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hand_n of_o thy_o heavenly_a creator_n with_o all_o possible_a cheerfulness_n and_o integrity_n that_o be_v offer_v up_o unto_o he_o all_o that_o he_o have_v give_v thou_o and_o so_o restore_v thy_o whole_a self_n to_o thy_o god_n in_o perpetual_a bondage_n to_o dispose_v of_o thou_o both_o in_o time_n &_o in_o eternity_n as_o he_o best_o please_v neither_o shall_v it_o suffice_v thou_o to_o make_v this_o oblation_n general_o by_o present_v unto_o he_o the_o root_n and_o beginning_n of_o all_o thy_o thought_n word_n and_o work_n but_o thou_o shall_v do_v it_o peculiar_o by_o present_v even_o those_o also_o which_o by_o reason_n of_o thy_o state_n thou_o be_v oblige_v to_o exercise_v to_o the_o honour_n &_o glory_n of_o his_o sacred_a name_n 5._o last_o thou_o shall_v unite_v this_o entire_a oblation_n of_o thyself_o and_o all_o that_o christ_n and_o unite_v all_o to_o the_o merit_n of_o christ_n belong_v to_o thou_o unto_o the_o merit_n of_o jesus_n christ_n the_o sweet_a spouse_n of_o thy_o soul_n that_o from_o thence_o it_o may_v have_v that_o value_n and_o esteem_v which_o from_o itself_o thou_o can_v not_o hope_v or_o expect_v and_o thus_o thou_o shall_v end_v thy_o exercise_n by_o present_v the_o eternal_a father_n with_o thy_o whole_a self_n and_o the_o father_n preâ—â—â—â—ing_v both_o together_o to_o the_o eternal_a father_n holy_a merit_n of_o his_o only_a son_n join_v together_o with_o all_o his_o action_n and_o suffering_n from_o the_o crib_n unto_o the_o cross_n for_o all_o these_o be_v thy_o treasure_n which_o he_o at_o his_o death_n bequeath_v by_o his_o last_o will_n and_o testament_n unto_o thou_o who_o he_o leave_v entitle_v to_o all_o his_o merit_n but_o remember_v that_o thou_o make_v not_o this_o oblation_n for_o thyself_o alone_o but_o also_o for_o the_o universal_a church_n and_o her_o member_n for_o thus_o it_o will_v be_v far_o more_o acceptable_a to_o god_n be_v sweeten_v with_o the_o incense_n of_o perfect_a charity_n 6._o in_o like_a 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victory_n into_o your_o own_o peaceful_a conscience_n and_o keep_v there_o a_o delicious_a 13_o call_v by_o isay_n sabbatum_fw-la delicatum_fw-la esa_n 58._o 13_o sabbath_n of_o repose_n in_o the_o happy_a enjoyment_n of_o unspeakable_a delight_n the_o seven_o chief_a ambush_n of_o our_o enemy_n 1._o self-love_n which_o be_v the_o root_n of_o all_o sin_n and_o cause_n of_o all_o inproficiency_n in_o the_o way_n of_o perfection_n 2._o few_o be_v find_v free_a from_o it_o 3._o to_o avoid_v this_o snare_n we_o must_v seek_v god_n honour_n in_o all_o our_o action_n 4._o to_o self-love_n belong_v unmortified_a sensuality_n which_o must_v be_v tame_v by_o cut_v off_o superfluity_n 5._o to_o the_o same_o pertain_v pride_n self-conceit_n etc._n etc._n which_o must_v be_v remedy_v by_o the_o practice_n of_o humility_n 6._o also_o the_o passion_n of_o our_o inferior_a nature_n love_n hatred_n etc._n etc._n to_o which_o we_o must_v oppose_v peace_n of_o heart_n 7._o last_o the_o adhere_n to_o 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on_o christ_n crucify_v 4._o bitterness_n of_o heart_n sadness_n frowardness_n etc._n etc._n 2._o all_o which_o proceed_v either_o from_o nature_n indiscretion_n thoughtfulnesse_n presumption_n or_o immortification_n 3._o and_o must_v be_v sweeten_v with_o charity_n 4._o to_o this_o belong_v a_o certain_a grudge_n at_o god_n providence_n which_o must_v be_v avoid_v by_o a_o cordial_a resignation_n 5._o scrupulosity_n inward_a affliction_n fearfulness_n etc._n etc._n 1._o which_o aim_n at_o the_o destruction_n of_o our_o faith_n and_o confidence_n in_o god_n 2._o to_o avoid_v this_o we_o must_v rely_v upon_o god_n and_o our_o guide_n 3._o and_o assure_v ourselves_o that_o we_o can_v err_v in_o confidence_n if_o we_o fall_v not_o into_o negligence_n 6._o excessive_a and_o unnecessary_a study_n 1._o which_o busy_v the_o understanding_n but_o leave_v the_o will_n barren_a 2._o puff_v we_o up_o with_o vanity_n but_o leave_v we_o empty_a of_o true_a piety_n 3._o the_o remedy_n be_v to_o rectify_v our_o intention_n in_o our_o study_n 7._o tepidity_n and_o coldness_n in_o devotion_n 1._o which_o be_v the_o bane_n of_o all_o spirituality_n we_o must_v always_o go_v forward_o towards_o perfection_n with_o perseverance_n and_o excite_v our_o sluggishness_n with_o frequent_a aspiration_n 2._o a_o excellent_a document_n of_o saint_n anthony_n latet_fw-la hostess_fw-la et_fw-la otia_fw-la ducis_fw-la the_o first_o ambush_n self-love_n 