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A46836	The exceeding riches of grace advanced by the spirit of grace, in an empty nothing creature, viz. Mris. Sarah Wight lately hopeles and restles, her soule dwelling far from peace or hopes thereof : now hopefull, and joyfull in the Lord, that hath caused light to shine out of darknes ... / published for the refreshing of poor souls, by an eye and ear-witness of a good part thereof, Henry Jesse ...	Jessey, Henry, 1603-1663.; Saltmarsh, John, d. 1647.	1647 (1647)	Wing J688; ESTC R18578	106,320	192

be neer in himselfe and is not this to be admir'd He first finds the soule and then the Spouse saith Shee had found him whom her soule loveth He destroys selfe righteous selfe and all selfe that he alone might have the glory He leaves nothing for the Creature to boast in It s his Wisedome that he alone might have the Glory Turne thou me and I shall be turned Heale me and I shall be healed Convert me and I shall be converted So many soule hath found by experience One told her It s said a Ezek. 18. 31 32. Turne yee why will yee dye O house of Israel Shee answered It s Christ that comes with a power in the Word and turnes them And the Church knew her own unsufficiency to returne and therefore shee saith Turne me and I shall be turned b Jer. 31. 18. Behold he comes leaping over the mountaines and skipping over the hills He makes rough places plaine and raiseth up valleyes c Luk. 3. 3. It s easie for him to pardon mountainous sins multitudes of sins as one sin He came to me and pardon'd me though my sins were as the stars in Heaven for multitude He hath delivered me from the hard bondage wherein I was made to serve He appear'd to me in the dark and thick Cloud a thick Cloud indeed One beam of the Sun of righteousnesse dispeld it in a moment What a sinfull creature was I I never read of any that was in so desperate a condition as I And he hath delivered me from all my feares not from one or two but from all my feares Therefore I desire high and low rich and poore to magnifie the Lord and to praise his Name in my behalfe that he hath looked on the low and base estate of his handmaid His works praise him his Saints blesse him Ps. 145. 10. Especially the work of the New Creation in the soule I could beleeve nothing before but that there was no Hell but in this life I had no rest no rest in hearing nor reading and then he made me rest on himselfe d Mat. 11.28 And though I was weary and faint He was neither weary nor faint His wrath is but for a moment but of his goodnes and mercy there is no end He layes the foundation and he builds up It s I the Lord doe all He bare me and carried me and did at last deliver me This Rock followed me though I was not aware of him The Sun of righteousnesse arose with healing under his wings and the day-star arose in my heart e 2 Pet. 1. 19. It was a dark heart till he arose and then he made it light Christ suffered for me He needed not to suffer and be tempted but to succour such as mee that was tempted f Heb. 2. 18. I never had rest till I saw my selfe crucified with Christ g Gal. 2.20 and that my sins pierced him and there came out of his side a fountaine of bloud for the guilt of sin and not onely so but a fountaine of water to wash away the filth of sin to wash away all my filth There 's enough in him not onely to justifie but also to sanctifie h Joh. 5. 6. The life that I now live is by the faith of the Son of God who hath loved me and given himselfe for me though before I was an unbeleever and unholy and unthankfull and a murmurer and every way sinfull yet now hath he lov'd me and washed me And it not be to be prized and admir'd of all his Saints And his Name to be had in everlasting remembrance He proclaim'd his Name to be Mercifull and Gracious abundant in Goodnes and in Truth and that to sinners to the chiefe of sinners May 4. 1647. The same day at evening when some came to see her M r Iessey and M ris Palmer wife of the late Minister there in Lawrence Pountney who with M r Palmer had known her soule in affliction One telling her M ris Palmer was glad to heare of Gods goodnesse to her M ris Sarah said I desire that M r Palmer and you and all Gods people may praise and magnifie the Lord for his goodnes in looking down on the i* Lu. 1.48 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 so Mat. 23.12 base estate of his handmaid M ris Palmer said After what manner did your comforts come in to you M ris Sarah My earthly tongue cannot expresse what I felt it s beyond expression I was in such extremitie that either deliverance must come or I must perish I was able so bold no longer Then I fell into a Trance This was April 6. at night I lay in visions And in that time the Spirit of God was powr'd in upon mee And then Iesus Christ was presented to me as crucified for my sins I saw it and my selfe crucified with him and when I saw a glimpse of his love then I mourned bitterly for my sins and never truely sorrowed for sin till then I never mourn'd for sin as sin before But then I mourn'd bitterly k Zach. 12.10 And now praise the Lord with me and let us magnifie his Name together M ris Palmer Are you nod desirous to enjoy your inheritance M ris Sarah Yes But Christ hath taught mee by what I enjoy to submit to his will My terrors so long were nothing to one moment of mercies All the miseries I endured though they were very great were nothing to one glimpse of his mercy M ris Palmer How are your thoughts acted what are they acted upon M ris Sarah A living active Christ in a dead passive creature makes it act to God l Gal. 2. 