Angel was lamed in one foot the other being sound and whole By the two feet is understood a double love the love of ones self and the love of God Then shall a man be partaker of Gods blessing when he halts upon the foot of self-love the other foot that is of the love of God remaining sound and whole It is impossible for thee with one eye to behold heaven and earth So it cannot be that with one and the same will a man should love himself inordinately love God also Love is the chiefest good of our soul Therefore we must give the chief good of our soul to the chiefest good that is to God Thy love is thy God that is whatsoever thou lovest chiefly thou settest in the place of God But God is truly the chief being Whosoever therefore loveth himself judgeth himself to be God and setteth himself in the place of God which is the greatest idolatry that can be Whatsoever thou lovest chiefly thou makest it to be the end of all other things and thou judgest it to be the last complement of all thy desires But it is God onely who is the beginning and the end of the creatures he is the first and the last he onely filleth the desire of our hearts and there is no created thing that can satisfie thy desires Therefore thou must preferre the love of God before the love of thy self God is the beginning and the end In him therefore must our love begin and in him also must it end The essence of God is without all the creatures as God was in himself from all eternitie So withdraw thou thy love from all the creatures Such as thy love is such are thy works If thy works proceed from true faith and love of God they are acceptable unto God and appear great in his eyes though in the eyes of all men they seem but small If they proceed from self-love they cannot please God Self-love defileth the most excellent works When Christ was in the house of Simon a certain woman broke a vessel of precious ointment and anointed the head of Christ The work seemed to be small and yet notwithstanding it was acceptable unto Christ because it proceeded from true faith pure love and serious contrition Sacrifice in the old Testament was a work acceptable unto God and yet God was not well pleased that Saul set apart the spoils of the Amalekites to offer sacrifice unto God Why Because this did not proceed from the love of God For if he had loved God truly he would not have contemned the commandment of God about the burning of all the spoils He loved himself and his own devotion Love is a kinde of fire For so the Church prayeth Come O holy Ghost and kindle in the faithfull the fire of thy love Fire doth not cleave fast unto the earth but alwayes tends upwards So thy love must not rest in thee but it must be lifted up unto the Lord. Again to denie ones self is to renounce his own honour Unto the chief good alone is due the chiefest honour And God is the chiefest good He that seeketh his own glory cannot seek Gods glory as our Saviour said unto the Pharisees How can ye beleeve which receive honour one of another Behold the example of Christ and follow it He often witnesseth of himself that he seeks not his own glory that he receiveth not honour from men and that he is humble in heart All thy gifts thou receivest from God Therefore render them again unto God The rivers of all goods do flow from this fountain of Gods goodnesse Therefore let them all flow back again into the sea The herb which is called Tornsol or Heliotropium doth alwayes turn it self unto the sunne by vertue whereof it draws its life and nourishment So do thou with all thy gifts and honour turn thy self towards God and attribute nothing unto thy self If thou hast any thing of thine own thou mayest seek thine own honour and attribute thy gifts unto thy self But seeing that thou hast nothing of thine own but all from God therefore thou must seek not thine own honour but the honour of God The seeking his own honour doth turn a man away from God We have an example in Nabuchadnezzar who said Is not this great Babylon that I have built for the house of my kingdome by the strength of my power and for the honour of my majestie But what follows Whiles the word was in the kings mouth a voice came from heaven saying To thee O Nabuchadnezzar is it spoken Thy kingdome is departed from thee thou shalt be cast out from the company of men and thy dwelling shall be with the beasts of the field Even so if thou out of vain-glorie and pride dost boast of thy Babylon that is the building of thy good works and take the glory thereof unto thy self and not give it unto God thou shalt be cast away from the sight of God Last of all To deny ones own self is to renounce his own will We must alwayes obey the best will And Gods will is alwayes the best We must obey his will from whom we have all that we have And from God comes all that we have We must obey his will who leadeth us alwayes unto life and that which is good Delight in the Lord and he shall give thee thy hearts desire Our own will leads us unto death and unto damnation By what did our first father fall from the grace of God and state of salvation into eternall damnation By leaving the will of God and following his own will He neglected the commandment of God and gave eare unto the perswasion of the devil Therefore the true disciple of Christ renounceth his own will and desires to follow the will of God Behold Christ He being in the agony of his passion offered his own will as a most acceptable sacrifice unto God Offer thou also unto God thine own will and so shalt thou perfect that denial of thy self which Christ requireth Let thy holy will O Lord be done in earth as it is in heaven Meditat. XXXII Of the true rest of the soul. Thy soul can nothing satiate But God who did thy soul create IN the transitorie things of this world the soul often seeks for rest but findes it not Why Because the soul is more worthy then all the creatures and therefore she cannot finde peace quietnesse in them as being more vile All worldly things are flitting and transitorie but the soul is immortall How should she then finde true rest in them All those are terrestriall but our soul hath a celestiall originall How should she then satiate and fulfill her desire in them In Christ she findes rest he can satisfie and fulfill her desire Against the wrath of God she rests in the wounds of Christ Against the accusations of Satan she rests in the
infinite love of the eternall Father in that he would deliver his onely begotten Sonne to death for us He loved us when we were his enemies And can he forget us when we are reconciled unto him by the death of his Sonne Can he forget the precious bloud of his Sonne when as he telleth the tears and the steps of the godly Can Christ in his life forget those for whom he was willing to undergo death Can he in the time of his glory forget those for whom he suffered so great torments Consider thou faithfull soul the manifold fruits of the Lords passion Christ poured forth for us a bloudy sweat that in the agonie of death a cold sweat might not oppresse us It was his pleasure to wrestle with death that we might not faint in the agony of death It was his will to suffer most grievous anxietie and sorrow even unto death that he might make us partakers of everlasting joy in the heavens He would be betrayed with a kisse which is a signe of friendship and good will that he might blot out the sinne by the which Satan betrayed our first parents under the colour of friendship He would be apprehended and bound by the Jews that he might set us at liberty which were bound in the chain of our sinnes and subject to be cast into everlasting damnation He would begin his passion in the garden that he might purge away sinne which took its beginning in the garden of paradise He would be comforted by an angel that he might make us angels fellows in the heavens He was forsaken of his own disciples that he might glue unto himself us who had most shamefully revolted from God Before the Councel he was accused by false witnesses that Satan might not accuse us by the law of God He was condemned on earth that we might be absolved in heaven He that committed no sinne was speechlesse that we might not in the day of judgement be strucken dumbe by reason of our sinnes He was willing to be buffeted that we might be freed from the sting of conscience and buffetings of Satan He suffered himself to be mocked that we might insult over Satan the insulter His face was covered that he might remove from us the vail of sinne by which we were hindred that we could not behold the face of God as being involved in damnable ignorance He would be disrobed that he might restore unto us the robe of innocencie which we had lost by sinne He was pricked with thorns that he might cure the compunctions of our hearts He underwent the burden of the crosse that he might take from us the burden of everlasting punishment He crâ—â—d out that he was forsakâ—n of God that he might purchase for us an everlasting habitation with God He thirsted on the crosse that he might merit for us the dew of Gods grace and free us from everlasting thirst He would be scorched in the fire of Gods anger that he might free us from the fire of hell He stood as guiltie that he might absolve us He was condemned that we might be delivered from condemnation He was scourged by the hands of the unrighteous that he might free us from the scourges of the devil He cried out for grief that he might preserve us from everlasting exclamation He poured forth tears that he might wipe away tears from our eyes He died that we might live He felt the pains of hell that we might never feel them He was humbled that so he might cure our sinfull tumour He was crowned