detestation and sequestration appears in the last words Men and Brethren what shall we do we will do any thing suffer any thing command what you wil enjoyn what you please be it never so hard we will endeavor it never so cross to our hearts or comforts we will bear it better be any thing than be thus 〈◊〉 let 's be in any condition that once we might be freed from this sinful and accursed condition in which we be We have taken liberty to lay out our Work with as much plainness and openness of order as we may because we shall have occasion to mind you of the particulars in our future proceeding and how the several 〈◊〉 serve each others turn in their place and order Before we come to the Particulars one Point 〈◊〉 in the very entrance which will be very serviceable to make way for all the Truths following and therefore we shall take in that at this time that it may be as an Harbenger to make room for all the rest And it ariseth from a right consideration of the parties to whom 〈◊〉 here speaks and with whom his word so prevailed and took place 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 36. verse he tels them that same 〈◊〉 whom ye have crucisied They were therefore such as had rejected blasphemed 〈◊〉 the Lord of Glory those who in a bloody manner 〈◊〉 away the life of 〈◊〉 who came to take away their sins Is it possible is it credible that ever mercy should be extended unto such that ever good should be wrought in such Yes Lo here When they heard this they were pricked in their hearts They whose hands were imbrewed in the blood of Jesus their hearts are now 〈◊〉 with Godly sorrow and so made fit to receive Grace and Mercy Hence the Doctrine is Stubborn and bloody sinners may be made broken-hearted sinners Bloody hellish abominable 〈◊〉 may yet obtain broken hearts worse than these could hardly be conceived or imagined and yet God makes work of these knotty way ward Spirits It was said of him that betrayed Christ it had been good for him that be had never been born What shall we say of them that murdered our Savior they are in the highest rank of the most wicked men that ever were born yet even such as 〈◊〉 who also opposed the Word and Gospel of Grace the Disciples and Apostles the Preachers and Publishers of Grace the Author and God of Grace yet such as these have now their hearts broken and in some measure prepared to be partakers thereof The Apostle speaks of the Gentiles Rom. 1. 29. That they were full of all unrighteousness there can hardly be added any thing to the largeness of the expression No sin worse for the kind more for the number greater for the measure for they had all unrighteousness all the kinds of evil and all degrees in the largest extent they were full and yet of such the Apostle professeth 1 Cor. 6. 9. when he had mentioned a heap of most loathsom and hideous abominations Know ye not that no unrighteous person shall enter into the Kingdom of Heaven Be not deceived neither Fornicators nor Idolaters nor Adulterers nor Effeminate self-Polluters Extortioners Covetous persons shall ever enter into the Kingdom of God then verse 11. And such were some of you but ye are washed but ye are sanctified but ye are justified in the name of the Lord Jesus and by the Spirit of our God Some such as these were savingly brought home to God Yea when corruption becomes like an old cankered sore of long continuance and the sinner incorrigible under all the choycest means that have been used yet then the Lord works the Cure Isay 57. 18. I was angry with him for his evil lustings and he went on in the frowardness of his own heart ther is no help if the Disease grow worse for the dressing the Prophet adds I have seen his waies I will heal him and lead him and restore comforts to him and to those that mourn with him as if he should say Ah poor Creature he cannot see himself nor me yet I see him and his way he wounds himself but I will heal him he deludes himself but I wil heal him sink he must in his own sorrow but I will succor him and supply to him Isay 48. 4. I know thou art obstinate and thy neck is an Iron sinew and thy brow is Brass and yet Verse 17. I am the Lord thy Redeemer that teach thee to profit and leadest thee by the way thou shouldest go The Lord bows an Iron sinew and makes it bendable unto his will The Lord makes snowy Saints of scarlet sinners scarlet we know is twice dyed in the Wool and in the Web and Cloth and therefore it is beyond all the skil and art of man to alter it Yet though our Sins be such bred in our Natures committed in our Lives and therefore beyond our reach 〈◊〉 and the power of all means and performances we can take up to remove them yet the Lord hath undertaken it and he will do it Isa. 1. 18. There is a Threefold Argument to settle this Truth Taken from the largeness of his Mercy which is as himself Infinite and therefore infinitely exceeds all our wants and can supply them all our weaknesses and infirmities and therefore can forgive them and remove them as he will as though they had never been Isa. 55. 7. Let the wicked forsake his way and the unrighteous man his thoughts and return unto the Lord for he will abundantly pardon and to our God for he will have mercy But the discouraged sinner might happily reply It is Mercy that I have abused and his pardons he hath tendered yet I in the time of my folly have trampled under my feet and therefore with what face could I beg mercy or upon what ground could I think ever to receive it He answers For my thoughts are not your thoughts nor your waies my waies for as the Heavens are higher than the Earth so are my thoughts than your thoughts there is no proportion no comparison the Earth is not of a valuable consideration to the Heavens but like a Centre in the Circumference it is as though it was not So here the thoughts of Gods Mercy to pardon thee is so far beyond the evil of thy waies and thoughts to condemn that they are as though they were not nay though thou couldest not beleeve it or think it yet the Lord could and would do it This is one of his names He keeps mercy for thousands Exod. 34. 7. he hath it in store for thousands and FORGIVES Iniquity Transgression and Sin that is all kinds and degrees of sin and he must be thus or else he were not God For did our sins exceed his mercies our weakness his strength were Satan more malicious to tempt 〈◊〉 and powerful to overcome 〈◊〉 than he was gracious to defend and Almighty to deliver then were he not God if any thing were
but when the Vessel is now carried into the main Ocean that it should then founder in the waves or be overwhelmed in the midst of the Sea they are wholly without sight of land or least hope of any relief there is no eye to 〈◊〉 them in their misery and therefore none to pitty them nor any hand to help them or any means within the ken of Providence for them to conceive they might expect deliverance So it is with this in Comparison of al other sins the unpardoable one excepted what ever other 〈◊〉 surprise the soul what ever the nature or number or haynousness be hightened with all circumstances that may attend as long as the soul can look out to the infinitness of Gods Mercy and free Grace the invaluable efficacy and vertue of the Merits of the Lord Christ his death and obedience a man is within sight of Land when the Ship is split he may swim to shore Look unto me all ye ends of the Earth and be ye saved saies the Lord Isa. 45. 22. there is yet hope in Israel touching this thing for it is a true saying and worthy of all acceptation That Christ came to save sinners whereof I am chief saies Paul 1 Tim. 1. 16. And as the Heaven is high above the Earth so are the thoughts of God above our thoughts Isa. 55. But this sin of despair sinks a mans heart and comforts as a stone flung into the midst of the Sea carries a man beyond the ken and compass of the boundless favor and compassions of the Lord. To go no further than the Doctrine delivered the malignity of this evil herein discovers it self as that which brings the greatest dishonor to God and irrecoverable danger to the soul. It 's deeply injurious and dishonorable to the Almighty it sins against more of God and tramples the riches of his Graces and tender Mercies under the feet of contempt and counts the Covenant of life and Salvation in the Gospel not only a common thing but a vain thing it 〈◊〉 Gods Truth and Faithfulness and his enlarged Favors into his face with scorn as unable to help and unworthy to be attended And when all the glorious Attributes and Excellencies of God have met together in contriving and accomplishing the Salvation of a sinner in despight of all the power of Hell and darkness this dasheth and blurreth all with the highest disdain and contumelious indignity that may be There was an infinite power wisdom and goodness put forth in making a World of nothing adorned and enriched with such beauty and goodness which each man may see in the frame thereof but in the plotting and performing the great Work of Redemption there was wisdom beyond all the wisdom in the Work of the Creation power beyond and above all that power God said let there be a World and it was so but saying will not serve the turn here it must be the sending of his own Son the death and suffering of Jesus Christ it must cost him his life before lost man could be restored to life again here was Mercy above all the former Bounty and Goodness that goodness then vouchsafed continued not with man nor he in it but this is everlasting mercy which doth not only put us into the possession of Grace and Glory but keeps us there in despight of all the power and policy of Devils all the treachery and weakness of our own hearts despair casts the Crown of all his Power and Wisdom Truth and Faithfulness down unto the dust and proclaims to all the world in our apprehension our weakness is beyond his power it cannot support us our folly too hard for his wisdom it cannot lead and enlighten our minds our misery and sins surpasseth the vertue of his mercy it cannot help and relieve us This is the reason why the Lord cannot endure the least appearance of these desperate pangs as deeply injurious to the Honor of his Name and that in the greatest Excellency Isa. 40. 27. Why saiest thou O Jacob and speakest thou O Israel my way is hid from the Lord and my Judgment is passed over of my God Let no more such words be heard the Lord cannot endure to hear you speak so or to have you think so you cast the most vile unsufferable indignity upon the Lord that may be You drooping discouraged hearts you think it is the loathsomness of your own sins the vileness and unworthiness of your own persons that you look at in all those dreadful complaints you make Is there water enough in the Sea to clense this sink of hellish rebellions in this wretched Nature Can such loathsom abominations of so deep a dye of so long continuance committed against so much Light Grace committed against knowledg and Conscience against patience and goodness and that multiplied from day to day Can these be pardones Mercy should be accessary to its own dishonor if it should shew mercy to such a wretch which hath so abused it Know assuredly you speak against the Lord al this while while you would seem to speak against your own wretched distempers so the Psalmist Psal. 78. 19. Yea they not only sinned more and provoked God as in the former verses but they spake against God saying Can God prepare a Table in the Wilderness You blaspheme and speak against his Power which is not able to work it against his Wisdom which cannot contrive it against his Mercy which is not willing or not able to succor you It was the greatest sin that ever Cain committed when he said his sin was greater than could be forgiven Gen. 4. Then thy heart is more sinful than God can be merciful Satan more able to damn thee than God is able to save thee then God is no God and Christ is no Christ and the Spirit no Comforter yea this is to make the Devil which is the worst of all Creatures and Sin which is no Creature but weakness and worse than the Devil himself to be above God and the Lord Jesus and the blessed Spirit of Grace worse than which blasphemy Hell it self can hardly afford any Hear therefore and fear and for ever abhor that such thoughts should once come into your minds such words proceed out of your mouths As it 's dishonorable to God so it 's dangerous yea deadly to the soul It not only crosseth a mans present comfort darkens our evidence sence and assurance of Gods Favor but utterly cuts off all possibility from the soul for ever expecting the least drop of refreshing or smile of Gods Face For hope in the Heart is the last sprong or sucker in the root of the Tree whereby it lives and stands Though the soul see nothing feel nothing have nothing yet Hope saies 〈◊〉 may be otherwise this proud heart may be abased this sturdy heart may he forced to stoop this unbeleeving heart though it hath had and abused and slighted and been unprofitable under so many means and after so
〈◊〉 that would not be enlightened leave them to the hardness of their hearts that would not be converted He wil not alwaies strive who hath stood so long and knocked so often thou shalt see him no more quickening awing affecting of thee Or if thou hast a heart to seek in thy manner who knows whether God will accept it or no Thou wouldest not regard his 〈◊〉 and 〈◊〉 and he wil not respect thy prayers and 〈◊〉 Prov. 1. 28. Then shall they call but I will not answer they shall seek me early but they shall not find me Hebr. 12. 17. Esau found no place of repentance though he sought it carefully with tears nay he may send thee as he did the Israelits to the Idols of thy heart Jer. 2. 28. But where are thy gods that thou hast made let them arise and save 〈◊〉 But Lastly if I cannot satisfy for my evills yet out of his bounty and mercy he may abate me of the Plagues the mercies of God are great and his compassions large and thus the mercies of God who were provided to bring men from their corruptions to 〈◊〉 through the abuse of carnal hearts become means to make them secure in their dregs Deuter. 29. 19. when al the plagues were threatned yet they bless themselves and say I shal have peace though I walk in the imaginations of my evil heart So they in Isaiah made a Covenant with death and Hell The sin against mercy is one of the greatest sins that ever thou committest Thou turnest the grace of God into 〈◊〉 Jude 4. and such are ordained of ould unto condemnation thou despisest mercy and abusest it thou shalt therefore be condemned by mercy not saved by it God must not be just and so not God if he save thee without satisfaction to his justice The Lord cannot wrong himself to relieve thee dishonor himself to deliver thee Exod. 34. 