20. For a farewell shee said Rejoyce in the Lord with me Mention was made before that from the 27 th of March to the 21. of April in those 24. dayes shee had not eaten at all and her drink had been onely two or three or four little cups of fair water once in two or three or in four dayes together Some having spoken of this others have counted it a forgery or pretence By such injections the Enemy would obscure and darken the Works of the Great God of Heaven But many Godly Ministers and Gracious Saints that know M ris Wight and the Maid and this Daughter of Abraham have ground to judge they truely feare the Lord and that they dare not lye but abhorre lying Now the Relator by conference with them hath it from their own mouths that from the time of her ceasing to be in Trances and to be deaf and blind which was April 19. to the day of the writing of this part of the Relation being May 5. shee hath not taken so much sustenance as shee did take in that time from March 27. to April 19. And from May 5. till Iune 11. being the longest day in the yeare lesse then that from April 19. The power of God appearing therein wonderfully to the beholders in upholding

her full 75 dayes without one crum of bread or meat and with so little drink Shee not being able to eat or to drink more then shee did but against her stomack When shee by urging yeelded to take somewhat shee could not keepe it but presently cast it up Shee never lov'd to drink strong waters nor strong drink from her infancy And when the Relator was told they could not get her to take of a Cordiall that was sent to her from a Lady that had been with her as they judged by the direction of D r Debote or of D r Worsley whom the Lady had lately sent to her he perswaded her to take of it and put it to her mouth But shee said Shee could not and said that the smell of it made her sick Which caused him to forbear further urging of her When lately one desired her if shee could to take some sustenance Shee answered I would if I could but I cannot it makes me sick to think of it Iesus Christ feeds me May 2. One asked her if shee would drinke M ris Sarah answered I cannot I have Iesus Christ I have enough he feeds mee with delights He not onely hath drops but he flows in of himselfe Shee was further urged to take somewhat M ris Sarah answered Shee desired not to be urged God hath given me food for my soule when my soule was well nigh starving for want of food but God hath given me Christ to feed upon and his flesh is meat indeed and his bloud drink indeed n Joh. 6. 55. God hath wrought a miracle in delivering my soule And if that he hath appointed life he will give me strength to take in the one as well as the other Now I am worse when I take it May 3. When shee was wish'd to drinke M ris Sarah answered I have wines well refined no dregs are in it It s pure that 's the purity of Christ. He gives me not cups full but he hath me into his wine-cellar o Can. 2.4 5. Old Transl. and fils me with flaggons May 4. M ris Palmer desired her that shee would take something to uphold her that shee might be an instrument of Gods glory that had done so much for her She answered What ever is for his glory he will enable me to doe it If it be his will that I should continue he will give me power to take in the Creature May 5. M ris Palmer came againe to her being very desirous to further her to eat or drink somewhat to nourish her Shee gave some such answer as is beforesaid M ris Palmer said What promise have you that any should live without food M ris Sarah presently answered Man lives not by bread onely but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God p Mat. 4. 4. M ris Palmer What 's meant by Word there M ris Sarah I think t is meant of Christ his love and mercy and goodnesse to poore sinners and that 's enough for any soule to live upon M ris Palmer answered It s enough for the soule but how shall the body doe M ris Sarah If it be the will of God that more of his power q 2 Cor. 12.9 shall be seen in sustaining me with so little his will is good Shee having said before that they saw that when shee took somewhat that it made her sick M ris Palmer asked her Doe your comforts remaine still as cleer and fresh as at first M ris Sarah answered Yes I have a standing River continually to drink of M ris Palmer ask'd Doe you sleep quietly without Dreames M ris Sarah answered I have dreames and sometimes I dreame of the free love of God towards me But once or twice I dreamed of the former terrors I was in and I trembled exceedingly and the bed shook under me exceedingly But I awaked and presently all was gone For he is unchangeable yesterday and to day and the same for ever r Heb. 13.8 This was May 5. 