sake_n as_o also_o thy_o own_o who_o be_v bless_v for_o ever_o amen_n the_o xxviii_o confession_n incina_n cor_fw-la meum_fw-la deus_fw-la in_o testimonia_fw-la tua_fw-la 118._o ecce_fw-la concupui_fw-la mandata_fw-la tua_fw-la in_fw-la aequitate_fw-la tua_fw-la vivifica_fw-la me-incline_a my_o god_n my_o hart_n to_o thy_o testimony_n and_o in_o thy_o truth_n quicken_v my_o soul._n for_o behold_v my_o soul_n do_v exceed_o covet_v to_o perform_v thy_o law_n for_o thy_o law_n be_v truth_n and_o the_o effect_n thereof_o be_v justice_n and_o peace_n and_o joy_n in_o the_o holy_a ghost_n when_o i_o remember_v how_o i_o have_v stray_v from_o thou_o by_o sin_n i_o become_v ashamed_a before_o thâ—e_n but_o when_o i_o consider_v thy_o mercy_n i_o hope_v still_o notwithstanding_o what_o be_v pass_v to_o become_v through_o thy_o grace_n which_o so_o sweet_o prevent_v i_o please_v to_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n o_o lord_n enlighten_v my_o soul_n obscuredâ—_n by_o sin_n and_o ill_a custom_n enlighten_v it_o that_o i_o may_v walk_v the_o way_n of_o justice_n and_o truth_n which_o be_v the_o way_n whereof_o thou_o speak_v by_o esaie_n the_o prophet_n 8._o in_o which_o a_o fool_n can_v err_v as_o he_o affirmethâ—_n o_o let_v i_o by_o true_a humility_n become_v a_o fool_n according_a to_o his_o meaning_n let_v i_o become_v as_o a_o bittle_a child_n that_o i_o may_v be_v capable_a of_o enter_v into_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n certain_o we_o ought_v to_o live_v so_o subject_a to_o thou_o that_o we_o have_v no_o election_n of_o any_o thing_n as_o pretend_v ourselves_o for_o time_n or_o eternity_n and_o also_o we_o ought_v to_o have_v in_o our_o soul_n such_o a_o relation_n to_o thou_o that_o in_o thy_o light_n in_o thy_o truth_n and_o whole_o according_a to_o thy_o will_n we_o perform_v all_o we_o do_v and_o out_o of_o that_o respect_n omit_v what_o we_o omit_v ☞_o o_o my_o god_n let_v i_o i_o say_v walk_v this_o way_n of_o love_n which_o know_v not_o how_o to_o sack_v it-self_n in_o any_o tâ—ing_n whatsoever_o let_v this_o love_n whole_o possess_v my_o soul_n and_o hart_n which_o i_o beseech_v thou_o may_v live_v and_o move_v only_o in_o and_o out_o of_o a_o pure_a and_o sincere_a love_n to_o thou_o who_o above_o all_o aught_o to_o be_v love_v and_o desire_v let_v this_o fire_n which_o thou_o come_v into_o this_o world_n to_o send_v and_o will_v it_o shall_v burn_v consume_v i_o whole_o into_o itself_o that_o forgetful_a of_o myself_o and_o all_o create_a thing_n i_o may_v be_v mindful_a of_o thou_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n it_o be_v thy_o promise_n that_o where_o sin_n â—ath_v abound_v graâ—e_o shall_v superbound_v that_o the_o riches_n of_o thy_o merâ—y_n may_v appear_v and_o show_v it-self_n to_o the_o glory_n of_o thy_o holy_a name_n which_o mercy_n i_o beseech_v thou_o extend_v itself_o â—o_o i_o that_o i_o may_v praise_v thou_o for_o ever_o and_o ever_o o_o that_o thy_o pure_a love_n be_v â—o_o ground_v and_o establish_v in_o my_o hart_n that_o i_o may_v sigh_v and_o pant_v without_o cease_v after_o thou_o and_o be_v â—ble_n in_o the_o strength_n of_o this_o thy_o love_n â—o_o live_v without_o alâ—_n comfort_n and_o conâ—olation_n human_a or_o divine_a thereby_o â—o_o become_v the_o more_o conformable_a to_o â—hee_o the_o belove_a of_o my_o soul_n o_o how_o â—appy_a be_v they_o that_o true_o love_n tâ—ee_v certain_o whatsoever_o they_o suffer_v it_o â—â—_o very_o tolerable_a to_o they_o because_o he_o or_o who_o love_n they_o suffer_v be_v thâ—ir_a helâ—er_n indeed_o my_o lord_n thou_o be_v a_o hiden_n god_n but_o yet_o not_o so_o hide_v from_o â—ur_n soul_n but_o that_o in_o some_o sort_n we_o â—ave_n therein_o according_a to_o our_o poor_a capacity_n not_o only_o a_o taste_n but_o also_o sight_n of_o thou_o for_o as_o even_o thou_o thy_o self_n have_v say_v 8._o bless_v be_v the_o clean_a of_o hart_n for_o they_o shall_v see_v god_n o_o sight_n to_o be_v wish_v desire_a and_o long_v forâ—_n because_o once_o to_o have_v see_v thou_o be_v to_o have_v learn_v all_o thing_n nothing_o can_v bring_v we_o to_o this_o sight_n but_o love_n but_o what_o love_n must_v it_o be_v not_o a_o sensible_a love_n only_o a_o childish_a love_n a_o love_n which_o seek_v it-self_n more_o than_o the_o belove_a no_o but_o it_o must_v bâ—_n a_o ardent_a love_n a_o pure_a love_n a_o couradgious_a love_n ☞_o a_o love_n of_o charity_n anâ—_n humble_a love_n and_o a_o constant_a love_n not_o wear_v