right_o well_o that_o both_o the_o one_o and_o the_o other_o shall_v be_v restore_v when_o her_o confessor_n have_v hear_v this_o reason_n &_o discourse_n he_o reply_v no_o more_o but_o hold_v his_o peace_n for_o in_o deed_n he_o be_v astoin_v and_o know_v not_o what_o to_o answer_v to_o the_o wisdom_n and_o spirit_n of_o god_n that_o speak_v in_o she_o an_o other_o exposition_n upon_o the_o same_o place_n of_o the_o gospel_n with_o certain_a other_o mystical_a say_n and_o how_o she_o pass_v in_o deed_n out_o of_o this_o life_n in_o the_o pain_n of_o the_o cross_n chap._n 28._o be_v on_o a_o time_n ravish_v in_o spirit_n she_o learn_v a_o other_o exposition_n upon_o this_o place_n of_o the_o gospel_n which_o her_o confessor_n douctour_n thomas_n commit_v to_o writing_n and_o it_o be_v thus_o our_o lord_n say_v she_o approach_v near_o to_o his_o passion_n set_v before_o the_o eye_n of_o his_o mind_n that_o great_a multitude_n of_o wicked_a man_n and_o woman_n which_o he_o see_v through_o malice_n and_o obstinacy_n will_v not_o take_v the_o benefit_n of_o his_o death_n the_o which_o sight_n put_v he_o into_o such_o a_o agony_n that_o he_o sweat_v water_n and_o blood_n &_o for_o very_a pity_n that_o he_o have_v of_o those_o miserable_a creature_n he_o be_v as_o it_o be_v enforce_v to_o utter_v those_o word_n father_n if_o it_o be_v possible_a let_v this_o cup_n pass_v from_o i_o which_o be_v as_o much_o as_o if_o he_o have_v say_v father_n this_o cup_n that_o be_v here_o present_v before_o i_o be_v sure_o a_o very_a bitter_a cup_n to_o i_o see_v as_o i_o do_v to_o my_o great_a grief_n the_o damnation_n of_o so_o many_o soul_n which_o without_o any_o cause_n shall_v make_v light_n of_o this_o great_a love_n that_o i_o be_o here_o to_o show_v to_o mankind_n and_o lose_v the_o benefit_n of_o my_o blood_n which_o be_v now_o ready_a to_o be_v pour_v out_o for_o their_o sake_n wherefore_o if_o it_o be_v possible_a i_o beseech_v thou_o that_o thou_o will_v pardon_v they_o and_o in_o so_o do_v take_v away_o this_o bitter_a cup_n from_o i_o this_o say_v she_o be_v the_o prayer_n that_o our_o saviour_n make_v to_o his_o eternal_a father_n and_o she_o add_v furthermore_o and_o say_v that_o he_o have_v without_o all_o doubt_n obtain_v the_o thing_n that_o he_o demand_v if_o he_o have_v request_v the_o same_o absolute_o and_o without_o condition_n for_o what_o petition_n can_v he_o make_v to_o his_o father_n that_o shall_v not_o have_v be_v hear_v who_o as_o the_o apostle_n say_v be_v hear_v for_o the_o very_a reverence_n that_o be_v in_o himself_o but_o as_o on_o the_o one_o side_n the_o tender_a love_n that_o he_o bear_v to_o mankind_n win_v so_o much_o of_o he_o that_o he_o make_v that_o petition_n in_o their_o behalf_n so_o on_o the_o other_o side_n the_o love_n of_o god_n justice_n moderate_v the_o vehemency_n of_o his_o love_n towards_o mankind_n and_o cawse_v he_o to_o qualify_v his_o earnest_a demand_n with_o this_o clause_n and_o condition_n howbeit_o o_o father_n not_o my_o will_n be_v do_v but_o thy_o this_o holy_a maid_n declare_v yet_o further_o to_o her_o confessor_n and_o say_v that_o the_o pain_n which_o our_o saviour_n suffer_v for_o the_o redemption_n of_o mankind_n be_v so_o excessive_o great_a that_o it_o have_v be_v impossible_a for_o any_o man_n in_o this_o wordle_n to_o endure_v the_o same_o but_o that_o he_o must_v needs_o have_v dye_v if_o it_o have_v be_v possible_a many_o time_n for_o as_o the_o love_n that_o he_o bear_v to_o mankind_n be_v unspeakable_a and_o incomprehensible_a so_o be_v the_o pain_n that_o he_o suffer_v for_o their_o love_n so_o great_a that_o no_o man_n have_v be_v able_a to_o esteem_v they_o and_o much_o less_o to_o bear_v they_o what_o man_n say_v she_o will_v have_v believe_v that_o those_o thorn_n of_o his_o crown_n shall_v have_v pierce_v through_o his_o scull_n into_o his_o brain_n and_o yet_o so_o it_o be_v again_o who_o will_v have_v think_v that_o the_o bone_n of_o a_o man_n shall_v have_v be_v draw_v a_o sunder_o and_o disjoint_v and_o yet_o the_o prophet_n david_n say_v they_o tell_v all_o my_o bone_n speak_v of_o the_o unmerciful_a and_o cruel_a tormentor_n which_o hale_v and_o pull_v he_o here_o &_o there_o so_o violent_o that_o they_o pluck_v his_o bone_n out_o of_o joint_n certain_a it_o be_v that_o the_o malice_n of_o those_o wicked_a jew_n be_v very_o great_a and_o that_o they_o use_v he_o very_o cruel_o and_o yet_o can_v not_o their_o malicious_a and_o cruel_a usage_n have_v do_v it_o but_o only_o that_o his_o will_n be_v to_o show_v his_o unspeakable_a love_n towards_o we_o as_o it_o be_v utter_o to_o forsake_v himself_o and_o to_o suffer_v his_o body_n to_o be_v destitute_a of_o all_o such_o force_n and_o strength_n as_o may_v make_v any_o resistance_n against_o pain_n and_o torment_n so_o that_o the_o principal_a cause_n of_o his_o passion_n be_v the_o desire_n which_o he_o have_v of_o show_v his_o love_n to_o we_o evident_o and_o effectual_o it_o be_v not_o the_o violent_a hand_n of_o those_o tormentor_n that_o be_v able_a to_o hold_v he_o who_o he_o make_v to_o fall_v down_o at_o his_o foot_n with_o one_o word_n of_o his_o mouth_n it_o be_v not_o the_o nail_n that_o be_v able_a to_o hold_v he_o fast_o to_o the_o cross_n which_o be_v his_o creature_n and_o have_v no_o further_a power_n upon_o their_o creator_n but_o only_o so_o much_o as_o he_o will_v geve_v they_o but_o it_o be_v the_o love_n that_o he_o bear_v to_o mankind_n that_o take_v he_o it_o be_v love_n that_o hold_v he_o fast_o it_o be_v love_n that_o nail_v he_o fast_o to_o the_o cross_n and_o make_v he_o there_o to_o endure_v a_o most_o bitter_a and_o reproachful_a death_n such_o high_a word_n and_o sentence_n do_v she_o utter_v to_o her_o confessor_n concern_v the_o passion_n of_o our_o saviour_n and_o she_o affirm_v furthermore_o that_o whatsoever_o pain_n our_o saviour_n have_v bear_v in_o any_o part_n of_o his_o body_n the_o same_o have_v she_o bear_v in_o her_o body_n also_o in_o like_a manner_n as_o our_o saviour_n do_v but_o not_o in_o like_a measure_n for_o that_o have_v be_v impossible_a for_o her_o body_n to_o bear_v and_o to_o show_v in_o deed_n that_o she_o know_v by_o exeperience_n which_o of_o all_o those_o pain_n be_v great_a she_o say_v that_o all_o the_o other_o pain_n be_v pass_v and_o go_v but_o one_o remain_v still_o in_o her_o body_n which_o be_v the_o diwlsion_n as_o they_o term_v it_o or_o sunder_v of_o the_o bone_n in_o the_o breast_n which_o pain_n be_v of_o all_o other_o pain_n as_o she_o say_v most_o grievous_a now_o this_o pain_n of_o the_o breast_n grow_v on_o so_o vehement_o upon_o she_o and_o withal_o the_o love_n of_o our_o saviour_n to_o who_o she_o be_v confourm_v by_o suffer_v such_o pain_n increase_v so_o mighty_o in_o her_o hart_n that_o she_o be_v whole_o overcome_v with_o the_o force_n of_o the_o same_o and_o her_o hart_n like_o a_o thin_a glass_n fill_v with_o a_o very_a strong_a liquor_n be_v not_o able_a to_o bear_v the_o strength_n of_o that_o divine_a love_n brace_v in_o sunder_o as_o she_o declare_v afterwards_o and_o clefte_v in_o the_o middle_n from_o the_o high_a to_o the_o low_a part_n of_o the_o same_o and_o certain_a it_o be_v that_o she_o die_v in_o deed_n in_o the_o presence_n of_o many_o virtuous_a and_o credible_a person_n and_o so_o continue_v a_o long_a tyme._n of_o this_o matter_n she_o make_v mention_v afterwards_o in_o a_o letter_n write_v to_o her_o ghostly_a father_n with_o her_o own_o hand_n in_o the_o which_o letter_n she_o declare_v among_o other_o thing_n how_o she_o be_v teach_v by_o s._n john_n the_o evangelist_n and_o s._n thomas_n of_o aquine_n to_o write_v in_o a_o very_a short_a space_n how_o she_o pass_v in_o deed_n out_o of_o this_o life_n and_o have_v the_o fruition_n of_o heavenly_a joy_n and_o how_o afterwards_o her_o soul_n come_v again_o to_o the_o body_n chap._n 29._o her_o ghostly_a father_n be_v desirous_a to_o learn_v the_o very_a certainty_n of_o this_o matter_n at_o she_o own_o mouth_n on_o a_o time_n reason_v with_o she_o beseech_v she_o that_o she_o will_v tell_v he_o plain_o what_o have_v pass_v she_o stand_v still_o a_o great_a while_n and_o can_v not_o geve_v he_o one_o word_n to_o answer_v for_o weep_v but_o at_o the_o length_n she_o speak_v after_o this_o manner_n o_o father_n say_v she_o be_v it_o not_o a_o pitiful_a and_o lamentable_a case_n that_o a_o soul_n which_o have_v be_v once_o deliver_v out_o of_o a_o dark_a prison_n and_o have_v have_v the_o fruition_n of_o a_o most_o joyous_a and_o beautiful_a light_n shall_v be_v constrain_v to_o forsake_v
and_o environ_v round_o about_o with_o that_o heavenly_a and_o unspeakable_a light_n the_o beauty_n and_o brightness_n whereof_o be_v so_o great_a that_o no_o tongue_n be_v able_a to_o express_v it_o this_o testimony_n of_o the_o sick_a woman_n be_v spread_v allover_n the_o city_n by_o reason_n whereof_o the_o fame_n of_o the_o bless_a virgin_n and_o the_o opinion_n of_o her_o rare_a virtue_n and_o holiness_n be_v so_o much_o increase_v as_o the_o malice_n of_o the_o devel_n have_v think_v to_o have_v obscure_v the_o same_o by_o this_o false_a treachery_n but_o in_o all_o this_o as_o she_o be_v nothing_o deject_a by_o the_o raise_n of_o that_o slanderous_a report_n so_o be_v she_o nothing_o puff_v up_o with_o pride_n for_o all_o the_o honour_n that_o the_o wordle_n give_v she_o but_o acknowledge_v humble_o all_o virtue_n and_o holiness_n to_o be_v the_o gift_n of_o god_n she_o continue_v still_o in_o she_o foreme_a state_n at_o the_o service_n of_o that_o sick_a woman_n but_o the_o ghostly_a enemy_n who_o malice_n cease_v not_o though_o he_o see_v that_o he_o have_v have_v very_o evel_a luck_n in_o all_o that_o he_o have_v ever_o attempt_v against_o she_o before_o yet_o like_o a_o earnest_a gamester_n he_o think_v he_o will_v adventure_v one_o cast_n more_o as_o it_o be_v upon_o desperation_n on_o a_o time_n as_o the_o holy_a maid_n be_v dress_v the_o old_a woman_n sore_n by_o the_o malicious_a work_n of_o the_o fiend_n there_o issue_v out_o of_o it_o such_o a_o loathsome_a and_o horrible_a stench_n that_o she_o be_v upon_o the_o point_n to_o have_v cast_v up_o all_o that_o be_v in_o her_o body_n the_o which_o when_o she_o see_v perceve_n that_o it_o be_v the_o practice_n of_o that_o venomous_a serpent_n she_o enter_v into_o a_o earnest_a displeasure_n against_o her_o own_o flesh_n and_o speak_v to_o herself_o with_o great_a vehemency_n of_o spirit_n say_v ah_o wretched_a and_o caraine_n flesh_n do_v thou_o loathe_v thy_o even_a christian_a i_o shall_v make_v thou_o not_o only_o to_o endure_v the_o savour_n of_o it_o but_o also_o to_o receive_v it_o within_o thou_o with_o that_o she_o take_v all_o the_o wash_a of_o the_o sore_a together_o with_o the_o corrupt_a matter_n and_o filth_n and_o go_v aside_o put_v it_o all_o into_o cup_n and_o drink_v it_o up_o lusty_o and_o in_o so_o do_v she_o overcome_v at_o one_o time_n both_o the_o skeymishnes_n of_o her_o own_o stomach_n and_o malice_n of_o the_o devel_n this_o be_v tell_v afterwards_o to_o her_o ghostly_a father_n in_o her_o presence_n and_o she_o confess_v that_o it_o be_v all_o true_a and_o say_v furthermore_o that_o she_o can_v not_o remember_v that_o she_o have_v ever_o eat_v or_o droncken_a such_o a_o pleasant_a and_o delicate_a meat_n or_o drink_v as_o that_o seem_v to_o be_v in_o all_o her_o life_n the_o next_o night_n follow_v after_o this_o glorious_a victory_n our_o saviour_n christ_n appear_v unto_o she_o and_o show_v she_o his_o hand_n foot_n and_o side_n &_o in_o they_o imprint_v the_o five_o wound_n of_o his_o most_o bitter_a passion_n &_o say_v unto_o she_o dear_a daughter_n many_o be_v the_o battle_n that_o thou_o have_v sustain_v for_o my_o love_n and_o great_a be_v the_o victory_n that_o thou_o have_v achieve_v through_o my_o grace_n and_o assistance_n for_o the_o which_o i_o bear_v thou_o great_a good_a will_n and_o favour_n but_o especial_o that_o drink_n that_o thou_o take_v yester_v day_n for_o my_o sake_n like_v i_o pass_o well_o in_o the_o which_o because_o thou_o have_v not_o only_o despise_v the_o delight_n of_o the_o flesh_n cast_v behind_o thy_o back_n the_o opinion_n of_o the_o wordle_n and_o utter_o subdue_v thy_o own_o nature_n i_o will_v geve_v thou_o a_o drink_n that_o shall_v pass_v in_o sweetness_n and_o pleasure_n all_o the_o licour_n that_o the_o wordle_n be_v wont_a or_o able_a to_o geve_v with_o that_o he_o reach_v out_o his_o arm_n and_o take_v she_o about_o the_o neck_n and_o bring_v her_o mouth_n soft_o to_o the_o sacred_a wound_n of_o his_o side_n and_o say_v unto_o she_o drink_v daughter_n drink_v thy_o fill_n at_o the_o very_o founteine_v of_o life_n this_o drink_n shall_v replenish_v thy_o soul_n with_o unspekeable_a sweetness_n in_o such_o sort_n that_o it_o shall_v abound_v and_o overslowe_v into_o thy_o body_n also_o which_o thou_o have_v so_o utter_o despise_v for_o my_o love_n then_o the_o holy_a maid_n set_v her_o mouth_n to_o with_o great_a greediness_n and_o draw_v out_o of_o that_o founteine_v of_o everlasting_a salvation_n the_o liquour_n of_o life_n and_o so_o she_o continue_v suck_v a_o good_a while_n not_o only_o with_o the_o mouth_n of_o her_o body_n but_o also_o and_o that_o much_o more_o with_o the_o mouth_n of_o her_o soul_n until_o at_o the_o length_n when_o his_o holy_a will_n and_o pleasure_n be_v she_o give_v over_o feel_v herself_o in_o a_o marvelous_a blesful_a state_n for_o she_o have_v droncke_v her_o fill_n and_o yet_o be_v nothing_o glut_v but_o rather_o thirsty_a and_o desirous_a to_o drink_v still_o which_o thirst_n and_o desire_n be_v no_o pain_n at_o all_o to_o she_o but_o rather_o a_o pass_a great_a delight_n &_o pleasure_n after_o this_o time_n the_o holy_a maid_n be_v so_o replenish_v with_o heavenly_a grace_n that_o she_o neither_o do_v nor_o may_v eat_v her_o bodily_a meat_n in_o such_o sort_n as_o she_o be_v wont_a to_o do_v before_o how_o she_o be_v endue_v with_o many_o goodly_a privilege_n how_o she_o have_v a_o pass_a desire_n to_o receive_v the_o bless_a sacrament_n how_o be_v fortify_v by_o the_o spirit_n of_o god_n she_o endure_v much_o labour_n and_o travail_v without_o bodily_a sustenance_n chap._n 12._o after_o that_o the_o faithful_a disciple_n of_o christ_n have_v thus_o by_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n overcome_v diverse_a and_o sundry_a tentation_n be_v now_o thorough_o try_v like_o fine_a gold_n in_o the_o furnace_n of_o tribulation_n there_o remain_v nothing_o else_o but_o only_o to_o receive_v the_o crown_n of_o justice_n in_o life_n everlasting_a but_o because_o the_o divine_a providence_n of_o god_n have_v so_o dispose_v of_o she_o that_o she_o shall_v yet_o remain_v in_o this_o life_n a_o little_a while_n for_o the_o benefit_n of_o other_o in_o the_o which_o time_n she_o be_v not_o able_a to_o receive_v the_o fruition_n of_o that_o endless_a bless_v that_o be_v prepare_v for_o the_o time_n to_o come_v and_o yet_o our_o lord_n of_o his_o goodness_n will_v not_o suffer_v she_o to_o continue_v any_o long_o in_o this_o present_a life_n without_o some_o degree_n or_o state_n of_o blessedness_n he_o give_v she_o a_o certain_a taste_n or_o pledge_v of_o that_o blesful_a state_n that_o she_o be_v to_o receive_v in_o the_o other_o life_n even_o in_o this_o vale_n of_o misery_n and_o he_o do_v it_o after_o this_o manner_n on_o a_o time_n while_o she_o be_v pray_v in_o her_o chamber_n our_o lord_n appear_v unto_o she_o and_o speak_v after_o this_o manner_n my_o dear_a daughter_n catherine_n i_o geve_v thou_o now_o to_o understand_v that_o the_o rest_n of_o thy_o abode_n in_o this_o wordle_n shall_v be_v full_a of_o such_o strange_a and_o unwonted_a gift_n of_o my_o grace_n that_o it_o shall_v cause_v diverse_a and_o sundry_a effect_n in_o the_o heart_n of_o man_n simple_n and_o ignorant_a person_n shall_v be_v great_o astoin_v to_o see_v the_o thing_n that_o shall_v be_v wrought_v by_o thou_o carnal_a man_n and_o such_o as_o have_v little_a experience_n in_o spiritual_a matter_n shall_v be_v in_o danger_n to_o fall_v quite_o from_o their_o faith_n yea_o and_o many_o of_o those_o also_o that_o be_v good_a and_o virtuous_a see_v certain_a token_n of_o my_o pass_a great_a love_n towards_o thou_o such_o as_o have_v not_o light_o be_v hear_v of_o and_o withal_o the_o wonderful_a strangeness_n of_o the_o thing_n that_o thou_o shall_v work_v shall_v suppose_v that_o all_o be_v but_o deceit_n and_o illusion_n for_o i_o will_v endue_v thy_o soul_n with_o such_o abundance_n of_o grace_n that_o it_o shall_v redound_v into_o thy_o body_n also_o by_o reason_n whereof_o thou_o shall_v lead_v such_o a_o marvelous_a kind_n of_o life_n as_o the_o wordle_n have_v not_o oftentimes_o see_v or_o hear_v tell_v of_o again_o i_o will_v enkendle_n in_o thy_o hart_n such_o a_o fyerie_a zeal_n both_o of_o my_o honour_n and_o of_o the_o salvation_n of_o soul_n that_o thou_o shall_v in_o a_o manner_n forget_v thy_o own_o kind_n and_o alter_v the_o wont_a order_n of_o thy_o whole_a conversation_n for_o thou_o shall_v not_o from_o hence_o forth_o shun_v the_o company_n of_o man_n and_o woman_n as_o thou_o have_v hitherto_o but_o rather_o to_o win_v they_o to_o god_n thou_o shall_v press_v in_o among_o they_o and_o labour_n to_o the_o uttermost_a of_o thy_o power_n of_o this_o manner_n of_o
the_o cave_n will_v suffer_v she_o to_o rise_v and_o so_o she_o continue_v from_o morning_n till_o noon_n but_o when_o she_o perceive_v that_o she_o be_v thus_o lift_v up_o from_o the_o earth_n she_o begin_v to_o fear_v and_o to_o suspect_v that_o it_o may_v be_v some_o deceit_n of_o the_o ghostly_a enemy_n who_o drift_n may_v be_v by_o this_o mean_a to_o put_v she_o in_o fear_n and_o so_o to_o hinder_v her_o designment_n of_o go_v into_o the_o wilderness_n and_o therefore_o she_o set_v herself_o to_o pray_v more_o fervent_o and_o to_o abase_v herself_o more_o and_o more_o before_o god_n whereupon_o about_o that_o very_a hour_n that_o our_o saviour_n after_o his_o passion_n be_v take_v down_o from_o the_o cross_n it_o please_v his_o divine_a majesty_n that_o she_o likewise_o shall_v descend_v by_o little_a and_o little_a in_o like_a manner_n as_o she_o have_v ascend_v and_o he_o make_v she_o to_o understand_v by_o his_o secret_a inspiration_n that_o the_o time_n be_v not_o yet_o come_v in_o the_o which_o she_o shall_v forsake_v her_o father_n house_n and_o put_v her_o body_n to_o such_o penance_n and_o affliction_n wherefore_o she_o be_v in_o mind_n to_o return_v home_o again_o but_o when_o she_o come_v forth_o and_o see_v herself_o all_o alone_a and_o behold_v the_o gate_n of_o the_o city_n which_o seem_v to_o be_v so_o far_o off_o that_o she_o doubt_v her_o weak_a and_o feeble_a body_n will_v never_o be_v able_a to_o endure_v so_o long_o a_o journey_n fear_v also_o lest_o her_o father_n and_o mother_n shall_v think_v that_o she_o have_v be_v lose_v she_o set_v herself_o again_o to_o prayer_n and_o commit_v the_o matter_n whole_o to_o god_n who_o fail_v not_o to_o supply_v the_o weakness_n of_o his_o little_a hand_n maid_n and_o send_v a_o little_a cloud_n which_o take_v she_o up_o from_o the_o ground_n and_o carry_v she_o in_o the_o air_n set_v she_o in_o a_o very_a short_a time_n in_o the_o gate_n of_o the_o city_n from_o whence_o she_o go_v with_o all_o speed_n home_o to_o her_o father_n and_o mother_n who_o suspect_v nothing_o at_o all_o of_o any_o such_o matter_n but_o think_v she_o have_v be_v with_o her_o sister_n bonaventura_n how_o she_o vow_v her_o virginity_n unto_o almighty_a god_n chap._n 4._o such_o be_v the_o virtue_n and_o operation_n of_o this_o afore_o mention_a revelation_n that_o it_o draw_v all_o wordly_a love_n and_o affection_n out_o of_o the_o hart_n of_o this_o young_a maid_n and_o wrought_v in_o the_o same_o a_o certain_a holy_a love_n to_o the_o son_n of_o god_n only_o and_o to_o his_o most_o glorious_a mother_n the_o virgin_n marie_n and_o this_o love_n be_v so_o great_a that_o she_o account_v all_o the_o delight_n and_o pleasure_n of_o this_o wordle_n as_o very_a dirt_n and_o dung_n in_o comparison_n of_o her_o sweet_a spouse_n jesus_n christ_n moreover_o be_v now_o seven_o year_n old_a she_o have_v learn_v only_o by_o the_o inward_a instruction_n of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n in_o her_o hart_n that_o be_v be_v a_o goodly_a state_n of_o life_n &_o withal_o very_o acceptable_a unto_o god_n to_o live_v in_o all_o purity_n &_o cleanness_n both_o of_o body_n and_o soul_n she_o have_v learn_v also_o that_o our_o bless_a lady_n the_o most_o pure_a &_o unspotted_a mother_n of_o god_n be_v the_o first_o that_o dedicate_v herself_o by_o vow_n to_o serve_v god_n in_o that_o most_o clean_a and_o perfect_v state_n of_o virginity_n and_o therefore_o she_o think_v it_o most_o expedient_a for_o the_o obtain_v of_o that_o grace_n to_o make_v her_o humble_a suit_n to_o she_o who_o have_v before_o all_o other_o obtain_v the_o same_o at_o god_n hand_n for_o herself_o and_o undoubted_o for_o all_o those_o that_o shall_v afterwards_o require_v it_o at_o her_o hand_n with_o the_o like_a humility_n and_o earnest_a desire_n be_v therefore_o of_o the_o age_n of_o seven_o year_n she_o set_v herself_o very_o grave_o &_o sad_o to_o take_v advisement_n what_o order_n of_o life_n be_v best_a for_o she_o to_o take_v and_o for_o the_o better_a resolution_n in_o that_o point_n she_o pray_v to_o our_o bless_a lady_n queen_n of_o angel_n and_o virgin_n that_o it_o will_v please_v she_o to_o make_v intercession_n to_o her_o dear_a son_n that_o he_o will_v vowchsafe_v to_o teach_v she_o by_o the_o instincte_n of_o his_o spirit_n what_o way_n she_o may_v best_o take_v that_o be_v most_o to_o his_o glory_n and_o to_o her_o soul_n health_n our_o bless_a lady_n mother_n of_o pity_n and_o comfort_n by_o who_o gracious_a motion_n this_o holy_a desire_n be_v first_o plant_v in_o her_o hart_n hear_v the_o discrete_a demand_n of_o this_o wise_a young_a virgin_n and_o answer_v her_o just_a request_n first_o with_o a_o daily_a increase_n of_o great_a desire_n &_o longing_n after_o the_o thing_n request_v which_o be_v to_o know_v how_o she_o may_v order_v her_o life_n to_o be_v most_o acceptable_a unto_o god_n &_o then_o also_o with_o a_o resolution_n from_o god_n certify_v she_o by_o secret_a inspiration_n in_o her_o hart_n that_o his_o will_n and_o pleasure_n be_v that_o she_o shall_v serve_v he_o with_o all_o purity_n both_o of_o body_n and_o soul_n in_o the_o state_n of_o virginity_n the_o which_o when_o she_o understand_v she_o suffer_v not_o that_o heavenly_a fire_n enkendle_v in_o her_o hart_n to_o be_v quench_v nor_o to_o slake_v but_o be_v whole_o inflame_v with_o the_o love_n of_o that_o most_o excellent_a and_o goodly_a manner_n of_o life_n she_o choose_v out_o a_o secret_a place_n in_o the_o house_n far_o from_o the_o conversation_n of_o all_o person_n where_o she_o may_v with_o the_o more_o freedom_n of_o spirit_n offer_v up_o her_o prayer_n and_o vow_n to_o almighty_a god_n and_o there_o compose_v herself_o both_o in_o body_n and_o mind_n with_o all_o humility_n she_o make_v her_o prayer_n after_o this_o manner_n o_o most_o bless_a lady_n o_o most_o glorious_a and_o sacred_a virgin_n mother_n of_o god_n which_o before_o all_o other_o woman_n do_v by_o vow_n consecrate_v thy_o virginity_n unto_o god_n &_o become_v thereby_o so_o gracious_a in_o his_o sight_n that_o he_o will_v have_v his_o only_a son_n to_o be_v bear_v of_o thou_o i_o most_o humble_o beseech_v thou_o trust_v not_o in_o any_o merit_n of_o my_o own_o but_o only_o in_o thy_o unspeakable_a pity_n that_o thou_o will_v vowchsafe_v to_o obtain_v i_o such_o grace_n and_o favour_n with_o thy_o only_a beget_v son_n that_o from_o this_o day_n forward_o i_o may_v take_v he_o for_o the_o lawful_a &_o dear_o belowed_a spouse_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o i_o here_o geve_v my_o faith_n and_o promise_n both_o to_o he_o and_o to_o thou_o that_o i_o shall_v never_o take_v other_o spouse_n but_o shall_v by_o the_o assistance_n of_o his_o holy_a grace_n do_v what_o in_o i_o lie_v to_o keep_v myself_o a_o true_a and_o undefiled_a virgin_n to_o he_o alone_o thus_o pray_v this_o young_a handmaid_n of_o christ_n with_o great_a lowliness_n and_o fervency_n of_o of_o spirit_n and_o her_o prayer_n be_v hear_v her_o vow_n accept_v and_o she_o receive_v to_o be_v the_o undefiled_a spouse_n of_o the_o unspotted_a lamb_n of_o god_n jesus_n christ_n the_o which_o thing_n when_o she_o understand_v as_o she_o do_v by_o and_o by_o by_o the_o inward_a inspiration_n of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n be_v replenish_v with_o a_o certain_a holy_a fear_n she_o employ_v her_o whole_a care_n and_o study_v how_o she_o may_v best_o keep_v herself_o chaste_a &_o true_a to_o her_o dear_a spouse_n and_o though_o as_o yet_o she_o feel_v no_o motion_n to_o uncleanness_n in_o her_o flesh_n yet_o to_o provide_v like_o a_o wise_a woman_n for_o the_o time_n to_o come_v she_o begin_v even_o in_o those_o tender_a year_n to_o tame_v her_o body_n with_o fast_v watch_v &_o abstinence_n from_o all_o deliteful_a thing_n and_o namely_o from_o eat_v of_o flesh_n in_o so_o much_o that_o when_o any_o flesh_n be_v lay_v unto_o she_o at_o the_o table_n either_o she_o give_v it_o to_o her_o brother_n steven_n that_o sit_v by_o she_o or_o else_o she_o convey_v it_o privy_o away_o that_o no_o man_n may_v see_v it_o she_o pray_v very_o often_o and_o much_o &_o subdue_v her_o body_n with_o much_o hard_a and_o sharp_a discipline_n sometime_o by_o herself_o alone_o &_o sometime_o with_o other_o young_a child_n which_o resort_v unto_o she_o at_o time_n and_o be_v as_o it_o be_v train_v under_o she_o in_o spiritual_a exercise_n and_o so_o with_o these_o and_o other_o the_o like_a work_n she_o preserve_v &_o increase_v the_o grace_n of_o god_n that_o be_v plant_v in_o she_o by_o her_o dear_a spouse_n jesus_n christ_n of_o a_o woderfull_a zeal_n that_o be_v in_o she_o to_o win_v soul_n to_o god_n and_o how_o for_o that_o cause_n she_o cast_v a_o great_a love_n to_o
s._n dominicke_n and_o to_o his_o order_n chap._n 5._o after_o that_o this_o young_a virgin_n have_v thus_o espouse_v herself_o to_o the_o son_n of_o god_n she_o be_v whole_o inflame_v with_o the_o holy_a fire_n of_o his_o heavenly_a love_n in_o such_o sort_n that_o she_o have_v a_o pass_v great_a desire_n and_o zeal_n not_o only_o to_o be_v unite_v herself_o to_o he_o with_o a_o pure_a and_o sincere_a love_n but_o also_o to_o win_v other_o soul_n also_o by_o reason_n of_o the_o which_o zeal_n she_o cast_v a_o special_a affection_n to_o those_o saint_n that_o she_o understand_v have_v take_v pain_n special_o about_o the_o bring_v of_o soul_n under_o the_o sweet_a yoke_n and_o obedience_n of_o christ_n and_o understand_v by_o revelation_n from_o god_n that_o s._n dominicke_n have_v institue_v the_o order_n of_o the_o friar_n preacher_n to_o that_o end_n she_o have_v the_o brethren_n of_o that_o order_n in_o such_o reverence_n that_o when_o she_o see_v any_o of_o they_o pass_v by_o her_o father_n house_n she_o will_v go_v after_o they_o with_o great_a humility_n and_o devotion_n and_o kiss_v the_o very_a step_n where_o they_o have_v set_v their_o foot_n she_o have_v also_o a_o marvelous_a great_a desire_n to_o be_v profess_v herself_o in_o that_o rule_n that_o she_o with_o the_o rest_n of_o the_o brethren_n may_v do_v what_o in_o she_o lay_v to_o win_v some_o soul_n unto_o god_n but_o when_o she_o see_v that_o she_o may_v not_o do_v so_o because_o she_o be_v a_o woman_n she_o think_v to_o take_v a_o other_o way_n which_o be_v to_o go_v into_o some_o far_a country_n and_o there_o to_o change_v her_o apparel_n and_o so_o to_o be_v receive_v into_o some_o cloister_n for_o a_o man_n thus_o she_o think_v of_o herself_o but_o yet_o not_o altogether_o without_o some_o precedent_n for_o she_o have_v understand_v before_o of_o s._n euphrosina_n by_o who_o name_n she_o be_v common_o call_v while_o she_o be_v a_o little_a one_o peradventure_o by_o god_n providence_n to_o for-signifie_a this_o holy_a designment_n that_o she_o have_v after_o such_o a_o manner_n change_v her_o attire_n and_o live_v a_o very_a religious_a and_o straight_a kind_n of_o life_n in_o a_o monastery_n among_o man_n but_o though_o this_o desire_n and_o purpose_n continue_v long_o in_o her_o mind_n yet_o at_o the_o length_n by_o her_o humble_a and_o continual_a prayer_n she_o obtain_v at_o god_n hand_n to_o understand_v that_o he_o will_v not_o have_v she_o to_o take_v that_o way_n whereupon_o she_o give_v it_o over_o now_o this_o young_a virgin_n wax_v fast_o in_o the_o growth_n and_o stature_n of_o her_o body_n but_o much_o fast_o in_o the_o increase_n of_o virtue_n in_o meekness_n in_o devotion_n in_o grave_n and_o womanly_a behaviour_n demeaning_n herself_o in_o all_o her_o word_n and_o deed_n so_o discret_o and_o with_o such_o a_o unwonted_a gravity_n in_o that_o age_n that_o her_o parent_n acquaintance_n &_o neighbour_n have_v she_o in_o great_a admiration_n amongst_o a_o number_n of_o thing_n that_o pass_v very_o notable_o of_o that_o sort_n this_o one_o act_n i_o think_v be_v not_o to_o be_v pass_v over_o with_o silence_n it_o befall_v on_o a_o day_n that_o her_o mother_n have_v a_o special_a devotion_n to_o s._n anthony_n will_v have_v a_o mass_n to_o be_v say_v in_o the_o honour_n of_o the_o say_a saint_n whereupon_o she_o call_v her_o daughter_n unto_o she_o and_o take_v her_o certain_a candle_n and_o money_n in_o her_o hand_n say_v these_o word_n unto_o she_o go_v daughter_n say_v she_o to_o the_o church_n &_o pray_v our_o parish_n priest_n that_o he_o will_v sing_v or_o cause_n to_o be_v song_n a_o mass_n in_o the_o honour_n of_o s._n antony_n and_o offer_v up_o this_o money_n and_o candle_n upon_o the_o altar_n she_o take_v the_o money_n and_o candle_n of_o her_o mother_n willing_o as_o she_o be_v evermore_o very_o glad_a and_o ready_a to_o do_v whatsoever_o she_o be_v command_v by_o her_o parent_n especial_o if_o it_o tend_v to_o the_o honour_n of_o god_n and_o go_v without_o any_o tarriance_n to_o the_o church_n and_o do_v as_o she_o be_v will_v to_o do_v and_o furthermore_o for_o her_o own_o private_a devotion_n she_o continue_v out_o the_o whole_a mass_n and_o all_o the_o rest_n of_o the_o divine_a service_n now_o her_o mother_n think_v she_o will_v have_v return_v home_o again_o so_o soon_o as_o she_o have_v make_v her_o oblation_n unto_o the_o priest_n and_o therefore_o when_o she_o be_v come_v home_o to_o make_v her_o ashamed_a of_o her_o long_a tarry_n she_o speak_v unto_o she_o as_o the_o manner_n of_o mother_n be_v to_o speak_v unto_o little_a child_n curse_a be_v those_o wicked_a tongue_n say_v she_o that_o say_v my_o daughter_n shall_v come_v no_o more_o she_o be_v come_v at_o the_o length_n though_o it_o be_v long_o first_o the_o child_n hear_v those_o word_n hold_v herself_o still_o for_o a_o while_n and_o give_v no_o word_n again_o but_o after_o a_o good_a space_n when_o she_o have_v as_o it_o be_v well_o advise_v herself_o she_o take_v her_o mother_n aside_o and_o with_o great_a sadness_n of_o countenance_n say_v meek_o unto_o she_o good_a mother_n when_o you_o see_v that_o i_o do_v transgress_v any_o commandment_n of_o you_o beat_v i_o with_o a_o rod_n as_o you_o shall_v think_v best_a that_o i_o may_v be_v the_o more_o wary_a an_o other_o time_n for_o it_o stand_v well_o with_o right_n and_o reason_n that_o you_o so_o do_v but_o one_o thing_n i_o pray_v you_o for_o my_o fault_n curse_v no_o man_n or_o woman_n in_o the_o wordle_n good_a or_o bad_a for_o it_o be_v unseemelie_a for_o you_o to_o do_v it_o and_o to_o i_o it_o be_v a_o great_a grief_n of_o mind_n to_o hear_v it_o the_o mother_n be_v so_o astoin_v at_o the_o discrete_a answer_n and_o grave_a counsel_n of_o her_o young_a daughter_n that_o for_o a_o good_a time_n she_o can_v not_o devise_v how_o to_o say_v any_o more_o unto_o she_o how_o beit_a because_o she_o will_v not_o have_v she_o to_o understand_v so_o much_o she_o turn_v to_o she_o again_o and_o say_v why_o be_v thou_o then_o so_o long_o away_o dear_a mother_n say_v she_o i_o tarry_v to_o hear_v that_o mass_n and_o the_o rest_n of_o the_o divine_a service_n and_o that_o do_v i_o come_v straight_o home_o without_o tarry_v in_o any_o place_n then_o be_v the_o mother_n more_o edify_v by_o those_o word_n than_o she_o be_v before_o and_o go_v to_o her_o husband_n and_o tell_v he_o all_o that_o have_v pass_v between_o she_o and_o her_o daughter_n the_o which_o when_o he_o hear_v he_o weigh_v the_o matter_n like_o a_o wise_a man_n with_o himself_o and_o take_v it_o to_o be_v a_o very_a certain_a token_n of_o some_o great_a grace_n and_o singular_a holiness_n that_o be_v like_a to_o ensue_v in_o his_o daughter_n who_o increase_v day_n by_o day_n in_o the_o love_n and_o fear_n of_o god_n lead_v her_o life_n in_o these_o and_o other_o the_o like_a work_v of_o virtue_n and_o godliness_n until_o she_o come_v to_o the_o age_n of_o twelve_o year_n how_o she_o relent_v somewhat_o in_o her_o spiritual_a exercise_n be_v thereunto_o induce_v by_o the_o importunity_n of_o her_o mother_n and_o sister_n who_o will_v needs_o have_v she_o to_o use_v some_o diligence_n in_o trim_v and_o set_v out_o of_o herself_o and_o of_o the_o penance_n which_o she_o do_v for_o that_o offence_n chap._n 6._o when_o this_o maid_n be_v now_o come_v to_o the_o age_n of_o twelve_o year_n &_o upward_o her_o father_n and_o mother_n take_v great_a care_n how_o they_o may_v bestow_v she_o honest_o in_o marriage_n for_o the_o better_a performance_n whereof_o that_o there_o may_v not_o lack_v any_o grace_n or_o comeliness_n to_o set_v she_o forth_o withal_o that_o either_o be_v in_o she_o by_o nature_n or_o may_v be_v have_v by_o diligence_n her_o mother_n after_o the_o manner_n of_o woman_n in_o that_o country_n in_o deed_n rather_o much_o use_v then_o great_o commend_v be_v earnest_a with_o she_o that_o she_o shall_v bestow_v more_o time_n and_o diligence_n in_o wash_v and_o scour_v her_o skin_n in_o kemb_v and_o coulor_v her_o hair_n in_o pluck_v up_o such_o hair_n as_o grow_v in_o her_o face_n or_o neck_n disordered_o and_o in_o other_o the_o like_o vain_a and_o superfluous_a attendance_n about_o the_o trim_v and_o deck_v of_o her_o body_n to_o please_v the_o eye_n of_o man_n but_o the_o young_a spouse_n of_o christ_n who_o hart_n be_v whole_o prevent_v with_o the_o love_n of_o the_o fair_a &_o beawtifull_a among_o the_o son_n of_o man_n who_o have_v also_o both_o the_o lovelines_n of_o her_o spouse_n and_o her_o own_o faith_n and_o truth_n so_o late_o plight_v to_o he_o evermore_o present_a before_o her_o eye_n can_v in_o no_o wise_a be_v
