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ash_n yet_o may_v say_v that_o i_o know_v concern_v thou_o something_o 42.6_o job_n 42.6_o which_o yet_o concern_v myself_o i_o be_o ignorant_a of_o for_o notwithstanding_o i_o see_v thou_o yet_o as_o through_o a_o glass_n dark_o not_o face_n to_o face_n and_z so_o long_o as_o i_o sojourn_v here_o so_o far_o from_o thou_o 12._o 1_o cor._n 13_o 12._o i_o be_o more_o present_a to_o myself_o than_o to_o thou_o yet_o well_o know_v i_o concern_v thou_o that_o thou_o can_v by_v no_o mean_n nor_o from_o no_o agent_n receive_v any_o hurt_n but_o for_o myself_o what_o temptation_n and_o assault_n from_o abroad_o i_o be_o able_a or_o not_o able_a to_o resist_v i_o know_v not_o but_o my_o hope_n be_v that_o thou_o be_v faithful_a and_o will_v not_o suffer_v we_o to_o be_v tempt_v above_o that_o we_o be_v able_a but_o will_v with_o the_o temptation_n also_o make_v a_o way_n to_o escape_v that_o we_o may_v sustain_v it_o let_v i_o confess_v therefore_o both_o what_o of_o myself_o i_o know_v and_o what_o thing_n they_o be_v i_o yet_o know_v nor_o of_o myself_o because_o both_o what_o concern_v myself_o i_o know_v i_o know_v from_o thy_o illumination_n and_o what_o i_o know_v not_o i_o shall_v so_o long_o be_v still_o ignorant_a of_o till_o my_o darkness_n be_v make_v noonday_n from_o the_o light_n of_o thy_o countenance_n chap._n vi_o description_n of_o his_o present_a condition_n in_o the_o state_n of_o grace_n that_o he_o now_o true_o love_v god_n concern_v who_o he_o proceed_v to_o examine_v what_o it_o be_v he_o love_v when_o he_o say_v that_o he_o love_v god_n that_o
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19_o his_o praise_a god_n for_o the_o many_o good_a endowment_n of_o his_o childhood_n cap._n 20_o lib_fw-la ii_o a_o account_n of_o his_o youth_n cap._n 1_o and_o of_o the_o unruly_a lust_n thereof_o in_o the_o 16_o year_n of_o his_o age_n cap._n 2_o advance_v by_o his_o live_n idle_o at_o home_n by_o the_o ill_a example_n of_o his_o companion_n and_o by_o his_o parent_n neglect_v to_o marry_v he_o though_o his_o mother_n much_o dehort_v he_o from_o fornication_n and_o more_o especial_o from_o adultery_n cap._n 3_o of_o his_o theft_n *_o do_v only_o out_o of_o wantonness_n cap._n 4_o and_o *_o void_a of_o excuse_n when_o as_o most_o sin_n pretend_v some_o good_a to_o the_o sinner_n cap._n 5_o 6_o he_o lament_v this_o offence_n and_o praise_v god_n for_o the_o remission_n thereof_o by_o baptism_n cap._n 7_o yet_o that_o he_o shall_v not_o have_v do_v that_o theft_n without_o company_n cap._n 8_o lib_fw-la iii_o of_o his_o journey_n to_o carthage_n to_o finish_v his_o study_n and_o his_o amorous_a passion_n there_o cap._n 1_o of_o stageplays_a much_o affect_v by_o he_o and_o of_o the_o faulty_a passion_n they_o cause_v in_o he_o cap._n 2_o his_o concupiscence_n in_o the_o church_n the_o ambition_n of_o his_o study_n and_o conversation_n among_o the_o jeer_a and_o abusive_a wit_n cap._n 3_o in_o the_o 19_o year_n of_o his_o age_n his_o read_n of_o cicero_n hortensius_n invite_v he_o from_o affectation_n of_o eloquence_n to_o the_o search_n of_o wisdom_n cap._n 4_o not_o find_v our_o saviour_n in_o phoilosophy_n he_o turn_v to_o the_o scripture_n who_o humble_a stile_n in_o comparison_n of_o tully_n give_v he_o distaste_n cap._n 5_o in_o quest_n of_o wisdom_n he_o fall_v into_o the_o society_n and_o error_n of_o the_o manichee_n absurd_a pernicious_a cap._n 6_o their_o question_n that_o stumble_v he_o and_o the_o solution_n of_o they_o cap._n 7_o 8_o 9_o the_o manichee_n opinion_n of_o the_o part_n of_o god_n imprison_v in_o the_o creature_n cap._n 10_o his_o 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friend_n not_o find_v