thy glory And to know thy face is to know the power of the father the wisedome of the sonne the mercifulnes of the holy ghost the one vndeuidable being of the thrée persons in one souereine Godhead For the beholding of the face of the liuing God is the souerein good the ioy of the aūgels of all holy mē the reward of endlesse life the glory of all soules the euerlastyng gladnes the crown of honor the obteinemēt of happines the wealthfull rest the beawtiful peace the inward outward ioyfulnesse the paradise of god Here is the heauēly Ierusalē the happy life the fulnesse of blessednes the ioy of euerlastingnesse the peace of God which passeth all vnderstādyng This is the ful blessednes the whole glorification of mā namely to sée God face to face to sée him that made heauen and earth to sée him that made him that saued him that glorified him He shal sée him by knowing him be in loue with hym by liking him prayse him by possessing hym For he shal be the heritage of his people of his people the Saints of his people whō he hath raunsomed He shal be their possession of happinesse he shal be the reward recompēce of their lōgyng I wil be thine excéedyng great reward sayth he For great thinges beséeme great personages Verely my Lord God thou art excéedyng great aboue all Gods excéedyng great also is thy reward But thou thy self art ouer great thou thy selfe art an ouer great reward thou thy selfe art both he that crowneth also the crowne thou thy selfe art both the promiser and the promise thou art the recompēcer the recompēce thou art the rewarder and the reward of euerlastyng happines Thou thē art both the crowner the crowne O my God the diademe of my hope which is garnished with glorie a gladdyng light a renewyng light a glorious ornamēt my chief hope the desire of the hartes of all saintes their deare beloued The seing of thée thē is the whole hyre the whole reward and the whole ioy that we looke for For it is life euerlastyng yea I say it is thy wisedome Life euerlasting is to know thée the onely true God Iesus Christ whom thou hast sent Therfore when we shall sée thée the onely God the true God the liuyng God almightie single inuisible vnboundable vncōprehēsible thine onely begottē sonne God of thine own substaūce euerlastyng as well as thou euē our Lord Iesus Christ whō for our welfare thou hast sent into the world in the power of the holy Ghost thrée in persons one in beyng the onely holy God besides whom there is no God thē shal we hold that which we now séeke namely euerlasting life endlesse glorie which thou hast prepared for them that loue thée whiche thou hast layd vp in store for thē that feare thée and which thou wilt giue to them that séeke thée euen to them that séeke thy face for euer And thou O Lord my God which diddest shape me in my mothers wōbe who hath giuen me vp into thy hād suffer me not any more to be plucked out of one into many but gather me out of these outward thinges into my selfe frō my selfe vnto thée that my hart may alwayes say vnto thée my face hath sought thée out Lord I will séeke after thy face euē after the face of the Lord of all power wherein standeth the whole glorie of the blessed sorte for euer whiche to behold is the endlesse life euerlastyng glorie of the Saintes Let my hart reioyse therfore that it may reuerēce thy name Let the harts of them that séeke God reioyse but much more the hartes of them that finde god For if there be ioy in séekyng what maner of ioy shall there be in findyng Therefore I will alwayes séeke thy face earnestly incessantly if at any tyme the doore and gate of rightuousnesse may be opened vnto me that I may enter into the ioy of my lord This is the Lordes gate the rightuous shall enter in thereat ¶ A prayer to the holie Trinitie THou thrée coequall and coeternal persons one God the very father Sonne holy ghost who dwellest alone in euerlastingnesse and in vnapproachable light which hast foūded the earth by thy mighty power rulest the whole world by thy wisedome Holie holie holie Lord God of hostes dreadfull strong rightuous mercyfull maruelous prayse worthie to be beloued One God thrée persons one being power wisedome goodnes one vnseperable Trinitie I crye vnto thée open me the gates of rightuousnes whē I am come in I will prayse thée O lord Behold I poore begger knocke at thy doore O souerein housholder Commaund the gates to be opened at my knockyng accordyng as thou hast sayd knocke ye it shal be opened For truly O most mercyfull father the desires of my groning hart and the cryes of my wéepyng eyes doe knocke at thy doore All my desire is before thée and my gronyng is not hyd frō thée Lord turne not thy face any more away frō me neither flyng thou away frō thy seruaunt in a sume O father of mercies heare the houling out of thy ward reach hym thy singular good helpyng hād that it may drawe me out of the déepe waters out of the lake of miserie and out of the myre of filthynes that I perishe not thy pitifull eyes seyng it the bowels of thy mercy beholdyng it but that I may wade out vnto thée my Lord God so as I may see the riches of thy kyngdome alwayes behold thy face sing prayse to thy holy name O Lord which workest wonders whiche chearest my hart with remembryng thée which inlightenest my youth despise not myne olde age but make my bones to reioyse my hore heares to waxe fresh againe as the Eagle ¶ FINIS SAINT AVstens Manuell or litle Booke of the Contemplation of Christe or of Gods worde whereby the remembraunce of the heauenly desires which is falne a sleepe may be quickned vp agayne AT LONDON Printed by Iohn Daye dwellyng ouer Aldersgate 1574. ¶ Cum gratia Priuilegio Regiae Maiestatis The Preface FOr asmuch as we be set in the middes of snares we easly become cold in desire of heauenly thynges And therfore we haue neede of continuall defence that when we be shronke awaye we may be wakened to runne backe agayne to our true God the souereine goodnesse In consideration wherof not through rash presumption but for the great loue that I beare to my God I haue vndertaken this worke to his glorie to the intent I might alwayes haue with me a short and handsome abridgement of the chosen sayinges of the holie fathers concernyng my God by the fire of the readyng whereof the loue of him might be kindled in me as oft as it is waxed cold in me Assiste me now I beseech thee my Lord God whom I seeke whom I
done for man. FOr loue to manward God came to man God came into ¶ The remembring of the woundes of our Lorde Iesu Christ WHen any foule thought assaulteth me I runne to the woundes of Christ When my fleshe presseth me downe I rise vp agayne by remembryng the woundes of my lord When the deuill layeth wayt for me I flée to the bowels of the mercy of my Lorde and he departeth away from me If the heate of lecherie prouoke my members it is quēched with callyng to mynde the woundes of our Lord the sonne of god In all aduersities I finde no remedie so effectuall as the woundes of Christ In them I sléepe without care and rest with out feare Christ hath died for vs Now is there nothing so bitter to the death which is not salued by the death of Christ All my whole hope is in the death of my lord His death is my desert my refuge my welfare lyfe and resurrection and the mercyfulnesse of the Lord is my merite I am not poore of merite so long as he the Lord of compassiōs faileth not As long as he is manifold in mercy so long am I also manifold of desertes The mightier that he is to saue the more am I without care ¶ That the remembraunce of Christes woundes is an effectual remedy against all aduersities EXcéedyng greatly haue I sinned and myne owne conscience findeth me giltie of many offences and yet doe I not dispayre bycause that whereas sinne hath abounded there hath grace ouerabounded He that despayreth of the forgiuenesse of his sinnes denyeth God to be mercyfull Great wrong doth he to God whiche distrusteth his mercy For as much as in him lieth he denyeth God to be louyng true and mightie which are the thinges wherein my whole hope consisteth that is to witte in the loue of his adoption in the truth of his promise and in the power of his redéemyng Now let my vnwise imagination murmur as much as it listeth and say Who art thou how great is the glory and by what desertes hopest thou to obteine it and I will aunswere boldly I know whom I haue credited that he of his excéedyng great loue hath adopted me to be his sonne that he is soothfast of promise that he is mighty in performance and that he may do what he listeth I can not be feared with the multitude of my sinnes if I bethinke me of the death of my Lorde bycause my sinnes are not able to ouermatch him His nayles and his speare crye vnto me that I am throughly reconcyled to Christ if I loue him Longiuus hath opened me Christes side with his