and_o also_o to_o give_v such_o a_o measure_n of_o thy_o grace_n into_o my_o uncharitable_a heat_n that_o i_o may_v most_o free_o forgive_v every_o one_o that_o either_o have_v be_v or_o shall_v be_v a_o trespasser_n against_o i_o o_o lord_n i_o have_v displease_v and_o discontent_v many_o folk_n i_o beseech_v thou_o to_o pacify_v and_o quiet_v they_o o_o give_v grace_n that_o i_o may_v humble_o seek_v for_o and_o they_o may_v gentle_o yield_v unto_o a_o christian_a reconcilement_n o_o lord_n i_o be_o of_o a_o froward_a disposition_n apt_a to_o displease_v and_o disquiet_v every_o one_o i_o beseech_v thou_o to_o break_v i_o from_o this_o unkind_a unpeaceable_a condition_n o_o keep_v i_o from_o give_v cause_n of_o displeasure_n unto_o any_o and_o keep_v other_o from_o take_v displeasure_n against_o i_o that_o so_o far_o as_o be_v possible_a with_o a_o good_a conscience_n i_o may_v live_v and_o die_v in_o peace_n with_o all_o thy_o creature_n o_o lord_n thou_o may_v just_o set_v all_o thy_o creature_n to_o sight_n against_o i_o because_o i_o be_o most_o rebellious_o disobedient_a against_o thou_o but_o contrariwise_o thou_o do_v most_o merciful_o give_v unto_o i_o the_o comfortable_a use_n of_o many_o thing_n and_o the_o favourable_a amity_n of_o many_o people_n o_o gracious_a lord_n i_o humble_o thank_v thou_o beseech_v thy_o almighty_a goodness_n so_o to_o sanctify_v thy_o blessing_n unto_o i_o that_o i_o may_v bless_o employ_v they_o to_o the_o glory_n of_o thy_o grace_n the_o good_a of_o all_o people_n and_o the_o hurt_n of_o nothing_o but_o only_o of_o sin_n o_o lord_n i_o owe_v a_o special_a duty_n unto_o my_o kindred_n and_o acquaintance_n i_o beseech_v thou_o to_o be_v gracious_a unto_o they_o and_o special_o unto_o those_o with_o who_o i_o stand_v charge_v as_o the_o minister_n of_o their_o salvation_n o_o give_v unto_o every_o one_o of_o they_o i_o most_o humble_o pray_v thou_o all_o those_o blessing_n which_o a_o good_a minister_n of_o thy_o gospel_n shall_v be_v a_o mean_n to_o procure_v unto_o they_o amen_n amen_n o_o lord_n christen_v people_n who_o of_o thy_o son_n christ_n name_n be_v name_v christian_n be_v very_o wretched_o entangle_v with_o difference_n of_o belief_n and_o wickedness_n of_o life_n i_o beseech_v thou_o to_o send_v forth_o such_o a_o power_n of_o thy_o son_n grace_n as_o shall_v join_v they_o all_o together_o in_o the_o right_a christian_a faith_n and_o make_v they_o to_o abound_v in_o the_o fruit_n thereof_o to_o thy_o glory_n and_o their_o mutual_a benefiting_a one_o another_o special_o o_o lord_n as_o duty_n bind_v i_o i_o pray_v for_o those_o two_o land_n britain_n and_o ireland_n beseech_v thou_o to_o pour_v thy_o grace_n continual_o upon_o thy_o anoint_a servant_n king_n james_n and_o upon_o his_o queen_n and_o child_n and_o subject_n that_o he_o and_o all_o his_o may_v be_v every_o way_n please_v unto_o thou_o and_o evermore_o bless_v of_o thou_o amen_n amen_n o_o lord_n many_o nation_n and_o people_n be_v unchristian_n they_o believe_v not_o in_o thy_o son_n christ_n and_o therefore_o they_o be_v in_o the_o way_n of_o damnation_n i_o beseech_v thou_o to_o be_v merciful_a unto_o they_o all_o and_o special_o unto_o the_o jew_n and_o israelite_n the_o natural_a child_n of_o thy_o old_a faithful_a servant_n abraham_n isaac_n and_o jacob_n so_o soon_o as_o it_o possible_o may_v be_v with_o thy_o own_o good_a pleasure_n i_o humble_o pray_v thou_o to_o convert_v they_o unto_o the_o true_a christian_a faith_n