late_a or_o my_o repentance_n more_o profound_a in_o the_o midst_n of_o this_o consideration_n i_o can_v hardly_o say_v but_o think_v with_o myself_o why_o shall_v i_o delay_v or_o refrain_v my_o enjoyment_n of_o god_n and_o be_o ready_a to_o say_v within_o myself_o the_o false_a joy_n in_o god_n be_v better_o than_o the_o true_a joy_n of_o the_o world_n these_o joy_n be_v too_o sweet_a to_o let_v go_v lord_n jesus_n when_o thou_o kiss_v i_o with_o the_o kiss_n of_o thy_o mouth_n i_o will_v kiss_v the_o son_n lest_o he_o be_v angry_a lord_n thou_o be_v too_o good_a for_o i_o if_o i_o may_v say_v so_o how_o can_v i_o ever_o expect_v that_o thou_o shall_v come_v near_o i_o more_o the_o poor_a love_n i_o have_v make_v i_o say_v a_o thousand_o world_n and_o a_o thousand_o heaven_n for_o my_o god_n the_o small_a beam_n of_o the_o light_n of_o thy_o countenance_n be_v so_o sweet_a lord_n if_o thou_o will_v but_o continue_v the_o joy_n thou_o sometime_o afforde_o i_o have_v enough_o i_o need_v not_o the_o comfort_n of_o the_o world_n to_o make_v it_o up_o nor_o fear_v the_o affliction_n of_o the_o world_n though_o one_o need_v continual_a supply_n comfort_n to_o support_v one_o yet_o they_o can_v not_o spend_v they_o meditat._n xliii_o i_o will_v go_v to_o god_n say_v david_n he_o be_v my_o exceed_a joy_n a_o sweet_a say_n o_o that_o there_o be_v such_o a_o heart_n in_o i_o yet_o i_o have_v a_o uninflamed_a heart_n a_o freeze_a heart_n if_o i_o leave_v all_o thing_n and_o myself_o i_o shall_v find_v thou_o but_o these_o poor_a joy_n of_o the_o world_n quench_v the_o joy_n of_o the_o spirit_n i_o shut_v out_o the_o glorious_a beam_n of_o thy_o heat_n and_o light_n and_o light_v up_o the_o candle_n of_o the_o creature_n which_o have_v neither_o heat_n nor_o light_n in_o comparison_n of_o thou_o when_o i_o go_v about_o to_o rejoice_v in_o thou_o my_o sin_n come_v and_o tell_v i_o that_o they_o must_v be_v mourn_v for_o first_o any_o thing_n lord_n any_o thing_n so_o that_o i_o may_v do_v what_o be_v please_v in_o thy_o sight_n i_o be_o willing_a to_o stay_v for_o my_o joy_n while_o thou_o be_v please_v to_o give_v they_o only_o i_o beseech_v and_o desire_v these_o three_o thing_n of_o thou_o 1._o that_o i_o may_v not_o want_v grace_n though_o i_o want_v joy_n 2._o that_o i_o may_v not_o go_v about_o to_o make_v up_o the_o want_n of_o thy_o joy_n with_o carnal_a joy_n let_v i_o not_o kindle_v a_o fire_n &_o walk_v and_o rejoice_v in_o the_o light_n and_o spark_n of_o what_o i_o have_v kindle_v etc._n etc._n 3._o that_o though_o thou_o have_v kindle_v joy_n yet_o that_o i_o may_v have_v sorrow_n that_o be_v spiritual_a lord_n how_o abundant_o good_a art_n thou_o to_o they_o that_o love_v thou_o i_o lie_v under_o the_o weight_n of_o thy_o love_n and_o thy_o joy_n when_o i_o come_v hungry_a and_o thirsty_a to_o 〈◊〉_d to_o be_v satisfy_v with_o thy_o joy_n to_o 〈…〉_z lie_v now_o as_o a_o ship_n upon_o 〈…〉_z while_o the_o tide_n of_o thy_o 〈…〉_z and_o lift_v i_o up_o and_o carry_v i_o into_o the_o ocean_n of_o thy_o goodness_n when_o mary_n magdalen_n stand_v weep_v at_o the_o sepulchre_n thou_o do_v call_v she_o by_o her_o name_n and_o she_o forget_v all_o her_o sorrow_n she_o leave_v her_o tear_n the_o sepulchre_n and_o the_o aâ—gel_n and_o cry_v out_o rabboni_n my_o heart_n make_v i_o believe_v that_o i_o will_v give_v the_o whole_a world_n to_o see_v jesus_n christ_n for_o i_o think_v if_o i_o can_v see_v he_o i_o shall_v lie_v down_o at_o his_o foot_n and_o beg_v his_o grace_n and_o he_o will_v not_o deny_v i_o this_o be_v part_n of_o my_o weakness_n and_o want_n of_o faith_n for_o he_o hear_v my_o prayer_n as_o full_o and_o be_v as_o willing_a to_o grant_v they_o now_o he_o be_v in_o heaven_n as_o if_o he_o be_v on_o earth_n lord_n jesus_n thou_o that_o never_o do_v deny_v any_o poor_a soul_n that_o come_v to_o thou_o for_o grace_n and_o pardon_n thou_o never_o send_v they_o empty_a away_o but_o grant_v their_o request_n have_v mercy_n upon_o i_o o_o lord_n my_o need_n and_o want_n be_v as_o many_o and_o as_o great_a as_o many_o and_o as_o great_a as_o any_o of_o they_o all_o and_o if_o my_o sense_n of_o my_o misery_n be_v not_o so_o great_a my_o misery_n be_v so_o much_o the_o great_a meditat._n xliv_o lord_n i_o perceive_v that_o spiritual_a sorrow_n and_o spiritual_a joy_n be_v whole_o thy_o work_n for_o my_o sin_n be_v as_o many_o as_o great_a and_o of_o as_o deep_a a_o dye_n as_o any_o in_o the_o world_n that_o be_v not_o the_o sin_n against_o the_o holy_a ghost_n and_o i_o be_o full_o and_o sensible_o convince_v of_o it_o that_o they_o be_v so_o and_o yet_o i_o be_o as_o senseless_a as_o if_o my_o condition_n be_v quite_o hopeless_a for_o be_v it_o not_o so_o can_v i_o possible_o be_v so_o fear_v as_o i_o be_o thou_o have_v say_v i_o will_v take_v away_o the_o stony_a heart_n lord_n if_o thou_o will_v work_v who_o or_o what_o can_v hinder_v my_o corruption_n and_o my_o sin_n have_v and_o do_v harden_v my_o heart_n by_o have_v and_o commit_v they_o nor_o will_v they_o soften_v it_o by_o consider_v they_o what_o hinder_v thou_o from_o take_v away_o the_o infidelity_n and_o stoniness_n of_o my_o heart_n if_o that_o hardness_n and_o infidelity_n do_v why_o that_o be_v the_o thing_n to_o be_v cure_v if_o i_o be_v not_o sick_a i_o need_v not_o a_o physician_n lord_n i_o say_v not_o this_o to_o justify_v myself_o for_o it_o be_v thou_o of_o thy_o free_a grace_n that_o must_v justify_v i_o for_o i_o be_o lose_v and_o so_o for_o joy_n and_o comfort_n though_o i_o read_v and_o hear_v of_o the_o comfort_n that_o thou_o pour_v out_o on_o other_o i_o be_o not_o move_v nay_o those_o very_a story_n and_o say_n which_o have_v former_o inflame_v i_o now_o be_v as_o spark_n fall_v into_o the_o sea_n warm_v not_o at_o all_o alas_o when_o i_o shall_v meet_v thou_o at_o the_o last_o day_n thy_o mercy_n they_o shall_v testify_v against_o i_o when_o they_o shall_v witness_v my_o sleighting_n of_o they_o my_o fruitlesness_n under_o they_o and_o unthankfulness_n for_o they_o what_o can_v i_o say_v alas_o my_o poor_a soul_n we_o be_v undo_v but_o that_o day_n be_v not_o come_v yet_o one_o hour_n more_o the_o lord_n it_o may_v be_v will_v give_v i_o come_v lord_n jesus_n come_v quick_o come_v into_o my_o poor_a soul_n for_o i_o be_o afraid_a to_o meet_v thou_o at_o the_o tribunal_n of_o thy_o judgement_n if_o thou_o be_v on_o the_o earth_n methinks_v i_o can_v go_v with_o confidence_n to_o thou_o that_o thou_o will_v hear_v i_o but_o now_o thou_o be_v in_o heaven_n i_o can_v bless_v be_v they_o who_o have_v not_o see_v and_o yet_o believe_v lord_n i_o have_v receive_v double_a for_o all_o my_o sin_n in_o respect_n of_o any_o profit_n or_o pleasure_n i_o have_v have_v by_o they_o i_o have_v have_v full_a measure_n press_v down_o and_o run_v over_o but_o alas_o my_o vexation_n of_o spirit_n be_v more_o gall_n than_o all_o the_o pleasure_n that_o i_o have_v have_v that_o have_v be_v worldly_a the_o loss_n and_o want_n of_o the_o discovery_n of_o thy_o love_n can_v be_v recompense_v with_o all_o that_o the_o world_n have_v thy_o love_n be_v better_a than_o wine_n indeed_o in_o respect_n of_o the_o offence_n to_o thou_o every_o prayer_n deserve_v hell_n meditat._n xlv_o lord_n i_o be_o as_o afraid_a of_o comfort_n as_o of_o terror_n for_o when_o i_o have_v comfort_n i_o be_o subject_a to_o pride_n myself_o in_o they_o and_o instead_o of_o have_v sweet_a thought_n of_o thou_o have_v high_a thought_n of_o myself_o affliction_n breed_v sorrow_n and_o comfort_n pride_n sorrow_n be_v better_a than_o pride_n my_o preach_n be_v my_o temptation_n and_o and_o my_o accuser_n if_o i_o preach_v not_o the_o strict_a way_n of_o god_n my_o negligence_n condemn_v i_o and_o if_o i_o domy_n sermon_n condemn_v i_o for_o my_o life_n be_v hell_n i_o be_o afraid_a of_o publish_v something_o i_o have_v by_o the_o help_n of_o thy_o spirit_n write_v leave_v my_o life_n shall_v do_v no_o more_o harm_n by_o scandal_n than_o the_o write_n shall_v do_v good_a by_o direct_v to_o holiness_n and_o yet_o sometime_o i_o think_v that_o if_o i_o publish_v and_o own_v such_o write_n they_o will_v be_v a_o strong_a engagement_n to_o live_v more_o holy_o but_o i_o have_v something_o against_o that_o also_o for_o that_o motive_n will_v in_o short_a time_n lose_v its_o strength_n such_o waxen_a wing_n will_v melt_v and_o let_v i_o fall_v to_o my_o former_a way_n and_o that_o holiness_n which_o be_v bear_v up_o with_o such_o
and_o joy_n that_o god_n have_v bestow_v upon_o his_o people_n in_o this_o life_n they_o be_v unspeakable_a and_o glorious_a some_o have_v cry_v out_o lord_n either_o withhold_v thy_o comfort_n or_o enlarge_v the_o vessel_n for_o i_o be_o not_o able_a to_o bear_v my_o joy_n we_o read_v of_o daniel_n that_o the_o manifestation_n that_o god_n give_v he_o drink_v up_o his_o spirit_n and_o make_v he_o sick_a some_o day_n after_o dan._n 8._o 27._o such_o joy_n have_v be_v so_o great_a that_o they_o have_v sweeten_v the_o bitter_a persecution_n they_o have_v make_v they_o clap_v their_o hand_n for_o joy_n in_o the_o midst_n of_o flame_n and_o cry_v out_o in_o the_o ravishment_n of_o their_o spirit_n o_o you_o papist_n you_o talk_v of_o miracle_n but_o here_o be_v a_o miracle_n i_o be_o in_o the_o midst_n of_o these_o flame_n as_o in_o a_o bed_n of_o rose_n but_o alas_o what_o be_v the_o joy_n that_o god_n communicate_v to_o his_o people_n in_o this_o life_n they_o be_v but_o as_o the_o drop_n of_o the_o bucket_n to_o the_o whole_a ocean_n the_o apostle_n tell_v we_o that_o it_o do_v not_o appear_v what_o wâ—_n shall_v be_v we_o will_v give_v it_o we_o have_v it_o a_o thousand_o world_n one_o will_v give_v all_o to_o enjoy_v these_o spiritual_a sanctify_a ravishment_n of_o spirit_n one_o day_n if_o these_o than_o be_v so_o sweet_a what_o be_v those_o thing_n that_o thou_o have_v lay_v up_o for_o they_o that_o love_v thou_o 4._o consider_v that_o god_n have_v prepare_v these_o joy_n on_o purpose_n to_o glorify_v his_o goodness_n and_o power_n and_o wisdom_n in_o prepare_v joy_n for_o his_o people_n worthy_a of_o his_o magnificence_n and_o love_n he_o do_v it_o for_o that_o end_n that_o he_o may_v be_v glorify_v and_o admire_v in_o all_o his_o saint_n and_o what_o can_v infinite_a power_n and_o wisdom_n and_o what_o will_v not_o infinite_a love_n and_o goodness_n do_v when_o they_o set_v themselves_o to_o prepare_v a_o entertainment_n and_o to_o bestow_v a_o reward_n that_o may_v set_v forth_o their_o greatness_n what_o do_v king_n do_v in_o such_o case_n that_o which_o be_v account_v a_o feast_n among_o poor_a people_n be_v a_o rich_a man_n fast_n if_o the_o strength_n of_o this_o consideration_n be_v draw_v forth_o it_o will_v wonderful_o affect_v we_o 2._o consider_v wherein_o these_o joy_n consist_v for_o the_o negative_a part_n of_o they_o there_o will_v be_v no_o sickness_n no_o pain_n no_o death_n no_o temporal_a misery_n or_o imperfection_n nay_o there_o shall_v be_v no_o sin_n no_o temptation_n nor_o corruption_n no_o desertion_n no_o imperfection_n of_o grace_n or_o duty_n or_o comfort_n what_o will_v a_o poor_a 〈…〉_z from_o this_o body_n of_o sin_n and_o death_n there_o we_o shall_v see_v god_n clear_o full_o everlasting_o there_o our_o enjoyment_n shall_v be_v incomprehensible_a our_o union_n wonderful_a and_o inseparable_a and_o all_o shall_v be_v eternal_a what_o a_o world_n of_o difference_n be_v there_o betwixt_o a_o dead_a carcase_n and_o the_o same_o body_n when_o he_o live_v when_o it_o be_v dead_a it_o be_v senseless_a gaâ—â—ly_a filthy_a how_o beautiful_a how_o active_a how_o many_o rare_a endowment_n have_v â—â—_o when_o it_o live_v and_o all_o these_o procee_v from_o the_o union_n of_o the_o soâ—â—_n with_o it_o and_o if_o the_o soul_n which_o but_o a_o poor_a creature_n by_o its_o union_n do_v communicate_v such_o rare_a thing_n to_o the_o body_n what_o do_v we_o imagine_v will_v be_v communicate_v both_o to_o the_o body_n and_o the_o soul_n when_o god_n shall_v be_v more_o near_o unite_v to_o they_o than_o they_o be_v one_o to_o another_o when_o they_o shall_v be_v make_v more_o capable_a of_o receive_v and_o god_n will_v be_v more_o abundant_a in_o communicate_v affection_n and_o resolution_n 1._o admire_v the_o love_n and_o goodness_n of_o god_n o_o bless_a god_n from_o the_o begin_n of_o the_o world_n man_n have_v not_o perceive_v by_o the_o hear_n of_o the_o ear_n nor_o have_v they_o see_v with_o their_o eye_n nor_o have_v any_o understand_v save_v only_o thou_o o_o god_n what_o thou_o have_v prepare_v for_o they_o that_o love_v thou_o how_o have_v thou_o commend_v thy_o love_n to_o we_o that_o we_o be_v thy_o son_n but_o it_o do_v not_o yet_o appear_v what_o we_o shall_v be_v o_o the_o length_n and_o breadth_n and_o height_n and_o depth_n of_o thy_o love_n that_o can_v he_o know_v lord_n what_o