speare and I am gone into it and there do I rest in safetie He that is afrayd let him loue for loue driueth feare out of doores There is no remedie so mightie and effectuall agaynst the heate of lecherie as the death of my redemer He stretcheth out his armes vpon the Crosse and he holdeth out his handes in a readinesse to imbrace sinners Betwéene the armes of my Sauiour mynde I to lyue and dye There shall I sing safely there will I exalte thée O Lorde bycause thou hast taken me vp and hast not giuen myne enemyes their pleasure ouer me Our Sauiour hath bowed down his head at his death to receiue the kisses of his beloued And so oftē do we kisse God as we be throughly touched with the loue of him The musing of the Soule vpon the loue of God. O My soule whiche art innobled with the Image of God redéemed with Christes bloud betrothed to him by fayth indued with the holy Ghost garnished with vertues and registred among the aungels Loue thou him that hath loued thée so much Serue him that hath serued thée Séeke him that séekes thée Loue him that loues thée which loued thée first and which is the cause of thy loue He is the desert he is the reward he is the frute he is the vse of it he is the ende of it Be carefull for hym that is carefull of thée he at leysure for him that is at leysure for thée be cleane with him that is cleane be holy with him that is holy Looke after what sorte thou shewest thy selfe towardes God after the same sort shall he shew him selfe towardes thée He is swéete méeke and mercyfull and therfore he requireth to haue them that be swéete méeke pleasaunt and mercyfull Loue thou him that hath plucked thée out of the puddle of miserie and out of the myre of filthines Chose him for thy frend aboue all frendes whiche alone will kéepe touche with thée when all thinges fayle thée In the day of thy buryall when all thy frendes shrinke frō thée he will not forsake thée but will defend thée from the roring Lyons that wayt for their pray and will leade thée through an vnknowen countrey and bryng thée to the stréetes of the heauenly Sion and there set thée amōg the Aungels before the face of his owne maiestie where thou shalt heare this Aungelicall ditie holie holie holie Lorde God of hostes There is the song of mirth the voyce of ioy and welfare the voyce of thankesgiuing prayse the voyce of magnifying God for euer There is the full measure of happinesse passing excellent glory superabundant ioy all good thynges O my soule sigh hartely desire earnestly that thou mayst come to that Citie aboue whereof so glorious thinges are spoken and wherein is the habitation of all that reioyse By loue thou mayst get vp thether Nothing is hard nothyng is impossible to him that loueth The soule that loueth goeth vp often to the heauenly Ierusalem and runneth familiarly from stréete to stréete visityng the Patriarkes and Prophetes salutyng the Apostles wondring at the hostes of Martyrs and Confessors and gazing at the companies of the Virgins Heauen and earth and all things that are in them call vppon me without ceassyng to loue my Lord God. ¶ What the knowledge of the truth is WHat is the knowledge of truth first to knowe thy selfe and to indeuor to be that which thou oughtest to be and to amende that whiche ought to be amended And secondly to know and to loue thy maker for that is the whole happines of man Sée then how vnspeakeable the graciousnes of Gods loue towardes vs is He hath created vs of nothing and giuen vs all that we haue But forasmuch as we haue loued the gift more then the giuer and the creature more then the creator we are falne into the deuilles snare and become hys bondslaues Neuerthelesse God beyng moued with compassion sent his sonne to redéeme vs slaues and his holy spirite to make vs his sonnes agayne He hath giuen his sonne to be the pryce of our raunsome the holie Ghost as an assuraunce of his loue and to be short he reserueth him selfe whole for vs to be the heritage of our adoption And so God accordyng to hys excéedyng gracious goodnesse and mercie hath for verie loue and good will to
word O God the word whereby all thinges are made without whom there is not any thing made Wo is me wretch so often blinded for that thou art the light and I am without thée Wo is me wretch so often wounded for that thou art the salue and I am without thée Wo is me wretch so often ouerséene for that thou art the truth I am without thée Wo is me wretch so often straying for that thou art the way I am without thée Wo is me wretch so often dead for that thou art the life and I am without thée Wo is me wretch so oftē brought to nought for that thou art the word by which all thinges were made I am without thée with out whom nothing was made O Lord the worde O God the word who art the light by whō light was made who art the way truth and life in whom there is no darknesse ouersight vanitie nor death O light without whiche all is but darknes O truth with out which all is but leasing O life without whiche all is but death Lord say the word that light may be made so as I may sée the light eschew darknesse sée the way eschew straying sée the truth and eschew leasing sée life and eschew death Shyne forth O Lord my light my inlightening my welfare whom I will reuerēce my Lord whom I will prayse my God whom I will honor my father whom I wil loue my bridegrome to whō I will kéepe my selfe Shyne forth O light shine forth I say to this blind soule of mine which sisteth in darknesse in the shadow of death and guide my féete into the way of peace that I may passe thereby into the place of thy wonderfull Tabernacle euē to the house of God with the voyce of gladnesse and confessiō For true confession is the way whereby I may enter vnto thée which art the way whereby I may returne from bywayes and whereby I come agayne to thée which art the way for thou art the very way of life ¶ Of the fall of the Soule into sinne AS long as I was without thée I was as nothyng And therfore I was blind deafe and senselesse For I did neither discerne the good nor shunne the euill nor féele the grief of my woundes nor sée myne owne darknesse bycause I was without thée the true light which inlightenest euery man that commeth into this world Wo is me they haue wounded me and I was not sorie they haue haled me and I felt it not For I was as nothing bycause I was without life which is the word wherby all things are made And therfore O Lord my light mine enemies haue done what they lifted to me they haue strikē me they haue berayed me they haue marred me they haue wounded me and they haue killed me bycause I shrunke backe from thee and am become as a thing of nothing without thée ▪ Alas Lord my life which madest me my light which hast guided me then defender of my life haue mercie vppon me Rayse me vp againe O Lord my god My hope my power my strength my comfort haue an eye to mine enemies in the day of my trouble and rescue me Let them that hate me flée away from my face and let me liue in thée by thée For they haue lyen in wayt for me O Lord and whē they saw me without thée they despised me They parted amōg them the garmentes of the vertues wherewith thou haddest apparelled me They made their way through me they trampled me vnder their féete they defiled thy holy temple with the filth of their sinnes and they left me desolate forpyned with sorrowe I went after them blind and naked and shackled with the fetters of sinnes They dragged me after them roūd about from vyce to vyce and from myre to myre and I went without strength before the face of him that pursued me I was a bondslaue and yet I loued slauerie I was blind still I longed for blindnesse I was manacled yet I misliked not my manacles I thought bitter to be swéete swéete to be bitter I was a wretch wist it not And all this came to passe bycause I was without the word wherby al things are preserued without which all thinges are worse then nothing For like as al things were made by the word and nothing was made without it euen so by it are all thinges preserued and mainteyned what soeuer they be either in heauen or in earth or in the Sea or in any déepes One péece should not cleaue to another in a stone or in any of the thinges that be created vnlesse they were mainteyned by the worde whereby all thinges were made Therfore will I sticke vnto thée O word that thou mayst preserue me for assoone as I step aside from thée I am vndone in my selfe sauyng that thou which madest me hast also renued me agayne For whē I had sinned thou didst visit me when I was falue thou didst lift me vp agayne when I was ignoraūt thou didst teach me and when I could not sée thou didst inlighten me ¶ Of Gods manifold benefites WRetch that I am my God shew me how much I am bound to loue thée Make it appeare to me how much I ought to prayse thée Make me to