of_o straw_n 180._o where_o be_v full_a of_o ache_n sore_n and_o biles_fw-la thy_o beauty_n turn_v to_o a_o tawny_a hue_n and_o that_o consume_v which_o be_v so_o fair_a ere_o while_n unknown_a of_o those_o that_o thou_o but_o late_o know_v as_o a_o just_a vengeance_n to_o thy_o merit_n due_a breathe_v thy_o last_o beneath_o some_o open_a stall_n or_o die_v disease_v in_o a_o hospital_n 181._o there_o lie_v thy_o pomp_n and_o glory_n in_o the_o dust_n thy_o body_n clothe_v with_o rag_n and_o all_o too_o tear_v thy_o flesh_n consume_v and_o waste_v by_o thy_o lust_n loathe_a condemn_a disdain_a and_o hold_v in_o scorn_n not_o one_o of_o all_o thy_o friend_n for_o thou_o will_v mourn_v nor_o hardly_o think_v thou_o worthy_a for_o to_o have_v to_o hide_v thy_o stink_a corpse_n a_o simple_a grave_n 182._o loe_o here_o amanda_n view_v thyself_o at_o large_a behold_v thy_o life_n and_o after_o that_o thy_o death_n peruse_v each_o line_n and_o letter_n i_o thou_o charge_n let_v it_o not_o be_v forget_v in_o a_o breath_n to_o thy_o best_a thought_n i_o do_v the_o same_o bequeath_v advise_o consider_v of_o the_o matter_n i_o tell_v thou_o what_o be_v true_a and_o scorn_v to_o flatter_v 183._o and_o if_o it_o take_v effect_n as_o i_o desire_v and_o breed_v a_o sorrow_n for_o thy_o time_n misspend_v if_o it_o shall_v cause_v thou_o from_o thy_o course_n retire_v and_o be_v a_o mean_n to_o make_v thy_o heart_n relent_v and_o be_v reform_v by_o my_o admonishment_n assure_v thyself_o that_o thou_o have_v gain_v a_o friend_n that_o shall_v not_o fail_v thou_o till_o his_o life_n do_v end_n 184._o for_o my_o sake_n therefore_o i_o adjure_v thou_o here_o to_o turn_v thy_o course_n and_o bend_v another_o way_n for_o thy_o friend_n sake_n to_o who_o thou_o shall_v be_v dear_a come_v home_o unto_o thyself_o and_o do_v not_o stay_v for_o thou_o own_o sake_n i_o charge_v thou_o to_o obey_v and_o in_o compassion_n of_o that_o soul_n of_o thou_o live_v not_o in_o darkness_n when_o the_o sun_n do_v shine_v 185._o pity_v thy_o year_n that_o be_v but_o young_a and_o tender_a pity_v thy_o father_n care_n thy_o mother_n love_n for_o thy_o sad_a kindred_n sorrow_n pity_v render_v let_v thy_o acquaintance_n some_o compassion_n move_v look_v not_o still_o down_o but_o raise_v thy_o thought_n above_o if_o no_o thing_n else_o prevail_v let_v fear_n of_o god_n work_v thy_o conversion_n and_o his_o threaten_a rod._n 186._o strive_v to_o regain_v the_o honour_n thou_o have_v lose_v and_o seek_v thy_o ruine_a credit_n to_o repair_v thy_o conscience_n be_v benumb_v with_o folly_n frost_n let_v thy_o warm_a tear_n of_o sorrow_n thaw_v the_o air_n that_o chill_v thy_o heart_n with_o nip_a cold_a despair_n and_o so_o dissolve_v thy_o crusty_a ice_n of_o sin_n that_o hot_a repentance_n may_v let_v mercy_n in_o 187._o redeem_v the_o time_n that_o thou_o have_v spend_v in_o vain_a and_o pursue_v honour_n as_o thou_o followd'_v vice_n although_o unwilling_a yet_o thyself_o constrain_v against_o thy_o will_n to_o virtue_n be_v not_o nice_a tire_v not_o in_o act_v goodness_n twice_o or_o thrice_o but_o persevere_v from_o one_o unto_o another_o as_o happy_a daughter_n of_o a_o bless_a mother_n 188._o and_o when_o thou_o have_v this_o little_a pamphlet_n read_v and_o see_v the_o scope_n whereto_o these_o line_n do_v tend_v let_v they_o not_o pass_v a_o hour_n out_o of_o thy_o head_n until_o thy_o sorrow_n make_v thy_o life_n amend_v and_o work_v a_o reformation_n in_o the_o end_n do_v not_o oh_o do_v not_o put_v they_o from_o thy_o heart_n but_o to_o thy_o sickly_a soul_n some_o help_n impart_v 189._o then_o shall_v my_o prayer_n fly_v aloft_o with_o thou_o and_o my_o desire_n seek_v earnest_o thy_o bliss_n thy_o happiness_n shall_v be_v to_o i_o as_o i_o thy_o godly_a sorrow_n for_o thy_o life_n amiss_o shall_v breed_v such_o joy_n as_o none_o shall_v be_v like_o this_o the_o comfort_n that_o thy_o soul_n shall_v thereby_o taste_v shall_v be_v a_o crown_n of_o glory_n at_o the_o last_o 190._o in_o hope_n therefore_o of_o this_o my_o good_a success_n and_o of_o a_o happy_a