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assay_v to_o speak_v of_o thou_o and_o yet_o wo_n to_o they_o who_o in_o thy_o praise_n be_v silent_a though_o in_o it_o they_o be_v no_o more_o than_o mute_a who_o be_v most_o eloquent_a nothing_o eloquent_a or_o whereln_n the_o very_a dumb_a say_v something_o and_o such_o as_o say_v most_o say_v nothing_o chap._n v._n o_o what_o shall_v i_o do_v that_o i_o may_v for_o ever_o repose_v and_o acquiesce_v in_o thou_o what_o shall_v i_o do_v to_o have_v my_o soul_n wholly-poss_a with_o and_o inebriate_v by_o they_z so_o to_o enjoy_v a_o eternal_a oblivion_n of_o all_o past_a evil_n and_o the_o perpetual_a embrace_n of_o thou_o my_o only_a good_a and_o in_o this_o so_o much_o on_o both_o side_n longed-for_a union_n what_o good_a be_v thou_o to_o i_o let_v thy_o mercy_n indulge_v i_o to_o speak_v unto_o thou_o or_o what_o good_a be_o i_o to_o thou_o that_o thou_o exact_a of_o i_o that_o i_o shall_v love_v thou_o and_o if_o i_o do_v it_o not_o be_v high_o displease_v and_o threaten_v to_o 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it_o the_o sordid_a furniture_n thereof_o must_v be_v very_o offensive_a to_o thy_o holy_a eye_n i_o know_v and_o confess_v it_o but_o who_o can_v purge_v and_o cleanse_v it_o beside_o thou_o vulg_n psal_n 19.12_o psal_n 116.10_o psal_n 32.6_o psal_n 26.12_o vulg_n or_o to_o what_o other_n beside_o thou_o shall_v i_o cry_v cleanse_v i_o o_o lord_n from_o my_o secret_a sin_n and_o from_o my_o presumptuous_a wickedness_n deliver_v thy_o servant_n i_o believe_v thou_o have_v and_o will_v forgive_v they_o and_o therefore_o do_v i_o speak_v and_o confess_v they_o o_o lord_n thou_o know_v have_v not_o i_o confess_v against_o i_o my_o sin_n unto_o thou_o o_o my_o god_n i_o hope_v thou_o have_v forgive_v the_o wickedness_n of_o my_o sin_n i_o do_v not_o contend_v in_o judgement_n with_o thou_o for_o thou_o be_v the_o truth_n nor_o will_v i_o be_v deceive_v in_o harken_v to_o excuse_n whilst_o perhaps_o my_o iniquity_n tell_v lie_n unto_o i_o therefore_o do_v i_o not_o contend_v in_o judgement_n with_o thou_o for_o if_o thou_o lord_n shall_v mark_v iniquity_n 130.3_o psal_n 130.3_o o_o lord_n who_o shall_v abide_v it_o chap_n vi._n a_o account*_n of_o st._n augustine_n infancy_n nourish_v and_o sustain_v by_o the_o divine_a providence_n yet_o suffer_v i_o thy_o justice_n lay_v aside_o to_o speak_v unto_o thy_o mercy_n 18.27_o gen._n 18.27_o i_o dust_n and_o ash_n yet_o suffer_v i_o to_o speak_v be_v it_o be_v unto_o the_o mercy_n of_o my_o god_n i_o speak_v and_o not_o to_o man_n so_o apt_a to_o scoff_n at_o i_o and_o perhaps_o thou_o also_o for_o the_o present_a lâ—â—â—liest_a at_o i_o 25.16_o psal_n 25.16_o but_o in_o
good_a time_n thou_o will_v return_v and_o pity_v i_o and_o what_o be_v it_o i_o will_v first_o utter_v unto_o thou_o o_o lord_n my_o god_n but_o that_o my_o silliness_n can_v tell_v how_o or_o whence_o i_o first_o come_v hither_o into_o this_o die_a life_n shall_v i_o call_v it_o or_o live_a death_n i_o can_v tell_v and_o behold_v then_o immediate_o the_o comfort_n of_o thy_o compassionate_v mercy_n *_o attend_v i_o as_o i_o have_v be_v tell_v by_o the_o parent_n of_o my_o flesh_n out_o of_o who_o substance_n thou_o fashion_v i_o in_o thy_o good_a appoint_a time_n long_o before_o the_o dawn_n of_o this_o my_o memory_n and_o *_o cherish_v that_o my_o helpless_a age_n with_o the_o soft_a nourishment_n of_o a_o woman_n milk_n neither_o be_v it_o the_o providence_n of_o my_o mother_n or_o nurse_n that_o store_v their_o swell_a breast_n therewith_o but_o thou_o it_o be_v that_o in_o those_o cistern_n prepare_v a_o agreeable_a food_n for_o that_o my_o tender_a age_n according_a to_o thinâ—_n ordinance_n and_o the_o riches_n of_o thy_o bounty_n descend_v to_o the_o mean_a original_a of_o thing_n and_o thou_o give_v also_o *_o to_o i_o to_o desire_v that_o only_a which_o thou_o then_o give_v i_o and_o also_o *_o to_o those_o who_o nurse_v i_o as_o willing_o to_o bestow_v on_o i_o what_o thou_o do_v first_o bestow_v on_o they_o for_o they_o by_o a_o heavenly-guided_n affection_n take_v a_o delight_n to_o impart_v unto_o i_o what_o they_o abound_v with_o from_o thou_o and_o it_o be_v also_o good_a for_o they_o that_o i_o receive_v this_o good_a from_o they_o which_o indeed_o be_v not_o from_o but_o by_o they_o only_o for_o from_o thou_o o_o god_n be_v all_o good_a thing_n 62.1_o psal_n 62.1_o and_o from_o my_o god_n come_v my_o universal_a salvation_n as_o i_o have_v well-learned_a since_o by_o the_o multiply_a expression_n of_o so_o many_o blessing_n heap_v upon_o i_o internal_a and_o external_a all_o confess_v thou_o their_o author_n for_o then_o i_o have_v only_o the_o skill_n how_o to_o suck_v to_o be_v still_o when_o my_o flesh_n be_v satisfy_v and_o to_o cry_v when_o it_o be_v offend_v and_o nothing_o more_o than_o this_o but_o afterward_o came-on_a smile_n and_o laughter_n first_o when_o i_o be_v asleep_a then_o when_o awake_a for_o this_o have_v be_v tell_v i_o of_o myself_o and_o i_o likewise_o discover_v it_o in_o the_o infancy_n of_o other_o though_o i_o remember_v it_o not_o in_o my_o own_o hence_o by_o gentle_a degree_n i_o advance_v to_o perceive_v and_o discern_v where_o i_o be_v and_o to_o have_v a_o desire_n to_o make_v know_v my_o desire_n to_o those_o that_o may_v content_v they_o but_o this_o in_o vain_a at_o first_o these_o long_n of_o my_o be_v *_o shut_v up_o within_o i_o and_o they_o *_o without_o i_o unable_a with_o the_o eye_n of_o sense_n to_o pierce_v so_o deep_a into_o my_o soul_n therefore_o next_o i_o labour_v to_o produce_v and_o expose_v my_o meaning_n by_o several_a motion_n of_o my_o flutter_a limb_n and_o ejaculation_n of_o break_a word_n *_o some_o few_o such_o as_o i_o can_v articulate_v and_o bear_v *_o little_a resemblance_n to_o my_o mental_a conceit_n and_o when_o i_o be_v not_o present_o obey_v either_o for_o that_o my_o desire_n be_v hurtful_a or_o not_o intelligible_a i_o will_v fall_v into_o a_o ridiculous_a rage_n against_o my_o elder_n not_o under_o my_o power_n and_o my_o better_n not_o owe_v i_o service_n i_o will_v take_v revenge_n on_o they_o with_o cry_v such_o have_v i_o hear_v other_o in_o aunt_n to_o be_v and_o such_o my_o nurse_n and_o tender_v report_v i_o to_o have_v be_v by_o those_o dark_a conjecture_n they_o can_v make_v of_o my_o infantine_a inclination_n and_o now_o behold_v my_o infancy_n be_v decease_v long_o ago_o and_o notwithstanding_o i_o still_o alive_a but_o