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lose_v the_o sight_n of_o the_o light_n of_o faith_n she_o will_v soon_o lose_v herself_o in_o the_o mist_n of_o self-love_n if_o she_o do_v not_o live_v in_o a_o continual_a mortification_n by_o curb_v her_o natural_a appetite_n she_o must_v needs_o fall_v into_o superfluity_n and_o imperfection_n the_o sweetness_n and_o joy_n that_o a_o soul_n receive_v from_o austerity_n cross_n poverty_n denudation_n of_o creature_n make_v her_o spiritual_a peaceful_a cheerful_a and_o afford_v her_o solid_a content_n and_o satisfaction_n the_o content_a and_o delight_n she_o receive_v from_o sensual_a pleasure_n though_o lawful_a as_o meat_n and_o drink_n temporal_a success_n reputation_n etc._n etc._n make_v she_o carnal_a and_o afford_v she_o but_o a_o false_a peace_n and_o vain_a joy_n and_o instead_o of_o elevate_a she_o to_o contemplation_n do_v more_o or_o less_o depress_v she_o to_o sensuality_n chap._n xi_o that_o truth_n be_v only_o find_v in_o the_o spirit_n of_o christianity_n the_o 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verity_n whatsoever_o be_v not_o christian_n that_o be_v to_o say_v according_a to_o the_o maxim_n of_o christianity_n she_o esteem_v now_o as_o folly_n death_n and_o perdition_n and_o what_o to_o the_o world_n and_o the_o flesh_n be_v folly_n death_n and_o perdition_n she_o account_v to_o be_v wisdom_n life_n and_o the_o great_a gain_n o_o when_o the_o ray_n of_o this_o light_n do_v pierce_v a_o soul_n how_o on_o a_o sudden_a become_v she_o know_v content_a and_o elevate_v it_o be_v hardly_o credible_a how_o much_o such_o a_o soul_n be_v alienate_v from_o herself_o and_o whatsoever_o be_v not_o god_n she_o see_v so_o much_o wisdom_n in_o the_o folly_n of_o saint_n and_o so_o much_o beauty_n in_o their_o misery_n that_o all_o the_o allurement_n of_o the_o world_n can_v win_v her_o affection_n for_o have_v be_v take_v
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well_o enough_o know_v by_o many_o though_o practise_v but_o by_o few_o that_o a_o little_a matter_n hinder_v the_o operation_n of_o god_n grace_n in_o we_o one_o only_o small_a natural_a inclination_n unmortified_a suffice_v to_o retard_v our_o progress_n to_o perfection_n for_o this_o reason_n we_o must_v exact_o die_v to_o all_o creature_n annihilate_v in_o we_o every_o motion_n that_o tend_v not_o to_o god_n some_o way_n or_o other_o as_o for_o example_n to_o give_v no_o refreshment_n to_o the_o body_n by_o meat_n drink_z or_o sleep_v &c_n &c_n but_o for_o necessity_n we_o must_v also_o mortify_v in_o we_o the_o desire_n of_o honour_n and_o temporal_a commodity_n yea_o love_v abjection_n pain_n and_o poverty_n will_v nothing_o but_o what_o may_v conduce_v to_o advance_v god_n glory_n i_o more_o value_v the_o union_n of_o a_o soul_n with_o god_n in_o humiliation_n and_o suffering_n than_o in_o consolation_n chap._n xiii_o some_o maxim_n concern_v a_o supernatural_a life_n o_o god_n 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but_o that_o we_o may_v not_o be_v want_v to_o cooperate_v with_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n vouchsafe_v unto_o we_o holy_a solitude_n be_v the_o region_n of_o divine_a communication_n ducam_fw-la eam_fw-la in_o solitudinem_fw-la &_o loquar_fw-la ad_fw-la cor_fw-la ejus_fw-la say_v god_n by_o the_o prophet_n i_o will_v lead_v a_o soul_n into_o solitude_n and_o speak_v interior_o to_o her_o heart_n 4._o the_o reason_n why_o we_o see_v so_o few_o even_o devout_a christian_n make_v progress_n in_o perfection_n be_v because_o they_o limit_v the_o grace_n they_o have_v receive_v hinder_v its_o enlargement_n by_o natural_a argument_n and_o human_a prudence_n they_o say_v it_o be_v enough_o for_o i_o to_o do_v this_o or_o that_o i_o ought_v not_o to_o aspire_v to_o so_o high_a perfection_n those_o who_o live_v in_o the_o world_n can_v be_v so_o elevate_v in_o the_o way_n of_o god_n these_o and_o suchlike_a excuse_n they_o make_v which_o hinder_v the_o grace_n of_o god_n from_o work_v full_o what_o he_o intend_v if_o we_o do_v but_o consider_v the_o ardent_a desire_n that_o jesus_n have_v to_o advance_v soul_n in_o the_o way_n of_o divine_a love_n and_o how_o ready_a he_o be_v to_o bestow_v on_o we_o new_a grace_n upon_o our_o faithful_a correspond_v with_o the_o former_a we_o will_v be_v both_o ravish_v and_o ashamed_a also_o to_o be_v so_o backward_o in_o give_v ourselves_o up_o to_o the_o conduct_n of_o god_n who_o desire_v nothing_o so_o much_o as_o that_o we_o may_v love_v he_o perfect_o and_o enjoy_v he_o eternal_o but_o as_o while_o jesus_n be_v on_o earth_n it_o be_v say_v of_o he_o that_o the_o world_n know_v he_o not_o and_o his_o own_o receive_v he_o not_o for_o see_v he_o bear_v in_o a_o stable_a circumcise_a as_o a_o sinner_n live_v poor_o as_o a_o carpenter_n persecute_v accuse_v condemn_v to_o die_v a_o infamous_a death_n on_o the_o cross_n they_o will_v not_o take_v he_o for_o the_o promise_a messiah_n so_o as_o yet_o he_o be_v not_o well_o know_v and_o 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that_o purity_n wherewith_o i_o ought_v to_o love_v he_o who_o be_v essential_o good_a and_o perfect_a i_o know_v god_n be_v a_o jealous_a god_n who_o will_v admit_v no_o rival_n in_o his_o love_n and_o that_o with_o great_a reason_n because_o he_o be_v only_o true_o amiable_a as_o our_o sovereign_a good_a o_o that_o he_o be_v love_v according_a to_o his_o beauty_n my_o soul_n be_v inflame_v with_o a_o great_a