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infinity_n of_o mean_n which_o lay_v treasure_v up_o in_o the_o bosom_n of_o his_o omniscience_n and_o omnipotency_n choose_v this_o of_o the_o cross_n which_o his_o son_n make_v flesh_n embrace_v cherish_v love_a and_o put_v in_o execution_n all_o his_o life-time_n esteem_v contempt_n cross_n suffering_n as_o thing_n great_a and_o excellent_a prefer_v the_o interest_n of_o the_o glory_n of_o his_o father_n before_o the_o satisfaction_n of_o his_o sacred_a humanity_n which_o have_v a_o natural_a repugnance_n to_o they_o by_o how_o much_o the_o more_o than_o that_o a_o soul_n be_v partaker_n of_o the_o divine_a spirit_n and_o interiour_n of_o the_o son_n of_o god_n by_o so_o much_o the_o more_o she_o esteem_v and_o love_v the_o cross_n and_o consequent_o do_v more_o glorify_v god_n the_o father_n for_o to_o suffer_v be_v to_o make_v a_o continual_a sacrifice_n of_o our_o pleasure_n and_o interest_n unite_n ourselves_o to_o the_o design_n the_o son_n of_o god_n have_v by_o suffer_v to_o repair_v the_o glory_n of_o his_o father_n wherefore_o when_o a_o soul_n cease_v to_o value_n and_o love_v the_o cross_n and_o humiliation_n she_o be_v no_o more_o conform_v to_o the_o soul_n of_o jesus_n and_o so_o do_v not_o glorify_v god_n the_o father_n in_o a_o high_a manner_n but_o when_o she_o feel_v in_o herself_o a_o high_a esteem_n and_o love_n of_o the_o cross_n she_o high_o glorify_v the_o eternal_a father_n who_o take_v great_a delight_n in_o she_o in_o that_o she_o resemble_v his_o well-beloved_a son_n when_o a_o soul_n be_v enlighten_v with_o these_o irradiation_n she_o see_v her_o glory_n be_v to_o be_v despise_v because_o her_o glory_n be_v to_o procure_v the_o glory_n of_o god_n which_o she_o do_v most_o by_o humiliation_n she_o find_v her_o delight_n to_o be_v in_o suffering_n because_o her_o
delight_n be_v to_o honour_v the_o eternal_a father_n which_o be_v best_a effect_v by_o this_o mean_n a_o faithful_a soul_n will_v never_o part_v with_o a_o esteem_n and_o love_n of_o the_o cross_n as_o to_o the_o interiour_n because_o her_o desire_n be_v to_o please_v god_n and_o we_o best_o please_v he_o by_o humiliation_n let_v we_o well_o ground_n ourselves_o in_o this_o exercise_n of_o the_o design_n of_o god_n who_o will_v have_v we_o conformable_a to_o his_o son_n and_o consequent_o to_o have_v a_o love_n for_o suffering_n and_o abjection_n whatever_o dispose_v we_o to_o this_o conformity_n aught_o to_o be_v precious_a to_o we_o as_o few_o natural_a talent_n sickness_n ill_a success_n and_o the_o like_a the_o spirit_n of_o the_o world_n and_o nature_n find_v therein_o their_o punishment_n but_o the_o spirit_n of_o jesus_n christ_n take_v pleasure_n therein_o and_o so_o advance_v a_o faithful_a soul_n to_o perfection_n we_o be_v not_o yet_o spiritualise_v if_o we_o be_v not_o faithful_a to_o the_o love_n of_o suffering_n and_o abjection_n and_o we_o be_v not_o faithful_a herein_o if_o we_o be_v not_o content_a with_o those_o thing_n that_o humble_v we_o and_o cause_n abjection_n a_o right_a prospect_n of_o abjection_n and_o suffering_n be_v supernatural_a and_o delicate_a and_o require_v time_n to_o bring_v it_o to_o perfection_n and_o must_v be_v first_o try_v in_o ourselves_o before_o we_o extend_v it_o to_o other_o as_o for_o my_o particular_a when_o i_o see_v a_o person_n in_o great_a misery_n and_o poverty_n i_o be_o not_o much_o trouble_v at_o it_o