those_o that_o afflict_v thou_o and_o render_v good_a for_o evil_a to_o those_o that_o molest_v thou_o and_o be_v a_o comfort_n in_o all_o thou_o can_v imagine_v to_o those_o that_o be_v afflict_v either_o in_o body_n or_o in_o mâ—nd_n without_o exception_n of_o person_n be_v include_v in_o the_o gain_n of_o that_o most_o to_o be_v desire_v promise_n ☞_o remember_v with_o joy_n and_o imitate_v the_o best_a thou_o be_v able_a the_o happy_a example_n of_o the_o late_a bless_a bishop_n of_o geneva_n of_o who_o it_o be_v report_v that_o one_o in_o his_o diocese_n exceâ—dinly_o molest_v afflict_a and_o persecute_v this_o holy_a saint_n yét_v he_o use_v he_o with_o all_o love_n gentleness_n and_o respect_n yea_o more_o than_o any_o other_o person_n at_o which_o patient_a proceed_n of_o his_o one_o of_o his_o subject_n wondrâ—ng_v at_o and_o speak_v to_o he_o of_o it_o ask_v he_o how_o he_o can_v use_v that_o man_n so_o mild_o who_o never_o requite_v he_o with_o other_o then_o il_fw-mi turn_v for_o all_o the_o grace_n he_o show_v he_o be_v as_o it_o be_v top_n full_a of_o bitterness_n against_o he_o to_o which_o the_o saint_n humble_o answâ—ered_v o_o â—aâ—th_n he_o if_o he_o shall_v put_v out_o one_o of_o my_o eye_n i_o will_v smile_v upon_o he_o wâ—h_n the_o other_o i_o beseech_v thou_o my_o god_n for_o thy_o own_o sake_n grant_v thy_o unworthy_a servant_n grace_n to_o imitate_v this_o example_n though_o to_o speak_v true_o none_o can_v do_v she_o a_o injury_n who_o deserve_v so_o much_o in_o punishment_n for_o her_o sin_n psal._n 41._o vers_fw-la 6._o and_o 7._o wby_o be_v thou_o sorrowful_a my_o soul_n and_o why_o do_v thou_o trouble_v i_o hope_v in_o god_n because_o yet_o i_o will_v confess_v to_o he_o the_o salvation_n of_o my_o countenance_n and_o my_o god_n o_o my_o soul_n hope_v in_o thy_o god_n who_o can_v do_v all_o thing_n o_o bless_a hope_n and_o confidence_n which_o be_v able_a to_o obtain_v all_o thing_n and_o overcome_v all_o thing_n v_o 11._o in_o the_o day_n our_o lord_n have_v command_v his_o mercy_fw-mi and_o in_o the_o night_n a_o song_n of_o he_o do_v thou_o not_o hear_v my_o soul_n tâ—y_a lord_n do_v require_v of_o thou_o mercy_n towards_o thy_o even_a christian_a for_o that_o he_o show_v to_o thou_o and_o that_o night_n and_o day_n thou_o wâ—lt_v sing_v his_o praise_n but_o lord_n thou_o know_v that_o thy_o praise_n be_v not_o seemly_a in_o the_o mouth_n of_o a_o sinner_n what_o then_o shall_v i_o do_v o_o hope_v in_o thy_o mercy_n certain_a comfortable_a say_n take_v out_o of_o the_o holy_a scripture_n for_o the_o encouradgment_n of_o those_o that_o desire_v with_o all_o their_o heart_n to_o love_n and_o please_v our_o most_o merciful_a god_n and_o first_o out_o of_o the_o prophet_n isaie_v chap._n the_o first_o 16._o wash_v you_o be_v clean_o take_v away_o the_o evil_a of_o your_o cogitation_n from_o my_o eye_n cease_v to_o do_v perverse_o 17._o learn_v to_o do_v good_a seek_v judgement_n succour_v the_o oppress_a judge_v for_o pupil_n defend_v the_o widow_n and_o come_v and_o accuse_v i_o say_v our_o lord_n 18._o if_o your_o sin_n shall_v be_v as_o scarlet_a they_o shall_v be_v make_v as_o whit_n as_o snow_n