desire_n to_o disengage_v herself_o from_o all_o creature_n that_o i_o may_v whole_o be_v busy_v about_o god_n alone_o i_o see_v clear_o that_o this_o be_v my_o principal_n concern_v and_o not_o to_o meddle_v with_o other_o affair_n without_o necessity_n for_o a_o soul_n who_o god_n attract_v to_o a_o sublime_a union_n with_o himself_o must_v cut_v off_o abundance_n of_o superfluous_a thought_n discourse_n and_o occupation_n or_o else_o she_o will_v be_v liable_a to_o a_o thousand_o amusement_n for_o my_o part_n i_o often_o say_v to_o myself_o come_v my_o soul_n let_v we_o to_o 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crucify_a life_n be_v in_o a_o manner_n the_o end_n of_o the_o mystic_a life_n who_o gust_n and_o light_n conduce_v to_o fortify_v the_o soul_n to_o carry_v she_o across_o the_o better_a st._n teresa_n say_v that_o it_o be_v a_o good_a sign_n after_o a_o soul_n have_v be_v in_o a_o ecstasy_n if_o she_o find_v in_o herself_o extraordinary_a desire_n to_o suffer_v in_o that_o she_o can_v return_v from_o those_o holy_a communication_n with_o god_n but_o well_o instruct_v for_o the_o perfection_n of_o love_n here_o consist_v in_o suffer_v for_o the_o love_n of_o jesus_n and_o not_o enjoy_v he_o let_v we_o not_o complain_v then_o if_o we_o be_v not_o elevate_v by_o mystic_a union_n but_o rather_o rejoice_v too_o see_v our_o poor_a soul_n in_o prayer_n among_o the_o thorn_n of_o dryness_n and_o aridity_n than_o the_o rose_n of_o a_o sweet_a and_o gustful_a devotion_n interiour_n as_o well_o as_o exterior_a suffering_n must_v be_v please_v to_o we_o see_v a_o true_a christian_n ought_v to_o 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consolation_n see_v the_o state_n of_o light_n and_o sweetness_n appear_v to_o she_o not_o preferable_a to_o that_o of_o obscurity_n and_o so_o taste_v of_o those_o sweet_n they_o be_v not_o now_o so_o pleasant_a have_v discover_v that_o the_o bitterness_n of_o aridity_n be_v more_o acceptable_a to_o a_o soul_n that_o desire_v nothing_o but_o the_o pure_a love_n of_o jesus_n christ_n crucify_a and_o that_o thereby_o may_v be_v more_o firm_o unite_v to_o her_o saviour_n when_o i_o be_o in_o darkness_n and_o aridity_n i_o stand_v in_o need_n of_o a_o indifferency_n in_o every_o state_n that_o i_o may_v bear_v with_o patience_n my_o abjection_n and_o poverty_n i_o have_v more_o need_n of_o indifferency_n when_o my_o soul_n be_v enlighten_v which_o irradiation_n god_n vouchsafe_v we_o to_o strengthen_v our_o weakness_n and_o not_o as_o i_o have_v think_v heretofore_o to_o advance_v we_o in_o the_o practice_n of_o divine_a love_n which_o be_v more_o eminent_a in_o the_o contrary_a condition_n i_o have_v stand_v in_o need_n of_o comfort_n in_o my_o suffering_n and_o i_o have_v stand_v more_o in_o need_n of_o it_o in_o a_o state_n of_o joy_n and_o sweetness_n i_o say_v heretofore_o when_o i_o abound_v with_o consolation_n that_o i_o shall_v never_o suffer_v again_o at_o present_a i_o think_v i_o shall_v suffer_v as_o long_o as_o i_o live_v see_v i_o find_v cross_n in_o every_o state_n and_o i_o frame_v myself_o to_o a_o indifferency_n to_o god_n will_v and_o pleasure_n in_o his_o deal_n with_o i_o heretofore_o inebriate_v with_o consolation_n i_o say_v fulcite_fw-la i_o floribus_fw-la stipate_v i_o malis_fw-la quia_fw-la amore_fw-la langueo_fw-la surround_v i_o with_o flower_n and_o apple_n to_o augment_v my_o comfort_n and_o increase_v my_o love_n but_o now_o i_o say_v surround_v i_o with_o cross_n contempt_n and_o suffering_n for_o languish_v with_o love_n i_o desire_v to_o love_n jesus_n better_a than_o ever_o it_o be_v a_o wonderful_a thing_n that_o i_o shall_v be_v more_o poor_a now_o then_o when_o i_o be_v deprive_v of_o all_o consolation_n i_o will_v not_o then_o too_o greedy_o seek_v after_o light_n and_o sweetness_n see_v methinks_v they_o make_v i_o poor_a i_o stand_v amaze_v to_o see_v a_o soul_n to_o find_v herself_o desolate_a by_o consolation_n in_o desolation_n the_o inferior_a part_n of_o the_o soul_n suffer_v but_o in_o consolation_n the_o superior_a part_n and_o more_o elevate_v but_o little_o know_v i_o perceive_v that_o the_o supreme_a part_n of_o the_o soul_n can_v be_v content_a and_o comfort_v but_o by_o the_o death_n of_o the_o sensual_a part_n and_o a_o separation_n from_o all_o inordinate_a affection_n to_o the_o creature_n i_o shall_v therefore_o rather_o desire_v a_o state_n of_o desolation_n and_o fidelity_n therein_o than_o all_o the_o delicious_a gust_n of_o prayer_n though_o so_o elevate_v as_o to_o bring_v the_o soul_n to_o ravish_a ecstasy_n chap._n ii_o of_o the_o different_a sort_n of_o mental_a prayer_n i_o find_v a_o comparison_n which_o explicate_v very_o well_o the_o difference_n of_o ordinary_a prayer_n and_o prayer_n passive_n a_o man_n may_v see_v well_o enough_o the_o furniture_n of_o a_o chamber_n and_o the_o riches_n of_o a_o cabinet_n by_o strike_v fire_n and_o light_v a_o candle_n to_o view_v the_o particular_n or_o by_o the_o light_n of_o the_o sun_n when_o we_o have_v nothing_o to_o do_v but_o to_o open_v our_o eye_n to_o behold_v those_o object_n meditation_n much_o resemble_v the_o first_o way_n of_o see_v with_o a_o candle_n perfect_a contemplation_n the_o second_o way_n of_o see_v by_o the_o sun_n because_o it_o be_v do_v not_o only_o without_o labour_n but_o all_o at_o once_o and_o with_o delight_n when_o the_o light_n of_o the_o sun_n fail_v we_o we_o must_v supply_v it_o with_o a_o lamp_n or_o candle_n when_o god_n