be_v within_o the_o sight_n of_o home_n and_o heaven_n be_v in_o thy_o eye_n and_o thou_o be_v converse_v with_o that_o god_n in_o who_o converse_n the_o high_a angel_n do_v place_n their_o high_a felicity_n and_o delight_n how_o little_a cause_n then_o have_v all_o the_o church_n enemy_n to_o triumph_v that_o can_v never_o shut_v up_o a_o true_a believer_n from_o the_o presence_n of_o his_o god_n nor_o banish_v he_o into_o such_o a_o place_n where_o he_o can_v have_v his_o conversation_n in_o heaven_n the_o stone_n that_o be_v cast_v at_o holy_a stephen_n can_v not_o hinder_v he_o from_o see_v the_o heaven_n open_v and_o christ_n sit_v at_o the_o right_a hand_n of_o god_n a_o patmos_n allow_v holy_a john_n communion_n with_o christ_n be_v there_o in_o the_o spirit_n on_o the_o lord_n day_n rev._n 1.9_o 10._o christ_n never_o so_o speedy_o and_o comfortable_o ow_v his_o servant_n as_o when_o the_o world_n disow_v they_o and_o abuse_v they_o for_o his_o sake_n and_o hurl_v they_o up_o and_o down_o as_o the_o scorn_n and_o offscouring_a of_o all_o he_o quick_o find_v the_o blind_a man_n that_o he_o have_v cure_v when_o once_o the_o jew_n have_v cast_v he_o out_o joh._n 9.35_o persecutor_n do_v but_o promote_v the_o blessedness_n and_o exceed_a joy_n of_o sufferer_n for_o christ_n mat._n 5.11.12_o and_o how_o little_a reason_n then_o have_v christian_n to_o shun_v such_o suffering_n by_o unlawful_a mean_n which_o turn_v to_o their_o so_o great_a advantage_n and_o to_o give_v so_o dear_a as_o the_o hazard_n of_o their_o soul_n by_o wilful_a sin_n to_o escape_v the_o honour_n and_o safety_n and_o commodity_n of_o martyrdom_n and_o indeed_o we_o judge_v not_o we_o love_v not_o we_o â—ive_a not_o as_o sanctify_v one_o must_v do_v if_o we_o judge_v not_o that_o the_o true_a liberty_n and_o love_v it_o not_o as_o the_o best_a condition_n in_o which_o we_o may_v best_o converse_v with_o god_n and_o o_o how_o much_o hard_a be_v it_o to_o walk_v with_o god_n in_o a_o court_n in_o the_o midst_n of_o sensual_a delight_n than_o in_o a_o prison_n or_o wilderness_n where_o we_o have_v none_o to_o interrupt_v we_o and_o nothing_o else_o to_o take_v we_o up_o it_o be_v our_o prepossessed_a mind_n our_o earthly_a heart_n our_o carnal_a affection_n and_o concupiscence_n and_o the_o pleasure_n of_o a_o prosperous_a state_n that_o be_v the_o prison_n and_o the_o jailer_n of_o our_o soul_n be_v it_o not_o for_o these_o how_o free_a shall_v we_o be_v though_o our_o body_n be_v confine_v to_o the_o straight_a room_n he_o be_v at_o liberty_n that_o can_v walk_v in_o heaven_n and_o have_v access_n to_o god_n and_o make_v use_n of_o all_o the_o creature_n in_o the_o world_n to_o the_o promote_a of_o this_o his_o heavenly_a conversation_n and_o he_o be_v the_o prisoner_n who_o soul_n be_v chain_v to_o flesh_n and_o earth_n and_o confine_v to_o his_o land_n and_o house_n and_o feed_v on_o the_o dust_n of_o worldly_a riches_n or_o wallow_v in_o the_o dung_n and_o filth_n of_o gluttony_n drunkenness_n and_o lust_n that_o be_v far_o from_o god_n and_o desire_v not_o to_o be_v near_o he_o but_o say_v to_o he_o depart_v from_o we_o we_o will_v not_o have_v the_o knowledge_n of_o thy_o way_n that_o love_n their_o prison_n and_o chain_n so_o well_o that_o they_o will_v not_o be_v set_v free_a but_o hate_v those_o with_o the_o cruel_a hatred_n that_o endeavour_v their_o deliverance_n those_o be_v the_o poor_a prisoner_n of_o satan_n that_o have_v not_o liberty_n to_o believe_v nor_o to_o love_n god_n nor_o converse_v in_o heaven_n nor_o serious_o to_o mind_n or_o seek_v the_o thing_n that_o be_v high_a and_o honourable_a that_o have_v not_o liberty_n to_o meditate_v or_o pray_v or_o serious_o to_o speak_v of_o holy_a thing_n nor_o to_o love_n and_o converse_v with_o those_o that_o do_v so_o that_o be_v tie_v so_o hard_o to_o the_o drudgery_n of_o sin_n that_o they_o have_v not_o liberty_n one_o month_n or_o week_n or_o day_n to_o leave_v it_o and_o walk_v with_o god_n so_o much_o as_o for_o recreation_n but_o he_o that_o live_v in_o the_o family_n of_o god_n and_o be_v employ_v in_o attend_v he_o and_o do_v converse_v with_o christ_n and_o the_o host_n of_o holy_a one_o above_o in_o reason_n shall_v not_o much_o complain_v of_o his_o want_n of_o friend_n or_o company_n or_o accommodation_n nor_o yet_o be_v too_o impatient_a of_o any_o corporal_a confinement_n last_o be_v sure_a