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great_a mystery_n of_o the_o incarnation_n of_o thy_o son_n and_o by_o the_o ministry_n of_o thy_o preacher_n of_o it_o chap._n ii_o yet_o how_o may_v i_o call_v upon_o or_o invoke_v my_o god_n my_o god_n and_o my_o lord_n since_o to_o invoke_v he_o be_v to_o call_v he_o into_o i_o and_o what_o mansion_n within_o i_o where_o my_o god_n may_v reside_v god_n within_o i_o that_o make_v heaven_n and_o earth_n be_v there_o then_o o_o lord_n my_o god_n any_o room_n so_o spacious_a in_o i_o that_o can_v receive_v thou_o nay_o can_v the_o vast_a globe_n of_o heaven_n and_o earth_n thing_n that_o thou_o have_v make_v and_o i_o a_o small_a point_n within_o their_o womb_n can_v these_o in_o any_o wise_a receive_v thou_o or_o be_v it_o so_o that_o since_o nothing_o that_o be_v can_v be_v without_o thou_o therefore_o whatever_o be_v must_v needs_o receive_v thou_o since_o than_o i_o also_o be_o in_o be_v what_o need_v i_o entreat_v thy_o access_n into_o i_o who_o therefore_o be_o because_o thou_o be_v in_o i_o who_o be_o not_o yet_o a_o thing_n so_o low_a and_o remote_a as_o hell_n or_o the_o grave_a and_o yet_o thou_o be_v present_a there_o for_o if_o i_o go_v down_o into_o hell_n thou_o be_v there_o also_o 139.7_o psal_n 139.7_o therefore_o i_o shall_v not_o be_v o_o my_o god_n not_o be_v at_o all_o but_o only_o by_o thy_o be_v in_o i_o or_o rather_o i_o shall_v not_o be_v but_o by_o be_v in_o thou_o of_o who_o and_o by_o who_o and_o in_o who_o 11.36_o rom._n 11.36_o all_o thing_n be_v it_o be_v so_o lord_n even_o so_o whether_o then_o may_v i_o invoke_v thou_o see_v i_o be_o already_o in_o thou_o or_o from_o whence_o thou_o draw-near_a unto_o i_o for_o whither_o can_v i_o retire_v beyond_o the_o utmost_a limit_n of_o heaven_n and_o earth_n to_o invite_v from_o thence_o my_o god_n into_o i_o who_o have_v say_v i_o fill_v the_o heaven_n and_o the_o earth_n 23.24_o jer._n 23.24_o chap._n iii_o but_o do_v the_o heaven_n and_o earth_n thus_o fill_v by_o thou_o therefore_o contain_v thou_o or_o do_v thou_o replenish_v these_o and_o yet_o overflow_v because_o they_o can_v whole_o receive_v thou_o and_o where_o then_o do_v thou_o effund_v these_o vessel_n run_v over_o the_o remainder_n of_o thyself_o or_o have_v thou_o no_o need_n of_o any_o thing_n at_o all_o to_o contain_v thou_o who_o thyself_o conteine_v all_o thing_n for_o in_o thy_o fill_v they_o thou_o do_v also_o contain_v they_o and_o they_o be_v full_a of_o thou_o by_o be_v receive_v into_o thou_o for_o the_o vessel_n that_o be_v replenish_v with_o thou_o add_v to_o thy_o fluxure_n no_o consistency_n because_o thou_o be_v not_o shed_v at_o all_o when_o they_o be_v break_v and_o when_o thou_o be_v pour_v out_o upon_o we_o thou_o be_v not_o spill_v 2.18_o act._n 2.18_o but_o we_o be_v conserve_v nor_o thou_o dissipate_v but_o we_o by_o thou_o recollect_v and_o keep_v from_o effusion_n but_o thou_o who_o thus_o fille_v all_o thing_n fille_v thou_o each_o with_o all_o thyself_o or_o they_o not_o 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assay_v to_o speak_v of_o thou_o and_o yet_o wo_n to_o they_o who_o in_o thy_o praise_n be_v silent_a though_o in_o it_o they_o be_v no_o more_o than_o mute_a who_o be_v most_o eloquent_a nothing_o eloquent_a or_o whereln_n the_o very_a dumb_a say_v something_o and_o such_o as_o say_v most_o say_v nothing_o chap._n v._n o_o what_o shall_v i_o do_v that_o i_o may_v for_o ever_o repose_v and_o acquiesce_v in_o thou_o what_o shall_v i_o do_v to_o have_v my_o soul_n wholly-poss_a with_o and_o inebriate_v by_o they_z so_o to_o enjoy_v