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wretched_a distemper_n and_o do_v also_o abase_v itself_o before_o the_o lord_n say_v what_o if_o god_n will_v not_o hear_v my_o prayer_n what_o if_o god_n will_v not_o pacify_v my_o conscience_n do_v the_o lord_n do_v i_o any_o wrong_n vile_a hellhound_n that_o i_o be_o i_o have_v my_o sin_n and_o my_o shame_n wrath_n be_v my_o portion_n and_o hell_n be_v my_o place_n thither_o may_v i_o go_v when_o i_o will_v it_o be_v mercy_n that_o god_n thus_o deal_v with_o i_o and_o now_o the_o soul_n clear_v god_n in_o his_o justice_n and_o say_v it_o be_v just_a with_o god_n that_o all_o the_o prayer_n which_o come_v from_o this_o filthy_a heart_n of_o i_o shall_v be_v abhor_v and_o that_o all_o my_o labor_n in_o holy_a duty_n shall_v never_o be_v bless_v it_o be_v i_o that_o have_v sin_v against_o check_n of_o conscience_n against_o knowledge_n against_o heaven_n and_o therefore_o it_o be_v just_a that_o i_o shall_v carry_v this_o horror_n of_o heart_n with_o i_o to_o the_o grave_a it_o be_v i_o that_o have_v abuse_v mercy_n and_o therefore_o it_o be_v just_a that_o i_o shall_v go_v with_o a_o torment_a conscience_n down_o into_o hell_n and_o o_o that_o if_o i_o be_v in_o hell_n i_o may_v have_v a_o spirit_n to_o glorify_v and_o justify_v thy_o name_n there_o and_o say_v now_o i_o be_o come_v down_o to_o hell_n among_o you_o damn_a creature_n but_o the_o lord_n be_v righteous_a and_o bless_a for_o ever_o in_o all_o his_o do_n and_o deal_n and_o i_o be_o just_o condemn_v three_o hence_o the_o soul_n come_v to_o be_v quiet_a and_o frameable_a under_o the_o heavy_a hand_n of_o god_n in_o that_o helpless_a condition_n wherein_o he_o be_v it_o take_v the_o blow_n and_o lie_v under_o the_o burden_n and_o go_v away_o quiet_o and_o patient_o o_o this_o be_v a_o heart_n worth_a gold_n o_o say_v he_o it_o be_v fit_a that_o god_n shall_v glorify_v himself_o though_o i_o be_v damn_v for_o ever_o for_o i_o deserve_v the_o worst_a whatsoever_o i_o have_v it_o be_v the_o reward_n of_o my_o own_o work_n and_o the_o end_n of_o my_o own_o way_n if_o i_o be_v damn_v i_o may_v thank_v my_o pride_n and_o my_o stubbornness_n and_o my_o peevishness_n of_o spirit_n what_o shall_v i_o repine_v against_o the_o lord_n because_o his_o wrath_n and_o his_o displeasure_n lie_v heavy_a upon_o i_o oh_o no_o let_v i_o repine_v against_o my_o sin_n the_o cause_n of_o all_o let_v i_o grudge_v against_o my_o base_a heart_n that_o have_v nourish_v these_o adder_n in_o my_o bosom_n but_o let_v i_o bless_v the_o lord_n and_o not_o speak_v one_o word_n against_o he_o thus_o david_n i_o hold_v my_o tongue_n say_v he_o and_o speak_v nothing_o because_o 9_o thou_o lord_n have_v do_v it_o so_o the_o soul_n when_o the_o sentence_n of_o condemnation_n be_v even_o seize_v upon_o he_o and_o god_n seem_v to_o cast_v he_o out_o of_o his_o favour_n than_o he_o cry_v i_o confess_v god_n be_v just_a and_o therefore_o i_o bless_v his_o name_n and_o yield_v unto_o he_o but_o sin_n sin_n be_v the_o worker_n of_o all_o this_o misery_n on_o i_o jeremiah_n plead_v the_o case_n of_o the_o church_n now_o go_v to_o captivity_n woe_n be_v i_o for_o my_o hurt_n say_v 19_o he_o my_o wound_n be_v grievous_a but_o i_o say_v true_o this_o be_v my_o grief_n and_o i_o must_v bear_v it_o such_o be_v the_o frame_n of_o a_o heart_n true_o humble_v it_o be_v content_a to_o take_v all_o to_o itself_o and_o so_o to_o be_v quiet_a say_v this_o be_v my_o wound_n and_o i_o must_v bear_v it_o this_o be_v my_o sorrow_n and_o i_o will_v suffer_v it_o thus_o you_o see_v what_o be_v the_o behaviour_n of_o the_o soul_n in_o this_o contentedness_n to_o be_v at_o the_o lord_n disposal_n object_n but_o some_o may_v object_v must_v the_o soul_n or_o ought_v the_o soul_n