1._o this_o in_o s._n augustine_n opinion_n be_v the_o root_n of_o perfection_n self-love_n be_v the_o root_n of_o all_o sin_n and_o cause_n of_o all_o inproficiency_n in_o the_o way_n of_o perfection_n all_o sin_n and_o we_o may_v fit_o add_v and_o avouch_v it_o to_o be_v the_o cause_n of_o all_o inproficiency_n in_o the_o way_n of_o perfection_n for_o our_o subtle_a nature_n so_o constant_o seek_v herself_o in_o all_o her_o action_n and_o omission_n that_o even_o the_o spiritual_a man_n who_o tread_v in_o the_o pleasant_a path_n of_o piety_n be_v subject_a to_o be_v draw_v into_o this_o dangerous_a ambush_n he_o will_v find_v upon_o due_a examination_n some_o sinister_a and_o self-intention_n con._n read_v the_o second_o ch_z of_o the_o spir._n con._n creep_v in_o and_o corrupt_v his_o sincere_a endeavour_n and_o perceive_v unless_o high_o illuminate_v that_o there_o be_v more_o of_o private_a commodity_n than_o pure_a and_o perfect_a charity_n in_o his_o most_o transcendent_a and_o heroic_a exercise_n 2._o who_o be_v not_o general_o more_o diligent_a in_o the_o performance_n of_o his_o it_o few_o be_v find_v free_a from_o it_o duty_n for_o the_o fear_n of_o hell_n and_o hope_v of_o heaven_n than_o for_o the_o sole_a and_o substantial_a love_n of_o his_o creator_n who_o have_v not_o rather_o some_o small_a clause_n and_o secret_a condition_n of_o self-interest_n in_o his_o action_n than_o the_o only_a fulfil_n of_o god_n holy_a will_n and_o the_o follow_v of_o his_o divine_a inspiration_n who_o shall_v we_o find_v though_o never_o so_o great_a pretender_n to_o perfection_n so_o total_o untangle_v from_o this_o net_n of_o self-love_n that_o they_o neither_o hover_v after_o humane_a respect_n and_o praise_n nor_o look_v upon_o reward_n or_o punishment_n nor_o overvalue_v their_o own_o way_n and_o exercise_n nor_o solace_n themselves_o with_o the_o sweet_n of_o sensible_a devotion_n nor_o please_v themselves_o with_o their_o high-towring_a contemplation_n and_o rapture_n into_o god_n immediate_a perfection_n nor_o final_o dress_v up_o devotion_n by_o the_o pattern_n of_o their_o own_o passion_n and_o so_o fall_v in_o love_n with_o their_o own_o conception_n and_o make_v to_o themselves_o in_o bethel_n golden_a calf_n in_o stead_n of_o 8._o 3._o reg._n 13._o 8._o the_o cherubin_n in_o jerusalem_n who_o will_n be_v so_o true_o devest_v from_o all_o propriety_n as_o to_o remain_v untouched_a unmoved_a undisquiet_v resolute_a and_o resign_v in_o all_o temporal_a chance_n and_o change_n and_o in_o all_o spiritual_a dryness_n desolation_n dereliction_n and_o affliction_n whatsoever_o 3._o to_o avoid_v this_o pernicious_a snare_n action_n to_o avoid_v this_o snare_n we_o must_v seek_v god_n honour_n in_o our_o action_n we_o must_v strive_v to_o level_v all_o our_o action_n at_o god_n pure_a honour_n and_o pleasure_n as_o the_o only_a end_n we_o aim_n at_o the_o only_a object_n of_o our_o love_n life_n and_o labour_n in_o who_o only_o and_o not_o in_o the_o best_a of_o his_o creature_n be_v find_v true_a quiet_a and_o content_a 4._o unmortified_a sensuality_n be_v the_o sensuality_n to_o self-love_n belong_v unmortified_a sensuality_n dear_a darling_n of_o self-love_n this_o propose_v nothing_o but_o pleasure_n and_o pastime_n to_o our_o seduce_a appetite_n roaming_n abroad_o to_o our_o affection_n make_v we_o sedulous_a to_o satisfy_v our_o fancy_n covetous_a to_o content_v our_o curiosity_n to_o hearken_v after_o vanity_n to_o arraignment_n read_v the_o 7._o ch_z of_o the_o arraignment_n glut_v our_o gust_n with_o dainty_n and_o to_o evaporate_v our_o precious_a time_n and_o talent_n in_o extravagant_a adhesion_n to_o creature_n what_o hope_n alas_o of_o internal_a repose_n and_o recollection_n where_o such_o tumult_n and_o trouble_n prepossess_v the_o spirit_n what_o place_n remain_v for_o the_o holy_a entertainment_n of_o heavenly_a love_n when_o such_o affection_n have_v fill_v up_o each_o corner_n of_o the_o heart_n wherefore_o a_o soul_n that_o seek_v god_n superfluity_n which_o must_v be_v tame_v by_o cut_v off_o superfluity_n must_v scorn_v to_o rest_v in_o these_o seem_a good_n she_o mâ—st_v banish_v all_o superfluity_n and_o be_v content_a with_o the_o mere_a supply_n of_o her_o necessity_n she_o must_v admit_v of_o no_o excess_n in_o meat_n drink_n sleep_n attire_z talk_z or_o other_o solace_n whatsoever_o if_o she_o real_o intend_v to_o make_v the_o body_n pliable_a to_o the_o spirit_n and_o the_o spirit_n proper_a to_o tend_v to_o perfection_n 5._o pride_n presumption_n vanity_n self-esteem_a self-complacency_a