do_v not_o communicate_v himself_o by_o contemplation_n we_o must_v seek_v after_o he_o by_o meditation_n and_o be_v content_a with_o god_n gift_n whatever_o they_o be_v with_o peace_n and_o humility_n when_o god_n withdraw_v his_o passive_a light_n it_o be_v in_o vain_a to_o strive_v to_o retain_v it_o we_o must_v acquiess_v in_o his_o pleasure_n till_o it_o return_v again_o as_o he_o think_v good_a if_o god_n please_v to_o leave_v we_o in_o darkness_n without_o sun_n or_o candle_n it_o be_v a_o opportunity_n to_o practice_n humility_n and_o patience_n for_o we_o must_v desire_v nothing_o but_o god_n alone_o and_o in_o what_o manner_n he_o think_v best_o let_v a_o soul_n be_v never_o so_o perfect_a she_o be_v never_o continual_o elevate_v to_o a_o high_a degree_n of_o contemplation_n but_o more_o or_o less_o as_o it_o please_v god_n she_o must_v descend_v to_o the_o practice_n of_o virtue_n and_o exercise_n of_o charity_n or_o to_o discursive_a meditation_n by_o application_n to_o god_n in_o the_o
by_o jesus_n christ_n there_o be_v no_o other_o mean_n to_o attain_v salvation_n 6._o that_o the_o sacred_a trinity_n which_o consist_v in_o the_o perfect_a knowledge_n and_o pure_a love_n of_o the_o divine_a person_n be_v the_o true_a model_n of_o perfect_a prayer_n these_o deep_o consider_v be_v very_o instrumental_a to_o elevate_v a_o contemplative_a soul_n to_o so_o high_a a_o pitch_n that_o sometimos_fw-la she_o in_o a_o wonderful_a manner_n participate_v of_o that_o life_n eternal_a which_o be_v in_o god_n himself_o i_o have_v make_v a_o resolution_n to_o desire_v of_o god_n that_o my_o prayer_n may_v be_v altogether_o intellectual_a to_o the_o end_n i_o may_v not_o feel_v such_o sensible_a gust_n of_o heavenly_a consolation_n which_o prejudice_n nature_n these_o be_v but_o sweet_a baiâ—s_n for_o self-love_n which_o sully_n the_o purity_n of_o prayer_n and_o diminish_v the_o contemplative_a attention_n which_o continue_v more_o strong_a and_o vigorous_a when_o keep_v on_o the_o point_n of_o the_o spirit_n whereby_o the_o fire_n of_o divine_a love_n burn_v bright_a and_o with_o more_o constant_a flame_n this_o be_v that_o continual_a union_n which_o be_v the_o object_n of_o perfection_n and_o whatever_o hinder_v this_o aught_o to_o be_v suspect_v as_o be_v sensible_a gust_n of_o devotion_n in_o inferior_a nature_n o_o my_o soul_n let_v we_o therefore_o entire_o give_v up_o ourselves_o to_o god_n in_o prayer_n to_o receive_v from_o he_o such_o impression_n as_o he_o think_v best_o let_v our_o chief_a care_n be_v full_o to_o submit_v ourselves_o to_o he_o and_o to_o be_v disengage_v from_o all_o worldly_a thing_n and_o accept_v with_o thankfulness_n whatever_o he_o give_v we_o if_o he_o give_v we_o nothing_o let_v nothing_o content_v we_o and_o peaceable_o acquiesce_v in_o union_n with_o his_o divine_a will._n a_o soul_n faithful_a in_o the_o state_n of_o privation_n will_v soon_o or_o late_a as_o god_n see_v best_a be_v raise_v to_o pure_a union_n and_o enjoyment_n on_o the_o lofty_a wing_n of_o contemplation_n chap._n ix_o of_o the_o prayer_n of_o faith_n this_o prayer_n be_v a_o bare_a reflection_n or_o simple_a remembrance_n of_o god_n who_o be_v believe_v by_o naked_a faith_n as_o he_o be_v see_v and_o know_v by_o the_o light_n of_o glory_n it_o be_v the_o same_o object_n here_o and_o there_o but_o know_v by_o the_o soul_n in_o a_o different_a manner_n the_o way_n of_o know_v god_n here_o be_v but_o learned_a ignorance_n earth_n be_v the_o land_n of_o believe_v heaven_n of_o see_v to_o see_v god_n as_o we_o be_v see_v of_o he_o and_o understand_v all_o divine_a mystery_n be_v reserve_v for_o the_o light_n of_o glory_n here_o we_o must_v walk_v by_o the_o obscurity_n of_o faith_n this_o faith_n must_v be_v naked_a without_o image_n or_o representation_n simple_a and_o without_o discourse_n universal_a without_o a_o distinct_a consideration_n of_o particular_n the_o operation_n of_o the_o will_n be_v conform_v to_o that_o of_o the_o 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of_o the_o will_n be_v this_o death_n and_o this_o death_n be_v not_o ordinary_o wrought_v but_o by_o privation_n this_o kind_n of_o prayer_n be_v uniform_a and_o not_o much_o liable_a to_o alteration_n nor_o bring_v any_o damage_n to_o the_o body_n for_o nature_n have_v nothing_o to_o do_v in_o it_o be_v not_o procurable_a by_o great_a endeavour_n of_o humane_a industry_n but_o depend_v pure_o on_o the_o will_n of_o god_n who_o alone_o give_v it_o when_o and_o to_o who_o he_o please_v it_o be_v true_a this_o pure_a and_o naked_a contemplation_n of_o god_n by_o faith_n be_v give_v but_o rare_o and_o to_o those_o who_o have_v pass_v through_o many_o purgatory_n and_o state_n of_o penance_n to_o fit_v they_o for_o it_o in_o the_o beginning_n it_o dart_v into_o the_o soul_n but_o transient_a irradiation_n like_o flash_n of_o lightning_n if_o at_o any_o time_n they_o continue_v about_o half_a a_o hour_n it_o be_v very_o much_o however_o they_o work_v in_o the_o soul_n very_o great_a effect_n one_o of_o the_o principal_n be_v that_o this_o light_n of_o faith_n discover_v to_o we_o the_o verity_n of_o divine_a mystery_n imperfection_n and_o the_o perfection_n we_o want_v and_o practical_a virtue_n and_o all_o this_o at_o once_o not_o successive_o one_o after_o another_o by_o discourse_n which_o can_v never_o arrive_v to_o produce_v a_o knowledge_n so_o clear_a and_o universal_a but_o indeed_o the_o understanding_n have_v much_o ado_n to_o die_v