that_o they_o may_v be_v save_v and_o therein_o thy_o son_n christ_n glorify_v amen_n amen_n o_o lord_n some_o people_n be_v disease_v in_o body_n some_o be_v trouble_v in_o mind_n and_o some_o be_v cumber_v with_o outward_a adversity_n i_o beseech_v thou_o to_o give_v they_o the_o grace_n that_o they_o may_v forsake_v all_o manner_n of_o sin_n and_o whole_o submit_v themselves_o unto_o thou_o o_o than_o they_o shall_v be_v most_o tender_o cherish_v in_o all_o their_o necessity_n &_o very_o timely_o remoove_v out_o of_o all_o their_o misery_n into_o perpetual_a blessedness_n amen_n amen_n for_o these_o and_o for_o all_o other_o mercy_n which_o i_o or_o any_o child_n of_o my_o father_n adam_n do_v or_o shall_v need_v my_o desire_n be_v o_o lord_n i_o beseech_v thou_o give_v i_o grace_n to_o pray_v acceptable_o unto_o thy_o glorious_a majesty_n in_o thy_o only_a son_n jesus_n christ_n name_n as_o he_o have_v teach_v i_o say_v o_o our_o father_n which_o be_v in_o heaven_n hallow_a be_v thy_o name_n etc._n etc._n glory_n and_o honour_n and_o praise_n and_o thanks_n with_o all_o divine_a worship_n and_o humble_a service_n be_v give_v unto_o thou_o o_o god_n the_o father_n the_o son_n and_o the_o holy_a ghost_n and_o unto_o the_o poor_a child_n of_o the_o man_n adam_n be_v vouchsafe_v from_o thou_o through_o the_o man_n jesus_n deliverance_n from_o sin_n and_o misery_n henceforth_o for_o evermore_o amen_n amen_n that_o i_o may_v sing_v unto_o my_o good_a lord_n in_o some_o tuneablenesse_n i_o buy_v the_o whole_a book_n of_o psalm_n with_o tune_n in_o four_o part_n and_o i_o bestow_v now_o and_o then_o a_o little_a time_n to_o learn_v the_o note_n of_o the_o tenor_n part_n my_o skill_n be_v very_o small_a but_o yet_o i_o will_v not_o forgo_v it_o for_o a_o great_a gain_n because_o it_o help_v my_o dull_a devotion_n this_o under_o correction_n i_o say_v of_o music_n upon_o a_o holy_a affection_n it_o have_v a_o heavenly_a work_n but_o contrariwise_o contrary_o ¶_o my_o forenoon_n psalm_n to_o the_o tune_n of_o attend_v my_o people_n and_o give_v ear_n o_o ut_fw-la of_o the_o deep_n of_o misery_n o_o bless_a lord_n i_o cry_v to_o thou_o vouchsafe_v for_o thy_o son_n christ_n his_o sake_n to_o hearken_v gracious_o to_o i_o to_o i_o the_o worst_a of_o all_o the_o folk_n which_o here_o upon_o thy_o earth_n do_v dwell_v a_o wretch_n most_o fit_a to_o be_v cut_v off_o and_o cast_v down_o headlong_o into_o hell_n for_o mercy_n lord_n to_o thou_o i_o cry_v for_o mercy_n and_o for_o save_v grace_n to_o pardon_v all_o my_o wickedness_n and_o my_o corruption_n to_o deface_v good_a lord_n give_v i_o repentance_n that_o i_o may_v indeed_o unfeigned_o enforce_v myself_o for_o evermore_o my_o sin_n to_o kill_v and_o crucify_v lord_n guide_n and_o lead_v i_o all_o this_o day_n in_o every_o thought_n and_o word_n and_o deed_n to_o do_v thy_o will_n and_o bless_v thou_o i_o that_o i_o may_v always_o have_v good_a speed_n and_o when_o thou_o shall_v most_o mighty_o have_v free_v i_o from_o sinful_a thrall_n to_o praise_v thy_o bless_a name_n with_o i_o i_o will_v entreat_v thy_o people_n all_o both_o now_o and_o henceforth_o i_o will_v praise_v thy_o name_n o_o god_n right_a thankful_o because_o thou_o will_v not_o suffer_v i_o in_o graceless_a state_n to_o live_v and_o die_v o_o father_n son_n and_o holy_a ghost_n one_o only_a god_n in_o person_n three_o all_o glory_n honour_n praise_n and_o thanks_n be_v yield_v evermore_o to_o thou_o amen_n my_o noon_n