than_o most_o narrow_o to_o watch_v your_o heart_n that_o nothing_o have_v entertainment_n there_o which_o be_v against_o your_o liberty_n of_o converse_n with_o god_n fill_v not_o those_o heart_n with_o worldly_a trash_n which_o be_v make_v and_o new-made_a to_o be_v the_o dwell_a place_n of_o god_n desire_v not_o the_o company_n which_o will_v diminish_v your_o heavenly_a acquaintance_n and_o correspondency_n be_v not_o unfriendly_a nor_o conceit_v of_o a_o self-sufficiency_n but_o yet_o beware_v lest_o under_o the_o honest_a ingenuous_a title_n of_o a_o friend_n a_o special_a faithful_a prudent_a faithful_a friend_n you_o shall_v entertain_v a_o idol_n or_o a_o enemy_n to_o your_o love_n of_o god_n or_o a_o corrival_n and_o competitor_n with_o your_o high_a friend_n for_o if_o you_o do_v it_o be_v not_o the_o specious_a title_n of_o a_o friend_n that_o will_v save_v you_o from_o the_o thorn_n and_o briar_n of_o disquietment_n and_o from_o great_a trouble_n than_o ever_o you_o find_v from_o open_a enemy_n o_o bless_a be_v that_o high_a and_o everlasting_a friend_n who_o be_v every_o way_n suit_v to_o the_o upright_a soul_n to_o their_o mind_n their_o memory_n their_o delight_n their_o love_n etc._n etc._n by_o sure_a truth_n by_o full_a goodness_n by_o clear_a light_n by_o dear_a love_n by_o firm_a constancy_n etc._n etc._n o_o why_o have_v my_o drowsy_a and_o dark-sighted_n soul_n be_v so_o seldom_o with_o he_o why_o have_v it_o so_o often_o so_o strange_o and_o so_o unthankful_o pass_v by_o and_o not_o observe_v he_o nor_o hearken_v to_o his_o kind_a call_n o_o what_o be_v all_o this_o trash_n and_o trouble_v that_o have_v fill_v my_o memory_n and_o employ_v my_o mind_n and_o cheat_v and_o corrupt_v my_o affection_n while_o my_o dear_a lord_n have_v be_v day_n and_o night_n so_o unworthy_o forget_v so_o contemptuous_o neglect_v and_o disregard_v and_o love_v as_o if_o i_o love_v he_o not_o o_o that_o these_o drowsy_a and_o those_o wake_a night_n those_o loiter_v lose_v and_o empty_a hour_n have_v be_v spend_v in_o the_o humble_a converse_n with_o he_o which_o have_v be_v dream_v and_o dote_v away_o upon_o now_o i_o know_v not_o what_o o_o my_o god_n how_o much_o wise_a and_o happy_a have_v i_o be_v have_v i_o rather_o choose_v to_o mourn_v with_o thou_o than_o to_o rejoice_v and_o sport_v with_o any_o other_o o_o that_o i_o have_v rather_o weep_v with_o thou_o than_o laugh_v with_o the_o creature_n for_o the_o time_n to_o come_v let_v that_o be_v my_o friend_n that_o most_o befriend_v my_o dark_a and_o dull_a and_o backward_a soul_n in_o its_o undertake_a progress_n and_o heavenly_a conversation_n or_o if_o there_o be_v none_o such_o upon_o earth_n let_v i_o here_o take_v one_o for_o my_o friend_n o_o blot_n out_o every_o name_n from_o my_o corrupt_a heart_n which_o hinder_v the_o deep_a engrave_v of_o thy_o name_n ah_o lord_n what_o a_o stone_n what_o a_o blind_a ungrateful_a thing_n be_v a_o heart_n not_o touch_v with_o celestial_a love_n yet_o shall_v i_o not_o run_v to_o thou_o when_o i_o have_v none_o else_o that_o will_v know_v i_o shall_v i_o not_o draw_v near_o thou_o when_o all_o fly_n from_o i_o when_o daily_a experience_n cry_v out_o so_o loud_o none_o but_o christ_n god_n or_o nothing_o ah_o foolish_a heart_n that_o have_v think_v of_o it_o where_o be_v that_o place_n that_o cave_n or_o desert_n where_o i_o may_v soon_o find_v thou_o and_o full_a enjoy_v thou_o be_v it_o in_o the_o wilderness_n that_o thou_o walk_v or_o in_o the_o crowd_n in_o the_o closet_n or_o in_o the_o church_n where_o be_v it_o that_o i_o may_v soon_o meet_v with_o god_n but_o alas_o i_o now_o perceive_v that_o i_o have_v a_o heart_n to_o find_v before_o i_o be_o like_a to_o find_v my_o lord_n o_o loveless_n lifeless_a stony_a heart_n that_o be_v dead_a to_o he_o that_o give_v it_o life_n and_o to_o none_o but_o he_o can_v i_o not_o love_n or_o think_v or_o feel_v at_o all_o methinks_v i_o be_v less_o dead_a than_o now_o less_o dead_a if_o dead_a than_o now_o i_o be_o alive_a i_o have_v almost_o say_v lord_n let_v i_o never_o love_v more_o till_o i_o can_v love_v thou_o nor_o think_v more_o on_o any_o thing_n till_o i_o can_v more_o willing_o think_v of_o thou_o but_o i_o must_v suppress_v that_o
