on the contrary How pitiful and grievous a thing it is to see them that live in a dissolute and disordered sort not applying themselves to that for which they are called O how hurtful a thing it is to neglect the good purposes of their vocation and to busie themselves in that which is not committed to their care 6. Be mindful of the profession thou hast made and have always before the eyes of thy soul the remembrance of thy Saviour crucified Thou hast good cause to be ashamed looking upon the life of Jesus Christ seeing thou hast as yet no more endeavored to conform thy self unto him though thou hast walked a long time in the way of God A religious person that exerciseth himself seriously and devoutly in the most holy life and passion of our Lord shall there abundantly find whatsoever is necessary and profitable for him neither shall he need to seek any better thing out of Jesus O if Jesus crucified would come into our hearts how quickly and fully should we be instructed in all truth 7. A fervent religious person taketh and beareth all well that is commanded him but he that is negligent and cold hath tribulation upon tribulation and on all sides is afflicted for he is void of inward consolation and is forbidden to seek eternal comforts A religious person that liveth not according to discipline lies open to great mischief to the ruine of his soul. He that seeketh liberty and ease shall ever live in disquiet for one thing or other will displease him 8. O that we had nothing elso to do but always with our mouth and whole heart to praise our Lord God! O that thou mightest never have need to eat nor drink nor sleep but mightest always praise God and only employ thy self in spiritual exercises thou shouldest then be much more happy than now thou art when for so many necessities thou art constrained to serve thy body Would God these necessities were not at all but only the spiritual refections of the soul which alas we taste of too seldom 9. When a Man cometh to that estate rhat he seeketh not his comfort from any creature then doth he begin perfectly to relish God Then shall he be contented with whatsoever doth befal him in this world Then shall he neither rejoyce in great matters nor be sorrowful for small but entirely and confidently commit himself to God who shall be unto him all in all to whom nothing doth perish nor die but all things do live unto him and serve him at a beck without delay 10. Remember always thy end and how that time lost never returns Without care and diligence thou shalt never get virtue If thou beginnest to wax cold it will be evil with thee but if thou give thy self to fervor of spirit thou shalt find much peace and feel less labor through the assistance of Gods grace and love of virtue The fervent and diligent Man is prepared for all things It is harder to resist vices and passions than to toil in bodily labors He that avoideth not small faults by little and little falleth into greater Thou wilt always rejoyce in the evening if thou spend the day profitably Be watchful over thy self stir up thy self warn thy self and whatsoever becomes of others neglect not thy self The more holy violence thou usest against thy self the more shall be thy spiritual profiting Amen THE SECOND BOOK CHAP. I. Of the inward Life THE Kingdom of God is within you saith the Lord. Turn thee with thy whole heart unto the Lord and forsake this wretched World and thy Soul shall find rest Learn to despise exteriour things and to give thy self to the interior and thou shalt perceive the Kingdom of God to come into thee For the Kingdom of God is peace and joy in the Holy Ghost which is not given to the wicked Christ will come into thee and shew thee his consolations if thou prepare for him a worthy mansion within thee All his glory and beauty is within and there he pleaseth himself The inward man he often visits and hath with him sweet discourses pleasant solace much peace wonderful familiarity 2. O faithful Soul make ready thy heart for this Bridegroom that he may vouchsafe to come unto thee and dwell within thee For he saith If any love me he will keep my words and we will come unto him and will make our abode with him Give therefore admittance unto Christ and deny entrance to all others When thou hast Christ thou art Rich and he will suffice thee He will be thy faithful and provident helper in all things so as thou shalt not need to trust in men For men are soon changed and quickly fail but Christ remaineth for ever and standeth firmly unto the end 3. There is little trust to be put in frail and mortal man though he be profitable and dear unto thee neither oughtest thou much to be grieved if sometimes he cross and contradict thee They that to day take thy part to morrow may be against thee and so on the contrary they often turn like unto the wind Put all thy trust in God let him be thy fear and thy love He will answer for thee and do in all things what is best Thou hast not here an abiding City and wheresoever thou be thou art a stranger and pilgrim Neither shalt thou ever have rest unless thou be most inwardly united unto Christ. 4. Why dost thou here gaze about since this is not the place of thy rest In Heaven ought to be thy dwelling and all Earthly things are to be lookt upon as it were by the way All things pass away and thou together with them Beware thou cleave not unto them lest thou be entangled and so dost perish Let thy thought be on the Highest and thy prayer directed unto Christ without ceasing If thou canst not contemplate high and heavenly things rest thy self in the passion of Christ and dwell willingly in his Holy wounds For if thou fly devoutly unto the wounds and precious marks of the Lord Jesus thou shalt feel great comfort in tribulation Neither wilt thou much care for being despised of men and wilt easily bear words of detraction 5. Christ was also in the World despised of men and in greatest necessity forsaken by his acquaintance and Friends in the midst of slanders Christ would suffer and be despised and darest thou complain of any Christ had Adversaries and Backbiters and wilt thou have all men thy Friends and Benefactors For what shall thy patience be crowned if no adversity happen unto thee If thou wilt suffer no adversity how wilt thou be the Friend of Christ Suffer with Christ and for Christ if thou desire to Reign with Christ. 6. If thou hadst but once perfectly entred into the secrets of Jesus and tasted a little of his ardent affection then wouldst thou not weigh thine own commodity or discommodity but wouldst rather rejoyce at slanders when they should chance to
they daily use How great zeal and care had they of their spiritual proficiency How strong a combat had they for the overcoming of their lusts How pure and upright intentions kept they unto God! In the day they labored and in the night they attended to continual prayer although when they labored also they ceased not from mental prayer 3. They spent all their time with profit every hour seemed short for the service of God and by reason of the great sweetness they felt in contemplation they forgot the necessity of corporal refreshments They renounced all riches dignities honors friends and kinsfolk they desired to have nothing which appertained to the world they scarce took things necessary for the sustenance of life they grieved to serve their bodies even in necessity They were poor in earthly things but very rich in grace and virtues Outwardly they wanted but inwardly they were refreshed with grace and divine consolation 4. They were strangers to the world but near and familiar friends to God They seemed to themselves as nothing and despicable to this present world but they were precious and beloved in the eyes of God They were grounded in true humility lived in simple obedience walked in love and patience and therefore they profited daily in spirit and obtained great grace in Gods sight They were given for an example to all religious Men and they should more provoke us to endeavor after spiritual proficiencies than the number of the luke-warm livers should prevail to make us remiss 5. O how great was the fervor of all religious persons in the beginning of their holy institution How great was their devotion to prayer What ambition to excel others in virtue How exact discipline then flourished How great reverence and obedience under the rule of their Superiors observed they in all things Their footsteps yet remaining do testifie that they were indeed holy and perfect Men who fighting so valiantly trodd the world under their feet Now he is greatly accounted of that transgresseth not and that can with patience endure that which he hath undertaken 6 O the coldness and negligence of our times that we so quickly decline from our first fervor and are come to that pass that very sloth and coldness of spirit maketh our own life tedious unto us Would to God the desire to profit in virtue did not wholly sleep in thee who hast often seen the many examples of devout and religious persons CHAP. XIX Of the exercise of a good and religious person THe life of a good and religious person ought to be adorned with all virtues that he may inwardly be such as outwardly he seemeth to Men. And with reason thou oughtest to be much more within than is perceived without For God beholdeth us whom we ought most highly to reverence wheresoever we are and walk in purity like Angels in his sight Daily should we renew our purposes and stir up our selves to fervor as though this were the first day of our conversion and to say Help me my God in this my good purpose and in thy holy service and grant that I may now this day begin perfectly for that which I have done hitherto is nothing 2. According to our purpose shall be the success of our spiritual profiting and much diligence is necessary to him that will profit much And if he that firmly purposeth often faileth what shall he do that seldom purposeth any thing or with little resolvedness It may fall our sundry ways that we leave off our purpose and the light omission of spiritual exercises seldom passes without some loss to our souls The purpose of just Men depends upon Gods grace and not upon their own wisdom upon whom they always rely for whatsoever they take in hand For Man doth purpose but God doth dispose neither is the way of Man in himself 3. If an accustomed exercise be sometimes omitted either for some act of piety or profit to my brother it may easily afterwards be recovered again But if out of a slothful mind or out of carelesness we lightly forsake the same it is a great offence against God and will be found to be prejudicial to our selves Let us do the best we can we shall easily fail in many things yet must we always purpose some certain course and especially against those vices which do most of all molest us We must diligently search into and set in order both the outward and the inward Man because both of them are expedient to our coming forward in godliness 4. If thou canst not continually recollect thy self yet do it sometimes at the least once a day to wit at morning or at night In the morning fix thy good purpose and at night examine thy self what thou hast done how thou hast behaved thy self in thought word and deed for in these perhaps thou hast often offended both God and thy neighbor Gird thy loyns like a Man against the vile assaults of the Devil bridle thy riotous appetite and thou shalt be the better able to keep under all the unruly motions of the flesh Be thou at no time idle altogether but either reading or writing or praying or meditating or endeavoring something for the publick good As for bodily exercises they must be used with great discretion neither are they to be practised of all Men alike 5. The exercises that are not common are not to be exposed to publick view for things private are practised more safely at home Nevertheless thou must beware thou neglect not that which is common and be more ready for what is private But having fully and faithfully accomplished all thou art bound and enjoyned to do if thou hast any spare time betake thee to thy self as thy devotion shall require All cannot use one kind of exercise but one is more convenient for this person another for that according to the seasonableness of times also divers exercises are fitting Some sute better with us on working days other on holy days some we have need of in the time of temptation and of others in time of peace and quietness Some we mind when we are pensive and other some when we rejoyce in the Lord. 9. When chief Festivals draw near good exercises are to be renewed and the prayers of holy Men more fervently to be implored From feast to feast we should make some good purpose as though we were then to depart out of this world and to come to the everlasting feast in Heaven Therefore ought we carefully to prepare our selves at holy times and to live more devoutly and to keep more exactly all things that we are to observe as though we were shortly at Gods hands to receive the reward of our labors 7. But if it be deferred let us think with our selves that we are not sufficiently prepared and unworthy yet of so great glory which shall be revealed in us in due time and let us endeavor to prepare our selves better for our departure Blessed is that servant