welcome_n to_o these_o line_n wish_v thou_o may_v thy_o wicked_a lust_n suppress_v i_o leave_v thou_o unto_o he_o who_o grace_n refine_v pray_v his_o blessing_n unto_o these_o design_n heaven_n grant_v thou_o that_o which_o none_o on_o earth_n can_v give_v a_o life_n prepare_v to_o die_v a_o death_n to_o live_v when_o i_o have_v write_v these_o line_n i_o make_v they_o up_o in_o a_o little_a book_n and_o by_o a_o friend_n which_o i_o have_v send_v they_o unto_o her_o lodging_n with_o a_o letter_n likewise_o to_o be_v deliver_v unto_o she_o both_o which_o my_o friend_n present_v to_o her_o own_o hand_n and_o she_o receive_v of_o they_o thankful_o read_v over_o the_o letter_n present_o in_o his_o sight_n and_o tell_v he_o that_o so_o soon_o as_o she_o have_v peruse_v the_o book_n which_o shall_v not_o be_v long_o she_o will_v send_v she_o answer_v unto_o i_o and_o so_o my_o friend_n 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be_v assure_v whether_o she_o still_o continue_v there_o or_o whether_o she_o be_v remove_v to_o any_o other_o place_n my_o friend_n take_v occasion_n secret_o to_o inquire_v of_o she_o understand_v by_o one_o of_o the_o neighbour_n that_o she_o keep_v her_o old_a lodging_n and_o that_o she_o have_v late_o be_v very_o sick_a and_o be_v not_o then_o recover_v of_o which_o her_o sickness_n when_o i_o understand_v i_o be_v in_o some_o hope_n that_o she_o have_v consider_v serious_o on_o the_o content_n of_o the_o book_n and_o that_o it_o have_v wrought_v so_o far_o with_o she_o that_o she_o have_v lay_v the_o same_o to_o her_o heart_n and_o be_v thereby_o draw_v to_o a_o strict_a examination_n of_o her_o own_o life_n which_o may_v be_v the_o mean_n of_o trouble_v her_o conscience_n so_o far_o as_o that_o it_o may_v breed_v a_o distemper_n in_o her_o body_n and_o so_o be_v the_o cause_n of_o impayr_v her_o health_n desirous_a therefore_o to_o understand_v how_o she_o digest_v it_o &_o whether_o there_o be_v any_o other_o cause_n of_o her_o disease_n i_o send_v my_o friend_n to_o her_o lodging_n to_o see_v how_o she_o do_v not_o take_v any_o notice_n that_o i_o have_v know_v of_o her_o sickness_n and_o withal_o to_o excuse_v my_o not_o come_v unto_o her_o all_o that_o time_n whither_o when_o he_o come_v he_o be_v willing_o conduct_v into_o her_o chamber_n where_o she_o than_o lay_v in_o her_o bed_n and_o deliver_v his_o message_n unto_o she_o she_o tell_v he_o that_o she_o have_v be_v very_o ill_o and_o wonderful_a desirous_a to_o see_v i_o and_o entreat_v he_o to_o signify_v so_o much_o unto_o i_o and_o that_o she_o be_v mind_v to_o send_v a_o messenger_n unto_o i_o but_o that_o by_o reason_n of_o her_o sickness_n she_o know_v not_o how_o convenient_o to_o do_v it_o not_o speak_v one_o word_n unto_o he_o concern_v the_o book_n my_o friend_n not_o stay_v long_o with_o she_o and_o promisig_a to_o acquaint_v i_o with_o her_o desire_n depart_v and_o tell_v i_o what_o her_o request_n be_v and_o in_o what_o case_n he_o find_v she_o i_o resolve_v within_o few_o day_n to_o visit_v she_o and_o according_o within_o a_o day_n or_o two_o after_o i_o come_v unto_o her_o chamber_n where_o be_v enter_v i_o find_v she_o sit_v in_o her_o chair_n by_o the_o fire_n and_o weep_v exceed_o i_o come_v in_o so_o sudden_o and_o she_o turn_v her_o head_n espy_v of_o i_o present_o leap_v out_o of_o her_o chair_n and_o come_v towards_o i_o take_v i_o by_o the_o hand_n and_o look_v earnest_o in_o my_o face_n she_o begin_v to_o speak_v to_o i_o to_o this_o effect_n the_o substance_n whereof_o for_o memory_n sake_n i_o