induce_v to_o withdraw_v any_o time_n from_o the_o inward_a deck_v of_o her_o soul_n to_o make_v it_o appear_v seemly_a in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n and_o to_o bestow_v the_o same_o about_o the_o outward_a adorn_v of_o her_o body_n to_o make_v it_o gracious_a and_o like_n to_o the_o eye_n of_o man_n and_o therefore_o she_o show_v herself_o to_o be_v utter_o unwilling_a to_o follow_v her_o mother_n counsel_n in_o that_o point_n when_o her_o mother_n see_v that_o her_o word_n and_o persuasion_n can_v take_v no_o place_n she_o be_v very_o angry_a with_o she_o and_o send_v for_o she_o other_o daughter_n call_v bonaventura_n which_o be_v marry_v and_o will_v she_o to_o deal_v with_o her_o sister_n and_o to_o use_v all_o possible_a mean_n to_o cause_v she_o to_o condescend_v to_o her_o request_n who_o do_v as_o she_o be_v will_v by_o her_o mother_n and_o in_o deed_n leave_v no_o thing_n un-assaied_n whereby_o she_o think_v she_o may_v win_v her_o purpose_n and_o so_o in_o the_o end_n what_o by_o the_o importunity_n of_o the_o mother_n and_o what_o by_o the_o example_n and_o fair_a speech_n of_o bonaventura_n unto_o who_o catherine_n have_v always_o bear_v a_o special_a love_n &_o affection_n even_o from_o her_o child_n hoold_v the_o young_a virgin_n be_v as_o it_o be_v enforce_v to_o yield_v somewhat_o to_o the_o folly_n common_o receive_v among_o woman_n and_o so_o to_o spend_v some_o time_n more_o than_o she_o be_v willing_a about_o the_o attiere_a of_o her_o body_n but_o afterwards_o when_o she_o have_v retire_v herself_o from_o company_n and_o consider_v of_o the_o matter_n by_o herself_o alone_o she_o take_v marvelous_a great_a sorrow_n for_o it_o and_o be_v confess_v also_o for_o it_o with_o such_o sob_a and_o sigh_v that_o any_o man_n will_v have_v suppose_v that_o she_o have_v commit_v some_o very_a grievous_a offence_n she_o use_v often_o time_n to_o make_v a_o general_a confession_n of_o her_o whole_a life_n and_o evermore_o when_o she_o come_v to_o this_o point_n she_o can_v make_v no_o end_n of_o weep_v and_o lament_v the_o which_o thing_n the_o confessor_n perceive_v though_o he_o know_v that_o it_o be_v a_o token_n of_o a_o timorous_a and_o well_o dispose_v mind_n sometime_o to_o fear_v sin_n where_o none_o be_v yet_o because_o it_o seem_v strange_a to_o he_o that_o she_o shall_v have_v a_o conscience_n of_o it_o as_o of_o a_o mortal_a sin_n whereas_o he_o by_o his_o learning_n be_v full_o resolve_v that_o in_o truth_n it_o be_v not_o so_o he_o ask_v she_o whether_o she_o have_v in_o all_o that_o time_n any_o deliberate_a will_n and_o purpose_n to_o do_v any_o thing_n contrary_a to_o her_o vow_n whereunto_o she_o answer_v and_o say_v that_o it_o never_o come_v in_o her_o hart_n then_o he_o ask_v she_o further_o more_o whether_o she_o do_v it_o to_o that_o end_n that_o she_o may_v be_v the_o better_o like_v of_o man_n to_o the_o which_o demand_n she_o make_v answer_v likewise_o and_o say_v that_o there_o be_v no_o one_o thing_n that_o grieve_v she_o more_o than_o when_o she_o be_v drive_v by_o any_o necessary_a occasion_n either_o to_o see_v or_o to_o be_v see_v of_o man_n who_o otherwise_o she_o be_v wont_a to_o flee_v like_v as_o man_n flee_v serpent_n for_o the_o which_o cause_n she_o will_v never_o stand_v at_o the_o door_n or_o window_n to_o see_v or_o to_o be_v see_v of_o man_n pass_v by_o the_o house_n the_o confessor_n procee_v in_o examine_v the_o matter_n and_o demand_v whether_o her_o attiere_a be_v over_o gay_a light_a or_o otherwise_o excessive_a above_o that_o that_o be_v common_o use_v of_o other_o woman_n of_o her_o degree_n whereunto_o she_o answer_v &_o say_v that_o it_o be_v not_o why_o then_o say_v he_o do_v you_o take_v your_o offence_n to_o be_v so_o grievous_a in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n sire_n say_v she_o sob_v and_o sigh_v from_o the_o bottom_n of_o her_o hart_n because_o i_o think_v i_o do_v at_o that_o time_n prefer_v the_o love_n of_o my_o sister_n before_o the_o love_n of_o god_n and_o while_o i_o be_v afraid_a to_o offend_v a_o silly_a transitory_a creature_n i_o offend_v the_o divine_a majesty_n of_o the_o everlasting_a creator_n and_o sweet_a spouse_n of_o my_o soul_n jesus_n christ_n and_o with_o that_o she_o fall_v a_o weep_a and_o wail_v very_o ruthful_o &_o do_v great_a penance_n upon_o herself_o the_o which_o the_o confessor_n see_v pity_v her_o state_n and_o think_v it_o expedient_a to_o comfort_v she_o in_o that_o case_n say_v unto_o she_o albeit_o there_o be_v some_o manner_n of_o excess_n yet_o consider_v that_o it_o be_v but_o little_a and_o do_v for_o no_o wicked_a or_o evel_a intent_n but_o only_o for_o a_o vain_a pleasance_n for_o that_o time_n i_o take_v it_o it_o be_v not_o against_o the_o commandment_n of_o god_n when_o she_o hear_v her_o confessor_n say_v so_o she_o lift_v up_o her_o eye_n to_o heaven_n and_o cry_v with_o a_o loud_a voice_n oh_o my_o lord_n god_n what_o a_o ghostly_a father_n be_v this_o that_o excuse_v my_o sin_n and_o so_o with_o a_o earnest_a displeasure_n against_o herself_o she_o turn_v to_o her_o confessor_n again_o and_o say_v father_n think_v you_o that_o this_o most_o wretched_a and_o vile_a creature_n which_o have_v receive_v so_o many_o grace_n and_o gift_n of_o my_o creator_n only_o of_o his_o more_o goodness_n without_o any_o merit_n on_o my_o part_n shall_v withdraw_v any_o time_n from_o the_o service_n of_o such_o a_o love_a and_o bowntiful_a lord_n and_o bestow_v the_o same_o about_o the_o set_n out_o of_o this_o rot_a and_o stink_a flesh_n which_o may_v also_o be_v a_o cause_n or_o inducement_n to_o deadly_a sin_n when_o the_o confessor_n hard_o those_o word_n and_o see_v that_o they_o proceed_v from_o a_o hart_n wonderful_o inflame_v with_o the_o fire_n of_o god_n love_n be_v not_o able_a to_o answer_v she_o he_o give_v over_o to_o speak_v of_o that_o matter_n any_o more_o nevertheless_o he_o procee_v to_o examine_v the_o whole_a state_n of_o her_o life_n and_o when_o he_o have_v do_v in_o that_o behalf_n so_o much_o as_o appertein_v to_o a_o learned_a and_o discrete_a ghostly_a father_n to_o do_v he_o give_v afterwards_o a_o very_a sufficient_a testimony_n before_o god_n and_o his_o holy_a church_n that_o when_o he_o have_v hear_v her_o confession_n both_o general_a and_o special_a all_o the_o time_n of_o his_o life_n he_o can_v never_o espy_v any_o spot_n of_o mortal_a sin_n in_o her_o conscience_n unless_o this_o be_v take_v for_o a_o mortal_a sin_n which_o no_o learned_a divine_a i_o think_v will_v ever_o judge_v he_o testify_v furthermore_o both_o by_o word_n of_o mowth_n and_o in_o writing_n that_o he_o find_v she_o always_o so_o clean_o from_o venial_a sin_n that_o he_o can_v scantlie_o perceive_v by_o her_o confession_n which_o she_o make_v both_o very_a often_o and_o very_o exact_o that_o she_o do_v commit_v any_o offence_n at_o all_o in_o so_o much_o that_o it_o be_v well_o know_v not_o only_o to_o her_o ghostly_a father_n that_o examine_v her_o conscience_n but_o also_o to_o as_o many_o in_o effect_n as_o have_v any_o conversation_n or_o do_n with_o she_o that_o she_o do_v never_o or_o seldom_o offend_v so_o much_o as_o in_o word_n and_o so_o will_v any_o man_n judge_n that_o shall_v with_o good_a diligence_n and_o attention_n read_v over_o the_o whole_a story_n of_o her_o life_n for_o he_o shall_v see_v that_o the_o order_n of_o her_o life_n be_v such_o her_o silence_n so_o wonderful_a her_o sleep_n so_o short_a her_o eat_n and_o drink_v so_o spare_a her_o prayer_n so_o continual_a her_o meditation_n and_o contemplation_n so_o heavenly_a her_o exhortation_n to_o other_o so_o earnest_a and_o so_o often_o use_v her_o whole_a conversation_n so_o meek_a &_o sweet_a that_o where_o such_o grace_n do_v abound_v it_o be_v not_o possible_a that_o sin_n shall_v take_v any_o place_n and_o where_o so_o much_o time_n be_v spend_v in_o holy_a exercise_n there_o can_v not_o be_v much_o time_n spare_v to_o be_v bestow_v in_o synful_a work_n how_o she_o recover_v her_o wont_a liberty_n in_o serve_v god_n and_o be_v reconcile_v again_o to_o her_o spouse_n how_o the_o persecution_n that_o she_o sustain_v at_o home_n do_v not_o only_o not_o hurt_v she_o but_o also_o profit_v she_o very_o much_o chap._n 7._o when_o this_o young_a maid_n have_v be_v thus_o induce_v by_o the_o importunity_n of_o her_o mother_n and_o sister_n to_o condescend_v to_o their_o ungodlie_a request_n so_o far_o forth_o as_o be_v before_o declare_v she_o perceive_v in_o herself_o that_o she_o be_v much_o slack_a and_o cold_a in_o her_o prayer_n and_o meditation_n than_o she_o be_v wont_a to_o be_v before_o which_o happen_v unto_o she_o undoubted_o by_o the_o permission_n of_o
the_o house_n to_o comfort_v the_o afflict_a mother_n when_o they_o be_v there_o and_o see_v what_o have_v happen_v it_o be_v hard_o to_o say_v whether_o of_o they_o two_o they_o pity_v more_o either_o the_o mother_n who_o bowel_n they_o see_v be_v so_o inward_o move_v with_o compassion_n on_o her_o dear_a child_n or_o the_o daughter_n who_o have_v exercise_v such_o rigorous_a justice_n and_o bloody_a revenge_n upon_o her_o own_o body_n for_o the_o sin_n of_o other_o how_o she_o desire_v earnest_o to_o receive_v the_o habit_n of_o s._n dominicke_n and_o how_o her_o mother_n to_o turn_v her_o mind_n lead_v she_o away_o to_o the_o batthe_n what_o penance_n she_o do_v even_o in_o the_o batthe_n chap._n 13._o when_o this_o bless_a maid_n be_v thus_o at_o liberty_n to_o occupy_v herself_o in_o the_o afore_o mention_v exercise_n of_o godliness_n and_o penance_n the_o more_o the_o ghostly_a enemy_n busy_v himself_o to_o hinder_v her_o good_a purpose_n the_o more_o earnest_n she_o wax_v in_o follow_v the_o same_o and_o now_o call_v to_o mind_n the_o religious_a habit_n promise_v unto_o she_o long_o before_o by_o the_o bless_a father_n s._n dominicke_n she_o never_o cease_v to_o pray_v to_o god_n with_o inward_a groaning_n &_o tear_n both_o by_o day_n &_o by_o night_n that_o he_o will_v vowchsafe_v to_o fulfil_v his_o promise_n with_o speed_n for_o she_o see_v that_o she_o shall_v never_o be_v free_a from_o the_o molestation_n of_o her_o parent_n until_o such_o time_n as_o she_o have_v receive_v it_o &_o therefore_o she_o humble_o beseech_v they_o also_o that_o they_o will_v be_v content_v to_o dismiss_v she_o &_o to_o be_v mean_n to_o the_o sister_n that_o live_v in_o penance_n under_o the_o rule_n of_o s._n dominicke_n common_o call_v there_o the_o sister_n of_o the_o mantel_n that_o she_o may_v be_v admit_v into_o their_o company_n but_o her_o mother_n who_o have_v no_o like_n of_o her_o suit_n but_o seek_v rather_o somewhat_o to_o qualify_v the_o rigour_n of_o her_o exercise_n already_o begin_v determine_v to_o go_v to_o a_o hot_a bath_n and_o to_o take_v her_o daughter_n with_o she_o hope_v thereby_o to_o bring_v to_o pass_v what_o by_o cherish_v of_o her_o body_n with_o such_o sensual_a delight_n and_o what_o by_o distract_n her_o mind_n from_o her_o wont_a meditation_n that_o she_o shall_v in_o time_n by_o little_a and_o little_a relent_v the_o extremity_n of_o her_o rough_a discipline_n undoubted_o this_o be_v not_o do_v without_o the_o instigation_n of_o the_o devel_n who_o bent_n be_v to_o withdraw_v that_o devout_a soul_n from_o follow_v the_o call_n of_o her_o spouse_n but_o there_o be_v no_o counsel_n against_o god_n who_o teach_v his_o true_a seruamt_v to_o turn_v all_o the_o treacherous_a wile_n of_o the_o enemy_n to_o her_o further_a commodity_n &_o profit_n when_o she_o come_v to_o the_o bath_n she_o find_v out_o a_o new_a manner_n of_o bathe_v such_o as_o have_v not_o light_o be_v hard_a of_o before_o that_o tyme._n she_o entreat_v her_o mother_n that_o she_o may_v be_v in_o the_o bath_n alone_o when_o all_o other_o have_v bathe_v themselves_o the_o which_o thing_n when_o her_o mother_n have_v grant_v with_o a_o very_a good_a will_n be_v in_o deed_n a_o plain_a meany_v woma_n nand_n nothing_o suspect_v the_o wiliness_n of_o her_o daughter_n in_o that_o matter_n she_o go_v and_o set_v herself_o under_o the_o spout_n where_o the_o water_n come_v scald_a hot_a into_o the_o bath_n and_o there_o suffer_v patient_o great_a pain_n of_o the_o heat_n of_o the_o water_n than_o she_o be_v wont_a to_o do_v at_o home_n when_o she_o beat_v herself_o with_o the_o iron_n chain_n now_o when_o her_o mother_n have_v espy_v that_o also_o and_o see_v that_o whatsoever_o she_o can_v devise_v for_o the_o solace_n or_o comfort_n of_o her_o daughter_n body_n be_v by_o her_o wiliness_n turn_v to_o the_o contrary_a she_o determine_v to_o return_v to_o her_o house_n again_o where_o not_o withstand_v she_o cease_v not_o to_o show_v in_o word_n that_o she_o have_v a_o great_a mislike_v of_o her_o extreme_a severetie_n and_o penance_n unto_o the_o which_o word_n the_o good_a daughter_n give_v but_o a_o deaf_a ear_n have_v evermore_o great_a regard_n to_o the_o holy_a spirit_n of_o god_n speak_v inward_o in_o her_o hart_n then_o to_o the_o outward_a sound_n of_o word_n that_o tend_v to_o the_o hindrance_n of_o her_o godly_a designemente_n afterwards_o when_o her_o ghostly_a father_n who_o have_v hear_v tell_v of_o she_o bathe_v by_o the_o report_n of_o her_o mother_n demand_v of_o she_o how_o it_o be_v possible_a that_o she_o shall_v be_v able_a to_o suffer_v the_o heat_n of_o that_o scald_a water_n so_o long_a time_n without_o the_o extreme_a damage_n and_o peril_n of_o her_o body_n she_o make_v answer_v and_o say_v very_o simple_o that_o be_v in_o the_o bath_n she_o call_v to_o mind_n the_o pain_n of_o hell_n &_o purgatory_n and_o so_o make_v her_o prayer_n to_o almighty_a god_n who_o she_o have_v so_o grievous_o offend_v that_o he_o will_v vowchsafe_v of_o his_o endless_a mercy_n to_o change_v the_o torment_n that_o she_o have_v deserve_v by_o her_o sin_n into_o those_o pain_n that_o she_o will_v willing_o put_v herself_o unto_o there_o for_o be_v love_n unto_o the_o which_o prayer_n it_o please_v god_n to_o make_v answer_n by_o geve_v she_o such_o a_o pass_a great_a joy_n and_o gladness_n in_o her_o hart_n that_o all_o the_o pain_n that_o she_o suffer_v be_v pleasant_a and_o deliteful_a unto_o she_o and_o the_o almighty_a power_n of_o god_n so_o dispense_v with_o her_o body_n that_o it_o have_v in_o deed_n a_o very_a great_a and_o sensible_a feel_n of_o pain_n but_o no_o hurt_n or_o blemish_n at_o all_o when_o she_o have_v thus_o satisfy_v the_o demand_n of_o her_o ghostly_a father_n she_o go_v home_o and_o fall_v again_o to_o the_o exercise_n of_o her_o accustom_a penance_n how_o she_o receive_v the_o habit_n of_o s._n dominicke_n and_o how_o she_o be_v the_o first_o virgin_n that_o receive_v the_o same_o chap._n 14._o now_o to_o come_v to_o our_o matter_n again_o when_o this_o bless_a virgin_n be_v return_v from_o the_o batthe_n she_o cease_v not_o to_o solicit_v her_o mother_n that_o she_o will_v move_v the_o aforenamed_a sister_n of_o the_o mantel_n that_o she_o may_v receive_v the_o habit_n that_o she_o have_v so_o long_o and_o earnest_o desire_v the_o mother_n be_v overcome_v with_o the_o importunity_n of_o her_o daughter_n go_v to_o the_o sister_n and_o entreat_v they_o that_o she_o may_v be_v receive_v into_o their_o company_n whereunto_o they_o make_v answer_v that_o it_o be_v not_o their_o manner_n to_o receive_v young_a maiden_n into_o their_o habit_n but_o only_a widow_n and_o woman_n of_o sad_a year_n such_o as_o be_v think_v able_a and_o likely_a to_o have_v experience_n to_o govern_v themselves_o because_o they_o have_v no_o common_a place_n and_o conversation_n as_o common_o covente_n of_o religious_a person_n have_v but_o live_v echone_v a_o part_n from_o other_o in_o private_a celles_fw-fr when_o the_o mother_n come_v home_o with_o this_o answer_n to_o her_o daughter_n she_o be_v nothing_o daunt_v withal_o but_o beseech_v her_o mother_n after_o a_o very_a humble_a manner_n that_o she_o will_v take_v the_o pain_n to_o renew_v her_o suit_n again_o and_o use_v more_o earnest_a mean_n to_o persuade_v with_o they_o than_o she_o have_v do_v before_o which_o thing_n she_o be_v well_o content_a to_o do_v and_o go_v again_o but_o in_o fine_a can_v obtain_v no_o better_o answer_v than_o she_o have_v at_o the_o first_o the_o which_o unpleasant_a answer_n also_o the_o good_a daughter_n take_v in_o very_o good_a part_n remit_v herself_o humble_o to_o the_o will_n of_o god_n in_o all_o thing_n and_o make_v herself_o well_o assure_v that_o the_o holy_a father_n s._n dominicke_n will_v in_o time_n when_o it_o shall_v please_v god_n fulfil_v his_o promise_n in_o the_o mean_a time_n it_o chance_v this_o bless_a virgin_n to_o be_v visit_v with_o a_o very_a painful_a sickness_n her_o body_n be_v so_o disfigure_v with_o the_o measles_n that_o she_o can_v scant_o be_v know_v and_o withal_o she_o be_v so_o sore_o vex_v with_o a_o hot_a burn_a ague_n that_o her_o mother_n who_o love_v she_o among_o all_o her_o chidren_n most_o tender_o have_v very_o great_a pity_n and_o fear_n of_o she_o the_o which_o occasion_n the_o wise_a virgin_n think_v be_v not_o to_o be_v slip_v but_o take_v the_o opportunity_n of_o the_o present_a state_n and_o time_n begin_v to_o move_v her_o mother_n once_o again_o after_o this_o manner_n good_a mother_n as_o you_o tender_v my_o life_n and_o health_n so_o i_o beseech_v you_o to_o use_v diligent_a and_o earnest_a mean_n to_o procure_v i_o the_o habit_n that_o i_o have_v so_o long_o
he_o and_o direct_v all_o her_o work_n and_o thought_n together_o with_o all_o the_o power_n of_o her_o soul_n in_o he_o according_a to_o the_o rule_n and_o direction_n that_o she_o find_v in_o he_o and_o without_o he_o she_o list_v not_o to_o be_v forsomuch_o as_o in_o he_o she_o find_v all_o that_o the_o hart_n may_v delight_v in_o all_o beauty_n all_o sweetness_n all_o quietness_n &_o all_o peace_n and_o so_o by_o this_o mean_a there_o increase_v daily_a a_o certain_a union_n and_o straight_o band_n of_o love_n between_o she_o and_o god_n which_o in_o time_n come_v to_o be_v so_o wonderful_o wrought_v that_o she_o be_v altogether_o as_o it_o be_v transfourm_v into_o he_o whereupon_o it_o come_v to_o pass_v that_o she_o can_v love_v delight_n think_v and_o remember_v none_o other_o thing_n but_o only_o he_o all_o other_o creature_n she_o love_v know_v and_o considerer_v in_o he_o even_o as_o a_o man_n do_v that_o dive_v and_o swym_v under_o the_o water_n who_o see_v and_o feel_v nothing_o that_o be_v not_o either_o water_n or_o contain_v in_o the_o water_n and_o if_o he_o see_v any_o thing_n that_o be_v out_o of_o the_o water_n he_o see_v it_o not_o proper_o as_o it_o be_v in_o itself_o but_o as_o the_o likeness_n of_o the_o same_o show_v in_o the_o water_n and_o not_o otherwise_o this_o be_v a_o very_o perfect_v and_o sure_a rule_n by_o the_o which_o a_o man_n may_v make_v a_o just_a estimate_n both_o of_o himself_o and_o of_o all_o creature_n ground_v upon_o a_o most_o certain_a and_o infallible_a truth_n which_o be_v almighty_a god_n upon_o this_o she_o bring_v in_o a_o other_o doctrine_n also_o which_o she_o take_v such_o pleasure_n in_o that_o she_o cease_v not_o to_o repeat_v it_o again_o and_o again_o as_o a_o thing_n very_o worthy_a to_o be_v note_v a_o soul_n say_v she_o that_o be_v thus_o plonge_v in_o the_o love_n of_o god_n look_v how_o much_o she_o love_v god_n so_o much_o she_o hate_v herself_o that_o be_v her_o own_o sensuality_n which_o be_v the_o root_n and_o beginning_n of_o all_o sin_n and_o from_o whence_o she_o see_v to_o arise_v the_o cause_n of_o her_o separation_n from_o god_n which_o be_v her_o whole_a felicity_n and_o final_a perfection_n the_o which_o thing_n when_o a_o soul_n preceive_v she_o conceive_v a_o great_a mislike_v which_o bring_v forth_o a_o certain_a holy_a hatred_n against_o her_o own_o lust_n and_o withal_o a_o earnest_a desire_n to_o kill_v the_o root_n of_o the_o same_o which_o root_n be_v self_n love_n but_o because_o she_o see_v that_o the_o root_n be_v so_o deep_a that_o it_o can_v not_o be_v utter_o grub_v up_o but_o that_o there_o will_v remain_v some_o piece_n of_o it_o which_o will_v from_o time_n to_o time_n molest_v she_o therefore_o do_v she_o likewise_o increase_v daily_o in_o this_o holy_a hatred_n whereof_o be_v engender_v a_o certain_a frutful_a despise_n and_o set_v at_o naught_o of_o herself_o which_o by_o the_o force_n and_o virtue_n of_o the_o love_n of_o god_n the_o overcomer_n of_o all_o dejection_n and_o confusion_n rise_v up_o with_o a_o great_a hope_n &_o desire_n and_o avance_v itself_o towards_o god_n for_o who_o love_n she_o be_v desirous_a to_o abide_v all_o pain_n and_o roughness_n of_o discipline_n hope_v thereby_o to_o subdue_v all_o inordinate_a appitite_n and_o pronenes_n to_o sin_n in_o herself_o which_o be_v the_o let_v and_o stay_v that_o keep_v she_o from_o her_o desire_a joy_n and_o union_n with_o god_n and_o in_o this_o humble_a submission_n of_o herself_o she_o receive_v a_o inward_a light_n of_o grace_n by_o the_o which_o she_o come_v to_o see_v and_o to_o acknowledge_v the_o merciful_a goodness_n of_o god_n who_o be_v evermore_o ready_a to_o pardon_v and_o will_v not_o the_o death_n of_o a_o sinner_n but_o rather_o that_o he_o turn_v and_o live_v which_o consideration_n increase_v her_o love_n towards_o he_o pass_o and_o by_o love_n she_o purchase_v daily_o great_a grace_n strength_n and_o fullness_n of_o peace_n in_o herself_o and_o so_o go_v forward_o in_o perfection_n of_o charity_n until_o at_o the_o length_n it_o please_v god_n to_o pluck_v she_o as_o a_o melowe_n apple_n from_o this_o tree_n of_o bitterness_n and_o to_o transpose_v she_o whole_o into_o himself_o who_o be_v the_o everlasting_a tree_n of_o sweetness_n and_o life_n and_o thus_o be_v this_o holy_a hatred_n the_o true_a keeper_n and_o guardian_n of_o the_o soul_n the_o forteresse_n and_o sure_a castle_n of_o a_o quiet_a and_o assure_a hope_n in_o god_n this_o be_v that_o which_o the_o holy_a apostle_n mean_v when_o he_o say_v when_o i_o be_o weak_a then_o be_o i_o strong_a for_o our_o lord_n have_v declare_v unto_o he_o that_o strength_n be_v wrought_v in_o weakness_n and_o therefore_o he_o say_v also_o i_o will_v glad_o rejoice_v in_o my_o infirmity_n that_o the_o power_n of_o christ_n may_v dwell_v in_o i_o now_o this_o infirmity_n be_v nothing_o else_o but_o only_o that_o hatred_n of_o himself_o that_o we_o here_o speak_v of_o which_o be_v cause_v in_o he_o by_o the_o knowledge_n of_o that_o root_n of_o inordinate_a lust_n and_o of_o his_o weakness_n and_o insufficiency_n to_o all_o good_a work_n which_o he_o see_v be_v in_o himself_o the_o which_o thing_n when_o he_o perceive_v he_o wax_v weak_a and_o feeble_a that_o be_v he_o despair_v in_o himself_o and_o acknowledge_v his_o own_o feebleness_n yield_v himself_o humble_o into_o the_o mighty_a hand_n of_o god_n in_o who_o only_o it_o lie_v to_o cure_v his_o infirmity_n who_o like_o a_o love_a father_n forthwith_o accept_v that_o lowly_a resignation_n of_o himself_o and_o lay_v his_o almighty_a hand_n upon_o he_o make_v he_o strong_a in_o god_n that_o be_v content_a to_o confess_v how_o weak_a and_o in_o sufficient_a he_o be_v in_o himself_o when_o this_o holy_a virgin_n speak_v these_o and_o other_o word_n to_o like_a purpose_n she_o burst_v out_o as_o it_o be_v of_o a_o certain_a inward_a joy_n and_o jubilee_n that_o she_o feel_v in_o her_o spirit_n and_o say_v o_o wonderful_a goodness_n of_o god_n how_o strange_o do_v thou_o dispose_v of_o of_o thing_n out_o of_o vice_n thou_o draw_v virtue_n out_o of_o weakness_n strength_n out_o of_o offence_n great_a grace_n and_o favour_n o_o dear_a child_n say_v she_o have_v this_o holy_a hatred_n in_o yourselves_o for_o out_o of_o it_o arise_v true_a meekness_n and_o humility_n of_o hart_n by_o reason_n whereof_o you_o shall_v account_v all_o your_o work_n and_o other_o thing_n as_o smoke_n and_o vanity_n and_o shall_v glory_v only_o in_o god_n this_o holy_a hatred_n shall_v make_v you_o to_o have_v a_o great_a moderation_n and_o stay_v in_o prosperity_n and_o withal_o a_o goodly_a quietness_n and_o patience_n in_o adversity_n it_o shall_v cawse_v you_o to_o be_v modest_a and_o comely_a in_o your_o conversation_n with_o man_n gracious_a and_o acceptable_a in_o all_o your_o work_n of_o piety_n before_o god_n many_o time_n also_o she_o will_v add_v furthermore_o and_o say_v contrariwise_o woe_n be_v to_o that_o soul_n in_o the_o which_o this_o holy_a hatred_n lodge_v not_o for_o it_o can_v not_o be_v choose_v but_o that_o in_o such_o a_o soul_n there_o must_v needs_o reign_v self_n love_n which_o be_v the_o root_n fowndation_n and_o syncke_v of_o all_o inordinate_a lust_n and_o therefore_o when_o she_o see_v any_o sin_n or_o vice_n in_o any_o person_n be_v move_v with_o a_o certain_a compassion_n she_o use_v often_o time_n to_o say_v this_o be_v the_o fruit_n of_o self_n love_n the_o mother_n of_o pride_n and_o of_o all_o other_o evels_n do_v therefore_o say_v she_o to_o her_o ghostly_a father_n and_o other_o your_o uttermost_a endeavour_n to_o grub_v it_o up_o out_o of_o your_o hart_n and_o to_o plant_v in_o the_o same_o that_o holy_a hatred_n for_o that_o be_v the_o king_n high_a way_n very_o certain_o know_v and_o well_o tread_v in_o the_o which_o all_o our_o defect_n be_v perfect_o correct_v without_o any_o error_n and_o by_o it_o we_o climb_v up_o to_o the_o mount_n of_o all_o virtue_n in_o the_o high_a perfection_n thus_o much_o see_v the_o glorious_a father_n s._n augustine_n when_o he_o describe_v two_o city_n the_o own_o found_v upon_o the_o love_n of_o ourselves_o which_o tend_v to_o the_o dishonour_n of_o god_n and_o the_o other_o ground_v upon_o the_o love_n of_o god_n which_o tend_v to_o the_o abbase_v of_o ourselves_o of_o the_o strange_a battle_n which_o she_o have_v against_o the_o devel_n and_o how_o she_o arm_v herself_o with_o a_o strong_a faith_n and_o other_o heavenly_a virtue_n and_o so_o gate_n a_o most_o glorious_a victory_n over_o her_o enemy_n chap._n 20._o after_o that_o she_o have_v learn_v these_o lesson_n which_o be_v many_o more_o then_o be_v here_o specify_v it_o please_v the_o wisdom_n
dishonesty_n unto_o who_o she_o make_v none_o answer_v whatsoever_o he_o say_v neither_o will_v she_o so_o much_o as_o look_v in_o his_o face_n but_o forthwith_o turn_v away_o from_o he_o and_o so_o keep_v herself_o faithful_a and_o true_a to_o her_o husband_n and_o so_o do_v this_o chaste_a virgin_n to_o her_o spouse_n christ_n and_o by_o this_o mean_a she_o gate_n a_o great_a victory_n over_o her_o enemy_n bore_v his_o ear_n with_o the_o nail_n of_o a_o strong_a and_o faithful_a prayer_n howbeit_o though_o he_o see_v his_o first_o assault_n thus_o easy_o frustrate_v and_o put_v by_o yet_o do_v he_o not_o cease_v but_o move_v a_o other_o battle_n against_o she_o which_o be_v much_o more_o fierce_a and_o cruel_a than_o the_o foreme_a how_o the_o enemy_n accompany_v with_o a_o great_a multitude_n of_o unclean_a spirit_n renew_v his_o battarie_n against_o this_o strong_a fortress_n and_o use_v great_a enforcement_n than_o before_o chap._n 21._o when_o the_o unclean_a spirit_n see_v that_o this_o attempt_n take_v no_o place_n but_o be_v by_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n easy_o overcome_v they_o take_v diverse_a and_o sundry_a shape_n of_o man_n and_o woman_n and_o set_v themselves_o in_o such_o form_z before_o the_o eye_n of_o the_o chaste_a virgin_n they_o exercise_v most_o filthy_a act_n of_o the_o flesh_n and_o speak_v very_o foul_a word_n and_o use_v all_o possible_a mean_n to_o star_n up_o her_o mind_n and_o body_n to_o uncleanness_n the_o which_o what_o a_o great_a grief_n it_o cause_v to_o her_o unspotted_a and_o maidenlie_o hart_n those_o only_o be_v able_a to_o consider_v that_o know_v what_o a_o goodly_a treasure_n a_o pure_a and_o chaste_a conversation_n be_v in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n and_o so_o consequent_o what_o a_o great_a loss_n it_o be_v to_o be_v in_o danger_n to_o be_v spoil_v of_o the_o same_o it_o be_v also_o a_o great_a torment_n and_o increase_v of_o heaviness_n to_o her_o mind_n to_o consider_v that_o her_o dear_a spouse_n and_o lord_n who_o be_v wont_v afore_o to_o visit_v and_o comfort_v she_o oftentimes_o seem_v now_o as_o though_o he_o have_v utter_o forsake_v she_o and_o will_v no_o more_o relieve_v and_o succour_v she_o in_o her_o distress_n although_o for_o her_o part_n she_o do_v what_o in_o she_o lay_v knock_v at_o the_o gate_n of_o his_o mercy_n with_o continual_a prayer_n tear_n and_o hard_a discipline_n upon_o her_o body_n and_o when_o she_o see_v that_o he_o make_v no_o answer_n she_o begin_v to_o devise_v a_o certain_a new_a manner_n of_o sleight_n to_o encounter_v with_o the_o enemy_n how_o be_v it_o not_o without_o the_o secret_a instincte_n of_o god_n which_o be_v this_o she_o conceive_v a_o marvelous_a great_a mislike_v of_o herself_o and_o against_o her_o own_o sin_n and_o so_o turn_v her_o indignation_n as_o it_o be_v against_o herself_o she_o utter_v such_o word_n ah_o most_o vile_a wretch_n look_v thou_o to_o receive_v comfort_n think_v thou_o that_o thy_o sin_n have_v deserve_v it_o at_o god_n hand_n o_o most_o unkind_a caitiff_n be_v it_o not_o enough_o for_o thou_o that_o thou_o be_v pardon_v of_o the_o pain_n of_o hell_n o_o unthankeful_a creature_n do_v not_o thou_o take_v it_o to_o be_v gain_n enough_o that_o the_o endless_a mercy_n of_o god_n that_o change_v those_o everlasting_a torment_n into_o these_o temporal_a affliction_n be_v it_o not_o a_o very_a gaineful_a exchange_n for_o thou_o though_o they_o shall_v endure_v all_o the_o time_n of_o thy_o life_n will_v thou_o then_o be_v dismay_v and_o relent_v thy_o wont_a mortification_n and_o discipline_n know_v that_o by_o thesis_n mean_n thou_o shall_v escape_v endless_a pain_n and_o within_o a_o short_a time_n receive_v endless_a joy_n and_o comfort_n at_o the_o hand_n of_o thy_o dear_a spouse_n jesus_n christ_n by_o this_o may_v thou_o try_v whether_o thou_o have_v choose_v to_o serve_v god_n for_o these_o temporal_a visitation_n and_o comfort_n or_o else_o in_o hope_n of_o that_o everlasting_a bless_v and_o joyful_a fruition_n of_o himself_o in_o the_o life_n to_o come_v a_o wake_v therefore_o take_v a_o good_a hart_n fight_v manful_o and_o expecte_v with_o patience_n the_o good_a will_n and_o pleasure_n of_o god_n now_o be_v the_o time_n for_o thou_o to_o increase_v to_o thyself_o labour_n and_o pain_n and_o to_o his_o holy_a name_n honour_n and_o glory_n it_o can_v not_o be_v express_v in_o word_n how_o much_o she_o be_v strengthen_v in_o soul_n by_o this_o mean_a and_o contrariwise_o how_o much_o the_o proud_a enemy_n be_v by_o the_o same_o confownd_v and_o weaken_v she_o confess_v afterwards_o to_o her_o ghostly_a father_n that_o there_o be_v such_o a_o rabble_n of_o those_o foul_a fiend_n at_o that_o time_n in_o her_o chamber_n move_v her_o diverse_a and_o sundry_a way_n to_o uncleanness_n that_o she_o be_v enforce_v for_o a_o time_n to_o flee_v from_o her_o chamber_n to_o the_o church_n and_o there_o to_o keep_v more_o than_o she_o be_v wont_a to_o do_v how_o be_v it_o even_o in_o the_o church_n also_o she_o be_v molest_v think_v not_o so_o much_o as_o before_o in_o her_o chamber_n whether_o when_o she_o return_v afterwards_o she_o be_v again_o so_o beset_v with_o such_o a_o company_n of_o unclean_a spirit_n represent_v there_o before_o she_o so_o many_o act_n of_o filthiness_n and_o that_o with_o so_o great_a importunity_n and_o strange_a manner_n that_o it_o be_v a_o very_a miracle_n how_o she_o be_v able_a to_o sustain_v the_o same_o but_o she_o forth_o with_o fall_v down_o to_o the_o earth_n &_o there_o lie_v grovel_v on_o her_o face_n in_o prayer_n beseech_v god_n of_o his_o mercy_n with_o such_o mighty_a sigh_n and_o groan_n that_o in_o contemplation_n of_o her_o pitiful_a cry_n he_o somewhat_o assuage_v the_o fury_n of_o those_o foul_a fiend_n and_o so_o continue_v in_o such_o affliction_n and_o trouble_n a_o great_a number_n of_o day_n at_o the_o length_n when_o at_o a_o time_n come_v from_o the_o church_n and_o lie_v after_o such_o a_o manner_n in_o her_o chamber_n she_o make_v her_o earnest_a prayer_n unto_o god_n crave_v his_o merciful_a aid_n and_o assistance_n there_o appear_v a_o certain_a comfortable_a beam_n of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n which_o bring_v unto_o her_o remembrance_n the_o goodly_a lesson_n that_o our_o lord_n have_v thaught_v she_o before_o when_o she_o pray_v unto_o he_o for_o the_o gift_n of_o fortitude_n and_o so_o understand_v that_o all_o that_o be_v there_o do_v be_v only_o the_o tentation_n of_o the_o enemy_n she_o receive_v great_a joy_n in_o her_o hart_n and_o determine_v from_o that_o day_n forward_o to_o suffer_v meek_o &_o glad_o all_o manner_n of_o tentation_n and_o affliction_n for_o the_o love_n of_o her_o spouse_n jesus_n christ_n then_o one_o of_o those_o wicked_a spirit_n who_o be_v peradventure_o of_o great_a boldness_n and_o malice_n than_o the_o rest_n speak_v unto_o she_o after_o this_o manner_n wretched_a woman_n what_o mean_v thou_o think_v thou_o evermore_o to_o lead_v such_o a_o state_n of_o life_n as_o this_o be_v make_v thyself_o well_o assure_v of_o this_o we_o shall_v never_o geve_v thou_o one_o hour_n of_o respite_n but_o shall_v pain_n and_o vex_v thou_o continual_o until_o thou_o yield_v and_o consent_n unto_o our_o will_n unto_o who_o she_o make_v answer_v out_o of_o hand_n with_o a_o great_a courage_n and_o affiance_n in_o god_n and_o say_v i_o have_v choose_v pain_n for_o my_o refresh_n and_o therefore_o it_o shall_v not_o be_v yrckesome_a to_o i_o but_o rather_o pleasant_a and_o delitefull_a to_o suffer_v these_o and_o all_o other_o affliction_n for_o the_o love_n of_o my_o lord_n and_o saviour_n so_o long_o and_o so_o much_o as_o shall_v please_v his_o divine_a majesty_n with_o that_o word_n all_o that_o detestable_a company_n of_o unclean_a spirit_n vanish_v quite_o away_o with_o a_o very_a dreadful_a &_o horrible_a noise_n and_o behold_v forth_o with_o there_o appear_v a_o marvelous_a goodly_a light_n from_o heaven_n which_o shine_v all_o over_o her_o chamber_n and_o in_o that_o light_n our_o saviour_n christ_n in_o such_o form_n and_o manner_n as_o he_o be_v when_o he_o hang_v upon_o the_o cross_n and_o there_o shed_v his_o most_o precious_a blood_n for_o the_o redemption_n of_o the_o world_n who_o call_v she_o unto_o he_o and_z and_z say_v these_o word_n i_o own_o daughter_n catherine_n see_v thou_o not_o what_o i_o have_v suffer_v for_o thy_o sake_n think_v it_o not_o much_o therefore_o to_o suffer_v for_o i_o after_o that_o he_o approach_v near_a unto_o she_o in_o a_o other_o form_n to_o comfort_v she_o and_o speak_v unto_o she_o many_o sweet_a and_o love_a word_n and_o she_o likewise_o to_o he_o o_o lord_n say_v she_o use_v the_o word_n of_o s._n antony_n where_o be_v thou_o when_o my_o hart_n be_v so_o vex_v with_o soul_n and_o
