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my_o own_o diversion_n for_o thou_o know_v lord_n how_o insensible_o those_o thing_n which_o i_o frequent_o behold_v make_v impression_n upon_o my_o mind_n how_o conformable_a i_o be_o to_o the_o company_n with_o which_o i_o converse_v and_o how_o wonderful_o good_a or_o bad_a example_n influence_n my_o life_n and_o conversation_n grant_v therefore_o o_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n that_o i_o may_v take_v delight_n in_o the_o company_n of_o virtuous_a and_o religious_a man_n that_o instead_o of_o talk_v about_o the_o world_n and_o it_o vanity_n my_o discourse_n may_v be_v concern_v eternity_n thy_o grace_n thy_o greatness_n and_o those_o infinite_a mercy_n which_o thou_o have_v be_v please_v to_o bestow_v upon_o my_o soul_n and_o if_o those_o impression_n which_o sin_n have_v leave_v upon_o my_o mind_n shall_v for_o the_o present_n render_v i_o averse_a to_o these_o innocent_a pleasure_n if_o the_o taint_n of_o my_o corrupt_a nature_n shall_v disrelish_v these_o diversion_n which_o 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