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14._o of_o the_o greek_a and_o latin_a tongue_n 1._o but_o why_o then_o do_v i_o hate_v the_o greek_a grammarian_n that_o chant_v of_o such_o thing_n for_o homer_n himself_o be_v skilful_a in_o contrive_v such_o fiction_n and_o be_v most_o delightful_o wanton_a but_o yet_o very_o harsh_a to_o i_o be_v a_o school_n boy_n i_o believe_v that_o virgil_n be_v no_o less_o to_o grecian_a child_n when_o they_o be_v compel_v to_o learn_v he_o as_o i_o be_v to_o learn_v homer_n for_o to_o say_v troth_n the_o difficulty_n of_o learning_n a_o strange_a language_n do_v sprinkle_v as_o
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that_o after_o i_o have_v bathe_v i_o be_v the_o same_o man_n i_o be_v before_o and_o that_o the_o bitterness_n of_o my_o sorrow_n can_v not_o be_v sweat_n out_o of_o my_o heart_n 5._o i_o fall_v to_o sleep_v upon_o it_o and_o upon_o my_o wake_n i_o find_v my_o grief_n to_o be_v not_o a_o little_a abate_v whereupon_o lie_v in_o my_o bed_n alone_o there_o come_v to_o my_o mind_n those_o true_a verse_n of_o thy_o ambrose_n for_o thou_o be_v the_o god_n that_o all_o thing_n do_v create_v who_o know_v the_o heaven_n to_o moderate_v and_o cloath'_v the_o day_n with_o beauteous_a light_n with_o benefit_n of_o sleep_n the_o night_n which_o may_v our_o weaken_a sinew_n make_v able_a new_a pain_n to_o undertake_v and_o all_o our_o tire_a mind_n well_o ease_v and_o our_o distemper_a grief_n appease_v and_o then_o again_o by_o little_a and_o little_a as_o feel_o as_o before_o call_v to_o mind_v thy_o handmaid_n her_o devout_a and_o holy_a conversation_n towards_o thou_o her_o please_a and_o most_o observant_a behaviour_n towards_o we_o of_o which_o too_o sudden_o i_o be_v now_o deprive_v it_o give_v i_o some_o content_n to_o weepein_o thy_o sight_n both_o concern_v she_o and_o for_o she_o concern_v myself_o and_o for_o myself_o and_o i_o give_v way_n to_o these_o tear_n which_o i_o before_o restrain_v to_o over_o flow_v as_o much_o as_o they_o desire_v lay_v they_o for_o a_o pillow_n under_o my_o heart_n and_o rest_v myself_o upon_o they_o for_o there_o be_v thy_o ear_n and_o not_o the_o ear_n of_o man_n who_o will_v have_v scornful_o interpret_v this_o my_o weep_n 6._o but_o now_o in_o writing_n i_o confess_v it_o unto_o thou_o o_o lord_n read_v it_o who_o will_v and_o interpret_v it_o how_o he_o will_v and_o if_o he_o find_v i_o to_o have_v offend_v in_o bewail_v my_o mother_n so_o small_a a_o portion_n of_o a_o hour_n that_o mother_n i_o say_v now_o dead_a and_o depart_v from_o my_o eye_n who_o have_v so_o many_o year_n weep_v for_o i_o that_o i_o may_v live_v in_o thy_o eye_n let_v he_o not_o deride_v i_o but_o if_o he_o be_v a_o man_n of_o any_o great_a charity_n let_v he_o rather_o weep_v for_o my_o sin_n unto_o thou_o the_o father_n of_o all_o the_o brethren_n of_o thy_o christ_n chap._n 13._o he_o pray_v for_o his_o dead_a mother_n 1._o but_o my_o heart_n now_o cure_v of_o that_o wound_n for_o which_o it_o may_v be_v blame_v for_o a_o carnal_a kind_n of_o affection_n i_o pour_v out_o unto_o thou_o o_o our_o god_n in_o behalf_n of_o that_o handmaid_n of_o thou_o a_o far_o different_a kind_n of_o tear_n such_o as_o flow_v from_o a_o break_a spirit_n out_o of_o a_o serious_a consideration_n of_o the_o danger_n of_o every_o soul_n that_o die_v in_o adam_n and_o notwithstanding_o she_o for_o her_o part_n be_v quicken_v in_o christ_n even_o before_o her_o dissolution_n from_o the_o flesh_n have_v so_o live_v that_o there_o be_v cause_n to_o praise_v thy_o name_n both_o for_o she_o say_v and_o conversation_n yet_o dare_v i_o not_o say_v for_o all_o this_o that_o from_o the_o time_n of_o thy_o regenerate_v she_o by_o baptism_n there_o issue_v not_o from_o her_o mouth_n any_o one_o word_n or_o other_o against_o thy_o commandment_n thy_o son_n who_o be_v truth_n have_v pronounce_v it_o 22._o whosoever_o shall_v say_v unto_o his_o brother_n thou_o fool_n shall_v be_v in_o danger_n of_o hell_n fire_n in_o so_o much_o as_o woe_n be_v unto_o the_o most_o commendable_a life_n of_o man_n if_o lay_v aside_o thy_o mercy_n thou_o shall_v rigorous_o examine_v it_o but_o because_o thou_o too_o narrow_o inquire_v not_o after_o sin_n we_o assure_o hope_v to_o find_v some_o place_n hence_o of_o pardon_n with_o thou_o but_o whosoever_o stand_v to_o reckon_v up_o his_o own_o merit_n unto_o thou_o what_o reckon_v he_o up_o unto_o thou_o but_o thy_o 28_o own_o gift_n oh_o that_o man_n will_v know_v themselves_o to_o be_v but_o man_n &_o that_o he_o that_o glori_v will_v glory_v in_o the_o lord_n 2._o i_o therefore_o o_o my_o praise_n and_o my_o life_n thou_o god_n of_o my_o heart_n lay_v aside_o for_o a_o while_o her_o good_a deed_n for_o which_o with_o rejoice_v i_o give_v thanks_o unto_o thou_o do_v now_o forward_o beseech_v thou_o for_o the_o sin_n of_o my_o mother_n harken_v unto_o i_o by_o he_o i_o entreat_v thou_o that_o be_v the_o true_a medicine_n of_o our_o wound_n who_o hang_v upon_o the_o tree_n and_o now_o sit_v at_o thy_o right_a hand_n make_v catholic_a intercession_n for_o us._n i_o know_v that_o she_o have_v doalt_v merciful_o and_o to_o have_v from_o her_o very_a heart_n forgive_v those_o that_o trespass_v against_o she_o do_v thou_o also_o