covetous_a ambitious_a self-seeking_a person_n in_o the_o world_n or_o else_o cure_v their_o disease_n and_o possess_v their_o mind_n with_o perfect_a câ—â—rity_n then_o â—ll_v the_o 〈…〉_z have_v over_o and_o over_o again_o give_v 〈…〉_z as_o full_a and_o sad_a demonstration_n of_o thâ—_n 〈◊〉_d of_o cross_a opinion_n to_o alienate_v 〈◊〉_d and_o make_v division_n as_o most_o age_n of_o the_o world_n have_v ever_o have_v if_o your_o friend_n 〈◊〉_d proud_a it_o be_v wonderful_a how_o he_o will_v â—lighâ—_n you_o and_o withdraw_v his_o love_n if_o you_o 〈◊〉_d not_o of_o his_o mind_n if_o he_o be_v zealous_a he_o be_v easy_o tempt_v to_o think_v it_o a_o part_n of_o his_o duty_n to_o god_n to_o disow_v you_o if_o you_o differ_v from_o he_o as_o take_v you_o for_o one_o that_o disow_v the_o truth_n of_o god_n and_o therefore_o one_o that_o god_n himself_o disow_v or_o at_o least_o to_o grow_v cold_a in_o his_o affection_n towards_o you_o and_o to_o decline_v from_o you_o as_o he_o that_o think_v you_o do_v from_o god_n as_o agreement_n in_o opinion_n do_v strange_o reconcile_v affection_n so_o disagreement_n do_v secret_o and_o strange_o alienate_v they_o even_o before_o you_o be_v well_o aware_a your_o friend_n have_v lose_v possession_n of_o your_o heart_n because_o of_o a_o unavoidable_a diversity_n of_o apprehension_n when_o all_o your_o friend_n have_v the_o same_o intellectual_a complexion_n and_o temperature_n and_o measure_n of_o understanding_n with_o yourselves_o than_o you_o may_v have_v hope_n to_o escape_v the_o rupture_n which_o unlikeliness_n and_o difference_n of_o apprehension_n may_v else_o cause_v 6._o moreover_o some_o of_o your_o friend_n may_v so_o far_o overgrow_v you_o in_o wisdom_n or_o wealth_n or_o honour_n or_o worth_n in_o their_o own_o conceit_n that_o they_o may_v begin_v to_o take_v you_o to_o be_v unsuitable_a for_o they_o and_o unmeet_a for_o their_o further_a special_a friendship_n alas_o poor_a man_n they_o will_v pity_v thou_o that_o thou_o be_v no_o wise_a and_o that_o thou_o have_v no_o great_a light_n to_o change_v thy_o mind_n as_o fast_o as_o they_o or_o that_o thou_o be_v so_o weak_a and_o ignorant_a as_o not_o to_o see_v what_o seem_v to_o they_o so_o clear_a a_o truth_n or_o that_o thou_o be_v so_o simple_a to_o cast_v away_o thyself_o by_o cross_v they_o that_o may_v prefer_v thou_o or_o to_o fâ—ll_v under_o the_o displeasure_n of_o those_o that_o have_v power_n to_o raise_v or_o ruin_v thou_o but_o if_o thou_o be_v so_o simple_a thou_o may_v be_v the_o object_n of_o their_o lamentation_n but_o be_v no_o familiar_a friend_n for_o they_o they_o think_v it_o fit_a to_o close_v and_o converse_v with_o those_o of_o their_o own_o rank_n and_o stature_n and_o not_o with_o such_o shrub_n and_o child_n that_o may_v prove_v their_o trouble_n and_o dishonour_n 7._o and_o some_o of_o your_o friend_n will_v think_v that_o by_o a_o more_o through_o acquaintance_n with_o you_o they_o have_v find_v out_o more_o of_o your_o infirmity_n or_o fault_n and_o therefore_o have_v find_v that_o you_o be_v less_o aimable_fw-fr and_o valuable_a than_o at_o first_o they_o judge_v you_o they_o will_v think_v that_o by_o distance_n unacquaintedness_n and_o a_o overhasty_a love_n and_o judgement_n they_o be_v mistake_v in_o you_o and_o that_o now_o they_o see_v reason_n to_o repent_v of_o the_o love_n which_o they_o think_v be_v guilty_a of_o some_o error_n and_o excess_n when_o they_o come_v near_o you_o and_o have_v have_v more_o trial_n of_o you_o they_o will_v think_v they_o be_v fit_a to_o judge_v of_o you_o than_o before_o and_o indeed_o our_o defect_n be_v so_o many_o and_o all_o our_o infirmity_n so_o great_a that_o the_o more_o man_n know_v we_o the_o more_o they_o may_v see_v in_o we_o that_o deserve_v pity_n or_o reproof_n and_o as_o picture_n we_o appear_v less_o beautiful_a at_o the_o near_a view_n though_o this_o will_v not_o warrant_v the_o withdraw_n of_o that_o love_n which_o be_v due_a to_o friend_n and_o to_o virtue_n even_o in_o the_o imperfect_a nor_o will_v excuse_v that_o alienation_n and_o decay_n of_o friendship_n that_o be_v cause_v by_o the_o pride_n of_o such_o as_o overlook_v perhaps_o much_o great_a fail_n and_o weakness_n in_o themselves_o which_o need_v forgiveness_n 8._o and_o perhaps_o some_o of_o your_o friend_n will_v grow_v weary_a of_o their_o friendship_n have_v that_o infirmity_n of_o humane_a nature_n not_o to_o be_v much_o please_v with_o one_o thing_n long_o their_o love_n be_v a_o flower_n that_o quick_o wither_v it_o be_v a_o short_a live_v thing_n