our future amendment and proficiency in spiritual things CHAP. XXIII Of the meditation of Death THere will very quickly be an end of thee here therefore see what will become of thee hereafter To day a Man to morrow none and out of sight out of mind O the stupidity and hardness of Mans Heart who thinketh only upon the present and hath no more care of what is to come Thou shouldest so order thy self in all thy thoughts and actions as if to day yea this very moment thou wert ready to depart Hadst thou a clear conscience thou wouldst not greatly fear death It were better to avoid sin than to fly death If thou art not prepared to day how wilt thou be prepared to morrow To morrow is uncertain and how knowest thou that thou shalt live till to morrow 2. What availeth it to live long when we are so little the better by long living Alas length of days doth oftner make our sins the greater than our lives the better O that we had spent but one day well in this world Many there are who count how long it is since their conversion and yet ful slender oftentimes is the fruit of amendment of life If to die be accounted dreadful to live long may perhaps prove more dangerous Happy is he that always hath the hour of his death before his eyes and daily prepareth himself for to die If at any time thou hast seen another Man die make account thou must also pass the same way 3. When it is morning think thou mayest die before night and when evening comes dare not to promise thy self the next morning Be thou therefore always in a readiness and so lead thy life that death may never take thee unprepared Many die suddenly and when they look not for it for the Son of Man will come when we think not of his coming When that last hour shall come thou wilt begin to have a far different opinion of thy whole life that is past and be exceeding sorry thou hast been so careless and remiss 4. O how wise and happy is he that now laboreth to be such an one in his life as he wisheth to be found at the hour of his death A perfect contempt of the world a fervent desire to go forward in vertue the love of discipline the painfulness of repentance the readiness of obedience the denying of our selves and the bearing any affliction for the love of Christ patiently will give us great confidence we shall die happily Whilst thou art in health thou mayest do much good but when thou art sick I see not what thou art able to do Few by sickness grow better and more reformed as also they who wander much abroad seldom thereby become holy 5. Trust. not to friends and kindred neither do thou put off the care of thy souls welfare till hereafter for Men will sooner forget thee than thou art aware of It is better to look to it betime and do some good beforehand than to trust to other Mens courtesies If thou beest not careful for thy self now who will be careful for thee hereafter The time that is now present is very precious now are the days of salvation now is the acceptable time But alas that thou shouldst spend thy time so idlely here where thou mightest purchase to live eternally hereafter The time will come when thou shalt desire one day or hour to amend in and I cannot say that it will be granted thee 6. O beloved from how great danger mightest thou deliver thy self from how great fear free thy self if thou wouldst be always mindful of death Labor now to live so that at the hour of death thou mayest rather rejoyce than fear learn now to die to the world that thou mayest then begin to live with Christ. Learn now to contemn all earthly things that thou mayest freely go to Christ. Chastise thy body now by repentance that thou mayest then have assured confidence 7. Ah fool why dost thou think to live long when thou canst not promise to thy self one day How many have been deceived and suddenly snatcht away How often dost thou hear these reports Such a Man is slain another Man is drowned a third breaks his neck with a fall from some high place this Man died eating and that Man playing One perished by fire another by the sword another of the plague another was slain by Thieves Thus death is the end of all and Mans life suddenly passeth away like a shaddow 8. Who shall remember thee when thou art Dead Do do now my beloved whatsoever thou art able to do for thou knowest not when thou shalt die nor yet what shall befal thee after thy death Now whilst thou hast time heap unto thy self everlasting riches think on nothing but the salvation of thy soul care for nothing but the things of God Make now friends to thy self by honoring the Saints of God and imitating their actions that when thou failest in this short life they may receive thee into everlasting habitations 9. Keep thy self as a stranger and pilgrim upon the earth and as one to whom the affairs of this world do nothing appertain Keep thy heart free and lifted up to God because thou hast here no abiding city Send thither thy daily prayers and sighs together with thy tears that after death thy spirit may with much happiness pass to the Lord. Amen CHAP. XXIV Of Iudgment and the punishment of Sins IN all things have a special aim to thy end and how thou wilt be able to stand before that severe Judg to whom nothing is hid who is not pacified with gifts nor admitteth any excuses but will judg according to right and equity O wretched and foolish sinner who sometimes fearest the countenance of an angry Man what answer wilt thou make to God who knoweth all thy wickedness Why dost thou not provide for thy self against that great day of judgment when no Man can excuse or answer for another but every one shall have enough to answer for himself Now are thy pains profitable thy tears acceptable thy groans audible thy grief pacifieth God and purgeth thy soul. 2. The patient Man hath a great and wholesome purgatory who though he receive injuries yet grieveth more for the malice of another than for his own wrong who prayeth willingly for his adversaries and from his heart forgiveth their offences he delayeth not to ask forgiveness of whomsoever he hath offended he is sooner moved to compassion than to anger he often offereth an holy violence to himself and laboreth to bring the body wholly into subjection to the spirit It is better to purge out our sins and cut off our vices here than to keep them to be punished hereafter Verily we do but deceive our selves through an inordinate love of the flesh 3. What is it that that infernal fire feeds upon but thy sins The more thou sparest thy self now and followest the flesh so much the more hereafter shall
be cast upon thee For the love of Jesus maketh a man to despise himself A lover of Jesus and of the Truth and a true inward Christian and one free from inordinate affections can freely turn himself unto God and lift himself above himself in Spirit and with the greatest enjoyment of his Soul rest in God 7. He that judgeth of all things as they are and not as they are said and esteemed to be is truly wise and taught rather by God than men He that can live inwardly and make small reckoning of outward things neither requireth places nor attendeth times for performing of Religious exercises A Spiritual man quickly recollecteth himself because he never poureth out himself wholly to outward things He is not hindred by outward labor or business which may be necessary for the time But as things fall out so he frameth himself unto them He that hath well ordered and disposed all things within careth not for the strange and perverse carriages of men So much is a man hindred and distracted by how much he draweth external matters unto himself 8. If all went well with thee and if thou wert all purged all things would fall out to thy good and advantage But many things displease and often trouble thee because thou art not yet perfectly dead unto thy self nor separated from all earthly things Nothing so defileth and intangleth the heart of man as the impure love to Creatures If thou refuse outward comfort thou wilt be able to contemplate the things of Heaven and often receive internal joy CHAP. II. Of humble submission REspect not much who is with thee or who is against thee But endeavor and take care that God may be with thee in every thing thou doest Have a good Conscience and God will defend thee For whom God will help no malice of man can hurt If thou canst hold thy peace and suffer without doubt thou shalt see that our Lord will help thee He knoweth the time and manner how to deliver thee and therefore thou oughtest to resign thy self unto him It belongs to God to help and to deliver from all shame Oftentimes it is very profitable for the keeping us more humble that others know and reprehend our faults 2. When a man humbleth himself for his faults then he easily pacifieth others and quickly satisfieth those that are offended with him God protecteth and delivereth the humble he loveth and comforteth the humble unto the humble man he enclineth himself unto the humble he giveth great Grace and after his humiliation he raiseth him unto Glory Unto the humble he revealeth his secrets and sweetly draweth and inviteth him unto himself The humble person though he suffer shame is yet in peace for that he resteth in God and not in the World Do not think that thou hast profited any thing unless thou esteem thy self inferior to all CHAP. III. Of a good and peaceable Man FIrst keep thy self in peace and then mayst thou pacifie others A peaceable man doth more good than he that is well Learned A passionate man turneth even good into evil and easily believeth the worst A good peaceable man turneth all things into good He that is well in peace is not suspicious of any But he that is discontented and troubled is tossed with divers suspicions He is neither quiet himself nor suffereth others to be quiet He often speaketh that which he ought not to speak and omitteth that which were more expedient for him to do He considereth what others are bound to do and neglecteth that which he is bound to himself First therefore have a careful zeal over thy self and then thou mayst justly shew thy self zealous also of thy neighbors good 2. Thou knowest well how to excuse and colour thine own deeds and thou wilt not receive the excuses of others It were more meet that thou didst accuse thy self and excusest thy Brother If thou wilt be born withal bear also with another Behold how far off thou art yet from true charity and humility which knoweth not how to be angry with any or to be moved with indignation but only against himself It is no great matter to converse with the good and those that are of a gentle disposition for that is naturally pleasing to all and every one willingly enjoyeth peace and loveth those best that agree with him But to be able to live peaceably with unquiet and perverse men or with the disorderly or such as contradict us is a great grace and a very commendable and manly deed 3. Some there are that keep themselves in peace and are in peace also with others And there are some that neither are in peace themselves nor suffer others to be in peace Some there are who are troublesome to others but always more troublesome to themselves And others there are that keep themselves in peace and labor to bring others unto peace Our whole peace in this miserable life consisteth rather in humble suffering than in not feeling adversities He that can best tell how to suffer will best keep himself in peace He is a conqueror of himself a Lord of the world a friend of Christ and heir of Heaven CHAP. IV. Of a pure mind and upright intention WIth Two wings Man is lifted up from earthly vanities that is with simplicity and purity Simplicity ought to be in our intention Purity in our affection Simplicity doth intend God Purity doth apprehend and take him No good action will hinder thee if thou be inwardly free from all inordinate affection If thou intend and seek nothing else but the will of God and the good of thy neighbor thou shalt enjoy internal liberty If thy heart were sincere and upright then every creature would be unto thee a looking glass of life and a book of holy doctrine There is no creature so little and abject that representeth not the goodness of God 2. If thou wert inwardly good and pure then thou wouldest be well able to see and understand all things without any impediment A pure heart penetrateth Heaven and Hell Such as every one is inwardly so he judgeth outwardly If there be joy in the world surely a Man of a pure heart possesseth it And if there be any where tribulation and affliction an evil conscience best feels it As Iron put into the fire loseth its rust and becometh all bright like fire so he that wholly turneth himself unto God is purged from all fulness and slothfulness and is changed into a new Man 3. When one beginneth to wax cold then he is afraid of a small labor and willingly receiveth external comfort But when he once beginneth to overcome himself perfectly and to walk manfully in the way of God then he esteemeth those things to be light which before seemed grievous unto him CHAP. V Of the consideration of ones self WE cannot trust much to our selves for that grace oftentimes and understanding is wanting There is but little light in us and that which we have
worthy of the high contemplation of God who hath not been exercised with some tribulation for Gods sake For temptation going before is wont to be a sign of ensuing comfort And unto those that are proved by temptations heavenly comfort is promised He that shall overcome saith he I will give him to eat of the Tree of life 8. But divine comfort is given that a Man may be stronger to bear adversities There followeth also temptation lest he should wax proud of any good The Devil sleepeth not neither is the flesh as yet dead therefore cease not to prepare thy self to the battel For on thy right hand and on thy left are enemies that never rest CHAP. X. Of thankfulness for the grace of God WHy seekest thou rest since thou art born to labor Dispose thy self to patience rather than to comfort and to the bearing of the Cross rather than to gladness What secular person is there that would not willingly receive spiritual joy and comfort if he could always have it For spiritual comforts exceed all the delights of the world and pleasures of the flesh All worldly delights are either vain or unclean but spiritual delights are only pleasant and honest sprung from virtue and infused by God into pure minds But no Man can always enjoy these divine comforts according to his desire for the time of temptation is not long away 2. False freedom of mind and great trust of our selves is very contrary to heavenly visitations God doth well in giving the grace of comfort but Man doth evil in not returning all again unto God with thanksgiving And therefore the gifts of grace cannot flow in us because we are not thankful to the giver and return them not wholly to the head-fountain For grace ever attendeth him that is thankful and from the proud shall be taken that which is wont to be given to the humble 3. I desire not that consolation that taketh from me compunction nor do I affect that contemplation which leadeth to haughtiness of mind For all that is high is not holy nor all that is sweet good nor every desire pure nor every thing that is dear unto us is grateful to God I do willingly accept of that Grace whereby I may ever become more humble and affected with an holy fear and be made more ready to forsake my self He that is taught by the gift of grace and school'd by the scourge of the withdrawing thereof will not dare to attribute any good to himself but will rather acknowledg himself poor and naked Give unto God that which is Gods and ascribe unto thy self that which is thine own that is give thanks to God for his grace and acknowledg that nothing is to be attributed to thee but only sin and the punishment due thereunto 4. Set thy self always in the lowest place and the highest shall be given thee for the highest consist not without the lowest The chiefest Saints before God are the least in their own judgments and how much the more glorious so much the humbler within themselves Those that are full of truth and Heavenly glory are not desirous of vain glory Those that are firmly setled and grounded in God can no way be proud And they that ascribe