in thy selfe art perfectly good and doest nothing but good yet to a sinner thou art grieuous thy goodnesse can doe no other then trouble and torment him not through any euill influence from thee but by reason of euill disposition in himselfe And therfore O gracious goodnesse O mercifull LORD O louer of mankinde not onely in pity pardon my weakenesse but in power remoue it that I may bee strong and able to enioy thy goodnesse that thy goodnesse be not greeuous vnto me LORD I resort vnto thee not only as to a Iudge for pardon but as to a Physitian for cure My weakenesse hath taken a deepe surfet of sinne and it is now growne to a desperate disease All the faculties of my soule are infected and the poyson is dispersed through all the members of my body I can feele no strength I can feele no quiet not onely my feeble parts but they that are most strong are troubled alike Haue mercy vpon mee and heale mee O GOD Haue mercy vpon my imperfection and heale my infection I humbly entreat thee Let thy mercie extend not only to pardon mee but to heale mee not onely to pardon my sinnes that are past but to make mee strong and able against sinnes heereafter For what good will pardon doe mee if presently I returne to my sinne againe What will it auaile that I bee washed if foorthwith I plunge my selfe in the mire LORD I present my selfe vnto thee in the lowest degree of humility and griefe my eies charged with teares my breast with sighes my tongue with complaints my whole bodie with disquiet Let thine indignation now cease looke vpon mee with a more calme countenance Helpe me vp and I will rise hold me vp and I will stand comfort and confirme my sin-oppressed sences Haue mercy vpon me and heale me giue me thy health and strength that vnder confidence of thy mercy I may boldly looke thy iustice in the face VERS III. My soule is also sore troubled but LORD how long wilt thou delay 1 THE torments of the soule how great they are 2 The effects of vnfayned contrition 3 A resort to GOD. 4 How offensiue sin is to GOD. 5 Wheâ—efore sinne is the cause of trouble 6 A prayer 7 The cause of GODS delay 8 The remedie AND yet the trouble of the bodie might bee borne well enough a mans courage may suffice to beare out any bodily griefe but who can beare the vexation of the soule The paine of the body is but the body of paine the sorrow of the soule is the soule of sorrow Now thy terrours haue also surprised my soule Not onely my body is cruelly crushed both with the sence of my sin and feare of thy wrath but my soule also is very grieuously afflicted with the one and affrighted with the other This soule which thou hast created to praise thee is astonished to behold thee astonished to thinke on thee this soule which is the breath of thy mouth is vnable to endure the breath of thy displeasure this soule which thou hast created to represent thy likenesse hath no liking no power to sustaine thy presence The loue thereof is extinguished with feare it hath neither roome nor respite to hope in thee In thee it dares not rest assured in any other thing it cannot For assuredly whensoeuer earnest and vnfained contrition seazeth vpon the soule it disturbeth all ioy it taketh away pleasure in any thing but teares it permitteth not to thinke on any thing but what is terrible And as they who are in danger of shipwracke cast ouer board their rich and best esteemed Merchandises to saue their liues so they who are tossed with the tempest of GODS anger to saue their soules doe not onelie abandon but hate those things which formerly were either most delightfull or deere vnto them Out alas how am I oppressed into what perplexities is my poore sorrow-beaten soule plunged how is it abandoned how are all the powers thereof laide waste The vnderstanding is darkened the will dazled the memory confounded the courage broken and beaten downe dread and amazement haue dulled my sences But aboue all my conscience is goared with the sting of sinne It anguisheth it lanceth it stretcheth it teareth it crucifieth the very heart of my soule It stirreth all vpside downe Verely I finde it to be very true That the heart of a sinner is as the raging sea which neuer hath rest The waues whereof are alwaies in motion and one alwaies dashing against another I leade a life euer dying and I feele a death neuer ending all my choice is concluded in this whether I will stand still without helpe or stirre any waies without hope And as a fearefull Doue shaketh at the roaring of thunder and shrinketh into some obscure hole supposing it self most safe when it is least seene so my amazed soule trembling at the dreadfull sound of thy threats looketh about for some place of retreit either to defend or to hide it from thy furious face It would flie from thee but it knoweth not whither it would be protected against thee but it knoweth not by whom O my GOD I cannot flie from thee but by flying to thee And therefore I flie from thee offended to thee appeased I flie from thee through the gate of thy iustice and I flie to thee thorow the gate of thy mercie I flie from a iust reuenging Iudge to a mercifull and indulgent father whose goodnes is infinite whose mercie is a spring a streame an Ocean that cannot be exhausted the goodnes no lesse liberall then the mercie is abundant O sweetnesse of desiâ—e O safetie of soules open to me thy distressed suppliant Let thy fauour receiue me running from thy furie Let thy pitie protect mee against thy seueritie comfort my troubled soule with one gentle cast of thy countenance for I shall neuer recouer againe either my safetie or my quiet vntill I recouer thy most louing and louely looke For sinne is so offensiue so odious vnto thee that wheresoeuer thou findest it thou canst not affoord a kinde countenance thou must needes turne away thine amiable eies thou wilt not displaie thy beautie vpon so filthie a dunghill And this is the cause why wee are so troubled For when thou turnest away thy face they shall be troubled Assuredlie the vexation of my soule can haue neither end nor ease vntill thou turnest to mee thy appeased countenance All other appliancies are as the handling of vlcers and wounds they doe but draw more humours to my sore they rather inflame then any waies asswage it But how long O LORD how long will thine indignation how long O LORD shall my anguish endure how long wilt thou with-hold thy comfort from me Thou who hast alwaies beene slowe to wrath art thou slow now to lay downe thy wrath Thou who hast euer beene patient art thou now become inflexible Is thine anger no lesse hard to quench now then heeretofore it hath beene
to kindle O desire of my soule thou knowest my tribulations my thoughts lie naked in thy sight thou seest how for thee my heart sorroweth my breast sigheth mine eie weepeth my body fainteth and my soule languisheth And wherfore tariest thou wherfore dost thou prolong my longing wherefore dost thou martyr me with delay VVhy sufferest thou me thus long to be vexed Is the cause heereof in thee or is it in my selfe Are thy mercies spent is thy louing kindnesse at an end wilt thou no more bee intreated by sinners or am I only cancelled out of thy conceit No no I doe not so feelinglie want thee I doe not so ardentlie desire thee as my case requires Verelie the cause is in my selfe and not in thee There is some trespasse in my teares my sorrow is seasoned with some sinne thou seest some cause for which I cannot see thee else wouldest thou not thus estrange thy selfe else thus thou wouldest not giue me ouer I am rather vnworthy to entertaine thee then thou vnwilling to come vnto mee VVell then I will still stir vp the coales of my dull deuotion I will heape on more fewell I will not cease blowing vntill it rise to a full and constant flame I will not entreat onely but I will importune thee I will wrestle with thee as Iacob did with the Angel I will not let thee goe vntill thou blesse me VERS IIII. Turne thee O LORD and deliuer my soule Oh saue me for thy mercies sake 1 A Prayer 2 The pleasures of this life how vnprofitable they are 3 The great distance betweene GOD and a sinner 4 How brought together 5 How grieuous it is to be separate from GOD. 6 An earnest desire of the soule after GOD. 7 The absence of GOD worse then his anger 8 How GOD is to be desired 9 What mooueth GOD to pitie and relieue 10 The great mercy of GOD. 11 To whom his mercy is properly due 12 Mercy to sinners is a due 13 GOD is most liberall and wherefore 14 How wee should desire GOD to turne to vs his face O Come mercifull LORD come and turne vpon me thy fauourable face come exercise vpon me the worke of mercie Regard me not as sinfull but as sorrowfull for my sin punish not my offences but pity the weaknesse from whence they proceed pity the distresse whereinto they haue cast me pitifullie regard my weakenesse and distresse For I feele my soule plunged in a vast sea of sinne I feele how fast it sinketh how violentlie it is swallowed I haue greedily grasped at the floating comforts of this life but I finde no stay in them I finde they rather pester then releeue me I finde them like a flash of lightning in a darke stormy night which serueth to shew the present infelicity and to increase the horror of ensuing darknesse And therefore doe I now streine out my voice and stretch foorth my hand vnto thee for helpe Gladlie would I turne to thee but I am not able for there is so great a distance betweene a sinner and thee that by his owne forces he cannot return and come neere thee Depart from thee and adhere to euill of our selues we may but we cannot forsake euill and turne to thee but by thy speciall power No man by his proper vertue is able to saue and consequently to iustifie himselfe thy grace must alwaies preuent him thou must first call him before he be able to cal vpon thee The beginning of our conuersion must be from thee from thy preuenting and inciting grace And therefore turne to me and then shall I be turned to thee Turne vnto me not by any change in thy selfe for thou art immutable but turne to me by thy goodnesse and grace and I will turne to thee by repentance and amendment of life Oh! how grieuous is it to bee separated and estranged from thee what good can comfort what euill will not annoy when thou art turned away Thou art the rock of my faint faith the anchor of my wauering hope the center of my languishing desire and loue In thee I trust vpon thee I relye I am so earnest in desiring thee that I neither desire nor almost thinke vpon any other thing But where art thou In what cloud doest thou hide thy selfe what meanest thou to suspend thy comfort so long to punish my desire so much with delay Wherefore hidest thou thy face and takest me for thine enemie Albeit thou art angrie with me yet would not I haue thee depart from me I had rather enioy thee angrie then not at all because thou art most extreamely angrie when thou turnest from vs. When thou art angrie and present then doest thou instruct vs then reforme vs but when thou turnest from vs then thou giuest vs ouer then thou leauest vs to innumerable and vnauoidable euils Albeit my friends forsake me albeit my enemies persecute me albeit all the societies of men and of Diuels tumult against mee yet doe not thou forsake me doe not thou depart from me For woe to them from whom thou departest But take heed O troubled soule and consider well what thou requirest of the LORD Art not thou a sinner a grieuous sinner is not GOD a searcher of sinnes a grieuous punisher of grieuous sinnes Doest thou not pray to him to turne away his face from thy sinnes Did not holy Iob say where shall I hide me from thy countenance because I haue sinned And wouldest thou haue him turne his face to thee being a most heynous sinner Yes yes I know well enough what I desire I know that GOD hath more faces then one He hath a face of Maiestie which no man can see and liue This face I cannot see He hath a face of iustice This face I would not see It is terrible to sinners this face is vpon them who doe euill to destroy their memoriall from the earth But hee hath another face of compassion and mercie And this face is like the Sunne exceeding full both of beautie and of vertue This face hee hideth from sinners This face I desire to be displayed vpon me be it neuer so cloudie neuer so angrie the anger of this face is to make sinners pure LORD make this face to shine vpon mee and be mercifull to mee LORD this face doe I seeke oh hide not thou thy face from mee nor cast away thy seruant in displeasure Come come gracious LORD with-hold no longer O water of life O shower of our saluation distill into mee one drop of thy dewe Seeing I am nothing without thee let me taste the benefit of being thine I desire thee and not thine for thy selfe not for thy gifts I desire thee onely not thee for any thing nothing for thee nothing with thee nothing beside thee Come deliuer my soule from the chaines of sinne wherewith I am bound to satisfie the rigour of thy iustice by eternall death and damnation Deliuer me from long custome