with thorns that he might merit for us a celestiall crown He suffered of all that he might save all His eyes were darkened in death that we might live in the light of celestiall glory He suffered ignominie and reproches that we might heare the angels sing chearfully in heaven Despair not then O faithfull soul An infinite good was offâ—nded by thy sinnes and an infinite price is payed for them Thou shouldest have been condemned for thy sinnes But the Sonne of God took upon him the sinnes of the whole world and was condemned for them Thou deservedst to be punished for thy sinnes But God hath punished them alreadie in his Sonne The wounds of thy sinnes are great But the balsam of Christs bloud is more precious and of vertue to cure them Moses pronounceth thee cursed because thou hast not kept all that was wrote in the book of the law But Christ was made the curse for thee In the court of heaven there is an hand-writing against thee But Christ hath cancelled that with his bloud Let thy passion therefore O Christ be my last refuge Meditat. VIII Of the certainty of our salvation My hope shall never be confounded Because my hope on Christ is grounded WHy art thou troubled O my soul and why dâ—st thou still doubt of the mercie of God Remember thy Creatour Who created thee without thee Who formed thy body in secret in the lower parts of the earth Who took care of thee when thou wast not will not he have care of thee now he hath made thee after his own image I am the creature of God to the Creatour do I convert my self Though my nature be infected by the devil though it be wounded by theeves that is by my sinnes yet my Creatour liveth He which made me can also renew me He which created me without any evil can take all evil from me whatsoever hath entred into me by the suggestion of the devil by Adams prevarication by my own action yea though it hath over-run my whole substance Therefore my Creatour can reform me if so be that it stands with his good pleasure and will and certainly he will for who ever hated his own workmanship Are we not before him like clay in the hands of the potter If he had hated me certainly he would never have created me when I was nothing He is the Saviour of all men but especially of them that beleeve He created me wonderfully but he redeemed me more wonderfully It never appeared more plainly that he loved us then in his wounds and passion Surely he is truly beloved for whose sake the onely begotten Sonne of God is sent from the bosome of his Father Iâ— thou didst not desire my salvation Lord Jesus why didst thou descend from heaven But thou didst descend upon earth to die on the crosse God to redeem a servant spared not his own Sonne Therefore assuredly God loveth man with a wonderfull love seeing that he hath delivered up his Sonne to be afflicted slain and crucified for the redemption of man Very deare and very great was the price of our redemption Therefore great and deare is the mercy of our Redeemer It might seem to some that God loves his adopted sonnes as dearly as his onely begotten Sonne For that on which we bestow any thing is dearer then that which we bestow That he might
make us his adopted sonnes he spared not his natural and coessentiall Sonne It is no wonder then if he hath prepared for us mansions in his heavenly house seeing that he hath given us his own Sonne in whom is the fulnesse of the divinity Certainly where there is the fulnesse of the divinitie there is also the fulnesse of life and glory everlasting But if he in Christ hath given unto us the fulnesse of life everlasting how shall he denie unto us a little particle thereof Assuredly our heavenly Father loveth us his adopted sonnes with exceeding great love seeing he hath delivered up his onely begotten Sonne for us Assuredly the Sonne embraceth us with exceeding great love seeing that he hath delivered up himself for us To make us rich he endured extreme povertie for he had not where to lay his head To make us the sonnes of God he is made man neither doth he neglect us now having finished the work of our redemption but still intercedeth for us sitting at the right hand of the divine Majestie What thing is there necessary for my salvation which he shall not obtain seeing that he hath bestowed himself to merit salvation for me What will the Father denie unto his Sonne who became obâ—dient unto him unto death even the death of the crosse What will the Father denie unto his Sonne seeing that long ago he hath accepted the price of our redemption paid by him Let my sinnes accuse me yet in this my Mediatour do I trust He which excuseth me is greater then he that accuseth me Let my weaknesse affright me yet in his strength will I glory Let Satan accuse me if my Mediatour excuse me Let heaven and earth accuse me and mine iniquities prove me guiltie it is sufficient for me that the Creatour of heaven and earth and righteousnesse it self doth intercede for me The sufficiencie of my merit is to know that my merit is not sufficient It shall be sufficient for me to have him propitious against whom onely I have sinned Whatsoever he hath decreed not to impute shall be as if it had not been Neither doth it trouble me that my sinnes are both grievous and divers and often repeated For if I were not burdened with sinnes what need I desire his righteousnesse If I had no disease what need I implore the help of the physician He is the Physician he is the Saviour he is righteousnesse it self he cannot deny himself I am sick I am condemned I am a sinner I cannot deny my self Have mercy on me O thou my Physician my Saviour and my righteousnesse Amen Meditat. IX That God alone is to be loved By love cleave fast to God above For nought on earth deserves thy love RAise up thy self O faithfull soul and love that chief good in whom are all goods without whom there is no other true good No creature can satisfie our desire because no creature is perfectly good but onely good by participation Some current of good doth descend upon the creature from the Creatour but the fountain is still in God Why therefore should we forsake the fountain and follow the current All good in the creatures is but the image of that perfect good which is in God yea which is God Why therefore should we lay hold on the image and let go the thing it self Noahs dove could not finde on the moveable waters where her foot might rest Even so our soul amongst all sublunarie things cannot finde out which can fully satisfie her desire by reason of their inconstancie and frailtie Doth not he wrong himself which loveth any thing unworthy of his love Now the soul of man is more noble then all the creatures because it was redeemed by the passion and death of God Why therefore should it love the creatures Is it not contrary to that majestie unto which God hath exalted the Saints Whatsoever we love we love either for power or wisdome or beauty And what is more powerfull then God what is more wise then God what is more beautifull then God All the power of earthly kingdomes is from him and under him All the wisdome of men compared with the wisdome of God is foolishnesse All the beautie of the creatures compared with the beautie of God is deformitie If some powerfull king should treat by messengers with a virgin of mean rank and condition concerning marriage should she not do foolishly in neglecting the king and settling her affection upon the messengers the kings servants So God by the beautie of all the creatures desires to call us unto him invite us to love him why therefore should our soul which Christ would have to be his spouse cleave unto the creatures the messengers of this spirituall marriage The creatures themselves crie Why do ye cleave unto us why do ye place the end of your desire in us We cannot satiate your appetite Come ye rather to the Creatour of us both From the creatures we can expect no reciprocall love The creatures did not begin first to love us But God who is love it self cannot but love those that love him Yea he prevents our desires and our love by loving us first How greatly then is God to be loved who in the first place hath loved us so greatly He loved us when as yet we were not For it was the love of God that we came into this world He loved us when we were his enemies For it was his mercy and his love that he sent his sonne to be our redeemer He loved us when we were fallen into sin For it is his love that he doth not presently deliver us to death in our sinnes but still expects our conversion It is his love that beyond our merits yea contrary to our merits he translateth us to the celestiall palaces Without the love of God thou canst never come to the saving knowledge of God without the love of God all knowledge is unprofitable yea hurtfull Wherefore love exceedeth the knowledge of all mysteries because this may be in the devils but that cannot be but in the godly Why is the divel most unhappy Because he cannot love the chiefest good Contrarywise why is God most happy and blessed Because he loveth all things because he is delighted in all his works Why is not our love of God perfect in this life Because the measure of our love is according to the measure of our knowledge Now in this life we know but in part and in a glasse In the life to come we shall be perfectly blessed because we shall perfectly love God We shall perfectly love God because we shall perfectly know him No man can hope to have the perfect love of God in the world to come which beginneth not to love God in this world The kingdome of God must begin in the heart of man in this life or else it cannot be consummated in the life to come