already_o pass_v beyond_o such_o part_n of_o it_o as_o be_v common_a to_o i_o with_o the_o beast_n while_o i_o call_v thou_o to_o mind_n for_o as_o much_o as_o i_o find_v not_o thou_o there_o among_o the_o image_n of_o corporeal_a thing_n &_o i_o proceed_v to_o these_o part_n of_o it_o whither_o i_o have_v recommend_v the_o affection_n of_o my_o mind_n nor_o can_v i_o find_v thou_o there_o yea_o i_o pass_v further_o into_o it_o even_o to_o the_o very_a seat_n of_o the_o mind_n itself_o which_o be_v there_o in_o my_o memory_n as_o appear_v by_o the_o mind_n remember_v of_o itself_o neither_o be_v thou_o there_o for_o that_o as_o thou_o be_v not_o either_o any_o corporeal_a image_n no_o more_o be_v thou_o any_o affection_n of_o a_o live_a man_n like_v as_o when_o we_o rejoice_v condole_v desire_v fear_v remember_v forget_v or_o whatsoever_o else_o we_o do_v of_o the_o like_a kind_n no_o nor_o yet_o be_v thou_o the_o mind_n itself_o because_o thou_o be_v the_o lord_n god_n of_o the_o mind_n moreover_o all_o these_o be_v change_v whereas_o thou_o remayne_v unchangeable_a over_o all_o who_o yet_o vouchsafe_v to_o dwell_v in_o my_o memory_n even_o since_o that_o first_o time_n that_o i_o learn_v to_o know_v thou_o but_o why_o seek_v i_o now_o in_o what_o particular_a place_n of_o my_o memory_n thou_o dwell_v as_o if_o there_o be_v any_o place_n at_o all_o in_o it_o sure_o i_o be_o that_o in_o it_o thou_o dwell_v even_o for_o this_o reason_n that_o i_o have_v preserve_v the_o memory_n of_o thou_o since_o the_o time_n that_o i_o first_o learn_v thou_o and_o for_o that_o i_o find_v thou_o in_o my_o memory_n whensoever_o i_o call_v thou_o to_o remembrance_n chap._n 26._o whereabout_o god_n be_v to_o be_v find_v 1._o where_o then_o do_v i_o find_v thou_o that_o i_o may_v learn_v thou_o for_o in_o my_o memory_n thou_o be_v not_o before_o i_o learn_v thou_o in_o what_o place_n therefore_o do_v i_o find_v thou_o that_o so_o i_o may_v learn_v thou_o but_o even_o in_o thy_o own_o self_n far_o above_o myself_o place_v there_o be_v none_o we_o go_v backward_o and_o forward_o but_o particular_a place_n there_o be_v none_o to_o contain_v thou_o every_o where_o o_o truth_n be_v thou_o precedent_n of_o the_o council_n to_o those_o that_o ask_v counsel_n of_o thou_o and_o at_o one_o dispatch_n do_v thou_o answer_v all_o yea_o though_o they_o ask_v thy_o counsel_n upon_o diverse_a matter_n clear_o do_v thou_o answer_v they_o though_o all_o do_v not_o clear_o understand_v thou_o all_o may_v advise_v with_o thou_o about_o what_o they_o will_v though_o they_o always_o hear_v not_o such_o answer_n as_o they_o desire_v he_o be_v thy_o best_a servant_n that_o look_v not_o so_o much_o to_o heart_n that_o from_o thou_o which_o himself_o desire_v as_o he_o that_o be_v willing_a with_o that_o rather_o which_o from_o thou_o he_o hear_v chap._n 27._o how_o god_n draw_v we_o to_o himself_o 1._o too_o late_o begin_v i_o to_o love_v thou_o o_o thou_o beatty_a both_o so_o ancient_a and_o so_o fresh_a yea_o too_o too_o late_o come_v i_o to_o love_v thou_o for_o behold_v thoâ—_n be_v within_o i_o and_o i_o out_o oâ—_n myself_o where_o i_o make_v search_v for_o thou_o deform_v i_o woo_v these_o beautiful_a piece_n of_o thâ—_n workmanship_n thou_o indeed_o be_v with_o i_o but_o i_o be_v not_o with_o thou_o these_o beauty_n keep_v i_o far_o enough_o from_o thou_o even_o those_o which_o unless_o they_o have_v their_o be_v in_o thou_o shall_v not_o be_v at_o all_o thou_o call_v and_o cry_v unto_o i_o yea_o thou_o even_o brake_v open_v my_o deafness_n thou_o discover_v thy_o beam_n and_o shyne_v out_o unto_o i_o and_o do_v chase_v away_o my_o blindness_n thou_o do_v most_o fragrant_o blow_v upon_o i_o and_o i_o draw_v in_o my_o breath_n and_o pant_v after_o thou_o i_o taste_v thou_o and_o now_o do_v bunger_n and_o thirst_n after_o thou_o thou_o do_v touch_v i_o and_o i_o even_o burn_v again_o to_o enjoy_v peace_n thy_o chap._n 28._o the_o misery_n of_o this_o life_n 1._o when_o i_o shall_v once_o attain_v to_o be_v unite_v unto_o thou_o in_o every_o part_n of_o i_o then_o shall_v i_o no_o more_o feel_v either_o sorrow_n or_o labour_n yea_o then_o shall_v my_o life_n true_o be_v alive_a every_o way_n full_a of_o thou_o whereas_o now_o very_o for_o that_o who_o thou_o fille_v thou_o also_o raise_v be_o i_o a_o burden_n unto_o myself_o because_o i_o be_o not_o full_a of_o thou_o the_o joy_n of_o this_o my_o life_n which_o deserve_v to_o be_v lament_v be_v at_o strife_n with_o my_o sorrow_n which_o be_v to_o be_v rejoice_v in_o but_o which_o way_n the_o victory_n will_v incline_v i_o yet_o know_v not_o woe_n be_v i_o o_o lord_n have_v pity_n on_o i_o my_o sorrow_n that_o be_v bad_a be_v in_o contention_n with_o my_o joy_n that_o be_v good_a and_o which_o way_n the_o victory_n will_v incline_v i_o yet_o know_v not_o alas_o for_o i_o o_o lord_n have_v pity_n upon_o i_o woe_n be_v i_o behold_v i_o hide_v not_o my_o woundâ—_n thou_o be_v the_o physician_n and_o i_o the_o patient_n thou_o merciful_a and_o i_o miserable_a be_v not_o the_o life_n of_o man_n upon_o earth_n a_o very_a temptation_n 2._o who_o be_v he_o that_o will_v willing_o endure_v trouble_n and_o difficulty_n these_o thou_o command_v to_o be_v bear_v not_o to_o belove_a for_o no_o man_n be_v in_o love_n with_o the_o cross_n which_o he_o take_v up_o though_o he_o love_v well_o enough_o to_o take_v it_o up_o for_o notwithstanding_o that_o he_o rejoice_v to_o bear_v yea_o much_o rather_o have_v he_o that_o there_o be_v no_o cross_n for_o he_o to_o bear_v in_o adversity_n i_o desire_v prosperity_n and_o in_o prosperity_n be_o i_o afraid_a of_o adversity_n what_o middle_a place_n now_o be_v there_o betwixt_o these_o two_o where_o this_o life_n of_o man_n be_v free_a from_o temptation_n woe_n be_v threaten_v unto_o the_o prosperity_n of_o this_o world_n again_o &_o again_o both_o for_o the_o fear_n