all unto God what good soever they have received seek not glory one of another but would have that glory which is from God alone and desire above all things to praise God in himself and in all the Saints and always tend unto the same 5. Be therefore thankful for the least gift so shalt thou be meet to receive greater Let the least be unto thee also as the greatest and the most contemptible as an especial gift If thou consider the worth of the giver no gift will seem little or of too mean esteem For it is not little that is given by the most high God Yea if he should give punishment and stripes it ought to be grateful for that he doth it always for our welfare whatsoever he permitteth to happen unto us He that desireth to keep the grace of God let him be thankful for the grace given and patient for the taking away thereof Let him pray that it may return Let him be wary and humble lest he lose it CHAP. XI How few the lovers of the Cross of Christ are JEsus hath now many lovers of his Heavenly Kingdom but few bearers of his Cross. He hath many desirous of comfort but few of tribulation He findeth many companions of his table but few of his abstinence All desire to rejoyce with him few will suffer any thing for him or with him Many follow Jesus unto the breaking of Bread but few to the drinking of the Cup of his passion Many reverence his miracles few follow the ignominy of his Cross. Many love Jesus as long as adversities happen not Many praise and bless him as long as they receive any comforts from him But if Jesus hide himself and leave them but a while they fall either into complaint or into too much dejection of mind 2. But they that love Jesus for Jesus and not for some comfort of their own bless him in all tribulation and anguish of heart as well as in the greatest comfort And although he should never give them comfort they notwithstanding would ever praise him and always give him thanks 3. O how powerful is the pure love of Jesus which is mixed with no self-love nor proper interest Are not all those to be called hirelings that ever seek comforts Do they not shew themselves to be rather lovers of themselves than of Christ that always think of their own commodity and gain Where may one be found that will serve God freely 4. It is hard to find any one so spiritual that is stript of the love of all earthly things For where is any one to be found that is indeed poor in spirit and free from all affection of creatures He 's a Jewel of such price as is scarce to be met with in these parts If a Man should give all his wealth yet is it nothing And if he should outwardly express great repentance yet it is little And if he should attain to all knowledg he is yet afar off And if he should be of great virtue and very fervent devotion yet there is much wanting to wit one thing which is most necessary for him What is that that leaving all he forsake himself and go wholly from himself and retain nothing of self-love And when he hath done all that he knoweth to be done let him think that he hath done nothing 5. Let him not weigh that much which might be much esteemed but according to truth let him affirm himself to be an unprofitable servant as our Saviour hath said when you shall have done all things that are commanded you say we are unprofitable servants Then may he be truly poor and naked in spirit and say with the Prophet I am alone and poor yet no man richer no Man
Prophets from the beginning and cease not in these days to speak to every one but many are hardned and deaf to my speech The greater number do more willingly listen to the world than to God and follow sooner the desires of their flesh than the will of God The world promiseth temporal and small things and is served with great eagerness I promise most high and eternal things and the hearts of Men are nothing moved therewith Who is he that serveth and obeyeth me with equal care to that with which the world and the Lords thereof are served Blush O Sidon saith the Sea And if thou ask the cause hear wherefore For a little Prebend a long journey is undertaken for everlasting life many will scarce once lift a foot from the ground A thing of small value is sought after greedily for a penny sometimes there is foul contention sor a vain thing and sleight promise Men cease not to toil day and night 3. But alas for an unchangeable good for an inestimable reward for the highest honor and glory without end they are loth to take the least pains Blush therefore slothful and complaining Servant that they are found to be more ready to distruction than thou to life They rejoyce more in vanity than thou in the truth And yet they are sometimes frustrated of their hope but my promise deceiveth none nor sendeth him away empty that trusteth in me I will give that which I have promised I will fulfil that which I have said but to him that remains faithful in my love to the end I am the rewarder of all that are good and do try my devout servants with strong trials 4. Write my words in thy heart and think diligently of them for they will be very necessary in time of temptation What thou understandest not when thou readest thou shalt know in the day of visitation I am wont to visit my elect two several ways to wit with temptation and comfort And I daily read two lessons unto them one reprehending their vices another exhorting them to the increase of virtues He that hath my words and despiseth them hath within himself that shall judg him at the last day A prayer to implore the grace of devotion 5. O Lord my God thou art to me whatsoever is good Who am I that dare speak unto thee I am thy poorest servant and a most vile worm much more poor and contemptible than I can or dare express Remember yet O Lord that I am nothing and can do nothing Thou alone art good just and holy thou canst do all things thou doest all things thou fillest all things only the sinner thou sendest empty away Remember thy mercies and fill my heart with thy grace who will not that thy works be void and in vain 6. How can I bear up my self in this miserable life unless thou strengthen me with thy mercy and grace Turn not thy face from me delay not thy visitation draw not away thy comfort lest my soul become as the thirsty land unto thee Lord teach me to fulfil thy will teach me to live worthily and humbly in thy sight for thou art my wisdom thou dost truly know me and didst know me before the world was made and before I was born in the world CHAP. IV. That we ought to live in truth and humility before God CHrist. Son walk before me in sincerity and truth and ever seek me in simplicity of heart He that walketh before me in truth shall be defended from evil incursions and the Truth shall deliver him from seducers and from the detractions of the wicked If the Truth shall have made thee free thou shalt be truly free and shalt not care for the vain speeches of Men. Christian. Lord it is true According as thou saidst so I beseech thee let it be with me let thy Truth teach me and keep me and bring me safe to an happy end Let it deliver me from all evil affection and inordinate love and I shall walk with thee in great freedom of heart 2. Christ. I will teach thee saith the Truth these things that are right and pleasing in my sight Think of thy sins with great displeasure and grief and never esteem thy self any thing for thy good works Thou art in very deed a sinner thou art subject to and encumbred with may passions Of thy self thou always tendest to nothing thou art quickly cast down quickly overcome quickly troubled quickly dissolved Thou hast nothing wherein thou canst glory but many things for which thou oughtest to despise thy self for thou art much weaker than thou art able to comprehend 3. And therefore let nothing seem much unto thee whatsoever thou doest Let nothing seem great nothing precious and wonderful let nothing seem worthy of estimation nothing high nothing truly and commendable to be desired but that which is everlasting Let the eternal Truth above all things please thee Let thy own great unworthiness always displease thee Fear nothing blame and fly nothing so much as thy vices and sins which ought to displease more than the losses of any thing whatsoever Some walk not sincerely in my sight but led by a certain curiosity and pride will know my secrets and understand the high things of God neglecting themselves and their own salvation These oftentimes for that I resist them do fall into great temptations and sins for their pride and curiosity 4. Fear the judgments of God dread the wrath of the Almighty But discuss not the works of the highest Search thine own iniquities in how much thou hast offended and how much good thou hast neglected Some carry their religion only in Books some in pictures some in outward signs and figures Some have me in their mouths but little in their hearts There are others that being illuminated in their understandings and purged in their affection do always breath after things eternal and are unwilling to hear of the things of this world and do serve the necessities of nature with grief and these perceive what the Spirit of Truth speaketh in them because it teacheth them to despise Earthly and love Heavenly things to neglect the world and all the day and night to desire Heaven CHAP. V. Of the wonderful effect of divine Love CHristian I praise thee O Heavenly Father Father of my Lord Jesus Christ for that thou hast vouchsafed to remember me a poor Creature O Father of mercies and God of all comfort thanks be unto thee who sometimes with thy comfort refreshest me unworthy of all comfort I ever bless and glorifie thee with thy only begotten Son and the holy Ghost for ever and ever O Lord God the holy lover of my soul when thou shalt come into my heart all that is within me will rejoyce Thou art my glory and the exultation of my heart Thou art my hope and refuge in the day of my tribulation 2. But for that I am yet weak in love and imperfect in virtue I have need therefore
to be strengthened and comforted by thee visit me therefore often and instruct me with thy holy discipline Deliver me from evil passions and heal my heart of all inordinate affections that being cured within and well purged I may be made fit to Love strong to suffer and constant to persevere 3. Love is a great thing in very truth a great good which alone maketh every thing that is heavy light and beareth equally that which is unequal For it carrieth a Burden without a Burden and maketh every thing that is bitter sweet and savoury The noble Love of Jesus inforceth Man to do great things and stirreth him up to desire always what is most perfect Love will be aloft and not kept down with any base thing Love will be free and loose from all worldly affection to the end its inward sight be not prejudiced that it be not either entangled by any temporal prosperity or subdued by adversity Nothing is sweeter than Love nothing stronger nothing higher nothing more large nothing more pleasant nothing fuller nor better in Heaven or in Earth Because Love is born of God and cannot rest but in God above all Creatures 4. He that loveth flyeth runneth and rejoyceth he is free and not held in He giveth all for all and hath all in all for that he resteth in one Highest above all from whence all good floweth and proceedeth He respecteth not the gifts but turneth himself above all goods unto the giver Love oftentimes knoweth no measure but is inflamed above all measure Love feeleth no burden weigheth no pains desireth above its strength complaineth not of impossibility for that it thinketh all things lawful and possible It is therefore able to undertake all things and performeth and bringeth many things to pass whereas he that doth not Love fainteth and lyes down 5. Love watcheth and sleeping sleepeth not Being wearied is not tired straitned is not pressed frightned is not troubled But like a lively flame and burning Torch breaking upwards and securely passeth through all If any one loveth he knoweth what this voice cryeth A loud cry in the ears of God is the ardent affection of the Soul which saith My God my Love thou art wholly mine and I wholly thine 6. Enlarge me in Love that with the inward mouth of my heart I may taste how sweet it is to Love and to be melted and swim in thy Love Let me be possessed by Love mounting above my self with excessive fervor and admiration Let me Sing the Song of Love let me follow thee on high my Beloved let my Soul rejoycing through Love spend it self in thy Praise Let me Love thee more than my self and not my self but for thee and all in thee that truly Love thee as the law of Love commandeth which shineth out from thee 7. Love is swift sincere pious pleasant and delightful strong patient faithful prudent long-suffering manly and never seeking it self For where one seeketh himself there he falleth from Love Love is circumspect humble and upright not softly nor light not attending unto vain things sober chast constant quiet and guarded in all the senses Love is subject and obedient to Superiors mean and abject to it self devout and thankful unto God trusting and hoping always in him even then when God imparteth no sweetness unto it For without sorrow none liveth in Love 8. He that is not ready to suffer all things and stand to the will of his beloved is not worthy to be called a Lover A Lover ought to embrace willingly all that is hard and distasteful for his Beloved and not to turn away from him for any contrary accidents CHAP VI. Of the proof of a true Lover CHrist. Son thou art not yet a strong and prudent Lover Christian. Wherefore Lord Christ. Because thou givest over for a small adversity and too greedily seekest comfort A strong Lover standeth firmly in temptations and giveth not credit to the crafty perswasions of the enemy As I please him in prosperity so I am not unpleasant to him in adversity 2. A prudent Lover considereth not so much the gift of his Lover as the Love of the giver He rather esteemeth the good will than the value and placeth all gifts under his Beloved A noble Lover resteth not in the gift but in me above every gift All therefore is not lost if sometimes thou hast less taste of me than thou wouldest That good and sweet affection which thou sometimes feelest is the effect of present grace and a certain fore-taste of the heavenly Country whereon thou mayest not rely too much for it goeth and cometh But to fight against evil motions of the mind which may happen unto thee and to despise the suggestions of the Devil is a notable sign of virtue and shall have great reward 3. Let not therefore strange fancies forced into thee of any matter whatsoever trouble thee Retain a strong purpose and an upright intention to God Neither is it an illusion that sometimes thou art suddenly rapt on high and presently returnest again unto the accustomed vanities of thy heart For thou dost rather unwillingly suffer them than commit them and as long as they displease thee and thou strivest against them it is matter of reward and no loss 4. Know that thy antient enemy doth ever strive to hinder thy desire to good and to deliver thee from all religious exercise to wit from the devout memory of my passion from the profitable remembrance of thy sins from the guard of thine own heart and from the firm purpose of profiting in virtue He injecteth many evil thoughts into thy mind that he may cause a wearisomness and horror in thee to draw thee from Prayer and Holy reading Humble confession is displeasing unto him and if he could he would cause thee to cease from receiving the Sacrament Trust him not nor care for him although he should often set snares of deceit to intrap thee Charge him with it when he suggesteth evil and unclean thoughts unto thee Say unto him Away unclean Spirit blush miserable wretch thou art very unclean that bringest such things unto mine ears Away from me wicked deceiver thou shalt have no part in me But Jesus shall be with me as a strong Warrior and thou shalt stand confounded I had rather die and undergo any torment than consent unto thee Hold thy peace and be silent I will hear thee no more though thou shouldest work me many troubles The Lord is my light and my Salvation whom shall I fear If whole Armies should stand together against me my heart shall not fear The Lord is my helper and my redeemer 5. Fight like a good Soldier and if thou sometimes fall through frailty take greater strength than before trusting in my more abundant grace and take great heed of vain pleasing of thy self and of pride This brings many into error and makes them sometimes fall into almost incurable blindness Let the fall of the proud foolishly presuming of