i_o have_v it_o evermore_o 45._o for_o many_o come_v themselves_o and_o bring_v their_o fee_n whereby_o i_o have_v great_a traffic_v and_o great_a gain_n a_o nurse_n i_o have_v to_o fetch_v some_o home_n to_o i_o they_o likewise_o will_v well_o pay_v i_o for_o my_o pain_n if_o one_o suffice_v not_o i_o can_v send_v forth_o twain_o and_o what_o i_o get_v from_o many_o one_o by_o one_o i_o spend_v upon_o my_o secret_a friend_n alone_o 46._o he_o do_v i_o feed_v with_o money_n and_o with_o diet_n with_o all_o thing_n needful_a that_o he_o want_v nothing_o my_o luxury_n maintain_v his_o beastly_a riot_n pawn_v my_o own_o to_o buy_v he_o change_v of_o clothing_n to_o cure_v his_o want_n no_o filthy_a action_n loathe_v what_o ever_o by_o sin_n i_o get_v to_o he_o i_o send_v it_o and_o he_o no_o soon_o have_v it_o but_o he_o spend_v it_o 47._o thus_o do_v i_o always_o gain_v to_o keep_v i_o poor_a still_o live_v bad_a to_o make_v another_o ill_n and_o to_o maintain_v a_o knave_n i_o play_v the_o whore_n and_o suffer_v want_v that_o he_o may_v have_v his_o fill_n kill_v myself_o another_o for_o to_o kill_v sin_n in_o myself_o sin_n foster_v in_o another_o a_o wicked_a issue_n of_o a_o wicked_a mother_n 48._o since_o then_o my_o dear_a friend_n i_o do_v expose_v myself_o to_o infamy_n and_o foul_a excess_n yet_o thereby_o nothing_o get_v but_o still_o do_v lose_v and_o heap_v up_o sin_n not_o feel_v my_o distress_n till_o thou_o have_v make_v i_o know_v my_o wretchedness_n loe_o i_o accuse_v mislike_v condole_v repent_v myself_o my_o fault_n my_o state_n my_o life_n misspend_v 49._o here_o take_v my_o clothes_n and_o sell_v they_o all_o away_o they_o be_v not_o for_o my_o wear_v any_o more_o my_o silk_n and_o satin_n change_v for_o simple_a say_v rich_a costly_a garment_n suit_v not_o with_o a_o whore_n a_o proud-swolne_a heart_n become_v not_o the_o poor_a those_o jewel_n that_o i_o have_v and_o ring_n of_o gold_n receive_v they_o here_o and_o let_v they_o all_o be_v sold._n 50._o what_o shall_v i_o do_v with_o rich_a tuftafaty_n wrought_a velvet_n damask_n grogram_n and_o plush_n set_v forth_o with_o lace_n and_o rare_a embroidery_n my_o purple_n and_o my_o scarlet_n make_v i_o blush_v my_o musfe_n and_o fan_n i_o do_v not_o weigh_v a_o rush_n my_o fine_a bonelace_n and_o my_o dainty_a purl_n my_o needle-worke_n my_o bracelet_n and_o my_o curl_n 51._o take_v they_o sweet_a friend_n and_o set_v they_o all_o to_o sale_n my_o earring_n pendent_n and_o my_o chain_n of_o pearl_n my_o ruby_n saphire_n and_o my_o diamond_n all_o they_o be_v for_o lady_n and_o for_o wife_n of_o earl_n not_o sit_v for_o strumpet_n and_o for_o light_a heel_a girl_n my_o dainty_a linen_n cambric_n and_o my_o lawn_n sell_v they_o away_o and_o put_v they_o off_o for_o pawn_n 52._o riste_n my_o chest_n my_o box_n and_o my_o trunk_n seize_v all_o the_o good_n within_o they_o thou_o shall_v find_v such_o thing_n as_o those_o be_v far_o unmeete_a for_o punk_n they_o suit_v not_o any_o long_o with_o my_o mind_n let_v they_o to_o better_a use_n be_v assign_v rich_a jewel_n gorgeous_a clothes_n and_o garment_n fine_a pit_n not_o a_o body_n so_o defile_v as_o i_o 73._o take_v they_o away_o remove_v they_o from_o my_o sight_n and_o put_v they_o off_o to_o any_o that_o will_v buy_v then_o to_o the_o poor_a distribute_v every_o mite_n they_o do_v deserve_v it_o better_a far_o than_o i_o to_o they_o i_o do_v bequeath_v it_o willing_o riches_n unjust_o get_v from_o other_o man_n distribute_v they_o to_o stranger_n back_o again_o 54._o and_o lay_v all_o these_o costly_a robe_n aside_o procure_v for_o i_o some_o discontent_a black_a a_o plain_a sad_a gown_n my_o nakedness_n to_o hide_v that_o their_o appear_v not_o lightness_n on_o my_o back_n that_o gid_o vanity_n may_v go_v to_o wrack_n or_o as_o a_o fit_a habit_n for_o my_o sin_n a_o frock_n of_o hair_n to_o clothe_v my_o carcase_n in_o 55._o and_o let_v i_o henceforth_o take_v my_o leave_n of_o mirth_n as_o the_o unfit_a subject_n of_o my_o mind_n let_v not_o rejoice_v in_o my_o heart_n have_v birth_n until_o a_o spiritual_a gladness_n i_o do_v find_v and_o heavenly_a light_n of_o grace_n in_o i_o have_v shine_v let_v solly_n hatred_n and_o sin_n discontent_a add_v to_o my_o soul_n a_o ghostly_a merrimem_fw-la 56._o help_v i_o oh_o help_v i_o to_o some_o holy_a book_n to_o stir_v my_o heart_n up_o to_o devotion_n get_v i_o a_o bible_n i_o therein_o may_v look_v that_o god_n good_a spirit_n in_o i_o may_v have_v motion_n and_o of_o his_o holy_a word_n i_o may_v have_v notion_n and_o by_o the_o apprehend_n of_o the_o deity_n be_v stir_v to_o