of Galilee to shew that he came into the world to spirituall marriages Rejoyce in the Lord with gladnesse and leap thou faithfull soul for joy in thy God who hath clothed thee with the garments of salvation and compassed thee about with the robes of righteousnesse like a spouse adorned with jewels and bracelets Rejoyce for the honour of the bridegroom Rejoyce for the beauty of the bridegroom Rejoyce for the love of the bridegroom His honour is the greatest that can be For he is true God blessed for ever How great then is the dignity of this creature I mean the faithfull soul seeing the Creatour himself is willing to betroth her unto himself His beautie is the greatest that can be For he is beautifull above the sonnes of men for they saw the glorie of him as the glory of the onely begotten of the Father his face shined like the sunne and his garments were white as snow His lips were full of grace and he was crowned with glory and honour How great then is his mercy that he being the chiefest beautie doth vouchsafe to choose the soul of man to be his spouse whereas it is defiled with the stains of sinne On the bridegrooms part there is the greatest majestie On the spouses part there is the greatest infirmitie On the bridegrooms part there is the greatest beautie On the spouses part there is the greatest deformitie And yet farre greater is the love of the bridegroom towards the spouse then of the spouse towards the bridegroom whose honour and whose beauty doth so farre excell Behold thou faithfull soul behold the infinite love of the bridegroom It was his love that drew him down from heaven unto the earth It was his love that bound him to a pillar It was his love that fastened him to the crosse It was his love that enclosed him up in the grave It was his love that he descended into hell What could make him to do all these things Surely it was his love towards his spouse But our hearts are stony and heavier then lead if the bond of so great love cannot draw us unto God whereas it hath drawn God unto us Naked was his spouse and being naked could not be admitted into the royall palace of the heavenly King And he hath clothed her with the garments of righteousnesse and salvation whereas she lay enwrapped and involved in the foul coat of her sinnes and the most filthy rags of iniquitie He hath granted unto her to be arayed in fine linen clean and white the fine linen is the righteousnesse of Saints That garment is the righteousnesse which was obtained by the death and passion of the bridegroom himself Jacob laboured fourteen yeares to obtain Rachel to be his wife But Christ for thirty foure yeares almost endured hunger thirst cold povertie ignominie reproches bonds whips the bitternesse of gall and death upon the crosse to purchase unto himself the faithfull soul to be his spouse Samson went down and chose out of the Philistines which were adjudged to destruction a wife unto himself The Sonne of God came down and chose unto himself a spouse out of men that were condemned and subject to eternall death The whole stock of the spouse was at enmitie with the heavenly Father and he by his most bitter passion hath reconciled it unto his Father The spouse was prostrate upon the face of the earth and polluted in her own bloud But he hath washed her with the water of baptisme and cleansed her with a most holy laver He hath cleansed the bloud of his spouse with his own bloud For the bloud of the Sonne of God doth cleanse us from all our sinnes The spouse was deformed But he hath anointed her with the oyl of grace and mercy The spouse was not honourably apparelled but he hath put bracelets and eare-rings upon her He hath adorned her with vertues and divers gifts of the holy Spirit The spouse was very poore and had no pledge to give unto him Therefore hath he left unto her the pledge of his Spirit received frō her the pledge of his flesh and hath carried it up into heaven The spouse was hungry But he hath given unto her fine flour◠and hony and oyl to eat He doth feed her with his flesh and bloud unto eternall life The spouse is disobedient and often breaketh her marriage faith she committeth fornication with the world and with the devil and yet the bridegroom out of his infinite love doth receive her again into favour as often as she returneth unto him by true repentance Acknowledge and confesse thou faithfull soul these so many and so great arguments of his infinite love Love thou faithfull soul the love of him that for love of thee descended into the wombe of the virgin We must love him that delivered up himself for us so much more then our selves by how much he is greater then us Let us make our whole life conformable unto him who for the love of us made himself wholly conformable unto us He is justly to be accounted most unthankfull who loveth not again him of whom he was first beloved How greatly therefore ought we to love him who for the love of us did as it were forget his own majestie Happy soul which by the bond of this spirituall marriage is joyned unto Christ She doth safely and confidently apply unto her self all the benefits of Christ even as in another case by wedlock the wife doth shine glorious by the reflexion of the husbands rayes upon her Now by faith alone are we made partakers of this blessed and spirituall marriage as it is written I will betroth thee unto me in faith Faith doth ingraft us into Christ as a branch into the spirituall vine that we may suck our life and nourishment from him And as they which are joyned in marriage are no more two but one flesh So they which by faith are joyned unto the Lord become one spirit with him because Christ by faith dwelleth in our hearts And this faith if it be true it worketh by love As in the old Testament the priests were compelled to marry virgins So the celestiall priest doth spiritually couple unto himself such a virgin as doth keep her self pure and undefiled from the embracements of the devil the world and her own flesh Vouchsafe O Christ at length to admit us unto the marriage of the Lambe Amen Meditat. XIIII Of the mysterie of Christs incarnation Admire my soul the mysterie Of Jesus Christs nativitie LEt us withdraw our mindes a while from these temporall things and let us contemplate the mysterie of the Lords nativitie The Sonne of God came down from heaven unto us that we might obtain the adoption of sonnes God is made man that man may be made partaker of divine grace and nature About the
power of Christ Against the terrour of the law she rests in the gospel of Christ Against the sinnes which accuse her she rests in the bloud of Christ which speaketh better things before God then the bloud of Abel Against the terrour of death she rests with confidence in the session of Christ at the right hand of the Father And thus our faith findeth rest in Christ and our love findeth great rest also He that by his love cleaveth unto earthly things hath no true rest because earthly things themselves have it not in them They cannot fully satiate the souls appetite because they are all finite But our soul being created after the image of God doth desire that infinite good in which is all good As therefore our faith ought not to relie upon any of the creatures but upon the merit of Christ onely So also our love should not be settled upon any of the creatures nor upon our selves For self-love hindereth the love of God We must preferre the love of God before all Our soul is the spouse of Christ To him alone therefore must she adhere Our soul is the temple of God Therefore she must give entertainment to none but him Many seek for rest in riches But without Christ there is no rest to the soul. Where Christ is there is povertie if not in act yet in affect He being the Lord of heaven and earth had not where to rest his head And so would he commend and sanctifie povertie unto us Riches are without us But that which will quiet the soul must be within To what shall our soul cleave unto at death when we must leave all worldly things Either our riches forsake us or we them often in our life but alwayes at our death Where then shall our soul finde peace and rest Many seek for rest in pleasures But pleasures can bring no rest or delight unto the soul although they may unto the body for a time At length grief and sorrow follow as companions Pleasures belong unto this life But the soul was not created for this life because she is by death compelled to depart How then should she finde rest in pleasures Without Christ there is no rest to the soul But what was the life of Christ Extreme grief from the first moment of his nativitie even unto his death By this means he the true prizer of things would teach us what to think concerning pleasure Many seek for rest in honours But miserable are they that at every change of popular breath are compelled to want their rest Honour is without and a flitting good But that which will give rest unto the soul must be within What canst thou say more of the praise and glory given by men then of Apelles his commended picture Consider the corner wherein thou keepest What is the proportion thereof to a whole province to all Europe and to all the habitable world That is true honour indeed which God shall hereafter give unto the elect The rest of a thing is in its end neither doth a thing rest naturally untill it hath attained to its end and place God is the end whereunto the soul was created For it was made after the image of God Therefore it cannot be quiet and at rest but in its end that is in God As the soul is the life of the body So is God the life of the soul. As therefore that soul doth truly live in which God dwelleth by spirituall grace So likewise that soul is dead which hath not God dwelling in it And what rest can there be