even from my Youth and if my deceitful heart deceive me not I dare appeal unto thee for the sincerity of it oh that thou wouldest make me usefull to thee in that way or any way thou shalt be pleased to choose that I might glorifie thy great and holy Name Sweet Discoveries of the Love of God in Jesus Christ Oh how good a God have I who is pleased every day to bear up my Soul with the sweet influâ—nces of his gratious Spirit and pretious incomes of his tender Love O how could I sit and meditate of thy loving kindness all the day long where can I find any comfort in this World but in thy presence there have I Lord indeed through thy Grace found a fulness of Joy a time of endless pleasures O what am I or what is my Fathers House that I should be the daughter to a King that I a worm a poor detestable creature madâ— up with clay and dust nay worse then a worm they being creatures which shall prey upon me for that I am aâ—pointed for their food yet that the Lord of Hosts the Holy One of Israel the High and Mighty God the King of Glory the King of Kings who is a King over the whole Earth should yet be pleased thus to abase himself as to have thoughts of love for such a poor unworthy wâ—etched creature as I am oh how unworthy am I of thy favours yet Lord because thou hast bâ—d me hope in thy mercy I dare do no otherwise nay Lord thou hast commanded me to believe Loâ—d I believe pardon my unbelief that should in any ways cause me in the least to distrust the riches of thy Grace or thy unspeakable goodness which is thy Glory since thou art pleased dear Lord to make a worm the object of thy grace Oh let my Soul injoy these sweet transcendant pleasures which lye discovered to my soul in the rich treasury of thy unbounded love whilst others take their fill of Worldly vanities When I considered the sinfulness of my nature my weaknesses my frailtyes and my many infirmities oh what is there in me should ever cause the Lord to pitty me or yet to continue his favour to me in so â—aspeakable a manner N my Soul bless thou the Lord for Jesus Christ in whom the Lord is pleased richly to look upon thee O happy is the soul that is born up by such a support how wretched had my soul been had not the Lord laid help on one who is mighty hadst not thou had the Lord to be thy Saviour Christ the dear son of God to be thy Redeemer O blessed be the Lord and blessed be my Rock who hath thus looked upon sinful mankind and thus loved the Sons of Men as to give his only dearly beloved Son to dye for such poor miserable wretches as I O the wonderful goodness of God the transcendant and unspeakable riches of his grace in Jesus Christ O my Soul canst thou but be filled with holy admiration at the infiniteness of his Glory the unspeakable and transcendant beauty of thy dear Redeemer this indeed is rich mercy That the Lord should come into the World and give his life a ransome for poor sinners but that thou shouldest be one for whom the Lord was pleased to leave his glory to take upon him the habit of a servant the nature of a sinful man that thou shouldest be one for whom the Lord became himself a curse to redeem thee from the curse that was due to thee and from that which there was no Redemption but through the blood of that pure and spotless Lamb that Christ the Son of God should give himself to dye a shameful death for thee that thou mightest live that thou mightest be partaker of those glorious benefits and gratious priviledges which came by him O my soul that thou should be one to whom such exceeding love is shown O my soul how doth the love of Christ constrain thee to love him O my poor unworthy soul how art thou bound for ever to admire and only aim at and seek the glory of thy dear Redeemer O my dear Redeemer how is my poor unworthy heart carried out to admire thy dear and tender love Lord if to injoy the Communion with thy Saints and people here on earth be such a glorious priviledge which thou hast made my soul to long after O then what is it to injoy Communion with thy Saints and Angels to all Eternity in the presence of my Lord and Saviour What darkness can Eclipse that glory or rather will not that glory quite put out that glory which the World but falsly yeilds what is all the glory of the World or all the Kingdoms of the Earth compared to the apprehention of a Heavenly Kingdom in the soul here much less to the full injoyment of it to all Eternity What is all the glory of the world but poor empty husks poor deceitful vanities a very lie which at the best makes but ashamed but Lord how glorious art thou in the beauties of holiness my Soul hath found enough in thee to fill it with a holy admiration O that I might forever be admiring of thy glory what are the treasures of the earth poor low base things that we should have our hearts so much carried