and_o if_o they_o be_v as_o red_a as_o vermilion_n they_o shall_v be_v whit_n as_o wool_n 19_o if_o you_o be_v willing_a and_o will_v hear_v i_o you_o shall_v eat_v the_o good_a thing_n of_o the_o earth_n 22._o thy_o silver_n be_v turn_v into_o dross_n thy_o wine_n be_v mingle_v with_o water_n but_o hear_v what_o follow_v o_o my_o soul_n and_o therefore_o be_v not_o discomfort_a though_o all_o thou_o do_v and_o suffer_v be_v very_o imperfect_a yet_o behold_v what_o he_o promise_v who_o can_v do_v all_o thing_n if_o he_o will_v he_o can_v make_v thou_o clean_o if_o he_o command_v the_o wind_n and_o sea_n will_v be_v still_o and_o there_o will_v eâ—sue_v a_o calm_a commit_v thy_o â—elf_n to_o he_o and_o he_o will_v help_v thou_o when_o he_o think_v fit_a o_o god_n thy_o will_n be_v do_v therefore_o in_o i_o for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n 25._o i_o will_v turn_v my_o hand_n to_o thou_o and_o boil_v out_o thy_o drâ—ssâ—â—il_n it_o be_v pure_a and_o will_v take_v away_o all_o thy_o tinâ—e_n 26._o aâ—ter_v these_o thing_n thou_o shall_v be_v call_v the_o just_a a_o faithful_a city_n shall_v i_o fear_v to_o be_v forsake_v by_o thou_o my_o god_n after_o all_o these_o sweet_a promise_n no_o i_o will_v hope_v in_o the_o multitude_n of_o thy_o mercy_n though_o i_o have_v hitherto_o sinue_v against_o heaven_n and_o before_o thou_o so_o that_o i_o be_o not_o worthy_a to_o be_v call_v thy_o child_n yet_o let_v i_o eat_v of_o the_o crumb_n which_o fall_n from_o my_o master_n table_n that_o i_o may_v grow_v strong_a hereafter_o in_o resist_v that_o which_o make_v i_o displease_v in_o thy_o pure_a eye_n hear_v my_o lord_n the_o voice_n of_o a_o sinner_n which_o will_v feign_v love_n tâ—ee_v and_o with_o her_o hart_n and_o soul_n as_o great_o please_v the_o as_o ever_o she_o bathe_v offend_v thou_o let_v i_o either_o love_n or_o not_o liâ—e_z i_o know_v thy_o â—_z be_v so_o great_a that_o tâ—ou_fw-mi have_v admit_v those_o to_o eat_v of_o the_o bread_n of_o angel_n which_o heretofore_o feed_v of_o husk_n like_o swine_n yea_o s._n gertrude_n say_v that_o the_o more_o base_a vile_a and_o contemptible_a the_o creature_n be_v to_o who_o thou_o show_v mercy_n the_o more_o extol_v art_n tâ—ou_fw-fr by_o all_o thy_o angel_n and_o saint_n in_o heaven_n i_o will_v therefore_o hope_v in_o thou_o and_o beseech_v all_o tâ—y_a saint_n to_o pray_v for_o i_o and_o praise_n tâ—ee_v for_o take_v pity_n of_o i_o who_o be_o not_o worthy_a to_o cast_v up`mine_n eye_n to_o heaven_n much_o les_fw-fr to_o think_v upon_o or_o praise_n tâ—ee_v to_o thou_o o_o my_o god_n and_o all_o my_o desire_n be_v give_v perpetual_a praise_n and_o adoration_n for_o all_o eternity_n by_o all_o creature_n amen_n chap._n ii_o 3._o come_v let_v we_o go_v up_o to_o the_o mount_n of_o our_o lord_n and_o to_o the_o house_n of_o the_o gâ—d_n of_o jacob_n and_o he_o will_v teach_v we_o his_o way_n aâ—d_v we_o shall_v walk_v in_o his_o â—athes_n 5._o houâ—e_v of_o jacob_n come_v you_o and_o let_v we_o walk_v in_o the_o light_n of_o our_o lord_n o_o my_o god_n happy_a be_v they_o that_o walk_v in_o this_o light_n in_o this_o light_n none_o walk_v but_o the_o humble_a