to_o its_o own_o operation_n and_o not_o act_v by_o humane_a light_n by_o be_v whole_o give_v up_o to_o the_o obscurity_n of_o faith_n however_o this_o must_v be_v do_v to_o be_v right_o dispose_v for_o divine_a operation_n there_o be_v divers_a degree_n of_o contemplation_n but_o what_o god_n be_v please_v to_o give_v we_o must_v be_v receive_v with_o submissive_a thankfulness_n while_o we_o live_v in_o mortal_a body_n we_o shall_v have_v always_o something_o to_o purify_v and_o therefore_o always_o something_a to_o suffer_v three_o part_n of_o our_o life_n pass_v away_o in_o a_o suffer_a condition_n in_o a_o state_n of_o obscurity_n the_o soul_n be_v intimate_o unite_v to_o god_n although_o she_o be_v not_o sensible_a thereof_o i_o be_o much_o take_v with_o the_o way_n of_o pure_a faith_n in_o prayer_n whereby_o the_o soul_n know_v god_n as_o much_o as_o she_o can_v do_v in_o this_o life_n and_o though_o it_o be_v obscure_a it_o matter_n not_o be_v sure_a and_o certain_a for_o my_o part_n take_v as_o much_o as_o you_o will_v of_o my_o light_n of_o reason_n if_o the_o light_n of_o faith_n increase_v thereby_o o_o how_o beautiful_a be_v pure_a and_o naked_a faith_n it_o much_o conduce_v to_o spiritualise_v a_o soul_n to_o live_v continual_o by_o faith_n to_o esteem_v and_o love_v nothing_o but_o what_o we_o ought_v to_o esteem_v and_o love_n man_n rare_o will_v relinquish_v his_o reason_n and_o nevertheless_o he_o must_v raise_v himself_o above_o it_o or_o drag_v on_o the_o earth_n with_o imperfection_n faith_n be_v a_o participation_n of_o the_o eternal_a wisdom_n she_o only_o conduct_n we_o with_o true_a assurance_n for_o her_o light_n though_o dark_a be_v certain_a and_o their_o obscurity_n do_v incomparable_o transcend_v the_o clear_a evidence_n of_o natural_a reason_n moreover_o to_o make_v prayer_n more_o intellectual_a and_o that_o nature_n may_v have_v no_o hand_n in_o it_o we_o must_v leave_v off_o some_o thing_n which_o usual_o do_v raise_v our_o heart_n to_o god_n with_o a_o sensible_a devotion_n as_o music_n rich_a ornament_n devout_a picture_n in_o church_n and_o the_o like_a this_o be_v good_a and_o profitable_a in_o the_o begin_n of_o a_o spiritual_a life_n and_o some_o time_n after_o but_o when_o a_o soul_n have_v attain_v purity_n of_o prayer_n there_o be_v no_o need_n to_o take_v her_o nourishment_n that_o be_v her_o knowledge_n and_o love_n but_o from_o pure_a faith_n and_o supernatural_a light_n infuse_v into_o she_o when_o we_o take_v not_o good_a heed_n we_o keep_v not_o ourselves_o sufficient_o passive_a to_o the_o operation_n of_o god_n but_o we_o go_v a_o bege_n for_o the_o life_n of_o the_o soul_n to_o sensible_a object_n when_o god_n himself_o will_v nourish_v she_o with_o more_o purify_a knowledge_n and_o divine_a love_n why_o shall_v we_o hanker_v after_o sensible_a gust_n of_o devotion_n see_v nature_n be_v common_o too_o much_o take_v with_o they_o to_o the_o damage_n of_o naked_a faith_n and_o the_o hindrance_n of_o our_o pure_a union_n with_o god_n which_o require_v a_o total_a denudation_n of_o all_o creature_n notwithstanding_o when_o god_n try_v we_o with_o dereliction_n and_o give_v we_o not_o admittance_n into_o his_o presence_n but_o by_o thing_n sensible_a and_o discursive_a prayer_n we_o must_v humble_o comply_v with_o this_o state_n and_o not_o pretend_v to_o high_a elevation_n in_o our_o address_n to_o he_o yet_o if_o a_o soul_n in_o
have_v to_o jesus_n the_o soul_n lose_v the_o sight_n thereof_o fall_v into_o distraction_n be_v carry_v insensible_o to_o a_o different_a matter_n but_o when_o she_o consider_v poverty_n as_o enshrine_v in_o the_o heart_n of_o jesus_n and_o practise_v by_o he_o she_o be_v take_v up_o with_o jesus_n which_o be_v much_o better_a and_o so_o this_o digression_n prove_v profitable_a and_o she_o gain_v by_o this_o loss_n it_o be_v the_o same_o when_o we_o meditate_v on_o any_o perfection_n of_o god_n and_o fall_v from_o our_o first_o subject_n we_o be_v happy_o lose_v in_o the_o depth_n of_o the_o divinity_n where_o we_o find_v no_o love_n but_o of_o god_n himself_o o_o happy_a loss_n there_o be_v no_o knowledge_n more_o necessary_a for_o we_o than_o of_o our_o misery_n and_o imperfection_n because_o that_o or_o nothing_o will_v well_o ground_v we_o in_o humility_n without_o which_o we_o can_v raise_v virtue_n to_o any_o height_n in_o a_o spiritual_a life_n we_o may_v get_v this_o 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unless_o she_o be_v purify_v from_o all_o voluntary_a defect_n for_o how_o can_v god_n in_o such_o a_o gracious_a manner_n visit_v a_o soul_n which_o be_v free_a from_o disquiet_n and_o ordinary_a imperfection_n how_o can_v she_o hear_v the_o voice_n of_o god_n among_o the_o noise_n of_o creature_n if_o they_o live_v in_o she_o with_o any_o affection_n to_o put_v ourselves_o into_o the_o hand_n of_o god_n to_o do_v with_o we_o what_o he_o please_v in_o our_o address_n to_o he_o we_o must_v be_v exact_o attentive_a to_o his_o order_n which_o he_o will_v interior_o make_v know_v to_o we_o either_o by_o illustration_n in_o our_o understanding_n or_o instinct_n and_o motion_n in_o our_o will._n perfect_a purity_n of_o heart_n require_v that_o the_o soul_n have_v no_o eye_n to_o her_o own_o interest_n but_o sole_o to_o do_v the_o will_n of_o god_n her_o principal_a care_n must_v only_o be_v to_o regard_v he_o to_o love_v and_o serve_v he_o without_o curious_o examine_v his_o gift_n and_o grace_n she_o know_v well_o enough_o that_o