because_o i_o consider_v the_o real_a good_a that_o soul_n may_v procure_v to_o herself_o by_o this_o abjection_n on_o the_o contrary_a i_o be_o in_o fear_n for_o those_o who_o be_v advance_v to_o honour_n and_o have_v great_a natural_a ability_n for_o the_o difficulty_n they_o must_v needs_o find_v to_o curb_v the_o spirit_n of_o nature_n and_o the_o world_n and_o bring_v they_o off_o from_o the_o love_n of_o these_o thing_n which_o be_v so_o powerful_a in_o they_o and_o hinder_v in_o they_o the_o love_n of_o jesus_n christ_n let_v we_o therefore_o remember_v that_o the_o purity_n of_o virtue_n consist_v in_o a_o faithful_a tendance_n to_o abjection_n and_o suffering_n and_o by_o how_o much_o a_o soul_n be_v more_o faithful_a herein_o the_o great_a advancement_n she_o make_v in_o virtue_n abjection_n be_v as_o the_o centre_n of_o the_o soul_n the_o more_o she_o be_v humble_v the_o near_o she_o draw_v to_o her_o repose_n and_o by_o consequence_n have_v a_o great_a feeling_n of_o god_n in_o inward_a peace_n a_o peace_n that_o the_o world_n nor_o nature_n can_v ever_o give_v we_o a_o peace_n that_o pass_v all_o understanding_n chap._n vi_o the_o sublimity_n of_o the_o christian_a life_n nothing_o but_o god_n make_v man_n poor_a annihilate_v sacrifice_v can_v honour_v god_n according_a to_o his_o greatness_n the_o design_n of_o the_o eternal_a father_n to_o this_o end_n be_v admirable_a full_a of_o divine_a wisdom_n of_o unspeakable_a love_n and_o mercy_n towards_o man_n and_o most_o ardent_a zeal_n for_o his_o own_o glory_n o_o the_o wonderful_a oeconomy_n that_o discover_v itself_o in_o all_o the_o mystery_n of_o the_o word_n incarnate_a o_o the_o ineffable_a mystery_n of_o jesus_n by_o you_o the_o eternal_a father_n be_v love_v glorify_a honour_a and_o his_o justice_n satisfy_v to_o the_o utmost_a rigour_n in_o this_o mystery_n be_v contain_v a_o inexplicable_a commerce_n and_o traffic_n of_o god_n the_o father_n with_o his_o son_n the_o interest_n of_o his_o glory_n in_o the_o salvation_n of_o mankind_n the_o will_n of_o the_o eternal_a father_n be_v that_o his_o son_n shall_v be_v incarnate_a circumcise_a poor_a scorn_v and_o crucify_v and_o the_o son_n of_o god_n in_o all_o these_o state_n of_o his_o life_n intend_v thereby_o to_o render_v to_o his_o father_n all_o the_o humiliation_n respect_n love_n and_o adoration_n which_o be_v due_a unto_o he_o these_o be_v the_o annihilation_n which_o so_o much_o elevate_v and_o exalt_v the_o christian_a reliligion_n to_o these_o she_o owe_v her_o grandeur_n and_o excellence_n o_o amiable_a eminent_a and_o excellent_a religion_n how_o unknown_a be_v thou_o to_o worldly_a man_n who_o taste_v no_o sweetness_n but_o in_o sensual_a pleasure_n o_o christian_n religion_n how_o be_v thou_o admirable_a how_o be_v thou_o ineffable_a who_o chief_a business_n be_v to_o employ_v your_o child_n with_o the_o divine_a traffic_n of_o the_o eternal_a father_n with_o his_o son_n incarnate_a when_o thy_o heavenly_a light_n shine_v upon_o a_o soul_n she_o see_v the_o deceit_n the_o vanity_n and_o pitiful_a baseness_n of_o the_o thought_n of_o those_o man_n who_o love_v not_o god_n nor_o aim_n at_o his_o glory_n o_o my_o soul_n how_o wretched_a will_v thou_o make_v thyself_o if_o thou_o follow_v thy_o sensual_a appetite_n and_o walk_v not_o in_o the_o way_n of_o jesus_n christ_n but_o this_o we_o can_v do_v of_o ourselves_o but_o by_o grace_n and_o power_n of_o the_o same_o