1647. At the former Conference with M ris Palmer the Relator was present and then writ Both the former and the latter M ris Palmer her selfe writ from whom the Relator had it and compared both together To another shee declared what torments shee had undergone for a moneth together before shee was forced to keep her bed which hath been ever since April 6. How shee walked in terror day and night what a Hell shee had in her Conscience and was tempted to beleeve there was neither God nor Devill neither Heaven nor Hell but what shee felt in her Conscience And therefore if shee were but out of this life there was an end of all her torments And hence shee sought to beat out her braines against the wall many times and thereby was bloudy and sweld And sought to cast her selfe down from steep places and got knives and other things to kill her selfe withall but was miraculously preserved because the Lord had a favour to her in her base estate But then shee thought If Christ should come in to her it was as if he should goe into a dunghill into a carraine That shee was tempted to blaspheme God and had much adoe to keep it in especially the last day of her souls affliction Wherein shee was very forcibly urged to blaspheme God and dye and so be out of her Torment which yet shee refused to speake it out till at last shee could no longer withhold but was even ready to utter forth that blasphemy and even then was her Tongue smit that shee could not speake Shee told moreover that shee usually every morning formerly was wont to read above twenty Chapters and so would have still'd her Temptations but was not a jot the better That shee could remember nothing of what shee had read but the judgements and they were laid open to her But all the promises were seal'd from me said shee One day I was tempted to throw my Bible into the fire and I threw it from me but it fell not into the fire But for this I was sore tormented that I would have throwne it into the fire Another time in my trouble I said what I was urged to say it was this If the Lord will not save me let him doe what he will with me Let him damne me But afterwards I was greatly terrified for it that I should bid him damne me And now shee saw the evill of yeelding to such Temptations shee thought to have had ease by yeelding but shee was the more terrified for her yeelding And yet the Lord magnified his mercy to her when shee thought that by such yeeldings God would surely damne her O the depths of Satans wiles and O the greater depths of the Goodnes of God! even so such seduced soules Shee further said That the same day wherein shee was forced to lye downe viz. April 6. shee was taken in all her body All was shaken and shee trembled exceedingly That her

should despaire because I have found mercy b 1 Tim. 13-16 I am not able to expresse how sweet that word is Behold O daughter of Ierusalem thy King Hab smiling at that word thy King cometh meek meek cometh meek riding on an Asse * Mat. 21.5 even on a Colt the foal of an Asse † Job 11.12 not on a horse ready trim'd He comes to a wild Asses colt to one unaccustomed to the yoke as Ephraim was | Jer. 31. 19 20. Yet Ephraim was a deare son a pleasant childe They cast their cloths on the Asse He cast his skirt over me not a skanty skirt a skirt that covered all my filthinesse My beloved is mine and I am my beloveds As an Appletree is among the Trees of the wood so is my beloved among the sons d Cant. 2. 3. What a pleasant thing is an Appletree among the Trees of the wood There 's both Protection and Provision there 's Protection from the beat under his shadow and his fruit was sweet to me there 's Provision Christ is protection a shelter a shelter from the storme e Isa. 4.6 Christ keeps his Church himselfe Men put others in their Garrisons but Christ keeps his Church his own self f Psal. 121. 4 5. I that was a far off far off from peace am made nigh by the bloud of the Crosse g Eph. 2. 13. Her brother spake aloud to her to take somewhat to refresh her body Shee then heard him and answered I cannot I have what I did desire I have a crucified Christ I am so full of the Creator that I now can take in none of the Creature I am fild with heavenly Manna h Joh. 6. 33-35 I am sore from the crown of the head to the sole of the foot But let the Lord doe what be will with me let him take me to his eternall rest I am content or leave me in this vaile of misery I am content i Phil. 4. 11. Thou art a free agent Thou workest when thou wilt and where thou wilt Shee said moreover Let the Lord doe with mee what he will if he throws me into hell I le be contented because I have deserv'd it k Ezr. 9. 13. But his mercy will save mee in the day of wrath l 1 Thes. 1. 10. Eph. 2. 3. 5. There 's no sin separates the soule from Christ but the sin of Vnbeliefe m Joh. 5. 40. And this is all the Faith I look after beleeving a full Christ to a nothing Creature a full Christ to a nothing Creature n Joh. 7. 37. Nothing makes a difference between me and the Devill but free Grace free Grace o Eph. 2. 1-8 He hath not forgot to be gracious he hath not forgot to be mercifull though I often said he had He hath not forgotten to be gracious though I said he had p Isa. 49. 