tell_v i_o o_o lord_n thou_o who_o live_v all_o age_n yet_o without_o the_o defluxe_n of_o any_o because_o before_o the_o first_o dawn_n of_o time_n and_o before_o all_o that_o can_v be_v say_v to_o be_v before_z thou_o be_v and_o be_v the_o god_n and_o lord_n of_o all_o which_o thyself_o have_v create_v and_o before_o thy_o eye_n do_v stand_v ever-fixed_a the_o cause_n of_o all_o the_o heremost-fleeting_a event_n and_o remain_v unchangeable_a the_o idea_n and_o pattern_n of_o all_o thing_n here_o most_o float_v and_o before_o thou_o live_v eternal_a the_o reason_n of_o all_o thing_n temporal_a which_o so_o often_o to_o we_o seem_v unreasonable_a tell_v unto_o i_o o_o god_n thy_o poor_a suppliant_a thou_o that_o be_v merciful_a unto_o i_o who_o be_o miserable_a tell_v i_o whether_o this_o my_o infancy_n succeed_v not_o also_o a_o young_a age_n of_o i_o expire_v before_o it_o that_o life_n perchance_o the_o revolution_n of_o which_o i_o pass_v yet_o be_v a_o prisoner_n within_o my_o mother_n womb_n for_o of_o my_o abode_n there_o also_o i_o have_v understand_v and_o see_v many_o woman_n bear_v about_o the_o like_a burden_n and_o what_o before_o that_o life_n again_o o_o my_o god_n my_o sweet_a dear_a delight_n be_v i_o yet_o then_o also_o any_o where_n or_o any_o thing_n which_o none_o can_v tell_v i_o neither_o father_n nor_o mother_n that_o beget_v i_o neither_o other_o experience_n nor_o my_o own_o memory_n and_o do_v not_o thou_o now_o deride_v this_o my_o curiousity_n demand_v thou_o such_o question_n who_o only_o require_v my_o laud_v of_o thou_o and_o confess_v unto_o thou_o concern_v thing_n within_o the_o circle_n of_o my_o knowledge_n i_o confess_v therefore_o unto_o thou_o lord_n of_o heaven_n and_o earth_n and_o give_v thou_o praiâ—e_v for_o that_o my_o first_o conception_n and_o that_o my_o newborn_a infancy_n in_o which_o thing_n though_o beyond_o our_o remembrance_n thou_o have_v give_v unto_o we_o a_o conjecture_n of_o ourselves_o from_o our_o experience_n of_o other_o and_o from_o the_o authority_n of_o those_o who_o then_o attend_v we_o then_o have_v i_o be_v and_o life_n and_o cogitation_n and_o towards_o the_o wane_n of_o my_o infancy_n invention_n of_o expressive_a sign_n to_o make_v my_o meaning_n know_v to_o other_o and_o whence_o such_o a_o vital_a sensitive_a piece_n of_o matter_n as_o i_o be_v then_o but_o from_o thou_o o_o lord_n can_v any_o be_v his_o own_o creator_n or_o can_v there_o be_v derive_v from_o any_o other_o source_n the_o small_a vein_n 100.2_o psal_n 100.2_o that_o may_v stream_n essence_n and_o life_n into_o we_o but_o only_o from_o thou_o who_o thus_o have_v make_v we_o in_o who_o be_v and_o live_v be_v not_o a_o several_a thing_n but_o thou_o be_v one_o and_o the_o same_o high_a supremity_n of_o both_o for_o 102.26_o ps._n 83.18_o psal_n 102.26_o thou_o be_v the_o most-high_a and_o thou_o be_v not_o change_v neither_o do_v today_n ever_o passeaway_a in_o thou_o and_o yet_o in_o thou_o it_o be_v that_o it_o pass_v away_o for_o even_o these_o transitory_n be_v not_o but_o as_o in_o thou_o nor_o have_v they_o any_o way_n of_o pass_v away_o but_o as_o convey_v through_o thou_o and_o yet_o mean_a while_n 102.26_o psal_n 102.26_o because_o thy_o year_n fail_v not_o therefore_o thy_o year_n be_v but_o a_o continue_a today_n and_o how_o many_o day_n of_o we_o and_o of_o our_o forefather_n have_v flow_v away_o through_o this_o thy_o one_o ever-fixed_a day_n and_o from_o it_o receive_v the_o mould_n and_o fashion_n of_o their_o be_v and_o how_o many_o more_o yet_o shall_v flow_v and_o shall_v so_o receive_v the_o measure_n of_o their_o be_v whilst_o thou_o be_v still_o the_o same_o and_o all_o the_o thing_n of_o tomorrow_n 102.26_o psal_n 102.26_o and_o what_o ever_o be_v beyond_o it_o and_o all_o the_o thing_n of_o yesterday_o and_o whatever_o be_v behind_o it_o in_o this_o thy_o day_n thou_o shall_v make_v and_o in_o this_o thy_o day_n thou_o have_v make_v they_o what_o do_v it_o import_v i_o if_o any_o understand_v not_o this_o let_v such_o a_o one_o praise_v thou_o in_o say_v what_o mean_v this_o high_a mystery_n even_o so_o let_v he_o praise_v thou_o and_o rather_o choose_v in_o not_o apprehend_v to_o conceive_v nothing_o but_o right_a of_o thou_o incomprehensible_a thou_o that_o be_v that_o thou_o be_v incomprehensible_a than_o in_o apprehend_v amiss_o to_o conceive_v something_o below_o thou_o chap_n vii_o and*_n of_o its_o sin_n and_o his_o praise_a god_n for_o its_o good_a endowment_n hear_v o_o god_n wo_n wo_n unto_o the_o sin_n of_o man_n and_o man_n confess_v this_o thou_o take_v compassion_n of_o he_o because_o thou_o have_v make_v he_o but_o yet_o make_v not_o sin_n in_o he_o o_o who_o can_v recount_v unto_o i_o the_o conceal_a sin_n of_o my_o unknown_a infancy_n from_o which_o none_o be_v pure_a in_o thy_o sight_n o_o lord_n not_o the_o child_n that_o be_v a_o day_n old_a 25._o
after_o strange-lust_n by_o which_o the_o soul_n become_v darken_v and_o benight_a and_o this_o darkness_n be_v cause_v by_o going-far-off_a from_o the_o light_n of_o thy_o countenance_n o_o lord_n behold_v then_o o_o lord_n and_o with_o patient_a eye_n as_o thou_o be_v wont_a behold_v how_o scrupulous_o the_o son_n of_o man_n do_v observe_v the_o law_n even_o of_o letter_n and_o syllable_n receive_v from_o those_o that_o before_o they_o have_v so_o accent_v and_o pronounce_v they_o and_o yet_o so_o careless_o neglect_v the_o eternal_a law_n of_o their_o everlasting_a health_n receive_v from_o thou_o so_o that_o a_o professor_n or_o a_o scholar_n of_o the_o former_a tradition_n of_o pronunciation_n if_o contrary_a to_o the_o law_n of_o grammar_n he_o shall_v but_o without_o a_o aspirate_n speak_v this_o word_n ominem_fw-la that_o signify_v a_o man_n he_o shall_v more_o displease_v man_n than_o if_o contrary_a to_o thy_o law_n he_o hate_v a_o man_n when_o himself_n be_v one_o as_o though_o he_o ought_v to_o think_v a_o man_n that_o be_v his_o enemy_n a_o more_o harmful_a thing_n to_o he_o than_o his_o own_o hatred_n be_v by_o which_o he_o be_v incense_v against_o he_o or_o as_o though_o he_o do_v more_o mischief_n unto_o another_o man_n by_o persecute_v he_o than_o he_o do_v to_o his_o own_o soul_n by_o hate_v he_o certain_o that_o science_n of_o letter_n be_v not_o more_o innate_a than_o this_o law_n inscribe_v in_o our_o conscience_n not_o to_o do_v to_o any_o other_o what_o from_o another_o we_o be_v loath_a to_o suffer_v o_o how_o secret_a and_o undiscovered_a thou_o be_v dwell_v on_o high_a