soon_o out_o it_o have_v not_o substance_n enough_o to_o nourish_v and_o maintain_v what_o it_o beget_v for_o creature-excellency_n be_v not_o strong_a enough_o to_o keep_v up_o the_o delight_n we_o take_v in_o they_o but_o thou_o lord_n be_v love_v and_o thou_o be_v such_o a_o treasure_n of_o excellency_n that_o the_o poor_a soul_n make_v new_a discovery_n of_o those_o treasure_n every_o day_n to_o all_o eternity_n thou_o be_v enough_o to_o keep_v alive_a and_o in_o full_a strength_n all_o the_o love_n and_o joy_n and_o praise_n of_o saint_n and_o angel_n lord_n thou_o be_v enough_o to_o answer_v thy_o own_o love_n but_o what_o be_o i_o that_o i_o shall_v speak_v of_o thou_o thou_o be_v so_o glorious_a that_o i_o be_o afraid_a to_o speak_v of_o thou_o meditat._n xxxiv_o lord_n i_o call_v and_o thou_o do_v not_o answer_v i_o be_o even_o tire_v out_o if_o thou_o do_v not_o support_v i_o sink_v under_o the_o burden_n i_o long_o and_o look_v to_o see_v thy_o beauty_n but_o i_o can_v 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which_o god_n have_v wrought_v for_o they_o and_o in_o they_o which_o i_o have_v not_o find_v but_o be_v the_o very_a same_o thing_n which_o be_v in_o my_o view_n and_o i_o follow_v after_o to_o attain_v but_o can_v then_o from_o their_o relation_n of_o the_o lord_n deal_n with_o they_o i_o perceive_v that_o god_n do_v humble_v they_o more_o before_o he_o do_v discover_v himself_o unto_o they_o then_o ever_o he_o have_v as_o yet_o humble_v i_o so_o that_o i_o find_v no_o rest_n day_n nor_o night_n in_o my_o spirit_n and_o yet_o though_o i_o be_o thus_o restless_a in_o seek_v after_o something_o which_o i_o can_v know_v what_o it_o be_v i_o seek_v for_o i_o can_v discern_v any_o true_a sincere_a constant_a love_n to_o christ_n he_o neither_o let_v i_o know_v that_o he_o love_v i_o nor_o that_o i_o love_v he_o so_o that_o i_o stand_v amaze_v and_o know_v not_o what_o to_o do_v and_o still_o by_o the_o help_n of_o god_n i_o will_v not_o cease_v to_o cry_v and_o call_v upon_o he_o for_o 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do_v as_o if_o i_o be_v to_o learn_v to_o sin_n by_o they_o thou_o have_v chastise_v i_o with_o rod_n and_o i_o have_v put_v the_o sting_n of_o sin_n into_o they_o and_o have_v make_v they_o scorpion_n thou_o send_v they_o for_o antidote_n and_o i_o have_v turn_v they_o into_o poison_n lord_n teach_v i_o what_o it_o be_v wherein_o thou_o be_v so_o offend_v to_o leave_v i_o thus_o lord_n i_o believe_v thou_o have_v pardon_v i_o but_o small_a be_v my_o comfort_n when_o thou_o pardone_v sin_n but_o subdue_v it_o not_o meditat._n xxxvi_o lord_n i_o do_v so_o evident_o find_v myself_o unable_a to_o judge_v of_o truth_n or_o to_o resist_v temptation_n that_o i_o almost_o nay_o altogether_o lie_v at_o the_o mercy_n of_o every_o temptation_n and_o to_o be_v carry_v about_o with_o the_o wind_n of_o every_o vain_a doctrine_n if_o thou_o do_v not_o stand_v by_o i_o what_o shall_v i_o tell_v thou_o the_o secret_a puddle_n of_o my_o heart_n i_o be_o weary_a of_o the_o stench_n and_o filthiness_n 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thou_o do_v not_o usual_o discover_v thy_o thought_n of_o love_n to_o a_o soul_n before_o she_o have_v make_v over_o her_o love_n and_o her_o self_n unto_o thou_o then_o i_o think_v thou_o can_v by_o the_o power_n of_o thy_o spirit_n bring_v in_o my_o heart_n my_o soul_n and_o my_o love_n and_o that_o usual_o ere_o thou_o do_v ravish_v the_o soul_n with_o the_o discovery_n of_o thy_o love_n this_o i_o know_v and_o let_v all_o the_o world_n know_v it_o that_o whatsoever_o wicked_a thought_n arise_v in_o my_o