and_o clean_a of_o hart_n and_o those_o that_o serve_v thou_o for_o love_n who_o joy_n thou_o thy-self_n be_v and_o who_o sing_v with_o the_o prophet_n rennit_n consolari_fw-la anima_fw-la mea_fw-la my_o soul_n refuse_v to_o be_v comfort_v these_o do_v in_o some_o sort_n more_o or_o less_o as_o thou_o please_v find_v how_o sweet_a and_o happy_a a_o thing_n it_o be_v to_o seek_v and_o sigh_v after_o thou_o alone_o return_v my_o soul_n to_o thy_o belove_a return_v seek_v for_o no_o consolation_n but_o put_v thy_o hope_n in_o god_n commit_v thy-self_n unto_o god_n and_o let_v he_o do_v with_o thou_o what_o please_v he_o never_o seek_v thy_o 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honour_v in_o a_o particular_a manner_n and_o who_o have_v be_v always_o ready_a to_o assist_v i_o in_o call_v upon_o thou_o i_o beseech_v thou_o for_o the_o love_n of_o he_o by_o who_o love_n thy_o hart_n be_v so_o inflame_v to_o assist_v i_o at_o the_o hour_n of_o my_o death_n and_o obtain_v for_o i_o of_o our_o lord_n that_o live_v and_o die_v i_o may_v be_v whole_o conformable_a to_o his_o bless_a will_n neither_o desit_v for_o time_n or_o eternity_n any_o other_o thing_n then_o that_o his_o divine_a pleasure_n be_v perfect_o accomplish_v in_o i_o his_o unworthy_a &_o ungrateful_a creature_n and_o in_o that_o dreadful_a hour_n
intend_v yet_o what_o be_v ill_a reform_v in_o thou_o and_o this_o will_v all_o amend_v as_o far_o as_o he_o do_v think_v it_o good_a who_o be_v most_o just_a and_o wise_a he_o will_v thou_o by_o affliction_n purge_v from_o what_o displease_v his_o eye_n will_v thou_o of_o all_o that_o love_v thy_o god_n from_o suffer_v be_v exempt_a o_o no_o but_o bliss_n as_o other_o do_v thy_o god_n and_o live_v content_a amid_o the_o various_a accident_n that_o do_v to_o thou_o befall_v commit_v thyself_o and_o all_o to_o god_n who_o seek_v our_o good_a in_o all_o thyself_o be_v blind_a and_o can_v judge_v what_o be_v the_o best_a for_o thou_o but_o he_o do_v pierce_v into_o all_o thing_n how_o hâ—dd_v so_o ere_o thâ—y_v be_v my_o hart_n shall_v only_o this_o desire_n that_o thou_o my_o lord_n dispose_v even_o as_o thou_o please_v in_o all_o thing_n till_o these_o my_o eye_n thou_o close_o by_o death_n which_o i_o so_o much_o desire_n because_o it_o will_v procure_v i_o to_o enjoy_v my_o god_n my_o 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which_o thou_o teach_v be_v sound_a solid_a and_o secure_a because_o it_o tend_v to_o nothing_o but_o to_o love_v thou_o &_o neglect_v itself_o thy_o word_n bring_v force_n &_o strength_n in_o themselves_o thy_o word_n be_v word_n of_o peace_n to_o the_o soul_n thy_o word_n be_v not_o like_o the_o word_n of_o man_n which_o pass_v as_o a_o sound_n through_o the_o air_n buâ—_n thy_o pierce_v the_o very_a bottom_n of_o our_o soul_n let_v i_o hearken_v therefore_o to_o thou_o who_o speak_v love_n and_o most_o certain_a truth_n the_o wisdom_n of_o the_o world_n be_v foolishness_n before_o thou_o but_o thy_o wisdom_n be_v much_o to_o be_v desire_v and_o for_o it_o willing_o ought_v we_o to_o give_v all_o our_o substance_n to_o it_o we_o ought_v to_o be_v espouse_v and_o by_o it_o if_o