after them What is it the hearts of the World runs out so much after is if there was their greatest happiness Is it not that they may gain abundance of riches and what are they when they are gotten but thorns to put out their own eyeâ— they â—oyl and labour hard in the woâ—ld â—or that which is at best of no induring substance and if they make a shift to keep it whilst they continue here yet at the Grave this the great happiness must leave them O misserabâ—e are they whose chiefest good consists in worldly vanities what is all the treasure upon Earth to that in esteemable Riches which are only to be found in Jesus Christ of how much greater value is that one pearl of great price then all the Pearls and Diamonds aâ—d the richest treasure upon earth Lord fill thou my heart with Heavenly Treasure and let my Soul be rich in grace oh tâ—at iâ— might be such in which I might bring glory to thy Name Meditations upon my Saviours Love HOw excellent a thing is Love how doth it adorn a Christian and comes most near the Image of a loving Saviour never was any love like to his love he loved us not because we first loved him no we were enemies yet even then he loved us and had compassion on us O the riches of divine Love see the sweet indearments of a loving Saviour greater love can no man show then to lay down his life for his friends yea but our dear Lord said down his life for us when we were enemies and from being enemies he is pleased to stile us friends and not only so but behold what manner of love the Father hath
ones O then my Soul fly thou unto the Throne of Grace Loose not so great an opportunity of coming to thy Saviour refuse not so great love tendred unto thee the bearing so great a burthen the weight of which would sink thee down into the bottomless pit of eternal perdition under the heavy wrath of God there to have perished to all eternity O the unfathomed and transcendant love of thy God and Heavenly Father O my Soul how canst thou read and not live ever in the meditations of such great and glorious Love as this where with the Lord hath loved thee he was content to give himself a ransome unto death to satisfie the Justice of his Father and to regain that favour for thee which thou by sin hadst lost he was content not only to forsake the bosom of his father to empty himself of all his glory but to come down upon this sinful earth he who was the glory of the whole world was content to confine himself in a Virgins Womb he who had possession of the utmost parts of the earth was now content with a poor lodging in a stable he who is a King of Glory was pâ—eased to take upon him the form and habit of a servant and all for thee he was content to be come poor and low that thou through his poverty mightest become rich he who with one blast of his Nostrils could have consumed at once his enemies was now content to be scourged buffeted spit upon crowned with Thorns and all this to purchase life for sinners he who was equal with God the express image of his fathers person he the Son of God the dearly beloved of his Soul was sweetly content to bear the scoffs and base reproaches of sinful maâ—e and prayed for them Father forgive them for they know not what they do this the Lord Jesus was pleased to undergo for thee nor is this all but O those bloody sweats which run down his tender cheeks for thy hard heart those terrible agonies of Soul he felt having the whole wrath of God due unto thee and the world of sinners poured forth upon himself being smitten as with the strokes of an enemy which made him cry out my God my God why hast thou forsaken me these are the gratious evidences of the Love of God to these poor sinful Souls and thus hateful is sin in the eyes of a holy God as not to spare it in his dear and only Son who never sinned but in that he took upon him our sins he must also bear our punishment he himself bear our iniquities in his own body upon the tree he became a curse for thee to redeem thee from the curse of the Law this was the love of thy Saviour O behold the Love of thy Redeemer how powerful and constraining is this Love was ever any Love like this Hardly shall we see a Man lay down his Life for us when we were enemies to be buried in a Grave that with him thy sins might be buried in everlasting forgetfulness he rose again that in him thou mightest be glorified and to prepare a place for thee in endless Glory where he is now at the right hand of God making intercession for thee who would not have an Interest in this Christ who would not be in union with this Saviour O Soul tast and behold the goodness of this Lord in whom it hath pleased the Father all fulness should dwell Oh the sweet constraining power of his transcendant Love who loved thee when thou wert miserable to make thee happy O who would not fear thee O