a_o eternal_a oblivion_n of_o all_o past_a evil_n and_o the_o perpetual_a embrace_n of_o thou_o my_o only_a good_a and_o in_o this_o so_o much_o on_o both_o side_n longed-for_a union_n what_o good_a be_v thou_o to_o i_o let_v thy_o mercy_n indulge_v i_o to_o speak_v unto_o thou_o or_o what_o good_a be_o i_o to_o thou_o that_o thou_o exact_a of_o i_o that_o i_o shall_v love_v thou_o and_o if_o i_o do_v it_o not_o be_v high_o displease_v and_o threaten_v to_o 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judgement_n with_o thou_o for_o if_o thou_o lord_n shall_v mark_v iniquity_n 130.3_o psal_n 130.3_o o_o lord_n who_o shall_v abide_v it_o chap_n vi._n a_o account*_n of_o st._n augustine_n infancy_n nourish_v and_o sustain_v by_o the_o divine_a providence_n yet_o suffer_v i_o thy_o justice_n lay_v aside_o to_o speak_v unto_o thy_o mercy_n 18.27_o gen._n 18.27_o i_o dust_n and_o ash_n yet_o suffer_v i_o to_o speak_v be_v it_o be_v unto_o the_o mercy_n of_o my_o god_n i_o speak_v and_o not_o to_o man_n so_o apt_a to_o scoff_n at_o i_o and_o perhaps_o thou_o also_o for_o the_o present_a lâ—â—â—liest_a at_o i_o 25.16_o psal_n 25.16_o but_o in_o
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a_o issue_n nor_o a_o fair_a retreat_n and_o herein_o his_o carriage_n much_o take_v i_o the_o modesty_n of_o his_o soul_n in_o confess_v its_o defect_n have_v much_o more_o beauty_n and_o worth_a in_o it_o than_o his_o science_n can_v have_v have_v in_o solve_v my_o doubt_n and_o in_o all_o difficulter_n and_o subtle_a question_n which_o i_o propose_v on_o this_o manner_n i_o find_v he_o my_o affection_n therefore_o which_o i_o former_o have_v to_o the_o manichean_a opinion_n be_v now_o much_o abate_v and_o despair_v of_o their_o other_o doctor_n skill_n after_o the_o trial_n of_o one_o so_o much_o fame_v i_o begin_v a_o new_a conversation_n with_o he_o in_o those_o study_n of_o rhetoric_n which_o he_o much_o affect_v and_o i_o then_o teach_v at_o carthage_n read_v with_o he_o such_o book_n as_o he_o desire_v or_o i_o think_v suitable_a for_o such_o a_o wit_n and_o to_o such_o a_o purpose_n but_o all_o design_n of_o further_a advance_n myself_o in_o that_o sect_n after_o his_o acquaintance_n now_o fall_v to_o the_o ground_n only_o i_o continue_v to_o be_v what_o by_o chance_n i_o then_o be_v until_o i_o shall_v discover_v something_o more_o eligible_a thus_o this_o faustus_n to_o so_o many_o the_o fetter_n of_o death_n become_v the_o first_o loser_n of_o my_o chain_n and_o that_o neither_o wit_v nor_o will_v it_o himself_z for_o thy_o hand_n o_o my_o god_n out_o of_o the_o secret_a of_o thy_o providence_n never_o let_v go_v my_o soul_n whilst_o my_o mother_n do_v sacrifice_v even_o her_o heart_n blood_n unto_o thou_o by_o her_o continual_a tear_n day_n and_o night_n in_o my_o behalf_n and_o thou_o procee_v with_o i_o all_o this_o while_n by_o way_n very_o wonderful_a and_o secret_a and_o undiscoverable_a it_o be_v thou_o do_v this_o o_o my_o god_n for_o man_n step_n be_v direct_v by_o the_o lord_n and_o he_o it_o be_v that_o dispose_v his_o way_n â—3_n psal_n 37._o â—3_n and_o what_o efficient_a of_o safety_n can_v there_o be_v save_o thy_o hand_n which_o only_o can_v repair_v what_o it_o at_o first_o build_v chap._n viii_o much_o offend_v with_o the_o unrulinesse_n of_o his_o scholar_n in_o carthage_n he_o remove_v from_o thence_o beyond_o sea_n to_o rome_n to_o profess_v rhetoric_n there_o extreme_o against_o his_o mother_n will_n therefore_o by_o the_o conduct_n of_o thy_o providence_n it_o be_v now_o so_o bring_v about_o that_o i_o shall_v be_v persuade_v