but_o that_o she_o be_v forthwith_o able_a to_o read_v as_o ready_o as_o one_o that_o have_v be_v train_v long_a time_n in_o the_o study_n of_o learning_n whereat_o her_o ghostly_a father_n be_v marvellous_o astoin_v forsomuch_o as_o it_o be_v well_o know_v to_o all_o that_o converse_v with_o she_o that_o before_o that_o time_n she_o can_v not_o only_o not_o read_v or_o spell_n but_o also_o very_a hardly_o know_v one_o letter_n from_o a_o other_o after_o this_o time_n she_o gate_n her_o book_n of_o church_n service_n and_o begin_v to_o say_v her_o matin_n and_o other_o canonical_a hour_n in_o the_o which_o she_o note_v disigent_o the_o verse_n of_o the_o psalm_n but_o especial_o that_o verse_n that_o be_v use_v common_o in_o the_o beginning_n of_o every_o hour_n to_o wite_v deus_fw-la in_o adiutorium_fw-la meum_fw-la intend_v domine_fw-la ad_fw-la adiwandum_fw-la i_o festina_fw-la and_o keep_v the_o same_o in_o her_o mind_n with_o a_o special_a regard_n to_o her_o life_n end_n how_o she_o increase_v so_o much_o in_o heavenly_a contemplation_n that_o she_o be_v often_o time_n ravish_v in_o the_o same_o and_o how_o she_o be_v espouse_v to_o our_o saviour_n christ_n with_o a_o ring_n chap._n 23._o after_o this_o time_n increase_v daily_o in_o heavenly_a contemplation_n she_o be_v at_o the_o length_n enforce_v almost_o to_o geve_v over_o all_o vocal_a prayer_n because_o she_o be_v no_o soener_o set_v to_o prey_n but_o that_o forthwith_o she_o be_v so_o much_o elevate_v in_o the_o height_n of_o her_o spirit_n and_o so_o ravish_v from_o her_o bodily_a sense_n that_o she_o may_v scant_o endure_v to_o end_v one_o pater_fw-la noster_fw-la whereupon_o have_v a_o earnest_a desire_n in_o her_o hart_n to_o have_v yet_o a_o further_a increase_n of_o perfection_n in_o spiritual_a life_n and_o to_o clymme_n up_o to_o the_o high_a point_n of_o charity_n she_o make_v her_o petition_n unto_o almighty_a god_n in_o most_o humble_a manner_n that_o it_o will_v please_v he_o to_o geve_v she_o such_o a_o light_n of_o faith_n that_o be_v guide_v by_o the_o same_o she_o may_v from_o that_o time_n forward_o walk_v sure_o and_o without_o alteration_n in_o the_o path_n of_o his_o holy_a commandment_n and_o make_v resistance_n against_o all_o the_o attempt_n of_o of_o the_o enemy_n the_o which_o request_n our_o lord_n take_v in_o good_a part_n and_o answer_v very_o comfortable_o and_o sweet_o say_v these_o word_n i_o will_v make_v thou_o my_o spouse_n in_o faith_n and_o evermore_o as_o she_o increase_v in_o desire_n and_o multiply_v her_o prayer_n so_o hear_v she_o the_o same_o sentence_n repeat_v and_o confirm_v by_o our_o lord_n say_v unto_o she_o i_o will_v make_v thou_o my_o spouse_n in_o faith_n at_o the_o last_o it_o happen_v a_o little_a before_o the_o beginning_n of_o lent_n in_o the_o shrove_a day_n at_o what_o time_n man_n be_v wont_v of_o a_o corrupt_a custom_n to_o gather_v together_o after_o a_o synful_a manner_n and_o to_o geve_v themselves_o overmuch_o to_o belly_n cheer_n that_o this_o wise_a virgin_n sequester_v herself_o from_o all_o company_n and_o close_v herself_o up_o all_o alone_a in_o her_o cell_n she_o beseech_v our_o lord_n with_o great_a austerity_n of_o life_n with_o long_o fast_v continual_a watch_v and_o fervent_a prayer_n that_o he_o will_v vowchsafe_v to_o perform_v his_o promise_n in_o geve_v she_o that_o perfection_n of_o faith_n that_o she_o so_o much_o desire_v while_o she_o be_v thus_o pray_v with_o great_a fervour_n of_o mind_n and_o instance_n behold_v our_o lord_n appear_v unto_o she_o after_o a_o very_a comfortable_a manner_n and_o say_v these_o word_n because_o thou_o have_v forsake_v all_o the_o vanity_n of_o the_o world_n and_o set_v thy_o love_n upon_o i_o and_o because_o thou_o have_v for_o my_o sake_n rather_o choose_v to_o afflict_v thy_o body_n with_o fast_v then_o to_o eat_v flesh_n with_o other_o especial_o at_o this_o time_n when_o all_o other_o that_o dwell_v round_o about_o thou_o yea_o and_o those_o also_o that_o dwell_v in_o the_o same_o house_n with_o thou_o do_v banquet_n &_o make_v great_a feast_n therefore_o i_o be_o determine_v this_o day_n to_o keep_v a_o solemn_a feast_n with_o thou_o and_o with_o great_a joy_n and_o pomp_n to_o espowse_n thy_o soul_n to_o i_o in_o faith_n as_o our_o lord_n be_v speak_v these_o word_n there_o appear_v in_o the_o same_o place_n the_o most_o glorious_a virgin_n marry_o mother_n of_o god_n the_o belove_a disciple_n s._n john_n the_o euangeliste_n the_o great_a trumpet_n of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n s._n paul_n the_o apostle_n and_o the_o most_o worthy_a patriarch_n &_o fownder_n of_o her_o order_n s._n dominicke_n and_o after_o these_o come_v the_o kingly_a prophet_n and_o poet_n david_n with_o a_o musical_a psalter_n in_o his_o hand_n on_o the_o which_o he_o play_v a_o heavenly_a song_n of_o inestimable_a sweetness_n in_o the_o ear_n of_o the_o new_a spouse_n then_o our_o bless_a lady_n come_v to_o she_o and_o take_v she_o by_o the_o hand_n and_o withal_o stretch_v out_o her_o finger_n towards_o her_o son_n with_o a_o very_a comely_a grace_n and_o beseech_v he_o that_o he_o will_v vowchsafe_v to_o espowse_n she_o to_o himself_o in_o faith_n whereunto_o he_o assent_v forthwith_o with_o a_o very_a sweet_a and_o lovely_a countenance_n and_o take_v out_o a_o ring_n that_o be_v set_v about_o with_o four_o precious_a pearl_n and_o have_v in_o the_o other_o part_n a_o marvelous_a rich_a diamant_n put_v the_o same_o on_o the_o finger_n of_o her_o right_a hand_n say_v thus_o behold_v i_o here_o espowse_n thou_o to_o i_o thy_o maker_n and_o saviour_n in_o faith_n which_o shall_v continue_v in_o thou_o from_o this_o time_n forward_o evermore_o without_o any_o change_n or_o alteration_n until_o the_o time_n come_v that_o thou_o shall_v consummate_v the_o same_o with_o i_o in_o a_o most_o perfect_v and_o blesful_a conjunction_n in_o the_o joy_n of_o heaven_n wherefore_o from_o hence_o forth_o bear_v thyself_o stout_o and_o be_v not_o dismay_v for_o thou_o be_v now_o arm_v with_o the_o armour_n of_o faith_n by_o the_o virtue_n whereof_o thou_o shall_v withstand_v and_o overcome_v all_o the_o assault_n of_o the_o enemy_n and_o with_o that_o this_o vision_n vanish_v away_o and_o leave_v she_o replenish_v with_o such_o joy_n and_o sweetness_n that_o no_o tongue_n be_v able_a to_o express_v it_o certain_a proof_n of_o the_o holiness_n of_o this_o bless_a virgin_n declare_v the_o aforementioned_a straight_o friendship_n and_o familiarity_n between_o our_o lord_n and_o she_o to_o be_v a_o thing_n undoubted_a chap._n 24._o it_o may_v be_v that_o many_o of_o the_o thing_n mention_v before_o in_o this_o book_n may_v seem_v to_o to_o some_o man_n very_o strange_a and_o almost_o incredible_a and_o no_o merueile_v for_o why_o so_o they_o seem_v even_o at_o that_o time_n to_o many_o man_n not_o only_o of_o such_o as_o have_v little_a acqueintance_n with_o she_o but_o of_o those_o also_o that_o live_v familiar_o with_o she_o who_o as_o they_o be_v much_o induce_v to_o think_v reverent_o of_o she_o by_o see_v her_o virtuous_a and_o holy_a conversation_n so_o contrariwise_o they_o be_v put_v in_o great_a doubt_n and_o perplexity_n by_o reason_n of_o the_o thing_n that_o she_o do_v among_o other_o that_o cast_v such_o doubt_n be_v doctor_n raimundus_n her_o ghostly_a father_n a_o great_a learned_a and_o wise_a man_n who_o at_o the_o beginning_a of_o his_o familiarity_n with_o she_o can_v not_o resolve_v whether_o those_o wonderful_a thing_n that_o he_o hear_v and_o see_v in_o she_o be_v true_a or_o counterfeicte_n and_o whether_o they_o proceed_v of_o god_n or_o of_o the_o devel_n while_o he_o stand_v thus_o in_o doubt_n and_o have_v a_o great_a desire_n to_o be_v resolve_v in_o the_o matter_n because_o it_o stand_v he_o upon_o be_v her_o ghostly_a father_n neither_o to_o deceive_v nor_o to_o be_v deceive_v but_o to_o judge_v aright_o of_o spirit_n it_o come_v to_o his_o mind_n that_o if_o he_o can_v by_o her_o mean_n and_o intercession_n obtain_v for_o himself_o a_o true_a contrition_n of_o all_o his_o sin_n such_o as_o he_o never_o have_v before_o together_o with_o a_o perfect_v sorrow_n for_o the_o same_o and_o earnest_a desire_n to_o make_v a_o full_a satisfaction_n in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n and_o that_o he_o may_v perceive_v sensible_o that_o all_o that_o come_v to_o he_o by_o her_o mean_n he_o will_v take_v that_o for_o a_o most_o certain_a and_o infallible_a token_n that_o whatsoever_o she_o have_v do_v be_v the_o work_n of_o god_n and_o not_o of_o satan_n transfigure_v himself_o into_o a_o angel_n of_o light_n and_o this_o trial_n like_v he_o very_o well_o because_o be_v learn_v in_o the_o study_n of_o divinity_n he_o know_v that_o the_o devel_n can_v not_o possible_o be_v the_o author_n of_o true_a contrition_n
reverend_a &_o full_a of_o majesty_n and_o for_o a_o little_a time_n he_o see_v that_o face_n only_o and_o can_v see_v none_o other_o thing_n which_o put_v he_o in_o such_o a_o fear_n and_o terror_n that_o cast_v up_o his_o hand_n above_o his_o shoulder_n he_o cry_v with_o a_o loud_a voice_n and_o say_v oh_o lord_n who_o be_v this_o that_o look_v thus_o upon_o i_o it_o be_v he_o say_v she_o that_o be_v and_o with_o that_o she_o come_v again_o to_o her_o own_o form_n these_o and_o other_o the_o like_a thing_n do_v doctor_n raimundus_n her_o ghostly_a father_n report_n of_o his_o own_o experience_n all_o which_o he_o affirm_v to_o be_v most_o certain_o true_a with_o a_o very_a great_a and_o earnest_a protestation_n the_o second_o part_n how_o the_o spouse_n of_o christ_n be_v make_v by_o little_a and_o little_a to_o show_v herself_o to_o the_o wordle_n chap._n 1._o after_o that_o our_o saviour_n christ_n have_v thus_o espouse_v this_o holy_a virgin_n to_o himself_o and_o beawtify_v she_o with_o many_o grace_n and_o gift_n his_o will_n &_o pleasur_n be_v that_o she_o shall_v from_o that_o time_n forward_o by_o little_a and_o little_a show_v herself_o to_o the_o world_n that_o the_o grain_n that_o have_v now_o lyen_fw-we hide_v in_o the_o ground_n a_o convenient_a time_n and_o be_v sufficient_o mortify_v may_v bud_v flower_n and_o bring_v forth_o the_o fruit_n of_o many_o excellent_a virtue_n to_o the_o comfort_n of_o man_n wherefore_o on_o a_o time_n when_o he_o have_v show_v she_o many_o mystery_n of_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n and_o have_v teach_v she_o also_o to_o say_v the_o psalm_n and_o canonical_a hour_n with_o himself_o as_o be_v declare_v before_o he_o bid_v she_o that_o she_o shall_v go_v down_o to_o eat_v with_o other_o and_o then_o return_v to_o he_o again_o when_o she_o hear_v that_o she_o sob_v and_o weep_v &_o fall_v down_o at_o his_o foot_n after_o a_o very_a pitiful_a manner_n and_o say_v unto_o he_o o_o most_o sweet_a jesu_n why_o will_v thou_o put_v i_o away_o from_o thou_o if_o i_o have_v offend_v thy_o divine_a majesty_n behold_v here_o my_o body_n at_o thy_o foot_n lay_v what_o penance_n it_o shall_v please_v thou_o upon_o it_o and_o i_o will_v help_v with_o all_o my_o hart_n only_o this_o i_o beseech_v thou_o let_v i_o not_o be_v so_o sharp_o punish_v as_o to_o be_v sunder_v from_o thy_o bless_a presence_n what_o have_v i_o to_o do_v with_o their_o meat_n i_o have_v meat_n to_o eat_v that_o they_o know_v not_o of_o oh_o my_o good_a lord_n wherefore_o do_v thou_o will_v i_o to_o go_v to_o eat_v with_o they_o do_v man_n live_v of_o bread_n only_o and_o not_o rather_o and_o better_o of_o every_o word_n that_o come_v out_o of_o thy_o mouth_n be_v not_o thou_o he_o my_o dear_a lord_n that_o have_v cawse_v i_o to_o eschew_v the_o conversation_n of_o man_n that_o i_o may_v the_o better_a converse_n with_o thou_o and_o now_o that_o i_o have_v find_v thou_o without_o any_o desert_n on_o my_o part_n only_o of_o thy_o mere_a liberality_n and_o goodness_n shall_v i_o be_v so_o unhappy_a as_o to_o forsake_v such_o a_o goodly_a treasure_n for_o to_o return_v to_o the_o conversation_n of_o man_n and_o so_o to_o dymme_a the_o purity_n and_o clearness_n of_o my_o faith_n suffer_v not_o that_o o_o my_o dear_a spouse_n and_o lord_n for_o thy_o infinity_n goodness_n when_o she_o have_v thus_o pour_v out_o her_o hart_n before_o our_o lord_n pitiful_o sob_v and_o weep_v and_o lie_v prostrate_a at_o his_o foot_n he_o like_o a_o merciful_a lord_n give_v she_o very_o sweet_a word_n again_o and_o say_v my_o dear_a daughter_n leave_v the_o care_n of_o thyself_o to_o i_o it_o be_v meet_v that_o thou_o do_v fulfil_v all_o righteousness_n which_o thou_o can_v not_o do_v unless_o thou_o be_v fruteful_a and_o profitable_a not_o only_o to_o thyself_o but_o also_o to_o other_o think_v not_o my_o good_a daughter_n that_o it_o be_v my_o meaning_n to_o separate_v thou_o from_o i_o but_o rather_o to_o unite_v thy_o hart_n more_o firm_o unto_o i_o know_v thou_o not_o that_o all_o the_o law_n and_o prophet_n stand_v of_o two_o point_n to_o wit_n of_o the_o love_n of_o god_n and_o of_o the_o love_n of_o thy_o neighbour_n wherefore_o to_o make_v thou_o perfect_v my_o will_n be_v that_o thou_o exercise_v thyself_o in_o the_o love_n of_o thy_o neighbour_n with_o great_a compassion_n and_o mercy_n that_o thou_o may_v fly_v up_o to_o heaven_n not_o with_o one_o wing_n but_o with_o two_o call_v to_o mind_n the_o zeal_n that_o thou_o have_v of_o win_v soul_n which_o i_o plant_v in_o thy_o hart_n even_o in_o thy_o infancy_n at_o what_o time_n thou_o have_v a_o desire_n to_o change_v thy_o habit_n and_o to_o clad_v thyself_o like_o a_o man_n that_o thou_o may_v be_v receive_v into_o the_o order_n of_o the_o friar_n preacher_n remember_v that_o this_o habit_n which_o thou_o wear_v be_v the_o habit_n of_o thy_o father_n s._n dominicke_n and_o be_v give_v unto_o thou_o by_o my_o dear_a mother_n namely_o for_o a_o special_a love_n and_o affection_n that_o thou_o bear_v unto_o he_o for_o the_o great_a travail_n that_o he_o sustain_v in_o wyn_v of_o soul_n behold_v i_o do_v now_o dispose_v and_o ordain_v thou_o to_o that_o end_n that_o thou_o do_v through_o my_o secret_a inspiration_n so_o much_o desire_v in_o thy_o yowth_n i_o dispose_v thou_o to_o that_o function_n that_o my_o father_n dispose_v i_o unto_o in_o the_o earth_n i_o ordain_v thou_o to_o that_o ministry_n that_o i_o ordain_v my_o belove_a apostle_n and_o disciple_n unto_o before_o i_o depart_v from_o they_o on_o the_o earth_n and_o all_o this_o i_o do_v for_o thy_o further_a merit_n and_o great_a crown_n at_o these_o word_n the_o humble_a virgin_n take_v great_a comfort_n and_o bow_v down_o her_o head_n with_o all_o submission_n say_v o_o lord_n thy_o will_n be_v do_v in_o all_o thing_n and_o not_o i_o for_o thou_o be_v light_a and_o i_o be_o darckenes_n thou_o be_v he_o that_o be_v and_o i_o be_o she_o that_o be_v not_o but_o yet_o i_o beseech_v thou_o my_o lord_n god_n let_v i_o be_v so_o bold_a as_o to_o ask_v how_o i_o a_o wretched_a &_o vile_a woman_n shall_v be_v able_a to_o do_v any_o good_a in_o thy_o church_n how_o shall_v i_o be_v a_o simple_a woman_n be_v able_a to_o instruct_v wise_a and_o learned_a man_n how_o shall_v it_o be_v seemly_a for_o i_o to_o live_v and_o converse_v among_o man_n unto_o that_o our_o saviour_n answer_v and_o say_v who_o be_v he_o that_o create_v man_n &_o make_v a_o distinction_n between_o man_n &_o woman_n be_v it_o not_o i_o if_o i_o they_o be_v the_o creator_n of_o man_n &_o woman_n what_o law_n may_v restrain_v i_o that_o i_o shall_v not_o do_v with_o my_o creature_n what_o i_o shall_v think_v good_a can_v my_o power_n be_v limit_v that_o i_o shall_v not_o dispose_v of_o man_n and_o woman_n of_o learned_a and_o unlearned_a of_o noble_a and_o base_a according_a to_o my_o will_n touch_v thy_o question_n therefore_o which_o be_v how_o a_o woman_n that_o be_v the_o weak_a vessel_n shall_v be_v a_o able_a and_o sufficient_a mean_a to_o edify_v man_n with_o doctrine_n and_o example_n because_o i_o know_v that_o this_o thy_o demand_n proceed_v not_o of_o any_o lack_n of_o faith_n in_o my_o almighty_a power_n but_o only_o of_o a_o humble_a consideration_n of_o thy_o own_o weakness_n and_o frailty_n i_o will_v impart_v unto_o thou_o my_o secret_n in_o this_o behalf_n daughter_n it_o be_v so_o that_o now_o a_o day_n there_o abound_v such_o pride_n in_o the_o world_n and_o special_o in_o those_o that_o hold_v themselves_o for_o learned_a and_o wise_a that_o my_o justice_n can_v no_o long_o bear_v it_o but_o because_o my_o mercy_n be_v above_o all_o my_o work_n as_o i_o have_v determine_v to_o do_v justice_n upon_o this_o heinous_a sin_n so_o have_v i_o also_o provide_v a_o sovereign_a medicine_n against_o the_o same_o to_o as_o many_o as_o will_v accept_v it_o the_o proper_a medicine_n and_o punishment_n of_o pride_n be_v to_o be_v confownd_v and_o bring_v to_o shame_n and_o therefore_o my_o deliberation_n be_v that_o these_o man_n that_o be_v wise_a in_o their_o own_o conceit_n shall_v be_v make_v ashamed_a and_o control_v in_o their_o own_o judgement_n when_o they_o shall_v see_v those_o creature_n that_o they_o account_v vile_a and_o abiecte_a as_o frail_a and_o weak_a woman_n to_o understand_v the_o hide_a mystery_n of_o god_n not_o by_o humane_a study_n but_o only_o by_o grace_n infuse_v and_o to_o show_v the_o same_o to_o the_o world_n both_o by_o word_n and_o example_n of_o life_n and_o for_o confirmation_n of_o such_o doctrine_n to_o work_v many_o strange_a sign_n wonder_n and_o miracle_n
above_o the_o course_n of_o nature_n i_o will_v do_v now_o as_o i_o do_v when_o i_o be_v conversant_a in_o the_o world_n at_o what_o time_n i_o send_v simple_a man_n idiot_n and_o fissher_n but_o replenish_v with_o heavenly_a knowledge_n and_o strength_n of_o my_o spirit_n to_o control_v the_o wisdom_n of_o the_o world_n so_o will_v i_o send_v thou_o at_o this_o time_n and_o other_o ignorant_a person_n both_o man_n and_o woman_n to_o confownd_v the_o pride_n of_o those_o that_o be_v wise_a in_o their_o own_o eye_n the_o which_o confusion_n if_o they_o receive_v and_o humble_v themselves_o before_o i_o confess_v that_o all_o wisdom_n &_o power_n be_v i_o if_o they_o will_v reverent_o embrace_v my_o doctrine_n spread_v throughout_o the_o world_n by_o such_o weak_a &_o frail_a vessel_n i_o will_v have_v mercy_n upon_o they_o and_o geve_v they_o a_o further_a increase_n of_o grace_n and_o their_o confusion_n shall_v be_v to_o they_o a_o medicine_n unto_o everlasting_a salvation_n but_o if_o they_o refuse_v to_o receive_v this_o medicine_n and_o will_v needs_o follow_v on_o in_o their_o old_a course_n despise_v my_o holy_a word_n &_o persecute_v my_o belowed_a servant_n and_o friend_n i_o shall_v bring_v they_o to_o such_o confusion_n that_o the_o whole_a world_n shall_v despise_v they_o and_o set_v they_o all_o at_o naught_o and_o if_o after_o such_o temporal_a confusion_n in_o this_o world_n they_o show_v themselves_o stiff_o neck_v and_o unrecoverable_a i_o will_v adiuge_v they_o moreover_o to_o everlasting_a confusion_n in_o the_o world_n to_o come_v where_o with_o great_a bitterness_n of_o hart_n and_o penance_n without_o fruit_n they_o shall_v see_v themselves_o so_o much_o depress_v and_o hold_v down_o underneth_o themselves_o as_o they_o have_v a_o desire_n in_o this_o life_n to_o be_v magnify_v and_o exalt_v above_o themselves_o wherefore_o daughter_n set_v thyself_o in_o a_o readiness_n to_o be_v send_v out_o into_o the_o world_n for_o i_o will_v be_v with_o thou_o at_o all_o time_n and_o in_o all_o place_n i_o will_v visit_v thou_o and_o directe_v thou_o in_o all_o thing_n that_o i_o shall_v send_v thou_o to_o do_v when_o she_o hear_v that_o she_o bow_v down_o her_o head_n with_o great_a reverence_n and_o go_v down_o as_o our_o lord_n have_v will_v she_o to_o eat_v with_o the_o rest_n of_o the_o howsehold_n with_o who_o she_o continue_v for_o that_o time_n bodily_a but_o her_o hart_n be_v fix_v in_o god_n and_o whatsoever_o she_o see_v or_o hear_v of_o wordly_a affair_n be_v tedious_a and_o yrckesome_a unto_o she_o and_o therefore_o so_o soon_o as_o she_o may_v convenient_o she_o withdraw_v herself_o out_o of_o all_o company_n and_o return_v again_o to_o her_o cell_n that_o she_o may_v there_o with_o the_o great_a quetnes_n enjoy_v the_o desire_a presence_n of_o he_o in_o who_o she_o have_v repose_v her_o whole_a love_n and_o felicity_n from_o that_o time_n forward_o there_o grow_v in_o she_o a_o pass_a great_a desire_n of_o receive_v the_o bless_a sacrament_n of_o the_o body_n and_o blood_n of_o christ_n whereby_o she_o believe_v faithful_o that_o she_o shall_v receive_v a_o further_a increase_n of_o grace_n and_o be_v unite_v to_o god_n not_o only_o with_o the_o union_n of_o spirit_n but_o also_o after_o a_o sort_n with_o a_o bless_a conjunction_n of_o body_n while_o she_o receive_v his_o most_o bless_a body_n into_o her_o body_n of_o her_o virtuous_a and_o lowclie_a conversation_n among_o man_n and_o how_o she_o will_v debase_v herself_o to_o do_v the_o vile_a service_n in_o the_o house_n of_o many_o strange_a visitation_n excess_n and_o trawnse_n which_o she_o have_v in_o the_o presence_n of_o many_o chap._n 2._o be_v thus_o appoint_v by_o the_o express_a commandment_n of_o god_n to_o spend_v some_o part_n of_o her_o life_n in_o the_o company_n of_o man_n that_o her_o conversation_n may_v be_v the_o more_o fruteful_a to_o they_o in_o all_o her_o do_n she_o show_v a_o marvelous_a profownd_n and_o sincere_a humility_n &_o withal_o a_o very_a earnest_n &_o hearty_a zeal_n to_o the_o honour_n of_o god_n &_o to_o the_o edify_n of_o all_o such_o as_o happen_v to_o converse_v with_o she_o for_o show_v of_o a_o great_a humility_n she_o set_v herself_o with_o a_o very_a willing_a and_o cheerful_a mind_n to_o do_v all_o the_o vile_a &_o foul_a service_n in_o the_o house_n as_o to_o sweep_v the_o house_n to_o scour_v vessel_n to_o wassh_v dissh_n and_o to_o do_v other_o more_o base_a and_o loathsome_a service_n than_o these_o such_o as_o do_v proper_o apperteine_v to_o abiecte_a servant_n and_o drudge_n and_o it_o please_v god_n also_o that_o the_o servant_n of_o the_o house_n shall_v be_v often_o sick_a by_o reason_n whereof_o her_o charge_n &_o travail_n be_v double_v for_o it_o lie_v upon_o she_o both_o to_o serve_v the_o whole_a howsehold_n &_o withal_o to_o have_v a_o very_a special_a and_o diligent_a regard_n to_o the_o servant_n that_o be_v sick_a all_o the_o which_o notwithstanding_o she_o will_v find_v a_o time_n to_o geve_v herself_o to_o her_o wont_a exercise_n of_o prayer_n and_o penance_n and_o to_o continue_v as_o it_o be_v with_o certain_a enterteinemente_n her_o love_n and_o familiarity_n with_o her_o spouse_n who_o to_o answer_v her_o love_n visit_v she_o also_o by_o evident_a miracle_n diverse_a and_o sundry_a time_n in_o the_o presence_n of_o all_o that_o live_v in_o house_n with_o she_o while_o she_o be_v occupy_v about_o the_o service_n of_o the_o house_n it_o happen_v very_o often_o that_o she_o be_v in_o a_o trawnce_v at_o what_o time_n her_o body_n be_v lift_v up_o into_o the_o air_n and_o hang_v there_o without_o any_o thing_n to_o stay_v it_o up_o even_o as_o a_o piece_n of_o iron_n be_v wont_a to_o hang_v at_o the_o adamant_n stone_n and_o as_o we_o see_v that_o fire_n do_v natural_o tend_v upward_o even_o so_o be_v it_o make_v in_o a_o sort_n almost_o natural_a to_o she_o by_o reason_n of_o the_o heavenly_a fire_n with_o the_o which_o her_o hart_n be_v whole_o inflame_v to_o be_v carry_v up_o towards_o christ_n her_o spouse_n in_o who_o only_o her_o spirit_n find_v rest_n in_o the_o time_n while_o she_o be_v in_o such_o trawnce_n which_o happen_v very_o often_o unto_o she_o it_o be_v evident_o see_v by_o as_o many_o as_o chance_v then_o to_o be_v present_a that_o her_o soul_n do_v withdraw_v itself_o from_o the_o bodily_a sense_n and_o that_o it_o do_v so_o forsake_v the_o body_n that_o her_o hand_n &_o foot_n be_v draw_v together_o in_o so_o much_o that_o if_o they_o happen_v to_o latch_v at_o any_o thing_n they_o hold_v it_o so_o fast_o that_o you_o may_v soon_o break_v they_o they_o sunder_v they_o from_o the_o thing_n of_o the_o which_o they_o take_v hold_v her_o eye_n be_v close_v up_o her_o neck_n be_v stiff_o like_o a_o horn_n and_o it_o be_v no_o small_a danger_n once_o to_o towche_v she_o in_o that_o time_n though_o it_o be_v do_v never_o so_o gentle_o her_o mother_n on_o a_o time_n stand_v by_o assay_v to_o set_v her_o neck_n straight_o for_o it_o seem_v to_o she_o that_o it_o stand_v a_o little_a awry_o but_o as_o god_n will_v have_v it_o one_o of_o the_o sister_n that_o be_v then_o present_a &_o understand_v the_o danger_n of_o the_o same_o cry_v out_o unto_o she_o and_o bid_v she_o in_o any_o case_n that_o she_o shall_v not_o do_v it_o and_o anon_o after_o when_o she_o come_v to_o herself_o again_o she_o feel_v her_o neck_n so_o sore_o as_o if_o it_o have_v be_v beat_v with_o a_o staff_n and_o she_o say_v furthermore_o to_o doctor_n raimundus_n her_o ghostly_a father_n that_o if_o her_o mother_n have_v put_v a_o little_a more_o strength_n unto_o it_o she_o have_v without_o all_o doubt_n break_v her_o neck_n how_o be_v in_o a_o trawnse_n she_o fall_v into_o the_o fire_n and_o continue_v there_o a_o good_a while_n without_o any_o harm_n chap._n 3._o it_o happen_v on_o a_o day_n that_o this_o holy_a maid_n be_v turn_v the_o spit_n at_o a_o hot_a fire_n of_o coal_n to_o roast_v a_o piece_n of_o meat_n for_o the_o howsehold_n at_o what_o time_n be_v herself_o roast_v within_o with_o a_o far_o hot_a fire_n of_o the_o spirit_n of_o god_n then_o be_v that_o fire_n that_o roast_v the_o meat_n on_o the_o spit_n she_o be_v ravish_v in_o soul_n and_o take_v away_o from_o her_o bodily_a sense_n by_o reason_n whereof_o the_o spit_n stand_v still_o the_o which_o thing_n her_o brother_n wife_n call_v lysa_n perceive_v and_o know_v right_a well_o the_o condition_n of_o the_o holy_a maid_n take_v the_o spit_n out_o of_o her_o hand_n &_o let_v she_o alone_o when_o the_o meat_n be_v ready_a the_o howsehold_n set_v themselves_o at_o the_o table_n and_o take_v a_o convenient_a time_n for_o their_o repast_n see_v
time_n as_o that_o she_o may_v be_v able_a to_o go_v &_o succour_v that_o poor_a woman_n anon_o after_o feel_v herself_o marvellous_o well_o comfort_v she_o rise_v up_o early_o in_o the_o morning_n and_o fill_v her_o sack_n with_o corn_n she_o take_v two_o great_a flascat_n also_o one_o of_o wine_n and_o a_o other_o of_o oil_n and_o withal_o whatsoever_o she_o find_v in_o the_o house_n meet_v to_o be_v eat_v and_o when_o she_o have_v lay_v this_o provision_n together_o think_v it_o impossible_a to_o carry_v it_o all_o at_o once_o to_o the_o widoe_n house_n which_o be_v far_o from_o thence_o &_o the_o thing_n weigh_v no_o less_o than_o a_o hundred_o pownde_n she_o cast_v up_o her_o hart_n to_o her_o spouse_n and_o beseech_v he_o of_o his_o gracious_a assistance_n that_o do_v she_o begin_v to_o try_v with_o a_o stowte_n hart_n what_o she_o be_v able_a to_o do_v some_o part_n she_o lay_v upon_o her_o shoulder_n some_o she_o truss_v under_o her_o girdle_n some_o she_o carry_v in_o her_o right_a hand_n and_o some_o in_o her_o left_a and_o when_o she_o have_v load_v herself_o with_o all_o this_o burden_n she_o feel_v no_o more_o of_o it_o then_o if_o it_o have_v be_v a_o what_fw-mi or_o wisp_n of_o straw_n but_o so_o soon_o as_o the_o common_a bell_n of_o the_o city_n have_v ring_v before_o the_o which_o time_n it_o be_v not_o lawful_a for_o any_o person_n to_o walk_v in_o the_o street_n she_o take_v her_o way_n towards_o the_o poor_a widow_n house_n and_o go_v so_o light_a on_o the_o ground_n not_o withstand_v all_o that_o heavy_a weight_n of_o provision_n and_o great_a feebleness_n of_o body_n withal_o as_o if_o she_o have_v carry_v nothing_o but_o have_v be_v carry_v herself_o as_o in_o truth_n she_o be_v but_o when_o she_o be_v almost_o come_v to_o the_o house_n the_o burden_n that_o seem_v before_o very_a light_n become_v so_o heavy_a and_o painful_a to_o she_o that_o she_o think_v she_o can_v not_o bear_v it_o one_o foot_n further_o the_o which_o strange_a alteration_n when_o she_o feel_v in_o herself_o she_o conceive_v forthwith_o that_o it_o be_v the_o will_n of_o god_n that_o it_o shall_v so_o be_v and_o therefore_o she_o turn_v herself_o to_o he_o with_o a_o great_a affiance_n in_o his_o mercy_n and_o make_v her_o humble_a petition_n to_o he_o that_o he_o will_v vowchasafe_v to_o ease_v she_o again_o and_o make_v her_o able_a to_o go_v through_o with_o her_o burden_n and_o with_o that_o find_v herself_o to_o have_v receive_v sufficient_a strength_n to_o bear_v it_o out_o she_o hold_v on_o her_o way_n till_o she_o come_v to_o the_o widow_n door_n which_o by_o the_o provision_n of_o god_n she_o find_v half_o open_a and_o so_o put_v it_o from_o she_o soft_o with_o her_o hand_n she_o lay_v in_o her_o provision_n with_o as_o little_a noise_n as_o be_v possible_a howbeit_o it_o be_v not_o do_v so_o privy_o but_o that_o the_o widow_n awake_v withal_o the_o which_o she_o perceive_v make_v away_o as_o fast_o as_o she_o can_v but_o there_o come_v upon_o she_o even_o at_o that_o instant_n such_o a_o feebleness_n and_o withal_o such_o a_o heavisomenes_n of_o body_n that_o she_o be_v not_o able_a to_o crawl_v away_o though_o her_o life_n have_v lyen_fw-we on_o it_o wherefore_o turn_v herself_o to_o our_o lord_n with_o a_o heavy_a hart_n because_o she_o fear_v lest_o her_o be_v there_o alone_o at_o that_o time_n of_o the_o day_n may_v be_v scandalous_a to_o weak_a mind_n and_o yet_o on_o the_o other_o side_n with_o a_o cheerful_a and_o smile_a countenance_n because_o she_o see_v it_o be_v the_o will_n and_o pleasure_n of_o her_o spouse_n so_o to_o dally_v with_o she_o between_o game_n and_o earnest_n as_o it_o be_v she_o speak_v unto_o he_o after_o this_o manner_n o_o my_o dear_a lord_n why_o have_v thou_o thus_o deceive_v i_o shall_v it_o do_v well_o think_v thou_o that_o all_o the_o world_n laugh_v i_o to_o scorn_v be_v it_o thy_o pleasure_n that_o all_o the_o neighbour_n here_o see_v my_o folly_n and_o hold_v i_o for_o a_o very_a fool_n and_o sot_n see_v o_o lord_n the_o day_n come_v on_o fast_o which_o will_v discover_v i_o to_o the_o world_n and_o so_o shall_v i_o be_v take_v for_o a_o fantastical_a woman_n or_o peradventure_o for_o worse_a o_o my_o good_a lord_n and_o sweet_a love_n of_o my_o hart_n have_v thou_o now_o forgoten_a thy_o old_a mercy_n show_v from_o time_n to_o time_n to_o i_o thy_o unworthy_a handmaid_n geve_v i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o so_o much_o strength_n that_o i_o may_v be_v able_a to_o return_v home_o to_o my_o chamber_n and_o then_o lie_v upon_o i_o so_o much_o weakness_n as_o please_v thou_o with_o that_o she_o enforce_v herself_o the_o best_a she_o can_v to_o creep_v with_o hand_n and_o foot_n upon_o the_o ground_n and_o while_o she_o be_v so_o creep_v she_o speak_v to_o her_o body_n after_o this_o manner_n live_v thou_o die_v thou_o away_o thou_o must_v whether_o thou_o be_v able_a or_o not_o able_a here_o be_v no_o be_v and_o therefore_o on_o a_o god_n name_n and_o so_o what_o with_o go_v and_o what_o with_o crawl_v she_o win_v a_o little_a ground_n but_o before_o she_o can_v get_v out_o of_o sight_n the_o poor_a widow_n come_v down_o &_o see_v she_o in_o the_o street_n and_o no_o more_o but_o she_o know_v by_o her_o habit_n who_o it_o be_v that_o have_v do_v she_o that_o charitable_a pleasure_n then_o our_o lord_n hear_v the_o groaning_n of_o his_o dear_a spouse_n and_o pity_v her_o poor_a case_n give_v she_o so_o much_o strength_n that_o she_o gate_n home_o before_o it_o be_v broad_a day_n where_o she_o receive_v great_a comfort_n of_o mind_n in_o consideration_n of_o god_n mercy_n and_o love_a kindness_n towards_o she_o and_o withal_o her_o old_a disease_n &_o feebleness_n of_o body_n for_o her_o further_a increase_n of_o grace_n &_o merit_n a_o other_o very_o notable_a example_n of_o her_o great_a charity_n towards_o the_o poor_a chap._n 6._o while_o this_o holy_a maid_n be_v on_o a_o time_n in_o s._n dominicke_n church_n there_o come_v by_o she_o a_o poor_a man_n and_o beseech_v she_o for_o god_n love_n that_o she_o will_v geve_v he_o somewhat_o to_o who_o because_o she_o have_v nothing_o there_o to_o geve_v for_o it_o be_v not_o her_o manner_n to_o bear_v neither_o gold_n nor_o silver_n about_o she_o she_o speak_v very_o gentle_o and_o pray_v he_o that_o he_o will_v have_v so_o much_o patience_n as_o to_o tarry_v there_o till_o she_o may_v go_v home_o and_o come_v again_o the_o poor_a man_n make_v answer_v that_o he_o can_v not_o tarry_v so_o long_o but_o if_o she_o have_v any_o thing_n there_o to_o geve_v she_o shall_v geve_v it_o for_o otherwise_o he_o must_v needs_o go_v his_o way_n she_o be_v loath_a that_o he_o shall_v go_v from_o she_o without_o somewhat_o &_o therefore_o bethink_v herself_o careful_o what_o thing_n she_o may_v have_v about_o she_o to_o serve_v that_o poor_a man_n need_n anon_o it_o come_v to_o her_o mind_n that_o she_o have_v a_o little_a cross_n of_o silver_n that_o hang_v by_o her_o bead_n which_o she_o break_v of_o with_o all_o speed_n &_o give_v it_o glad_o to_o the_o poor_a man_n who_o likewise_o when_o he_o have_v receive_v this_o alm_n at_o her_o hand_n go_v his_o way_n and_o be_v see_v no_o more_o to_o beg_v that_o day_n as_o though_o his_o come_n have_v be_v for_o that_o cross_n only_o the_o night_n follow_v while_o this_o devout_a virgin_n be_v occupy_v in_o prayer_n after_o her_o accustom_a manner_n our_o saviour_n christ_n appear_v unto_o she_o have_v that_o same_o cross_n in_o his_o hand_n set_v with_o diverse_a and_o sundry_a precious_a stone_n and_o say_v unto_o she_o daughther_o know_v thou_o this_o cross_n yea_o lord_n say_v she_o i_o know_v it_o right_o well_o but_o it_o be_v not_o so_o rich_o deck_v when_o i_o have_v it_o then_o say_v our_o lord_n to_o she_o again_o yesterday_o thou_o give_v i_o this_o cross_n with_o a_o cheerful_a hart_n and_o great_a charity_n which_o great_a love_n and_o charity_n be_v signify_v by_o these_o precious_a stone_n and_o therefore_o i_o promise_v thou_o that_o at_o the_o day_n of_o judgement_n i_o will_v show_v the_o same_o in_o the_o presence_n of_o all_o man_n and_o angel_n to_o the_o great_a increase_n of_o thy_o everlasting_a joy_n and_o glory_n for_o i_o will_v not_o hide_v nor_o suffer_v to_o be_v hiden_n such_o deed_n of_o charity_n as_o be_v do_v by_o thou_o with_o that_o this_o apparition_n cease_v and_o leave_v she_o replenish_v with_o unspeakable_a joy_n and_o gladness_n and_o from_o that_o time_n forward_o there_o increase_v in_o she_o a_o pass_v great_a desire_n of_o relieve_n the_o poor_a a_o other_o very_o wonderful_a example_n of_o her_o