self-content_a etc._n to_o the_o same_o belong_v pride_n self-conceit_a etc._n etc._n self-praise_n self-seeking_a self-delight_n with_o all_o the_o rest_n of_o like_a nature_n be_v but_o several_a nooze_n of_o the_o same_o net_n and_o sprout_n out_o of_o the_o same_o main_a root_n self-love_n and_o whosoever_o hope_n for_o honour_n praise_n preferment_n or_o profit_n from_o other_o for_o any_o good_n of_o nature_n gift_n of_o grace_n or_o prerogative_n of_o virtue_n be_v fall_v into_o this_o snare_n of_o the_o devil_n rob_v god_n of_o his_o proper_a due_n be_v rot_v at_o the_o heart_n and_o have_v already_o receive_v his_o full_a reward_n the_o remedy_n of_o all_o this_o o_o dear_a humility_n which_o must_v be_v remedy_v by_o the_o practice_n of_o humility_n soul_n be_v unfeigned_a humility_n cast_v one_o glance_n of_o your_o soul_n eye_v upward_o upon_o your_o creator_n might_n and_o mercy_n all_o your_o 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thy_o crucify_a jesus_n this_o be_v not_o he_o but_o his_o gift_n o_o my_o lord_n it_o be_v thyself_o i_o seek_v and_o sigh_v after_o if_o thou_o send_v i_o comfort_n for_o the_o encouragement_n of_o my_o weakness_n be_v thou_o ever_o praise_v for_o thou_o do_v like_o a_o most_o benign_a and_o bountiful_a god_n if_o thou_o withdrawe_v they_o still_o bless_v be_v thy_o providence_n which_o have_v secret_a and_o several_a way_n of_o conduct_a soul_n to_o thyself_o and_o if_o thou_o will_v make_v trial_n of_o my_o fidelity_n by_o permit_v i_o to_o be_v dull_a dry_a and_o desolate_a in_o my_o devotion_n be_v thou_o equal_o and_o eternal_o bless_v i_o renounce_v all_o scrupulosity_n of_o conscience_n which_o reflect_v any_o way_n upon_o the_o least_o diffidence_n or_o distrust_n in_o thy_o mercy_n i_o be_o a_o sinner_n o_o jesus_n but_o thou_o be_v a_o saviour_n i_o have_v great_a reason_n to_o dread_v thy_o justice_n but_o great_a to_o hope_v in_o thy_o goodness_n heaven_n and_o earth_n shall_v soon_o fail_v than_o my_o confidence_n in_o thou_o my_o merciful_a maker_n if_o thou_o kill_v i_o i_o will_v trust_v in_o thou_o and_o if_o i_o have_v former_o hate_v thou_o and_o betray_v thou_o as_o judas_n do_v i_o will_v now_o with_o penitent_a magdalen_n run_v to_o thy_o bless_a foot_n weep_v and_o bemoan_v my_o misery_n and_o hope_v to_o obtain_v thy_o mercy_n and_o final_o o_o my_o lord_n i_o absolute_o entire_o and_o irrevocable_o renounce_v my_o whole_a will_n in_o all_o thing_n and_o total_o resign_v whatsoever_o any_o way_n concern_v i_o to_o thy_o holy_a will_n and_o pleasure_n i_o offer_v up_o unto_o thou_o the_o full_a sacrifice_n both_o principal_a and_o accessory_n of_o all_o that_o by_o thy_o gift_n and_o grace_n i_o be_o have_v and_o can_v myself_o good_n grace_n body_n soul_n sense_n heart_n will_n all_o i_o leave_v no_o right_a or_o title_n to_o any_o selfness_n in_o any_o thing_n whatsoever_o i_o be_o no_o more_o myself_o but_o thy_o slave_n o_o lord_n not_o my_o will_n but_o thou_o be_v do_v for_o time_n and_o eternity_n o_o let_v i_o will_v what_o thou_o will_v or_o not_o will_n at_o all_o let_v all_o my_o desire_n be_v involuntary_a if_o they_o swerve_v never_o so_o little_a from_o thy_o divine_a pleasure_n die_v self-will_n live_v jesus_n my_o lord_n my_o love_n my_o all_o for_o saturday_o of_o conformity_n to_o christ_n crucify_a the_o six_o exercise_n 1._o crucify_a jesu_n thou_o only_a lord_n of_o my_o life_n life_n of_o my_o love_n and_o love_n of_o my_o soul_n o_o that_o i_o can_v reform_v my_o life_n deiform_a my_o love_n and_o conform_v my_o soul_n to_o thou_o the_o absolute_a pattern_n of_o all_o perfection_n o_o that_o i_o can_v imprint_v thy_o lively_a and_o lovely_a image_n in_o my_o heart_n fasten_v all_o my_o affection_n and_o imperfection_n to_o thy_o sacred_a cross_n drown_v all_o my_o desire_n and_o defect_n in_o thy_o dear_a wound_n put_v off_o myself_o total_o and_o put_v thou_o on_o entire_o o_o sacred_a humanity_n o_o my_o suffer_a saviour_n o_o that_o i_o can_v perfect_o imitate_v thou_o the_o pure_a exemplar_n of_o all_o virtue_n that_o i_o can_v give_v up_o my_o whole_a self_n to_o thou_o by_o a_o act_n of_o irrevocable_a donation_n as_o thou_o demand_v and_o command_v but_o alas_o i_o be_o yet_o o_o my_o jesus_n all_o self-love_n sin_n and_o sensuality_n i_o acknowledge_v o_o my_o lord_n what_o i_o have_v and_o what_o i_o want_v i_o know_v what_o i_o desire_v and_o what_o i_o deserve_v i_o confess_v i_o be_o wound_v i_o be_o wicked_a i_o be_o wretched_a and_o i_o tremble_o come_v to_o thou_o my_o heavenly_a physician_n