7. He will by no means Celar the guilty It s one of his names and himself and he cannot deny himself and if his justice be not satisfyed thy plagues cannot be abated If a carnal man sees he cannot prevent the danger of sin then he sayes I will bear it if I be damned I will suffer it as I may if it come to the 〈◊〉 Let me have my sins though the Devil have my soul let me have the sweet of the pleasures of sin in this world though I never see the face of God in Glory this is a most forlorn and divellish resolution But dost thou know what thou sayest true thou shalt bear thy damnation but thou art never able to bear it without breaking under it being helpless and hopeless forever O woe to thee that ever thou wert born O poor creature If I should cease speaking and al of us joyn together in weeping and lamenting thy condition it were the best course It is impossible thou shouldest ever bear Gods wrath Let these three things be considered Judg the Lion by the Paw judg the torments of Hel by some little beginnings of it and the dregs of Gods vengeance by some little sips of it and judg how unable thou art to bear the whol by thy inability to bear a little of it in this life In terror of Conscience as the wise man saies A wounded spirit who can bear When God layes the flashes of hell fire upon thy soul thou canst not endure it Whatsoever a man can inflict upon a poor wretch may be born but when the Almighty comes in battel array against a poor soul how can he undergo it Wittness the Saints that felt it as also the wicked themselves who have had some beginnings of hell in their 〈◊〉 when the Lord hath let in horror into the soul of a poor sinner how is he transported with an insupportable burthen When it is day he wisheth it were night and when it is night he wisheth it were day all the freinds in the world cannot comfort him nay many have sought to hang themselves to do any thing rather than to suffer a little of the vengeance of the Almighty and one man is roaring and yelling as if he were now in Hell already and admits of no comfort if the drops be so heavy what wil the whol Sea of Gods Vengeance be If he cannot bear the one how can he bear the other Consider thine own strength and compare it with all the strength of the Creatures and so if all the Creatures be not able to bear the wrath of the Almighty as Job saies Job 6. 12. Is my strength the strength of stones or is my flesh as brass that must bear thy wrath as if he had said it must be a stone or brass that must bear thy wrath Though thou wert as strong as brass or stones thou could'st not bear it when the mountains tremble at the wrath of the Lord shal a poor worm or bubble and shadow endure it Conceive thus much If al the Diseases in the world did seize upon one man and if all the torments that all the Tyrants in the world could devise were cast upon him and if all the Creatures in Heaven and Earth did conspire the destruction of this man and if all the Devils in Hell did labor to inflict punishment upon him you would think this man to be in a miserable case and yet al this is but a beam of Gods Indignation If the beams of his wrath be so hot what is the full Sun of his Wrath when it shal seize upon the soul of a sinful creature in ful measure Nay If yet thou thinkest to lift up thy self above all Creatures and to bear more than they all Then set before thine eyes the sufferings of our Lord Jesus Christ he that creates the Heavens and upholds the whol frame thereof when the wrath of God came upon him only as a Surety he cries out with his Eyes ful of tears and his heart ful of sorrow and the Heavens ful of lamentation My God my God why hast thou forsaken me Matth. 27. 46. Oh thou poor creature if thou hast the heart of a man gird up the loyns of thy mind and see what thou canst do Dost thou think to bear that which the Lord Jesus could not bear without so much sorrow yet he did endure it without any sin or weakness He had three sips of the Cup and every one of them did sink his soul and art thou a poor sinful wretch able to bear the wrath of God for ever Yield unto the Evidence of the Truth thus 〈◊〉 beyond all opposition and gainsaying and sit down in silence under the Authority of it and let it settle upon thy soul neither question it any more nor hear any thing against it when it hath been heard formerly so fully scanned and determined upon such undeniable grounds Shut the door against the appearance of any sinful shifts admit no conference with carnal reason any further Say that coast is cleer that case is
judg those wil judg thee and how heavy wil that judgment be then John 15. 22. If I had not come they had had no sin but now they have no cloak for their sin Wrong to our brethren their honor and lives goods and good names especially when open and scandalous wee sin against the souls of our brethren lay stumbling blocks before them and here one sin may become many millions of offences as the numbers may be many that shal hear of it Who knows how others may be emboldned and encouraged in sin by our example how others hindred and provoked to speak evil of the good ways of Gods grace because of our wretchedness Woe be to the World because of offences Mat. 18. 7. Who knows but the blood of many who perish by our means may be required at our hand nay that our sinful example may live when we are dead 2 Sam. 12. 14. By this deed thou hast given great occasion to the enemies of the Lord to blaspheme Rom. 2. 24. the name of God is blasphemed amongst the heathen through you and therefore the Prophet David though God hath pardoned his sin and published it by Nathan he would not pardon himself but left his repentance upon record as wel as his fal Peter went out and wept bitterly that others might hear of his sorrow and humiliation for his sin who had heard of his backsliding Many wil ly and curse with Peter but he that hath his Grace wil go out with Peter and mourn bitterly Many can easily fal into filthiness as David but if he have his spirit he wil labour to have his heart and bones broken with David Add unto al the former the time wherein a man hath continued in his sins and the frequency of them having often committed one and the same sin stumbling again at the same stone taken aside again by the same 〈◊〉 and temptations after they have been confessed bewailed resolved against Psal. 78. 32. For all this they sined stil c. Psal. 40. 12. they are more than the haires of my head I am not able to look up Thus wee must survey severally the particulars which may be able to present the vileness of sin to us but that is not al nor yet sufficient but We must sum them up joyntly by serious meditation that so they may fal-upon the heart in the ful weight of them and prevail more effectually and this also helps forward the work of contrition in a special manner He that parts every stick in the bundle and takes them severally and singles them one from another he may carry them easily and lightly never be loaded or troubled with them but when he hath gathered them from several places where they lay scattered and 〈◊〉 them together he wil then find them a burden he is not able to lift much less able to stand under and bear so here that is also another and special work of Meditation besides those mentioned formerly it doth not onely look over the several aberrations of mans practice and gather up our particular miscarriages scattered up and down in our dayly course but laies and bundles them all together and so they become a burden unsupportable that seems to be one part of the meaning of the place Psal. 38. 4. My sins are passed over my head and are become too heavy for me to bear It 's a comparison say Interpreters and those very judicious taken from Waters that look as the Land-floods when the waters flow in from every Riveret and Gutter and from every Hill and Furrough at last they meet all in the main Channel and so becomes an overbearing stream that swels above the Banks and bears down all before it whereas each petty Gutter was such as any might wade through and step over the might of the Flood none can withstand So it is here with Meditation it doth not only search the several aberrations and goings aside in the several occasions of our life which when they are singled one from another seem very smal yet when our several distempers and dayly swervings become like the drops of rain not falling forty daies and forty nights but may be so many months or yeers of continued provocations the great depths of the corruption of our Nature are set open and our sins like the Waters of the Sea gathered together by sad musing pass over our heads and are past our strength to bear them and without special supporting mercy would sink us into everlasting discouragement As it is with a Bankrupt arrested some petty debts or smal bils that are charged upon him he might easily answer and be able without any great difficulty to discharge but when al his Bils are brought in from each Creditor and his 〈◊〉 summed up the Summa totalis amounts to so much that it sinks his estate and breaks his back utterly So here a slighty apprehension of such and such slips or some circumstances of our miscarriages look over them severally they 〈◊〉 but little in themselves but laid together and taken in the ful Sum unto which they amount the guilt and filth of them wil appear inconceivable and unsupportable that the sinner wil never be able to answer or to bear It is the mind and intendment of the Spirit the meaning yea the proper meaning of that word Mark 14. last when he had thought of his sins saies our Translation when he had cast all the particular and heightning circumstances together as the word properly signifies when he had summed up his several miscarriages by a serious Meditation then his heart breaketh within him though the Cock had crowed and our Savior had looked upon him and he remembred at a sudden push of apprehension his evil yet he stood it but when he had laid al together cast up the Summa totalis of his fearful departures from the Lord by denying falsefying cursing with al the aggravating circumstances that he that was not only a Christian but entertained as a Servant yea called to be an Apostle who was so seasonably and with such earnestness forewarned of his back sliding and false dealing who had promised and resolved with such courage against it that he should not only forsake his Master in a covert manner but openly and shamefully renounce him yea 〈◊〉 blaspheme and curse and that often and now especially in this 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 trouble in the day of our Saviors distress when the Innocency of his cause the Honor of his person yea his life lay at hazard that such a Servant and Apostle should so basely and 〈◊〉 deny and forswear his Master and Redeemer and that at this time of need upon so slight an occasion as the voyce of a silly Damsel or some ordinary man he laid al these together and 〈◊〉 them upon his heart and he was not able to bear it but went 〈◊〉 and wept bitterly The Art of Meditation appeared especially in two things as the special and proper parts of it 1.
so 〈◊〉 ashamed and justly 〈◊〉 as they did deserve than the honor of his name and the excellency of his ordinances and worship that they might be preserved in that purity and attended with that awfulness and holiness of heart as was meet Now that which God abhors and punisheth so severely in another it s not possible that the least appearance of any so great an evil should be justly charged upon the holy one of Israel for he should deny himself to be God if he should deny the exactness of his own infinite holiness and he should not be just should he not manifest the glory of his holiness according to the excellency and 〈◊〉 thereof True it is that out 〈◊〉 meer grace and mercy the Lord Christ brings the soul of a sinner from his sin but the same mercy that would save the sinner cannot but destroy the sin and express its detestation 〈◊〉 it otherwise may 〈◊〉 say and the rebellious sinner think that either the word requires more than it needs and the Saints do more than they ought or else the Lord is not holy as men imagin when the 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 so great detestation against so gross and scandalous evil which the Lord looks at with so little dislike In regard of others the sharpness of this dispensation of the Lord against such scandalous and notorious offenders seems to be very necessarie Least the hearts of the wicked should be encouraged and their hands strengthened to adventure to commit and careless 〈◊〉 reforme the greatest evils when they shal observe some of their crew and company who were as bad or worle than themselves yet 〈◊〉 acceptance and forgiveness at the hands 〈◊〉 the Lord upon such easy terms and with so little trouble It 's that of 〈◊〉 wise man Eccles. 8. 11. When 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 a Malefactor is but delayed it 's in the 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 sons of men to take encouragement to 〈◊〉 evil If the delay of the punishment which is not long do so encourage them when that is but little and slight how wil that imbolden in a fearless kind of impudency to proceed to any out-rage when they can promise themselves pardon upon the same terms which others have found before them in the like case and condition with themselves Therefore the Lord in his infinite wisdom doth so temper the sweetness of his mercy and the severity of his wrath in the recovery of a lost and forlorn wretch riches of mercy to the soul to save that rigor of severity against the loathsomness of sin to destroy that so that none should be discouraged to seek for pardon of the greatest wickedness and yet none encouraged to continue the shortest time in the least sin since Gods displeasure is so dreadful against al. It was the course that the Lord prescribes to his Vice-gerents here on Earth in their proceedings against sin that it should be such that all Israel may hear and fear and do no more so Deut. 17. 13. he wil not be wanting to do that against sin which he would have to be done by others he wil hamper al such Rebels that the rest of the company shal have little cause to bless themselves in any of their sinful waies In regard of the sinner himself it 's safest for him that he may be throughly recovered from his corruption for the present and preserved against it for the time to come Recovered for the present he needs heavy blows or else he is like never to have any good by them As with Trees that are rooted deep and of long time continuance ordinary winds have setled them it must be a Herricano that must pluck tear them up from their roots So when the sinner is rooted in 〈◊〉 wretched distempers the wood that is knotty there must be sharper wedges the heaviest beetle and the hardest blows to break it So it is with the hard and stupid and knotty heart of a scandalous sinner As with the stomach filled with stiff and noysom humors easie Physick and gentle Receipts may happily stir the humors but it must be strong Ingredients and a great quantity that must remove it So with a corrupt heart This is a means also to preserve him from it afterward if once he have throughly smarted for his sin he will fear to meddle with it 〈◊〉 he have felt the danger of the Surfet he wil tast the Sweet-meat no 〈◊〉 TRYAL We have here Ground of Discovery how to pass a safe Sentence touching the Spiritual Estate of some persons namely The easie and sudden conversion of such who have been grosly wicked or scandalously vile By grossly wicked I mean such who have been taken aside with some loathsom abominations though they carry it never so covertly as your clofe 〈◊〉 fornications thefts murders continued forgeries of fals-hood and injustice By scandalously vile I mean such who have continued in an open tract of profossed opposition against the power of Godliness I say the easie and sudden conversion of such gives just ground of suspicion why they may question the truth of the Work and others justly suspect it 〈◊〉 their judgments be setled by sad proof long experience and that upon serious observation It 's not Gods ordinary way and therefore men should take more than ordinary tryal before they trust or in truth thou trust 〈◊〉 self The proceeding of God in his Word and Providence are according to the Rules of Wisdom and the right order of causes and means by which he hath appointed to bring about his own will and the Work of his Grace in the hearts of his To save men per saltum is not Gods usual way that works of greatest weight and difficulty should be done in so little time and with so little labor and trouble in other cases thou would'st think it 〈◊〉 why should'st thou judg the contrary reasonable in this which is hardest and the weightiest work of all other unless thou hast more than ordinary warrant for it When men grow rich of a sudden and to a great Estate and those who observe their course see neither waies nor means in reason how to raise it each man concludes it 's not his own Estate but other mens Stock that he braves it withal for he is worse than nothing or else he never truly came by it so that a State somtime questions such So here when a man grows up to a great Estate of Grace and no man can tel how 〈◊〉 so many quarters or yeers he was as base a wretch as the Earth bore not fit to sit with the Dogs of a mans flock his carriage so reffuse and vile as that he was not fit for the Society of moral men that no man could tel how to beleeve his words or to trust his dealing and is he now of a sudden come to the top of Religion a sweet godly gracious man fit to be made a Member of a Congregation how came he to such a large