we_o will_v be_v happy_a all_o our_o action_n ought_v to_o be_v govern_v although_o thou_o do_v say_v 3._o that_o unless_o we_o become_v as_o little_a child_n we_o can_v not_o enter_v into_o the_o kingdom_n 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another_o nothing_o be_v permanent_a under_o the_o sun_n very_o when_o in_o thy_o light_n i_o see_v this_o truth_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o to_o be_v a_o intolerable_a burden_n to_o be_v esteem_v and_o praise_v by_o man_n who_o favour_n often_o make_v we_o incur_v thy_o displeasureâ—_n at_o least_o my_o frailty_n cause_v it_o so_o to_o i_o help_v i_o therefore_o and_o make_v i_o by_o all_o to_o become_v true_o humble_a and_o please_v to_o thou_o who_o be_v adore_v three_o and_o one_o for_o all_o eternity_n to_o thy_o infinite_a glory_n amen_n the_o three_o confession_n o_o that_o i_o be_v able_a to_o win_v the_o heart_n of_o the_o whole_a world_n to_o thou_o which_o see_v i_o be_o not_o able_a to_o do_v let_v i_o be_v no_o let_v at_o least_o to_o any_o soul_n of_o â—eing_v thou_o all_o love_n and_o praise_n be_v due_a â—nto_n thou_o and_o all_o pain_n reproach_n confusion_n and_o shame_n unto_o i_o which_o â—rant_v i_o may_v bear_v without_o offend_v thou_o and_o then_o a_o thousand_o time_n welcome_a be_v any_o of_o they_o which_o may_v increase_v my_o love_n to_o thou_o o_o let_v i_o forsak_v all_o for_o thou_o which_o thou_o will_v we_o to_o do_v that_o we_o may_v find_v thou_o what_o be_v this_o thou_o say_v tell_v i_o thy_o poor_a servant_n leave_v all_o have_v i_o any_o thing_n to_o leave_v which_o be_v not_o more_o burdensome_a to_o keep_v than_o it_o be_v pain_n to_o leave_v if_o i_o seek_v myself_o what_o do_v i_o labour_v for_o but_o my_o own_o pain_n if_o i_o forsake_v myself_o for_o thou_o behold_v a_o most_o sweet_a peace_n be_v find_v by_o i_o thus_o there_o for_o
return_n for_o she_o have_v forsake_v all_o for_o thou_o and_o have_v taste_v of_o thy_o sweetness_n say_v with_o the_o prophet_n 8.37_o turn_v away_o my_o eye_n that_o they_o see_v not_o vanity_n lest_o like_o a_o dog_n she_o return_v to_o her_o vomit_n and_o after_o have_v have_v a_o glimmer_a of_o thy_o light_n she_o because_o she_o fear_v she_o shall_v not_o be_v able_a to_o sustain_v thy_o chastisement_n and_o shall_v forget_v and_o loose_v herself_o by_o these_o tribulation_n and_o desirous_a that_o she_o may_v be_v happy_o enable_v to_o enâ—er_v the_o more_o full_o into_o thou_o and_o fear_v i_o say_v her_o own_o frailty_n she_o thus_o again_o cry_v out_o to_o thou_o by_o these_o other_o word_n of_o the_o psalmist_n say_v 187.2_o domine_fw-la deus_fw-la salutis_fw-la meae_fw-la in_o die_v clamavi_fw-la &_o nocte_fw-la coram_fw-la te_fw-la o_o lord_n god_n of_o my_o salvation_n day_n and_o night_n have_v i_o cry_v after_o thou_o for_o who_o but_o thyself_o can_v comfort_v a_o soul_n that_o indeed_o neither_o seek_v nor_o desire_v any_o thing_n but_o thou_o my_o god_n o_o when_o shall_v i_o spend_v all_o my_o strength_n and_o force_n in_o sing_v thy_o praise_n who_o will_v set_v their_o heart_n upon_o any_o thing_n but_o thou_o see_v thou_o have_v make_v all_o other_o