thou King of Naâ—ions and now what hath thy glorified Redeemer thy Lord required of thee for all his love to thee he caused thee to cast thy burden upon him when weary and heavy laden and imposeth nothing upon thee but a sweet and easie yoke take my yoke upon you be intressed in my Love what is this yoke but a sweet complacency of love in uniting of the parties loving Soul saith the Lord of Lords give me thy sins and take my self to be thy Saviour take my yoke on thy neck that so thou mayest become in union with me thou maist become mine and I thine as my tender Spouse Lord what are we poor empty sinful creatures that thou shou dest thus condescend to woe invite intreat such poor despicable creatures who mightest command us by thy power to do whatever pleaseth thee O were it not the infinite goodness of our God to poor sinful man thou mightest have left us to have perished in our iniquities and raised up children of the stones to praise thee O sweet condescending love for us to be yoked in your affections unto thee and from enemies become thus thy friends to receive the yoke of Christ it is to receive the love and commands of Christ and be united as a branch unto the vine by which thou doest injoy true Spiritual communion with thy God what happiness like this how great and many are the priviledges that come by him O blessed be God for this love and the eternal riches of his grace in effecting and calling thee to so great an eternal weight of glory O had it not been through free grace what benefit couldest thou have had of this most glorious redemption by Jesus Christ what power couldest thou have had to come and cast thy self at his feet uâ—der the weight of thy sins it was free grace that led the out to see thine own insufficency unto any thing that was good and thy miserable condition without a Christ O was it not free grace and mercy by which the Lord was pleased to draw thereby the cords of love unto the Lord Jesus by whom a lone thou hast redemption O what hadest thou been and what had been thy life had it not been for this sweet crown of all thy comforts therefore O Lord to thee be glory for the riches of thy grace by which my soul is yet alive to praise thee and blessed be thy mercy for it is great to me poor miserable sinner what are the priviledges thou injoyest through this sweet union with thy Saviour O surely they are enough to make rhee live for ever in the meditations of them who can fathome that bottomless Ocean O how canst thou comprehend that which is in comprehensible this love which passeth understanding into which the more thou searchest the more thou admirest O what canst thou say but be filled with holy admiration to behold with what manner of Love the Father the omnipotent King of Kings and the eternal Lord who reigns in endless Glory hath loved thee Meditations on the great mistery of Godliness O how great is the mistery of Godliness in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ HOw wonderful excellent of how great concern to know him aright Help thou my Soul dâ—ar Lord to meditate on this swâ—â—â— incomprehensible subject O fill it with this Rich and Heavenly Treasure O let me not
patience that race which thou hast Lord appointed me to run with perseverance in true Godliness unto the end That when any Bâ—ridegroom comes I may be drest With him to go unto that Marriage Feast And being fitly trim'd may meet my Dear And gratious Lord where I shall never fear More to displease him but delighted be In fresh Communion to Eternity O blessed Lord how hast thou sweetned grace In making me to behold thy Heavenly face How beautiful dost thou appear to thine On whom thou makest thy glorious face to shine Inflame my heart Lord with more heavenly fire And fill my heart with love more to aspire Through grace dear Lord thou hast made love to me More sweet and pleasant then all Wines can be By sweetness blest and put in gratious store Given to those poor Souls which will implore Thy Heavenly blessings O let thy love then fill Mâ— Soul with Songs of praises to thee still If drops of love thus pleasant are to thee What will the Ocean in thy presence be But I have tasted the abundant goodness of my God therefore shall my Soul trust in thee and though my sins are many yet thy love is unchangeable O blessed be thou O Lord and blessed in thy everlasting love by which thou wert pleased to look upon so poor and base a creature and cloath her naked soul When new born by grace in Eternal Wisdom with that most glorious robe of Righteousness through which to afford it so glorious a priviledge as to come into thy presence even I a poor worm and to plead with the great and holy O infinite and transcendant love of the eternal glorious God to poor sinful Dust and Ashes And now what hath the Lord required in return of this