be_v our_o duty_n or_o what_o be_v our_o person_n that_o thou_o shall_v so_o high_o reward_v they_o and_o we_o our_o best_a righteousness_n be_v as_o filthy_a rag_n and_o for_o we_o we_o be_v worm_n nay_o a_o generation_n of_o viper_n be_v it_o not_o enough_o that_o thou_o do_v not_o shake_v we_o off_o from_o thy_o hand_n of_o providence_n into_o hell_n fiâ—e_n but_o that_o thou_o shall_v lay_v such_o viper_n in_o thy_o bosom_n and_o warm_v we_o with_o thy_o love_n be_v it_o not_o enough_o for_o thou_o to_o forgive_v we_o our_o rebellion_n but_o that_o thou_o shall_v give_v we_o such_o blessing_n be_v it_o not_o a_o miracle_n of_o bounty_n and_o goodness_n for_o thou_o to_o bid_v we_o serious_o to_o consult_v and_o think_v what_o to_o ask_v of_o thou_o and_o thou_o will_v give_v it_o we_o though_o it_o be_v to_o the_o half_a of_o thy_o kingdom_n but_o that_o thou_o shall_v set_v thy_o wisdom_n on_o work_n in_o prepare_v and_o thy_o liberality_n in_o bestow_v such_o incomprehensible_a reward_n that_o we_o can_v neither_o ask_v no_o think_v but_o as_o far_o as_o the_o heaven_n be_v above_o the_o earth_n so_o be_v thy_o thought_n of_o love_n above_o our_o thought_n for_o thou_o to_o give_v thy_o kingdom_n thy_o christ_n thyself_o these_o be_v act_n of_o goodness_n that_o be_v infinite_o above_o we_o yet_o worthy_a of_o thou_o that_o delight_v to_o magnify_v thy_o goodness_n that_o rejoic_a over_o thy_o people_n as_o the_o bridegroom_n rejoice_v over_o his_o bride_n despise_v the_o world_n what_o be_v the_o thing_n of_o this_o world_n o_o my_o soul_n what_o be_v there_o here_o to_o be_v desire_v but_o sin_n and_o misery_n snare_n and_o temptation_n vanity_n of_o vanity_n and_o vexation_n of_o spirit_n one_o hour_n communion_n with_o god_n and_o the_o joy_n of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n that_o he_o have_v give_v to_o his_o people_n in_o this_o world_n be_v worth_n more_o than_o the_o world_n can_v know_v of_o why_o do_v we_o spend_v our_o strength_n and_o money_n for_o that_o which_o be_v not_o bread_n and_o our_o labour_n for_o that_o which_o do_v not_o satisfy_v o_o vain_a world_n god_n have_v out_o bid_v thou_o thou_o offere_v trifle_n he_o offer_v i_o heaven_n for_o my_o love_n and_o service_n though_o my_o love_n be_v unworthy_a too_o little_a for_o he_o yet_o it_o be_v too_o much_o too_o good_a for_o thou_o 3._o long_o for_o and_o breathe_v after_o heaven_n as_o the_o hartpant_v after_o the_o water-book_n so_o pant_v my_o soul_n after_o thou_o o_o god_n my_o soul_n thirst_v for_o god_n for_o the_o live_a god_n when_o shall_v i_o come_v and_o appear_v before_o god_n when_o shall_v i_o be_v deliver_v from_o my_o absence_n from_o thou_o and_o from_o my_o ignorance_n of_o thou_o make_v haste_n o_o my_o belove_a and_o be_v thou_o like_o a_o roe_n or_o a_o young_a hart_n upon_o the_o mountain_n of_o spice_n the_o spirit_n say_v come_v and_o the_o bride_n say_v come_v and_o the_o bridegroom_n say_v sure_o i_o come_v quick_o even_o so_o come_v lord_n jesus_n come_v quick_o 4._o encourage_v and_o stir_v up_o thy_o felt_n to_o the_o love_n and_o service_n of_o god_n come_v o_o my_o soul_n let_v we_o be_v steadfast_a and_o unmovable_a always_o abound_v in_o the_o work_n of_o the_o lord_n forasmuch_o as_o we_o know_v that_o our_o labour_n be_v not_o in_o vain_a in_o the_o lord_n let_v we_o not_o be_v weary_a of_o well_o do_v nor_o of_o the_o labour_n of_o love_n for_o we_o shall_v reap_v if_o we_o faint_v not_o we_o have_v know_v and_o in_o some_o measure_n endeavour_v to_o serve_v god_n thus_o many_o year_n be_v it_o not_o a_o sad_a thing_n for_o the_o want_n of_o continue_v one_o year_n one_o month_n it_o may_v be_v but_o one_o week_n or_o one_o day_n more_o i_o shall_v lose_v all_o my_o hope_n and_o expectation_n of_o glory_n god_n forbid_v o_o my_o soul_n let_v we_o encourage_v ourselves_o in_o the_o lord_n we_o be_v not_o keep_v by_o our_o own_o but_o by_o the_o mighty_a power_n of_o god_n through_o faith_n to_o salvation_n and_o be_v thou_o assure_v of_o this_o that_o the_o first_o minute_n thou_o be_v in_o heaven_n thou_o shall_v have_v such_o full_a measure_n pre'_v down_o heap_v up_o and_o run_v over_o that_o thou_o shall_v break_v forth_o in_o the_o song_n of_o joy_n and_o praise_n to_o
of_o thy_o spirit_n to_o blow_v upon_o a_o garden_n of_o spice_n be_v not_o so_o much_o for_o the_o advancement_n of_o thy_o free_a grace_n as_o for_o thou_o to_o shine_v upon_o and_o thy_o spirit_n to_o breath_n upon_o such_o a_o dunghill_n as_o i_o be_o that_o send_v forth_o such_o unisome_a savour_n as_o i_o do_v lord_n if_o thou_o will_v be_v my_o god_n i_o have_v a_o body_n and_o a_o soul_n i_o will_v give_v thou_o they_o it_o be_v true_a they_o be_v thou_o already_o but_o alas_o if_o i_o have_v any_o thing_n to_o give_v that_o be_v not_o thou_o i_o will_v but_o i_o have_v not_o meditat._n xxxii_o lord_n i_o wait_v to_o see_v the_o day_n of_o my_o salvation_n and_o the_o hour_n when_o thou_o will_v show_v i_o thy_o love_n and_o when_o i_o shall_v lie_v in_o thy_o bosom_n and_o arm_n and_o hear_v the_o beat_n of_o thy_o heart_n in_o love_n and_o the_o sounding_n of_o thy_o bowel_n towards_o i_o and_o know_v thy_o everlasting_a thought_n of_o love_n to_o i_o when_o thou_o shall_v seal_v the_o pardon_n of_o my_o sin_n to_o i_o and_o make_v i_o read_v thou_o counterpain_n of_o the_o covenant_n of_o love_n between_o thou_o and_o i_o which_o thou_o reserve_v in_o heaven_n and_o be_v fair_a and_o not_o blot_v as_o i_o be_v and_o when_o shall_v the_o day_n of_o the_o love_n and_o joy_n of_o my_o espousal_n return_v and_o my_o thought_n be_v swallow_v up_o in_o love_n lord_n why_o shall_v thou_o withhold_v thy_o love_n the_o manifestation_n of_o thy_o love_n can_v thy_o love_n be_v conceal_v from_o thy_o beloved_n i_o will_v wait_v for_o the_o discovery_n of_o thy_o love_n i_o be_o loath_a to_o do_v any_o thing_n before_o thou_o come_v who_o my_o soul_n love_v for_o fear_v thou_o shall_v come_v when_o i_o be_o not_o look_v for_o thou_o and_o thou_o escape_v i_o i_o look_v every_o prayer_n to_o see_v thou_o come_v leap_v on_o the_o mountain_n and_o skip_v upon_o the_o hill_n as_o a_o row_n or_o a_o hind_n but_o i_o see_v thou_o not_o why_o do_v thou_o put_v a_o spark_n of_o love_n into_o my_o heart_n if_o thou_o will_v leave_v i_o why_o do_v thou_o cast_v thy_o mantle_n upon_o i_o and_o when_o i_o low_o after_o thou_o say_v what_o have_v thou_o do_v thy_o love_n be_v better_a than_o wine_n sweet_a than_o honey_n even_o more_o to_o be_v desire_v then_o life_n itself_o lord_n if_o the_o small_a spark_n and_o relish_v of_o thy_o love_n be_v so_o sweet_a to_o i_o what_o will_v the_o feed_n on_o this_o heavenly_a manna_n be_v if_o a_o drop_n of_o thy_o love_n be_v so_o sweet_a what_o will_v the_o overflow_a be_v if_o thy_o smile_n bring_v so_o much_o joy_n what_o will_v thy_o embrace_n do_v lord_n i_o long_o till_o i_o be_o undo_v with_o thy_o love_n all_o my_o carnal_a and_o worldly_a joy_n undo_v lord_n it_o be_v not_o my_o unworthiness_n that_o shall_v hinder_v i_o nor_o will_v hinder_v i_o from_o bestow_v lord_n help_v my_o unbelief_n well_o lord_n if_o i_o must_v walk_v in_o darkness_n and_o see_v no_o light_n yet_o give_v i_o thy_o grace_n that_o i_o may_v stay_v myself_o upon_o my_o god_n my_o life_n be_v but_o short_a and_o when_o the_o hour_n of_o my_o departure_n shall_v come_v than_o i_o shall_v enjoy_v he_o who_o my_o soul_n love_v and_o know_v as_o i_o be_o know_v then_o i_o shall_v forget_v the_o sorrow_n pain_n and_o throw_v of_o my_o travel_n for_o the_o joy_n that_o shall_v be_v reveal_v my_o bride_n say_v come_v and_o the_o spirit_n say_v come_v come_v lord_n jesus_n come_v quick_o meditat._v xxiii_o i_o wait_v for_o the_o appear_v of_o the_o lord_n jesus_n christ_n if_o thy_o love_n be_v as_o fire_n in_o straw_n or_o such_o like_a matter_n lie_v smoke_v and_o make_v one_o eye_n weep_v while_o one_o strive_v to_o find_v the_o fire_n at_o last_o it_o be_v able_a to_o hold_v no_o long_o break_v forth_o into_o a_o great_a flame_n and_o the_o long_o it_o be_v before_o it_o discover_v itself_o the_o great_a be_v the_o flame_n and_o light_n when_o they_o do_v break_v forth_o lord_n whilst_o i_o be_o look_v for_o thy_o love_n thou_o make_v i_o weary_a let_v the_o length_n of_o thy_o stay_n be_v make_v up_o by_o the_o fullness_n of_o thy_o presence_n and_o greatness_n of_o thy_o manifestation_n when_o thou_o come_v i_o seek_v thou_o in_o my_o prayer_n and_o i_o say_v o_o where_o be_v thou_o who_o my_o soul_n love_v and_o yet_o thou_o send_v i_o away_o weep_v and_o mourn_v i_o seek_v on_o my_o bed_n when_o i_o awake_v in_o the_o night_n but_o i_o find_v thou_o not_o i_o speak_v with_o those_o which_o have_v find_v thou_o and_o they_o tell_v i_o nay_o i_o know_v it_o by_o thy_o word_n that_o thou_o be_v near_o to_o every_o soul_n that_o seek_v thou_o and_o when_o a_o poor_a soul_n cry_v thou_o will_v answer_v it_o than_o i_o multiply_v my_o prayer_n and_o call_v loud_o and_o yet_o my_o prayer_n be_v as_o the_o wind_n that_o pass_v away_o and_o returns_z no_o more_o o_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n thy_o love_n be_v strong_a enough_o to_o suffer_v and_o thou_o do_v suffer_v and_o thou_o do_v die_v that_o thou_o may_v make_v know_v and_o commend_v thy_o love_n unto_o the_o son_n of_o man_n and_o now_o thou_o have_v do_v all_o this_o to_o manifest_v thy_o love_n and_o will_v thou_o hide_v it_o from_o i_o creature-love_n have_v wrought_v strange_a in_o i_o i_o have_v never_o be_v weary_a of_o their_o discourse_n and_o humane_a learning_n how_o have_v it_o make_v i_o ravish_v with_o some_o learned_a say_n and_o if_o thou_o will_v discover_v thy_o love_n and_o shed_v that_o abroad_o in_o my_o heart_n certain_o it_o will_v work_v wonder_n for_o the_o creature_n flame_n of_o love_n be_v but_o as_o a_o blaze_n that_o straw_n make_v but_o be_v soon_o out_o it_o have_v not_o substance_n enough_o to_o nourish_v and_o maintain_v what_o it_o beget_v for_o creature-excellency_n be_v not_o strong_a enough_o to_o keep_v up_o the_o delight_n we_o take_v in_o they_o but_o thou_o lord_n be_v love_v and_o thou_o be_v such_o a_o treasure_n of_o excellency_n that_o the_o poor_a soul_n make_v new_a discovery_n of_o those_o treasure_n every_o day_n to_o all_o eternity_n thou_o be_v enough_o to_o keep_v alive_a and_o in_o full_a strength_n all_o the_o love_n and_o joy_n and_o praise_n of_o saint_n and_o angel_n lord_n thou_o be_v enough_o to_o answer_v thy_o own_o love_n but_o what_o be_o i_o that_o i_o shall_v speak_v of_o thou_o thou_o be_v so_o glorious_a that_o i_o be_o afraid_a to_o speak_v of_o thou_o meditat._n xxxiv_o lord_n i_o call_v and_o thou_o do_v not_o answer_v i_o be_o even_o tire_v out_o if_o thou_o do_v not_o support_v i_o sink_v under_o the_o burden_n i_o long_o and_o look_v to_o see_v thy_o beauty_n but_o i_o can_v behold_v nor_o perceive_v one_o glimpse_n that_o thou_o be_v excellent_a i_o see_v by_o the_o eye_n of_o faith_n but_o excellency_n do_v not_o affect_v i_o all_o my_o prayer_n be_v turn_v unto_o this_o lord_n show_v i_o christ_n and_o he_o who_o my_o soul_n love_v for_o i_o have_v hear_v of_o he_o and_o the_o same_o of_o his_o excellency_n have_v come_v unto_o i_o yet_o my_o eye_n have_v not_o see_v he_o i_o think_v with_o myself_o sure_o christ_n manifest_v himself_o and_o to_o be_v fill_v with_o all_o the_o fullness_n of_o god_n and_o to_o have_v a_o conversation_n in_o heaven_n must_v needs_o signify_v more_o than_o ever_o i_o have_v experience_v in_o myself_o for_o such_o poor_a thing_n as_o i_o have_v find_v wrought_v in_o my_o soul_n can_v fill_v up_o those_o expression_n then_o i_o hear_v of_o those_o who_o life_n be_v spiritual_a and_o christ-like_a not_o glorious_a in_o out_o ward_v mortification_n thou_o be_v blameless_a that_o way_n speak_v of_o such_o thing_n which_o god_n have_v wrought_v for_o they_o and_o in_o they_o which_o i_o have_v not_o find_v but_o be_v the_o very_a same_o thing_n which_o be_v in_o my_o view_n and_o i_o follow_v after_o to_o attain_v but_o can_v then_o from_o their_o relation_n of_o the_o lord_n deal_n with_o they_o i_o perceive_v that_o god_n do_v humble_v they_o more_o before_o he_o do_v discover_v himself_o unto_o they_o then_o ever_o he_o have_v as_o yet_o humble_v i_o so_o that_o i_o find_v no_o rest_n day_n nor_o night_n in_o my_o spirit_n and_o yet_o though_o i_o be_o thus_o restless_a in_o seek_v after_o something_o which_o i_o can_v know_v what_o be_v it_o i_o seek_v for_o i_o can_v discern_v any_o true_a sincere_a constant_a love_n to_o christ._n he_o neither_o let_v i_o know_v that_o he_o lovesme_fw-fr nor_o that_o i_o love_v he_o so_o that_o i_o stand_v amaze_v and_o know_v not_o what_o