the_o practice_n of_o true_a piety_n 57_o bring_v i_o acquaint_v with_o some_o good_a divine_a that_o may_v direct_v i_o in_o the_o path_n to_o heaven_n and_o search_v this_o dull_a and_o unsound_a heart_n of_o i_o lest_o i_o let_v all_o thing_n go_v at_o six_o and_o seven_o and_o backward_o fall_v sour_v with_o dissemble_a leaven_n one_o that_o will_v well_o inform_v i_o in_o the_o right_n and_o try_v i_o lest_o i_o play_v the_o hypocrite_n 58._o conduct_v i_o to_o the_o temple_n of_o the_o lord_n where_o i_o some_o powerful_a minister_n may_v hear_v that_o may_v unfold_v to_o i_o his_o sacred_a word_n and_o thunder_n out_o his_o threaten_n to_o my_o ear_n and_o make_v his_o judgement_n unto_o i_o appear_v and_o bring_v i_o to_o see_v my_o wicked_a error_n god_n mercy_n may_v embrace_v i_o after_o terror_n 59_o get_v i_o a_o lodging_n in_o some_o private_a place_n where_o i_o may_v harbour_v with_o some_o modest_a wife_n that_o my_o acquaintance_n may_v not_o see_v my_o face_n where_o i_o may_v lead_v a_o quiet_a civil_a life_n void_a of_o all_o anger_n infamy_n and_o strife_n that_o by_o contemn_v whatsoever_o be_v evil_a i_o may_v avoid_v the_o allurement_n of_o the_o devil_n 60._o or_o else_o direct_v i_o to_o some_o countriie_a grange_n the_o city_n be_v too_o full_a of_o base_a temptation_n that_o i_o may_v both_o my_o heart_n and_o habit_n change_v and_o in_o a_o lonely_a private_a habitation_n pursue_v with_o constancy_n this_o alteration_n and_o weyn_v of_o myself_o from_o worldly_a pleasure_n by_o sudden_a leave_v sin_n grow_v good_a at_o leisure_n 61._o look_v to_o my_o step_n and_o let_v thy_o watchful_a eye_n have_v a_o regard_n unto_o my_o future_a course_n i_o dare_v not_o trust_v myself_o lest_o present_o the_o power_n of_o sin_n do_v conquer_v i_o by_o force_n and_o by_o backeslide_v make_v i_o worse_o and_o worse_o let_v thy_o especial_a care_n for_o my_o soul_n good_a be_v still_o apply_v to_o i_o heavenly_a food_n 62._o for_o though_o i_o now_o resolve_v with_o constant_a heart_n never_o to_o take_v that_o wicked_a course_n again_o and_o that_o the_o sense_n of_o sin_n do_v breed_v a_o smart_n in_o my_o sad_a soul_n now_o think_v to_o refrain_v from_o the_o black_a die_n that_o will_v my_o conscience_n stain_n yet_o still_o i_o fear_v and_o fear_v it_o most_o of_o all_o lest_o i_o again_o into_o those_o folly_n fall_n 63._o i_o know_v the_o devil_n have_v a_o thousand_o bait_n to_o catch_v i_o in_o the_o compass_n of_o his_o net_n i_o know_v he_o deal_v by_o counterfeit_n and_o sleight_n and_o for_o my_o soul_n fair_a seem_a show_n do_v set_v till_o i_o entangle_v in_o his_o snare_n he_o get_v i_o know_v his_o art_n and_o cunning_a policy_n and_o that_o do_v make_v i_o fear_v his_o fallacy_n 64._o thou_o have_v begin_v to_o manifest_v thy_o love_n in_o strive_v to_o reclaim_v i_o from_o my_o folly_n let_v it_o not_o die_v but_o whilst_o i_o live_v and_o move_v pursue_v therein_o and_o let_v thy_o care_n be_v whole_o to_o guide_v i_o in_o the_o path_n of_o virtue_n sole_o help_v to_o confirm_v i_o in_o my_o weak_a desire_n that_o my_o small_a spark_n of_o zeal_n may_v grow_v to_o fire_n 65._o help_v i_o to_o pray_v to_o god_n to_o grant_v i_o grace_n to_o persevere_v in_o this_o my_o reformation_n that_o i_o may_v now_o repent_v whilst_o i_o have_v space_n crave_v his_o spirit_n of_o regeneration_n and_o of_o my_o sin_n begin_v retractation_n a_o willing_a heart_n i_o have_v to_o turn_v to_o heaven_n pray_v for_o i_o then_o that_o grace_n to_o i_o be_v give_v 66._o and_o i_o will_v pray_v incessant_o that_o god_n will_v pour_v into_o my_o heart_n his_o holy_a spirit_n that_o sin_n in_o i_o may_v have_v a_o period_n and_o i_o his_o heavenly_a kingdom_n may_v inherit_v and_o so_o receive_v his_o mercy_n not_o my_o merit_n lord_n hear_v my_o prayer_n cleanse_v i_o from_o my_o sin_n open_v my_o heart_n that_o grace_n may_v enter_v in_o 67._o this_o say_v she_o hold_v