of_o adversity_n and_o lest_o our_o joy_n shall_v be_v mar_v woe_n unto_o the_o adversity_n of_o this_o word_n again_o and_o again_o yet_o woe_n the_o three_o time_n unto_o they_o and_o that_o because_o of_o the_o great_a desire_n man_n have_v unto_o prosperity_n adversity_n therefore_o be_v so_o hard_a a_o thing_n and_o which_o make_v naufragat_v shipwreck_n oft_o time_n of_o our_o patience_n be_v not_o the_o life_n of_o man_n a_o very_a temptation_n upon_o earth_n and_o that_o without_o intermission_n chap._n 29._o cur_n hope_n be_v all_o in_o god_n 1._o now_o be_v all_o my_o hope_n no_o where_o but_o in_o thy_o very_a great_a mercy_n o_o lord_n my_o god_n give_v i_o patience_n to_o endure_v what_o thou_o command_v and_o then_o command_v what_o thou_o will_v thou_o impose_v continency_n upon_o i_o and_o when_o i_o perceive_v as_o one_o apocrypha_fw-la say_v that_o no_o man_n can_v be_v continent_n unless_o thou_o give_v it_o and_o that_o this_o be_v a_o point_n of_o wisdom_n to_o know_v who_o gift_n it_o be_v by_o continency_n very_o be_v we_o bind_v up_o and_o bring_v into_o unity_n with_o thou_o from_o who_o we_o be_v scatter_v abroad_o into_o many_o division_n for_o needs_o must_v he_o love_v thou_o less_o who_o love_v any_o thing_n together_o with_o thou_o which_o he_o love_v not_o for_o thou_o o_o thou_o love_v which_o be_v ever_o burn_a and_o never_o quench_v o_o charity_n my_o god_n kindle_v i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o thou_o enjoin_v i_o continency_n give_v i_o what_o thou_o command_v and_o then_o command_v what_o thou_o will_v chap._n 30._o the_o deceitfulness_n of_o dream_n 16._o 1._o very_o thou_o command_v i_o to_o contain_v myself_o from_o the_o lust_n of_o the_o flesh_n the_o lust_n of_o the_o eye_n and_o the_o ambition_n of_o this_o world_n thou_o command_v i_o also_o to_o abstain_v from_o carnal_a copulation_n and_o concern_v wedlock_n thou_o do_v burn_v now_o advise_v i_o to_o a_o better_a course_n then_o that_o be_v which_o thou_o leave_v i_o my_o free_a choice_n in_o and_o because_o thou_o give_v it_o â—t_z be_v obtain_v and_o that_o before_o i_o become_v a_o dispenser_n of_o thy_o sacrament_n but_o yet_o still_o there_o live_v in_o my_o memory_n which_o i_o have_v now_o speak_v so_o much_o of_o the_o image_n of_o such_o thing_n as_o my_o ill_a custom_n have_v there_o fix_v and_o which_o rush_n into_o my_o thought_n though_o want_v strength_n even_o while_o i_o be_o broad_a wake_n but_o in_o sleep_n obey_v come_v upon_o i_o not_o to_o delight_v only_o but_o even_o so_o far_o as_o consent_v and_o most_o like_a to_o the_o deed_n do_v yea_o so_o far_o prevail_v the_o illusion_n of_o that_o image_n both_o in_o my_o soul_n and_o
this_o three_o kind_n of_o temptation_n give_v i_o over_o or_o can_v it_o altogether_o forbear_v i_o in_o this_o life_n this_o namely_o to_o desire_v to_o be_v fear_v and_o love_v of_o man_n and_o that_o for_o no_o other_o end_n but_o that_o we_o may_v receive_v a_o private_a rejoice_v in_o it_o which_o indeed_o be_v no_o true_a joy_n a_o miserable_a life_n this_o be_v and_o a_o dishonourable_a kind_n of_o brag_v for_o hence_o especial_o it_o come_v that_o man_n do_v neither_o 6_o pure_o love_n nor_o fear_v thou_o and_o even_o therefore_o too_o do_v then_o resist_v the_o proud_a and_o gonest_fw-we grace_n unto_o the_o humble_a yea_o thou_o thunder_v down_o upon_o the_o ambitious_a design_n of_o this_o world_n and_o the_o foundation_n of_o the_o mountain_n tremble_v at_o it_o because_o now_o of_o perform_v certain_a effice_n among_o humane_a society_n it_o be_v necessary_a both_o to_o be_v love_v and_o fear_v of_o man_n even_o therefore_o do_v the_o adversary_n of_o our_o true_a blessedness_n lie_v hard_o at_o we_o every_o where_o spread_v his_o snare_n of_o well-done_a well-done_a which_o while_o we_o too_o eager_o gather_v up_o we_o may_v be_v unaware_o take_v in_o they_o and_o bring_v to_o disjoint_v our_o rejoice_v from_o thy_o truth_n and_o to_o settle_v it_o iâ—_n the_o deceive_a opinion_n of_o man_n please_v ourselves_o with_o be_v love_v and_o fear_v not_o for_o thy_o sake_n but_o in_o thy_o stead_n by_o which_o device_n the_o adversary_n may_v make_v we_o his_o own_o we_o be_v so_o near_o conform_v unto_o he_o already_o not_o join_v with_o he_o in_o any_o concord_n of_o charity_n but_o into_o the_o fellowship_n of_o punishment_n even_o of_o he_o who_o aspire_v to_o advance_v his_o throne_n in_o the_o north_n that_o people_n follow_v 1â—_n he_o in_o his_o wry_a and_o crooked_a way_n and_o become_v all_o darken_a and_o befrozen_a may_v be_v make_v his_o vassal_n 3._o but_o we_o o_o lord_n behold_v we_o be_v thy_o little_a flock_n keep_v thou_o still_o the_o possession_n of_o we_o stretch_v thy_o wing_n over_o we_o and_o let_v we_o fly_v under_o they_o be_v thou_o our_o glory_v let_v we_o be_v belove_v for_o thy_o sake_n and_o let_v thy_o word_n be_v fear_v in_o us._n whoever_o be_v ambitious_a to_o becommend_v of_o man_n when_o thou_o discommende_v he_o let_v he_o not_o be_v defend_v of_o man_n when_o thou_o indge_v he_o nor_o deliver_v when_o thou_o condemne_v he_o when_o now_o a_o sinner_n miss_v of_o his_o so_o cordial_o desire_v commendation_n and_o the_o evil_a doer_n have_v not_o the_o good_a word_n of_o the_o people_n on_o the_o contrary_a when_o another_o man_n be_v well_o speak_v of_o for_o some_o good_a part_n which_o thou_o have_v give_v he_o yet_o please_v himself_o better_a in_o the_o hear_n of_o his_o own_o praise_n then_o in_o the_o good_a part_n for_o which_o he_o be_v commend_v this_o man_n also_o as_o