any_o consolation_n cap._n 6_o he_o forsake_v the_o place_n of_o their_o acquaintance_n and_o go_v to_o carthage_n cap._n 7_o his_o wound_n cure_v by_o time_n and_o new_a friendship_n cap._n 8_o yet_o these_o too_o fail_v he_o cap._n 9_o all_o thing_n love_v beside_o god_n pass_v away_o and_o leave_v the_o lover_n to_o embrace_v sorrow_n cap._n 10_o the_o transition_n of_o its_o part_n be_v necessary_a to_o make_v this_o universe_n complete_a cap._n 11_o to_o rest_v our_o love_n upon_o god_n and_o to_o love_v other_o thing_n only_o for_o and_z in_o he_o cap._n 12_o much_o exercise_v in_o love_n he_o write_v a_o book_n de_fw-fr pulchro_n &_o apto_fw-la cap._n 13_o dedicate_v to_o hierius_n a_o roman_a rhetorician_n much_o admire_v by_o he_o only_o upon_o report_n cap._n 14_o his_o false_a imagination_n concern_v these_o be_v not_o yet_o enlighten_v by_o the_o scripture_n cap._n 15_o of_o his_o strange_a acuteness_n of_o wit_n acquire_v all_o the_o liberal_a science_n without_o a_o teacher_n and_o yet_o so_o gross_o err_v in_o religion_n cap._n 16_o lib_fw-la v._o oblation_n of_o his_o confession_n to_o god_n their_o end_n be_v to_o set_v forth_o his_o praise_n cap._n 1_o invitation_n of_o all_o other_o stray_a sinner_n to_o return_v to_o the_o omnipotent_a god_n by_o confession_n cap._n 2_o the_o passage_n of_o the_o twenty_o nine_o year_n of_o his_o age._n the_o come_n of_o faustus_n a_o eloquent_a manichean_a bishop_n to_o carthage_n the_o philosopher_n tenant_n in_o the_o science_n find_v much_o more_o probable_a than_o the_o manichean_n cap._n 3_o science_n not_o beatify_v cap._n 4_o yet_o the_o mani_n he_o be_v ignorant_a also_o in_o they_o cap._n 5_o faustus_n natural_o eloquent_a but_o very_o ignorant_a in_o those_o art_n wherein_o he_o be_v repute_v to_o excel_v cap._n 6_o s._n austin_n affection_n to_o the_o manichean_a doctrine_n much_o abate_v upon_o the_o discovery_n of_o faustus_n his_o ignorance_n who_o he_o instruct_v in_o the_o art_n of_o rhetoric_n cap._n 7_o much_o offend_v with_o the_o unrulynesse_n of_o his_o scholar_n in_o carthage_n he_o remove_v from_o thence_o beyond_o sea_n to_o rome_n to_o profess_v rhetoric_n there_o extreme_o against_o his_o mother_n will_n cap._n 8_o come_v to_o rome_n he_o be_v strike_v with_o a_o dangerous_a fever_n the_o recovery_n from_o which_o he_o impute_v to_o his_o mother_n prayer_n cap._n 9_o recover_v he_o still_o consort_n with_o the_o manichee_n retain_v many_o of_o their_o error_n the_o chief_a of_o which_o be_v his_o imagine_v god_n a_o corporeal_a substance_n but_o with_o much_o more_o remissness_n than_o former_o cap._n 10_o especial_o find_v the_o manichee_n not_o clear_o to_o
yet_o cure_v of_o the_o former_a how_o much_o better_o have_v it_o be_v for_o i_o to_o have_v be_v so_o early_o heal_v and_o that_o with_o my_o own_o and_o my_o friend_n strict_a care_n the_o health_n of_o my_o soul_n thus_o restore_v may_v have_v be_v ever_o after_o keep_v entire_a by_o thy_o preserve_n what_o thou_o have_v restore_v this_o sure_o have_v be_v much_o the_o better_o but_o that_o my_o good_a mother_n already_o foresee_v how_o many_o and_o how_o great_a billow_n of_o temptation_n after_o my_o childhood_n spend_v be_v ready_a to_o assault_v and_o to_o ore-set_a my_o more_o unbridled_a youth_n choose_v rather_o to_o expose_v to_o their_o blow_n i_o now_o before_o baptism_n as_o yet_o a_o lump_n of_o rude_a clay_n which_o by_o it_o afterward_o may_v be_v new_o mould_v than_o i_o when_o by_o the_o sacrament_n thy_o new-formed_n image_n which_o so_o perchance_o may_v happen_v to_o be_v deface_v chap._n xii_o of_o his_o sin_n and_o error_n at_o school_n and_o of_o they_o that_o 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livelihood_n