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thy_o divine_a love_n to_o be_v the_o pure_a since_o that_o thou_o give_v i_o thy_o love_n for_o no_o other_o end_n but_o that_o i_o may_v give_v thou_o i_o and_o whole_o thou_o give_v thou_o to_o i_o that_o i_o may_v whole_o give_v myself_o to_o thou_o and_o this_o not_o for_o any_o need_n that_o thou_o have_v of_o i_o but_o because_o that_o i_o live_v in_o thou_o may_v by_o the_o union_n of_o love_n be_v unite_v unto_o thou_o and_o that_o the_o vileness_n of_o my_o earthly_a heart_n may_v be_v make_v one_o divine_a heart_n with_o thou_o the_o which_o thing_n consider_v thou_o shall_v offer_v thyself_o to_o the_o good_a pleasure_n of_o god_n with_o the_o great_a affection_n that_o possible_o thou_o can_v be_v ready_a with_o a_o inflame_a desire_n always_o to_o follow_v his_o most_o bless_a will_n and_o when_o thou_o shall_v feel_v this_o desire_n well_o kindle_v in_o thou_o thou_o shall_v see_v with_o thy_o mind_n a_o great_a will_n and_o desire_n that_o he_o have_v that_o the_o 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keep_v the_o power_n of_o thy_o soul_n void_a and_o free_a from_o all_o curiosity_n vain_a thought_n and_o earthly_a affection_n and_o the_o sense_n of_o thy_o body_n as_o it_o be_v fast_v from_o the_o delight_n of_o their_o several_a object_n and_o after_o thou_o have_v receive_v he_o shut_v up_o thyself_o in_o the_o closet_n of_o thy_o heart_n and_o in_o this_o or_o such_o like_a manner_n talk_v with_o thy_o saviour_n o_o king_n of_o king_n what_o have_v bring_v thou_o unto_o i_o that_o be_o wretched_a miserable_a poor_a blind_a and_o naked_a and_o he_o will_v answer_v thou_o love_n o_o love_n uncreated_a o_o sweet_a love_n what_o desire_v thou_o of_o i_o no_o other_o thing_n say_v he_o but_o love_n no_o other_o fire_n will_v i_o have_v to_o burn_v in_o the_o earth_n of_o thy_o heart_n but_o the_o fire_n of_o my_o love_n that_o it_o may_v consume_v all_o other_o love_n and_o burn_v up_o all_o thy_o selfe-will_a this_o i_o demand_v because_o i_o desire_v to_o be_v whole_o thou_o and_o that_o thou_o may_v be_v whole_o i_o the_o which_o can_v never_o be_v whilst_o thou_o not_o make_v a_o full_a resignation_n of_o thyself_o which_o so_o much_o delight_v i_o still_o do_v remain_v fasten_v to_o the_o love_n of_o thyself_o and_o to_o thy_o own_o judgement_n and_o conceit_n to_o every_o little_a will_n of_o thou_o and_o to_o the_o reputation_n of_o thyself_o i_o demand_v of_o thou_o the_o hatred_n of_o thyself_o for_o to_o give_v thou_o my_o love_n i_o demand_v thy_o heart_n that_o it_o may_v enter_v and_o unite_v itself_o with_o i_o for_o this_o be_v the_o cause_n why_o i_o be_v open_v upon_o the_o cross_n i_o desire_v of_o thou_o o_o my_o love_a soul_n that_o thou_o will_v nothing_o think_v nothing_o understand_v nothing_o see_v nothing_o out_o of_o i_o so_o that_o i_o also_o may_v will_n understand_v think_v and_o see_v all_o thing_n in_o thou_o in_o such_o manner_n that_o thy_o nothing_o may_v be_v swallow_v up_o in_o the_o depth_n of_o my_o infinite_a goodness_n and_o be_v convert_v into_o it_o and_o thus_o thou_o shall_v be_v in_o i_o most_o happy_a and_o i_o content_a in_o thou_o in_o the_o end_n after_o this_o thou_o shall_v offer_v to_o god_n the_o father_n his_o son_n for_o thyself_o for_o the_o whole_a world_n and_o for_o the_o soul_n depart_v with_o the_o memory_n and_o union_n of_o that_o oblation_n which_o