know how much I ought to please thée Lord thunder thou downe into the inwarde care of my hart Teach me and saue me and I will prayse thée For thou hast created me when I had no being thou hast inlightened me when I was in darknesse thou hast raysed me whē I was dead thou hast fed me with thy benefites euen from my youth vp This vnprofitable worme which stinketh with sinne thou nourishest with all thy singular good giftes Open vnto me O thou key of Dauid which openest and no man shutteth agaynst him to whom thou openest and shettest and no man openeth vnto him whom thou shettest out Open me the doore of thy light that I may enter in and both know acknowledge vnto thée with my whole hart that thy mercy is great towardes me that thou hast deliuered my soule from the bottom of hel O Lord our God how wonderful and prayse worthy is thy name through all the earth And what is mā that thou art mindfull of him or the sonne of man that thou visitest him O Lord whiche art the hope of the Saintes and the tower of their strength O God the life of my soule wherby I liue and where without I dye O light of myne eyes by which I see and without which I am sightlesse O ioy of my hart and chearer of my spirites let me loue thée with all my hart with all my mind with all my strength and with all intiernesse for thou hast loued me first And why hast thou done so to me O maker of heauen and of earth and of the bottomlesse déepe who hast no néede of me Wherupō commeth it that
thou hast created me of nothing I besech thee O Lord to giue me the grace to be thankefull vnto thée ¶ Of Gods almightinesse THy almighty hand kéeping alwayes at one stay created the aungels in heauen the silie wormes vpon earth and yet was neither higher in the one nor lower in the other For like as none other hand could haue created an aungell so could none other hād haue created a worme Like as none other could haue created heauen so could none other haue created a leaf of a trée Like as none other could haue made a body so could none other make a heare white or blacke but onely thine almyghty hand whereunto all thinges are possible alike For it is not more possible with him to create a worme then an aungell nor more impossible to spread out the heauē than a leafe nor easier to fashion a heare then to fashion a body nor vneasier to stablish the earth vpon the water then the waters vppon the earth but all that he listed to do that hath he done According as he listed he hath made all thinges in heauen in earth and in the Sea and in all déepe places among all other things he hath also made me accordyng as hee listed could and knew how to do it Certesse Lord thy hand could haue made me some stone or some bird or some Serpent or some beast and it knew how to haue done it but it would not bycause of thy goodnes Why then am not I some stone some trée or some beast Bycause thy goodnesse hath so ordeined it and that thou shouldest so ordeine it there were no merites of myne goyng afore ¶ Of the incomprehensible prayse of God. HOw shall I doe Lorde whence shal I haue prayse to prayse thée withall for like as thou madest me without myne aduise as it liked thy selfe best so hast thou prayse without me as it liketh thée Thou thy selfe Lord art thine own prayse Thy workes prayse thée accordyng to thy manisolde greatnesse thy prayse O Lord is incomprehensible No hart can comprehend it no toung can measure it no eare can receiue it for these thinges passe awaye but thy prayse O Lord continueth for euer Thoughtes haue a begynning thoughtes haue an end voyces make a sound and forthwith passe away the eare heareth and the hearing ceaseth but thy prayse standeth fast for euer Who is he then that can prayse thée What man is able to vtter forth thy prayse Thy prayse is euerlasting and not transitorie That man prayseth thée whiche beleueth thée to be thyne owne prayse The man prayseth thée whiche acknowledgeth him selfe vnable to atteine to thy prayse O prayse perpetuall whiche neuer fadest in thée is our prayse in thée shall my soule be praysed It is not we that prayse thée but it is thou thy selfe that doest it both thy selfe and in thy selfe we also haue prayse in thée Thē haue we true prayse when we haue prayse of thée when light alloweth light for thou beyng the true prayse yeldest vs true prayse And looke how often we séeke for prayse at any other badies hand then thine so often do we forgo thy prayse bycause the other is shadowish but thine is euerlasting If we hunt after the transitorie prayse we lose the eternall prayse O prayse eternal O my Lord God of whom is all prayse without whō there is no prayse I am not able to prayse thée without thée Let me haue thée and I will prayse thee For what am I of my self Lord that I should prayse thée I am but dust and ashes I am but a dead and stinkyng dogge I am but wormes and rottēnesse I. What am I to praise thée O most mightie Lord God Howe can the breath of no better then fleshe prayse thee which dwellest in euerlastingnesse Can darknesse prayse light or death life Thou art light I darknesse thou life I death Can lying prayse truth Thou art truth and I am a mā no better thē vanitie it self How shall I then prayse thée O Lord Shall my wretchednesse prayse thée Shall stinch prayse swéete sentes Shall mans mortalitie which is here to day and gone to morow prayse thée Shall man whiche is but rottennesse or the sonne of man whiche is but wormes prayse thée O Lord Can hee prayse thée whiche is breed borne and brought vp in sinfulnesse Prayse is not séemely in the mouth of a sinner O Lord my God let thine own incomprehēsible power let thy vnbounded wisedome let thine vnspeakable goodnesse let thine ouer passing mercy let thy superabundant pitie and let thine euerlasting vertue and Godhead prayse thée Praysed be thou by thine owne almightie puissance and also by thy singular gracious goodnesse and louingnesse wherby thou hast created vs O Lord God the life of my soule ¶ Of liftyng a mās hope vp vnto God. ANd I thy creature wil put my trust vnder the shadow of thy winges and in thy goodnesse where thorough thou hast created me Helpe thy creature whō thy gracious goodnesse hath created Let not that perishe through my naughtinesse which thy goodnesse hath wrought Let not that perish through my wretchednesse whiche thy singular mercy hath made For what auayleth it me that thou hast created me if I shall sinke downe into myne owne corruption O God hast thou made all the sonnes of men in vayne Thou hast created me O Lorde rule thou the thing that thou hast created Despise not the worke of thine own handes O god Thou hast made me of nought O Lord if thou gouerne me not I shall returne to nought agayne For lyke as whē I was not thou madest me of nothing so if thou gouerne me not I shal yet againe be brought to nothing in my selfe Helpe me O Lord my life least I perish in mine owne naughtynesse Lord if thou haddest not created me ▪ I should not haue bene at all but bycause thou hast created me I am Now if thou gouerne me not I am vndone For it was not mine owne merites or mine owne deseruings that made thée to create me but thine own most gracious goodnesse and mercifulnesse That louingnesse of thine O Lord my God whiche made thée to create me I besech thée let the same make thée to gouerne me For what booteth it that thy louingnesse caused thée to create me if I must perish in mine own wretchednesse and that thy right hand gouerne me not O Lord my God let this mercyfulnesse whiche caused thée to create the thing that was not created cause thée also to saue that whiche is created Let the louingnesse which wonne thée to create winne thée also to saue sith it is no lesse now than it was then for thou art the very loue it selfe and thou continuest alwayes one Lorde thy hand is not shortened that it should not be able to saue nor thyne eare deafed that it should not be able to heare but my sinnes haue put a partition betwene me and thée betwene