well_o as_o the_o other_o be_v discommend_v by_o thou_o even_o while_o he_o be_v commend_v by_o man_n yea_o better_o be_v the_o commender_n than_o the_o commend_a see_v to_o the_o one_o the_o gift_n of_o god_n bestow_v on_o man_n be_v please_v but_o the_o other_o be_v better_o please_v with_o the_o gift_n of_o man_n then_o of_o god_n chap._n 37._o praise_v and_o dispraise_v how_o they_o move_v us._n 1._o assail_v daily_o we_o be_v by_o these_o temptation_n o_o lord_n yea_o we_o be_v assault_v incessant_o the_o furnace_n we_o be_v daily_o try_v in_o be_v the_o tongue_n of_o man_n and_o in_o this_o kind_n also_o thou_o command_v we_o to_o be_v continent_n give_v what_o thou_o command_v and_o command_v what_o thou_o will_v thou_o know_v what_o groan_v my_o heart_n and_o flood_n my_o eye_n â—end_n up_o unto_o thou_o for_o this_o for_o easy_o can_v i_o not_o discern_v how_o cleanse_v i_o be_o more_o or_o less_o from_o this_o pollution_n yea_o and_o do_v i_o much_o fear_v my_o secret_a sin_n which_o thy_o eye_n perceive_v well_o enough_o though_o i_o can_v for_o in_o other_o kind_n of_o temptation_n i_o have_v the_o ability_n such_o as_o it_o be_v of_o thorough_o examine_v myself_o but_o in_o this_o scarce_o any_o at_o all_o for_o from_o the_o pleasure_n of_o the_o flesh_n and_o from_o the_o superfluous_a curiosity_n of_o know_v i_o well_o perceive_v how_o much_o i_o have_v gain_v upon_o myself_o in_o the_o refrain_v of_o my_o mind_n whenas_o namely_o i_o want_v the_o thing_n themselves_o or_o the_o will_n when_o the_o thing_n be_v away_o or_o the_o necessity_n when_o they_o be_v not_o to_o be_v have_v for_o than_o can_v i_o ask_v myself_o how_o troublesome_a it_o be_v unto_o i_o more_o or_o less_o not_o to_o have_v they_o but_o as_o for_o riches_n which_o be_v for_o this_o end_n desire_v that_o they_o may_v serve_v a_o man_n in_o some_o one_o of_o these_o three_o 16._o concupiscence_n or_o in_o any_o two_o or_o all_o of_o they_o if_o the_o soul_n be_v not_o able_a to_o discern_v whether_o when_o it_o have_v they_o it_o can_v contemn_v they_o they_o may_v be_v cast_v aside_o that_o a_o man_n may_v make_v experience_n of_o himself_o that_o way_n 2._o but_o for_o the_o enable_v of_o ourselves_o to_o want_v praise_n and_o for_o make_v trial_n what_o we_o can_v do_v in_o that_o kind_n be_v it_o our_o course_n to_o live_v ill_a so_o desperate_o and_o out_o of_o all_o compass_n that_o every_o body_n that_o know_v we_o may_v detest_v we_o what_o mad_a trick_n can_v either_o be_v say_v or_o think_v of_o but_o now_o if_o praise_v both_o use_v and_o aught_o to_o be_v the_o companion_n of_o a_o good_a life_n and_o of_o good_a work_n we_o ought_v as_o little_o to_o for_o go_v that_o company_n as_o this_o good_a life_n for_o i_o neither_o know_v who_o i_o can_v well_o be_v without_o or_o how_o well_o or_o ill_o content_v unless_o when_o he_o be_v absent_a what_o shall_v i_o therefore_o confess_v unto_o thou_o in_o this_o kind_n of_o temptation_n o_o lord_n what_o but_o that_o i_o be_o very_o much_o delight_v with_o my_o own_o praise_n but_o yet_o with_o the_o truth_n more_o than_o with_o the_o praise_n for_o be_v i_o put_v to_o my_o choice_n whether_o i_o will_v play_v the_o mad_a man_n or_o the_o fool_n in_o every_o thing_n and_o be_v general_o commend_v for_o it_o or_o be_v well_o settle_v and_o most_o assure_a of_o be_v in_o the_o right_n and_o be_v general_o discommend_v for_o it_o i_o see_v straight_o what_o i_o will_v choose_v 3._o yet_o unwilling_a i_o be_o that_o the_o praise_v give_v i_o by_o another_o man_n mouth_n shall_v increase_v my_o joy_n for_o any_o good_a i_o have_v and_o yet_o do_v praise_n not_o only_o increase_v it_o but_o dispraise_n do_v diminish_v it_o and_o when_o much_o trouble_v i_o be_o at_o this_o hard_a case_n of_o i_o i_o present_o bethink_v myself_o of_o a_o excuse_n which_o how_o sufficient_a it_o be_v god_n thou_o know_v for_o it_o leave_v i_o uncertain_a and_o for_o because_o thou_o have_v not_o command_v we_o continency_n alone_o that_o be_v from_o what_o thing_n we_o shall_v refrain_v our_o love_n but_o justice_n also_o that_o be_v which_o way_n we_o shall_v bestow_v that_o love_n and_o that_o it_o be_v not_o thâ—_n will_v to_o have_v we_o love_v thou_o only_o but_o our_o neighbour_n also_o do_v i_o oftentimes_o seem_v unto_o myself_o to_o be_v delight_v with_o 〈◊〉_d proficiency_n or_o towards_o 〈◊〉_d of_o my_o neighbour_n when_o i_o 〈◊〉_d delight_v with_o the_o commendation_n give_v i_o by_o he_o that_o understand_v what_o he_o say_v and_o i_o be_o sorry_a again_o for_o this_o want_n in_o he_o when_o i_o hear_v he_o dispraise_n either_o that_o which_o he_o understand_v not_o or_o what_o be_v good_a for_o i_o be_o sometime_o very_o sorry_a at_o my_o own_o praise_n when_o namely_o those_o thing_n be_v praise_v in_o i_o in_o which_o i_o mistake_v myself_o or_o that_o lesser_a and_o light_a good_a thing_n in_o i_o be_v more_o esteem_v then_o in_o reason_n they_o ought_v to_o be_v 4._o but_o how_o again_o come_v i_o to_o know_v this_o be_o i_o therefore_o thus_o affect_v because_o i_o will_v not_o have_v my_o commender_n dissent_v from_o i_o in_o thing_n that_o concern_v myself_o not_o for_o that_o i_o be_o move_v with_o the_o care_n of_o his_o good_a but_o for_o that_o the_o same_o good_a thing_n in_o i_o which_o very_o well_o please_v i_o be_v the_o more_o please_v to_o i_o when_o they_o be_v so_o also_o to_o another_o for_o in_o some_o sort_n i_o be_o not_o then_o praise_v when_o my_o own_o judgement_n of_o myself_o be_v not_o commend_v for_o asmuch_o as_o either_o those_o thing_n be_v praise_v which_o please_v i_o not_o at_o all_o or_o those_o be_v too_o much_o commend_v which_o please_v i_o but_o