more miserable thou findest thy condition 〈◊〉 more comfortable it is It seems a riddle carries the appearance of contrariety and impossibility and yet upon proof and tryal wil prove an infallible Truth The heavier the blows be which come from Gods hand for those gross evils of thine there is more probability of 〈◊〉 serious intendment of good unto thy soul The greater thy strokes are at present the greater thy hopes are of some spiritual relief and refreshing in future times And there is no greater plague upon earth hardly such another in hell 〈◊〉 a wretch should prosper in his wickedness and go suddenly down to the bottomless pit before he see where he is It was the carriage of a great Commander in his time yet mervailous sharp in the execution of military discipline when a Souldier had deserved death by martial law if he seemed to smile upon him it was a messenger of death and therefore his old Soldiers that saw 〈◊〉 manner of his proceeding when ever he appeared to laugh they looked then for a doom insomuch that an antient follower of his coming before him for some miscarriage his General carrying himself in a silent manner he breaks forth in this manner Good my Lord do not smile on me for he then knew the 〈◊〉 execution would be the next he should hear of It is here most certain and so judg of it If thy carriage and thy Conscience likewise give in testimony of the loathsomness and vileness of thy corrupt conversation that thy behaviour is detestable to any who have any spiritual discerning yea to moral persons if the Lord seem to smile upon thee not so much as check thee in thy scandalous way know that the sentence of destruction is the next that is like to ensue Math 23. 34. 35. I wil send you Prophets and Apostles and some ye shall kill and stone c. that the blood of al the Prophets may come upon you fulfil the measure of your fins and so receive the fulness of the measure of plagues 〈◊〉 can yee escape the damnation of bell ver 32. 33. I Thes. 2. 15. The Jewes both killed the Lord Jesus and their own Prophets and have persecuted us they please not God and are contrary to al men to fill up their fins alwayes for the wrath is come upon them to the uttermost When 〈◊〉 have elbow room in their wretched wayes and are not crossed in their hellish corruptions the wrath is come upon them to the utmost This is the dregs of God vengeance the utmost of Gods indignation thou canst hardly be worse if not in hell Whereas great heart-breakings for sin give in more than a little hope and probability of good intended see this in the several degrees of it and al follow from the doctrine delivered It shewes poor forlorn wretch that thou art in the way of mercy God deals so with thee as he usually doth with those with whom he wil deal welin the issue he hath 〈◊〉 left thee to thy self and sins and ceased striving with thee to stop thee and recal thee from thy sinful course as commonly he doth when he delivers up a soul to the power of his corruption with whom he intends no more to meddle Isai. 1. 5. So he proceeds with the perverse and obstinate Jewes why should yee be smitten any more yee fal away more and more As the Father with the prodigal my counsels cannot move thee my blessings allure thee al my corrections I have layed upon thee do not reclame thee take thy course therefore and so casts him out of his family and takes no 〈◊〉 care of him But he whom he corrects most sharply for his faults it 's yet a pregnant evidence for the while that he purposeth to keep him This is the day of Gods visitation may be the last time of asking yet it is the time of 〈◊〉 and grace and the date of mercy God is yet wrastling with thee as loath to leave thee to the malice of Satan and the power of thy distempers as he doth with them that he purposeth to do good unto Isai. 6. 9. when God would 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 people for 〈◊〉 and devote and set them apart to destruction this is the way he takes Go make the hearts of this people fat fatness implys 〈◊〉 brawny kind of stupidity and sencelesness of spirit Then such persons are ripe and ready for destruction when God plucks up the stake and gives a forlorn wretch the round rope let him have his wil Ephraim is joyned to-Idols let him alone Hos. 4. 17. He that is unjust let him be unjust stil he that is filthy let him be silthy stil. Yea this is that which casts a 〈◊〉 beyond the compass of the compassions of the Almighty when the Lord 〈◊〉 he wil not meddle nor make he wil have nothing to do with such vile creatures Hos. 4. 14. I wil not punish your daughters when they commit whordome nor your spouses when they 〈◊〉 adultery therefore the people that doth not understand shal fal But when God wil take pains and trouble himself with such a Rebel hath thee upon the anvil bestows so much fire and so much melting yet 〈◊〉 is hope that he may make thee a vessel of grace and for the Lords use There is some expectation that the work may prove more speedy and successful as it is in the body in old festred sores he that ripples the skin and layes easy salves he wil be long in doing a little and yet fail at last when he hath done al he that lanceth to the bottom in reason is like to bring out the core and to hasten the cure both with speed and success the stronger the physick stirs and works upon the humor the sooner the patient recovers and health returns with some stability and continuance It is so in the soul those old cankered lusts which have been of long continuance in a corrupt heart some slight terrors or sudden flashes of Gods displeasure which may a little trouble the Conscience and ripple the skin as it were they pass away presently and leave the root of the distemper untouched at the least not removed so that the corruptions grow more fierce and violent and so break out in a more loathsome manner than ever formerly Whereas those direful overbearing horrors in a way of rational providence are of a more prevayling nature to astonish the heart shake the Conscience of the wicked and ransack the very core of those hideous corruptions which have been long harboured and lodged within Thus the Lord dealt with the revolting Apostatizing Israelites Hos. 2. 6. 7. He bedged their wayes with Thorns and built a wal before them and they shal seek their lovers and shal not find them and then shal she say I wil 〈◊〉 to my first husband c. Had the hedg been so 〈◊〉 and easy and the wal so low that they might have broken through the one or leaped over
intends to such undeserving ones as we be His own good will being the only 〈◊〉 of any saving work he is pleased to put forth upon the hearts of those who appertain to the Election of Grace This was that which the Lord proclaims and which he urges upon all drooping and discouraged Spirits to make them put on more cheerfully in the pursuit of life and happiness 〈◊〉 55. 1. Oh every one that thirsteth come to the waters and he 〈◊〉 hath no money come buy and eat yea come buy wine and milk without money and without price It s very remarkable how the Spirit of God labors to remove that which will and most usually doth hinder the fainting hearts of dismaied sinners in their endeavor after Mercy They fondly conceit they must come with their cost they must bring some Spiritual abilities and 〈◊〉 with them unless they have that money they are like to miss of their market they shall not be able to purchase Gods acceptance the Graces and Comforts of his Spirit signified by Wine and Milk The Lord therefore that he might wholly dath these dreams and take off these 〈◊〉 thoughts he puts it beyond all Question and Doubt by a 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 to the contrary He that hath no money that is No Spiritual 〈◊〉 or worth let him buy question it not yea I speak it seriously and mind what I say therefore I say again without money doubt it not yea I 〈◊〉 as I say openly and plainly without money or money worth no in 〈◊〉 no weakness no unworthiness shall hinder be not needlesly suspicious I intend not to sell my Graces and Comforts but to bestow them freely upon such who have an open hand to take them and an empty heart to carry them away This was the ground of Encouragement whereby the Prophet emboldned those rebellious Jews to take words and resolution also to themselves to press in with some hope to speed with the Lord Hos. 14. 2 3. Take unto 〈◊〉 words and say Receive us graciously But the Lord might have replyed You have no worth in your selves you deserve no favor therefore it s added with thee the Fatherless find mercy As if 〈◊〉 should have said Thou doest not vouchsafe mercy to sinners because of any excellency they have any friends they can make any abilities they can bring but the helpless friendless fatherless orphane souls such as be destitute of all succour no eye to pitty no friend to provide no strength to support themselves such find mercy with thee such we are therefore Lord shew us mercy If the Dole or Alms was to be bought and purchased then the 〈◊〉 who had most and needed least would 〈◊〉 be possessors of it but because its only out of the 〈◊〉 to bestow it freely he that 's poor hath never a whit the less but the more hope to receive it so it is here in the Dole of Grace when 〈◊〉 thou considerest the infinite baseness of thy heart on the one side the incomprehensible worth of mercy on the other and withal conceivest an utter impossibility ever to attain it ever to expect it settle this Conclusion in thy heart as matter of marvelous Encouragement yet mercy is free others have received it and why not I Lord If the multitude of thine 〈◊〉 plead against thee if Satan be busie to discourage thine heart and drive thee to despair Why dost thou Canst thou Expect any kindness from the Lord since thy frailties so many thy rebellions so great against the offer of his mercy and the work of his Grace How utterly unable 〈◊〉 thou to do any thing to procure any Spiritual good How unfit to receive it And is it not a folly than to hope for it Thou hast hence to Reply Be it I am as base as can be imagined yet my 〈◊〉 cannot hinder the work of Gods Love for it s altogether Free True I have nothing to purchase it Abraham had not I can do nothing to deserve it David could not I have no right to challenge it at the hands of the Lord nor yet had Paul any thing to plead for him in the like case and yet all these were made partakers of mercy and why not I Lord Put in for thy particular and plead for thy self and say Blessed Lord thy mercy is not lessened thy wisdom decayed thy arm shortned what thou didst freely for Abraham an Idolater 〈◊〉 a Rebel for Paul a Persecutor do for my poor 〈◊〉 also my vileness cannot hinder the freeness of thy Compassions If it be here Replyed That this affords small ground of Comfort for if the Dispensation of Grace depend upon Gods Free Will he may fail us as well as help us he may deny it as well as give it The Answer is He may give it as well as deny it and that 's Argument enough to sustain our hopes and to quicken our endeavors put it then to the adventure Thus the Prophet Joel pressed the Israelites to 〈◊〉 to God for the removal of a Judgement and the Pardon of their Sins upon this very possibility Rent your hearts and not your garments and turn unto the Lord who knows if he will return and leave a blessing behind him Joel 2. 13 14. Thus the 〈◊〉 Ninivites provoke themselves to importune the God of heaven for the with-holding of the destruction threatned Let us cry mightily unto God who can tell if he will turn and repent Jonah 3. 8 9. When then thy Spirit sinks under the unsupportable pressure of thy sins and the expectation of the righteous Judgements deserved thereby here is that which will ad Comfort and Encouragement to look upward to the Lord for refreshing Who knows but God may who can tell but God will yet shew mercy therefore I will yet hope because no man can tell but I may at last be made partaker thereof Lastly Those who want and seek for mercy from the Lord in the use of the means which he hath appointed they are to be exhorted from the former truth to arm themselves with patience to stay Gods time and to 〈◊〉 his pleasure if it seem good to his Majesty to with-hold this Favour or delay the work of his Grace Beggars must not be chusers we must not be Carvers of Gods kindness it s a Free Gift and therefore as he may give what he will so he may give it when it seems most fit to himself Just cause we have to wait no reason at all to murmure against him Hast thou then endeavored after this work of Grace and canst not attain it Endeavor still Hast thou begged it and yet findest not thy desires answered Crave still with perseverance It s good to hope and to wait also for the Salvation of the Lord Lam. 3. 26. both must go together to wait without hope is uncomfortable and to hope without patience is unprofitable We know 〈◊〉 what time God will take it is our duty and will be our wisdom and comfort to