jesus_n who_o be_v our_o hope_n and_o only_a helper_n we_o ought_v to_o bear_v no_o less_o respect_n to_o the_o maxim_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n than_o to_o jesus_n christ_n who_o have_v establish_v they_o see_v we_o ought_v to_o believe_v that_o they_o be_v full_a of_o divine_a wisdom_n and_o ineffable_a sanctity_n to_o have_v no_o esteem_n for_o poverty_n contempt_n and_o humiliation_n be_v to_o undervalue_v the_o wisdom_n of_o jesus_n christ_n some_o be_v so_o brutish_a as_o to_o be_v lead_v only_o by_o sensuality_n other_o follow_v only_o the_o light_n of_o reason_n and_o human_a prudence_n but_o neither_o of_o they_o know_v the_o excellency_n of_o christianity_n but_o such_o only_a who_o be_v conduct_v by_o the_o light_n of_o faith_n o_o life_n supernatural_a how_o sublime_a be_v thou_o how_o do_v thou_o so_o elevate_v a_o soul_n as_o to_o become_v blind_a to_o thing_n here_o below_o yea_o to_o herself_o and_o to_o see_v nothing_o but_o god_n in_o she_o by_o the_o ray_n of_o grace_n be_v please_v o_o divine_a spirit_n of_o jesus_n to_o bestow_v upon_o we_o some_o part_n of_o this_o holy_a life_n which_o the_o world_n can_v neither_o receive_v nor_o know_v quem_fw-la mundus_fw-la non_fw-la potest_fw-la accipere_fw-la nec_fw-la scit_fw-la eum_fw-la as_o st._n john_n testify_v the_o world_n can_v receive_v it_o be_v whole_o take_v up_o with_o creature_n nor_o can_v know_v it_o be_v blind_v with_o sensuality_n what_o a_o malediction_n be_v this_o but_o what_o a_o happiness_n be_v it_o to_o know_v and_o embrace_v this_o supernatural_a life_n this_o be_v wrought_v in_o the_o heart_n of_o the_o apostle_n who_o return_v with_o joy_n to_o be_v find_v worthy_a to_o live_v this_o life_n that_o be_v to_o be_v whip_v and_o despise_v for_o the_o name_n of_o jesus_n very_o if_o there_o be_v nothing_o to_o suffer_v here_o i_o know_v not_o why_o we_o shall_v desire_v to_o live_v here_o we_o shall_v endeavour_v to_o imitate_v that_o great_a saint_n who_o suffer_v a_o great_a martyrdom_n among_o rose_n and_o suavity_n than_o by_o rack_n and_o torture_n worldly_n pleasure_n be_v a_o kind_n of_o torment_n to_o a_o soul_n that_o love_v jesus_n christ_n crucify_v let_v we_o take_v a_o resolution_n o_o my_o soul_n not_o to_o be_v please_v but_o with_o the_o cross_n and_o when_o that_o do_v not_o relish_n let_v we_o please_v ourselves_o with_o our_o own_o annihilation_n see_v the_o creature_n be_v nothing_o in_o effect_n but_o what_o she_o be_v in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n but_o she_o be_v no_o more_o in_o his_o eye_n than_o inasmuch_o as_o she_o be_v a_o christian_n and_o she_o be_v no_o more_o a_o christian_n than_o inasmuch_o as_o she_o love_v this_o supernatural_a life_n while_o then_o we_o be_v too_o sensible_a of_o a_o suffer_a condition_n we_o have_v no_o great_a share_n of_o the_o spirit_n of_o christianity_n that_o be_v of_o the_o spirit_n of_o jesus_n abject_a suffer_v and_o annihilate_v chap._n vii_o there_o be_v divers_a degree_n of_o this_o supernatural_a life_n god_n have_v be_v very_o gracious_a to_o we_o to_o draw_v we_o out_o of_o nothing_o but_o more_o gracious_a and_o merciful_a in_o withdraw_v we_o from_o sin_n and_o the_o occasion_n of_o displease_v he_o but_o the_o choice_a of_o his_o favour_n be_v to_o advance_v we_o from_o a_o common_a to_o a_o supernatural_a life_n that_o be_v when_o the_o eternal_a father_n do_v lead_v we_o into_o the_o state_n of_o the_o mortal_a life_n of_o jesus_n by_o abjection_n suffering_n and_o annihilation_n which_o be_v the_o choice_a of_o his_o mercy_n and_o favour_n on_o earth_n because_o thereby_o we_o bring_v to_o he_o the_o great_a glory_n a_o soul_n be_v not_o all_o at_o once_o elevate_v to_o the_o perfection_n of_o this_o life_n but_o as_o soon_o as_o she_o behold_v the_o beauty_n thereof_o be_v