14 15. Shee prayed for her beloved Ioseph her brother to this effect Blessed be Joseph of the Lord. The good will of him that dwelt in the bush be on the head of Joseph and on the top of the head of him that was separated from his Brethren q Deut. 33.16 Shee asked for the same persons that shee had named before and said They have sought the Lord for mee desire them to praise and magnifie the Lord with me When these came shee had ceased speaking and then shee lay still without speaking or drinking till the 19 th day having not eaten any thing at all since the 27 th of March nor drunke any thing at all but two or three of her little cups of fair water and that onely at once in two or three days as is beforesaid April 19. Shee put her finger to her mouth desiring water And one cup was given her then shee began thus God is a refuge and a shield from the stormes and tempests He hath avenged me on my adversary meaning the Devill that thought to be avenged on me and I thought he would but the Lord hath avenged me on him Shall the unrighteous Iudge doe justly meaning in avenging the widow on her adversary and shall not the righteous Iudge do justly Yea a thousand times more r Luk. 18. 6 7. Happy happy happy is the people that have the God of Jacob for their Excellency and whose strength is in the Lord s Psal. 144 15. Behold the Lord will come with a strong band He shall feed the flock like a Shepherd He shall carry his Lambs in his arme t Isa. 40. 11 12. I have born thee from the belly which have carried thee from the womb even to thy old age I am he and even to hoary haires will I carry thee u Isa. 46. 3 4. I le wait on him that hides himselfe from the house of Jacob w Isa. 8. 17. He hides himselfe from the House of Jacob yet they were his people Thou art worth the waiting for if one should wait from the day of their birth to the very day of their death even one glimpse of thee is worth all He that walks in darknesse and seeth no light let him trust on the Name of the Lord and stay himselfe upon his God his God though he be in darkness stay on his God Isa. 50 10. Bodily sustenance being offered to her shee not having eaten any thing at all during twenty-four dayes last past nor drunk any thing at all but fair water and but very little of that Shee thus answered Doe you think I doe not eat How doe you think I live Being asked what shee did eat Shee said No eye of man sees it but the eye of God None could tast the sweetnesse of the Manna by looking on it none but they that eat of it or of the Honey out of the Rock The redeemed of the Lord are a Royall Priesthood a chosen Generation He hath made us Kings and Priests unto God 1 Pet. 2. 9. Rev. 1.6 More precious then Gold Gold of Ophir The Lord hath avenged me on mine enemy that roared over mee night and day to have devoured me but he hath delivered mee They that know thy Name will trust in thee because thou Lord never failest them that seek thee Psal. 9. 10. Before shee called meaning her selfe he answered whilst shee was asking he heard and delivered me from all my feares Shee asked againe will not M r Iessey and M r Simpson come to praise and magnifie the Lord with mee they have prayed for me Then were her eares opened that since April 6. had been deafe except onely at that time that shee longed to heare that her Mother had pardon'd her and that shee might see and hear her Brother For then shee being asked whether shee desired to live shee heard and said I am contented with what the Lord will though I would rather dye Being told M r Iesse and M r Simpson desired shee might live Doe they said shee I must

but I understood not what I read till now that I had the Teaching of the Spirit He is worth the waiting for him There is a blessing pronounced to such Blessed are all that wait for him I did not wait patiently for him I was weary and could wait no longer But he is not weary He faileth not He lets the Creature goe his way for a time for his own good to humble him more and shew his mercy the more He hath him in a chaine and the enemy in a chaine So he hath the soule to dispose of it My times are in thy hands that he might magnifie mercy indeed and free love indeed No soule ever was as I have been I am sure of it If all the sins of all sinners that I read of or heard talk of were in one it were all short of me And yet t is his goodnesse that such a one as I should obtaine mercy I wish all may take heed of * The like expressions were by H.T. another in London in sicknesse Iuly 1. 1646. censuring the vilest creatures that are seeing the Lord hath done thus for me the vildest Creature but pitty them with teares of bloud One asked her how long it was since her hearing was restored to her She answered A few days agoe I asked if M r Simson and M r Jesse would come to praise the Lord with me and I found it was restored at that instant Part of a former Conference between her and another young Gentlewoman M ris A. whilst both were in despaire They met in Lawrence Pountney to hear the Lecture before it began M ris Sarah saw one walk about and about in a sad habit and went to her and asked her how shee did shee answered In as sad a condition as ever was any M ris Sarah None is in a Condition like to mine So they sate together and after that they went together and spake further of their sad conditions each counting their own state the worse Another day M ris A. said The Lord knows that knows all