Friends told him Well now the time draws nigh who answered I am ready I am ready Then came the Order for his going to the Sled upon which he went with all chearfulness and so went forward with undaunted courage to meet Death in the face like a Christian Souldier indeed who through the Lord's assistance presently obtained more than a Conquest over all his Enemies As he was in the Sled and drew near to the place of Execution a Friend came to him and said Sir I have a great desire to know how it is with you and how the Lord is pleased to manifest himself unto you in the condition you are now in The Colonel replyed Friend I thank you I bless the Lord I have great cause to praise and magnifie his great and glorious Name for his unspeakable goodness towards me especially in this present dispensation for I can truly say and that by experience that the Goodness of the Lord endures for ever and praised be God for this present tryal The same Friend further replyed and said I pray Sir are you not at all dejected in your spirits are you not cast down in your mind have you not hard thoughts of God for this his strange providence towards you The Colonel replyed Friend I shall endeavour to satisfie you as well as I can in this matter and I let you know that I have not the least trouble upon my heart nor the least burden upon my spirit upon the account of my Sufferings neither have I any hard thoughts of God but on the contrary can speak to the praise of his Grace that his Goodness hath carried me forth above the fear of all these things And my Friend let me tell you further That I have had more experience of God and more acquaintance with God within these three or four dayes than ever I had in all my life and at this present I am so far from being dejected or cast down in my spirits as that I am so much elevated and lifted up in my soul that I am not able to tell you how it is with me And when he was ready to rise out of the Sled another Friend came to him and asked him how he did To whom he answered I bless the Lord I am very well and do no more value what I am now going about than this straw taking up a piece of a straw in his hand I have sayes he made many a Charge in my time but now I have but one Charge more to make and then I shall be at rest Here followeth two Letters of his to two of his old faithful Friends eminent persons in the City of London A Letter from Col. John Okey directed to a Relation of his to be by him communicated to some Christian Friends of his acquaintance about the City of London SIR HAving a little time in this place before I am removed to Newgate where I am to go as I am informed I thought good to give you some account how it is with me concerning my better part I bless the Lord I never found so much spiritual joy some years before as I have in Prison it is according as the Apostle speaks 2 Cor. 1.3 4 5. And therefore let the People of God not fear a Prison or to suffer in the Cause of God I shall give you a touch but of three things viz. 1. How it is with me in my spiritual condition 2. I shall speak something of the Cause for which I suffer the loss of all things which are near and dear unto me in this evil world 3. In the last place What a Mercy it is when the Lord is pleased to call forth a creature to suffer for the Truths of our Lord Jesus Christ in such a day as this is I believe you have heard these from some other of the Servants of the Lord that have gone before in whole dishes but you are like to have them in a broken dish and but a few scraps in comparison to that great feast you have had before from them that are now with the Lord. Our Afflictions sanctified are good Cordials to the soul and therefore it is no marvel that David said It is good for me that I have been afflicted And as one observeth and saith well a Prison being the place where wanting other Books a man may there best study the Book of the knowledge of himself being separated from all business but praying and praising the Lord God in Christ by the Spirits assistance And since I have by the help of the Lord looked in some measure into my heart I could not have thought there had been so much ignorance and impatience pride inordinate affection to creature-comforts revenge difidence of God self-love and iniquity of all kinds in me as I now find there is and although the Lord in great mercy hath kept me by his mighty power and restraining grace from those Jayl-bird sins as Swearing Drunkenness Lying Uncleanness and hating of his People yet I find a mass of corruption in me and a multitude of transgressions so that my sins are as the hairs of my head which cannot be numbred for the multitude of them and all this darkness and filthiness of spirit is only discovered by the light of Christ By his lowliness in washing the Apostles feet I see the height of pride in my own spirit and want of condescention when I was in prosperity and my unfruitfulness under the means of Grace and little good I did when I had an opportunity thereunto and therefore I adore and acknowledge the Justice of God that he hath most righteously deprived me of my Liberty and Estate truly now I am thereby brought nearer to Christ whereby I find through Grace that Christ is become very precious to me And more to be desired than Gold yea 1 Pet 2.7 than fine Gold and sweeter than the Honey or the Honey-comb And this I can say through Mercy I do desire to love the good Word of the Lord before my appointed food I have begged of the Lord that he would enable me more and more that I may lay open before him all my sins known or unknown and to loath my self for them and that not only for the shame which sin bringeth but rather because I should sin against so good a God and loving Father in Christ Jesus as I have done and especially for my actual known sins committed against so much Love Light Promises and Covenants from a gracious God that will not destroy me for all my abominations blessed be his holy Name for ever and for ever I desire continually to go out of my self and to rely on the Righteousness of the Lord Jesus Christ who only is the Fountain of Life and in his Light we shall see light Oh! what Mercy is it that the Lord should be pleased out of his great Love and Compassion to cast the mantle of his free Grace upon such a poor worm as I am and