to the soul that is dead That first death in sinne doth necessarily draw with it the second death of damnation Whosoever therefore doth firmly cleave unto God with his love and inwardly enjoyeth divine consolation his rest can no outward things disquiet In the midst of sorrows he is joyfull in povertie rich in the tribulations of this world secure in troubles quiet in the reproches and contumelies of men still and in death it self living He regards not the threats of tyrants Because he feels within the riches of divine consolation In adversitie he is not made sorrowfull Because the holy Spirit within doth comfort him effectually In povertie he is not vexed Because he is rich in the goodnesse of God The reproches of men do not trouble him Because he enjoyeth the delights of divine honour He regards not the pleasure of the flesh Because the sweetnesse of the Spirit is more acceptable unto him He seeketh not after the friendship of the world Because he seeketh the love of God who is mercifull and a friend unto him He gapeth not after earthly treasures Because his chief treasure is hidden in the heavens He feareth not death Because in God he alwayes liveth He doth not much desire the wisdome of the world Because he hath the Spirit within to be his teacher That which is perfect taketh away that which is imperfect He feareth neither lightning nor tempests nor fire nor water nor flouds nor the sorrowfull aspects of the planets nor the obscuration of the lights of heaven Because he is carried up above the sphear of nature and by faith resteth and liveth in Christ. He is not drawn away by the allurements of the world Because he heares within him the voice of Christ which is sweeter He fears not the power of the devil Because he feels Gods indulgence He that lives and overcomes in him is stronger then the devil that in vain labours to overcome him He follows not the enticements of the flesh Because living in the Spirit he feels the riches of the Spirit and by the vivification of the Spirit mortifies and crucifies the flesh He fears not the devil his accuser Because he knows Christ to be his Advocate This true rest of the soul he grant unto us who is the onely authour and giver thereof our Lord God blessed for ever Meditat. XXXIII Of the puritie of conscience Labour to have a conscience pure When all things fail that will endure IN every thing thou takest in hand have a great care of thy conscience If the devil incites thee to any sinne stand in fear of the inward check of thy conscience If thou art afraid to sinne in the presence of men let thine own conscience much more deterre thee from sinne The inward testimonie is of more efficacy then the outward Therefore although thy sinnes could escape the accusations of all men yet they can never escape the inward witnesse of thy conscience Thy conscience shall be in the number of those books that shall be opened at the judgement to come as is testified in the Revelation The first is the book of Gods omniscience in which the thoughts words and deeds of all men shall manifestly appeare The second book is Christ which is the book of life in this book whosoever shall be found written by true faith shall be carried by the angels
not commend the care of thy body unto him God which is Almighty hath a care of thee Wherefore then dost thou doubt whether he can sustain thee or no God who is most wise hath a care of thee Wherefore then dost thou doubt how he will sustain thee God who is most bountifull hath a care of thee Wherefore then doest thou doubt how he will sustain thee God who is most bountifull hath a care of thee Wherefore then dost thou doubt whether he will sustain thee or no Thou hast the word and bond of Christ who is the Lord of all that is in heaven and earth that they which seek the kingdome of God shall want nothing that is necessary for man Trust in this promise of Christ he will not deceive thee For he is truth it self Covetousnesse is the greatest Idolatry Because it sets the creatures in the place of God The covetous man putteth his trust in the creatures whereas he should put his trust in God Whatsoever we love more then God we preferre before God and whatsoever we preferre before God we set up in the place of God Esau sold his birth-right for a mease of pottage So many sell the inheritance of the kingdome of heaven which was purchased by Christ to get things temporall Judas sold Christ for thirty pieces of silver And covetous men sell Christ for temporall riches How can he ever come to the kingdome of heaven who is filled daily with the husks of the swine How can he ever come unto God by lifting up his heart unto him who studies to seek rest for his soul in riches Riches are thorns so saith truth it self He therefore that loveth riches doth indeed love thorns O ye thorns how many souls do ye choak Thorns do hinder the increase of the seed And even so doth the solicitude and care about riches hinder the spirituall fruit of the word Thorns do afflict the bodie with punctures And even so do riches torment the soul with cares Thou shalt be sure to perish if thou gatherest onely such treasures as do perish They which lay up treasures here on earth are like unto them that lay up their fruits in low and moist places not considering that there they will soon come to rottennesse What fools are they that place the end of their desires in riches How can that which is corporall satisfie the soul which is spirituall when as that rather doth so comprehend corporall things by the vertue of its spirituall nature that it cannot be distended and filled by any quantitie The soul was created for eternitie Thou doest wrong unto her therefore if thou placest the end of thy desires in temporall and momentanie things The soul the more it is lifted up unto God the more it is withdrawn from the love of riches All things the nearer they are unto heaven the lesse they â—oâ—et and hoard up As the fowls of the aire which neither sow nor reap It is a great signe that the soul is busied about heavenly things if it do undervalue and contemne earthly things Mice and creeping things hoard up in the holes of the earth for they are of a worse condition and of a baser nature then the fowls It is a great signe that the soul is turned away from God and fastned unto the creatures if it cleave unto riches with an inordinate love God gave a soul unto thee And wilt thou not commit thy bodie to his care God feedeth the fowls of the aire And dost thou which art created after his image doubt whether he will sustain thee or no God clotheth the lilies of the field And doest thou doubt whether he will provide clothes for thee or no Be ashamed that faith and reason should not effect as much in thee as a naturall instinct doth effect in the fowls The fowls neither sow nor reap but commit the care of their bodies unto God The covetous men do not beleeve the words of God before they make provision for their own sustenance The covetous man is a most unjust man Wherefore Because he brought nothing with him into this world and yet he is so troubled about these earthly things as if he meant to carry much with him out of this world The covetous man is a most unthankfull man Wherefore Because he enjoyeth many gifts which come from God and yet is never lifted up unto the giver thereof by the confidence of heart The covetous man is a most foolish man Wherefore Because he leaveth the true good without which nothing is good indeed and cleaveth unto that which is not good without the grace of God He that is held bound by the love of earthly things doth not possesse them but is possessed of them Covetousnesse is neither diminished by plenty nor want By want it is not diminished because his desire of having doth still increase when he cannot attain what he hath long desired And by plenty it is not diminished because the covetous man the more he getteth the more he desires And when he hath got what he covetously desired he hath still a new occasion ministred unto him to desire more Like unto fire which as more wood is still laid on the more it increaseth Covetousnesse is a torrent at first small but afterwards increasing infinitely Set a term therefore to the desire of riches lest thy covetousnesse at length draw thee into everlasting destruction Many devoure in this life that which they must afterwards digest in hell And many whilest they thirst after gain run unto most certain death Think upon these things O devout soul and as much as thou canst flee from covetousnesse Thou shalt carry to judgement none of thy riches but those which thou hast given to the poore Doest thou refuse to give thy temporall and fading riches to the poore for whom Christ refused not to give his life Give unto the poore that thou mayest give unto thy self That which thou dost not give unto the poore another shall have He is too too covetous to whom the Lord is not sufficient He doth not yet truely hope for heavenly things who overprizeth earthly things How would he lay down his life for his brother who denieth his temporall substance to his brother that asketh The hand of the poore is the treasurie of heaven That which it receiveth it layeth up in heaven that upon earth it may not perish Wouldest thou perform an acceptable office unto Christ Shew thy bounty to the poore That which is done unto his members the head takes as done to himself Christ saith unto thee Give unto me of that which I have given unto thee Do good with thy goods that thou mayest obtain good Give thy earthly things liberally that thou mayest keep them For in keeping them too frugally thou losest them Heare Christ admonishing that thou beest not compelled to heare him at the judgement saying Go ye cursed