to_o do_v and_o still_o by_o the_o help_n of_o god_n i_o will_v not_o cease_v to_o cry_v and_o call_v upon_o he_o for_o who_o my_o soul_n i_o doubt_v not_o but_o will_v love_v if_o he_o discover_v his_o beauty_n and_o love_n unto_o i_o and_o work_v they_o on_o my_o heart_n i_o seek_v for_o one_o who_o i_o can_v tell_v who_o he_o be_v before_o i_o find_v he_o than_o i_o shall_v know_v and_o shall_v tell_v to_o all_o who_o he_o be_v and_o set_v forth_o his_o excellency_n though_o they_o shall_v as_o little_o understand_v i_o a_o i_o do_v they_o who_o declare_v the_o thing_n that_o god_n have_v wrought_v for_o they_o medit._fw-la xxxv_o there_o be_v not_o such_o a_o one_o in_o the_o world_n as_o i_o be_o that_o i_o know_v publican_n and_o harlot_n i_o justify_v they_o i_o in_o the_o midst_n of_o ordinanee_n and_o mercy_n in_o the_o midst_n of_o the_o flame_n of_o love_n nay_o when_o thou_o lay_v on_o i_o that_o affliction_n that_o be_v now_o fresh_a bleed_v in_o my_o eye_n or_o rather_o despise_v and_o forget_v i_o shall_v have_v learn_v obedience_n by_o thing_n i_o suffer_v and_o i_o have_v do_v as_o if_o i_o be_v to_o learn_v to_o sin_n by_o they_o thou_o have_v chastise_v i_o with_o rod_n and_o i_o have_v put_v the_o sting_n of_o sin_n into_o they_o and_o have_v make_v they_o scorpion_n thou_o send_v they_o for_o antidote_n and_o i_o have_v turn_v they_o into_o poison_n lord_n teach_v i_o what_o it_o be_v wherein_o thou_o be_v so_o offend_v to_o leave_v i_o thus_o lord_n i_o believe_v thou_o have_v pardon_v i_o but_o small_a be_v my_o comfort_n when_o thou_o pardone_v sin_n but_o subdue_v it_o not_o meditat._n xxxvi_o lord_n i_o do_v so_o evident_o find_v myself_o unable_a to_o judge_v of_o truth_n or_o to_o resist_v temptation_n that_o i_o almost_o nay_o altogether_o lie_v at_o the_o mercy_n of_o every_o temptation_n and_o to_o be_v carry_v about_o with_o the_o wind_n of_o every_o vain_a doctrine_n if_o thou_o do_v not_o stand_v by_o i_o what_o shall_v i_o tell_v thou_o the_o secret_a puddle_n of_o my_o heart_n i_o be_o weary_a of_o the_o stench_n and_o filthiness_n of_o it_o there_o be_v not_o a_o prayer_n but_o they_o meet_v i_o at_o it_o and_o lie_v as_o a_o talon_n of_o lead_n upon_o i_o if_o my_o heart_n be_v all_o on_o fire_n with_o thy_o love_n these_o thing_n can_v not_o be_v i_o sometime_o have_v thought_n rise_v in_o my_o heart_n that_o be_v wicked_a proud_a and_o foolish_a thought_n i_o begin_v to_o be_v offend_v that_o i_o beg_v for_o the_o manifestation_n of_o thy_o love_n yet_o have_v they_o not_o but_o those_o thought_n no_o soon_o begin_v to_o arise_v but_o i_o consider_v what_o be_o i_o that_o thou_o shall_v give_v i_o thy_o love_n sand_n how_o can_v i_o expect_v the_o manifestation_n of_o thy_o love_n when_o i_o will_v not_o give_v thou_o my_o love_n but_o let_v it_o run_v waist_n upon_o the_o creature_n how_o many_o time_n do_v i_o choose_v to_o do_v anything_o rather_o than_o spend_v my_o time_n in_o meditation_n and_o prayer_n nay_o to_o do_v nothing_o and_o be_v idle_a for_o although_o thou_o love_v we_o first_o yet_o thou_o do_v not_o usual_o discover_v thy_o thought_n of_o love_n to_o a_o soul_n before_o she_o have_v make_v over_o her_o love_n and_o herself_o unto_o thou_o then_o i_o think_v thou_o can_v by_o the_o power_n of_o thy_o spirit_n bring_v in_o my_o heart_n my_o soul_n and_o my_o love_n and_o that_o usual_o ere_o thou_o do_v ravish_v the_o soul_n with_o the_o discovery_n of_o thy_o love_n this_o i_o know_v and_o let_v all_o the_o world_n know_v it_o that_o whatsoever_o wicked_a thought_n do_v arise_v in_o my_o weak_a heart_n which_o i_o can_v answer_v i_o know_v that_o all_o thy_o way_n be_v holy_a just_a and_o good_a lord_n what_o shall_v i_o give_v for_o the_o shedding_n abroad_o of_o love_n in_o my_o heart_n that_o which_o shall_v be_v give_v for_o it_o be_v it_o at_o the_o utmost_a part_n of_o the_o world_n i_o can_v fetch_v it_o thence_o but_o lord_n the_o price_n of_o it_o already_o pay_v it_o be_v near_o unto_o thou_o even_o at_o thy_o right_a hand_n o_o thou_o most_o high_a he_o have_v pay_v for_o this_o mercy_n by_o his_o blood_n long_o ago_o and_o my_o prayer_n thou_o require_v not_o as_o a_o price_n lord_n fill_v i_o with_o these_o spiritual_a supplication_n that_o i_o may_v give_v thou_o no_o rest_n nor_o take_v any_o rest_n myself_o until_o i_o have_v find_v he_o who_o my_o soul_n love_v come_v lord_n jesus_n come_v quick_o meditat._n xxxvii_o o_o lord_n beat_v i_o and_o drive_v i_o with_o storm_n and_o tempest_n i_o be_o come_v unto_o thou_o like_o the_o prodigal_a son_n for_o all_o but_o that_o which_o most_o of_o all_o i_o shall_v have_v a_o spiritual_a sorrow_n ragged_a and_o totter_a and_o undo_v my_o sin_n and_o misery_n be_v like_o he_o not_o my_o sorrow_n for_o i_o to_o see_v myself_o languish_v my_o grace_n daily_o grow_v weak_a my_o love_n cold_o and_o even_o almost_o to_o be_v speechless_a in_o prayer_n alas_o the_o sorrow_n that_o i_o have_v be_v rather_o bewail_v my_o misery_n then_o my_o sin_n i_o know_v not_o what_o it_o be_v lord_n but_o thou_o do_v sure_a i_o be_o my_o condition_n be_v sad_a and_o i_o be_o sad_a and_o my_o sadness_n be_v all_o the_o poor_a remain_v of_o comfort_n that_o i_o have_v and_o yet_o i_o no_o soon_o begin_v to_o take_v any_o comfort_n in_o my_o grief_n but_o i_o perceive_v so_o much_o hypocrisy_n in_o my_o grief_n that_o the_o poor_a spark_n of_o comfort_n that_o i_o have_v be_v put_v out_o alas_o tear_n of_o blood_n be_v fit_a for_o i_o then_o dry_a eye_n o_o lord_n must_v every_o trifle_n steal_v away_o my_o heart_n from_o thou_o thy_o excellency_n be_v too_o high_a for_o i_o wisdom_n be_v too_o high_a for_o fool_n o_o that_o thou_o will_v take_v i_o out_o of_o my_o own_o hand_n and_o deliver_v i_o from_o myself_o and_o howsoever_o my_o heart_n be_v not_o importunate_a enough_o now_o i_o shall_v thank_v and_o praise_v thou_o to_o all_o eternity_n if_o thou_o will_v make_v i_o thou_o thou_o have_v do_v as_o much_o to_o draw_v i_o with_o the_o cord_n of_o love_n even_o to_o wonder_v lord_n do_v thou_o snatch_v i_o as_o a_o fire_n brand_n out_o of_o the_o firâ—_n if_o thou_o shall_v stay_v till_o i_o be_o willing_a without_o thy_o make_v i_o so_o i_o be_o lose_v for_o i_o shall_v never_o part_v with_o these_o paint_a vanity_n for_o all_o the_o glory_n in_o heaven_n except_o thou_o give_v i_o the_o eye_n of_o faith_n to_o see_v it_o and_o a_o spiritual_a palate_n to_o relish_v it_o meditat._n xxxviii_o o_o lord_n will_v thou_o let_v a_o poor_a sinner_n lie_v gasp_v out_o his_o last_o breath_n at_o thy_o foot_n and_o die_v in_o thy_o arm_n i_o have_v abundance_n of_o love_n for_o the_o world_n o_o that_o thou_o have_v it_o all_o i_o be_o sure_a i_o be_o not_o and_o shall_v never_o be_v at_o quiet_a until_o thou_o have_v it_o nor_o will_v i_o sleep_v until_o i_o be_o in_o thy_o arm_n of_o love_n my_o dear_a god_n how_o come_v it_o to_o pass_v that_o my_o heart_n can_v give_v itself_o to_o who_o it_o will_v have_v i_o a_o thousand_o world_n i_o will_v give_v all_o for_o thou_o that_o i_o may_v be_v thou_o o_o my_o soul_n why_o shall_v we_o stand_v consult_v and_o contrive_v what_o to_o do_v god_n be_v ten_o thousand_o time_n more_o than_o all_o thing_n why_o shall_v we_o weigh_v a_o talon_n of_o lead_n and_o a_o feather_n together_o to_o see_v which_o be_v heavy_a o_o lord_n my_o soul_n have_v choose_v thou_o long_o ago_o i_o have_v abundance_n of_o experience_n of_o the_o truth_n of_o those_o thing_n which_o i_o have_v believe_v i_o be_o thou_o and_o thou_o be_v my_o god_n thou_o have_v choose_v i_o and_o i_o have_v choose_v thou_o be_v i_o shall_v be_v so_o vain_a at_o any_o time_n as_o to_o leave_v thou_o thou_o be_v the_o same_o and_o thy_o choice_n fail_v not_o thou_o lord_n which_o make_v i_o choose_v thou_o while_o i_o have_v no_o experience_n of_o thy_o love_n will_v make_v i_o continue_v my_o choice_n lord_n that_o any_o one_o shall_v choose_v hell_n beforâ—_n thou_o it_o make_v thou_o not_o to_o be_v less_o glorious_a lord_n must_v my_o blasphemy_n praise_v thou_o i_o find_v so_o much_o hell_n in_o my_o heart_n that_o it_o be_v not_o trouble_v in_o any_o proportionable_a measure_n that_o there_o be_v so_o much_o hell_n in_o it_o when_o i_o set_v apart_o a_o hour_n for_o meditation_n and_o prayer_n than_o i_o keep_v my_o heart_n somewhat_o close_o but_o at_o other_o time_n i_o be_o little_a careful_a to_o improve_v what_o i_o read_v
it_o be_v in_o the_o morning_n will_v have_v a_o influence_n upon_o the_o whole_a day_n but_o this_o be_v not_o a_o universal_a rule_n for_o we_o read_v that_o isaac_n go_v forth_o in_o the_o evening_n to_o meditate_v gen._n 24._o 36._o and_o in_o case_n the_o subject_n of_o your_o meditation_n be_v a_o sermon_n than_o it_o may_v be_v the_o best_a time_n be_v immediate_o after_o the_o hear_n of_o it_o before_o your_o affection_n cool_v or_o your_o memory_n fail_v you_o 2._o for_o the_o how_o long_o consider_v the_o part_n of_o meditation_n be_v so_o many_o viz._n preparation_n consideration_n affection_n resolution_n etc._n etc._n and_o none_o of_o they_o be_v to_o be_v pass_v slight_o over_o for_o affection_n be_v not_o so_o quick_o raise_v nor_o be_v we_o to_o cease_v blow_v the_o fire_n as_o soon_o as_o ever_o it_o begin_v to_o flame_n until_o it_o be_v well_o kindle_v half_o a_o hour_n may_v be_v think_v to_o be_v the_o least_o for_o beginner_n and_o a_o hour_n for_o those_o that_o be_v verse_v in_o this_o duty_n but_o there_o be_v two_o rule_n in_o this_o particular_a especial_o to_o be_v observe_v 1._o that_o as_o we_o ought_v not_o to_o leave_v off_o our_o prayer_n before_o that_o temper_n and_o frame_v of_o heart_n be_v wrought_v which_o be_v suitable_a to_o the_o matter_n of_o our_o prayer_n viz._n we_o shall_v not_o leave_v off_o the_o confession_n of_o sin_n till_o our_o heart_n be_v make_v sensible_a of_o and_o humble_a for_o our_o sin_n nor_o shall_v we_o leave_v off_o our_o praise_n until_o our_o heart_n be_v fill_v with_o holy_a admiring_n and_o adore_n of_o god_n and_o inflame_v with_o his_o love_n so_o the_o end_n of_o meditation_n be_v affection_n and_o resolution_n we_o shall_v not_o leave_v off_o until_o those_o be_v wrought_v 2._o as_o in_o private_a prayer_n so_o long_o as_o we_o find_v our_o heart_n enlarge_v by_o the_o pouring_n of_o the_o spirit_n of_o supplication_n upon_o we_o we_o be_v not_o to_o leave_v off_o unless_o by_o our_o continuance_n in_o that_o duty_n we_o must_v omit_v another_o duty_n to_o which_o we_o be_v more_o particular_o oblige_v at_o that_o time_n so_o in_o meditation_n as_o long_o as_o we_o find_v the_o heart_n affect_v we_o be_v to_o continue_v it_o but_o this_o caution_n must_v be_v give_v that_o in_o such_o enlargement_n we_o must_v not_o continue_v they_o long_o generalâ—y_v then_o while_o they_o come_v free_o and_o without_o much_o stray_v and_o compulsion_n for_o that_o honey_n that_o come_v free_o of_o itself_o from_o the_o comb_n be_v pure_a but_o that_o which_o be_v force_v by_o heat_n and_o pressure_n be_v not_o so_o well_o relish_v but_o this_o caution_n be_v for_o extraordinary_a enlargement_n for_o if_o the_o heart_n be_v dead_a we_o must_v use_v all_o mean_n to_o awaken_v it_o but_o as_o fire_n must_v be_v blow_v till_o it_o be_v well_o kindle_v but_o afterward_o blow_v hinder_v the_o boil_a of_o any_o thing_n that_o be_v set_v over_o it_o so_o when_o once_o our_o heart_n be_v inflame_v and_o enlarge_v with_o holy_a affection_n in_o a_o extraordinary_a manner_n it_o be_v but_o a_o hindrance_n of_o our_o affection_n to_o return_v to_o the_o meditation_n of_o those_o point_n that_o raise_v they_o chap._n vi_o rule_n for_o the_o subject_a of_o solemn_a meditation_n 1._o by_o no_o mean_n let_v it_o be_v controversy_n for_o that_o will_v turn_v meditation_n into_o study_n 2._o nor_o nice_a speculation_n for_o they_o be_v sapless_a without_o nourishment_n beside_o be_v so_o light_v they_o float_v in_o the_o brain_n have_v no_o weight_n to_o sink_v they_o down_o into_o the_o heart_n and_o indeed_o be_v they_o there_o they_o have_v nothing_o in_o they_o to_o affect_v the_o heart_n withal_o 3._o let_v the_o subject_a of_o meditation_n be_v the_o plain_a powerful_a and_o useful_a truth_n of_o god_n as_o death_n hell_n heaven_n judgement_n mercy_n of_o god_n our_o own_o sin_n the_o love_n and_o suffering_n of_o christ_n etc._n etc._n 4._o let_v the_o subject_a of_o your_o meditation_n be_v that_o that_o be_v most_o suitable_a to_o your_o spiritual_a want_n as_o in_o time_n of_o desertion_n meditate_v most_o of_o the_o love_n and_o mercy_n of_o god_n etc._n etc._n rule_n for_o meditation_n itself_o they_o be_v of_o three_o sort_n 1._o preparatory_a 2._o for_o the_o body_n of_o the_o duty_n 3._o for_o the_o conclusion_n two_o thing_n by_o way_n of_o preparation_n beside_o the_o choice_n of_o the_o subject_a the_o first_o be_v be_v convince_v of_o and_o to_o be_v affect_v