the last hour of his life as I did for my self and so I have done for this King also which is my duty to do I have many hundred times since I went out of England this two years last past and before also begged with tears of the Lord if there were any iniquity or malice or any thing of that nature in what I did that God would shew it to me yea the like I did this very morning beseeching the Lord that if I had any guilt of his Majesties blood upon me or any hatred against him he would reveal it to me that I might here confess it before you all But I have nothing upon my spirit as to that And what ever other men did I shall say nothing to that as for my self I can say again that I got not any thing by it but remained in the same condition I was a Colonel before and was no more since I thank the Lord I am clear in that Then making a stop he said there is such a noise I cannot speak And Sir I shall tell you now vvhat is upon my spirit I take vvhat hath befallen me as righteous and just from the Lord for my unworthy walking for being no more zealous for God and his People no more fruitful in my Generation and no more thankful but as for that thing I thank the Lord I have no guilt upon my spirit And as for all my other sins I confess they are many and great but I thank the Lord he hath given my soul the pardon of them all through the Blood of Christ for his Name sake and through the Riches of his Grace and his abundant Mercy towards me And now I will only speak a word to our Friends here You all know we have had many troubles and much blood hath been shed and there hath been a vacancy as to a single person But the Nation did earnestly desire him that now reigns and I wish from my soul he may reign gloriously and righteously and reign here so as he may reign for ever And now they have the great Mercy they did desire I wish that they would make a right improvement of it and that they would walk in some measure answerable to that mercy that they have so much desired I shall beg this as a dying man That as they have received a Mercy which they account so exceeding great that they would walk answerable to it that God might have the glory and the Nation might yet flourish in Peace and Righteousness I shall beg of these †Some of the Guard Gentlemen and all others that have a great affection to their King that they would pray more for him and love him more and that they would swear less and drink less for if you were beyond Sea to hear what I have heard of this Nation it would make your hair stand on end and your ears to tingle They say certainly that notwithstanding the great answer they have had of their desires yet if they go on in the way of wickedness and Blasphemy which they report do abound in England for my part I have been a close Prisoner and have spoken with no body almost since I came that this Nation cannot stand three years together therefore I shall make it my humble request That as this Nation hath flourished and gone beyond other Nations in Piety and Religion it might flourish ten times more than it hath done this many years upon the same account It hath been a Nation that hath profest the Gospel which indeed hath flourished here more than in any other Kingdom and so it hath had more glory and honour than other Nations and I desire it may continue that you may have Peace within your Palaces and Plenty within your Dwellings Oh that every man would study in his place to fear God and honour the King and to give glory to God and walk in some measure answerable to those many mercies they have and do enjoy And that as they have what they so much desired every man would now beg that the Gospel may flourish and that Righteousness and Truth may be in the midst of you There is something that I shall speak more I would be loth to speak so as to offend you in any thing Then replyed the Sheriff I am glad to hear these Expressions from you Sir let me tell you because it 's a very great matter and looks like a black thing that is charged upon us in the Indictment I should have abhorred it had there not been a face of Authority an Authority that then was owned had it not been so I should have abhorred to have done any thing in that business as much as any Gent. here therefore I thank God I have peace as to that and Peace as to the Pardon of all mine Iniquities whatsoever through rich Grace and Mercy And truly as to the Cause I am as confident even as I am of my Resurrection That that Cause which we first took up the Sword for which was for Righteousness and for Justice and for the advancement of a godly Magistracy and a good Ministery however some men turned about for their own ends shall yet revive again I am confident I say That Cause for which so much Blood hath been shed will have another Resurrection that is You will have a blessed fruit of those many thousands that have been killed in the late War But I would leave this to all my Brethren and Friends that they would keep their places wait upon God stand still and see the Salvation of God and rather suffer than do any thing to deliver themselves by any indirect or unjust wayes If his Majesty had been pleased to have given me my Life or if I had come over or heard for I had a Warrant for my return into England from the House of Commons but I fell short two dayes and so was fain to go back time enough of the Proclamation I would through the blessing of God have lived quietly and rather have suffered than have done any thing against the Law of the Land and I would say this to all good men and others Rather to suffer than take any indirect means to deliver themselves but to wait upon God keep their way stand still and see the Salvation of God And God when it shall make most for his own Glory and the good of his People will deliver and that in such a way that himself shall have Glory in and the Gospel shall have no Reproach by But because some think we are enemies to Magistracy and Ministry I shall only say this That I alwaies I thank the Lord did pray both for Magistracy and Ministry and that you might have righteous Laws established that so Judgement may run down like a Stream and Righteousness like a mighty River And that shall be my Prayer now That God would give you Peace and Truth and scatter them that delight in Blood and War Mr.