that_o soon_o grow_v old_a it_o must_v be_v novelty_n that_o must_v feed_v their_o love_n and_o their_o delight_n 9_o and_o perhaps_o they_o may_v have_v get_v some_o better_a friend_n in_o their_o apprehension_n that_o may_v have_v so_o much_o interest_n as_o to_o take_v they_o up_o and_o leave_v no_o room_n for_o ancient_a friend_n it_o may_v be_v they_o have_v meet_v with_o those_o that_o be_v more_o suitable_a or_o can_v be_v more_o useful_a to_o they_o that_o have_v more_o learning_n or_o wit_n or_o wealth_n or_o power_n than_o you_o have_v and_o therefore_o seem_v more_o worthy_a of_o their_o friendship_n 10._o and_o some_o of_o they_o may_v think_v when_o you_o be_v in_o a_o low_a and_o suffer_a state_n and_o in_o danger_n of_o worse_a that_o it_o be_v part_n of_o their_o duty_n of_o self-preservation_n to_o be_v strange_a to_o you_o though_o in_o heart_n they_o wish_v you_o well_o they_o will_v think_v they_o be_v not_o bind_v to_o hazard_v themselves_o upon_o the_o displeasure_n of_o superior_n to_o own_o or_o befriend_v you_o or_o any_o other_o though_o they_o must_v not_o desert_n christ_n they_o think_v they_o may_v desert_v a_o man_n for_o their_o own_o preservation_n to_o avoid_v both_o extreme_n in_o such_o a_o case_n man_n must_v both_o study_v to_o understand_v which_o way_n be_v most_o serviceable_a to_o christ_n and_o to_o his_o church_n and_o withal_o to_o be_v able_a to_o deny_v themselves_o and_o also_o must_v study_v to_o understand_v what_o christ_n mean_v in_o his_o final_a sentence_n in_o as_o much_o as_o you_o do_v it_o or_o do_v it_o not_o to_o one_o of_o the_o least_o of_o these_o my_o brethren_n you_o do_v it_o or_o do_v it_o not_o to_o i_o as_o if_o it_o be_v to_o visit_v the_o contagious_a we_o must_v neither_o cast_v away_o our_o life_n to_o do_v no_o good_a or_o for_o that_o which_o in_o value_n hold_v no_o proportion_n with_o they_o nor_o yet_o must_v we_o deny_v to_o run_v any_o hazard_n when_o it_o be_v indeed_o our_o duty_n so_o be_v it_o in_o our_o visit_v those_o that_o suffer_v for_o the_o cause_n of_o christ_n but_o that_o here_o the_o own_v they_o be_v the_o confess_v of_o he_o we_o need_v more_o seldom_o to_o fear_v be_v too_o forward_o 11._o and_o some_o of_o your_o friend_n may_v cover_v their_o faithfulness_n with_o the_o pretence_n of_o some_o fault_n that_o you_o have_v be_v guilty_a of_o some_o error_n that_o you_o hold_v or_o some_o unhansom_a or_o culpable_a act_n that_o you_o have_v do_v or_o some_o duty_n that_o you_o have_v leave_v undo_v or_o fail_v in_o for_o they_o think_v there_o be_v not_o a_o better_a shelter_n for_o their_o unfaithfulness_n then_o to_o pretend_v for_o it_o the_o name_n and_o cause_n of_o god_n and_o so_o to_o make_v a_o duty_n of_o their_o sin_n who_o will_v not_o justify_v they_o if_o they_o can_v but_o prove_v that_o god_n require_v they_o and_o religion_n oblige_v thâ—m_n to_o forsake_v you_o fâ—r_v your_o fault_n there_o be_v few_o crime_n in_o the_o world_n that_o by_o some_o be_v not_o father_v on_o god_n that_o most_o hate_v they_o as_o think_v no_o name_n can_v so_o much_o honour_v they_o false_a friend_n therefore_o use_v this_o mean_n as_o well_o as_o other_o hypocrite_n and_o though_o god_n be_v love_n and_o condemn_v nothing_o more_o than_o uncharitableness_n &_o malice_n yet_o these_o be_v common_o by_o falshaâ—ted_a hypocrite_n call_v by_o pious_a virtuous_a name_n and_o god_n himself_o be_v entitle_v to_o they_o so_o that_o few_o worldling_n ambitious_a person_n or_o timeserver_n but_o will_v confident_o pretend_v religion_n for_o all_o their_o falsehood_n to_o their_o friend_n or_o bloody_a cruelty_n to_o the_o servant_n of_o christ_n that_o comply_v not_o with_o their_o carnal_a interest_n 12._o perhaps_o some_o of_o your_o friend_n may_v real_o mistake_v your_o case_n and_o think_v that_o you_o suffer_v as_o evil_a doer_n and_o instead_o of_o comfort_v you_o may_v be_v your_o sharp_a censurer_n this_o be_v one_o of_o the_o most_o notable_a thing_n set_v out_o to_o our_o observation_n in_o the_o book_n of_o job_n it_o be_v not_o the_o small_a part_n of_o his_o affliction_n that_o when_o the_o hand_n of_o god_n be_v heavy_a upon_o he_o