courtesan_n do_v make_v caraxus_n spend_v his_o whole_a estate_n and_o so_o through_o want_n of_o mean_n turn_v pirate_n than_o whereby_o he_o aid_v incur_v a_o mortal_a hate_n and_o on_o himself_o a_o last_a scandal_n bring_v so_o have_v my_o luxury_n consume_v to_o nothing_o rich_a heir_n and_o make_v they_o steal_v for_o meat_n and_o clothing_n 24._o how_o many_o man_n have_v perish_v by_o my_o fault_n and_o how_o be_o i_o make_v guilty_a of_o their_o sin_n can_v i_o be_v ever_o sound_a that_o thus_o do_v halt_v and_o by_o my_o wind_a plot_n and_o cunning_a gin_n intrape_v the_o simple_a and_o ensnare_v they_o in_o can_v i_o a_o ransom_n pay_v for_o this_o offence_n or_o ere_o be_v able_a to_o make_v recompense_n 25._o oh_o no_o i_o can_v for_o beside_o my_o own_o other_o man_n guilt_n lie_v heavy_a on_o my_o soul_n i_o have_v not_o be_v content_a to_o sin_n alone_o but_o cause_v other_o to_o make_v i_o more_o foul_a and_o in_o their_o filihinesse_n do_v likewise_o roll_v their_o folly_n with_o my_o own_o i_o do_v conjoin_v and_o by_o commixtion_n make_v their_o vice_n i_o 26._o i_o be_v as_o common_a as_o the_o proetide_v receive_v all_o that_o come_v with_o joy_n and_o mirth_n i_o think_v on_o nothing_o but_o my_o own_o delight_n think_v there_o be_v no_o other_o heaven_n but_o earth_n ah_o wicked_a wretch_n as_o ever_o receive_v birth_n my_o spot_a life_n have_v make_v i_o satan_n den_n full_a of_o fiend_n than_o mary_n magdalene_n 27._o her_o sin_n i_o do_v commit_v but_o want_v her_o sorrow_n of_o all_o the_o ill_a she_o have_v i_o be_o possess_v i_o get_v the_o bad_a the_o good_a i_o can_v borrow_v i_o have_v her_o vice_n all_o but_o want_v the_o rest_n her_o worst_a act_n i_o embrace_v but_o leave_v the_o best_a my_o saviour_n foot_n i_o wash_v not_o with_o my_o tear_n nor_o with_o she_o do_v i_o wipe_v they_o with_o my_o hair_n 28._o i_o want_v the_o gift_n of_o grace_n that_o she_o have_v give_v and_o her_o repentance_n my_o hard_a heart_n to_o move_v i_o can_v apprehend_v the_o joy_n of_o heaven_n nor_o love_v my_o saviour_n with_o her_o ardent_a love_n my_o heart_n desire_v with_o she_o fly_v not_o above_o i_o feel_v no_o spiritual_a comfort_n in_o my_o soul_n nor_o can_v i_o thorough_o my_o state_n condole_v 29._o all_o will_v be_v ready_a to_o report_v my_o shame_n and_o blaze_v my_o infamy_n in_o every_o ear_n but_o none_o will_v plead_v my_o cause_n to_o quit_v my_o blame_n or_o for_o my_o sorrow_n that_o will_v shed_v a_o tear_n or_o else_o excuse_v my_o fault_n when_o they_o it_o hear_v indeed_o they_o can_v for_o my_o foul_a abuse_n be_v far_o beyond_o the_o reach_n of_o a_o excuse_n 30._o how_o then_o shall_v i_o find_v comfort_n in_o my_o grief_n or_o drive_v sad_a desperation_n from_o my_o heart_n myself_o unto_o myself_o yield_v no_o relief_n and_o other_o man_n no_o comfort_n will_v impart_v but_o rather_o add_v more_o torment_n to_o my_o smart_n if_o thou_o shall_v leave_v i_o too_o in_o my_o distress_n then_o must_v i_o die_v in_o all_o my_o wickedness_n 31._o oh_o teach_v i_o true_o to_o lament_v my_o sin_n and_o humble_a my_o proud_a heart_n by_o low_a submission_n rowse_v i_o out_o of_o the_o sleep_n that_o i_o be_o in_o that_o of_o my_o state_n i_o may_v have_v true_a cognition_n and_o make_v my_o peace_n with_o god_n by_o my_o contrition_n instruct_v i_o in_o the_o perfect_a way_n of_o prayer_n lest_o i_o fall_v headlong_o into_o deep_a despair_n 32._o help_v i_o to_o pray_v to_o god_n that_o he_o will_v shower_v into_o my_o heart_n the_o grace_n of_o his_o spirit_n that_o through_o his_o mercy_n and_o his_o save_a power_n i_o may_v escape_v the_o guerdon_n of_o my_o merit_n and_o after_o life_n his_o heavenly_a bless_v inherit_v teach_v i_o to_o pray_v teach_v i_o sweet_a friend_n i_o say_v for_o i_o have_v almost_o quite_o forget_v to_o pray_v 33._o my_o heart_n be_v willing_a oh_o my_o heart_n be_v willing_a i_o feel_v my_o conscience_n terrify_v by_o sin_n oh_o by_o my_o tear_n by_o these_o my_o tear_n down_o trill_v lift_v up_o thy_o heart_n with_o i_o come_v come_v begin_z lord_n open_v my_o breast_n that_o grace_n may_v enter_v in_o rouse_v my_o dead_a heart_n out_o of_o his_o drowsy_a den_n pardon_v my_o fault_n sweet_a jesus_n say_v