ghost_n the_o creator_n of_o all_o thy_o own_o creature_n chap._n 6._o of_o the_o spirit_n move_v upon_o the_o water_n 1._o but_o what_o be_v the_o cause_n o_o thou_o true-speaking_a light_n unto_o thou_o lift_v i_o up_o my_o heart_n let_v it_o not_o be_v teach_v vanity_n dispel_v thou_o the_o darkness_n of_o it_o and_o tell_v i_o by_o our_o mother_n charity_n i_o beseech_v thou_o tell_v i_o the_o reason_n i_o beseech_v thou_o why_o after_o the_o mention_n of_o heaven_n and_o of_o the_o invisible_a and_o shapeless_a earth_n and_o darkness_n upon_o the_o deep_a thy_o scripture_n shall_v even_o then_o at_o length_n make_v the_o first_o mention_n of_o thy_o spirit_n be_v it_o because_o it_o be_v meet_v so_o to_o have_v he_o insinuate_v as_o that_o he_o shall_v be_v say_v to_o move_v upon_o and_o so_o much_o can_v not_o true_o be_v say_v unless_o that_o be_v first_o mention_v upon_o which_o thy_o spirit_n may_v be_v understand_v to_o have_v move_v for_o very_o neither_o upon_o the_o father_n not_o upon_o the_o son_n be_v he_o move_v nor_o can_v he_o right_o be_v say_v to_o move_v upon_o if_o there_o be_v nothing_o yet_o for_o he_o to_o move_v upon_o first_o therefore_o be_v that_o to_o be_v speak_v of_o which_o he_o be_v say_v to_o move_v upon_o and_o then_o he_o who_o it_o be_v requisite_a not_o to_o have_v name_v otherwise_o than_o a_o he_o be_v say_v to_o move_v upon_o but_o wherefore_o yet_o be_v â—â—_o not_o fit_v to_o have_v he_o insinuate_v otherways_o unless_o he_o be_v say_v to_o move_v upon_o chap._n 7._o of_o the_o effect_n or_o work_n of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n 1._o from_o hence_o let_v he_o that_o be_v able_a follow_v with_o his_o understanding_n thy_o apostle_n where_o he_o thus_o speak_v because_o thy_o love_n be_v shed_v abroad_o in_o our_o heart_n by_o the_o holy_a ghost_n which_o be_v give_v unto_o we_o and_o where_o concern_v spiritual_a gift_n he_o teach_v and_o show_v unto_o we_o a_o more_o excellent_a way_n of_o charity_n and_o where_o he_o bow_v his_o knee_n unto_o thou_o 21._o for_o we_o that_o we_o may_v come_v to_o 19_o learn_v that_o most_o excellent_a knowledge_n of_o the_o love_n of_o christ_n and_o therefore_o even_o from_o the_o very_a beginning_n do_v the_o spirit_n supereminent_o move_v upon_o the_o water_n who_o shall_v i_o tell_v it_o unto_o and_o in_o what_o term_n shall_v i_o describe_v how_o the_o huge_a weight_n of_o lustful_a desire_n press_v down_o into_o the_o steep_a pit_n and_o how_o charity_n raise_v we_o up_o again_o by_o thy_o spirit_n which_o move_v upon_o the_o water_n unto_o who_o shall_v i_o speak_v it_o and_o in_o what_o language_n utter_v it_o for_o they_o be_v no_o certain_a place_n into_o which_o we_o be_v plunge_v and_o out_o of_o which_o we_o be_v again_o lift_v what_o can_v be_v like_a and_o yet_o what_o unlikeer_n they_o be_v affection_n they_o be_v love_n they_o be_v the_o uncleanness_n of_o our_o own_o spirit_n that_o overflow_v our_o low_a part_n with_o the_o love_n of_o care_n and_o it_o be_v the_o holiness_n of_o thy_o spirit_n that_o raise_v we_o upward_o again_o by_o the_o love_n of_o our_o safety_n that_o 2._o we_o may_v lift_v our_o heart_n up_o unto_o the_o lord_n where_o thy_o spirit_n be_v move_v upon_o the_o water_n and_o that_o we_o may_v come_v at_o length_n to_o that_o repose_n which_o be_v above_o all_o rest_n when_o namely_o our_o soul_n shall_v have_v escape_v over_o these_o water_n where_o we_o can_v find_v no_o ground_n chap._n 8._o how_o god_n spirit_n cherish_v feeble_a soul_n 1._o the_o angel_n fall_v and_o man_n soul_n fall_v and_o all_o thy_o spiritual_a creature_n in_o general_n have_v show_v the_o way_n unto_o the_o deep_a which_o be_v in_o that_o most_o darksome_a bottom_n have_v not_o thou_o say_v let_v there_o be_v light_n and_o there_o be_v light_a and_o unless_o every_o spiritual_a creature_n of_o thy_o heavenly_a city_n have_v continue_v in_o obedience_n unto_o thou_o and_o settle_a itself_o upon_o thy_o spirit_n which_o move_v 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yea_o restore_v thyself_o unto_o i_o for_o i_o love_v thou_o and_o if_o it_o be_v too_o little_a let_v i_o now_o love_v thou_o more_o affectionate_o i_o be_o not_o able_a to_o measure_v my_o love_n that_o i_o may_v so_o come_v to_o know_v how_o much_o there_o want_v of_o enough_o that_o my_o life_n may_v even_o run_v into_o thy_o embracement_n and_o not_o tnrne_v from_o they_o again_o until_o i_o be_v whole_o hide_v in_o the_o secret_a of_o thy_o presence_n this_o one_o thing_n be_o i_o sure_a of_o that_o woe_n be_v i_o if_o i_o be_v not_o in_o thou_o yea_o not_o so_o only_o if_o i_o be_v without_o myself_o but_o ill_o will_v it_o go_v with_o i_o though_o i_o be_v hide_v within_o myself_o yea_o all_o other_o plenty_n beside_o my_o god_n be_v mere_a beggary_n unto_o i_o chap._n 9_o why_o the_o spirit_n only_o move_v upon_o the_o water_n 1._o but_o do_v not_o the_o father_n also_o or_o the_o son_n move_v upon_o the_o water_n and_o if_o we_o understand_v move_v as_o it_o be_v in_o a_o 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place_n also_o the_o fire_n mount_v upward_o a_o stone_n sink_v downward_o all_o thing_n press_v by_o their_o own_o weight_n go_v towards_o their_o proper_a place_n oil_n pour_v in_o the_o bottom_n of_o the_o water_n yet_o will_v swim_v on_o the_o top_n of_o it_o water_n pour_v upon_o oil_n sink_v to_o the_o bottom_n of_o the_o oil_n they_o be_v weigh_v down_o by_o