out_o with_o labour_n noâ—_n daunt_v with_o any_o difficulty_n o_o lord_n give_v this_o love_n unto_o my_o soul_n that_o â—_o may_v never_o more_o live_v nor_o breath_n buâ—_n out_o of_o a_o most_o pure_a love_n of_o thou_o my_o all_o and_o only_o good_a let_v i_o love_v thou_o foâ—_n thyself_o and_o nothing_o else_o but_o in_o anâ—_n for_o thou_o let_v i_o love_v nothing_o in_o steeâ—_n of_o thou_o 8._o for_o to_o give_v all_o for_o love_n be_v â—â—_o most_o sweet_a bargain_n for_o love_n be_v as_o stronâ—_n as_o death_n o_o that_o this_o thy_o love_n may_v floâ—_n in_o such_o abundance_n into_o the_o harâ—_n of_o all_o capable_a thereof_o that_o the_o sonâ—_n of_o thy_o love_n and_o praise_n may_v contiâ—nually_o be_v hear_v through_o out_o all_o the_o earth_n o_o what_o do_v we_o do_v love_a vanity_n and_o seek_v a_o lie_n what_o do_v â—â—e_z abuse_v the_o most_o noble_a capacity_n of_o our_o soul_n by_o desire_v that_o which_o pass_v away_o like_a smoke_n what_o do_v â—â—e_z love_v that_o which_o be_v more_o changeable_a than_o the_o moon_n can_v any_o â—hing_n satiate_v our_o heart_n but_o our_o god_n can_v we_o find_v true_a repose_n out_o of_o he_o â—s_v any_o thing_n worthy_a of_o our_o love_n but_o â—hat_n goodness_n which_o be_v love_n it-self_n and_o â—hom_n the_o more_o we_o love_v the_o more_o we_o â—re_n able_a to_o love_n because_o for_o love_n he_o make_v we_o capable_a of_o love_n but_o alas_o my_o god_n my_o soul_n be_v in_o honour_n â—nd_v i_o know_v not_o it_o i_o be_v compare_v â—o_o beast_n and_o by_o sin_n become_v like_a to_o â—hem_o or_o worse_o than_o they_o be_v this_o my_o equital_n for_o all_o thy_o love_n be_v this_o excusable_a that_o my_o soul_n make_v by_o theeâ—o_o â—o_z be_v delight_v with_o the_o food_n of_o â—ngels_n which_o be_v love_n shall_v delight_v â—â—self_n with_o the_o bread_n of_o swine_n o_o be_v â—y_a hart_n able_a to_o rehear_n this_o before_o â—â—ee_v and_o not_o through_o excessive_a grief_n â—reak_v in_o sunder_o can_v i_o in_o my_o nature_n not_o abide_v to_o be_v disloyal_a to_o one_o who_o i_o find_v to_o be_v a_o faithful_a friend_n to_o i_o and_o can_v i_o endure_v to_o remember_v my_o disloyalty_n to_o my_o god_n can_v i_o with_o joy_n undergo_v for_o my_o friend_n ☞_o disgrace_n and_o difficulty_n and_o can_v i_o endure_v nothing_o for_o my_o god_n be_v the_o absence_n of_o a_o dear_a friend_n intolerable_a to_o i_o and_o can_v i_o abide_v to_o see_v myself_o cease_v at_o any_o time_n to_o sigh_v and_o long_o after_o my_o god_n o_o no_o my_o god_n let_v that_o be_v far_o from_o i_o i_o here_o renounce_v before_o heaven_n and_o earth_n all_o inordinate_a affection_n to_o creature_n place_n with_o thy_o own_o hand_n tâ—â—_n love_n in_o their_o roomâ—_n that_o it_o expel_v thence_o all_o â—hat_n now_o be_v therein_o displease_v to_o tâ—ine_a eye_n thou_o maâ—â—_n thy_o selâ—_n whole_o possess_v i_o give_v and_o distribute_v my_o affection_n and_o dispose_v the_o passion_n of_o my_o haâ—â—_n according_a to_o thy_o sweet_a will_n which_o only_o be_v just_a only_o holy_a and_o true_a iâ—_n it-self_n c_o how_o sincere_a then_o be_v oâ—_n affection_n when_o we_o love_v our_o neigâ—â—bour_n only_o in_o and_o for_o thou_o theâ—â—_n we_o pity_v not_o one_o and_o be_v hard_o heart_v to_o another_o according_a to_o the_o inclination_n of_o our_o perverse_a nature_n but_o behold_v thou_o in_o all_o and_o consequent_o willing_o serve_v and_o assist_v all_o for_o thy_o love_n then_o we_o do_v not_o show_v our_o seve_v meek_a only_o to_o our_o friend_n but_o also_o to_o those_o by_o who_o we_o suffer_v most_o contradiction_n and_o glad_o upon_o all_o occasion_n extend_v our_o charity_n for_o there_o be_v no_o true_a friendship_n but_o that_o which_o be_v found_v upon_o thou_o and_o which_o be_v maintain_v without_o impediment_n to_o thy_o love_n ☜_o this_o be_v only_o the_o love_n of_o charity_n which_o charity_n know_v not_o how_o to_o repine_v to_o be_v angry_a to_o be_v exceptious_a to_o be_v inconstant_a to_o be_v troublesome_a to_o be_v suspicious_a or_o jealous_a for_o it_o regard_v thou_o in_o all_o and_o desire_v thou_o above_o all_o it_o take_v all_o in_o good_a part_n it_o wonder_v not_o to_o see_v man_n exceed_v in_o word_n find_v it-self_n so_o often_o to_o offend_v in_o