onely the persecution but the reward also is increased Consider the happy condition of the crosse It plucks the love of the world out of us by the roots but it sows in our hearts the seed of the love of God The crosse begets in us an hate of worldly things and lifts up our minde unto heavenly things When the flesh is mortified the spirit is quickened and when the world waxeth bitter Christ becometh sweet unto us Great is the mysterie of the crosse for by it God calls us to contrition to true fear and to the exercise of our patience Let us open to him when he knocketh and we shall heare what the Lord will say within us The sight of the crosse is contemptible in the sight of the world and in the carnall eyes of the outward man But it is glorious in the sight of God and in the spirituall eyes of the inward man What was reputed by the Jews more base and vile then the passion of Christ And what was more glorious and precious in the sight of God For it was the price paid for the sinnes of the whole world Even so the just man is afflicted the just man dies and no man considereth it But precious is the crosse and precious is the death of the Saints in the sight of the Lord. The church which is the spouse of Christ is black without by reason of calamities and persecutions But she is beautifull within by reason of divine consolation The Church and every faithfull soul is as a garden enclosed and none knows the beauty thereof but he that is in it We shall never fully and perfectly feel the consolation of the spirit unlesse our flesh be afflicted without If the love of the world dwelleth in us the love of God cannot enter in A full vessel cannot be filled with new liquour unlesse the first be emptied Let us therefore poure out the love of the world that we may be filled with the love of God Therefore God by the crosse doth extinguish in us the love of the world that there may be room for the love of God Besides the crosse drives us to our prayers and is an occasion of vertue When the North-winde blows upon the garden that is when persecutions assault the Church then the spices thereof are scattered abroad and the vertues thereof are increased and they cast forth an odour pleasing unto God The beloved bridegroom of my soul is white and ruddy white for his innocency and ruddie for his passion And so is also the beloved spouse of Christ white for her vertues and ruddie for her sufferings And thus the grace of God can produce oyl and hony out of the most hard rock of afflictions And so out of the bitter root of calamities God knows how to bring forth the most pleasant fruit of eternall glory Unto which he bring us and admit us Amen Meditat. XLII How we must overcome tentations by perseverance Let not tentations cast thee down For perseverance shall thee crown HOly Lord Jesus the most loving bridegroom of my soul when will the time come that thou wilt lead me to the solemnitie of thy marriage I am a pilgrim and a banished man from thee But yet I most firmly beleeve and nothing doubt but that I shall be shortly set at libertie out of the prison of my bodie and appear before thy face Fear and trembling are come upon me because I carry my treasure in vessels of clay My minde is prone to errour and my will is prone to sinne and therefore my spirit within me is not alwayes ready but the flesh is alwayes weak Sinne leadeth me captive and the law of my members is repugnant to the law of my minde Fear and trembling are come upon me because Satan lieth in wait for my treasure His subtiltie is great his desire to hurt is most earnest and his power is exceeding great He deceived Adam in paradise and Judas in our Saviours school And how then shall I be safe from his treacheries Fear and trembling are come upon me because I am still in the world which is altogether set upon wickednesse The delights of the world entice me adversities in the way of the Lord affright me sometimes the enticements of the world are pleasing unto me and all the world is full of snares Miserable man that I am how shall I be able to escape them Joyes do assault me and sorrows do assault me Miserable man how shall I be able to stand Fear and trembling are come upon me because it is God that worketh in me both to will and to perfect I am afraid lest I should force God by my negligence and want of care to take from me that good will which he hath given me I make not a right use of remission of sinnes and I refuse the first grace which was given freely And therefore I have cause to fear lest God in his secret and just judgement justly take from me that which I have unjustly abused I am afraid lest I be forsaken of him whom after my first conversion I have so often forsaken How grievously am I vexed when I consider that the heavie and severe judgement of God shall follow after his benefits if I make not a right use of them But the infinite mercie of God raiseth me up because as he hath given me to will he will also give unto me to perfect for he is God and is not changed His mercy also is confirmed towards me and shall not be changed The foundation of God is sure sure indeed because it is in God in whom there is no change Sure indeed because it is confirmed by the bloud of Christ which alwayes speaketh loud before the throne of God Sure indeed because it is signed with the sure seals of the Sacraments If I should seek never so little salvation in my self I must needs doubt of my salvation But as all my righteousnesse is in Christ so in him also is all the hope of my salvation If I had apprehended and laid hold upon Christ of mine own free will I might yet fear lest my will should change and so I should loose Christ But he that was found of him that sought him not will not assuredly withdraw himself again after he is once found He that hath translated me out of the shadow of death unto the participation of light will not suffer me to return again unto my former darknesse The gifts of God are without repentance and our vocation by God as concerning the will of God But I could wish that even I also were unchangeable in that which is good That treasure is alwayes present but the hand that should apprehend it doth sometimes languish But I shall be able to apprehend Christ because as he hath revealed himself unto me in his word and promises so likewise he will
But thou O Christ wast made a curse for me that I might be freed from the curse of the law I shall be cursed by Moses but blessed by thee For I desire to heare that voice Come ye blessed of my Father inherit the kingdome prepared for you Moses will accuse me But thou wilt not accuse me to thy Father yea thou makest intercession for me Therefore I am not afraid of Moses his curse because thou hast blotted out the hand-writing which was against me The damned will accuse me and pronounce me guiltie of the same fault with them I confesse Lord Jesus my guiltinesse doth conjoyn me with them but the acknowledgement of my guiltines and the saving knowledge of thee doth disjoyn me from them He that heareth thy word and beleeveth on him that sent thee hath life everlasting and shall not come into condemnation I heare thy word Lord and in thee I beleeve with weak faith but yet faith Lord I beleeve yet help thou my unbelief Lord I beleeve but yet do thou increase my faith Although I am not free from all the sinnes of the damned yet thou O Lord shalt deliver me from unbelief All my accusers do terrifie me but thou being my Judge dost comfort me To thee hath the Father committed all judgement Into thy hands hath he delivered all things and again thee hath he delivered up for us all and thou hast delivered up thy self for the Church to sanctifie it and cleanse it by the washing of water through the word How canst thou then according to severe judgement judge those for whom thou hast delivered thy self to death even the death of the crosse Thou canst not hate thine own flesh we are members of thy body of thy flesh and of thy bones Meditat. XLVI Of the desire of eternall life All earthly things tread under thee And let thy thoughts in heaven be DEvout soul thou must not love this life which is transitorie but rather that which remaineth for ever Ascend up by thy desires to the place where there is youth without old age life without death joy without sorrow and a kingdome without change If beauty delight thee The righteous shall shine as the sunne If swiftnesse and strength The elect shall be like unto the angels of God If a long and healthfull life There shall be healthfull eternitie and eternall healthfulnesse If fulnesse The elect shall be filled when the glory of the Lord shall appear If melodie There do the quires of angels sing without end If pure pleasure God shall make those that are his drunk in the torrent of pleasure If wisdome The very wisdome of God shall shew it self unto them If love They shall love God more then themselves and one another as themselves and God shall love them more then they themselves If concord delight There they shall be all of one minde If power To the elect shall all things be easie they shall desire nothing but what they shall be able and they shall desire nothing but what God will have them to will and to desire If honour and riches delight God will make his faithfull servants rulers over many things If true securitie They shall be as certain never to want that good as they are certain that they themselves would never lose it willingly and that God that loveth them will never take from them against their wills that which they love and that nothing is more powerfull then God to separate God and them asunder Whatsoever the elect can desire there they shall finde because they shall