was rich and wanted nothyng and I wist not that I was poore blind naked wretched and miserable For I beleued I had bene somewhat when as I was nothyng I sayd I will become wise and I became a foole I thought my selfe skilfull but I was deceiued for now I sée it is thy gift without whom we can do nothyng bycause that except thou kéepe the Citie in vayne doth he watch which kéepeth it So hast thou taught me to know my selfe for thou hast forsaken me to trye me not for thy selfe that thou mightest know me but for me that I might know my selfe For as I sayd Lord I beleued I should haue bene somwhat of my selfe I thought I had bene a man able inough of my selfe I perceiued not how thou diddest gouerne me vntill thou haddest withdrawen thée a while from me and then by and by I fell to myne owne byas wherby I saw and knew how it was thou that haddest ruled me and that my fallyng was of my selfe and my rising agayne was of thée O light thou hast opened myne eyes and waked me and inlightened me I sée that mans life vpon earth is but a temptation and that no flesh can glorie before thée nor any liuing wight be iustified bycause that if there be any good in them be it much or litle it is thy gift and we haue nothyng of our owne but euill Whereof then shall any fleshe make his boast Of euill That is no glorie but miserie But what shall he boast of goodnesse Then shal he boast of that which is none of his own For goodnesse is thyne O Lord and thyne is the glorie For he that séeketh his owne glorie by thy goodes and séekes not thy glory he is a théefe and a robber and he is like the deuill who would haue stolne away thy glory For he that wil be praysed for thy gift séeketh not to glorifie thée in the same but to glorifie himselfe although men prayse him for thy gift yet doest thou dispraise him bycause that by thy gift he hath not sought thy glory but his owne As for him that is praysed of men when thou mislikest him men shal not defend hym when thou iudgest hym neither shall they deliuer him when thou cōdemnest him Wherfore O Lord which didst shape me in my mothers wōbe suffer me not to fall into that reproch that it might be cast in my teeth how I would haue stolne away thy glorie For all glorie be vnto thée who art the owner of all goodnesse but shame and miserie be vnto vs who are owners of all euill except it please thée to shew mercy For thou O Lord hast pitie yea thou hast pitie on all thinges for thou hatest not any thyng whiche thou hast made but giuest vs of thy goodes and inrichest vs beggers with thy singular good giftes O Lord god Yea thou louest the poore and inrichest them with thyne owne riches Behold now O Lord we thy childrē and thy litle flocke are poore opē vs thy gates that the poore may eate and be satisfied they that séeke thee shall prayse thée Also Lord I know by thy teachyng and I confesse that none shal be inriched by thée but such as féele thē selues poore and acknowledge their poorenes vnto thée For they that take thē selues to be rich whereas they be poore shall finde them selues shet out from thy richesse I therfore confesse my poorenesse vnto thée my Lord God and thyne be the whole glorie bycause the good that hath bene done by me is thyne Lord I acknowledge accordyng as thou hast taught me that I am nothing els but all together vanitie a shadow of death a dungeon of darknesse a barrein and wast ground whiche without thy blessing beareth not any thyng ne yeldeth any frute but confusion sinne and death If euer I haue had any good in me I haue had it of thée what soeuer I haue it is thyne or I haue it of thée If euer I haue stode I stode by thée but when I haue falne I haue falne of my selfe and I should haue lyen in the myre for euer haddest not thou drawen me out I had bene euer blind haddest not thou inlightened me Whē I was falne I had neuer risen agayn haddest not thou reached me thy hand Yea I had continually falne after thou haddest lifted me vp haddest not thou hild me vp still finally I had oftētimes perished but that thou didst gouerne me Thus alwayes Lord thus alwayes haue thy grace and mercy preuented me deliuering me frō all euils sauyng me from that was past lifting me vp frō that was present and garding me frō that which was to come and also rippyng a sunder the snares afore me and takyng away all causes of annoyance For vnlesse thou haddest done so for me I should haue committed all the sinnes of the world Doutlesse Lord I know there is no sinne which euer any man hath committed but that an other man may do the same if he want his creator by whom he was made man But looke what I my selfe could not do that hast thou done That I forbare it was thy commaundement that I beleued thée it was of thy grace whiche thou didst shed into me For it was thou Lorde that didst rule me both to thée and to my selfe and it was thou that gauest me grace and light that I should not commit aduoutrie or any other kinde of sinne ¶ Of the deuill and of his manifold temptations THere wanted a tempter thou wart the cause that he was wantyng there wanted tyme and place and thou wart the cause that they wanted The tempter was present and there wanted neither place nor tyme but thou hildest me backe that I should not consent The tempter came full of darknesse as he is thou diddest harten me that I might despise him The tempter came armed and strongly but to the intent he should not ouercome me thou didst restreine him and strengthen me The tēpter came transformed into an aungell of light and to the intent he should not deceiue me thou didst rebuke him and to the intent I should know him thou didst inlighten me For he is that great red dragon and that old serpent called the deuill and Sathan which hath seuen heades and ten hornes whō thou hast created to take his pleasure in this howge broad sea wherin there créepe liuyng wightes innumerable beastes greate and small that is to say diuers sortes of féendes whiche practise nothing els day nor night but to go about séekyng whom they may deuour except thou rescue him For it is that old dragon which was bréed in the paradise of pleasure which draweth downe the third part of the Starres of heauen with his tayle castes them to the groūd which with his venim poysoneth the waters of the earth that as many men as drinke of thē may dye which trampleth vpon gold as if it were myre and is of opinion that Iordan shall runne
other thynges doth the sonne of Beliall euen Sathā him selfe practise agaynst vs O Lord our god He lyeth in wayt to ketch our soules one while as a Lyon and an other while as a draggō openly and priuely within and without day and night But deliuer vs thou O Lord which sauest them that trust in thée that he may be gréeued at vs thou mayst be praysed in vs O Lord our God. Of Gods benefites I The sonne of thy handmayd who haue cōmended my selfe into thy hand by these my poore complaintes will prayse thée my deliuerer with all my hart and cal to my minde all the good that thou hast done me frō my youth vp For I know that vnthankfulnesse doth greatly displease thée which is the roote of all spirituall euill and a wynde that blasteth and burneth vp all good damming vp the foūtaine of thy godly mercy for euer Through it the workes that be dead already reuiue not and the workes that be alyue do dye out of hand and recouer not agayne But I will giue thākes to thée O Lord least I be vnthankfull to thée my deliuerer for thy deliueryng of me How often had that dragon swalowed me vp long ago but that thou O Lord hast plucked me out of his mouth How often haue I sinned and he stode ready to snatch me vp but that thou didst defēd me O Lord my God When I delt wickedly when I brake thy commaundements he stode wayting to cary me away to hell but thou withstodest him I offended thée and thou didst defēd me I feared thée not yet thou didst kéepe me I started away frō thée and yelded my selfe to myne enemy and yet thou didst fray him away that he should not take me These good turnes hast thou done for me O Lord my God I wretch wist it not For so hast thou oftentymes deliuered me out of the deuils chappes plucked me out of the Lyons mouth and many and sundry wayes brought me backe agayne from hell though I wist it not For I haue gone downe to the very gates of hell but thou hast held me frō goyng in I drew neare to deathes doore but thou hast not suffered it to take me in Also thou hast oftentymes preserued me from bodily death O my Sauiour when I haue bene attached with sore sicknesses And when I haue bene in many daungers by Sea and by land thou hast alwayes stode by me deliueryng me from fire and from sword and from all perill and mercyfully preseruyng me Truly Lord thou knowest that if death had dispatched me at that time hell had receiued my soule and I had bene dāned for euer But thy mercy thy grace preuented me rescuyng me from bodily death and also from the death of my soule O my Lord god These and many other good turnes hast thou done for me I was blind and wist it not vntill thou inlightenedst me Now therfore O light of my soule my Lord God my life whereby I liue the sight of mine eyes wherby I sée behold thou hast inlightned me and I perceiue how I liue through thée And I yeld thée thankes though litle worth and slender and farre vnder thy benefites howbeit yet such as my frayltie hath to giue For thou onely art my God and my gracious maker whiche louest our soules and hatest none of the thyngs that thou hast made Behold I am the chief among the sinners whom thou hast saued that I may be an example vnto others of thy most mercyfull louyng kyndnesse I will acknowledge thy great benefites vnto thée for thou hast plucked me