good shall not be grounded in true joy nor enlarged in his heart but shall be many ways encumbred and straitned Thou oughtest therefore to ascribe nothing of good unto thy self nor attribute goodness unto any Man but give all unto God without whom Man hath nothing I have bestowed all and will that all be returned unto me again and with great strictness I require thanks 3. This is the truth that putteth to flight vain Glory and if heavenly grace and true Love enter in there shall be no envy nor straitness of heart neither shall there be any place for self-love For Divine Love overcometh all and enlargeth all the powers of the Soul If thou beest truly wise in me alone thou wilt rejoyce in me alone thou wilt hope For none is good but God alone who is to be praised above all things and to be blessed in all CHAP. X. That the World being despised it is a sweet thing to serve God CHristian Now I will speak again O Lord and will not be silent I will say in the ears of my God my Lord and my King that is on High Psal. 31. O how great is the abundance of thy goodness O Lord which thou hast laid up for those that fear thee But what art thou to them that Love thee What to them that serve thee with their whole heart Truly unspeakable is the sweetness of contemplating thee which thou bestowest on them that Love thee In this chiefly thou hast shewed me the sweetness of thy Love For that when I was not thou madest me and when I went astray far off from thee thou broughtest me back again that I might serve thee and hast commanded me to Love thee 2. O Fountain of everlasting Love what shall I say of thee How can I forget thee that hast vouchsafed to remember me even when I wasted away and perished Thou hast shewed mercy to thy Servant beyond all my expectation And hast exhibited thy favor and friendship beyond all merit What shall I return unto thee for this grace For it is not granted to every one to forsake all things to renounce the World and to undertake a life of Religious retiredness It is much that I should serve thee whom all Creatures are bound to serve It ought not to seem much unto me to serve thee but this rather seemeth much and marvellous unto me that thou vouchsafest to receive into thy service one so poor and unworthy and to joyn him with thy beloved Servants 3. Behold all is thine which I have and whereby I serve thee And yet contrarywise thou rather servest me than I thee Behold Heaven and Earth which thou hast created for the service of Man are ready at hand and do daily perform whatsoever thou dost command and this is little yea thou hast also appointed the Angels to the service of Man But that which excelleth all this is that thou thy self hast vouchsafed to serve Man and hast promised to give thy self unto him 4. What shall I give thee for all these thousands of benefits I would I could serve thee all the days of my life I would I were able at least for one day to do thee some worthy service Thou art truly worthy of all service of all honor and everlasting praise Thou art truly my Lord and I thy poor Servant that am bound to serve thee with all my might neither ought I ever to be weary of praising thee And this I wish to do this I desire and whatsoever is wanting unto me vouchsafe I beseech thee to supply 5. It is great honor a great glory to serve thee and despise all things for thee For great grace shall be given to them that shall willingly subject themselves to thy most holy service They shall receive the most sweet comfort of the holy Ghost that for thy love shall renounce all carnal delights they shall attain great freedom of mind that for thy names sake shall enter into the narrow way and shall have left off all worldly care 6. O sweet and delightful service of God by which Man is truly made free and holy O sacred state of religious employment which maketh Man equal to Angels pleasing to God terrible to Devils grateful and of great esteem to all the faithful O service to be imbraced and always wished for by which we obtain the greatest good and attain to that joy which never shall have end CHAP. XI That the desires of our heart are to be examined and moderated CHrist. Son thou oughtest to learn many things more which thou hast not well learned Christian. What are those Lord Christ. That thou frame thy desires wholly according to my pleasure and be not a lover of thy self but an affectionate follower of my will Thy desires oftentimes enflame thee and drive thee forwards with violence But consider whether thou art moved rather for my honor than for thine own profit If I be the cause thou wilt be well content with whatsoever I shall ordain But if there lurk in thee any self-seeking behold this is it that hindereth thee and weigheth thee down 2. Beware therefore thou lean not too much upon thy own preconceived desire without asking my counsel lest perhaps afterwards it repent thee and thou begin now to dislike that which before did please thee and which thou earnestly desiredst as the best For every affection that seemeth good is not presently to be followed nor every contrary affection at the first to be avoided It is expedient sometimes to use a restraint even in good desires and endeavors lest by importunity thou incurre distraction of mind and by thy want of self-government beget a scandal unto others or being gainsaid by others thou be suddenly troubled and fall 3. Yet sometimes thou oughtest to use violence and resist manfully thy sensual appetites and respect not what the flesh would or would not but rather to labor that even perforce it be subject to the spirit And it is to be chastised so long and to be forced under servitude until it readily obey in all things and learn to be content with a little and to be pleased with plain things and not to murmure against any inconvenience CHAP. XII Of patience and of striving against conoupiscence CHristian Lord God I perceive patience is very necessary unto me for that many adversities do happen in this life For howsoever I shall dispose of my peace my life cannot be without war and affliction Christ. So it is Son And my will is not that thou seek after that peace which is void of temptations or that which feeleth no contrariety but then think that thou hast found peace when thou art exercised with sundry tribulations and tried in many adversities 2. If thou say that thou art not able to suffer much how then wilt thou endure the Fire hereafter Of two evils the less is always to be chosen That thou maist therefore avoid everlasting punishment in the next World endeavor to suffer
to be profitable then grant unto me that I may use this unto thine honor But if thou knowest it will be hurtful unto me and not profitable to the health of my soul take away this desire from me For every desire proceedeth not from the holy Ghost though it seem unto Man right and good It is hard to judge rightly whether a good Spirit or the contrary drive thee to desire this or that or whether also by thine own spirit thou be moved thereunto Many are deceived in the end who at the first seemed to be led by a good Spirit 2. Always therefore whatsoever occurreth unto thy mind to be desired let it be desired and prayed for in the fear of God and with Humility of heart and above all thou oughtest to commit the whole unto me with resignation of thy self and thou oughtest to say Lord thou knowest what is best let this or that be done as thou pleasest Give what thou wilt and how much thou wilt and when thou wilt Deal with me as thou thinkest good and as best pleaseth thee and is most for thy honor Set me where thou wilt and deal with me in all things according to thy will I am in thy hand turn me and turn me again which way soever thou please Behold I am thy Servant prepared for all things for I desire not to live unto my self but unto thee and O that I could do it worthily and perfectly A Prayer for the fulfilling of the will of God 3. Grant me thy Grace O most gracious Jesus that it may be with me and labor with me and persevere with me until the end Grant me always to desire and will that which is most acceptable unto thee and best pleaseth thee Let thy will be mine and let my will ever follow thine and agree perfectly with it Let my will and nill be all one with thine and let me not will or nill any thing else but what thou willest or nillest 4. Grant that I may die to all things that are in the World and to love to be contemned for thy sake and not to be known in this world Grant that above all things that can be desired I may rest in thee and may quiet my heart in thee Thou art the true peace of the heart thou art the only rest out of thee all things are troublesom and unquiet In this very peace that is in thee the one chiefest eternal Good I will sleep and rest Amen CHAP. XVI That true comfort is to be sought in God alone WHatsoever I can desire or imagine for my comfort I look not for it here but hereafter For if I should alone have all the comforts of the world and might enjoy all the delights thereof it is certain that they could not long endure Wherefore my soul thou canst not be fully comforted nor have perfect delight but in God the comforter of the poor and the helper of the humble Expect a while O my soul expect the divine promise and thou shalt have abundance of all good things in Heaven If thou desire inordinately the things that are present thou shalt lose the celestial and eternal Use temporal things and desire eternal Thou canst not be filled with any temporal goods because thou art not created to enjoy them 2. Although thou shouldest enjoy all created good yet couldst thou not be happy thereby nor blessed but in God that hath created all things thy whole beatitude and happiness consisteth not such as is seen and commended by the foolish lovers of the world but such as the good and faithful Servants of Christ expect and the spiritual and pure in heart whose conversation is in Heaven sometimes have a foretast of Vain and short is all humane comfort Blessed and true is the comfort which is received inwardly from the Truth A Religious Man every where carrieth with him Jesus his comforter and saith unto him Be present with me Lord Jesus in every place and time Let this be my comfort to be willing to want all humane comfort And if thy comfort be wanting let thy will and just proving of me be unto me as the greatest comfort for thou wilt not be angry always neither wilt thou threaten for ever CHAP. XVII That all our care is to be placed in God CHrist. Son suffer me to do with thee what I please I know what is expedient for thee Thou thinkest as Man thou judgest in many things as humane affection perswadeth thee Christian. Lord what thou sayest is true Thy care for me is greater than all the care that I can take for my self For he standeth very totteringly that casteth not his whole care upon thee Lord so that my will may remain right and firm towards thee do with me whatsoever it shall please thee For it cannot be but good whatsoever thou doest with me 2. If it be thy will I should be in darkness be thou blessed and if it be thy will I should be in light be thou again Blessed If thou vouchsafest to comfort me be thou Blessed and if thou wilt afflict me be thou ever equally blessed Christ. Son Thus thou oughtest to be minded if thou wilt walk with me Thou must be as ready to suffer as to rejoyce Thou oughtest to be as willing to be poor and needy as full and rich 3. Christian. Lord I will willingly suffer for thee whatsoever thy pleasure is shall befall me I will receive indifferently from thy hand good and evil sweet and sowre delightful and sorrowful and give thee thanks for all that befalleth me Keep me from all sin and I will neither fear death nor Hell so as thou dost not for ever cast me from thee nor blot me out of the Book of life what tribulation soever befal me shall not hurt me CHAP. XVIII That temporal miseries after the example of Christ must be born patiently CHrist. Son I descended from Heaven for thy Salvation I took upon me thy miseries my own love and not any necessity drawing me thereunto that thou mightest learn patience and not grudgingly bear temporal miseries For from the hour of my birth until my death on the Cross I was not without suffering of grief I suffered great want of temporal things I often heard many complaints against me I bore patiently shame and reproaches for benefits I received ingratitude for miracles blasphemies for Heavenly Doctrine reprehensions 2. Christian. Lord for that thou wert patient in thy life-time chiefly fulfilling herein the commandment of thy Father it is reason that I a miserable sinner should shew my self patient according to thy will and for my souls welfare bear the burden of this corruptible life as long as thou wilt For although this present life be burdensom yet notwithstanding it is now by thy grace made very gainful and by thy example and the footsteps of thy Saints more plain and tolerable to the weak Yea much more comfortable also than it was in times past in the old Law