in_o silence_n god_n only_a great_a and_o from_o thence_o with_o a_o unwearied_a hand_n sprinkle_v here_o penal_a cecity_n upon_o lawless_a lust_n for_o one_o ambitious_a to_o be_v count_v eloquent_a when_o he_o stand_v before_o a_o mortal_a judge_n surround_v with_o a_o crowd_n of_o mortal_n and_o there_o with_o implacable_a wrath_n declaims-against_a his_o enemy_n take_v extreme_a care_n lest_o by_o a_o error_n of_o his_o tongue_n he_o chance_v to_o say_v inter_fw-la hominibus_fw-la to_o signify_v among_o man_n but_o take_v no_o heed_n stand_v also_o at_o the_o same_o time_n before_o thou_o lest_z by_o a_o worse_a fault_n of_o his_o furious_a passion_n he_o happen_v to_o destroy_v a_o man_n from_o among_o man_n chap._n xix_o of_o his_o lie_n to_o his_o governor_n theft_n from_o his_o parent_n cheat_v of_o his_o play-fellow_n in_o the_o road_n of_o these_o custom_n lay_v i_o wretched_a boy_n and_o upon_o this_o stage_n of_o vanity_n i_o play_v such_o prize_n where_o i_o far_o more_o fear_v to_o let-fall_a a_o solecism_n than_o when_o i_o commit_v any_o to_o envy_v he_o that_o make_v none_o i_o declare_v now_o and_o confess_v these_o fault_n unto_o thou_o o_o my_o god_n for_o the_o which_o they_o commend_v i_o who_o i_o think_v it_o all_o virtue_n to_o please_v for_o i_o discern_v not_o that_o gulf_n of_o filthiness_n wherein_o i_o then_o lay_v 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ruin_v and_o demolish_v for_o we_o indeed_o in_o depart_v from_o thence_o fall_n and_o come_v to_o ruin_n but_o our_o house_n in_o this_o our_o absence_n which_o be_v thy_o eternity_n can_v never_o fall_v lib_fw-la v._o chap._n i._n oblation_n of_o his_o confession_n to_o god_n their_o end_n be_v to_o set_v forth_o his_o praise_n accept_v o_o lord_n the_o sacrifice_n of_o these_o my_o confession_n offer_v unto_o thou_o from_o the_o hand_n of_o my_o tongue_n 35.10_o psal_n 35.10_o make_v and_o move_v by_o thou_o to_o confess_v unto_o thy_o name_n and_o heal_v thou_o all_o my_o bone_n that_o they_o may_v say_v o_o lord_n who_o be_v like_a unto_o thou_o it_o be_v not_o at_o all_o to_o teach_v thou_o that_o which_o be_v do_v within_o he_o when_o any_o one_o confess_v it_o unto_o thou_o for_o the_o closeness_n of_o the_o heart_n exclude_v not_o thy_o eye_n nor_o the_o hardness_n of_o it_o repel_v thy_o hand_n but_o that_o thou_o do_v often_o in_o pity_n and_o otherwile_v also_o in_o vengeance_n melt_v and_o dissolve_v it_o at_o pleasure_n and_o there_o be_v nothing_o hide_v from_o thy_o heat_n 19.6_o psa_fw-la 19.6_o but_o yet_o let_v my_o soul_n be_v still_o praise_v and_o speak_v good_a of_o thou_o that_o for_o this_o it_o may_v love_v thou_o and_o let_v it_o be_v confess_v thy_o mercy_n unto_o thou_o that_o for_o they_o it_o may_v praise_v thou_o the_o whole_a creation_n cease_v not_o nor_o rest_v from_o praise_v thou_o both_o every_o spirit_n by_o their_o own_o mouth_n turn_v immediate_o upon_o thou_o and_o all_o corporeal_v also_o live_v or_o inanimate_a by_o the_o mouth_n of_o those_o who_o in_o they_o contemplate_v thy_o wisdom_n that_o so_o our_o weary_a and_o sick_a soul_n may_v thus_o erect_v itself_o and_o move_v towards_o thou_o and_o lean_v on_o the_o thing_n which_o thou_o have_v make_v may_v by_o they_o be_v conduct_v unto_o thou_o who_o make_v they_o all_o so_o admirable_o and_o there_o find_v refection_n and_o true_a strength_n chap._n ii_o invitation_n of_o all_o other_o stray_a sinner_n to_o return_v to_o the_o omnipotent_a god_n by_o confession_n the_o wicked_a discontent_a and_o restless_a may_v depart_v and_o fly_v from_o thou_o but_o still_o thou_o see_v they_o and_o divide_v the_o darkness_n 1.4.31_o gen._n 1.4.31_o and_o behold_v all_o thing_n round_o about_o they_o be_v still_o fair_a and_o lovely_a in_o thy_o sight_n only_o themselves_o deform_v for_o alas_o in_o thus_o abandon_v thou_o how_o have_v they_o hurt_v or_o frustrate_v thou_o at_o all_o or_o any_o way_n discompose_v thy_o absolute_a empire_n from_o the_o high_a heaven_n to_o the_o low_a abyss_n just_a and_o entire_a for_o whither_o flee_v they_o when_o they_o flee_v from_o before_o thy_o face_n or_o where_o be_v they_o not_o discover_v by_o thou_o they_o flee_v only_o 4.16_o gen._n 4.16_o *_o that_o themselves_o may_v not_o see_v thou_o when_o see_v they_o and_o may_v yet_o blindfold_a still_o run_v against_o thou_o who_o never_o departe_v from_o any_o of_o the_o thing_n make_v by_o thou_o *_o that_o they_o be_v unjust_a may_v run_v against_o thou_o and_o so_o be_v just_o hurt_v by_o thou_o withdraw_v from_o thy_o lenity_n and_o softness_n and_o so_o dash_v against_o thy_o uprightness_n and_o fall_v upon_o thy_o sharpness_n ignorant_a that_o thou_o who_o be_v circumscribe_v by_o no_o place_n be_v yet_o in_o every_o place_n and_o the_o only_o he_o that_o be_v present_a to_o those_o who_o be_v far_o from_o thou_o let_v they_o then_o return_v and_o let_v they_o seek_v thou_o because_o though_o they_o have_v leave_v thou_o their_o creator_n yet_o have_v not_o thou_o leave_v thy_o creature_n let_v they_o then_o return_v only_o and_o seek_v thou_o and_o lo_o thou_o be_v present_a in_o their_o heart_n in_o the_o heart_n of_o all_o those_o who_o make_v confession_n unto_o thou_o and_o cast_v themselves_o upon_o thou_o and_o in_o thy_o bosom_n deplore_v their_o former_a vexatious_a deviation_n and_o then_o how_o will_v thou_o indulgent_a wipe_v off_o again_o such_o tear_n from_o their_o eye_n and_o this_o wipe_v also_o provoke_v more_o tear_n and_o make_v they_o to_o joy_n in_o these_o sorrowing_n because_o thou_o o_o lord_n and_o not_o man_n flesh_n and_o blood_n but_o thou_o o_o lord_n that_o creat_v they_o do_v thus_o recreate_v and_o comfort_v they_o where_o be_v i_o then_o when_o i_o seek_v for_o thou_o for_o thou_o be_v just_a before_o i_o but_o i_o be_v stray_v from_o myself_o and_o not_o able_a to_o find_v myself_o much_o less_o can_v i_o find_v thou_o chap._n iii_o the_o passage_n of_o the_o 29_o year_n of_o his_o age_n the_o come_n of_o faustus_n a_o eloquent_a manichean_a bishop_n to_o carthage_n the_o philosopher_n tenant_n in_o the_o science_n find_v much_o more_o probable_a than_o the_o manichean_o i_o will_v now_o recount_v before_o my_o god_n the_o story_n of_o the_o tweny-ninth_a year_n of_o my_o age_n there_o be_v then_o come_v to_o carâ—haâ—e_v a_o mani_n hâ—an_n bishop_n call_v faustus_n a_o great_a snare_n of_o the_o devil_n be_v and_o many_o be_v catch_v by_o the_o sweet_a bait_n of_o his_o smooth_a tongue_n which_o though_o i_o also_o much_o rellish_v in_o he_o yet_o can_v i_o well_o distinguish_v it_o from_o the_o verity_n of_o the_o thing_n which_o i_o desire_v to_o learn_v of_o he_o examine_v only_o what_o nourish_v provision_n of_o science_n he_o set_v before_o i_o and_o not_o in_o how_o rich_a a_o dish_n of_o language_n he_o serve_v it_o up_o for_o fame_n have_v before_o report_v he_o most_o know_v in_o all_o excellent_a learning_n and_o exquisite_o skill_v in_o the_o liberal_a arts._n and_o i_o have_v read_v former_o and_o still_o retain_v in_o memory_n much_o of_o the_o philosopher_n tenant_n begin_v to_o compare_v those_o with_o these_o long_a fable_n