behold him that is all in all face to face So great are the goods of that life that they cannot be measured so many that they cannot be numbred and so precious that they cannot be valued There shall be eternall health unto our bodies and great puritie unto our souls there shall be glory and fulnesse of divine pleasure there shall we have familiaritie with the saints and angels for ever having our bodies of admirable clearnesse and brightnesse The elect shall rejoyce for the pleasantnesse of the place which they shall possesse for the pleasant societie in which they shall reigne for the glory of their bodies which they shall put on for the world which they have despised and for hell which they have escaped The least crown of eternall life shall be more worth then a thousand worlds because they are all finite but this is infinite Neither is there any fear that they shall envie one anothers brightnesse because there shall reigne in them all unitie of love By reason of that high degree of love whatsoever happeneth to one of the elect the rest shall as much rejoyce at as if it were their own There is no greater good then God in heaven and in earth Therefore there can be no greater perfecter joy then to see possesse God Therefore to see God for one moment shall go beyond all joyes For we shall see God in himself God in us and our selves in God In the way of this life we have Christ with us but hidden under the covering of the word and sacraments We know him not here as he is but in the life to come we shall behold him in presence when he shall distribute unto us the bread that satisfieth for ever As the disciples knew him not upon the way but in the Inne at length when he broke bread unto them The heavenly Jerusalem hath no temple made with hands neither sunne nor moon because the temple thereof is eternall and God is the life thereof Vision succeeds in the place of faith attainment in the place of hope and perfect fruition in the place of love As at the building of Solomons temple there was heard neither the sound of ax nor hammer So in the heavenly Jerusalem there is neither pain nor tribulation felt because the materials of this temple to wit the spirituall stones are prepared by tribulation in the world long before The queen that came to Solomon is the soul travelling to the heavenly Jerusalem unto Christ She entreth in with a great train of the holy angels with gold and precious stones of divers vertues She will wonder at the wisdome of Christ the King the order of his ministers that is the Angels and the Saints the fare of his table that is the fulnesse of eternall repast the price and value of his clothes that is the bodies glorified the beauty of his house that is the greatnesse of the heavenly palace the sacrifices that is the multitude of divine praises She will be turned into astonishment and confesse she could not beleeve what she now seeth with her eyes Therefore let the faithfull soul lift up her self and consider what good things are prepared for her Thither let the spirit be directed whither at length it shall go In time we
hands O God how liberall art thou to mankindeâ— All things thou createdst long ago for the use of man All things thou dost as yet preserve for the good of man Whatsoever thou of thine infinite goodnesse affordest to the other creatures thou affordest also unto me for as much as thou dost wonderfully form furnish and conserve them for my sake Some of the creatures serve to obey me some to nourish me some to clothe me some to cure me some to chastise me But all of them to teach and inform me Who can reckon up those divers kindes of nutriments which thou hast created and dost as yet produce out of the earth unto this day to nourish us Who can enumerate those divers species of herbs which thou dost every yeare cause the earth to bring forth to cure us Who can in words comprehend those sundry kindes of living creatures which were made for mans use and do yet all serve him To thee be praise and honour for ever who art the Creatour and Conserver of all things Without thee the true sunne I should vanish away as doth the shadow Without thee the true life I should presently depart out of this life Without thee the true being I should suddenly fall to nothing To thee onely is due that I live move and have my being Therefore to thee alone will I live and adhere for ever Amen PRAYER III. He renders thanks for our redemption wrought by Christ. I Ow unto thee O eternall and Almighty God most heartie thanks for that thou hast created me when I was nothing But much more for that thou hast redeemed me when I was lost and condemned I did hang in the jaws of hell And thou didst pluck me out by the bloud of thy Sonne I was the slave of Satan but thy grace hath delivered me out of the power of the devil and translated me into the kingdome of Christ. I ow my self wholly unto thee because thou createdst me wholly My tongue ought alwayes to praise thee because thou gavest it unto me My mouth ought alwayes to set forth thy praise because the aire and breath which it drawes is thine My heart ought alwayes to cleave unto thee with perpetuall love because thou didst form it All my members ought to be ready for thy service because thou didst wonderfully frame them how many and how great soever they be But if I ow my self wholly unto thee because thou createdst me What shall I repay unto thee for redeeming me out of slavery and captivity The lost sheep thou hast delivered out of the claws of the infernall wolf The fugitive slave thou hast pluckt out of the prison of the devil The lost groat thou hast sought out with great carefulnesse In Adam I fell and thou hast erected me In Adam I was captivated in the bonds of sinne but thou hast set me at liberty In Adam I was lost and again thou hast saved me What am I worm that thou shouldest be so solicitous for redeeming me What am I worm that thou shouldest be so prodigally bountifull for saving me If thou hadst altogether cast off our first parents after their fall and hadst thrown them with all their posteritie out from the presence of thy glory into the lowest pit of hell there is none of us could justly complain of any wrong done unto him For they had received and we had received for our deeds a just reward What else could we have desired or expected from thee who createdst us after thine own image and furnishedst us with power and sufficiencie to have kept our innocencie But in this thou didst manifest thy incomprehensible and unspeakable love towards us in that thou didst promise unto our first parents after their fall thy Sonne for their Redeemer and in the fulnesse of time didst send him unto us to call us from death to life from sinne to righteousnesse and from the infernall pit unto celestiall glorie O thou lover of man whose delight is with the sonnes of men who can worthily set forth the praise of thy love to man Yea who can in minde conceive the worthines thereof These are the incomprehensible riches of thy goodnesse This is the infinite treasure of thy gifts which the slendernesse of our capacitie and understanding cannot conceive Was a servant so deare unto thee that thy Sonne must be delivered to death for his redemption Was an enemie so much to be beloved that thou shouldest appoint thy most beloved Sonne to be his redeemer My soul is astonisht with the very consideration of this thy goodnesse â—nd doth wholly turn and dissolve it self into the love of thee Amen PRAYER IIII. He rendreth thanks for the incarnation of the Sonne I Render thanks unto thee Jesu Christ thou alone Mediatour and Redeemer of mankinde for that thou hast in the fulnesse of time personally united unto thee the true humane nature and hast vouchsafed to be born of a Virgin How great is thy love to man in that thou didst not assume the nature of angels but the seed of Abraham How great is the mystery of godlinesse that thou being very God wouldest be made manifest in the flesh How great is the inclination of thy pity that descending from heaven for my sake thou hast endured to be born of a Virgin For me most vile creature Creatour Almighty thou art become man For me most abject servant most glorious Lord thou hast put on the shape of a servant that by taking flesh upon thee thou mightest set my flesh at libertie To me thou art born Whatsoever celestiall good therefore thou bringest with thee in thy Nativitie shall be mine To me thou art given And therefore all things with thee My nature in thee is more glorified then it was in Adam dishonoured For thou dost assume it into the Unitie of thy Person whereas it was weakened with accidentall corruption onely by Satan Thou art flesh of my flesh and bone of my bone Thou art my brother And what canst thou deny unto me seeing thou art most nearly joyned unto me in the same flesh and affection of brotherly love Thou art the Bridegroom who according to the good pleasure of thy heavenly Father hast coupled unto thee by a personall league the humane nature as a spouse To the joy of those nuptials I do proclaim and thankfully acknowledge that I my self am invited I wonder now no more that the heaven the earth the sea and all things that are in them were made for man by God seeing that God himself would for man become man Thou canst not utterly divorce me and cast me away from thee seeing that thou canst not deny that thou art a man and therefore my brother Thou canst not altogether forget me because thou hast graven me in thine own hands For the very communion of the flesh doth daily and continually put thee in minde of me Thou canst not altogether forsake me seeing that it