his great and tender love by which he hath broken thy bands but love for love again canst thou not love the Lord with all thy heart that thus hath loved thee What love Lord was ever like that of thine to me and shall it be for gotten O shall my stupid heart forget what Christ hath done for me O let it be more deeply ingraven in my Soul But now my Soul should we examine how far thou hast gone in thy Masters work he hath committed to thee how far short doest thou come of doing what thou wert commanded yet through grace my Soul desires to be found faithful in the talent thou Lord hast in mercy committed to my trust and nothing more hath my soul desired then to be made conformable to thy blessed will in all things what is thy will O Lord let my will be wholly assenting thereto thou art he who knowest what is best for me O how sweet and how much pleasure should I find in afflictionâ— or in the greatest evils this life could inflict upon me could but I find my God in them O how sweet and glorious would be the darkest and obscurest corner of the earth might I but find there thy glorious presence far better then the Courts of Princes what are they Lord or all the pleasures of this vain world to one hours communion with thy blessed self O blessed be the holy name of my most gratious Lord who caused me to say with blessed David I had rather be a door-keeper in the House of my God then to injoy the greatest pleasures and preferments upon the earth Yea Lord so do I fear my frail Nature and my Deceitful Heart that I dare not ask thee any thing of that least I fall into temptation or be taken in a snare and so forget my God but this would I do dear â—ord wholly resign my self into thy gratious hands what Lord thou seest fitting for me let me be there with content My time O Lord which here I have is short and thy pleasure shall suffice since thou hast chose for me an Heritage Eternally in thy presence where is fulness of joy and rivâ—rs of plâ—asures for evermore but this Lord let me beg since tâ—s thy gratious pleasure thus to condescend to suffer such poor Worms to plead with thee O that thy grace may be sufficient for me to answer all my wants and subdue all my corruptions and every thing that stands in opposition to thy Glory that I may pass the time of my so journing here iâ— fear to offend my good and gratious God whom I have not found flack concerning his promise but infinitely beyond what I dare ask For Lord in thee are all my fresh springs and thou only knowest of what I stand in need this is my comfort that through grace I can say O let me ever remember it unto thy Glory that though thou feed me with the bread of affliction yet thou art my God and though I am a poor unworthy sinful creature yet art thou still a God that changeth not but thou hast made with me through thy free grace and mercy an everlasting Covenant which shall never be revoked Meditations on the power of God God being her Father FIx thou O Lord my Soul upon those heavenly Mansions those Celestial Glories where thy presence dwells then shall I say Lord make thou here my resting place my soul desires to be with thee and to behold thy Glory man in his best estate is altogether vanity and yet the infinite and holy God sees matter of pitty in him yea he pittyed them in their low estate because his mercies indure for ever it was mercy caused him to take such pitty of the poor Soul when in thy blood when poor and miserable wretchedly miserable and he is the same God still not only able but willing to continue merciful ye the mercy of the Lord is from everlasting to everlasting unto them that fear him and as the heavens are in height above the earth my poor soul look up then and see O see what great things the Lord hath done for thee it is â—e the holy one of Israel who in habiteth eternity who dwelletlâ— in the â—ighest heavens in the infinite and in compreâ—ensiable God the King of glory the Lord of hosts omnipotent in power Majestyes and gâ—ory omnipotent in every place a God wâ—ose name is wonderfull and who gloryeth in his mercy because he delighteth to be gratious t is he whose own arm brought Salvation for thee and hath redeemed thy life from destruction and saved and called thee out of the cruel boâ—dage of him who sought thy finall destruction O therefore my soul forever bless the Lord and forget not all his benefits let them be written on the table of thy heart for an everlasting memoriall this great King of Heaven and earth that hath condescended so far as to stoop to the poor sinfull dust and ashes from whom thou deservest nothing but frowns and eternall wrath begs thy acceptance of him to be thy Saviour behold I stand at the door and knock O open those everlasting doors that the king of glory may come in Aâ—d take up his abode in the poor Soul so ever