prayer_n o_o most_o holy_a most_o good_a and_o gracious_a lord_n god_n i_o the_o most_o unclean_a and_o most_o defile_a wretch_n of_o all_o the_o world_n do_v humble_o beseech_v thy_o most_o bless_a and_o glorious_a majesty_n that_o even_o for_o that_o right_n dear_a love_n which_o be_v between_o thou_o and_o thou_o only_o beget_v sonn_n the_o lord_n jesus_n christ_n god_n and_o man_n crucify_v thou_o will_v vouchsafe_v to_o make_v know_v thy_o wonderful_a grace_n in_o cleanse_v i_o from_o the_o most_o abominable_a defilement_n of_o my_o sin_n to_o this_o end_n i_o humble_o pray_v thou_o to_o make_v i_o always_o very_o mindful_a of_o thy_o presence_n fearful_a of_o thy_o displeasure_n and_o desirous_a of_o thy_o favour_n o_o most_o merciful_a lord_n grant_v i_o this_o mercy_n this_o exceed_a great_a mercy_n and_o then_o do_v unto_o i_o every_o way_n that_o which_o shall_v be_v most_o to_o thy_o own_o good_a pleasure_n and_o to_o thy_o own_o glory_n yea_o bless_a lord_n god_n unto_o thou_o be_v all_o good_a pleasure_n praise_n honour_n worship_n and_o glory_n in_o jesus_n christ_n now_o and_o for_o evermore_o amen_n amen_n ¶_o my_o noon_n psalm_n to_o a_o tune_n which_o in_o cambridge_n be_v call_v mr._n perkins_n tune_n o_o holy_a holy_a holy_a lord_n the_o pure_a of_o all_o thing_n the_o blessefull_a glorious_a majesty_n from_o whence_o all_o goodness_n spring_v look_v down_o from_o thy_o most_o holy_a place_n behold_v good_a lord_n and_o see_v a_o sinful_a woeful_a wretched_a man_n most_o loathsome_a unto_o thou_o most_o foul_a and_o filthy_a be_v my_o sin_n ah_o fie_o upon_o i_o fie_o o_o father_n of_o all_o holiness_n to_o thou_o for_o grace_n i_o cry_v for_o grace_v to_o wash_v and_o make_v i_o clean_o from_o
this_o most_o ugly_a sin_n that_o i_o in_o heaven_n among_o thy_o saint_n the_o low_a place_n may_v win_v the_o last_o and_o low_a place_n of_o all_o o_o lord_n of_o thou_o i_o crave_v give_v grace_n to_o wash_v and_o make_v i_o clean_o that_o i_o that_o place_n may_v have_v forgive_v i_o all_o my_o sin_n though_o they_o most_o grievous_a be_v and_o great_a forgive_v i_o all_o for_o christ_n his_o sake_n i_o humble_o thou_o entreat_v then_o i_o will_v sing_v to_o thou_o with_o joy_n my_o song_n it_o shall_v be_v this_o no_o wight_n so_o wicked_a as_o i_o be_v have_v place_n in_o heavenly_a bliss_n to_o father_n son_n and_o holy_a ghost_n all_o glory_n be_v therefore_o yea_o honour_n worship_n praise_n and_o thanks_o henceforth_o for_o evermore_o ¶_o about_o three_o of_o the_o clock_n in_o the_o afternoon_n i_o must_v say_v the_o same_o prayer_n which_o i_o say_v about_o nine_o in_o the_o forenoon_n o_o almighty_a lord_n god_n who_o love_v holiness_n etc._n etc._n ¶_o my_o afternoon_n psalm_n to_o the_o suffolk_n tune_n o_o bless_a and_o most_o glorious_a god_n who_o throne_n be_v set_v on_o high_a i_o sinful_a and_o most_o wretched_a man_n to_o thou_o for_o mercy_n cry_v confess_v that_o thy_o great_a goodness_n thy_o patience_n wonderful_a and_o long_a forbearance_n do_v i_o move_v my_o sin_n to_o disannul_v but_o woe_n be_v i_o my_o naughty_a heart_n to_o sin_n be_v still_o so_o bend_v that_o in_o myself_o i_o find_v no_o mean_n entire_o to_o repent_v this_o world_n also_o wherein_o i_o live_v with_o sin_n do_v overflowe_v and_o meet_v i_o with_o temptation_n which_o way_n soever_o i_o go_v satan_n that_o mighty_a evil_a spirit_n so_o full_a of_o subtlety_n do_v practice_v all_o the_o mean_n he_o can_v that_o i_o in_o sin_n may_v