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that_o i_o shall_v enter_v into_o it_o and_o extol_v it_o to_o the_o heaven_n unto_o i_o and_o thither_o i_o need_v not_o go_v either_o in_o ship_n or_o in_o coach_n or_o on_o my_o foot_n no_o not_o so_o far_o as_o i_o go_v from_o the_o house_n to_o this_o seat_n in_o the_o garden_n for_o not_o only_o to_o go_v but_o to_o come_v to_o the_o end_n of_o such_o a_o journey_n be_v nothing_o else_o but_o only_o to_o consent_v and_o to_o be_v willing_a to_o go_v that_o be_v to_o be_v resolute_o and_o entire_o willing_a and_o not_o to_o turn_v and_o toss_v a_o will_n maim_v one_o half_a of_o it_o sometime_o on_o one_o side_n and_o sometime_o on_o another_o in_o one_o part_n raise_v itself_o up_o and_o struggle_v with_o another_o part_n that_o hang_v down_o and_o yet_o how_o many_o thing_n in_o these_o conflict_n of_o my_o linger_a will_n do_v i_o effect_v as_o i_o please_v in_o my_o body_n which_o yet_o those_o who_o will_v always_o can_v do_v as_o if_o perchance_o they_o have_v not_o such_o member_n or_o theâ—e_n be_v tie_v with_o band_n or_o dissolve_v with_o sickness_n or_o some_o other_o way_n restrain_v for_o example_n if_o then_o i_o tear_v off_o my_o hair_n or_o smite_v my_o forehead_n or_o clasp_v my_o hand_n about_o my_o knee_n as_o soon_o as_o i_o please_v present_o i_o do_v it_o yet_o be_v it_o possible_a in_o all_o these_o to_o have_v will_v they_o and_o not_o have_v do_v they_o if_o the_o unpliantness_n of_o my_o joint_n can_v not_o serve_v my_o purpose_n so_o many_o thing_n therefore_o do_v i_o then_o where_o to_o will_v they_o only_o be_v not_o to_o do_v they_o and_o yet_o do_v i_o not_o that_o which_o incomparable_o more_o content_v i_o and_o which_o as_o soon_o as_o i_o will_v i_o may_v do_v because_o as_o soon_o as_o i_o will_v i_o may_v will_v it_o for_o here_o the_o ability_n be_v the_o same_o that_o the_o will_n and_o to_o will_v only_o be_v to_o do_v it_o and_o yet_o it_o be_v not_o do_v and_o the_o body_n yield_v a_o more_o easy_a obedience_n to_o the_o small_a willing_a of_o the_o soul_n to_o bend_v its_o limb_n according_a to_o the_o other_o beck_n than_o the_o soul_n itself_o do_v to_o itself_o and_o that_o for_o its_o great_a joy_n and_o pleasure_n and_o this_o to_o be_v perfect_v and_o accomplish_v only_o by_o will_v it_o chap._n ix_o the_o fierce_a combat_n there_o between_o the_o flesh_n and_o the_o spirit_n and_o his_o sad_a complaint_n of_o the_o great_a difficulty_n the_o will_n have_v to_o command_v itself_o when_o it_o so_o easy_o command_v the_o other_o member_n from_o whence_o such_o a_o monster_n and_o how_o can_v this_o be_v let_v thy_o mercy_n enlighten_v i_o and_o let_v i_o inquire_v if_o perhaps_o in_o these_o great_a secrecy_n of_o man_n punishment_n for_o sin_n and_o the_o most_o obscure_a judgement_n of_o the_o son_n of_o adam_n any_o thing_n may_v appear_v that_o may_v afford_v i_o some_o answer_n whence_o such_o a_o monster_n and_o how_o can_v this_o be_v the_o mind_n command_v the_o body_n and_o be_v present_o obey_v the_o mind_n command_v itself_o and_o be_v oppose_v the_o mind_n command_v the_o motion_n of_o the_o hand_n and_o so_o speedy_o be_v it_o execute_v as_o the_o obedience_n be_v scarce_o distinguishable_a from_o the_o command_n and_o yet_o the_o mind_n be_v a_o spirit_n and_o the_o hand_n a_o body_n the_o same_o mind_n command_v the_o mind_n to_o will_v a_o thing_n the_o very_a same_o essence_n with_o it_o and_o yet_o it_o do_v it_o not_o whence_o such_o a_o monster_n and_o how_o can_v this_o be_v it_o command_v i_o say_v that_o it_o shall_v will_v a_o thing_n which_o can_v not_o command_v it_o unless_o it_o will_v it_o first_o and_o yet_o that_o be_v not_o do_v which_o it_o command_v indeed_o it_o be_v not_o whole_o willing_a therefore_o neither_o do_v it_o whole_o command_v for_o only_o so_o far_o it_o command_v as_o it_o will_v and_o so_o far_o what_o it_o command_v be_v not_o do_v as_o it_o will_v not_o that_o it_o shall_v be_v do_v because_o the_o will_n command_v that_o there_o shall_v be_v a_o willing_a and_o nothing_o else_o command_v this_o but_o only_o itself_o upon_o itself_o therefore_o it_o do_v not_o whole_o command_v it_o and_o therefore_o that_o which_o it_o command_v that_o it_o may_v be_v be_v such_o a_o thing_n as_o be_v not_o already_o for_o if_o the_o will_n be_v already_o whole_o incline_v to_o such_o a_o thing_n it_o will_v not_o command_v that_o such_o inclination_n shall_v be_v because_o it_o be_v already_o both_o to_o will_v and_o yet_o to_o will_z in_o part_n therefore_o be_v no_o monster_n but_o a_o sickness_n and_o infirmity_n of_o the_o mind_n which_o can_v entire_o arise_v when_o lift_v up_o by_o the_o truth_n because_o it_o be_v counterpoise_v by_o vicious_a custom_n and_o therefore_o only_o there_o be_v two_o willing_n because_o one_o of_o they_o be_v not_o total_a and_o so_o what_o be_v want_v to_o the_o one_o make_v up_o and_o fortify_v the_o other_o chap._n x._o let_v they_o perish_v from_o before_o thy_o face_n o_o god_n as_o the_o speaker_n of_o lie_n and_o impostor_n do_v perish_v who_o when_o they_o observe_v in_o our_o deliberate_v two_o will_n do_v affirm_v two_o distinct_a mind_n in_o we_o of_o a_o different_a nature_n the_o one_o good_a and_o the_o other_o bad_a for_o when_o i_o thus_o deliberate_v at_o last_o to_o enter_v upon_o the_o service_n of_o my_o lord_n god_n as_o i_o have_v long_o design_v iâ—_n be_v i_o that_o will_v and_o i_o also_o that_o nill_v it_o it_o be_v the_o â—â—me_n i_o who_o as_o yet_o neither_o full_o will_v nor_o full_o nill_v it_o and_o therefore_o be_v in_o contention_n with_o myself_o and_o divide_v and_o rend_v from_o myself_o and_o this_o rent_n in_o i_o indeed_o be_v make_v against_o my_o will_n yet_o it_o signify_v not_o in_o i_o the_o inhabitancy_n of_o some_o foreign_a mind_n but_o the_o punishment_n of_o my_o own_o and_o therefore_o it_o be_v no_o more_o i_o that_o wrought_v this_o distraction_n but_o sin_n that_o dwell_v in_o i_o from_o the_o punishment_n of_o that_o first_o more_o freely-committed_n offence_n inasmuch_o as_o i_o be_o a_o son_n of_o adam_n and_o certain_o if_o there_o be_v so_o many_o contrary_a nature_n in_o we_o as_o there_o be_v in_o we_o contrary_a desire_n there_o will_v not_o be_v two_o principle_n only_o one_o of_o our_o good_a inclination_n the_o other_o of_o our_o bad_a but_o must_v be_v many_o also_o of_o the_o bad_a and_o many_o of_o the_o good_a since_o we_o have_v many_o will_n and_o desire_n oppose_v and_o hinder_v one_o another_o and_o yet_o all_o of_o they_o bad_a and_o many_o repugn_v also_o one_o to_o another_o yet_o