weak_a heart_n which_o i_o can_v answer_v i_o know_v that_o all_o thy_o way_n be_v holy_a just_a and_o good_a lord_n what_o shall_v i_o give_v for_o the_o shedding_n abroad_o of_o love_n in_o my_o heart_n that_o which_o shall_v be_v give_v for_o it_o be_v it_o at_o the_o utmost_a part_n of_o the_o world_n i_o can_v fetch_v it_o thence_o but_o lord_n the_o price_n of_o it_o be_v already_o pay_v it_o be_v near_o unto_o thou_o even_o at_o thy_o right_a hand_n o_o thou_o most_o high_a 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but_o thou_o do_v sure_a i_o be_o my_o condition_n be_v sad_a and_o i_o be_o sad_a and_o my_o sadness_n be_v all_o the_o poor_a remain_v of_o comfort_n that_o i_o have_v and_o yet_o i_o no_o soon_o begin_v to_o take_v any_o comfort_n in_o my_o grief_n but_o i_o perceive_v so_o much_o hypocrisy_n in_o my_o grief_n that_o the_o poor_a spark_n of_o comfort_n that_o i_o have_v be_v put_v out_o alas_o tear_n of_o blood_n be_v fit_a for_o i_o then_o dry_a eye_n o_o lord_n must_v every_o trifle_n steal_v away_o my_o heart_n from_o thou_o
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the_o hell_n of_o hell_n affection_n and_o resolution_n be_v astonish_v and_o tremble_v at_o the_o wrath_n of_o the_o lord_n alas_o o_o my_o soul_n why_o do_v thou_o not_o tremble_v as_o felix_n do_v when_o thou_o consider_v these_o thing_n why_o be_v not_o thou_o more_o sensible_a of_o the_o power_n of_o his_o wrath_n do_v not_o the_o foundation_n of_o the_o earth_n tremble_v and_o the_o pillar_n of_o heaven_n shake_v when_o he_o be_v angry_a and_o how_o come_v it_o to_o pass_v that_o thou_o be_v so_o little_o affect_v with_o these_o thing_n have_v thou_o full_a assurance_n of_o the_o favour_n of_o god_n when_o be_v it_o seal_v sure_o the_o very_a possibility_n that_o these_o thing_n shall_v come_v upon_o we_o shall_v very_o much_o affect_v we_o 2._o pray_v o_o bless_a god_n thou_o that_o have_v the_o key_n of_o death_n and_o of_o hell_n take_v pity_n on_o i_o and_o though_o i_o neither_o understand_v nor_o be_o sensible_a in_o any_o considerable_a measure_n either_o of_o the_o 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they_o to_o dwell_v in_o devour_a fire_n and_o be_v the_o pleasure_n of_o sin_n that_o be_v but_o for_o a_o season_n so_o much_o worth_n that_o for_o they_o we_o shall_v dwell_v in_o everlasting_a burn_n have_v we_o not_o have_v frequent_a experience_n that_o the_o sorrow_n we_o have_v have_v for_o commit_v of_o sin_n have_v far_o exceed_v the_o pleasure_n that_o we_o have_v have_v in_o commit_v of_o it_o and_o sure_o the_o terror_n of_o a_o awake_v conscience_n be_v not_o to_o be_v compare_v with_o the_o horror_n of_o the_o damn_a and_o other_o insupportable_a and_o endless_a misery_n of_o that_o place_n of_o torment_n come_v o_o my_o soul_n let_v we_o not_o deceive_v and_o flatter_v ourselves_o with_o vain_a and_o false_a hope_n of_o the_o mercy_n of_o god_n it_o be_v true_a god_n be_v very_o merciful_a to_o they_o that_o fear_v he_o and_o we_o may_v be_v sure_a of_o this_o that_o if_o we_o do_v sincere_o desire_v and_o endeavour_v to_o serve_v he_o that_o we_o shall_v find_v his_o mercy_n as_o much_o above_o our_o thought_n and_o expectation_n of_o they_o as_o the_o heaven_n be_v above_o the_o earth_n but_o if_o we_o slight_v they_o and_o be_v careless_a of_o his_o service_n and_o turn_v his_o grace_n into_o wantonness_n let_v we_o not_o deceive_v ourselves_o with_o vain_a word_n for_o because_o of_o these_o thing_n come_v the_o wrath_n of_o god_n upon_o the_o child_n of_o disobedience_n and_o those_o that_o live_v so_o shall_v sure_o find_v that_o at_o that_o day_n