be specially beloved if thou be in great devotion and sweetness for by these things a true lover of virtue is not known neither doth the profiting and perfection of a Man consist in these things 3. Christian. Wherein then Lord Christ. In offering thy self with all thy heart unto the will of God not seeking thine own interest neither in great nor little neither for a time nor for ever so that thou keepest one and the same countenance with thanksgiving both in prosperity and in adversity weighing all things with an equal balance If thou be of such courage and so patient in hope that when inward comfort is withdrawn from thee thou preparest thy heart to suffer greater things and dost not justify thy self as though thou oughtest not to suffer these and so great afflictions but justifiest me in whatsoever I appoint and praisest my Holy name Then thou walkest in the true and right way of peace And thou shalt have undoubted hope to see my face again with great joy And if thou attain to the full contempt of thy self then shalt thou enjoy as great abundance of peace as this thy state of sojourning in this World is capable of CHAP. XXVI Of the excellency of a free mind which humble Prayer sooner gaineth than Reading CHristian Lord it is the work of a perfect Man never to slack his mind from the attentive thought of heavenly things and as it were to pass without care amongst many cares not like a dull sluggard but by the priviledge of a free mind adhering to no creature with inordinate affection 2. I beseech thee my most gracious God preserve me from the cares of this Life lest I should be too much entangled thereby And for the many necessities of the body lest I should be caught by pleasure And from whatsoever is an obstacle to the Soul lest broken with troubles I should be overthrown I say not from those things that worldly vanity so greatly desireth But from those miseries that as punishments and as the common curse of mortality do weigh down and hinder the Soul of thy Servant that it cannot enter into freedom of Spirit as often as it would 3. O my God the ineffable sweetness embitter unto me all carnal comfort which may draw me away from the love of eternal things and may wickedly allure me to it self by the beholding of some present delightsome good Let me not be overcome O Lord let me not be overcome by flesh and blood Let not the World and the short glory thereof deceive me Let not the Devil and his subtil fraud supplant me Give me strength to resist patience to suffer and constancy to persevere Give me instead of all the comforts of the World the most sweet unction of thy Spirit and in lieu of carnal Love pour into my Soul the Love of thy name 4. Behold Meat Drink Cloaths and other necessaries for the maintenance of the body are burdensome unto a fervent Spirit Grant me to use such refreshments moderately and not to be intangled with an over great desire of them It is not lawful to cast away all things for that nature is to be sustained But to desire superfluities and those things that are rather pleasurable thy holy Law forbiddeth For otherwise the flesh would Rebel against the Spirit Herein I beseech thee let thy hand govern me and teach me that I may not exceed CHAP. XXVII That private Love most hindreth from the chiefest Good CHrist. Son thou oughtest to give all for all and to retain nothing of thy self Know that the Love of thy self doth hurt thee more than any thing in the World According to the Love and affection thou bearest them so doth every thing cleave unto thee more or less If thy love be pure simple and well ordered thou shalt be free from the bondage of things Covet not that which thou mayest not have Be not willing to have that which may hinder thee and deprive thee of inward liberty It is strange that thou committest not thy self wholly unto me from the bottom of thy heart with all things that thou canst desire or have 2. Why dost thou consume thy self with vain grief Why art thou tired with needless cares stand to my good will and thou shalt suffer no detriment at all If thou seekest this or that and wouldest be here or there to enjoy thine own commodity and pleasure thou shalt never be at quiet nor free from trouble of mind for in every thing somewhat will be wanting and in every place there will be some that will cross thee 3. Not every external thing therefore attained and heaped together helpeth thee but it rather availeth if thou despise it and dost utterly root it out from thy heart which thou must not understand only of thy revenues and wealth but of thy seeking after honor also and thy desire of vain praise all which do pass away with this world The place availeth little if the spirit of fervor be wanting neither shall that peace which is sought abroad long continue if the state of thy heart be destitute of a true foundation that is unless thou stand stedfast in me thou mayest change but not better thy self For when occasion doth happen thou shalt find not only those things which thou soughtest to fly but a great deal more A Prayer for purging the heart and obtaining of Heavenly wisdom 4. Christian. Strengthen me O God by the grace of thy holy Spirit Give me to be strengthened in my inward Man and to empty my heart of all unprofitable care and anguish not to be drawn away with the sundry desires of any thing either mean or precious but to look upon all things as passing away and that my self do also pass away together with them for nothing is permanent under the Sun where all things are vanity and vexation of spirit O how wise is he that so considereth them 5. Grant me Lord Heavenly wisdom that I may learn above all things to seek and find thee above all things to relish thee and to love thee and to think of all other things as they are according to the disposal of thy wisdom Grant me prudently to avoid him that flatters me and to suffer patiently him that contradicts me For it is a great part of wisdom not to be moved with every blast of words nor to give ear to an ill flattering Syren for so we shall go on securely in the way which we have begun CHAP. XXVIII Against the Tongues of Slanderers CHrist. Son take it not grievously if some think evil of thee and speak that which thou wouldest not willingly hear Thou oughtest to judg the worst of thy self and to think no Man weaker than thy self If thou dost walk spiritually thou wilt not much esteem of flying words It is no small wisdom to keep silence in an evil time and inwardly to run to me and not to be troubled with the judgment of Men. 2. Let not thy peace be in the
Let the holy Name be blessed but to me let no part of Mens praises be given Thou art my glory thou art the joy of my heart In thee will I glory and rejoyce all the day but as for my self I will not glory but in my infirmities 6. Let the Iews seek honor one of another I will desire this which is from God alone For all humane glory all temporal honor all worldly highness compared to thy eternal glory is vanity and folly O my Truth my mercy my God most blessed Trinity to thee alone be praise honor power and glory for evermore CHAP. XLI Of the contempt of all temporal honors CHrist. Son trouble not thy self if thou seest others honored and advanced and thy self contemned and debased Lift up thy heart unto me in Heaven and the contempt of Men on Earth will not grieve thee Christian. Lord we are blind and quickly seduced with vanity If I look well into my self I cannot say that any creature hath done me wrong and therefore I cannot justly complain of thee 2. But because I have often and grievously sinned against thee all creatures do justly take arms against me for shame and contempt is due unto me but unto thee praise honor and glory And unless I frame my self with a very good will to be despised and forsaken of all creatures and to be esteemed nothing at all I cannot obtain inward peace and strength nor be spiritually enlightned nor fully united unto thee CHAP. XLII That our peace is not to be placed in Men. CHrist. Son if the peace thou hast with any be grounded upon the opinion which thou hast of him or upon the account of thine acquaintance with him thou shalt ever be in an unconstant and enthralled condition but if thou have recourse unto the everliving and eternal Truth a friend going from thee or dying shall not grieve thee The love of thy friend ought to be grounded in me and for me is he to be beloved whosoever he be whom thou thinkest well of and is very dear unto thee in this life No friendship can avail or continue without me neither is that love true and pure which is not knit by me Thou oughtest to be so dead to such affections of beloved friends that forasmuch as appertaineth unto thee thou shouldest wish to be without all company of Men. Man approacheth so much the nearer unto God by how much the further off he departeth from all Earthly comfort so much the higher also he ascendeth unto God by how much lower he descendeth into himself and how much the meaner he is in his own sight 2. But he that attributeth any good unto himself hindereth the coming of Gods grace unto him for the grace of the holy Ghost ever seeketh an humble heart If thou couldest perfectly annihilate thy self and empty thy self of all created love then should I flow into thee with great abundance of grace When thou castest thy eyes on creatures the sight of thy Creator is taken from thee Learn to overcome thy self in all things for the love of thy Creator and then shalt thou be able to attain to divine knowledge How little soever the thing be if it be inordinately loved and regarded it defileth the soul and hindereth the enjoying of the chiefest good CHAP. XLIII Against vain and secular knowledg CHrist. Son let not the fair speeches and subtile sayings of Men move thee For the Kingdom of God consisteth not in word but in power Observe well my words for they enflame hearts and enlighten minds they cause compunction and bring sundry comforts Do thou never read to shew thy self learned or wise but labor to mortify thy sins for that will profit thee more than the knowledg of many difficult questions 2. When thou shalt have read and known many things thou oughtest ever to return to one beginning and Principle I am he that teacheth Man knowledg and give unto babes a more clear understanding that can be taught by Man He therefore to whom I speak shall quickly be wise and shall profit much in the spirit Wo be to them that enquire many curious things of Men and do little mind the way how to serve me The time will come when the Master of Masters shall appear Christ the Lord of Angels to hear the lessons of all that is to examine the consciences of every one and then he will search Jerusalem with a candle and the hidden things of darkness shall be laid open and the arguings of Mens Tongues shall be silent 3. I am he that in an instant do raise up the humble mind to understand more of the eternal truth than can be gotten by Ten years study in the Schools I teach without the noise of words without the confounding of opinions without ambition of honor without the scuffling of arguments I am he that teacheth to despise Earthly things to loath things present to seek the everlasting to relish the things that are eternal to flee honors to suffer injuries to place all hope in me to desire nothing out of me and above all things ardently to love me 4. For a certain person by loving me entirely learned divine things and spake that which was admirable he profited more by forsaking all things than in studying subtilties To some I speak common things to others more special things to some I appear sweetly by signs and figures but to some I reveal mysteries with much light The voice of books is indeed one but it teacheth not all Men alike For I am the inward teacher I am the Truth I am the searcher of the heart the discerner of the thoughts the setter forwards of what is good distributing to every one as I judge meet CHAP. XLIV Of not drawing outward things to our selves CHrist. Son in many things thou oughtest to be ignorant and esteem thy self as dead upon Earth and as one to whom the whole world is crucified Thou must also pass by many things with a deaf ear and rather think of that which appertaineth to thy peace It is better for thee to turn thine eyes from what doth mislike thee and to leave unto every one his own opinion than to strive with contentious words If all stand well betwixt thee and God and if thou hast his judgment in thy mind thou shalt the more easily bear if thou be overcome 2. Christian. O Lord to what a pass are we come Behold we bewail a temporal loss for a little gain we toil and run and the spiritual damage of our soul is forgotten and hardly at length called to mind That which little or nothing profiteth is minded and that which is chiefly necessary is slightly passed over because the whole Man doth slide down into eternal things and unless he speedily repent he lieth immerst in them and that willingly CHAP. XLV That credit is not to be given to all Men and how prone Man is to offend in words CHristian Help me O Lord in my tribulation for vain