out of the bottom of hell once twyse and thrice and a hundred tymes a thousand tymes Yea I alwayes made towardes hell and thou didst alwayes bring me backe againe whē thou mightest iustly haue damned me if thou hadst would But thou wouldest not O Lord my God bycause thou louest mens soules and bearest with mens sinnes that they might repent all thy wayes be full of mercy Now therfore O Lord my God I sée these thynges and discerne them by thy light my hart is astonished at thy great mercy towardes me in that thou hast deliuered my soule from the bottome of hell and brought me backe agayne to lyfe For I was starke dead and thou hast made me throughly aliue again Therfore am I altogether beholden to thee for my life and whole as I am I yeld my selfe wholly vnto thée Let my whole spirite my whole hart my whole body and my whole life liue vnto thée my swéete lyfe for thou hast deliuered me whole that thou mightest possesse me whole thou hast made me whole new agayne that thou mightest haue me whole againe And therfore let me loue thee O Lord my strength let me loue thée O my vnspeakable ioy and let me liue hence forth not to my selfe but vnto thée All my whole life which was perished in myne owne wretchednesse is reuiued agayne in thy mercy for thou art a pitifull and mercyfull God ▪ and many are thy compassions toward thousandes in them that loue thy name And therfore O Lord my God thou my sanctifier hast commaūded me in thy law that I should loue thée with all my hart with all my might yea euē frō the bottom of my hart at all houres tymes wherin I inioy the benefites of thy mercy For I should perish for euer but that thou rulest me euer I should euer dye but that thou euer quickenest me yea euery moment thou byndest me vnto thée in as much as euery momēt thou bestowest thy great benefites vppon me Therefore lyke as there is no houre or instāt of time in all my life that I haue not the vse of thy benefites so ought there to be no moment wherin I should not haue thée in remembraunce before myne eyes and loue thée to thée vttermost of my power But this am I not able to do except thou make me able of whō cōmeth euery good gift euery excellent gift for thou art the father of light in whō there is no chaūge nor intercourse of darknes for to loue thée cōmeth not of our own will or of our own running but of thy mercy Lord it is thy gift whose all good things are Thou commaūdest vs to loue thée giue vs that which thou cōmaundest commaunde what thou wilt Of the feruentnesse of loue or Charitie I Am in loue with thée my God I couet to be alwayes in loue with thée more more For in déede thou art swéeter thē all honye more nourishyng then all milke and brighter then all light And therfore I set more by thée then by all the gold siluer and precious stones in the world For I mislyke all that euer I haue to do within this world in respect of thy swéetnesse and in respect of the beawtie of thy house which I haue loued O fire which euer burnest neuer goest out O loue which euer glowest neuer coolest inflame me I
say inflame me wholly that I may be wholly in loue with thée For he loueth thee the lesse which loueth any thyng besides thée except he loue it for thy sake Let me loue thée O Lord bycause thou hast first loued me Where shall I haue wordes to vtter the signes of thy singular great loue towardes me considering thine innumerable benefites wherein thou hast brought me vp from the begynning namely euē from the benefite of the creation when at the first beginnyng thou madest me of nothyng after thine owne Image in honoring and aduauncing me among the creatures whiche thou madest and innoblyng me with the light of thy countenaunce whiche thou imprintedst vpon the lampe of my hart thereby disseueryng me as well from sensible as from senselesse creatures and abasing me but litle beneath the aungelles And yet was all this but a small matter in the sight of thy Godhead For without ceassing thou hast dayly nourished me with the singular and excéeding great store of thy benefites and thou hast as it were suckled strēgthned me thy litle tēder babe with the teates of thy comfort For to the intent that I should wholly serue thée thou hast appointed all thy creatures to serue me That God hath put all thinges vnder the seruice of man. THou hast put all thynges vnder mās féete to the end that man alone should wholly be subiect vnto thée And to the end that mā should be wholly thine thou hast made man Lord of all thy workes For thou hast created all outward thynges for his body his body for his soule and his soule for thée that he might serue thée onely loue thée onely possessing thee to his comfort and all inferiour thynges for his seruauntes For what soeuer is conteined vnder the cope of heauen is inferiour vnto mās soule which was made to inherite the souerein goodnesse aboue and to become happy by possessyng it Whereunto if he sticke fast he shall surmount the néede of all the inferiour thynges which are chaungeable and in euerlastyng immortalitie quietly behold the souerein maiestie wherof he representeth the image Thē shall he enioy those excellent good thinges in the Lordes house in comparison wherof all the thynges that we sée are accounted as nothing Those be the thinges whiche no eye hath sene nor eare heard nor hart of man conceiued whiche God hath prepared for them that loue him And truly Lord these thinges wilt thou giue vnto my soule With these doost thou which louest mens soules dayly glad the harts of thy seruants But why wonder I at these things my Lord God Thou inhonorest thine owne image and thyne owne likenesse wherunto they were created For to the end our body though it be yet corruptible bace might sée thou hast giuē vs the light of the skye by the hand of thine vnwéeriable seruauntes the noone who accordyng to thy commaundement do continuall seruice day and night to thy children To the intent it might breath thou hast graunted vs the pure ayre To the intent it might heare thou hast giuen vs the diuersitie of soundes To the end it might smell thou hast giuen vs the swéetnesse of sentes To the end it might tast thou hast giuen vs the qualities of sauours To the end it might féele thou hast giuen vs the substaunces of all bodily things To helpe him in his necessities thou hast giuen him bearyng beastes To refresh him with all thou hast bestowed vpon him the foules of the ayre and the fishes of the sea the frutes of the earth For euery sore or disease of hys thou hast created medicine and salue out of the earth And for euery seuerall euill thou hast prepared a seuerall remedy to incounter it bycause thou art mercyfull and full of compassion and thou our potter knowest of what metal we be made and how that all of vs are as clay in thy hand That the greatnesse of the heauenly wisedome is coniectured by the consideration of the temporall benefites O Let thy great mercy be opened vnto me shine vpon me yet more with thy light I beseech thée that it may be the more opened vnto me For by these least thyngs we comprehend thy great thynges and by these visible thynges we cōprehend thyne inuisible thynges O holy Lord God our good maker For if thou send so great and so innumerable benefites vnto me for this base corruptible body of myne from the skye and the ayre from the land and the Sea from light and darknesse from heate and shadow from dew and rayne from winde and showres from foules and fishes frō beastes and trées by diuersitie of herbes thinges that grow vpon the earth and by the seruice of all thy creatures seruyng our turnes by course in their seasons to ease vs of our weerinesse Howe excellent I pray thée and how great and innumerable shal these good things be which thou hast prepared for them that loue thée in that heauenly realme where we shall sée thée face to face If thou do so much for vs in prison what wilt thou do in thy palace Great and innumerable are thy workes O Lord thou kyng of heauen For sith that all these thynges be excéedyng good and pleasant which thou hast deliuered to good men and bad men together in cōmon what maner of things shal those be which thou hast layd vp in store for good men onely If the giftes be so sundry and so innumerable which thou dealest now as well to thy foes as thy frendes How great and innumerable how swéete and delightfull shall those be which thou wilt deale onely to thy frendes If thou giue so great solace in this time of mournyng how great ioyes wilt thou giue in the day of weddyng If our prison conteyne so many delectable thinges how much more delectable thyngs conteineth our fathers house O God no eye without thée hath séene the thinges that thou hast prepared for them that loue thée For accordyng to the manifoldnesse of thy mighty workes so also is the great aboūdaunce of thy swéetnesse whiche thou kéepest in store for thē that loue thée For great art thou O Lord my God yea vnmeasurable art thou and there is no end of thy greatnesse nor number of thy wisedome nor measure of thy mercy neither is there end number or measure of thy bounteousnesse But lyke as thou thy selfe art greate so are thy rewardes great For thou thy selfe art both the price and the reward of all thy lawfull combaters That the sweetnesse of God taketh away all the present bitternesse of the world LOrd God which art the sanctifier of thy Saintes these are thy great benefites wherewith thou wilt reléeue the want of thy hungry children For thou art the hope of the hopelesse the comfort of the comfortlesse and the crown of hope bedecked with glory whiche is prepared for thē that get the vpper hand Thou art the euerlastyng suffisance whiche shal be giuen to the hungry Thou art the endlesse