pass_a great_a charity_n like_v to_o this_o afore_o write_v chap._n 7._o after_o that_o our_o lord_n have_v thus_o by_o his_o joyous_a presence_n and_o large_a promise_n allure_v the_o hart_n of_o his_o spouse_n to_o do_v yet_o great_a work_n of_o charity_n on_o a_o day_n when_o the_o divine_a service_n be_v do_v at_o the_o friar_n and_o she_o remain_v behind_o alone_o with_o one_o of_o her_o sister_n to_o pray_v as_o she_o be_v come_v down_o from_o a_o chapel_n that_o be_v there_o ordain_v for_o the_o sister_n of_o penance_n our_o lord_n appear_v to_o she_o in_o the_o likeness_n of_o a_o poor_a pilgrim_n at_o the_o age_n as_o it_o seem_v to_o she_o of_o two_o or_o three_o and_o thirty_o year_n half_a naked_a and_o beseech_v she_o that_o she_o will_v geve_v he_o clothes_n for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n tarry_v here_o a_o little_a while_n say_v she_o till_o i_o go_v to_o yonder_o chapel_n and_o come_v again_o and_o then_o god_n willing_a i_o will_v help_v thou_o of_o clothes_n with_o that_o she_o go_v up_o again_o to_o the_o chapel_n and_o do_v of_o her_o kyrtel_n under_o the_o which_o she_o wear_v a_o sliveles_a petticoat_n which_o she_o put_v off_o and_o come_v down_o again_o and_o give_v it_o to_o the_o poor_a man_n with_o a_o glad_a cheer_n when_o the_o poor_a man_n have_v receive_v that_o cote_n he_o beseech_v she_o furthermore_o that_o see_v she_o have_v serve_v his_o turn_n of_o a_o woollen_a garment_n to_o wear_v outward_o she_o will_v also_o be_v so_o good_a as_o to_o geve_v he_o some_o shirt_n of_o linen_n to_o wear_v next_o his_o body_n with_o a_o very_a good_a will_n say_v she_o come_v home_o with_o i_o &_o i_o will_v seek_v one_o out_o for_o thou_o and_o so_o she_o go_v on_o afore_o and_o the_o poor_a man_n come_v after_o when_o she_o be_v come_v home_o she_o go_v to_o the_o chest_n and_o press_n where_o the_o linen_n clothes_n of_o her_o father_n and_o brother_n be_v lay_v up_o and_o take_v out_o a_o shirt_n and_o certain_a other_o linen_n clothes_n and_o give_v the_o same_o glad_o to_o the_o poor_a man_n when_o the_o poor_a pilgryme_n have_v receive_v all_o those_o thing_n at_o her_o hand_n he_o go_v not_o his_o way_n but_o pray_v she_o yet_o more_o that_o she_o will_v geve_v he_o slewe_n to_o his_o petticoat_n to_o cover_v his_o arm_n withal_o with_o a_o good_a will_n say_v she_o for_o otherwise_o i_o grant_v this_o cote_n be_v to_o no_o great_a purpose_n and_o with_o that_o she_o go_v and_o seek_v all_o about_o for_o slewe_n and_o at_o the_o last_o sound_v a_o new_a cote_n of_o a_o maid_n servant_n that_o be_v in_o the_o house_n hang_v on_o a_o perch_n which_o have_v never_o be_v wear_v and_o take_v of_o the_o sleeve_n from_o the_o same_o and_o give_v they_o cheerful_o to_o the_o poor_a pilgrymme_a who_o receive_v those_o sleeve_n also_o thankful_o at_o her_o hand_n as_o he_o have_v do_v all_o the_o rest_n and_o say_v unto_o she_o mistress_n you_o have_v now_o clothe_v i_o thorough_o he_o for_o who_o love_n you_o have_v do_v it_o thank_v you_o for_o it_o but_o yet_o one_o demand_n more_o i_o have_v to_o make_v unto_o you_o i_o have_v a_o companion_n lie_v in_o a_o hospital_n hereby_o who_o stand_v in_o great_a need_n of_o clothes_n if_o it_o shall_v please_v you_o to_o send_v he_o any_o i_o will_v carry_v they_o unto_o he_o in_o your_o behalf_n with_o a_o very_a good_a will_n this_o new_a request_n trouble_v she_o somewhat_o and_o cawse_v she_o to_o have_v a_o certain_a conflict_n within_o herself_o on_o the_o one_o side_n she_o be_v much_o move_v with_o compassion_n of_o that_o poor_a man_n and_o have_v a_o pass_v great_a desire_n to_o supply_v his_o necessity_n on_o the_o other_o side_n she_o consider_v the_o murmur_a &_o grudge_v of_o as_o many_o as_o be_v in_o the_o house_n who_o wax_v so_o weary_a of_o her_o liberal_a deal_n out_o of_o thing_n that_o to_o keep_v they_o from_o her_o hand_n they_o begin_v every_o one_o to_o keep_v their_o apparel_n &_o other_o good_n under_o lock_n &_o key_n again_o she_o think_v she_o have_v do_v enough_o to_o take_v away_o the_o sleeve_n of_o the_o servant_n new_a cote_n that_o be_v never_o wear_v &_o that_o she_o can_v not_o with_o discretion_n take_v any_o more_o from_o she_o be_v herself_o also_o needy_a &_o poor_a then_o begin_v she_o to_o reason_n with_o she_o own_o self_n &_o to_o discuss_v in_o her_o mind_n whether_o she_o may_v convenient_o depart_v with_o she_o own_o garment_n or_o no._n she_o be_v much_o incline_v to_o do_v it_o because_o she_o know_v that_o it_o be_v a_o great_a work_n of_o charity_n and_o see_v also_o in_o reason_n that_o she_o be_v better_o able_a to_o bear_v that_o lack_n of_o clothes_n than_o the_o poor_a man_n be_v but_o contrariwise_o she_o consider_v that_o if_o she_o shall_v spoil_v herself_o of_o her_o clothes_n and_o go_v naked_a she_o shall_v in_o so_o do_v transgress_v the_o rule_n of_o common_a honesty_n which_o may_v cause_v great_a offence_n in_o the_o mind_n of_o as_o many_o as_o shall_v happen_v to_o see_v she_o all_o the_o which_o thing_n thus_o consider_v and_o discreet_o weigh_v she_o resolve_v in_o herself_o that_o in_o this_o case_n it_o be_v far_o better_a for_o she_o and_o withal_o more_o please_v to_o god_n to_o abstain_v from_o geve_v her_o alm_n then_o by_o geve_v the_o same_o to_o geve_v just_a occasion_n of_o offence_n to_o her_o neighbour_n and_o upon_o this_o resolution_n she_o speak_v to_o the_o poor_a man_n after_o a_o very_a gentle_a and_o sweet_a manner_n and_o say_v true_o good_a man_n if_o i_o may_v do_v it_o with_o honesty_n i_o will_v spoil_v myself_o even_o of_o this_o cote_n that_o i_o wear_v with_o all_o my_o hart_n &_o bestow_v it_o upon_o thy_o companion_n but_o because_o i_o have_v no_o more_o garment_n to_o put_v on_o but_o only_o this_o and_o therefore_o to_o geve_v it_o away_o to_o a_o other_o and_o to_o lack_v myself_o be_v not_o only_o a_o undiscrete_a part_n but_o also_o against_o all_o honesty_n &_o womanhood_n i_o muste_v needs_o pray_v thou_o to_o hold_v i_o excuse_v for_o in_o truth_n there_o lack_v no_o good_a will_n in_o i_o but_o only_a ability_n with_o that_o the_o poor_a man_n smile_v upon_o she_o and_o say_v mistress_n i_o see_v right_a well_o that_o if_o you_o have_v aught_o to_o geve_v you_o will_v glad_o geve_v it_o i_o thank_v you_o for_o your_o good_a will_n god_n reward_v you_o and_o keep_v you_o and_o so_o he_o take_v his_o leave_n of_o she_o and_o go_v his_o way_n in_o such_o sort_n that_o she_o gather_v by_o certain_a sign_n that_o this_o poor_a pilgryme_n shall_v be_v he_o that_o be_v wont_a to_o apeere_v unto_o she_o but_o such_o be_v her_o lowliness_n &_o base_a estimation_n of_o herself_o that_o she_o think_v herself_o unworthy_a to_o receive_v any_o such_o comfort_n and_o honour_n at_o god_n hand_n &_o therefore_o with_o a_o humble_a mind_n she_o return_v to_o her_o wont_a service_n in_o the_o house_n where_o not_o withstand_v she_o keep_v her_o hart_n evermore_o fix_v upon_o her_o dear_a spouse_n jesus_n christ_n who_o the_o next_o night_n follow_v appear_v unto_o she_o again_o as_o she_o be_v pray_v in_o the_o likeness_n of_o that_o poor_a man_n hold_v in_o his_o hand_n that_o cote_n that_o she_o have_v give_v he_o all_o deck_v and_o set_v with_o goodly_a pearl_n and_o precious_a stone_n that_o shine_v all_o over_o the_o chamber_n and_o say_v unto_o she_o dear_a daughter_n know_v thou_o this_o cote_n yea_o lord_n say_v she_o i_o know_v it_o very_o well_o but_o it_o be_v not_o so_o rich_o deck_v when_o it_o be_v with_o i_o then_o say_v our_o lord_n to_o she_o again_o yester_n day_n thou_o give_v i_o this_o coat_n very_o free_o &_o charitable_o to_o cover_v the_o nakedness_n of_o my_o body_n and_o to_o keep_v it_o from_o cold_a and_o shame_n this_o day_n for_o recompense_v of_o thy_o great_a charity_n towards_o i_o i_o geve_v thou_o a_o cote_n that_o shall_v be_v invisible_a to_o other_o man_n but_o to_o thou_o alone_o both_o visible_a and_o also_o sensible_a by_o the_o virtue_n whereof_o thou_o shall_v be_v defend_v both_o in_o body_n and_o soul_n from_o all_o hurtful_a cold_a and_o with_o this_o garment_n shall_v thou_o be_v clad_v until_o the_o time_n come_v that_o in_o the_o presence_n of_o all_o angel_n and_o saint_n i_o shall_v put_v on_o upon_o thou_o that_o most_o blissful_a and_o glorious_a garment_n of_o immortality_n in_o my_o kingdom_n when_o he_o have_v say_v these_o word_n forthwith_o he_o take_v out_o a_o cloth_n of_o a_o sanguine_a colour_n with_o his_o own_o holy_a hand_n out_o of_o the_o wound_n of_o his_o side_n shine_v all_o about_o
great_a reverence_n as_o if_o she_o have_v be_v she_o own_o mother_n which_o charitable_a and_o humble_a service_n the_o sick_a woman_n take_v in_o very_o good_a part_n at_o the_o first_o and_o think_v herself_o much_o behold_v unto_o she_o for_o it_o but_o afterwards_o when_o she_o see_v that_o the_o holy_a maid_n continue_v she_o diligent_a attendance_n with_o such_o regard_n and_o love_n as_o no_o servant_n will_v have_v do_v the_o like_a like_o a_o proud_a and_o unthankeful_a woman_n she_o take_v all_o that_o she_o do_v to_o be_v more_o than_o duetiful_a and_o look_v for_o it_o in_o so_o much_o that_o if_o any_o thing_n be_v do_v otherwise_o than_o her_o pleasure_n be_v to_o have_v it_o do_v she_o will_v chide_v with_o she_o and_o revile_v she_o and_o speak_v such_o word_n of_o villainy_n and_o reproach_n unto_o she_o as_o no_o honest_a woman_n will_v have_v speak_v the_o like_a to_o her_o bondwoman_n or_o slave_n that_o she_o have_v buy_v with_o her_o money_n if_o it_o happen_v as_o it_o do_v sometime_o that_o she_o tarry_v at_o church_n about_o her_o devotion_n long_o than_o her_o accustom_a manner_n be_v the_o wayward_a sick_a woman_n will_v receive_v she_o at_o her_o return_n with_o very_o sharp_a and_o despiteful_a term_n say_v ah_o lady_n queen_n you_o be_v welcome_a where_o have_v lady_n queen_n be_v so_o long_o it_o seem_v that_o the_o queen_n can_v never_o have_v she_o fill_v of_o these_o friar_n these_o and_o other_o the_o like_a word_n will_v the_o old_a woman_n power_n out_o against_o she_o with_o great_a stomach_n and_o choler_n but_o the_o holy_a maid_n give_v she_o not_o one_o evel_a word_n to_o answer_v but_o go_v about_o her_o business_n diligent_o and_o when_o she_o see_v her_o time_n she_o will_v speak_v to_o she_o after_o a_o gentle_a and_o lowly_a manner_n say_v good_a mother_n for_o god_n love_n have_v patience_n and_o if_o any_o thing_n be_v amiss_o it_o shall_v be_v amend_v by_o and_o by_o and_o with_o that_o she_o bestir_v herself_o about_o that_o she_o have_v to_o do_v for_o she_o with_o all_o possible_a diligence_n and_o make_v a_o fire_n and_o dress_v her_o meat_n and_o serve_v she_o of_o all_o necessary_n after_o such_o humble_a sort_n and_o with_o such_o sweet_a word_n that_o the_o impatient_a woman_n that_o be_v so_o carry_v away_o with_o her_o passion_n that_o she_o seem_v rather_o a_o rage_a bedlam_n than_o a_o reasonable_a creature_n have_v great_a wonder_n of_o her_o patience_n this_o brawl_v continue_v a_o long_a time_n and_o the_o more_o the_o disease_n increase_v upon_o the_o old_a woman_n the_o more_o wayward_a and_o tedious_a she_o wax_v and_o yet_o be_v this_o holy_a maid_n never_o weary_a of_o her_o loathsome_a service_n but_o hold_v out_o still_o and_o do_v all_o that_o be_v to_o be_v do_v about_o she_o with_o great_a love_n and_o reverence_n at_o the_o length_n her_o mother_n lapa_n who_o have_v a_o great_a mislike_v of_o that_o kind_n of_o service_n cry_v out_o upon_o she_o and_o say_v daughter_n it_o can_v not_o be_v but_o that_o if_o thou_o continue_v in_o this_o manner_n of_o service_n thou_o must_v needs_o in_o time_n become_v a_o leper_n which_o thou_o know_v i_o may_v not_o abide_v to_o see_v and_o therefore_o i_o charge_v thou_o in_o any_o case_n to_o geve_v it_o over_o whereunto_o she_o make_v answer_v very_o discreet_o and_o say_v good_a mother_n have_v you_o no_o fear_n or_o doubt_v of_o that_o for_o the_o service_n that_o i_o do_v about_o this_o sick_a woman_n be_v do_v by_o the_o commandment_n of_o god_n and_o think_v you_o not_o that_o he_o will_v lay_v so_o foul_a a_o plague_n upon_o i_o for_o that_o that_o himself_o have_v will_v i_o to_o do_v and_o so_o with_o such_o word_n she_o quiet_v the_o mind_n of_o her_o mother_n but_o our_o lord_n who_o pleasure_n it_o be_v to_o try_v his_o faithful_a servant_n to_o the_o uttermost_a permit_v in_o deed_n the_o enemy_n of_o mankind_n to_o have_v such_o power_n over_o her_o body_n that_o he_o infect_v her_o hand_n with_o the_o leprie_n in_o such_o sort_n that_o every_o one_o that_o look_v upon_o she_o judge_v by_o and_o by_o that_o it_o come_v to_o she_o by_o the_o towch_a of_o the_o contagious_a body_n of_o that_o old_a woman_n which_o thing_n cause_v many_o of_o they_o that_o speak_v evel_a of_o she_o before_o to_o speak_v worse_o now_o some_o say_v this_o and_o some_o say_v that_o every_o man_n may_v speak_v his_o fantasy_n free_o for_o it_o seem_v that_o they_o be_v not_o altogether_o without_o some_o good_a ground_n and_o which_o be_v most_o of_o all_o every_o body_n shune_v her_o company_n as_o a_o woman_n infect_v with_o a_o contagious_a disease_n all_o which_o disgrace_n move_v she_o nothing_o at_o all_o but_o that_o she_o continue_v her_o wont_a charity_n and_o service_n towards_o the_o sick_a woman_n and_o take_v no_o care_n what_o become_v of_o she_o own_o body_n so_o long_o as_o she_o may_v employ_v it_o to_o the_o service_n of_o god_n that_o woman_n sickness_n continue_v many_o day_n but_o the_o holy_a maid_n think_v they_o very_o few_o by_o reason_n of_o the_o great_a love_n that_o she_o have_v to_o our_o lord_n who_o she_o think_v she_o serve_v in_o that_o sick_a woman_n at_o the_o length_n when_o our_o lord_n have_v thus_o sufficient_o try_v the_o love_n and_o constancy_n of_o his_o faithful_a spouse_n he_o determine_v that_o this_o her_o painful_a and_o loathsome_a service_n shall_v have_v a_o end_n by_o the_o pass_n of_o that_o sick_a woman_n out_o of_o this_o wretched_a life_n at_o the_o which_o passage_n the_o holy_a maid_n stand_v by_o she_o and_o comfort_v she_o with_o her_o service_n with_o good_a prayer_n with_o godly_a word_n and_o exhortation_n and_o never_o give_v she_o over_o until_o the_o last_o breath_n and_o when_o the_o body_n be_v dead_a she_o take_v off_o the_o clothes_n and_o wassh_v it_o and_o shrowd_v it_o in_o the_o wind_a sheet_n and_o so_o lay_v it_o on_o the_o beer_n ready_a to_o be_v carry_v to_o the_o place_n of_o burial_n where_o when_o the_o dirige_fw-la and_o other_o divine_a service_n be_v do_v according_a to_o the_o order_n of_o the_o church_n she_o take_v it_o off_o again_o and_o lay_v it_o in_o the_o grave_n and_o cover_v it_o with_o earth_n with_o her_o own_o hand_n that_o do_v behold_v by_o evident_a miracle_n and_o work_n of_o almighty_a god_n her_o hand_n which_o be_v before_o foul_o disfigure_v with_o the_o leprie_n be_v now_o at_o that_o very_a instant_n become_v not_o only_o sound_v &_o whole_a but_o also_o much_o fair_a and_o clear_a than_o any_o other_o part_n of_o her_o body_n to_o the_o sight_n of_o as_o many_o as_o behold_v she_o a_o other_o very_o strange_a example_n of_o her_o charity_n and_o patience_n towards_o a_o sick_a woman_n of_o she_o own_o order_n and_o how_o she_o render_v great_a good_a for_o great_a evel_n chap._n 10._o the_o charity_n of_o this_o holy_a maid_n show_v upon_o that_o unthankeful_a leprous_a woman_n be_v sure_o very_o great_a and_o so_o be_v her_o charity_n and_o patience_n show_v towards_o a_o sister_n of_o her_o own_o order_n no_o less_o great_a and_o worthy_a to_o be_v remember_v there_o be_v among_o the_o sister_n of_o s._n dominicke_n order_n common_o call_v the_o sister_n of_o penance_n one_o sister_n namel_n palmerina_fw-la who_o by_o reason_n of_o certain_a work_n of_o charity_n that_o she_o do_v outward_o show_v to_o the_o world_n to_o be_v a_o merciful_a woman_n to_o other_o but_o in_o deed_n be_v unmerciful_a both_o to_o herself_o &_o other_o as_o it_o may_v appear_v by_o that_o that_o shall_v be_v here_o recite_v this_o palmerina_fw-la bear_v such_o a_o deep_a malice_n and_o hatred_n in_o her_o hart_n against_o the_o holy_a maid_n that_o it_o be_v a_o great_a pain_n to_o she_o not_o only_o to_o see_v or_o speak_v to_o she_o but_o also_o to_o hear_v she_o name_v or_o speak_v of_o by_o other_o in_o so_o much_o that_o whensoever_o mention_n be_v make_v of_o she_o she_o can_v not_o hold_v herself_o but_o that_o she_o must_v needs_o break_v out_o into_o reproachful_a word_n into_o backbiting_a &_o slawnder_a yea_o &_o sometime_o to_o plain_o curse_v and_o ban_v when_o this_o holy_a maid_n understand_v that_o she_o bear_v herself_o contrariwise_o very_o lowly_a and_o love_o towards_o she_o and_o do_v what_o in_o she_o lay_v to_o win_v her_o love_n with_o gentle_a behaviour_n &_o sweet_a word_n but_o the_o more_o humble_a she_o show_v herself_o &_o ready_a to_o please_v the_o more_o do_v the_o proud_a woman_n despise_v she_o and_o set_v she_o at_o naught_o the_o which_o when_o she_o see_v take_v the_o disease_n of_o that_o woman_n mind_n to_o be_v incurable_a by_o aught_o that_o man_n can_v do_v &_o therefore_o resolve_v
she_o be_v come_v the_o sick_a woman_n which_o be_v now_o very_o weak_a in_o body_n but_o well_o strengthen_v in_o spirit_n make_v sign_n of_o great_a reverence_n and_o joy_n and_o partly_o with_o word_n as_o well_o as_o she_o can_v partly_o with_o token_n and_o gesture_n of_o body_n and_o countenance_n she_o lament_v her_o uncharitable_a demeanour_n towards_o she_o and_o beseech_v she_o of_o mercy_n and_o pardon_n that_o do_v she_o make_v her_o confession_n with_o great_a humility_n and_o contrition_n &_o so_o receive_v the_o sacrament_n &_o right_n of_o holy_a church_n she_o yield_v up_o her_o soul_n to_o god_n at_o what_o time_n it_o please_v almighty_a god_n to_o show_v to_o the_o holy_a virgin_n what_o a_o blesful_a &_o beautiful_a state_n that_o save_v soul_n be_v in_o which_o as_o she_o declare_v afterwards_o to_o her_o ghostly_a father_n be_v so_o great_a that_o no_o tongue_n of_o man_n be_v able_a to_o express_v it_o and_o yet_o be_v not_o this_o that_o beauty_n that_o she_o shall_v receive_v afterwards_o in_o the_o bless_v of_o heaven_n but_o only_o that_o godly_a state_n that_o the_o soul_n have_v in_o her_o first_o creation_n and_o receive_v again_o at_o the_o time_n of_o her_o baptism_n then_o say_v our_o lord_n to_o the_o holy_a maid_n how_o say_v thou_o my_o dear_a daughter_n be_v not_o this_o a_o fair_a and_o goodly_a soul_n which_o through_o thy_o pain_n and_o diligence_n be_v now_o recover_v out_o of_o the_o hand_n of_o the_o enemy_n what_o man_n or_o woman_n will_v refuse_v to_o take_v pain_n for_o the_o wynning_n of_o such_o a_o beawtiful_a creature_n if_o i_o which_o be_o the_o most_o high_a and_o sovereign_a beauty_n and_o of_o who_o proceed_v all_o manner_n of_o beauty_n be_v notwithstanding_o so_o overcome_v with_o the_o love_n and_o beauty_n of_o man_n soul_n that_o i_o refuse_v not_o to_o come_v down_o from_o heaven_n to_o clad_v myself_o with_o the_o simple_a weed_n of_o man_n body_n in_o the_o same_o to_o sustain_v labour_n and_o reproach_n for_o the_o space_n of_o many_o day_n and_o year_n and_o in_o the_o end_n to_o shed_v my_o own_o blood_n for_o his_o redemption_n &_o yet_o have_v i_o no_o need_n of_o man_n soul_n but_o be_v most_o sufficient_o and_o most_o perfect_o bless_v in_o myself_o how_o much_o more_o ought_v you_o to_o labour_v one_o for_o a_o other_o and_o do_v what_o in_o you_o lie_v for_o the_o recovery_n of_o such_o a_o noble_a and_o excellent_a creature_n for_o this_o cause_n have_v i_o show_v thou_o the_o beauty_n of_o this_o soul_n that_o hereafter_o thou_o may_v both_o thyself_o be_v the_o more_o earnest_a about_o the_o wynning_a of_o soul_n and_o also_o procure_v other_o to_o do_v the_o like_a with_o that_o she_o thank_v our_o lord_n in_o most_o humble_a manner_n and_o beseech_v he_o furthermore_o that_o he_o will_v vowchsafe_v to_o geve_v she_o a_o new_a grace_n which_o be_v that_o she_o may_v from_o that_o time_n forward_o be_v able_a to_o see_v the_o state_n and_o condition_n of_o all_o such_o soul_n as_o shall_v by_o occasion_n have_v any_o conversation_n or_o deal_n about_o spiritual_a matter_n with_o she_o that_o by_o the_o sight_n of_o the_o same_o she_o may_v be_v the_o more_o provoke_v to_o procure_v their_o salvation_n unto_o the_o which_o demand_n our_o lord_n make_v answer_v after_o this_o manner_n daughter_n because_o thou_o have_v forsake_v all_o carnal_a conversation_n for_o my_o sake_n and_o have_v by_o all_o mean_v labour_v to_o unite_v thyself_o to_o i_o in_o spirit_n which_o be_o the_o most_o excellent_a and_o sovereign_a spirit_n therefore_o i_o here_o make_v thou_o a_o full_a grant_n that_o from_o this_o very_a instant_n thy_o soul_n shall_v be_v endue_v with_o such_o a_o gracious_a light_n that_o thou_o shall_v see_v and_o behold_v both_o the_o beauty_n and_o also_o the_o deformity_n of_o every_o soul_n that_o be_v present_v before_o thou_o and_o as_o hitherto_o thou_o have_v see_v the_o proportion_n and_o quality_n of_o body_n with_o thy_o bodily_n eye_n even_o so_o from_o this_o time_n forward_o thou_o shall_v see_v the_o condition_n of_o soul_n with_o the_o spiritual_a eye_n of_o thy_o soul_n not_o only_o of_o such_o as_o shall_v be_v present_a before_o thou_o but_o also_o of_o all_o other_o for_o who_o soul_n health_n thou_o shall_v make_v intercession_n to_o i_o though_o thou_o never_o see_v they_o with_o thy_o bodily_a eye_n how_o she_o serve_v a_o old_a widow_n that_o have_v a_o fester_a sore_n run_v upon_o she_o by_o who_o she_o be_v also_o infamed_a and_o of_o diverse_a strange_a accident_n that_o ensue_v upon_o the_o same_o chap._n 11._o there_o be_v among_o the_o sister_n of_o penance_n one_o sister_n call_v andrea_n who_o have_v upon_o her_o breast_n a_o very_a loathsome_a sore_n common_o call_v a_o canker_n this_o sore_n have_v fret_v and_o eat_v so_o much_o flesh_n round_o about_o and_o the_o corruption_n of_o the_o same_o yield_v such_o a_o horrible_a savour_n that_o none_o may_v come_v near_o for_o stench_n by_o reason_n whereof_o there_o be_v none_o find_v that_o will_v attend_v upon_o she_o in_o her_o sickness_n the_o which_o thing_n when_o the_o holy_a maid_n understand_v she_o go_v out_o of_o hand_n to_o visit_v she_o and_o see_v she_o utter_o forsake_a and_o destitute_a of_o all_o succour_n and_o comfort_n she_o make_v herself_o well_o assure_v that_o the_o providence_n of_o god_n have_v reserve_v that_o sister_n for_o her_o keep_n and_o so_o accept_v the_o charge_n of_o she_o as_o at_o god_n hand_n she_o begin_v to_o speak_v comfortable_a word_n unto_o she_o and_o to_o make_v she_o a_o free_a offer_n of_o she_o own_o person_n to_o attend_v and_o serve_v she_o to_o the_o uttermost_a of_o her_o power_n which_o make_v the_o widow_n a_o glad_a woman_n the_o holy_a maid_n therefore_o set_v herself_o to_o the_o service_n of_o that_o poor_a woman_n she_o take_v care_n for_o she_o that_o she_o may_v have_v whatsoever_o be_v necessary_a or_o requisite_a for_o a_o woman_n in_o that_o case_n when_o time_n be_v she_o open_v she_o sore_o &_o cleanse_v it_o of_o all_o the_o foul_a matter_n she_o be_v shed_v it_o and_o wypt_v it_o and_o cover_v it_o again_o with_o plaster_n and_o clean_a clothes_n and_o in_o all_o this_o she_o never_o show_v so_o much_o as_o one_o little_a token_n of_o loathsomeness_n but_o do_v every_o thing_n with_o such_o diligence_n and_o cheerfulness_n that_o the_o sick_a sister_n be_v astoin_v to_o see_v so_o great_a love_n and_o charity_n in_o a_o maid_n of_o those_o year_n but_o the_o malicious_a fiend_n who_o have_v great_a envy_n at_o all_o work_n of_o charity_n bend_v himself_o to_o do_v all_o that_o in_o he_o lay_v to_o disannul_v if_o it_o be_v possible_a if_o not_o at_o the_o least_o to_o hinder_v this_o godly_a and_o merciful_a enterprise_n so_o much_o as_o may_v be_v and_o first_o of_o all_o upon_o a_o day_n as_o the_o holy_a maid_n be_v about_o to_o open_v the_o sore_a to_o dress_v it_o there_o come_v out_o such_o a_o horribile_fw-la stench_n that_o she_o can_v hardly_o bear_v it_o but_o that_o she_o must_v needs_o vomit_v the_o which_o thing_n when_o she_o perceive_v she_o enter_v into_o a_o pass_a great_a choler_n and_o displeasure_n against_o her_o own_o skeymish_a body_n one_fw-mi stomach_n and_o say_v to_o herself_o ah_o vile_a and_o wretched_a flesh_n do_v thou_o loathe_v thy_o sister_n who_o our_o lord_n have_v buy_v so_o dear_o even_o with_o the_o price_n of_o his_o own_o most_o precious_a blood_n the_o day_n may_v come_v when_o thou_o also_o may_v fall_v into_o the_o like_a sickness_n or_o peradventure_o worse_o as_o i_o be_o a_o christian_a woman_n thou_o shall_v abide_v for_o it_o and_o with_o that_o she_o bow_v down_o and_o hold_v her_o mowth_n and_o nose_n over_o the_o sore_a so_o long_o until_o at_o the_o length_n it_o seem_v that_o she_o have_v comfort_v her_o stomach_n &_o quite_o overcome_v the_o skeymishnes_n that_o she_o feel_v before_o all_o the_o which_o time_n he_o sick_a sister_n cry_v out_o unto_o she_o and_o say_v good_a daughter_n stand_v up_o good_a daughter_n geve_v over_o cast_v not_o thyself_o away_o endanger_v not_o thy_o body_n with_o this_o infectious_a savour_n but_o she_o will_v never_o geve_v over_o until_o she_o have_v overcome_v both_o the_o tew_v line_n of_o her_o own_o stomach_n and_o also_o the_o tentation_n of_o the_o ghostly_a enemy_n when_o the_o subtle_a serpent_n see_v that_o this_o his_o assault_n be_v thus_o repel_v be_v utter_o in_o despair_n of_o any_o better_a success_n against_o that_o holy_a virgin_n which_o stand_v evermore_o like_o a_o strong_a fortress_n well_o furnish_v &_o defence_v he_o devise_v to_o lay_v his_o battery_n to_o the_o weak_a woman_n who_o he_o know_v to_o be_v of_o less_o experience_n and_o