to_o be_v thus_o content_a to_o be_v leave_v in_o this_o damnable_a condition_n ans._n for_o answer_v this_o contentedness_n imply_v two_o thing_n first_o a_o carnal_a security_n and_o a_o regardlesness_n of_o a_o man_n estate_n and_o and_o this_o be_v a_o most_o curse_a sin_n second_o a_o calmness_n of_o soul_n not_o murmur_v against_o the_o lord_n dispensation_n towards_o he_o and_o this_o contentedness_n be_v ever_o accompany_v with_o the_o sight_n of_o a_o man_n sin_n and_o sue_v for_o mercy_n it_o ever_o improve_v all_o mean_n and_o help_n that_o may_v bring_v he_o near_o to_o god_n but_o if_o mercy_n shall_v deny_v it_o the_o soul_n be_v satisfy_v and_o rest_v well_o pay_v and_o this_o contentedness_n oppose_v against_o quarrel_v with_o the_o almighty_a every_o humble_a soul_n do_v attain_v to_o although_o in_o every_o one_o it_o be_v not_o so_o plain_o see_v to_o give_v it_o in_o a_o comparison_n a_o thief_n take_v for_o robbery_n on_o who_o the_o sentence_n of_o death_n have_v pass_v he_o shall_v not_o neglect_v the_o mean_n to_o get_v a_o pardon_n and_o yet_o if_o he_o can_v procure_v it_o he_o must_v not_o murmur_v against_o the_o judge_n for_o condemn_v he_o to_o death_n because_o he_o have_v do_v nothing_o but_o law_n so_o we_o shall_v not_o be_v careless_a in_o use_v all_o mean_n for_o our_o good_a but_o still_o seek_v to_o god_n for_o mercy_n yet_o thus_o we_o must_v be_v and_o thus_o we_o ought_v to_o be_v content_v with_o whatsoever_o mercy_n shall_v deny_v because_o we_o be_v not_o worthy_a of_o any_o favour_n the_o soul_n in_o a_o depth_n of_o humiliation_n it_o first_o stoop_v to_o the_o condition_n that_o the_o lord_n will_v appoint_v he_o dare_v not_o fly_v away_o from_o god_n nor_o repine_v against_o the_o lord_n but_o he_o lie_v down_o meek_o 2._o as_o he_o be_v content_a with_o the_o hard_a measure_n so_o he_o be_v content_a with_o the_o long_a time_n he_o will_v stay_v for_o mercy_n be_v it_o never_o so_o long_o i_o will_v wait_v upon_o the_o lord_n say_v isaiah_n that_o have_v hide_v his_o face_n from_o jacob_n and_o i_o will_v look_v for_o he_o so_o the_o humble_a sinner_n although_o the_o lord_n hide_v his_o face_n and_o turn_v away_o his_o love_a countenance_n from_o i_o yet_o i_o will_v look_v towards_o heaven_n so_o long_o as_o i_o have_v a_o eye_n to_o see_v and_o a_o hand_n to_o lift_v up_o the_o lord_n may_v take_v his_o own_o time_n it_o be_v manner_n for_o i_o to_o wait_v nay_o the_o poor_a break_a heart_n resolve_v thus_o if_o i_o lie_v and_o lick_v the_o dust_n all_o my_o day_n and_o cry_v for_o mercy_n all_o my_o life_n long_o if_o my_o last_o word_n may_v be_v mercy_n mercy_n it_o be_v well_o i_o may_v get_v mercy_n at_o my_o last_o gasp_n three_o as_o he_o be_v content_a to_o stay_v the_o long_a time_n so_o be_v he_o content_a with_o the_o least_o pittance_n of_o mercy_n let_v my_o condition_n be_v never_o so_o hard_a say_v the_o soul_n do_v lord_n what_o thou_o will_v for_o i_o let_v the_o fire_n of_o thy_o wrath_n consume_v i_o here_o only_o recover_v i_o hereafter_o if_o i_o find_v mercy_n at_o the_o last_o i_o be_o content_a and_o whatsoever_o thou_o give_v i_o bless_v thy_o name_n for_o it_o he_o quarrel_v not_o say_v why_o be_v not_o my_o grace_n increase_v and_o why_o be_o i_o not_o thus_o and_o thus_o comfort_v no_o he_o look_v for_o mercy_n and_o if_o he_o have_v but_o a_o crumb_n of_o mercy_n he_o be_v comfort_v and_o quiet_v for_o ever_o and_o now_o you_o may_v suppose_v the_o heart_n be_v bring_v very_o low_a hence_o we_o collect_v 1._o that_o they_o which_o have_v the_o great_a part_n instruction_n and_o gift_n and_o ability_n and_o honour_n be_v for_o the_o most_o part_n hardly_o bring_v home_o to_o the_o lord_n jesus_n christ_n they_o that_o be_v most_o hardly_o humble_v be_v