things that I would rather then all the world that I were in your condition M ris Sarah W. answ But if you knew how desperate my condition is you would be afraid to change place with me for you know not my sad sorrows None in the world can compare with mine Except you would desire to be in hell you would not desire to be in my condition M ris A. I must be damn'd M ris S. I am damn'd already from all eternitie to all eternitie it s not to doe but t is done already M ris A. I was a great professor but I was but an hypocrite and an hypocrites hope shall perish M ris S. I have bin an hypocrite a revolter a backslider M ris A. I know it shall be well with you M ris S. As well as it was with Judas who repented and hang'd himselfe which I must do before I shall be free from these torments At their parting for a farewell M ris A. said I think I shall perish ere I see you againe Yet the Lord spared her and shee came to her againe and they were somewhat gladded to see each other againe that could be sensible each of the others condition To sadded soules some joy it is to have companions Shee had another Conference April 24. 1647. since shee was comforted with another Maid being in deep despair that had heard of her former despair and her late comforts The words were to this effect Maid I am darkened in understanding and I am tempted to beleeve there is no God nor no Creation from God M ris Sarah W. ans So was it with mee I was so tempted The very Creation shews there is a God a Rom. 1. 19 20. and yet I could not beleeve it Maid said Some kept a fast for me yesterday and I remain as I was still and therefore I am the more terrified that no prayers shal be heard for me M ris Sarah W. So was it with me I was so terrified when there was no answer of prayers for me when in my dayes were kept for me But I was rather worse then better For I knew no prayers should be heard for a damned Creature I concluded I was rejected But the Lords time is the best time to give an answer b Psal. 88. 9. 16. Maid I have resisted the Spirit The Lord hath spoken mercy to me but I have resisted it M ris Sarah W. The day of Sealing was not come then you could not resist that work when he comes with power c Psal. 110. 3. els you would make God weaker then you God would bring you this way about and hides himselfe when you have grieved the Spirit that you may seek him the more earnestly and that he may give you the surer comforts and to make himselfe a glorious Name as in Isa. 63. 10 11. They rebelled and vexed his holy Spirit therefore he fought against them as an enemy Then he remembred the dayes of old when he led them by the right hand of Moses dividing the water before them to make himselfe an everlasting Name That led them through the deep So through the deepest troubles till the Spirit of the Lord causeth them to rest to make himselfe a glorious Name Though you have rebeld and vex'd his holy Spirit what could you doe more yet saith he I have carried thee all the dayes of old I le be your guide even to death Maid It s not possible that such a one as I should find mercy I look every moment to be swallowed up M ris Sarah W. But Gods thoughts are not your thoughts nor Gods wayes your wayes d Isa. 55. 8. In the Wildernesse Israel murmured yet the Rock followed them not they the Rock but went from the Rock yet the Rock followed them and that Rock is Christ e 1 Cor. 10. 4. So this Rock will follow you in this your Wildernesse Maid It s not possible I finde such a wicked heart that if it were not for feare of wrath or punishment I should fall into all wickednesse M ris Sarah W. Now you shew you beleeve there is a God You are not worse then Peter that so denied and forswore him against his Conscience f Mar. 14. 71. or then Mary Magdalen that had seven Devils was full of the Devill g Chap. 16. 9. The Theefe on the Crosse Persecuting Paul that persecuted Christ and my selfe was so injurious and blasphemous The chiefe of sinners yet these found mercy And what can you be more You can be but a sinner and the chiefe of sinners He dyed for such He is therefore cald Jesus because he shall save his people from their sinnes What people those that were not a people these he cals and these he saves Maid I am no better for going to the means and am ready to neglect all M ris Sarah W. I was so terrified I was not able

I was well enough in my thoughts before S. It s God that gives you to see it G. The Devill can shew sin by the Law S. The Devill can goe no further then his chaine The God of peace shall tread Satan under our feet and that shortly g Rom. 16.20 ` The Devill shall doe that that turnes to good to Gods people G. That 's spoke to them whose faith and obedience was gone abroad through the world S. Did Christ dye for the obedient or for the disobedient Christ dyed for the disobedient and rebellious that they might partake of his obedience He dyed for those Romans not when they were righteous but while they were yet sinners and ungodly and enemies Christ laid down his life for them and what obedience was in such Can you say God will not give you obedience I warrant you their disobedience went abroad first h Rom. 6. 