to_o be_v cure_v convert_v comfort_v o_o sweet_a saviour_n for_o thy_o mercy_n sake_n and_o for_o thy_o passion_n sake_n forget_v and_o forgive_v what_o i_o have_v be_v pity_v what_o i_o be_o satisfy_v for_o what_o i_o deserve_v and_o supply_v what_o i_o desire_v 2._o behold_v most_o merciful_a jesu_n i_o first_o cast_v myself_o at_o thy_o sacred_a foot_n pierce_v and_o fasten_v to_o the_o cruel_a cross_n for_o my_o transgression_n pierce_v my_o flesh_n o_o my_o lord_n with_o thy_o fear_n and_o fasten_v my_o soul_n to_o thy_o love_n o_o let_v not_o pride_n and_o presumption_n nestle_v any_o long_o in_o that_o heart_n which_o thou_o o_o meek_a saviour_n love_v so_o tender_o and_o redeem_v at_o so_o dear_a a_o rate_n o_o my_o vain_a glory_n and_o arrogancy_n what_o have_v i_o to_o do_v with_o you_o how_o much_o do_v i_o now_o detest_v you_o wash_v off_o these_o stain_n o_o jesu_n from_o my_o poor_a soul_n in_o these_o sweet_a stream_n flow_v from_o thy_o wound_a foot_n o_o drown_v these_o my_o imperfection_n in_o these_o sacred_a sea_n of_o piety_n give_v i_o o_o gracious_a lord_n such_o true_a humility_n of_o spirit_n that_o i_o may_v
abstraction_n introversion_n annihilation_n this_o be_v to_o begin_v your_o heaven_n upon_o earth_n and_o to_o fortast_n that_o endless_a felicity_n in_o which_o your_o faith_n shall_v be_v turn_v into_o clear_a vision_n your_o hope_n change_v into_o full_a possession_n and_o your_o charity_n knit_v to_o her_o belove_a centre_n and_o perfection_n where_o you_o shall_v praise_n god_n incessant_o love_v he_o entire_o and_o enjoy_v he_o eternal_o the_o table_n of_o the_o maxim_n 1._o that_o our_o end_n be_v perfection_n and_o divine_a union_n and_o that_o prayer_n be_v the_o way_n to_o it_o 2._o that_o beginner_n may_v profitable_o make_v use_n of_o the_o follow_a exercise_n of_o mental_a prayer_n and_o introversion_n until_o they_o obtain_v great_a light_n and_o more_o experience_n in_o the_o way_n of_o the_o spirit_n 3._o that_o of_o all_o internal_a prayer_n the_o affective_a be_v most_o noble_a necessary_a and_o profitable_a 4._o that_o meditation_n be_v a_o seek_v contemplation_n a_o see_v of_o god_n 5._o that_o continual_a recollection_n be_v the_o exercise_n of_o exercise_n and_o the_o immediate_a way_n to_o bring_v we_o to_o perfection_n and_o divine_a union_n the_o practice_n of_o this_o exercise_n be_v declare_v in_o ten_o canon_n 1._o that_o all_o place_n be_v proper_a for_o recollection_n but_o the_o more_o quiet_a the_o more_o proper_a 2._o that_o to_o pray_v on_o our_o knee_n be_v a_o posture_n most_o please_v to_o god_n 3._o that_o we_o must_v especial_o at_o first_o prefix_v to_o ourselves_o certain_a and_o set_v time_n of_o recollection_n 4._o that_o we_o must_v frame_v a_o act_n of_o pure_a intention_n at_o our_o entrance_n into_o recollection_n 5._o that_o we_o must_v brief_o examine_v our_o conscience_n and_o produce_v act_n of_o contrition_n self-confusion_n humility_n and_o resolution_n of_o amendment_n 6._o that_o we_o must_v also_o make_v a_o act_n of_o perfect_a resignation_n before_o we_o fall_v upon_o this_o exercise_n 7._o that_o we_o must_v bring_v with_o we_o some_o theme_n subject_n or_o groundwork_n of_o our_o prayer_n and_o recollection_n 8._o that_o we_o must_v look_v on_o god_n by_o faith_n and_o leave_v off_o all_o discourse_n 9_o that_o we_o must_v carry_v god_n with_o we_o from_o our_o prayer_n 10._o that_o we_o must_v put_v on_o christ_n and_o imitate_v his_o example_n in_o all_o our_o action_n 6._o that_o for_o this_o pure_a perfect_a and_o transcendent_a prayer_n no_o certain_a rule_n can_v be_v prescribe_v 7._o that_o the_o contemplative_a must_v be_v very_o observant_a of_o the_o divine_a visit_n light_n and_o call_v 8._o that_o the_o only_a way_n to_o get_v true_a peace_n of_o mind_n be_v to_o be_v total_o resign_v to_o god_n 9_o that_o a_o contemplative_a soul_n must_v lay_v a_o solid_a groundwork_n to_o serve_v she_o in_o time_n of_o desolation_n 10._o that_o in_o this_o high_a exercise_n of_o recollection_n the_o three_o theological_a virtue_n faith_n hope_n and_o charity_n must_v perfect_v and_o possess_v the_o three_o power_n of_o our_o soul_n understanding_n memory_n and_o will._n 11._o that_o our_o understanding_n must_v be_v settle_v in_o pure_a faith_n 12._o that_o our_o memory_n must_v be_v settle_v in_o pure_a hope_n 13._o that_o our_o will_n must_v be_v settle_v in_o pure_a charity_n 14._o that_o this_o exercise_n of_o recollection_n and_o annihilation_n be_v the_o short_a &_o secure_a way_n to_o divine_a union_n 15._o