solace whiche giuest thy selfe to them onely that despise the solace of this world for thy eternall solace sake For they that haue their comfort here are vnworthy of thy comfort But such as are turmoyled here are cōforted at thy hand and such as be partakers of thy sufferaunces shall also be partakers of thy comfortes For no man can haue solace in both the worldes neither can a man ioy both here and in the world to come but he must be fayne to for go the one who soeuer will be owner of the other When I consider these thynges O Lorde my comforter my hart refuseth to haue solace in this world to the intēt it may be thought worthy of thy euerlasting solace For of good right ought he to forgo thée who soeuer hath chosen to solace hym selfe in any other thyng more then in thée And I beséech thée O souerein truth by thy selfe I beséech thée suffer me not to solace my selfe in any vayne solace But I aske of thée that all things may be bitter to me and that thou alone mayst séeme sweete to my soule for thou art the inestimable swéetnes wherby all bitter thynges are made sweete For thy swéetnesse made euen the stones of the brooke swéete vnto Stephē Thy swéetnesse made the gréedyron sweete to saint Laurence By reason of thy swéetnes the Apostles went away reioysing from the counsell of the Iewes for that they had bene counted worthy to suffer reproche for thy names sake Saint Andrew went quietly and ioyfully to the crosse bycause he hasted to thy swéetnes This thy swéetnes did so replenish the very chief of thyne Apostles that to come vnto it the one chose the galowes of the crosse and the other was not afrayd to lay down his head to haue it striken of To buy this withall Bartlemewe gaue his owne skinne Also that he might tast this Iohn drunke vp a cup of poyson vnfearefully Assoone as Peter had tasted hereof by and by forgettyng all inferiour thinges he cryed out like a drunkenman saying Lord it is good beyng here let vs make vs thrée tentes here and let vs dwel here and behold thée still for we want nothing els It suffiseth vs to looke vpon thée Lord I say it suffiseth vs if we may haue our fill of so great swéetnes For Peter had tasted but one drop of that swéetnes yet he lothed all other swéetnesse What thinkest thou he would haue sayd if he had tasted the great aboundance of that swéetnesse of thy Godhead which thou hast layd vp for them that feare thée This vnspeakeable swéetnesse was also tasted by that virgine of whom we read that she went to prison as ioyfull and triumphyng as if she had bene bidden to a feast Hereof also as I trow had he tasted whiche sayd Lord how great is the aboundance of thy swéetnesse whiche thou hast horded vp for them that feare thée And so had he which incouraged men saying Tast ye and sée ye how that the Lord is swéete For this is that blessednesse O Lord our God whiche we looke to receiue of thy gift for whiche we serue thée in continuall warfare and for which we be killed vnto thée all the day lōg that we may liue vnto thée in thy life That all our trust and all the longing of our hart ought to be to Godward LOrd which art the wayting of Israell the desire where after our hart doth dayly long make hast and forflow thou not Vp hye thée apace come that thou mayst lead vs out of this prison to giue prayse vnto thy name and to glory in thy light Open thine eares to the shréekes and teares of thy fatherlesse children which cry vnto thée saying Our father giue vs this day our dayly bread that we may walke in the strength thereof day and night vntill we come to thy holy hill of Oreb And I silie soule among the litle ones of thy household O God my father and my strength when shall I come and stand in thy presence that as I now do prayse thée for a tyme so I may from thence forth prayse thée for euer Happy shall I be if I be once admitted to the beholdyng of thy brightnesse Who will do so much for me as to get me leaue at thy hand to come to this point I knowe Lorde I know and cōfesse that I am vnworthy to enter vnder thy roofe but yet giue me leaue for thyne owne honours sake and confoūd not thy seruaunt which trusteth in thée For who shall enter into thy Sanctuarie to consider thy mightie power except thou open it vnto him And who shall open it if thou shet it For if thou pull downe there is none that can build vp and if thou shet vp a man there is none that can let him out If thou hold the waters at a stay all shal be dryed vp if thou let them go they shall ouerturne the earth If thou bring all thinges which thou hast made vnto nothyng who shall gaynesaye thée But euerlastyng is the goodnes of thy mercy wherby thou hast made all thyngs that thou liftest Thou O maker of the world hast created vs therfore rule vs thou hast created vs therfore despise vs not for we be thy worke And truly O Lord our God we silie wormes and clay are not able to enter into thine euerlastyngnes vnlesse thou which hast made all of nothyng do lead vs in That our welfare commeth of God. ANd I the worke of thy handes protest vnto thée in thy feare that my trust is not in myne owne bow nor that myne owne sword shall saue me but thy right hand and thyne arme and the light of thy countenance Otherwise I should despayre but that thou which hast created me art my hope bicause thou forsakest not thē that trust in thée For thou our Lord God art swéete and long sufferyng and orderest all things in mercy If we sinne we be none of thyne bycause we be out of thy bookes But we be all of vs as a leafe and all men liuyng are but vanitie and our life vpon earth is but a blast Be not angrie with vs if we thy fōdlynges fall for thou O Lord our God doost know what metall we be made of O God which art of inestimable power wilt thou shewe thy force agaynst a leafe that is tossed with the wynde or wilt thou folow vpō dry stubble Wilt thou O euerlastyng kyng of Israell wilt thou condemne a dogge wilt thou cōdemne a flea Lord we haue heard of thy mercyfulnesse how that thou makest not death nor delightest in the losse of them that dye For this cause Lord we pray thée suffer not the thing which thou madest not to haue dominion ouer the creature that thou madest For if thou be sorie for our damnation what letteth thée O Lord which art almighty that thou shouldest not alwayes reioyce in our saluation Thou canst saue me if thou list but I cannot saue
my selfe would I neuer so fayne Great is the multitude of my miseries within me For why to will is present with me but I finde not how to bring to passe To will the thyng that is good I am not able except thou will it neither cā I do that I would do except thy power do strengthen me Agayne that which I cā do of tymes I haue no will to do vnlesse thy will be done in earth as it is in heauen And though I both wil and can yet wote I not how to do vnlesse thy wisedome inlighten me Yea and although sometymes I haue knowledge ioyned both with will and with abilitie yet doth my wisedome passe away imperfect emptie vnlesse I be helped by thy true wisedome All thinges are in thy will and there is none that can resiste thy will O Lorde of all thinges which hast the souereintie ouer all flesh and doost what thou listest in heauen in earth in the Sea and in all déepe places Therfore let thy wil be done in vs vpon whē thy name is called so as this noble handiworke of thine perish not whiche thou hast created to shine own honor And what man is he if he were borne of a womā that liueth and shall not sée death or can deliuer his owne soule from the hand of hell except thou onely which art the liuely way of all life wherby all things liue do rescue him ¶ That mās will is vnable to doe good workes without the grace of God. I Haue euen now confessed vnto thée that thou art the stay of my lyfe O Lord my God the strēgth of my welfare The time hath bene that I haue trusted in myne owne strength which notwithstandyng was no strength And so whē I wold haue runne where I thought my selfe