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it_o be_v a_o hard_a matter_n to_o keep_v all_o fair_a with_o conscience_n when_o and_o where_o there_o be_v nothing_o but_o vileness_n and_o partly_o in_o try_v conclusion_n upon_o it_o man_n play_v the_o empiric_n with_o their_o conscience_n put_v they_o upon_o the_o practice_n of_o thing_n the_o lawfullnesse_n whereof_o they_o know_v not_o or_o be_v not_o yet_o resolve_v of_o 6._o by_o dead_v and_o sear_a conscience_n conscience_n be_v and_o will_v be_v live_v and_o sensible_a now_o when_o man_n brawn_n it_o by_o the_o daily_a and_o customary_a practice_n of_o horrible_a and_o gross_a sin_n and_o by_o disusance_n they_o do_v abuse_v it_o and_o so_o disable_v it_o for_o all_o spiritual_a service_n 7._o by_o smother_a the_o scruple_n of_o iâ—_n conscience_n be_v many_o time_n full_a of_o real_a and_o personal_a case_n and_o sometime_o it_o be_v not_o able_a to_o resolve_v itself_o now_o if_o a_o man_n through_o pride_n or_o bashfulness_n shall_v keep_v all_o close_a and_o not_o seek_v the_o satisfaction_n and_o resolution_n thereof_o this_o make_v the_o inward_a rankle_a and_o fester_v and_o languish_v thereof_o 8._o by_o blind_a and_o darken_v conscience_n knowledge_n be_v the_o eye_n and_o light_n of_o conscience_n for_o it_o see_v no_o more_o than_o it_o know_v now_o ignorance_n be_v the_o thing_n that_o blind_v conscience_n and_o without_o knowledge_n it_o be_v not_o good_a it_o be_v a_o madness_n in_o man_n to_o take_v away_o or_o to_o put_v out_o the_o light_n which_o shall_v guide_v and_o direct_v their_o own_o conscience_n in_o thing_n to_o be_v believe_v and_o do_v 9_o by_o abase_v conscience_n conscience_n be_v make_v for_o goodness_n to_o uphold_v and_o maintain_v that_o and_o for_o high_a and_o holy_a employment_n to_o do_v that_o now_o when_o it_o shall_v be_v use_v for_o a_o colour_n and_o cloak_n for_o sin_n and_o wickedness_n and_o man_n shall_v either_o make_v their_o sin_n to_o carry_v the_o name_n of_o conscience_n as_o unwarrant_v opinion_n and_o practice_n now_o adays_o do_v or_o make_v conscience_n the_o cause_n of_o sin_n as_o too_o many_o do_v who_o can_v come_v to_o church_n and_o receive_v the_o holy_a sacrament_n under_o a_o pretence_n that_o conscience_n will_v not_o let_v they_o a_o great_a belie_n and_o abuse_v how_o conscience_n abase_v and_o how_o of_o conscience_n or_o to_o make_v conscience_n a_o false_a witness_n fasten_v untruth_n on_o it_o as_o do_v such_o man_n that_o will_v take_v it_o upon_o their_o conscience_n that_o it_o be_v not_o so_o nor_o so_o as_o they_o be_v accuse_v when_o indeed_o it_o be_v so_o conscience_n be_v put_v to_o swear_v against_o conscience_n and_o to_o speak_v against_o conscience_n and_o to_o accuse_v and_o condemn_v and_o to_o execute_v conscience_n this_o be_v the_o put_n of_o conscience_n unto_o the_o base_a office_n that_o can_v be_v and_o this_o way_n man_n do_v notable_o abuse_v conscience_n 10._o by_o silence_v conscience_n conscience_n within_o we_o can_v and_o will_v speak_v unto_o we_o when_o as_o other_o can_v or_o dare_v not_o to_o speak_v unto_o we_o now_o when_o man_n command_v it_o unto_o silence_n and_o stop_v the_o mouth_n thereof_o and_o can_v endure_v that_o it_o shall_v be_v a_o voice_n either_o of_o direction_n or_o correction_n unto_o they_o but_o bribe_n or_o choke_v conscience_n it_o be_v a_o great_a abuse_n unto_o it_o 11._o by_o neglect_v it_o conscience_n