or_o from_o the_o other_o fear_v some_o such_o loss_n or_o first_o insure_v thirst_v for_o revenge_n will_v he_o commit_v a_o murder_n upon_o no_o cause_n take_v only_o with_o the_o murder_n who_o can_v imagine_v this_o for_o as_o for_o that_o furious_a and_o cruel_a catiline_n cruel_a catiline_n man_n that_o be_v say_v to_o be_v gratuito_fw-la malus_fw-la atque_fw-la crudelis_fw-la spontaneous_o wicked_a and_o bloodthirsty_a gratis_o yet_o be_v there_o a_o cause_n assign_v ne_fw-la per_fw-la otium_fw-la etc._n etc._n lâ—st_v his_o mind_n or_o hand_n through_o idleness_n shall_v grow_v useless_a and_o why_o indeed_o be_v he_o such_o but_o *_o that_o the_o city_n be_v surprise_v by_o his_o mischievous_a practice_n he_o may_v possess_v the_o honour_n wealth_n command_v thereof_o *_o that_o in_o so_o necessitous_a a_o fortune_n so_o guilty_a a_o conscience_n he_o may_v be_v free_a from_o fear_n of_o law_n and_o of_o want_n therefore_o be_v not_o catiline_n himself_o in_o love_n with_o his_o own_o villainy_n but_o with_o something_o else_o for_o which_o sake_n he_o do_v they_o chap._n vi_o but_o o_o my_o theft_n that_o wicked_a night-exploit_n of_o my_o sixteen_o year_n age_n what_o be_v it_o then_o that_o wretched_a i_o so_o much_o love_v in_o thou_o for_o nothing_o fair_a thou_o be_v because_o thou_o be_v theft_n or_o indeed_o be_v thou_o at_o all_o any_o thing_n that_o thus_o i_o speak_v unto_o thou_o indeed_o the_o fruit_n we_o rob_v be_v fair_a because_o it_o be_v thy_o creature_n thou_o fair_o of_o all_o creator_n of_o all_o my_o good_a god_n god_n my_o true_a and_o my_o supreme_a good_a fair_a be_v the_o fruit_n but_o that_o be_v not_o it_o after_o which_o my_o miserable_a soul_n lust_v have_v thereof_o far_o better_a in_o great_a plenty_n of_o our_o own_o but_o the_o other_o rather_o i_o like_v because_o so_o i_o may_v steal_v it_o which_o be_v once_o gather_v as_o have_v now_o sufficient_o satisfy_v my_o appetite_n i_o throw_v it_o away_o 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depart_v but_o i_o mean_v such_o a_o gloss_n at_o least_o as_o there_o be_v a_o faint_a and_o paint_a one_o in_o many_o a_o delude_a vice_n for_o both_o *_o the_n sin_n of_o pride_n to_o be_v some_o way_n like_o unto_o thou_o emulate_v highness_n when_o as_o thou_o be_v only_o above_o all_o the_o most_o high_a god_n and_o *_o ambition_n aim_v at_o glory_n and_o honour_n when_o as_o thou_o alone_o be_v honourable_a supreme_o and_o eternal_o glorious_a and_o *_o the_o cruelty_n of_o the_o great_a one_o desire_n so_o to_o become_v reverence_v and_o fear_v and_o who_o be_v to_o be_v fear_v but_o god_n alone_o from_o who_o power_n what_o 76.7_o psal_n 76.7_o or_o when_o or_o where_o or_o how_o or_o by_o who_o can_v ever_o any_o thing_n by_o force_n or_o fraud_n be_v subduct_v and_o *_o the_o caress_n of_o the_o lascivious_a seek_v to_o be_v love_v when_o as_o neither_o be_v any_o thing_n so_o dear_o sweet_a as_o thy_o love_n nor_o so_o save_o enamour_v as_o thy_o above-all-beautifull_a 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all_o they_o in_o a_o wrong_a way_n imitate_v and_o seek_v likeness_n unto_o they_z who_o render_v themselves_o far_o from_o thou_o and_o who_o pride_n themselves_o must_v against_o thou_o and_o in_o this_o their_o imitate_v and_o resemble_v thou_o show_v thou_o to_o be_v the_o creator_n of_o all_o nature_n and_o that_o in_o it_o they_o can_v any-whith_a recede_v from_o thou_o what_o therefore_o in_o that_o theft_n be_v it_o that_o i_o love_v and_o in_o what_o here_o though_o vicious_o and_o perverse_o have_v i_o also_o imitate_v my_o lord_n be_v it_o that_o i_o have_v a_o desire_n to_o act_v against_o the_o law_n by_o sleight_n where_o i_o can_v not_o by_o power_n