i_o be_o not_o alone_a because_o the_o father_n be_v with_o i_o i_o be_o this_o day_n to_o handle_v the_o instance_n of_o christ_n be_v forsake_v by_o his_o friend_n and_o follower_n he_o think_v meet_v to_o foretell_v they_o how_o they_o shall_v manifest_v their_o infirmity_n and_o untrustiness_n in_o this_o temporary_a forsake_v of_o he_o that_o so_o he_o may_v fullyer_n convince_v they_o that_o he_o know_v what_o be_v in_o man_n and_o that_o he_o know_v future_a contingency_n or_o thing_n to_o come_v which_o seem_v most_o dependent_a on_o the_o will_n of_o man_n and_o that_o he_o voluntary_o submit_v to_o his_o desert_a state_n and_o expect_v no_o support_n from_o creature_n but_o that_o man_n shall_v then_o do_v least_o for_o christ_n when_o christ_n be_v do_v most_o for_o man_n that_o man_n by_o a_o unthankful_a forsake_v christ_n shall_v then_o manifest_v his_o forsake_a deplorate_a state_n when_o christ_n be_v to_o make_v atonement_n for_o his_o reconciliation_n to_o god_n and_o be_v prepare_v the_o most_o costly_a remedy_n for_o his_o recovery_n he_o foretell_v they_o of_o the_o fruit_n which_o their_o infirmity_n will_v produce_v to_o humble_v they_o that_o be_v apt_a to_o think_v too_o high_o of_o themselves_o for_o the_o late_a free_a confession_n they_o have_v make_v of_o christ_n when_o they_o have_v new_o say_v now_o we_o be_v sure_a that_o thou_o know_v all_o thing_n by_o this_o we_o be_v sure_a that_o thou_o come_v forth_o from_o god_n ver_fw-la 30._o he_o answer_v they_o do_v you_o now_o believe_v behold_v the_o hour_n come_v etc._n etc._n not_o that_o christ_n will_v not_o have_v his_o servant_n know_v his_o grace_n in_o they_o but_o he_o will_v also_o have_v they_o know_v the_o corruption_n that_o be_v latent_fw-la and_o the_o infirmity_n consistent_a with_o their_o grace_n we_o be_v very_o apt_a to_o judge_v of_o all_o that_o be_v in_o we_o and_o of_o all_o that_o we_o shall_v do_v hereafter_o by_o what_o we_o feel_v at_o the_o present_a upon_o our_o heart_n as_o when_o we_o feel_v the_o stir_n of_o some_o corruption_n we_o be_v apt_a to_o think_v that_o there_o 〈◊〉_d nothing_o else_o and_o hardly_o perceive_v the_o contrary_a grace_n and_o be_v apt_a to_o think_v it_o will_v never_o be_v better_o with_o we_o so_o when_o we_o feel_v the_o exercise_n of_o faith_n desire_n or_o love_n we_o be_v apt_a to_o overlook_v the_o contrary_a corruption_n and_o to_o think_v that_o we_o shall_v never_o feel_v they_o more_o but_o christ_n will_v keep_v we_o both_o humble_a and_o vigilant_a by_o acquaint_v we_o with_o the_o mutability_n and_o unconstancy_n of_o our_o mind_n when_o it_o go_v well_o with_o we_o we_o forget_v that_o the_o time_n be_v come_v when_o it_o may_v go_v worse_o as_o christ_n say_v to_o his_o disciple_n heâ—e_v in_o the_o case_n of_o believe_v we_o may_v say_v to_o ourselves_o in_o that_o and_o other_o 〈◊〉_d do_v we_o now_o believe_v it_o be_v wellâ—_n but_o the_o time_n may_v be_v come_v in_o which_o we_o may_v be_v bring_v to_o shake_v with_o thâ—_n stir_n of_o our_o remain_a unbelief_n and_o shrewd_o tempt_v to_o question_v the_o 〈◊〉_d of_o châ—istianity_n itself_o and_o of_o the_o â—oly_a scripture_n and_o of_o the_o life_n to_o come_v do_v we_o now_o rejoice_v in_o the_o persuasion_n of_o the_o love_n of_o god_n the_o time_n may_v be_v come_v when_o we_o may_v think_v ourselves_o forsake_v and_o undo_v and_o think_v he_o will_v esteem_v and_o use_v we_o as_o his_o enemy_n do_v we_o now_o pray_v with_o fervour_n and_o pour_v out_o our_o soul_n enlarged_o to_o god_n it_o be_v well_o but_o the_o time_n may_v be_v come_v when_o we_o shall_v seem_v to_o be_v as_o dumb_a and_o prayerless_a and_o say_v we_o can_v pray_v or_o else_o we_o find_v no_o audience_n and_o acceptance_n of_o our_o prayer_n christ_n know_v that_o in_o we_o which_o we_o little_o know_v by_o ourselves_o and_o therefore_o may_v foreknow_v that_o we_o will_v commit_v such_o sin_n or_o fall_v into_o such_o danger_n as_o we_o little_a fear_n what_o christ_n here_o propehsy_v to_o they_o do_v afterward_o all_o come_v to_o pass_v as_o soon_o as_o ever_o danger_n and_o trouble_n do_v appear_v they_o begin_v to_o flag_n and_o to_o show_v how_o ill_o they_o can_v adhere_v unto_o he_o or_o suffer_v with_o he_o without_o his_o special_a corroborate_n grace_n in_o the_o garden_n when_o he_o be_v sweat_v blood_n in_o prayer_n they_o be_v sleep_v though_o the_o spirit_n be_v willing_a the_o flesh_n be_v weak_a they_o can_v not_o watch_n with_o he_o one_o hour_n mat._n 26.40_o 41._o when_o he_o be_v apprehend_v they_o shift_v each_o man_n for_o himself_o mat._n 26.56_o