amen_n 34._o then_o from_o her_o eye_n the_o tear_n do_v gush_v apace_o and_o down_o she_o fall_v upon_o her_o bend_a knee_n wring_v her_o hand_n she_o do_v lament_v her_o case_n with_o sigh_n express_v her_o soul_n misery_n in_o forcible_a and_o strong_a hiperbolee_n my_o sin_n my_o sin_n she_o cry_v with_o heav'd-up-hand_n be_v more_o in_o number_n then_o the_o star_n or_o sands_n 35._o then_o beat_v of_o her_o breast_n in_o woeful_a wise_n with_o high_a swell_a sob_n and_o heavy_a heartsick_a groan_n now_o woe_n be_v i_o now_o woe_n be_v i_o she_o cry_v my_o stink_a sin_n lie_v boil_v in_o my_o bone_n and_o kill_v my_o soul_n as_o bee_n be_v starve_v by_o drone_n and_o whilst_o like_v fury_n round_o about_o they_o hem_v i_o as_o a_o just_a judge_n my_o conscience_n do_v condemn_v i_o 36._o listen_v oh_o listen_v to_o my_o sad_a complaint_n i_o have_v no_o friend_n to_o moan_v to_o but_o to_o thou_o i_o need_v not_o with_o my_o folly_n thou_o acquaint_v thou_o know_v my_o step_n how_o retrograde_a they_o be_v and_o how_o my_o vice_n have_v overwhelm_v i_o pity_v my_o case_n and_o my_o sad_a state_n condole_v and_o add_v some_o comfort_n to_o my_o sicke-growne_a soul_n 37._o be_v thou_o my_o pharos_n to_o direct_v i_o home_o unto_o the_o harbour_n of_o my_o heavenly_a rest_n without_o a_o help_n to_o guide_v i_o i_o shall_v roam_v and_o get_v a_o curse_n in_o seek_v to_o be_v blessed_v good_a counsel_n to_o a_o soul_n that_o be_v distress_v come_v in_o fit_a season_n and_o do_v comfort_n bring_v to_o a_o sad_a heart_n that_o be_v full_a of_o sorrow_v 38._o my_o parent_n have_v forsake_v i_o long_o ago_o detest_a the_o vile_a course_n that_o i_o have_v lead_v brother_n and_o sister_n neither_o will_n i_o know_v my_o near_a alliance_n wish_v that_o i_o be_v dead_a my_o friend_n that_o sometime_o be_v from_o i_o be_v flee_v my_o parent_n brother_n sister_n kindred_n friend_n my_o very_a name_n their_o modest_a ear_n offend_v 39_o all_o have_v forsake_v i_o to_o let_v i_o perish_v and_o sink_v my_o soul_n into_o the_o stygian_a deep_a deny_v any_o comfort_n i_o to_o cherish_v but_o in_o sin_n cradle_n suffer_v i_o to_o sleep_v that_o thence_o i_o have_v no_o heart_n at_o all_o to_o peep_v but_o snort_v in_o a_o dead_a security_n i_o want_v the_o sense_n of_o my_o impurity_n 40._o nor_o have_v i_o hoard_v treasure_n for_o my_o issue_n but_o brave_v it_o out_o in_o jewel_n and_o in_o gold_n in_o rich_a embroider_a silk_n and_o cloth_n of_o tissue_n and_o when_o it_o be_v buy_v it_o be_v not_o long_o unsold_a i_o think_v not_o how_o to_o live_v when_o i_o be_v old_a but_o change_v and_o pawn_v for_o to_o maintain_v my_o pride_n and_o for_o the_o present_a only_o do_v provide_v 41._o for_o all_o the_o money_n that_o i_o have_v obtain_v and_o golden_a fee_n by_o play_v of_o the_o whore_n unto_o myself_o no_o riches_n have_v i_o gain_v but_o all_o be_v quite_o consume_v and_o i_o leave_v poor_a only_o my_o wear_a clothes_n and_o nothing_o more_o sin_n golden_a gain_n i_o see_v long_o will_v not_o last_v sudden_o get_v as_o sudden_o do_v waste_v 42._o for_o as_o a_o mill_n that_o be_v set_v upon_o a_o river_n purpose_o '_o build_v to_o endure_v both_o wind_n and_o wether_n by_o force_n of_o a_o strong_a current_n for_o to_o drive_v she_o receive_v all_o corn_n to_o grind_v that_o be_v bring_v thither_o and_o all_o the_o country_n near_o be_v serve_v with_o she_o some_o bring_n to_o she_o other_o send_v abroad_o and_o all_o of_o they_o deliver_v there_o their_o load_n 43._o she_o shift_v her_o work_n and_o serve_v the_o turn_n of_o all_o and_o every_o one_o pay_v tribute_n for_o her_o pain_n some_o give_v single_a and_o some_o double_a toll_n herself_o thereby_o not_o only_o do_v maintain_v and_o keep_v she_o in_o repair_v by_o such_o her_o gain_n but_o to_o the_o miller_n that_o do_v keep_v the_o mill_n supply_v his_o want_n and_o do_v relieve_v he_o still_o 44._o the_o like_a do_v i_o for_o by_o my_o commontrade_n from_o every_o one_o that_o come_v i_o have_v a_o share_n and_o by_o that_o custom_n a_o rich_a live_v make_v and_o therewith_o keep_v myself_o in_o good_a repair_v and_o so_o maintain_v my_o clothing_n and_o my_o fare_n and_o what_o beside_o i_o do_v lay_v up_o in_o store_n my_o friend_n that_o keep_v
