condemn_v to_o live_v alone_o 13.46_o have_v â—_o such_o a_o leprosy_n in_o my_o soul_n that_o i_o must_v die_v alone_o alone_o without_o thou_o shall_v this_o come_v to_o such_o a_o leprosy_n in_o my_o body_n that_o i_o must_v die_v â—â—lone_o alone_o without_o they_o that_o shall_v assiâ—â—_n that_o shall_v comfort_v mâ—â—_n but_o come_v not_o this_o eâ—â—postulation_n too_o near_o murmur_v must_v i_o bâ—â—_n conclude_v with_o that_o 14.2_o thâ—â—_n moses_n be_v command_v 〈◊〉_d come_v near_o the_o lord_n alonâ—â—_n that_o solitariness_n &_o dâ—â—reliction_n and_o abandon_v of_o other_o disposeâ—_n we_o best_o for_o god_n who_o acâ—companies_v we_o most_o alonâ—â—_n may_v i_o not_o remember_v &_o apply_v to_o 32.24_o that_o thought_n god_n come_v not_o to_o jacob_n till_o he_o find_v he_o alone_o â—et_o when_o he_o find_v he_o alone_o he_o wrestle_v with_o he_o and_o lame_v he_o that_o when_o in_o the_o dereliction_n and_o forsake_v of_o friend_n and_o physician_n a_o man_n be_v leave_v alone_o to_o god_n god_n may_v so_o wrestle_v with_o this_o jacob_n with_o this_o conscience_n as_o to_o put_v it_o out_o of_o joint_n &_o so_o appear_v to_o he_o as_o that_o he_o dare_v not_o look_v upon_o he_o face_n to_o face_n when_o as_o by_o way_n of_o reflection_n in_o the_o consolation_n of_o his_o temporal_a or_o spiritual_a servant_n and_o ordinance_n he_o dare_v 〈◊〉_d they_o be_v there_o 6.16_o but_o â—_o faithful_a friend_n be_v the_o physic_n of_o life_n and_o they_o thâ—_n fear_v the_o lord_n shall_v find_v he_o therefore_o have_v thâ—_n lord_n afford_v i_o boâ—â—_n in_o one_o person_n that_o phâ—â—sician_n who_o be_v my_o faithâ—full_a friend_n 5._o prayer_n o_o eternal_a and_o moâ—â—_n gracious_a god_n whâ—â—_n call_v down_o fire_n from_o heaven_n upon_o the_o sinful_a city_n but_o once_o and_o opâ—â—nedst_v the_o earth_n to_o swallow_v the_o murmurer_n but_o onceâ—_n â—_z and_o throw_v down_o the_o tower_n of_o siloe_n upon_o sinner_n but_o once_o but_o for_o thy_o work_n of_o mercy_n repeat_a they_o often_o &_o still_o work_v by_o thy_o own_o pattern_n as_o thou_o broghte_v man_n into_o this_o world_n by_o give_v he_o a_o helper_n fit_a for_o he_o here_o â—o_z whether_o it_o be_v thy_o will_n to_o continue_v i_o â—ong_o thus_o or_o to_o dismiss_v i_o by_o death_n be_v please_v to_o afford_v i_o the_o help_v fit_a for_o both_o condition_n either_o for_o my_o weak_a staâ—_n here_o or_o my_o final_a tranâ—â—migration_n from_o hencel_n and_o if_o thou_o may_v resceive_v glory_n by_o that_o waâ—â—_n and_o by_o all_o way_n thoâ—â—_n may_v receive_v glory_n glâ—â—rifie_v thyself_o in_o preserâ—uing_v this_o body_n from_o sucâ—_n infection_n as_o may_v withhold_v those_o whâ—_n will_v come_v or_o in_o dawnger_n they_o who_o do_v comeâ—_n and_o preserve_v this_o soul_n 〈◊〉_d the_o faculty_n thereof_o