his fury was at the height when breathing out threatnings against the Church he came armed with authority and hellish resolution to carry all to Prison Acts 9. In a word while Paul proceeds furiously with a 〈◊〉 intention to oppose Christ to persecute his Members and in the issue to procure and hasten his own everlasting ruine then our Savior prevents him and pitties him and doth him most good while he strives to do most harm and to make havock of the Church the truth and his soul also yea then works his conversion when he most seriously endeavors to work his own Confusion of himself and such as professed the Faith in sincerity the aim of God in all the Apostle directed by the Spirit expresseth to be this 1 Tim. 1. 16. I was a Persecutor but I obtained Mercy to the end that the Lord in me might shew all long-suffering to the example of those that should beleeve on his Name Such a forlorn Sinner at that time was the fittest subject to receive the full print of Gods love and compassion in great Letters as it were that he might be a pattern to all 〈◊〉 of the boundless compassions of the Lord. That as Seamen after a dangerous wrack and miraculous deliverance set up a Monument of their Preservation to all that pass that way to work fear in them to prevent shipwrack and yet hope of Recovery if they do To the like purpose is the Conversion of the Apostle in this heat of his Rebellion set upon Record in publick view As though the Lord should say Look here you forlorn sinners see a desparate Rebel running post-haste to his everlasting ruine and behold withal the hand of Mercy then stopping of him in his way Paul persecuting Christ in his Members Christ then pittying and preserving Paul the one most kind when the other is most vile and 〈◊〉 Oh the madness of a deluded Soul 〈◊〉 reason But Oh the Compassions of a Savior beyond all compare Be afraid you never proceed to such hellish folly and yet bless God That there is such a Savior if you do These be the Seasons of Gods acceptation the first here principally intended the rest not excluded and in these opportunities thus appointed by God in his Wisdom according to his good will he doth put forth the work of his Grace to bring home the Souls of his unto himself Hence we learn That a long life is a great blessing in it self a great temporal blessing as it comes from the Lord. Why Because all that while a man is in the way Mercy may meet with him and he may meet with it While there is life there is hope unless a man have sinned against the holy Ghost Physitians observe all the while there is strength in Nature there is hope the Physick may prove profitable It is much more for the comfort of the Soul while there is life there is yet a possibility Thy heart is stubborn and rebellious and proud but thou yet livest and the Lord lives and his Mercy lives therefore it may be he may shew mercy to thee But when a man is dropped down into the grave and the pit hath shut its mouth upon him then all his thoughts perish then with a sad heart he may remember all the helps he had the opportunities he had but never had a heart to get any good by them Then he reads over all the Sermons he heard by the flames of Hell and remembers all the kindnesses of the Lord and then there is no hope You therefore that know your bosom abominations you have your back doors and your base haunts you know your sins are not pardoned you have not repented of them when you are gone home go your waies and bless God that you live For let me tell you This is all the hope in the world that yet you are alive and therefore the Lord may shew Mercy to you if your dayes were ended and you gone down to Hell then not all the world nay not Christ nor the Mercy of God it self could not save you then therefore look as it was with a Child which was followed by a Bear into a pond the Child cryed out to the people that were running and came to the ponds sides Oh help help and still as the Bear 〈◊〉 him first his Arms than his Legs and still he cryed out Oh help help yet I am alive yet I am alive this is your condition beleeve it Not Bears but Sins and Devils are upon you they have you in their clutches tearing and devouring your Souls Oh look to Heaven and cry out unto the Lord and say Lord a proud stubborn Creature but yet I am alive the Devil is Devouring my soul but Lord help me and deliver me yet I am alive bless God you are so and know its all you have to shew for your everlasting welfare For while there is Life there is Hope Matter of Caution and Advice to fence our souls and fortifie our selves against that hellish distemper of self-Murther that our hearts may be carried with hatred of it and our souls preserved from the commission of it when partly from discontentments and partly from terrors of Conscience men are not able to bear with themselves but they will run to a Halter or a Knife they will put an end to their lives that they may put an end to their sorrows they wil not live that they may not live thus and thus Why Consider Art thou sure of a better life They will Answer No that 's my misery I see all my sins before me and Hell gaping for me and the Devils attending to seize upon my Soul and it makes me weary of my life Weary of your life Take heed of that bless God for your life and pray for life and seek to preserve your life what you may for while your life lasts you are in the way to Mercy Dives had so much experience of the torments of Hell that he sends to those that were alive Oh take heed of coming hither you are in a better condition than I what ever your case be Learn therefore for ever to fear and flie from temptations to self Murther as that which would put an end to your life and to put an end to all hopes and possibilities of Mercy from the Lord. But the main Fruit of the Point which properly belongs to this Place is a Use of Instruction which ought to be observed and settled upon the Consciences of us all Doth the Lord then usually accept of the Soul and do good to it while he provides and continues the means of Grace What then remains but we should give all dilligence to attend upon his times take his means and improve all to the 〈◊〉 for our Spiritual good Suffer me here to stay a while and urge the Collection with an Argument or Two and yet go no further than the Words nor take other Reasons than the Text will
the Lord such need of Services that he must entertain in the worst hath he such need of Sacrifices that the 〈◊〉 and 〈◊〉 must serve his turn Let men judg Go offer now the 〈◊〉 and the 〈◊〉 unto thy 〈◊〉 will be accept it Mat. 1. 8. will he not loath thy Person and thy 〈◊〉 and can the great and glorious God take pleasure 〈◊〉 either Yea 〈◊〉 others were silent let thy own Conscience 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 in this case when these evil daies these dog 〈◊〉 come thou thy self shalt say I have no pleasure in them Caust thou for 〈◊〉 present that to the Lord which thou thy self 〈◊〉 Nay not only thy self but thy 〈◊〉 may seem to be weary of thy service thy pleasures have taken their leave the world and the delights thereof 〈◊〉 gone from thee thy unclean lusts have forsaken thy 〈◊〉 and languishing members blasphemy is departed from thy speechless tongue and shall the Lord have the Devils leavings When thus thou art become a burden to thy self a trouble to others and fit for nothing but to be fuel for the fire of Hell how 〈◊〉 is it to desire it how hard to conceive it that the holy wise and blessed God will make choyce of thee and therefore it is to be feared thou 〈◊〉 never 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 But Secondly I 〈◊〉 thou dost attain it it will he very uncomfortable when thou wilt be like 〈◊〉 that could not tast his meat for age so you will not be able to tast the sweetness of the Promises of Grace and Christ little or nothing A poor old man comes in and gets as near the Pulpit as he 〈◊〉 and listens but he saies he cannot hear he asks 〈◊〉 what was said they tell him Oh the great and precious Promises of Grace and Mercy and Christ saies he I did not hear them where are they and takes his Book and then takes his 〈◊〉 and looks 〈◊〉 child saies he I cannot see tell him of them presently after I cannot remember them And so you will be unfit for any Service to God as an old Journey-man that is but a 〈◊〉 so you will bungle at Prayer and Conference and in all the duties of Obedience and when God hath shewed mercy to you you will wonder and think if I had a thousand lives what could I do again for God but alas he can do little but sit down as a senceless spectacle of Gods everlasting compassions a wonder to himself and a warning to others not to defer 〈◊〉 till old Age it being then so uncomfortable and he so unfit for it And therfore 〈◊〉 little ones that are growing up to years of understanding you have the day before you if you do not take and improve the first of your time to repent and turn to God in God will require it of you beleeve it he will you may read in 2 Kings 2. 23 24. of a company of wicked children who mock'd the Prophet and the Lord sent two Bears amongst 〈◊〉 that devoured two and forty of them they might have said my Father caught me or I did not know what I did or I was but yong but none of all this would serve their turn they had their time to repent in but they spent that time in sin and wickedness and the Lord sent Bears among them to devour them and so he will deal with you that are careless impenitent wicked children beleeve it he will God hath thousands of Devils to torment you for ever if you go on and continue in your Natural condition without Jesus Christ. And you yong men your glass is now running and as yet you have the day before you My heart in with you al you that offer your selves willingly Oh remember your Creator in the daies of your youth before the evil daies of sickness and sorrow and age come upon you 〈◊〉 only say Three Things to you Consider what good you may do now A yong 〈◊〉 and a glorious Christian Your example may be leading to many that may know you and 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 you all the daies of their lives and 〈◊〉 you shall be going to Heaven in your old age 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 be able to say Lord here am I and the 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 Children that thou hast given me you may 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 means to convert others and they will bless 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 in the day of their visitation 1 Pet. 2. 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 smell of your gracious speeches and holy 〈◊〉 will be as Lebanon that no man 〈◊〉 meets you but will be the better for you and 〈◊〉 you are going to Heaven every man wil mourn 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 loss of you He was a Father to me 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 and he was a great help to me saies another 〈◊〉 was a means under God to bring my soul to Christ. Thus you will not only do good to your 〈◊〉 but you will do good to others also 〈◊〉 your death you will have more than this 〈◊〉 to your Peace and Joy will be unspeakable 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 then you will go to Heaven 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 Death and Hell and Devils and all you 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 be Fathers serving God in uprightness you 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 your children I go to my God and to 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 and I leave you to a better Father that 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 well for you and so he shakes hands 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 saies he we shall meet in Heaven again so Paul 2 Tim. 4. 7 8. I have fought a good fight I have finished my course I have kept the Faith henceforth there is laid up for me a Crown of Righteousness which the Lord shall give unto me he saw it before him and was able to tell others of it So David 2 Chron. 28. 9. And thou Solomon my Son know thou the God of thy Father and serve him with a perfect heart and a willing mind c. Thus you will be able to give a change and a blessing to your Children and to speak somthing suitable to the condition of all that come about you as a man that hath been a good husband from his youth he hath been a gatherer he is able to give to every one about him somwhat another that hath been a spend thrift can scarce pay his debts and well if he do so So here a man that has been long a gathering of Promises Commands Directions Consolations when his friends come about him on his death bed he knows the frame of every man he knows one man is worldly another hath good Parts and gifts but he is proud another under discouragements and he will speak somthing suitable to every mans condition and his dying words stick by them while they live And this is but the beginning but what will the Crown of Glory be He that begins betimes shall have a 〈◊〉 weighty Excessive Exceeding Crown of Glory he shall go loaded as it were to the Kingdom of Heaven the Sufferings Obedience Commands Promises Counsels of so many years all shal be rewarded other men shall be honored and crowned but he especially and when he
soul as somtimes to his Disciples Be not afraid it is I I come not as a Judg to condemn thee but as a Savior to save thee I desire thy Conversion not thy Confusion So our Savior expressed himself to 〈◊〉 Acts 9. Who art thou Lord saies he I am Jesus i. e. I am a Savior to save my People from their sins and so of thee to save thee from thy sins Why wilt thou oppose thine own mercy and so thine own safety Why wilt thou persecute him that comes to preserve thee This Cable of Mercy is made up of four Cords which cannot easily be broken The infinite sufficiency of that saving health that is in the Lord Jesus the boundless and bottomless depths of Mercy and that plentiful redemption that is provided and laid up in Christ. That Sea of Mercy and Grace that is able to drown al our sins and guilts and remove al our 〈◊〉 a treasure that cannot be spent a fountain that cannot be drawn dry Isa. 55. 7. Let the wicked forsake his way and the unrighteous man his thoughts and let him return unto the Lord and he will have mercy and to our God and he will abundantly pardon He hath pardons in store such as lie by him they are not to seek he hath bowels of mercy yet opened arms of pitty and compassion yet stretched out to 〈◊〉 thee Nay though thou coldest not imagine it or conceive it yet he can do it Psal. 103. 10 11. He deals not with us after our iniquities but as the heavens is high above the earth so great is his mercie to them that fear him Psal. 1 30. 7 8. Let Israel hope in the Lord for with him there is multiplyed 〈◊〉 and he shall deliver him from all his iniquities Thou hast multiplyed thy sins and provocations he hath multiplied Compassions Lo there thou shalt see a Manasseh pardoned a Paul 〈◊〉 and yet there is room for thee also He never casts off any that come unto him therefore it s thy fault only which casts off Mercy If yet the sinner stand murmering behold yet further He hath not only sufficiency and enough to do thee good but freely and frankly offers 〈◊〉 to al that wil have it He is not only content and ready that thou shouldst come but invites and perswades thee for to come that thou mayst be partakers of it Jer. 3. 22. Come unto me ye rebellious Children and I will heal your back-slidings With that the sinner is at a wonderment with himself did he not say Rebellious sinners did he not invite such Why may not I therefore be entertained Yes The words are express Come ye back-sliding Children If then there be any Doubt arising God Cleers it any Question the Lord Answers it any Hinderance he Removes it Jer. 3. 1. 2. 