and_o though_o restrain_v by_o it_o yet_o will_v imitate_v a_o lame_a kind_n of_o liberty_n in_o do_v free_a from_o punishment_n what_o i_o can_v not_o free_a from_o guilt_n out_o of_o a_o fond_a resemblance_n of_o thy_o omnipotency_n chap_n vii_o he_o lament_v his_o offence_n and_o praise_v god_n for_o the_o remission_n thereof_o by_o baptism_n see_v if_o this_o be_v a_o good_a servant_n thus_o fly_v from_o his_o lord_n and_o embrace_v a_o shadow_n of_o he_o o_o corruption_n monstrosity_n of_o life_n profoundness_n of_o death_n can_v i_o then_o lust_n after_o what_o be_v unlawful_a for_o no_o other_o reason_n but_o because_o unlawful_a 116.12_o psal_n 116.12_o what_o shall_v i_o render_v unto_o the_o lord_n that_o whilst_o my_o memory_n now_o recall_v these_o thing_n my_o soul_n do_v not_o dread_v they_o i_o will_v love_v thou_o o_o lord_n my_o god_n and_o give_v thanks_o unto_o thou_o and_o confess_v unto_o thy_o name_n because_o thou_o have_v forgive_v my_o so_o great_a iniquity_n and_o detestable_a deed_n to_o thy_o grace_n i_o depute_v it_o 9.2_o psal_n 9.2_o and_o to_o thy_o mercy_n that_o those_o sin_n i_o commit_v be_v now_o dissolve_v like_o ice_n and_o to_o thy_o grace_n i_o depute_v it_o also_o whatsoever_o other_o sin_n i_o have_v not_o commit_v for_o what_o one_o crime_n will_v i_o not_o have_v act_v who_o love_v such_o a_o act_n for_o its_o be_v criminous_a therefore_o *_o of_o all_o these_o sin_n baptism_n sin_n be_v sin_n commit_v before_o his_o baptism_n i_o confess_v myself_o release_v by_o thou_o not_o only_o *_o of_o those_o by_o my_o own_o wilfulness_n effect_v but_o *_o of_o those_o by_o thy_o guidance_n avoid_v and_o who_o be_v he_o that_o well-weighing_a his_o frailty_n dare_v to_o attribute_v his_o chastity_n or_o his_o innocence_n to_o his_o own_o ability_n that_o so_o he_o shall_v less_o love_v thou_o as_o less_o oblige_v to_o that_o thy_o mercy_n by_o which_o thou_o remitte_v sin_n to_o those_o who_o return_v unto_o thou_o and_o whoever_o he_o be_v that_o call_v by_o he_o have_v straight_o follow_v thy_o voice_n and_o have_v happy_o escape_v
what_o he_o here_o read_v by_o i_o sad_o confess_v hence_o let_v he_o not_o scorn_v i_o because_o be_v sick_a i_o receive_v my_o cure_n from_o that_o physician_n from_o who_o himself_o also_o receive_v a_o preservative_n that_o he_o be_v not_o sick_a or_o rather_o that_o he_o be_v not_o so_o sick_a but_o for_o this_o let_v he_o as_o much_o nay_o more_o love_v thou_o because_o by_o what_o hand_n he_o see_v i_o from_o these_o languishment_n of_o sin_n recover_v by_o the_o same_o he_o see_v himself_o from_o the_o languish_n of_o sin_n preserve_v chap._n viii_o yet_o that_o he_o shall_v not_o have_v do_v that_o theft_n without_o company_n what_o fruit_n have_v i_o then_o poor_a soul_n 6.21_o rom._n 6.21_o in_o those_o thing_n whereof_o my_o remembrance_n now_o be_v ashamed_a especial_o in_o that_o act_n wherein_o i_o love_v nothing_o save_v only_o the_o very_a theft_n and_o it_o also_o be_v real_o nothing_o 12._o nothing_o see_v l._n 3._o c._n 7._o l._n 7._o c._n 12._o and_o therefore_o 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within_o it_o whole_a army_n of_o such_o copious_a vanity_n hence_o be_v our_o very_a prayer_n also_o often_o interrupt_v and_o disturb_v and_o even_o before_o thy_o face_n and_o whilst_o the_o voice_n of_o our_o heart_n be_v present_v unto_o thy_o ear_n so_o important_a a_o affair_n be_v sudden_o break_v off_o by_o the_o rush_n in_o i_o know_v not_o from_o whence_o of_o such_o nugatory_a cogitation_n have_v i_o account_v this_o sort_n of_o temptation_n a_o contemptible_a matter_n or_o be_v there_o any_o thing_n that_o among_o such_o infirmity_n revive_v my_o hope_n save_v whole_o thy_o