sick_a woman_n in_o this_o mean_a time_n the_o slanderous_a rumour_n be_v bruit_v and_o come_v to_o her_o mother_n ear_n who_o for_o herself_o make_v no_o doubt_n at_o all_o of_o her_o daughter_n innocence_n for_o she_o know_v many_o thing_n that_o the_o world_n know_v not_o and_o yet_o she_o can_v not_o but_o take_v it_o very_o heavelie_o when_o she_o hear_v tell_v that_o such_o a_o slawnder_n be_v raise_v upon_o she_o the_o grief_n whereof_o so_o overcome_v her_o mind_n that_o she_o fling_v to_o her_o daughter_n with_o great_a heat_n and_o vehemency_n of_o spirit_n and_o begin_v with_o she_o after_o this_o manner_n how_o often_o time_n have_v i_o tell_v thou_o that_o thou_o shall_v not_o more_o serve_v yonder_o sting_a old_a croyne_n see_v now_o what_o reward_n she_o geve_v thou_o for_o all_o thy_o good_a service_n she_o have_v bring_v up_o a_o foul_a slander_n upon_o thou_o among_o all_o thy_o sister_n which_o god_n know_v whether_o thou_o shall_v ever_o be_v able_a to_o rid_v thyself_o of_o so_o long_o as_o thou_o live_v if_o ever_o thou_o serve_v she_o again_o after_o this_o day_n or_o if_o ever_o thou_o come_v where_o she_o be_v never_o take_v i_o for_o thy_o mother_n for_o i_o tell_v thou_o plain_a i_o will_v never_o know_v thou_o for_o my_o daughter_n these_o and_o other_o the_o like_a word_n do_v the_o mother_n utter_v in_o great_a heat_n &_o choler_n whereat_o the_o daughter_n at_o the_o first_o be_v somewhat_o astoin_v but_o after_o a_o little_a time_n when_o she_o have_v gather_v herself_o together_o she_o go_v to_o her_o mother_n and_o kneel_v down_o before_o she_o with_o great_a reverence_n she_o speak_v these_o word_n sweet_a mother_n think_v you_o that_o our_o lord_n will_v be_v please_v with_o we_o if_o we_o shall_v leave_v the_o work_n of_o mercy_n undo_v because_o our_o neighbour_n show_v himself_o unthankeful_a towards_o we_o when_o our_o saviour_n christ_n hang_v on_o the_o cross_n and_o hear_v there_o the_o reproachful_a talk_n of_o that_o ungrateful_a people_n round_o about_o do_v he_o in_o regard_n of_o their_o cruel_a word_n geveover_o the_o charitable_a work_n of_o their_o redemption_n good_a mother_n you_o know_v very_o well_o that_o if_o i_o shall_v leave_v this_o old_a sick_a woman_n she_o be_v forthwith_o in_o great_a danger_n to_o perish_v for_o lack_v of_o keep_v because_o she_o shall_v not_o find_v any_o that_o will_v come_v near_o she_o &_o do_v such_o service_n as_o be_v requisite_a to_o be_v do_v about_o a_o woman_n in_o this_o case_n and_o so_o shall_v i_o be_v the_o occasion_n of_o her_o death_n she_o be_v now_o a_o little_a deceive_v by_o the_o ghostly_a enemy_n but_o she_o may_v hereafter_o by_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n come_v to_o acknowledge_v her_o fault_n and_o be_v sorry_a for_o the_o same_o with_o such_o word_n she_o qualify_v her_o mother_n mind_n &_o gate_n her_o blessing_n and_o so_o return_v again_o to_o the_o service_n of_o the_o sick_a woman_n about_o who_o she_o do_v all_o thing_n with_o great_a diligence_n &_o love_n never_o show_v neither_o in_o word_n nor_o in_o countenance_n so_o much_o as_o any_o token_n of_o discontentantion_n or_o displeasure_n in_o so_o much_o that_o the_o sick_a sister_n see_v her_o demeanour_n be_v very_o much_o astoin_v &_o withal_o ashamed_a of_o that_o she_o have_v do_v and_o so_o begin_v to_o have_v great_a sorrow_n at_o hart_n and_o repentance_n for_o the_o slander_n that_o she_o have_v raise_v upon_o she_o then_o also_o it_o please_v our_o lord_n to_o show_v his_o mercy_n towards_o his_o faithful_a spouse_n &_o to_o restore_v she_o again_o to_o her_o good_a fame_n &_o estimatimation_n after_o this_o manner_n on_o a_o day_n the_o holy_a maid_n go_v to_o the_o sick_a sister_n chamber_n to_o serve_v she_o as_o she_o be_v wont_a to_o do_v at_o what_o time_n as_o she_o be_v come_v towards_o her_o bed_n where_o she_o lie_v to_o do_v some_o thing_n that_o be_v to_o be_v do_v about_o she_o behold_v the_o sick_a woman_n see_v a_o marvelous_a goodly_a light_a come_n down_o from_o heaven_n which_o fill_v all_o her_o chamber_n and_o be_v so_o beautiful_a and_o comfortable_a that_o it_o make_v she_o utter_o to_o forget_v all_o the_o pain_n of_o her_o disease_n what_o that_o sight_n may_v mean_v she_o can_v not_o conceive_v but_o look_v about_o she_o here_o and_o there_o she_o behold_v the_o maiden_n face_n glorious_o transform_v the_o majesty_n whereof_o be_v so_o strange_a that_o she_o seem_v to_o she_o rather_o a_o angel_n of_o heaven_n than_o any_o earthly_a creature_n and_o this_o beautiful_a light_n environ_v the_o holy_a virgin_n body_n round_o about_o the_o which_o brightness_n the_o more_o the_o old_a woman_n behold_v the_o more_o do_v she_o condemn_v the_o malice_n of_o she_o own_o hart_n and_o tongue_n in_o that_o she_o have_v conceive_v and_o utter_v so_o foul_a matter_n as_o she_o have_v do_v against_o such_o a_o excellent_a and_o pure_a creature_n as_o the_o holy_a maid_n than_o show_v to_o be_v this_o vision_n continue_v a_o good_a time_n and_o at_o the_o length_n when_o it_o cease_v leave_v the_o sick_a woman_n both_o in_o sorrow_n and_o also_o in_o comfort_n in_o sorrow_n because_o on_o the_o one_o side_n she_o see_v what_o a_o heinous_a sin_n she_o have_v commit_v in_o dissame_a that_o innocent_a virgin_n in_o comfort_n because_o on_o the_o other_o side_n she_o see_v the_o mercy_n of_o god_n free_o and_o francke_o offer_v unto_o she_o the_o which_o thing_n so_o mollify_v her_o hart_n that_o with_o much_o sob_a &_o weep_v she_o confess_v her_o fault_n to_o the_o holy_a maid_n and_o beseech_v she_o of_o pardon_n when_o the_o good_a virgin_n see_v the_o humble_a manner_n of_o her_o repentance_n and_o submission_n she_o likewise_o very_o amiable_o take_v the_o old_a woman_n in_o her_o arm_n &_o kiss_v she_o and_o speak_v very_o sweet_a and_o comfortable_a word_n unto_o she_o say_v good_a mother_n i_o have_v no_o displeasure_n in_o the_o world_n against_o you_o but_o only_o against_o our_o enemy_n the_o devel_n by_o who_o malice_n &_o suttiltie_n i_o know_v all_o this_o be_v wrought_v but_o rather_o i_o have_v to_o thank_v you_o with_o all_o my_o hart_n for_o you_o have_v put_v i_o in_o mind_n to_o have_v a_o more_o careful_a and_o vigilant_a regard_n to_o myself_o and_o so_o do_v you_o have_v turn_v the_o malicious_a drift_n of_o the_o fiend_n to_o my_o further_a good_a and_o commodity_n with_o such_o sweet_a speech_n she_o comfort_v the_o sick_a sister_n and_o then_o she_o set_v herself_o to_o do_v all_o such_o service_n as_o be_v wont_a to_o be_v do_v about_o she_o and_o when_o she_o have_v do_v all_o she_o take_v she_o leave_v very_o gentle_o as_o her_o manner_n be_v and_o so_o retire_v herself_o to_o her_o chamber_n to_o geve_v god_n thanks_n so_o the_o prosperous_a success_n that_o she_o have_v have_v in_o this_o matter_n and_o to_o enter_v into_o her_o accustom_a exercise_n of_o prayer_n &_o meditation_n in_o this_o mean_a time_n the_o old_a woman_n who_o have_v a_o great_a care_n to_o restore_v the_o innocent_a virgin_n to_o her_o good_a name_n again_o when_o any_o of_o those_o come_v to_o she_o before_o who_o she_o have_v make_v that_o slanderous_a report_n take_v occasion_n to_o unburthen_v her_o conscience_n and_o confess_v open_o with_o great_a lamentation_n and_o tear_n that_o whatsoever_o dishonesty_n she_o have_v any_o time_n report_v by_o that_o holy_a maid_n she_o have_v be_v induce_v to_o report_v it_o by_o the_o craft_n of_o the_o devel_n &_o not_o by_o any_o thing_n that_o ever_o she_o see_v or_o know_v in_o she_o and_o therefore_o she_o cry_v they_o all_o mercy_n and_o beseech_v they_o for_o charity_n to_o forgeve_v she_o she_o affirm_v furthermore_o that_o she_o be_v able_a to_o make_v good_a proof_n that_o the_o holy_a maid_n be_v not_o only_o free_a from_o all_o suspicion_n of_o any_o uncleanness_n of_o body_n but_o also_o endue_v with_o many_o high_a &_o singular_a grace_n of_o god_n and_o that_o she_o be_v in_o deed_n a_o very_a pure_a virgin_n and_o a_o saint_n thus_o much_o say_v she_o i_o speak_v not_o upon_o heresaie_n or_o opinion_n but_o upon_o very_o certain_a knowledge_n then_o certain_a of_o the_o elder_n and_o sad_a woman_n talk_v with_o she_o secret_o and_o require_v to_o understand_v what_o certain_a token_n and_o knowledge_n of_o holiness_n she_o have_v in_o the_o maid_n whereupon_o she_o declare_v unto_o they_o so_o much_o as_o have_v be_v here_o receit_v before_o and_o say_v furthermore_o very_o constant_o and_o with_o great_a fervour_n of_o spirit_n that_o in_o all_o her_o life_n time_n she_o never_o know_v what_o true_a sweetness_n of_o soul_n and_o spiritual_a comfort_n mean_v until_o that_o time_n when_o she_o see_v the_o holy_a maid_n so_o transfourm_v
life_n many_o a_o one_o shall_v take_v occasion_n of_o slander_n and_o offence_n and_o thou_o shall_v be_v gainsay_v of_o many_o that_o the_o thought_n of_o many_o heart_n may_v be_v open_v but_o in_o any_o case_n see_v that_o thou_o be_v nothing_o afraid_a or_o trouble_v with_o any_o of_o these_o thing_n for_o i_o will_v be_v with_o thou_o always_o and_o will_v deliver_v thou_o from_o lie_v lip_n and_o slanderous_a tongue_n follow_v therefore_o free_o the_o guydance_n of_o my_o holy_a spirit_n and_o labour_v diligent_o in_o this_o charitable_a work_n wherein_o i_o have_v appoint_v thou_o for_o by_o thou_o i_o have_v determine_v to_o deliver_v many_o soul_n out_o of_o the_o dragon_n mouth_n and_o to_o bring_v they_o to_o my_o everlasting_a rest_n in_o heaven_n these_o and_o other_o the_o like_a word_n speak_v our_o lord_n to_o she_o and_o repete_v the_o same_o again_o and_o again_o and_o special_o that_o word_n where_o he_o bid_v she_o that_o she_o shall_v not_o be_v afraid_a or_o dismay_v whereunto_o the_o holy_a maid_n make_v answer_v with_o great_a humility_n and_o perfect_v obedience_n say_v thou_o be_v my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n and_o i_o thy_o creature_n and_o unworthy_a hand_n maid_n thy_o will_n be_v do_v in_o all_o thing_n only_o this_o o_o lord_n i_o beseech_v thou_o remember_v i_o according_a to_o the_o multitude_n of_o thy_o mercy_n and_o help_v i_o and_o with_o that_o the_o vision_n cease_v and_o the_o bless_a virgin_n confer_v those_o comfortable_a word_n of_o our_o saviout_n in_o her_o hart_n ea_v earnest_o with_o herself_o what_o that_o gracious_a alteration_n may_v mean_v from_o that_o time_n forward_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n increase_v daily_o in_o her_o hart_n so_o much_o &_o the_o gift_n of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n replenish_v her_o soul_n in_o such_o abundant_a manner_n that_o she_o be_v herself_o astoin_v at_o it_o and_o by_o reason_n of_o that_o pass_a great_a increase_n of_o spiritual_a joy_n and_o comfort_n that_o she_o feel_v in_o her_o soul_n her_o body_n be_v not_o able_a to_o bear_v it_o wax_v feeble_a &_o faint_a her_o hart_n be_v whole_o carry_v up_o into_o god_n and_o that_o with_o such_o a_o vehemency_n and_o fervour_n of_o love_n that_o she_o can_v not_o endure_v any_o time_n without_o think_v and_o meditate_v upon_o his_o most_o noble_a work_n and_o endless_a mercy_n towards_o herself_o and_o all_o mankind_n the_o force_n of_o the_o which_o love_n so_o overcome_v the_o natural_a power_n of_o her_o body_n that_o she_o languish_v and_o decay_a in_o strength_n and_o can_v find_v none_o other_o remedy_n for_o that_o sickness_n but_o only_o to_o run_v unto_o god_n with_o a_o amorous_a affection_n and_o to_o pour_v out_o her_o hart_n before_o he_o with_o great_a abundance_n of_o tear_n and_o so_o to_o renew_v herself_o as_o it_o be_v in_o the_o forge_n and_o fire_n of_o love_n at_o the_o length_n it_o please_v our_o lord_n to_o geve_v she_o to_o understand_v by_o the_o secret_a instincte_n of_o his_o holy_a spirit_n that_o the_o most_o sovereign_a medicine_n for_o that_o disease_n be_v often_o time_n to_o receive_v the_o bless_a sacrament_n of_o the_o altar_n where_o she_o shall_v have_v the_o joyful_a fruition_n of_o her_o love_n not_o in_o such_o sort_n as_o she_o shall_v have_v it_o afterwards_o in_o the_o bless_v of_o heaven_n but_o yet_o so_o as_o that_o she_o shall_v find_v herself_o satisfy_v in_o some_o dergree_n for_o the_o time_n now_o after_o that_o she_o have_v use_v for_o a_o certain_a time_n to_o comunicate_v every_o day_n as_o she_o do_v unless_o she_o be_v let_v by_o sickness_n or_o by_o some_o other_o necessary_a occasion_n she_o have_v at_o the_o length_n such_o a_o pass_a great_a longing_n and_o as_o it_o be_v a_o impatient_a desire_n to_o receive_v the_o bless_a sacrament_n that_o if_o she_o be_v enforce_v by_o any_o such_o urgent_a necessity_n to_o abstain_v but_o only_o one_o day_n it_o seem_v that_o her_o body_n faint_v sensible_o &_o fail_v forsomuch_o as_o be_v now_o full_o accord_v with_o the_o soul_n it_o have_v abandon_v the_o natural_a power_n &_o sense_n and_o so_o receive_v nourishment_n and_o sustentation_n not_o of_o the_o meat_n that_o the_o body_n be_v wont_a to_o be_v feed_v withal_o which_o do_v she_o more_o harm_n then_o good_a but_o of_o the_o food_n of_o the_o soul_n which_o be_v the_o grace_n of_o god_n which_o grace_n be_v so_o abondant_a in_o her_o soul_n that_o it_o redound_v into_o her_o body_n and_o by_o miracle_n temper_v that_o waste_a heat_n that_o be_v wont_a to_o consume_v the_o radical_a moisture_n her_o ghostly_a father_n examine_v she_o upon_o this_o point_n ask_v whether_o she_o have_v ever_o any_o appetite_n to_o eat_v or_o no._n whereunto_o she_o make_v answer_v that_o she_o be_v full_o satisfy_v with_o the_o holy_a sacrament_n and_o have_v none_o other_o appetite_n then_o he_o ask_v she_o yet_o further_o in_o case_n by_o occasion_n she_o abstein_v from_o receive_v the_o bless_a sacrament_n whether_o she_o be_v then_o hungry_a or_o no._n to_o that_o likewise_o she_o answer_v and_o say_v that_o the_o only_a presence_n of_o the_o sacrament_n do_v satisfy_v she_o and_o not_o only_o the_o sacrament_n but_o the_o priest_n also_o that_o have_v touch_v the_o sacrament_n do_v satisfy_v and_o comfort_v she_o in_o such_o sort_n that_o she_o can_v not_o so_o much_o as_o think_v of_o any_o other_o meat_n and_o in_o deed_n it_o be_v well_o know_v to_o as_o many_o as_o live_v with_o she_o from_o the_o beginning_a of_o lent_n until_o the_o ascension_n day_n she_o continue_v in_o very_o good_a like_n without_o receive_v any_o manner_n of_o bodily_a food_n or_o sustenance_n in_o the_o world_n and_o upon_o that_o day_n by_o commandment_n of_o god_n she_o take_v only_o a_o little_a bread_n and_o a_o few_o herb_n for_o her_o stomach_n may_v not_o brook_v any_o dainty_a or_o fine_a meat_n after_o that_o she_o observe_v a_o simple_a manner_n of_o fast_v for_o a_o time_n until_o at_o the_o length_n by_o little_a and_o little_a she_o come_v again_o to_o her_o old_a manner_n of_o abstinence_n which_o be_v to_o eat_v nothing_o at_o all_o and_o so_o she_o pass_v over_o her_o life_n in_o a_o continual_a and_o evident_a miracle_n verify_v that_o say_n of_o the_o holy_a scripture_n that_o man_n live_v not_o only_o by_o bread_n but_o by_o every_o word_n that_o come_v out_o of_o our_o lord_n mowth_n her_o ghostly_a father_n testify_v that_o he_o see_v she_o himself_o and_o that_o not_o once_o or_o twice_o but_o often_o time_n when_o continue_v after_o this_o sort_n without_o any_o manner_n of_o sustenance_n unless_o it_o be_v a_o little_a water_n she_o become_v so_o weak_a that_o as_o many_o as_o be_v about_o she_o look_v every_o hour_n when_o she_o will_v geve_v up_o the_o ghost_n at_o what_o time_n if_o occasion_n be_v minister_v to_o win_v a_o soul_n to_o god_n or_o to_o do_v any_o other_o charitable_a work_n to_o the_o honour_n of_o god_n they_o all_o see_v to_o their_o great_a astonishment_n that_o she_o be_v sudden_o alter_v in_o the_o state_n of_o her_o body_n in_o such_o sort_n that_o she_o be_v able_a to_o rise_v and_o go_v without_o any_o token_n of_o weakness_n or_o weerine_n and_o also_o to_o endure_v great_a labour_n in_o do_v that_o good_a work_n that_o she_o take_v in_o hand_n for_o god_n sake_n and_o those_o that_o go_v with_o she_o have_v their_o perfect_v health_n and_o strength_n can_v hardly_o follow_v she_o here_o &_o there_o but_o that_o they_o must_v needs_o be_v more_o weary_a than_o she_o show_v to_o be_v which_o make_v they_o all_o to_o confess_v that_o it_o be_v the_o almighty_a power_n of_o god_n that_o sustain_v she_o and_o not_o any_o natural_a force_n how_o she_o be_v molest_v by_o diverse_a and_o sundry_a person_n dissuade_v she_o from_o her_o straight_a abstinence_n and_o how_o she_o overcome_v her_o ghostly_a father_n by_o reason_n chap._n 13._o this_o straight_a and_o unwonted_a manner_n of_o abstinence_n be_v to_o the_o holy_a maid_n a_o occasion_n of_o great_a unquietnes_n and_o trouble_n both_o by_o they_o that_o live_v with_o she_o in_o house_n and_o also_o by_o other_o who_o see_v the_o order_n of_o her_o conversation_n to_o be_v so_o far_o above_o the_o common_a course_n of_o man_n life_n persuade_v themselves_o and_o travail_v much_o to_o persuade_v she_o also_o that_o it_o be_v not_o the_o gracious_a gift_n of_o god_n but_o only_o a_o subtle_a deceit_n &_o tentation_n of_o the_o devel_n with_o this_o error_n be_v a_o great_a number_n carry_v away_o &_o among_o other_o her_o own_o ghostly_a father_n who_o imagine_v all_o this_o to_o be_v nothing_o else_o but_o only_o a_o crafty_a illusion_n of_o satan_n transform_v himself_o into_o a_o angel_n of_o light_n command_v she_o
to_o eat_v her_o meat_n and_o not_o to_o geve_v any_o credit_n to_o such_o deceveable_a vision_n whereunto_o she_o make_v answer_v and_o say_v that_o she_o find_v by_o experience_n that_o she_o be_v more_o healthy_a in_o body_n when_o she_o receive_v no_o bodily_a sustenance_n at_o all_o than_o she_o be_v when_o she_o do_v eat_v the_o ghostly_a father_n be_v nothing_o move_v with_o that_o talk_n but_o take_v all_o to_o be_v but_o only_a excuse_n he_o command_v she_o precise_o that_o she_o shall_v eat_v then_o she_o to_o show_v herself_o a_o true_a daughter_n of_o obedience_n do_v as_o she_o be_v command_v and_o begin_v to_o eat_v her_o meat_n until_o by_o eat_v she_o become_v so_o weak_a and_o waste_v that_o she_o be_v at_o the_o very_a point_n of_o death_n without_o any_o hope_n of_o recovery_n unless_o she_o return_v again_o to_o her_o former_a abstinence_n whereupon_o she_o send_v for_o her_o ghostly_a father_n and_o say_v unto_o he_o father_n say_v she_o i_o pray_v you_o tell_v i_o one_o thing_n in_o case_n i_o shall_v by_o over_o much_o fast_n kill_v myself_o shall_v i_o not_o be_v gyltie_n of_o my_o own_o death_n yes_o say_v he_o again_o say_v she_o i_o beseech_v you_o resolve_v i_o in_o this_o whether_o do_v you_o take_v it_o to_o be_v a_o great_a sin_n to_o die_v by_o overmuch_o eat_v or_o by_o overmuch_o abstinence_n by_o overmuch_o eat_v say_v he_o then_o sir_n say_v she_o see_v it_o be_v so_o that_o you_o see_v by_o experience_n that_o i_o be_o very_o weak_a and_o even_o at_o death_n door_n by_o reason_n of_o my_o eat_n why_o do_v you_o not_o forbid_v i_o to_o eat_v as_o you_o will_v forbid_v i_o to_o fast_o in_o the_o like_a case_n to_o that_o reason_n he_o can_v make_v none_o answer_v and_o therefore_o see_v by_o very_o evident_a to_o ken_v that_o she_o be_v near_o the_o point_n of_o death_n he_o make_v she_o this_o final_a resolution_n say_v daughter_n do_v as_o god_n shall_v put_v in_o your_o mind_n follow_v the_o guydance_n of_o his_o holy_a spirit_n &_o pray_v for_o i_o for_o i_o see_v the_o thing_n that_o our_o lord_n work_v in_o you_o be_v very_o strange_a and_o not_o to_o be_v measure_v by_o the_o common_a rule_n how_o her_o strange_a manner_n of_o life_n be_v gainsaid_a and_o slawnder_v and_o how_o such_o gainesayinge_n and_o slawnder_n may_v easy_o be_v answer_v chap._n 14._o this_o strange_a and_o unwonted_a manner_n of_o life_n as_o it_o be_v to_o some_o of_o the_o better_a sort_n a_o occasion_n of_o praise_v god_n in_o his_o wonderful_a work_n so_o do_v it_o minister_v to_o many_o ungodlie_a and_o ill_o dispose_v person_n matter_n of_o slander_n and_o offence_n some_o say_v that_o she_o make_v herself_o better_a than_o our_o bless_a lady_n &_o the_o apostle_n yea_o better_o than_o our_o saviour_n christ_n himself_o who_o as_o the_o holy_a scripture_n record_v do_v eat_v and_o drink_v some_o other_o allege_v the_o rule_n of_o spiritual_a life_n which_o do_v precise_o forbid_v any_o religious_a person_n to_o follow_v any_o singular_a manner_n of_o life_n some_o other_o reason_v and_o say_v that_o virtue_n consist_v in_o the_o mean_a and_o that_o all_o extremity_n be_v to_o be_v suspect_v of_o vice_n some_o say_v that_o she_o be_v beguile_v by_o the_o devel_n some_o other_o say_v in_o plain_a term_n that_o she_o be_v a_o hypocrite_n and_o persuade_v themselves_o that_o she_o do_v fast_o open_o to_o blear_v the_o eye_n of_o the_o world_n but_o that_o she_o have_v good_a morsel_n in_o corner_n which_o the_o world_n know_v not_o of_o thus_o do_v every_o body_n think_v and_o report_v of_o she_o as_o it_o be_v wont_a to_o happen_v in_o such_o case_n not_o as_o they_o find_v she_o better_o or_o worse_o but_o as_o they_o find_v themselves_o better_o or_o worse_o dispose_v but_o to_o make_v answer_n to_o these_o vain_a surmise_n and_o false_a report_n brief_o it_o be_v to_o be_v know_v that_o all_o man_n especial_o religious_a and_o spiritual_a person_n if_o they_o have_v not_o utter_o overthrow_v or_o do_v their_o best_a to_o over_o throw_v self-love_n in_o themselves_o but_o do_v labour_n still_o to_o get_v the_o vain_a estimation_n of_o the_o world_n be_v in_o great_a danger_n to_o be_v overthrow_v by_o their_o own_o ambitious_a mind_n and_o so_o be_v blind_v with_o such_o malice_n to_o envy_v the_o gift_n and_o grace_n of_o god_n in_o other_o namely_o if_o they_o be_v such_o excellent_a and_o singular_a gift_n as_o may_v seem_v in_o any_o degree_n to_o make_v their_o own_o quality_n to_o shewelesse_a in_o the_o opinion_n of_o man_n such_o person_n be_v wont_v common_o to_o cover_v their_o own_o malice_n with_o the_o cloak_n of_o a_o certain_a zeal_n which_o they_o pretend_v to_o have_v to_o the_o honour_n of_o god_n and_o edify_a of_o soul_n under_o the_o which_o covert_n they_o will_v go_v about_o to_o obscure_v and_o slander_v the_o gift_n of_o god_n in_o their_o neighbour_n geve_v the_o world_n to_o understand_v that_o whatsoever_o they_o see_v in_o they_o all_o be_v but_o the_o deceit_n of_o the_o devel_n illusion_n counterfeict_v hypocrisy_n or_o lack_v of_o discretion_n but_o in_o the_o end_n such_o malice_n be_v wont_a to_o discover_v itself_o as_o this_o against_o the_o holy_a virgin_n do_v especial_o if_o it_o be_v examine_v and_o try_v by_o the_o rule_n of_o holy_a scripture_n and_o example_n of_o other_o saint_n of_o who_o we_o be_v well_o assure_v that_o they_o be_v in_o the_o like_a case_n direct_v by_o the_o spirit_n of_o god_n to_o they_o therefore_o that_o say_v that_o she_o prefer_v herself_o before_o our_o bless_a lady_n the_o apostle_n and_o christ_n himself_o in_o that_o she_o observe_v such_o a_o straight_a kind_n of_o fast_o as_o we_o read_v not_o the_o like_a of_o they_o it_o may_v be_v answer_v that_o our_o saviour_n christ_n do_v as_o it_o be_v write_v both_o eat_v and_o drink_v contrariwise_o s._n john_n baptist_n as_o our_o saviour_n himself_o witness_v do_v neither_o eat_v nor_o drink_n and_o yet_o will_v no_o man_n prefer_v s._n john_n before_o our_o saviour_n in_o regard_n of_o his_o singular_a abstinence_n the_o like_a may_v be_v say_v of_o many_o of_o the_o ancient_a father_n as_o s._n antoine_n maâ—arius_n hilarion_n serapion_n and_o other_o who_o likewise_o keep_v a_o straight_a fast_o than_o we_o read_v of_o the_o apostle_n and_o yet_o do_v no_o man_n prefer_v they_o before_o the_o apostle_n if_o they_o will_v add_v furthermore_o and_o say_v that_o this_o holy_a maid_n case_n be_v not_o altogether_o like_a to_o those_o ancient_a father_n forsomuch_o as_o though_o they_o live_v a_o marvelous_a straight_a kind_n of_o life_n and_o fast_v far_o above_o the_o common_a course_n of_o man_n yet_o do_v they_o eat_v somewhat_o and_o fast_v not_o simple_o from_o all_o manner_n of_o bodily_a sustenance_n to_o that_o it_o may_v be_v answer_v that_o she_o have_v even_o for_o that_o point_n the_o example_n of_o marie_n magdalen_n who_o live_v in_o a_o rock_n of_o the_o sea_n for_o the_o space_n of_o thirty_o year_n together_o and_o never_o eat_v nor_o drink_v in_o all_o that_o tyme._n and_o yet_o be_v she_o never_o think_v to_o be_v better_o than_o our_o bless_a lady_n which_o do_v both_o eat_v and_o drink_v to_o they_o that_o allege_v the_o rule_n of_o spiritual_a life_n which_o do_v express_o forbid_v all_o singularity_n it_o may_v easy_o be_v answer_v that_o no_o man_n ought_v to_o take_v such_o order_n of_o life_n upon_o himself_o without_o a_o very_a good_a and_o assure_a warrant_n from_o god_n but_o if_o he_o be_v command_v by_o god_n to_o take_v any_o such_o singular_a manner_n of_o life_n upon_o he_o he_o may_v not_o refuse_v it_o in_o respect_n of_o the_o singularity_n for_o that_o be_v to_o refuse_v the_o gift_n and_o grace_n of_o god_n the_o like_a answer_n may_v be_v make_v to_o they_o also_o that_o reason_n and_o say_v that_o all_o extremity_n be_v to_o be_v eschew_v and_o only_o the_o mean_a to_o be_v embrace_v for_o it_o be_v a_o most_o certain_a ground_n that_o whatsoever_o almighty_a god_n will_v can_v not_o be_v take_v for_o a_o extremity_n forsomuch_o as_o his_o will_n be_v to_o we_o a_o most_o true_a and_o infallible_a rule_n by_o the_o which_o rule_n he_o measure_v to_o every_o one_o according_o as_o he_o see_v most_o expedient_a and_o many_o time_n what_o we_o imagine_v to_o be_v to_o one_o man_n a_o great_a extremity_n that_o know_v he_o to_o be_v to_o a_o other_o man_n the_o very_a just_a mean_a wherein_o consist_v virtue_n as_o for_o those_o that_o say_v that_o she_o be_v deceive_v by_o the_o devel_n there_o need_v none_o answer_v to_o be_v give_v forsomuch_o as_o the_o thing_n itself_o answer_v they_o sufficient_o for_o admit_v that_o she_o
but_o she_o affirm_v constant_o that_o so_o it_o be_v and_o for_o confirmation_n of_o the_o same_o declare_v how_o our_o saviour_n have_v take_v it_o out_o with_o his_o own_o hand_n all_o the_o which_o talk_v persuade_v he_o nothing_o at_o all_o how_o be_v it_o possible_a say_v he_o that_o any_o man_n shall_v live_v without_o a_o hart_n you_o say_v true_o father_n say_v she_o unto_o man_n it_o be_v in_o deed_n impossible_a but_o unto_o god_n there_o be_v nothing_o impossible_a within_o a_o few_o day_n after_o this_o it_o chance_v she_o to_o go_v to_o a_o certain_a chapel_n of_o the_o friar_n preacher_n where_o the_o sister_n of_o penance_n be_v wont_a to_o kneel_v and_o when_o they_o be_v all_o go_v home_o she_o continue_v there_o in_o prayer_n wherein_o lift_v up_o her_o hart_n to_o god_n with_o great_a fervour_n and_o devotion_n she_o be_v ravish_v in_o spirit_n as_o her_o common_a manner_n be_v that_o do_v she_o set_v herself_o in_o the_o way_n to_o go_v homeward_o and_o as_o she_o go_v behold_v a_o goodly_a light_n from_o heaven_n environ_v she_o round_o about_o and_o in_o that_o light_n appear_v our_o saviour_n christ_n hold_v in_o his_o hand_n a_o red_a shine_a hart_n at_o the_o sudden_a sight_n whereof_o she_o be_v so_o afraid_a that_o she_o fall_v down_o to_o the_o ground_n all_o quake_a and_o tremble_v then_o come_v our_o lord_n unto_o she_o and_o open_v her_o side_n put_v the_o hart_n that_o he_o hold_v in_o his_o hand_n into_o her_o body_n and_o say_v these_o word_n loe_o dear_a daughter_n as_o i_o do_v this_o other_o day_n take_v away_o thy_o hart_n so_o do_v i_o now_o in_o steed_n of_o that_o geve_v thou_o my_o hart_n with_o the_o which_o thou_o shall_v live_v everlasting_o when_o he_o have_v so_o do_v he_o close_v up_o the_o wound_n again_o that_o be_v make_v in_o her_o body_n and_o go_v his_o way_n howbeit_o he_o do_v it_o in_o such_o sort_n that_o there_o remain_v ever_o afterwards_o a_o certain_a mark_n or_o scar_n as_o it_o be_v of_o a_o wound_n heal_v as_o she_o declare_v oftentimes_o to_o her_o ghostly_a father_n and_o many_o of_o her_o sister_n see_v it_o with_o their_o eye_n from_o that_o time_n forward_o she_o alter_v the_o manner_n of_o her_o prayer_n and_o say_v not_o as_o she_o be_v wont_a to_o do_v before_o lord_n i_o beseech_v thou_o keep_v my_o hart_n but_o lord_n i_o beseech_v thou_o keep_v thy_o hart_n of_o diverse_a and_o sundry_a vision_n which_o she_o have_v at_o the_o sight_n and_o receive_n of_o the_o bless_a sacrament_n and_o how_o she_o feel_v herself_o wonderful_o alter_v after_o the_o receit_n of_o that_o new_a hart_n chap._n 17._o after_o that_o she_o have_v receive_v this_o new_a hart_n she_o increase_v marvellous_o in_o high_a and_o heavenly_a contemplation_n especial_o when_o she_o be_v occupy_v in_o prayer_n about_o the_o altar_n from_o whence_o she_o never_o part_v without_o some_o very_a strange_a vision_n and_o illumination_n namely_o when_o she_o receive_v the_o bless_a sacrament_n many_o time_n she_o see_v our_o saviour_n christ_n between_o the_o priest_n hand_n in_o the_o form_n of_o a_o little_a suck_a babe_n sometime_o she_o see_v he_o like_o a_o pretty_a stripling_n and_o sometime_o also_o like_o a_o hot_a burn_a furnace_n into_o the_o which_o it_o seem_v to_o she_o that_o the_o priest_n do_v enter_v when_o he_o do_v communicate_v many_o time_n when_o she_o receive_v b._n sacrament_n she_o feel_v such_o pass_a sweet_a savour_n that_o her_o body_n be_v almost_o overcome_v with_o the_o sweetness_n of_o the_o same_o and_o general_o whensoever_o she_o do_v either_o see_v or_o receive_v the_o holy_a sacrament_n she_o receive_v withal_o such_o abundance_n of_o new_a joy_n and_o unspeakable_a comfort_n that_o many_o time_n her_o hart_n dance_v in_o her_o body_n and_o make_v such_o a_o sensible_a noise_n that_o it_o may_v well_o be_v hear_v of_o they_o that_o stand_v by_o and_o it_o be_v well_o perceive_v that_o the_o noise_n be_v not_o natural_a such_o as_o other_o man_n body_n be_v wont_a to_o make_v but_o it_o be_v altogether_o strange_a and_o above_o the_o common_a course_n of_o nature_n in_o this_o inward_a and_o spiritual_a jubilee_n that_o she_o feel_v in_o herself_o she_o will_v break_v out_o sometime_o &_o speak_v to_o her_o ghostly_a father_n after_o this_o manner_n o_o father_n see_v you_o not_o that_o i_o be_o not_o now_o the_o same_o woman_n that_o i_o be_v before_o o_o that_o you_o can_v feel_v that_o i_o do_v now_o feel_v in_o my_o hart_n sure_o sure_o father_n there_o be_v no_o man_n in_o this_o world_n so_o proud_a or_o so_o hard_a heart_a that_o will_v not_o relent_v and_o become_v humble_a if_o he_o feel_v what_o i_o feel_v and_o yet_o be_v that_o that_o i_o tell_v you_o nothing_o in_o comparison_n of_o that_o that_o i_o feel_v inward_o there_o be_v such_o a_o great_a fire_n of_o god_n love_v enkendle_v in_o my_o hart_n that_o this_o external_a and_o material_a fire_n be_v compare_v with_o that_o seem_v rather_o cold_a then_o hot_a i_o be_o so_o replenish_v with_o inward_a joy_n and_o gladness_n that_o i_o can_v but_o marvel_v how_o my_o soul_n may_v abide_v in_o this_o wretched_a body_n this_o hot_a burn_a fire_n do_v so_o purify_v &_o renew_v my_o soul_n in_o innocence_n and_o cleanness_n that_o i_o think_v i_o be_o come_v again_o to_o the_o age_n of_o five_o year_n this_o divine_a fire_n do_v so_o inflame_v i_o with_o the_o love_n of_o my_o neighbour_n that_o it_o be_v the_o great_a joy_n in_o the_o wordle_n to_o i_o to_o die_v for_o any_o man_n that_o live_v in_o the_o wordle_n these_o thing_n do_v she_o declare_v to_o her_o ghostly_a father_n to_o the_o glory_n of_o god_n and_o to_o the_o behoof_n of_o the_o world_n that_o we_o may_v understand_v and_o see_v the_o unspeakable_a love_n of_o almighty_a god_n towards_o man_n and_o what_o wonderful_a effect_n the_o holy_a ghost_n bring_v forth_o in_o flexible_a and_o ployant_fw-fr heart_n to_o move_v we_o that_o be_v dull_a of_o spirit_n to_o the_o keep_n of_o his_o holy_a commandment_n in_o hope_n of_o the_o comfortable_a reward_n that_o we_o be_v to_o receive_v at_o god_n hand_n not_o only_o in_o the_o life_n to_o come_v but_o also_o in_o this_o present_a life_n how_o our_o lord_n revel_v many_o high_a mystery_n to_o the_o holy_a maid_n and_o how_o marie_n magdalen_n be_v assign_v to_o she_o to_o be_v her_o mother_n chap._n 18._o after_o that_o this_o holy_a maid_n be_v thus_o replenish_v with_o such_o great_a abondance_n of_o very_a singular_a grace_n and_o gift_n it_o please_v almighty_a god_n to_o revele_v unto_o her_o diverse_a and_o sundry_a high_a mystery_n of_o the_o which_o this_o be_v one_o on_o a_o time_n our_o lord_n appear_v to_o she_o to_o comfort_v she_o in_o her_o holy_a purpose_n accompany_v with_o our_o bless_a lady_n and_o s._n marie_n magdalen_n and_o ask_v she_o this_o question_n daughter_n say_v he_o what_o thing_n desire_v thou_o whereunto_o she_o make_v answer_v and_o say_v lord_n thou_o know_v better_a than_o i_o what_o thing_n be_v most_o behoveful_a for_o i_o and_o of_o myself_o thou_o know_v i_o have_v no_o will_n nor_o hart_n but_o only_o thy_o will_n and_o thy_o hart_n as_o she_o be_v speak_v those_o word_n it_o come_v to_o her_o mind_n how_o marie_n magdalen_n commit_v herself_o whole_o to_o our_o lord_n when_o she_o sit_v and_o weep_v at_o his_o foot_n with_o that_o she_o feel_v the_o like_a swetnes_n in_o her_o hart_n as_o marie_n magdalen_n feel_v at_o what_o time_n she_o weep_v at_o our_o lord_n foot_n whereupon_o she_o fix_v her_o eye_n upon_o she_o our_o lord_n see_v that_o and_o withal_o look_v to_o the_o inward_a bent_n of_o her_o mind_n to_o satisfy_v her_o godly_a desire_n say_v these_o word_n unto_o she_o behold_v dear_a daughter_n from_o this_o time_n forward_o i_o geve_v thou_o marie_n magdalen_n to_o be_v thy_o mother_n to_o who_o as_o to_o a_o love_a mother_n thou_o may_v at_o all_o time_n flee_v for_o special_a comfort_n for_o unto_o she_o special_o have_v i_o commit_v the_o government_n of_o thou_o when_o she_o hear_v that_o she_o give_v our_o lord_n most_o humble_a thanks_n &_o turn_v herself_o to_o marie_n magdalen_n with_o great_a humility_n and_o reverence_n she_o beseech_v she_o that_o she_o will_v vowchsafe_v so_o to_o take_v she_o under_o her_o motherlie_a protection_n and_o from_o that_o time_n foreward_n marie_n magdalen_n acknowledge_v the_o holy_a maid_n for_o her_o daughter_n and_o she_o take_v she_o evermore_o for_o her_o mother_n which_o thing_n may_v seem_v to_o be_v do_v not_o without_o great_a mystery_n if_o we_o consider_v what_o likeness_n there_o be_v between_o the_o mother_n and_o daughter_n in_o the_o whole_a state_n of_o their_o life_n