in_o passive_a prayer_n there_o be_v many_o way_n to_o come_v to_o god_n and_o divers_a manner_n to_o sacrifice_v ourselves_o to_o divine_a love_n some_o spend_v themselves_o in_o do_v good_a to_o their_o neighbour_n other_o in_o suffer_v for_o their_o faith_n by_o the_o cruelty_n of_o tyrant_n some_o by_o mortification_n and_o penance_n other_o by_o ardour_n of_o love_n in_o prayer_n the_o soul_n must_v be_v indifferent_a to_o be_v sacrifice_v by_o love_n what_o way_n best_o please_v god_n the_o divine_a will_n be_v the_o sole_a rule_n of_o her_o choice_n and_o not_o the_o beauty_n or_o perfection_n of_o the_o state_n so_o that_o when_o she_o know_v it_o be_v god_n will_n a_o less_o elevate_a condition_n be_v please_v to_o she_o god_n be_v our_o father_n and_o directour_n operate_n in_o we_o in_o different_a manner_n sometime_o he_o infuse_v more_o
light_a into_o the_o understanding_n sometime_o more_o love_n into_o the_o will_n so_o that_o one_o faculty_n seem_v to_o be_v lose_v in_o the_o other_o the_o soul_n must_v be_v content_a with_o either_o as_o god_n please_v and_o cease_v she_o own_o operation_n to_o be_v passive_a to_o the_o act_n of_o god_n in_o she_o by_o his_o gracious_a motion_n a_o great_a deal_n of_o work_n be_v do_v for_o we_o by_o this_o mean_n in_o a_o little_a time_n towards_o christian_a perfection_n the_o soul_n that_o be_v in_o this_o state_n must_v careful_o shun_v two_o thing_n the_o activity_n of_o her_o own_o spirit_n and_o the_o impurity_n of_o her_o affection_n as_o for_o the_o first_o our_o spirit_n be_v very_o unwilling_a to_o die_v to_o itself_o but_o will_v be_v act_v and_o discourse_v we_o love_v much_o our_o own_o operation_n so_o that_o we_o have_v much_o ado_n to_o conquer_v ourselves_o that_o we_o may_v enter_v into_o a_o entire_a passivity_n as_o to_o be_v only_o susceptible_a of_o divine_a motion_n the_o long_a habitude_n of_o act_v with_o liberty_n hinder_v this_o annihilation_n but_o we_o must_v fight_v for_o the_o victory_n and_o grace_n at_o last_o will_v make_v it_o easy_a as_o for_o the_o second_o the_o impurity_n of_o affection_n we_o must_v be_v perfect_o dead_a to_o whatsoever_o be_v not_o god_n so_o as_o to_o seek_v nothing_o but_o he_o and_o his_o good_a pleasure_n without_o any_o mixture_n of_o self-interest_n the_o infinite_a love_n of_o god_n to_o we_o oblige_v we_o to_o be_v faithful_a to_o he_o and_o the_o love_n we_o ought_v to_o have_v for_o our_o own_o good_a oblige_v we_o to_o spare_v no_o pain_n to_o attain_v to_o perfection_n chap._n xiii_o of_o pure_a and_o perfect_a prayer_n it_o much_o dispose_v a_o soul_n to_o attain_v to_o pure_a and_o perfect_a prayer_n to_o give_v herself_o up_o into_o the_o hand_n of_o god_n with_o a_o entire_a submission_n to_o his_o holy_a will_n touch_v this_o exercise_n to_o bestow_v upon_o she_o what_o state_n he_o 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operation_n this_o repose_n in_o god_n be_v by_o knowledge_n and_o love_n whereof_o sometime_o this_o sometime_o that_o be_v more_o abundant_a and_o affect_v the_o soul_n as_o god_n please_v when_o god_n elevate_v a_o soul_n above_o ordinary_a prayer_n to_o converse_v with_o he_o alone_o she_o must_v make_v it_o her_o business_n to_o comply_v with_o he_o the_o virtue_n and_o disposition_n which_o another_o time_n will_v be_v the_o life_n of_o the_o soul_n be_v not_o now_o when_o she_o must_v live_v no_o life_n but_o the_o life_n of_o god_n that_o be_v of_o his_o sole_a knowledge_n and_o love_n without_o any_o reflection_n on_o herself_o god_n then_o take_v the_o care_n himself_o of_o such_o a_o soul_n furnish_v she_o with_o all_o necessary_a disposition_n think_v on_o i_o and_o i_o will_v think_v on_o thou_o say_v jesus_n christ_n to_o st._n catherine_n in_o prayer_n god_n infuse_v into_o her_o practical_a light_n of_o no_o long_a durance_n but_o efficacious_a and_o out_o of_o prayer_n she_o receive_v the_o same_o to_o be_v apply_v to_o the_o practice_n of_o most_o excellent_a virtue_n on_o all_o occasion_n pure_a and_o perfect_a prayer_n do_v not_o consist_v in_o gust_n of_o devotion_n but_o in_o the_o supreme_a part_n of_o the_o spirit_n in_o a_o peculiar_a manner_n that_o be_v ineffable_a for_o this_o supreme_a region_n of_o the_o soul_n be_v the_o sacred_a temple_n where_o god_n be_v please_v to_o dwell_v where_o she_o feel_v and_o taste_v a_o sweetness_n above_o all_o create_a entity_n the_o soul_n conduct_v by_o faith_n and_o attract_v by_o these_o divine_a perfume_n find_v god_n in_o this_o his_o sanctuary_n and_o converse_v with_o he_o with_o such_o a_o familiarity_n as_o astonish_v the_o angel_n to_o behold_v it_o it_o be_v here_o where_o she_o make_v pure_a prayer_n seeing_z there_o be_v nothing_o but_o god_n and_o the_o soul_n without_o any_o creature_n to_o interrupt_v this_o sacred_a interview_n god_n work_v all_o that_o pass_v by_o himself_o without_o representation_n or_o discourse_n or_o gust_n of_o devotion_n this_o supreme_a part_n of_o the_o soul_n be_v not_o capable_a of_o sensible_a object_n god_n alone_o take_v possession_n thereof_o communicate_v his_o illustration_n and_o sentiment_n which_o be_v necessary_a for_o a_o pure_a union_n with_o he_o perfect_a prayer_n than_o be_v a_o certain_a experimental_a manifestation_n which_o god_n give_v of_o himself_o of_o his_o goodness_n peace_n and_o sweetness_n a_o admirable_a gift_n that_o be_v not_o impart_v but_o to_o the_o pure_a soul_n and_o ordinary_o be_v but_o of_o small_a continuance_n but_o