7. They say if a man put away his wife shall she return again Amongst men its usual and ordinary if an Adultress Wife depart away her Husband receives her not again Yet return unto me saith the Lord though thou hast played the Harlot with many lovers And vers 7. After thou hast done all these things yet return unto me Then the Soul bethinks it self shal al these abominations be clensed al these rebellions remitted What after al this pride and uncleanness and Covetousness nay after al the abuse of Gods Grace and Mercy yet accepted yet received yet 〈◊〉 Either then now or never He that 〈◊〉 so gracious a command so kind an offer it s a wonder if the Lord do not cast him off and accurse him for ever nay is he not worthy he should be so The Lord not only offers it freely that we might be encouraged but heartily intends it yea entreats it earnestly that indeed we might be perswaded without gain-saying to yeild He not only commands the sinner to come but if he go away Mercy pursues him if yet he seems to withdraw himself Mercy laies hold on him wil not leave him but weeps over him kneels down before him and begs importunately at his hands his own reconciliation with the Lord 2 Cor. 5. 17. The Lord by us doth beseech you to be reconciled the Ministers proclaim it but God professeth it they desire men and God in them 〈◊〉 and entreateth to be reconciled This makes the bowels of a sinner to rowl within him and drives him to a stand and almost overcomes our unkind natures What! A King to entreat a Traytor to be pardoned the Judge a Theif to be acquitted a Conqueror fal at the foot of a Captive and his Prisoner and desire him to be reconciled I hat God the great God of heaven and earth who was offended by us who hath no need of us who was infinitely happy in himself without us who might with the breath of his nostrils for ever confound us and that justly why it had been enough and enough a Conscience but to admit such accursed dust and ashes into his presence 〈◊〉 to hear him speak and give him but leave to bewayl his sins before he should have perished for them It had been a high favor and mercy to have given him leave to have begged mercy though he had never granted it But to hear me when I cal and cry to receive me to favor when I come that is as much as could be desired But that God should stoop to man heaven to earth 〈◊〉 to meanness he that was offended by me had no need of me was happy without me and might have honored the name of his Justice in my everlasting confusion not only to hear me and receive me when I come but to send after me but to beseech a damned forlorn Creature to be pardoned This is the wonder of Mercy more than I could have conceived durst have begged yea I should have conceived it unreasonable to have desired it nor could I have thought it but that the Lord hath said it and done it His wil be done and blessed be his holy name for ever Oh that I should live to hear of this Mercy but wretch that I am if I should out-live the offer of it or not entertain it I need not question that the Lord is serious and heartily willing to have the tender of his Grace entertained and my self for ever comforted therein and thereby Why he takes his Oath not that he can change but that he would have me be settledly assured thereof As I live saith the Lord I desire not the death of a sinner but rather that he should repent and live Ezek. 33. 11. If God do not desire my death but my repentance Why should I desire my own death so that the heart of a sinner could almost be content to give way but yet his loose domineering lusts wil not give leave If yet the sinner wil not come away but staies stil and clings to his darling lusts the Lord leaves the Record of these his kindnesses upon his heart and stil out of his long sufferance waits
helps or if they be used in any other Order than that he hath ordained these are disorderly perverted and abused and made unserviceable to do their work or attain their end And yet when the power of al these is improved to affect the Will and stir and provoke it but not change it it is never savingly brought home to God So Moses touching the Condition of the Israelites Deut. 4. 34. Compared with Deut. 29 4. Did ever God assay to take a people to himself with signs and wonders and great temptations and out of the heavens he made thee to hear his voyce that he might instruct thee What then was wanting He suited them with al miraculous expressions of his Love and Mercy but this was 〈◊〉 To this day he hath not given thee a heart And if he give you al Mercies beside tryed you with al Corrections pursued with miraculous Expressions of his power and faithfulness if yet he give 〈◊〉 a new heart al that ever he shal give wil never do you good So the Prophet when he was appointed and fitted in an especial manner having his tongue touched with a Coal from the Altar when he was furnished with gracious abilities from Christ to dispense the Word yet al was to make their ears heavie and their hearts fat and their eyes blind that they should not see nor beleive nor be converted Isa. 6. 7 8. And therefore the Apostle when he had given the doom upon those back-sliders he ads We are perswaded better things of you and things that accompany salvation which these did not 〈◊〉 6. 9. If al Means and Helps that can be used in way of Moral Perswasions are wholly incongruous and utterly unable to work upon the Corrupt heart of man then there is no congruity of such Perswasions that can savingly Convert or Call the Soul or draw the sinner to Christ But al Means in way of Moral Perswasions that can be used are indeed wholly incongruous and utterly unable to work upon the corrupt heart of a sinner unto his Conversion but they reach not the Distemper or Cause of a mans misery and therefore can never do the Cure For these are to Call forth the power a man hath into act whereas the 〈◊〉 wants al spiritual power whereby 〈◊〉 may be enabled to put forth any act that may be acceptable unto God Rom. 5. 6. When we were without strength and the Apostle doth not say We have some sufficiency to think a good thought if some Arguments were suggested to draw it out but doth plainly and peremptorily affirm That all our sufficiency is from God and therefore none firstly of our selves 2. Cor. 3. 5. How silly was it incongruous to common sense to provide the sweetest sounds and choicest musick to delight a deaf man To present the pleasingest colours to affect and please him that is blind to set the most soveraign cordials and the most curious rarities and dainties before a dead man to refresh him Yet such is the Condition of every natural man touching the things of Grace He is deaf and hears not blind and sees not dead and relisheth not any thing that appertains unto his peace unless then you give him a new soul whereby he may live al outward services are utterly unsuitable to his Condition In a word this quaint devise of the Jesuit is so far from any sap or any real subtilty in it that the Opinion quite contrary in a true sense is most consonant to the truth The Means then appointed and used in Providence by the Lord may be attended in a double respect either in regard of the end the Lord aims at and the effect he intends and so it is true the Means which the Lord hath Ordained carry Congruity and and suitableness for the attainment of his own end and accomplishment of his own work But Secondly If we look at the corrupt Heart and Nature and Will of man which is now to be subdued and his darling Corruptions now to be removed from him then it is most certain the Means which the Lord hath Ordained and useth for his Conversion carry not any Congruity but a Contrariety to his corrupt heart and Will That which must expel and 〈◊〉 Corruption in the heart that must not have 〈◊〉 but a 〈◊〉 to it But the Means which the Lord 〈◊〉 to Call and draw 〈◊〉 are to destroy and expel the Corruption therefore they must 〈◊〉 not a Congruity but a Contrariety and crossness to them That Question which is attended with so many tedious 〈◊〉 is from the former Doctrine 〈◊〉 and Concluded and that undeniably and because 〈◊〉 doth 〈◊〉 properly to this place I shal 〈◊〉 Express it Hence then it Follows The Power of Grace put forth in the Work of Conversion is irresistable When I say Irresistable We mean not that the Corrupt Heart doth not Oppose and resist the Operation of the Spirit and the 〈◊〉 of the Ordinance for whilest that 〈◊〉 is 〈◊〉 it cannot but labor the preservation of it self and therefore cannot but oppose the power of Gods Spirit which works the destruction of it But this is the meaning It cannot so prevail as to 〈◊〉 Gods intent or to prejudice the work of his Grace as that it should not find 〈◊〉 in the 〈◊〉 of the sinner or hinder his 〈◊〉 home to Christ This Collection in 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 is 〈◊〉 Demonstratively and undeniablely from the former Doctrine That Grace which takes away the power of Resistance stirred up by Satan or the Corrupt Heart of a Sinner that cannot be resisted But the Grace of God put forth in Preparation and drawing doth by 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 of 〈◊〉 take away the power of resistance in the 〈◊〉 Heart of a Sinner and therfore it cannot be resisted Hence it Follows again in the Fifth Place Wheresoever there is spiritual sufficiency of Grace there is also spiritual efficacy put sorth 〈◊〉 work of 〈◊〉 These Two go hand in hand in this 〈◊〉 of God and are either the same really or do 〈◊〉 accompany one another And I therefore mention this Collection not only 〈◊〉 of the 〈◊〉 of it as that it needs to be unfoulded and apprehended aright especially considering 〈◊〉 is the proper seal unto which it must be referred where his stock and 〈◊〉 may be observed and where his 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 be Disputed and 〈◊〉 But 〈◊〉 I 〈◊〉 it Convenient to take the more 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 thereof 〈◊〉 of the special Benefit and Use thereof The right 〈◊〉 of this makes ready way for the cleer 〈◊〉 of the Delusions of the Jesuits which they have invented and set up as blinds in the way that men might not see the 〈◊〉 of the Lord and set forth and acknowledge the power and Glory of his 〈◊〉 Nay it hath found favor with some who otherwise follow the 〈◊〉 and that truly in their 〈◊〉 of the drawing of God 〈◊〉 according to their divers Apprehensions they set down Explications of their own Thoughts
from his Cups the Adulterer from the arms of his Queans and the worldly man from all the snares of the world the Lord can do it and wil do it also for those that belong to him therefore to that God look 〈◊〉 that Christ look who hath said it and can do it he can do it for thee as wel as for any other A Third ground of Discouragement which the sinner finds and that is the worst of al viz. The stiffness and stubbornness of his own heart he cannot blame the Devil for 〈◊〉 of him or the world for snaring of him he sayes and knows his heart is as bad as Hell it self he hath courted and desired temptations his heart hath been lingering and hankering after them and had not God been merciful to him he had lived and lien and perished for ever in his sins Nay though there were no 〈◊〉 to tempt nor world to allure yet I have a heart like a dunghil that steams up continually noysom abominations Nay that that 's worst of al If after al the Mercies I have abused and sins committed I had a heart that could repent there was some hope but Oh! the stiffness and knottiness of this heart of mine I have had Conscience checking of me and the Minister reproving of me and the Spirit of God striving with me but Oh! I have a hard heart that cannot repent And this is the plague of al plagues worse than the Devil and Hell it self How shal I help my self here Moral Perswasions Alas my heart spurns at them all and makes nothing of them al I have had the Minister speaking to my soul and the flashes of Hell in my face and yet alas such is the desperate frame of my heart that I wil have my sins or 〈◊〉 die for it What wil al Moral Perswasions and Congruity of Means do here Alas the Heart scorns al As in the Case of a man who fell into deep distress and horror of Conscience 〈◊〉 he had 〈◊〉 the sin against the Holy Ghost lying in that a twelve month together and the Lord let loose the 〈◊〉 of his own Spirit upon him that he often thought to lay violent hands upon himself but this was al that he had to support himself in that sad time my Salvation is not in mine own hand it is not in my Will but in Gods Will It is not in him that Wills or in him that Runs but in God that shews mercy Jam. 1. 18. Of his own Will he hath begotten us by the word of truth He that made the Will can only Convert the Will Oh! then bless God that hath taken our Salvation into his own hand for if it were in our hands if it were left to our Wills we should never have it This is that that may uphold the heart in the midst of al the heavie temptation which wil 〈◊〉 or last seize upon the hearts of men Again Secondly It is matter of Consolation to al the faithful who have found this work of God upon their souls it wil afford them ground of glorious support to fence and fortifie their souls against the dayes of difficulty and times of distress against what ever discouragements or desertions may 〈◊〉 them from within what ever assaults or temptations may press in upon them from without in the following Course of their lives in future times From hence they may promise themselves assistance and deliverance without fail and certainly expect it What ever the temptations be they shal never prevail against them what ever the power and strength of their Corruptions be they shal never be able hurtfully to overcome them If God the Father have once drawn them to his Christ when they did nothing but oppose this work al the power of Hell shal never be able to with-draw them from the Lord Jesus when they desire to cleave to him and to be His. He that plucked me away from my sin with a holy kind of violence when I loved it as my life and was loath to part with it will he deny his 〈◊〉 to me when I strive against it He that forced his Mercy upon me when I resisted it in the dayes of my folly and wretchedness when I resolved I would none of him wil he deny me Mercy when he hath given me a heart to beg and prize it He that sought me and drew me when I forsook him wil he not embrace and entertain a poor Creature when I seek and sue for acceptance from him Thus the Apostle disputes and cleers himself with much boldness and assurance of invincible success and he gains and gets the higher ground of his Fears and Discouragments Rom. 5. 6. 9. If Christ died for us when we were of no strength nay when we were ungodly How much more being Justified by his Death shall we be saved from wrath through him for if when we were enemies we were reconciled how much more shal we be saved by his life If when we had no strength he rescued us from the hand of Hell and Sin and when Enemies reconciled us when he hath given us strength and made us his Friends wil he not for ever releive and succour us yea much more sayes the Apostle he gets upon the higher ground and triumphs over al the enemies of our salvation as knowing he should certainly be Assisted against them al. Thus Samuel shored up the dismayed and sinking hearts of the Rebellious Israelites when the Lord had thundred out his displeasure against them by reason they had wretchedly and treacherously and unfaithfully rejected the Lord and his gracious Government when they would not beleive Samuels words he tels them That God would thunder out his threatnings from heaven 1 Sam. 12. 17 18. c. And when the people saw the lightning and heard the thunder and then saw the hamousness of their sins and feared what heavy punishment they might expect from so terrible a God Then they that cared not for his words and Counsels crave his Prayers Oh pray for us say they for we have sinned and to all our other sins have added this in asking for a King Samuel to prevent the deadly symptom of desperate Discouragement which would drive them from the Lord and so from their own Comfort heads You have indeed sinned yet turn ye not aside from following the Lord And again he ads Turn not aside unto vain things that cannot help And he gives this as a ground For the Lord will not forsake his People for his great Names sake because it hath pleased the Lord to make you his people He that out of Mercy made you his people when you were not he wil not forsake you when he hath called you to him As the Elders of Israel Reasoned when they were to War with Jehu in the defence of their Masters Sons 2 King 10. 4. Behold two Kings could not stand before him how shall we Let this be thy comfort and undoubted evidence of succour and deliverance