advise thee not to enquire nor dispute of the merits of the Saints which of them is holier than the other and which is greater in the Kingdom of Heaven These things oftentimes breed strife and unprofitable contentions they nourish also pride and vain glory from whence do spring envy and dissentions whilst one will proudly prefer this and the other another To desire to know and search out such things is to no purpose nor would it please the Saints for I am not the God of dissention but of peace which peace consisteth rather in true humility than in self exaltation 3. Some are carried with zeal of affection to love these or those most but this love is rather humane than divine I am He who made all the Saints and have given them grace I have given them glory I know what every one hath deserved I have prevented them with the blessings of my goodness I foreknew my beloved before the beginning of the world I chose them out of the world they chose not me first I called them by grace I drew them by mercy I led them through sundry temptations I have poured into them glorious comforts I have given them perseverance I have crowned their patience 4. I know both the first and the last I embrace all with inestimable love I am to be praised in all my Saints I am to be blessed above all things and to be honored in every one whom I have thus gloriously exalted and predestinated without any precedent merits of their own He therefore that contemneth one of the least of my Saints honoreth not the greatest for that I made both the less and the greater and he that dispraifeth any of my Saints dispraiseth also me and all the rest in the Kingdom of Heaven There all are one through the bond of love they think the same they will the same and they all love one another 5. But yet which is much more high they love me more than themselves and are drawn out of all themselves or any merits of their own For being ravished above self-love they are wholly carried out to love me in whom also they do fruitively rest Nothing can turn them back nothing can press them down for being full of the eternal Truth they burn with the fire of unquenchable love Let therefore carnal and natural Men who can affect no other but their private joys forbear to dispute of the state of Saints They add and take away according to their own fancies not as it pleaseth the eternal Truth 6. Many are ignorant but specially those that be slenderly enlightned and these can seldom love any with a perfect spiritual love They are as yet much drawn by a natural affection and humane friendship to this Man or to that and according to the experience they have of themselves in their Earthly affections so they frame an imagination of Heavenly things But there is an incomparable distance between the things which the imperfect ones imagine in their conceits and those which the illuminated ones do see by revelation from above 7. Beware therefore my Son that thou treat not curiously of these things which exceed thy knowledg but rather so apply thy endeavors that thou mayest at least have the meanest place in the Kingdom of Heaven And if any one did know which of the Saints exceed others in sanctity or were greater in the Kingdom of Heaven what would this knowledg avail him unless he should thereby humble himself the more in my sight and should rise up into the greater praising of my name He pleaseth God much better that thinketh of the greatness of his sins and the smalness of his graces and how far off he is from the perfection of the Saints than he that disputeth of their greatness or littleness 8. They are well and right well contented if Men could content themselves and refrain from these vain discourses They glory not of their own merits for they ascribe no good unto themselves but attribute all to me who of my infinite love have given them all things They are filled with so great love of the Divinity and with such an overflowing joy that there is no glory nor happiness that is or can be wanting unto them All the Saints how much the higher they be in glory so much the more humble they are in themselves and nearer and dearer unto me And therefore it is written That they did cast their Crowns before God and fell down upon their face before the Lamb and adored him that liveth for ever and ever 9. Many inquire who is greatest in the Kingdom of God that know not whether they shall ever be numbred there amongst the least It is a great thing to be even the least in Heaven where all are great for that all there shall be called and shall be indeed the Sons of God The least shall become a Thousand and the sinner of an Hundred years shall die For when the Disciples asked who should be greatest in the Kingdom of Heaven they received this answer Unless you be converted and be come as little Children you shall not enter into the Kingdom of Heaven Whosoever therefore shall humble himself as this little Child the same is greatest in the Kingdom of Heaven 10. Wo be unto them that disdain to humble themselves willingly with little Children For the low gate of the Kingdom of Heaven will not give them entrance And wo be to the rich that have their comforts here for whilest the poor enter into the Kingdom of God they shall stand lamenting without Rejoyce you that be humble and you that be poor be you glad for yours is the Kingdom of God if you walk according to the truth CHAP. LIX That all our hope and trust is to be fixed in God alone CHristian Lord what trust have I in this life Or what is the greatest comfort that all things under Heaven do yield me Is it not thou my Lord God whose mercies are without number Where hath it been well with me without thee Or when could it be ill with me when thou wert present I had rather be poor for thee than rich without thee I rather choose to be a pilgrim on Earth with thee than to possess Heaven without thee Where thou art there is Heaven and there is death and Hell where thou art not Thou art my desire and therefore it behoveth me to sigh and cry and pray unto thee For I have none fully to trust in none that can seasonably help me in my necessities but thee alone my God Thou art my hope thou art my trust thou art my comforter and most faithful unto me in all things 2. All Men seek their own gain thou only seekest my salvation and my profit and turnest all things to my good Although thou exposest me to divers temptations and adversities yet thou orderest all this to my advantage who art wont to try thy beloved ones a Thousand wayes In which trial thou oughtest no
less to be loved and praised then if thou didst fill me with Heavenly comforts 3. In thee therefore O Lord God I put my whole hope and refuge in thee I place my tribulation and anguish for I find all to be weak and unconstant whatsoever I behold out of thee For neither can many friends avail nor strong helpers aid nor wise councellors give any profitable answer nor the Books of the learned comfort nor any wealth deliver nor any secret or pleasant place defend if thou thy self dost not assist help strengthen comfort instruct and keep us 4. For all things that seem to belong to the attainment of peace and felicity without thee are nothing and do bring indeed no felicity at all Thou therefore art the end of all that is good the height of life the depth of wisdom and the strongest comfort of thy servants is to trust in thee above all things To thee therefore do I lift up mine eyes in thee O my God the Father of mercies I put my trust Bless and sanctifie my soul with thy Heavenly blessings that it may be made thy holy habitation and the seat of thy eternal glory and that nothing may be found in the Temple of thy glory that may offend the eyes of thy Majesty According to the greatness of thy goodness and multitude of thy mercies look upon me and hear the prayer of thy poor Servant who is far exiled from thee in the land of the shadow of death Protect and keep the soul of thy Servant amidst so many dangers of this corruptible life and by thy grace accompanying me direct it by the way of peace to the country of everlasting light Amen THE FOURTH BOOK A devout Exhortation unto the holy Communion The voice of Christ. COme unto me all ye that labor and are burdened and I will refresh you saith the Lord. The bread which I will give is my flesh for the life of the world Take ye and eat that is my body that is given for you Do this in remembrance of me He that eateth my flesh and drinketh my blood dwelleth in me and I in him The words which I have spoken unto you are spirit and life CHAP. I. With how great reverence Christ ought to be received The voice of the disciple THese are thy words O Christ the everlasting Truth though not spoken all at one time nor written in one and the self same place Because therefore they are thine and true they are all thankfully and faithfully to be received by me They are thine and thou hast spoken them and they are mine also because thou hast spoken them for my salvation I willingly receive them from thy mouth that they may be the deeper imprinted in my heart These so gracious words so full of sweetness and love do encourage me but mine own offences do dishearten me and my impure conscience driveth me back from the receiving of so great mysteries The sweetness of thy words doth encourage me but the multitude of my sins doth oppress me 2. Thou commandest me to come confidently unto thee if I will have part with thee and to receive the food of immortality if I desire to obtain everlasting life and glory Come saist thou unto me all ye that labor and are burdened and I wil refresh you O sweet and loving word in the ear of a sinner that thou my Lord God shouldest invite the poor and needy to the participation of thy most holy body But who am I Lord that I may presume to approach unto thee Behold the Heavens cannot contain thee and thou saist Come ye all unto me 3. What meaneth this so gracious a condescension and this so loving invitation How shall I dare to come that know not any good in my self whereupon I may presume How shall I bring thee unto my House that have so often offended thy most gracious countenance The Angels and the Archangels honor thee the Saints and just Men do fear thee and saist thou Come ye all unto me Unless thou O Lord didst say it who would believe it to be true And unless thou didst command it who would attempt to come unto thee Behold Noah a just Man labored a Hundred years in the making of the Ark that he might be saved with a few and how can I in one hours space prepare my self to receive with reverenee the Maker of the world 4. Moses thy great Servant and thy especial friend made an Ark of incorruptible wood which also he covered with most pure Gold to put the Tables of the Law therein and I a corruptible creature how shall I dare so lightly to receive the Maker of the Law and the giver of life Solomon the wisest of the Kings of Israel bestowed Seven years in building a magnificent Temple to the praise of thy Name and celebrated the feast of Dedication thereof Eight days together he offered a Thousand peace-offerings and he solemnly set the Ark in the place prepared for it with the sound of Trumpets and joy and I the most miserable and poorest of Men how shall I bring thee into my House that can scarce spend one half hour religiously And I wish I could once spend about one half hour in a worthy and due manner 5. O my God how much did they endeavor to please thee and alas how little is that which I do How little time do I spend to prepare my self to receive I am seldom wholly recollected very seldom free from all distraction and yet surely no unbecoming thought ought to appear in the comfortable presence of thy Deity nor any creature wholly take me up for I am not to harbor an Angel but the Lord of Angels 6. And yet there is great difference between the Ark of the Covenant with its reliques and thy most pure body with its unspeakable virtues between those legal Sacrifices figures of future things and the true Sacrifice of thy body the complement of all antient Sacrifices Why therefore am I not more zealous in thy venerable presence Wherefore do I not prepare my self with greater care to receive thy holy things sith those holy antient Patriarchs and Prophets yea Kings also and Princes with the whole people have shewed such an affectionateness of devotion to thy divine service 7. The most devout King David danced before the Ark of God with all his might calling to mind the benefits bestowed in times past upon his Forefathers He made instruments of sundry kinds he published Psalms and appointed them to be sung with joy he also oftentimes sung to the harp being inspired with the grace of the holy Ghost He taught the people of Israel to praise God with their whole heart and with pleasant voices every day to bless and praise him If so great devotion was then used and such celebrating of divine praise before the Ark of the Testament what reverence and devotion is now to be performed by me and all Christian people at the Sacrament in receiving the
most precious body of Christ 8. O God the invisible Creator of the world how wonderfully dost thou deal with us how sweetly and graciously dost thou dispose of all things with thine elect to whom thou offerest thy self to be received in the Sacrament O this exceedeth all understanding This chiefly draweth the hearts of the religious and inflameth their affections For thy true faithful Servants that dispose their whole life to amendment by this most precious Sacrament oftentimes gain much of the grace of devotion and love of holiness 9. O the admirable and hidden grace of this Sacrament which only the faithful ones of Christ do know but the unbelieving and such as are slaves unto sin cannot have experience thereof In this Sacrament spiritual grace is given and strength which was lost is restored in the soul and the beauty disfigured by sin returneth again This grace is sometimes so great that out of the fulness of devotion which is here given not only the mind but the weak body also feeleth great increase of strength 10. Our coldness and negligence surely is much to be wailed and pittied that we are not drawn with greater affection to receive Christ in whom all the hope and merit of those that are to be saved doth consist For he is our sanctification and redemption he is the comfort of those who are here but travellers and the everlasting fruition of Saints It is much therefore to be lamented that many do so little consider this comfortable mystery which rejoyceth Heaven and preserveth the whole world O the blindness and hardness of Mans heart that doth not more deeply weigh so unspeakable a gift but rather cometh by the daily use thereof to regard it little or nothing 11. For if this most holy Sacrament should be celebrated in one place only and consecrated by one only Minister in the world with how great desires dost thou think would Men be affected to that place and to such a Minister that they might enjoy the celebration of these divine mysteries But now there are many Ministers and Christ is offered in many places that so the grace and love of God to Man may appear so much the greater how much the more this sacred Communion is spread through the world Thanks be unto thee good Jesus the everlasting shepherd that hast vouchsafed to refresh us who are poor and in a state of banishment with thy precious body and blood and to invite us to the receiving of these mysteries with the words of thy own mouth saying Come unto me all ye that labor and are burdened and I will refresh you CHAP. II. That the great goodness and love of God is exhibited to Man in this Sacrament The voice of the Disciple IN confidence of thy goodness and great mercy O Lord being sick I approach unto my Savior being hungry and thirsty to the Fountain of life needy to the King of Heaven a Servant unto my Lord a creature to my Creator being disconsolate I come to thee my merciful comforter But whence is this to me that thou vouch-safest to come unto me Who am I that thou shouldest give thy self unto me How dare a sinner appear before thee And how is it that thou dost vouchsafe to come unto a sinner Thou knowest thy Servant and seest that he hath no good thing in him for which thou shouldest bestow this favor upon him I confess therefore my unworthiness and I acknowledg thy goodness I praise thy mercy and give thee