and_o conversation_n how_o hang_v in_o the_o air_n she_o see_v certain_a secret_n and_o high_a mystery_n of_o god_n which_o it_o be_v not_o lawful_a to_o disclose_v to_o any_o man_n chap._n 19_o this_o holy_a maid_n from_o the_o time_n that_o she_o be_v thus_o endue_v with_o new_a grace_n until_o the_o xxxiij_o year_n of_o her_o age_n at_o what_o time_n she_o depart_v out_o of_o this_o life_n be_v so_o whole_o occupy_v in_o divine_a comtemplation_n that_o in_o all_o that_o time_n she_o never_o need_v any_o bodily_a sustenance_n and_o in_o those_o contemplation_n her_o soul_n be_v so_o mighty_o draw_v up_o to_o heavenly_a thing_n that_o her_o body_n also_o be_v by_o the_o vehemency_n of_o the_o spirit_n take_v up_o often_o time_n withal_o and_o suspend_v in_o the_o air_n at_o which_o time_n she_o see_v many_o wonderful_a thing_n and_o speak_v many_o high_a word_n of_o heavenly_a matter_n which_o be_v hear_v of_o diverse_a and_o sundry_a person_n on_o a_o time_n her_o ghostly_a father_n see_v she_o so_o ravish_v from_o her_o bodily_a sense_n and_o hear_v she_o speak_v certain_a word_n soft_o to_o herself_o come_v near_o to_o hearken_v what_o she_o say_v and_o stand_v by_o she_o he_o hear_v she_o speak_v these_o word_n distinct_o in_o latin_a vidi_n arcana_fw-la dei_fw-la that_o be_v i_o have_v see_v the_o secret_n of_o god_n and_o she_o repete_v the_o same_o word_n often_o time_n vidi_n arcana_fw-la dei_fw-la her_o ghostly_a father_n afterwards_o be_v very_o desirous_a to_o know_v what_o she_o mean_v by_o those_o word_n and_o why_o she_o repete_v they_o so_o often_o ask_v she_o after_o this_o manner_n good_a mother_n say_v he_o i_o pray_v you_o tell_v i_o why_o you_o repeat_v those_o word_n so_o often_o what_o be_v the_o cause_n why_o you_o will_v not_o declare_v your_o secret_n to_o i_o now_o as_o you_o be_v wont_a to_o do_v to_o that_o she_o answer_v and_o say_v that_o she_o may_v not_o speak_v otherwise_o why_o so_o say_v he_o why_o may_v you_o not_o declare_v the_o thing_n that_o our_o lord_n reveal_v unto_o you_o as_o well_o now_o as_o you_o be_v wont_a to_o do_v good_a father_n say_v she_o i_o shall_v have_v as_o great_a a_o conscience_n if_o i_o shall_v declare_v the_o high_a mystery_n that_o almighty_a god_n have_v now_o revel_v unto_o i_o with_o my_o defectuous_a and_o imperfect_a tongue_n as_o i_o shall_v have_v if_o i_o have_v blaspheme_v or_o dishonour_v our_o lord_n in_o word_n for_o there_o be_v so_o great_a difference_n between_o heavenly_a thing_n apprehend_v in_o a_o understanding_n that_o be_v illuminate_v by_o god_n and_o the_o same_o thing_n utter_v by_o the_o speech_n or_o tongue_n of_o man_n that_o i_o think_v they_o be_v almost_o contrary_a the_o one_o to_o the_o other_o and_o therefore_o for_o this_o time_n i_o pray_v you_o hold_v i_o excuse_v for_o the_o thing_n that_o i_o have_v see_v be_v unspeakable_a after_o this_o great_a revelation_n that_o our_o lord_n make_v to_o she_o of_o unspeakable_a thing_n it_o seem_v to_o she_o that_o her_o hart_n do_v leap_v out_o of_o her_o body_n and_o that_o it_o do_v enter_v into_o the_o side_n of_o our_o saviour_n christ_n and_o there_o be_v make_v one_o hart_n with_o his_o hart_n and_o at_o that_o instant_n she_o feel_v her_o soul_n all_o melt_v and_o resolve_v with_o the_o force_n of_o his_o divine_a love_n in_o such_o sort_n that_o she_o cry_v out_o with_o a_o loud_a voice_n often_o time_n domine_fw-la vulnerasti_fw-la cor_fw-la meum_fw-la domine_fw-la vulnerasti_fw-la cor_fw-la meum_fw-la lord_n thou_o have_v wound_v my_o hart_n lord_n thou_o have_v wound_v my_o hart_n this_o thing_n be_v do_v upon_o s._n margaret_n day_n in_o the_o year_n of_o our_o lord_n 1370._o how_o she_o put_v her_o mouth_n to_o the_o side_n of_o our_o saviour_n and_o drink_v and_o of_o many_o other_o wonderful_a thing_n that_o happen_v about_o the_o bless_a sacrament_n chap._n 20._o it_o chance_v also_o the_o same_o year_n on_o s._n laurence_n day_n that_o this_o holy_a maid_n come_v to_o the_o church_n to_o hear_v mass_n set_v herself_o down_o near_o to_o the_o altar_n as_o her_o manner_n be_v that_o she_o may_v the_o better_o see_v the_o holy_a sacrament_n and_o kneel_v there_o devout_o in_o her_o prayer_n she_o break_v out_o into_o weep_v and_o sob_v so_o much_o that_o her_o ghostly_a father_n come_v to_o she_o &_o warn_v she_o that_o she_o shall_v refrain_v so_o much_o as_o be_v possible_a for_o not_o molest_v the_o priest_n at_o mass_n whereupon_o like_o a_o meek_a and_o obedient_a daughter_n she_o remove_v herself_o far_a from_o the_o altar_n and_o make_v her_o humble_a prayer_n to_o our_o lord_n that_o he_o will_v vouchsafe_v to_o illuminate_v her_o confessor_n hart_n that_o he_o may_v see_v and_o understand_v that_o such_o violent_a motion_n of_o the_o spirit_n may_v not_o be_v witholden_v and_o keep_v in_o by_o the_o strength_n of_o man_n and_o she_o priaer_fw-mi be_v not_o vain_a for_o it_o please_v god_n to_o make_v her_o ghostly_a father_n to_o understand_v perfect_o by_o experience_n that_o such_o fervour_n of_o spirit_n can_v not_o be_v so_o keep_v in_o but_o that_o the_o force_n of_o divine_a love_n will_v needs_o break_v out_o the_o which_o when_o he_o understand_v he_o never_o rebuke_v she_o afterwards_o for_o any_o such_o matter_n now_o kneel_v after_o this_o manner_n far_o of_o from_o the_o altar_n she_o groan_v in_o her_o hart_n and_o many_o time_n also_o break_v out_o into_o word_n and_o say_v after_o a_o languish_a and_o ruthful_a manner_n i_o will_v fain_o receive_v the_o body_n of_o my_o lord_n and_o redeemer_n i_o will_v fain_o receive_v the_o body_n of_o my_o lord_n and_o saviour_n jesus_n christ_n one_o time_n as_o she_o be_v so_o so_o cry_v behold_v our_o lord_n appear_v unto_o she_o with_o the_o wound_n of_o his_o side_n all_o open_a and_o bring_v her_o mowth_n to_o the_o same_o say_v receive_v of_o my_o flesh_n and_o drink_v of_o my_o blood_n so_o much_o as_o thou_o will_v with_o that_o she_o suck_v greedy_o and_o take_v so_o much_o that_o it_o seem_v to_o she_o that_o for_o very_o pure_a love_n she_o be_v at_o the_o point_n of_o death_n by_o reason_n of_o the_o pass_a great_a sweetness_n that_o she_o feel_v in_o her_o hart_n the_o self_n same_o year_n upon_o s._n alexius_n day_n this_o holy_a maid_n make_v her_o prayer_n to_o god_n that_o he_o will_v vowchsafe_v to_o grant_v she_o a_o fervent_a and_o burn_a desire_n to_o receive_v his_o most_o holy_a body_n and_o blood_n at_o what_o time_n she_o understand_v by_o revelation_n that_o on_o the_o morrow_n she_o shall_v receive_v without_o all_o doubt_n for_o she_o have_v be_v forbid_v for_o certain_a respect_n that_o she_o shall_v not_o receive_v so_o often_o when_o she_o have_v that_o comfortable_a revelation_n she_o pray_v again_o to_o our_o lord_n that_o he_o will_v vowchsafe_v to_o cleanse_v her_o hart_n against_o the_o time_n of_o receive_v that_o she_o may_v receive_v the_o more_o worthy_o &_o to_o her_o great_a profit_n behold_v while_o she_o be_v so_o pray_v she_o feel_v a_o certain_a reign_n come_v down_o into_o her_o soul_n in_o manner_n of_o a_o great_a abondant_a flood_n not_o of_o water_n or_o of_o any_o other_o such_o liquour_n but_o of_o blood_n mingle_a with_o fire_n which_o as_o it_o seem_v to_o she_o cleanse_v her_o soul_n so_o mighty_o that_o the_o strength_n and_o operation_n of_o the_o same_o redound_v into_o the_o body_n and_o cleanse_v it_o also_o after_o this_o on_o the_o morrow_n she_o be_v so_o extreme_o sick_a that_o to_o her_o seem_n she_o be_v not_o able_a to_o move_v one_o foot_n though_o the_o world_n have_v lyen_fw-we on_o it_o all_o the_o which_o not_o withstand_v she_o doubt_v nothing_o of_o the_o promise_n make_v unto_o she_o by_o our_o lord_n but_o with_o a_o full_a affiance_n in_o he_o set_v herself_o in_o the_o way_n towards_o the_o church_n whither_o when_o she_o be_v come_v she_o kneel_v down_o in_o a_o chapel_n beside_o a_o altar_n and_o beseech_v almighty_a god_n with_o great_a instance_n that_o her_o ghostly_a father_n may_v come_v and_o say_v mass_n there_o for_o she_o have_v a_o special_a inhibition_n not_o to_o receive_v at_o any_o other_o priest_n hand_n and_o she_o understand_v by_o revelation_n that_o almighty_a god_n have_v grant_v she_o that_o petition_n also_o now_o while_o she_o be_v thus_o attend_v there_o for_o the_o performance_n of_o all_o these_o comfortable_a promise_n her_o ghostly_a father_n who_o before_o find_v small_a disposition_n in_o himself_o to_o say_v mass_n that_o day_n &_o know_v not_o of_o she_o be_v there_o be_v sudden_o touch_v at_o the_o hart_n with_o a_o very_a strange_a fervour_n and_o devotion_n whereupon_o he_o prepare_v himself_o to_o mass_n and_o go_v
wherein_o you_o have_v begin_v to_o trade_n us._n we_o will_v pray_v with_o you_o also_o but_o what_o be_v we_o silly_a wretch_n and_o sinful_a creature_n we_o be_v unworthy_a to_o appear_v before_o his_o divine_a majesty_n be_v as_o we_o be_v full_a of_o iniquity_n and_o subject_n to_o many_o imperfection_n and_o therefore_o we_o pray_v you_o dear_a mother_n that_o our_o suit_n may_v be_v offer_v up_o to_o almighty_a god_n by_o you_o who_o for_o the_o tender_a love_n that_o you_o have_v always_o show_v to_o we_o be_v like_a to_o solicit_v it_o more_o careful_o and_o for_o the_o singular_a favour_n that_o you_o have_v find_v in_o his_o sight_n be_v like_a to_o obtain_v it_o more_o certain_o many_o such_o word_n speak_v her_o confessor_n and_o the_o rest_n to_o she_o with_o great_a heaviness_n of_o hart_n which_o they_o show_v more_o with_o the_o tear_n that_o they_o shed_v then_o with_o the_o word_n that_o they_o speak_v when_o they_o have_v say_v the_o holy_a maid_n make_v they_o answer_v after_o this_o manner_n it_o be_v now_o long_o as_o you_o know_v sense_n i_o resign_v myself_o whole_o unto_o god_n and_o have_v no_o will_n of_o my_o own_o but_o do_v remit_v all_o to_o the_o direction_n of_o his_o bless_a will_n true_a it_o be_v that_o i_o love_v you_o very_o entire_o and_o have_v a_o great_a desire_n of_o your_o salvation_n and_o it_o be_v no_o less_o true_a that_o he_o love_v and_o tender_v you_o infinite_o more_o than_o i_o do_v or_o can_v do_v and_o that_o he_o thirst_v after_o your_o salvation_n more_o than_o i_o and_o all_o man_n be_v able_a to_o conceive_v whereof_o we_o have_v most_o sufficient_a testimony_n the_o shed_n of_o his_o most_o precious_a blood_n his_o will_n therefore_o be_v do_v in_o this_o and_o in_o all_o other_o thing_n i_o will_v not_o cease_v to_o pray_v for_o you_o howbeit_o not_o otherwise_o but_o only_o that_o he_o will_v be_v do_v which_o i_o know_v shall_v be_v best_o for_o you_o howsoever_o it_o fall_v out_o when_o she_o have_v speak_v these_o word_n they_o go_v aside_o fot_o a_o time_n in_o great_a heaviness_n and_o perplexity_n until_o the_o time_n that_o they_o may_v hear_v some_o more_o comfortable_a answer_n the_o next_o day_n after_o she_o call_v her_o confessor_n unto_o she_o and_o say_v father_n i_o believe_v our_o lord_n have_v somewhat_o condescend_v to_o your_o petition_n and_o i_o hope_v you_o shall_v understand_v his_o will_n and_o pleasure_n touch_v the_o same_o within_o a_o short_a tyme._n and_o as_o she_o say_v so_o it_o prove_v in_o deed_n for_o upon_o the_o next_o morrow_n which_o be_v sondaie_n she_o receive_v the_o bless_a sacrament_n at_o her_o confessor_n hand_n and_o as_o on_o the_o sunday_n before_o she_o be_v bring_v to_o very_o great_a weakness_n after_o the_o receive_n of_o the_o bless_a sacrament_n so_o at_o this_o time_n she_o be_v marvellous_o refressh_v and_o strengthen_v in_o body_n which_o seem_v strange_a to_o as_o many_o as_o be_v there_o present_a then_o doctor_n raimundus_n see_v that_o wonderful_a and_o comfortable_a alteration_n in_o her_o body_n say_v these_o word_n i_o be_o now_o in_o great_a hope_n that_o our_o lord_n have_v accept_v our_o tear_n and_o that_o he_o have_v give_v favourable_a ear_n to_o the_o humble_a prayer_n of_o we_o his_o unworthy_a servant_n with_o that_o for_o their_o further_a assurance_n and_o comfort_n he_o ask_v the_o holy_a maid_n whether_o the_o pain_n that_o she_o be_v wont_a to_o have_v in_o her_o hand_n foot_n and_o side_n do_v continue_v still_o as_o it_o do_v before_o whereunto_o she_o make_v answer_v and_o say_v that_o our_o saviour_n christ_n have_v now_o so_o wrought_v in_o her_o body_n that_o those_o wound_n or_o mark_n be_v no_o more_o a_o grief_n and_o torment_n unto_o she_o but_o rather_o a_o pass_a great_a joy_n and_o sensible_a comfort_n and_o that_o our_o lord_n at_o their_o instance_n and_o suit_n have_v grant_v she_o a_o long_a time_n of_o affliction_n in_o this_o life_n which_o she_o be_v glad_a of_o for_o the_o love_n she_o bear_v to_o they_o how_o she_o be_v ravish_v in_o spirit_n for_o the_o space_n of_o three_o day_n and_o how_o afterwards_o she_o do_v penance_n as_o long_o for_o a_o word_n that_o escape_v she_o unwares_o chap._n 23._o upon_o the_o feast_n of_o s._n paul_n conversion_n this_o holy_a maid_n be_v marvellous_o ravish_v from_o her_o bodily_a sense_n and_o her_o spirit_n be_v so_o mighty_o draw_v up_o to_o heavenward_o that_o for_o the_o space_n of_o three_o day_n &_o three_o night_n she_o be_v unmoveable_a and_o without_o all_o bodily_a feel_n in_o so_o much_o that_o many_o think_v very_o that_o she_o have_v be_v full_o dead_a but_o there_o be_v some_o that_o understand_v her_o condition_n better_o than_o the_o rest_n who_o be_v of_o opinion_n that_o she_o shall_v be_v ravish_v with_o s._n paul_n into_o the_o three_o heaven_n at_o the_o length_n when_o the_o three_o day_n be_v end_v she_o come_v to_o herself_o again_o but_o her_o spirit_n be_v so_o comfort_v with_o the_o thing_n that_o have_v be_v reveal_v unto_o she_o in_o that_o time_n that_o she_o stand_v long_a time_n after_o like_o one_o that_o have_v be_v neither_o full_o sleep_v nor_o full_o awake_v in_o the_o mean_a time_n whil_n she_o so_o stand_v there_o come_v to_o her_o doctor_n thomas_n her_o first_o confessor_n and_o with_o he_o a_o other_o friar_n call_v brother_n donatus_n of_o florence_n who_o be_v go_v to_o visit_v a_o certain_a holy_a eremite_n in_o the_o wilderness_n and_o take_v this_o holy_a maid_n in_o their_o way_n and_o find_v she_o in_o this_o case_n they_o think_v they_o will_v prove_v whether_o they_o may_v awake_v she_o full_o by_o invite_v she_o to_o do_v some_o work_n of_o charity_n and_o so_o they_o ask_v she_o whether_o she_o will_v go_v with_o they_o to_o see_v that_o holy_a man_n yea_o say_v she_o not_o know_v in_o deed_n at_o that_o very_a instant_n what_o she_o say_v for_o as_o yet_o she_o remain_v in_o that_o sleepy_a state_n that_o she_o have_v be_v in_o before_o but_o so_o soon_o as_o she_o perceive_v that_o such_o a_o word_n have_v pass_v she_o she_o have_v such_o a_o remorse_n of_o conscience_n because_o she_o have_v say_v otherwise_o they_o she_o mind_v to_o do_v that_o for_o very_a grief_n of_o mind_n &_o sorrow_n for_o her_o offence_n she_o awake_v altogether_o &_o as_o she_o have_v be_v before_o three_o day_n &_o three_o night_n in_o a_o deliteful_a contemplation_n of_o heavenly_a thing_n so_o do_v she_o likewise_o continue_v three_o day_n &_o three_o night_n after_o a_o very_a lamentable_a manner_n wal_a &_o weep_v for_o her_o sin_n and_o say_v to_o herself_o o_o most_o wicked_a and_o perverse_a woman_n have_v thou_o thus_o requite_v the_o infinite_a goodness_n and_o mercy_n of_o thy_o lord_n and_o saviour_n with_o make_v a_o lie_n be_v these_o the_o truth_n that_o thou_o have_v learn_v in_o heaven_n be_v these_o the_o fruit_n of_o the_o doctrine_n that_o the_o holy_a ghost_n have_v inspire_v in_o thy_o hart_n thou_o know_v well_o when_o thou_o speak_v those_o word_n that_o it_o be_v not_o thy_o meaning_n to_o go_v with_o they_o and_o yet_o thou_o will_v say_v yea_o and_o make_v a_o lie_n to_o those_o good_a man_n and_o virtuous_a priest_n that_o have_v charge_n of_o thy_o soul_n ah_o wretched_a creature_n ah_o wicked_a woman_n these_o and_o other_o the_o like_a word_n do_v she_o speak_v with_o a_o earnest_a displeasure_n against_o herself_o and_o do_v great_a penance_n upon_o her_o body_n for_o the_o space_n of_o three_o day_n and_o three_o night_n for_o that_o lie_n that_o she_o have_v make_v if_o it_o may_v true_o be_v term_v a_o lie_n and_o not_o rather_o a_o word_n that_o escape_v she_o unwares_o howsoever_o it_o be_v she_o be_v permit_v by_o the_o providence_n of_o god_n so_o to_o slide_v and_o also_o to_o have_v a_o timorous_a remorse_n for_o her_o offence_n to_o keep_v down_o her_o hart_n that_o it_o shall_v not_o be_v puff_v up_o with_o pride_n in_o regard_n of_o those_o heavenly_a revelation_n that_o she_o have_v see_v which_o be_v so_o great_a as_o she_o declare_v afterwards_o to_o her_o ghostly_a father_n that_o no_o tongue_n of_o man_n be_v able_a to_o express_v they_o of_o certain_a other_o revelation_n and_o again_o of_o the_o tenderness_n of_o her_o conscience_n chap._n 24._o at_o a_o other_o time_n the_o apostle_n s_o paul_n appear_v to_o she_o and_o give_v her_o warning_n that_o she_o shall_v geve_v herself_o earnest_o to_o prayer_n the_o which_o warning_n she_o receive_v with_o very_o great_a obedience_n and_o do_v in_o deed_n set_v herself_o whole_o to_o the_o exercise_n of_o prayer_n and_o thereby_o deserve_v to_o have_v many_o goodly_a revelation_n upon_o s._n dominicke_n eveen_n a_o
of_o life_n to_o deliver_v soul_n from_o the_o snare_n of_o the_o devel_n which_o be_v error_n and_o sin_n and_o that_o be_v his_o principal_a intent_n when_o he_o first_o found_v his_o order_n to_o wit_n to_o win_v soul_n out_o of_o the_o bondage_n of_o error_n and_o sin_n and_o to_o bring_v they_o to_o the_o knowledge_n of_o truth_n and_o withal_o to_o the_o exrcise_n of_o a_o godly_a and_o christian_a life_n and_o for_o these_o cawse_n do_v i_o liken_v he_o to_o my_o natural_a son_n this_o be_v the_o revelation_n which_o she_o have_v at_o that_o time_n while_o she_o be_v confer_v with_o friar_n barthelmewe_v in_o the_o church_n at_o what_o time_n she_o chance_v to_o cast_v her_o eye_n aside_o as_o it_o be_v declare_v before_o how_o the_o holy_a virgin_n be_v whole_o inflame_v with_o the_o love_n of_o god_n desire_v instant_o to_o be_v loose_v from_o this_o life_n and_o to_o be_v with_o christ_n and_o how_o by_o that_o mean_a she_o obtain_v to_o bear_v in_o her_o body_n every_o particular_a pain_n that_o our_o saviour_n christ_n suffer_v for_o us._n chap._n 26._o this_o holy_a virgin_n be_v now_o replenish_v with_o such_o abundance_n of_o grace_n that_o she_o bestow_v in_o a_o manner_n the_o whole_a time_n of_o her_o life_n in_o heavenly_a contemplation_n by_o reason_n whereof_o be_v often_o time_n ravish_v in_o spirit_n and_o abstract_v from_o her_o bodily_a sense_n she_o become_v so_o feeble_a and_o faint_a that_o she_o be_v constrain_v to_o keep_v her_o bed_n where_o she_o lie_v as_o it_o be_v in_o a_o continual_a long_v &_o languish_v after_o her_o spouse_n with_o the_o divine_a love_n of_o who_o she_o be_v so_o much_o inflame_v that_o she_o may_v not_o well_o reason_n or_o think_v of_o any_o other_o thing_n but_o only_o of_o he_o and_o many_o time_n by_o reason_n of_o the_o vehemency_n of_o that_o holy_a fire_n burn_v in_o her_o hart_n she_o break_v out_o into_o these_o word_n and_o repeat_v the_o same_o again_o and_o again_o o_o my_o most_o sweet_a and_o lovely_a lord_n son_n of_o god_n o_o my_o most_o dear_a &_o amiable_a spouse_n son_n of_o the_o b._n virgin_n marie_n with_o such_o word_n do_v she_o express_v the_o inward_a groan_a and_o melt_v of_o her_o hart_n this_o be_v her_o morning_n and_o evening_n song_n this_o her_o repast_n when_o she_o be_v hungry_a this_o her_o rest_n after_o labour_n in_o this_o time_n our_o lord_n appear_v unto_o she_o oftentimes_o which_o also_o increase_v the_o fire_n in_o her_o hart_n in_o so_o much_o that_o on_o a_o time_n be_v overcome_v with_o the_o heat_n of_o the_o same_o she_o begin_v like_o one_o that_o be_v impatient_o set_v to_o have_v a_o thing_n as_o it_o be_v to_o quarrel_v and_o expostulate_v with_o he_o say_v o_o my_o most_o sweet_a and_o lovely_a lord_n o_o dear_a spouse_n of_o my_o soul_n wherefore_o do_v thou_o suffer_v i_o to_o be_v hold_v here_o prisoner_n in_o the_o dungeon_n of_o this_o wicked_a world_n wherefore_o do_v thou_o not_o loose_v my_o band_n and_o call_v i_o away_o to_o thy_o blesful_a tabernacle_n do_v thou_o not_o see_v o_o lord_n that_o there_o be_v nothing_o under_o the_o sun_n wherein_o i_o can_v take_v delight_n do_v thou_o not_o know_v that_o i_o do_v love_n no_o creature_n in_o this_o world_n but_o only_o in_o thou_o or_o for_o thou_o do_v thou_o not_o see_v o_o eye_n of_o heaven_n which_o see_v all_o thing_n that_o all_o thing_n be_v to_o i_o unsightly_a and_o yrckesome_a the_o beauty_n of_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n only_o except_v whereon_o my_o hart_n be_v fix_v wherefore_o then_o do_v thou_o suffer_v this_o my_o wretched_a body_n to_o be_v so_o long_a a_o let_v and_o stay_v that_o i_o can_v not_o come_v and_o have_v the_o joyful_a fruition_n of_o that_o most_o excellent_a beauty_n that_o i_o so_o much_o desire_v o_o my_o most_o gracious_a and_o amiable_a lord_n o_o most_o sweet_a love_n of_o my_o hart_n suffer_v i_o no_o long_o to_o dwell_v in_o this_o earthy_a and_o foul_a prison_n but_o take_v i_o out_o and_o call_v i_o to_o dwell_v with_o thou_o in_o thy_o everlasting_a tabernacle_n to_o these_o word_n proceed_v from_o such_o a_o love_a and_o languish_a spirit_n our_o lord_n answer_v sweet_o after_o this_o manner_n dear_a daughter_n when_o i_o live_v in_o earth_n i_o labour_v to_o fulfil_v not_o my_o own_o will_n but_o the_o will_n of_o my_o father_n and_o though_o i_o have_v a_o earnest_a desire_n to_o eat_v that_o last_o passover_o with_o my_o disciple_n as_o they_o hear_v i_o say_v often_o time_n and_o so_o to_o be_v with_o my_o father_n yet_o do_v i_o patient_o abide_v the_o time_n that_o my_o father_n have_v ordain_v thus_o much_o i_o tell_v thou_o to_o instruct_v thou_o by_o my_o own_o example_n that_o though_o thou_o have_v a_o fervent_a desire_n to_o be_v perfect_o unite_v to_o i_o in_o bless_v yet_o must_v thou_o tarry_v the_o time_n that_o i_o have_v appoint_v unto_o the_o which_o word_n she_o make_v answer_v ready_o and_o say_v o_o lord_n see_v it_o be_v thy_o pleasure_n that_o i_o shall_v not_o yet_o pass_v out_o of_o this_o life_n thy_o bless_a will_n be_v do_v in_o all_o thing_n both_o in_o heaven_n and_o in_o earth_n but_o yet_o one_o thing_n i_o most_o humble_o beseech_v thou_o see_v it_o be_v so_o that_o i_o may_v not_o be_v unite_v to_o thou_o in_o bless_v during_o the_o time_n of_o my_o abode_n here_o in_o this_o life_n grant_v i_o thus_o much_o that_o i_o may_v be_v unite_v to_o thou_o at_o the_o least_o in_o thy_o passion_n and_o that_o i_o may_v have_v a_o feel_n of_o every_o particular_a pain_n and_o torment_n thou_o do_v suffer_v for_o i_o on_o the_o cross_n even_o to_o the_o yield_n up_o of_o thy_o most_o holy_a spirit_n thus_o she_o pray_v with_o great_a vehemency_n of_o spirit_n and_o our_o lord_n give_v favourable_a ear_n to_o her_o petition_n for_o as_o she_o declare_v afterwards_o secret_o to_o her_o confessor_n our_o saviour_n christ_n never_o suffer_v any_o kind_n of_o pain_n in_o his_o body_n which_o she_o do_v not_o likewise_o suffer_v in_o some_o degree_n and_o therefore_o she_o take_v a_o pass_v great_a delight_n to_o reason_n of_o the_o cross_n and_o passion_n of_o our_o saviour_n christ_n and_o she_o reveal_v diverse_a and_o sundry_a strange_a mystery_n and_o make_v many_o goodly_a exposition_n upon_o certain_a place_n of_o the_o gospel_n such_o as_o be_v never_o by_o any_o of_o the_o holy_a doctor_n before_o how_o bear_v the_o cross_n of_o christ_n continual_o in_o her_o body_n she_o take_v great_a delight_n to_o reason_n of_o the_o same_o and_o how_o she_o reveal_v many_o strange_a mystery_n upon_o the_o holy_a scripture_n concern_v the_o cross_n chap._n 27._o reason_v at_o diverse_a and_o sundry_a time_n of_o the_o cross_n of_o christ_n she_o will_v take_v occasion_n to_o utter_v many_o goodly_a doctrine_n and_o sentence_n which_o be_v of_o great_a force_n and_o efficacy_n to_o stir_v up_o the_o mind_n of_o the_o hearer_n to_o the_o love_n of_o christ_n crucify_v among_o other_o thing_n she_o affirm_v constant_o that_o our_o saviour_n christ_n do_v from_o the_o very_a hour_n of_o his_o conception_n to_o the_o end_n of_o his_o life_n bear_v a_o continual_a cross_n in_o his_o hart_n and_o of_o this_o doctrine_n she_o give_v a_o very_a good_a reason_n after_o this_o manner_n be_v it_o not_o most_o certain_a say_v she_o that_o our_o saviour_n christ_n the_o mediator_n between_o god_n and_o man_n true_a god_n and_o true_a man_n be_v at_o the_o very_a point_n of_o his_o conception_n replenish_v in_o the_o high_a and_o most_o perfect_v degree_n with_o all_o fullness_n of_o grace_n knowledge_n wisdom_n and_o charity_n in_o so_o much_o that_o it_o be_v not_o necessary_a for_o he_o to_o learn_v aught_o of_o any_o creature_n in_o heaven_n or_o in_o earth_n then_o be_v so_o replenish_v with_o charity_n it_o folw_v necessary_o that_o he_o have_v in_o himself_o the_o love_n both_o of_o god_n and_o also_o of_o his_o neighbour_n in_o the_o high_a perfection_n and_o be_v replenish_v with_o knowledge_n it_o follow_v likewise_o that_o he_o see_v most_o clear_o two_o point_n the_o one_o that_o almighty_a god_n be_v deprive_v of_o his_o honour_n fear_v and_o reverence_n that_o man_n owe_v unto_o he_o the_o other_o that_o man_n be_v deprive_v of_o everlasting_a bliss_n which_o be_v dew_n to_o he_o for_o the_o say_a honour_n fear_v and_o reverence_n and_o of_o this_o love_n and_o knowledge_n it_o must_v needs_o be_v that_o he_o bear_v a_o marvelous_a heavy_a and_o continual_a cross_n in_o his_o soul_n which_o have_v evermore_o such_o a_o great_a and_o vehement_a thirst_n to_o the_o honour_n of_o god_n and_o to_o the_o salvation_n of_o man_n and_o because_o he_o know_v that_o the_o
restitution_n both_o of_o the_o one_o and_o the_o other_o to_o wite_v both_o of_o the_o honour_n of_o god_n and_o also_o of_o the_o salvation_n of_o man_n be_v appoint_v by_o god_n to_o be_v wrought_v by_o the_o mean_a of_o his_o cross_n therefore_o he_o have_v evermore_o a_o marvelous_a great_a desir_n to_o come_v unto_o it_o which_o desire_n be_v undoubte_o a_o very_a cordial_a and_o continual_a cross_n unto_o he_o and_o never_o end_v until_o the_o time_n come_v that_o his_o body_n be_v in_o deed_n stretch_v out_o and_o nail_v upon_o the_o tree_n of_o the_o cross_n she_o reason_v yet_o further_o concern_v that_o cross_n of_o desire_n and_o say_v thus_o no_o man_n live_v be_v able_a to_o make_v a_o just_a estimate_n of_o the_o pain_n and_o torment_n that_o our_o saviour_n suffer_v in_o his_o hart_n by_o reason_n of_o the_o desire_n that_o he_o have_v to_o pay_v the_o debt_n of_o mankind_n to_o deliver_v they_o from_o the_o sentence_n of_o death_n and_o to_o bring_v they_o again_o into_o the_o favour_n of_o god_n they_o only_o that_o love_n god_n with_o all_o their_o hart_n with_o all_o their_o soul_n with_o all_o their_o strength_n and_o their_o neighbour_n as_o themselves_o may_v guess_v in_o some_o degree_n what_o his_o pain_n be_v such_o good_a man_n may_v judge_v in_o part_n by_o the_o love_n that_o they_o have_v themselves_o to_o the_o honour_n of_o god_n and_o salvation_n of_o man_n and_o by_o the_o grief_n that_o they_o feel_v in_o themselves_o when_o the_o thing_n that_o they_o love_v be_v either_o take_v away_o or_o long_o delay_v what_o his_o grief_n be_v they_o may_v judge_v i_o say_v in_o part_n &_o not_o perfect_o forsomuch_o as_o the_o love_n that_o man_n have_v or_o can_v have_v to_o the_o honour_n of_o god_n and_o salvation_n of_o man_n be_v it_o never_o so_o great_a be_v nothge_v in_o comparison_n of_o that_o pass_a great_a love_n that_o be_v in_o the_o hart_n of_o our_o saviour_n christ_n and_o therefore_o the_o desire_n that_o he_o have_v to_o recover_v both_o the_o one_o and_o the_o other_o must_v needs_o cawse_v in_o he_o a_o great_a sorrow_n without_o all_o comparison_n than_o ever_o be_v or_o can_v be_v in_o man_n until_o he_o see_v a_o effectual_a and_o perfect_v restitution_n make_v to_o god_n of_o his_o honour_n and_o reverence_n to_o man_n of_o his_o former_a state_n of_o grace_n in_o this_o present_a life_n and_o of_o glory_n in_o the_o life_n to_o come_v and_o thus_o much_o he_o signify_v to_o his_o disciple_n when_o he_o say_v those_o word_n i_o have_v have_v a_o earnest_a desire_n to_o eat_v this_o passover_o with_o you_o and_o afterwards_o likewise_o when_o in_o his_o prayer_n to_o god_n the_o father_n he_o say_v father_n take_v away_o this_o cup_n from_o i_o which_o be_v as_o if_o he_o have_v say_v in_o plain_a word_n father_n i_o see_v here_o prepare_v for_o i_o a_o very_a bitter_a cup_n of_o most_o sharp_a torment_n and_o death_n which_o i_o have_v droncke_v continual_o in_o desire_n even_o from_o the_o hour_n of_o my_o conception_n but_o now_o do_v begin_v to_o drink_v the_o same_o in_o deed_n and_o so_o to_o make_v a_o end_n of_o drink_v this_o painful_a potion_n of_o the_o cross_n which_o i_o desire_v thou_o to_o hasten_v and_o bring_v to_o a_o end_n for_o that_o be_v once_o pass_v and_o go_v i_o shall_v reap_v the_o fruit_n of_o my_o long_a and_o earnest_a desire_n to_o wit_n i_o shall_v have_v fulfil_v my_o obedience_n in_o all_o point_n to_o thou_o restitution_n shall_v be_v make_v perfect_o to_o god_n of_o his_o due_a honour_n to_o man_n of_o his_o foreme_a state_n and_o i_o desire_v not_o to_o have_v this_o cup_n of_o my_o passion_n take_v away_o which_o thou_o have_v here_o make_v ready_a for_o i_o which_o i_o take_v at_o thy_o fatherly_a hand_n like_o a_o obedient_a son_n and_o drink_v it_o willing_o but_o i_o desire_v to_o have_v that_o cup_n take_v away_o from_o i_o and_o end_v which_o i_o have_v droncke_v with_o such_o a_o earnest_n and_o greedy_a desire_n so_o many_o year_n for_o the_o love_n that_o i_o bear_v to_o thy_o honour_n and_o to_o the_o salvation_n of_o mankind_n this_o be_v the_o exposition_n that_o she_o make_v upon_o this_o place_n of_o the_o gospel_n against_o the_o which_o because_o it_o seem_v strange_a and_o singular_a her_o ghostly_a father_n doctor_n raimundus_n reason_v after_o this_o manner_n mother_n say_v he_o you_o know_v that_o the_o holy_a father_n do_v common_o geve_v a_o other_o interpretation_n to_o this_o place_n almost_o contrary_a to_o this_o that_o you_o have_v say_v they_o say_v that_o our_o lord_n desire_v in_o deed_n rather_o not_o to_o drink_v that_o cup_n then_o to_o drink_v it_o meaning_n thereby_o to_o declare_v to_o we_o that_o he_o be_v true_a man_n and_o that_o as_o true_a man_n his_o flesh_n do_v natural_o abhor_v death_n as_o the_o flesh_n of_o every_o man_n do_v and_o by_o this_o he_o will_v geve_v a_o doctrine_n and_o withal_o a_o example_n in_o himself_o to_o all_o weak_a and_o frail_a man_n that_o they_o shall_v not_o be_v dismay_v though_o they_o feel_v in_o themselves_o that_o they_o do_v fear_v death_n forsomuch_o as_o the_o like_a fear_n &_o frailty_n be_v see_v in_o our_o head_n also_o who_o take_v upon_o he_o all_o our_o infirmity_n only_o sin_n except_v to_o this_o the_o holy_a maid_n make_v answer_v thus_o father_n say_v she_o i_o know_v right_a well_o that_o the_o holy_a doctor_n do_v expound_v this_o place_n as_o you_o have_v say_v and_o i_o find_v no_o fault_n with_o their_o exposition_n and_o though_o this_o interpretation_n that_o our_o lord_n have_v teach_v i_o seem_v diverse_a or_o almost_o contrary_a as_o you_o think_v to_o that_o yet_o be_v it_o very_o true_a and_o may_v well_o stand_v with_o the_o common_a exposition_n of_o the_o holy_a father_n father_n it_o be_v certain_a that_o our_o saviour_n christ_n be_v head_n not_o only_o of_o the_o weak_a and_o frail_a that_o fear_n and_o flee_v death_n but_o also_o of_o the_o strong_a and_o mighty_a that_o bear_v it_o manful_o and_o yield_v not_o to_o the_o fear_n and_o shrynk_v of_o the_o flesh_n and_o therefore_o he_o will_v in_o this_o act_n and_o word_n geve_v a_o doctrine_n and_o example_n to_o they_o both_o he_o will_v tremble_v and_o fear_v and_o desire_v that_o the_o bitter_a cup_n of_o his_o passion_n may_v pass_v away_o to_o geve_v a_o example_n to_o the_o weak_a that_o they_o may_v likewise_o fear_v and_o flee_v death_n without_o any_o offence_n if_o they_o have_v no_o commandment_n from_o god_n to_o the_o contrary_a he_o will_v also_o overcome_v that_o fear_n and_o quake_v of_o the_o flesh_n by_o the_o force_n of_o reason_n and_o zeal_n of_o god_n honour_n and_o desire_v his_o father_n to_o hasten_v that_o cup_n of_o his_o passion_n and_o death_n to_o geve_v a_o example_n to_o the_o strong_a that_o they_o shall_v not_o yield_v to_o the_o frailty_n of_o the_o flesh_n and_o shrink_v at_o the_o terror_n of_o death_n but_o follow_v the_o direction_n of_o the_o spirit_n and_o offer_v themselves_o valiant_o to_o torment_n and_o to_o death_n itself_o when_o by_o so_o do_v they_o may_v either_o honour_n god_n or_o edify_v their_o neighbour_n and_o i_o see_v no_o cause_n why_o one_o place_n of_o the_o scripture_n shall_v not_o have_v many_o interpretation_n forsomuch_o as_o the_o holy_a scripture_n as_o you_o know_v have_v many_o sense_n and_o meanynge_n which_o the_o holy_a ghost_n have_v so_o ordain_v that_o the_o holy_a scripture_n may_v serve_v diverse_a and_o sundry_a person_n to_o diverse_a and_o sundry_a effect_n as_o we_o see_v this_o present_a text_n be_v diverse_o expound_v serve_v man_n of_o diverse_a quality_n to_o very_o good_a purpose_n the_o weak_a for_o a_o refuge_n if_o they_o retire_v and_o save_v themselves_o the_o strong_a for_o a_o warrant_n if_o they_o step_v forewardes_o and_o offer_v themselves_o to_o evident_a danger_n for_o god_n sake_n then_o if_o you_o ask_v i_o how_o these_o two_o interpretation_n may_v stand_v together_o the_o one_o be_v contrary_a to_o the_o other_o for_o by_o the_o one_o our_o saviour_n require_v that_o the_o cup_n of_o his_o passion_n may_v be_v hasten_v by_o the_o other_o that_o it_o may_v pass_v away_o i_o answer_v that_o i_o take_v it_o for_o none_o inconvenience_n that_o in_o that_o agony_n he_o shall_v have_v those_o two_o contrary_a effect_n in_o himself_o the_o one_o according_a to_o the_o flesh_n who_o property_n it_o be_v natural_o to_o repine_v at_o any_o thing_n that_o may_v hurt_v the_o other_o according_a to_o the_o spirit_n which_o look_v to_o the_o honour_n of_o god_n and_o salvation_n of_o mankind_n desire_v earnest_o the_o bitter_a cup_n of_o his_o death_n by_o the_o drink_n whereof_o he_o know_v