that_o all_o sort_n of_o people_n may_v safe_o addict_v themselves_o to_o this_o holy_a exercise_n of_o recollection_n 16._o that_o outward_a observance_n be_v help_n in_o the_o practice_n of_o this_o exercise_n 17._o that_o prayer_n for_o other_o be_v best_a practise_v by_o a_o general_a intention_n 18._o that_o all_o virtue_n be_v best_a practise_v by_o addict_v ourselves_o to_o contemplation_n or_o this_o internal_a exercise_n of_o recollection_n some_o example_n for_o the_o practice_n of_o this_o divine_a way_n of_o prayer_n some_o further_a advice_n for_o the_o same_o practice_n of_o this_o pure_a prayer_n 19_o that_o corporal_a austerity_n must_v be_v always_o subject_a to_o obedience_n 20._o that_o contemplative_n must_v always_o have_v the_o seven_o verity_n which_o concern_v the_o divine_a nature_n whereupon_o all_o contemplation_n be_v ground_v either_o habitual_o or_o formal_o in_o their_o memory_n 21._o that_o jâ—culâ—tory_a prayer_n be_v the_o near_a disposition_n to_o contemplation_n 22._o that_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n be_v the_o great_a exâ—rcisâ—_n of_o contemplative_n and_o the_o short_a way_n to_o divine_a union_n a_o more_o sublime_a way_n to_o practice_v the_o presence_n of_o god_n 23._o that_o humiliation_n be_v a_o relic_n of_o god_n love_n 24._o that_o humility_n be_v the_o solid_a groundwork_n of_o all_o spirituality_n 25._o that_o silence_n and_o solitude_n be_v our_o heaven_n upon_o earth_n 26._o that_o the_o perfect_a love_n of_o god_n and_o hatred_n of_o ourselves_o must_v be_v our_o constant_a and_o continual_a employment_n 27._o that_o confidence_n in_o god_n goodness_n be_v the_o main_a support_n of_o our_o spiritual_a edifice_n 28._o that_o the_o measure_n of_o our_o progress_n in_o perfection_n be_v the_o conformity_n of_o our_o will_n to_o the_o divine_a will_n 29._o that_o vnquietness_n of_o mind_n be_v the_o bane_n of_o devotion_n and_o curse_v of_o contemplation_n 30._o that_o cross_n be_v to_o be_v suffer_v not_o seek_v to_o be_v take_v not_o make_v to_o be_v conceal_v not_o complain_v of_o 31._o that_o temptation_n can_v hurt_v we_o if_o we_o cast_v our_o whole_a care_n upon_o god_n 32._o that_o desolation_n dereliction_n affliction_n distraction_n be_v to_o be_v transcend_v by_o generous_a resolution_n 33._o that_o perfection_n consist_v in_o put_v off_o all_o propriety_n and_o put_v on_o pure_a and_o naked_a charity_n 34._o that_o zeal_n and_o eagerness_n must_v be_v temper_v with_o moderation_n and_o discretion_n 35._o that_o we_o must_v never_o rely_v upon_o our_o own_o natural_a judgement_n experience_n and_o knowledge_n 36._o that_o we_o must_v seek_v no_o comfort_n in_o any_o creature_n 37._o that_o we_o must_v walk_v and_o persevere_v in_o these_o our_o spiritual_a exercise_n with_o the_o two_o foot_n of_o faith_n and_o obedience_n under_o this_o maxim_n be_v solve_v many_o material_a doubt_n arise_v in_o our_o daily_a progress_n to_o perfection_n the_o first_o doubt_n if_o we_o fear_v that_o god_n will_v forsake_v we_o by_o reason_n of_o our_o ingratitude_n and_o disloyalty_n 2._o if_o our_o sin_n trouble_v we_o in_o respect_n of_o confession_n and_o satisfaction_n 3._o if_o we_o can_v neither_o pray_v with_o fervour_n nor_o suffer_v with_o patience_n neither_o feel_v god_n present_a nor_o be_v content_a in_o his_o absence_n 4._o if_o we_o be_v doubtful_a that_o god_n be_v angry_a with_o we_o that_o we_o want_v grace_n that_o we_o only_o seek_v ourselves_o that_o we_o yield_v to_o all_o temptation_n etc._n etc._n 5._o if_o our_o conscience_n be_v unquiet_a and_o our_o soul_n fearful_a by_o reason_n of_o our_o proness_n to_o sin_n etc._n etc._n 6._o if_o we_o be_v full_a of_o fear_n and_o apprehension_n of_o our_o estate_n by_o reason_n we_o feel_v in_o our_o soul_n such_o slender_a effect_n of_o god_n grace_n and_o love_n and_o have_v little_a devotion_n no_o inward_a peace_n etc._n etc._n 7._o if_o some_o extreme_a cross_n calamity_n or_o affliction_n have_v seize_v our_o heart_n etc._n etc._n 8._o if_o we_o desire_v to_o conquer_v the_o devil_n and_o overcome_v all_o temptation_n whatsoever_o 9_o if_o we_o want_v comfort_n in_o long_a and_o dangerous_a temptation_n and_o trouble_n 10._o if_o we_o wonder_v that_o god_n will_v have_v we_o suffer_v temptation_n since_o our_o frailty_n be_v subject_a to_o yield_v and_o so_o offend_v his_o divine_a majesty_n 11._o if_o we_o be_v solicit_v by_o our_o enemy_n to_o unchastness_n 12._o if_o we_o be_v in_o extraordinary_a desolation_n and_o darkness_n 13._o if_o we_o be_v tempt_v to_o despair_v