thing_n so_o hard_o to_o be_v obtain_v that_o we_o may_v seek_v only_o thou_o for_o who_o we_o be_v make_v and_o who_o love_n we_o may_v more_o easy_o obtain_v then_o any_o thing_n else_o whatsoever_o o_o let_v i_o love_n thou_o who_o only_o for_o that_o end_n do_v create_v i_o we_o will_v have_v that_o which_o be_v worth_a nothing_o and_o many_o time_n grieve_v for_o the_o loss_n of_o that_o which_o will_v but_o cause_v we_o perplexity_n and_o trouble_v to_o have_v in_o the_o mean_a time_n neglect_v that_o which_o thou_o so_o infinite_o desire_v to_o bestow_v upon_o we_o to_o wit_n thy_o love_n than_o which_o nothing_o be_v so_o good_a or_o sweet_a or_o that_o bring_v such_o true_a peace_n to_o the_o soul._n the_o xx._n confession_n without_o pain_n it_o be_v impossible_a o_o my_o most_o amiable_a god_n to_o live_v in_o love_n but_o if_o the_o difficulty_n which_o thy_o true_a friend_n and_o servant_n feel_v be_v weigh_v with_o the_o misery_n of_o those_o who_o rather_o seek_v to_o please_v themselves_o and_o other_o then_o thou_o there_o will_v be_v find_v a_o infinite_a disâ—parity_n for_o thy_o yoke_n be_v sweet_a and_o thy_o burden_n light_n to_o the_o simple_a and_o humble_a and_o to_o those_o who_o serve_v thou_o for_o love_n and_o who_o joy_n thou_o thyself_o be_v and_o who_o nothing_o else_o but_o thou_o my_o god_n do_v seâ—k_n for_o in_o time_n or_o eternity_n these_o i_o say_v be_v despise_v contemn_a afflict_a pain_a tempt_v trouble_a and_o many_o time_n sit_v sorrowful_a with_o a_o heavy_a hart_n and_o sad_a countenance_n but_o thy_o will_n be_v their_o law_n and_o thy_o disposition_n their_o consolation_n i_o may_v bold_o affirm_v that_o in_o all_o this_o they_o suffer_v nothing_o in_o comparison_n of_o the_o fondâ—_n lover_n of_o this_o world_n because_o thou_o be_v ever_o more_o present_a to_o they_o then_o tâ—ey_v to_o themselves_o do_v when_o thou_o see_v thy_o time_n refresh_v their_o soul_n with_o the_o light_n and_o comfort_n of_o thy_o grace_n yea_o seem_a to_o be_v even_o prodigal_a of_o thy_o sweetness_n to_o such_o as_o abide_v faithful_a to_o thou_o in_o their_o tribulation_n and_o hope_v confide_v and_o glory_n in_o thou_o and_o not_o in_o themselves_o and_o who_o take_v occasion_n in_o all_o they_o see_v hear_v suffer_v overcome_v to_o humble_v themselves_o under_o thy_o mighty_a hand_n and_o bless_v and_o praise_v thy_o justice_n and_o mercy_n in_o all_o thing_n whatsoever_o among_o which_o number_n admit_v i_o poor_a and_o contemptible_a sinner_n to_o thy_o great_a glory_n for_o this_o thy_o mercy_n from_o all_o creature_n for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n the_o xxi_o confession_n o_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n remove_v all_o impediment_n between_o thy_o goodness_n and_o my_o poor_a soul_n that_o i_o may_v love_v thou_o who_o only_o deserve_v all_o love_n and_o honour_n give_v i_o a_o humble_a and_o peaceful_a hart_n that_o thou_o may_v inhabit_v therein_o as_o thou_o desire_v suppress_v in_o i_o by_o thy_o sweet_a grace_n the_o sin_n of_o pride_n which_o make_v i_o as_o yet_o so_o odious_a to_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n