the_o mercy_n of_o god_n will_v not_o serve_v at_o all_o to_o mitigate_v but_o abundant_o to_o justify_v the_o wrath_n and_o fury_n of_o god_n that_o he_o shall_v pour_v out_o upon_o the_o wicked_a then_o they_o shall_v pay_v for_o every_o mercy_n they_o have_v receive_v and_o the_o riches_n of_o his_o despise_a goodness_n shall_v but_o increase_v the_o treasure_n of_o his_o wrath_n therefore_o o_o my_o soul_n since_o these_o thing_n be_v so_o what_o be_v we_o to_o do_v why_o do_v we_o not_o fear_v he_o that_o can_v cast_v both_o body_n and_o soul_n into_o hell_n the_o prophet_n habacuc_n when_o he_o do_v but_o think_v but_o of_o some_o temporal_a judgement_n that_o god_n have_v threaten_v rottenness_n enter_v into_o his_o bone_n if_o indeed_o the_o love_n of_o god_n do_v constrain_v we_o so_o that_o we_o do_v from_o a_o principle_n of_o love_n make_v conscience_n of_o sin_n so_o that_o we_o never_o offend_v god_n it_o be_v well_o but_o since_o we_o plain_o find_v that_o it_o be_v not_o strong_a enough_o alone_o let_v we_o not_o fear_v to_o call_v in_o and_o improve_v the_o consideration_n of_o the_o torment_n of_o hell_n to_o deter_v we_o from_o sin_n the_o motive_n be_v imperfect_a but_o not_o sinful_a our_o great_a work_n we_o have_v to_o do_v in_o the_o world_n next_o to_o the_o glory_n of_o god_n be_v to_o avoid_v hell_n and_o obtain_v heaven_n and_o to_o resist_v our_o now_o three_o great_a enemy_n the_o world_n the_o flesh_n and_o the_o devil_n who_o endeavour_n day_n and_o night_n to_o drive_v we_o headlong_o into_o perdition_n if_o any_o one_o in_o the_o world_n much_o more_o if_o the_o devil_n shall_v appear_v to_o we_o and_o offer_v we_o such_o a_o sum_n of_o money_n if_o we_o will_v give_v he_o our_o soul_n that_o we_o may_v be_v damn_v we_o think_v we_o shall_v abhor_v he_o and_o his_o offer_n but_o alas_o do_v not_o every_o one_o that_o use_v by_o extortion_n and_o violence_n either_o get_v or_o keep_v what_o be_v not_o he_o do_v the_o same_o thing_n his_o damnation_n it_o as_o certain_a and_o as_o infallible_a though_o more_o secret_o and_o invisible_o contrive_v by_o satan_n as_o if_o satan_n shall_v visible_o appear_v to_o he_o and_o he_o make_v a_o contract_n with_o he_o therefore_o o_o my_o soul_n let_v we_o take_v heed_n of_o the_o wile_n of_o satan_n for_o he_o general_o work_v by_o the_o world_n and_o the_o flesh_n to_o deceive_v we_o therefore_o let_v we_o now_o resolve_v by_o the_o blessing_n of_o god_n to_o look_v upon_o the_o 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not_o give_v so_o much_o grace_n as_o to_o make_v i_o through_o the_o abundance_n of_o it_o almost_o whether_o i_o will_v or_o no_o to_o serve_v thou_o yet_o to_o who_o thou_o do_v give_v so_o much_o grace_n as_o to_o desire_v more_o grace_n o_o let_v not_o this_o desire_n which_o be_v of_o thy_o own_o infuse_v be_v in_o vain_a if_o there_o be_v any_o thing_n in_o the_o whole_a world_n that_o i_o desire_v more_o than_o thy_o grace_n then_o let_v i_o want_v grace_n to_o desire_v it_o any_o more_o lord_n if_o the_o reason_n why_o thou_o deny_v my_o prayer_n be_v because_o i_o do_v not_o desire_v as_o i_o ought_v i_o humble_o beseech_v thou_o to_o grant_v that_o i_o may_v ask_v aright_o alas_o my_o affliction_n lie_v heavy_a on_o i_o then_o ever_o they_o do_v and_o i_o be_o more_o wicked_a or_o at_o least_o less_o holy_a than_o ever_o since_o my_o conversion_n i_o be_v how_o little_a be_o i_o affect_v with_o any_o thing_n that_o belong_v to_o thy_o service_n nor_o yet_o do_v it_o affect_v i_o that_o i_o be_o not_o affect_v lord_n if_o there_o be_v any_o in_o heaven_n or_o in_o earth_n that_o can_v help_v