respect may resemble the Dove that Noah sent out of the Ark that could find no place to set the foal of her foot on thus hath it been for some moneths with me so that I could not with any conveniency because of those that bear an evil will to Zion write to you but my Dear Friend though I have been absent from you in the body yet I can say truly I have not been so in my Spirit the Lord knows how my Soul hath both night and day longed after you and all the rest of my Christian Friends in Christ Jesus and in all my approaches to the Throne of Grace I have made it my earnest request to the Lord Jesus Christ that the Father of all glory would give unto you more and more the Spirit of Wisdom and Revelation in the knowledge of Christ And that you may walk worthy of the Lord unto all well pleasing being fruitful in all good works increasing in the blessed knowledge of our God and that you may be filled with all the love of God to his glory and your everlasting comfort I know you are ignorant why I left my Native Country and all that was near and dear unto me in this world but which is most of all the pretious Gospel of our Lord Jesus Christ and the communion of his people a losse of losses not to be made up but in Christ and in him alone and therefore my dear Friend though now you enjoy the light yet you do not know how soon it may be taken from you or you from it it is and shall be my continual prayers that it may not be for it is indeed the Judgement of all Judgements The Lord God pardon unto me in the blood of our Lord Jesus Christ that great neglect of it whereof I was guilty while I was with you that I did not improve it more to the comfort of my own soul. Oh my Dear Friend did you but see and hear that which I have seen and heard in my Travels especially among those that profess Popery it would make your hearts to tremble that blaspheming the Blessed Name of the Lord all manner of wickedness the horrid prophanation of the Lords day and other abominations and Oh that I could have said that I had not seen and heard too much of the same even among those that term themselves of the Reformed Religion Alas alas the best of what they enjoy here is but as the bran to the wheat in comparison to what the Lord hath bestowed on you and therefore I beseech you prize the Gospel more and more and those Godly Ministers that it hath pleased the Lord to send among you for the Lord hath not done for other people as he hath done for you I am verily perswaded it is one great cause among many others that the Lord hath dealt so severely with his own people as to give them up into the hands of his and their enemies hath been the slighting despising contemning and undervaluing the precious Gospel and the faithful Ministers of Jesus Christ the Lord in great mercy pardon it not only to his own people but to the whole Nation if it be his blessed will that they may yet know the things that concerns the glory of God and their own everlasting â—â—st before they be hid from their eyes Oh the pretious Jewel of the Gospel to which all the other enjoyments even the quintessence of whatever this world can afford are not to be compared What is there in this base world but vanity of vanities what is there in great men or great things a sparkle of fire or a storm at Sea or a treacherous Friend brings all to nothing in a moment As we have seen by sad experience every day do witness the Truth of it Therefore saith the Apostle love not the World not the things of the World a little grace is worth ten thousand worlds It was a notable saying of that worthy Marquess that he was not worthy of Christ that would not give the whole World for one dayes Communion with him Oh it is a good thing to have a heart established in grace it is good in times of prosperity it is good in dayes of adversity Oh it is good in such a day as this when one wave comes on the neck of another yet the Lord even then remembers those whom he hath promised he will never leave nor forsake yea though their troubles be many yet the Lord will deliver them out of all in his blessed time for all things shall certainly work for the glory of God and the good of his own people And now my Dear Friend do I most humbly beg in the Name of the Lord Jesus the continuance of your Prayers to the Lord for me that he would be pleased to give me more and more of his Holy Spirit that while he is pleased to give a being in the Land of the living I may in some measure live answerable to the many unexpected mercies he hath bestowed on me his poor and unworthy Servant both in relation to my soul and body and that too since I came into a strange land and truly as I want a heart to be thankful to the Lord so I want expressions to let you know it I shall onely at present say it was good for me that I have been Afflicted and if the Lord gives me life I shall not fail to let you know the goodness of the Lord to me in this day of my greatest of troubles which have not been a few And as I humby desire your Prayers for me so do I also beg your thanks to the Lord for me who hath been so gracious to me every way And oh that now with a chearful heart I might honour the Lord in this day of very great troubles and that I might be very humble and thankful and be fitted to live or to dye as the Lord shall be pleased to call me forth That which lyeth with some waite on my Spirit is not so much the losse of these outward things for I praise the Lord he hath carried me in some measure above them but that I should sin against so blessed a God and loving a Father as I have done and that I should with many of his own People provoke the Lord to give up so many of his People so far into the hands of his and their enemies as he hath done at this day would an ordinary chastisement have prevailed certainly the common Enemy had not had their will over them the good Lord sanctifie his present hand of affliction to all his more and more and oh that now in this day of his East wind he would be pleased for his Name sake to stay his rough wind and that that may be the fruit to purge them from their sin and that his People may yet live to praise him in the great Congregation and there to declare the goodness of the Lord to them in the
time of their affliction and to say it was good for them they were afflicted And oh my dear Friend I do again beg your prayers for I am very sensible I am at present but as a brand pul'd out of the fire and am very confident it is for the sakes of the Lords People that I am alive at this day The Lord grant that while I live I may live to the glory of his most holy Name I hope you will excuse me for being so tedious to you I shall therefore no further trouble you but only present my due respects to you and all the rest of my Christian Friends wishing you from my soul all good here and glory hereafter in that World which is to come And now the God of all praise that brought again from the dead our Lord Jesus Christ the great Shepherd of his Sheep through the blood of the Everlasting Covenant make you perfect in every good work and work in you that which is wel-pleasing in his sight through Jesus Christ. I am your loving friend in the Gospel of our Lord Christ J. B. Another Letter written by Col. Barkstead to a dear Friend INdeared and endearing Friend Thine of the fourth instant came to my hands which I blesse the Lord