her_o tongue_n and_o speak_v no_o more_o wipe_v her_o eye_n and_o bend_v down_o her_o head_n and_o sit_v at_o my_o foot_n upon_o the_o store_n which_o with_o her_o tear_n she_o have_v bewatered_a then_o reach_v forth_o her_o hand_n to_o i_o she_o say_v oh_o my_o sweet_a friend_n on_o thou_o my_o comfort_n lie_v bless_a be_v the_o time_n that_o ever_o i_o see_v thy_o eye_n 68_o as_o by_o the_o hand_n thou_o raise_v i_o from_o ground_n with_o that_o she_o rise_v and_o look_v in_o my_o face_n and_o sound_v of_o my_o heart_n that_o be_v unsound_a do_v by_o thy_o mean_n assist_v with_o god_n grace_n awake_v i_o and_o let_v i_o know_v my_o case_n so_o fall_v not_o back_o but_o let_v thy_o constant_a love_n rowse_v up_o my_o thought_n to_o raise_v they_o up_o above_o 69._o speak_v will_v thou_o tell_v i_o what_o thou_o do_v intend_v thou_o know_v my_o purpose_n let_v i_o now_o know_v thou_o will_v thou_o continue_v unto_o i_o a_o friend_n thou_o seem_v to_o tender_v this_o poor_a soul_n of_o i_o do_v thou_o unto_o my_o future_a good_a incline_v bold_o go_v on_o leave_v not_o the_o work_n undo_v finish_v the_o thing_n thou_o have_v so_o well_o begin_v 70._o this_o say_v she_o pause_v again_o and_o stop_v her_o voice_n earnest_o look_v when_o i_o will_v reply_v her_o sweet_a sad_a look_n do_v make_v my_o heart_n rejoice_v see_v her_o sorrow_n be_v so_o heavenly_a and_o from_o a_o heart_n void_a of_o all_o fallacy_n and_o note_v thus_o how_o her_o desire_n be_v bend_v i_o make_v this_o answer_n without_o compliment_n 71._o i_o see_v amanda_n what_o i_o joy_v to_o see_v and_o what_o i_o do_v desire_v i_o may_v behold_v i_o hope_v thou_o do_v not_o mean_a to_o flatter_v i_o and_o seem_v to_o make_v that_o hot_a which_o be_v but_o cold_a and_o so_o make_v brass_n to_o shine_v like_o perfect_a gold_n i_o doubt_v not_o but_o thy_o manner_n be_v refine_v and_o be_v melt_v will_v be_v better_o coin_v 72_o i_o trust_v thy_o sorrow_n be_v a_o real_a sadness_n by_o thy_o foul_a life_n and_o mortal_a sin_n procure_v and_o then_o that_o sorrow_n breed_v in_o i_o such_o gladness_n to_o think_v that_o grace_n be_v in_o that_o heart_n immure_v which_o have_v so_o many_o unto_o vice_n allure_v that_o all_o the_o power_n i_o have_v with_o free_a consent_n shall_v be_v apply_v to_o further_a thy_o intent_n 73._o by_o a_o free_a gift_n unmerited_a from_o any_o have_v i_o receive_v a_o thousand_o pound_n in_o gold_n title_n of_o honour_n privilege_n many_o and_o faithful_a friend_n as_o i_o be_o minute_n old_a with_o other_o blessing_n more_o than_o may_v be_v tell_v they_o can_v not_o more_o rejoice_v this_o heart_n of_o i_o then_o this_o long-wished_a conversion_n of_o thou_o 74._o for_o i_o will_v assure_v thou_o i_o such_o pleasure_n take_v in_o this_o thy_o dolour_n for_o thy_o folly_n past_a that_o since_o thy_o sin_n do_v cause_v thy_o heart_n to_o ache_v this_o bitter_a be_v so_o sweet_a unto_o my_o taste_n that_o if_o thy_o sorrow_n with_o thy_o life_n do_v last_o and_o thou_o repente_v of_o thy_o wickedness_n as_o now_o to_o i_o thou_o seem_v to_o do_v no_o less_o 75._o here_o take_v my_o hand_n and_o with_o my_o hand_n my_o heart_n and_o what_o i_o say_v believe_v it_o to_o be_v true_a these_o eye_n of_o i_o out_o of_o my_o head_n shall_v start_v the_o day_n that_o be_v past_a shall_v be_v begin_v anew_o and_o thing_n consume_v shall_v come_v again_o to_o view_v before_o i_o fail_v unto_o my_o utmost_a power_n to_o add_v unto_o thou_o comfort_v every_o hour_n 76_o take_v thou_o no_o thought_n for_o clothing_n or_o for_o food_n nor_o any_o thing_n that_o may_v procure_v content_a my_o care_n shall_v be_v so_o much_o to_o do_v thou_o good_a both_o for_o thy_o soul_n and_o body_n aliment_n that_o thou_o shall_v want_v nothing_o convenient_a reform_v thy_o life_n conform_v thy_o will_n to_o i_o i_o will_v inform_v thou_o in_o the_o path_n divine_a 77._o such_o thing_n as_o