then_o all_o the_o disciple_n forsake_v he_o and_o flee_v and_o as_o this_o be_v say_v to_o be_v that_o the_o scripture_n may_v be_v fulfil_v mat._n 26.54_o 56._o so_o it_o may_v be_v say_v to_o be_v that_o this_o prediction_n of_o christ_n himself_o may_v be_v fulfil_v not_o that_o scripture_n prophecy_n do_v cause_v the_o sin_n by_o which_o they_o be_v fulfil_v nor_o that_o god_n cause_v the_o sin_n to_o fulfil_v his_o own_o prediction_n but_o that_o god_n can_v be_v deceive_v who_o foretell_v in_o scripture_n long_o before_o that_o thus_o it_o will_v come_v to_o pass_v when_o it_o be_v say_v that_o thus_o it_o must_v be_v that_o the_o scripture_n may_v be_v fulfil_v the_o meaning_n be_v not_o that_o thus_o god_n 〈…〉_z but_o only_o necessâ—â—â—_n 〈…〉_z a_o logical_a necessity_n in_o 〈…〉_z noscendi_fw-la &_o dicendi_fw-la nor_o a_o 〈…〉_z in_o ordine_fw-la essendi_fw-la 〈…〉_z of_o the_o thing_n itself_o as_o cause_v by_o 〈◊〉_d prediction_n or_o decree_n but_o a_o 〈◊〉_d of_o the_o truth_n of_o this_o 〈…〉_z such_o a_o thing_n will_v bâ—_n 〈…〉_z have_v decree_v foreknow_a or_o foretell_v 〈◊〉_d or_o whatever_o god_n foretell_v must_v nescessary_o come_v to_o pass_v that_o be_v will_v certain_o come_v to_o pass_v but_o this_o god_n have_v foretell_v therefore_o this_o will_v come_v to_o pass_v here_o be_v three_o observable_a point_n in_o the_o text_n that_o be_v worthy_a our_o distinct_a consideration_n though_o for_o brevity_n sake_n i_o shall_v handle_v they_o together_o 1._o that_o christ_n be_v forsake_v by_o his_o own_o disciple_n and_o leave_v alone_o 2._o when_o the_o disciple_n leave_v christ_n they_o be_v scatter_v every_o one_o to_o his_o own_o they_o return_v to_o their_o old_a habitation_n and_o old_a acquaintance_n and_o old_a employment_n as_o if_o their_o hope_n and_o heart_n have_v be_v almost_o break_v and_o they_o have_v lose_v all_o their_o labour_n in_o follow_v christ_n so_o long_o yet_o the_o root_n of_o faith_n and_o love_n that_o still_o remain_v cause_v they_o to_o inquire_v further_o of_o the_o end_n and_o to_o come_v together_o in_o secret_a to_o confer_v about_o these_o matter_n 3._o when_o christ_n be_v forsake_v of_o his_o disciple_n and_o leave_v alone_o yet_o be_v he_o not_o forsake_v of_o his_o father_n nor_o leave_v so_o alone_o as_o to_o be_v separate_v from_o he_o or_o his_o love_n we_o 〈◊〉_d â—ow_o â—o_o consider_v of_o this_o 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d as_o a_o part_n of_o christ_n humiliation_n 〈…〉_z as_o a_o point_n in_o which_o we_o must_v 〈◊〉_d to_o be_v conform_v to_o he_o it_o may_v possible_o seem_v strange_a to_o we_o that_o christ_n will_v suffer_v all_o his_o disciple_n to_o forsake_v he_o in_o his_o extremity_n and_o i_o doubt_v it_o will_v seem_v strange_a to_o we_o when_o in_o our_o extremity_n and_o our_o suffering_n for_o christ_n and_o perhaps_o for_o they_o we_o shall_v find_v ourselves_o forsake_v by_o those_o that_o we_o most_o high_o value_v and_o have_v the_o great_a familiarity_n with_o but_o there_o be_v many_o reason_n of_o this_o permissive_a providence_n open_a to_o our_o observation_n 1._o no_o wonder_n if_o when_o christ_n be_v suffer_v for_o sin_n he_o will_v even_o then_o permit_v the_o power_n and_o odiousness_n of_o sin_n to_o break_v forth_o that_o it_o may_v be_v know_v he_o suffer_v not_o in_o vain_a no_o wonder_n if_o he_o permit_v his_o follower_n to_o 〈◊〉_d he_o and_o to_o show_v the_o latent_fw-la 〈◊〉_d and_o selfishness_n and_o unthankfulness_n thaâ—_n remain_v in_o they_o that_o so_o they_o may_v know_v that_o the_o death_n of_o christ_n be_v as_o necessary_a for_o they_o as_o for_o other_o and_o the_o universality_n of_o the_o disease_n may_v show_v the_o need_n that_o the_o remedy_n shall_v be_v universal_a and_o it_o be_v none_o of_o christ_n intent_n to_o make_v his_o servant_n to_o seem_v better_a than_o they_o be_v to_o themselves_o or_o other_o or_o to_o honour_v himself_o by_o the_o hide_v of_o their_o fault_n but_o to_o magnify_v his_o pardon_v and_o heal_a grace_n by_o the_o mean_n or_o occasion_n of_o the_o sin_n which_o he_o pardon_v and_o heal_v 2._o hâ—reby_o