be_v worthy_a our_o best_a respect_n and_o attendance_n and_o we_o can_v do_v too_o much_o to_o cherish_v and_o refresh_v it_o now_o when_o man_n shall_v run_v from_o it_o as_o many_o a_o whore_n do_v from_o her_o child_n leave_v it_o upon_o the_o parish_n and_o let_v who_o will_v look_v after_o it_o when_o man_n shall_v never_o inquire_v after_o its_o health_n but_o suffer_v it_o to_o take_v grievous_a fall_n and_o hurt_n when_o man_n shall_v pass_v over_o its_o wound_n not_o mind_v its_o cure_n when_o man_n shall_v suffer_v it_o to_o want_v the_o best_a mean_n of_o information_n consolation_n and_o corroboration_n and_o let_v it_o cry_v itself_o to_o death_n they_o show_v most_o horrible_a cruelty_n unto_o conscience_n and_o do_v as_o gross_o abuse_v it_o as_o a_o nurse_n do_v her_o suck_a babe_n to_o who_o she_o deni_v her_o care_n and_o breast_n 12._o by_o overload_v and_o entangle_v conscience_n conscience_n can_v and_o will_v bear_v much_o but_o yet_o as_o the_o overlading_a of_o a_o ship_n be_v she_o sink_v so_o the_o over-lading_a of_o conscience_n by_o sin_n and_o sorrow_n and_o fear_n and_o impertinent_a scruple_n be_v the_o abuse_n and_o wrong_v of_o conscience_n 2._o lay_v out_o for_o the_o true_a good_a and_o strengthen_n of_o the_o spirit_n within_o you_o we_o must_v endeavour_v to_o maintain_v it_o in_o a_o state_n of_o goodness_n cherish_v and_o keep_v up_o its_o goodness_n that_o it_o die_v not_o it_o will_v quit_v cost_v for_o we_o so_o to_o do_v the_o good_a and_o strength_n of_o conscience_n be_v our_o good_a and_o strength_n at_o all_o time_n let_v this_o then_o be_v your_o work_n 1._o remove_v daily_o the_o evillnesse_n of_o sin_n from_o within_o it_o and_o before_o it_o nothing_o be_v the_o undo_n of_o conscience_n but_o sin_n and_o we_o must_v endeavour_v after_o the_o daily_a bathe_n of_o it_o in_o the_o blood_n of_o the_o lord_n jesus_n the_o increase_v of_o its_o renovation_n by_o the_o spirit_n we_o must_v be_v much_o in_o the_o practice_n of_o repentance_n and_o wash_v away_o those_o sin_n which_o lie_v upon_o conscience_n by_o the_o tear_n of_o godly_a sorrow_n 2._o feed_v and_o nourish_v it_o with_o its_o appoint_a food_n the_o strength_n of_o our_o natural_a spirit_n stand_v in_o their_o nourishment_n &_o it_o be_v as_o true_a of_o our_o spiritual_a spirit_n conscience_n must_v not_o be_v overfa_v nor_o overphysick_v but_o we_o must_v give_v it_o the_o word_n in_o promise_n christ_n in_o merit_n and_o the_o sense_n of_o pardon_v mercy_n and_o we_o flesh_n and_o refresh_v it_o 3._o make_v use_n of_o the_o strength_n of_o conscience_n for_o your_o supportance_n conscience_n be_v make_v for_o use_v the_o excellency_n of_o it_o stand_v in_o its_o use_n and_o if_o we_o do_v put_v conscience_n unto_o it_o it_o will_v be_v our_o confidence_n in_o time_n of_o common_a fear_n and_o danger_n it_o will_v steel_n our_o heart_n and_o bear_v up_o our_o mind_n as_o stout_o and_o as_o safe_o as_o the_o water_n do_v the_o ark_n of_o noah_n nay_o it_o will_v prove_v a_o ark_n or_o garrisonunto_n we_o for_o our_o safety_n learn_v therefore_o upon_o the_o access_n of_o all_o calamity_n to_o retire_v into_o conscience_n and_o commune_v with_o thy_o own_o spirit_n and_o call_v upon_o conscience_n to_o do_v its_o office_n and_o work_n keep_v not_o conscience_n idle_a within_o you_o the_o less_o you_o employ_v it_o the_o unfit_a will_v it_o be_v for_o your_o strength_n and_o service_n