their_o own_o hea-luinesse_a they_o go_v to_o seek_v their_o own_o centre_n thing_n a_o little_a out_o of_o their_o place_n become_v unquiet_a put_v they_o in_o their_o order_n again_o and_o they_o be_v quiet_v my_o weight_n be_v my_o love_n that_o way_n be_o i_o carry_v whithersoever_o i_o be_v carry_v we_o be_v inflame_v by_o thy_o gift_n and_o be_v carry_v upward_o we_o wax_v hot_a within_o and_o we_o go_v forward_o we_o ascend_v thy_o 5._o way_n that_o be_v in_o our_o heart_n and_o we_o sing_v a_o song_n of_o degree_n inward_o inflame_v with_o thy_o fire_n with_o thy_o zeal_n good_a fire_n and_o we_o go_v even_o because_o we_o go_v upward_o to_o the_o peace_n of_o jerusalem_n for_o glad_a i_o be_v when_o as_o they_o say_v unto_o i_o we_o will_v go_v up_o into_o the_o house_n of_o 1._o god_n there_o let_v thy_o good_a pleasure_n settle_v we_o that_o we_o may_v desire_v no_o other_o thing_n but_o to_o dwell_v there_o for_o ever_o chap._n 10._o all_o be_v of_o god_n gift_n o_o happy_a creature_n angel_n which_o know_v no_o other_o thing_n but_o that_o whenas_o itself_o be_v another_o thing_n even_o by_o thy_o gift_n which_o move_v upon_o every_o mutable_a thing_n it_o be_v so_o soon_o as_o create_v and_o no_o delay_n of_o time_n between_o take_v up_o in_o that_o
now_o of_o that_o fly_a kind_n which_o at_o thy_o word_n the_o water_n bring_v forth_o send_v thou_o thy_o word_n into_o it_o by_o thy_o messenger_n for_o their_o labour_n indeed_o they_o be_v which_o we_o speak_v of_o but_o yet_o thou_o be_v he_o that_o work_v in_o they_o that_o they_o may_v work_v a_o soul_n to_o have_v life_n in_o it_o 2._o the_o earth_n bring_v forth_o that_o be_v the_o earth_n be_v the_o cause_n that_o â—_o they_o work_v this_o in_o the_o messenger_n soul_n like_v as_o the_o sea_n be_v the_o cause_n that_o they_o wrought_v upon_o the_o move_a thing_n that_o have_v life_n in_o they_o as_o also_o upon_o the_o fowl_n that_o fly_v in_o the_o open_a firmament_n of_o heaven_n of_o who_o this_o earth_n have_v no_o need_n although_o it_o seed_v upon_o that_o fish_n which_o be_v take_v out_o of_o the_o deep_a upon_o that_o table_n which_o thou_o have_v prepare_v for_o the_o faithful_a for_o therefore_o be_v 36_o he_o take_v out_o of_o the_o deep_a that_o he_o may_v feed_v the_o dry_a land_n &_o the_o fowl_n though_o breed_v in_o the_o sea_n be_v yet_o multiply_v upon_o the_o earth_n for_o of_o the_o first_o preach_n of_o the_o evangelist_n man_n infidelity_n be_v the_o cause_n yet_o give_v they_o good_a exhortation_n unto_o the_o faithful_a also_o yea_o and_o many_o way_n do_v they_o bless_v they_o from_o day_n to_o day_n but_o as_o for_o the_o live_a soul_n that_o take_v his_o beginning_n from_o the_o earth_n for_o it_o profit_v not_o the_o faithful_a unless_o they_o can_v contain_v themselves_o from_o the_o love_n of_o this_o world_n that_o so_o their_o soul_n many_o only_a live_v unto_o thou_o which_o be_v dead_a while_o it_o line_v in_o pleasure_n in_o such_o pleasure_n lord_n as_o bring_v death_n with_o they_o for_o it_o be_v thou_o o_o lord_n that_o be_v the_o vital_a delight_n of_o a_o pure_a heart_n 3._o now_o therefore_o let_v thy_o minister_n work_v upon_o this_o with_o i_o not_o as_o sometime_o they_o do_v upon_o the_o water_n of_o 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soul_n be_v not_o 2_o conform_v to_o this_o world_n contain_v yourselves_o from_o it_o then_o shall_v your_o soul_n live_v by_o avoid_v it_o which_o die_v by_o affect_v it_o 4._o contain_v yourselves_o from_o the_o immoderate_a wild_a humour_n of_o pride_n the_o litherly_a voluptuousness_n of_o lust_n and_o the_o false_a name_n of_o knowledge_n 2d_o that_o so_o the_o wild_a beast_n may_v be_v tame_v the_o cattle_n make_v tractable_a and_o the_o serpent_n harmless_a for_o these_o be_v the_o motion_n of_o our_o mind_n under_o a_o allegory_n that_o be_v to_o say_v the_o haughtynesse_n of_o pride_n the_o delight_n of_o lust_n and_o the_o poison_n of_o curiosity_n these_o be_v the_o motion_n of_o a_o dead_a soul_n for_o the_o soul_n die_v not_o so_o utter_o as_o that_o it_o want_v all_o motion_n because_o it_o die_v by_o depart_v from_o the_o fountain_n of_o life_n be_v there_o upon_o take_v up_o by_o this_o transitory_a world_n and_o be_v conâ—â—â—ed_v unto_o it_o but_o thy_o word_n o_o god_n be_v the_o fountain_n of_o eternal_a life_n and_o that_o never_o call_v away_o wherefore_o this_o departure_n of_o the_o soul_n be_v restrain_v by_o thy_o word_n when_o 〈◊〉_d say_v unto_o we_o be_v not_o conform_v unto_o this_o world_n that_o so_o the_o earth_n may_v in_o the_o fountyne_n of_o life_n bring_v forth_o a_o 〈◊〉_d soul_n that_o be_v a_o soul_n 〈◊〉_d continent_n by_o virtue_n of_o 〈◊〉_d word_n deliver_v by_o thy_o 〈◊〉_d and_o by_o followâ—â—â—_n the_o follower_n of_o christ_n 1_o 〈◊〉_d be_v indeed_o to_o live_v after_o 〈…〉_z because_o the_o emution_n a_o man_n take_v be_v from_o â—â—_o friend_n be_v you_o say_v he_o 12_o â—_o be_o for_o i_o be_o as_o you_o be_v 〈◊〉_d in_o this_o live_a soul_n shall_v 〈◊〉_d be_v good_a motion_n beast_n meek_a 〈◊〉_d action_n for_o thou_o 〈◊〉_d command_v go_v on_o with_o 17_o thy_o business_n in_o meekness_n so_o shall_v thou_o be_v belove_v of_o all_o man_n and_o there_o shall_v be_v good_a cattle_n in_o it_o too_o which_o neither_o of_o they_o eat_v much_o shall_v have_v nothing_o over_o nor_o if_o they_o 18_o eat_v little_a any_o lack_n and_o good_a serpent_n not_o dangerous_a to_o do_v hurt_v but_o wise_a to_o take_v heed_n 9_o such_o as_o will_v make_v such_o a_o search_n into_o this_o temporal_a nature_n