frâ—â—_n all_o such_o distemper_n 〈◊〉_d may_v shake_v the_o assuâ—rance_n which_o myself_o &_o other_o have_v have_v that_o because_o thou_o have_v love_v i_o thou_o will_v love_v i_o to_o my_o end_n and_o at_o my_o end_n open_v none_o of_o my_o door_n not_o of_o my_o hart_n not_o of_o my_o ear_n not_o of_o my_o house_n to_o any_o supplant_a that_o will_v enter_v to_o undermine_v i_o in_o my_o religion_n to_o thou_o in_o the_o time_n of_o my_o weakness_n or_o to_o defame_v i_o &_o magnify_v himself_o with_o false_a rumour_n of_o such_o a_o victory_n &_o surprisal_n of_o i_o after_o i_o be_o dead_a be_v my_o salvation_n and_o plead_v my_o salvation_n work_v it_o and_o declaâ—â—_n it_o and_o as_o thy_o triumphaâ—â—_n shall_v be_v so_o let_v the_o montant_n church_n be_v assureâ—_n that_o thou_o be_v my_o 〈◊〉_d and_o i_o thy_o servant_n to_o anâ—_n in_o my_o consummation_n bless_v thou_o the_o learning_n and_o the_o labour_n of_o thâ—â—_n man_n who_o thou_o sendeâ—â—_fw-es to_o assist_v i_o and_o sincâ—_n thou_o take_v i_o by_o thâ—_n hand_n &_o put_v i_o into_o his_o hand_n for_o i_o come_v tâ—_n he_o in_o thy_o name_n who_o in_o thy_o name_n come_v tâ—_n i_o since_o i_o clog_v not_o mâ—_n hope_n in_o he_o no_o nor_o my_o â—â—ayers_n to_o thou_o with_o any_o â—â—mited_a condition_n but_o â—wrap_v all_o in_o those_o two_o petition_n thy_o kingdom_n â—â—me_n thy_o will_n be_v do_v proâ—er_v he_o and_o relieve_v â—â—e_z in_o thy_o way_n in_o thy_o â—â—me_n and_o in_o thy_o meaâ—â—re_n amen_n 6._o metuit_fw-la the_o physician_n be_v afraid_a 6._o meditation_n â—_o observe_v the_o physician_n with_o the_o same_o diligence_n as_o he_o the_o disâ—ase_n i_o see_v he_o fear_v â—nd_v i_o fear_v with_o he_o i_o overtake_v he_o i_o ovem_fw-la him_z in_o his_o fear_n anâ—_n go_v the_o fast_o becauseâ—_n make_v his_o pace_n slowâ—_n fear_v the_o more_o becaâ—â—â—_n he_o disguise_v his_o fear_n 〈◊〉_d i_o see_v it_o with_o the_o moâ—â—_n sharpness_n because_o 〈◊〉_d will_v not_o have_v i_o 〈◊〉_d it_o he_o know_v that_o 〈◊〉_d fear_n shall_v not_o disordâ—â—â—_n the_o practice_n and_o exerciâ—â—â—_n of_o his_o art_n but_o he_o knoâ—â—_n that_o my_o fear_n may_v disoâ—â—der_v the_o eâ—fect_n and_o work_v of_o his_o practice_n 〈◊〉_d the_o ill_a affection_n of_o 〈◊〉_d spleen_n complicate_v anâ—_n â—ingle_v themselves_o with_o â—â—ery_a infirmity_n of_o the_o â—â—dy_n so_o do_v fear_n insiâ—â—at_v it_o â—elf_n in_o every_o actiâ—â—_n or_o passion_n of_o the_o mind_n â—nd_v as_o wind_v in_o the_o body_n â—ill_v counterfeit_v any_o disâ—ase_n and_o seem_v the_o stone_n &_o â—eem_v the_o gout_n so_o fear_n will_v counterfeit_v any_o disâ—ase_n of_o the_o mind_n it_o shall_v â—eeme_v love_n a_o love_n of_o have_v and_o it_o be_v but_o a_o fear_n a_o jealous_a and_o suspicious_a â—eare_z of_o lose_v it_o shall_v â—eem_v valour_n