call_v upon_o it_o to_o act_v its_o own_o proper_a operation_n and_o you_o shall_v find_v the_o comfort_n of_o it_o unto_o you_o in_o your_o affliction_n 4._o secure_v the_o sound_a spirit_n within_o you_o it_o be_v our_o upholdment_n and_o security_n and_o therefore_o by_o a_o holy_a care_n and_o watchfullnesse_n keep_v it_o above_o all_o keep_n prov._n 4._o 23._o some_o man_n have_v make_v shipwreck_n of_o conscience_n and_o lose_v it_o 1_o tim._n 1._o 19_o and_o our_o condition_n in_o this_o life_n be_v full_a of_o danger_n conscience_n within_o we_o be_v in_o the_o midst_n of_o many_o and_o malicious_a adversary_n and_o in_o as_o much_o danger_n by_o evil_a man_n and_o devil_n as_o ever_o and_o it_o stand_v we_o much_o upon_o to_o be_v watchful_a and_o to_o be_v always_o fearful_a and_o jealous_a lest_o both_o we_o and_o it_o become_v a_o prey_n unto_o satan_n to_o this_o end_n 1._o
of_o their_o unworthiness_n they_o stand_v in_o their_o own_o light_n satan_n hereby_o take_v advantage_n against_o they_o this_o i_o find_v to_o be_v a_o main_a masterpiece_n of_o satan_n cunning_a that_o before_o a_o man_n be_v convince_v of_o sin_n he_o make_v he_o so_o full_a and_o rich_a and_o worthy_a that_o he_o care_v not_o for_o the_o merit_n of_o christ_n or_o the_o mercy_n of_o god_n he_o will_v not_o beg_v but_o buy_v a_o place_n in_o heaven_n laodicea_n be_v rich_a and_o increase_v with_o good_n and_o have_v need_n of_o nothing_o not_o know_v that_o she_o be_v wretched_a and_o miserable_a and_o poor_a and_o blind_a and_o naked_a rev._n 3._o 17._o the_o corinthian_n do_v so_o shine_v in_o their_o own_o opinion_n and_o be_v in_o such_o self_n credit_n that_o they_o be_v rich_a and_o full_o reign_v as_o king_n but_o when_o a_o man_n eye_n be_v open_v to_o see_v the_o sinnefullnesse_n of_o his_o sin_n than_o he_o make_v he_o very_o poor_a and_o his_o unworthiness_n to_o be_v such_o and_o so_o great_a that_o it_o be_v not_o for_o he_o to_o think_v of_o heaven_n or_o mercy_n or_o christ_n a_o great_a temptation_n under_o which_o lie_v lurk_v a_o white_a devil_n to_o relieve_v the_o soul_n in_o this_o case_n i_o shall_v propound_v these_o few_o consideration_n 1._o that_o if_o unworthiness_n be_v a_o sufficient_a ground_n to_o keep_v man_n of_o from_o divine_a favour_n and_o eternal_a happiness_n none_o of_o all_o the_o son_n of_o man_n can_v ever_o be_v save_v for_o all_o have_v sin_v and_o by_o sin_n make_v themselves_o unworthy_a of_o mercy_n 2._o that_o there_o be_v no_o subjective_a worthiness_n antecedent_o require_v unto_o justification_n and_o salvation_n god_n well_o know_v the_o unworthy_a condition_n of_o israel_n when_o he_o make_v they_o his_o people_n enter_v into_o the_o covenant_n of_o life_n and_o peace_n with_o they_o ezek._n 16._o can_v you_o conceive_v that_o there_o be_v any_o inherent_a worthiness_n in_o they_o that_o do_v lie_v welter_v in_o their_o own_o blood_n beggar_n be_v not_o worthy_a of_o alm_n traitor_n be_v not_o worthy_a of_o pardon_n nor_o sinful_a man_n worthy_a of_o christ_n or_o mercy_n luke_n 15._o 21._o and_o why_o shall_v we_o dream_v of_o have_v a_o requisite_a worthiness_n of_o our_o own_o if_o man_n have_v any_o thing_n in_o he_o he_o be_v altogether_o unfit_a to_o come_v in_o unto_o the_o free_a offer_n of_o grace_n we_o see_v the_o invitation_n be_v make_v to_o the_o monie-lesse_a and_o meritlesse_a christian_a esa_n 55._o 1._o 3._o that_o though_o worthiness_n be_v