o_o if_o we_o do_v but_o by_o true_a humility_n abase_v ourselves_o what_o beam_n of_o true_a light_n will_v shine_v in_o the_o bottom_n of_o our_o soul_n o_o what_o amity_n be_v there_o between_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n and_o a_o humble_a soul_n nothing_o but_o humility_n can_v have_v draw_v thou_o down_o to_o the_o earth_n and_o only_o humility_n can_v make_v we_o capable_a of_o be_v draw_v by_o â—hee_o up_o to_o heaven_n the_o true_o humble_a conver_n familiar_o with_o thou_o and_o thy_o saint_n they_o presume_v nothing_o of_o themselves_o can_v do_v all_o thing_n in_o thou_o who_o strengthne_v they_o and_o thou_o be_v so_o chary_a and_o tender_a of_o the_o humble_a that_o what_o concern_v they_o thou_o esteem_v to_o concern_v thy_o own_o self_n and_o even_o thy_o own_o hart_n and_o they_o think_v they_o do_v nothing_o do_v by_o thou_o do_v all_o thing_n many_o unknown_a to_o the_o worldâ—_n and_o of_o no_o esteem_n wiâ—h_v it_o shall_v before_o thou_o have_v the_o honour_n and_o merâ—t_v in_o the_o next_o world_n of_o that_o which_o noâ—_n other_o man_n boast_v of_o and_o attribute_v to_o themselves_o for_o the_o humble_a live_n still_o in_o their_o own_o nothing_o give_v all_o glory_n to_o thou_o by_o who_o only_o all_o good_a be_v perform_v in_o the_o mean_a while_o thou_o enrich_v they_o of_o thy_o mere_a mercy_n with_o thy_o merit_n o_o happy_a exchange_n thinâ—_n for_o we_o dirt_n for_o the_o most_o pure_a gold_n what_o be_v all_o we_o can_v do_v very_o nothing_o enrich_v i_o therefore_o poor_a beggar_n with_o somewhat_o of_o thy_o at_o thâ—_n foot_n i_o lay_v whatsoever_o thou_o give_v oâ—_n have_v give_v i_o give_v or_o take_v away_o 〈◊〉_d thou_o please_v so_o thou_o do_v not_o blot_v mâ—_n out_o of_o the_o book_n of_o life_n open_v to_o i_o knock_v at_o the_o door_n of_o thy_o mercy_n i_o have_v be_v five_o and_o twenty_o year_n this_o signify_v her_o age_n at_o the_o write_v hereof_o as_o that_o she_o be_v then_o five_o and_o twenty_o year_n old_a in_o my_o infirmity_n of_o most_o loathsome_a sin_n behold_v my_o misery_n and_o take_v pity_n upon_o i_o son_n of_o david_n i_o defile_v that_o â—oul_n that_o be_v make_v to_o thy_o own_o image_n and_o likeness_n have_v compassion_n on_o she_o who_o have_v no_o other_o friend_n or_o comforter_n but_o thyself_o the_o only_o desire_v of_o my_o hart_n for_o thy_o own_o sake_n be_v propitious_a to_o my_o sin_n for_o it_o be_v much_o nothing_o that_o i_o have_v do_v can_v i_o alleadg_n to_o thou_o which_o have_v deserve_v any_o reward_n in_o thy_o eye_n only_a desire_n of_o which_o many_o bourn_n in_o hell_n they_o be_v little_a without_o good_a work_n give_v she_o to_o drink_v who_o wither_v away_o for_o want_n of_o thou_o the_o fountain_n of_o all_o sweetness_n i_o will_v pour_v out_o my_o soul_n before_o thou_o that_o at_o least_o i_o may_v comfort_v myself_o with_o relate_v to_o thou_o my_o sin_n and_o misery_n behold_v all_o my_o enemy_n triumph_v over_o i_o of_o who_o most_o easy_o in_o all_o temptation_n they_o get_v â—he_v victory_n fight_v for_o i_o or_o else_o i_o know_v not_o what_o will_v become_v of_o i_o give_v i_o true_a humility_n