thanks for this thy transcendent love For thou dost this for thine own sake not for any merits of mine to the end that thy goodness may be better known unto me thy love more abundantly shewed and thy gracious condescension may be the more eminently set forth Since therefore it is thy pleasure and thou hast commanded that it should be so this thy favor is also dearly pleasing to me and I wish that my sins may be no hindrance herein 2. O most sweet and benign Jesus how great reverence and thanks together with perpetual praise is due unto thee for the receiving of thy sacred body whose preciousness no Man is able to express But what shall I think of at this Communion now that I am to approach unto my Lord whom I am not able duly to honor and yet I desire to receive him with devotion What can I think better and more profitable than to humble my self wholly before thee and to exalt thy infinite goodness above me I praise thee my God and will exalt thee for ever and I do despise and submit my self unto thee in a deep sense of my own unworthiness 3. Behold thou art the Holy of Holies and I the skum of sinners Behold thou inclinest unto me who am not worthy so much as to look up unto thee Behold thou comest unto me It is thy will to be with me thou invitest me to thy banquet Thou wilt give me the food of Heaven and bread of Angels to eat which is no other indeed than thy self the living bread that descendest from Heaven and givest life unto the world world 4. Behold from whence doth this love proceed What a gracious condescension of thine appeareth herein How great thanks and praises are due unto thee for these benefits O how good and profitable was thy councel when thou ordainedst it How sweet and pleasant the banquet when thou gavest thy self to be our food How wonderful is this thy doing O Lord how mighty is thy power how unspeakable is thy truth For thou sayest the word and all things were made and this was done which thou commandest 5. A thing of great admiration that thou my Lord God true God and Man shouldest be exhibited unto us by the Elements of Bread and Wine Thou who art the Lord of all things and standest in need of none had pleased to dwell in us by means of this thy Sacrament preserve my heart and body unspotted that with a chearful and pure conscience I may often celebrate thy mysteries and receive them to my everlasting health which thou hast chiefly ordained and instituted for thy honor and for a perpetual memorial 6. Rejoyce O my soul and give thanks unto God for so noble a gift and so singular a comfort left unto thee in this vale of tears For as often as thou callest to mind this mystery and receivest the body of Christ so often dost thou remember the work of thy redemption and art made partaker of all the merits of Christ. For the love of Christ is never diminished and the greatness of his propitiation is never exhausted Therefore thou oughtest always to dispose thy self hereunto by a fresh renewing of thy mind and to weigh with attentive consideration this great mystery of thy salvation So great new and joyful it ought to seem unto thee when thou comest to these holy mysteries as if the same day Christ first descending into the womb of the Virgin were become Man or hanging on the
Cross did suffer and die for salvation of Mankind CHAP. III. That it is profitable to communicate often The voice of the Disciple BEhold O Lord I come unto thee that I may be comforted in thy gift and be delighted in thy holy banquet which thou O God hast prepared in thy goodness for the poor Behold in thee is all whatsoever I can or ought to desire thou art my salvation and my redemption my hope and my strength my honor and my glory make joyful therefore this day the soul of thy Servant for that I have lifted it up to thee O Lord Jesus I desire to receive thee now with devotion and reverence I do long to bring thee into my house that with Zacheus I may obtain to be blessed by thee and to be numbred amongst the Children of Abraham My soul thirsteth to receive thy body my heart desireth to be united with thee 2. Give thy self to me and it sufficeth for besides thee no comfort is available I cannot be without thee nor live without thy visitation And therefore I must often come unto thee and receive thee for the welfare of my soul lest perhaps I faint in the way if I be deprived of thy Heavenly food For so most merciful Jesus thou once didst say preaching to the people and curing sundry diseases I will not send them home fasting lest they faint in the way Deal thou therefore in like manner now with me who hast vouchsafed to leave thy self in the Sacrament for the comfort of the faithful For thou art the sweet refection of the soul and he that eateth thee worthily shall be partaker and heir of everlasting glory It is necessary for me that do often fall and sin and so quickly wax dull and faint that by frequent prayer and confession and receiving of thy holy body I renew cleanse and inflame my self lest perhaps by long abstaining I should fall from my holy purpose 3. For the imaginations of Man are prone unto evil from his youth and unless some divine remedy help him he quickly slideth to worse This holy Communion therefore draweth back from evil and strengtheneth in good For if I be now so often slack and cold when I communicate or celebrate what would become of me if I received not this remedy and sought not after so great an help Though every day I be not fit nor well prepared to communicate I will endeavor notwithstanding at due times to receive the divine mysteries and to be partaker of so great a grace For this is one chief comfort of a faithful soul whilest she wandreth from thee in this mortal body that being often mindful of her God she receive her beloved with a devout mind 4. O the wonderful condescent of thy mercy towards us that thou O Lord God the Creator and giver of life to all spirits dost vouchsafe to come unto a poor soul and with thy whole Deity and Humanity to replenish her hunger O happy mind and blessed soul that obtains to receive thee her Lord God with devout affection and in receiving of thee to be filled with spiritual joy O how great a Lord doth she entertain How beloved a guest doth she harbor How pleasant a companion doth she receive How faithful a friend doth she take in How lovely and noble a spouse doth she embrace She embraceth him who is to be loved above all that is beloved and above all things that may be desired Let Heaven and Earth and all their furniture be silent in thy presence for what praise and beauty soever they have it is received from thy bounty and shall not equal the beauty of thy Name whose wisdom is infinite CHAP. IV. That many benefits are bestowed upon them that communicate devoutly The voice of the Disciple MY Lord God prevent thy Servant with the blessings of thy sweetness that I may approach worthily and devoutly to thy glorious Sacrament stir up my heart unto thee and deliver me from all dulness visit me with thy salvation that I may taste in spirit thy sweetness which plentifully lieth hid in this Sacrament as in a fountain Enlighten also my eyes to behold so great a mystery and strengthen me to believe it with undoubted faith For it is thy work and not Mans power thy sacred institution not Mans invention For no Man is of himself able to comprehend and understand these things which surpass the understanding even of Angels What therefore shall I unworthy sinner dust and ashes be able to search and comprehend of so high and sacred a mystery 2. O Lord in the simplicity of my heart with a good and firm faith and at thy commandment I come unto thee with hope and reverence and do truly believe that thou art present in the Sacrament Thy will is that I receive thee and that by love I unite my self unto thee Wherefore I implore thy mercy and do crave thy special grace to the end I may wholly melt and flow over with love unto thee and hereafter never harbor any external comfort For this most high and worthy Sacrament is the health of the soul and body the remedy of all spiritual weakness hereby my vices are cured my passions bridled temptations overcome or weakned greater grace is infused virtue begun increased faith confirmed hope strengthened and love inflamed and enlarged 3. For thou hast bestowed and still oftentimes dost bestow many benefits in this Sacrament upon thy beloved ones that communicate devoutly O my God the Protector of my soul the strengthner of humane frailty and the giver of all inward comfort Thou impartest unto them much comfort against sundry tribulations and liftest them up from the depth of their own dejectedness to hope in thy protection and dost inwardly refresh and illustrate them with new grace so that they who before Communion felt themselves heavy and indisposed afterwards being refreshed with Heavenly meat and drink do find in themselves a great change to the better And in such a way of dispensation thou dealest with thy elect that they may truly acknowledg and patiently prove how great their own infirmity is and what goodness and grace they receive from thee For they of themselves are cold dull and undevout but by thee they are made fervent chearful and full of devotion For who is there that approaching humbly unto the fountain of sweetness doth not carry away from thence at least some little sweetness Or who standing by a great fire receiveth not some small heat thereby Thou art a fountain always full and overflowing a fire ever burning and never decaying 4. Wherefore if I cannot draw out of the full fountain it self nor drink my fill I will notwithstanding set my lips to the mouth of this Heavenly conduit that I may draw from thence at least some small drop to refresh my thirst that so I may not be wholly dried up And though I be not altogether Heavenly nor so inflamed as the Cherubins and Seraphins notwithstanding I will
the holy of Holies Thanks be unto thee Lord Jesus the light of everlasting light for the table of holy Doctrine which thou hast afforded us by thy Servants the Prophets and Apostles and other Teachers 5. Thanks be unto thee Creator and Redeemer of Man who to manifest thy love to the whole world hast prepared a great supper wherein thou hast set before us to be eaten not the typical Lamb but thine own most sacred Body and Blood rejoycing all the faithful with thy holy banquet and replenishing them to the full with thy Cup of salvation in which are all the delights of Paradise and the holy Angels do feast with us but yet with a more happy sweetness 6. O how great and honorable is the office of Gods Ministers to whom it is given with sacred words to consecrate the Sacrament of the Lord of glory with their lips to bless with their hands to hold with their mouth to receive and also to administer to others O how clean ought to be those hands how pure that mouth how holy that body how unspotted that heart where the Author of purity so often entreth Nothing but what is holy no word but good and profitable ought to proceed from his mouth which so often receiveth the Sacrament of Christ. 7. Simple and chaste ought to be the eyes that use to behold the body of Christ the hands pure and lifted up to Heaven that use to receive the Creator of Heaven and Earth Unto the Priests especially it is said in the Law be ye holy for that I your Lord God am holy 8. Assist us Almighty God with thy grace that we who have undertaken the office of Priest-hood may serve thee worthily and devoutly in all purity and with a good conscience And if we live not in so great innocency as we ought to do grant us notwithstanding in due manner to bewail the sins which we have committed and in the spirit of humility and with the full purpose of a good will to serve thee hereafter more fervently CHAP. XII That he who is to communicate ought to prepare himself with great diligence The voice of the beloued I Am the lover of purity and the giver of all sanctity I seek a pure heart and there is the place of my rest Make ready and adorn for me the great Chamber and I will keep with thee the Passover amongst my Disciples If thou wilt have me come unto thee and remain with thee purge out the old leaven and make clean the habitation of thy heart shut out the whole world and all the throng of sins sit like a sparrow solitary upon the house-top and think of thy offences in the bitterness of thy soul. For every lover prepareth the best and fairest room for his beloved and herein is known the affection of him that entertaineth his beloved 2. Know thou notwithstanding that the merit of no action of thine is able to make this preparation sufficient although thou shouldest prepare thy self a whole year together and think on nothing else Thou art of my mere grace and favor suffered to come to my Table like a beggar invited to dinner to a rich Man who hath nothing else to return him for his benefits but to humble himself and give him thanks Do what lieth in thee and do it diligently not for custome not for necessity but with fear and reverence and affection receive the body of thy beloved Lord God who vouchsafeth to come unto thee I am he that have called thee I have commanded it to be done I will supply what is wanting in thee come and receive me 3. When I bestow the grace of devotion give thanks to thy God for it is given thee not for that thou art worthy but because I have mercy on thee If thou have it not but rather dost feel thy self dry continue in Prayer sigh and knock and give not over until thou art meet to receive some crum or drop of saving grace Thou hast need of me not I of thee neither comest thou to sanctifie me but I come to sanctifie and make thee better Thou comest that thou maist be sanctified by me and united unto me that thou maist receive new grace and be stirred up again to amendment Neglect not this grace but prepare thy heart with all diligence and receive thy beloved into thy soul. 4. But thou oughtest not only to prepare thy self to devotion before Communion but carefully also to conserve thy self therein after thou hast received the Sacrament Neither is the careful guard of thy self afterwards less required than devout preparation before For a good guard afterwards is the best preparation again for the obtaining of greater grace because that a Man becometh therefore very indisposed if he presently pour himself out overmuch to outward comforts Beware of much talk remain in some secret place and enjoy thy God For thou hast him whom all the world cannot take from thee I am he to whom thou oughtest wholly to give thy self thatso thou maist live hereafter not in thy self but in me without all solicitude CHAP. XIII That a devout soul ought to desire with her whole heart to be united unto Christ in the Sacrament The voice of the Disciple HOw may I obtain this O Lord that I may find thee alone and open my whole heart unto thee and enjoy thee as my soul desireth And that no Man may look towards me nor any creature move me or eye me but thou alone maist speak unto me and I to thee as the beloved is wont to speak to his beloved and a friend to banquet with his friend This I pray for this I desire that I may be wholly united unto thee and may withdraw my heart from all created things and more and more by sacred Communion and often celebrating learn to relish Heavenly and eternal things O Lord God when shall I be wholly united to thee and absorpt by thee and be altogether forgetful of my self Thou in me and I in thee and so grant us both to continue in one 2. Thou art truly my beloved the choicest amongst Thousands in whom my soul is well pleased to dwell all the days of her life Thou art indeed my peacemaker in whom is greatest peace and true rest without whom is labor and sorrow and infinite misery Thou art indeed a God that hidest thy self and thy counsel is not with the wicked but thy speech is with the humble and simple of heart O Lord how sweet is thy spirit who to the end thou mightest shew thy sweetness toward thy Children vouchsafest to feed them with the bread which descendeth from Heaven and is full of all sweetness Surely there is no other Nation so great that hath God nigh unto them as thou our God art present to all thy faithful ones unto whom for their daily comfort and for the raising up of their hearts to Heaven thou givest thy self to be eaten and enjoyed 3. For what other Nation is