with_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n the_o second_o be_v prayer_n for_o assistance_n from_o god_n 2._o for_o the_o body_n meditation_n itself_o it_o consist_v of_o three_o part_n the_o first_o i_o call_v consideration_n which_o be_v nothing_o but_o the_o convince_a our_o heart_n of_o several_a truth_n that_o do_v belong_v to_o that_o subject_a whereof_o we_o meditate_v as_o if_o the_o subject_a of_o our_o meditation_n be_v death_n the_o consideration_n may_v go_v thus_o alas_o o_o my_o soul_n how_o and_o when_o and_o where_o we_o shall_v die_v we_o know_v not_o general_o man_n die_v soon_o than_o they_o expect_v and_o certain_a it_o be_v whensoever_o that_o hour_n come_v we_o must_v bid_v adieu_o to_o honour_n pleasure_n riches_n friend_n and_o at_o last_o our_o own_o body_n etc._n etc._n the_o second_o part_n be_v affection_n whether_o it_o be_v love_n of_o god_n or_o christ_n or_o spiritual_a thing_n despise_v of_o the_o world_n admire_v of_o god_n or_o any_o other_o spiritual_a affection_n the_o three_o part_n be_v resolution_n to_o do_v this_o or_o that_o or_o leave_v this_o or_o that_o now_o this_o be_v the_o most_o proper_a and_o genuine_a way_n of_o meditation_n appear_v by_o this_o 1._o because_o it_o be_v not_o artificial_a and_o such_o as_o require_v learning_n as_o those_o direction_n be_v which_o wish_v we_o to_o consider_v the_o efficient_a final_a formal_a material_a cause_n of_o death_n the_o adjunct_n concomitant_n etc._n etc._n which_o though_o they_o may_v somewhat_o help_v the_o learned_a yet_o such_o hard_a word_n and_o artificial_a method_n fright_v the_o ignorant_a â—_o this_o be_v the_o very_a method_n of_o those_o meditation_n by_o which_o every_o one_o that_o be_v bring_v home_o to_o god_n be_v convert_v for_o the_o first_o thing_n in_o conversion_n be_v our_o be_v convince_v of_o some_o truth_n which_o conviction_n raise_v affection_n for_o if_o the_o truth_n of_o god_n end_n in_o conviction_n and_o go_v no_o no_o further_o nay_o if_o they_o end_v in_o affection_n only_o and_o never_o come_v to_o resolution_n of_o shun_v evil_a and_o do_v good_a conversion_n can_v never_o be_v perfect_v as_o for_o example_n one_o be_v convince_v that_o he_o be_v a_o miserable_a undo_v wretch_n by_o reason_n of_o original_a and_o actual_a abomination_n upon_o this_o conviction_n fear_n and_o sorrow_n be_v raise_v yet_o if_o these_o do_v not_o work_v in_o we_o a_o firm_a resolution_n of_o leave_v those_o sin_n we_o be_v yet_o in_o our_o sin_n and_o unconvert_v 3._o there_o be_v several_a thing_n for_o the_o conclude_a of_o meditation_n as_o shall_v appear_v chap._n vii_o direction_n for_o the_o work_n of_o our_o heart_n to_o be_v convince_v of_o and_o affect_v with_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n for_o be_v convince_v of_o and_o affect_v with_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n it_o may_v thus_o be_v wrought_v 1._o we_o be_v to_o consider_v that_o god_n be_v present_a every_o where_o as_o true_o real_o and_o essential_o as_o he_o be_v in_o heaven_n for_o god_n do_v not_o create_v heaven_n to_o continue_v still_o but_o to_o manifest_v his_o presence_n for_o the_o heaven_n of_o heaven_n be_v not_o able_a to_o contain_v he_o for_o god_n be_v neither_o include_v by_o nor_o exclude_v from_o any_o place_n and_o though_o jacob_n say_v sure_o the_o lord_n be_v in_o this_o place_n and_o i_o know_v it_o not_o gen._n 28._o 16._o yet_o we_o must_v not_o imagine_v that_o jacob_n be_v ignorant_a of_o that_o truth_n but_o do_v not_o actual_o consider_v it_o but_o david_n in_o the_o 139_o psalm_n be_v clear_a in_o explain_v and_o clear_v up_o the_o omnipresence_n of_o god_n 2._o we_o must_v consider_v that_o god_n do_v more_o peculiarly_a observe_v his_o people_n while_o they_o be_v perform_v of_o heavenly_a duty_n whether_o it_o be_v while_o they_o be_v speak_v unto_o he_o or_o he_o speak_v unto_o they_o he_o do_v then_o more_o especial_o observe_v the_o motion_n and_o frame_n of_o their_o heart_n as_o when_o we_o be_v in_o any_o company_n we_o do_v more_o especial_o look_v upon_o and_o observe_v those_o to_o who_o we_o speak_v or_o who_o speak_v to_o we_o yet_o this_o be_v to_o be_v understand_v not_o as_o if_o god_n do_v observe_v we_o more_o at_o one_o time_n then_o another_o in_o respect_n
of_o god_n knowledge_n itself_o but_o thus_o that_o god_n be_v much_o more_o offend_v with_o we_o if_o our_o carriage_n and_o frame_n of_o heart_n be_v more_o irreverent_a and_o unholy_a in_o the_o time_n of_o prayer_n and_o meditation_n then_o at_o such_o time_n as_o we_o be_v in_o the_o work_n of_o our_o particular_a call_n 3._o we_o may_v consider_v with_o ourselves_o that_o christ_n do_v actual_o behold_v we_o especial_o in_o these_o duty_n of_o holiness_n for_o it_o be_v not_o the_o distance_n of_o place_n that_o do_v hinder_v christ_n knowledge_n and_o exact_a observe_v of_o we_o little_o do_v nathanael_n then_o think_v that_o christ_n see_v he_o under_o the_o figtree_n nathonael_n do_v not_o see_v christ_n nor_o be_v he_o corporal_o present_v then_o yet_o christ_n behold_v nathanael_n when_o he_o pray_v so_o christ_n behold_v stephen_n before_o the_o heaven_n be_v open_v and_o the_o open_n of_o the_o heaven_n be_v not_o that_o that_o thereby_o christ_n may_v be_v enable_v the_o better_a to_o behold_v stephen_n but_o that_o stephen_n may_v thereby_o be_v the_o better_o enable_v to_o see_v that_o christ_n look_v on_o he_o without_o all_o controversy_n god_n know_v and_o observe_v with_o what_o reverence_n faith_n love_n etc._n etc._n we_o pray_v for_o else_o our_o prayer_n will_v be_v in_o vain_a and_o our_o faith_n also_o vain_a for_o how_o can_v he_o give_v we_o according_a to_o our_o faith_n if_o he_o know_v not_o how_o much_o our_o faith_n be_v if_o the_o inward_a frame_n of_o our_o heart_n be_v not_o observe_v by_o he_o than_o a_o hypocrite_n that_o have_v better_a expression_n shall_v get_v more_o by_o his_o prayer_n than_o a_o true_a nathanael_n that_o have_v a_o better_a heart_n 4._o suppose_v that_o thou_o have_v live_v in_o christ_n time_n or_o suppose_v that_o christ_n be_v now_o in_o england_n consider_v with_o what_o joy_n reverence_n and_o confidence_n thou_o will_v go_v to_o he_o for_o the_o pardon_n of_o thy_o sin_n or_o for_o any_o other_o mercy_n thou_o stand_v in_o need_n of_o thou_o may_v go_v so_o to_o he_o now_o his_o distance_n from_o thou_o in_o respect_n of_o corporal_a presence_n do_v not_o make_v he_o less_o able_a to_o know_v thy_o want_n or_o hear_v thy_o prayer_n nor_o his_o be_v now_o glorify_v make_v he_o less_o willing_a to_o grant_v they_o then_o if_o it_o be_v bodily_a present_n in_o the_o room_n with_o thou_o in_o the_o form_n of_o a_o servant_n as_o he_o be_v once_o at_o jerusalem_n the_o glory_n of_o christ_n do_v not_o hinder_v his_o love_n and_o goodness_n for_o christ_n be_v the_o express_a image_n of_o his_o father_n and_o god_n attribute_n do_v not_o not_o hinder_v one_o another_o the_o majesty_n of_o god_n do_v not_o set_v bound_n unto_o his_o goodness_n and_o make_v that_o finite_a nor_o do_v his_o goodness_n make_v his_o majesty_n less_o glorious_a his_o goodness_n make_v his_o majesty_n more_o amiable_a and_o his_o majesty_n make_v his_o goodness_n more_o wonderful_a so_o neither_o do_v the_o exaltation_n of_o christ_n cause_v he_o to_o abate_v any_o thing_n of_o his_o goodness_n unto_o his_o people_n but_o if_o any_o way_n his_o love_n be_v alter_v it_o be_v by_o be_v make_v more_o than_o it_o be_v and_o when_o christ_n be_v upon_o earth_n you_o must_v have_v come_v to_o he_o by_o faith_n or_o you_o can_v obtain_v no_o mercy_n from_o he_o and_o by_o faith_n though_o he_o be_v in_o heaven_n you_o may_v obtain_v any_o mercy_n now_o you_o may_v consider_v any_o one_o or_o two_o or_o more_o of_o these_o consideration_n until_o your_o heart_n be_v so_o convince_v of_o and_o affect_v with_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n that_o you_o may_v thereby_o be_v the_o better_o fit_v for_o the_o carry_v on_o the_o duty_n of_o meditation_n more_o effectual_o chap._n viii_o concern_v the_o preparatory_a prayer_n that_o be_v to_o be_v use_v before_o meditation_n the_o next_o preparatory_a consideration_n be_v prayer_n and_o it_o be_v to_o be_v perform_v in_o these_o word_n or_o to_o like_a purpose_n lord_n my_o design_n in_o this_o duty_n of_o meditation_n be_v not_o to_o be_v a_o hour_n sequester_v from_o worldly_a employment_n for_o that_o be_v to_o be_v idle_a a_o hour_n and_o to_o increase_v my_o sin_n not_o my_o grace_n but_o my_o business_n at_o this_o time_n be_v to_o be_v so_o convince_v and_o affect_v with_o those_o spiritual_a truth_n reveal_v in_o thy_o word_n that_o i_o may_v full_o resolve_v by_o thy_o strength_n and_o power_n to_o reform_v my_o life_n because_o i_o can_v neither_o understand_v the_o thing_n that_o belong_v to_o my_o peace_n nor_o understand_v they_o be_v convince_v of_o the_o certainty_n and_o truth_n of_o they_o nay_o lord_n though_o my_o understanding_n be_v enlighten_v yet_o without_o thou_o my_o affection_n can_v be_v inflame_v i_o can_v neither_o know_v resolve_v nor_o perform_v what_o be_v good_a without_o thou_o for_o from_o thou_o come_v both_o the_o will_n and_o the_o deed_n of_o thy_o good_a pleasure_n i_o beseech_v thou_o lord_n that_o thou_o will_v give_v i_o thy_o grace_n to_o make_v conscience_n of_o perform_v this_o duty_n with_o my_o whole_a strength_n and_o not_o careless_o and_o perfunctory_o and_o lord_n do_v thou_o enlighten_v i_o with_o and_o convince_v i_o of_o thy_o truth_n and_o so_o affect_v my_o heart_n with_o the_o love_n of_o holiness_n and_o hatred_n of_o sin_n etc._n etc._n that_o i_o may_v thereby_o be_v enable_v full_o firm_o notwithstanding_o all_o the_o opposition_n that_o the_o flesh_n world_n or_o devil_n can_v make_v to_o run_v the_o way_n of_o thy_o commandment_n with_o joy_n and_o with_o speed_n and_o when_o thou_o have_v wrought_v in_o i_o the_o will_v so_o to_o do_v give_v i_o also_o the_o deed_n and_o that_o i_o may_v not_o trust_v to_o the_o strength_n of_o my_o resolution_n but_o to_o the_o continual_a gracious_a assistance_n of_o thy_o spirit_n for_o the_o performance_n of_o those_o thing_n that_o through_o thou_o i_o shall_v resolve_v to_o do_v holy_a and_o bless_a god_n christ_n have_v send_v i_o wish_v i_o to_o come_v to_o thou_o in_o his_o name_n for_o any_o mercy_n i_o stand_v in_o need_n of_o grant_v these_o thing_n which_o i_o have_v beg_v for_o the_o lord_n jesus_n sake_n amen_n this_o or_o a_o prayer_n to_o the_o like_a purpose_n thou_o be_v to_o put_v up_o unto_o god_n but_o it_o be_v to_o be_v do_v with_o thy_o whole_a heart_n for_o thou_o must_v know_v that_o it_o be_v by_o the_o strength_n which_o thou_o shall_v get_v from_o god_n by_o prayer_n whereby_o thou_o shall_v be_v enable_v to_o perform_v this_o or_o any_o other_o duty_n profitable_o for_o it_o be_v he_o that_o teach_v we_o to_o profit_v he_o that_o begin_v a_o holy_a duty_n without_o god_n will_v end_v it_o without_o god_n also_o it_o be_v a_o dangerous_a thing_n to_o think_v that_o we_o can_v by_o our_o natural_a part_n learning_n or_o by_o the_o strength_n of_o grace_n already_o receive_v without_o god_n further_a assistance_n perform_v any_o thing_n that_o can_v please_v god_n or_o edify_v our_o own_o soul_n for_o though_o our_o mountain_n be_v make_v strong_a yet_o if_o he_o shall_v hide_v his_o face_n there_o will_v be_v trouble_n we_o may_v with_o much_o more_o sense_n say_v now_o the_o sun_n shine_v so_o bright_a and_o the_o air_n be_v so_o clear_a that_o now_o we_o can_v do_v well_o enough_o for_o a_o while_n though_o the_o sun_n be_v eclipse_v then_o to_o say_v though_o our_o heart_n be_v never_o so_o much_o inflame_v with_o the_o love_n of_o god_n now_o we_o be_v so_o fill_v and_o inflame_v by_o his_o love_n we_o shall_v do_v well_o enough_o by_o our_o own_o strength_n for_o at_o the_o present_a we_o need_v not_o god_n further_a assistance_n give_v we_o but_o fuel_n matter_n to_o meditate_v of_o and_o we_o shall_v be_v able_a to_o continue_v and_o increase_v our_o flame_n do_v not_o count_v it_o a_o burden_n but_o a_o mercy_n and_o privilege_n that_o god_n have_v necessitate_v and_o command_v thou_o always_o to_o draw_v strength_n from_o he_o chap._n ix_o several_a rule_n for_o manage_v the_o duty_n of_o consideration_n 1._o they_o must_v be_v plain_a consideration_n not_o intricate_a and_o abstruse_a for_o the_o main_a end_n of_o meditation_n be_v the_o affect_v of_o our_o heart_n and_o resorm_v of_o our_o life_n and_o not_o inform_v of_o our_o understanding_n our_o consideration_n shall_v be_v so_o plain_a that_o they_o may_v be_v without_o difficulty_n understand_v 2._o it_o must_v be_v certain_a and_o evident_a not_o controversial_a and_o doubtful_a for_o the_o end_n of_o meditation_n be_v not_o proper_o to_o increase_v our_o knowledge_n but_o to_o improve_v our_o knowledge_n 3._o much_o less_o shall_v our_o consideration_n be_v curious_a and_o nice_a speculation_n or_o if_o we_o choose_v any_o