for help and recovery and to expect to receive it from the hand of the Lord. That Disease is not past Remedy which hath been cured nor the Condition past hope that hath been recovered As bad and vile as thou have been humbled and broken-hearted and why not thou saved Turn but thy thoughts aside and attend the Text and trust thine own eyes behold look here upon the most loathsom Hell-hounds that 〈◊〉 the Sun saw or the Earth bore listen and hear these hideous blasphemies they belch out against the Son of God they cried away with him away with him not him but Barrabas they chuse a Murderer rather than a Savior behold their butcherly hands imbrued in the blood of Jesus some goaring his side others nailing his feet piercing his pure and holy hands and that they might be bloody Creatures indeed they do not only shed his blood but they keep his blood upon Record for their Condemnation say they His Blood be upon us and upon our Seed That which they have done and desired for their own ruine is it not just but they should have it dost not thou wonder that the Earth did not open and swallow them that the Lord did not thunder from Heaven and immediately destroy them or that he sent not Legions of Devils to drag those wretches souls out of their Bodies to send them packing to the pit And yet stay but a little and see what God hath done in the midst of all this hellish wickedness look a little further they who took away the life of Christ he is now taking away their 〈◊〉 and guilt from them they crucified him and he is now crucifying their cursed corruptions they pierced his tender body to put an end to his daies he is now piercing their souls with Godly sorrow to put an end to their sins and 〈◊〉 Come hither therefore all you poor desolate undone Creatures You whose sins are written with a pen of Iron and graven with the point of a Diamond they stand upon record in every coast and corner you stout-hearted rebellious sinners the Seats of the Place where you sit the Stones in the Street where you walk the Walls of the Houses where you dwel the Decks of the Ships where you have sailed and the Shoars where you have Landed and the Wildernesses where you have travelled they can bear witness against you of the contempt of Gods Truth the neglect of his Ordinances unprofitableness under all you slight all Counsels and Admonitions you are amongst the number of them that are laden with lusts ever learning but never coming to the knowledg of the Truth So that the floods of iniquity seem to compass and overwhelm and might force you to sink down in irrevocable discouragement I confess your condition is extreamly desolate and dangerous yet it 's possible it may be there is a peep-hole of hope it may be otherwise and happy it is for you that there is yet a may be left that God hath not sealed you up to condemnation and turned the Tomb-stone upon you Look up a little thou art yet alive Oh therefore lay about thee while yet opportunity and possibility lasteth Say Lord these sinful wretches that opposed thy Grace so long resisted thy Ordinances thy Servants yea crucified the Lord of Life and yet their hearts are now wounded for their sins Oh break my heart also humble my soul also Yea but I cannot think it truly I dare not I cannot I am ashamed to beg mercy who have so long abused it Why mark what the Apostle saies Ephes. 3. 20. God is able to do exceeding abundantly above all thou canst think or ask All this while the presumptuous secure sinner he stands by and hears all this and he blesseth himself in his lazy course contents himself with this possibility and here takes up his stand but neglects to do any thing that may attain it Oh is it not pitty to cast such Dainties before Dogs and Pearls before Swine Did I say it was possible True I said so indeed but it 's pity thou 〈◊〉 in the hearing of it it 's pity to speak such precious encouragements to such poysonful and malignant spirits that will pervert all to their own ruine The word is past and cannot be recalled but take these Preservatives or Corrosives rather to eat out that impudent corruption Know though it be possible yet it is not possible to thee nor any power thou hast nor any means thou canst use Matth. 19. 36. With man this is impossible Nay know That so long as thou continuest in that careless presumptuous self-confidence it is not possible that God should save thee Heb. 3. 18. He hath said it and sworn it that they who rest in their carnal confidence they shall never enter into his rest and God will not nay cannot deny himself and his Oath As it 's possible God may so it 's possible he may not break thy heart and it 's a great suspicion he will not if thou so impudently abuse his Mercy Patience and long suffering wherby he calls thee to repentance and would melt thy rebellious heart Rom. 2. 4. Thou after the hardness of thy heart which cannot repent treasurest up to thy self wrath against the day of wrath It 's a shrewd suspicion if thou strivest long against his Spirit and slightest the season he will cease to strive with thee and take away the season Luke 19. 42. If thou hadst known at least in this thy day the things belonging to thy peace but now they are hid from thine eyes It will cost much labor and long time before it be done in an ordinary way and therefore if thou art wise for thy soul omit no time be faithful to do what thou canst and yet fearful because it 's in Gods hand to do what He will Therefore seek seasonably tremblingly and uncessantly unto the Lord to do this work for thee It 's not the dipping but rubbing and soaking an old stayn that will fetch it out thou must soak and steep thy soul with godly sorrow It 's not Salving but long tenting an old sore that will do the Cure It may be it will make you go crying to your grave and well if you get to heaven so at last This shews the 〈◊〉 nature and the inconceivable haynousness of the sin of dispaire which rusheth the sinner upon irrecoverable ruine and would seem to overcome the mercy of God wherein he overcomes himself laies a mans present comforts and future hopes wast at once beyond the reach of any relief or recovery puts the soul beyond the sight and expectation of any succour and supply that might support it in the least measure That look as when the Ship runs a ground or splits upon a Rock neer shore or within the sight of land there is yet a possibility that some help may come from the Coast to them or they at least may be wafted to land and so swim out
and do more cheer and quicken and comfort in a cordial manner So it is in the soul by the dayly musing and acting of our thoughts upon the occasion of any corruption presented our Meditation is the distillation which draws out the Spirits of pride or passion or lusts and becomes marvelously confirmed in these and transported by these to our spiritual prejudice they grow strong in us and we under the power of them thus Jonah while he sits down in a muddy distemper and attends the vanity of his own thoughts he rows drunk with his passion so that he neither knows God nor himself not only doing that which is naught but he wil 〈◊〉 that which he doth I do well to be angry unto the death saies he Hence it is the Apostle suggests that Caution Rom. 13. last Make no provision for the flesh the Meditation and musing of our minds is the plentiful provision we make for the welcoming and maintaining of any distemper when we let our thoughts loose to view the compass 〈◊〉 any harsh carriage and injurious dealing we make provision for anger and revenge and the heart comes to be carried with violence of wrath and rage Thus and thus he dealt with me so unkindly so injuriously and that to my disparagement in the presence of such and this sets him al on a flame when we pore upon our infirmities and weaknesses we provide for discouragements and we sit and sink down under them and so strengthen those corruptions that otherwise have received their deaths wounds and would be weakened and wast away As it is with old decayed Bodies which are subject to fainting fits and are ever and anon swooning away the powring in of some Cordial Water wil fetch them up again and ad new strength and cheer The Flesh here is original corruption the old Man which in the Saints is dying away and decaying dayly but our Meditation puts as it were Aqua vitae into the old mans mouth adds vigor afresh and somtimes makes it with violence to prevail Lastly while the swarmes of vain imaginations keep through-fare in our minds and the noysom steems of sinful affections are rising boyling and bubling in our bosomes there is little expectation that the power of any meanes should come in upon the soul or prevayl with it for good the croud of imaginations stop the passage so that there is no comming to speech with the soul the hurries of 〈◊〉 to transport it and take up the whol strength of it that it can neither attend nor stay upon any thing besides 2 Cor. 10. 4. therefore called the strong hould where Satan intrencheth and fortifyeth himself against al the means of Grace 〈◊〉 may cast him out for while the stream of the thoughts are turned another way the ear hears nothing the understanding minds nothing the heart embraceth nothing there is no place or room there and thence it is as our Saviour speaks the word cannot take place in them John 8. 37. therefore the prophets advice to Jerusalem when he would have her clensed and saved he directs her to dislodge her vain thoughts wash thy heart O thou Jerusalem that mayest be saved how 〈◊〉 shal vain thoughts lodg within thee Jer. 4. 14. those vain thoughts are those carnal reasonings whereby the sinner would put bye the authority of the truth that so the sinner might neither see the loathsomness of his sin nor the danger of his estate or the necessity to recover himself out of it and if these thoughts lodg in him there wil be no entertainment for the power of any ordinance or counsel that wil take place with him nor reproof awe nor exhortation perswade he casts out and keeps off any thoughts of any necessity to be washed and so to be saved If then by those vain thoughts thy heart is estranged from God and carryed in 〈◊〉 against him If they be the cause of al sins committed and continued in if the hindrance of al means that might procure our God then is their evil exceeding 〈◊〉 and therefore we should so judg it and so be effected with it Wee come now to speak of a third 〈◊〉 alleadged to excuse sin and to shew the slight 〈◊〉 the soul 〈◊〉 of it viz. suppose the failing was in practice yet because the matter or thing wherin the offence was committed was but SMALL men look at it as a petty business a very trifle not worthy 〈◊〉 taking notice of and therefore account it as an 〈◊〉 of folly and childish weakness to be troubled with so 〈◊〉 a thing or to have the heart deeply affected with it more than the matter deserves and a man in reason should It was but taking of a penny or shilling too much putting off a cracked Commodity without suspicion by slight of hand lazying out a mans time ever seem to be doing and yet do little out-bid a man in a bargain by a wile and he never the wiser these are but tricks of wit matters of no consequence and what needs Conscience be troubled for these a man is 〈◊〉 the worse for them why should he judg the worse of himself or his condition such 〈◊〉 in a mans coat make it never a whit the more unseemly such poore petty things in a mans carriage makes it never a whit the more uncomfortable As the eye of man happily discerns not these things the Law cannot reach them nor the magistrate punish them why should any man punish himself or 〈◊〉 a torment and rack to his Conscience for them The things are little and petty The less the things are more hainous thy fault is and the greater thy guilt as it thus appears The less LOVE thou shewest to the Lord if thou wilt BREAK with him for a trifle Sets the honour of his great name Obedience to his holy Law contentment to his good spirit at so low a rate as that thou wilt dare to justle injuriously against al these for a very shadow which in thine own account is as much as just nothing where there is truth and strength of Love the hardest things seem light and things of the greatest worth little As Jacob served seven years for Rachel and it seemed short and time little because he loved her Gen. 29. 20. Ask me what thou wilt for dowry sayd Shecher Hamors son and I will give it only give me the mayd Gen. 34. 12. Amongst men in ordinary converse which lyes within the compass of humanity he never prizeth a mans friendship or fayor who fayles him in common curtesies and deny their desires or refuse to gratify them in things of no great worth I thought I might have commanded a greater matter at your hands than so but when I see you stick with me for such a trifle there is little love when so little a matter can hinder the work of it A gracious heart wil part with all for Christ and thou wilt part with Christ and his mercy rather than part