not_o in_o the_o stream_n yet_o it_o be_v in_o the_o fountain_n and_o though_o there_o be_v no_o subjective_a worthiness_n in_o man_n yet_o there_o be_v a_o objective_a worthiness_n in_o jesus_n christ_n which_o be_v tender_v to_o sinner_n by_o grace_n and_o accept_v by_o faith_n there_o be_v enough_o in_o christ_n to_o make_v our_o person_n lovely_a and_o acceptable_a to_o god_n without_o who_o if_o we_o have_v all_o self-worthiness_n we_o shall_v remain_v in_o god_n eye_n most_o unworthy_a person_n this_o be_v my_o belove_a son_n in_o who_o i_o be_o well_o please_v say_v the_o father_n mat._n 3._o 17._o 4._o that_o notwithstanding_o man_n own_o great_a unworthiness_n unworthines_n assurance_n for_o acceptance_n under_o unworthines_n there_o be_v enough_o to_o assure_v he_o of_o divine_a acceptance_n for_o first_o mercy_n in_o god_n be_v full_a and_o free_a it_o have_v enough_o in_o itself_o to_o incline_v itself_o to_o gracious_a pardon_n and_o favourable_a acceptance_n god_n do_v blot_v out_o transgression_n not_o for_o man_n sake_n but_o for_o his_o own_o sake_n esa_n 43._o 25._o second_o man_v chief_a self-worthiness_n be_v to_o see_v his_o own_o unworthiness_n and_o to_o be_v humble_v for_o it_o certain_o such_o 21._o esa_n 64._o 6._o luk._n 15._o 21._o as_o have_v base_a &_o low_a esteem_v of_o themselves_o and_o can_v dwell_v upon_o the_o guilt_n and_o merit_n of_o their_o own_o sinnefullnesse_n judge_v themselves_o to_o hell_n for_o it_o such_o 7._o phil._n 3._o 7._o as_o can_v with_o paul_n disclaim_v from_o all_o worth_n in_o themselves_o and_o do_v see_v in_o all_o their_o part_n and_o gift_n and_o performance_n a_o inability_n to_o engratiate_v they_o with_o god_n such_o as_o can_v in_o the_o best_a of_o condition_n and_o after_o the_o best_a of_o performance_n bewail_v their_o weak_a expression_n of_o duty_n acknowledge_v themselves_o to_o be_v most_o unprofitable_a 10._o luk_n 17._o 10._o servant_n need_v the_o mercy_n of_o a_o god_n and_o the_o merit_n of_o christ_n these_o i_o say_v be_v man_n of_o the_o great_a worthiness_n with_o god_n according_a to_o the_o old_a truth_n he_o pay_v best_a for_o heaven_n that_o see_v he_o have_v nothing_o at_o all_o to_o pay_v for_o heaven_n three_o a_o unworthy_a sinner_n may_v plead_v out_o the_o covenant_n of_o grace_n with_o god_n and_o the_o freeness_n of_o the_o tender_v of_o his_o mercy_n i_o know_v no_o man_n that_o can_v or_o do_v more_o admire_v and_o magnify_v divine_a mercy_n than_o a_o sinner_n true_o sensible_a of_o his_o own_o unworthiness_n i_o know_v none_o more_o desirous_a of_o mercy_n then_o such_o i_o know_v none_o will_v be_v more_o ready_a to_o accept_v of_o heaven_n and_o favour_n out_o of_o freeness_n of_o grace_n then_o such_o i_o know_v none_o to_o who_o the_o offer_n of_o salvation_n purchase_v by_o christ_n be_v make_v but_o such_o and_o what_o now_o do_v hinder_v they_o from_o come_v in_o unto_o god_n plead_v with_o he_o after_o this_o or_o the_o like_a manner_n gracious_a lord_n i_o be_o here_o before_o thou_o for_o mercy_n and_o for_o thy_o christ_n i_o see_v in_o myself_o nothing_o worthy_a thou_o or_o thy_o christ_n for_o i_o be_o whole_o sinful_a if_o thou_o now_o will_v receive_v i_o for_o thy_o own_o and_o pardon_v i_o my_o sin_n out_o of_o thy_o own_o free_a grace_n and_o for_o the_o merit_n of_o thy_o only_a son_n alone_o thou_o shall_v show_v thyself_o 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