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grant_v o_o my_o god_n that_o 〈◊〉_d may_v love_v thou_o not_o only_o for_o thy_o benefit_n when_o thou_o bless_v i_o with_o prosperity_n and_o the_o abundance_n of_o good_a thing_n in_o this_o world_n but_o also_o when_o i_o be_o in_o disgrace_n poverty_n or_o any_o other_o affliction_n learn_v i_o then_o to_o submit_v to_o the_o dispensation_n of_o thy_o providence_n and_o become_v more_o conformable_a to_o thy_o divine_a will._n for_o o_o lord_n what_o testimony_n can_v i_o give_v thou_o of_o my_o love_n which_o will_v in_o the_o least_o answer_v thy_o love_n to_o i_o nay_o which_o be_v not_o infinite_o surpass_v by_o those_o favour_n thou_o have_v be_v please_v to_o confer_v upon_o i_o reflect_v xii_o if_o the_o soul_n find_v any_o thing_n in_o thâ—_n
world_n to_o settle_v its_o â—_z upon_o how_o much_o the_o more_o earnest_o ought_v it_o to_o fix_v they_o upâ—â—_n god_n after_o its_o conversion_n let_v i_o â—ot_n o_o my_o god_n haâ—â—less_a zeal_n gratitude_n aâ—â—_n fidelity_n towards_o thou_o than_o 〈◊〉_d shall_v have_v towards_o a_o friend_n who_o have_v offer_v to_o lay_v down_o hâ—â—_n life_n for_o the_o preservation_n of_o i_o and_o to_o this_o superlative_a testimony_n of_o his_o love_n do_v continual_o addâ—_n thousand_o other_o benefit_n since_o thou_o have_v be_v please_v 〈◊〉_d humble_v thyself_o o_o my_o god_n 〈◊〉_d make_v i_o offer_v of_o thy_o graâ—â—_n and_o favour_n and_o load_v 〈◊〉_d with_o thy_o benefit_n let_v i_o not_o forget_v thou_o doubt_v of_o thy_o mercy_n or_o wilful_o shut_v my_o eye_n and_o neglect_v to_o pay_v thou_o those_o acknowledgement_n of_o thy_o love_n and_o bounty_n which_o in_o strict_a justice_n be_v but_o my_o reasonable_a service_n for_o be_v it_o just_a that_o i_o who_o pretend_v to_o act_v upon_o principle_n of_o generosity_n who_o boast_v of_o my_o good_a nature_n affection_n integrity_n and_o gratitude_n towards_o my_o friend_n shall_v be_v defective_a only_o in_o my_o duty_n towards_o god_n live_n without_o faith_n without_o love_n or_o so_o much_o as_o the_o acknowledgement_n of_o his_o benefit_n be_v it_o just_a that_o i_o a_o poor_a miserable_a creature_n who_o owe_v all_o that_o i_o have_v unto_o my_o glorious_a creator_n shall_v offer_v up_o to_o he_o only_o faint_a acknowlegdment_n fickle_a desire_n and_o in_o truth_n the_o least_o part_n of_o myself_o be_v it_o just_a that_o i_o who_o have_v be_v so_o industrious_a to_o gratify_v my_o idol-passion_n who_o never_o forget_v any_o thing_n which_o may_v conduce_v to_o their_o satisfaction_n shall_v complain_v of_o the_o difficulty_n and_o impossibility_n of_o place_v they_o upon_o their_o due_a object_n and_o devote_v my_o heart_n to_o the_o love_n of_o thou_o last_o be_v it_o possible_a that_o the_o soul_n which_o thou_o do_v create_v to_o be_v the_o temple_n of_o thy_o divine_a love_n shall_v not_o be_v persuade_v to_o return_v unto_o thou_o the_o centre_n of_o its_o happiness_n after_o it_o have_v wander_v a_o thousand_o and_o a_o thousand_o time_n from_o the_o way_n of_o thy_o commandment_n unless_o thou_o be_v please_v to_o prepare_v its_o path_n and_o draw_v it_o to_o thyself_o with_o