art my meat and my drink my love and my joy my sweetness and all my good 3. O that with thy presence thou wouldest wholly inflame burn and conform me unto thy self that I might be made one spirit with thee by the grace of inward union and by the meltings of ardent love Suffer me not to go from thee hungry and dry but deal mercifully with me as thou hast oftentimes dealt wonderfully with thy Saints What marvel is it if I should be wholly inflamed by thee and die from my self sith thou art fire always burning and never decaying love purifying the heart and enlightning the understanding CHAP. XVII Of fervent love and vehement desire to receive Christ. The voice of the Disciple ple WIth great devotion and ardent love with most hearty affection and fervor I desire to receive thee O Lord as many Saints and devout persons have desired thee when they received thy Sacrament who were most pleasing unto thee in holiness of life and most fervent in devotion O my God my everlasting love my whole good my happiness without end I would gladly receive thee with the most vehement desire and most worthy reverence that any of the Saints ever had or could feel 2. And although I be unworthy to have all those feelings of devotion yet I offer unto thee the whole affection of my heart as if I alone had all those highly pleasing inflamed desires yea and whatsoever also an holy mind can conceive and desire all that with greatest reverence and most inward affection I offer and present unto thee I desire to reserve nothing to my self but freely and most willingly to sacrifice my self and all mine unto thee my Lord God my Creator and my Redeemer I desire to receive thee this day with such affection reverence praise and honor with such gratitude worthiness and love with such faith hope and purity as thy most holy Mother the glorious Virgin Mary received and desired thee when she humbly and devoutly answered the Angel who declared unto her the mystery of the Incarnation and said Behold the handmaid of the Lord let it be done unto me according to thy word 3. And as thy blessed Forerunner the most excellent amongst the Saints Iohn Baptist chearfully leaped by reason of the holy Ghost whilest he was yet shut up in his Mothers womb and afterwards seeing Jesus walking amongst Men humbling himself very much said with devout affection The friend of the Bridegroom that standeth and heareth him rejoyceth with joy for the voice of the Bridegroom so I also wish to be inflamed with great and holy desires and to offer my self up to thee with my whole heart Wherefore I offer also and present unto thee the joys fervent affections mental excesses and supernal illuminations and Heavenly visions of all devout hearts with all the vertues and praises celebrated and to be celebrated by all creatures in Heaven and Earth for my self and all such as are commended to me in prayer that by all thou maist be worthily praised and glorified for ever 4. Receive my Lord God my wishes and desires of giving thee infinite praise and thanks which according to the measure of thy unspeakable greatness are most worthily due unto thee These I yield thee and desire to yield thee every day and moment I do entreat and invite all Heavenly minds and all the devout Servants to give thanks and praises together with me 5. Let all People Tribes and Tongues praise thee and magnifie thy holy and sweet Name with great joy and fervent devotion and let all that reverently and devoutly celebrate thy most high Sacrament and receive it with full faith find grace and mercy at thy hands and pray humbly for me a sinful creature And when they shall have obtained their desired devotion and joyful union and depart from thy sacred Heavenly Table well comforted and marvellously refreshed let them vouchsafe to remember my poor soul. CHAP. XVIII That Man be not a curious searcher of the Sacrament but an humble follower of Christ submitting his sense to faith The voice of the Beloved THou oughtest to beware of curious and unprofitable searching into this most profound Sacrament if thou wilt not be plunged in the depths of doubts He that is a searcher of Majesty shall be oppressed by thy glory God is able to work more than Man can understand A pious and humble inquiry of truth is tolerable so it be always ready to be taught and do endeavor to walk in the sound doctrines of the Fathers 2. Blessed is that simplicity that forsaketh the difficult ways of questions and goeth on in the plain and assured path of Gods Commandments Many have lost devotion whilest they would search after high things Faith and a sincere life required at thy hands not height of understanding nor a diving deep into the mysteries of God If thou dost not understand nor conceive those things that are under thee how shalt thou be able to comprehend those that are above thee Submit thy self to God and let thy sense be subject to faith and the light of knowledg shall be given thee in that degree as shall be profitable and necessary for thee 3. Some are grievously tempted about faith and the Sacrament but this is not to be imputed to them but rather to the Enemy Be not thou anxious nor dispute with thy thoughts neither do thou give answer to the doubts cast in by the Devil but believe the words of God believe his Saints and Prophets and the wicked Enemy will flie from thee It is oftentimes very profitable to the Servant of God to suffer such things For the Devil tempteth not unbelievers and sinners whom he already securely possesseth but he sundry ways tempteth and vexeth the faithful and religious 4. Go forward therefore with a sincere and undoubted faith and come to the Sacrament with unfeigned reverence And whatsoever thou art not able to understand commit securely to Almighty God God deceiveth thee not he is deceived that trusteth to much to himself God walketh with the simple revealeth himself to the humble giveth understanding to the little ones openeth the sense to pure minds and hideth grace from the curious and proud Humane reason is weak and may be deceived but true faith cannot be deceived 5. All reason and natural search ought to follow faith not to go before nor infringe it For faith and love do here chiefly excell and work in a hidden manner in this most holy and excellent Sacrament God who is everlasting and of infinite power doth great and inscrutable things in Heaven and in Earth and there is no searching out of his wonderful works If the works of God were such as might be easily comprehended by humane reason they were not to be called wonderful and unspeakable FINIS
be thy punishment and thou storest up greater fewel for that flame In what thing a Man hath sinned in the same shall he be the more grievously punished There shall the slothful be pricked forward with burning goads and the gluttons be tormented with great hunger and thirst There shall the luxurious and lovers of pleasures be bathed in burning pitch and stinking brimstone and the envious like mad Dogs shall howl for very grief 4. There is no sin but shall have its proper torment There the proud shall be filled with all confusion the covetous shall be pinched with miserable penury one hour of pain there shall be more bitter than a Thousand years of the sharpest pennance here There is no quiet no comfort for the damned there yet here we have some intermission of our labors and enjoy the comfort of our friends Be now sollicitous and sorrowful because of thy sins that at the day of judgment thou mayest be secure with the company of blessed souls For then shall the righteous with great boldness stand against such as have vexed and oppressed them then shall he stand to judg Men who doth now humbly submit himself to the censures of Men. Then shall the poor and humble have great confidence but the proud Man shall be compassed with fear on every side 5. Then will it appear that he was wise in this world who had learned for Christ to be a fool and despised Then shall every affliction patiently undergone delight us when the mouth of iniquity shall be stopped up Then shall the devout rejoyce and the profane shall mourn Then shall he more rejoyce that hath beat down his own flesh than he that hath abounded in all pleasure and delight Then shall the poor attire shine gloriously and the precious robes seem vile and contemptible Then shall be more commended the poor cottage than the gilded palace Then will constant patience more avail us than all earthly power Then simple obedience shall be preferred before all worldly wisdom 6. Then shall a good and clear conscience more rejoyce a Man than the profound learning of Philosophy Then shall the contempt of riches weigh more than all the worldings treasure Then wilt thou be more comforted that thou hast prayed devoutly than that thou hast fared daintily Then wilt thou be more glad thou hast kept silence than that thou hast talked much Then will good works avail more than many goodly words Then a strict life and severe repentance will be more pleasing than all earthly delights Accustome thy self now to suffer a little that thou mayest then be delivered from more grievous pains Prove first here what thou canst endure hereafter If now thou canst endure so little how wilt thou then be able to endure perpetual torments If now a little suffering make thee so impatient what will hell fire do hereafter Assure thy self thou canst not have two Paradises it is impossible to enjoy delights in this world and after that to reign with Christ. 7. Suppose thou hast hitherto lived always in honors and delights what would all this avail thee if thou wert to die at this instant All therefore is vanity but to love God and serve him only For he that loveth God with all his heart is neither afraid of death nor punishment nor of judgement nor of hell for perfect love gives secure access to God But he that takes delight in sin what marvel is it if he be afraid both of death and judgment Yet it is good although love be not yet of force to withhold thee from sin that at least the fear of hell should restrain thee But he that layeth aside the fear of God can never continue long in good estate but falleth quickly into the snares of the Devil CHAP. XXV Of the zealous amendment of our whole life BE watchful and diligent in the service of God and often bethink thy self wherefore thou camest hither and why thou hast left the world Was it not that thou mightest live to God and become a spiritual Man Be fervent then to come forward for shortly thou shalt receive a reward of thy Labors there shall not be then any fear of sorrow in thy coasts Labor but now a little and thou shalt find great rest yea perpetual joy to thy soul. If thou continuest faithful and fervent in doing good no doubt but God will be faithful and liberal in rewarding thee Thou oughtest to have a good hope for getting the victory but thou must not be secure lest thou wax either negligent or proud 2. When one that was in great anxiety of mind often wavering between fear and hope did once being oppressed with grief humbly prostrate himself in a Church in prayer and said within himself O if I knew that I should yet persevere he presently heard within him an answer from God which said What if thou didst know it what wouldest thou do Do now what thou wouldest do then and thou shalt be secure And being herewith comforted and strengthened he committed himself wholly to the will of God and that noysome anxiety ceased neither had he any mind to search curiously any further to know what should befal him but rather labored to understand what was the perfect and acceptable will of God for the beginning and accomplishing of every good work 3. Hope in the Lord and do good saith the Prophet and inhabit the land and thou shalt be fed in the riches thereof One thing there is that draweth many back from a spiritual progress and the diligent amendment of their lives viz. The horror of the difficulty or the labor of the combat But they above others improve most in virtue that endeavor most to overcome those things which are grievous and contrary unto them For there a Man improveth more and obtaineth greater grace where he more overcometh himself and mortifieth himself in spirit 4. But all Men have not alike to overcome and mortifie yet he that is zealous and diligent though he have more passions shall profit more in virtue than another that is of a more temperate disposition if he be less fervent in the pursuit of virtue Two things especially much further our amendment to wit to withdraw our selves violently from that to which nature is viciously inclined and to labor earnestly for that virtue which we most want Be careful also to avoid with great diligence those things in thy self which do commonly displease thee in others 5. Gather some profit to thy soul wheresoever thou be so as if thou seest or hearest of any good examples stir up thy self to the imitation thereof But if thou seest any thing worthy of reproof beware thou do not the same And if at any time thou hast done it labor quickly to amend it As thine eye observeth others so art thou also noted again by others O how sweet and pleasant a thing it is to see the Servants of Christ fervent and devout endued with virtuous and decent manners And