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i_o hide_v my_o sin_n and_o nourish_v a_o hard_a heart_n my_o bone_n be_v consume_v and_o the_o fire_n burn_v within_o i_o but_o when_o my_o heart_n thaw_v than_o i_o acknowledge_v my_o sin_n that_o be_v pour_v out_o my_o soul_n in_o confession_n and_o thou_o forgave_v i_o the_o iniquity_n of_o my_o sin_n this_o confession_n be_v sample_v by_o the_o matter_n which_o be_v search_v out_o and_o according_a to_o the_o sorrow_n which_o the_o heart_n conceive_v and_o by_o both_o become_v a_o most_o humble_a plain_a tender_a and_o hearty_a express_v of_o sin_n to_o the_o lord_n not_o only_o in_o the_o substance_n but_o the_o circumstance_n of_o aggravation_n it_o be_v no_o mincer_n or_o lesner_n of_o it_o but_o to_o the_o uttermost_a enlarge_n it_o against_o herself_o according_a to_o either_o the_o greatness_n the_o extension_n and_o effect_n the_o heinousness_n of_o it_o by_o the_o person_n commit_v it_o the_o person_n against_o who_o the_o heart_n wherewith_o the_o time_n when_o place_z 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air_n or_o look_v up_o to_o heaven_n and_o make_v itself_o vile_a and_o odious_a compare_v itself_o in_o her_o filthiness_n with_o the_o pure_a eye_n of_o god_n see_v the_o confession_n of_o the_o holy_a man_n in_o scripture_n 10._o dan_n 9.8_o ezra_n 10.1_o ezra_n 9.6_o psal_n 51.3_o job_n 42.2_o 1_o tim._n 1_o 10._o ezra_n david_n job_n paul_n and_o other_o confound_v in_o themselves_o for_o their_o sin_n three_o the_o soul_n have_v thus_o arraign_v and_o indict_v herself_o before_o god_n do_v receive_v sentence_n against_o herself_o pronounce_v herself_o by_o her_o guilt_n herself_o three_o sentence_v herself_o to_o lie_v just_o under_o the_o vengeance_n of_o god_n for_o her_o sin_n and_o do_v justify_v god_n in_o all_o his_o say_n that_o he_o may_v be_v righteous_a whatsoever_o become_v of_o she_o yâ—a_o she_o bring_v herself_o even_o to_o the_o suburb_n of_o hell_n as_o she_o deserve_v 24.17_o psal_n 51.4_o 2_o sam._n 24.17_o look_v at_o god_n glory_n above_o she_o own_o redress_n 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and_o convince_v thou_o how_o unworthy_a a_o vessel_n thou_o be_v to_o have_v it_o pour_v into_o thou_o â—_o 2_o cor._n 12._o â—_o and_o he_o have_v need_n buffet_v thou_o and_o bring_v thou_o low_o before_o he_o dare_v trust_v thou_o with_o it_o and_o see_v all_o this_o be_v not_o from_o hatred_n but_o in_o love_n set_v thy_o heart_n at_o rest_n make_v no_o haste_n nor_o limit_v the_o lord_n but_o patient_o wait_v and_o be_v well_o do_v and_o in_o time_n the_o lord_n shall_v break_v the_o pride_n of_o thy_o heart_n and_o let_v in_o his_o promise_n by_o faith_n sweet_o into_o thou_o so_o that_o thou_o shall_v not_o repent_v thou_o that_o thou_o be_v for_o a_o time_n defer_v that_o thou_o may_v be_v after_o reward_v with_o more_o comfort_n and_o learn_v to_o boast_v of_o the_o lord_n three_o and_o last_o satisfaction_n the_o 3_o act_n in_o case_n of_o satisfaction_n if_o thou_o find_v that_o the_o lord_n have_v sweet_o satisfy_v thou_o with_o that_o fruit_n of_o the_o sacrament_n which_o thou_o wente_v for_o to_o his_o feast_n of_o the_o lord_n jesus_n so_o that_o now_o thou_o be_v as_o one_o set_v at_o liberty_n cheerful_a in_o heart_n meet_v for_o thy_o call_n and_o purposely_o bend_v to_o obey_v then_o thou_o be_v to_o apply_v thyself_o a_o three_o way_n and_o thou_o be_v to_o do_v somewhat_o for_o the_o present_a and_o somewhat_o for_o time_n to_o come_v for_o the_o present_a present_v what_o to_o do_v â—_o 1._o for_o present_v to_o renew_v again_o thy_o thankful_a heart_n to_o god_n who_o at_o last_o have_v hear_v thy_o desire_n and_o quit_v thou_o of_o thy_o adversary_n which_o always_o upbraid_v thou_o with_o thy_o unfruitful_a sacrament_n and_o now_o with_o poor_a hanna_n to_o receive_v this_o comfort_n as_o one_o that_o mean_v no_o more_o to_o look_v with_o a_o sad_a heart_n but_o to_o honour_v the_o lord_n in_o the_o strength_n of_o his_o own_o gracious_a faithfulness_n and_o to_o knit_v thy_o heart_n to_o he_o by_o the_o band_n of_o so_o undeserved_a 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thou_o lose_v 3_o john_n verse_n 8._o the_o good_a thing_n thou_o have_v labour_v for_o till_o thou_o get_v a_o full_a reward_n grace_n 2._o some_o grace_n likewise_o there_o be_v two_o grace_n of_o the_o spirit_n which_o all_o such_o have_v cause_n to_o practice_v the_o first_o be_v fear_n the_o second_o be_v care_n by_o fear_n i_o mean_v as_o heb._n 2.1_o take_v heed_n lest_o these_o good_a thing_n leak_n out_o through_o the_o secret_a chink_n and_o crack_n of_o our_o false_a heart_n fear_n 1._o fear_n jealousy_n of_o lose_v grace_n be_v like_o the_o tender_a eyelid_n which_o keep_v any_o offence_n from_o the_o eye_n and_o watch_v narrow_o to_o all_o occasion_n against_o all_o temptation_n of_o the_o world_n and_o satan_n whereby_o this_o pearl_n may_v be_v endanger_v and_o imbezzeld_v the_o mother_n who_o the_o live_a child_n be_v will_v not_o give_v any_o way_n to_o the_o cut_v it_o in_o sunder_o but_o the_o false_a mother_n will_v 28._o 1_o king_n 2_o 28._o and_o by_o that_o 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