by_o which_o all_o thing_n be_v easy_o overcome_v and_o all_o thou_o exact_a most_o perfect_o accomplish_v by_o we_o thy_o majesty_n poor_a creature_n give_v thyself_o to_o meâ—_n who_o have_v nothing_o of_o her_o own_o to_o offer_v thou_o and_o if_o thou_o give_v i_o thyself_o i_o be_o as_o rich_a as_o i_o desire_v to_o be_v and_o if_o thou_o shall_v bestoâ—_n upon_o i_o all_o thou_o have_v or_o can_v create_v it_o will_v be_v little_a to_o i_o unless_o i_o possess_v thou_o by_o thy_o self_n i_o praise_v thou_o who_o name_n do_v not_o beseem_a the_o mouth_n of_o a_o sinner_n o_o let_v i_o love_n or_o not_o live_v i_o give_v myself_o to_o thou_o who_o alone_o i_o wish_v for_o and_o desire_v with_o all_o the_o force_n of_o my_o hart_n and_o soul._n o_o my_o god_n how_o near_o thou_o be_v to_o we_o ready_a to_o hear_v and_o receive_v our_o prayer_n and_o petition_n behold_v thy_o sâ—eeâ—_n providence_n show_v itself_o in_o all_o thing_n o_o how_o long_o shall_v my_o god_n be_v thus_o forget_v by_o creature_n when_o will_v thou_o by_o love_n be_v by_o all_o seek_v after_o as_o thou_o ought_v to_o be_v by_o we_o the_o
ever_o amen_o the_o xxxii_o confession_n may_v i_o ask_v thy_o majesty_n this_o question_n be_v not_o worthy_a so_o much_o as_o to_o name_n or_o think_v upon_o thou_o may_v i_o i_o say_v ask_v thou_o how_o it_o be_v possible_a that_o thou_o can_v find_v in_o thy_o hart_n thus_o to_o heap_v benefit_n upon_o the_o most_o unworthy_a ungreatful_a and_o contemptible_a of_o all_o thy_o creature_n be_v there_o any_o sin_n that_o i_o have_v not_o comit_v at_o least_o by_o my_o will_n yea_o very_o so_o great_a and_o numberless_a do_v my_o â—ins_n and_o imperfection_n appear_v to_o i_o that_o i_o never_o read_v or_o hear_v of_o any_o who_o sin_n for_o one_o reason_n or_o other_o can_v be_v compare_v to_o i_o shall_v not_o therefore_o my_o soul_n praise_v my_o god_n can_v any_o wonder_n to_o see_v i_o in_o all_o occasion_n fly_v to_o thou_o and_o speak_v to_o thou_o whâ—_n haste_n without_o any_o the_o least_o desert_n on_o my_o part_n thus_o sweet_o with_o thy_o grace_n prevent_v i_o and_o not_o only_o avert_v my_o will_n from_o all_o that_o displease_v thou_o but_o also_o draw_v i_o so_o forcible_a to_o desire_v only_o thou_o that_o my_o soul_n even_o loathe_v all_o that_o may_v any_o way_n hinder_v it_o from_o true_o adhere_v to_o thou_o and_o such_o a_o inclination_n have_v my_o will_n continual_o towards_o thâ—e_n that_o it_o can_v endure_v to_o rest_v in_o any_o thing_n but_o thou_o alone_o i_o will_v have_v thou_o alone_o i_o desir_n to_o love_v and_o seek_v thou_o esteem_v all_o gift_n ☜_o and_o grace_n so_o much_o and_o no_o more_o as_o they_o may_v and_o do_v enable_v i_o to_o rest_v only_o in_o theâ—_n which_o grant_v i_o may_v ever_o do_v for_o thy_o own_o sake_n who_o be_v godnes_n itself_o and_o who_o be_v ever_o bless_v amen_n the_o xxxiii_o confession_n o_o thou_o who_o despise_v not_o any_o in_o grief_n and_o misery_n fly_v to_o thou_o hear_v and_o help_v i_o in_o that_o which_o be_v sustain_v by_o i_o to_o who_o shall_v i_o fly_v but_o to_o thou_o if_o i_o 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