seeke for some mantle to veile thy obscene darkenesse For thou canst not with any conscience in case thou hast any approach into the presence of the LORD What expectest thou to be releeued by him Thinkest thou he will fauour thee Nay Is it possible that hee should forbeare thee Seest thou not that he also is set against thee That his hand is rigorous vpon thee And how can it be otherwise For GOD is iust a hard dealer a seuere exacter of accompts Looke into the examples of his iustice How he condemned his angels irreuocablie for one only sinne how for one only sinne not onlie Adam but all his posteritie and in a manner all creatures were cursed If thou conceiuest comfort by reason of some mercie which followed this iustice then compare this iustice and mercy together by the continuall course of their effects See how in all ages both the greatest and most flourishing parts of the world haue lien buried in infidelity See how in those few parts ouer which the light of trueth hath displaied her beames many millions haue bin blinded either by ignorance or by superstition and errour See how many yea how most of those who haue receiued true knowledge either by delicacie or other viciousnesse of life reape no benefit thereby So as it is apparantlie true that many are called and few are chosen that the way to saluation is so difficult and the gate so strait that it is passable for very few Few indeed For how many were in the whole world when it was ouerwhelmed with waters How many in Sodome and the cities adioining to it when they perished with fire How many among the chosen people of GOD when Elias could not espie one How many when they were often captiuated and finally ruined and dispersed Yea seest thou not the iustice of GOD to be so implacable that when flourishing nations are vtterly rooted out infants and innocents who haue not actually offended are swallowed in the common calamity for the offences of their progenitors Compare I say these effects of iustice and mercy together and thou shalt plainely finde that the first hath farre exceeded the last that there are many vessels of the one and few of the other Now if thou hopest to be one of those few then consult with thine owne conscience how cleare and vncorrupt thou findest thy actions how seuerely thou hast restrained thy euill inclinations how strongly how violently thou hast endeauoured to mainetaine a vertuous and religious life No no thou art none of those few who with perpetuall strong striuing shall wrestle through that narrow passage Thou hast beene vnconstant both in thy iudgement and in thy actions like a loose tooth not onely vselesse but troublesome and painefull Thou hast beene a slander to the Church and a staine to thy profession Thou hast beene a derision to the euill a shame and sorrow to the good an offensiue example to the weake The earth casteth thee vp heauen receiueth thee not GOD is displeased with thee and all creatures are bent to oppresse thee Goe to then abandon hope and yeeld thy selfe captiue to despaire Thou hast no other remedie against thy feares but to relinquish hope Cease to hope and feare will no longer torment thee for whosoeuer hopeth for no good he feareth no euill These words she doubled with a terrible voice and all the hoste cryed aloud Despaire and Die Woe is me I am vndone Alas wretch that I am Which way shall I turne mee Whither shall I flie What shall I doe I am assailed with feares by feares I am betrayed my enemies are within and without Who shall deliuer who shall defend me I am as a naked tree in a wide plaine beaten with many bitter stormes I am as drie open ground parched with the burning beames of the Sunne I can finde none to protect mee none to comfort mee and my owne strength and courage vtterly faileth Out alasse who so liueth in feare he is daily condemned daily vnder the executioners hand No man is assured whom an euill conscience holdeth in feare O! who is able to endure these confusions Who can either resist or rule the violence of these feares Thus whilest I was readie to haue yeelded my selfe to the tyrannie of despaire loe Faith from heauen did sodainly cast a glorious beame of her beautie vpon mee and with a sober sweetnesse began in this sort partly to reprooue and partly to instruct me What said she Art thou such a nouice in my Schoole such a faint and raw souldier in spirituall combate Hast thou no more dexteritie in handling thy weapons Come stand vp take courage I will teach thee both thy fence and thy fight Come I say and looke thy terrour in the face It seemeth a Serpent to deuoure thee but be not dismayed step boldly to it and take it by the taile and it will forthwith turne to a rod of correction What Art thou so much afraid of feare which is so highly commended which is so straitely commanded to thee God loueth feare Hee accepteth hee preserueth he honoureth hee blesseth he neuer forsaketh them that feare him Feare is the beginning of righteousnesse the first step to wisedome It bringeth with it iudgement and righteousnesse It expelleth sinnes It is the bridle of sinnes it is the sword that cutteth in sunder not onely the sinewes but the very hartstrings of sinne What deemest thou that GOD hath created hell fire onely to punish damned sinners and the Diuell No verily but rather to keepe sinners from damnation to raise them to repentance and to restraine them from sin For so much as a man feareth the punishment that he hath deserued so much more carefully wil he both repent and auoid those faults which he hath committed He that feareth ruine is neither easily nor often oppressed therewith They haue greatest cause of feare who feare least who walke in their owne wayes with a sober securitie who loosely and licentiously pursue vanities who are flintie hearted without trembling or touch of the threatnings of GOD who perseuere in sinne either boldly or sencelesly and then say What euill haue I done Let these feare It is fearefull for these to fall into the hands of the liuing GOD. Ouer the neckes of these hangs a terrible sword alwayes shaking alwayes bent and ready to strike the lesse they feare it the more sure the more sore and heauie will it fall These are obiects to GODS iustice and wrath these are abiects from his mercie and grace But repentant sinners who rise with feare and run with griefe to the LORD of mercie and say vnto him LORD be mercifull to me a sinner Let such bee confident For he who hath in mercie called them will assuredly in mercy receiue them They are not a few onely who haue beene receiued this is a false surmise of feare let heauen let earth let hell be searched and there shall not one
vertues and faculties of the soule are capable of greater pleasure then the outward partly because they are more noble and diuine and partly because their obiect is more excellent which is GOD himselfe and all goodnesse So the more perfect those powers and faculties are the more perfect pleasure they apprehend in their proper obiects which is euident by all outward and bodily sences But penitent persons whose sinnes are forgiuen haue the inward capacitie of their soules more perfect and cleere then other men Because nothing either defileth or defaceth the inward vertues of the soule but onely sinne neither is there any meanes to purge the one or repayre the other but by repentance Heerehence it followeth that penitents only enioy pure pleasure in this life as proceeding from the purest and highest faculties of the soule much cleansed by repentance from corruptions of sinne But the pleasures of the wicked proceede onely from the outward sences common to them with bruit beasts and so much inferiour to the pleasure of beasts by how much they participate of sinne It is true indeed that their sensuall appetites present to them a thousand pleasures but the reckoning being cast what pleasures are they pleasures tempered with vice which hold them still in a restlesse feauer pleasures sweet for a moment but leauing a long and loathsome taste behinde them pleasures onely to couer dangerous hookes pleasures which carry their punishments with them As for their inward vertues and powers they are so dulled and dimmed and sometimes stupefied and benummed with custome of sinne that they affoord no pleasure at all But either lie as sottishlie sencelesse or else expresâ—â— life only by vpbrayding the polluted pleasures of the flesh It cannot bee denied that many penitents are almost alwaies vnder correction that the scourge is almost alwaies vpon their backes but heerein also I esteeme them blessed For Blessed is the man who is chasticed of the LORD The reasons whereof are mainelie two First for that this correction proceedeth from the loue of GOD either as a gentle bridle to restraine them from licentiousnesse of sinne or as a forge hammer and file to consume the consuming rust of sin For as a man will file and scoure that instrument or vessell which he regardeth to make it bright as beat and brush that garment which he affecteth to make it cleane So GOD chastiseth that person whom he loueth either to purge or to preserue him from the soile of sin If GOD scourgeth the iust if hee debarreth if hee depriueth them of health riches honour or any other fauour of the world it is onely for loue vnto them It is to make them onely to loue him For GOD is a iealous GOD so loueth those that are his that he will not endure them to loue any thing but himselfe vnlesse it be for his sake GOD esteemeth not himselfe loued enough if the loue of any other thing be ioyned with the loue of him The sence of this loue of GOD doth so inflame their loue towards him as they become sencelesse of any worldly accidents or affaires The second reason is for that albeit they bee neuer so much chastised yet are they neuer forsaken but in the middest of their miseries mercy shall encompasse them They are neuer cast off neuer cast away but are alwayes guarded by the mercies of GOD the mercies of GOD wil defend them for the present and deliuer them in very good time For the present it doth enable them not onely willingly but ioifully and desirously to suffer the momentany afflictions of this life For the future it prepareth for them an eternall crowne of glory to which the short afflictions