mercy_n because_o thou_o have_v already_o begin_v to_o effect_v a_o change_n in_o i_o chap._n xxxvi_o 3._o his_o remain_a infirmity_n concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o pride_n of_o life_n the_o great_a danger_n of_o vain-glorying_a â–³_o incur_v from_o the_o approbation_n and_o praise_n of_o man_n and_o thou_o know_v in_o how_o great_a a_o part_n thou_o have_v reform_v i_o who_o to_o come_v now_o 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i_o also_o plead_v my_o ignorance_n and_o uncertainty_n for_o this_o or_o shall_v i_o endeavour_v here_o also_o to_o delude_v myself_o and_o nor_o confess_v the_o truth_n before_o thou_o both_o in_o heart_n and_o tongue_n lord_n such_o a_o folly_n put_v thou_o far_o from_o i_o and_o let_v not_o my_o own_o mouth_n go_v about_o to_o anoint_v and_o perfume_v my_o head_n with_o the_o flatter_a oil_n of_o sinner_n i_o be_o poor_a and_o needy_a and_o the_o best_a when_o with_o secret_a lament_n displease_v myself_o and_o invocate_a thy_o mercy_n until_o these_o my_o deficiency_n be_v repair_v and_o perfect_v into_o a_o full_a repose_n and_o peace_n a_o peace_n hide_v from_o the_o eye_n of_o the_o arrogant_a and_o self-conceited_a chap._n xxxviii_o â–³_o incur_v also_o from_o the_o contemn_v of_o praise_n as_o this_o also_o be_v a_o thing_n praiseworthy_a chief_z speech_n that_o be_v eloquent_a and_o good_a action_n that_o be_v public_a and_o eminent_a cause_n in_o we_o a_o most_o perilous_a temptation_n from_o this_o our_o love_n of_o praise_n which_o subtlety_n assay_v to_o procure_v the_o applause_n of_o other_o to_o the_o advance_n of_o my_o own_o private_a excellency_n even_o then_o also_o when_o such_o love_n of_o praise_n in_o i_o be_v censure_v by_o i_o and_o for_o that_o very_a reason_n because_o it_o be_v so_o censure_v and_o often_o do_v a_o man_n more_o vain_o glory_n of_o the_o very_a contempt_n of_o vainglory_n and_o therefore_o now_o in_o truth_n the_o contempt_n of_o vainglory_n be_v not_o gloryed-of_a by_o he_o for_o he_o utter_o contemn_v it_o not_o so_o long_o as_o within_o himself_o he_o retein_v still_o some_o glory_v chap._n thirty-nine_o incur_v also_o from_o self-love_n and_o self-conceit_n without_o regard_n to_o praise_v from_o other_o there_o be_v yet_o within_o we_o another_o disease_n in_o the_o same_o kind_n of_o temptation_n namely_o a_o vanity_n in_o man_n of_o self_n love_v and_o pleaâ—â—ng_v themselves_o in_o themselves_o *_o whether_o it_o happen_v that_o they_o please_v or_o that_o they_o displease_v abroad_o and*_n wherein_o they_o affect_v not_o the_o please_a of_o other_o but_o these_o man_n whilst_o thus_o please_v themselves_o much_o do_v they_o displease_v thou_o not_o only_o in_o glory_v in_o some_o thing_n not_o good_a as_o in_o good_a but_o also_o in_o thy_o good_a thing_n as_o if_o in_o their_o own_o or_o also_o in_o glory_v in_o they_o as_o thou_o but_o as_o confer_v on_o they_o for_o some_o merit_n of_o their_o own_o or_o also_o as_o in_o thou_o without_o any_o their_o merit_v but_o yet_o not_o sociable_o joy_v in_o they_o but_o as_o envy_v the_o same_o grace_n of_o thou_o to_o other_o in_o all_o these_o and_o the_o like_a peril_n and_o travel_n thou_o see_v the_o fear_n and_o tremble_n of_o my_o heart_n and_o i_o rather_o perceive_v such_o wound_n to_o be_v by_o thou_o continual_o cure_v within_o i_o than_o not_o to_o be_v at_o all_o receive_v chap._n xl._n a_o recapitulation_n of_o the_o thing_n 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whether_o and_o what_o and_o of_o what_o worth_n they_o be_v and_o i_o listen_v unto_o its_o instruct_v i_o and_o command_v i_o and_o this_o i_o still_o continue_v to_o consult_v this_o be_v my_o great_a delight_n and_o so_o often_o as_o i_o can_v be_v release_v from_o other_o necessary_a affair_n i_o repair_v to_o this_o pleasure_n neither_o find_v i_o in_o all_o these_o thing_n which_o i_o run_v through_o and_o wherein_o i_o consult_v thou_o any_o place_n of_o settlement_n for_o my_o soul_n save_v only_o in_o thou_o whither_o all_o my_o dissipation_n final_o may_v be_v recollect_v and_o from_o whence_o nothing_o of_o i_o may_v eyer_n again_o be_v stray_v and_o sometime_o thou_o do_v admit_v i_o *_o into_o a_o affection_n very_o unusual_a within_o the_o