in_o despise_v and_o underualue_v danger_n and_o it_o be_v but_o fear_n in_o a_o overvalue_a of_o â—â—â—â—nion_n and_o estimation_n and_o fear_v of_o lose_v that_o man_n that_o be_v not_o afraid_a a_o lion_n be_v afraid_a of_o a_o 〈◊〉_d not_o afraid_a of_o staruiâ—â—_n &_o yet_o be_v afraid_a of_o soâ—â—_n joint_a of_o meat_n at_o the_o tabâ—â—_n present_v to_o feed_v hiâ—_n not_o afraid_a of_o the_o soâ—â—â—_n of_o drum_n and_o truâ—â—pets_n and_o shot_n and_o thoâ—â—_n which_o they_o seek_v 〈◊〉_d drown_v the_o last_o cry_v oâ—_n man_n and_o be_v afraid_a 〈◊〉_d some_o particular_a harmâ—â—nious_a instrument_n â—_z so_o mucâ—_n afraid_a as_o that_o with_o anâ—_n of_o these_o the_o enemy_n may_v â—rive_v this_o man_n otherwise_o â—aliant_a enough_o out_o of_o â—â—e_z field_n i_o know_v not_o what_o fear_n be_v nor_o i_o know_v â—ot_n what_o it_o be_v that_o i_o fear_v â—ow_o i_o fear_v not_o the_o hasten_a of_o my_o death_n and_o yet_o i_o do_v fear_v the_o increase_n â—f_o the_o disease_n i_o shall_v â—elie_v nature_n if_o i_o shall_v deny_v that_o i_o fear_v this_o &_o â—f_o i_o shall_v say_v that_o i_o feaâ—ed_v death_n i_o shall_v belie_v god_n my_o weakness_n be_v â—rom_o nature_n who_o have_v â—ut_v her_o measure_n my_o strength_n be_v from_o god_n who_o possess_v &_o distriâ—butes_n infinite_o as_o the_o every_o cold_a air_n be_v noâ—_n damp_n every_o shiver_a not_o a_o stupefaction_n so_o eveâ—ry_o fear_n be_v not_o a_o fearfulness_n every_o declinationâ—_n not_o a_o run_v away_o â—â—uery_n debate_v be_v not_o resolve_v every_o wisâ—_n that_o it_o be_v not_o thus_o â—_o not_o a_o murmur_a noâ—_n dejection_n though_o it_o bâ—â—_n thus_o but_o as_o my_o phisiciâ—â—_n fear_n put_v not_o he_o froâ—_n his_o 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comfort_n which_o we_o may_v have_v in_o our_o first_o sickness_n from_o that_o meditation_n alas_o how_o general_o miserable_a be_v man_n and_o how_o subject_a to_o disease_n for_o in_o that_o it_o be_v some_o degree_n of_o comfort_n that_o we_o be_v but_o in_o the_o staâ—e_v common_a to_o all_o we_o fall_v i_o say_v to_o this_o discomfort_n and_o self_n accuse_v &_o self_n condemn_v alas_o how_o unprovident_a and_o in_o that_o how_o unthankful_a to_o god_n and_o his_o instrument_n be_o i_o in_o make_v so_o ill_o use_v of_o so_o great_a benefit_n in_o destroy_v so_o soon_o so_o long_o a_o work_n in_o relapse_v by_o my_o disorder_n to_o that_o from_o which_o they_o have_v deliver_v i_o and_o so_o my_o meditation_n be_v fearful_o transfer_v from_o the_o body_n to_o the_o mind_n and_o from_o the_o consideration_n of_o the_o sickness_n to_o that_o sin_n that_o sinful_a carelessness_n by_o which_o i_o have_v occasion_v my_o relapse_n and_o among_o the_o many_o weight_n that_o aggravate_v 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