of this life are an ordinary and almost necessary passage The afflictions of this life are both naturally momentany and by grace light but the glory whereto they lead is both eternall and of exceeding weight As the grace of GOD maketh the afflictions of this life light so without that speciall grace the nature of man is altogether vnable either to beare or to behold the weight of glory which shall succeed We haue a naturall inclination to it but all our naturall abilities forces are insufficient either to attaine or to sustaine it O LORD of this eternall weight of glory Let me suffer corosiues cauterizes cuttings lancings and burnings in this life so that I be both comforted and defended by thy mercy so that I may bee prepared and guided to thy glory so that I may bee deliuered from the great plagues which the wicked shall endure The more bitter the potion is the more medicinable and healthfull will it be the more sharpe the file is the lesse rust will it leaue behind The more a garment be brushed and beaten with roddes the lesse it remaines defiled with dust VERS XII Be glad O ye righteous and reioyce in the LORD and be ioyfull all ye that are true of heart 1. TO whom it is proper to iudge of the pleasure of the righteous 2 A true Iudgement touching worldly pleasures 3 Pleasures of the soule dilated often to the body 4 They who haue the fauour of GOD haue GOD himselfe 5 Who are inuited to reioyce 6 For what causes 7 How gloriously the soules of them who loue GOD sort out of the miseries of this world 8 Who are forbidden to reioyce 9 The ioy of the wicked no true ioy and wherefore 10 The ioy of the righteous must not be placed in worldly matters and wherfore 11 But it must be lodged onely in GOD. 12 No limits to be prescribed to this ioy 13 Theologicall vertues consist not in a mediocritie like Morall vertues 14 The attaining worldly felicities is laboursome the enioying often loathsome 15 We cannot ioy in earthly and in heauenly things together 16 A short prayer 17 Feare and ioy how combined I Suppose there are not manie who haue not often tasted the ioy and pleasure of the soule after some measure of repentance but happily not sufficient to arrest a iust Iudgement of them For when two things are compared together the difference is best vnderstood by the iudgement of those who haue had best experience of both For as a sicke man whose palate is affected with vicious humours cannot well iudge of the taste and rellish of meates so wicked men whose mindes are infected with the poison of sinne cannot rightly iudge of the pleasure of the righteous This is proper to them whose soules haue a true taste not any wayes depraued Now many haue had good experience of the disposition and state of the soule both in fruition of the world and in a penitent life But let them say in which they tooke the greatest pleasure The first is tearmed by some a meere Vanitie by others no better then dunge All esteeme the felicities of this world not onely vaine but exceeding vile and base in regard of the ioyes which succeed and proceed from true repentance
bitte betweene their teeth binde their iawes with iron hookes lay the whippes of chastisement vpon their backes Tame their vnbrideled wantonnesse breake their obstinate either fury or dulnesse that by repentance they may turne vnto thee Deliuer mee from the innumerable insupportable plagues which thy Iustice hath addressed for the wicked partly in this life but most especially in the life to ensue And because I haue reposed my confidence in thee enuiron me with thy mercies that being free both from dangers and feares I may reioyce onely in thee and with purity and integritie of heart adore and prayse thee all the dayes of my life Prayse and Glory and Wisedome and Strength Dominion Riches and Power bee vnto our GOD for euermore PSALME C. XXX DAVIDS TEARES PSALME CXXX OVt of the deepe haue I called vnto thee O LORD LORD heare my voice 2 Oh let thine eares consider well the voyce of my complaint 3 If thou LORD wilt bee extreame to marke what is done amisse O LORD who may abide it 4 For there is mercy with thee therefore shalt thou be feared 5 I looked for the LORD my soule doeth wait for him in his word is my trust 6 My soule fleeth vnto the LORD before the morning watch I say before the morning watch 7 O Israel trust in the LORD for with the LORD there is mercy and with him is plenteous redemption 8 And hee shall redeeme Israel from all his sinnes Of the title and parts of this PSALME 1 THe title giuen to this Psalme is common to fifteene Psalmes together 2 Wherfore these fifteene Psalmes are entitled Psalmes of degrees 3 The most followed opinion 4 What was figured by the stepps of the Temple and consequently by these Psalmes of degrees 5 Many excellencies of this Psalme 6 The more deepe we are suncke into sinne the more forceably we must cry 7 The degrees or steps of a sinner falling and sincking from GOD. 8 This Psalme conteineth a plaine prophecy of the Messias 9 It is a Penitentiall Psalme and wherefore 10 The parts thereof THis Psalme is intitled a Psalme of degrees or of ascending A title not proper to this Psalme alone but common to fifteene together whereof the first is the 120. the last the 134. But wherefore they are termed Psalmes of degrees as writers doe much vary in their opinions so all agree that it is not much materiall to know for that it pertaineth not to any point of doctrine but to some ceremonie in singing them whatsoeuer it was Some are of opinioÌ„ that they are so entiled because the Leuits or Priests did sing them in some conspicuous place wherto the ascent was by steps or degrees Others that because they are very short they are compared to so many degrees Others that they tooke that name from the tunes wherwith they were appointed to be sung which might be in a kinde of graduall ascending Others that they serued to distinguish the parts of the diuine seruice vsed by the Iewes and to bring the same as it were by steps to an end But the most followed opinion is that they were so called â—ecause they were sung vpon the fifteen steps of the ascent to the Temple at such time as the high Priest entred the Sanctum Sanctorum Now because as Saint Paul saith all things happened to the Iewes in figures these steps of the Temple and consequently these Psalmes of degrees are a type and shadow of our ascending to the eternall Temple and habitation of GOD which is not by a start but by many degrees rising alwaies from one vertue to another vntill we arriue at the happy end of our hope euen to the vision of Almightie GOD. The same also was figured by the ascent to the glorious seat of Solomon which consisted of six steps or degrees And likewise by the ladder which the strong wrestler Iacob saw in a vision extending from earth to heauen which could not but consist of very many steps wherby we are giuen to vnderstand that no man can attaine this happy height no man can climbe the ladder at the top whereof the LORD doth stand but by degrees of many vertues whereof euery one hath many steps But hereof more shall be said vpon the sixt verse of this Psalme This is an excellent Psalm for any man who is charged with crosses and calamities of this life For it leadeth vs to the true cause of our calamities namely our sins And therby directeth vs to the true remedy by crying to GOD. Not vpon trust of any worthines or worth in our selues but vpon humble acknowledgement of our miserable weakenesse trusting only in the mercy of GOD whereof he hath made many liberall promises and in the vnmeasurable merits of our Redemption It further teacheth vs to expect the LORD patiently neuer to suspect him neuer to respect any other thing And albeit he deferre his reliefe yet we must still preferre our complaints and both earlie and earnestlie addresse our selues to him nothing doubting but that with him is mercy that his redemption is plenteous and largly sufficient for all our sins But the more deepe we are sunke in sin the more forceably must we cry euen as the more inueterate a disease is the more strong must be the medicine For assuredly as the righteous approaching daily to GOD aduance into heaueÌ„ by degrees so sinners falling from GOD since downward by degrees into many deepe dangers and the deeper he sincketh in sinne the deeper he diues into danger vntill at last he plung into the horrible pit of hell The first step of his deep falling is a deliberate consent to motiues of sinne Next ensueth his busie endeauour in searching time and opportunitie to accomplish the sinne And then it is time to cry vnto GOD. After this the act followeth and that requireth a greater crie Then frequencie of acts draweth into custome and the longer the custome hath beene the deeper is the descension albeit the sinner be not alwaies sensible thereof and the harder is he to bee raised againe euen as a beast lying in the mire although it seemeth to lie at ease yet the longer it lyeth the deeper it sinketh and the more hardly can it struggle foorth And therefore this degree cryeth for a vehement cry Now beneath this another followeth when the sinner reioyceth and boasteth of his sinne and then he is sunke exceeding deepe beyond the bounds of feare and of shame two strong reines against disordred desires When the Diuell hath gained this point of a sinner hee hath then brought him into a sad and sencelesse securitie he is then so farre from crying to GOD that scarce any cry will stirre him The next ensueth when the sinner will defend his sinne and endeauour to make others to be of his manner and whosoeuer falleth into this profunditie he falleth thereby into contempt He contemneth GOD he contemneth his own soule he contemneth al remedies he contemneth all meanes of his
iustice but helpe to inuoke thy mercies for me Assuredly O my soule the crie of thy complaint hath no greater obstacle then the cry of thy sinnes vntill by repentance the barre be remooued And therefore if thou wouldest haue the LORD to heare the voice of thy complaint first drowne thy sins with teares of repentance then cast away their dead carcasses from thee Away with all the trumperies of the world away with the vanities of pride auarice surfet reuenge away with all impediments of sinne For vnlesse thou abandon thy vanities thou shalt vainely implore the Omnipotent to heare thee He cannot heare a voice proceeding from a heart and lips loaden with iniquities he cannot be mercifull vnlesse thou repent Heare the condition whereupon thou maiest be heard Let the wicked forsake his wayes and the vngodly man his cogitations and turne to the LORD and he will haue mercy vpon him Why so thē fauorable LORD So now I here present my selfe before thee not proudly standing vpon my iustifications but with a sad broken spirit from a low deiected heart I humbly turne and breath forth my complaints before thee Hitherto my daies haue I vnprofitably wasted I haue hitherto spent my time in purposing but neuer beginning to pursue But now I turne and come vnto thee stooping and staggering vnder the importable fardage of my flesh euerie where I finde enemies I am grieuous to my selfe both within and without I haue many complaints to present to thee and now sue for a fauouble hearing Shut not thine eares neither hold them as indifferent but inclineable and fauourable to my petitions LORD I acknowledge to thee all my impurities and earnestlie entreate both thy comfort cure Behold how the necessitie of my miserable estate draweth sighes from my heart teares from my eies and complaints from my tongue Yeeld LORD a fauorable eare declare thy selfe so farre from dispising as attentiuely