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interest_n to_o advance_v god_n glory_n a_o soul_n ought_v to_o be_v well-pleased_a that_o her_o body_n shall_v be_v crumble_v to_o dust_n and_o as_o it_o be_v reduce_v to_o nothing_o to_o exalt_v the_o glory_n of_o god_n and_o glorify_v his_o justice_n a_o holy_a person_n much_o wonder_v how_o the_o saint_n who_o be_v powerful_a with_o god_n keep_v their_o body_n so_o long_o entire_a not_o obtain_v that_o they_o may_v be_v humble_v by_o putrefaction_n because_o they_o know_v the_o inestimable_a value_n of_o humiliation_n which_o most_o glorify_v god_n aught_o as_o it_o seem_v to_o have_v procure_v it_o to_o their_o body_n but_o if_o god_n think_v best_a to_o glorify_v himself_o by_o preserve_v they_o from_o corruption_n his_o divine_a will_n be_v and_o must_v be_v the_o rule_n of_o their_o desire_n sometime_o i_o have_v desire_v death_n as_o amiable_a because_o it_o will_v give_v i_o free_a access_n to_o enjoy_v god_n but_o at_o present_a i_o have_v the_o spirit_n of_o annihilation_n 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to_o enjoyment_n without_o have_v regard_n to_o her_o proper_a satisfaction_n chap._n xviii_o consideration_n upon_o the_o natural_a inclination_n we_o have_v to_o evil_n a_o stone_n hold_v in_o the_o air_n if_o let_v go_v fall_v natural_o to_o the_o ground_n by_o its_o own_o weight_n and_o it_o be_v no_o more_o matter_n of_o wonder_n when_o we_o fall_v into_o imperfection_n if_o god_n leave_v we_o to_o ourselves_o we_o be_v present_o in_o our_o own_o nothing_o weakness_n and_o infirmity_n and_o if_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n be_v not_o very_o great_a unto_o we_o we_o shall_v fall_v more_o often_o they_o may_v be_v think_v valiant_a who_o bear_v up_o stout_o against_o the_o blast_n of_o strong_a temptation_n alas_o take_v we_o at_o the_o best_a we_o be_v as_o frail_a as_o glass_n on_o a_o cupboard_n if_o some_o be_v soon_o break_v it_o be_v because_o they_o be_v more_o use_v and_o find_v in_o the_o hand_n of_o a_o ill_a manager_n those_o that_o stand_v still_o on_o the_o cupboard_n if_o 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will_v govern_v we_o if_o we_o live_v the_o life_n of_o christianity_n the_o first_o will_v conduct_v we_o and_o impart_v to_o we_o such_o direction_n as_o his_o holy_a soul_n receive_v from_o the_o divinity_n which_o be_v all_o for_o the_o cross_n and_o humiliation_n if_o we_o love_v only_o a_o human_a life_n the_o other_o will_v guide_v we_o in_o the_o way_n of_o self-love_n it_o be_v as_o great_a a_o miracle_n for_o a_o soul_n to_o live_v a_o supernatural_a life_n as_o for_o a_o stone_n to_o elevate_v itself_o into_o the_o air_n because_o the_o corruption_n of_o sin_n have_v make_v the_o soul_n so_o heavy_a that_o of_o herself_o she_o can_v but_o tend_v downward_o to_o sin_n and_o misery_n this_o be_v that_o which_o magnify_v the_o power_n of_o grace_n in_o we_o so_o that_o it_o be_v a_o prodigious_a vanity_n to_o boast_v of_o our_o good_a action_n when_o be_v do_v by_o the_o supernatural_a power_n of_o grace_n they_o be_v not_o the_o fruit_n of_o human_a nature_n if_o a_o soul_n 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