the_o cord_n of_o thy_o grace_n no_o lord_n this_o be_v not_o reasonable_a and_o therefore_o maugre_o all_o the_o opposition_n i_o find_v in_o my_o corrupt_a nature_n in_o submit_v myself_o to_o the_o easy_a yoke_n of_o thy_o commandment_n thy_o love_n which_o predominate_v in_o my_o soul_n above_o the_o love_n of_o the_o world_n the_o creature_n or_o myself_o shall_v unite_v i_o inseparable_o unto_o thou_o by_o the_o inexhaustible_a love_n of_o â—esus_fw-la christ_n by_o that_o love_n which_o have_v teach_v i_o by_o experience_n that_o there_o be_v nothing_o in_o this_o world_n worthy_a my_o friendship_n nothing_o but_o continual_a trouble_n and_o base_a ingratitude_n which_o have_v discover_v to_o i_o by_o these_o gentle_a correction_n that_o thou_o be_v a_o jealous_a god_n and_o require_v the_o sacrifice_n of_o my_o whole_a heart_n unto_o thou_o in_o acknowledgement_n of_o thy_o infinite_a mercy_n my_o infidelity_n and_o the_o sacrilegious_a misplace_n of_o my_o affection_n ah_o lord_n since_o thou_o require_v nothing_o to_o prepare_v i_o for_o the_o pardon_n of_o my_o sin_n but_o the_o cultivate_a of_o my_o love_n and_o the_o conversion_n of_o my_o heart_n unto_o thou_o behold_v here_o be_v a_o heart_n ready_a to_o receive_v thy_o command_n ready_a to_o obey_v thou_o which_o be_v true_o to_o love_v thou_o ready_a to_o undergo_v any_o thing_n which_o conduce_v to_o the_o advancement_n of_o thy_o glory_n or_o the_o salvation_n of_o my_o soul_n reflect_v xiii_o that_o a_o penitent_a soul_n shall_v not_o examine_v what_o sin_n be_v damnable_a and_o what_o not_o but_o avoid_v all_o appearance_n of_o evil_a every_o thing_n which_o may_v displease_v god_n lest_o indulge_v itself_o in_o lesser_a crime_n it_o relapse_n at_o last_o into_o habitual_a debauchery_n if_o it_o be_v thy_o pleasure_n to_o make_v my_o repentance_n in_o some_o measure_n answer_v my_o crime_n to_o prolong_v my_o life_n and_o punish_v i_o in_o the_o same_o place_n where_o my_o offence_n be_v commit_v if_o it_o be_v thy_o pleasure_n to_o make_v my_o sin_n my_o punishment_n and_o those_o lust_n which_o i_o have_v hitherto_o idolise_v the_o executioner_n of_o thy_o justice_n my_o heart_n be_v fix_v o_o god_n my_o heart_n be_v fix_v nevertheless_o grant_v that_o i_o may_v be_v preserve_v in_o my_o integrity_n thereby_o that_o my_o present_a aversion_n to_o sinful_a pleasure_n may_v be_v a_o antidote_n sufficient_a to_o defend_v i_o from_o the_o infect_a breath_n of_o popular_a applause_n that_o my_o repentaance_n may_v be_v more_o please_v to_o thou_o and_o profitable_a to_o myself_o but_o o_o lord_n let_v i_o not_o only_o be_v preserve_v from_o those_o notorious_a crime_n which_o this_o day_n render_v i_o the_o object_n of_o thy_o mercy_n but_o grant_v also_o that_o i_o may_v hate_v sin_n more_o for_o the_o malignity_n of_o its_o nature_n than_o from_o the_o dread_a of_o thy_o vengeance_n let_v my_o aversion_n to_o it_o proceed_v rather_o from_o thy_o love_n than_o any_o respect_n to_o myself_o that_o be_v let_v i_o abhor_v it_o more_o for_o displease_v thou_o than_o because_o it_o will_v be_v my_o ruin_n let_v i_o not_o with_o the_o great_a part_n of_o the_o world_n nice_o weigh_v