that_o goodly_a light_n and_o to_o return_v again_o to_o dwell_v in_o his_o former_a dark_a and_o stinkinge_v dungeon_n o_o good_a father_n i_o be_o that_o wretched_a creature_n upon_o who_o this_o calamity_n be_v fall_v by_o the_o ordinance_n of_o god_n for_o my_o sin_n how_o so_o say_v he_o forsooth_o say_v she_o the_o fire_n of_o god_n love_n be_v at_o that_o time_n so_o strong_a in_o my_o heart_n and_o the_o desire_n which_o i_o have_v to_o be_v unite_v to_o he_o so_o vehement_a that_o though_o my_o hart_n have_v be_v of_o stone_n or_o of_o iron_n it_o must_v needs_o have_v break_v in_o sunder_o and_o therefore_o i_o geve_v you_o thus_o much_o to_o understand_v for_o certain_a that_o my_o hart_n be_v in_o deed_n undo_v and_o open_v from_o the_o uppermost_a part_n to_o the_o neither_o only_o by_o the_o violence_n of_o that_o mighty_a love_n which_o i_o believe_v be_v of_o such_o force_n that_o no_o creature_n in_o this_o world_n have_v be_v able_a to_o abide_v it_o in_o so_o much_o that_o i_o think_v i_o feel_v yet_o certain_a token_n of_o that_o clefte_a in_o my_o hart_n and_o so_o often_o as_o it_o come_v to_o my_o mind_n what_o a_o blesful_a state_n my_o soul_n be_v in_o in_o that_o mean_a time_n while_o it_o be_v separate_v from_o my_o body_n i_o can_v not_o but_o weep_v &_o lament_v for_o my_o return_n again_o to_o this_o vale_n of_o misery_n with_o that_o her_o confessor_n pray_v she_o that_o she_o will_v make_v a_o declaration_n of_o the_o whole_a matter_n from_o the_o beginning_a whereunto_o she_o make_v answer_v and_o say_v father_n after_o that_o i_o have_v be_v feed_v and_o comfort_v a_o long_a time_n with_o diverse_a and_o sundry_a revelation_n and_o vision_n which_o it_o please_v our_o lord_n of_o his_o great_a mercy_n to_o show_v unto_o i_o at_o length_n for_o very_o pure_a love_n i_o fall_v so_o sick_a that_o i_o be_v constrain_v to_o keep_v my_o bed_n where_o lie_v i_o make_v my_o humble_a petition_n to_o our_o lord_n that_o he_o will_v vouchsafe_v to_o deliver_v i_o out_o of_o this_o wretched_a wordle_n and_o unite_v i_o perfect_o to_o himself_o which_o petition_n as_o then_o he_o will_v not_o hear_v but_o yet_o he_o grant_v i_o thus_o much_o that_o i_o shall_v suffer_v in_o the_o time_n of_o my_o abode_n in_o this_o life_n all_o the_o pain_n of_o his_o cross_n and_o passion_n by_o the_o suffer_v whereof_o i_o shall_v both_o learn_v the_o better_a how_o pass_v great_a his_o love_n be_v towards_o i_o and_o also_o be_v stir_v by_o the_o example_n of_o his_o unspeakable_a love_n in_o some_o degree_n to_o love_v he_o again_o and_o so_o in_o deed_n it_o come_v to_o pass_v that_o see_v as_o it_o be_v by_o a_o evident_a experience_n in_o myself_o how_o great_a love_n our_o saviour_n bare_a to_o i_o and_o how_o intolerable_a pain_n he_o suffer_v for_o my_o sake_n i_o be_v whole_o overcome_v with_o the_o force_n of_o such_o inestimable_a kindness_n and_o my_o hart_n be_v not_o able_a to_o bear_v the_o strength_n of_o so_o much_o love_n as_o it_o have_v conceive_v break_v in_o sunder_o by_o reason_n whereof_o my_o soul_n be_v also_o deliver_v out_o of_o this_o mortal_a body_n and_o have_v the_o fruition_n of_o his_o divine_a majesty_n howbeit_o but_o for_o a_o little_a time_n which_o be_v my_o great_a grief_n then_o say_v doctor_n raimundus_n to_o she_o i_o pray_v you_o good_a mother_n tell_v i_o how_o long_o be_v your_o soul_n out_o of_o your_o body_n and_o what_o thing_n do_v you_o see_v in_o that_o time_n with_o that_o she_o fetch_v a_o deep_a sigh_n &_o say_v faher_n those_o that_o be_v about_o my_o body_n &_o make_v preparation_n for_o my_o burial_n say_v that_o it_o be_v about_o a_o four_o hour_n in_o the_o which_o time_n i_o see_v the_o divine_a essence_n of_o almighty_a god_n which_o cause_v i_o now_o to_o live_v with_o such_o discontentation_n of_o mind_n and_o mislike_v of_o all_o thing_n here_o in_o the_o world_n and_o have_v it_o not_o be_v for_o the_o zeal_n that_o i_o have_v to_o the_o honour_n of_o god_n and_o edify_v of_o my_o even_a christian_n for_o who_o sake_n my_o soul_n be_v restore_v again_o to_o the_o body_n without_o all_o doubt_n i_o must_v needs_o have_v dye_v for_o sorrow_n and_o now_o the_o great_a comfort_n that_o i_o have_v in_o the_o world_n be_v that_o i_o know_v and_o be_o well_o assure_v that_o the_o more_o i_o suffer_v in_o this_o life_n the_o more_o bless_a i_o shall_v be_v in_o the_o life_n to_o come_v and_o therefore_o all_o tribulation_n be_v to_o i_o not_o uncomfortable_a and_o yrckesome_a but_o rather_o comfortable_a as_o you_o see_v and_o deliteful_a i_o see_v also_o the_o pain_n of_o the_o damn_a in_o hell_n and_o of_o those_o likewise_o that_o be_v in_o purgatory_n which_o be_v so_o great_a that_o no_o tongue_n of_o man_n be_v able_a to_o express_v they_o i_o assure_v you_o father_n if_o wretched_a sinner_n might_n see_v those_o horrible_a pain_n and_o torment_n they_o will_v rather_o choose_v to_o suffer_v a_o hundred_o death_n in_o this_o world_n if_o it_o be_v possible_a then_o to_o endure_v the_o least_o pain_n that_o be_v there_o for_o the_o space_n of_o one_o day_n but_o above_o other_o i_o see_v that_o they_o be_v special_o punish_v which_o have_v break_v their_o faith_n and_o promise_v give_v in_o matrimony_n not_o keepinge_v themselves_o within_o the_o honest_a bound_n and_o yoke_n of_o wedlock_n but_o follow_v the_o inordinate_a lust_n of_o their_o flesh_n and_o sensuality_n which_o be_v so_o ordain_v not_o because_o the_o breach_n of_o weddelocke_n be_v the_o most_o heinous_a offence_n that_o be_v there_o punish_v for_o there_o be_v many_o great_a sin_n but_o because_o the_o offender_n in_o this_o vice_n for_o the_o most_o part_n have_v never_o have_v any_o remorse_n of_o conscience_n for_o this_o offence_n as_o they_o have_v for_o the_o rest_n of_o their_o sin_n and_o also_o because_o they_o have_v common_o fall_v more_o often_o into_o this_o sin_n then_o to_o any_o other_o for_o many_o time_n a_o sin_n which_o be_v in_o itself_o not_o so_o great_a displease_v god_n high_o if_o it_o be_v oftentimes_o commit_v and_o no_o care_n have_v of_o amendment_n by_o contrition_n and_o penance_n now_o when_o i_o have_v see_v all_o these_o thing_n and_o have_v conceive_v withal_o a_o most_o certain_a hope_n that_o for_o my_o own_o part_n i_o be_v pass_v all_o pain_n and_o come_v to_o a_o state_n of_o all_o joy_n and_o gladness_n our_o lord_n say_v unto_o i_o daughter_n see_v thou_o not_o these_o unhappy_a sinner_n and_z transgressors_n of_o my_o law_n on_o the_o one_o side_n what_o joy_n they_o have_v lose_v and_o on_o the_o other_o side_n what_o pain_n they_o have_v find_v for_o this_o cause_n have_v i_o show_v these_o thing_n to_o thou_o because_o i_o will_v have_v thou_o to_o return_v again_o into_o the_o world_n to_o declare_v to_o my_o people_n their_o sin_n and_o iniquity_n and_o withal_o the_o great_a peril_n and_o pain_n that_o hang_v over_o they_o if_o they_o will_v not_o amend_v when_o i_o hear_v that_o i_o shall_v return_v to_o the_o world_n again_o i_o be_v strike_v with_o a_o marvelous_a great_a fear_n and_o horror_n whereupon_o our_o lord_n to_o comfort_v i_o again_o speak_v thus_o sweet_o unto_o i_o daughter_n there_o be_v a_o great_a number_n of_o soul_n in_o the_o world_n which_o i_o will_v have_v to_o be_v save_v through_o thy_o mean_n and_o that_o be_v the_o cause_n why_o i_o send_v thou_o thither_o again_o wherefore_o go_v thy_o way_n with_o a_o good_a will_n and_o be_v of_o good_a comfort_n from_o this_o time_n forward_o my_o will_n be_v that_o thou_o shall_v change_v the_o order_n of_o thy_o life_n thou_o shall_v no_o more_o keep_v within_o thy_o cell_n but_o go_v abroad_o into_o the_o world_n to_o win_v soul_n thou_o shall_v bear_v my_o name_n before_o all_o sort_n of_o man_n high_a and_o low_o clerk_n and_o secular_a i_o will_v bring_v thou_o before_o the_o bishop_n and_o head_n prelate_n in_o my_o church_n to_o confownd_v their_o pride_n be_v not_o afraid_a to_o confer_v with_o they_o in_o high_a point_n concern_v the_o salvation_n of_o soul_n for_o i_o will_v geve_v thou_o a_o wit_n to_o conceive_v and_o withal_o a_o mouth_n to_o speak_v in_o such_o sort_n that_o none_o shall_v be_v able_a to_o withstand_v thou_o while_o our_o lord_n speak_v these_o word_n to_o i_o of_o a_o sudden_a my_o soul_n be_v restore_v to_o the_o body_n the_o which_o when_o i_o perceive_v for_o very_a sorrow_n i_o weep_v three_o day_n and_o three_o night_n and_o never_o cease_v and_o yet_o to_o this_o day_n i_o can_v not_o possible_o abstain_v from_o weep_v when_o it_o come_v to_o my_o mind_n how_o i_o
be_v deprive_v of_o that_o pass_a great_a joy_n and_o felicity_n and_o send_v back_o again_o to_o this_o dark_a prison_n of_o my_o body_n thus_o much_o i_o think_v good_a to_o signify_v to_o you_o father_n and_o to_o other_o also_o for_o this_o end_n that_o when_o you_o understand_v what_o a_o blesful_a state_n of_o life_n i_o have_v forego_v for_o a_o time_n god_n know_v how_o long_o and_o that_o i_o have_v forego_v the_o same_o by_o the_o ordinance_n of_o god_n for_o the_o weal_n and_o edifing_n of_o soul_n you_o shall_v not_o marvel_v hereafter_o if_o you_o see_v that_o i_o bear_v a_o great_a love_n to_o they_o who_o have_v cost_v i_o so_o dear_a and_o that_o to_o win_v they_o to_o god_n i_o do_v alter_v the_o state_n of_o my_o life_n and_o converse_v with_o they_o more_o familiar_o than_o i_o have_v do_v hitherto_o when_o doctor_n raimundus_n have_v hear_v thus_o much_o he_o give_v a_o great_a charge_n to_o as_o many_o as_o be_v present_a of_o the_o brethren_n and_o sister_n that_o they_o shall_v in_o no_o wise_n utter_v any_o part_n of_o her_o talk_n so_o long_o as_o she_o live_v for_o be_v a_o wise_a man_n he_o see_v that_o wordly_a person_n such_o as_o have_v not_o whole_o and_o perfect_o subject_v all_o their_o understand_v to_o the_o power_n of_o christ_n be_v like_a to_o take_v more_o harm_n by_o it_o then_o good_a and_o he_o see_v then_o present_o by_o experience_n that_o some_o of_o she_o own_o scholar_n which_o have_v before_o that_o time_n hear_v and_o follow_v her_o doctrine_n go_v backward_o because_o they_o be_v not_o able_a to_o apprehend_v the_o high_a mystery_n that_o she_o utter_v unto_o they_o but_o after_o her_o death_n fear_v lest_o he_o shall_v have_v offend_v god_n if_o he_o have_v conceal_v such_o great_a work_n and_o wonder_n he_o commit_v all_o to_o writing_n for_o the_o benefit_n of_o the_o posterity_n for_o further_a confirmation_n whereof_o i_o think_v it_o not_o amiss_o to_o towch_v brief_o a_o very_a notable_a thing_n that_o it_o please_v our_o lord_n to_o work_v by_o she_o while_o she_o be_v so_o separate_v from_o her_o body_n at_o what_o time_n this_o holy_a maid_n draw_v near_o to_o her_o death_n to_o the_o seem_n of_o such_o as_o be_v about_o she_o there_o resort_v unto_o her_o diverse_a and_o sundry_a of_o her_o spiritual_a child_n to_o see_v the_o manner_n of_o her_o passage_n and_o with_o they_o many_o devout_a person_n both_o man_n and_o woman_n by_o who_o her_o confessor_n doctor_n thomas_n be_v also_o send_v for_o to_o be_v present_a at_o her_o departure_n and_o to_o help_v she_o as_o the_o manner_n be_v with_o the_o prayer_n and_o sacrament_n of_o holy_a church_n who_o come_v speedy_o and_o three_o other_o of_o his_o brethren_n with_o he_o when_o they_o see_v that_o she_o have_v give_v up_o the_o ghost_n they_o lament_v all_o for_o the_o loss_n of_o their_o dear_a mother_n but_o above_o the_o rest_n one_o of_o the_o religious_a brethren_n who_o name_n be_v brother_n john_n of_o sienna_n sorrow_a so_o much_o and_o weep_v so_o vehement_o that_o he_o break_v a_o vain_a in_o his_o breast_n by_o reason_n whereof_o he_o cough_v and_o avoid_v great_a gobbette_n of_o blood_n which_o be_v a_o occasion_n of_o double_a sorrow_n to_o as_o many_o as_o be_v there_o for_o both_o they_o lament_v the_o decease_n of_o the_o holy_a virgin_n which_o be_v already_o go_v and_o also_o the_o peril_n of_o that_o good_a man_n who_o with_o such_o pain_n be_v not_o like_a to_o continue_v long_o after_o whereupon_o doctor_n thomas_n her_o confessor_n be_v inward_o move_v with_o compassion_n say_v to_o that_o sick_a friar_n with_o a_o great_a faith_n and_o affiance_n in_o god_n brother_n john_n you_o know_v that_o this_o holy_a maid_n be_v of_o very_o great_a merit_n and_o estimation_n in_o the_o sight_n of_o almighty_a god_n for_o her_o virtuous_a conversation_n wherefore_o take_v her_o hand_n and_o put_v it_o to_o the_o place_n of_o your_o body_n where_o you_o feel_v yourself_o aggrieve_v and_o i_o doubt_v not_o but_o that_o you_o shall_v find_v help_n and_o comfort_n he_o do_v as_o he_o be_v will_v and_o forthwith_o the_o disease_n of_o his_o breast_n leave_v he_o and_o never_o come_v again_o so_o long_o as_o he_o live_v there_o be_v present_a at_o all_o these_o do_n beside_o these_o afore_o name_v one_o of_o her_o spiritual_a daughter_n call_v alexa_n who_o depart_v out_o of_o this_o wordle_n not_o long_o after_o there_o be_v also_o two_o other_o of_o the_o sister_n of_o penance_n who_o come_v to_o make_v the_o body_n ready_a for_o the_o burial_n one_o of_o they_o be_v name_v catherine_n which_o have_v be_v her_o companion_n long_a time_n in_o religion_n the_o other_o be_v her_o cousin_n and_o be_v call_v pisa_n these_o spiritual_a person_n with_o many_o other_o give_v testimony_n for_o the_o truth_n of_o all_o this_o matter_n but_o above_o all_o other_o friar_z john_n do_v not_o only_o testify_v it_o in_o word_n as_o other_o do_v but_o also_o declare_v the_o manner_n of_o it_o and_o affirm_v it_o constant_o in_o all_o place_n wheresoever_o he_o become_v how_o she_o have_v a_o marvelous_a devotion_n and_o long_v after_o the_o bless_a sacrament_n and_o how_o she_o bear_v many_o reproach_n and_o slander_n for_o the_o same_o chap._n 30._o this_o holy_a maid_n have_v such_o a_o earnest_n long_v after_o the_o bless_a sacrament_n of_o our_o lord_n body_n and_o blood_n and_o receive_v the_o same_o so_o often_o that_o many_o of_o they_o that_o resort_v to_o that_o church_n and_o see_v she_o very_o often_o at_o the_o altar_n to_o receive_v suppose_v that_o she_o have_v communicate_v daily_a which_o be_v a_o occasion_n of_o great_a trouble_n both_o to_o she_o and_o to_o her_o confessor_n by_o certain_a undiscreet_a and_o ignorant_a person_n who_o be_v puff_v up_o with_o a_o opinion_n of_o knowledge_n and_o withal_o pretend_v some_o colour_n of_o piety_n say_v that_o her_o often_o receive_v be_v not_o to_o be_v like_v because_o it_o will_v in_o time_n cause_v she_o to_o have_v the_o bless_a sacrament_n in_o less_o reverence_n and_o estimation_n which_o vain_a and_o ignorant_a supposition_n her_o confessor_n answer_v very_o learned_o allege_v most_o certain_a and_o infallible_a ground_n first_o out_o of_o the_o act_n of_o the_o apostle_n where_o it_o be_v write_v by_o s._n luke_n that_o the_o disciple_n of_o christ_n and_o such_o as_o be_v new_o turn_v to_o the_o faith_n by_o they_o do_v continue_v daily_o in_o break_v of_o bread_n that_o be_v in_o receive_v of_o the_o bless_a sacrament_n then_o also_o out_o of_o s._n denyse_n s._n paul_n scholar_n who_o declare_v likewise_o in_o his_o book_n entitle_v ecclesiastica_fw-la hierarchia_fw-la that_o in_o the_o primitive_a church_n the_o faithful_a people_n do_v use_v to_o communicate_v every_o day_n and_o last_o of_o all_o out_o of_o the_o holy_a gospel_n where_o we_o be_v teach_v by_o our_o saviour_n himself_o to_o say_v in_o our_o daily_a prayer_n geve_v we_o this_o day_n our_o daily_a bread_n which_o bread_n may_v in_o deed_n signify_v our_o bodily_a food_n and_o sustenance_n but_o not_o only_o nor_o principal_o for_o the_o bread_n that_o we_o ought_v principal_o to_o seek_v at_o god_n hand_n every_o day_n be_v the_o bread_n of_o our_o soul_n or_o rather_o to_o speak_v true_o the_o bread_n of_o our_o soul_n and_o body_n which_o be_v the_o body_n and_o blood_n of_o our_o saviour_n christ_n real_o &_o substantial_o minister_v unto_o the_o faithful_a people_n in_o the_o church_n under_o the_o form_n of_o bread_n in_o the_o holy_a sacrament_n of_o the_o altar_n but_o contrariwise_o for_o confirmation_n of_o their_o opinion_n they_o allege_v to_o the_o holy_a maid_n a_o say_n of_o s._n augustine_n who_o word_n be_v these_o to_o communicate_v daily_o be_v a_o thing_n which_o i_o neither_o praise_v nor_o blame_v which_o fond_a allegatiton_n she_o answer_v herself_o very_o pretty_o say_v if_o it_o be_v so_o say_v she_o that_o s._n augustine_n will_v not_o blame_v i_o wherefore_o do_v you_o blame_v i_o as_o who_o shall_v say_v if_o s._n augustine_n who_o be_v a_o great_a learned_a man_n and_o know_v how_o to_o directe_v his_o judgement_n by_o the_o rule_n of_o god_n word_n dare_v not_o take_v upon_o he_o to_o determine_v the_o matter_n lest_o he_o shall_v seem_v to_o set_v himself_o a_o judge_n over_o other_o man_n conscience_n how_o dare_v you_o to_o judge_v of_o my_o conscience_n and_o to_o blame_v i_o for_o often_o receive_v consider_v that_o the_o thing_n be_v in_o itself_o indifferent_a be_v make_v either_o very_o good_a or_o very_a evel_n according_a to_o the_o disposition_n of_o the_o person_n that_o receive_v very_o good_a and_o wholesome_a if_o it_o be_v receive_v worthy_o very_o evel_a and_o pernicious_a if_o it_o
affection_n towards_o the_o church_n of_o god_n so_o do_v those_o wicked_a fiend_n increase_v their_o cruelty_n towards_o she_o beat_v and_o bounce_n her_o day_n and_o night_n and_o withal_o fill_v her_o ear_n with_o their_o most_o horrible_a cry_n say_v o_o thou_o curse_a wretch_n thou_o have_v ever_o be_v against_o us._n but_o be_v thou_o well_o assure_v the_o time_n be_v now_o come_v that_o we_o will_v be_v even_o with_o thou_o thou_o have_v oftentimes_o disappoint_v we_o of_o our_o purpose_n and_o therefore_o now_o we_o will_v never_o geve_v thou_o over_o until_o we_o have_v make_v a_o full_a riddance_n of_o thou_o in_o such_o sort_n that_o thou_o shall_v never_o be_v able_a to_o hinder_v we_o any_o more_o thus_o much_o the_o holy_a maid_n write_v herself_o in_o a_o letter_n to_o doctor_n raimundus_n her_o ghostly_a father_n and_o so_o she_o continue_v in_o such_o vexation_n and_o torment_n from_o the_o sunday_n of_o septuagesima_fw-la until_o the_o last_o save_v one_o of_o april_n on_o the_o which_o day_n it_o please_v our_o lord_n to_o call_v she_o out_o of_o this_o life_n how_o the_o holy_a maid_n obtain_v by_o prayer_n that_o she_o may_v satisfy_v the_o justice_n of_o god_n for_o the_o pain_n dwe_v to_o her_o father_n in_o purgatory_n chap._n 8._o when_o james_n this_o holy_a maid_n father_n see_v that_o his_o daughter_n be_v whole_o give_v to_o the_o service_n of_o god_n as_o it_o have_v be_v declare_v in_o the_o first_o part_n of_o this_o book_n he_o cast_v a_o very_a special_a love_n and_o affection_n to_o she_o and_o entreat_v she_o in_o his_o house_n with_o great_a respect_n and_o reverence_n and_o have_v this_o opinion_n of_o she_o that_o she_o be_v able_a to_o obtain_v at_o god_n hand_n for_o he_o what_o she_o will_v and_o she_o likewise_o bare_a a_o very_a singular_a love_n and_o reverence_n to_o her_o father_n and_o commend_v his_o health_n to_o god_n in_o her_o daily_a prayer_n in_o most_o earnest_a manner_n it_o chance_v that_o her_o father_n fall_v into_o a_o very_a grievous_a sickness_n &_o keep_v his_o bed_n the_o which_o when_o she_o understand_v she_o turn_v herself_o to_o god_n in_o prayer_n after_o her_o accustom_a manner_n and_o beseech_v he_o that_o her_o father_n may_v recover_v again_o but_o answer_n be_v give_v she_o from_o god_n that_o the_o end_n of_o his_o day_n in_o this_o life_n be_v come_v and_o that_o it_o be_v not_o expedient_a for_o he_o to_o live_v any_o long_o with_o that_o she_o go_v forthwith_o to_o her_o father_n to_o visit_v he_o and_o to_o examine_v he_o how_o he_o be_v dispose_v in_o his_o soul_n and_o find_v he_o ready_a and_o willing_a to_o pass_v out_o of_o this_o wordle_n whensoever_o it_o shall_v please_v god_n to_o call_v he_o whereof_o she_o be_v very_o glad_a and_o thank_v our_o lord_n with_o all_o her_o hart_n then_o she_o pray_v furthermore_o that_o see_v our_o lord_n have_v vouchsafe_v to_o call_v her_o father_n out_o of_o this_o life_n in_o the_o state_n of_o salvation_n it_o may_v also_o stand_v with_o his_o holy_a will_n and_o pleasure_n to_o make_v he_o this_o grant_n that_o he_o may_v pass_v out_o of_o hand_n to_o the_o joy_n of_o heaven_n &_o not_o be_v stay_v any_o time_n in_o the_o pain_n of_o purgatory_n whereunto_o our_o lord_n make_v her_o answer_n that_o the_o order_n of_o justice_n must_v needs_o be_v observe_v which_o will_v not_o bear_v that_o any_o soul_n shall_v have_v the_o fruition_n of_o those_o unspeakable_a joy_n unless_o it_o be_v most_o perfect_o purge_v before_o and_o though_o her_o father_n have_v lead_v a_o convenient_a good_a life_n in_o his_o vocation_n and_o have_v do_v many_o good_a work_n also_o which_o be_v very_o acceptable_a in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n of_o the_o which_o one_o principal_a work_n be_v the_o maintain_v of_o she_o in_o religion_n yet_o there_o remain_v some_o rust_n of_o earthly_a conversation_n which_o of_o right_n must_v be_v try_v out_o with_o the_o fire_n of_o purgatory_n when_o she_o hear_v that_o she_o make_v her_o prayer_n to_o our_o lord_n after_o this_o manner_n o_o most_o merciful_a lord_n how_o may_v i_o abide_v that_o the_o soul_n of_o my_o dear_a father_n who_o thou_o have_v appoint_v to_o be_v the_o mean_a to_o bring_v i_o into_o this_o wordle_n by_o who_o i_o have_v be_v so_o careful_o provide_v for_o in_o my_o tender_a age_n at_o who_o hand_n i_o have_v receive_v so_o many_o comfort_n and_o relief_n by_o who_o handy_a labour_n and_o charge_n i_o have_v be_v maintain_v thus_o main_a year_n in_o thy_o service_n shall_v now_o be_v torment_v with_o the_o pain_n of_o purgatory_n i_o beseech_v thou_o o_o father_n of_o mercy_n and_o god_n of_o all_o comfort_n for_o all_o the_o love_a kindness_n that_o ever_o thou_o have_v show_v to_o mankind_n that_o thou_o will_v not_o suffer_v my_o father_n soul_n to_o depart_v out_o of_o his_o body_n until_o it_o be_v by_o one_o mean_a or_o other_o so_o perfect_o try_v and_o purify_v that_o it_o need_v no_o further_o purgation_n a_o wonderful_a thing_n to_o consider_v after_o the_o time_n that_o the_o holy_a maid_n have_v say_v those_o word_n it_o be_v evident_o see_v that_o her_o father_n body_n decay_v more_o and_o more_o as_o it_o do_v before_o to_o ward_n death_n all_o his_o power_n fail_v sensible_o in_o such_o sort_n that_o all_o man_n see_v by_o the_o course_n of_o nature_n it_o can_v not_o continue_v any_o tyme._n and_o yet_o for_o so_o long_a time_n as_o she_o continue_v in_o prayer_n wrestle_v as_o it_o be_v with_o almighty_a god_n and_o labour_v to_o incline_v he_o in_o some_o degree_n if_o it_o be_v possible_a from_o justice_n to_o mercy_n they_o may_v perceive_v that_o his_o soul_n be_v hold_v in_o his_o body_n by_o some_o spiritual_a power_n and_o can_v in_o no_o wise_a depart_n at_o the_o length_n when_o she_o see_v that_o the_o justice_n of_o god_n must_v needs_o be_v satisfy_v she_o say_v thus_o o_o most_o merciful_a lord_n if_o it_o can_v not_o otherwise_o be_v but_o that_o thy_o justice_n must_v be_v answer_v i_o beseech_v thou_o turn_v thy_o justice_n upon_o i_o &_o whatsoever_o pain_n thou_o have_v appoint_v for_o my_o father_n lay_v the_o same_o upon_o my_o body_n &_o i_o will_v willing_o bear_v they_o to_o that_o our_o lord_n consent_v &_o say_v unto_o she_o daughter_n for_o the_o love_n that_o thou_o bear_v to_o i_o i_o be_o content_a to_o grant_v thou_o thy_o petition_n &_o to_o transpose_v the_o pain_n due_a to_o thy_o father_n &_o to_o lay_v the_o same_o upon_o thou_o which_o thou_o shall_v bear_v in_o thy_o body_n so_o long_o as_o thou_o live_v with_o that_o she_o thank_v god_fw-we most_o humble_o and_o say_v o_o lord_n thy_o judgement_n be_v all_o just_a be_v it_o do_v to_o i_o as_o thou_o have_v determine_v and_o so_o she_o make_v haste_n towards_o her_o father_n who_o lie_v in_o extreme_n and_o she_o comfort_v he_o marvellous_o with_o that_o glad_a tiding_n &_o go_v not_o from_o he_o until_o he_o have_v give_fw-ge up_o the_o ghost_n so_o soon_o as_o her_o father_n be_v depart_v she_o feel_v herself_o forthwith_o pain_v with_o a_o grievous_a disease_n in_o her_o side_n call_v iliaca_fw-la passio_fw-la which_o never_o go_v from_o she_o so_o long_o as_o she_o live_v the_o which_o pain_n she_o bear_v not_o only_o patient_o but_o also_o cheerful_o conceive_v such_o a_o inward_a joy_n of_o that_o b._n state_n that_o she_o know_v her_o father_n be_v in_o that_o she_o little_o esteem_v the_o outward_a pain_n of_o she_o own_o body_n in_o so_o much_o that_o at_o the_o time_n of_o her_o father_n departure_n when_o all_o other_o that_o be_v present_a make_v great_a lamentation_n she_o smile_v sweet_o and_o show_v great_a gladness_n in_o her_o countenance_n say_v these_o word_n dear_a father_n will_v god_n i_o be_v as_o you_o be_v our_o lord_n be_v bless_v how_o the_o holy_a maid_n by_o prayer_n bring_v her_o mother_n to_o life_n again_o and_o so_o deliver_v she_o from_o the_o pain_n of_o hell_n chap._n 9_o as_o the_o holy_a maid_n show_v herself_o to_o be_v a_o very_a love_a and_o duetiful_a child_n towards_o her_o father_n so_o do_v she_o likewise_o afterwards_o show_v the_o like_a love_n and_o charity_n towards_o her_o mother_n as_o her_o duty_n require_v her_o mother_n lapa_n be_v very_o sick_a and_o her_o sickness_n grow_v on_o she_o every_o day_n more_o and_o more_o in_o such_o sort_n that_o there_o be_v see_v in_o her_o great_a token_n of_o death_n and_o small_a hope_n of_o life_n all_o the_o which_o notwithstanding_o she_o be_v so_o drown_v in_o the_o wordle_n that_o she_o may_v in_o no_o wise_n hear_v of_o death_n and_o be_v bring_v to_o confourme_v her_o will_n to_o the_o will_n of_o god_n when_o her_o daughter_n
the_o sister_n that_o be_v there_o with_o she_o at_o that_o time_n that_o when_o the_o holy_a maid_n come_v to_o herself_o again_o she_o shall_v desire_v she_o in_o his_o name_n and_o also_o charge_v she_o in_o the_o virtue_n of_o her_o obedience_n that_o she_o shall_v extend_v her_o charity_n towards_o that_o miserable_a man_n that_o lie_v on_o pass_v and_o pray_v to_o god_n hearty_o for_o his_o recovery_n when_o the_o holy_a maid_n understand_v the_o lamentable_a state_n of_o the_o sick_a man_n and_o withal_o the_o charge_n that_o be_v geaven_v she_o from_o her_o ghostly_a father_n she_o tarry_v not_o but_o forthwith_o set_v herself_o to_o prayer_n and_o beseech_v our_o lord_n with_o great_a instance_n and_o fervour_n of_o spirit_n that_o he_o will_v not_o suffer_v that_o soul_n to_o perish_v who_o he_o have_v redeem_v with_o the_o price_n of_o his_o most_o precious_a blood_n to_o that_o our_o lord_n make_v answer_v and_o say_v that_o the_o iniquity_n of_o that_o wicked_a man_n be_v so_o heinous_a in_o his_o sight_n that_o the_o cry_v thereof_o pierce_v the_o heaven_n and_o call_v for_o justice_n for_o he_o have_v not_o only_o in_o word_n most_o horrible_o blaspheme_v the_o holy_a name_n of_o god_n and_o of_o his_o saint_n but_o also_o with_o great_a despite_n and_o malice_n throw_v a_o table_n into_o the_o fire_n in_o the_o which_o be_v paint_v the_o death_n and_o passion_n of_o our_o saviour_n christ_n together_o with_o the_o image_n of_o our_o bless_a lady_n and_o other_o saint_n by_o the_o which_o fact_n he_o have_v deserve_v everlasting_a damnation_n when_o the_o holy_a maid_n hear_v that_o she_o fall_v down_o prostrate_a before_o our_o lord_n and_o say_v o_o lord_n if_o thou_o will_v look_v narrow_o to_o our_o iniquity_n who_o shall_v be_v able_a to_o stand_v wherefore_o come_v thou_o down_o from_o heaven_n into_o the_o wordle_n wherefore_o take_v thou_o flesh_n of_o the_o most_o pure_a and_o unspotted_a virgin_n marie_n wherefore_o do_v thou_o suffer_v a_o most_o bitter_a and_o reproachful_a death_n have_v thou_o do_v all_o these_o thing_n o_o lord_n to_o this_o end_n that_o thou_o may_v call_v man_n to_o a_o straight_a and_o rigorous_a account_n for_o their_o sin_n and_o not_o rather_o that_o thou_o may_v utter_o cancel_v their_o debt_n and_o take_v they_o to_o mercy_n why_o do_v thou_o o_o merciful_a lord_n tell_v i_o of_o the_o sin_n of_o one_o lose_v man_n see_v thou_o have_v bear_v upon_o thy_o own_o shoulder_n the_o sin_n of_o the_o whole_a wordle_n that_o none_o shall_v be_v lose_v do_v i_o lie_v here_o prostrate_a at_o thy_o foot_n to_o demand_v justice_n and_o not_o rather_o to_o crave_v mercy_n do_v i_o present_v myself_o here_o before_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n to_o plead_v the_o innocence_n of_o this_o wretched_a creature_n and_o not_o rather_o to_o confess_v that_o he_o be_v gyltie_n of_o everlasting_a death_n and_o damnation_n and_o that_o the_o only_o refuge_n be_v to_o appeal_v to_o thy_o endless_a mercy_n remember_v o_o dear_a lord_n what_o thou_o say_v to_o i_o when_o thou_o do_v first_o will_v i_o to_o go_v abroad_o and_o to_o procure_v the_o salvation_n of_o many_o soul_n thou_o know_v right_a well_o that_o i_o have_v none_o other_o joy_n or_o comfort_n in_o this_o life_n but_o only_o to_o see_v the_o conversion_n of_o sinner_n unto_o thou_o and_o for_o this_o cause_n only_o i_o be_o content_a to_o lack_v the_o joyful_a fruition_n of_o thy_o bless_a presence_n wherefore_o if_o thou_o take_v this_o joy_n from_o i_o what_o other_o thing_n shall_v i_o find_v in_o this_o vale_n of_o misery_n wherein_o to_o take_v pleasure_n or_o comfort_n o_o most_o merciful_a father_n &_o god_n of_o all_o comfort_n reject_v not_o the_o humble_a petition_n of_o thy_o handmaid_n put_v i_o not_o away_o from_o thou_o at_o this_o time_n but_o gracious_o grant_v i_o that_o this_o my_o brother_n hard_a hart_n may_v be_v mollify_v and_o make_v to_o yield_v to_o the_o work_n of_o thy_o holy_a spirit_n thus_o do_v the_o holy_a maid_n continue_v in_o prayer_n and_o disputation_n with_o our_o lord_n from_o the_o beginning_n of_o the_o night_n till_o the_o next_o morning_n all_o the_o which_o time_n she_o neither_o sleep_v nor_o take_v any_o manner_n of_o rest_n but_o weep_v and_o wail_v continual_o for_o great_a compassion_n that_o she_o have_v to_o see_v that_o soul_n perish_v our_o lord_n evermore_o allege_v his_o justice_n and_o she_o crave_v his_o mercy_n at_o the_o length_n our_o lord_n be_v as_o it_o be_v overcome_v with_o her_o importunity_n and_o cry_v give_v she_o this_o comfortable_a answer_n dear_a daughter_n i_o will_v stand_v no_o long_o with_o thou_o in_o this_o matter_n thy_o tear_n and_o lamentable_a cry_v have_v prevail_v and_o wrest_v the_o sword_n of_o my_o justice_n out_o of_o my_o hand_n this_o synful_a man_n shall_v for_o thy_o sake_n find_v such_o favour_n and_o grace_n as_o thou_o require_v for_o he_o and_o with_o that_o our_o lord_n withdraw_v himself_o from_o the_o holy_a maid_n and_o appear_v the_o same_o hour_n to_o the_o sick_a man_n and_o speak_v to_o he_o after_o this_o manner_n dear_a child_n why_o will_v thou_o not_o be_v repentant_a for_o the_o sin_n that_o thou_o have_v commit_v against_o i_o in_o any_o case_n be_v sorry_a for_o thy_o offence_n and_o confess_v the_o same_o and_o i_o be_o ready_a to_o pardon_v thou_o that_o word_n so_o pierce_v the_o hart_n of_o that_o obstinate_a man_n that_o he_o relent_v forth_o with_o and_o cry_v with_o a_o loud_a voice_n to_o they_o that_o be_v there_o present_a &_o beseech_v they_o for_o god_n love_n that_o they_o will_v help_v he_o to_o a_o ghostly_a father_n with_o all_o possible_a speed_n for_o say_v he_o my_o lord_n and_o saviour_n jesus_n christ_n have_v show_v himself_o merciful_o to_o i_o and_o will_v i_o to_o be_v confess_v of_o all_o my_o sin_n when_o they_o hear_v that_o they_o be_v very_o much_o astoin_v but_o withal_o marvellous_o comfort_v to_o see_v that_o sudden_a and_o bless_a alteration_n in_o he_o and_o they_o make_v great_a haste_n to_o bring_v he_o a_o ghostly_a father_n to_o who_o he_o make_v a_o perfect_v confession_n of_o all_o his_o sin_n with_o great_a contrition_n and_o so_o pass_v out_o of_o this_o wordle_n in_o the_o state_n of_o grace_n how_o the_o holy_a maid_n by_o prayer_n procure_v the_o conversion_n of_o a_o fierce_a young_a gentleman_n in_o sienna_n call_v james_n tolomes_n cap._n 12._o there_o be_v in_o the_o city_n of_o sienna_n a_o gentleman_n of_o a_o worshipful_a parentage_n call_v francis_n tolomes_n who_o take_v to_o wife_n on_o rabe_n a_o gentlewoman_n likewise_o of_o a_o good_a house_n and_o by_o she_o have_v many_o son_n and_o daughter_n his_o elder_a son_n be_v call_v james_n a_o proud_a and_o haughty_a young_a man_n and_o of_o nature_n very_o fierce_a and_o cruel_a in_o so_o much_o that_o be_v yet_o but_o a_o child_n of_o age_n he_o kill_v two_o man_n with_o his_o own_o hand_n which_o cawse_v all_o man_n both_o to_o dread_v he_o and_o to_o shun_v his_o company_n and_o as_o he_o grow_v in_o year_n so_o do_v he_o also_o increase_v in_o malice_n and_o wickedness_n and_o run_v without_o rain_n or_o bridle_v even_o as_o his_o outrageous_a mind_n carry_v he_o into_o all_o kind_n of_o mischief_n he_o have_v two_o sister_n the_o one_o call_v francis_n the_o other_o ginoccia_n which_o be_v also_o dissolute_a and_o light_a of_o behaviour_n and_o special_o ginoccia_n which_o be_v whole_o give_v to_o vaintie_a and_o superfluous_a deck_v of_o herself_o and_o yet_o have_v she_o evermore_o a_o care_n to_o keep_v the_o virginity_n of_o her_o body_n which_o she_o do_v rather_o for_o fear_v of_o shame_n in_o the_o wordle_n then_o for_o any_o fear_n or_o love_n of_o god_n which_o thing_n be_v no_o small_a grief_n to_o their_o mother_n rabe_n who_o be_v a_o woman_n that_o fear_v god_n and_o tender_v much_o the_o soul_n health_n of_o her_o daughter_n go_v on_o a_o day_n to_o the_o holy_a maid_n and_o declare_v the_o state_n of_o her_o daughter_n beseech_v she_o for_o god_n love_n that_o she_o will_v be_v so_o good_a as_o to_o come_v with_o she_o and_o geve_v they_o some_o godly_a exhortation_n the_o holy_a maid_n which_o have_v evermore_o a_o pass_a great_a desire_n to_o win_v soul_n to_o god_n go_v with_o the_o gentlewoman_n with_o a_o very_a good_a will_n and_o do_v as_o she_o be_v require_v and_o her_o word_n so_o wrought_v in_o the_o heart_n of_o those_o two_o young_a maiden_n that_o they_o give_v over_o all_o the_o vanity_n of_o the_o wordle_n and_o take_v the_o habit_n of_o s._n dominicke_n ginoccia_n forth_o with_o and_o francis_n soon_o after_o in_o the_o which_o rule_n and_o discipline_n they_o live_v a_o very_a straight_o and_o rigorous_a life_n