your_o rock_n he_o have_v no_o stability_n but_o what_o be_v derive_v dependent_a and_o uncertain_a and_o defectible_a learn_v therefore_o to_o rest_n on_o god_n alone_o and_o lean_v not_o too_o hard_a or_o confident_o upon_o any_o mortal_a might_n 2._o and_o god_n will_v have_v the_o common_a infirmity_n of_o man_n to_o be_v know_v that_o so_o the_o weak_a may_v not_o be_v utter_o discourage_v nor_o take_v their_o weakness_n to_o be_v gracelesness_n whilst_o they_o see_v that_o the_o strong_a also_o have_v their_o infirmity_n though_o not_o so_o great_a as_o they_o if_o any_o of_o god_n servant_n live_v in_o constant_a holiness_n and_o fidelity_n without_o any_o shake_n or_o stumble_v in_o their_o way_n it_o will_v tempt_v some_o self-accusing_a trouble_a soul_n to_o think_v that_o they_o be_v altogether_o graceless_a because_o they_o be_v so_o far_o short_a of_o other_o but_o when_o we_o read_v of_o a_o peter_n deny_v his_o master_n in_o so_o horrid_a a_o manner_n with_o swear_v and_o curse_v that_o he_o know_v not_o the_o man_n mat._n 26.74_o and_o of_o his_o dissimulation_n and_o not_o walk_v upright_o gal._n 2._o and_o of_o a_o david_n unfriendly_a and_o unrighteous_a deal_n with_o mephibosheth_n the_o seed_n of_o jonathan_n and_o of_o his_o most_o vile_a and_o treacherous_a deal_n with_o vriah_n a_o faithful_a and_o deserve_a subject_n it_o may_v both_o abate_v our_o wonder_n and_o offence_n at_o the_o unfaithfulness_n of_o our_o friend_n and_o teach_v we_o to_o compassionate_v their_o frailty_n when_o they_o desert_n we_o and_o also_o somewhat_o abate_v our_o immoderate_a dejectedness_n and_o trouble_n when_o we_o have_v fail_v god_n or_o man_n ourselves_o 3._o moreover_o consider_v how_o the_o odiousness_n of_o that_o sin_n which_o be_v the_o root_n and_o cause_n of_o such_o unfaithfulness_n be_v great_o manifest_v by_o the_o fail_n of_o our_o friend_n god_n will_v have_v the_o odiousness_n of_o the_o remnant_n of_o our_o self-love_n and_o carnal_a mindedness_n and_o cowardice_n appear_v we_o shall_v not_o discern_v it_o in_o the_o seed_n and_o root_n if_o we_o do_v not_o see_v and_o taste_v it_o in_o the_o fruit_n see_v without_o taste_v will_v not_o sufficient_o convince_v we_o a_o crab_n look_v as_o beautiful_a as_o a_o apple_n but_o when_o you_o taste_v it_o you_o better_o know_v the_o difference_n when_o you_o must_v yourselves_o be_v unkind_o use_v by_o your_o friend_n and_o forsake_v by_o they_o in_o your_o distress_n and_o you_o have_v taste_v the_o fruit_n of_o the_o remnant_n of_o their_o worldliness_n selfishness_n and_o carnal_a fear_n you_o will_v better_o know_v the_o odiousness_n of_o these_o vice_n which_o thus_o break_v forth_o against_o all_o obligation_n to_o god_n and_o you_o and_o notwithstanding_o the_o light_n the_o conscience_n and_o perhaps_o the_o grace_n that_o do_v resist_v they_o 4._o be_v you_o not_o prone_a to_o overvalue_v and_o overlove_v your_o friend_n if_o so_o be_v not_o this_o the_o mere_a remedy_n for_o your_o disease_n in_o the_o love_a of_o god_n we_o be_v in_o no_o danger_n of_o excess_n and_o therefore_o have_v no_o need_n of_o any_o thing_n to_o quench_v it_o and_o in_o the_o love_a of_o the_o godly_a pure_o upon_o the_o account_n of_o christ_n and_o in_o love_a saint_n as_o saint_n we_o be_v not_o apt_a to_o go_v too_o far_o but_o yet_o our_o understanding_n may_v mistake_v and_o we_o may_v think_v that_o saint_n have_v more_o of_o sanctity_n than_o indeed_o they_o have_v and_o we_o be_v exceed_o apt_a to_o mix_v a_o selfish_a common_a love_n with_o that_o which_o be_v spiritual_a and_o holy_a and_o at_o the_o same_o time_n when_o we_o love_v a_o christian_a as_o a_o christian_a we_o be_v apt_a not_o only_o to_o love_v he_o as_o we_o ought_v but_o to_o overlove_v he_o because_o he_o be_v our_o friend_n and_o love_v we_o those_o christian_n that_o have_v no_o special_a love_n to_o we_o we_o be_v apt_a to_o undervalue_v and_o neglect_v and_o love_v they_o below_o their_o holiness_n and_o worth_n but_o those_o that_o we_o think_v entire_o love_v we_o we_o love_v above_o their_o proper_a worth_n as_o they_o stand_v in_o the_o esteem_n of_o god_n not_o but_o that_o we_o may_v love_v those_o that_o love_v we_o and_o add_v this_o love_n to_o that_o which_o be_v pure_o for_o the_o sake_n of_o christ_n but_o we_o shall_v not_o let_v our_o own_o interest_n prevail_v and_o overtop_v the_o interest_n of_o christ_n nor_o love_v any_o so_o much_o for_o love_v we_o as_o for_o love_a christ_n and_o if_o we_o do_v so_o no_o wonder_n if_o god_n shall_v use_v such_o remedy_n as_o he_o see_v meet_v to_o abate_v our_o excuse_n of_o selfish_n love_n o_o how_o high_o be_v we_o