was as seasonable as welcom and as welcom as seasonable it was to me as Apples of Gold in Pâ—ctures of Silver very Pleasant and Beautiful Dear Friend I being now a close Prisoner in the Tower in one of the as they conceive meanest and securest Prison lodgings in which when it rains I have no place to fit dry but in a high window being attended with a Life-guard of two Warders and two Souldiers day and night and denied the use of Pen Ink and Paper so that what I write is so by stealth and that so by bits that I am sore't sometimes before I have writ two lines to tear what I have written and with much trouble to secure my Paper ink and pen but yet I have adventured on a line or two to you to let you know that I received your welcom Letter every line of which was being filled with that spirit in by which my soul hath been through free mercy born up by to this very moment far beyond and above what I am here able to express Oh the infinit and Eternal Riches of the free Grace of our good God in and through the Lord Jesus Christ to poor unworthy creatures it is he and he alone that hath and doth make hard things easie soft and pleasant bitter things sweet crooked rough ways plain and pleasant this hath through mercy been his way towards me unworthy man since I became mans bond-man He even he alone out of the free riches of his never-failing Mercie in Jesus Christ hath made me his free-man He hath set my feet in large and fresh pastures He hath not only taken out the blots and blurs that my sins have made in my old Evidences since the old Record and Assurance I had many years of his Eternal and Everlasting Love to my poor soul in Jesus Christ but he even since I came within this my Palace for so I can truly and chearfully call it I say through the free Grace He hath not onely cleared up my old Assurance but hath also given me fair new Copies together with such Inlargements that are unutterable In the Deeps I cryed when and where none could hear but He and He alone who heard and answered blessed be his Name When my heart and my strength failed He then heard so that as a return of prayer yea of yours and the People of the Lord together with the breathing of his own Spirit in the hearts of his People here He hath made such gracious and full returns that I through mercy can say from the first of my being in bonds notwithstanding the weakness of my body and present want of health through extream Colds yet the Dungeon Chains Bolts and Manacles have not had the least of hardness in them no I must say it again through free Grace the Lord hath not only made them easie but pleasant yea kickings and buffetings when in Irons by some of Downing's men yet the Lord strengthened me Pray mistake me not I do not write this as having here any thing to boast of from my self or from any strength of mine no no I have not been without my buffetings though in them the Lord hath been wonderful gracious to me and he hath made me a very great gainer by them Three times since I came into this Room or Palace Satan who may be truly said to go about like a roaring Lion seeking whom he may devour waiting his opportunity I having been for a very very little space drawn off my Out-Sentinels and begining to hold a Parly with Sence and reason with flesh and blood to look backward and forward on the right and left hand in which work I do not remember I exceeded above half an hour but I perceived a general discomposure and unsettlement in all my former settlements and immediately found Satan with a full Body ready to surprize my Main-guards but the Lord was merciful and made good his Promise to me He in the instant of time came in and shewed me where my weakness lay and where my strength I cryed out to Him as a ravished Damosel He heard and strengthened me with strength in my soul blessed O blessed be for ever his most great and glorious Name My dear Friend I hint these things only to let you know how seasonable through mercy the Lord hath made me and doth keep me off my own weakness and nothingness and unworthiness indeed I dare not be off the Watch or from going the Rounds to see if all the Sentinels be watchful every moment I do now very well understand that Command Pray alwayes Pray continually watch and pray pray and watch are and must be a Christians constant and continual and unseparable Companions at all times and in all places Now that the Lord hath thus far answered the prayers of his People what I shall be able to undergo the next hour I know not I therefore do heartily again and again beg that you would with me continually be blessing and praising the Lord for those blessed Returns he hath hitherto made to your former Prayers and lay them before you as encouragements and spread them before the Lord as Arguments for his hearing your Prayers for the future for what is yet to come for though I can say the Dungeon Bolts Chains and Manacles with kickings and buffetings have been nothing and therefore can comfortably and confidently desire the People of the Lord not to fear any of them but to fear sin only for that the least sin hath more terror in it than the greatest evil or trouble that can befall a Child of God here therefore fear O fear sin I say I do not know what a Sled a Gibbet a Halter Ax or
but be faithful to the death and you shall receive a Crown of life Oh my dear Friends it is better to fall with Christ than to stand with Caesar let us be willing to follow our Captain the Lord Jesus who is gone before as also the blessed Saints and Martyrs of Christ. We use to say He is not worthy the name of a Souldier that will not follow his Leader Let us then follow Christ the Captain of our Salvation who hath said to us Fear not him that can but kill the body and can do no more Oh let us I pray you fear the Lord and take heed of all sin for let me tell you there is more evil in the least sin than there is good in any thing this base world can afford And although here we may suffer and be condemned of men as evil-doers as our Lord Jesus and was called Beelzebub and the like yet this will be our comfort that although men do condemn us the Lord doth acquit us You know what Christ saith to his Disciples Blessed are ye when men speak all manner of evil of you for my Name sake and the Gospel then do ye rejoyce and be exceeding glad Thus I have given you to know in a few words my thoughts concerning those three things I spake of in the beginning of this Paper I had thought to have been more large but am strangely prevented by my Keeper and for want of time Only one word to let you know that blessed be the Lord for his great mercy towards me I am at present in a peaceable and comfortable condition although sometimes fainting fits do seem to seize upon me for when I look on my self then I have cause to mourn for my unworthy walking but when I look up to the Lord I have cause to rejoyce and to be glad and do desire to praise his holy Name Oh it is good to have our portion in the Lord who is our only Good for one smile of his Countenance is better than Life And therefore my dear Friends above all things labour to give your selves up to the Lord and appear for his Cause and Glory and for the Gospel and stand up for the Truth for all Truth and for the poor Saints at such a day as this is so that you may with the Apostle say experimentally I have fought a good