innermost_a part_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o *_o to_n i_o know_v not_o what_o sweetness_n which_o be_v it_o once_o perfect_v in_o i_o i_o know_v not_o what_o bliss_n that_o be_v which_o such_o a_o life_n will_v not_o enjoy_v but_o then_o with_o certain_a cumbersome_a weight_n hang_v upon_o i_o i_o present_o be_o press_v down_o again_o to_o these_o thing_n below_o and_o be_o re-ingulfed_n and_o detain_v by_o former_a custom_n and_o much_o i_o bewail_v myself_o and_o yet_o much_o still_o i_o be_o detain_v so_o great_o have_v the_o burden_n of_o a_o bad_a custom_n overload_v i_o and_o in_o this_o estate_n i_o can_v abide_v still_o but_o will_v not_o and_o in_o the_o other_o i_o will_v willing_o abide_v but_o can_v both_o way_n very_o miserable_a chap._n xli_o and_o in_o this_o condition_n i_o proceed_v to_o consider_v the_o remain_a languor_n of_o my_o sin_n in_o a_o threefold_a concupiscence_n and_o have_v invoke_v the_o help_n of_o thy_o right_a hand_n to_o deliver_v i_o for_o i_o behold_v thy_o brightness_n with_o a_o sick_a and_o wound_a spirit_n and_o beat_v back_o and_o dazzle_v by_o it_o i_o say_v who_o can_v ever_o attain_v thither_o i_o be_o utter_o cast_v away_o from_o the_o sight_n of_o thy_o eye_n thou_o be_v the_o truth_n who_o preside_v above_o all_o thing_n and_o i_o out_o of_o my_o covetousness_n be_v not_o willing_a to_o loose_v thou_o but_o yet_o greedy_o desire_v also_o to_o possess_v what_o be_v a_o lie_n together_o with_o thou_o as_o no_o man_n desire_v so_o to_o speak_v lie_n as_o to_o be_v ignorant_a what_o be_v truth_n and_o therefore_o i_o lose_v thou_o because_o thou_o vouchsafe_v not_o to_o be_v enjoy_v together_o with_o a_o lie_n chap._n xlii_o his_o recourse_n for_o a_o remedy_n to_o all_o these_o his_o malady_n not_o *_o to_o evil_a angel_n or_o demon_n with_o the_o platonist_n or_o other_o practise_v evil_a art_n as_o mediator_n between_o god_n and_o man_n because_o sinner_n like_o man_n spirit_n like_o god_n and_o now_o who_o can_v i_o find_v who_o may_v reconcile_v and_o reduce_v i_o unto_o thou_o be_v that_o office_n to_o be_v undertake_v by_o some_o angel_n for_o i_o upon_o what_o devotion_n upon_o what_o sacrament_n perform_v unto_o he_o many_o endeavour_v to_o return_v unto_o thou_o and_o of_o themselves_o unable_a as_o i_o hear_v have_v attempt_v such_o way_n and_o fall_v into_o the_o desire_n of_o curious_a vision_n and_o so_o deserve_v to_o be_v expose_v to_o many_o delusion_n for_o be_v high-minded_a they_o seek_v thou_o with_o the_o pride_n of_o learning_n exalt_v rather_o than_o beat_v their_o swell_a breast_n and_o so_o have_v allure_v unto_o rhem_n from_o the_o likeness_n of_o their_o affection_n spirit_n associate_v with_o they_o in_o pride_n 2._o eph._n 2_o 2._o the_o power_n of_o this_o air_n by_o who_o through_o magical_a operation_n they_o may_v be_v deceive_v whilst_o they_o be_v seek_v a_o mediator_n by_o who_o they_o may_v be_v purge_v but_o it_o be_v none_o such_o they_o light_v on_o 14_o 2_o cor._n 11_o 14_o but_o the_o devil_n it_o be_v transform_v himself_o as_o a_o angel_n of_o light_n and_o this_o much_o allure_v proud_a flesh_n to_o repair_v unto_o he_o because_o he_o have_v no_o body_n