that_o i_o must_v say_v if_o god_n will_v forsake_v i_o for_o ever_o meditat._n vi._n since_o our_o dear_a lord_n jesus_n christ_n have_v love_v i_o and_o give_v himself_o for_o i_o oh_o that_o my_o heart_n be_v ravish_v with_o his_o love_n oh_o that_o he_o be_v the_o belove_a of_o my_o soul_n and_o that_o i_o be_v sick_a of_o his_o love_n who_o die_v for_o the_o love_n of_o i_o oh_o that_o i_o can_v not_o be_v stay_v but_o with_o his_o flagon_n this_o my_o jesus_n the_o chief_a of_o ten_o thousand_o have_v tell_v i_o that_o he_o that_o see_v thou_o see_v the_o father_n whereby_o i_o understand_v that_o thou_o be_v just_a as_o he_o be_v as_o pitiful_a as_o gracious_a as_o willing_a to_o forgive_v as_o sweet_a and_o as_o easy_a to_o be_v entreat_v as_o my_o good_a saviour_n and_o in_o all_o the_o thing_n and_o passage_n that_o thy_o word_n have_v make_v know_v to_o we_o of_o he_o i_o read_v not_o of_o one_o of_o all_o that_o come_v to_o he_o not_o one_o poor_a soul_n that_o ever_o beg_v any_o grace_n or_o any_o pardon_n nor_o never_o do_v any_o come_v to_o be_v heal_v of_o any_o bodily_a disease_n in_o vain_a lord_n thou_o be_v as_o he_o be_v lord_n jesus_n thou_o be_v as_o thou_o be_v thy_o be_v in_o heaven_n make_v thou_o not_o less_o like_o thy_o father_n or_o thyself_o bless_v god_n i_o do_v beseech_v thou_o to_o give_v i_o thy_o poor_a hard-hearted_a servant_n a_o soft_a heart_n lord_n jesus_n i_o beseech_v thou_o thou_o see_v my_o heart_n my_o poor_a heart_n desire_v as_o imperfect_o as_o cold_o to_o make_v intercession_n for_o i_o i_o for_o who_o thou_o have_v pay_v a_o dear_a price_n as_o one_o that_o have_v be_v so_o long_o from_o his_o friend_n have_v he_o can_v hardly_o call_v to_o remembrance_n what_o countenance_n he_o have_v so_o i_o poor_a i_o that_o can_v choose_v but_o pity_v the_o sad_a condition_n of_o my_o own_o heart_n which_o though_o it_o do_v not_o incessant_o and_o importunate_o desire_v grace_n as_o it_o shall_v yet_o methinks_v it_o be_v a_o sad_a thing_n to_o see_v it_o in_o such_o a_o careless_a temper_n i_o be_o such_o a_o stranger_n to_o thou_o that_o i_o have_v much_o ado_n to_o make_v one_o thought_n of_o thy_o sweet_a love_n and_o excellency_n that_o may_v affect_v my_o heart_n and_o bring_v the_o sweet_a apprehension_n of_o thou_o to_o remembrance_n thy_o tender_a mercy_n and_o former_a relish_v of_o thy_o goodness_n be_v to_o i_o like_o the_o shadow_n of_o death_n they_o be_v as_o christ_n walk_v upon_o the_o water_n they_o terrify_v i_o lord_n let_v i_o weep_v thou_o to_o i_o again_o oh_o my_o god_n i_o be_o undo_v undo_v undo_v a_o poor_a undo_v creature_n those_o in_o desertion_n be_v in_o a_o thousand_o time_n better_a condition_n than_o i_o be_o they_o want_v the_o comfort_n but_o then_o indeed_o they_o have_v the_o grace_n of_o the_o spirit_n but_o be_v not_o my_o poor_a soul_n that_o want_v both_o in_o a_o sad_a condition_n that_o can_v sit_v down_o and_o fall_v asleep_a when_o i_o shall_v seek_v my_o saviour_n i_o have_v a_o soul_n of_o such_o a_o temper_n as_o make_v i_o wonder_v at_o myself_o as_o in_o the_o spring_n and_o sometime_o there_o will_v come_v a_o cloud_n that_o will_v seem_v to_o overspread_v the_o heaven_n and_o yet_o on_o the_o sudden_a all_o will_v be_v blow_v over_o and_o the_o day_n so_o fair_a that_o there_o will_v not_o be_v a_o cloud_n to_o be_v see_v so_o be_o i_o sometime_o my_o heart_n be_v full_a of_o sorrow_n and_o my_o eye_n full_a of_o tear_n and_o yet_o upon_o the_o sudden_a my_o heart_n lose_v that_o sweet_a sad_a temper_n and_o all_o be_v blow_v over_o and_o not_o a_o cloud_n appear_v and_o these_o cloud_n of_o grief_n be_v not_o disperse_v with_o the_o comfort_n and_o joy_n of_o thy_o spirit_n but_o with_o worldly_a business_n or_o company_n when_o i_o do_v grieve_v for_o my_o sin_n carnal_a grief_n bear_v a_o share_n in_o it_o and_o carnal_a joy_n abolish_v it_o meditat._n vii_o to_o confess_v my_o sin_n without_o any_o sense_n of_o they_o without_o any_o hatred_n of_o they_o to_o pray_v for_o grace_n and_o not_o to_o be_v sensible_a of_o the_o necessity_n or_o excellency_n of_o it_o to_o come_v to_o thy_o ordinance_n without_o reap_v any_o good_a from_o they_o to_o think_v and_o meditate_v of_o thou_o and_o neither_o admire_v nor_o love_v thou_o nor_o long_o and_o delight_v to_o be_v in_o thy_o company_n to_o what_o purpose_n be_v these_o thing_n thou_o desire_v of_o we_o our_o heart_n and_o not_o our_o work_n word_n or_o thought_n without_o that_o ah_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n shall_v all_o be_v in_o vain_a and_o will_v thou_o cast_v i_o off_o for_o ever_o do_v thou_o hate_v my_o soul_n and_o be_o i_o a_o abomination_n unto_o thou_o must_v i_o be_v shut_v out_o for_o ever_o and_o never_o enjoy_v the_o sweetness_n of_o thy_o presence_n thou_o will_v not_o o_o my_o god_n thou_o will_v not_o thou_o can_v not_o o_o my_o god_n thou_o can_v not_o for_o thou_o have_v make_v a_o covenant_n withme_n and_o i_o claim_v that_o covenant_n for_o i_o have_v not_o any_o thing_n in_o world_n beside_o thy_o covenant_n in_o the_o lord_n jesus_n christ_n that_o i_o can_v so_o much_o as_o have_v the_o least_o hope_n that_o will_v do_v i_o any_o good_a if_o the_o lord_n jesus_n christ_n do_v not_o sit_v at_o thy_o right_a hand_n to_o make_v intercession_n for_o i_o my_o sin_n continual_o daily_o hourly_o clamor_v against_o i_o and_o accuse_v of_o i_o must_v needs_o prevail_v against_o i_o alas_o my_o hair_n be_v far_o from_o that_o spiritual_a frame_n that_o thou_o require_v for_o the_o misery_n that_o sin_n bring_v be_v more_o troublesome_a and_o heavy_a to_o i_o then_o the_o silthiness_n that_o be_v in_o fin_n thy_o blessing_n be_v more_o lovely_a in_o my_o eye_n then_o thyself_o every_o duty_n harden_v i_o in_o my_o formality_n lord_n thovart_n the_o father_n of_o mercy_n oh_o have_v mercy_n upon_o i_o for_o my_o case_n be_v not_o the_o common_a case_n of_o thy_o people_n but_o few_o few_o of_o many_o may_v be_v find_v who_o soul_n be_v like_o my_o poor_a soul_n for_o where_o be_v there_o any_o that_o can_v say_v so_o and_o yet_o be_v so_o little_o affect_v as_o i_o be_o meditat._v viii_o my_o hope_n be_v false_a and_o my_o fear_n be_v true_a the_o deadly_a poison_n do_v not_o make_v i_o sick_a nor_o the_o excellent_a cordial_n do_v not_o comfort_v i_o i_o be_o not_o sick_a of_o sin_n nor_o do_v the_o sacrament_n of_o the_o body_n and_o blood_n of_o christ_n fill_v i_o with_o joy_n nay_o rather_o do_v it_o not_o fill_v i_o with_o grief_n and_o fear_n if_o my_o fear_n and_o grief_n be_v not_o carnal_a will_v they_o be_v more_o but_o my_o carnal_a joy_n eat_v out_o my_o spiritual_a grief_n and_o my_o joy_n also_o i_o be_o as_o it_o be_v like_o absalon_n i_o hang_v between_o heaven_n and_o earth_n i_o will_v fain_o have_v heaven_n and_o yet_o will_v not_o part_v with_o earth_n oh_o my_o lord_n jesus_n christ_n be_v thou_o of_o no_o more_o excellency_n in_o my_o eye_n do_v thy_o love_n to_o i_o raise_v up_o no_o more_o love_n in_o i_o then_o to_o stand_v deliberate_v what_o to_o do_v when_o thou_o stand_v with_o stretch_v out_o arm_n to_o receive_v i_o to_o thy_o bosom_n can_v thou_o love_v one_o that_o love_v thou_o so_o little_a as_o i_o do_v thou_o do_v love_v i_o when_o i_o love_v thou_o not_o at_o all_o why_o sit_v thou_o so_o sad_a o_o my_o soul_n go_v cast_v thyself_o into_o the_o arm_n and_o bosom_n of_o the_o lord_n jesus_n christ_n there_o lie_v and_o hear_v the_o beat_n of_o his_o heart_n towards_o thou_o and_o it_o may_v be_v thou_o may_v be_v warm_v with_o the_o heat_n of_o his_o love_n christ_n pour_v out_o the_o boil_a stream_n of_o his_o heartblood_n upon_o thy_o poor_a soul_n for_o his_o hear_v boil_a in_o love_n towards_o thou_o and_o can_v thy_o heart_n still_o be_v freeze_v oh_o infidelity_n thou_o be_v the_o poison_n of_o my_o soul_n thou_o with_o thy_o cold_a blast_n haste_v freeze_v mâ—ne_a heart_n and_o keep_v it_o so_o lord_n give_v i_o faith_n or_o else_o all_o thy_o mercy_n be_v in_o vain_a thy_o love_n be_v and_o have_v be_v too_o great_a for_o i_o to_o believe_v lord_n thou_o that_o love_v i_o so_o much_o as_o to_o give_v i_o christ_n oh_o love_v i_o so_o much_o as_o to_o give_v i_o say_v to_o believe_v it_o there_o remain_v in_o my_o heart_n no_o more_o than_o the_o first_o spark_n of_o thy_o love_n and_o the_o first_o principle_n of_o grace_n that_o thou_o do_v put_v into_o my_o soul_n when_o thou_o do_v regenerate_v i_o all_o the_o flame_n
be_v go_v out_o that_o be_v once_o kindle_v in_o i_o all_o the_o fruit_n and_o leave_n and_o bough_n be_v strip_v from_o i_o there_o be_v all_o thing_n to_o do_v beside_o bare_a regeneration_n i_o be_o as_o a_o arm_n cut_v off_o so_o that_o it_o hang_v only_o by_o a_o little_a skin_n a_o slender_a thread_n lord_n this_o be_v my_o hope_n that_o my_o corruption_n and_o satan_n that_o have_v quench_v these_o flame_n that_o i_o have_v have_v shall_v never_o be_v able_a to_o quench_v this_o spark_n but_o alas_o that_o be_v a_o poor_a comfort_n that_o this_o be_v all_o my_o comfort_n that_o i_o shall_v not_o lose_v heaven_n though_o it_o be_v a_o thousand_o time_n too_o great_a a_o comfort_n for_o such_o a_o wretched_a sinner_n as_o i_o be_o to_o have_v it_o it_o nothing_o to_o lose_v all_o my_o comfort_n all_o my_o duty_n all_o my_o sweet_a communion_n with_o thou_o or_o at_o least_o only_o so_o much_o of_o these_o remain_v as_o to_o keep_v i_o from_o be_v utter_o cast_v off_o for_o one_o that_o have_v fare_v delicious_o every_o day_n to_o come_v to_o have_v no_o more_o bread_n then_o to_o keep_v life_n and_o soul_n together_o though_o he_o die_v not_o yet_o he_o have_v a_o miserable_a life_n thus_o thus_o and_o far_o worse_a it_o be_v with_o i_o meditat._n ix_o i._o i_o stand_v clear_a before_o thou_o o_o my_o god_n of_o those_o many_o sin_n of_o sencelesness_n under_o judgement_n fruitlesness_n under_o ordinance_n mispend_v of_o time_n want_v of_o watchfulness_n of_o my_o one_o way_n and_o for_o the_o appear_v of_o the_o lord_n jesus_n christ_n only_o my_o sin_n of_o unkindness_n to_o the_o lord_n jesus_n christ_n be_v enough_o to_o cause_v thou_o to_o take_v away_o thy_o mercy_n from_o i_o i_o have_v hear_v and_o read_v the_o great_a mystery_n of_o my_o redemption_n of_o his_o be_v scourge_v and_o crown_v and_o nail_v of_o his_o bleed_a and_o die_v for_o i_o of_o his_o great_a love_n and_o such_o thing_n that_o if_o a_o friend_n of_o this_o world_n have_v do_v or_o suffer_v the_o thousand_o part_n so_o much_o his_o memory_n will_v have_v be_v precious_a meditat._n x._o ah_o my_o dear_a god_n thou_o have_v be_v my_o god_n and_o therefore_o thou_o be_v my_o god_n how_o little_o can_v my_o soul_n know_v by_o any_o thing_n that_o i_o now_o either_o do_v or_o feel_v i_o be_o fain_a to_o fetch_v evidence_n and_o sign_n from_o action_n do_v many_o year_n since_o my_o prayer_n and_o other_o holy_a duty_n be_v matter_n of_o more_o joy_n when_o i_o do_v they_o than_o now_o they_o have_v terror_n in_o they_o now_o i_o think_v i_o do_v they_o not_o as_o heretofore_o i_o have_v be_v assist_v by_o thy_o grace_n oh_o my_o lose_a joy_n and_o my_o lose_a duty_n where_o i_o shall_v find_v you_o i_o know_v not_o the_o joy_n i_o have_v former_o and_o the_o great_a zeal_n of_o my_o heart_n make_v i_o pray_v but_o now_o not_o out_o of_o feeling_n and_o zeal_n but_o for_o zeal_n and_o joy_n and_o i_o go_v from_o prayer_n with_o a_o sad_a heart_n and_o a_o hard_a heart_n my_o prayer_n come_v neither_o from_o my_o heart_n nor_o reach_n to_o my_o heart_n oh_o my_o lord_n jesus_n christ_n where_o be_v thy_o motion_n and_o the_o joy_n of_o thy_o spirit_n to_o work_v thy_o own_o work_n in_o i_o why_o do_v i_o walk_v in_o this_o valley_n of_o tear_n not_o only_o without_o comfort_n but_o without_o grace_n i_o do_v even_o stand_v astonish_v at_o myself_o to_o see_v the_o vast_a difference_n between_o myself_o now_o and_o when_o i_o be_v thou_o when_o the_o candle_n of_o the_o almighty_a shine_v upon_o my_o soul_n and_o the_o spirit_n of_o my_o god_n dwell_v in_o i_o than_o sorrow_n and_o weep_v fly_v away_o alas_o i_o now_o have_v scarce_o any_o thing_n leave_v i_o but_o carnal_a tear_n and_o one_o great_a cause_n of_o my_o grief_n and_o part_n of_o my_o misery_n be_v that_o i_o can_v weep_v no_o more_o sometime_o indeed_o tear_n stand_v in_o my_o eye_n when_o i_o consider_v these_o thing_n lord_n give_v i_o faith_n o_o give_v i_o faith_n i_o feel_v a_o deal_n of_o atheism_n in_o my_o heart_n my_o heart_n be_v so_o full_a of_o corruption_n of_o all_o kind_n and_o all_o degree_n that_o i_o can_v feel_v no_o bottom_n of_o this_o stink_a ditch_n