fight I have finished my course I have kept the Faith henceforth is laid up for me a Crown of Glory and not only for me but for all those also that love the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. And now my dear Brethren in the Lord I bid you farewel and commit you and yours to Him that is able to keep you from falling and to present you faultless before the presence of his Glory with exceeding joy Now to the only wise God be glory for evermore Yours for ever in our Lord Jesus Christ. J. O. Post-script Oh my Brethren I have one request to you that is That you would beg of the Lord that the Saints may dwell more together in Love And although they be not of one form yet let them labour to be of one mind in the things of the Lord and love as Brethren and take heed of judging one another which hath been a great fault Give no offence to those that are within nor to those that are without as near as you can That those that are out of the way may be won by your holy conversation in Christ Jesus Another Letter of Col. John Okey's directed to an intimate Friend and old Acquaintance of his in London Hon. Friend I Do much rejoyce to hear of your good health with your dear Wife and that the Lord doth so much comfort and strengthen you in the day of your trouble it is a great honour that he hath put upon you in this backsliding time wherein iniquity doth so much abound and most men are making shipwrack of Faith a good Conscience in this day of Jacob's sorrows now that wickedness is established by a Law Now the worse the times are the Lord grant we may be the better Oh Sir suffering-times are very glorious when the Lord is pleased to come in by his holy Spirit into the heart of a poor worm there can be no restraint where the Spirit of the Lord is for there is liberty for the loving-kindness of the Lord is better than any thing that this base world can afford My dear Friend what a favour hath the Lord been pleased to cast upon you and me that we should be called forth to bear witness to and for the Old Cause the Lord himself hath so often owned by fighting our Battels and in destroying of the proud Enemies of God and his Saints so that the sound of it is gone through the whole World And now I shall trouble you with a word to let you know how it is with me at the present concerning the inner man I do humbly desire to speak to the glory of the Lord 's free Grace that although I am in trouble on every side yet not distressed something perplexed but not in dispair persecuted but not forsaken cast into Prison but not destroyed and therefore blessed be the Lord I faint not for our light affliction which is but for a moment worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of Glory 2 Cor. 4.16 We reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the Glory which shall be revealed Rom. 8.18 and therefore the Lord grant that we may watch and stand fast in the Faith quit our selves like men be strong in his strength and in the power of his might and as Joab said Be of good Courage let us behave ourselves valiantly for our People and for the Cities of our God and let the Lord do that which is good in his sight 1 Chron. 19.13 Sir I hear my time is short and I am in some measure through much mercy ready to be offered up and if I be offered up upon the sacrifice of the Faith of the Lords People I shall joy and much rejoyce Alas you know I am a poor worm and of my self can do nothing but in the strength of the Lord I shall be able to do what the Lord shall be pleased to call me to for he hath promised to lay no more upon me than he will enable me to bear and therefore I do humbly beg your prayers for me and the rest of my suffering Brethren that are in trouble with me here or elsewhere that the Lord would be pleased to stand by us so that we be not ashamed of the Cause of the Lord and his poor People it would have been better we had never made a profession of the Gospel than for to deny any of the Truths of the Lord or the Cause of his People What are our lives in comparison of the Glory of God better ten thousand of us should dye than the Gospel
society of Christian Friends After he was risen from Dinner he looked towards the Window and seeing the people passe by Truly saith he I would not be as those people are that walk at liberty and go where they will I am better where I am and about better work since it is that which my Master meaning Christ hath called me to and counts me worthy to be imployed in nor will it be long ere I receive my wages though I confess I have done little or nothing for it I am sure not in comparison of what I might or ought to have done Ah! the Riches of Grace saith he Ah! the compleat and al-sufficient Righteousness of Jesus Christ Ah! the Satisfaction which he hath made for poor sinners which word Satisfaction he often mentioned Yea and how sweet is that word too where it is said He makes Intercession for us and lives to that end and for ever too Heb. 7.25 It will not be long now ere I know the meaning of these things more fully Had I lived to dye a natural death in all likelihood it would not have been many years being so aged as I am already and then I might have dyed a worse death by far than now I am to undergo for this is an honourable one How great a Mercy is it said a Friend that God hath thus quieted your mind and that he thus chears and warms your heart even while the thoughts of Death are upon it to have the fear of that King of Terrors thus banished from you how singular a favour is it and what an argument of God's Love to you and of his Presence with you It is indeed said he and I hope it is partly in Answer to the Prayers of Friends whom I perceive God hath stirred up to pray much for me and I beseech you saith he let them not cease but still hold me up before the Lord the little space I am yet to abide here And because saith he I know not how soon I shall be called to my Tryal I earnestly desire that some Friends would keep a day with me here in this place if it may be with safety and conveniency if not yet somewhere else which in answer to his desire was done accordingly upon Wednesday April 16. which was the day of his Tryal The next morning being Thursday some of his near Relations and Friends that came to visit him having heard some malicious reports to his prejudice as that he had denyed his Name and not owned himself to be the person that was mentioned in the Act when he was at Westminster at the Kings-Bench Bar earnestly desired him to let them know the truth of things from his own mouth To which he readily answered That he was much mis-understood and wrongfully presented if any said so of him And moreover said That he blessed God he was neither ashamed of his Name nor of his Cause nor of his Master and hoped never should and then related as followeth That his Brethren Col. Barkstead Col. Okey and himself being brought before their Judges were there called all by their names to which they made answer and as they were bid held up their hands Then the Question being put what they had to say for themselves concerning the Fact which they stood there arraigned for and which they were charged with in the Act of Parliament at that time read before them Mr. Corbet answered he did not take himself to be the person named in the said Act for that he did never maliciously wickedly and