of_o god_n mercy_n by_o reason_n of_o our_o frequent_a fall_n and_o relapse_n into_o sin_n 14._o if_o we_o be_v perplex_v with_o great_a sadness_n etc._n etc._n other_o remedy_n against_o sadness_n another_o antidote_n against_o melancholy_a and_o pusillanimity_n 15._o if_o we_o suspect_v that_o our_o sadness_n and_o temptation_n proceed_v from_o our_o own_o fault_n or_o negligence_n or_o some_o secret_a sin_n or_o our_o want_n of_o correspondency_n with_o god_n grace_n etc._n etc._n 16._o if_o we_o doubt_v that_o god_n be_v displease_v with_o our_o prayer_n that_o our_o affliction_n befall_v we_o through_o our_o own_o occasion_n and_o can_v satisfy_v ourselves_o to_o think_v we_o have_v do_v what_o god_n require_v 17._o if_o nature_n have_v show_v herself_o a_o stepmother_n unto_o we_o in_o give_v we_o a_o hard_a and_o harsh_a disposition_n whence_o proceed_v a_o reluctancy_n to_o work_n of_o virtue_n and_o mortification_n of_o vice_n so_o that_o we_o distrust_v of_o ever_o overcome_v
remember_v what_o i_o be_o after_o so_o many_o signal_n benefit_n on_o thy_o part_n and_o serious_a promise_n on_o i_o i_o be_o ashamed_a to_o think_v what_o i_o deserve_v i_o be_o afraid_a to_o call_v to_o mind_n what_o i_o desire_v i_o be_o ignorant_a how_o to_o ask_v lord_n for_o thy_o mercy_n sake_n for_o thy_o mother_n sake_n by_o thy_o bowel_n of_o mercy_n and_o her_o breast_n of_o meekness_n by_o all_o that_o thou_o have_v suffer_v for_o i_o and_o she_o for_o thou_o by_o all_o that_o be_v dear_a to_o thou_o in_o heaven_n and_o earth_n forget_v and_o forgive_v what_o i_o have_v be_v my_o past_a folly_n and_o wickedness_n pity_v and_o protect_v what_o i_o be_o my_o present_a frailty_n and_o weakness_n be_v satisfy_v for_o what_o i_o deserve_v supply_v what_o i_o desire_v and_o be_v mindful_a of_o i_o in_o life_n and_o death_n how_o much_o o_o my_o god_n do_v i_o wish_v to_o leave_v all_o and_o lose_v myself_o to_o find_v thou_o to_o humble_a myself_o to_o please_v thou_o and_o to_o hate_v myself_o to_o love_v thou_o but_o these_o hard_a and_o high_a matter_n i_o dare_v scarce_o promise_n how_o then_o and_o when_o shall_v i_o practice_v they_o yet_o without_o thou_o o_o sacred_a humility_n there_o be_v no_o solid_a centre_n to_o rest_v in_o no_o true_a sweetness_n to_o take_v gust_n in_o therefore_o o_o my_o god_n i_o come_v to_o thy_o school_n to_o learn_v this_o necessary_a lesson_n teach_v i_o touch_v i_o wound_v i_o and_o win_v i_o unto_o thou_o 3._o pure_a intention_n to_o please_v and_o praise_n god_n only_o to_o be_v all_o his_o ever_o he_o in_o what_o manner_n and_o measure_n he_o best_a like_v both_o in_o this_o prayer_n and_o all_o thing_n whatsoever_o behold_v therefore_o o_o my_o lord_n how_o out_o of_o pure_a obedience_n to_o thy_o will_n intention_n 3._o pure_a intention_n and_o confidence_n in_o thy_o mercy_n i_o now_o approach_v to_o please_v and_o praise_v thou_o not_o to_o receive_v great_a matter_n from_o thou_o for_o i_o be_o unworthy_a nor_o to_o conceive_v great_a matter_n of_o thou_o for_o i_o be_o uncapable_a but_o to_o leave_v all_o for_o thou_o to_o be_v humble_a of_o heart_n beyond_o all_o and_o to_o love_v thou_o more_o than_o all_o this_o be_v both_o conform_a to_o my_o condition_n and_o obligation_n i_o come_v to_o prayer_n o_o my_o only_a lord_n and_o love_n not_o to_o have_v much_o but_o to_o give_v up_o all_o to_o be_v thou_o all_o thou_o ever_o thou_o in_o life_n and_o death_n for_o time_n and_o eternity_n as_o thou_o best_o please_v i_o come_v o_o my_o centre_n and_o sweetness_n to_o seek_v thou_o and_o sigh_v after_o thou_o yet_o i_o be_o content_a neither_o to_o find_v thou_o nor_o feel_v thou_o but_o only_o to_o see_v thou_o by_o faith_n and_o to_o suffer_v for_o thou_o with_o fidelity_n i_o be_o satisfy_v and_o content_a that_o thou_o be_v so_o good_a great_a glorious_a rich_a and_o happy_a in_o thyself_o and_o i_o be_o confident_a that_o thou_o in_o thy_o good_a time_n will_v make_v i_o rich_a in_o thy_o mercy_n and_o happy_a in_o thy_o love_n for_o in_o this_o pilgrimage_n i_o desire_v no_o other_o happiness_n than_o true_a humility_n nor_o great_a riches_n than_o naked_a charity_n the_o second_o part_n be_v consideration_n show_v these_o three_o thing_n first_o to_o ourselves_o and_o then_o to_o our_o god_n as_o his_o poor_a beggar_n 1._o our_o wound_n both_o internal_a and_o external_a to_o wit_n our_o sin_n ingratitude_n daily_a fayling_n strong_a passion_n etc._n etc._n ah_o my_o sick_a and_o sinful_a soul_n how_o wound_n 2._o part._n 1._o our_o wound_n weak_a and_o wound_v be_v