to stād fastest there did I most fall and was rather cast behynde then set foreward and the thyng that I thought to catch was further and further of frō me So tryest thou my strēgth by many like things Now know I that thou hast inlightened me For looke what I thought my selfe best able to do that was I euer least able to do of my selfe For I sayd I will do this and I will go through with that but whē it came to the point I could doe none of them both When I had a will to doe it I wanted ablenesse and when I was able I wanted will bycause I trusted to myne own strength But now I acknowledge vnto thee O Lord my God the father of heauen and earth that it is not in mans power to strengthē him selfe least the foolish presumptuousnesse of any flesh should boast it selfe before thée For man is not able to be willing to do that he can nor to can the thyng that he is willing to do or to know the thing that he both would and could do but rather thou art he that guidest mens steppes I say the steppes of them whiche acknowledge thē selues to be guided not by them selues but by thée We beséech thée therfore O Lord by the bowels of thy mercy that thou wilt saue that which thou hast created for if thou wilt thou cāst saue vs and in thy will resteth the power of our saluation ¶ Of Gods olde benefites LOrd remember thyne olde mercyfulnesse wherby thou hast preuented vs with thy swéet blessinges euen from the begynning For before that I the sonne of thy hādmayd was borne thou O Lord my hope while I hāged yet vppon my mothers brestes didst preuent me making my way for me wherein to walke that I might come to the glory of thy house Before thou didst shape me in my mothers wōbe thou knewest me and before I was borne thou didst foreordeine of me what soeuer pleased thée How and what things are written of me in the secret booke of thy Consistorie truly I know not and therefore I am sore afrayde But thou knowest it for what soeuer I looke for by succession of dayes and tymes a thousand yeare hence in this mortall world that is already done in the sight of thy euerlastingnesse and the thing that is to come is already in doyng Now then for asmuch as I stand in this night of darknesse and know not these thinges feare and trembling are come vpon me bycause I sée that many daungers preace vpon me on all sides and many enemyes hunt after me and I am beset round about with an innumerable multitude of miseries in this life And if thy helpe were not presēt with me in these so great miseries I should despaire But I haue a great hope of thée O most méeke prince my God and the considering of the multitude of thy compassions chéereth my hart The former signes of thy mercy whiche preuented me before I was borne and haue now specially shyned out vpon me do assure my hope of the better and perfecter rewardes of thy goodnesse whiche thou reseruest for thy frendes that I may reioyse in thée O Lorde my God with the holy and liuely ioye wherewith thou alwayes chéerest vp my youth Of Gods predestination and foreknowledge TEache me O bottomlesse déepe O wisedome the creator whiche hast counterpeysed the moūtaines hils by weight and hāged the masse of the earth by thrée fingers in the balance hale vp the lumpe of this grossenesse whiche I beare about me vnto thée by thy thrée vnsene fingers that I may sée and know how wonderful thou art ouer all the earth O most auncient light which shonest before all light in the hill of thy tymelesse eternitie vnto whom all thinges lay bare and open before they were made O light whiche hatest all spottinesse in asmuch as thou art most cleane and spottelesse what delight canst thou haue in man What agréemēt is there betwen light and darknesse For what is there in man that may delight thée Where canst thou make thée a méete sanctuarie for thy maiestie that thou mayst enter into it and take thy delight and pleasure in the same A cleane parlour becommeth thée O clensing vertue whiche canst not be sene and much lesse possessed but of cleane hartes But where is there in man so cleane a temple as may receiue thée the ruler of the world Who can make that cleane which is conceiued of vncleane séede Truly none but thou who onely art cleane For who cā be made cleane by that which is vncleane For accordyng to the law which thou gauest to our fathers vpō the mountaine burning with fire and in the cloud that couered the darksome water what soeuer an vncleane persō toucheth becōmeth vncleane But all of vs are as a defileth cloth comming of a corrupt and vncleane masse and we beare in our foreheades the spottes of our vncleannesse which we be not able to hide specially from thée who séest all thinges Wherfore we cannot be cleane except thou make vs cleane who onely art cleane And of vs sonnes of men thou makest those cleane whom it pleaseth thée to dwell in whō by the
and I foūd thée not bycause I sought thee amisse For I sée O my light my God which hast inlightened me I sée I did amisse to séeke thee by thē for thou art within me yet they wist not where thou camest in For myne eyes say if he haue not some colour he came not in by vs Mine eares say if he made no noyse he came not in by vs My nose sayth if he had no sent he came not in by me My tast sayth if he had no sauour he came not in by me And my feelyng sayth if he be not bodily aske not me of any such matter But none of these thinges are in thée my god For it is neither shape of body nor tēporall beawtie nor shéernesse of light nor colour nor the melodie of sweete songes and pleasaunt soundyng tunes nor the sentes of floures perfumes oyntmētes or spyces nor honny or manna delightfull to the tast nor any of the thinges that men loue to touch and imbrace nor any maner of thyng subiect 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 senses whiche I séeke when I séeke my god Fye of it that I should take for my God any of these thynges whiche are comprehended euen of the senses of brute beastes Truly when I séeke my God I séeke a certeine light aboue all lightes whiche no eye can comprehend a certeine voyce aboue all voyces which no eare cā conceiue a certeine sent aboue all sentes which no nose can atteine to a certeine swéetnesse aboue all swéetnesse whiche no mouth can tast of and a certein imbracing aboue all imbracing which no bodily féelyng cā take hold of This lyght shyneth where no place is to hold it this voyce soūdeth where no ayre is to carie it this sent yeldeth 〈◊〉 where no blast is to shed it this sauour yeldeth sauourines where as is no féedyng this imbracing is felt where no armes are pluckt a sūder It is euē my God and there shall none other be made account of in comparison of him This is it that I séeke when I séeke my god This is it that I loue whē I loue my god To late haue I loued thée O beawtie so old and so fresh to late haue I loued thée Thou wart within and I without and there I sought thée I ilfauoredly rushed agaynst these goodly thinges whiche thou hast made Thou wart with me and yet I was not with thee These thynges held me farre from thée which could not be without thee For I went all aboutes séekyng thee and forsakyng my selfe for all thinges I asked the earth if it were my God and it told me no and all thinges in it did verifie the same I asked the Sea and the great deepes and all the créepyng thinges in them and they aunswered we be not thy God séeke him aboue vs I asked the wyndie aire and the whole ayre with all the dwellers therin sayd vnto me Anaximenes is deceiued for I am not thy god I asked the skye the Sunne the Moone and the Starres neither are we thy God sayd they Then sayd I to all the thinges that stād about me at the doores of my flesh Tell me what you knowe of my God tell me somewhat of him and they cryed all with a loude voyce it is he that hath made vs Agayne I spake to the masse of the whole world saying Tell me if thou bee my God or no And it aunswered with a mightie voyce I am not he but I am by him he whom thou séekest in me euen he made me aboue me must thou séeke for him that made me and ruleth me The askyng of the creatures is the déepe consideryng of them and their aunsweryng is theyr auouchement concerning God for all thynges cry out it is God that hath made vs And as the Apostle sayd Gods inuisible things are vnderstode by his visible thinges which are beheld from the creatiō of the world Then came I agayne to my selfe entered into my selfe and sayd to my selfe What art thou and I aunswered a man reasonable mortall And I begā to boult out what that should be and I sayd from whence is this maner of wight O Lord my God from whence is it but of thée Thou madest me and not I my selfe Who art thou Thou art he by whom I liue thou art he by whō all thinges liue Who art thou Thou art the Lord my true and onely God almightie euerlasting incomprehensible