the_o condition_n of_o mortality_n will_v not_o permit_v of_o more_o where_o we_o must_v live_v in_o humility_n patience_n and_o suffering_n the_o soul_n return_v from_o these_o divine_a embrace_n carry_v away_o with_o her_o great_a love_n and_o a_o high_a esteem_n of_o god_n a_o profound_a knowledge_n of_o her_o own_o imperfection_n and_o find_v herself_o altogether_o dispose_v to_o act_n and_o suffer_v and_o practice_v pure_a virtue_n on_o all_o occasion_n few_o person_n arrive_v to_o this_o purity_n of_o perfect_a prayer_n because_o few_o make_v themselves_o susceptible_a of_o those_o divine_a motion_n by_o a_o entire_a annihilation_n of_o their_o own_o power_n these_o great_a favour_n will_v be_v more_o frequent_o bestow_v if_o we_o have_v heart_n prepare_v to_o receive_v they_o favour_n which_o be_v of_o more_o worth_n than_o the_o whole_a world_n and_o can_v be_v know_v but_o by_o experience_n for_o my_o part_n i_o know_v nothing_o i_o only_o have_v hear_v say_v that_o in_o this_o pure_a and_o perfect_a prayer_n there_o be_v admirable_a union_n most_o intimate_a embrace_n ardour_n of_o love_n so_o pure_a as_o may_v almost_o compare_v with_o the_o flame_n of_o seraphim_n we_o come_v to_o a_o perfect_a union_n with_o god_n by_o a_o perfect_a denudation_n of_o all_o creature_n and_o this_o denudation_n be_v acquire_v by_o continual_a mortification_n and_o sometime_o by_o divine_a infusion_n we_o must_v therefore_o pray_v much_o and_o die_v daily_o to_o ourselves_o and_o all_o creature_n since_o that_o original_a sin_n have_v deprave_v our_o nature_n we_o can_v live_v a_o life_n of_o grace_n without_o die_v a_o continual_a death_n when_o god_n act_v with_o we_o in_o the_o practice_n of_o mortification_n we_o shall_v soon_o die_v to_o ourselves_o for_o he_o break_v we_o all_o to_o piece_n on_o a_o sudden_a with_o wonderful_a contrition_n of_o heart_n and_o kill_v our_o corruption_n unknown_a to_o we_o so_o that_o a_o soul_n die_v more_o in_o one_o day_n by_o the_o love_a stroke_n of_o his_o powerful_a hand_n than_o she_o will_v in_o some_o year_n by_o ordinary_a mortification_n let_v we_o therefore_o adore_v this_o divine_a and_o love_a hand_n which_o kill_v we_o to_o make_v we_o live_v and_o never_o complain_v but_o of_o the_o little_a return_v we_o make_v for_o his_o gracious_a favour_n the_o loss_n of_o good_n of_o friend_n of_o honour_n of_o consolation_n do_v much_o conduce_v to_o bring_v a_o soul_n to_o this_o live_a death_n for_o common_o we_o quit_v such_o allurement_n when_o we_o lose_v the_o material_n of_o those_o fetter_n in_o this_o divine_a exercise_n the_o soul_n be_v whole_o take_v up_o with_o god_n without_o divert_v her_o thought_n on_o any_o other_o object_n and_o though_o then_o to_o reflect_v on_o the_o effect_n of_o prayer_n will_v be_v a_o kind_n of_o distraction_n yet_o without_o her_o think_n god_n leave_v powerful_a impression_n in_o she_o and_o pregnant_a disposition_n to_o practice_v great_a virtue_n and_o above_o all_o a_o love_n of_o the_o cross_n and_o humiliation_n see_v he_o can_v possible_o please_v god_n more_o than_o by_o suffer_v for_o he_o chap._n fourteen_o of_o the_o hunger_a of_o the_o soul_n after_o god_n and_o of_o she_o be_v satiate_v with_o he_o i_o sometime_o find_v myself_o in_o
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upon_o myself_o as_o a_o old_a piece_n of_o household_n stuff_n that_o be_v good_a for_o little_a or_o nothing_o but_o the_o fire_n for_o methinks_v god_n will_v have_v i_o do_v nothing_o hereafter_o but_o burn_v with_o the_o sacred_a fire_n of_o divine_a love_n or_o like_o a_o poor_a cripple_n who_o can_v work_v for_o his_o live_n i_o must_v die_v of_o hunger_n that_o be_v my_o soul_n have_v a_o continual_a hunger_n and_o thirst_n after_o god_n must_v die_v to_o all_o thing_n but_o god_n himself_o her_o sole_a repose_n and_o satisfaction_n chap._n xv._o of_o infuse_v prayer_n our_o bless_a saviour_n have_v be_v so_o merciful_a as_o to_o give_v i_o to_o my_o think_n some_o understanding_n and_o experience_n of_o infuse_v prayer_n in_o my_o morning_n prayer_n i_o find_v myself_o in_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n in_o silence_n with_o admiration_n reverence_n and_o peace_n this_o take_v i_o up_o a_o long_a time_n and_o though_o some_o temptation_n arise_v in_o inferior_a nature_n yet_o 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endeavour_n there_o he_o sometime_o manifest_v himself_o and_o his_o perfection_n sometime_o christian_a mystery_n after_o what_o manner_n he_o think_v best_o it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o the_o least_o ray_n from_o his_o presence_n be_v enough_o to_o make_v know_v to_o we_o what_o he_o please_v illuminet_fw-la vultum_fw-la suum_fw-la super_fw-la nos_fw-la this_o be_v a_o very_a great_a favour_n for_o god_n to_o converse_v with_o the_o soul_n alone_o in_o her_o interiour_n i_o be_o now_o no_o more_o astonish_v at_o what_o the_o saint_n affirm_v that_o their_o heart_n be_v a_o tabernacle_n where_o god_n dwell_v with_o he_o and_o they_o enjoy_v he_o in_o a_o wonderful_a manner_n nor_o that_o soul_n of_o much_o prayer_n do_v this_o without_o labour_n and_o almost_o continual_o for_o receive_v so_o much_o and_o labour_v so_o little_a i_o do_v not_o wonder_v at_o the_o facility_n