according_a to_o nature_n and_o must_v employ_v all_o mean_n and_o motive_n to_o this_o effect_n i_o will_v set_v down_o some_o of_o they_o it_o be_v a_o good_a motive_n or_o mean_n to_o renounce_v all_o creature_n and_o ourselves_o by_o a_o spirit_n of_o denudation_n say_v with_o great_a fervour_n and_o affection_n away_o creature_n get_v hence_o from_o i_o and_o leave_v a_o place_n in_o my_o heart_n for_o god_n alone_o 2._o it_o be_v a_o good_a motive_n to_o do_v this_o by_o a_o spirit_n of_o poverty_n for_o it_o be_v not_o possible_a to_o follow_v jesus_n poor_a and_o abject_a unless_o in_o due_a circumstance_n we_o be_v willing_a to_o leave_v all_o thing_n for_o jesus_n sake_n and_o become_v poor_a to_o follow_v he_o let_v we_o therefore_o be_v content_a to_o quit_v all_o thing_n joyful_o and_o be_v glad_a to_o have_v nothing_o to_o possess_v god_n himself_o alone_o 3._o '_o tisae_n good_a motive_n to_o die_v to_o all_o thing_n by_o a_o spirit_n of_o abjection_n what_o great_a happiness_n be_v there_o o_o my_o soul_n than_o to_o live_v in_o humiliation_n see_v this_o be_v the_o life_n of_o god_n upon_o earth_n to_o be_v despise_v with_o jesus_n be_v a_o state_n of_o beatitude_n worldly_n prosperity_n be_v a_o hindrance_n to_o our_o happiness_n 4._o it_o be_v a_o good_a motive_n to_o abandon_v all_o thing_n by_o a_o spirit_n of_o oblation_n sacrifice_v and_o annihilate_v ourselves_o sincere_o to_o pay_v homage_n to_o the_o infinite_a majesty_n of_o god_n with_o such_o a_o confidence_n in_o he_o so_o as_o to_o rely_v never_o more_o on_o any_o creature_n quid_fw-la enim_fw-la mihi_fw-la est_fw-la in_o caelum_fw-la aut_fw-la à _fw-la te_fw-la quid_fw-la volui_fw-la super_fw-la terram_fw-la deus_fw-la cordis_fw-la mei_fw-la o_o my_o god_n shall_v any_o creature_n take_v part_n of_o my_o heart_n with_o you_o when_o all_o be_v you_o if_o it_o be_v possible_a to_o love_v you_o too_o much_o i_o may_v give_v place_n to_o something_o else_o but_o see_v i_o be_o infinite_o below_o my_o duty_n in_o that_o particular_a what_o creature_n can_v pretend_v to_o have_v the_o least_o part_n with_o you_o chap._n ix_o of_o the_o liberty_n we_o enjoy_v by_o the_o exercise_n of_o the_o supernatural_a life_n it_o be_v wonderful_a to_o see_v the_o great_a liberty_n which_o a_o soul_n enjoy_v by_o the_o exercise_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n when_o the_o illumination_n of_o this_o state_n irradiate_a a_o soul_n thorough_o she_o enter_v into_o a_o new_a region_n of_o light_n full_a of_o peace_n and_o love_n marvellous_a large_a and_o spacious_a in_o which_o she_o live_v in_o high_a union_n with_o god_n a_o union_n which_o be_v not_o so_o liable_a to_o vicissitude_n and_o disturbance_n as_o former_o because_o accidental_a occurrence_n as_o sickness_n disgrace_n etc._n etc._n do_v not_o hurt_v such_o a_o soul_n by_o reason_n they_o make_v no_o strong_a impression_n in_o she_o and_o by_o consequence_n be_v become_v less_o sensible_a she_o be_v not_o easy_o 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