we_o in_o every_o degree_n in_o all_o part_n in_o each_o member_n of_o body_n and_o faculty_n of_o mind_n 1._o all_o be_v out_o of_o order_n all_o be_v pride_n and_o self-love_n how_o impenitent_a be_v we_o in_o sorrow_v how_o impatient_a in_o suffer_v how_o unconstant_a in_o persevere_v and_o yet_o how_o importune_a in_o sin_v 2._o my_o understanding_n be_v blind_a to_o good_a clear-sighted_a to_o evil_n my_o will_n be_v perverse_a peevish_a cold_a sensual_a my_o memory_n be_v weak_a full_a of_o idle_a image_n subject_a to_o distraction_n 3._o my_o affection_n be_v vain_a my_o passion_n violent_a my_o inclination_n vicious_a 4._o my_o faith_n be_v little_a my_o hope_n less_o my_o charity_n lest_o of_o all_o 5._o so_o forward_o to_o extroversion_n and_o dissolution_n so_o backward_o to_o introversion_n and_o compunction_n so_o full_a of_o imperfection_n and_o immortification_n 6._o so_o little_a confidence_n in_o thy_o mercy_n so_o little_a patience_n in_o my_o misery_n and_o almost_o no_o performance_n of_o mâ—_n good_a purpose_n 7._o so_o curious_a tâ—_n censure_v other_o so_o careless_a to_o keep_v mâ—self_n and_o curb_v my_o own_o sense_n final_o all_o be_v self-love_n self-will_n self-conceit_n self-seeking_a pride_n propriety_n partiality_n which_o be_v my_o daily_a and_o dangerous_a disease_n o_o father_n of_o mercy_n and_o only_a physician_n of_o my_o soul_n thou_o be_v almighty_a and_o all-bounty_n these_o be_v my_o wound_n and_o impurity_n and_o if_o thou_o will_v thou_o can_v both_o cure_v and_o cleanse_v i_o and_o if_o thou_o will_v not_o i_o will_v remain_v content_a as_o i_o be_o i_o be_o willing_a to_o continue_v weak_a so_o i_o be_v not_o wicked_a to_o be_v weary_v and_o wound_v so_o i_o be_v not_o utter_o tire_v over-turned_n defeat_v and_o lose_v the_o victory_n cut_v kill_v crucify_v o_o lord_n only_o spare_v i_o for_o eternity_n 2._o our_o want_n for_o we_o be_v not_o only_o needy_a but_o naked_a not_o only_o poor_a but_o beggar_n who_o neither_o know_v how_o to_o deserve_v a_o alm_n nor_o how_o to_o desire_v it_o o_o my_o poor_a soul_n what_o do_v we_o want_n 2._o our_o want_n want_v nay_o what_o do_v we_o not_o want_v 1._o true_a light_n true_a liberty_n true_a love_n true_a life_n 2._o a_o settle_a attention_n a_o simple_a intention_n a_o serious_a introversion_n a_o sincere_a conversion_n 3._o humility_n of_o heart_n conformity_n of_o will_n purity_n of_o soul_n indifferency_n of_o spirit_n 4._o wisdom_n to_o know_v god_n will_v strength_n to_o execute_v it_o patience_n to_o persevere_v in_o it_o 5._o resolution_n to_o suffer_v for_o our_o saviour_n devotion_n to_o sigh_v after_o he_o diligence_n to_o find_v he_o constancy_n to_o remain_v with_o he_o 6._o courage_n to_o endure_v all_o faith_n to_o forgo_v all_o hope_v to_o expect_v all_o charity_n to_o give_v all_o and_o confidence_n to_o gain_v all_o final_o we_o want_v all_o we_o shall_v have_v yet_o our_o love_a lord_n be_v ready_a to_o bestow_v on_o we_o all_o that_o he_o have_v o_o my_o god_n and_o all_o thou_o be_v all_o that_o i_o want_v give_v i_o thyself_o and_o all_o my_o want_n and_o wish_n will_v be_v at_o a_o end_n thou_o be_v all_o my_o safety_n and_o my_o only_a security_n all_o my_o refuge_n and_o my_o only_a centre_n until_o i_o can_v return_v unto_o thou_o or_o whole_o turn_v into_o thou_o let_v thy_o cross_n be_v my_o purgatory_n and_o thy_o will_n be_v my_o paradise_n for_o other_o heaven_n upon_o earth_n i_o can_v never_o hope_v to_o find_v until_o then_o i_o must_v be_v content_a to_o sweat_v and_o sigh_v under_o the_o burdeâ—_n of_o this_o mortal_a life_n to_o sit_v like_o job_n upon_o a_o dunghill_n forlorn_a and_o forsake_v by_o all_o full_a of_o soar_v and_o sorrow_n to_o remain_v a_o perpetual_a and_o pitiful_a patient_n scarce_o feel_v patience_n in_o myself_o and_o find_v no_o compassion_n in_o other_o 3._o our_o wish_n and_o desire_n what_o can_v a_o wound_a wretch_n wish_v but_o to_o be_v care_v for_o and_o cure_v what_o can_v a_o naked_a beggar_n desire_n but_o to_o be_v clothe_v and_o comfort_v with_o some_o few_o rag_n and_o crumm_n what_o can_v a_o blind_a and_o cold_a person_n ask_v but_o light_n and_o love_v this_o o_o my_o sovereign_a and_o sweet_a wish_n 3._o our_o wish_n lord_n be_v the_o sum_n and_o substance_n of_o all_o my_o wish_n and_o request_n o_o that_o i_o can_v go_v out_o of_o myself_o and_o get_v into_o thou_o that_o i_o be_v dissolve_v from_o my_o loathe_a body_n to_o the_o end_n i_o may_v dilate_v my_o heart_n in_o thy_o love_n contemplate_v thy_o divine_a face_n in_o perfect_a liberty_n and_o please_v and_o praise_v thy_o majesty_n eternal_o for_o in_o this_o prison_n of_o flesh_n and_o vale_n of_o tear_n i_o faint_v under_o the_o weight_n of_o my_o temptation_n i_o fall_v under_o the_o burden_n of_o my_o trouble_n and_o i_o continual_o fail_v in_o the_o prosecution_n of_o my_o pious_a purpose_n oh_o that_o thy_o will_n do_v so_o rule_v i_o and_o reign_v over_o i_o that_o it_o be_v a_o torment_n to_o decline_v never_o so_o little_a from_o it_o o_o that_o thy_o love_n do_v so_o free_o and_o full_o