how_o much_o carnal_a liberty_n i_o may_v take_v and_o yet_o continue_v in_o a_o state_n of_o salvation_n but_o let_v i_o avoid_v every_o thing_n which_o displease_v thou_o as_o well_o as_o those_o grosser_n act_n of_o sin_n which_o will_v certain_o damn_v my_o soul_n for_o what_o be_v more_o impious_a o_o my_o god_n than_o to_o say_v i_o know_v that_o this_o action_n will_v displease_v thou_o that_o this_o temptation_n be_v allure_a that_o these_o pleasure_n obstruct_v the_o emanation_n of_o thy_o grace_n and_o in_o short_a that_o the_o vanity_n of_o this_o world_n be_v at_o enmity_n to_o the_o life_n of_o godliness_n and_o yet_o i_o be_o resolve_v to_o venture_v on_o they_o to_o disregard_n the_o all-seeing_a eye_n of_o a_o jealous_a god_n the_o remorse_n of_o my_o own_o conscience_n and_o all_o this_o because_o i_o be_o assure_v that_o god_n be_v a_o merciful_a god_n that_o he_o love_v i_o and_o be_v willing_a to_o pass_v by_o my_o offence_n for_o be_v not_o this_o way_n of_o reason_v use_v by_o the_o great_a part_n of_o those_o servile_a soul_n who_o religious_a action_n proceed_v more_o from_o fear_n of_o the_o devil_n than_o out_o of_o love_n to_o god_n may_v not_o this_o neglect_n of_o thy_o grace_n which_o these_o man_n esteem_v so_o small_a a_o offence_n grieve_v thy_o holy_a spirit_n and_o become_v the_o occasion_n of_o their_o eternal_a reprobation_n for_o the_o 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in_o fine_a who_o know_v but_o the_o splendour_n of_o worldly_a pomp_n which_o be_v continual_o before_o my_o eye_n which_o i_o behold_v with_o so_o much_o complacency_n and_o those_o maxim_n of_o carnal_a policy_n which_o be_v perpetual_o sound_v in_o my_o ear_n may_v at_o last_o render_v i_o forgetful_a of_o those_o solemn_a protestation_n which_o but_o a_o few_o day_n ago_o i_o make_v unto_o thou_o when_o with_o tear_n and_o sigh_n i_o so_o earnest_o beseech_v thou_o to_o have_v mercy_n on_o i_o and_o to_o deliver_v i_o from_o the_o jaw_n of_o death_n reflect_v fourteen_o she_o pray_v unto_o god_n instant_o that_o he_o will_v be_v please_v to_o knock_v off_o those_o chain_n which_o unite_v her_o affection_n to_o the_o creature_n to_o grant_v her_o fresh_a recruit_n of_o his_o mercy_n and_o grace_n to_o make_v the_o right_a use_n of_o they_o ah_o lord_n
at_o the_o footstool_n of_o thy_o throne_n and_o let_v i_o not_o lie_v pore_v on_o a_o picture_n or_o repeat_v my_o prayer_n from_o a_o book_n which_o i_o do_v not_o understand_v but_o let_v the_o subject_a of_o my_o devotion_n be_v my_o own_o want_n and_o whatsoever_o may_v render_v i_o more_o humble_a for_o i_o be_o too_o sensible_a of_o my_o own_o imperfection_n to_o distract_v my_o mind_n with_o other_o object_n beside_o my_o own_o misery_n and_o the_o infinite_a mercy_n of_o my_o god_n reflect_v xx._n that_o the_o misery_n to_o which_o sin_n have_v reduce_v we_o aught_o to_o be_v the_o subject_a of_o our_o prayer_n and_o that_o it_o be_v good_a to_o begin_v they_o with_o the_o consideration_n of_o the_o stupendous_a mystery_n of_o our_o saviour_n passion_n alas_o how_o can_v i_o meditate_v on_o my_o vileness_n who_o be_o puff_v up_o with_o pride_n who_o can_v only_o pray_v