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holy_a pleasure_n which_o thy_o charity_n and_o thy_o mercy_n have_v bestow_v upon_o i_o take_v pity_n upon_o my_o poverty_n chap._n xxv_o but_o where_o be_v thou_o resident_a in_o my_o memory_n thou_o the_o lord_n what_o lodging_n have_v thou_o make_v there_o for_o thou_o what_o sanctuary_n have_v thou_o build_v i_o pass_v by_o the_o low_a part_n thereof_o common_a with_o beast_n because_o in_o my_o remember_v thou_o i_o find_v thou_o not_o there_o among_o the_o image_n of_o corporeal_a thing_n and_o i_o come_v to_o the_o part_n thereof_o where_o be_v store_v the_o affection_n of_o my_o soul_n neither_o yet_o there_o find_v i_o thou_o and_o i_o have_v enter_v into_o the_o very_a seat_n and_o lodging_n of_o my_o mind_n itself_o which_o seat_n also_o be_v there_o in_o my_o memory_n because_o the_o mind_n remember_v also_o its_o self_n and_o neither_o waist_n thou_o there_o for_o as_o thou_o be_v no_o image_n of_o a_o body_n nor_o no_o affection_n of_o the_o mind_n so_o neither_o be_v 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thou_o the_o truth_n art_n in_o every_o place_n present_a and_z giving_z audience_n to_o all_o consult_v thou_o and_o at_o the_o same_o time_n thou_o give_v answer_v unto_o all_o consult_v thou_o thing_n never_o so_o many_o or_o diverse_a and_o clear_o thou_o answer_v unto_o all_o but_o all_o do_v not_o clear_o hear_v thou_o all_o consult_v thou_o about_o what_o they_o please_v but_o not_o always_o hear_v from_o thou_o what_o please_v they_o and_o among_o they_o he_o be_v thy_o best_a servant_n who_o desire_v not_o so_o much_o to_o hear_v from_o thou_o what_o shall_v be_v conformable_a to_o his_o will_n but_o rather_o to_o conform_v his_o will_n to_o whatever_o he_o shall_v hear_v from_o thou_o chap._n xxvii_o that_o though_o he_o now_o true_o love_v god_n abstract_v from_o and_o far_o above_o all_o other_o creature_n and_o olso_o above_o himself_o too_o too_o late_o have_v i_o find_v and_o begin_v to_o love_v thou_o o_o beauty_n so_o ancient_a and_o yet_o so_o new_a too_o too_o late_o 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it_o yet_o he_o will_v choose_v there_o be_v no_o such_o thing_n for_o he_o to_o suffer_v in_o adversity_n i_o long_o for_o prosperity_n in_o prosperity_n i_o apprehend_v and_o dread_a adversity_n and_o what_o middle_a station_n can_v there_o be_v find_v between_o these_o two_o where_o this_o life_n may_v not_o be_v a_o temptation_n to_o we_o there_o be_v a_o woe_n to_o the_o prosperity_n of_o this_o world_n once_o and_o again_o 1._o for_o the_o many_o fear_n in_o they_o of_o adversity_n 2._o and_o for_o the_o many_o miscarriage_n and_o misbehaviour_n in_o they_o of_o our_o joy_n and_o there_o be_v a_o woe_n to_o the_o adversity_n of_o this_o world_n once_o again_o and_o a_o three_o time_n 1._o from_o the_o impatient_a longing_n we_o have_v in_o they_o after_o miss_v prosperity_n 2._o from_o the_o pain_n and_o suffering_n of_o the_o adversity_n itself_o 3._o and_o from_o the_o frequent_a shipwreck_n therein_o of_o patience_n be_v not_o man_n life_n therefore_o upon_o earth_n a_o 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those_o false_a vision_n persuade_v i_o when_o a_o sleep_n to_o what_o true_a sight_n when_o awake_a can_v no_o way_n entice_v i_o and_o be_v it_o not_o then_o also_o the_o same_o i_o o_o lord_n my_o god_n and_o yet_o so_o much_o difference_n there_o be_v between_o myself_o and_o myself_o in_o such_o a_o moment_n of_o time_n when_o resign_v up_o to_o sleep_v and_o when_o return_v to_o vigilancy_n where_o then_o be_v my_o reason_n by_o which_o when_o awake_a my_o mind_n resist_v any_o such_o suggestion_n and_o though_o the_o thing_n themselves_o present_v themselves_o before_o i_o remain_v unshaken_a be_v it_o then_o clasp_v up_o with_o my_o eye_n be_v it_o lull_v asleep_a with_o my_o corporeal_a sense_n and_o whence_o then_o in_o our_o sleep_n also_o do_v we_o many_o time_n resist_v and_o remember_v our_o former_a resolution_n and_o chaste_o persevere_v therein_o yield_v no_o assent_n to_o such_o lustful_a allurement_n and_o yet_o when_o in_o sleep_v it_o happen_v otherwise_o this_o 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which_o both_o my_o interior_a and_o exterior_a then_o shall_v enjoy_v with_o thou_o when_o death_n shall_v be_v swallow_v up_o in_o victory_n chap._n xxxi_o 2._o his_o remain_a infirmity_n concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o taste_n in_o eat_v and_o drink_v there_o be_v another_o evil_n of_o the_o day_n 9.27_o day_n beside_o the_o former_a night_n evil_a mat._n 6.34_o 1_o cor._n 6.13_o 1_o cor._n 15_o 53._o 1_o cor._n 9.27_o and_o i_o wish_v the_o day_n be_v sufficient_a for_o it_o for_o here_o we_o must_v by_o eat_v and_o drink_v repair_v the_o daily_a ruin_n of_o the_o body_n until_o the_o time_n thou_o shall_v destroy_v both_o the_o meat_n and_o the_o belly_n and_o shall_v slay_v this_o my_o indigency_n with_o a_o miraculous_a satiety_n and_o shall_v clothe_v this_o corruptible_a with_o a_o eternal_a incorruption_n but_o now_o this_o my_o necessity_n be_v very_o pleasant_a and_o sweet_a unto_o i_o and_o against_o this_o sweetness_n i_o now_o fight_v that_o i_o may_v not_o be_v 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the_o trouble_n of_o emptiness_n to_o the_o rest_n of_o fullness_n my_o concupiscence_n lay_v a_o snare_n for_o i_o for_o this_o passage_n itself_o be_v a_o pleasure_n nor_o be_v there_o any_o other_o way_n to_o pass_v to_o it_o but_o this_o to_o which_o necessity_n force_v i_o and_o thus_o whereas_o health_n only_o be_v the_o true_a cause_n of_o eat_v and_o drink_v yet_o there_o accompany_v it_o as_o its_o handmaid_n a_o perilous_a