then_o he_o make_v of_o himself_o when_o he_o hang_v bloody_a upon_o the_o cross_n and_o thou_o may_v in_o this_o manner_n offer_v up_o all_o the_o sacrifice_n which_o be_v offer_v up_o that_o day_n in_o the_o holy_a church_n of_o spiritual_a receive_v chap._n 31._o although_o thou_o can_v not_o receive_v thy_o saviour_n more_o than_o once_o a_o day_n sacramental_o notwithstanding_o thou_o may_v receive_v he_o spiritual_o every_o hour_n and_o moment_n and_o this_o can_v be_v take_v from_o any_o creature_n but_o by_o their_o own_o negligence_n or_o other_o voluntary_a fault_n and_o sometime_o it_o may_v prove_v that_o this_o spiritual_a receive_n shall_v be_v more_o profitable_a to_o ourselves_o and_o acceptable_a to_o god_n than_o many_o other_o sacramental_a receiving_n in_o respect_n of_o the_o want_n and_o defect_n of_o they_o that_o receive_v therefore_o how_o oft_o soever_o thou_o shall_v dispose_v and_o prepare_v thyself_o to_o this_o spiritual_a receive_n thou_o shall_v find_v the_o son_n of_o god_n ready_a with_o his_o own_o proper_a hand_n to_o feed_v thou_o spiritual_o with_o himself_o and_o thou_o may_v prepare_v thyself_o in_o this_o manner_n turn_v thyself_o to_o he_o for_o this_o end_n and_o brief_o consider_v thy_o defect_n be_v sorry_a that_o thou_o have_v offend_v he_o and_o with_o a_o love_a affection_n crave_v of_o he_o that_o he_o will_v vouchsafe_v to_o come_v into_o thy_o poor_a soul_n to_o feed_v it_o with_o himself_o or_o otherwise_o when_o thou_o go_v about_o to_o use_v violence_n to_o thyself_o or_o to_o mortify_v any_o passion_n in_o thou_o or_o to_o exercise_v any_o act_n of_o virtue_n do_v it_o to_o this_o end_n and_o turn_v thou_o to_o thy_o saviour_n and_o call_v upon_o he_o with_o a_o fervent_a desire_n in_o the_o secret_a of_o thy_o soul_n or_o again_o final_o call_v to_o mind_v the_o last_o time_n that_o thou_o do_v receive_v before_o say_v with_o a_o inflame_a desire_n when_o my_o god_n shall_v i_o receive_v thou_o another_o time_n in_o the_o scrament_n of_o the_o altar_n ah_o why_o come_v thou_o not_o now_o with_o the_o same_o virtue_n spiritual_o unto_o i_o of_o thanksgiving_n chap._n 32._o because_o all_o the_o good_a we_o do_v be_v of_o god_n and_o from_o god_n we_o be_v bind_v to_o render_v unto_o he_o alone_o humble_a thanks_o for_o every_o good_a action_n of_o we_o and_o
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noles_fw-la inclination_n to_o evil_a than_o the_o say_a stone_n to_o the_o centre_n of_o the_o earth_n the_o secondis_fw-la that_o thou_o with_o humble_a prayer_n demand_v the_o same_o of_o god_n for_o it_o be_v his_o gift_n and_o to_o obtain_v it_o thou_o must_v first_o of_o all_o behold_v thyself_o as_o bare_a and_o naked_a of_o the_o same_o and_o altogether_o unable_a to_o attain_v unto_o it_o of_o thyself_o and_o have_v do_v this_o then_o present_v thyself_o before_o the_o majesty_n of_o god_n with_o a_o assure_a hope_n that_o his_o divine_a bounty_n will_v grant_v it_o unto_o thou_o and_o thus_o present_v thyself_o oftentimes_o before_o thy_o lord_n and_o with_o perseverance_n expect_v it_o from_o his_o liberal_a hand_n so_o long_o as_o shall_v seem_v best_a to_o his_o divine_a providence_n without_o doubt_n thou_o shall_v obtain_v it_o the_o three_o way_n be_v that_o as_o oft_o as_o thou_o shall_v chance_v to_o fall_v into_o any_o defect_n thou_o sudden_o turn_v the_o eye_n of_o 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