i_o in_o their_o holy_a prayer_n which_o be_v most_o please_v to_o thou_o and_o i_o also_o desire_v that_o some_o will_v out_o of_o their_o charity_n read_v these_o thing_n to_o i_o which_o hereafter_o follow_v when_o sick_a to_o death_n shall_v be_v becompass_v with_o those_o fear_n and_o terror_n which_o ordinary_o accompany_v that_o dreadful_a hour_n at_o which_o time_n as_o all_o oâ—her_n be_v thou_o my_o helper_n and_o protectorâ—_n and_o in_o the_o bowel_n of_o thy_o mercy_n good_a father_n remember_v i_o poor_a beggar_n and_o from_o heaven_n send_v i_o now_o and_o at_o my_o departure_n thy_o grace_n which_o may_v bring_v i_o to_o thou_o where_o i_o may_v with_o all_o thy_o elect_n praiseâ—_n adore_v and_o worship_v thou_o for_o ever_o and_o ever_o a_o act_n of_o contrition_n partly_o take_v ouâ—_n of_o the_o word_n of_o bless_a s._n augustin_n 1._o o_o lord_n i_o confess_v i_o have_v sin_v above_o the_o sand_n of_o the_o sea_n in_o number_n yet_o such_o be_v the_o grief_n which_o i_o take_v thereat_o that_o i_o will_v not_o refuse_v to_o suffer_v any_o kind_n of_o punishment_n for_o thâ—_n same_o o_o jesus_n whatsoever_o thy_o will_n shall_v be_v that_o i_o shall_v do_v i_o desire_v to_o perform_v it_o according_a to_o thy_o holy_a wil._n i_o have_v nothing_o to_o offer_v unto_o thou_o but_o a_o hart_n willing_a to_o do_v whatsoever_o thouâ—ouldst_a â—ouldst_z have_v i_o 2._o hâ—er_o i_o offer_v myself_n bind_v both_o hand_n and_o foot_n and_o i_o lie_v prostrate_a at_o thy_o foot_n crave_v pardon_n for_o my_o abominable_a sin_n and_o offence_n 3._o i_o fly_v not_o away_o i_o appeal_v not_o from_o thy_o sentence_n otherwise_o then_o from_o thy_o justice_n to_o thy_o mercy_n which_o we_o sinner_n do_v daily_a experience_n to_o be_v above_o all_o thy_o work_n 4._o i_o do_v not_o plead_v to_o be_v release_v of_o any_o punishment_n but_o rather_o that_o thou_o may_v judge_v i_o according_a to_o thy_o own_o bless_a will_n only_o let_v i_o not_o be_v separate_v from_o thou_o o_o thou_o thy-self_n do_v say_v to_o we_o thou_o will_v not_o sinner_n death_n but_o that_o we_o do_v convert_v and_o live_v even_o while_o our_o soul_n have_v breath_n and_o no_o more_o than_o to_o cease_v to_o be_v can_v thou_o o_o god_n refuse_v to_o pardon_v humble_a penitent_n that_o do_v themselves_o accuse_v be_v no_o accepter_n of_o person_n all_o have_v cost_v thou_o dear_a yea_o even_o thy_o very_a life_n it-self_n how_o can_v i_o therefore_o fear_n if_o ever_o yet_o he_o do_v disdain_n sinner_n that_o flee_v to_o he_o then_o have_v i_o little_a cause_n of_o hope_n but_o this_o be_v never_o see_v foâ—_n if_o they_o do_v return_v to_o thou_o thy_o hart_n thou_o will_v not_o close_o as_o witness_n can_v my_o wretched_a soul_n who_o be_v so_o like_a to_o lose_v all_o grace_n and_o goodness_n if_o thou_o have_v not_o i_o with_o help_v prevent_v by_o sin_n that_o will_v with_o bloody_a tear_n be_v while_o i_o live_v lament_v if_o i_o as_o grateful_a be_v to_o thou_o as_o thou_o deserve_v i_o shall_v or_o as_o another_o in_o my_o case_n vuto_n thy_o mercy_n will_v but_o thou_o while_o that_o thou_o live_v here_o by_o token_n plain_n do_v show_v that_o none_o shall_v be_v refuse_v by_o thou_o who_o do_v in_o mercy_n flow_v and_o that_o my_o wicked_a hart_n do_v prove_v who_o after_o â—ins_n so_o many_o have_v find_v much_o favour_n in_o thy_o eye_n without_o deserve_v any_o o_o bless_a ever_o be_v my_o god_n for_o this_o prevent_a grace_n which_o i_o unworthy_a have_v receive_v in_o this_o most_o happy_a place_n i_o flee_v from_o thou_o by_o many_o sin_n and_o thou_o do_v follow_v i_o as_o if_o my_o ruin_n will_v have_v cause_v some_o detriment_n to_o thou_o how_o can_v this_o choose_v but_o wound_v my_o hart_n when_o i_o remember_v it_o and_o ever_o serve_v to_o humble_v i_o while_o at_o thy_o foot_n i_o sit_v from_o whence_o my_o lord_n my_o god_n and_o all_o permit_v i_o not_o to_o rise_v till_o i_o do_v love_n thou_o as_o thou_o will_v the_o which_o do_v all_o comprise_v 5._o i_o know_v thou_o will_v not_o the_o death_n of_o a_o sinner_n but_o rather_o that_o i_o be_v convert_v and_o live_v 6._o be_v pacify_v therefore_o i_o beseech_v thou_o for_o thy_o own_o saâ—e_v and_o receive_v i_o into_o thy_o favour_n look_v upon_o thy_o own_o wound_n and_o let_v they_o plead_v my_o pardon_n do_v not_o for_o ever_o blot_v i_o out_o of_o â—he_n book_n of_o life_n but_o rather_o give_v i_o grace_n faithful_o hereafter_o to_o serve_v and_o please_v thou_o 7._o i_o know_v it_o be_v reason_n that_o one_o who_o have_v be_v so_o ungrateful_a to_o thy_o supreme_a majesty_n as_o i_o have_v be_v shall_v humble_v despise_v and_o willing_o abase_v himself_o even_o at_o the_o foot_n of_o all_o