jucundity_n and_o gust_n which_o most_o what_o endeavour_v also_o to_o step_v before_o it_o that_o for_o its_o sake_n i_o shall_v do_v what_o i_o pretend_v or_o also_o desire_v to_o do_v only_o for_o health_n sake_n nor_o be_v both_o of_o these_o content_n with_o the_o same_o allowance_n that_o which_o be_v sufficient_a for_o health_n be_v too_o little_a for_o delight_n and_o many_o time_n it_o become_v uncertain_a whether_o it_o be_v the_o necessary_a care_n of_o my_o body_n that_o require_v such_o a_o supply_n or_o the_o voluptuous_a deceit_n of_o my_o 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pleasure_n i_o have_v hear_v also_o that_o speech_n from_o thy_o bounty_n with_o which_o i_o be_o much_o take_v neither_o if_o we_o eat_v shall_v we_o abound_v neither_o if_o we_o eat_v not_o shall_v we_o lack_v that_o be_v neither_o will_v the_o one_o render_v i_o plentiful_a nor_o the_o other_o deficient_a another_o voice_n i_o have_v hear_v for_o i_o have_v learn_v in_o whatsoever_o state_n i_o be_o therewith_o to_o be_v content_a 4.11_o phil._n 4.11_o i_o know_v both_o how_o to_o abound_v and_o how_o to_o suffer_v need_n through_o christ_n that_o strengthen_v i_o i_o can_v do_v all_o thing_n 15.32_o psal_n 103.14_o gen._n 3._o luke_n 15.32_o see_v here_o a_o soldier_n of_o the_o celestial_a host_n and_o not_o such_o earth_n and_o dust_n as_o we_o be_v but_o remember_v thou_o o_o lord_n that_o we_o be_v but_o dust_n and_o that_o of_o the_o dust_n thou_o make_v man_n and_o he_o be_v lose_v but_o be_v find_v neither_o be_v this_o man_n able_a of_o himself_o to_o do_v such_o thing_n because_o he_o be_v the_o same_o dust_n who_o by_o thy_o inspiration_n say_v such_o thing_n i_o do_v so_o dear_o affect_v but_o i_o say_v he_o can_v do_v all_o thing_n through_o he_o who_o strengthenâ—h_v i_o strengthen_v thou_o i_o also_o that_o i_o may_v be_v able_a give_v what_o thou_o command_v and_o command_v what_o thou_o please_v he_o also_o confess_v 6._o 1_o cor._n 4._o â—_o 1_o cor._n 1_o 31._o eccles_n 23_o 5_o 6._o that_o he_o have_v receive_v it_o and_o what_o he_o glorifi_v oâ—â—e_n glorifi_v of_o in_o the_o lord_n another_z i_o have_v hear_v ask_v of_o thou_o that_o he_o may_v receive_v take_v thou_o fâ—om_v i_o say_v hâ—_n the_o greediness_n of_o the_o belly_n whence_o it_o appear_v my_o holy_a god_n that_o thou_o give_v when_o it_o be_v do_v what_o thou_o command_v to_o be_v do_v thou_o have_v teach_v i_o also_o 14.3_o rom._n 14.20_o 1_o tim._n 4.4_o 1_o cor._n 8.8_o col._n 2.16_o rom._n 14.3_o good_a â—aâ—her_n unto_o the_o pure_a that_o all_o thing_n be_v pure_a but_o that_o it_o be_v evil_a to_o the_o man_n who_o eat_v with_o offence_n and_o that_o every_o creature_n of_o thou_o be_v good_a and_o nothing_o to_o be_v refuse_v which_o be_v receive_v with_o thanks_o give_v and_o that_o meat_n commend_v we_o not_o to_o god_n and_o that_o not_o man_n may_v judge_v we_o in_o meat_n or_o in_o drink_n and_o that_o he_o which_o eat_v let_v he_o not_o despise_v he_o that_o eat_v not_o and_o let_v noâ—_n he_o that_o eat_v not_o judge_v he_o that_o eat_v these_o thing_n i_o have_v learn_v thanks_n be_v to_o thou_o praise_n to_o thou_o my_o god_n my_o master_n knocking-at_a my_o ear_n enlighten_v my_o heart_n deliver_v thou_o i_o from_o all_o temptation_n the_o uncleanness_n of_o the_o meat_n i_o do_v not_o dread_a but_o the_o uncleanness_n of_o lust_a i_o know_v that_o noah_n be_v permit_v all_o manner_n of_o flesh_n good_a for_o food_n 11.4_o gen._n 9.3_o 1_o kin._n 17.6_o mat._n 3.4_o gen._n 25._o 1_o chro_fw-la 11_o mat._n 4.3_o num._n 11.4_o that_o elias_n hunger_a in_o the_o desert_n be_v feed_v with_o flesh-meat_n that_o john_n the_o baptist_n a_o man_n endue_v with_o a_o miraculous_a abstinence_n receive_v no_o pollution_n from_o live_a creature_n 1._o locust_n make_v his_o food_n and_o on_o the_o otherside_n i_o know_v that_o esau_n be_v deceive_v by_o the_o lust_n of_o a_o few_o lentile_n and_o david_n censure_v by_o himself_o for_o the_o desire_n of_o a_o draught_n of_o water_n and_o that_o our_o king_n be_v tempt_v not_o in_o a_o matter_n of_o flesh_n but_o of_o bread_n only_o and_o therefore_o also_o the_o people_n in_o the_o wilderness_n not_o simple_o because_o they_o desire_v flesh_n but_o because_o in_o the_o desire_n thereof_o they_o murmur_v against_o the_o lord_n deserve_v to_o be_v reject_v i_o therefore_o place_v among_o the_o same_o temptation_n be_o strive_v every_o day_n against_o this_o concupiscence_n in_o eat_v and_o in_o drink_v for_o it_o be_v no_o such_o thing_n which_o i_o can_v resolve_v to_o cut_v 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and_o perfume_n from_o the_o allurement_n of_o sweet_a smell_n i_o suffer_v no_o great_a trouble_n when_o absent_a i_o do_v not_o miss_v they_o when_o present_a not_o refuse_v they_o and_o be_o willing_a for_o ever_o to_o be_v without_o they_o thus_o i_o appear_v to_o myself_o but_o perhaps_o mistake_v for_o much_o to_o be_v lament_v be_v the_o darkness_n wherein_o my_o very_a ability_n and_o faculty_n which_o be_v within_o i_o lie_v obscure_v and_o hide_a from_o i_o so_o that_o my_o own_o mind_n when_o question_v itself_o concern_v its_o own_o strength_n know_v not_o well_o how_o to_o believe_v itself_o because_o much_o within_o it_o lie_v secret_a and_o conceal_v from_o it_o till_o
temptation_n of_o the_o eye_n abroad_o dote_v on_o what_o they_o have_v make_v within_o desert_v he_o by_o who_o they_o be_v make_v and_o deface_v that_o which_o they_o be_v make_v but_o i_o o_o my_o god_n and_o my_o glory_n concern_v all_o these_o do_v now_o sing_v a_o hymn_n and_o do_v sacrifice_n praise_v to_o thou_o my_o sanctifier_n for_o all_o these_o beautiful_a piece_n of_o art_n which_o be_v transfer_v first_o from_o a_o idea_n in_o the_o soul_n into_o the_o work_n of_o a_o skilful_a hand_n be_v derive_v original_o from_o that_o beauty_n *_o which_o be_v above_o the_o soul_n and_o *_o after_o which_o my_o soul_n languish_v day_n and_o night_n and_o the_o drawer_n and_o admirer_n of_o these_o exterior_a beauty_n do_v learn_v from_o the_o first_o beauty_n a_o worthy_a estimation_n of_o they_o but_o learn_v not_o from_o it_o a_o right_a use_n of_o they_o and_o there_o also_o the_o true_a beauty_n be_v and_o they_o see_v it_o not_o that_o they_o shall_v seek_v no_o further_o 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i_o also_o plead_v my_o ignorance_n and_o uncertainty_n for_o this_o or_o shall_v i_o endeavour_v here_o also_o to_o delude_v myself_o