to listen to the voice of my complaint And albeit thou beest in the highest seat of glory and I in the lowest center of sinne yet be pleased to heare for no distance can hinder thy hearing who by thy goodnesse in all places art present The prayers of those who call vpon thee with their heart shall neuer resolue into winde by reason of any distance of place because thou art neere to all those who call vpon thee faithfully And if my sinnes still thrust themselues betweene thy hearing and my complaint If still they step forth to stop thy eares against my voice if they still make a hideous cry to awake thy iustice to quicken thy wrath to make my prayers not onlie vnacceptable but hatefull to thee chase them awhile with one glorious glance of thy eie close a little thy eie of iustice vntill I haue once againe confessed them to thee and presented to thy gentle hearing my petition for grace For I know rightwell that the petitions and confessions of penitent sinners vpon earth are no lesse pleasing and delightfull to thee then are the praises of thy blessed Angels in heauen VERS III. If thou LORD wilt bee extreame to marke what is done amisse O LORD who may abide it 1. GOD is in all places present and how 2 How after a singular manner hee is present 3 The cordes which hold vs captiue to Hell 4 A confession 5 The torments of Hell not sufficient to punish all our sinnes 6 GOD is not only a Father but a LORD and what kinde of LORD 7 The sinner addresseth himselfe to mercy 8 To the Father of mercy 9 All reasonable creatures may sinne and the reason why 10 Wherefore some Angels did not sinne 11 Wherefore all men are obnoxious to sinne 12 Wherefore man was redeemed rather then Angels 13 All men are sinners by nature 14 GODS court of mercy is higher then his court of Iustice. 15 Wherefore a sinner is sayd to be vnprofitable 16 Two wayes to attaine felicity 17 Our Sauiour onely hath gone the way of Iustice. 18 No man can passe but by the way of mercy 19 GOD delighteth to spare sinners 20 We are enioyned to imitate GOD in his mercy 21 The readiest way to attaine mercy 22 A petition for mercy HEauenly LORD Albeit my oppressed soule lieth buried in the deepe loathsome denne of sin yet is there no centre so deepe but thou mayest easily affoord thy hearing For thou fillest heauen and earth in all places thou art present not onely in regard of thy power but in regard of thy true and reall essence For wheresoeuer any thing is that hath a being there art thou also who art the cause of that being for the cause and the effect are necessarily together they doe necessarily cohere the cause doeth necessarily support the effect But after a more singular maner thou art present with those who pray vnto thee euen as the great Prophet Moses doeth in these words assure What nation is so great to whom the GODS come so neere as the LORD our GOD is neere vnto vs in whatsoeuer we call for to him What then shall I say now I am in so neere distance before thee Alasse I am come to speake for my selfe but I canne speake nothing but that which is against me If the holy Patriarch Abraham in speaking to thee did call to mind that hee was but dust and ashes If hee was so humble If hee bare such awfull reuerence to thy Maiestie when hee entreated for others what shall I poore miserable sinner doe when I am about to entreat for my selfe what Dust and Ashes Nay a bottomlesse depth of sinnes and of miseries to whom delight in sinne the power of the diuell and the violence of custome haue beene in stead of three cords or rather cables to hold mee captiue to hell O most high and powerfull Creator when I turne my eyes into my selfe when I make a priuie search in my owne conscience I finde the multitude and varietie of my sinnes to bee such that I esteeme my selfe vtterly vnworthy whom thou shouldest not onely helpe but heare because in comparison of my sinnes the miseries are nothing which I endure I haue so deepely offended thee that in reason I can expect no fauour from thee For what day what hower hath passed in all my life wherein I haue not deserued a world of torments Insomuch as albeit thou shouldest discharge vpon mee all the horrours of hell yet should the greatest part of my offences remaine vnpunished Thou hast spared mee but I haue not spared thee thou hast spared to strike mee with the sword of Iustice but I haue not spared to smite thee with the fist of iniquitie Thou hast shewed thy selfe a Father to mee but I haue not behaued my selfe as a child How shall I looke so good a Father in the face beeing so lewd a child as would disthrone and destroy that good Father if I could Suppose the Father will bee content to forgiue yet it is doubtfull that the LORD will not Hee that forbeareth
of all GODS for his mercy endureth for euer O thanke the LORD of all LORDS for his mercy enduâ—eth for euer whâ—ch onely doeth great wonders for his mercy endureth for euer c. Ps. 136. But take heed O my soule For reuerence of the dreadfull maiestie of GOD beware of two things whereof hope hath not forgotten to giue thee warning One is that thou expect mercy onely from the LORD for with him is mercy Trust not in any worthinesse in thy selfe who art a dunghill couered with snow a filthie vessell which corrupteth all liquors that are powred into it a barke set in the gustie sea of this world beaten with all stormes and incursions of weather Trust not in any trumperies of the world for no quiet can be expected from that which is alwaies in motion and change which is alwaies busied like the spider in making artificiall nets to take flies If thou pursuest the comforts of the world thou art one of those of whoÌ„ the Prophet Ieremie speaketh that they should serue strange gods who would not suffer theÌ„ to rest day nor night Assuredlie the conscience shall neuer find comfort nor rest but when altogether stripped of all other confidence it committeth it selfe naked to the mercy of GOD. The other is that hereby thou beest not imboldned to sinne but rather held in bridle by feare Vpon any condition be not bold to sinne because the mercy of GOD is readie to forgiue If therby thou beest imboldned thy transgressions are the greater Feare alwaies to offend such inuincible mercy feare the iustice which will punish the contempt of that mercie Feare to offend thy iudge feare to offend him who onely is able to pardon thy offence Prostrate thy selfe and liue in awe of â—hat maiestie in whose mercy thou hast placed thy hope respect him with dutie from whom thou expectest all thy good As thy desires are guided by hope so let them be followed with feare The more thou hopest feare the more both at one time and without measure in both Neither feare abating hope nor hope enfeebling feare But maugre all feare let thy hope mount to the highest pitch and maugre all hope let feare stoope to the lowest downe come If any other could forgiue sins then thou mightest happlyappeale to him and the more lightly esteeme the maiestie of GOD but because this iudiciary power resteth onely in GOD because he hath shut vp all within mercie thou must needes feare him and tremble to offend him If a souldier hath offended one captaine he may serue vnder the colours of another He who hath lost the fauour of his king may liue vnder protection of another euen as when the Gentiles conceiued that one of their gods was offended with them they endeauoured to reconcile the fauor of others But when thou shalt offend thy only omnipotent GOD to whom wilt thou resort for reliefe Who will not feare the king of nations who albeit he aboundeth with mercy yet is not he disarmed of iustice Albeit grace reigneth with him yet is not the law abolished Thou must liue in feare not to offend the Law but to trust to be saued only by mercie The Law must continue for a holy obedience to those who beleeue to be saued by mercy By this meanes hope is alwaies accompanied with feare hope apprehendeth mercie in the end feare bridleth offence in the passage to the end Of the righteousnesse of the Law nothing can follow but either despaire or presumption in the first whereof the deuill was plunged but the nature of man is most inclineable to the second feare is a temperature betweene them both To this vertue despaire is contrary on the one side and presumption on the other Despaire hath too much feare presumption too little take away both and feare will remaine accompanied with hope If thou fearest without hope thou sinckest into despaire and art like some miserable worldling who forsaking some part of his estate departeth with his life If thou hopest without feare thou mountest like Icarus to thy deadly downefall To feare GOD is to reuerence and worship him to acknowledge that he is plentifull in mercie and goodnesse Take away mercie and take away feare for he that expecteth not good feareth no euill O LORD of all mecy Grant I beseech thee that my soule may feare thee because thou art no lesse worthy of feare then of loue For as thou art a GOD of mercie so thou art a GOD of maiestie as thou art infinitelie mercifull so art thou infinitely iust as thy workes of mercie are innumerable so is there no number of thy workes of iustice And which is most fearefull the vessels of wrath doe farre exceed the vessels of mercy And therfore O LORD so work in my heart that I may feare thee for the height of thy iustice for the depth of thy iudgements for the glory of thy maiesty for the immensitie of thy greatnesse and power for the multitude of my sinnes for my inconsiderate boldnes in sinning and aboue all for my rebellion in resisting thy holy inspirations VERS V. I looke for the LORD my soule doth wait for him in his word is my trust 1 THe hungry desire of a penitent sinner 2 A bridle vpon that violent desire 3 Sodaine repentance not alwayes sincere 4 The causes wherefore GOD deferreth to heare vs. 5 We are often deceiued in thinking GOD slow 6 How strongly GOD knocketh and calleth 7 Wherefore he is not heard 8 How he may be heard 9 How GOD feasteth those who entertaine him 10 We must patiently looke and wait for the LORD 11 To the very last end of our life 12 Iniuries to be quietly taken 13 Troubles to be contemned 14 A short praise of patience 15 It must be ioyned with trust 16 Trust must be accompanied with faith and then is it most assured 17 Whereon this Trust must be grounded 18 That the word of GOD cannot faile nor deceiue 19 A Caution what to doe that we may boldly trust 20 An assured laying hold vpon GODS word 21 A prayer and resolution for patience and trust BVt how long wilt thou suspend thy mercie and grace How long shall I bee as if I were either not remembred or little regarded how long shall this hungry appetite torment my soule looke vpon me O LORD and let me haue some sence of thy mercie LORD I desire not the aboundance and dainties of thy children but will remaine satisfied with a few cast crummes from thy table Behold LORD I come to thee as a poore hungrie whelpe to a rich mans table I see what thou eatest and how richlie thou feedest thy children I looke thee in the face I obserue thy countenance I manifest my desires by all the gestures and behauiours I can I vse many prouocations to moue thee to bestow some meane morsell vpon me But when O LORD when wilt thou regard me Now gracious GOD euen now I pray thee to fauour me with some