now to the particular and give in the Reasons of the Truth why this Meditation brings in this Contrition and heart-breaking I might argue from the former Description that which makes a through search of our 〈◊〉 and settles them effectually upon the soul that is a fit means to break our hearts with them but thus meditation doth as it hath been formerly disputed therefore it is a fit means to break the heart But I shall add a double Argument briefly they both shal be taken from the special effects of Meditation which are marvelous pregnant to this purpose These come neerer to the Point in hand and apply the general Doctrine to this special occasion Meditation sharpens the sting and strength of corruption that it pierceth more prevailingly It draws out the venom the quintessence of the evil of a corruption and lets in that upon the heart and conscience of a sinner which stings and torments him in greatest extremity makes him see more in his distemper than ever he suspected makes him feel it far worse than ever he could have imagined it could have been As it is in the Art of Chymistry and Distillation by their dexterity and skil in that course they draw out the very spirits of the Mettal or Herb or Liquor as the Spirits of Wine the Oyl of Gold c. and five drops of that wil work more strongly than five 〈◊〉 five spoonfuls of the Body of the Herb or Water in the gross because there is nothing but Spirits as it were gathered together in a narrow room and therefore they are active in the highest degree If it be Spirits of Poyson it kils suddenly it 's present death past recovery if of Cordial or Preservative they comfort and refresh beyond imagination 〈◊〉 and strangely So here Meditation is this Spiritual Chymistry or the art of holy Distillation which draws out the Spirits of the poyson and bitterness that is in corruption Spirituallizeth the plague and venom of the vengeance that attends every transgression and though it was never so smal in the eye of the world yet it stings the heart more than the greatest evil which is committed if not mused on nor attended Thus David when by consideration he had viewed 〈◊〉 his course saw the infinite loathsomness of it that it sunk his heart which for the while when he attended it not did not stick upon him nor trouble him He looks now at the root of sin whence it came at the extent in the highest strain in spiritual wickedness Against thee thee only have I sinned Psal. 51. 4. I said in my hast in my sudden foolish apprehension it was but against a man my Servant my Subject and Vassal and therefore no such great matter nor grievous evil if I as a Prince did gratifie my own desire but now I see it was against thee thee only the God of Justice and Mercy and Fidelity and Truth That was the extent of it how far it went Again Deliver me from blood guiltiness O. God he now saw upon more serious consideration it was not a point of Policy a slight of subtil and secret conveyance that would color over the business and free him from blame because he intimated his mind to Joab to act it But now he saw it was not Joabs treachery nor the Sword of the Children of Ammon 2 Sam. 11. but it was he that had taken away the life of Uriah The dead body of Uriah was dished out to him as his break-fast every morning Thus for the extent of it Again upon consideration he looks to the 〈◊〉 of it Thou Lord lovest Truth in the inward parts Now he 〈◊〉 his sending for his 〈◊〉 his welcoming of Vriah his pretence of care to send him to his own house was nothing but apparent treachery against the Law of God and light of his Conscience and knowledg which the Lord had set up in him The root that bred and fed these bitter fruits was his 〈◊〉 heart and body of sin yet not so mortified which he brought from his Cradle which the Lord loaths as a God of Truth who loves Truth who may justly condemn him and reject him for his departing from it doubling and dissembling in a continual falsifying to Vriah by al his fair speeches and glozing pretences he 〈◊〉 to express his respect unto him Meditation doth not only pinch the heart with the present apprehension of sin committed but by the dayly attendance upon the evil of iniquity now considered it holds the heart upon the rack under 〈◊〉 and unsupportable pressures 2 Pet. 2. 8. Lot dayly seeing and hearing of the loathsomness of their hideous and unnameable abominations vexed his righteous soul Many saw and heard as much as Lot and happily more and yet were never troubled thereby no more would he have been but that he tormented his righteous soul by the dayly consideration of these abominations practiced The word 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 is marvelous pregnant It signifies 1. To prove and examine by means of the rack or by way of torment to make inquisition touching the Truth So Lot kept his soul upon the rack of restless vexation as by the continual hearing so by the constant consideration of the hellish villany of the Sodomites and therefore the Evangelist useth it to signifie the boisterousness of a storm when the Sea is raged by the wind to the height of violence and rage Matth. 14. 24. Meditation raiseth a storm or tempest of distress in the soul. A sudden and present apprehension a flashy thought of the evil of sin is like the flourish of a Sword afar off which a man neither seels nor 〈◊〉 at the utmost it 's but like the glaunce and fall of a blow which it may be ripples the skin whereas deep and through Meditation is as it were doubling of the blow that steddy recoyling of a mans thoughts is the stabbing of the heart through and through again makes the sinner bleed inwardly and abundantly When the sinner would put by the stroke of the Truth and shake off the danger of the sin now discovered and applied and set on Meditation follows the blow home and puts the soul beyond its sence nay it is so it must be so it wil be so beleeve it and expect it for you shal find it worse than others do express or you can conceive for this is the voyce and verdict which Meditation gives in The Prophet Jeremy expresseth the nature of the departure of the people from the Lord thus It is an evil and a bitter thing that thou hast departed away from the living God Jer. 2. 19. And yet Job tels us and experience and profession of the wicked proclaims it to al the world That wickedness is sweet in the mouth of the ungodly he hides it under his tongue though he spare it and for sake it not Job 20. 12 13. but keep it still within his mouth as a pleasing morsel to his 〈◊〉 If you
they were and therefore may cal and choos thee also They are not only dry but dead bones which the Lord makes to live Ezek. 37. 2. can these dead bones live they are not onely miscarrying but barren wombs which the Lord makes to bear and be fruitful Not only when things are under hope but when there is nothing in present appearance or expectation then God can do it Rom. 4. 24. when it is not onely beyond thy power and ability God can support thee and strengthen thee teach and quicken thee when it is beyond not thy apprehension but thy very thought and hope he hath done so 〈◊〉 do so he lives stil and can do so to thee also True my weaknesses are many but that 's not al nor yet the worst the way wardness and perversness of mine own heart ads the greatest weight unto my misery and wretchedness not onely destitute of any spiritual good but not willing to be made better my brow as brass and my neck like an iron and sinew as the Lord complaynes Isa. 48. 4. My heart harder than the nether milstone Job 41. 28. If life and Salvation were laid before me and that I might have heaven and grace for taking or entertainment of it yet I would neither have word nor Christ nor heaven it self unless I might have my wil in heaven such is the invincible stiffness and desperate perversness of my spirit unless I may have what I wil when it comes upon the narrow God must not have his glory nor service nor subjection nor alleagiance nor duty in the least 〈◊〉 discharged I must burn for I can neither break nor yield nor mercies perswade me nor judgments awe me I can receive no good nay I can see no reason why God should do any good to me that would not have it Here is the dead lift and the wonder of al wonders the overpowring of the soveraignty of a stubborn self-willy heart 〈◊〉 the throne where Satan dwells which 〈◊〉 the doctrine of free-wil to be a doctrine of Devils and that which drives the soul to everlasting discouragement pretend what such deceivers can to the contrary But the former doctrine affords support and that which wil bear up thy heart even in this particular also thy Salvation depends not upon thine owne wil for then neither thou nor any flesh should be saved But God shewes mercy to whom he will shew mercy Rom. 9. 19. As nothing can deserve his mercy so nothing can resist his good pleasure when he wil shew it he wil make thee find it and others see it James 1. 18. of his own good wil begot he us by the word of truth It 's not according to the wil of Satan for then no man should be saved it s not according to the wil of man fallen for then no man could be saved But he dispenseth the work of his grace according to his own wil And his counsel shal stand and he will do what he wil. Isai. 46. 11. let the wil of men and Devills oppose it to the utmost of their power Quiet thou thy heart I cannot do any thing that might purchas not yet in truth would I have grace if God would give it only it is with God to do good to this miserable soul of mine as he wil who doth what he wil in heaven and in earth his wil be done and blessed be his holy name for ever and ever and there stay thy self It was the expression of a man in heavy perplexity of Conscience finding the crosness of his wil to snarl at the Lords dispensation his heart sunk within him with unsupportable horror that he had 〈◊〉 the sin against the Holy Ghost and with many prayers and tears he sought to heaven to bring his heart to an under subjection to the good pleasure of the Lord but the Lord left him to his own perversness nothing he could do could prevail with his own spirit and proffessed against that cursed cavil of the Arminians that reproach of the doctrine of Gods free grace which leads to despayr and discouragement openly acknowledging that if his own salvation depended upon his own wil he should perish irrecoverably but that only held his heart in some hope that his happiness was in Gods hand and that it meerly depended upon the wil of the Lord to give him a heart to fear and serve him or else his heart would fayl And it was a savory speech of a gracious woman that had a great deal of Do with her own heart when she could not find her heart to come off so willingly to give way as she ought to what her judgment allowed she besought the Lord to give her such a disposition of heart whether she would or no. Thou yet replyest that which ads to the hainousness of my evil is this these loathsom distempers have not been harboured in mine own breast onely confined in mine own bosom which yet had been too much but they have broken out into the most sierce and professed rebellion and that in the highest degree I have been a professed opposer of the gospel and the power thereof an open Rabshekah a Ringleader and Encourager to such that would revile and reproach the righteous and good wayes of Gods grace a jearing Ishmaelite of such as with 〈◊〉 of Conscience had care to walk therein and have resolved and attempted also even with an impudent face and a brazen forehead to outbrave the authority of the truth and made it matter of scorn to drop and give in to the most dreadful threatnings that could be denounced out of the word I have trampled al the entreaties of the Lord and tender offers of mercy under feet that when I have called over my course and viewed my carriage in cold blood I have wondred that the Lord hath not made me a spectacle of his displeasure before I departed out of the place that the very earth did not open and swallow me quick as Corah 〈◊〉 and Abiram So that God cannot be God unless he do avenge himself and pluck the praise of his justice 〈◊〉 the heart blood of such a wretch nay he should be accessory to the dishonor of his own name if he should shew mercy to such who openly impudently in a hellish haughtiness of heart have trampled his mercy under their feet True flesh and blood could not do it nay the heart 〈◊〉 man cannot think it how this should be did wee measure Gods compassions according to our narrowscantling but Gods thoughts are not ours nor his wayes ours so far as the heavens are above the earth so great is his mercy unto them that fear him Isai. 55. Psal. 103. 11. infinitely above and beyond our own desires and thoughts our imaginations and expectations They are I confess amazing expressions of miraculous compassions of the Lord yet such they are as he is pleased to manifest to sinful dust and ashes He can tel how to have the
thee as with these as he dealt with the Jaylour as he dealt with Paul whom he made a choyce vessel for himself art thou not highly honored why should God knock at thy dore and cal in upon thy Conscience c. ADVISE unto Ministers whose place and calling it is under the Lord to deal with such persons undersuch diseases Hence we may see a right way in holy prudence how to proceed with them in the times of temptations and their saddest distresses of spirit See what God doth and that we may do As Gods deals so we may deal as the safest way and most likely to find 〈◊〉 When therefore we have fortifyed the heart with hope in regard of the sufficiency of God free grace and possibility of relief from him As that he is able to do excessive exceeding abundantly above all we can ask or think As in desperate cures men use cordials to fortify against faintings of heart that they may better bear the hardness of the cure this being supposed then the rule is The sharpest receits are most seasonable in a right manner of proceeding and that in three things 1 Be not slight in the searching 2 Be not too hasty to heal 3 Be not too suddeenly confident of the cure Not slight in the search for that is most dangerous and an error here can hardly ever be recovered go therefore to the quick see the bottome if ever you hope to make work of it or to lend help indeed He that cleaves knotty logs must have the sharpest wedges and hardest blowes Here pity is unseasonable and greatest cruelty When out of 〈◊〉 we are afraid to put men to pain we encrease their pains and hasten their destruction Jer. 6. 14. they have healed also the hurt of the daughter of my people slightly The Apostle teacheth another way Titus 1. 13. reprove them sharply that they may be sound in the faith Sharp reproofes make sound Christians He shewes greatest love and mercy which followes the Lord in love and mercy Yea it is a course that procures most ease to the party the corrosive that eats away the proud flesh brings soonest ease because that proud flesh and humors bring al the pain So these dreadful overbearing threatnings abate the pride of the heart and a mans perversness and so brings ease for the waywardness of our own wils work our own woe and here not to trouble mens sins and Consciences is indeed to trouble their peace and comfort in issue Thus Samuel 1 Sam. 12. 20. He lesseneth nothing of their sin onely sendeth them forth to mercy for relief Ye have indeed done al this wickedness yet do not forsake the Lord. Be not too hasty to heal the wound More hast than good speed draws here desperate in conveniences with it and may be hazards their comforts while they live Old and deep sores as they have been long in gathering corrupt humors so they must have a time to wast and wear them away which wil not be done in a moment old stayns must lye long in soak and have many fresh lavers before in reason they can be clensed So old distempers which have taken strong possession and are of long continuance happily if the cure be too hasty it wil hazard our comforts The Israelites left War too suddenly with the Canaanites they tribured them and not destroyed them and they proved goads in their sides which they could not get rid of all their daies Be not suddenly confident of the Cure Let men be Probationers in our apprehensions let them proceed in a fearful and painful way to make proof of the inward disposition of their hearts by their outward practices in a constancy of an holy conversation As Solomon said of Adonijah 1 King 1. 52. Let him shew himself a worthy man This creating of Professors making men Christians by our applause and approbation because they have attained the under strokes of horror skil ability to holy Services proves the bane of their souls the blemish of their Profession and a breach of their Peace either they have turned wretches again or else have been overtaken with their carelessness so that they have been foyled by gross falls and hardly ever recovered their peace and comfort though they have taken off the scandal Therefore as John Baptist told them if indeed you purpose to 〈◊〉 from the wrath to come bring forth fruits worthy of amendment Matth. 3. 8. such as wil carry weight and fetch up the scales as it were and undoubtedly evidence the work of Grace Matter of Caution and Direction unto such whom God hath exercised with such heavy breakings of heart for their scandalous courses beware ye be not weary and labor to make an escape from under the Dispensation of the Lord but give welcom thereunto help forward the work do not resist it make way for the Dispensation of the Lord do not oppose it and therefore possess thy heart with a necessity of subjection thereunto Why should'st thou think to have an exception be rather fearful thou shouldst not find the Truth of the work of these terrors than that thou should'st be fearful to endure these if he wil land thee in Christ he wil toss thee in this manner As a Patient having a 〈◊〉 wound he enquires what the 〈◊〉 did to others and how the Salve did work upon others in his case and if he find the Salve and working be the same he hopes that he also shal be cured So here EXHORTATION Improve the utmost of our endeavor to keep our selves and all ours from scandalous sins Restraining Grace is but common Grace yet is it a great favor of the Lord that he wil curb and restrain a man by this means the work of Conversion is more easie and such persons freed from dreadful terrors that seize upon others Mark 12. 34. Thou ant not far from the Kingdom of God 〈◊〉 's bring our Children as neer to Heaven as we can it is in our power to restrain them and reform them and that we ought to do As it was the speech of a godly woman she 〈◊〉 that al means might be used to restrain her Children that if it were possible their reckoning might not be so heavy as mine 〈◊〉 A Prophane course cannot hinder the unresistible work of Gods Grace It 's true But though God may save thy soul yet he may scorch thy soul in the flames of Hell fire and make thee weary of thy part and of thy lusts and all Are there no terrors dreadful but those of the torments of the damned in Hell Yes you wil find it you may pay deer for al your pleasures in sin for al your fleshly lusts before your hearts be brought off from them therefore you that are Parents joyn your helping hands to this great and good Work beat down the stubbornness do what you can to restrain the loosness and prophaneness of the spirits of your children though it 's