produce_v in_o her_o admirable_a effect_n to_o have_v taste_v of_o they_o once_o or_o twice_o be_v sufficient_a to_o make_v her_o rich_a by_o infuse_v into_o her_o understanding_n a_o certitude_n of_o the_o mystery_n of_o our_o holy_a faith_n and_o inflame_v the_o will_n with_o ardent_a and_o solid_a affection_n to_o practice_v virtue_n and_o thus_o she_o know_v more_o of_o god_n in_o a_o moment_n than_o before_o she_o do_v in_o many_o month_n by_o these_o extraordinary_a grace_n a_o soul_n be_v more_o convince_v and_o dispose_v to_o suffer_v contempt_n and_o poverty_n and_o leave_v all_o thing_n to_o follow_v christ_n than_o by_o a_o thousand_o discursive_a meditation_n however_o god_n do_v not_o cease_v to_o communicate_v these_o effect_n by_o other_o way_n as_o by_o spiritual_a lecture_n holy_a conference_n meditation_n etc._n etc._n but_o when_o god_n be_v please_v to_o work_v all_o by_o himself_o in_o a_o soul_n he_o do_v much_o for_o she_o in_o a_o little_a time_n one_o of_o the_o principal_a virtue_n that_o this_o state_n imprint_n in_o the_o soul_n be_v to_o draw_v she_o to_o god_n and_o keep_v she_o with_o he_o so_o that_o she_o be_v more_o in_o he_o than_o herself_o divine_a love_n be_v a_o weight_n that_o always_o carry_v she_o to_o her_o well-beloved_a amor_fw-la meus_fw-la pondus_fw-la meum_fw-la if_o a_o great_a prince_n shall_v send_v some_o magnificent_a present_n to_o one_o of_o his_o poor_a subject_n this_o will_v give_v he_o more_o knowledge_n of_o his_o prince_n royal_a grandeur_n and_o bounty_n than_o to_o send_v he_o all_o the_o orator_n of_o his_o realm_n to_o set_v forth_o his_o greatness_n by_o their_o eloquence_n so_o a_o soul_n know_v more_o of_o god_n by_o the_o aforesaid_a favour_n than_o by_o the_o large_a discourse_n of_o famous_a preacher_n these_o extraordinary_a favour_n be_v not_o necessary_a to_o salvation_n nor_o yet_o to_o perfection_n but_o very_o advantageous_a to_o confirm_v we_o in_o grace_n for_o these_o more_o special_a communication_n work_v in_o the_o soul_n this_o admirable_a repose_n and_o sweet_a calmness_n to_o dispose_v she_o for_o the_o receipt_n of_o great_a grace_n which_o bring_v she_o to_o a_o more_o intimate_a union_n wherein_o she_o suck_v from_o the_o bosom_n of_o the_o divinity_n a_o sweetness_n ineffable_a strengthen_v purify_n and_o comfort_v when_o the_o soul_n be_v not_o in_o this_o quiet_a let_v she_o do_v what_o she_o can_v no_o endeavour_n of_o she_o can_v procure_v it_o if_o god_n send_v it_o let_v we_o receive_v it_o if_o he_o send_v it_o not_o we_o must_v be_v patient_a and_o prepare_v ourselves_o thereto_o by_o the_o exercise_n of_o mortificacation_n and_o pure_a virtue_n according_a to_o the_o grace_n betstow_v upon_o we_o have_v be_v in_o this_o prayer_n of_o quiet_a many_o day_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o to_o be_v take_v from_o i_o for_o contest_v a_o little_a with_o my_o friend_n to_o persuade_v he_o to_o prevent_v another_o with_o a_o charitable_a courtesy_n o_o my_o god_n how_o nice_a and_o delicate_a a_o thing_n be_v grace_n and_o the_o great_a the_o grace_n it_o be_v the_o more_o delicate_a i_o learn_v by_o this_o substraction_n how_o poor_a a_o thing_n a_o creature_n be_v how_o unable_a we_o be_v of_o ourselves_o to_o retain_v your_o grace_n and_o to_o see_v that_o this_o also_o proceed_v from_o grace_n i_o will_v hereafter_o make_v it_o my_o work_n to_o love_v pure_a virtue_n and_o practice_v perfect_a mortification_n chap._n xvii_o of_o the_o intimate_a union_n of_o the_o love_n of_o the_o soul_n with_o god_n in_o prayer_n the_o wonderful_a secret_n of_o this_o disposition_n of_o the_o soul_n in_o prayer_n can_v hardly_o be_v express_v only_o we_o may_v call_v it_o the_o prayer_n of_o unity_n of_o love_n because_o herein_o the_o will_n feel_v no_o other_o love_n in_o her_o affection_n than_o that_o which_o god_n have_v for_o himself_o one_o only_a love_n seem_v sufficient_a for_o god_n and_o the_o love_a soul_n it_o be_v enough_o for_o she_o to_o adhere_v to_o he_o with_o great_a simplicity_n and_o unity_n with_o this_o only_a love_n which_o god_n have_v for_o his_o infinite_a beauty_n and_o perfection_n the_o particular_a love_n of_o the_o soul_n be_v absorb_v like_o a_o drop_n of_o water_n in_o the_o infinite_a ocean_n of_o his_o love_n by_o a_o union_n inexplicable_a and_o be_v so_o lose_v be_v find_v more_o perfect_a as_o a_o spark_n of_o fire_n in_o a_o little_a coal_n cast_v into_o a_o furnace_n give_v a_o heat_n infinite_o great_a than_o what_o it_o have_v of_o itself_o alone_o it_o seem_v to_o the_o soul_n that_o she_o do_v not_o love_n but_o god_n love_v himself_o in_o she_o and_o in_o this_o manner_n her_o will_n have_v such_o impression_n of_o the_o divine_a love_n have_v no_o other_o sentiment_n nor_o interiour_n disposition_n than_o those_o which_o god_n have_v for_o himself_o when_o she_o love_v god_n in_o this_o manner_n as_o he_o love_v himself_o she_o also_o hate_v sin_n in_o the_o same_o manner_n as_o god_n hate_v it_o by_o this_o ineffable_a union_n in_o this_o state_n of_o prayer_n the_o soul_n receive_v wonderful_a discovery_n of_o the_o admirable_a wisdom_n of_o god_n in_o his_o proceed_n about_o the_o redemption_n of_o mankind_n by_o the_o life_n and_o death_n of_o his_o son_n so_o full_a of_o suffering_n and_o abjection_n god_n love_v himself_o can_v but_o love_v the_o cross_n which_o satisfy_v his_o justice_n and_o the_o soul_n can_v but_o have_v a_o will_v to_o suffer_v see_v she_o be_v in_o the_o unity_n of_o love_n with_o god_n which_o unity_n must_v needs_o elevate_v the_o soul_n above_o nature_n and_o as_o the_o soul_n of_o jesus_n whole_o absorb_v in_o the_o love_n of_o his_o