upon_o the_o firm_a and_o lively_a rock_n jesus_n christ_n my_o only_o beget_v son_n and_o this_o truth_n be_v clad_v with_o a_o most_o goodly_a and_o shine_a light_n which_o dispatch_v darkness_n wherefore_o clad_v thyself_o with_o truth_n my_o sweet_a and_o most_o dear_o belove_a daughter_n a_o prayer_n or_o answer_v make_v by_o a_o faithful_a and_o devout_a soul_n to_o the_o word_n of_o almighty_a god_n here_o before_o recite_v chap._n 20._o then_o that_o devout_a soul_n after_o that_o she_o have_v see_v with_o the_o eye_n of_o her_o understanding_n and_o know_v by_o the_o light_n of_o faith_n the_o truth_n and_o excellency_n of_o the_o virtue_n of_o obedience_n after_o that_o she_o have_v feel_v it_o with_o a_o right_a sense_n and_o taste_v it_o in_o her_o affection_n with_o a_o unspeakable_a desire_n behold_v herself_o in_o the_o divine_a majesty_n she_o give_v thanks_n to_o almighty_a god_n say_v thank_n be_v to_o thou_o o_o eternal_a father_n because_o thou_o have_v not_o despise_v i_o thy_o creature_n neither_o haste_n thou_o turn_v thy_o face_n from_o i_o nor_o make_v light_n of_o my_o desire_n thou_o be_v the_o light_n do_v not_o look_v to_o my_o darckenes_n thou_o be_v life_n do_v not_o look_v to_o my_o death_n thou_o be_v the_o physician_n do_v not_o refuse_v my_o grievous_a infirmity_n thou_o be_v the_o everlasting_a pureness_n do_v not_o despise_v i_o that_o be_o full_a of_o dirt_n and_o infinite_a misery_n thou_o be_v endless_a do_v not_o reject_v i_o that_o must_v have_v a_o end_n thou_o be_v the_o most_o high_a wisdom_n do_v regard_v i_o that_o be_o a_o fool_n for_o these_o and_o many_o other_o evels_n and_o infinite_a defect_n that_o be_v in_o i_o thou_o have_v not_o contemn_v i_o thy_o bountifulness_n thy_o wisdom_n thy_o clemency_n thy_o endless_a and_o inestimable_a goodness_n have_v not_o despise_v i_o but_o in_o thy_o light_n thou_o have_v give_v i_o light_a in_o thy_o wisdom_n i_o be_o come_v to_o know_v truth_n in_o thy_o clemency_n i_o have_v find_v the_o love_n of_o thou_o and_o charity_n towards_o my_o neighbour_n and_o who_o have_v enforce_v thou_o to_o this_o not_o any_o virtue_n of_o i_o but_o only_o thy_o fatherlie_a love_n this_o love_n therefore_o enforce_v thou_o to_o illuminate_v the_o eye_n of_o my_o understanding_n with_o the_o light_n of_o faith_n that_o i_o may_v know_v and_o understand_v thy_o truth_n that_o be_v open_v unto_o i_o grant_v i_o o_o lord_n that_o my_o memory_n may_v be_v find_v of_o sufficient_a capacity_n to_o receive_v and_o keep_v thy_o benefit_n let_v my_o will_n burn_v with_o the_o fire_n of_o thy_o most_o sweet_a love_n let_v that_o fire_n make_v my_o body_n to_o pour_v out_o blood_n give_v for_o the_o love_n of_o blood_n and_o so_o cause_v i_o to_o open_v the_o gate_n of_o heaven_n with_o the_o key_n of_o wholesome_a obedience_n this_o same_o request_n do_v i_o also_o make_v in_o most_o hearty_a manner_n for_o every_o reasonable_a creature_n both_o in_o general_a and_o in_o special_a and_o for_o the_o mystical_a body_n of_o our_o holy_a mother_n the_o church_n i_o confess_v and_o deny_v not_o that_o thou_o have_v love_v i_o before_o i_o be_v and_o that_o thou_o love_v man_n so_o much_o that_o thou_o be_v in_o a_o sort_n liken_v to_o one_o that_o be_v ensot_v and_o make_v a_o fool_n with_o overmuch_o love_n o_o eternal_a godhead_n o_o everlasting_a trinity_n which_o through_o the_o union_n of_o the_o divine_a nature_n have_v make_v the_o price_n of_o the_o blood_n of_o thy_o only_o beget_v son_n to_o be_v of_o so_o great_a value_n o_o eternal_a trinity_n thou_o be_v a_o certain_a deep_a sea_n in_o the_o which_o the_o more_o i_o seek_v the_o more_o i_o find_v and_o the_o more_o i_o find_v the_o more_o i_o seek_v thou_o thou_o do_v after_o a_o sort_n satiate_fw-la or_o fill_v the_o soul_n insatiable_o for_o in_o thy_o botomles_a depth_n thou_o do_v so_o satiate_v the_o soul_n that_o it_o remain_v evermore_o hungry_a and_o long_v after_o thou_o o_o everlasting_a trinity_n and_o desirous_a to_o see_v thou_o with_o the_o light_n that_o be_v in_o thy_o light_n even_o as_o the_o hart_n long_v after_o the_o spring_n of_o run_a water_n so_o do_v my_o soul_n long_o to_o be_v out_o of_o this_o dark_a body_n and_o to_o see_v thou_o in_o truth_n as_o thou_o be_v oh_o how_o long_o shall_v thy_o face_n continue_v hide_v from_o my_o eye_n o_o everlasting_a trinity_n o_o fire_n and_o botomles_a depth_n of_o charity_n dissolve_v out_o of_o hand_n the_o cloud_n of_o this_o my_o body_n for_o the_o knowledge_n that_o thou_o have_v give_v i_o of_o thou_o in_o thy_o truth_n do_v very_o much_o enforce_v i_o and_o cause_v i_o to_o have_v a_o pass_a desire_n to_o lay_v down_o this_o heavy_a â—ompe_n of_o my_o body_n and_o to_o yield_v up_o my_o life_n for_o the_o honour_n and_o glory_n of_o thy_o name_n because_o i_o have_v taste_v and_o see_v with_o the_o light_n of_o understanding_n in_o thy_o light_n thy_o botomles_a deapht_v o_o everlasting_a trinity_n and_o the_o beauty_n of_o thy_o creature_n whereupon_o behold_v myself_o in_o thou_o i_o see_v that_o i_o be_v thy_o image_n by_o reason_n that_o thou_o o_o eternal_a father_n have_v give_v i_o of_o thy_o power_n &_o of_o thy_o wisdom_n and_o of_o thy_o understanding_n which_o wisdom_n be_v proper_o ascribe_v to_o thy_o only_o beget_v son_n and_o the_o holy_a ghost_n which_o proceed_v from_o thou_o the_o father_n &_o from_o thy_o son_n have_v give_v i_o a_o will_n by_o the_o which_o i_o be_o make_v apt_a to_o love_n for_o thou_o o_o eternal_a trinity_n be_v the_o creator_n and_o i_o the_o creature_n and_o therefore_o i_o know_v by_o the_o light_n that_o thou_o have_v give_v i_o in_o the_o new_a creation_n that_o thou_o have_v wrought_v in_o i_o by_o the_o blood_n of_o thy_o only_o beget_v son_n that_o thou_o be_v enamour_v with_o the_o beauty_n of_o thy_o creature_n o_o botomles_a depth_n o_o everlasting_a trinity_n o_o godhead_n o_o deep_a sea_n what_o great_a thing_n can_v thou_o geve_v i_o than_o thy_o own_o self_n thou_o be_v the_o fire_n which_o do_v ever_o burn_v and_o never_o waste_v thou_o be_v the_o fire_n which_o do_v consume_v with_o thy_o heat_n all_o self_n love_n in_o a_o soul_n thou_o be_v the_o fire_n which_o take_v away_o all_o coldness_n and_o do_v illuminate_v mind_n with_o thy_o light_n with_o the_o which_o light_n thou_o have_v make_v i_o to_o know_v thy_o truth_n thou_o be_v that_o light_n above_o all_o light_n which_o geve_v a_o supernatural_a light_n to_o the_o eye_n of_o our_o understanding_n in_o such_o perfection_n and_o abundance_n that_o even_o the_o light_n of_o faith_n be_v make_v more_o clear_a by_o it_o in_o the_o which_o faith_n i_o see_v that_o my_o soul_n have_v life_n and_o in_o this_o light_n it_o receive_v thou_o that_o be_v the_o light_n for_o in_o the_o light_n of_o faith_n i_o get_v wisdom_n in_o the_o wisdom_n of_o the_o word_n thy_o son_n in_o this_o light_n of_o faith_n i_o be_o make_v strong_a and_o constant_a and_o able_a to_o hold_v out_o in_o this_o light_n of_o faith_n i_o conceive_v a_o hope_n that_o thou_o will_v not_o suffer_v i_o to_o faint_v in_o the_o way_n this_o light_n teach_v i_o the_o way_n by_o the_o which_o i_o must_v walk_v and_o without_o this_o light_n i_o shall_v walk_v in_o darckenes_n and_o therefore_o i_o make_v my_o petition_n to_o thou_o o_o eternal_a father_n that_o thou_o will_v illuminate_v i_o with_o the_o light_n of_o this_o most_o holy_a faith_n true_o this_o light_n be_v a_o sea_n which_o do_v feed_v the_o soul_n in_o thou_o the_o quiet_a and_o calm_a sea_n until_o it_o be_v whole_o in_o thou_o o_o calm_a sea_n everlasting_a trinity_n the_o water_n of_o this_o sea_n be_v not_o trouble_v and_o therefore_o it_o cause_v no_o fear_n but_o geve_v the_o knowledge_n of_o truth_n this_o be_v a_o most_o clear_a water_n which_o show_v thing_n hide_v and_o therefore_o where_o this_o most_o goodly_a shine_a light_n of_o thy_o faith_n abound_v there_o be_v the_o soul_n as_o it_o be_v clarify_v and_o make_v bright_a by_o the_o thing_n that_o it_o believe_v this_o be_v a_o second_o glass_n which_o thou_o o_o everlasting_a trinity_n do_v make_v i_o to_o know_v the_o which_o be_v hold_v with_o the_o hand_n of_o love_n before_o the_o eye_n of_o my_o soul_n represent_v to_o i_o myself_o in_o thou_o show_v that_o i_o be_o thy_o creature_n and_o it_o do_v likewise_o represent_v thou_o in_o i_o by_o reason_n of_o the_o conjunction_n which_o thou_o have_v make_v of_o thy_o deity_n with_o our_o humane_a nature_n in_o the_o light_n of_o this_o glass_n there_o be_v represent_v unto_o i_o &_o i_o know_v thou_o the_o most_o high_a
and_o excellent_a goodness_n the_o goodness_n that_o be_v above_o all_o goodness_n the_o happy_a goodness_n the_o incomprehensible_a goodness_n the_o inestimable_a goodness_n the_o beauty_n that_o be_v above_o all_o beauty_n the_o wisdom_n that_o excel_v all_o wisdom_n for_o thou_o be_v wisdom_n itself_o thou_o be_v the_o food_n of_o angel_n with_o the_o fire_n of_o charity_n have_v give_v thyself_o to_o man_n thou_o be_v the_o garment_n that_o cover_v my_o nakedness_n thou_o feed_v the_o hungry_a with_o thy_o sweetness_n for_o thou_o be_v all_o sweet_a without_o any_o manner_n of_o bitterness_n wherefore_o o_o everlasting_a trinity_n in_o the_o light_n that_o thou_o have_v give_fw-ge i_n &_o i_o have_v receive_v by_o the_o mean_n of_o this_o light_n of_o thy_o most_o holy_a faith_n thy_o own_o self_n show_v the_o same_o unto_o i_o by_o diverse_a &_o sundry_a wonderful_a declaration_n i_o be_o come_v to_o know_v the_o way_n of_o great_a perfection_n to_o the_o end_n that_o from_o this_o time_n forward_o i_o shall_v serve_v thou_o with_o light_n &_o not_o with_o darckenes_n and_o be_v a_o glass_n of_o a_o good_a and_o holy_a life_n and_o so_o raise_v myself_o up_o from_o this_o miserable_a life_n in_o the_o which_o i_o have_v hitherto_o serve_v thou_o evermore_o in_o darckenes_n for_o i_o know_v not_o thy_o truth_n and_o therefore_o i_o love_v it_o not_o but_o wherefore_o do_v i_o not_o know_v thou_o forsooth_o because_o i_o see_v thou_o not_o and_o wherefore_o do_v i_o not_o see_v thou_o with_o the_o light_n of_o this_o most_o holy_a and_o glorious_a faith_n because_o the_o mist_n of_o self_n love_n have_v dym_v the_o eye_n of_o my_o understanding_n but_o thou_o o_o eternal_a truth_n haste_v with_o thy_o light_n dissolve_v my_o darckenes_n and_o who_o shall_v be_v able_a to_o reach_v to_o thy_o height_n and_o yield_v thou_o thancke_n for_o this_o pass_o great_a gift_n and_o for_o the_o manifold_a and_o large_a benefit_n that_o thou_o have_v bestow_v upon_o i_o and_o for_o the_o doctrine_n of_o truth_n that_o thou_o have_v reveal_v unto_o i_o the_o which_o doctrine_n be_v a_o certain_a special_a grace_n above_o the_o general_a grace_n that_o thou_o geve_v to_o other_o creature_n sure_o thou_o will_v condescend_v to_o my_o necessity_n and_o ro_o the_o necessity_n of_o other_o creature_n also_o which_o in_o time_n to_o come_v look_v in_o it_o as_o in_o a_o glass_n shall_v have_v a_o desire_n to_o behold_v themselves_o thou_o therefore_o o_o lord_n answer_n and_o satisfy_v thyself_o for_o i_o thou_o that_o be_v the_o giver_n make_v satisfaction_n also_o for_o the_o benefit_n that_o thou_o have_v bestow_v upon_o i_o that_o be_v power_n into_o i_o the_o light_n of_o thy_o grace_n that_o with_o that_o light_n i_o may_v yield_v thou_o thanks_n cloth_n i_o and_o make_v i_o to_o put_v on_o thyself_o which_o be_v the_o everlasting_a truth_n that_o i_o may_v run_v out_o the_o course_n of_o this_o mortal_a life_n with_o true_a obedience_n &_o with_o the_o light_n of_o a_o most_o holy_a faith_n of_o the_o which_o light_n i_o thinck_v thou_o do_v even_o now_o make_v i_o droncke_v a_o new_a what_o a_o sure_a affiance_n the_o holy_a maid_n have_v in_o the_o truth_n of_o christ_n and_o how_o she_o long_v after_o martyrdom_n chap._n 21._o what_o a_o great_a affiance_n this_o holy_a maid_n have_v in_o the_o goodness_n of_o almighty_a god_n and_o how_o secure_o she_o repose_v herself_o in_o the_o infallible_a truth_n of_o his_o word_n it_o may_v appear_v very_o well_o by_o a_o number_n of_o danger_n that_o she_o offer_v herself_o unto_o willing_o and_o with_o a_o great_a courage_n when_o soever_o occasion_n be_v minister_v to_o do_v any_o good_a &_o charitable_a work_n and_o namely_o when_o she_o have_v to_o treat_v with_o prlnce_n and_o great_a personage_n unto_o who_o she_o declare_v the_o truth_n of_o all_o such_o thing_n as_o she_o have_v to_o utter_v unto_o they_o with_o a_o marvelous_a freedom_n boldness_n and_o wisdom_n not_o look_v to_o their_o person_n or_o dignity_n but_o only_o to_o the_o honour_n of_o god_n treat_v on_o a_o time_n with_o pope_n gregory_n the_o eleven_o concern_v the_o trouble_n and_o turmoil_n that_o be_v then_o in_o the_o church_n and_o how_o the_o same_o may_v best_o be_v quiet_v she_o be_v not_o afraid_a to_o tell_v he_o his_o duty_n in_o plain_a term_n and_o to_o advertise_v he_o in_o god_n behalf_n how_o he_o ought_v to_o rule_v and_o feed_v his_o flock_n among_o a_o number_n of_o particular_a information_n and_o exhortation_n that_o she_o make_v unto_o the_o pope_n holiness_n at_o that_o time_n she_o speak_v these_o word_n in_o the_o presence_n of_o diverse_a and_o sundry_a of_o his_o cardinal_n and_o other_o prelate_n come_v say_v she_o against_o these_o false_a and_o rebellious_a child_n with_o the_o meekness_n of_o the_o cross_n and_o not_o with_o the_o fury_n of_o the_o sword_n and_o so_o shall_v you_o see_v that_o these_o wolf_n shall_v lay_v down_o their_o head_n in_o your_o lap_n and_o humble_o submit_v themselves_o unto_o you_o it_o be_v not_o convenient_a that_o the_o vicar_n of_o christ_n shall_v fight_v against_o his_o enemy_n with_o the_o temporal_a sword_n and_o therefore_o our_o saviour_n christ_n rebuke_v s._n peter_n when_o he_o strike_v malcus_n and_o say_v put_v thy_o sword_n into_o the_o scabbard_n thus_o do_v she_o speak_v at_o that_o time_n to_o pope_n gregory_n concern_v his_o pastoral_a charge_n and_o at_o a_o other_o time_n concern_v the_o horrible_a stench_n of_o the_o vice_n and_o sin_n use_v in_o the_o court_n of_o rome_n which_o point_n be_v brief_o touch_v before_o and_o in_o all_o this_o talk_n she_o never_o show_v so_o much_o as_o any_o little_a token_n either_o of_o flattery_n or_o of_o fear_n but_o speak_v with_o a_o marvelous_a constant_a and_o discreet_a boldness_n to_o the_o great_a wonder_n of_o as_o many_o as_o hear_v she_o in_o like_a manner_n after_o the_o decease_n of_o pope_n gregory_n in_o the_o time_n of_o pope_n vrbanus_n the_o sixth_o there_o be_v a_o consultation_n in_o rome_n to_o send_v the_o holy_a maid_n and_o with_o her_o a_o other_o holy_a maid_n who_o name_n be_v also_o catherine_n daughter_n to_o s._n bridget_n of_o sweâ—ia_n into_o sicilia_n to_o queen_n jone_n to_o see_v if_o they_o can_v by_o their_o godly_a persuasion_n induce_v she_o to_o cease_v that_o wicked_a and_o cruel_a rebellion_n that_o be_v at_o that_o time_n through_o her_o support_n raise_v and_o continue_v against_o the_o church_n but_o in_o the_o end_n the_o thing_n take_v no_o place_n because_o the_o pope_n like_v not_o of_o it_o no_o more_o do_v that_o other_o s._n catherine_n herself_o doctor_n raimundus_n come_v to_o the_o holy_a maid_n chamber_n where_o she_o keep_v her_o bed_n at_o that_o time_n and_o lay_v in_o very_o great_a pain_n and_o declare_v to_o she_o their_o final_a resolution_n and_o for_o the_o satisfy_n of_o her_o mind_n he_o say_v furthermore_o that_o he_o think_v very_o that_o it_o be_v both_o the_o better_o and_o also_o the_o safe_a way_n that_o they_o have_v take_v for_o say_v he_o you_o be_v both_o maiden_n and_o young_a and_o therefore_o in_o danger_n of_o villainy_n if_o any_o be_v offer_v if_o none_o be_v yet_o at_o the_o least_o of_o the_o speech_n of_o naughty_a and_o slanderous_a tongue_n and_o you_o have_v to_o deal_v there_o with_o many_o wicked_a and_o cruel_a heart_a man_n which_o be_v obstinate_o bend_v to_o continue_v in_o their_o malicious_a enterprise_n and_o loath_a to_o hear_v any_o thing_n to_o the_o contrary_a will_v not_o stick_v to_o make_v you_o out_o of_o the_o way_n in_o case_n they_o see_v that_o you_o be_v like_a to_o prevail_v or_o do_v any_o good_a in_o the_o matter_n when_o the_o holy_a maid_n hear_v that_o she_o cry_v out_o with_o a_o great_a fervour_n and_o vehemency_n of_o spirit_n &_o say_v if_o s._n agnes_n s._n margaret_n and_o other_o holy_a virgin_n have_v cast_v such_o peril_n they_o have_v never_o wear_v those_o glorious_a crown_n of_o martyrdom_n that_o they_o now_o wear_v in_o heaven_n alas_o father_n why_o say_v you_o so_o have_v not_o we_o our_o spouse_n to_o accompany_v we_o also_o even_o as_o they_o have_v and_o be_v not_o he_o able_a to_o defend_v our_o body_n and_o life_n from_o all_o villainy_n that_o shall_v or_o may_v be_v offer_v unto_o we_o by_o a_o number_n of_o base_a and_o abiecte_a man_n sure_o sure_o father_n these_o fearful_a cogitation_n be_v but_o vain_a and_o do_v proceed_v rather_o of_o a_o weak_a faith_n and_o lack_n of_o affiance_n in_o almighty_a god_n then_o of_o true_a wisdom_n at_o these_o word_n doctor_n raimundus_n be_v so_o strike_v that_o he_o hold_v his_o peace_n and_o give_v she_o not_o one_o word_n to_o answer_v for_o be_v her_o confessor_n and_o thereby_o
of_o her_o pain_n with_o the_o pope_n holiness_n but_o take_v it_o upon_o she_o with_o a_o very_a good_a will_n when_o she_o come_v to_o auinion_n she_o speak_v to_o the_o pope_n so_o effectual_o and_o use_v such_o perswasible_a mean_n to_o induce_v he_o to_o condescend_v to_o the_o peace_n that_o he_o without_o any_o further_a deliberation_n or_o stick_v at_o the_o matter_n make_v she_o this_o resolute_a answer_n daughter_n say_v he_o that_o you_o may_v see_v how_o much_o i_o tender_v peace_n and_o concord_n i_o put_v the_o whole_a matter_n in_o your_o hand_n do_v in_o it_o as_o you_o shall_v think_v good_a only_o this_o have_v a_o regard_n to_o the_o honour_n of_o the_o church_n and_o with_o that_o he_o revoke_v his_o process_n and_o sentence_n of_o excommunication_n against_o the_o city_n of_o florence_n by_o reason_n whereof_o they_o have_v some_o respite_n for_o a_o time_n from_o such_o vexation_n and_o trouble_n as_o they_o suffer_v before_o in_o all_o place_n where_o they_o have_v traffic_v with_o other_o nation_n the_o which_o when_o certain_a crafty_a person_n that_o bear_v the_o sway_n at_o that_o time_n among_o the_o people_n perceive_v they_o think_v to_o use_v the_o opportunity_n of_o that_o release_n to_o the_o furtherance_n of_o their_o malicious_a intent_n which_o be_v to_o hinder_v the_o peace_n and_o though_o they_o speak_v open_o of_o pacification_n yet_o do_v they_o work_v covert_o by_o all_o possible_a mean_n to_o deprave_v and_o discredit_v whatsoever_o be_v speak_v or_o do_v for_o the_o confirmation_n of_o the_o same_o in_o so_o much_o that_o when_o the_o holy_a maid_n send_v the_o condition_n of_o peace_n to_o they_o require_v they_o to_o set_v their_o hand_n to_o they_o and_o to_o make_v a_o public_a instrument_n upon_o the_o same_o as_o the_o manner_n be_v when_o any_o composition_n of_o peace_n be_v make_v they_o deny_v utter_o to_o do_v it_o the_o which_o thing_n pope_n gregory_n foresee_v very_o well_o and_o in_o deed_n say_v these_o word_n to_o the_o holy_a maid_n before_o she_o send_v unto_o they_o believe_v i_o catherine_n say_v he_o these_o florentine_n have_v beguile_v thou_o and_o either_o they_o will_v send_v thou_o none_o answer_v at_o all_o or_o if_o they_o do_v they_o will_v not_o do_v it_o to_o such_o effect_n as_o thou_o require_v and_o in_o truth_n as_o he_o say_v so_o it_o be_v for_o afterwards_o when_o the_o ambassador_n come_v from_o florence_n to_o the_o pope_n and_o it_o be_v think_v that_o they_o shall_v have_v confer_v with_o the_o holy_a maid_n they_o refuse_v it_o plain_o and_o say_v that_o they_o have_v no_o such_o commission_n the_o holy_a maid_n see_v that_o be_v in_o deed_n very_o sorry_a to_o see_v there_o unhonest_a and_o crafty_a deal_n howbeit_o she_o cease_v not_o to_o assuage_v the_o displeasure_n of_o the_o pope_n holiness_n just_o conceive_v against_o they_o and_o she_o use_v marvelous_a mean_n to_o persuade_v he_o that_o he_o shall_v rather_o show_v himself_o a_o pitiful_a father_n towards_o they_o than_o a_o rigorous_a judge_n while_o the_o matter_n stand_v in_o these_o term_n the_o pope_n be_v resolve_v to_o return_v again_o to_o the_o city_n of_o rome_n which_o be_v also_o wrought_v by_o the_o wonderful_a persuasion_n of_o the_o holy_a maid_n think_v good_a to_o differre_fw-la this_o treaty_n of_o peace_n with_o the_o florentine_n until_o he_o come_v thither_o where_o it_o may_v be_v do_v with_o better_a opportunity_n and_o so_o the_o pope_n return_v to_o rome_n the_o holy_a maid_n with_o doctor_n raimundus_n and_o the_o rest_n of_o her_o company_n go_v home_o to_o sienna_n where_o she_o busy_v herself_o after_o her_o accustom_a manner_n about_o the_o wynning_n of_o soul_n to_o god_n how_o the_o holy_a maid_n be_v send_v back_o from_o pope_n gregory_n to_o the_o florentine_n with_o the_o condidition_n of_o peace_n free_o put_v in_o she_o own_o hand_n cap._n 17._o at_o what_o time_n these_o thing_n be_v in_o do_v it_o chance_v that_o doctor_n raimundus_n be_v very_o familiar_o acqueint_v with_o a_o worshipful_a gentleman_n of_o florence_n call_v master_n nicolas_n soderines_n who_o be_v well_o think_v of_o among_o all_o good_a man_n for_o virtue_n and_o godliness_n doctor_n raimundus_n reason_v with_o he_o on_o a_o time_n and_o complain_v of_o the_o unjust_a deal_n of_o the_o florentine_n in_o that_o treaty_n of_o peace_n the_o gentleman_n make_v answer_v that_o in_o truth_n it_o be_v the_o fault_n of_o some_o few_o which_o be_v in_o office_n and_o authority_n among_o the_o people_n be_v able_a to_o lead_v the_o multitude_n where_o they_o list_v and_o if_o those_o few_o can_v by_o any_o mean_n be_v displace_v he_o doubt_v not_o but_o that_o any_o just_a demand_n will_v be_v hear_v among_o the_o people_n when_o doctor_n raimundus_n have_v hear_v that_o he_o confer_v with_o the_o holy_a maid_n and_o by_o her_o advice_n draw_v out_o certain_a treaty_n of_o peace_n which_o be_v think_v both_o very_a honourable_a and_o also_o very_o profitable_a for_o both_o party_n if_o they_o may_v be_v receive_v and_o exhibit_v the_o same_o to_o the_o pope_n holiness_n as_o scent_n from_o she_o and_o declare_v withal_o what_o he_o have_v hear_v of_o the_o afore_o name_v gentleman_n concern_v the_o hindrance_n of_o the_o say_a peace_n within_o a_o few_o day_n after_o the_o pope_n call_v for_o doctor_n raimundus_n again_o and_o speak_v unto_o he_o i_o have_v say_v he_o receive_v letter_n in_o the_o which_o it_o be_v signify_v unto_o i_o that_o if_o the_o holy_a maid_n will_v go_v to_o florence_n the_o peace_n be_v like_a to_o be_v conclude_v to_o that_o doctor_n raimundus_n make_v answer_v that_o not_o only_o the_o holy_a maid_n but_o he_o also_o and_o all_o the_o rest_n of_o her_o spiritual_a son_n and_o daughter_n will_v be_v find_v ready_a at_o all_o time_n to_o offer_v themselves_o to_o martyrdom_n whensoever_o any_o like_a occasion_n be_v minister_v to_o show_v themselves_o dutiful_a and_o obedient_a child_n to_o our_o holy_a mother_n the_o church_n no_o say_v the_o pope_n i_o think_v it_o not_o good_a that_o you_o shall_v go_v at_o this_o tyme._n it_o may_v be_v dangerous_a for_o you_o but_o she_o be_v a_o woman_n and_o also_o hold_v in_o great_a reverence_n among_o they_o for_o her_o virtue_n and_o holiness_n may_v i_o think_v go_v without_o any_o danger_n and_o so_o it_o be_v conclude_v and_o the_o pope_n write_v his_o letter_n to_o the_o city_n of_o florence_n in_o the_o which_o he_o give_v she_o a_o marvelous_a testimony_n of_o holiness_n and_o with_o the_o same_o send_v she_o as_o a_o oratrice_n from_o the_o sea_n apostolic_a when_o she_o come_v to_o florence_n she_o be_v receive_v of_o the_o godly_a sort_n with_o all_o honour_n and_o reverence_n and_o by_o the_o mean_n of_o the_o afore_o mention_v master_n nicolas_n soderines_n come_v to_o confer_v private_o with_o many_o of_o those_o citizen_n that_o live_v in_o the_o fear_n of_o god_n who_o be_v easy_o induce_v by_o she_o to_o accept_v the_o peace_n that_o be_v offer_v unto_o they_o by_o the_o pope_n holiness_n after_o this_o she_o go_v and_o confer_v likewise_o with_o that_o company_n or_o party_n of_o the_o city_n that_o be_v call_v guelphi_n and_o to_o they_o set_v out_o with_o many_o vehement_a word_n what_o a_o proud_a insolent_a and_o ungrateful_a part_n it_o be_v to_o hinder_v that_o holy_a peace_n call_v those_o few_o that_o be_v the_o doer_n thereof_o enemy_n and_o undoer_n of_o all_o common_a weal_n and_o therefore_o unmeete_a to_o bear_v office_n among_o the_o people_n she_o declare_v furthermore_o what_o a_o profit_n be_v like_a to_o ensue_v to_o their_o city_n by_o that_o peace_n if_o it_o may_v be_v receive_v not_o only_o in_o their_o temporal_a good_n but_o also_o and_o much_o more_o for_o the_o furtherance_n &_o edify_v of_o soul_n then_o she_o show_v the_o heynousnes_n of_o their_o faicte_n to_o be_v such_o in_o the_o sight_n both_o of_o god_n and_o man_n that_o if_o the_o rigour_n of_o law_n and_o justice_n shall_v be_v extend_v upon_o they_o they_o have_v deserve_v to_o be_v extreme_o punish_v in_o body_n and_o soul_n last_o of_o all_o she_o give_v they_o to_o understand_v what_o a_o fatherlie_a love_n the_o pope_n holiness_n bare_a to_o they_o and_o how_o inclinable_a he_o be_v to_o show_v mercy_n if_o they_o will_v submit_v themselves_o &_o seek_v it_o at_o his_o hand_n and_o these_o point_n she_o set_v out_o unto_o they_o with_o such_o a_o comely_a grace_n &_o with_o word_n of_o such_o efficacy_n that_o all_o those_o magistrate_n with_o many_o other_o honest_a citizen_n be_v bring_v by_o her_o talk_n into_o a_o utter_a mislike_v of_o their_o present_a troublesome_a state_n and_o also_o into_o a_o great_a love_n and_o long_v after_o that_o bless_a peace_n which_o they_o see_v
evident_o by_o her_o word_n must_v needs_o turn_v they_o to_o very_o great_a commodity_n and_o comfort_n go_v forth_o with_o to_o the_o lord_n and_o nobility_n of_o the_o city_n &_o persuade_v with_o they_o that_o in_o any_o case_n they_o shall_v seek_v to_o be_v reconcile_v to_o the_o pope_n holiness_n and_o because_o certain_a person_n there_o present_a have_v open_o impugn_a this_o peace_n and_o special_o one_o capitaine_fw-fr or_o principal_a man_n of_o the_o party_n call_v guelphi_n which_o be_v in_o number_n eight_z have_v speak_v against_o it_o in_o plain_a word_n they_o deprive_v they_o of_o their_o office_n whereof_o there_o ensue_v a_o great_a turmoil_n in_o the_o city_n by_o reason_n that_o the_o person_n so_o deprive_v for_o envy_n &_o malice_n &_o to_o be_v revenge_v of_o those_o that_o have_v cause_v it_o seek_v by_o the_o favour_n of_o the_o people_n to_o cause_v many_o other_o to_o be_v deprive_v also_o &_o in_o the_o end_n cause_v so_o many_o to_o be_v deprive_v that_o for_o lack_v of_o discreet_a magistrate_n there_o grow_v much_o disorder_n in_o the_o common_a weal_n and_o though_o the_o holy_a maid_n do_v show_v open_o at_o all_o time_n &_o in_o all_o place_n that_o she_o have_v no_o like_n of_o these_o broil_n but_o rather_o great_a heaviness_n &_o sorrow_n to_o see_v that_o whereas_o her_o meaning_n be_v to_o set_v they_o at_o unity_n &_o concord_n abroad_o her_o charitable_a travail_n be_v through_o the_o malice_n of_o certain_a evel_n dispose_v person_n make_v a_o occasion_n of_o civil_a discord_n and_o tumult_n at_o home_n yet_o there_o lack_v not_o a_o number_n of_o wicked_a and_o devilish_a man_n which_o bear_v the_o common_a people_n in_o hand_n that_o the_o holy_a maid_n and_o such_o as_o she_o deal_v withal_o be_v the_o cause_n of_o raise_v those_o trouble_n in_o the_o city_n whereupon_o first_o of_o all_o they_o bend_v themselves_o against_o those_o man_n that_o have_v be_v doer_n in_o any_o degree_n about_o the_o afore_o mention_v deprivation_n and_o of_o they_o some_o be_v drive_v out_o of_o the_o city_n some_o be_v slay_v and_o some_o be_v constrain_v to_o flee_v for_o fear_n then_o they_o begin_v to_o make_v outcry_n against_o the_o holy_a maid_n herself_o some_o say_v come_v let_v we_o go_v to_o that_o naughty_a woman_n house_n some_o other_o say_v let_v we_o kill_v the_o queanc_fw-fr and_o cut_v she_o in_o piece_n with_o these_o and_o other_o the_o like_a word_n those_o good_a folk_n that_o keep_v she_o be_v put_v in_o such_o fear_n lest_o some_o great_a mischief_n may_v come_v either_o to_o themselves_o or_o to_o their_o house_n for_o her_o sake_n that_o they_o entreat_v she_o to_o depart_v whereat_o she_o show_v herself_o to_o be_v no_o more_o move_v neither_o in_o word_n nor_o yet_o in_o countenance_n then_o if_o there_o have_v be_v no_o such_o thing_n but_o smile_v sweet_o to_o herself_o as_o her_o manner_n be_v and_o speak_v comfortable_o to_o the_o rest_n she_o go_v her_o way_n into_o a_o orchyard_n not_o far_o from_o thence_o where_o when_o she_o have_v make_v a_o exhortation_n to_o those_o devout_a person_n that_o be_v about_o she_o she_o set_v herself_o to_o prayer_n while_o the_o holy_a maid_n be_v thus_o pray_v in_o the_o orchyard_n after_o the_o example_n of_o our_o saviour_n christ_n there_o come_v rush_v in_o upon_o her_o a_o fierce_a company_n of_o cruel_a man_n with_o club_n spear_n and_o sword_n ready_o draw_v shout_a and_o cry_v horrible_o where_o be_v that_o naughty_a woman_n where_o be_v that_o curse_a wretch_n where_o be_v she_o with_o the_o noise_n of_o this_o outrageous_a and_o beastly_a cry_n the_o holy_a maid_n be_v as_o it_o be_v violent_o break_v of_o the_o sweet_a sleep_n of_o her_o meditation_n start_v up_o sudden_o and_o run_v to_o meet_v with_o they_o with_o as_o lovely_a and_o cheerful_a a_o countenance_n as_o if_o she_o have_v be_v a_o young_a spouse_n and_o have_v go_v to_o receive_v her_o love_n who_o she_o have_v long_o look_v for_o and_o see_v among_o they_o one_o man_n that_o come_v on_o fast_a than_o his_o company_n have_v a_o very_a cruel_a and_o murder_a look_n shake_v his_o sword_n after_o a_o dreadful_a manner_n and_o cry_v loud_o than_o the_o rest_n where_o be_v the_o naughty_a woman_n which_o be_v she_o which_o be_v caterine_n she_o offer_v herself_o to_o he_o and_o kneel_v down_o before_o he_o say_v i_o be_o caterine_n do_v your_o will_n with_o i_o but_o let_v these_o alone_a at_o those_o word_n the_o cruel_a heart_a man_n that_o come_v with_o a_o full_a purpose_n to_o strike_v she_o be_v so_o strike_v himself_o that_o he_o have_v neither_o strength_n to_o hold_v up_o his_o hand_n against_o she_o nor_o boldness_n to_o look_v she_o once_o in_o the_o face_n she_o kneel_v bold_o before_o he_o without_o any_o weapon_n and_o he_o stand_v tremble_v before_o she_o with_o his_o sword_n in_o his_o hand_n there_o lack_v no_o will_n nor_o boldness_n in_o she_o to_o receive_v the_o stroke_n but_o there_o lack_v both_o strength_n and_o courage_n in_o he_o to_o geve_v it_o as_o it_o may_v appear_v by_o a_o letter_n that_o she_o write_v afterwards_o to_o doctur_n raimundus_n in_o the_o which_o she_o make_v a_o very_a pitiful_a lamentation_n that_o she_o can_v not_o at_o that_o time_n effectual_o offer_v up_o her_o blood_n to_o the_o uspoted_a lamb_n of_o god_n that_o have_v offer_v up_o his_o most_o precious_a blood_n so_o free_o upon_o the_o cross_n for_o her_o love_n now_o though_o this_o wicked_a attempt_n of_o these_o furious_a man_n be_v thus_o stay_v by_o the_o mighty_a hand_n of_o god_n yet_o do_v there_o remain_v such_o a_o fear_n strike_v into_o the_o heart_n of_o all_o good_a folk_n both_o of_o the_o city_n and_o of_o her_o company_n and_o retinue_n that_o no_o man_n have_v the_o boldness_n to_o receive_v she_o into_o his_o house_n they_o all_o give_v her_o counsel_n to_o depart_v but_o she_o upon_o a_o great_a affiance_n that_o she_o have_v in_o the_o merciful_a goodness_n of_o god_n and_o also_o as_o a_o prophetess_n well_o assure_v of_o the_o final_a success_n and_o effect_n of_o the_o matter_n say_v in_o plain_a word_n that_o she_o will_v never_o depart_v the_o city_n until_o the_o peace_n be_v full_o and_o perfect_o conclude_v which_o thing_n come_v to_o pass_v within_o a_o few_o day_n after_o even_o as_o she_o haid_z say_z when_o pope_n gregory_n be_v dead_a and_o pope_n vrbanus_n choose_v in_o his_o place_n at_o what_o time_n the_o first_o mover_n and_o principal_a worker_n of_o this_o tumult_n in_o the_o city_n of_o florence_n be_v severe_o punish_v and_o special_o those_o that_o do_v any_o thing_n against_o the_o holy_a maid_n and_o a_o firm_a peace_n be_v make_v &_o establish_v between_o the_o pope_n holiness_n and_o their_o city_n to_o the_o honour_n of_o god_n and_o great_a comfort_n not_o only_o of_o both_o party_n but_o of_o all_o christendom_n beside_o how_o the_o holy_a maid_n show_v herself_o to_o be_v excellent_o well_o learned_a both_o by_o her_o write_n and_o work_n set_v out_o to_o the_o wordle_n and_o also_o by_o her_o conference_n and_o disputation_n have_v with_o certain_a great_a learned_a man_n chap._n 18._o if_o any_o man_n doubt_n whether_o the_o holy_a maid_n be_v learn_v let_v he_o read_v her_o work_n namely_o her_o book_n of_o epistle_n or_o the_o dialogue_n that_o she_o write_v concern_v the_o providence_n of_o god_n and_o there_o be_v no_o doubt_n but_o that_o he_o shall_v be_v full_o satisfy_v and_o persuade_v that_o no_o creature_n can_v ever_o have_v conceive_v such_o point_n of_o high_a and_o heavenly_a learning_n without_o a_o very_a special_a grace_n &_o light_v give_v from_o god_n and_o as_o she_o show_v herself_o to_o be_v divine_o learn_v by_o a_o number_n of_o book_n and_o treatise_n that_o she_o indict_v and_o set_v out_o to_o the_o wordle_n so_o do_v she_o also_o marvellous_o satisfy_v yea_o and_o pass_v the_o expectation_n of_o all_o learned_a man_n that_o come_v of_o purpose_n to_o appose_v she_o and_o to_o try_v in_o deed_n whether_o the_o opinion_n of_o such_o excellent_a knowledge_n general_o conceive_v of_o she_o have_v his_o true_a ground_n in_o she_o or_o rather_o in_o other_o as_o they_o suspect_v concern_v this_o point_n a_o bless_a and_o holy_a man_n call_v steven_n sometime_o her_o gostlie_a child_n &_o train_v under_o her_o discipline_n &_o afterwards_o a_o monk_n of_o the_o charterhouse_n write_v one_o very_o notable_a example_n &_o worthy_a to_o be_v remember_v the_o which_o can_v not_o better_o be_v set_v out_o then_o with_o his_o own_o word_n which_o be_v these_o when_o pope_n gregory_n be_v in_o auinion_n give_v much_o audience_n and_o reverence_n to_o the_o holy_a maid_n there_o come_v three_o great_a prelate_n unto_o he_o and_o say_v