i_o beside_o thou_o then_o consider_v my_o manifold_a sin_n i_o shall_v i_o but_o lord_n i_o will_v not_o thy_o mercy_n be_v so_o great_a go_v to_o any_o other_o now_o lord_n now_o be_v the_o time_n to_o have_v mercy_n upon_o i_o i_o be_o like_o the_o man_n that_o go_v from_o jerusalem_n to_o jericho_n wound_v naked_a and_o half_a dead_a i_o can_v call_v for_o help_v o_o let_v my_o wound_n move_v thou_o to_o compassion_n if_o i_o can_v bewail_v my_o sinful_a misery_n with_o tear_n of_o repentance_n i_o know_v thou_o will_v deliver_v i_o but_o i_o can_v weep_v nay_o hardly_o mourn_v oh_o faint_a faint_a be_v my_o grief_n and_o cold_a be_v my_o love_n what_o will_v thou_o do_v lord_n with_o one_o that_o scarce_o from_o his_o heart_n desire_v to_o serve_v thou_o alas_o what_o can_v thou_o do_v for_o i_o more_o or_o less_o than_o to_o make_v i_o desire_v to_o serve_v thou_o 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tongue_n do_v not_o can_v not_o call_v for_o pity_n yet_o his_o wound_n open_v their_o mouth_n wide_a and_o speak_v aloud_o to_o the_o samaritan_n though_o his_o eye_n shed_v no_o tear_n yet_o his_o very_a heart_n weep_v blood_n at_o his_o wound_n and_o move_v compassion_n like_o to_o that_o poor_a wound_a man_n be_o i_o so_o weak_a so_o sick_a that_o i_o be_o scarce_o sensible_a of_o my_o own_o desperate_a condition_n lord_n though_o my_o heart_n be_v not_o full_a of_o love_n it_o be_v full_a of_o wound_n lord_n thou_o know_v my_o misery_n i_o humble_o beseech_v thou_o to_o pity_v i_o not_o according_a to_o my_o prayer_n but_o according_a to_o my_o want_n lord_n that_o i_o do_v not_o desire_v to_o serve_v thou_o that_o i_o do_v not_o hunger_n nor_o thirst_n after_o righteousness_n it_o be_v the_o great_a misery_n that_o i_o have_v meditat._v xxiv_o oh_o how_o terrible_a be_v the_o thought_n of_o death_n to_o i_o it_o be_v not_o so_o much_o for_o want_v of_o faith_n as_o holiness_n 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thousand_o world_n can_v sufficient_o praise_v nor_o love_v which_o be_v thyself_o and_o can_v not_o be_v more_o nor_o can_v be_v less_o how_o easy_a lord_n be_v it_o for_o thou_o to_o change_v my_o heart_n my_o heart_n of_o stone_n for_o a_o heart_n of_o flesh_n lord_n as_o long_o as_o i_o have_v this_o heart_n of_o stone_n there_o be_v no_o hope_n that_o i_o shall_v serve_v thou_o with_o any_o cheerfulness_n or_o any_o constancy_n lord_n hear_v my_o prayer_n meditat._v xxv_o o_o bless_a god_n if_o the_o way_n of_o thy_o providence_n be_v such_o that_o thou_o will_v
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so_o hard_a when_o it_o shall_v mourn_v lord_n thou_o have_v do_v enough_o to_o justify_v thy_o love_n and_o thy_o tender_a compassion_n to_o i_o if_o thou_o shall_v never_o do_v more_o and_o not_o only_o thy_o justice_n can_v not_o be_v blame_v but_o not_o thy_o mercy_n my_o dear_a god_n let_v i_o not_o die_v in_o thy_o arm_n of_o love_n except_o i_o must_v die_v and_o then_o let_v i_o die_v in_o thy_o arm_n meditat._v xxxi_o accept_v of_o my_o poor_a prayer_n and_o when_o at_o the_o last_o day_n when_o the_o secret_n of_o all_o heart_n shall_v be_v know_v the_o hypocrisy_n and_o coldness_n of_o my_o desire_n shall_v be_v know_v and_o thy_o goodness_n shall_v be_v admire_v in_o hear_v such_o prayer_n as_o i_o be_v for_o the_o light_n of_o thy_o countenance_n to_o shine_v upon_o and_o the_o breathe_n of_o thy_o spirit_n to_o blow_v upon_o a_o garden_n of_o spice_n be_v not_o so_o much_o for_o the_o advancement_n of_o thy_o freegrace_n as_o for_o thou_o to_o shine_v upon_o and_o thy_o 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