rather_o to_o go_v to_o rome_n and_o to_o teach_v there_o what_o i_o do_v at_o carthage_n and_o here_o how_o i_o become_v so_o resolve_v i_o will_v not_o omit_v to_o confess_v unto_o thou_o because_o also_o in_o these_o thing_n thy_o most_o secret_a working_n and_o always_o most_o present_a mercy_n towards_o we_o ought_v ever_o to_o be_v consider_v and_o profess_v my_o intent_n for_o rome_n be_v not_o so_o much_o for_o great_a profit_n or_o honour_n though_o both_o these_o be_v promise_v by_o my_o friend_n and_o then_o not_o a_o little_a sway_v my_o inclination_n but_o the_o 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it_o be_v a_o great_a punishment_n and_o the_o mischief_n which_o they_o suffer_v themselves_o incomparable_o worse_o then_o that_o they_o act_n on_o other_o therefore_o those_o wicked_a fashion_n which_o i_o hate_v myself_o to_o do_v when_o i_o be_v a_o student_n be_v now_o force_v to_o suffer_v when_o a_o master_n from_o other_o i_o resolve_v rather_o to_o remove_v to_o a_o place_n 142.5_o ps_n 142.5_o where_o i_o be_v tell_v be_v no_o such_o insolence_n but_o thou_o o_o my_o hope_n and_o my_o portion_n in_o the_o land_n of_o the_o live_a to_o make_v i_o change_v my_o station_n for_o the_o change_n of_o my_o life_n and_o for_o the_o safety_n of_o my_o soul_n both_o administre_v discouragement_n at_o carthage_n to_o chase_v i_o thence_o and_o proposedst_a allurement_n at_o rome_n to_o draw_v i_o thither_o and_o this_o thou_o
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member_n or_o theâ—e_n be_v tie_v with_o band_n or_o dissolve_v with_o sickness_n or_o some_o other_o way_n restrain_v for_o example_n if_o then_o i_o tear_v off_o my_o hair_n or_o smite_v my_o forehead_n or_o clasp_v my_o hand_n about_o my_o knee_n as_o soon_o as_o i_o please_v present_o i_o do_v it_o yet_o be_v it_o possible_a in_o all_o these_o to_o have_v will_v they_o and_o not_o have_v do_v they_o if_o the_o unpliantness_n of_o my_o joint_n can_v not_o serve_v my_o purpose_n so_o many_o thing_n therefore_o do_v i_o then_o where_o to_o will_v they_o only_o be_v not_o to_o do_v they_o and_o yet_o do_v i_o not_o that_o which_o incomparable_o more_o content_v i_o and_o which_o as_o soon_o as_o i_o will_v i_o may_v do_v because_o as_o soon_o as_o i_o will_v i_o may_v will_v it_o for_o here_o the_o ability_n be_v the_o same_o that_o the_o will_n and_o to_o will_v only_o be_v to_o do_v it_o and_o yet_o it_o be_v not_o do_v and_o the_o body_n yield_v a_o more_o easy_a obedience_n to_o 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and_o fear_v of_o man_n the_o adversary_n of_o our_o happiness_n press_v sore_o upon_o we_o in_o this_o matter_n strew_v on_o every_o side_n upon_o his_o snare_n euge_fw-la euge_fw-la that_o greedy_o gather_v up_o this_o we_o may_v be_v unaware_o catch_v by_o the_o other_o and_o may_v lay_v aside_o our_o joy_n in_o the_o truth_n of_o thou_o that_o we_o may_v place_v it_o in_o the_o falsehood_n of_o man_n and_o may_v covet_v to_o be_v love_v and_o fear_v of_o man_n not_o for_o thy_o sake_n but_o in_o thy_o stead_n and_o so_o be_v make_v like_o unto_o he_o he_o may_v also_o link_v we_o with_o he_o not_o in_o the_o union_n of_o love_n 14.13_o esas_fw-la 14.13_o but_o in_o the_o fellowship_n of_o punishment_n who_o strive_v to_o exalt_v his_o throne_n in_o the_o side_n of_o the_o north_n that_o he_o imitate_v thou_o in_o a_o opposite_a way_n his_o vassal_n contrary_a to_o the_o light_n and_o heat_n of_o love_n which_o thou_o enjoy_v may_v serve_v in_o cold_a and_o darkness_n but_o we_o o_o 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