unto_o thou_o to_o break_v off_o my_o ambition_n and_o vainglory_n which_o like_o unmanagable_a horse_n precipitate_v my_o soul_n into_o the_o abyss_n of_o thy_o fiery_a indignation_n how_o can_v i_o hearken_v to_o thy_o word_n or_o taste_v the_o sweet_a comfort_n of_o thy_o holy_a spirit_n who_o be_o surround_v with_o a_o thousand_o passion_n a_o thousand_o vanity_n which_o distract_v my_o thought_n when_o i_o come_v to_o appear_v before_o thou_o what_o can_v i_o do_v more_o than_o groan_v within_o myself_o when_o as_o the_o royal_a psalmist_n have_v it_o my_o foot_n be_v hurt_v with_o the_o fetter_n of_o sin_n and_o i_o be_o in_o captivity_n to_o my_o unmortified_a affection_n until_o the_o gentle_a influence_n of_o thy_o grace_n create_v in_o my_o heart_n a_o love_n to_o thy_o law_n how_o can_v i_o lift_v up_o myself_o to_o heaven_n whilst_o my_o affection_n be_v grovel_v on_o the_o earth_n how_o can_v i_o contemplate_v thy_o greatness_n and_o thy_o excellency_n whilst_o my_o mind_n be_v distract_v by_o its_o own_o misery_n and_o astonish_v at_o that_o imminent_a danger_n which_o 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that_o i_o can_v be_v so_o constand_a in_o my_o resolution_n as_o every_o day_n to_o prostrate_v myself_o at_o the_o footstool_n of_o thy_o throne_n at_o that_o set-time_n which_o i_o have_v consecrate_v unto_o thou_o when_o thou_o be_v please_v to_o give_v i_o audience_n and_o that_o nothing_o may_v divert_v i_o from_o perform_v this_o one_o thing_n necessary_a let_v i_o constant_o throw_v myself_o at_o thy_o foot_n in_o whatsoever_o condition_n my_o soul_n may_v be_v to_o the_o end_n that_o when_o distraction_n and_o barrenness_n of_o mind_n hinder_v i_o from_o fix_v my_o thought_n upon_o thou_o or_o speak_v of_o any_o thing_n but_o those_o vanity_n which_o have_v take_v possession_n of_o my_o heart_n then_o the_o labour_n which_o i_o undergo_v those_o painful_a pang_n which_o i_o endure_v and_o those_o irksome_a attempt_n which_o i_o make_v to_o pour_v forth_o a_o prayer_n may_v render_v it_o more_o acceptable_a unto_o thou_o let_v i_o not_o fancy_n that_o thou_o have_v abandon_v i_o because_o my_o mind_n be_v sometime_o overwhelm_v with_o the_o load_n of_o my_o corruption_n because_o at_o such_o a_o time_n as_o this_o i_o can_v form_v so_o much_o as_o one_o good_a thought_n for_o i_o will_v still_o look_v up_o and_o pray_v unto_o thou_o i_o will_v say_v with_o that_o great_a king_n the_o holy_a david_n i_o be_o like_o a_o beast_n before_o thou_o without_o spirit_n without_o speech_n and_o without_o consideration_n though_o i_o can_v perform_v this_o duty_n with_o a_o steady_a intention_n of_o mind_n yet_o i_o will_v not_o depart_v from_o the_o footstool_n of_o thy_o throne_n i_o will_v pray_v unto_o thou_o with_o my_o heart_n and_o with_o my_o will_n i_o will_v put_v my_o trust_n in_o thy_o goodness_n and_o though_o thou_o may_v not_o for_o the_o present_a unite_v my_o soul_n unto_o thyself_o by_o the_o sweet_a influence_n of_o thy_o grace_n yet_o thou_o will_v accept_v of_o my_o endeavour_n in_o this_o deplorable_a condition_n and_o esteem_v it_o as_o a_o 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