as_o may_v be_v sufficient_a that_o god_n eternity_n may_v be_v clear_o see_v be_v understand_v 20._o by_o the_o thing_n that_o be_v make_v for_o these_o creature_n be_v then_o obedient_a unto_o reason_n when_o be_v once_o restrain_v from_o their_o deadly_a prevail_v upon_o we_o they_o live_v and_o become_v good_a chap._n 22._o of_o regeneration_n by_o the_o spirit_n he_o allegorize_v upon_o the_o creation_n of_o man_n 1._o for_o behold_v o_o lord_n our_o god_n our_o creator_n soon_o as_o ever_o our_o affection_n be_v restrain_v from_o the_o love_n of_o the_o world_n by_o which_o we_o die_v through_o our_o evill-living_a and_o begin_v to_o be_v a_o live_a soul_n through_o our_o good_a live_n and_o that_o the_o word_n which_o thou_o have_v speak_v be_v thy_o apostle_n shall_v be_v make_v good_a in_o we_o be_v not_o conform_v to_o this_o world_n â—_o that_o next_o follow_v upon_o it_o which_o thou_o present_o subjoin_v say_v but_o be_v you_o transform_v by_o the_o renew_v of_o your_o mind_n not_o as_o live_n now_o after_o your_o kind_n as_o if_o you_o follow_v your_o neighbour_n next_o before_o you_o nor_o yet_o as_o live_v after_o the_o example_n of_o some_o better_a man_n for_o thou_o do_v not_o say_v let_v man_n be_v make_v after_o his_o kind_n but_o lei_fw-it we_o make_fw-mi man_n 26_o after_o our_o own_o image_n and_o similitude_n that_o we_o may_v prove_v what_o thy_o will_n be_v for_o to_o this_o purpose_n say_v that_o dispenser_n of_o thou_o who_o beget_v child_n by_o the_o gospel_n 3_o that_o he_o may_v not_o ever_o 2._o have_v they_o babe_n who_o he_o must_v be_v sayne_a to_o feed_v with_o milk_n and_o bring_v up_o like_o a_o nurse_n be_v you_o transform_v say_v he_o by_o the_o renew_n of_o 2_o your_o mind_n that_o you_o may_v prove_v what_o be_v that_o good_a that_o acceptable_a and_o perfect_a will_n of_o god_n wherefore_o thou_o say_v not_o let_v man_n he_o make_v but_o let_v we_o make_v man_n nor_o say_v thou_o according_a to_o his_o kind_n but_o after_o our_o own_o image_n &_o likeness_n for_o man_n be_v renew_v in_o his_o mind_n and_o able_a to_o discern_v and_o understand_v thy_o truth_n needs_o no_o more_o any_o direction_n of_o man_n to_o follow_v after_o his_o kind_n but_o by_o thy_o show_v do_v he_o prove_v what_o be_v that_o good_a that_o acceptable_a and_o perfect_a will_n of_o thou_o yea_o thou_o teach_v he_o that_o be_v now_o make_v capable_a to_o discern_v the_o trinity_n of_o the_o unity_n and_o the_o unity_n of_o the_o trinity_n whereas_o therefore_o it_o be_v speak_v in_o the_o plural_a number_n let_v we_o make_v man_n vet_n be_v it_o present_o infer_v in_o the_o singular_a and_o god_n make_v man_n and_o whereas_o it_o be_v say_v in_o the_o plural_a number_n after_o our_o own_o likeness_n yet_o be_v infer_v in_o the_o singular_a after_o the_o image_n of_o god_n thus_o be_v man_n renew_v unto_o the_o knowledge_n of_o â—_o god_n after_o the_o image_n of_o he_o that_o create_v he_o and_o be_v make_v spiritual_a he_o now_o judge_n all_o thing_n those_o namely_o that_o be_v to_o be_v judge_v yet_o he_o himself_o be_v judge_v of_o no_o 15_o man_n chap._n 23_o of_o what_o thing_n a_o christian_a may_v judge_v he_o allegorize_v upon_o man_n dominion_n over_o the_o creature_n that_o he_o now_o judge_v all_o thing_n this_o be_v the_o meaning_n that_o he_o have_v dominion_n over_o the_o fish_n of_o the_o sea_n 26_o and_o
our_o soul_n and_o that_o therefore_o it_o be_v perhaps_o that_o i_o fear_v to_o die_v lest_o so_o he_o may_v whole_o die_v who_o i_o extreme_o love_v this_o seem_v rather_o alight_v kind_a of_o declamation_n than_o a_o serious_a confession_n though_o yet_o howsoever_o that_o impertinency_n besomewhat_o moderate_v by_o the_o addition_n of_o this_o word_n perhaps_o which_o then_o i_o use_v and_o that_o also_o which_o i_o say_v in_o the_o thirteen_o book_n the_o firâ—â—ament_n be_v make_v between_o those_o superior_a spiritual_a water_n and_o these_o inferior_a corporeal_a water_n be_v not_o consider_v attue_o enough_o express_v but_o the_o truth_n hereof_o be_v extreme_o hard_a to_o be_v discover_v this_o work_n begin_v thus_o great_a be_v thou_o o_o lord_n and_o high_o worthy_a to_o be_v praise_v saint_n augustine_n confession_n the_o first_o book_n chap._n 1._o 〈◊〉_d admire_v god_n majesty_n and_o be_v inflame_v with_o a_o deep_a desire_n of_o praise_v he_o great_a be_v 5._o thou_o o_o lord_n and_o great_o to_o be_v praise_v great_a be_v thy_o power_n â—â—_o and_o thy_o wisdom_n be_v infinite_a and_o man_n who_o be_v a_o part_n of_o what_o thou_o have_v create_v be_v desirous_a to_o praise_v thou_o this_o man_n bear_v about_o his_o own_o mortality_n with_o he_o carrying_z about_o he_o a_o testimony_n of_o his_o own_o sin_n even_o this_o testimony_n that_o god_n 6._o resist_v the_o proud_a yet_o this_o man_n this_o part_n of_o what_o thou_o hasâ—_n create_v be_v desirous_a to_o praise_v thou_o thou_o so_o sweet_o provoke_v he_o that_o he_o even_o delight_v to_o praiâ—_n thou_o for_o thou_o have_v create_v uâ—_n for_o thyself_o and_o our_o heart_n can_v not_o be_v quiet_v till_o it_o may_v find_v repose_n in_o thou_o grant_v i_o lord_n to_o know_v and_o understand_v what_o ought_v first_o to_o do_v whether_o caâ—_n upon_o thou_o or_o praise_v thou_o anâ—_n which_o ought_v to_o be_v first_o to_o know_v thou_o or_o to_o call_v upon_o thou_o 2._o but_o who_o can_v right_o call_v up_o thou_o that_o be_v yet_o ignorant_a of_o thou_o for_o such_o a_o one_o may_v in_o stead_n â—_o thou_o call_v upon_o another_o or_o aâ—_n thou_o rather_o first_o call_v upon_o that_o thou_o