traiterously imagine contrive or endeavour to murder the late King as was there charged upon him in the said Act and therefore desired them to prove it What! said some on the Bench will you deny your Names now did you not answer to and hold up your hands at those Names To which Col. Okey made answer not understanding Mr. Corbet's drift which was to have a Proof made that they were guilty in manner and form as the Act expresseth it he would never deny his Name for the matter No more will I saith Mr. Corbet neither do I But may there not be more men of my Name saith Mr. Corbet that perhaps may have been guilty of malice against the King though for my own part I never was Then Col. Okey began to perceive his mistake and Col. Barkstead also who being thus rectified Mr. Corbet proceeded and told the Judge It was true they were called by their right Names and did accordingly own them yet saith he it doth not judicially appear to this Court that we are the persons meant in the Act putting an emphasis on the word Judicially No! saith one the Parliament hath adjudged it and you are the men Yet however said some let a Jury be empanelled and then the Atturney General saying that he was ready for a Tryal a Jury was called against which no Exceptions being made Evidences were taken and they found guilty The Judge then asked again what they had now to say why Sentence should not pass Mr. Corbet replyed he humbly conceived the Proceedings of the Court were not regular nor agreeable to former Presidents for according to Law there ought first to be an Indictment an Information and Scire Facias as was in the Case of Sir Walter Rawleigh all which were pre-requisit to an Issue in Law as their Lordships well knew so that here was a Conclusion without Premises Yet if it should please the Judges to over-rule it he was contented carrying himself with much reverence and respect unto the Court. To which either the Atturney General or some other replyed that Mr. Corbet said truth as to ordinary proceedings but here it was extraordinary viz. by Act of Parliament in a Bill of Attainder and then cited a Book-case of one Stafford who was thus proceeded against sentenced and executed in Henry the 7ths time To which Mr. Corbet replyed again he had nothing to say to that but what the Authority of the Nation had made Law he must submit to and did acknowledge as things stood they did proceed according to the Rules given them and in that respect did what was just according to the present Law But did you not confess the Fact saith one by your own flight it being a known Maxime Qui fugam facit fatetur facinus To which Col. Barkstead answered that he for his part fled for fear of an Arrest threatned against him for twenty thousand pounds for pretended false Imprisonment Mr. Corbet said that he for his part did not sly for twelve years together after the Fact done and that any body who had a mind to it might easily have seized him it being well known where he was all that time and when he did fly it was not prohibited nor any way unlawful as conceived for himself or others so to do and now that he was returned again he knew not that he was an out-law'd person and if occasion had been could have been ready to have
Stations and to what God hath called them and so serve God and their Countrey and let them not be afraid And I think it is the honour of good Christians and of good People to be obedient to the Government they are under and to uphold it to the uttermost I have not much more to say If any man hath done me any wrong as I perceived when we came along some peoples tongues were against us I pray God forgive them I desire not to open my mouth against any of those Reproaches we met with Some I perceived did express their love and their love to my soul and I hope God will hear their Prayers And while we are in the Land of the Living I shall desire to do as we have done since his Majesty came unto the Government When we were in Holland we did pray for the King and the Government and desired of the Lord that they might settle Peace in the Nation which if we love our Countrey we ought to rejoyce in and our private interests must give way to it And truly I shall desire even from my very soul that if any man here or elsewhere hath wronged me that the Lord would forgive them And truly the Court of Justice that past their Judgement upon us as the Law stands I think did according to their Places And if we may have liberty in a few words to commend our selves to God I shall trouble you no further And I thank you for your Civility Then Collonel Okey spake a few words as followeth Mr. Sheriff Col. Okey I will not trouble you with any thing that he hath said something of which I thought to speak as to my own Judgement But this I would leave among you that live in the land of the living I have been in most Reformed places where they call themselves Protestants but I must tell you there is a great deal of difference between their Ministers and the Ministers that be in England and so of their Professors And therefore as God hath given you such Ministers as scarce any other Nation hath besides so that you would honour and respect them as also those that are Professors and godly People not such as have a shew only but those that are really such that you would countenance them and honour them for as for Ministers and People that live according to the Word I think there is not such again in the World as are to be found in these Nations I shall add one word further I was as near as I can reckon a Major and Colonel sixteen years in the Army I only speak that because I have a word to say to another thing I do not know whose Ox or whose Ass I took away in that sixteen years time and if I have done any man any wrong I hope and desire they wil forgive me as one that had many failings And whoever hath proceeded against my Life either in England or Holland for there was one who formerly was my Chaplain that did pursue me to the very death where I remained but two nights and was going back again for I had done my business But both him and all others upon the Earth I forgive as freely as I desire the Lord to forgive me I have no malice either to Judge or Jury but desire that the Lord would forgive them as also those in Holland that sent us over contrary to what they did engage to my Friends We will say nothing of them but pray God that our blood may not be laid to their charge nor to the charge of any in England Then Col. Barkstead addressed himself to speak as followeth Colonel Barkstead's Speech Mr. Sheriff I Shall as near as I can observe your order and not willingly do any thing that shall give offence I must confess the weakness of my body is such which hath not been of a day but of a long time that it will not give me liberty to speak much and I have had this advantage that my Brethren have spoken before me and were I to speak at large I must speak over the same things which they have spoken already and I am unwilling to trouble you with that because you said your time was overslipt and therefore I shall only speak to the Cause as it was at first stated and I hope without offence we may say something to that so far as the Acts of Parliament have sealed it up or rather left it open Truly therein I did engage very freely at the beginning of the War for King and Parliament and