my_o imagination_n be_v divers_a time_n a_o thoroughfare_a for_o satan_n blasphemous_a thought_n which_o my_o soul_n abhor_v i_o may_v even_o sit_v down_o and_o spend_v the_o remainder_n of_o my_o wicked_a life_n in_o weep_v and_o wail_v and_o wring_v of_o my_o hand_n and_o tear_v off_o the_o hair_n of_o my_o head_n my_o sad_a soul_n may_v say_v to_o my_o god_n be_v thou_o quite_o go_v from_o i_o have_v all_o my_o hope_n of_o thou_o be_v as_o dream_n and_o empty_a shadow_n unto_o i_o and_o have_v thou_o show_v i_o so_o much_o of_o heaven_n and_o will_v thou_o make_v hell_n more_o terrible_a and_o bitter_a to_o i_o shall_v thy_o sweet_a mercy_n be_v turn_v into_o the_o gall_n of_o asp_n to_o i_o not_o only_o to_o be_v bitter_a but_o deadly_a i_o have_v cause_n i_o have_v cause_n lord_n to_o mingle_v my_o drink_n with_o my_o tear_n to_o water_v my_o couch_n with_o weep_v thou_o be_v too_o great_a a_o god_n to_o be_v dally_v withal_o and_o what_o do_v i_o else_o as_o our_o dear_a friend_n though_o we_o never_o so_o much_o delight_v in_o their_o company_n while_o they_o be_v live_v yet_o we_o be_v afraid_a to_o be_v alone_o with_o they_o they_o be_v a_o terror_n to_o we_o after_o the_o soul_n have_v leave_v their_o earthly_a tabernacle_n so_o my_o prayer_n while_o they_o be_v live_v prayer_n be_v a_o great_a comfort_n to_o my_o poor_a soul_n but_o now_o my_o prayer_n be_v without_o life_n and_o my_o supplication_n be_v dead_a they_o be_v a_o terror_n to_o i_o they_o look_v ghastly_a upon_o i_o and_o i_o upon_o they_o meditat._n xi_o my_o dear_a god_n thou_o be_v not_o move_v with_o word_n if_o we_o have_v the_o tongue_n of_o man_n and_o angel_n if_o we_o can_v speak_v as_o never_o man_n speak_v if_o our_o heart_n mean_v no_o more_o than_o they_o do_v what_o will_v our_o vain_a word_n do_v i_o be_o ever_o weary_a of_o my_o life_n because_o of_o my_o corruption_n i_o can_v go_v no_o where_o nor_o do_v any_o thing_n but_o my_o coruption_n follow_v i_o and_o tire_v i_o even_o out_o of_o my_o patience_n o_o that_o i_o can_v weep_v over_o my_o prayer_n to_o see_v how_o dead_a they_o be_v which_o way_n to_o turn_v i_o know_v not_o i_o have_v pray_v a_o thousand_o time_n for_o another_o heart_n and_o yet_o my_o heart_n be_v as_o hard_a as_o a_o stone_n and_o so_o full_a of_o hypocrisy_n lord_n shall_v i_o cast_v away_o my_o confidence_n and_o lay_v down_o my_o weapon_n and_o put_v off_o my_o armour_n because_o my_o corruption_n be_v so_o strong_a and_o impetuous_a and_o deaden_a my_o very_a soul_n but_o alas_o what_o be_o i_o weary_a of_o not_o of_o my_o sin_n but_o of_o the_o accusation_n of_o my_o conscience_n that_o will_v not_o let_v i_o alone_o bless_v be_v thy_o name_n that_o i_o be_o trouble_v that_o i_o do_v not_o live_v holy_o lord_n my_o heart_n be_v entangle_v in_o the_o snare_n of_o the_o world_n bless_a saviour_n thou_o which_o have_v overcome_v the_o world_n deliver_v i_o from_o the_o care_n and_o love_n of_o the_o world_n alas_o what_o good_a do_v my_o tear_n do_v i_o do_v thou_o bottle_n up_o such_o tear_n such_o puddle_n water_n in_o thy_o bottle_n let_v the_o bowel_n of_o thy_o compassion_n yern_v within_o thou_o towards_o my_o poor_a soul._n it_o be_v full_a of_o sin_n but_o my_o sin_n be_v my_o sorrow_n though_o my_o sorrow_n itself_o be_v sinful_a if_o thou_o stand_v as_o a_o stranger_n to_o i_o i_o must_v give_v over_o myself_o for_o lose_v than_o i_o may_v say_v farewell_n prayer_n better_a to_o say_v farewell_o then_o to_o add_v to_o my_o former_a sin_n a_o great_a guilt_n by_o defile_v my_o prayer_n that_o be_v as_o chariot_n to_o carry_v out_o my_o soul_n into_o the_o bosom_n of_o god_n what_o be_o i_o to_o stand_v against_o corruption_n or_o tempration_n i_o be_o no_o more_o able_a to_o overcome_v nay_o to_o resist_v they_o than_o to_o remove_v mountain_n i_o have_v sin_v away_o my_o joy_n and_o sin_v away_o my_o hope_n and_o even_o my_o god_n if_o thy_o mercy_n be_v not_o great_a and_o what_o remain_v for_o my_o poor_a soul_n to_o do_v but_o to_o sit_v down_o in_o sorrow_n and_o even_o to_o mourn_v until_o my_o soul_n be_v heavy_a unto_o death_n it_o have_v be_v better_a for_o i_o that_o i_o have_v not_o be_v one_o to_o show_v the_o way_n to_o other_o nay_o but_o oh_o my_o god_n that_o be_v best_a
man_n what_o injury_n soever_o he_o do_v i_o now_o i_o will_v so_o watch_v over_o my_o word_n that_o i_o will_v not_o offend_v with_o my_o tongue_n and_o that_o by_o degree_n i_o may_v attain_v some_o perfection_n herein_o i_o here_o vow_v every_o week_n between_o this_o and_o the_o next_o communion_n to_o keep_v one_o day_n so_o strict_o that_o i_o will_v not_o during_o that_o day_n speak_v so_o much_o as_o one_o idle_a word_n that_o day_n if_o i_o do_v i_o will_v give_v to_o the_o poor_a lord_n how_o excellent_a be_v thy_o service_n so_o pure_a so_o sweet_a o_o that_o there_o be_v such_o a_o heart_n in_o i_o that_o i_o may_v for_o ever_o serve_v thou_o meditat._v xxvii_o when_o i_o read_v the_o story_n of_o the_o martyr_n i_o do_v wish_v that_o i_o have_v live_v in_o those_o day_n that_o i_o may_v also_o die_v as_o they_o do_v or_o methinks_v i_o can_v now_o willing_o lay_v down_o my_o life_n rather_o than_o yield_v to_o the_o abominable_a idolatry_n and_o superstition_n of_o the_o sea_n of_o rome_n but_o when_o i_o search_v &_o try_v my_o heart_n i_o much_o fear_v that_o the_o reason_n of_o this_o my_o desire_n be_v because_o i_o think_v it_o easy_a to_o lay_v down_o my_o life_n for_o christ_n sake_n then_o for_o his_o sake_n to_o overcome_v my_o corruption_n for_o it_o be_v but_o one_o act_n though_o it_o have_v more_o pain_n yet_o be_v but_o of_o small_a continuance_n it_o be_v less_o trouble_n than_o all_o my_o life_n long_o to_o fight_v against_o sin_n and_o thus_o i_o do_v ill_a even_o in_o my_o best_a wish_n in_o divers_a respect_n for_o i_o choose_v martyrdom_n not_o because_o thereby_o i_o may_v more_o honour_n god_n but_o that_o i_o may_v the_o soon_o and_o easy_o come_v to_o heaven_n and_o again_o that_o i_o think_v i_o may_v content_v myself_o though_o i_o do_v not_o so_o much_o hate_v corruption_n if_o i_o die_v a_o martyr_n all_o will_v be_v well_o whereas_o though_o i_o give_v my_o body_n to_o be_v burn_v and_o have_v not_o charity_n it_o will_v profit_v nothing_o and_o to_o love_n god_n it_o be_v impossible_a for_o he_o that_o do_v not_o hate_n and_o fight_v against_o his_o corruption_n alas_o o_o my_o soul_n how_o weary_a be_v we_o of_o our_o spiritual_a fight_n and_o we_o will_v fain_o find_v some_o other_o way_n to_o heaven_n then_o by_o the_o continuance_n of_o it_o o_o that_o i_o be_v dead_a to_o the_o world_n yet_o while_o we_o know_v something_o better_o we_o shall_v not_o think_v so_o we_o talk_v much_o of_o the_o vanity_n of_o the_o world_n but_o who_o believe_v that_o the_o world_n be_v vanity_n and_o vexation_n of_o spirit_n or_o who_o be_v sensible_a of_o this_o truth_n or_o if_o he_o be_v sensible_a of_o it_o and_o sometime_o affect_v with_o it_o yet_o it_o soon_o wanish_v and_o we_o do_v not_o live_v according_o how_o much_o easy_a be_v it_o to_o speak_v like_o a_o angel_n then_o live_v like_o a_o saint_n meditat._n xxviii_o lord_n that_o thou_o will_v do_v it_o for_o i_o take_v my_o soul_n and_o my_o body_n what_o shall_v i_o do_v with_o they_o any_o long_o i_o govern_v they_o so_o ill_o and_o indeed_o be_o so_o unable_a to_o govern_v they_o that_o they_o govern_v i_o lord_n if_o thou_o shall_v condemn_v i_o at_o the_o last_o day_n i_o do_v now_o justify_v thou_o and_o testify_v to_o all_o the_o world_n that_o thou_o be_v just_a though_o then_o if_o such_o a_o time_n shall_v come_v i_o shall_v blaspheme_v thou_o my_o dear_a god_n i_o have_v yet_o a_o spark_n of_o thy_o love_n i_o will_v not_o leave_v that_o small_a hold_n of_o thou_o for_o ten_o thousand_o world_n i_o know_v lord_n there_o be_v no_o dally_v with_o thou_o what_o if_o i_o speak_v with_o the_o tongue_n and_o write_v with_o the_o pen_n of_o man_n and_o angel_n it_o be_v nothing_o lord_n take_v a_o poor_a soul_n at_o his_o word_n lord_n i_o be_o thou_o and_o do_v now_o give_v myself_o and_o ten_o thousand_o world_n if_o i_o have_v they_o to_o thou_o yet_o when_o thou_o do_v take_v from_o i_o some_o poor_a part_n of_o my_o estate_n i_o murmur_v alas_o i_o have_v a_o poor_a weak_a heart_n meditat._v xxix_o lord_n my_o knowledge_n of_o thou_o be_v but_o small_a and_o that_o which_o be_v be_v but_o little_a spiritual_a or_o experimental_a to_o know_v thou_o by_o what_o other_o write_v and_o say_v of_o thou_o be_v sweet_a to_o they_o that_o can_v set_v their_o seal_n to_o it_o from_o their_o own_o experience_n lord_n what_o be_v it_o that_o have_v keep_v i_o so_o long_o from_o thou_o or_o keep_v thou_o so_o long_o from_o i_o i_o know_v that_o i_o have_v be_v want_v to_o thou_o and_o to_o myself_o lord_n take_v my_o heart_n i_o have_v too_o much_o love_n for_o any_o beside_o thou_o though_o i_o have_v too_o little_a for_o thou_o oh_o how_o sweet_a be_v the_o thought_n of_o thou_o and_o will_v be_v sweet_a if_o i_o think_v often_o and_o long_o and_o more_o attentive_o of_o thou_o alas_o i_o be_o almost_o grow_v out_o of_o acquaintance_n with_o thou_o i_o do_v not_o perceive_v my_o corruption_n in_o any_o thing_n more_o than_o in_o this_o that_o though_o to_o think_v of_o thou_o be_v a_o thing_n so_o easy_a and_o so_o profitable_a yet_o i_o think_v so_o seldom_o my_o dear_a god_n deliver_v i_o from_o the_o business_n of_o the_o world_n suit_n of_o law_n and_o such_o thing_n they_o undo_v i_o they_o take_v up_o my_o thought_n that_o i_o can_v be_v rid_v of_o they_o i_o feel_v upon_o i_o the_o curse_n which_o thou_o threaten_v upon_o the_o people_n of_o israel_n if_o they_o will_v not_o serve_v thou_o with_o joy_n they_o shall_v serve_v stranger_n with_o a_o great_a deal_n of_o hardship_n i_o be_v well_o while_o i_o be_v with_o thou_o than_o i_o have_v my_o song_n in_o the_o night_n now_o my_o day_n be_v turn_v into_o the_o shadow_n of_o death_n lord_n draw_v i_o draw_v i_o make_v the_o cord_n of_o thy_o love_n strong_a or_o rather_o than_o i_o shall_v perish_v make_v the_o cord_n of_o thy_o affliction_n strong_a and_o if_o i_o murmur_v scourge_v i_o while_o i_o leave_v murmur_v how_o true_a do_v i_o find_v that_o say_n he_o that_o injure_v forgive_v not_o my_o wickedness_n i_o have_v commit_v against_o thou_o make_v i_o not_o able_a to_o believe_v almost_o that_o thou_o be_v or_o can_v be_v reconcile_v unto_o i_o when_o i_o shall_v do_v more_o for_o thou_o and_o less_o against_o thou_o i_o shall_v easy_o believe_v thy_o love_n or_o rather_o when_o thy_o spirit_n shall_v shed_v abroad_o thy_o love_n in_o my_o heart_n i_o shall_v know_v thou_o love_v i_o i_o sigh_v and_o mourn_v and_o weep_v over_o my_o poor_a soul_n but_o can_v help_v it_o dear_a lord_n let_v my_o tear_n prevail_v with_o thou_o pity_v pity_n have_v pity_n upon_o a_o poor_a languish_a soul_n that_o be_v even_o gasp_v out_o his_o last_o breath_n it_o grieve_v i_o to_o see_v what_o a_o sad_a condition_n i_o be_o in_o i_o be_o not_o yet_o in_o hell_n and_o by_o thy_o mercy_n i_o may_v never_o come_v thither_o but_o i_o be_o run_v thither_o woe_n be_v i_o that_o i_o be_o constrain_v to_o live_v in_o mesech_n and_o to_o have_v my_o habitation_n in_o the_o tent_n of_o kedar_n meditat._v xxx_o lord_n i_o pray_v for_o mercy_n and_o when_o i_o have_v they_o to_o see_v the_o unsuitableness_n of_o my_o spirit_n to_o they_o and_o my_o unthankfulness_n for_o they_o bring_v more_o sadness_n upon_o i_o then_o to_o want_v they_o all_o the_o thing_n i_o beg_v of_o thou_o for_o temporal_a mercy_n both_o in_o carry_v i_o forth_o and_o bring_v i_o home_o and_o concern_v my_o business_n i_o go_v about_o not_o find_v thing_n in_o such_o a_o sad_a condition_n at_o home_n yet_o my_o poor_a heart_n be_v the_o same_o still_o and_o be_v as_o hard_o and_o as_o stony_a not_o willing_a to_o yield_v itself_o and_o all_o up_o to_o thou_o as_o if_o i_o be_v more_o able_a to_o order_v matter_n than_o thou_o now_o my_o heart_n be_v subject_a to_o murmur_v that_o it_o be_v so_o hard_a when_o it_o shall_v mourn_v lord_n thou_o have_v do_v enough_o to_o justify_v thy_o love_n and_o thy_o tender_a compassion_n to_o i_o if_o thou_o shall_v never_o do_v more_o and_o not_o only_o thy_o justice_n can_v not_o be_v blame_v but_o not_o thy_o mercy_n medit._fw-la xxxi_o accept_v of_o my_o poor_a prayer_n and_o when_o at_o the_o last_o day_n when_o the_o secret_n of_o all_o heart_n shall_v be_v know_v the_o hypocrisy_n and_o cold_a and_o my_o desire_n shall_v be_v know_v and_o thy_o goodness_n shall_v be_v admire_v in_o hear_v such_o prayer_n as_o i_o be_v for_o the_o light_n of_o thy_o countenance_n to_o shine_v upon_o and_o the_o breathe_n