conceive much less endure First Thy Case to common Reason leaving secret things to God seems past cure it 's a great suspicion the day of Grace is over the date of mercy past the period of Gods Patience come to an end all means have been used and conclusions tryed with thee the invincible stiffness of thy Spirit hath won the day thou hast tried Masteries with all means Law and Gospel Promises 〈◊〉 and 〈◊〉 the unconquerable hardness of thy heart hath out-bid all Dispensations thou art Cannon proof Law proof Gospel proof Threatning proof there is no other means of good in Heaven or Earth and thou art worse by them all which are provided to better others and have so done without means thou hast no reason to think that God wil work and thou hast had the try al of al and thou art beyond 〈◊〉 in thy stifness and therefore beyond all helps in an ordinary way Prov. 29. 1. He that being often reproved 〈◊〉 his heart shall be destroyed and that without remedy he that casts away the salve that should cure him spils the Physick that should recover him casts away the meat that should nourish him how should he be either cured or supported There are no Commands that awe no Promises perswade no Terrors awaken then there is no Remedy He must be deluded that opposeth the Wisdom that only can guide him he must be cursed that resists the mercy that only can save him he must be damned that 〈◊〉 upon the blood of Jesus that only would redeem him there is no other Remedy no other Name but the Name of Jesus wherby men must be saved Acts 4. 12. Nay not only means fail him but God himself seems to forsake Gen. 6. 3. My Spirit shall not alwaies strive with man He hath striven by his Terrors by his Mercies striven and laid hold upon thee by heart-breaking 〈◊〉 Turn ye why will ye die turn ye and cause others to return and so iniquity shall not be your ruin Ezek. 33. 11. Oh that there were such a heart in them to fear me alwaies that it might be well with them Deut. 5. 29. but thou hast wound away from Gods hand and forsaken him and he hath forsaken thee there is Word and Promises but no God in them Terrors and 〈◊〉 but no God in them Thou art without God and art thou not then without hope When the throws of a travelling Woman leave her her life leaves her So here It 's said of a company of Despisers of Christ That they 〈◊〉 him again unto themselves Heb. 6. 6. When they resist one Christ and resist that Salvation that hath been offered either they must have another Christ or he anew crucified if ever they be saved So there must be a new Christ and new Scriptures before such miserable wretches can be relieved the Blood of Jesus the Spirit and Promises of Jesus Grace and Salvation hath been tendered to these stubborn-hearted and they have opposed and cast all away either there must be another Christ or he must die again All the Commands and Comforts in the Word all the Rules and Directions 〈◊〉 and Counsels have been used and tryed without any profit and prevailing power therefore there must be another Covenant 〈◊〉 and Scriptures if thou beest saved that 's incredible therefore the other impossible 〈◊〉 can ye escape that neglect so great Salvation Heb. 2. 2. I appeal to your selves You will go from the Law to the Gospel from justice to mercy but whither wil you go when you have departed away from mercy and mercy is departed away from you Thy judgment hastens thou canst not not escape it nor prevent it and truly it's coming more speedily and suddenly then thou art awar of Thou bringest upon thy self swift destruction though thou sleepest yet thy damnation sleeps not Hebr. 6. 8. the earth that often receives rain from heaven and yet brings forth thorns is near unto cursing look every day that God should curse al thy comforts thy out-goings and thy in-comings Prov. 28. 14. He that bardens his heart fals into mischief fals into it and is overwhelmed with it al of a sudden he may fal into any tempration he opposeth that counsel that should preserve him falls into sins he casts away that grace and resists that spirit that should strengthen him nay being past feeling such a one wil run to commit al wickedness with greediness Eph. 4. 19. Hell and Divills and 〈◊〉 are let loose upon such the light of nature evidence of reason dictates of of Conscence authority of the law terrors of judgments intreaties of mercies the hard heart hath cast away al these and therefore rusheth into what evil comes next against Conscience command reason sence nature men put of the principles not of humanity but of sence and become more base than the beasts themselves do that which beasts wil not do and morality is ashamed to speak As the ship when the anchors are broke and cable cut and a mighty tempest arises she is wholly left to the rage of wind and weather When men harden their hearts God swears they shal never enter into his rest Hebr. 3. last Ground of COMFORT to support the sincking spirits of broken hearted sinners when they seem to faint under the fierce displeasure of the Almighty and to be 〈◊〉 with the unsupportable weight of the wickedness of their own souls which they are neither able to avoid nor 〈◊〉 to undergo Here hence is matter of sound refreshing both to the parties that are the patients and bear 〈◊〉 bitterness and burden of their sorrow to their friends who as spectators do mourn with them and are affected with a fellow feeling of the evil of that which they find experimentally let me speak a word severally to them both Know therefore to thy comfort thou distressed soul this sorrow and anguish which now oppresseth thee it s not unto death nay it s the onely way and means to deliver from death from the death of sin and that security in which thou lyeft without either sence of thy misery or the least appearance and possibility of deliverance from the death everlasting of thy soul unto which thou wast hastening amain As it is with a dead body when with rubbing chafing and pouring in of hot waters there is some kind of warmth coming and overspreading the parts there is good hope the soul is again returning the man reviving again It s so in this spiritual quickening of a soul dead in sin stone dead stiff insensible of the distempers that lodge within him take possession of the whol frame of the inward man as stif coldness takes possession of a dead body when the Lord begins to affect the sinner und makes throughly sensible with Godly sorrow by rubbing and chafing in of sharp reproofs and passionate exhortations there is a kind of spiritual warmth coming into the soul and certain evidence like a harbenger or immediate
his sensual 〈◊〉 hath 〈◊〉 it self in the dayes of his folly which now he hath found by woful 〈◊〉 to be gal and wormwood to his Conscience the bane of his peace and would have been the ruin of him and his soul before this day but that it hath pleased the Lord to 〈◊〉 him for the present and not to execute his vengeance upon him as he hath deserved by reason of his former 〈◊〉 therefore he cannot abide the sight of the place where the sin was committed the presence of the party the companion that enticed yea fears the the falsness and treachery of his own heart least that again should betray him thus you see in Davids 〈◊〉 Psal. 101. 3. I hate the work of them that turn aside it shal not cleave to me Hatred is Eagle-eyed to observe the proceedings of the enemy and out of a watchful fear 〈◊〉 stop the passage and to keep his approach that he cannot come near unto us Happily temptations may press in with violence upon the soul and the strength of distempers may make fierce 〈◊〉 make batteries nay make a breach happily and over-bear the sinner for the push 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 is the fear watch that the heart is carried 〈◊〉 through this 〈◊〉 that it wil prevent their approach or at least never yield to their power A chast Matron that truly hates the unchast 〈◊〉 of adulterous mates they may pester her trouble her lie at her from day to day though she cannot keep her self happily from being tempted yet she wil keep her self unspotted she wil not be unchast nor unfaithful So it is with a heart that 〈◊〉 carryed with detestation against evil though distempers and temptation may pester it yet they shal not cleave to it nor it cleave to them It may do that which it hates as Paul Rom. 7. 15. what I hate that I do yet it wil hate its own doings its own self so far as overborn therby the out-works may be taken yet the soul ever entrencheth herself in this holy hatred of heart and either it wil force them to fly or it wil fly from them though it cannot be quit of these In-mates but stil they wil abide in the soul yea 〈◊〉 them and the soul for them This is the order and method that the Apostle layes forth in this work when the Corinthians came to be touched with Godly sorrow what indignation what fear what zeal what revenge c. 2 Cor. 7. 11. When the heart carries a detestation towards a corruption it stands against it as an enemy then follows fear which is a behavior suitable to provide and prevent the policies plottings and way-layings thereof upon al occasions look as it is with a City that hath been besiedged with a potent and Malicious enemy if once the siedge be raysed and the forces of the enemy put to rout and scattered how wil the besiedged party by a watchful fear stand upon their guard stand centinel night and day send out their perdues and dispatch a party in every coast to discover the carriage of the enemy takes al the passages maintains a narrow search no man goes out no man comes in but enquires learns the intent of the enemy whether he gathers forces and maks head again watcheth strictly to 〈◊〉 his approach with the first apperance its 〈◊〉 fresh in their minds into what great distress they were formerly brought what cruelty they suffered and that there was but a hairs bredth between them and death with what fear and care wil they labor to prevent the like bondage again as the Phylistians cryed one to another when the ark came into the field for the safeguarding of their lives and liberties quit your selves like 〈◊〉 Oh ye Phylistins least you become servants to the Hebrowes So it is with the sinner who hath been besiedged and held captive under the tyranny and soveraignty of sin and Satan when the Lord by the power of ordinances shal cast down the strong holds stop the act of sin in the strength and stream of it disanul and make voyd the authority of any right or claym the sin could challenge in this work of contrition and so rescues the soul and rayses the sieg that Satan layd and maintayned against its distempers as the deadliest enemy it hath in al the world No sooner is the soul revolted from under the tyranny of corruption but the fear of the former misery forceth a man to mervailous circumspection to maintayn a careful watch as suspicious of a surprisal least the old distempers should gather head again if any temptation or occasion be presented any appearance of any provocation which may lead to the entertainment of any evil be cast in how doth the heart shrink and shake as though the enemy were now afresh approaching what narrow search and inquisition doth the soul set up in its daily course weighs the words he speaks examines each thought and stirring of affection whether there be any treacheries plotted any correspondence held any preparation made for the recalling entertainment of the former lusts and corruptions Fear gives the Alarum presently sets 〈◊〉 a work to prevent the evil cryes out to heaven for succor and relief the disobedient child the stubborn and careless servant were their hearts brought to this detestation of these their distempers you would see a new world they would mind themselves of their own misearriages though you never remembred them they would check themselves for carelessness though you never reproved them they would be heart sick of the stirrings of such rebellions though you never reckoned with them in that behalf their own heart would cal to their remembrance their former extremities It was not long since you were raigned before the tribunal of the Lord cast and condemned by the witness of the word the verdict of 〈◊〉 own Consciences and by the testimony of God 〈◊〉 who is greater than your consciences and yet 〈◊〉 respited through the long sufferance of the Lord and 〈◊〉 riches of his mercy you saw cause enough for ever 〈◊〉 abhor those abominations and your selves for 〈◊〉 therefore God forbid I should rush into those evils 〈◊〉 and plunge my self into everlasting confusion 〈◊〉 of body and soul I have cause to hate them as mine 〈◊〉 mies I wil never harbor them as my friends Where this hatred is throughly wrought in the 〈◊〉 against sin it seeks the destruction of sin in ones 〈◊〉 first and in other also so far as comes within the compass of a mans place and 〈◊〉 The indignation 〈◊〉 at home and it s carryed most strongly against the 〈◊〉 of our own hearts which are our greatest enemies and have done us the greatest harm and we by them 〈◊〉 done the Lord the greatest dishonor and we know 〈◊〉 most in al the loathsomness of them and in al the 〈◊〉 nousness and heightning circumstances thereof then 〈◊〉 can be acquainted with the measure and scantling of any others miscarriages