in the place to which I was chosen I bless the Lord he made me faithfull to those I served as to what hath been since that I shall forbear to speak to only in the general say That before and since I came into this late trouble I have begged of the Lord to give me a sight of all my sins and shew me a Pardon in the blood of Jesus Christ which through free grace and mercy I can say the Lord hath done I could not have stood with so much Comfort as I do now at this time if he had not given me an assurance of the Pardon of all my sins and where he hath spoken Peace there is none can speak War or Trouble I conceive it not proper to give you here an account of my Faith for if I should I should go very little aside from my Brethren that have spoken before me that which hath been my Judgment and my Practice hath been the Congregational way I must own that and do I should much rejoyce to see a spirit answering that great Mercy that the Lord hath given to this Nation I mean that great Mercy that he hath bestowed in giving them the Gospel and that in such a manner as truly we though we have been some hundreds and thousands of miles among the Protestants abroad yet I do not know it to be so pure as it is in this Isle blessed be the Lord and I hope to the Nation of England the Lord will give hearts to walk accordingly And as to the business of the Government of this Nation as it now stands I have prayed for it and can pray for it and shall as long as I have breath pray for it and do from my soul desire that the Lord would bless the King and give him a heart to rule for Him and his Glory and then I am sure the Lord will prosper him Indeed as to those that fear the Lord in the Nation I could wish that the Lord would settle them and make them of one mind but that is the work of the Lord and it must lye there and truly He will do it in his time I must confess I speak the rather to that because there hath formerly been something acted by me towards persons that were not of my Judgment which I have seen since was very hard and I bless God I have seen it and have been sorry for it and
therefore I do desire that all that fear the Lord would make it their work and their business to study to love God and to love one another and to love the Nation wherein they live and to give no disturbance to it For certainly Sir I should leave this as that which the Lord hath setled upon my heart their work is to sit still yea their strength is to sit still for the Lord will do his work in his own time and when he comes to do the work there is none shall hinder I think you have had all experience of it in the late works which the Lord hath done for I must own it his Indeed Sir I am sorry that my weakness of body doth prevent me from speaking more to you yet I do bless God that I have this opportunity All I shall say further is That there is a Truth and I hope I may speak it without offence that is much upon my spirit and I am confident I shall speak it without any offence at all I think we are all here Christians and there is none here I think but saith the Lord's Prayer and sayes Thy Kingdom come Thy Will be done in Earth as it is in Heaven c. and I hope they go through the Prayer and say why they do pray that Prayer also say For thine is the Kingdom the Power and the Glory for ever and ever Amen God hath given the Kingdoms of the Earth to JESUS CHRIST He shall Reign and happy and blessed is that King and Nation that hath Him for their King And certainly for his Majesty that now is to reign under Jesus Christ is no dishonour at all to him For CHRIST doth and shall Rule over all the Kings Princes and Nations in the World And therefore indeed this is that Kingdom that is most certain and that we do desire and all pray that it may come and I do wish that all persons would have a tenderness and not to be at enmity with nor hate nor as much as they can cut the throats of those that own that Kingdom and the coming of that Kingdom As to other things there hath been so much said that I shall forbear speaking only this as to the business of the King I bless God I can say it I was no Actor or Contriver either within or without I was many miles from this place when that was doing I was put in by the Authority that then sat and I was called and chosen to that work and truly what I did I did without any Malice without any Contrivement in the least and did even to the very last pray for him And since his Majesty that now is came to the Throne I have as I have prayed for my own soul prayed for him and that he may reign in Peace and Righteousness to the Glory of God and the good of all the people of the Nation I shall not trouble you with more because I see your time is past and my weakness is such that I am necessitated to break off Then Col. Okey spake further as followeth Mr. Sheriff It is not only our Judgments now but it was our Practice when we were beyond the Seas we did shun any Disputes nay we avoyded occasions of seeing our own Countrymen because we would have nothing to do with the affairs in England but to pray for them and to perswade to be quiet and to sit still so that we may say as Paul did in another case They neither found us in the Temple disputing or wrangling or stirring up the People only our work was to pray for them Then Mr. Corbet said Now we have done speaking to men we may now speak unto our God truly he must help us and give us his own Spirit men may say prayers and reade them but to pray in the Spirit and to pray so as to be accepted with God requireth much strength and assistance from Him Then Mr. Corbet addressed himself to Prayer Mr. Corbet's Prayer O Lord our God our dear and heavenly Father Thou that art the great and mighty God the God of Glory all the Nations of the World are unto thee as the drop of the bucket and as the dust of the ballance O Lord what are we then that are dust and ashes sinful dust and ashes O! look upon us look upon us in our Lord Jesus Christ that great Mediator O we desire to come to thee in the Name of that blessed Mediator we pray thee let us have acceptance through Him O that we might come unto the Throne of Grace through Him and obtain Mercy at thy merciful hand and finde Grace and Help now in this time of need Truly Lord it is a day a day of need for thy poor Worms that stand in thy presence that are despised of men that are condemned of men as not worthy to live in the world O our God thou mayest also justly destroy us and thou mayest justly condemn us and then wo be to us Oh! Forgiveness belongs unto thee Mercies belong unto thee O Lord we acknowledge our Iniquities here in thy presence and in the face of this great People O Lord against thee against thee only have we sinned our Iniquities are gone over our heads they are a mighty burden too heavy for us O Lord we desire especially to bewail our Gospel-sins our walking unworthy of the Gospel our Barrenness under all the means of Grace that we have enjoyed our Unthankfulness for those Glorious Appearances of our God in these dayes in these Nations O we have withheld thy Truth in unrighteousness O we desire to bewail our sins against Love and our sins against Light and our sins against thy Mercies though we have professed the Gospel and the Truths of Jesus Christ yet O Lord where is that Love and that Fruitfulness that should have been found among us O how much dishonour hath thy holy Majestie had from us in all our stations O we desire also to be humbled for our Family-sins and the sins we committed in our stations that thou our God didst call us to O Lord we desire to acknowledge that thou art just and righteous in all thy Chastisements thy great Chastisements that have been upon the Nation and upon us and our Families We desire Lord to humble our selves before thee and to cover our faces with shame here in thy presence and in the presence of this great Assembly Wo unto us for we have sinned against thee But Lord are there not Mercies with thee are there not tender Mercies multitudes of tender Mercies that thou mayest be feared Truly such poor Wretches as we are coming in unto thee have Mercy from thee through Jesus Christ. O these sins of ours and of every one of us and those multitude of sins that thy poor Worm that now speaks is guilty of in thy sight our Lord Jesus Christ he hath born He was made sin for us Now Lord where sin is there is shame and grief and