or_o hear_v to_o inflame_v my_o heart_n i_o have_v better_a not_o set_v a_o hour_n apart_o and_o give_v thou_o all_o the_o day_n by_o think_v always_o of_o thou_o lord_n i_o do_v now_o acknowledge_v for_o than_o i_o shall_v not_o but_o if_o thou_o shall_v leave_v i_o i_o shall_v be_v too_o much_o give_v to_o blaspheme_v thou_o nay_o blessed_a god_n let_v that_o never_o be_v lord_n it_o shall_v never_o be_v when_o i_o consider_v the_o desperate_a hypocrisy_n of_o my_o heart_n i_o may_v every_o morning_n expect_v that_o thou_o shall_v give_v i_o up_o to_o a_o reprobate_a sense_n to_o commit_v sin_n with_o greediness_n when_o i_o think_v of_o these_o thing_n i_o pour_v out_o my_o soul_n within_o i_o to_o think_v with_o myself_o i_o shall_v lose_v my_o estate_n a_o little_a trouble_v i_o to_o think_v i_o shall_v lose_v such_o a_o friend_n it_o affect_v i_o more_o but_o to_o think_v i_o shall_v lose_v my_o god_n and_o become_v a_o apostate_n that_o be_v a_o hell_n unto_o i_o i_o have_v beg_v of_o thou_o as_o for_o my_o life_n that_o thou_o will_v not_o leave_v i_o and_o now_o i_o beg_v o_o forsake_v i_o not_o utter_o to_o have_v such_o a_o heart_n that_o will_v neither_o inflame_v my_o word_n nor_o be_v inflame_v by_o they_o be_v that_o which_o have_v not_o be_v so_o lord_n except_o thou_o will_v follow_v one_o that_o will_v not_o stay_v when_o thou_o call_v and_o overtake_v one_o that_o run_v from_o thou_o when_o thou_o follow_v i_o be_o lose_v well_o i_o be_o sure_a my_o froward_a and_o careless_a carriage_n will_v justify_v thy_o justice_n if_o thou_o condemn_v i_o and_o magnify_v thy_o mercy_n if_o thou_o save_v i_o meditat._n thirty-nine_o lord_n this_o day_n be_v thou_o own_o and_o by_o be_v thou_o be_v the_o more_o i_o i_o must_v now_o burn_v without_o coal_n about_o i_o the_o time_n have_v be_v when_o if_o i_o have_v be_v cold_a and_o dull_a the_o society_n exprâ—ssions_n and_o example_n of_o other_o in_o day_n set_v apart_o to_o thou_o will_v have_v inflame_v i_o now_o the_o company_n i_o have_v be_v water_n and_o snow_n woe_n be_v i_o that_o i_o be_o constrain_v to_o have_v my_o habitation_n in_o the_o tent_n of_o kedar_n and_o yet_o lord_n thou_o be_v never_o want_v thou_o send_v forth_o thy_o beam_n of_o light_n and_o heat_n if_o i_o bring_v not_o cloud_n over_o my_o own_o head_n i_o may_v have_v enough_o light_n from_o thou_o lord_n when_o will_v these_o day_n of_o sin_n be_v end_v and_o the_o time_n of_o refresh_v from_o the_o presence_n of_o the_o lord_n come_v i_o come_v into_o thy_o presence_n but_o when_o i_o be_o come_v i_o be_o silent_a and_o deaf_a neither_o able_a to_o speak_v to_o thou_o nor_o hear_v the_o sweet_a whisper_n of_o thy_o spirit_n o_o that_o i_o have_v a_o heart_n to_o give_v myself_o unto_o thou_o or_o that_o thou_o will_v take_v these_o poor_a long_n of_o my_o soul_n for_o a_o gift_n and_o thereupon_o take_v possession_n of_o my_o soul_n my_o day_n of_o leap_v for_o joy_n to_o think_v of_o thou_o be_v go_v and_o now_o my_o day_n of_o sorrow_n to_o see_v my_o own_o vileness_n be_v come_v my_o tear_n be_v now_o my_o meat_n and_o drink_n o_o that_o i_o have_v more_o of_o they_o so_o they_o be_v more_o spiritual_a i_o be_o a_o poor_a creature_n but_o thou_o be_v the_o rich_a god_n my_o poor_a heart_n why_o do_v thou_o not_o speak_v why_o be_v thou_o silent_a what_o say_v thou_o be_v not_o god_n a_o good_a god_n what_o relish_n or_o sweetness_n be_v there_o in_o these_o word_n if_o thou_o do_v not_o set_v to_o thy_o seal_n lord_n to_o thy_o glory_n though_o not_o to_o my_o comfort_n be_v it_o speak_v thou_o have_v be_v a_o good_a god_n to_o i_o but_o i_o have_v no_o comfort_n from_o this_o truth_n if_o i_o never_o relish_v it_o yet_o if_o my_o heart_n will_v be_v so_o wicked_a and_o vile_a and_o base_a as_o not_o to_o acknowledge_v it_o yet_o my_o hand_n shall_v write_v that_o which_o shall_v witness_v for_o my_o god_n against_o myself_o thou_o be_v good_a patient_a and_o merciful_a unto_o i_o enough_o to_o make_v earth_n and_o heaven_n to_o wonder_v at_o thy_o goodness_n and_o my_o vileness_n ah_o my_o god_n my_o god_n must_v my_o word_n go_v beyond_o my_o thought_n of_o love_n to_o thou_o lord_n thou_o be_v enough_o for_o heaven_n enough_o for_o thyself_o and_o be_v thou_o not_o enough_o for_o i_o try_n o_o my_o soul_n try_v thou_o will_v never_o trust_v before_o thou_o know_v this_o by_o experience_n thou_o know_v abundant_o that_o the_o creature_n have_v tell_v thou_o it_o be_v not_o in_o i_o this_o thou_o know_v by_o experience_n and_o by_o faith_n thou_o know_v it_o be_v in_o god_n well_o then_o lay_v all_o thy_o weight_n and_o strength_n upon_o he_o and_o none_o upon_o the_o creature_n hold_v upon_o he_o with_o both_o hand_n or_o else_o thou_o will_v attribute_v the_o great_a fail_v unto_o god_n for_o as_o he_o that_o stand_v upon_o never_o so_o strong_a a_o place_n if_o he_o lean_a against_o a_o rot_a wall_n he_o shall_v fall_v and_o one_o that_o be_v asleep_a when_o he_o fall_v will_v not_o know_v whether_o fail_v he_o and_o so_o if_o we_o do_v but_o lean_a to_o our_o own_o wisdom_n we_o shall_v happy_o think_v that_o god_n fail_v lord_n i_o wait_v i_o long_o for_o thy_o appearance_n thou_o be_v enough_o lord_n i_o know_v not_o what_o to_o say_v i_o be_o undo_v without_o thou_o lord_n i_o hear_v the_o poor_a fly_n oh_o how_o it_o fly_v up_o and_o down_o now_o it_o be_v warm_v and_o revive_v with_o the_o warmth_n of_o the_o sun_n yesterday_o it_o lay_v still_o as_o dead_a sure_o lord_n if_o thou_o will_v shine_v upon_o my_o soul_n i_o shall_v be_v active_a and_o cheerful_a in_o thy_o service_n no_o marvel_v heaven_n be_v so_o full_a of_o thy_o praise_n when_o thou_o communicate_a thyself_o so_o full_o to_o they_o the_o crumb_n that_o fall_v from_o thy_o table_n be_v too_o much_o for_o i_o these_o temporal_a blessing_n be_v more_o than_o i_o can_v challenge_v yet_o lord_n i_o can_v be_v content_a with_o they_o give_v i_o thyself_o and_o it_o suffice_v for_o all_o be_v nothing_o and_o share_n without_o thou_o meditat._n xl._o alas_o my_o god_n pride_n and_o despair_n divide_v my_o life_n when_o i_o find_v any_o thing_n i_o do_v in_o some_o manner_n as_o i_o shall_v i_o begin_v to_o be_v pu_v up_o and_o think_v that_o i_o do_v more_o than_o some_o other_o of_o god_n people_n and_o when_o i_o look_v upon_o my_o fail_n these_o thought_n begin_v to_o arise_v it_o be_v in_o vain_a i_o shall_v never_o overcome_v such_o corruption_n my_o sin_n do_v i_o more_o harm_n by_o discourage_v i_o then_o in_o the_o commission_n meditat._n xli_o lord_n there_o be_v no_o peace_n until_o thou_o have_v all_o our_o love_n while_o our_o heart_n be_v divide_v between_o the_o world_n and_o thou_o we_o can_v have_v no_o quiet_a natural_a conscience_n draw_v one_o way_n and_o natural_a corruption_n another_o way_n it_o be_v our_o ignorance_n that_o make_v we_o think_v that_o there_o be_v not_o enough_o in_o thou_o to_o satisfy_v all_o our_o desire_n and_o supply_v our_o want_n which_o make_v we_o join_v the_o creature_n with_o thou_o when_o lord_n when_o shall_v all_o my_o thought_n be_v of_o thou_o i_o be_o weary_a of_o be_v thus_o divide_v lord_n if_o i_o can_v dispose_v of_o myself_o i_o give_v myself_o whole_o to_o thou_o o_o refuse_v not_o that_o gift_n which_o thou_o have_v so_o often_o desire_v thou_o have_v say_v give_v i_o thy_o heart_n lord_n my_o heart_n belong_v while_o thou_o have_v it_o if_o thou_o say_v that_o i_o do_v not_o give_v myself_o free_o and_o whole_o enough_o alas_o nor_o never_o shall_v until_o thou_o take_v my_o heart_n and_o discover_v the_o secret_n of_o thy_o love_n unto_o i_o when_o thou_o do_v that_o i_o shall_v run_v after_o thou_o lord_n heâ—e's_v my_o poor_a soul_n it_o lie_v at_o thy_o foot_n grovel_v and_o gasp_v for_o life_n the_o creature_n have_v leave_v i_o and_o i_o have_v leave_v the_o creature_n and_o will_v not_o that_o it_o shall_v have_v any_o more_o of_o my_o love_n but_o it_o still_o woe_n i_o and_o follow_v i_o for_o my_o love_n unless_o thou_o overcome_v these_o strong_a corruption_n i_o shall_v never_o be_v at_o quiet_a meditat._n xlii_o sometime_o my_o heart_n begin_v to_o be_v fill_v with_o joy_n so_o that_o i_o be_o ready_a to_o cry_v out_o thou_o be_v my_o exceed_a joy_n and_o then_o i_o consider_v what_o i_o shall_v do_v for_o i_o be_o afraid_a that_o my_o joy_n be_v false_a when_o i_o consider_v how_o i_o come_v by_o it_o whether_o my_o prayer_n have_v be_v more_o servant_n and_o frequent_a of_o
o_o my_o soul_n how_o come_v it_o to_o pass_v that_o we_o think_v of_o these_o thing_n no_o soon_o it_o be_v a_o strange_a thing_n that_o our_o heart_n and_o the_o world_n shall_v so_o far_o deceive_v we_o that_o we_o shall_v prefer_v every_o trifle_a thing_n before_o that_o which_o concern_v we_o more_o than_o ten_o thousand_o world_n we_o have_v serve_v the_o world_n which_o be_v not_o make_v but_o to_o serve_v we_o 1._o abhor_v thy_o life_n past_a well_o i_o be_o resolve_v to_o leave_v you_o you_o vain_a and_o sinful_a pleasure_n i_o will_v no_o long_o dote_v upon_o you_o you_o have_v but_o too_o long_o bewitch_v my_o soul._n i_o may_v have_v have_v a_o thousand_o holy_a thought_n and_o prayer_n and_o treasure_n of_o alm_n lay_v up_o for_o eternity_n which_o i_o be_o sure_a i_o shall_v not_o have_v repent_v of_o when_o i_o come_v to_o die_v and_o you_o vanity_n have_v take_v up_o my_o time_n and_o steal_v away_o my_o heart_n and_o thought_n from_o these_o thing_n well_o i_o have_v enough_o of_o you_o i_o have_v do_v with_o you_o for_o the_o rest_n of_o my_o strength_n and_o day_n i_o will_v give_v unto_o my_o god_n 3._o turn_v thyself_o to_o god_n and_o say_v bless_a god_n will_v thou_o accept_v of_o the_o service_n of_o a_o poor_a wretch_n that_o have_v spend_v so_o much_o of_o his_o time_n and_o strength_n upon_o base_a lust_n &_o vanity_n nay_o sure_o lord_n if_o thou_o will_v accept_v of_o such_o a_o wretch_n as_o i_o be_o such_o a_o heart_n such_o love_n such_o service_n as_o i_o have_v i_o will_v give_v to_o thou_o and_o for_o the_o time_n to_o come_v thou_o shall_v be_v the_o very_a joy_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o the_o deliciousness_n of_o my_o thought_n and_o do_v thou_o indeed_o entreat_v and_o importune_v i_o to_o be_v reconcile_v how_o wonderful_a be_v thy_o mercy_n that_o notwithstanding_o i_o provoke_v thou_o hitherto_o daily_o to_o thy_o face_n yet_o that_o thou_o shall_v follow_v after_o i_o to_o embrace_v i_o whereas_o what_o can_v be_v expect_v but_o that_o thou_o shall_v pursue_v i_o to_o destroy_v i_o resolution_n well_o by_o the_o blessing_n of_o god_n i_o be_o resolve_v that_o though_o heretofore_o i_o have_v spend_v whole_a day_n in_o such_o and_o such_o like_a recreation_n which_o at_o best_o be_v but_o vanity_n for_o this_o month_n i_o will_v either_o not_o use_v such_o and_o such_o recreation_n at_o all_o or_o at_o least_o spend_v no_o more_o time_n any_o day_n in_o they_o than_o i_o do_v in_o prayer_n and_o meditation_n and_o i_o hope_v one_o day_n the_o lord_n will_v work_v in_o i_o such_o a_o heavenly_a frame_n of_o spirit_n that_o prayer_n and_o meditation_n shall_v be_v in_o stead_n of_o a_o thousand_o recreation_n david_n be_v of_o that_o temper_n for_o he_o say_v that_o he_o will_v go_v to_o god_n his_o exceed_a joy_n and_o that_o the_o law_n of_o god_n be_v dear_a to_o he_o then_o thousand_o of_o gold_n and_o silver_n and_o that_o his_o heart_n be_v ready_a to_o break_v for_o the_o very_a desire_n and_o long_n that_o he_o have_v after_o god_n o_o my_o soul_n that_o will_v be_v a_o rare_a time_n when_o it_o shall_v be_v thus_o with_o we_o why_o shall_v david_n love_v â—od_a more_o than_o we_o â—e_z forgive_v david_n much_o but_o he_o have_v forgive_v we_o more_o wâ—ll_n o_o my_o soul_n if_o thou_o will_v pray_v hard_a and_o follow_v hard_a after_o god_n thou_o little_o know_v what_o he_o will_v do_v for_o thou_o and_o the_o joy_n that_o he_o have_v lay_v up_o for_o they_o that_o love_v he_o even_o in_o this_o world_n be_v unspeakable_a and_o glorious_a conclusion_n 1._o pray_v lord_n thou_o know_v the_o deceitfulness_n of_o my_o heart_n the_o strength_n of_o my_o corruption_n and_o the_o multitude_n of_o snare_n and_o temptation_n which_o encompass_v i_o on_o every_o side_n especial_o when_o i_o be_o in_o worldly_a employment_n in_o company_n thou_o know_v how_o subject_a holy_a flame_n be_v to_o go_v out_o therefore_o be_v thou_o please_v by_o the_o holy_a breathe_n of_o thy_o spirit_n to_o keep_v these_o holy_a fervour_n of_o love_n from_o be_v quench_v it_o be_v not_o the_o strength_n of_o my_o resolution_n that_o can_v enable_v i_o to_o resist_v temptation_n if_o i_o be_o not_o keep_v by_o the_o mighty_a power_n of_o thou_o my_o god_n i_o be_o lose_v 2._o praise_v god_n bless_a be_v thou_o o_o god_n for_o a_o heavenly_a motion_n or_o desire_n that_o have_v be_v wrought_v in_o i_o thou_o may_v have_v suffer_v i_o as_o thou_o do_v thousand_o i_o