father_n do_v rejoice_v in_o his_o suffering_n and_o humiliation_n so_o if_o we_o be_v in_o the_o unity_n of_o this_o love_n contempt_n and_o mortification_n dolour_n and_o death_n itself_o will_v be_v lovely_a and_o desirable_a though_o quite_o contrary_a to_o our_o natural_a inclination_n this_o unity_n of_o love_n do_v so_o powerful_o constrain_v we_o to_o love_v suffering_n that_o i_o make_v little_a difference_n between_o love_n and_o the_o cross_n and_o i_o see_v so_o clear_o that_o all_o the_o counsel_n of_o jesus_n christ_n do_v so_o wonderful_o advance_v the_o purity_n of_o love_n that_o no_o natural_a aversion_n shall_v deter_v i_o from_o they_o i_o find_v in_o my_o heart_n a_o tacit_n consent_v of_o love_n to_o abandon_v myself_o to_o divine_a providence_n and_o not_o to_o disquiet_v myself_o about_o perfection_n for_o i_o must_v pacify_v all_o the_o emotion_n of_o my_o heart_n as_o well_o good_a as_o bad_a to_o be_v in_o so_o profound_a a_o peace_n as_o to_o attain_v this_o union_n when_o god_n be_v please_v to_o communicate_v to_o a_o soul_n this_o purity_n of_o love_n he_o dispose_v she_o to_o so_o great_a a_o favour_n by_o some_o suffering_n cross_n and_o humiliation_n he_o that_o know_v the_o riches_n of_o true_a love_n know_v these_o also_o for_o they_o be_v inseparable_a so_o that_o he_o who_o will_v not_o suffer_v can_v arrive_v to_o purity_n of_o love_n my_o prayer_n then_o tend_v to_o unite_v i_o intimate_o and_o continual_o to_o the_o only_a love_n wherewith_o god_n love_v himself_o and_o my_o soul_n have_v at_o present_a attract_v to_o nothing_o else_o in_o this_o love_n it_o seem_v to_o she_o she_o find_v the_o practice_n of_o all_o virtue_n in_o a_o more_o excellent_a manner_n than_o in_o themselves_o i_o know_v very_o well_o that_o love_n be_v a_o weight_n that_o continual_o carry_v the_o soul_n towards_o her_o belove_a object_n and_o my_o will_n bend_v always_o towards_o god_n it_o move_v thither_o by_o a_o long_a inclination_n full_a of_o love_n and_o sweetness_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o my_o understanding_n herein_o do_v not_o with_o its_o light_n assist_v my_o will_n for_o i_o find_v my_o affection_n all_o on_o fire_n and_o pant_v after_o god_n without_o any_o previous_a illustration_n i_o find_v i_o think_v divine_a 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sin_n but_o even_o from_o passion_n and_o occasion_n thereof_o and_o whatever_o may_v induce_v we_o to_o evil_a in_o a_o word_n we_o detest_v sin_n above_o all_o thing_n detestable_a in_o ourselves_o and_o other_o also_o interior_o bewail_v the_o unhappiness_n of_o our_o mortal_a condition_n in_o which_o we_o so_o often_o offend_v god_n and_o be_v in_o danger_n to_o lose_v he_o i_o know_v a_o virtuous_a soul_n who_o god_n have_v make_v so_o sensible_a of_o the_o horror_n of_o sin_n because_o injurious_a to_o god_n that_o she_o perfect_o detest_v it_o with_o ardent_a desire_n never_o more_o to_o commit_v any_o she_o do_v with_o continual_a prayer_n and_o tear_n implore_v the_o divine_a majesty_n to_o preserve_v she_o from_o it_o offer_v her_o self_n to_o suffer_v any_o thing_n yea_o the_o pain_n of_o purgatory_n or_o hell_n it_o self_n if_o it_o be_v necessary_a rather_o than_o commit_v a_o mortal_a sin_n to_o which_o no_o evil_a can_v be_v compare_v she_o understand_v that_o sin_n be_v 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can_v not_o proceed_v but_o from_o the_o pure_a love_n of_o god_n and_o from_o the_o perfect_a hatred_n of_o sin_n and_o in_o both_o respect_n must_v needs_o be_v in_o a_o high_a degree_n well_o please_v to_o god_n and_o we_o may_v very_o well_o believe_v that_o god_n bestow_v on_o such_o a_o soul_n very_o wonderful_a grace_n chap._n ii_o to_o keep_v a_o even_a pace_n with_o grace_n neither_o out-running_a it_o nor_o follow_v too_o slow_o it_o be_v our_o unhappiness_n that_o either_o we_o do_v not_o act_v answerable_o to_o the_o full_a power_n of_o what_o grace_n we_o have_v receive_v by_o the_o repugnance_n of_o our_o sensuality_n or_o by_o our_o natural_a levity_n and_o inconstancy_n of_o mind_n or_o on_o the_o contrary_a when_o the_o heart_n be_v heat_v with_o the_o fervour_n of_o devotion_n we_o will_v force_v grace_n beyond_o her_o strength_n by_o undertake_v extraordinary_a exercise_n and_o austerity_n prejudicial_a to_o we_o it_o be_v our_o duty_n to_o shun_v both_o these_o 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he_o for_o receive_v in_o a_o word_n we_o do_v not_o entire_o conform_v ourselves_o to_o the_o pure_a will_n of_o god_n we_o ought_v not_o to_o perplex_v and_o disquiet_v ourselves_o with_o the_o defect_n and_o imperfection_n of_o those_o with_o who_o we_o live_v and_o be_v under_o our_o charge_n they_o be_v mortal_a and_o infirm_a creature_n and_o not_o angel_n and_o to_o expect_v they_o shall_v be_v faultless_a be_v to_o look_v for_o impossibility_n and_o flatter_v our_o impatience_n which_o will_v have_v no_o occasion_n of_o displeasure_n this_o be_v but_o to_o afflict_v ourselves_o for_o the_o loss_n of_o our_o own_o esteem_n which_o appear_v by_o our_o ill_a conduct_n in_o such_o small_a matter_n and_o yet_o we_o pretend_v only_o to_o seek_v god_n honour_n and_o the_o good_a of_o soul_n those_o who_o true_o seek_v the_o glory_n of_o god_n sometime_o be_v trouble_v but_o it_o be_v a_o displeasure_n join_v with_o peace_n and_o tranquillity_n yea_o abound_v with_o influence_n of_o 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