17. before their obedience G. I refused all meanes of my good S. What if you had us'd all meanes G. Then I should have been more obedient S. Then you would have thought you were some body Meanes should be used But now Christ will be the more exalted when you were so negligent Isa. 43. end G. When M r Prig taught on those words Arise thou that sleepest stand up from the dead Christ shall give thee light k Eph. 5.14 I was moved at it I perceived by his teaching that sin was the sleep ingnorance was the cause and repentance was the awaking And I thought I did repent and I began and saw sin in others and saw how vile sins were and had a great desire to God and heaven sometimes I was so and by little and little grew cold I sin'd against Conscience and now I walke not in light but in darknes l Isa. 50. 10. S. Christ is light to them that are in darknesse m Lu. 1. 79. Who is it that awakens such but Christ You have been a backslider he saith n Ier. 3. 22. I le heale backslidings for my Names sake G. Now in all my reading and all I doe I sin S. You cannot number your sinnes and you cannot number his mercy You will have the more cause to magnifie his Grace if now he come in to you G. Now t is tedious to me to read or heare I am so captiv'd S. They that are free need not be redeem'd he came to deliver captives o Lu. 4. 18. Neither you nor sin nor Satan can awake but Christ can awake and will awake them that sleep No creature shall have a hand in his work to have the praise of it But his owne hand shall lay p Isa. 59. 15. hold on salvation G. I grew proud of it that I knew more then others and would be finding fault with others when all was nothing S. I cannot beleeve that ever any were beyond my condition in self and sin yet hath he shewed mercy on me G. I cannot be sorry for my sins S. Hee 'l shew you that he dyed for your sins and then you shall mourne over him as one mournes for his onely son q Zach 12. 10. He doth not onely bid Be sorry and turne to me But he turnes the heart and makes it sorry He was exalted to give repentance r Acts 5. 31. and remission of sinnes G. What hopes have I that have not repentance S. You have not repentance He gives it to those that have it not not to those that have it G. I am unthankfull undutifull S. Think not of what 's in you but of what is in Christ for you there 's unkindnesse in you but kindnesse in him He gives a thankfull heart His promise is to give a new heart He saith I le give it s Eze. 36.26.25 You are still remembring your sinnes still be remembring mercie in forgiving sins Remember his kindnesse to Israel in the Wildernes still they went from him and still he followed them t 1 Cor. 10.4 Hee 'l work and who shall let u Isa. 43.13 Neither sin nor Satan shall let when he will work Remember that stil. Another Conference with an afflicted woman that heard of this mercy and came to her May 12. Shee still remaining in Bed very weak and spent as beforesaid VVoman Being asked how it was with her she said I cannot beleeve S. It s his work to give to beleeve that dyed for sinners VVoman It s not for me S. It s for chiefe of sinners for Mary Magdalen that had seven Devil w Mar. 16.9 Woman My heart will not be wrought upon S. Is any thing too hard for God T is Christs work and t is his Office to work on hard hearts stony hearts Woman I am oft afraid I shall never be sav'd S. You are but afraid so He saith I le sustaine thee I le save thee be not afraid x Isa. 41.10 He puts under his everlasting armes I thought and said it was impossible that ever I should be sav'd Yet that which was impossible with me was not impossible with God y Lu. 18.27 But I thought it was impossible with God VVoman How long were you in that affliction Another answered about foure yeeres Woman But not continually S. Yes continually But this last halfe yeere in terror day and night VVoman I goe to the meanes but it is to no purpose S. So it was with me I was worse by the meanes VVhat may your condition be VVoman I have cursed thoughts of God continually About three quarters of a yeer agoe when my husband was dead I thought What was become of his soule and what would become of me that had made him worse by my perverse words to him when he was faulty and one morning after I was awake I thought the roome was full of smoake and suddenly a fire went in at my mouth and went downe hot into my belly and there it went flutter flutter Another that lately had been with her said this was just her condition she felt such a fire coming in at her mouth and so into her belly But after shee judged it was but a fancy but remaines in despaire ever since Then said the woman I suddenly flew out of my bed into the midst of the roome and a voice said within mee to my heart Thou art damn'd damn'd I felt the smell of brimstone Thus it began and I thought the house was full of Devils Then for six or seven weeks together I never slept at all I was so terrified and have been out of hopes ever since S. Iesus Chrisi came to dispossesse the strong man armed that kept the house and to possesse it himselfe a Lu. 11.22 The Lyon of the Tribe of Judah hath overcome that röaring Lyon that seekes to devoure you Woman I can see nothing but damnation S. I could see nothing but Hell and wrath I was as desperate as ever was any I said I cared not whether