creature_n which_o thy_o sweet_a goodness_n grant_v i_o to_o do_v that_o i_o may_v hereafter_o find_v savour_n in_o thy_o eye_n who_o be_v bless_v and_o praise_v by_o all_o for_o ever_o amen_n o_o sweet_a jesus_n to_o who_o nothing_o be_v impossible_a but_o not_o to_o be_v merciful_a to_o the_o miserable_a forgive_v i_o my_o offence_n i_o be_o sorry_a from_o the_o bottom_n of_o my_o hart_n that_o ever_o i_o offend_v thou_o or_o contradict_v thy_o holy_a will_n but_o i_o know_v thou_o can_v forgive_v more_o than_o i_o can_v offend_v which_o make_v i_o confident_a of_o be_v receive_v into_o thy_o favour_n though_o thy_o most_o abundant_a mercy_n to_o who_o my_o god_n be_v give_v all_o laud._n honour_n and_o praise_v by_o all_o creature_n in_o heaven_n and_o in_o earth_n for_o ever_o and_o everâ—_n amen_o o_o amiable_a jesus_n behold_v all_o thy_o creature_n do_v invite_v and_o exhort_v i_o to_o yield_v thâ—e_n praise_n for_o all_o thy_o benefit_n which_o have_v be_v i_o must_v ackowledg_v without_o end_n or_o measure_n towards_o i_o thy_o unworthy_a creature_n every_o creature_n do_v in_o their_o kind_n sing_v and_o set_v forth_o thy_o great_a goodness_n invite_v i_o to_o love_v only_o thou_o and_o yet_o behold_v how_o cold_a and_o dull_a i_o be_o in_o love_v praise_v and_o exalt_v thou_o o_o what_o shall_v i_o say_v but_o cry_v out_o to_o thou_o who_o be_v my_o hope_n my_o help_n my_o love_n my_o life_n and_o all_o yea_o my_o father_n my_o spouse_n and_o my_o god_n to_o grant_v thy_o grace_n may_v not_o be_v void_a in_o i_o after_o so_o many_o infinite_a benefit_n o_o be_v thou_o hereafter_o the_o only_a desire_n and_o joy_n of_o my_o soul._n let_v i_o look_v after_o nothing_o but_o thou_o love_v nothing_o but_o thou_o let_v i_o night_n and_o day_n sigh_v and_o long_o after_o thou_o my_o belove_a let_v it_o suffice_v i_o to_o have_v my_o inteution_n and_o proceed_n only_o approve_a by_o thou_o o_o let_v i_o honour_n and_o respect_v all_o for_o thy_o sake_n howsoever_o they_o treat_v i_o for_o my_o ingratitude_n have_v be_v so_o great_a to_o thou_o that_o all_o creature_n as_o well_o goâ—d_a as_o bad_a may_v just_o despise_v i_o and_o do_v thou_o great_a honour_n thereby_o i_o offer_v thou_o therefore_o thou_o own_o merit_n see_v i_o have_v none_o of_o i_o own_o for_o those_o that_o shall_v any_o way_n revenge_v thy_o quarrel_n by_o afflict_v she_o who_o deserve_v nothing_o but_o hell_n for_o have_v so_o often_o offend_v thou_o after_o something_o which_o she_o have_v collect_v out_o of_o the_o follow_v of_o christ_n concern_v prayer_n she_o write_v as_o follow_v o_o my_o lord_n god_n how_o much_o do_v thy_o saint_n praise_n and_o commend_v the_o holy_a exercise_n of_o prayer_n o_o how_o happy_a be_v â—hose_v that_o have_v no_o other_o study_n or_o care_n then_o how_o to_o extol_v and_o praise_v thy_o divine_a majesty_n and_o in_o humility_n of_o hart_n to_o make_v their_o necessity_n know_v unto_o thou_o who_o be_v the_o father_n of_o mercy_n &_o dius_n totius_fw-la consolationis_fw-la qui_fw-la consolatur_fw-la nos_fw-la in_o omni_fw-la tribulatione_fw-la nostra_fw-la and_o the_o god_n of_o all_o consolation_n who_o comfort_v we_o in_o all_o our_o tribulation_n to_o who_o shall_v we_o sinner_n fly_v but_o to_o thou_o my_o god_n who_o do_v thou_o ever_o reject_v that_o lament_a and_o wâ—s_v sorry_a for_o their_o sin_n nay_o do_v not_o publican_n and_o harlot_n find_v thou_o more_o willing_a to_o forgive_v they_o they_o can_v be_v to_o ask_v for_o pardon_n thou_o who_o forgave_v s._n peter_n s._n mary_n magdalen_n s._n augustin_n and_o infinite_a other_o their_o sin_n and_o offence_n be_v merciful_a to_o i_o who_o groan_v in_o spirit_n against_o myself_n to_o see_v and_o remember_v that_o i_o have_v make_v no_o more_o haste_n to_o conclude_v a_o everlasting_a peace_n and_o league_n with_o thou_o o_o my_o god_n to_o thou_o now_o all_o the_o power_n of_o my_o scatter_a