himselfe but in the proper nature his house bee turned to a prison so albeit the body of man was once a pleasant habitation yet when by sinne it was turned to a prison the soule findeth therein many miserable molestations A prison is a place horrid and vncleane wherein the companions are theeues murtherers and other malefactours the place commonly a sinke whither all the filth of a city doth draine And albeit a childe bornâ— and brought vp in a prison and neuer acquainted with other life will laugh and desport and not onely take contentment but delight in that place yet if an honest man who knoweth liberty chance to come there how is he annoyed with the filth How with the vile society which he is constrained to endure What friends what suit will hee make for his discharge So they who neuer looked out of their body are well pleased with the euill qualities thereof But they who haue conuersed in a heauenly life and yet are gayled in this prison of mud and tied to the society of a thousand disordred appetites as so many malefactors how vnquiet are they how wary how desirous to be at liberty Heereupon one cried Bring my soule out of prison and I will prayse thy name And another I desire to bee dissolued And againe Who shall deliuer me from this body of death Out of the deepest dungeon of this prison O LORD I crie vnto thee deepely couered with naturall corruption deepely ouerwhelmed with actuall transgressions deepely charged both with sence and feare of thy wrath I streine foorth my voice vnto thee LORD thou art alwayes farre distant from sinners and now out of this deepe distance I doe not weakly desire thee but with deepe sighes and groanes from the depth of my heart I call vnto thee I haue sinned and thou hast punished I haue displeased thee and thou hast disquieted me according to the greatnesse of my sinnes thy punishments haue beene great vpon mee Out of this depth both of infirmities and of calamities with an inflamed spirit I lift vp my voyce hands eyes and soule vnto thee Heare me O LORD who doest no sooner heare then helpe Oh! let the complaint of my sobbing soule haue accesse to thy gentle audience Looke not vpon my sinnes and vpon thy iustice but looke vpon my miseries and vpon thy mercies turn away thy face from me as I am sinfull but regard me as I am sorrowfull for my sinnes Despise not O LORD the worke of thy hands For thou knowest of what mettall we are made thou knowest the bad temper thereof thou knowest not only our weakenesse but our prone inclination to euill Insomuch as if thou shouldest examine our actions by the exact ballance and then smite them by the seuere sword of thy Iustice all must despaire wee must all bee damned For there is none so innocent vnder heauen who canne eyther answere thy Iustice or endure it Not one canne stand before thee in Iudgement not one canne answere one for a thousand But thou wilt not bee so rigid and seuere against thy feeble creatures For with thee abideth not onely Iustice but also Mercie not onely Iustice for obstinate sinners but Mercie for the penitent Thou art aboue measure milde and fauourable to all that repent thou canst not deny thy Mercie from any who desire it from an humble heart And therefore albeit my sinnes presse heauie vpon me albeit they trouble my soule with many terrours yet will I worship thee with a dutifull and obedient feare I will hope in thee but not cease to feare I will hope but not presume and therefore must I feare I will hope in regard of thy goodnesse I will feare in regard of my owne euill I will hope in thee for thy mercies and I will feare thee for thy iustice Vpon these two wings will I flie vnto thee with these two eyes will I looke for thee but my trust addresseth it selfe especially to thy mercy â—f this mercy thy word hath giuen assurance thy word expresseth much fatherly affection thy word is full of many sweet promises of remission of sinnes and therefore my trust laieth hold vpon thy word For were it not a dishonour to a King would not people speake shrewdly of him if hauing promised his pardon hee would execute men for the same offence Assuredly whatsoeuer some Kings may doe thou canst not thou canst not denie thy word because thou canst not denie thy selfe Thy iustice will not suffer thee either to reuoke or lightly to regard the promises of thy mercy in case we apprehend them in seasonable time And therefore I will not be either betrayed by pleasures or benummed by sluggish sloath I will not suffer time to passe vntill time shall be altogether past When there cannot possibly be any harme in haste I will not aduenture vpon the dangers of delay O LORD my maker Quicken me with thy inciting grace that I may with all speed addresse my selfe both to entreat and to embrace thy mercy that I may timely begin to attend vpon thee For albeit no part of my life should be either shortned or mispent Albeit I should be most couetously carefull to imploy euery minute thereof yet is man too mortall to attaine performance of the least part of his duty to thee And although I bee not presently releeued although for a long time thou with-holdest thy helpe let not my hope be wearied in wayting for thee let me both patiently and constantly expect thy pleasure And so must all doe who sincerely serue thee who put their trust in thy word and so they shall neuer be disappointed of their hope For not only thy Mercy is most faithfully assured by thy word but thy Iustice also is plentifully satisfied by the inualuable blood of our Redeemer which is so noble and precious in thy sight that there neither are nor can be any sinnes for expiation of which it doeth not suffice It openeth the gate of grace to all that repent it excludeth none it sufficeth for all Let no man feare the multitude of his sinnes this Mercy and this Redemption doe infinitely surmount them they infinitely ouerballance the sinnes of all men in case they repent LORD thou art a great Physition thou knowest all our sicknesses and art most expert in all sorts of remedies Whatsoeuer our diseases are neuer so grieuous neuer so desperate thou hast variety of remedies in store and knowest right well how to applie them thy Mercie and thy Redemption thou hast alwayes at hand Wherefore with all feare and reuerence which my weakenesse is able to apprehend I resort now to thy throne of Grace most humbly entreating thy Mercie and the benefit of thy plentifull redemption Repell mee not from thy presence I beseech thee vntill I bee reconciled to thy fauour For I am no stranger to thy house I am one of thy people a citizen and member of that Church which thou hast so aboundantly redeemed Grant mee O gracious
be found I confidently say not any one who returned to the LORD and was not receiued Neuer thinke that the iustice of GOD is greater then his mercie Nothing can bee sayd in GOD greater or lesser because whatsoeuer is in him is his very selfe There was neuer sinner in this world who hath not had a sweet taste of his mercy neither was there euer righteous person who hath not beene touched with his iustice His iustice and his mercie are extended to all For all the wayes of the LORD are mercie and trueth Besides mercie bestoweth so many and so great good things vpon the righteous that her workes farre exceed the workes of iustice Neuer trouble thy selfe about the small number of the elect Assuredly they are not a few but almost innumerable whom the LORD will receiue to mercy Mercy will be no lesse milde then iustice rigorous mercy will no lesse finde a meanes to saue then iustice to condemne As the number of the elect is knowne only to GOD so both the time and maner of their calling must onely be referred to him But what mooueth thee to doubt and distrust thine estate the multitude and grieuousnesse of thy sinnes Trouble not thy selfe for the multitude and grieuousnesse of thy sinnes because the mercy of the LORD doeth infinitely surmount them Behold how two contraries applied together if the one far exceed the other the greater must needs consume the lesse But the mercies of GOD infinitely exceed al the sins in the world All the sinnes of the world are more easily consumed by the mercie of GOD then is a droppe of water in a hot fiery furnace then a sparke of fire is extinguished in the sea Doe but applie now this mercie to thy sinnes and the infinitenes of the one must needs consume the multitude of the other But loe shee hath already applied her selfe Shee hasted to meet thee shee hath already kissed thee she holdeth thee close in her embracements Yea when thou didst fall she was present with thee albeit thou diddest not discerne so much shee layed her hand vnder thee to keepe thee from harme and to raise thee againe Thou art a vessell both brittle and weake thou must needs haue beene dashed to pieces or much bruised with thy fall vnlesse mercie had laid vnder her hand This is a great signe that thou art elect but it is not all For mercie hath not onely preserued thee from the harme of sinne but she hath turned thy sinne to thy good For thereby she hath made both thee more humble in thy opinion and more heedfull in thy wayes The fall of the reprobate is like the fall of an elephant they rise not againe but impudently make light esteeme of their sinnes and sometimes with a flintie forehead boast of them But though the elect fall into the bottome of the sea yet the same whale which swallowed them vp must againe cast them vpon the land Arise therefore and strengthen thy heart thou hast found how weake thine owne forces are humble thy selfe vnder the Almighty arme of the LORD For humility is the foundation of all vertues the lowest ground-worke of repentance Humble thy selfe therefore with sorrow for thy sinnes past and circumspection for thy life to come If thou canst so humble thy selfe with sorrow then neuer feare this sorrow is the greatest ioy to a godly mind that can be the more of this sorrow thou findest within thee the lesse cause thou hast to feare And to this examination now I leaue thee to what degree of submisse sorrow thou canst descend for assuredly to the same pitch of assurance thou shalt be exalted This said she glanceth gloriously into heauen leauing me well confirmed against feare but altogether exposed to heauinesse and griefe For when I presented to my rememberance either the vaine or vile and base pleasure of my sinnes the good which I did loose the euill which thereby I did incurre how my most meeke GOD by the goodnesse of his owne nature was mooued was prouoked was inforced by my ingratitude to be wroth I was forth with ouercharged with heauinesse which did trouble and torment me day and night which bereaued mee of all ioy and was extreamely burdensome to me She rushed vpon me with her sad troupes she cried out most bitterly and said How now presumptuous wretch Wither art thou carried Into what vaine hopes doest thou run Supposest thou thy selfe to be rapt vp into the third heauen to be already placed in Abrahams bosome Alas deceiued caitiffe thy faith is but a fantasie thy hope a proud presumption of spirit thy comforts but a dreame of a deluded imagination Thou conceiuest that GOD is mercifull it is true exceeding mercifull infinite in his mercies But knowest thou not how odious an offence ingratitude is How it stoppeth the streames how it drieth vp the dew of mercy how no mercy hath influence where ingratitude abides Ingratitude is the summary of all sins no euill no reproach is left vnsaid when a man is charged to be vngratefull No beast is either so fierce or so dull but hath some sence of gratitude and will loue those who are carefull for them The hands which feed the Lions may safely touch their teeth and their pawes Elephants for their food make both their courage and their strength seruile to man So naturall is this vertue that those creatures which want vnderstanding are both apprehensiue and obseruant thereof And so hatefull is ingratitude to the most mercifull GOD that he hath threatened by his holy spirit that Euill shall neuer depart from his house who rewardâ—th euill for good And that the hope of the vnthankefull shall melt away as the winter yee Consider then how vngraciously vngratefull thou hast beene consider this I say and if thy owne heart shall condemne thee thinke what he will doe who is greater then thy heart and who hath euen already opened his mouth to pronounce his arrest He hath created thee according to his owne image he hath placed thee in the paradise of his blessed Church with the water of baptisme he sanctified thee he furnished thee with the knowledge of his trueth putting his word in thy mouth and his will in thy minde with many temporall benefits he did enrich thee not onely for necessitie but for an ornament and delight But thou in the leuitie and vanitie of thy braine diddest runne headlong after thine vnbridled lusts and plunge thy selfe in many deepe sinnes Many outward callings he bestowed vpon thee with many sweet instructions he did aduertize thee but albeit all the floore was moistened with his heauenly dew yet thou like Gedeons fleece remainedst drie thou didst keepe thy selfe like the riuer Nilus within thy bankes when all other riuers did ouerflow He inuited thee and thou diddest excuse thy selfe he sent to compell thee but thou diddest resist At the last he called thee with a violent voice and his vnspeakeable goodnesse broke open the gates of thy