of_o flesh_n for_o they_o be_v mortal_n and_o sinner_n and_o thou_o o_o lord_n with_o who_o they_o seek_v reconciliation_n be_v sinless_a and_o immmortal_a now_o the_o mediate_a person_n between_o god_n and_o man_n it_o be_v meet_v he_o shall_v have_v something_o like_a to_o god_n something_o like_o to_o man_n lest_z in_o both_o like_a to_o man_n he_o shall_v be_v at_o too_o great_a a_o distance_n from_o god_n or_o in_o both_o like_a to_o god_n he_o shall_v stand_v too_o remote_a from_o man_n therefore_o also_o this_o counterfeit_a mediator_n by_o who_o according_a to_o thy_o secret_a judgement_n our_o pride_n deserve_v to_o be_v delude_v have_v one_o thing_n common_a with_o man_n that_o be_v sin_n and_o will_v seem_v to_o have_v the_o other_o thing_n common_a with_o god_n whilst_o not_o clothe_v with_o the_o mortality_n of_o flesh_n he_o vaunt_v himself_o as_o immortal_a 6.23_o rom._n 6.23_o but_o since_o the_o certain_a wage_n of_o sin_n be_v death_n and_o this_o sin_n he_o have_v common_a with_o man_n he_o have_v also_o that_o common_a with_o man_n to_o be_v sentence_v unto_o death_n chap._n xliii_o but_o *_o to_o christ_n who_o be_v the_o only_a true_a mediator_n mortal_a like_o man_n righteous_a like_o god_n through_o who_o else_o desperate_a he_o confident_o hope_v a_o perfect_a cure_n of_o all_o his_o disease_n but_o the_o true_a mediator_n who_o in_o thy_o secret_a mercy_n thou_o have_v manifest_v to_o the_o humble_a and_o haste_v also_o send_v he_o among_o they_o 2.5_o 1._o tim._n 2.5_o that_o they_o may_v by_o his_o example_n learn_v humility_n that_o mediator_n of_o god_n and_o man_n the_o man_n christ_n jesus_n between_o these_o mortal_a sinner_n and_o the_o immortal_a righteous_a one_o have_v appear_v mortal_a together_o with_o man_n righteous_a together_o with_o god_n that_o because_o the_o wage_n of_o righteousness_n be_v life_n and_o peace_n he_o by_o his_o righteousness_n which_o be_v ally_v to_o god_n may_v evacuate_v death_n to_o justify_v sinner_n which_o death_n he_o be_v please_v to_o have_v common_a with_o man_n and_o this_o true_a mediator_n be_v also_o make_v know_v to_o the_o saint_n of_o old_a that_o they_o by_o the_o faith_n of_o his_o passion_n to_o come_v as_o we_o by_o the_o faith_n of_o it_o past_a may_v attain_v salvation_n and_o it_o be_v as_o he_o be_v man_n that_o he_o be_v mediator_n but_o as_o he_o be_v the_o word_n so_o he_o be_v no_o middling_a person_n because_o equal_a to_o god_n and_o god_n with_o god_n and_o 1.1_o phil._n 2.6_o joh._n 1.1_o together_o with_o the_o holy_a spirit_n one_o god_n how_o far_o have_v thou_o love_v we_o o_o thou_o good_a father_n who_o sparedst_v not_o thy_o only_a son_n but_o deliver_v he_o up_o for_o we_o ungodly_a how_o far_o have_v thou_o love_v we_o for_o who_o he_o 8._o rom._n 8.52_o phil._n 2.6_o 8._o who_o think_v it_o no_o robbery_n to_o be_v equal_a to_o thou_o be_v make_v subject_a even_o to_o death_n even_o to_o the_o death_n of_o the_o cross_n only_o he_o free_a among_o the_o dead_a have_v power_n to_o lay_v down_o his_o life_n 10.18_o john_n 10.18_o and_o power_n likewise_o to_o take_v it_o up_o again_o become_v unto_o thou_o for_o we_o both_o a_o victor_n and_o a_o victim_n and_o therefore_o a_o victor_n because_o he_o have_v be_v a_o victim_n become_v unto_o thou_o for_o we_o both_o the_o priest_n and_o the_o sacrifice_n and_o therefore_o the_o priest_n because_o a_o sacrifice_n make_v we_o unto_o thou_o of_o servant_n son_n by_o be_v bear_v thy_o son_n and_o become_v our_o servant_n and_o therefore_o do_v i_o just_o repose_v strong_a hope_n in_o he_o that_o thou_o will_v heal_v all_o my_o disease_n by_o he_o who_o sit_v at_o thy_o right_a hand_n and_o intercede_v unto_o thou_o for_o we_o else_o