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thou_o will_v be_v love_v by_o i_o whicâ—_n be_v all_o i_o wish_v or_o desire_v to_o this_o end_n i_o fly_v to_o thou_o to_o this_o end_n i_o sigh_v after_o thou_o only_o wish_v and_o desiirng_a that_o in_o all_o thing_n thy_o holy_a will_n may_v be_v perfect_o accomplish_v in_o i_o for_o time_n and_o eternity_n if_o i_o shall_v not_o hourly_a approach_n to_o thou_o who_o be_v the_o only_a true_a light_n darkness_n and_o the_o shadow_n of_o death_n will_v overwhelm_v i_o and_o make_v i_o uncapable_a of_o this_o thy_o light_n which_o lead_v to_o the_o true_a love_n of_o thou_o o_o how_o happy_a be_v i_o if_o i_o can_v true_o say_v anima_fw-la mea_fw-la in_o manibus_fw-la meis_fw-la semper_fw-la my_o soul_n in_o my_o hand_n always_o that_o so_o my_o soul_n may_v true_o hear_v and_o follow_v what_o my_o lord_n speak_v to_o my_o hart_n for_o thy_o word_n eat_v work_n o_o give_v i_o a_o true_a contempt_n of_o myâ—sef_n that_o i_o may_v die_v to_o all_o that_o the_o world_n esteem_v or_o 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forth_o question_v without_o thy_o send_n be_v but_o a_o mere_a immortification_n and_o do_v entangle_v the_o soul_n and_o bring_v she_o into_o inconvenience_n incomprehensible_a and_o for_o such_o do_v when_o we_o so_o do_v we_o can_v pass_v without_o a_o bitter_a check_n for_o it_o in_o our_o interior_a by_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n as_o thou_o know_v my_o good_a lord_n my_o soul_n have_v experience_v for_o those_o soul_n that_o thou_o lead_v by_o the_o way_n of_o love_n of_o they_o i_o say_v thou_o exact_a that_o they_o shall_v make_v their_o moan_n only_o to_o thou_o thou_o have_v as_o it_o be_v give_v they_o a_o pledge_n that_o thou_o will_v become_v all_o in_o all_o and_o above_o all_o to_o they_o if_o they_o will_v but_o remain_v faithful_a to_o thou_o also_o they_o so_o little_a desire_n or_o esteem_v any_o grace_n comfort_n or_o favour_n which_o can_v be_v grant_v ☞_o or_o bestow_v upon_o they_o but_o only_o so_o far_o as_o they_o be_v mere_o necessary_a to_o maintain_v they_o in_o grace_n and_o favour_n in_o thou_o and_o only_o as_o they_o be_v think_v fit_a for_o they_o by_o thou_o who_o they_o deâ—ire_v to_o be_v gratful_a to_o for_o all_o thy_o benefit_n that_o they_o never_o desire_v they_o but_o wish_v rather_o to_o adhere_v to_o thou_o by_o pure_a faith_n ☞_o that_o they_o may_v become_v thereby_o the_o more_o dear_a and_o please_a to_o thou_o for_o a_o as_o my_o lord_n god_n what_o be_v all_o thou_o can_v give_v to_o a_o love_a soul_n who_o sigh_v and_o pant_v after_o thou_o alone_o and_o esteem_v all_o thing_n as_o dung_n that_o she_o may_v gain_v thou_o what_o be_v all_o i_o say_v whilst_o thou_o give_v not_o thy-fâ—lf_a who_o be_v that_o one_o thing_n which_o be_v only_o necessary_a and_o which_o alone_o can_v satisfy_v our_o soul_n be_v it_o any_o comfort_n to_o st_n mary_n magdalen_n when_o she_o seek_v theâ—_n to_o find_v two_o angel_n which_o present_v themselves_o instead_o of_o tbee_n very_o i_o can_v think_v it_o be_v any_o joy_n unto_o she_o for_o that_o soul_n that_o have_v set_v her_o whole_a love_n and_o desire_v on_o thou_o can_v never_o find_v any_o true_a satisfaction_n but_o only_o in_o thou_o yea_o comfort_n grant_v by_o thou_o make_v the_o soul_n become_v afraid_a least_o thâ—t_a by_o they_o she_o shall_v the_o less_o â—a_n thful_o serve_v thou_o and_o so_o far_o as_o it_o may_v stand_v with_o thy_o will_n consider_v my_o extraordinary_a frailty_n i_o have_v rather_o serve_v thou_o without_o consolation_n then_o to_o find_v or_o feel_v that_o which_o may_v make_v i_o esteem_v any_o thing_n of_o myself_o or_o hinder_v i_o from_o rest_v only_o in_o thou_o who_o arâ—_n my_o god_n and_o all_o my_o desire_n for_o ever_o amen_n the_o xxxvii_o confession_n this_o day_n my_o lâ—rd_n it_o be_v read_v in_o the_o gospel_n of_o our_o office_n that_o thou_o do_v send_v thy_o servant_n into_o the_o lane_n for_o the_o poor_a lame_a blind_a and_o deform_v to_o compel_v they_o to_o enâ—ter_n and_o taste_v of_o thy_o supper_n the_o which_o thy_o mercy_n do_v so_o particular_o extend_v itself_o to_o i_o that_o with_o great_a joy_n and_o comfort_n i_o hear_v it_o read_v and_o with_o exceed_a desire_n of_o gratitude_n i_o recount_v it_o here_o in_o the_o sight_n of_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n for_o first_o who_o can_v be_v more_o deform_v in_o body_n and_o soul_n than_o i_o and_o yet_o thou_o do_v not_o despise_v i_o and_o second_o who_o can_v have_v less_o desir_n to_o enter_v into_o holy_a religion_n which_o be_v the_o place_n where_o we_o may_v most_o abundant_o taste_v and_o see_v how_o sweet_a our_o lord_n be_v than_o my_o freeze_a and_o stupid_a soul_n
