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win_v my_o love_n from_o my_o fellow_n sister_n and_o take_v the_o assistance_n of_o she_o before_o name_v novice_n suspicion_n and_o rash_a judgement_n assault_v i_o again_o &_o persuade_v i_o to_o hate_v and_o malice_n my_o sister_n and_o to_o carry_v a_o sinister_a opinion_n of_o they_o whereby_o i_o shall_v either_o suspect_v some_o ill_n in_o they_o or_o else_o rash_o without_o some_o just_a cause_n condemn_v they_o hence_o proceed_v contempt_n repine_v murmur_a and_o detraction_n but_o myself_o with_o the_o assistance_n of_o my_o purpose_n mark_v she_o present_o answer_n it_o beseem_v not_o so_o base_a and_o so_o abject_a a_o maid_n as_o myself_o to_o judge_v amiss_o of_o my_o sister_n or_o superior_n neither_o lawful_a for_o sinner_n to_o intermeddle_v with_o sacred_a vessel_n or_o for_o beast_n to_o come_v nigh_o the_o holy_a mountain_n it_o best_o beseem_v i_o to_o account_v all_o my_o sister_n virtuous_a and_o holy_a but_o myself_o most_o wretched_a and_o full_a of_o foul_a 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to_o collect_v himself_o and_o to_o turn_v to_o god_n now_o when_o this_o herb_n to_o think_v be_v water_v with_o the_o water_n call_v to_o see_n we_o must_v then_o add_v to_o these_o holy_a purpose_v a_o certain_a powder_n that_o be_v call_v strict_a guard_n of_o our_o eye_n for_o this_o be_v most_o necessary_a these_o three_o purpose_n do_v not_o only_o purge_v and_o make_v clean_a my_o soul_n from_o all_o worldly_a affares_fw-la from_o all_o self-will_n and_o from_o all_o spot_n and_o stain_v but_o beside_o that_o i_o may_v with_o great_a zeal_n serve_v my_o lord_n god_n procure_v i_o great_a purity_n of_o hart_n &_o rid_v i_o of_o all_o private_a affection_n and_o love_n and_o join_v and_o unite_v i_o whole_o to_o my_o lord_n god_n and_o saviour_n and_o to_o these_o three_o purpose_n i_o have_v reduce_v all_o my_o other_o spiritual_a exercise_n as_o well_o those_o which_o be_v appertain_v to_o humility_n as_o such_o as_o be_v agreeable_a to_o all_o other_o virtue_n because_o i_o 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