shall_v i_o despair_v for_o many_o and_o great_a be_v these_o my_o disease_n many_o and_o great_a they_o be_v but_o great_a be_v the_o cure_n which_o thou_o have_v provide_v and_o well_o may_v we_o have_v imagine_v thy_o word_n to_o have_v be_v too_o remote_a from_o have_v any_o alliance_n with_o we_o and_o so_o have_v despair_v of_o ourselves_o have_v it_o not_o thus_o be_v make_v flesh_n and_o dwell_v among_o we_o affright_v with_o these_o my_o sin_n and_o with_o the_o load_n of_o my_o misery_n i_o have_v once_o a_o thought_n and_o a_o design_n of_o retire_v myself_o into_o some_o desert_n solitude_n but_o thou_o do_v prohibit_v it_o unto_o i_o and_o confirm_v i_o say_v that_o therefore_o christ_n die_v for_o all_o 5.15_o 2_o cor._n 5.15_o that_o they_o who_o live_v shall_v not_o henceforth_o live_v unto_o themselves_o but_o unto_o he_o who_o die_v for_o they_o behold_v o_o lord_n i_o cast_v all_o my_o care_n upon_o thou_o let_v i_o live_v and_o i_o will_v consider_v the_o wonderful_a thing_n of_o thy_o law_n 119.18_o psal_n 119.18_o thou_o know_v my_o ignorance_n my_o infirmity_n teach_v i_o heal_n i_o he_o thy_o only_a one_o in_o who_o be_v hide_v all_o the_o treasure_n of_o wisdom_n and_o knowledge_n redeem_v i_o with_o his_o own_o blood_n let_v not_o the_o proud_a my_o spiritual_a enemy_n false_o accuse_v i_o for_o i_o meditate_v on_o this_o my_o ransom_n 2.3_o col._n 2.3_o and_o i_o eat_v it_o and_o drink_v it_o and_o communicate_v it_o to_o other_o and_o be_v poor_a i_o desire_v to_o be_v satisfy_v therewith_o among_o those_o who_o eat_v and_o be_v satisfy_v and_o they_o shall_v praise_v the_o lord_n that_o seek_v he_o chap._n xliv_o the_o end_n and_o purpose_n of_o these_o his_o confession_n o_o lord_n since_o thou_o be_v eternal_o be_v thou_o ignorant_a o_o these_o thing_n i_o now_o say_v unto_o thou_o or_o see_v thou_o no_o till_o a_o certain_a time_n what_o be_v do_v in_o time_n why_o then_o have_v i_o order_v a_o narration_n of_o so_o many_o several_a matter_n unto_o thou_o sure_o not_o that_o thou_o shall_v learn_v such_o thing_n from_o i_o but_o only_o that_o i_o may_v the_o more_o excite_v my_o affection_n and_o love_n towards_o thou_o and_o they_o also_o who_o reaâ—_n these_o thing_n that_o we_o may_v all_o say_v together_o magnus_fw-la dominus_fw-la &_o lauâ—abilis_fw-la valde_fw-la great_a be_v the_o lord_n and_o great_o to_o be_v praise_v i_o have_v already_o say_v it_o and_o let_v i_o say_v it_o again_o out_o of_o my_o love_n of_o thy_o love_n to_o i_o it_o be_v that_o i_o do_v this_o as_o also_o we_o continue_v to_o pray_v nevertheless_o that_o the_o truth_n have_v say_v your_o heavenly_a father_n know_v what_o thing_n that_o have_v need_n of_o before_o you_o ask_v he_o 6.8_o mat._n 6.8_o we_o only_o publish_v the_o affection_n we_o have_v towards_o thou_o while_o we_o confess_v to_o theâ—_n our_o misery_n and_o thy_o mercy_n that_o thou_o may_v complete_v our_o freedom_n as_o thou_o have_v already_o begin_v it_o and_o that_o a_o length_n we_o may_v perfect_o cease_v to_o be_v miserable_a in_o ourselves_o and_o may_v arrive_v to_o beatitude_n in_o thou_o because_o thoâ—_n have_v gracious_o call_v we_o that_o we_o shall_v be_v poor_a in_o spirit_n and_o meek_a and_o mournful_a and_o hungry_a and_o thirsty_a after_o righteousness_n and_o merciful_a and_o pure_a in_o heart_n and_o peace_n maker_n see_v i_o have_v rehearse_v before_o thou_o a_o many_o thing_n such_o as_o i_o have_v ability_n and_o such_o as_o i_o have_v also_o a_o will_n to_o relate_v because_o thou_o first_o have_v so_o will_v that_o i_o shall_v confess_v unto_o thou_o 118.1_o psal_n 118.1_o the_o lord_n my_o god_n because_o that_o thou_o arâ—_n good_a and_o thy_o mercy_n endure_v for_o ever_o finis_fw-la