and_o yet_o thy_o goodness_n compel_v i_o to_o enter_v o_o who_o will_v give_v i_o power_n and_o ability_n sufficient_o to_o extol_v thy_o most_o a_o boundant_a mercy_n which_o in_o this_o and_o all_o other_o thing_n thy_o sweet_a goodness_n have_v show_v towards_o i_o bless_a infinite_o be_v my_o lord_n by_o all_o his_o creature_n my_o only_a study_n shall_v be_v to_o praise_v thou_o and_o my_o only_a desir_n that_o i_o may_v be_v faithful_a in_o all_o cross_n and_o misery_n to_o thou_o my_o only_o belove_a let_v thy_o grace_n flow_v i_o beseech_v thou_o upon_o thy_o servant_n who_o with_o so_o much_o care_n pain_n and_o solicitud_n for_o thy_o sake_n endeavour_v to_o win_v my_o hart_n whole_o to_o thou_o remember_v he_o unto_o good_a according_a to_o all_o he_o have_v do_v for_o i_o baker_n he_o have_v true_o make_v i_o to_o see_v and_o feel_v though_o through_o my_o great_a fault_n and_o ignorance_n i_o before_o think_v otherwise_o that_o thy_o yoke_n be_v sweet_a and_o thy_o burden_n light_n which_o now_o i_o shall_v alâ—o_v be_v convince_v by_o experience_n acknowledge_v before_o heaven_n and_o earth_n to_o thy_o honour_n and_o my_o confusion_n who_o dare_v presume_v to_o think_v otherwise_o pardon_v i_o beseech_v thou_o therefore_o for_o thinâ—_n own_o sake_n this_o my_o sin_n among_o the_o rest_n which_o be_v innumerable_a and_o let_v i_o hereafter_o be_v a_o true_a servant_n and_o child_n of_o thou_o â—ho_fw-mi be_v bless_v by_o all_o for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n the_o xxxviii_o confession_n 17._o semper_fw-la gaudete_fw-la sine_fw-la intermissione_n orate_fw-la always_o rejoice_v pray_v without_o cease_v o_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n they_o that_o true_o love_v thou_o may_v indeed_o just_o always_o rejoice_v and_o without_o intermission_n praise_v thou_o but_o i_o that_o daily_a and_o hour_o offend_v thy_o divino_fw-la majesty_n ought_v to_o weep_v and_o lament_v my_o sin_n bitter_o sit_v solitary_a and_o make_v my_o moan_n to_o thou_o my_o god_n who_o be_v only_a able_a to_o help_v and_o comfort_v i_o in_o this_o misery_n o_o when_o shall_v i_o become_v true_o humble_a teach_v i_o humility_n obedience_n and_o patience_n enlighten_v my_o soul_n obscure_v by_o my_o pride_n and_o other_o sin_n that_o i_o may_v love_v thy_o law_n and_o humble_o embrace_v thy_o bless_a will_n in_o all_o thing_n o_o let_v i_o be_v true_o subject_a to_o thou_o as_o thou_o will_v have_v i_o and_o even_o to_o all_o other_o alsoâ—_n as_o it_o be_v exact_v by_o thou_o of_o i_o woe_n be_v to_o my_o soul_n if_o daily_o it_o become_v not_o more_o and_o more_o obedient_a ro_o tâ—ee_v and_o to_o other_o for_o thou_o give_v i_o true_a discretion_n for_o no_o virtue_n have_v more_o of_o virtue_n in_o it_o than_o it_o partake_v oâ—_n this_o divine_a virtue_n give_v i_o true_a wisdom_n which_o make_v soul_n so_o please_v to_o thou_o and_o which_o thou_o imparte_v to_o the_o humble_a and_o those_o that_o serve_v thou_o for_o love_n and_o that_o seek_v thou_o above_o all_o gift_n and_o create_a thing_n whatsoever_o o_o love_n love_n flow_v into_o my_o soul_n that_o i_o may_v sigh_v and_o pant_v after_o my_o god_n alone_o and_o praise_v this_o my_o belove_a for_o all_o eternity_n amen_n the_o thirty-nine_o confession_n o_o deus_fw-la meus_fw-la quis_fw-la similis_fw-la tibi_fw-la o_o my_o god_n who_o be_v like_a to_o thou_o who_o will_v give_v mâ—_n that_o without_o ceasingâ—_n may_v adhere_v to_o thou_o and_o with_o a_o amorous_a aspect_n regard_v thou_o in_o all_o thing_n not_o seek_v myself_n nor_o the_o please_a of_o any_o creature_n for_o itself_o in_o any_o thing_n i_o do_v or_o omit_v 11._o desolatione_n desolata_fw-la est_fw-la omnis_fw-la terra_fw-la quia_fw-la nullus_fw-la est_fw-la qui_fw-la recogiter_fw-la cord_n with_o desolation_n all_o the_o land_n be_v make_v desolate_a because_o there_o be_v none_o who_o consider_v in_o the_o hart_n o_o my_o god_n what_o wonder_n be_v it_o that_o we_o live_v in_o blindness_n if_o we_o come_v not_o to_o thou_o who_o be_v the_o only_a true_a light_n what_o do_v we_o with_o soul_n and_o heart_n capable_a of_o love_n if_o we_o do_v not_o by_o they_o aspire_v to_o thou_o with_o all_o our_o strength_n and_o adhere_v to_o thou_o the_o only_a true_a and_o perfect_a good_a what_o be_v sweet_a what_o be_v to_o be_v desire_v but_o thou_o my_o lord_n who_o be_v beauty_n itself_o what_o can_v thou_o do_v more_o than_o make_v out_o soul_n to_o thy_o own_o image_n and_o likeness_n and_o able_a â—o_o be_v satisfy_v with_o nothing_o but_o thyself_o o_o misery_n of_o all_o misery_n the_o great_a that_o thou_o shall_v be_v offend_v and_o forget_v by_o we_o and_o that_o any_o thing_n shall_v possess_v our_o soul_n beside_o thy_o love_n which_o only_o can_v make_v we_o happy_a and_o please_v