be_v not_o for_o thy_o wear_n fit_a thy_o gorgeous_a clothes_n thy_o jewel_n and_o the_o rest_n leave_v they_o to_o i_o i_o will_v dispose_v of_o it_o and_o change_v they_o for_o thy_o good_a as_o i_o think_v best_o unto_o thy_o rank_n thou_o shall_v be_v neat_o dress_v in_o civil_a manner_n but_o for_o gay_a attire_n it_o must_v not_o suit_n at_o all_o with_o thy_o desire_n 78._o thy_o good_n dispose_v of_o i_o will_v thou_o provide_v of_o all_o thing_n fit_a for_o a_o reform_a mind_n a_o bible_n and_o some_o holy_a book_n beside_o wherein_o thou_o may_v a_o heavenly_a comfort_n find_v i_o will_v procure_v thou_o as_o thou_o have_v enjoin_v set_a form_n of_o prayer_n for_o a_o contrite_a sinner_n thou_o shall_v not_o want_v fit_a for_o a_o young_a beginner_n 79._o i_o have_v a_o mother_n virtuous_o dispose_v a_o ancient_a matron_n pious_a and_o devout_a to_o who_o i_o have_v this_o my_o intent_n disclose_v and_o what_o herein_o at_o first_o i_o go_v about_o whilst_o i_o of_o thy_o conversion_n be_v in_o doubt_n she_o shall_v receive_v thou_o with_o the_o great_a care_n provide_v for_o thy_o lodging_n and_o thy_o fare_n 80._o i_o have_v a_o sister_n much_o about_o thy_o year_n a_o hopeful_a maid_n religious_a and_o chaste_a and_o such_o a_o one_o as_o the_o almighty_a fear_n that_o all_o uncivil_a action_n do_v distaste_v and_o be_v with_o many_o spiritual_a blessing_n grace_v she_o shall_v yield_v comfort_n to_o thou_o many_o a_o one_o and_o be_v thy_o love_a kind_n companion_n 81._o if_o thou_o will_v hear_v i_o will_v read_v to_o thou_o each_o day_n precept_n for_o prayer_n rule_v for_o meditation_n if_o thou_o will_v pray_v i_o will_v join_v with_o thou_o to_o pray_v in_o private_a vote_n or_o public_a congregation_n and_o lead_v thou_o in_o the_o path_n to_o thy_o salvation_n and_o if_o thy_o pleasure_n thereunto_o incline_v i_o will_v acquaint_v thou_o with_o profound_a divine_n 82._o i_o will_v lead_v thou_o forth_o to_o sermon_n every_o week_n and_o unto_o common_a service_n twice_o a_o day_n the_o most_o approve_a preacher_n i_o will_v seek_v that_o through_o thy_o ear_n shall_v to_o thy_o heart_n convey_v such_o heavenly_a comfort_n that_o when_o thou_o do_v pray_v thou_o shall_v be_v rapt_v with_o a_o divine_a delight_n of_o the_o almighty_n mercy_n and_o his_o might_n 83._o if_o that_o the_o city_n do_v content_v thou_o best_o live_v in_o the_o city_n to_o thy_o heart_n content_a or_o if_o the_o country_n yield_v thou_o better_a rest_n unto_o the_o countriey_n life_n i_o give_v consent_n all_o place_n be_v alike_o for_o to_o repent_v if_o that_o the_o heart_n desire_v the_o almighty_n grace_n god_n do_v accept_v the_o person_n not_o the_o place_n 84._o make_v thou_o thy_o peace_n with_o god_n by_o thy_o contrission_n i_o with_o thy_o friend_n will_v labour_v for_o thy_o peace_n appease_v god_n wrath_n by_o hearty_a true_a submission_n i_o doubt_v not_o but_o thy_o parent_n wrath_n shall_v cease_v and_o their_o fresh_a love_n shall_v mighty_o increase_v that_o age_a couple_n all_o thy_o friend_n beside_o will_v joy_v that_o in_o thy_o sin_n thou_o ha'd_v not_o die_v 85._o be_v of_o good_a cheer_n and_o walk_v along_o with_o i_o this_o be_v no_o fit_a place_n for_o thou_o to_o stay_v my_o mother_n sister_n and_o myself_o for_o thou_o will_v make_v provision_n as_o be_v fit_a straightway_o we_o will_v all_o take_v thou_o to_o our_o charge_n this_o day_n for_o nothing_o but_o thy_o soul_n do_v thou_o take_v think_v we_o will_v provide_v thy_o body_n shall_v want_v nought_o 86._o tell_v i_o quoth_v i_o be_v thou_o well_o please_v with_o this_o and_o do_v thou_o free_o thereunto_o assent_v i_o be_o quoth_v she_o and_o think_v the_o great_a bliss_n wait_v on_o i_o now_o that_o ever_o to_o i_o be_v send_v thy_o pleasure_n i_o will_v attend_v incontinent_a dispose_v of_o i_o as_o thou_o think_v best_a to_o day_n unto_o thy_o will_n i_o willing_o obey_v 87._o with_o that_o i_o call_v a_o porter_n to_o the_o door_n and_o bid_v he_o take_v her_o box_n and_o her_o chest_n her_o 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