abominable_a 15._o prov._n 17._o 15._o in_o his_o sight_n who_o say_v not_o every_o one_o that_o cry_v lord_n lord_n shall_v enter_v into_o my_o kingdom_n but_o 25._o mat._n 7._o 25._o he_o that_o do_v my_o will_n etc._n etc._n the_o 20._o doubt_n if_o we_o find_v such_o a_o calm_a in_o our_o passion_n imperfection_n and_o temptation_n that_o we_o hope_v the_o worst_a be_v past_a let_v we_o never_o flatter_v ourselves_o 20._o read_v the_o conflict_n ch_n 20._o with_o such_o fancy_n or_o admit_v the_o least_o conceit_n that_o we_o have_v entire_o conquer_v any_o one_o passion_n or_o imperfection_n but_o humble_o vigorous_o and_o constant_o keep_v on_o in_o our_o tract_n of_o mortification_n recollection_n introversion_n think_v that_o these_o calm_n comfort_n and_o august_n time_n videre_fw-la unde_fw-la possis_fw-la cadere_fw-la noli_fw-la fieri_fw-la perversa_fw-la simplicitate_fw-la securus_fw-la s._n august_n cessation_n be_v send_v we_o as_o hony-sop_n and_o milk_n for_o child_n because_o we_o be_v yet_o weak_a and_o want_v courage_n to_o encounter_v such_o strong_a temptation_n wherewith_o other_o be_v try_v and_o that_o our_o love_a lord_n communicate_v these_o his_o favour_n and_o friendship_n unto_o we_o not_o as_o best_o merit_v they_o but_o most_o need_v they_o the_o 21._o doubt_n if_o scrupulosity_n overwhelm_v we_o as_o carelessness_n be_v a_o dangerous_a impediment_n of_o perfection_n when_o one_o shall_v say_v this_o be_v not_o mortal_a this_o be_v but_o a_o counsel_n not_o a_o precept_n this_o of_o perfection_n not_o of_o obligation_n for_o whosoever_o will_v obtain_v the_o true_a spirit_n of_o devotion_n and_o recollection_n must_v be_v far_o from_o this_o opinion_n so_o scrupulosity_n be_v another_o extreme_a equal_o hinder_v our_o spiritual_a progress_n and_o hurt_v more_o than_o sin_n itself_o for_o this_o trouble_n of_o spirit_n take_v scrupulosity_n the_o danger_n of_o scrupulosity_n away_o all_o internal_a strength_n comfort_n and_o courage_n of_o well-doing_n and_o make_v we_o slide_v insensible_o into_o despair_n of_o do_v better_a till_o at_o length_n we_o give_v up_o all_o and_o either_o pine_n away_o in_o these_o melancholy_a and_o desperate_a thought_n or_o else_o yield_v ourselves_o to_o pleasure_n and_o sensuality_n and_o sometime_o to_o the_o devil_n himself_o to_o find_v some_o mean_n of_o solace_n and_o satisfaction_n believe_v it_o inordinate_a fear_n sadness_n and_o scrupulosity_n will_v soon_o bring_v a_o soul_n into_o a_o labyrinth_n of_o misery_n and_o a_o hell_n of_o mischief_n and_o therefore_o she_o must_v speedy_o get_v confidence_n in_o remedy_n confidence_n in_o god_n mercy_n be_v the_o remedy_n god_n mercy_n and_o raise_v up_o herself_o to_o alacrity_n of_o mind_n or_o she_o will_v never_o be_v able_a to_o overcome_v her_o difficulty_n nor_o persevere_v long_o in_o spirit_n the_o way_n to_o get_v this_o confidence_n and_o joy_n be_v brief_o this_o confidence_n the_o mean_n to_o get_v this_o confidence_n 1._o to_o trust_v and_o obey_v her_o discreet_a guide_n who_o be_v to_o assign_v she_o a_o set_a form_n of_o confession_n for_o once_o a_o week_n 2._o he_o must_v be_v resolute_a and_o rigorous_a take_v all_o upon_o his_o own_o conscience_n if_o she_o promise_v faithful_o to_o obey_v he_o 3._o he_o must_v assure_v she_o that_o she_o more_o offend_v in_o want_n of_o confidence_n and_o obedience_n than_o in_o all_o other_o sin_n and_o that_o if_o shâ—â—_n will_v not_o believe_v this_o her_o disease_n be_v incurable_a this_o be_v the_o short_a and_o safe_a cure_n of_o tbis_fw-la dangerous_a disease_n but_o that_o we_o may_v better_o understand_v the_o nature_n of_o our_o malady_n let_v we_o note_v seven_o sort_n of_o conscience_n 1._o a_o cauterize_v corrupt_v large_a conscience_n 7._o sort_n of_o conscience_n and_o libertine_n conscience_n make_v scruple_n of_o nothing_o but_o swallow_v down_o all_o thing_n 2._o a_o chiverell_n conscience_n stretch_v to_o all_o and_o care_v 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must_v see_v and_o consider_v