in_o thy_o eye_n woe_n be_v i_o who_o have_v stray_v from_o the_o fountain_n of_o live_a water_n by_o which_o my_o â—oul_n be_v dry_v up_o and_o even_o wither_v away_o in_o thirst_n after_o transitory_a thing_n change_v this_o my_o thirst_n by_o thyâ—weet_a â—weet_z grace_n and_o mercy_n to_o a_o thirst_v after_o thou_o my_o god_n the_o glory_n of_o my_o hart_n and_o the_o peace_n and_o comfort_n of_o my_o soul._n o_o let_v i_o love_v or_o not_o live_v and_o let_v i_o in_o all_o by_o all_o and_o above_o all_o praise_n thou_o who_o be_v bless_v for_o all_o eternity_n amen_n the_o xl._o confession_n my_o soul_n bless_v thou_o our_o lord_n and_o all_o thing_n within_o i_o his_o holy_a name_n 1._o all_o spirit_n praise_v my_o god_n for_o ever_o and_o ever_o magnify_v he_o i_o will_v declare_v to_o thou_o my_o god_n in_o all_o thing_n how_o it_o stand_v with_o i_o that_o i_o may_v hope_v and_o be_v strengthen_v in_o and_o by_o thou_o i_o will_v beg_v what_o be_v necessary_a for_o i_o to_o please_v and_o serve_v thou_o for_o what_o can_v thou_o deny_v to_o they_o who_o have_v no_o hope_n or_o comfort_n but_o only_o in_o thou_o he_o who_o give_v himself_o give_v all_o and_o when_o thou_o deny_v what_o we_o ask_v it_o be_v that_o thou_o may_v give_v tâ—â—_n own_o self_n more_o full_o to_o we_o thy_o poor_a servant_n and_o that_o impediment_n may_v be_v the_o more_o true_o remove_v between_o our_o soul_n and_o thou_o simplify_v my_o soul_n that_o it_o may_v return_v to_o thou_o adorn_v i_o with_o â—â—ine_a own_o merit_n that_o i_o may_v not_o appear_v naked_a of_o good_a before_o thou_o and_o supply_v my_o defect_n in_o praise_v and_o louâ—ng_v thou_o to_o thou_o my_o god_n all_o my_o interior_a power_n shall_v aspire_v day_n and_o night_n without_o cease_v let_v i_o draw_v no_o breath_n but_o thereby_o to_o sigh_v and_o pant_v after_o thou_o the_o live_a fountain_n let_v all_o action_n which_o by_o obedience_n or_o necessity_n be_v impose_v on_o i_o be_v undertake_v and_o do_v by_o i_o with_o a_o inâ—erior_a regard_n of_o thou_o that_o i_o may_v true_o in_o they_o obey_v and_o seek_v thou_o the_o most_o amiable_a belove_v of_o my_o hart_n and_o soul_n let_v they_o be_v as_o a_o cessation_n or_o pause_v for_o the_o time_n that_o i_o may_v afterward_o with_o the_o more_o force_n and_o savour_n at_o time_n convenient_a attend_v to_o thou_o in_o the_o bottom_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o therein_o praise_v thou_o amen_n the_o xli_o confession_n come_v all_o you_o that_o have_v vow_v your_o body_n and_o soul_n to_o our_o lord_n come_v let_v we_o love_n let_v we_o give_v all_o not_o only_o once_o but_o every_o moment_n to_o he_o that_o make_v we_o to_o bestow_v on_o we_o himself_o let_v we_o not_o only_a love_n but_o be_v whole_o transform_v into_o the_o divine_a love_n let_v we_o live_v to_o he_o â—lone_o leave_v all_o other_o for_o his_o sake_n only_o let_v we_o charitable_o interpret_v the_o word_n and_o deed_n of_o those_o with_o who_o we_o live_v and_o if_o any_o faâ—l_n in_o that_o which_o he_o ought_v to_o perform_v give_v we_o grace_n my_o god_n ☜_o to_o remember_v how_o weak_a human_a nature_n be_v for_o good_a and_o how_o great_a be_v our_o frailty_n as_o to_o a_o sin_n and_o how_o soon_o we_o also_o if_o thou_o do_v not_o protect_v we_o may_v fail_v in_o a_o more_o shameful_a manner_n o_o my_o god_n thou_o have_v command_v we_o to_o love_v our_o neighbour_n as_o ourselves_o and_o behold_v we_o either_o love_v they_o inordinate_o to_o our_o impediment_n of_o love_v thou_o or_o else_o we_o be_v short_a towards_o they_o of_o â—rue_a charity_n from_o both_o these_o error_n deliver_v the_o soul_n of_o thy_o poor_a servant_n and_o grant_v i_o to_o love_v all_o as_o tâ—ou_v will_v have_v i_o let_v no_o difficulty_n they_o cause_n to_o i_o make_v i_o in_o they_o the_o less_o to_o behold_v and_o consider_v thou_o very_o if_o there_o be_v no_o other_o reward_n to_o be_v
