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mean_n let_v it_o be_v controversy_n for_o that_o will_v turn_v meditation_n into_o study_n 2._o nor_o nice_a speculation_n for_o they_o be_v sapless_a without_o nourishment_n beside_o be_v so_o light_v they_o float_v in_o the_o brain_n have_v no_o weight_n to_o sink_v they_o down_o into_o the_o heart_n and_o indeed_o be_v they_o there_o they_o have_v nothing_o in_o they_o to_o affect_v the_o heart_n withal_o 3._o let_v the_o subject_a of_o meditation_n be_v the_o plain_a powerful_a and_o useful_a truth_n of_o god_n as_o death_n hell_n heaven_n judgement_n mercy_n of_o god_n our_o own_o sin_n the_o love_n and_o suffering_n of_o christ_n etc._n etc._n 4._o let_v the_o subject_a of_o your_o meditation_n be_v that_o that_o be_v most_o suitable_a to_o your_o spiritual_a want_n as_o in_o the_o time_n of_o desertion_n meditate_v most_o of_o the_o love_n and_o mercy_n of_o god_n etc._n etc._n rule_n for_o meditation_n itself_o they_o be_v of_o three_o sort_n 1._o preparatory_a 2._o for_o the_o body_n of_o the_o duty_n 3._o for_o the_o conclusion_n two_o thing_n by_o way_n of_o preparation_n beside_o the_o choice_n of_o the_o subject_a the_o first_o be_v to_o be_v convince_v of_o and_o to_o be_v affect_v with_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n the_o second_o be_v prayer_n for_o assistance_n from_o god_n 2._o for_o the_o body_n of_o meditation_n itself_o it_o consist_v of_o three_o part_n the_o first_o i_o call_v consideration_n which_o be_v nothing_o but_o the_o convince_a our_o heart_n of_o several_a truth_n that_o belong_v to_o that_o subject_a whereof_o we_o meditate_v as_o as_o if_o the_o subject_n of_o our_o meditation_n be_v death_n the_o consideration_n may_v go_v thus_o alas_o o_o my_o soul_n how_o and_o when_o and_o where_o we_o shall_v die_v we_o know_v not_o general_o man_n die_v soon_o than_o they_o expect_v and_o certain_a it_o be_v whensoever_o that_o hour_n come_v we_o must_v bid_v adieu_o to_o honour_n pleasure_n riches_n friend_n and_o at_o last_o our_o own_o body_n etc._n etc._n the_o second_o part_n be_v affection_n whether_o it_o be_v love_n of_o god_n or_o christ_n or_o spiritual_a thing_n despise_v of_o the_o world_n admire_v of_o god_n or_o any_o other_o spiritual_a affection_n the_o three_o part_n be_v resolution_n to_o do_v this_o or_o that_o or_o leave_v this_o or_o that_o now_o that_o this_o be_v the_o most_o proper_a and_o genuine_a way_n of_o meditation_n appear_v by_o this_o 1._o because_o it_o be_v not_o artificial_a and_o such_o as_o require_v learning_n as_o those_o direction_n be_v which_o wish_v we_o to_o consider_v the_o efficient_a final_a formal_a material_a cause_n of_o death_n the_o adjunct_n concomitant_n etc._n etc._n which_o though_o they_o may_v somewhat_o help_v the_o learned_a yet_o such_o hard_a word_n and_o artificial_a
method_n fright_v the_o ignorant_a 1._o this_o be_v the_o very_a method_n of_o those_o meditation_n by_o which_o every_o one_o that_o be_v bring_v home_o to_o god_n be_v convert_v for_o the_o first_o thing_n in_o conversion_n be_v our_o be_v convince_v of_o some_o truth_n which_o conviction_n raise_v affection_n for_o if_o the_o truth_n of_o god_n end_n in_o conviction_n and_o go_v no_o further_o nay_o if_o they_o end_v in_o affection_n only_o and_o never_o come_v to_o resolution_n of_o shun_v evil_a and_o do_v good_a conversion_n can_v never_o be_v perfect_v as_o for_o example_n one_o be_v convince_v that_o he_o be_v a_o miserable_a undo_v wretch_n by_o reason_n of_o original_n and_o actual_a abomination_n upon_o this_o conviction_n fear_n and_o sorrow_n be_v raise_v yet_o if_o these_o do_v not_o work_v in_o we_o a_o firm_a resolution_n of_o leave_v those_o sin_n we_o be_v yet_o in_o our_o sin_n and_o unconvert_v 3._o there_o be_v several_a thing_n for_o the_o conclude_a of_o 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carnal_a tear_n and_o one_o great_a cause_n of_o my_o grief_n and_o part_n of_o my_o misery_n be_v that_o i_o can_v weep_v no_o more_o sometime_o indeed_o tear_n stand_v in_o my_o eye_n when_o i_o consider_v these_o thing_n lord_n give_v i_o faith_n o_o give_v i_o faith_n i_o feel_v a_o deal_n of_o atheism_n in_o my_o heart_n my_o heart_n be_v so_o full_a of_o corruption_n of_o all_o kind_n and_o all_o degree_n that_o i_o can_v feel_v no_o bottom_n of_o this_o stink_a ditch_n my_o imagination_n be_v divers_a time_n a_o thoroughfare_a for_o satan_n blasphemous_a thought_n which_o my_o soul_n abhor_v i_o may_v even_o sit_v down_o and_o spend_v the_o remainder_n of_o my_o wicked_a life_n in_o weep_v and_o wail_v and_o wring_v of_o my_o hand_n and_o tear_v off_o the_o hair_n of_o my_o head_n my_o sad_a soul_n may_v say_v to_o my_o god_n be_v thou_o quite_o go_v from_o i_o have_v all_o my_o hope_n of_o thou_o be_v as_o dream_n and_o empty_a shadow_n unto_o i_o and_o have_v thou_o show_v i_o so_o much_o of_o heaven_n and_o will_v thou_o make_v hell_n more_o terrible_a and_o bitter_a to_o i_o shall_v thy_o sweet_a mercy_n be_v turn_v into_o the_o gall_n of_o asp_n to_o i_o not_o only_o to_o be_v bitter_a but_o deadly_a i_o have_v cause_n i_o have_v cause_n lord_n to_o mingle_v my_o drink_n with_o my_o tear_n to_o water_v my_o couch_n with_o weep_v thou_o be_v too_o great_a a_o god_n to_o be_v dally_v withal_o and_o what_o do_v i_o else_o as_o our_o dear_a friend_n though_o we_o never_o so_o much_o delight_v in_o their_o company_n while_o they_o be_v live_v yet_o we_o be_v afraid_a to_o be_v alone_o with_o they_o they_o be_v a_o terronr_n to_o we_o after_o the_o soul_n have_v leave_v their_o earthly_a tabernacle_n so_o my_o prayer_n while_o they_o be_v live_v prayer_n be_v a_o great_a comfort_n to_o my_o poor_a soul_n but_o now_o my_o prayer_n be_v without_o life_n and_o my_o supplication_n be_v dead_a they_o be_v a_o terror_n to_o i_o they_o look_v ghastly_a upon_o i_o 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