extenuate our sinnes 11 How we excuse them 12 Temptations cannot excuse vs and wherefore 13 To whom we are obliged to confesse 14 The conscience of man is GODS Kingdome and Consistorie 15 We should not be ashamed that men take knowledge that we haue sinned 16 Pleasures of the body what they are like 17 Our confession must be entire 18 Our lightest sinnes must be confessed 19 Our sweetest sinnes must be confessed 20 One sinne sufficient to vndoe vs. THen I aduanced my selfe to the second forme of repentance From contrition I proceeded to acknowledgement and confession of my sinnes Because I saw it was a childish weakenesse rather to perish by the disease then to empty the stomacke of dangerous humours to suffer sores rather to putrefie and spread then to endure the cleansing and curing of them rather to endure a perpetuall toothach then to haue the tooth pulled foorth And seeing it was for this cause that GOD was so seuere against mee namely for that I would not acknowledge my sinnes seeing by no other meanes I could wrestle out of those difficulties wherinto his displeasure had cast me I forthwith resolued to turn to my GOD and to turne forth my heart vnto him to powre out all the putrefaction of my soule before his pure eyes to open my Conscience and giue a vent to those filthy fumes which had almost stifeled my soule which were more loathsome more infectious then is the damp of dead putrified bodies In a word to say with holy Iob If I haue hid my sinne as Adam concealing my iniquity within my bosome So I presented my selfe before his diuine Maiesty with the same countenance wherewith a poore distressed patient full of impostumes Fistulaes and vgly vlcers presenteth himselfe to an expert Chyrurgian And being prepared to endure both the paine of the corosiue and point of the lance I thus addressed my speech vnto him O LORD my GOD most rich most liberall most mercifull GOD who sitting aboue the Seraphims with thy eyes farre brighter then the Sun piercest all depthes and discouerest all things naked and open to thy view Thou O LORD who art so powerfull and yet so pitifull to that which thou hast made that thou hearest and regardest miserable sinners Graciously behold be fauourably attentiue to me I beseech thee Behold mee thy miserable creature not in anger not in iustice but in compassion and mercy not as a seuere Iudge but as a skilfull and carefull Physician not to punish my infirmities but graciously to cure them O mercifull GOD no lesse infinite in Mercy then in Maiestie In goodnesse and in greatnesse vnmeasurable alike Behold my exceeding great miseries my exceeding great but not infinite miseries not such as can beare any proportion against thy mercies For betweene great and infinite there standeth no proportion O infinite goodnes mercie I am in a most miserable estate yet how to better it caÌ„not tel My doubtfull and perplexed thoughts doe wildely wander in a maze of amazement And this is nothing else in effect but to beat out with what torments I am likest to perish Alas O my GOD wilt not thou relieue mee in these extremities wilt not thou release me O infinite goodnes With al humilitie I entreate thy ayd not vpon any coÌ„fidence in my selfe but faith hope two twins of thy brest who neuer yet haue either let fall or bin denied any suit haue guided mee hither and set me before thee Loe they remaine still present with mee They encourage me they assure me that the more miserable we feele our selues to be the more fit we are to receiue thy mercies and the more standeth it with thy iustice to afford vs the same O thou who art both liberall and rich relieue my pouertie O most mercifull and powerfull LORD release my miseries Heare my distressed soule full of wretchednesse but fuller of guiltinesse groaning at thy gate of mercie See how fowlie it is defiled with euill how deepely corruption hath tainted the verie substance thereof how the stamps of sinne by reason of long custome are so firmely imprinted therein as it is a hard matter to deface them I am like an vncleane beast that hath long wallowed in the proper dung whereby both the beautie hath beene defiled and a loathsome taste is fixed in the flesh Alasse I am plunged in sinne as in a sea wherein I neither see banke nor feele bottome wherin my vaine soule at the same time both floateth with the leuity and is drawne downe with the leaden weights of sin O GOD of my saluation my impure soule hath hitherto beene much troubled much endangered and almost stifeled by enclosing her corruptions and not giuing a free passage for them to breake foorth But now I confesse my sinnes I confesse how grieuously I haue offended thy maiestie I haue broken all thy commandements as if they had beene cobwebs and my verie best thoughts haue beene poysoned with taste of things sensuall The poysonous breath of my thoughts euaporated from my sensuall soule hath beene more offensiue and noysome to thee then the dampes that arise from bodies halfe putrefied in their graues Of all thy debtors I confesse that my accompts are greatest that thou hast most to reckon with mee but giue mee respite for repentance and I will satisfie if not thy iustice by payment yet thy mercie by acknowledgement Haue patience a while and by confession I will pay thee all LORD I will not hide my offences for then wilt thou display them I will lay them open that thou maiest hide them I will acknowledge them that thou maiest take no knowledge of them I will not conceale my miserable defects and defections from thee lest thereby I loose first thy pitie and then thy reliefe I will neuer goe about either to abuse or to auoid thee by denying or â—uppressing my sinnes I will no waies extenuate no waies excuse them I will not extenuate them either by fauourable comparing them with the sinnes of other men or by vnderualuing them in their owne nature I will not excuse them by casting the blame vpon any other vpon the malice and power of the Diuell vpon the witchcraft of the world vpon the soft flatteries of the flesh These are the vaine veyles which our first parents vsed The woman gaue it me the serpent deceiued mee But they cannot suffice to shadow our sinnes For they are not able to compell the will they can no wayes enforce the soule Allure it they may but enforce it they caÌ„not they may knock at our gates but they caÌ„not breake in vnles we open to entertaine theÌ„ And therefore I will neuer endeauour to excuse that which my owne conscience conuinceth I will sincerely acknowledge my sinnes I will take the whole blame vpon my selfe I will not transferre any part thereof to any other For my conscience is so torne with the bitings of sinne my soule is so stretched vpon the racke of sorrow that I am
heauenly kingdom whereof you shall neuer bee disposseâ—sed Reioice I say in him who is the very Ocean of ioy from whom all ioyes of the soule are deriued who onely giueth true ioy and full ioy and perfect ioy and ioy which shall neither end nor abate Of which ioy the onely hope is sufficient both to refresh and sustaine vs in all the trauerses of this life which incomparably exceedeth not onely all humane ioy that can be found but whatsoeuer can be either guessed or imagined And therefore I will not prescribe any limits to your ioy because it must not be moderate it cannot bee contained in any meane compasse If worldly ioy exceede golden meane then is it vicious but it is not so in spiritual ioy no more then it is in loue from whence it proceedes All morall vertues consist in a mediocritie which is limited by prudence But it is not so in loue or in any other diuine vertue As there is no mediocritie or meane in louing of GOD so is there not in reioicing in him The more we loue the more we reioyce and the more excessiue our loue and ioy is the more doe they draw to their perfection Wherefore then doe wee not with a holy scorne cast behinde vs the base vanishing pleasures of this world and bend all our endeauours after these heauenly felicities Or rather wherefore doe we with a sleepie sensualitie cast behind vs these heauenly felicities and bend all our endeuours after the base vanishing pleasures of this world Alasse Wherefore doe wee forsake the liuing springs and digge broken pits that will hold no water Is it out of opinion of safetie or is it for idle ease Goe wee then to the dead sea of this world let vs draw of their muddie waters of honour riches authoritie or any other witcherie of the world Certainely it will bee with great paine with great care and many times with great danger And then what followeth the atteining of them is not so laboursome as they are loathsome many times when they are atchieued Onely out of these liuing springs out of these sauing waters wee may alwaies draw both with safetie and with ioy Away then yee painted pleasures of this world mine eyes are dazeled with the blaze of too bright a Sunne to admit the beames of your pale light I am wholly inherited by a higher ioy which hath taken so absolute a conquest ouer all my powers that neither my sence can discerne nor my minde conceiue any other obiect As a man cannot looke with one eye vpon heauen and another vpon the earth so can hee not diuide his minde to ioy both in earthly and in heauenly things at once hee must die to the one if he intend to liue in the other Lord take from me all pleasure take away all patience in the flashie felicities of this life Let nothing stoppe let nothing hinder me from entring into thy house to behold thy bright and pure beautie to bewaile the deformitie of my sinnes which haue banished mee so farre from thy fauour to deplore my weakenesse and to implore thy grace to compose my behauiour and dâ—spose all my abilities to doe thee seruice O my GOD marshall my vnruly appetites traine them in thy discipline binde them vnder the commaund of reason and grace Let not my soule be chained in me but let it aspire to thee For in mee it is but in a prison in thee it is in paradise Reconcile and combine in mee two contrary affections feare and ioy That as a tired trauailer ranging in a wilde desert reioyceth to see the first cracke of day and yet is not altogether free from feare of the darkenesse and dangers of the