this_o be_v not_o the_o practice_n of_o saint_n who_o yet_o sound_n often_o great_a opposition_n and_o mortification_n by_o mean_n of_o superiors_n which_o they_o bear_v patient_o and_o obey_v still_o out_o of_o a_o internalâ—egard_n â—egard_z of_o thou_o in_o their_o soul_n all_o turn_v to_o their_o great_a advancement_n in_o â—hy_a love_n and_o their_o superior_n at_o last_o â—y_a thy_o help_n concur_v to_o that_o which_o â—hey_n desire_v so_o far_o as_o it_o be_v thy_o will_n who_o have_v dispose_v of_o all_o thing_n in_o order_n and_o justice_n and_o nothing_o can_v be_v well_o do_v but_o that_o we_o do_v out_o of_o a_o internal_a light_n from_o thou_o and_o out_o of_o obedience_n to_o thou_o to_o who_o obedience_n be_v due_a in_o all_o thing_n whatsoever_o thou_o have_v set_v a_o order_n in_o all_o thing_n and_o every_o thing_n as_o it_o be_v ordain_v by_o thou_o will_v concur_v to_o a_o most_o heavenly_a harmony_n but_o corrupt_v thy_o meaning_n all_o thing_n be_v out_o of_o order_n and_o peace_n on_o all_o side_n be_v disturb_v o_o how_o happy_a be_v they_o who_o soul_n be_v in_o a_o right_a way_n to_o hear_v and_o follow_v thy_o will_n and_o who_o do_v nothing_o without_o consult_v with_o thou_o in_o their_o soul_n give_v that_o to_o god_n which_o be_v only_a god_n own_o and_o to_o caesar_n that_o which_o be_v due_a to_o caesar_n for_o god_n for_o both_o these_o obedience_n be_v necessary_a to_o make_v a_o true_a spiritual_a life_n for_o in_o vain_a do_v we_o give_v to_o thou_o if_o we_o deny_v obedience_n to_o they_o who_o be_v set_v over_o we_o by_o thou_o and_o also_o in_o vain_a be_v it_o to_o please_v and_o have_v the_o favour_n of_o our_o superior_n if_o we_o internal_o neglect_v to_o have_v in_o all_o thing_n relation_n to_o thou_o from_o both_o these_o error_n deliver_v i_o ☜_o i_o beseech_v thou_o that_o my_o soul_n may_v be_v a_o peaceful_a habitation_n for_o thou_o let_v i_o humble_o behave_v myself_n towards_o all_o and_o let_v i_o not_o measure_v my_o case_n before_o thou_o by_o the_o opinion_n my_o superior_n and_o sister_n have_v of_o i_o for_o they_o may_v applaud_v i_o and_o yet_o it_o may_v stand_v ill_a with_o i_o before_o thou_o and_o they_o may_v take_v all_o in_o another_o worse_a sense_n than_o thou_o know_v i_o mean_v it_o and_o that_o just_o and_o yet_o it_o may_v go_v well_o between_o thy_o goodness_n and_o i_o through_o thy_o abound_v mercy_n the_o xliv_o confession_n o_o how_o happy_a be_v those_o soul_n who_o love_v nothing_o but_o thou_o very_o there_o be_v so_o little_a stability_n in_o all_o thing_n but_o in_o thou_o that_o it_o be_v a_o strange_a thing_n that_o we_o shall_v live_v so_o miserable_a life_n thou_o offer_v we_o a_o most_o peaceful_a and_o quiet_a life_n if_o we_o will_v but_o seek_v thou_o alone_o who_o be_v more_o present_a to_o we_o than_o we_o be_v to_o ourselves_o and_o by_o thou_o our_o soul_n do_v live_v more_o than_o our_o body_n do_v by_o our_o soul_n those_o that_o possess_v thou_o have_v all_o thing_n and_o those_o who_o want_v thou_o if_o they_o have_v all_o the_o world_n can_v afford_v do_v yet_o indeed_o possess_v nothing_o if_o we_o desire_v to_o love_v where_o our_o love_n may_v not_o be_v lose_v what_o shall_v we_o love_v but_o thou_o whâ—_n have_v say_v 9_o sicut_fw-la dilexit_fw-la i_o pater_fw-la &_o ego_fw-la dilexi_fw-la vos_fw-la as_o my_o father_n love_v i_o so_o have_v i_o love_v you_o do_v we_o not_o therefore_o well_o deserve_v to_o live_v in_o all_o perplexity_n and_o misery_n if_o we_o do_v not_o leave_v to_o love_v all_o other_o thing_n to_o set_v our_o whole_a love_n upon_o thou_o â—ho_fw-mi have_v make_v we_o such_o sweet_a promise_n yea_o let_v we_o hear_v what_o thou_o do_v further_o add_v 5._o qui_fw-la maneâ—_n in_o i_o &_o ego_fw-la in_o eo_fw-la hic_fw-la fert_fw-la fructum_fw-la multum_fw-la who_o remain_v in_o i_o and_o i_o in_o he_o bring_v forth_o much_o fruit_n o_o let_v i_o be_v remain_v in_o thou_o and_o then_o let_v all_o the_o world_n be_v against_o i_o i_o desir_n not_o my_o god_n by_o any_o particular_a favour_n in_o this_o life_n to_o be_v more_o certain_a of_o thou_o but_o i_o do_v beg_v of_o thou_o that_o by_o true_a humility_n obedience_n and_o patience_n i_o may_v be_v more_o confirm_v in_o thou_o by_o true_a love_n only_o in_o simple_a faith_n ☜_o in_o all_o desolation_n cross_n pain_n disgrace_n misery_n adhere_v to_o thou_o the_o only_a desire_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o not_o rest_v in_o any_o gift_n or_o grace_n of_o thou_o whatsoever_o that_o i_o may_v at_o last_o for_o thy_o oâ—n_a sake_n find_v favour_n in_o the_o eye_n of_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n notwirhstand_v my_o sin_n and_o ignorances_n in_o which_o i_o have_v hitherto_o live_v for_o whieh_a thy_o mercy_n oâ—_n forgive_a they_o i_o be_v thou_o for_o ever_o bless_v and_o praise_v by_o all_o thy_o creature_n amen_n amen_n the_o xlv_o confession_n o_o lord_n my_o god_n to_o who_o upon_o all_o occasion_n i_o most_o unworthy_a 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