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some_o tuneablenesse_n i_o buy_v the_o whole_a book_n of_o psalm_n with_o tune_n in_o four_o part_n and_o i_o bestow_v now_o and_o then_o a_o little_a time_n to_o learn_v the_o note_n of_o the_o tenor_n part_n my_o skill_n be_v very_o small_a but_o yet_o i_o will_v not_o forgo_v it_o for_o a_o great_a gain_n because_o it_o help_v my_o dull_a devotion_n this_o under_o correction_n i_o say_v of_o music_n upon_o a_o holy_a affection_n it_o have_v a_o heavenly_a work_n but_o contrariwise_o contrary_o ¶_o my_o forenoon_n psalm_n to_o the_o tune_n of_o attend_v my_o people_n and_o give_v ear_n o_o ut_fw-la of_o the_o deep_n of_o misery_n o_o bless_a lord_n i_o cry_v to_o thou_o vouchsafe_v for_o thy_o son_n christ_n his_o sake_n to_o hearken_v gracious_o to_o i_o to_o i_o the_o worst_a of_o all_o the_o folk_n which_o here_o upon_o thy_o earth_n do_v dwell_v a_o wretch_n most_o fit_a to_o be_v cut_v off_o and_o cast_v down_o headlong_o into_o hell_n for_o mercy_n lord_n to_o thou_o i_o cry_v 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noon_n prayer_n o_o most_o holy_a most_o good_a and_o gracious_a lord_n god_n i_o the_o most_o unclean_a and_o most_o defile_a wretch_n of_o all_o the_o world_n do_v humble_o beseech_v thy_o most_o bless_a and_o glorious_a majesty_n that_o even_o for_o that_o right_n dear_a love_n which_o be_v between_o thou_o and_o thou_o only_o beget_v sonn_n the_o lord_n jesus_n christ_n god_n and_o man_n crucify_v thou_o will_v vouchsafe_v to_o make_v know_v thy_o wonderful_a grace_n in_o cleanse_v i_o from_o the_o most_o abominable_a defilement_n of_o my_o sin_n to_o this_o end_n i_o humble_o pray_v thou_o to_o make_v i_o always_o very_o mindful_a of_o thy_o presence_n fearful_a of_o thy_o displeasure_n and_o desirous_a of_o thy_o favour_n o_o most_o merciful_a lord_n grant_v i_o this_o mercy_n this_o exceed_a great_a mercy_n and_o then_o do_v unto_o i_o every_o way_n that_o which_o shall_v be_v most_o to_o thy_o own_o good_a pleasure_n and_o to_o thy_o own_o glory_n yea_o bless_a lord_n god_n unto_o thou_o be_v all_o good_a pleasure_n praise_n honour_n worship_n and_o glory_n in_o jesus_n christ_n now_o and_o for_o evermore_o amen_n amen_n ¶_o my_o noon_n psalm_n to_o a_o tune_n which_o in_o cambridge_n be_v call_v mr._n perkins_n tune_n o_o holy_a holy_a holy_a lord_n the_o pure_a of_o all_o thing_n the_o blessefull_a glorious_a majesty_n from_o whence_o all_o goodness_n spring_v look_v down_o from_o thy_o most_o holy_a place_n behold_v good_a lord_n and_o see_v a_o sinful_a woeful_a wretched_a man_n most_o loathsome_a unto_o thou_o most_o foul_a and_o filthy_a be_v my_o sin_n ah_o fie_o upon_o i_o fie_o o_o father_n of_o all_o holiness_n to_o thou_o for_o grace_n i_o cry_v for_o grace_v to_o wash_v and_o make_v i_o clean_o from_o
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