night so albeit my errours past bee fearefull to mee yet let me entertaine a sweete hope to enioy those approaching ioyes whereof there is neither saciety nor end Thus cleansed by thy mercy and furnished with thy grace I renounce my will I offer it a sacrifice to thee I yeeld my selfe wholly to thy obedience O my GOD doe not refuse mee Prayse and Glory and Wisedome and Strength Dominion Riches and Power bee vnto our GOD for euermore A SVMMARY PRAIER O Omnipotent GOD most manifest and yet most secret and hid O bountifull Giuer and yet seuere exacter Thou O LORD who sitting aboue the Seraphims seest all things and in all things mayest bee seene Thou who art most powerfull and yet so pitifull that thou releeuest miserable and vile sinners O most glorious incomprehensible GOD encline thine eye fauourably to my distresse fauourably regard my poore petition which breaking from a broken soule must needs make an vntunable sound There is nothing O LORD which my soule more desires nothing is more due and delightfull to thee then that I should Loue thee Thou hast created mee to loue thee thou hast commanded mee to loue thee in this loue thou hast placed my felicity and my peace In this loue consist all good things which we enioy vpon earth and the greatest part of those which we hope for in heauen But no man can loue thee vnlesse hee know thee the knowledge of thee is necessary to beget this loue because wee cannot truely loue thee vnlesse wee vnderstand that all causes of loue are perfectly in thee O true delight of our hearts I cannot liue vnlesse I loue thee and I cannot loue thee vnlesse I know thee What then shall I do to atteine this knowledge The knowledge that wee haue comes by our sences which are as gates through which the representation of things sensible enter into our vnderstanding But neither can thy greatnesse enter through so narrow passages neither can wee imagine any representation whereby our vnderstanding may apprehend thee Thou hast formed all creatures in number weight and measure their nature and vertues are limited thou hast giuen them their bounds which they cannot exceed and therefore our vnderstanding is able to embrace them But thou art infinite thy being is boundlesse Nothing is aboue thee nothing beyond thee nothing wide of thee nothing without thee our vnderstanding cannot comprehend the confines of thy being As thou art infinite in power so art thou in nature thy nature is no lesse infinite in extent then eternall in continuance No man hath hitherto beene able to vnderstand the essence and nature of his owne soule whose offices and operations hee dayly discernes and this is because it beareth thy Image And how then shall I be able to vnderstand thee If my ignorance bee so dull and heauy in my selfe how shall I be of capacity to know thee O noble nature O infinite essence O incomprehensible Maiesty How shal I know thee For I cannot see thee My sight is dimme and thou art a light which canst not be approached Thou art most high and so must hee be whosoeuer shall attaine thee Who then will giue me the eyes of an Eagle that I may beholde this Sunne Who will giue mee wings
safetie he will not suffer on any condition the grieuous sores of his soule to be touched This sinner the Diuell claspeth close in his armes he holdeth him fast locked in his power imprisoned vnder his streight arrest This sin requireth a hideous cry Out of this depth the next fall is into despaire This is not onely a very deepe pitt but a great stone rowled ouer the mouth so as any cry can hardly be heard Of all sins this maketh vs most of the condition of Diuells who euer despaire to be forgiuen This is the verie mouth of hell from hence there is no fall but into the inward entrailes of hell out of which no crie shall euer be heard This Psalme conteineth an euident prophesie of the Messias in setting foorth his plentifull redemption and that he should redeeme Israel that is the Church from all their sinnes Which wordes in full sence were vsed by an Angel to Ioseph in telling him that the childs name should be IESVS because hee shoulâ— saue his people from their sinnes It is rightly ranged among the penitentialls and is fit to be seriously said by such as weakely sincke vnder the weight of their sinnes as are feeble spirited against the terrour oâ— GODS Iustice as are either inwardly or outwardly lashed for their euill and are readie to faint vndeâ—â—he sad charge of griefe and of feare Because these can find neither comfort nor hope in rigid and seuere Iudgement let them out of the depth of their miseries out of the depth of their sinnes and from the depth of their heaâ—ts implore GODS mercy without any confidenâ—e in themselues but onely in his goodnesse and in his plentifull redemption For albeit the Psalme begâ—nneth with extreme anguish and anxiety of minde yet it endeth with cheerefull assurance and trust The whole Psalme falleth into two principall parts and those againe into others as in the Table following appeareth In this Psalme is conteined a deepe sinking vnder the charge of sinne whence are drawen crying complaints to GOD ver 1. 2. Reasons which should moue GOD to heare and those taken 1. From the generall weakenesse and corruption of man ver 3. 2. From the mercy which is with GOD ver 4. a rising into confidence and trust whereby occasioned in the complaynant patient awaiting with trust in GODS promise ver 5. timely and swift resort to GOD ver 6. to others an exhortation to trust in GOD with reasons for the same viz. his mercy v. 7. his plenteous redemption v. 7. A promise to bee deliuered from sin v. 8. VERS I. Out of the deepe haue I called vnto thee O LORD LORD heare my voice 1 THE depth of sinne 2 By impure thoughts 3 By wicked words 4 By sinfull actions 5 What holdeth vs in the depth of sinne 6 The depth of afflictions and miseries 7 The depth of astonishment and feare 8 The depth of humility and sorrow 9 The depth of the heart 10 The depths out of which a sinner must crie 11 The comforts of the world 12 To whom we must call for comfort 13 A sinner offendeth GOD. 14 He offendeth other men 15 He offendeth the Angels and Saints 16 He offendeth against Hell 17 He offendeth all creatures 18 Especially he offendeth his owne soule 19 A prayer 20 The losse that a sinner incurres 21 A complaint for the same 22 An incitement to teares 23 Godly teares how esteemed by GOD. 24 When we must giue ouer weeping O Iust GOD no lesse terrible in thy iustice then vnresistible in thy power and will when I descend into the secrets of my conscience and call my memory to an accompt I find my selfe plunged very deepe in sinne and the yoake of the Diuell so heauy vpon me that I am not able to lift vp my loaden head scarce able to aduance my voice vnto thee LORD I haue grieuously sinned against thee I haue grieuously prouoked thy wrath against mee I haue not onely foolishly disobeyed thee but proudly rebelled against thee I haue forsaken thee and delighted to liue among bruit and sauage beastes I made my selfe a bed of thornes I slept among hornets and scorpions amidst these torments and dangers I expected rest I am as one most wretchedly wrecked who hauing lost all his rich loading hath hardly escaped naked to the shore My sottish soule poysoned with taste of things sensuall hath taken pleasure to wallow in impure thoughts day and night as swine take pleasure to wallow in mire or dogs in carion insomuch as nothing else hath beene delightfull nothing else easie for me to do But I haue found this liquerice liquor to resemble milke which is sweete in taste but soone groweth sowre and readily conuerteth into hurtfull humors These beginnings were neglected and happily contemned at the first but since they haue prooued the sparkes of that flame wherin I consume the seedes of all my huge haruest of sinne As for my words I will not say with the Prophet Woe is me that I haue beene silent but woe is me that I haue spoken because I am a man of vncleane lips But oh that a coale or rather a ball of fire would flame from thy Altar to scoure the rotten rust which hath deepelie ouergrowne all the instruments of my speech Alasse how many vaine and foolish how many false how many foule things haue I belched foorth of this vnsauorie mouth wherewith I now offer to speake vnto thee How hath my tongue galloped to destruction euen vpon credite euen for companie and fellowshippe of others without any sensible pleasure or profit to my selfe O my GOD who will endure the breath from a man whose stomacke hath bin stuffed with onions or garlicke or if it were possible the fountaine were pure yet the poisonous passage must infect the waters I know not how to speake vnto thee either pleasinglie or without offence but me thinkes I heare thee hourelie thundering against me Wherefore doest thou presume to assume my Name within thy leprous lips Touching actuall sinnes I haue so heaped them together I haue so runne like a blind man stumbling and tumbling from sinne to sinne I haue so descended the steps of sinne from one degree to another from foolishnesse and leuity to carelessenesse from carelessenesse to boldnesse from boldnesse to contempt from contempt to a brauerie and boasting in my sinne I am so fallen from frequency of actions to custome from custome to habite from habite to nature that I am now plunged in the deepe gulfe of sinne which hath no bottome but the bottomelesse pit of hell Out of this gulfe it is impossible for mee by the force of my owne armes to wrestle Flattering Dalilah euen the whorish daliancies and pleasures of this life haue cut away the haires of my strength And now the infernall Philistins haue made me captiue they haue put out the eyes of my vnderstanding they haue fettered me with many cords and chaines of wilfull transgressions they haue throwne me
be committed which by this redemption is not discharged And this is true in regard of sufficiencie but in regard of efficacie it perteineth only to the elect who are the Church the true house and familie of Israel But there can bee no offences either for number so great or for qualitie so grieuous but this redemption is sufficient for them Can this redemption which is of infinite value bee restreined to any limits of offences Shall not hee whose arme is neuer shortned be alwayes able to forgiue Shall not he who forgaue to one debtor 10000. talents be alwayes willing to forgiue verely in case that debtor had owed more talents vpon his submission more had bin forgiuen Such is the pitie of almighty GOD towards miserable men that hee neuer reiecteth their vnfained repentance albeit a sinner be at the height of euill let him in singlenesse and sinceritie of soule turne to the LORD and he shall be embraced If you finde in the Scriptures any sinnes termed vnpardonable as the sinne against the holy Ghost the sinne vnto death for which wee are forbidden to pray you must not vnderstand it as if they could not bee pardoned in case the sinner did vnfainedly repent for this were no better then bitter blasphemie But such sinnes are said to bee vnpardonable because they deserue blindnesse and hardnesse of heart and to bee depriued of the effectuall ayde of Grace because the sinner neuer either turneth or stoppeth but alwayes runneth forward from badde to worse Let their eyes bee blinded that they see not and euer bowe downe their backes Let them fall from one wickednesse to another and not come into thy righteousnesse Not that GOD doeth positiuely blinde any man or bowe downe their backes but priuatiuelie in that hee doeth not enlighten and direct them His sufficient ayde hee denieth to none but by reason of some