and_o nor_o confess_v the_o truth_n before_o thou_o both_o in_o heart_n and_o tongue_n lord_n such_o a_o folly_n put_v thou_o far_o from_o i_o and_o let_v not_o my_o own_o mouth_n go_v about_o to_o anoint_v and_o perfume_v my_o head_n with_o the_o flatter_a oil_n of_o sinner_n i_o be_o poor_a and_o needy_a and_o the_o best_a when_o with_o secret_a lament_n displease_v myself_o and_o invocate_a thy_o mercy_n until_o these_o my_o deficiency_n be_v repair_v and_o perfect_v into_o a_o full_a repose_n and_o peace_n a_o peace_n hide_v from_o the_o eye_n of_o the_o arrogant_a and_o self-conceited_a chap._n xxxviii_o â–³_o incur_v also_o from_o the_o contemn_v of_o praise_n as_o this_o also_o be_v a_o thing_n praiseworthy_a chief_z speech_n that_o be_v eloquent_a and_o good_a action_n that_o be_v public_a and_o eminent_a cause_n in_o we_o a_o most_o perilous_a temptation_n from_o this_o our_o love_n of_o praise_n which_o subtlety_n assay_v to_o procure_v the_o applause_n of_o other_o to_o the_o advance_n of_o my_o own_o private_a excellency_n even_o then_o also_o when_o such_o love_n of_o praise_n in_o i_o be_v censure_v by_o i_o and_o for_o that_o very_a reason_n because_o it_o be_v so_o censure_v and_o often_o do_v a_o man_n more_o vain_o glory_n of_o the_o very_a contempt_n of_o vainglory_n and_o therefore_o now_o in_o truth_n the_o contempt_n of_o vainglory_n be_v not_o gloryed-of_a by_o he_o for_o he_o utter_o contemn_v it_o not_o so_o long_o as_o within_o himself_o he_o retein_v still_o some_o glory_v chap._n thirty-nine_o incur_v also_o from_o self-love_n and_o self-conceit_n without_o regard_n to_o praise_v from_o other_o there_o be_v yet_o within_o we_o another_o disease_n in_o the_o same_o kind_n of_o temptation_n namely_o a_o vanity_n in_o man_n of_o self_n love_v and_o pleaâ—â—ng_v themselves_o in_o themselves_o *_o whether_o it_o happen_v that_o they_o please_v or_o that_o they_o displease_v abroad_o and*_n wherein_o they_o affect_v not_o the_o please_a of_o other_o but_o these_o man_n whilst_o thus_o please_v themselves_o much_o do_v they_o displease_v thou_o not_o only_o in_o glory_v in_o some_o thing_n not_o good_a as_o in_o good_a but_o also_o in_o thy_o good_a thing_n as_o if_o in_o their_o own_o or_o also_o in_o glory_v in_o they_o as_o thou_o but_o as_o confer_v on_o they_o for_o some_o merit_n of_o their_o own_o or_o also_o as_o in_o thou_o without_o any_o their_o merit_v but_o yet_o not_o sociable_o joy_v in_o they_o but_o as_o envy_v the_o same_o grace_n of_o thou_o to_o other_o in_o all_o these_o and_o the_o like_a peril_n and_o travel_n thou_o see_v the_o fear_n and_o tremble_n of_o my_o heart_n and_o i_o rather_o perceive_v such_o wound_n to_o be_v by_o thou_o continual_o cure_v within_o i_o than_o not_o to_o be_v at_o all_o receive_v chap._n xl._n a_o recapitulation_n of_o the_o thing_n 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innermost_a part_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o *_o to_n i_o know_v not_o what_o sweetness_n which_o be_v it_o once_o perfect_v in_o i_o i_o know_v not_o what_o bliss_n that_o be_v which_o such_o a_o life_n will_v not_o enjoy_v but_o then_o with_o certain_a cumbersome_a weight_n hang_v upon_o i_o i_o present_o be_o press_v down_o again_o to_o these_o thing_n below_o and_o be_o re-ingulfed_n and_o detain_v by_o former_a custom_n and_o much_o i_o bewail_v myself_o and_o yet_o much_o still_o i_o be_o detain_v so_o great_o have_v the_o burden_n of_o a_o bad_a custom_n overload_v i_o and_o in_o this_o estate_n i_o can_v abide_v still_o but_o will_v not_o and_o in_o the_o other_o i_o will_v willing_o abide_v but_o can_v both_o way_n very_o miserable_a chap._n xli_o and_o in_o this_o condition_n i_o proceed_v to_o consider_v the_o remain_a languor_n of_o my_o sin_n in_o a_o threefold_a concupiscence_n and_o have_v invoke_v the_o help_n of_o thy_o right_a hand_n to_o deliver_v i_o for_o i_o behold_v thy_o brightness_n with_o a_o sick_a and_o wound_a spirit_n and_o beat_v back_o and_o dazzle_v by_o it_o i_o say_v who_o can_v ever_o attain_v thither_o i_o be_o utter_o cast_v away_o from_o the_o sight_n of_o thy_o eye_n thou_o be_v the_o truth_n who_o preside_v above_o all_o thing_n and_o i_o out_o of_o my_o covetousness_n be_v not_o willing_a to_o loose_v thou_o but_o yet_o greedy_o desire_v also_o to_o possess_v what_o be_v a_o lie_n together_o with_o thou_o as_o no_o man_n desire_v so_o to_o speak_v lie_n as_o to_o be_v ignorant_a what_o be_v truth_n and_o therefore_o i_o lose_v thou_o because_o thou_o vouchsafe_v not_o to_o be_v enjoy_v together_o with_o a_o lie_n chap._n xlii_o his_o recourse_n for_o a_o remedy_n to_o all_o these_o his_o malady_n not_o *_o to_o evil_a angel_n or_o demon_n with_o the_o platonist_n or_o other_o practise_v evil_a art_n as_o mediator_n between_o god_n and_o man_n because_o sinner_n like_o man_n spirit_n like_o god_n and_o now_o who_o can_v i_o 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cor._n 11_o 14_o but_o the_o devil_n it_o be_v transform_v himself_o as_o a_o angel_n of_o light_n and_o this_o much_o allure_v proud_a flesh_n to_o repair_v unto_o he_o because_o he_o have_v no_o body_n of_o flesh_n for_o they_o be_v mortal_n and_o sinner_n and_o thou_o o_o lord_n with_o who_o they_o seek_v reconciliation_n be_v sinless_a and_o immmortal_a now_o the_o mediate_a person_n between_o god_n and_o man_n it_o be_v meet_v he_o shall_v have_v something_o like_a to_o god_n something_o like_o to_o man_n lest_z in_o both_o like_a to_o man_n he_o shall_v be_v at_o too_o great_a a_o distance_n from_o god_n or_o in_o both_o like_a to_o god_n he_o shall_v stand_v too_o remote_a from_o man_n therefore_o also_o this_o counterfeit_a mediator_n by_o who_o according_a to_o thy_o secret_a judgement_n our_o pride_n deserve_v to_o be_v delude_v have_v one_o thing_n common_a with_o man_n that_o be_v sin_n and_o will_v seem_v to_o have_v the_o other_o thing_n common_a with_o god_n whilst_o 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that_o thou_o shall_v learn_v such_o thing_n from_o i_o but_o only_o that_o i_o may_v the_o more_o excite_v my_o affection_n and_o love_n towards_o thou_o and_o they_o also_o who_o reaâ—_n these_o thing_n that_o we_o may_v all_o say_v together_o magnus_fw-la dominus_fw-la &_o lauâ—abilis_fw-la valde_fw-la great_a be_v the_o lord_n and_o great_o to_o be_v praise_v i_o have_v already_o say_v it_o and_o let_v i_o say_v it_o again_o out_o of_o my_o love_n of_o thy_o love_n to_o i_o it_o be_v