die_v therefore_o i_o cry_v to_o thou_o o_o lord_n who_o power_n be_v over_o all_o beseech_v thou_o to_o free_v i_o from_o this_o sinful_a deadly_a thrall_n with_o true_a repentance_n and_o right_a faith_n my_o heart_n and_o soul_n fulfil_v that_o i_o may_v hate_v all_o wickedness_n and_o clean_o fast_o to_o thy_o will_n from_o all_o this_o world_n temptation_n and_o satan_n practise_v keep_v thou_o i_o safe_a i_o humble_o pray_v o_o gracious_a heavenly_a king_n then_o will_v i_o praise_v with_o heart_n and_o voice_n and_o magnify_v thy_o name_n when_o thou_o have_v save_v my_o poor_a soul_n from_o endless_a pain_n and_o shame_n all_o glory_n honour_n praise_n and_o thanks_n be_v always_o give_v to_o thou_o o_o father_n son_n and_o holy_a ghost_n one_o god_n in_o person_n three_o my_o prayer_n at_o night_n before_o i_o go_v to_o bed_n o_o most_o mighty_a and_o most_o gracious_a lord_n god_n i_o wretched_a man_n the_o worst_a of_o the_o world_n do_v cry_v thou_o mercy_n for_o all_o the_o sin_n which_o this_o day_n or_o at_o any_o time_n before_o have_v come_v out_o of_o my_o heart_n by_o way_n of_o deed_n word_n or_o think_v i_o hearty_o thank_v thou_o for_o all_o the_o blessing_n which_o thou_o have_v gracious_o and_o plentiful_o give_v i_o i_o humble_o praise_v thy_o holy_a name_n for_o that_o it_o have_v please_v thou_o to_o preserve_v i_o from_o many_o evil_n &_o to_o deliver_v i_o out_o of_o great_a danger_n i_o beseech_v thou_o to_o endue_v i_o with_o such_o a_o measure_n of_o thy_o grace_n that_o i_o may_v henceforth_o forevermore_o be_v acceptable_o thankful_a unto_o thou_o through_o jesus_n christ_n be_v merciful_a also_o i_o humble_o pray_v thou_o unto_o all_o those_o for_o who_o i_o ought_v to_o pray_v give_v they_o and_o unto_o i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o all_o the_o grace_n which_o thy_o only_a son_n have_v teach_v we_o to_o pray_v for_o in_o his_o name_n say_v o_o our_o father_n which_o art_n in_o heaaen_fw-la hallow_a be_v thy_o name_n etc._n etc._n when_o i_o lay_v i_o down_o in_o my_o bed_n i_o will_v say_v o_o bless_a lord_n god_n here_o i_o lie_v down_o not_o know_v what_o shall_v come_v unto_o i_o this_o night_n i_o humble_o betake_v both_o body_n and_o soul_n unto_o thou_o beseech_v thy_o most_o gracious_a goodness_n to_o receive_v i_o into_o thy_o keep_n through_o jesus_n christ_n thy_o only_a son_n my_o lord_n and_o saviour_n amen_n when_o i_o settle_v myself_o to_o sleep_v i_o will_v say_v o_o good_a lord_n god_n vouchsafe_v to_o be_v merciful_a unto_o this_o feeble_a body_n that_o it_o may_v have_v a_o little_a comfortable_a rest_n and_o be_v thereby_o make_v the_o more_o serviceable_a unto_o thou_o through_o thy_o only_a son_n my_o dear_a lord_n and_o saviour_n amen_n if_o i_o can_v take_v rest_n i_o will_v say_v thus_o o_o most_o gracious_a lord_n this_o body_n can_v take_v rest_n because_o i_o have_v wicked_o disorder_v it_o i_o beseech_v thou_o therefore_o to_o pardon_v i_o all_o my_o wickedness_n and_o now_o teach_v my_o poor_a soul_n how_o it_o shall_v find_v everlasting_a rest_n in_o thou_o through_o thy_o only_a son_n my_o lord_n and_o saviour_n jesus_n christ_n amen_n about_o midnight_n whether_o i_o have_v sleep_v or_o not_o i_o will_v pray_v thus_o o_o most_o glorious_a lord_n god_n the_o father_n of_o light_n no_o darkness_n can_v hide_v i_o from_o thou_o for_o thou_o see_v so_o clear_o at_o midnight_n as_o at_o midday_n yea_o thou_o behold_v all_o my_o thought_n therefore_o