eâ—ther heinousnesse or obstinacie in sinne hee denyeth his most speciall and effectuall ayde to some Hereupon their sinnes are sayde to bee vnpardonable because albeit they might repent yet they did not Wherefore O man to bridle thy broad bouldnesse in sinne vnderstand that there are certaine periods and bounds which when sinners exceede GOD leaueth them destitute sometimes by denying his effectuall ayde sometimes by abridging the terme of their life For the bloudie and deceitfull man shall not liue out halfe their dayes When the number of sinnes prefixed by GOD are once exceeded when the measure runneth ouer when the sinner hath digged his owne pitte Death shall come hastily vpon him and take from him both the present and future life at once Verely hee that hath appointed barres for the proud waues of the sea hath also set limits and termes to thy sinnes hee hath prefixed limits for his effectuall grace but his aboundant redemption is alwayes sufficient And therefore O feeble sinner albeit thou hast offended the most High and conspired against his Maiestie albeit thou hast forsaken his Law and forgotten his benefits albeit thou hast harlotted with thy owne humours and fouled his honour vnder thy feete in a word albeit thou hast merited more torments then hell canne afford yet neuer despaire neuer bee terrified by thy weake suspicions But abstaine from thy sinnes let thy will abhorre them and then approach with trust to the throne of mercie and assuredly thou shalt finde grace not onely sufficient but effectuall for all thy sinnes For then thy Redeemer by his inualuable blood will free thee from the seruitude of sinne whereto thou haddest voluntary sould thy selfe then will hee take vpon him the paine which thou haddest incurred then discharge the obligation which thou haddest forfeited But herewith thou must bee incorporate into the family of Israel namely the Church of GOD thou must with Nathaniel be an Israelite indeede in whom is no guile for to these onely this redemption pertaineth Thou must earnestly endeauour first to bridle thy sensuall appetites and by degrees to mortifie them Thou must serue GOD in righteousnesse and both constantly and closely adhere to him by loue So shalt thou bee rightly disposed to participate of thy redemption so shall riuers of heauenly riches flowe into thy soule But whosoeuer is a stranger to this house of GOD or liuing therein is no part thereof whosoeuer I say doeth eyther obstinately or carelesly perseuer in sinne and neuer regard to disingage himselfe by repentance hee shall neuer participate of the infinite treasure of this redemption the floudes of GODS mercies and of the merits of his Redeemer shall neuer enter or approach his soule they are sufficient but not effectuall for his discharge And further so ample and aboundant is this redemption that thereby the LORD will deliuer his people not onely from their sinnes and from eternall punishments due to their sinnes but hee will finally free them from the miseries and calamities which in this life driue in their faces Or if hee deferre this deliuerance for a time yea if hee stay vntill hee deliuer them at once from the calamities of the world and from the world it selfe yet is hee present with them all the meane time hee refresheth them with his spirit he sprinckleth the diuine dewe of his Grace vpon them which maketh aswell their life as the calamities of their life not onely tolerable but sweete For they who beleeue although they be faint and feeble hearted yet they know that neither death nor the diuell shall preuaile against them because GOD is their Redeemer This is the office of GOD thus will hee haue to doe with sinners to abolish their sinnes to abolish either their miseries or the sence of their miseries and to create in them rigâ—teousnesse and life And furthâ—â— the LORD doth not only eyther end or ease our miseries but he doeth more he conuerteth them to our good It is a propertie of the greatest goodnesse to change the nature of euill and to conuert it into good If a vine bee not pruned it runneth out into superfluous stemmes and branches and growes feeble and fruitlesse in the end Bee content therefore that thy desires be pruned with afflictions It is painefull to bleede but it is mortall to wither In this life pascimur patimur wee are so nourished with the blessings of GOD that therewith also wee are nurtured with his crosses And shall I tell thee O my friend shall I acquaint thee with an infallible experience how all the calamities of this life may not onely bee endured but vtterly broken how thou mayest obtaine a most glorious conquest This is worth the knowing and by assistance of grace not vneasie to bee done The Apostle findeth in one man two the spirit and the flesh the minde and the members the soule and the body These are so chained together as they make but one and yet so contrary as they make two They are so contrary as the life of the one is the death of the other the raising vp
my secrets to all the world The longer time I haue liued the more I finde my life couered and ouergrowen with sinne euen as a riuer the further it runneth from the head the more waters it gathereth and the greater doeth the streame encrease or as a man riding in dustie waies the further hee rideth the more dust he gathereth vpon him I can finde in my selfe no light of goodnesse no calme of righteousnesse I haue bin so loaden with the yron yoake of the Diuell the troupes of my sinnes so muster vpon mee that out of the depth of my miserable estate I am enforced with sighes groanes and teares to cry vnto thee Oh! I am a most grieuous sinner I thinke my selfe the most grieuous sinner in the world I think my self which I tremble to speake a more grieuous sinner then the Diuell himselfe For albeit the Diuell participateth of all sinnes whereto he draweth miserable men yet of his owne nature he is not a glutton not a drunkard not sloathfull not libidinous not coueteous of riches or honoâ—s or any other worldly thing For because nothing is affected with that which is not agreeable to the nature thereof it followeth that a spirituall substance cannot bee affected with goods properly corporall but onely with those which are spirituall But in affecting spirituall goods there can bee no sinne vnlesse the rule of a superiour be thereby transgressed and this is by the sinne of pride in being disobedient to a superiour and in affecting a singular excellencie But consequently enuie may ensue by enuying the good of others whether in GOD or in man as a hindrance to their proper ends But so enuy must not be taken for a passion but for a will wrestling against anothers good And hereby it appeareth that the Diuell properly and in his owne nature sinneth onely in pride and in enuie which onely are pure spirituall sinnes But besides these I haue committed so manie other sinnes that I am both vnable and vnworthy particularlie to confesse them much more vnworthy to receiue pardone for them I haue made so great ruine and waste in all the faculties of my soule that it seemeth impossible they should be repaired Oh wretch what haue I done what did I entend to haue done The law accompted those beasts vncleane which did not chew the cudde not lesse vncleane cleane are they who will not ruminate and consider either the condition of their present state or what in future is either necessarie or in aduenture to ensue But alasse I neuer thought on my danger vntill all hope of remedie was past I neuer regarded my steps vntill I was in the snares of hell And now what death can I feare when I haue lost the life of my soule without which any other life is death and which maketh death a pleasant passage to life Being deepely wounded with the greatest griefe what sence can I haue of ordinary euill my deepe miseries haue drowned both my minde and my memorie in so deepe sorrow that all hope of reliefe is ouerwhelmed with the thicke throng of present discomforts And yet I will not cast downe my hope in the LORD I will not despaire of his gracious helpe For he hath not cast me downe to cast mee away hee hath not thus terrified mee to the end I should abandone all hope to the end I should be swallowed vp in the monstrous mouth of despaire but rather he calleth mee to him to the end that I should call vpon him The first worke that the LORD did in the conuersion of Saint Paul was the casting of him to the ground whereby thou doest instruct vs O LORD that our deiection in our selues is the first step of our aduancing to thee And assuredly thou wouldest neuer haue giuen me this grace to be sorrowfull if thou haddest not therewith intended to giue me life And therefoâ—â— albeit I bee cast downe to the verie gates of hell yet will I call vpon thee to raise mee againe albeit I bee crushed and broken to pieces yet will I call vpon thee to heale mee I can neuer bee so low driuen neuer so ouercharged with sorrow or with feare but still I will call vpon thee for comfort For what other remedie haue wee feeble wretches tossed in the vaste gustie sea of this world beaten with most raging tempests driuen among so many rockes and shelues so many infernall monsters gaping to deuoure vs what other remedie haue wee I say but to call and crie to thee with the distressed disciples awake LORD least wee perish Assuredly if out of these depths of danger and distresse we cry not out to thee for helpe then are we neere the greatest depth that can bee then are wee slipping into the depth wherein Cain was eternally swallowed then are wee readie to roare out his cursed complaint my sinnes are greater then can be forgiuen It is true Cain indeede thy sinne in it selfe was very great but in comparison of the infinite goodnesse of GOD it was not great Thy sinne might haue bin pardoned well enough but thy opinion and conceit that it did exceede the mercies of GOD that impious opinion so long as it stood could not be forgiuen Thy despaire was a greater sinne then the murther of thy brother thy despaire was the cause wherefore the murther of thy brother could not bee forgiuen Thy damnable repentance left no place for repentance to life The same trace followed they whom the Prophet described to speake in this manner Our sinnes are vpon vs and in them we consume how then should wee liue But O Omnipotent GOD is this a good reasoning with thy goodnesse My sinnes are vpon me how then shall I liue Desirest thou then the death of a sinner desirest not thou rather that sinners should liue I know rightwell that my sinnes are vpon me But I expect againe thy mercie vpon my sinnes My iniquities I know are gone ouer my head but they haue not ouergone thy goodnesse They are a burthen too heauie for me to beare and therefore I resort to thee who hast promised to ease me My sinnes shall neuer driue me to despaire but rather to repaire to thee for reliefe But is it not vsuall that GOD listneth not to sinners that he turneth away his eare and will not heare them Yes verelie But this is by reason of the cry of their sinnes this is when the cry of their sinnes drowneth the cry of their complaints Fauorable LORD stop thine eare I beseech thee against the crie of my sinnes but graciously incline it to the cry of my complaint Silence my sinnes LORD for a while bid them stand aside vntill I haue fullie confessed them to thee vntill I haue manifested my contrition for them and then let them appeare againe if they will for then they shall not appeare alone They shall be then accompanied with my teares and my griefe which will abate if not abolish their crie They shall not then 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