that_o i_o do_v this_o as_o also_o we_o continue_v to_o pray_v nevertheless_o that_o the_o truth_n have_v say_v your_o heavenly_a father_n know_v what_o thing_n that_o have_v need_n of_o before_o you_o ask_v he_o 6.8_o mat._n 6.8_o we_o only_o publish_v the_o affection_n we_o have_v towards_o thou_o while_o we_o confess_v to_o theâ—_n our_o misery_n and_o thy_o mercy_n that_o thou_o may_v complete_v our_o freedom_n as_o thou_o have_v already_o begin_v it_o and_o that_o a_o length_n we_o may_v perfect_o cease_v to_o be_v miserable_a in_o ourselves_o and_o may_v arrive_v to_o beatitude_n in_o thou_o because_o thoâ—_n have_v gracious_o call_v we_o that_o we_o shall_v be_v poor_a in_o spirit_n and_o meek_a and_o mournful_a and_o hungry_a and_o thirsty_a after_o righteousness_n and_o merciful_a and_o pure_a in_o heart_n and_o peace_n maker_n see_v i_o have_v rehearse_v before_o thou_o a_o many_o thing_n such_o as_o i_o have_v ability_n and_o such_o as_o i_o have_v also_o a_o will_n to_o relate_v because_o thou_o first_o have_v so_o will_v that_o i_o shall_v confess_v unto_o thou_o 118.1_o psal_n 118.1_o the_o lord_n my_o god_n because_o that_o thou_o arâ—_n good_a and_o thy_o mercy_n endure_v for_o ever_o finis_fw-la
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first_o learning_n to_o read_v and_o write_v and_o cast_v up_o a_o account_n i_o think_v as_o afflict_v and_o vexatious_a as_o the_o greek_a and_o whence_o this_o also_o but_o from_o sin_n and_o the_o vanity_n of_o this_o life_n because_o i_o be_v flesh_n and_o a_o wind_n that_o pass_v away_o and_o come_v not_o again_o 78.39_o psal_n 78.39_o for_o that_o first_o learning_n be_v for_o the_o better_a because_o true_a and_o more_o certain_a which_o enrich_v i_o with_o a_o faculty_n necessary_a and_o as_o easy_o retain_v whereby_o i_o both_o read_v now_o what_o i_o find_v write_v and_o write_v myself_o what_o i_o have_v a_o mind_n than_o this_o other_o in_o which_o i_o learn_v and_o be_v enjoin_v to_o remember_v the_o error_n and_o wander_n of_o i_o know_v not_o what_o aeneas_n forgetful_a of_o my_o own_o error_n and_o shed_v tear_n for_o the_o death_n of_o one_o dido_n who_o kill_v herself_o for_o love_n when_o meanwhile_o i_o behold_v myself_o in_o these_o amorous_a toy_n perish_v from_o 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possess_v he_o who_o be_v not_o such_o a_o one_o as_o they_o commend_v and_o these_o thing_n i_o lament_v not_o but_o lament_v despair_v perish_v dido_n didonem_fw-la extinctam_fw-la ferroque_fw-la extrema_fw-la secutam_fw-la lib._n aeneid_n 6._o lib._n myself_o follow_v the_o same_o extremity_n even_o the_o low_a of_o thy_o creature_n and_o forsake_v thou_o earth_n tend_v towards_o earth_n and_o when_o i_o be_v forbid_v to_o read_v these_o thing_n i_o be_v grieve_v because_o i_o read_v not_o what_o may_v make_v i_o grieve_v and_o yet_o such_o foolery_n as_o this_o be_v account_v by_o i_o far_o more_o gentile_a and_o polite_a science_n â—han_o that_o whereby_o i_o learn_v to_o write_v and_o read_v but_o now_o let_v my_o god_n say_v unto_o my_o soul_n and_o let_v thy_o truth_n tell_v i_o it_o be_v otherwise_o and_o the_o former_a learning_n be_v far_o the_o better_a of_o the_o two_o for_o i_o shall_v soon_o and_o have_v rather_o forget_v aeneas_n his_o travel_n and_o all_o such_o like_a 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do_v the_o other_o for_o the_o hardness_n of_o attain_v a_o forreign-tongue_n do_v as_o it_o be_v oresprinkle_v with_o gall_n all_o the_o sweet_n of_o such_o fabulous_a story_n for_o i_o know_v not_o the_o word_n of_o that_o language_n and_o meanwhile_o be_v fright_v with_o cruel_a terror_n and_o torture_n to_o learn_v to_o know_v they_o it_o be_v true_a also_o that_o once_o in_o my_o infancy_n i_o understand_v no_o latin_a but_o this_o tongue_n i_o easy_o learn_v by_o observation_n only_o without_o fear_n or_o stripe_n amid_o the_o flatter_n of_o my_o nurse_n and_o the_o chat_n of_o my_o play-fellow_n and_o so_o i_o learn_v that_o tongue_n without_o the_o penal_a task_n of_o constraint_n my_o surcharge_a heart_n sufficient_o press_v i_o to_o a_o speedy_a delivery_n of_o its_o conception_n in_o the_o like_a expression_n which_o i_o learn_v not_o from_o those_o that_o teach_v but_o that_o talk_v with_o i_o in_o who_o ear_n i_o do_v also_o bring-forth_a whatever_o my_o mind_n 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prayer_n let_v my_o soul_n never_o faint_v under_o thy_o discipline_n nor_o grow-weary_a in_o confess_v thy_o mercy_n unto_o thou_o by_o which_o thou_o have_v draw_v i_o out_o of_o all_o my_o wicked_a way_n that_o thou_o thyself_o may_v become_v delicious_a unto_o i_o above_o all_o those_o charm_a seducement_n which_o i_o have_v heretofore_o pursue_v and_o that_o i_o may_v love_v thou_o entire_o and_o kiss_v thy_o deliver_v hand_n with_o all_o the_o bowel_n of_o my_o affection_n that_o thou_o may_v yet_o rescue_v i_o out_o of_o all_o temptation_n even_o to_o the_o end_n for_o behold_v o_o lord_n my_o king_n may_v it_o now_o be_v for_o thy_o service_n whatever_o useful_a thing_n my_o childhood_n have_v learn_v may_v it_o be_v for_o thy_o service_n that_o i_o speak_v write_v read_v account_n because_o in_o my_o learning_n vain_a thing_n thou_o do_v not_o cease_v to_o discipline_n i_o and_o after_o my_o delight_v in_o those_o vanity_n thou_o have_v forgive_v i_o my_o sin_n for_o i_o 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o_o my_o god_n when_o such_o man_n only_o be_v propose_v to_o my_o imitation_n who_o if_o they_o shall_v relate_v any_o of_o their_o action_n though_o not_o ill_a with_o any_o barbarism_n or_o solecism_n be_v censure_v for_o it_o be_v abash_v and_o confound_v but_o if_o they_o shall_v in_o a_o round_a and_o well-cohering_a stile_n fluent_o and_o neat_o express_v though_o one_o of_o their_o culpable_a lust_n be_v applaud_v for_o this_o become_v exalt_v with_o pride_n this_o thou_o see_v o_o lord_n and_o hold_v thy_o peace_n long-suffering_a and_o abundant_a in_o goodness_n and_o truth_n and_o will_v thou_o always_o hold_v thy_o peace_n no_o but_o thou_o draw_v out_o of_o this_o swallow_a deep_a the_o soul_n that_o seek_v after_o thou_o and_o thirst_v after_o thy_o chaste_a delight_n and_o who_o heart_n say_v unto_o thou_o i_o have_v seek_v thy_o face_n and_o lord_n thy_o face_n will_v i_o seek_v but_o 1.21_o ps_n 27.9_o vulg._n rom._n 1.21_o i_o then_o be_v depart_v far_o away_o from_o 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