have_v provoke_v thou_o as_o much_o as_o they_o never_o to_o be_v convince_v of_o or_o affect_v with_o these_o truth_n it_o be_v thy_o wonderful_a mercy_n that_o thou_o do_v make_v i_o for_o such_o a_o bless_a end_n as_o the_o enjoyment_n of_o thyself_o and_o much_o great_a mercy_n that_o thou_o have_v let_v i_o know_v so_o much_o but_o most_o of_o all_o that_o thou_o have_v give_v i_o a_o heart_n to_o desire_v and_o endeavour_v after_o it_o bless_v the_o lord_n o_o my_o soul_n 3._o acknowledge_v thy_o fail_n alas_o lord_n whatsoever_o be_v wrought_v in_o i_o that_o be_v good_a have_v be_v far_o great_a but_o that_o i_o be_o green_a wood_n to_o the_o spark_n of_o thy_o love_n lord_n pardon_v the_o iniquity_n of_o my_o holy_a service_n my_o high_a and_o most_o inflame_a thought_n of_o thou_o be_v unworthy_a of_o thou_o it_o be_v well_o that_o i_o have_v thou_o to_o love_n who_o i_o need_v not_o fear_v love_v too_o much_o after_o the_o meditation_n be_v end_v 1._o think_v with_o thyself_o which_o of_o these_o truth_n or_o what_o passage_n of_o this_o meditation_n do_v most_o warm_a thy_o heart_n and_o affect_v thou_o and_o fix_v it_o and_o treasure_n it_o up_o in_o thy_o thought_n keep_v it_o as_o it_o be_v a_o nosegay_n in_o thy_o hand_n to_o smell_v unto_o all_o the_o day_n 2._o set_a down_o this_o that_o thou_o have_v resolve_v to_o spend_v no_o more_o time_n in_o such_o a_o recreation_n than_o thou_o shall_v spend_v in_o prayer_n and_o meditation_n 3._o go_v unwilling_o from_o this_o duty_n and_o do_v not_o rush_v into_o worldly_a business_n but_o look_v to_o thy_o heart_n which_o be_v a_o slippery_a deceitful_a thing_n meditat._n ii_o of_o the_o mercy_n of_o god_n 1._o be_v convince_v of_o and_o affect_v with_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n 2._o pray_v beg_v of_o god_n that_o he_o will_v put_v such_o consideration_n and_o thought_n into_o thy_o heart_n that_o thou_o may_v be_v so_o convince_v of_o and_o affect_v with_o his_o goodness_n that_o thou_o maï'_v love_n praise_n and_o serve_v he_o consideration_n 1._o consider_v how_o much_o thou_o be_v engage_v to_o god_n for_o bodily_a mercy_n he_o have_v give_v thou_o thy_o sense_n sight_n hear_v and_o other_o part_n of_o thy_o body_n it_o thou_o do_v want_v thy_o sight_n what_o will_v thou_o give_v for_o it_o if_o thou_o be_v emperor_n of_o the_o world_n how_o many_o thousand_o pound_n will_v thou_o give_v a_o diamond_n be_v not_o therefore_o worth_a no_o more_o than_o 6_o d_o because_o a_o poor_a man_n can_v give_v no_o more_o if_o thou_o shall_v reckon_v up_o what_o thy_o hand_n foot_n health_n liberty_n be_v worth_a to_o what_o a_o vast_a sum_n will_v they_o arise_v thou_o have_v all_o these_o thing_n from_o god_n thou_o have_v not_o they_o from_o thy_o parent_n they_o know_v not_o before_o thou_o be_v bear_v whither_o thou_o shall_v be_v male_a a_o female_a thou_o maâ—'st_v say_v to_o god_n as_o david_n do_v in_o thy_o book_n be_v all_o my_o member_n write_v 2._o consider_v what_o faculty_n of_o soul_n god_n have_v give_v thou_o what_o a_o miserable_a condition_n be_v mad_a man_n in_o those_o that_o be_v bear_v natural_a fool_n thou_o be_v well_o and_o thousand_o be_v sick_a thou_o have_v plenty_n when_o thousand_o beg_v their_o bread_n 3._o consider_v what_o spirituality_n of_o mercy_n god_n have_v give_v thou_o how_o many_o thousand_o poor_a ignorant_a heathen_n be_v there_o which_o never_o hear_v of_o god_n and_o of_o christ_n who_o be_v bear_v and_o bread_n where_o the_o gospel_n be_v not_o preach_v but_o worship_v the_o devil_n but_o thou_o dwell_v in_o the_o sunshine_n and_o under_o the_o dropping_n of_o the_o gospel_n and_o be_v not_o these_o great_a mercy_n and_o unvaluable_a if_o thou_o do_v not_o value_v they_o it_o argue_v so_o much_o the_o great_a goodness_n in_o god_n to_o bestow_v they_o upon_o thou_o nay_o have_v not_o god_n make_v thou_o to_o know_v he_o he_o have_v not_o only_o give_v thou_o the_o light_n of_o the_o gospel_n but_o eye_n to_o behold_v it_o 4._o consider_v the_o greatness_n of_o god_n why_o shall_v he_o look_v after_o thou_o nay_o why_o do_v he_o not_o destroy_v thou_o thou_o be_v but_o a_o
profit_n and_o pleasure_n so_o much_o to_o be_v value_v as_o for_o they_o to_o dwell_v in_o devour_a fire_n and_o be_v the_o pleasure_n of_o sin_n that_o be_v but_o for_o a_o season_n to_o much_o worth_n that_o for_o they_o we_o shall_v dwell_v in_o everlasting_a burn_n have_v we_o not_o have_v frequent_a experience_n that_o the_o sorrow_n we_o have_v have_v for_o commit_v of_o sin_n have_v far_o exceed_v the_o pleasure_n that_o we_o have_v have_v in_o commit_v of_o it_o and_o sure_o the_o terror_n of_o a_o awaken_v conscience_n be_v not_o to_o be_v compare_v with_o the_o horror_n of_o the_o damn_a and_o other_o insupportable_a and_o endless_a misery_n of_o that_o place_n of_o torment_n come_v o_o my_o soul_n let_v we_o not_o deceive_v and_o flatter_v ourselves_o with_o vain_a and_o false_a hope_n of_o the_o mercy_n of_o god_n it_o be_v true_a god_n be_v very_o merciful_a to_o they_o that_o fear_v he_o and_o we_o may_v be_v sure_a of_o this_o that_o if_o we_o do_v sincere_o desire_v and_o endeavour_v to_o serve_v he_o that_o we_o shall_v find_v his_o mercy_n as_o much_o above_o our_o thought_n and_o expectation_n of_o they_o as_o the_o heaven_n be_v above_o the_o earth_n but_o if_o we_o slight_v they_o and_o be_v careless_a of_o his_o service_n and_o turn_v his_o grace_n into_o wantonness_n let_v we_o not_o deceive_v ourselves_o with_o vain_a word_n for_o because_o of_o these_o thing_n come_v the_o wrath_n of_o god_n upon_o the_o child_n of_o disobedience_n and_o those_o that_o live_v so_o shall_v sure_o find_v that_o at_o that_o day_n the_o mercy_n of_o god_n will_v not_o serve_v at_o all_o to_o mitigate_v but_o abundant_o to_o justify_v the_o wrath_n and_o fury_n of_o god_n that_o he_o shall_v pour_v out_o upon_o the_o wicked_a then_o they_o shall_v pay_v for_o every_o mercy_n they_o have_v receive_v and_o the_o riches_n of_o his_o despise_a goodness_n shall_v but_o increase_v the_o treasure_n of_o his_o wrath_n therefore_o o_o my_o soul_n since_o these_o thing_n be_v so_o what_o be_v we_o to_o do_v why_o do_v we_o not_o fear_v he_o that_o can_v cast_v both_o body_n and_o soul_n into_o hell_n the_o prophet_n habaccue_n when_o he_o do_v but_o think_v but_o of_o some_o temporal_a judgement_n that_o god_n have_v threaten_v rottenness_n enter_v into_o his_o bone_n if_o indeed_o the_o love_n of_o god_n do_v constrain_v we_o so_o that_o we_o do_v from_o a_o principle_n of_o love_n make_v conscience_n of_o sin_n so_o that_o we_o never_o offend_v god_n it_o be_v well_o but_o since_o we_o plain_o find_v that_o it_o be_v not_o strong_a enough_o alone_o let_v we_o not_o fear_v to_o call_v in_o and_o improve_v the_o consideration_n of_o the_o torment_n of_o hell_n to_o defer_v we_o from_o sin_n the_o motive_n be_v imperfect_a but_o not_o sinful_a our_o great_a work_n we_o have_v to_o do_v in_o the_o world_n next_o to_o the_o glory_n of_o god_n be_v to_o avoid_v hell_n and_o obtain_v heaven_n and_o to_o resist_v our_o now_o three_o great_a enemy_n the_o world_n the_o flesh_n and_o the_o devil_n who_o endeavour_n day_n and_o night_n to_o drive_v we_o headlong_o into_o perdition_n if_o any_o one_o in_o the_o world_n much_o more_o if_o the_o devil_n shall_v appear_v to_o we_o and_o offer_v we_o such_o a_o sum_n of_o money_n if_o we_o will_v give_v he_o our_o soul_n that_o we_o may_v be_v damn_v we_o think_v we_o shall_v abhor_v he_o and_o his_o offer_n but_o alas_o do_v not_o every_o one_o that_o use_v by_o extortion_n and_o violence_n either_o get_v or_o keep_v what_o be_v not_o he_o do_v the_o same_o thing_n his_o damnation_n be_v as_o certain_a and_o as_o infallible_a though_o more_o secret_o and_o invisible_o contrive_v by_o satan_n as_o if_o satan_n shall_v visible_o appear_v to_o he_o and_o he_o make_v a_o contract_n with_o he_o therefore_o o_o my_o soul_n let_v we_o take_v heed_n of_o the_o wile_n of_o satan_n for_o he_o general_o work_v by_o the_o world_n and_o the_o flesh_n to_o deceive_v we_o therefore_o let_v we_o now_o resolve_v by_o the_o blessing_n of_o god_n to_o look_v upon_o the_o world_n and_o the_o flesh_n to_o be_v as_o dangerous_a and_o implacable_a enemy_n as_o satan_n himself_o let_v we_o not_o endeavour_v to_o please_v the_o world_n by_o vain_a discourse_n by_o omit_v what_o god_n command_v or_o do_v what_o he_o forbid_v let_v we_o not_o be_v trouble_v but_o rather_o rejoice_v when_o we_o be_v revile_v and_o scorn_v for_o righteousness_n sake_n for_o the_o time_n to_o come_v when_o i_o be_o to_o do_v any_o religious_a duty_n i_o will_v not_o so_o much_o as_o consider_v what_o man_n will_v judge_v or_o say_v of_o i_o nor_o endeavour_v to_o make_v the_o world_n my_o friend_n since_o god_n himself_o have_v set_v enmity_n between_o we_o and_o as_o for_o the_o flesh_n i_o be_o sure_a we_o be_v no_o debtor_n unto_o that_o we_o have_v pay_v it_o far_o more_o than_o ever_o we_o owe_v it_o therefore_o for_o the_o time_n to_o come_v i_o will_v rather_o abstain_v from_o lawful_a then_o use_v unlawful_a pleasure_n and_o i_o will_v take_v heed_n not_o only_o of_o those_o pleasure_n that_o be_v unlawful_a in_o kind_n but_o those_o also_o that_o be_v unlawful_a in_o degree_n and_o that_o i_o may_v better_o avoid_v unlawful_a pleasure_n i_o will_v sometime_o abstain_v from_o those_o that_o be_v lawful_a and_o have_v serious_o consider_v i_o be_o convince_v of_o this_o that_o i_o have_v not_o make_v conscience_n enough_o in_o the_o matter_n of_o sleep_n i_o have_v not_o redeem_v the_o time_n from_o that_o nor_o have_v enough_o consider_v the_o sinfulness_n of_o it_o but_o like_o the_o sluggard_n that_o solomon_n speak_v of_o have_v turn_v upon_o my_o bed_n as_o a_o door_n upon_o the_o hinge_n therefore_o henceforth_o i_o shall_v endeavour_v to_o get_v as_o much_o time_n from_o sleep_n as_o the_o health_n and_o strength_n of_o my_o body_n will_v permit_v and_o because_o i_o be_o confident_a that_o if_o the_o damn_a be_v in_o their_o nature_n change_v and_o be_v to_o live_v again_o on_o earth_n they_o will_v think_v it_o a_o bless_a change_n to_o change_v their_o howl_n into_o sing_n of_o psalm_n and_o their_o roar_n into_o prayer_n nay_o if_o they_o be_v to_o live_v methuselahs_n age_n upon_o the_o rack_n therefore_o whensoever_o i_o be_o at_o any_o time_n tempt_v to_o be_v weary_a of_o this_o labour_n of_o love_n that_o be_v to_o be_v undertake_v in_o the_o hard_a duty_n of_o religion_n i_o will_v endeavour_v to_o shame_v myself_o out_o of_o that_o temptation_n by_o think_v thus_o with_o myself_o that_o hell_n be_v so_o much_o worse_a than_o we_o can_v suffer_v in_o this_o world_n either_o in_o god_n service_n or_o for_o god_n service_n that_o it_o be_v not_o only_o a_o desperate_a wickedness_n but_o madness_n for_o the_o avoid_n of_o the_o one_o to_o fall_v into_o the_o other_o for_o the_o conclusion_n of_o this_o meditation_n observe_v the_o direction_n and_o instance_n of_o former_a meditation_n meditat._n vii_o of_o heaven_n 1._o be_v convince_v of_o and_o affect_v with_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n 2._o pray_v to_o god_n to_o assist_v and_o enable_v thou_o in_o the_o work_n consideration_n 1._o consider_v o_o my_o soul_n the_o wonderful_a greatness_n and_o incomprehensibleness_n of_o those_o joy_n for_o 1._o consider_v what_o great_a thing_n god_n have_v give_v to_o wicked_a man_n in_o this_o work_n what_o vast_a dominion_n power_n wisdom_n learning_n majesty_n and_o indeed_o as_o to_o the_o thing_n of_o the_o world_n as_o much_o as_o their_o heart_n can_v desire_v if_o god_n give_v such_o thing_n to_o dog_n and_o swine_n what_o may_v we_o think_v be_v the_o dainty_n of_o that_o banquet_n which_o god_n feast_v his_o child_n withal_o 2._o behold_v the_o earth_n and_o the_o heaven_n in_o the_o height_n of_o the_o beauty_n of_o the_o spring_n and_o in_o the_o strength_n of_o the_o glory_n of_o the_o sun_n how_o delightful_a a_o sight_n be_v it_o to_o behold_v the_o work_n of_o god_n creation_n here_o below_o the_o commonness_n of_o this_o sight_n much_o abate_v the_o delight_n and_o wonder_n of_o it_o but_o doubtless_o if_o a_o man_n that_o be_v bear_v blind_a shall_v when_o he_o have_v attain_v to_o the_o full_a perfection_n of_o his_o age_n and_o understanding_n be_v place_v in_o a_o paradise_n as_o adam_n be_v and_o shall_v see_v as_o soon_o as_o his_o eye_n be_v open_v the_o earth_n adorn_v with_o all_o manner_n of_o curious_a flower_n and_o tree_n lade_v with_o all_o manner_n of_o fruit_n and_o sun_n shine_v in_o its_o full_a strength_n how_o wonderful_o delightful_a will_v such_o a_o fight_n be_v and_o if_o the_o foot_n stool_n of_o god_n be_v so_o rich_a how_o glorious_a be_v his_o throne_n 3._o consider_v the_o wondeful_a manifestation_n