i_o humble_o present_v myself_o before_o thy_o bless_a majesty_n beseech_v thou_o to_o look_v gracious_o upon_o i_o a_o most_o ungracious_a wretch_n and_o to_o save_v i_o from_o the_o work_n of_o darkness_n that_o i_o may_v have_v the_o low_a place_n within_o the_o kingdom_n of_o thy_o glory_n grant_v this_o most_o merciful_a father_n for_o thy_o only_a son_n sake_n in_o who_o name_n i_o pray_v further_o for_o myself_o and_o for_o all_o other_o folk_n as_o he_o have_v teach_v i_o say_v o_o our_o father_n which_o be_v in_o heaven_n hallow_v be_v thy_o name_n etc._n etc._n so_o often_o as_o i_o have_v have_v any_o sleep_n when_o i_o awake_v i_o will_v say_v thus_o o_o most_o merciful_a father_n god_n almighty_a i_o humble_o thank_v thou_o for_o the_o rest_n which_o thou_o have_v now_o give_v unto_o this_o naughty_a body_n i_o bequeath_v both_o it_o and_o my_o soul_n into_o thy_o hand_n to_o be_v dispose_v of_o according_a unto_o thy_o will_n to_o the_o glory_n of_o thy_o name_n through_o jesus_n christ_n thy_o only_a son_n my_o lord_n and_o saviour_n amen_n when_o i_o arise_v in_o the_o morning_n i_o will_v say_v o_o good_a lord_n god_n with_o all_o my_o heart_n i_o thank_v thy_o bless_a majesty_n for_o that_o it_o have_v please_v thou_o merciful_o to_o keep_v i_o all_o this_o night_n now_o i_o arise_v out_o of_o this_o bed_n in_o thy_o name_n o_o father_n in_o thy_o name_n o_o jesus_n christ_n in_o thy_o name_n o_o holy_a ghost_n o_o most_o holy_a &_o undivided_a unseparable_a three_o person_n in_o one_o god_n one_o god_n in_o three_o person_n for_o thy_o glorious_a name_n sake_n vouchsafe_v to_o be_v merciful_a unto_o i_o a_o sinner_n amen_n this_o be_v my_o three_o rule_n my_o last_o rule_n four_o and_o last_o i_o must_v in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n conscionable_o detest_v and_o resist_v my_o sin_n faithful_o endeavour_v that_o i_o may_v in_o very_a truth_n saâ—_n with_o david_n psalm_n 18.23_o i_o be_v also_o upright_o before_o he_o and_o i_o keep_v myself_o from_o my_o iniquity_n first_o therefore_o be_v always_o mindful_a of_o god_n presence_n i_o must_v careful_o intend_v to_o know_v and_o to_o do_v his_o will_n second_o when_o any_o motion_n come_v unto_o my_o heart_n quiet_o unpartial_o &_o diligent_o consider_v whether_o it_o be_v good_a in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n yea_o or_o no_o if_o it_o be_v good_a i_o must_v willing_o yield_v unto_o it_o but_o if_o it_o be_v evil_a i_o must_v steadfast_o purpose_v to_o refuse_v it_o yea_o and_o remove_v myself_o so_o far_o as_o possible_a from_o all_o danger_n of_o be_v tempt_v unto_o it_o if_o i_o be_v strong_o tempt_v to_o yield_v unto_o any_o sin_n i_o must_v earnest_o pray_v unto_o god_n for_o deliverance_n thus_o o_o most_o holy_a and_o bless_a lord_n god_n i_o the_o worst_a of_o all_o sinner_n be_v now_o as_o thou_o see_v strong_o tempt_v to_o sin_n against_o thou_o and_o not_o able_a to_o resist_v the_o temptation_n by_o reason_n of_o the_o long_o settle_a wickedness_n of_o my_o heart_n do_v humble_o beseech_v thou_o to_o be_v so_o merciful_a unto_o i_o as_o to_o save_v i_o from_o this_o great_a danger_n through_o thy_o almighty_a grace_n in_o jesus_n christ_n thy_o only_a son_n my_o lord_n and_o saviour_n amen_n have_v thus_o pray_v yea_o and_o pray_v again_o and_o again_o if_o need_v require_v i_o must_v with_o a_o good_a courage_n put_v on_o the_o mind_n that_o i_o will_v
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