infinite who liuest euermore nothyng dyeth in thée For thou art immortall dwelling in euer lastingnesse wonderfull to the eyes of the aungels vnutterable vnsearchable and vnable to be named The liuyng true God terrible strong beginnynglesse and endlesse the beginnyng and end of all thinges which art before the foūdations of the world and before the originals of all ages Thou art my God and the Lord of all thy creatures with thée stand the causes of all stable thinges with thée do the originals of all chaungeable thynges abyde vnchaungeable and with thée do the groundes of all reasonable vnreasonable and temporall things continue euerlastingly My God tell me thy humble seruaunt mercifull Lord tell me wretch tell me for thy mercyes sake I beseech thée from whence is this maner of wight but from thée Is any man such a workemaister as to make him selfe Is beyng and life fetched from any where els then from thée Art not thou the souerein beyng from whence commeth all being for what soeuer is it is of thee and without thée is nothyng Art not thou the fountaine of lyfe from whence all life floweth for what soeuer liueth it liueth by thee without thée doth nothyng lyue Then is it thou O Lord whiche hast made all thinges Shall I demaunde who hath made me Thou Lorde hast made me for without thee is nothyng made Thou art my maker and I thy worke I thanke thee my Lord God by whom I liue by whom all thynges lyue for thou hast made me I thanke thée my creator for thy hādes haue made me and fashioned me I thanke thée my light bycause thou hast inlightened me and I haue found both thée and my selfe Assoone as I found my selfe straightwayes I knewe my selfe Assoone as I foūd thée straightwayes I knew thée and assoone as I knew thée forthwith thou didst inlightē me I thanke thée my light for that thou hast inlightened me What sayd I that I knewe thée Art not thou God incomprehensible and infinite the kyng of kynges and Lord of Lordes who onely hast immortalitie and dwellest in vnapprochable light whiche neuer man saw no nor can sée Art not thou the hidden God of vnsearchable maiestie the alonly peruser and wonderful vewer of thy selfe Who then can know that whiche he neuer saw For thou hast sayd in thy truth man shall not sée me liue Thy prophet also hath sayd by thy truth neuer any man saw god Who then hath knowen that which he neuer saw Also thy truth hath sayd no mā knoweth the
sonne but the father neither knoweth any mā the father but the sonne Thyne onely Trinitie whiche surmounteth all knowledge is knowen fully to none but to thy selfe alone What is it then that I vayne man haue sayd that I know thée for who knowes thée els sauyng thy selfe For thou onely O God in thy most holy and heauenly worde art termed almightie passing prayse worthy passing glorious passing exalted passing high and passing substantiall bycause thou art discerned to be aboue all thynges that can be imagined to be whether they be to be conceiued in vnderstandyng or to be perceiued by the senses aboue all names that are named not onely in this world but also in the world to come beyond all that is or can be deuised to be For truly aboue the reach of all reason vnderstādyng and being doost thou by thy substantiall and secret Godhead dwel vnapprochably and vnsearchably in thy selfe whereas is light vnapprochable brightnes vnsearchable incomprehēsible vnspeakable wherūto no brightnesse may come neare bycause it is certeinly vnable to be beheld vnable to be seene aboue reason aboue vnderstandyng aboue acces aboue all chaūge aboue all partnershyp whiche neuer any wight neither man nor aungell hath throughly sene nor can sée This is thy heauen O Lord this is thy heauen so faire ingrauen the light so passing priuie so passing vnderstāding so passing reason so passing all that is wherof it is sayd the heauen of heauens is the Lordes The heauen of heauens in comparison wherof all other heauēs are but earth bycause it is passing wonderfully heaued vp aboue all heauens In comparison wherof euen the very firie heauen it selfe is but earth for this is the heauen of heauens that is reserued to the Lorde bycause it is knowen to none but to the lord Vnto this heauen came neuer none but he that came downe from heauen for no mā knowes the father sauing the sonne and the spirite of them both Neither doth any mā know the sonne sauyng the father the spirite that procéedeth from them both The Trinitie is fully knowē to none but onely to thy selfe O holy Trinitie O passyng wonderfull Trinitie surmountyng all vtterance beyond all searchyng aboue all approchyng ouer incōprehensible ouer vnconceiuable farre aboue all thinges that be far passing all vnderstāding all reasō all reach and all beyng of the mindes that are aboue heauen which it is not possible either to vtter or to conceiue or to vnderstand or to discerne no not euen to the aungels that behold it How then come I by the knowledge of thee which art highest aboue all the earth aboue all heauens whō neither the Cherubins nor the Seraphins do know perfectly but are fayne to shadow their faces with their wynges when they looke vppon him that sittes vpon the high and stately throne crying saying Holy holy holy Lord God of hostes the whole earth is full of thy glorie The prophet was abashed sayd Alas I am toungtyde for I am a man of vncleane lippes My hart was afrayd and sayd wo is me that I held not my toung bycause I am a man of vncleane lippes But I sayd I knew thée Neuerthelesse Lord wo be to them that are toūgtyde when they should speake of thée for there be many that be to full of toung without thée And therfore O Lord my God I will not hold my peace for thou hast made me and inlightened me wherby I haue found my selfe knowen thée bycause thou shynest vppon me But in what wise haue I knowen thée I knew thée in thy selfe I haue knowen thée not as thou art to thy selfe ward but as thou art to me ward and yet not without thy selfe but in thy self for thou art the light that hath inlightened me For no man knowes thee as thou art in thy selfe but as thou art to me ward by thy grace thou art knowen euē vnto me But what art thou to me ward mercyfull Lord tell me thy silie seruaunt for thy mercyes sake tell me what thou art to me warde Say vnto my soule I am thy welfare hyde not thy face from me least I dye Giue me leaue to speake before thy mercy suffer me that am but earth and dust to speake before thy mercy for great is thy mercy towardes me For I that am but dust and ashes will speake to my god Tell me thy sillie seruaūt tell me thy rufull creature tell me for thy mercyes sake what thou art to me ward Thou hast thundered from aboue with a great noyse into the inward eare of my hart and hast broken my deafnes and I haue heard thy voyce and thou hast inlightened my blindnesse and I haue sene thy light and haue knowē that thou art my god And therfore haue I sayd I knew thée bycause I knew that thou art my god Yea I know thée to be the onely true God and thy sonne Iesus Christ whom thou hast sent The tyme hath bene that I haue not knowē thée Wo worth that tyme that I knew thée not wo worth that blindnesse when I saw thée not wo worth that deafnesse when I heard thée not Blind deafe as I was I rā ilfauoredly through the goodly thinges that thou madest And thou wart with me and yet was not I with thée For the thinges held me farre from thée whiche should not haue bene at all if they were not in thée Thou hast inlightened me O light of the world and I haue sene thée and loued thée For no man knoweth thée but he that sées thée and no man sées thée but he that loues thée It was late ere I loued thée thou beawtie so old so fresh it was late ere I loued thée wo worth the tyme that I loued thée not Of the acknowledging of a mās owne vylenes LOrd who is like vnto thée yea euen among the Gods who is like vnto thée which art of excéeding great holines dreadfull prayse worthy and a worker of wonders Long it was ere I knew thée the true light long it was ere I knew thée There was a great darke cloud before my fond eyes so as I could not sée the sonne of righteousnesse the light of truth I like a child of darknesse was wrapped in darknesse and bycause I knew not the light I was in loue with myne owne darknesse For asmuch as I was blind I was in loue with my blindnesse and by darknesse walked into further darknesse still But who brought me out of it when I like a blind wretch sate in darknesse and the shadow of death who tooke me by the hand to leade me out of it Who is he that inlightened me For I sought not him but he sought me I called not him but he called me And who is he It is euen thou my Lord God mercyfull and pitifull the father of compassion and God of all cōfort It is euen thou my holy Lord God whom I acknowledge with my whole hart yeldyng thankes vnto thy