and sanctuary of libertie and the rock of my strength and horn of my salvation In me there is nothing but sinne death and condemnation In thee there is nothing but righteousnesse life health and consolation I despair therefore in my self and I hope in thee I am dashed in pieces of my self and I am raised up by thee Let tribulations be multiplied so that thy quickening consolations be present unto me and erect my hope Tribulation worketh patience and patience experience and experience hope and hope maketh not ashamed In thee O Lord do I put my trust let me never be confounded Amen PRAYER IIII. He prayes for the conservation and increase of charitie ETernall and mercifull God who art charitie and love it self Grant unto me the riches of true and spirituall love My heart is cold my heart is earthy O thou that art fire O thou that art love it self kindle me My heart is hard and stony O thou that art the rock O thou that art love it self soften me My heart is full of thorns and thistles of anger and hatred O most gracious Father O thou that art love it self weed me I will love thee O Lord my strength my rock and my tower of defence my deliverer my God my buckler and the horn of my salvation Whatsoever I see in the creatures either good or excellent all that I finde in thee who art the chief good more abundant and excellent I will love thee therefore with all my heart above all things in whom I know there is such plenty excellencie of all good It is so much the better for me by how much the more I come unto thee then whom there is nothing better But I will come unto thee not walking on the feet of my body but loving thee with the affection of my heart If I desire beauty thou art the most beautifull of all If I desire wisdome thou art the wisest of all If I desire riches thou art the richest of all If I desire power thou art the most powerfull of all If I desire strength thou art the strongest of all If I desire honour thou art the most glorious of all Thou didst love me from eternity I will therefore love thee again unto eternitie Thou didst love me in giving thy self for me I will love thee again in rendring my self up wholly unto thee Let my heart be set on fire let every creature seem vile unto me Do thou onely become sweet unto my soul. It was thy will that the humane nature should be united unto thy Sonne by an unseparable union How much more is it fit that my heart be joyned unto thee by an unseparable bond of love A divine love drew thy Sonne from heaven to earth tyed him to a pillar to be whipt and fastened him to the crosse to be crucified Should not as fervent a flame of love lift up my heart from earth to heaven and binde me to thee the chief good and that unseparably I should offer much injury unto thee and unto my self if I should love terrene vile and mean things when thou hast so much honoured me and given me such large promises to the end I might love thee From this love of thee let there arise in my heart a sincere love of my neighbour Whosoever loveth thee O thou chief good keepeth also thy commandments seeing that the doing of the work is the triall of love Wherefore seeing that thou hast commanded us to love our neighbours therefore 〈◊〉 man loves thee sincerely which payeth not unto his neighbour the debt of love Whatsoever my neighbour is he was so deare unto thee that thou didst wonderfully create him mercifully redeem him and graciously call him to the fellowship of thy kingdome In thee therefore and for thee I ought to love my neighbour whom I see to be raised by thy grace and mercy to such an height of glory Strengthen and increase in me this true and sincere love thou that art love eternall and unchangeable Amen PRAYER V. He prayes for the conservation and increase of humility ALmighty and mercifull God which art a severe hater of all pride grant that I may be the rose of charity and the violet of humilitie that I may by my deeds of charitie cast forth a good and fragrant smell and think humbly of my self in my heart What am I Lord in thy sight Dust ashes a shadow nothing Wherefore seeing that I am nothing in thy sight grant that I may seem to my self nothing in mine own sight Keep down that swelling pride that was born together with my heart that I may receive the dew of thy heavenly grace For the streams of thy grace do not flow upwards to the high mountains but are carried downwards to the low valleys of the humble heart There is nothing at all mine but infirmitie and iniquitie Whatsoever good thing there is in me it descends from the fountain of thy goodnesse unto me Therefore I can challenge no good unto my self seeing that there is nothing properly mine By how much the more I think highly of thee By so much the more I think basely of my self Farre be it from me most gracious Lord farre be it from me to be proud of thy blessings and in respect of them to despise others The treasures of thy riches thou didst depose in the chest of my heart as many and as great as it pleased thee God forbid that I should attribute them unto mine own worth and ascribe them unto my self Thou didst kindle in my heart by thy Spirit the fire of pietie and love Grant I beseech thee that I may cover it with the ashes of humilitie How little is the honour that by man is given unto man How little is the praise wherewith man is graced by man But he O most mighty Creatour is great indeed that is great with thee He that pleaseth thee pleaseth the true prizer of things But no man pleaseth thee unlesse he displease himself Thou art the life of my life Thou art the soul of my soul I therefore resigne my life and soul into thy hands and with an humble heart cleave fast unto thee Let thy highnesse look upon my lowlinesse Let thy loftinesse look upon my basenesse Alas why do I so desire to be extolled in the world seeing that there is nothing in the world to be desired Why do I so much lift up my self when as the yoke of sinne doth so keep me down Let the goad of thy godly fear prick my heart lest it die of the most dangerous disease of spirituall tumour Let my sinnes which are innumerable be alwayes in my sight As for my good works let them be buried in oblivion Let the remembrance of my sinnes make me more sorrowfull then the glory of any work that I do seemingly good but indeed unclean and imperfect merry and joyfull In thee alone do I rejoyce and glory who art my joy
and my glory for ever Amen PRAYER VI. He prayes for the gift and increase of patience ALmighty eternall and mercifull God with humble sighs I implore thy grace that thou wilt grant unto me true and sincere patience My flesh coveteth after things pleasing unto it that is soft and carnall and refuseth patiently to endure things contrary I beseech thee powerfully to represse in me this desire of the flesh and underprop my weaknesse with the power of patience O Christ Jesu thou doctour of patience and obedience furnish me within with thy holy Spirit that I may learn of thee to renounce mine own will and patiently to bear the crosse that is laid upon me Thou enduredst for me things more grievous then thou layest upon me and I have deserved more grievous punishments then thou inflictest Thou didst bear the crown of thorns and the burden of the crosse thou didst sweat bloud thou didst tread the wine-presse for me Why therefore should I refuse with patience to endure such small sufferings and afflictions Why should I be loth to be made conformable unto thy sorrowfull image in this life Thou didst drink of the brook of passions in the way Why then should I deny to drink a small draught out of the cup of the crosse I have by my sinnes deserved eternall punishments And why should not I suffer a little in this world a fatherly correction Those that thou from eternitie before the foundations of the world were laid didst foreknow thou hast decreed that they should be made conformable unto the image of thy Sonne in the time of this life Therefore if I should not endure patiently this conformitie by the crosse I should despise thy holy and eternall counsel concerning my salvation which farre be from me thy unworthy servant It is for triall and not for deniall that thou dost so exercise me with sundry calamities As much of the crosse and tribulation as thou layest upon me so much light and consolation dost thou conferre upon me neither is my chastisement increased so much as my reward is The sufferings of this life are not worthy of that heavenly consolation which thou sendest in this life and that heavenly glory which thou promisest in the life to come I know that thou art with me in trouble Why therefore should I not rejoyce rather for the presence of thy grace then be sorrowfull for the burden of the crosse that is laid upon me Lead me which way thou wilt thou best Master and Teacher through thorns and bushes I will follow thee onely do thou draw me and make me able to follow thee I submit my head to be crowned with thorns being fully perswaded that thou wilt hereafter crown me with an everlasting crown of glory Amen PRAYER VII He prayes for the gift and increase of gentlenesse and meeknesse O Most gracious Lord that dost so lovingly and kindly invite us to repentance and with such long patience dost wait for our conversion give unto me the riches of long-suffering and meeknesse The fire of anger doth flame in my heart as often as I receive the least detriment from my neighbour Therefore I humbly pray thee that by thy Spirit thou wouldest mortifie this sinfull affection of my flesh What hard words and harder blows and most hard punishments did thy beloved Sonne endure for me Who when he was reproched reproched not again but referred all to him that judgeth all things most righteously What pride is this therefore and stubbornnesse in me that