may_v so_o come_v to_o bâ—_n know_v but_o how_o then_o shall_v 14._o they_o call_v on_o he_o in_o who_o they_o have_v not_o believe_v and_o how_o â—hall_v they_o believe_v without_o a_o preacher_n and_o again_o they_o 7._o â—hall_v praise_v the_o lord_n that_o seek_v â—fter_o he_o for_o they_o that_o seek_v shall_v find_v and_o find_v â—hey_n shall_v praise_v he_o thou_o will_v seek_v o_o lord_n call_z upon_z â—ee_z and_o i_o will_v call_v upon_o thou_o â—eleeving_v in_o thou_o for_o thou_o have_v â—eene_v declare_v unto_o we_o my_o faith_n o_o lord_n call_v upon_o thou_o which_o â—ou_n have_v give_v i_o which_o thou_o â—st_v inspire_v into_o i_o even_o by_o the_o â—â—â—anity_n of_o thy_o son_n and_o by_o â—e_a ministry_n of_o thy_o preacher_n he_o chap._n 2._o man_n have_v his_o be_v from_o god_n â—and_v that_o god_n be_v in_o man_n and_o man_n in_o god_n and_o how_o shall_v i_o call_v upon_o my_o god_n my_o lord_n and_o god_n because_o that_o when_o invoke_v he_o i_o call_v he_o into_o mâ—_n self_n and_o what_o place_n be_v there_o â—â—_o i_o fit_a for_o my_o god_n to_o come_v in_o to_o i_o by_o whither_o god_n maâ—_n come_v into_o i_o even_o that_o goâ—_n which_o make_v heaven_n and_o earth_n be_v it_o so_o my_o lord_n god_n be_v the_o any_o thing_n in_o i_o capable_a of_o theâ—_n nay_o can_v both_o heaven_n and_o eaâ—_n which_o thou_o have_v make_v and_o which_o thou_o have_v make_v i_o any_o wise_a contain_v thou_o 2._o or_o else_o because_o whatsoeâ—â—â—_n be_v can_v not_o subsist_v withal_o thou_o must_v it_o follow_v thereup_n that_o what_o soever_o have_v be_v endue_v with_o a_o capability_n of_o thâ—_n since_o therefore_o i_o also_o be_o sonâ—_n what_o how_o do_v i_o entreat_v theâ—_n come_v into_o i_o who_o can_v not_o unless_o thou_o be_v first_o in_o â—â—_o for_o i_o be_o not_o now_o in_o hell_n â—_o yet_o thou_o be_v there_o for_o if_o i_o â—_o 8._o down_o into_o hell_n thou_o be_v tâ—_n also_o i_o shall_v therefore_o not_o o_o god_n yea_o i_o shall_v have_v be_v at_o all_o unless_o thou_o be_v in_o â—e_n or_o rather_o i_o can_v not_o one_o unless_o i_o have_v my_o be_v in_o 〈◊〉_d â—f_o who_o and_o through_o who_o 36._o and_o to_o who_o be_v all_o thing_n eâ—en_o so_o it_o be_v lord_n even_o so_o wherefore_o then_o do_v i_o invoke_v thou_o â—eeing_v i_o be_o already_o in_o thou_o or_o whence_o can_v thou_o come_v into_o â—e_n for_o whither_o shall_v i_o go_v beyond_o heaven_n and_o earth_n that_o 〈◊〉_d thence_o my_o god_n may_v come_v â—â—_o to_o i_o who_o have_v say_v the_o heaâ—en_n and_o earth_n do_v i_o fill_v 24._o chap._n 3._o â—od_n be_v whole_o every_o where_o and_o be_v 〈◊〉_d by_o part_n contain_v by_o the_o creature_n do_v therefore_o the_o heaven_n and_o earth_n contain_v thou_o â—eing_v thou_o fille_v they_o or_o do_v â—ou_o fill_v they_o and_o there_o yet_o reâ—aines_v a_o overplus_n of_o thou_o because_o they_o be_v not_o able_a to_o comprehend_v thou_o if_o so_o into_z what_o do_v thou_o pour_v whatsoever_o remain_v of_o thou_o after_o heaven_n and_o earth_n be_v fill_v have_v thou_o need_v to_o be_v contain_v by_o something_o thou_o who_o containe_v all_o thing_n see_v that_o what_o thou_o fille_v by_o contain_v they_o thou_o fille_v for_o those_o vessel_n which_o be_v full_a oâ—_n thou_o spill_v add_v no_o stability_n to_o thou_o for_o be_v they_o break_v thou_o aâ—_n not_o shed_v out_o and_o when_o thou_o aâ—_n shed_v out_o upon_o we_o thou_o be_v no_o spill_v but_o thou_o raise_v we_o up_o no_o art_n thou_o scatter_v but_o thou_o gather_v up_o we_o but_o thou_o who_o filâ—_n lest_o all_o with_o thy_o whole_a cell_n do_v thou_o fill_v they_o all_o 2._o or_o because_o all_o thing_n can_v contain_v all_o of_o thou_o do_v the_o receive_v a_o part_n of_o thou_o and_o do_v aâ—_n at_o once_o receive_v the_o same_o part_n oâ—_n thou_o or_o several_a capacity_n several_a part_n and_o great_a thing_n great_a part_n and_o less_o lesser_a be_v therefore_o one_o part_n of_o thou_o great_a or_o another_o lesser_a or_o be_v thoâ—_n all_o every_o where_o and_o nothing_o contain_v thou_o whole_o chap._n 4._o a_o admirable_a description_n of_o god_n attribute_n 1._o what_o be_v thou_o therefore_o o_o my_o god_n what_o but_o the_o lord_n god_n for_o 31._o who_o be_v god_n but_o the_o lord_n or_o who_o have_v any_o strength_n beside_o our_o god_n oh_o thou_o supreme_a most_o excellent_a most_o mighty_a most_o omnipotent_a most_o merciful_a and_o most_o just_a most_o secret_a and_o most_o present_a most_o beautiful_a and_o most_o strong_a constant_a and_o incomprehensible_a immutable_a yet_o change_v all_o thing_n never_o new_a and_o never_o old_a renew_v all_o thing_n &_o insensible_o bring_v proud_a man_n into_o decay_n ever_o active_a and_o ever_o quiet_a gather_v together_o yet_o 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speak_v most_o be_v â—â—_o dumb_a in_o it_o chap._n 5._o he_o pray_v for_o forgiveness_n of_o sin_n and_o the_o love_n of_o god_n who_o shall_v so_o mediate_v for_o i_o that_o i_o may_v repose_v in_o thou_o who_o shall_v â—â—cure_v thou_o to_o enter_v into_o my_o â—â—rt_n and_o so_o to_o inebriate_v it_o that_o â—â—ay_v forget_v my_o own_o evil_n and_o â—â—brace_v thou_o my_o only_a good_a â—hat_n be_v thou_o to_o i_o let_v i_o â—de_v grace_n to_o speak_v to_o thou_o what_o be_o i_o to_o thou_o that_o â—ou_o shall_v command_v i_o â—ove_v thou_o and_o be_v angry_a with_o â—â—_o yea_o and_o threaten_v i_o with_o 〈◊〉_d mischief_n unless_o i_o do_v love_n â—e_n be_v it_o to_o be_v think_v a_o small_a â—sery_n
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