curse and wrath and death O Lord hath not He born our sins and so likewise our shame and carried our sorrows O Lord what shame was cast upon Him as thy poor Worms are at this day and at this time a shame in the eyes of many present O Lord he was despised and rejected of men O did not He suffer death did not that Righteous one that Holy one suffer death O he dyed for those sins of ours He was cut off from the Land of the Living He poured-out his Soul unto death Nay Lord blessed Father it pleased thee to put Him to grief and he hath born our sins and ô Lord the chastisements of our Peace was laid on Him he was made sin for us Blessed Lord we will lay all our sins upon the head of the scape Goat upon our Lord Jesus Christ Him thou hast given to be a Propitiation O dear Lord in him and through his Blood thou hast found out a way of Atonement for sin and by that one Oblation that he once offered he is able to save to the uttermost all that come unto thee through him Lord we come in the blood of that Mediation we desire to lay hold on the Atonement and Propitiation that he hath offered up unto thee O he hath satisfied thy Justice He that knew no sin he was made sin and thou didst lay our sins upon him and thou hast accepted of that satisfaction that he hath made and thou hast raised him from the dead and set him at thy right hand and though he dyed but once yet by that one Oblation he hath satisfied for all our sins O here is the Blood of God the Lord Jesus Christ which was God and man O that Righteous one he loved us and dyed for us that we might live he bare thy Wrath that we might be reconciled that we might find mercy yea and through him thou art merciful Thou God of Mercy shew Mercy to our souls and to the souls of all those in this great Assembly that is met here and dear Father accept us in his Mediation O 't is our comfort though he dyed but once having satisfied thy Justice thereby he doth ever live to make Intercession for Sinners Lord here is Comfort for poor wretched Sinners the Great Mediator that is so pleasant in thy sight whom thou hearest alwayes O he doth continually live to make Intercession for us we pray thee in and through Him accept these poor Prayers of ours these poor Petitions and Requests of ours which we make known to thee O it is pardoning love we seek O Reconciliation with thee before we go hence and be seen no more O Lord we do believe that thou hast sealed our Pardon that thou art reconciled to us and that there is Peace betwixt thee and our poor souls through that great Peace-maker else it would go ill with us now we are going out of this world O come and sprinkle every one of our souls with that precious Blood O that we that are in our selves vile Wretches may yet stand righteous before thee in his Righteousness O the same Righteousness of Christ which thou hast appointed for thou hast made him to be Righteousness for us and Sanctification and Redemption and He is the Lord our Righteousness O put that Robe upon us that glorious Robe of his Righteousness that we may be presented now not having our own righteousness for that is like a vile filthy Rag a menstruous cloth but cloath us with that Righteousness that we may be presented before thee in and through him without spot and without wrinkle before thy presence through him with exceeding joy O thou hast made him our King O that he would now undertake our Cause the Cause of our poor souls Come Lord Jesus thou King of Saints come tread our Enemies under our feet especially that great Enemy O Lord he hath conquered Satan he hath born our sins and hath condemned sin O he took the likeness of sinful flesh and in his flesh condemned sin in the flesh O that now through his Righteousness we might fulfil thy holy Law He is our Righteousness his obedience we now fly to O dear Lord thou hast set before us as a Refuge to fly unto that blessed hope even those Glorious things the Gospel holds out O the hope of Eternal Life which thou that art the faithful God that canst not lye hast promised unto us O thou hast set this hope of perfect Justification and perfect Sanctification before us O thou hast held it forth this same hope of Righteousness thou hast set it before us and now we fly unto it in this day of our distress to lay hold upon it O thou art pleased Lord that we might have strong consolation thou art pleased to confirm this thy Covenant with an Oath That by two immutable things the Covenant of God and the Oath of God we might have strong Consolation Now we fly to this Covenant through Jesus Christ. O be a God in Covenant with us Father say to us every one that we are thine that thou art in Covenant with us and then say Fear not Worms Else ah Lord God now were we to encounter with Death that King of Terrors what would become of us but O Lord speak Peace to us speak Comfort to us thou God of Comfort O comfort our hearts O Lord it must be done by our dear Lord Jesus Christ himself Our Father hath given us Everlasting Consolation Come and comfort our hearts ô comfort us with thy Love ô Lord ô set thy Banner of Love over us Thou dost not despise the affliction of the afflicted blessed be thy Name We have found thee Lord we bear witness to thee before this great Assembly O thou hast not despised the affliction of the afflicted thou hast seen us in our low estate and been very good to us We have had a Banner of Love over us and we bless thy Name for this very Affliction that thou hast laid upon us O that we could bear witness to thee in the face of this great City and before this great Assembly of thy Goodness and Faithfulness and of thy Mercy which endures for ever O we have tasted of thy Love and it 's good to cleave unto thee Father thou art a Refuge to the Poor and Strength to the Poor and Needy Come and be a Refuge to us in this great Storm truly we are to go through a great Storm before we come unto thee ô that we may finde Death a sweet in-let and a passage into thy blessed Arms through Jesus Christ When our poor souls shall be coming to thee we pray thee give thy Angels charge over us and strengthen us against the fears and terrors of Death O let fresh strength come from Jesus Christ at this present It is not all the Graces we have had will now do us any good unless we have fresh supplies Our fresh springs are in thee Arise O Spring O