I miserable and mortall dust of the earth and ashes cannot endure a rough word and overcome with meeknesse of heart the offence given me by my neighbour Learn of me O learn of me for I am meek and humble in heart thou cryest out O Christ. Receive me receive me with sighs I humbly intreat thee into that practick school of thy Spirit that I may learn there true meeknesse With what grievous and divers sinnes do I offend thee most gracious Father whose daily pardon I stand in need of Why therefore do I being a man harbour anger against man and presume to ask pardon of thee who art Lord of heaven and earth Were it not absurd for me to take no pitie upon man that is like unto my self and to ask of thee Lord remission of my sinnes Vnlesse I shall remit unto my neighbour his offences neither can I hope for remission of my sinnes Therefore most gracious Lord that art of much mercie and long-suffering give unto me the spirit of patience and meeknes that I do not presently conceive anger when my neighbour offendeth me but that I may shun it as the enemie of my soul or if it steal upon me unawares that I may presently lay it aside Let not the sunne go down upon my wrath lest it depart as a witnesse against me Let not sleep seize upon me whilst I am angry lest he deliver me in my anger to death his sister If I desire to take revenge of mine enemie why do not I set my self against mine anger which is my greatest and most hurtfull enemie seeing that it kills the â—oul and makes me subject to eternall death Set a watch before my mouth and give me prudence to govern the actions of my life that I offend not my neighbour either in word or deed Grant that I may be unto my neighbour by the fragrant smell of my vertues a sweet senting rose and not by offences and detractions a pricking thorn Grant good Jesu that I may insist in the footsteps of thy meeknesse and with a sincere heart love my neighbour Amen PRAYER VIII He prayes for the gift and increase of chastitie HOly God thou which art a lover of modestie and chastitie and a severe hater of filthinesse and lust for Christ his sake the most chaste Bridegroom of my soul I intreat thee to work and increase in me true chastitie inward and outward of the soul and of the body of the spirit and of the flesh and contrariwise to extinguish the fire of evil concupiscence that is in my heart Let the holy fear of thee wound my flesh that it rush not headlong into the fire of lust Let the celestiall love carrie my soul up unto thee that it cleave not through inordinate love unto the unsavourie things of the world Showre down a upon me the streams of thy heavenly grace that the flames of concupiscence may thereby be extinguished as fiery darts are in the water My soul was created after thy image and repaired again by Christ I should offer great injurie unto thee therefore my Creatour and Redeemer and unto my self also if I should be-black the beautifull face of my soul with the smoke and stains of dishonest love Christ dwelleth in my heart The holy Ghost dwelleth in my heart Let him therefore replenish me with the power of his grace and the larges of his spirituall gifts that I may
If it be the totall good of mankinde to love God then it must needs be the totall evil to love himself If it be the nature and propertie of the true good to communicate it self then surely mans love of himself must needs be a great evil because he challengeth his own and others good unto himself If all glory be due unto God alone then is it sacriledge to challenge honour for he that challengeth it challengeth that which is anothers Extinguish in me this love of my self and mine honour O Christ blessed for ever Amen PRAYER XI He prayeth for conquest over the world ALmightie eternall and mercifull God Father of our Lord Jesus Christ give unto me the grace of thy holy Spirit that I may get the conquest over all the tentations of the world The world sets upon me with hatred flattery and perverse examples Teach me to contemn the hatred of the world to decline her allurements and to shun the imitation of evil examples What can the world with her hatred do against me if thy grace like a buckler protect me What shall it hurt me though all men should persecute me with hatred if thou my God dost embrace me with love Again what shall it profit me though all men should love me if the fury of thine anger shall pursue me The world passeth away the hatred of the world passeth away But the grace of God alone endureth for ever Remove therefore O God out of my heart that inordinate fear that I be not afraid of the hatred and persecution of the world But ingraff in my soul a full confidence and an ardent heat of the spirit that I may learn to contemn all worldly things because they are transitorie clouds Why should I be afraid of them that kill the body but cannot kill the soul I will rather reverence and fear him that is able to cast not onely the body but the soul also into the everlasting fire of hell Our faith is the victorie that overcometh the world For by faith we have an eye unto the joyes to come that so we may with patience endure these present sorrows By faith we relie upon the divine goodnesse that so we may abide humane hatred Neither doth the world assault me on the left hand onely with her hatred but on the right hand also she laboureth to ensnare me with her fawning allurements She hath a sting in her tail but she hath a smooth face Grant unto me therefore O Christ a taste of the sweetnesse of the heavenly joy that I may lose the taste of earthly things The taste of my soul is corrupt and coveteth after earthly things and the contempt of the worlds allurements doth seem bitter unto it But thou the true prizer of things hast taught me to lothe the enticements of the world and wouldest have my soul to soar aloft after heavenly things Turn away therefore O turn away my heart from the allurements of the world that being turned unto thee it may enjoy the true and spirituall delights What have these things profited the lovers of the world after death to wit Vain glory short pleasure slender power What hath the momentanie pleasure of the flesh and store of false riches profited Where are they now that not many dayes ago were here with us There remains nothing of them but ashes and worms They did eat and drink being secure they passed their life being made drunk with carnall pleasure But now their flesh is here given to the worms for meat and their soul is there tormented in everlasting fire All their glorie is fallen like the flower and like grasse withered Suffer me not O God to follow their steps lest that I come to the same term of misery But by the victory of the world lead me unto the crown of celestiall glory Amen PRAYER XII He prayes for consolation in adversitie and for the true rest of the soul. MOst gracious Father God of 〈◊〉 hope and consolation grant unto me in all adversities thy quickning consolation and the true rest of the soul. I feel much straitnesse in my heart But thy consolation shall make glad my soul. Vain and unprofitable is all the comfort of the world in thee alone is the strength and support of my soul. The weight of divers calamities presseth me sore But thy inward speaking unto me and thy consolation maketh it light No creature can make me so sorrowfull but thou canst make me much more glad by the spirit of gladnesse No adversities can so straiten my heart but thy grace can much more enlarge it The fiery heat of sundry calamities doth torment me But the taste of thy sweetnesse doth refresh me Rivers of tears distill from mine eyes But thy most bountifull hand doth wipe them all away As thou didst shew thy loving countenance to Stephen the first Martyr even in the very heat when his enemies stoned him So vouchsafe to give unto me in all adversities the joy of thy comfort As in the most grievous agonie of death thou didst send an angel unto thy Sonne to comfort him So in this my wrestling send I beseech thee thy holy Spirit to uphold me Without thy support I fall down under the burden of the crosse Without thy help by the assault of sundry adversities I am cast down flat Extinguish in me the love of the world and of the creatures so shall not the calamities of this world nor the changeablenesse of the creatures bring any bitternesse unto me He that with all his heart doth cleave unto the world and to the creatures can never be made partaker of the true and eternall rest for all terrestriall things are subject to continuall alterations and changes But whosoever doth not cleave unto the present goods of this life with an inordinate desire he will not be grieved much for the losse of the same Poure out O God poure out of my heart the love of the world that the celestiall Elisha may poure into the widows pitcher that is into my soul devoid of earthly comfort the oyl of celestiall joy Let all earthly things be troubled and changed and turned upside down Yet notwithstanding thou art the immoveable foundation and most firm rock of my heart Can a poore and weak creature disturb the quiet of my soul which I possesse in thee my Creatour sure and immoveable Can the waves of the world that most unquiet sea cast down the rock of my heart which is fixt in thee the chief and immutable good No For thy peace passeth all un-understanding and overcometh the invasion of all adversities Which inward peace most bountifull Father I beg at thy hands with most humble sighs Amen PRAYER XIII He prayes for victory in tentations and deliverance from the devils treacheries and invasions BE present unto me thou God of Zebaoth thou God of strength and mercy that I yeeld not unto the tentations and invasions of Satan but being safe