apt_a to_o think_v of_o all_o that_o good_a which_o be_v find_v in_o those_o who_o be_v the_o high_a esteemer_n of_o we_o and_o most_o dear_o love_v we_o when_o perhaps_o in_o itself_o it_o be_v but_o some_o ordinary_a good_a or_o ordinary_a degree_n of_o goodness_n which_o be_v in_o they_o their_o love_n to_o we_o unresistible_o procure_v our_o love_n to_o they_o and_o when_o we_o love_v they_o it_o be_v wonderful_a to_o observe_v how_o easy_o we_o be_v bring_v to_o think_v well_o of_o almost_o all_o they_o do_v and_o high_o to_o value_v their_o judgement_n grace_n part_n and_o work_n when_o great_a excellency_n in_o another_o perhaps_o be_v scarce_o observe_v or_o regard_v but_o as_o a_o common_a thing_n and_o therefore_o the_o destruction_n or_o want_n of_o love_n be_v apparent_a in_o the_o vilify_a thought_n and_o speech_n that_o most_o man_n have_v one_o of_o another_o and_o in_o the_o low_a esteem_n of_o the_o judgement_n and_o performance_n and_o live_v of_o other_o man_n much_o more_o in_o their_o contempt_n reproach_n and_o cruel_a persecution_n now_o though_o god_n will_v have_v we_o increase_v in_o our_o love_n of_o christ_n in_o his_o member_n and_o in_o our_o pure_a love_n of_o christian_n as_o such_o and_o in_o our_o common_a charity_n to_o all_o yea_o and_o in_o our_o just_a fidelity_n to_o our_o friend_n yet_o will_v he_o have_v we_o suspect_v and_o moderate_a one_o selfish_n and_o excessive_a love_n and_o inordinate_a partial_a esteem_n of_o one_o above_o another_o when_o it_o be_v but_o for_o ourselves_o and_o on_o our_o own_o account_n and_o therefore_o as_o he_o will_v make_v we_o know_v that_o we_o ourselves_o be_v no_o such_o excellent_a person_n as_o that_o it_o shall_v make_v another_o so_o laudable_a or_o advance_v his_o worth_n because_o he_o love_v we_o so_o he_o will_v make_v we_o know_v that_o our_o friend_n who_o we_o overvalue_n be_v but_o like_o other_o man_n if_o we_o exalt_v they_o too_o high_o in_o our_o esteem_n it_o be_v a_o sign_n that_o god_n must_v cast_v they_o down_o and_o as_o their_o love_n to_o we_o be_v it_o that_o make_v we_o so_o exalt_v they_o so_o their_o unkindness_n or_o unfaithfulness_n to_o we_o be_v the_o fit_a mean_n to_o bring_v they_o low_o in_o our_o estimation_n and_o affection_n god_n be_v very_o jealous_a of_o our_o heart_n as_o to_o our_o over-value_a and_o overlove_v any_o of_o his_o creature_n what_o we_o give_v inordinate_o and_o excessive_o to_o they_o be_v some_o way_n or_o other_o take_v from_o he_o and_o give_v they_o to_o his_o injury_n and_o therefore_o to_o his_o offence_n though_o i_o know_v that_o to_o be_v void_a of_o natural_a friendly_a or_o social_a affection_n be_v a_o odious_a extreme_a on_o the_o other_o side_n yet_o god_n will_v rebuke_v we_o if_o we_o be_v guilty_a of_o excess_n and_o it_o be_v the_o great_a and_o more_o inexcusable_a fault_n to_o overlove_v the_o creature_n because_o our_o love_n to_o god_n be_v so_o cold_a and_o hardly_o kindle_v and_o keep_v alive_a he_o can_v take_v it_o well_o to_o see_v we_o dote_v upon_o dust_n and_o frailty_n like_o ourselves_o at_o the_o same_o time_n when_o all_o his_o wondrous_a kindness_n and_o attractive_a goodness_n do_v cause_n but_o such_o a_o faint_a and_o languid_a love_n to_o he_o which_o we_o ourselves_o can_v scarce_o feel_v if_o therefore_o he_o cure_v we_o by_o permit_v our_o friend_n to_o show_v we_o what_o they_o be_v and_o how_o little_a they_o deserve_v such_o excessive_a love_n when_o god_n have_v so_o little_a it_o be_v no_o more_o wonder_n than_o it_o be_v that_o he_o be_v tender_a of_o his_o glory_n and_o merciful_a to_o his_o servant_n soul_n 5_o by_o the_o fail_n and_o unfaithfulness_n of_o our_o friend_n the_o wonderful_a patience_n of_o god_n will_v be_v observe_v and_o honour_v as_o it_o be_v show_v both_o to_o they_o and_o we_o when_o they_o forsake_v we_o in_o our_o distress_n especial_o when_o we_o suffer_v for_o the_o cause_n of_o christ_n it_o be_v god_n that_o they_o injure_v more_o than_o we_o and_o therefore_o if_o he_o bear_v with_o
they_o and_o forgive_v their_o weakness_n upon_o repentance_n why_o shall_v not_o we_o do_v so_o that_o be_v much_o less_o injure_v the_o world_n perfideousness_n shall_v make_v we_o think_v how_o great_a and_o wonderful_a be_v the_o patience_n of_o god_n that_o bear_v with_o and_o bear_v up_o so_o vile_a ungrateful_a treacherous_a man_n that_o abuse_v he_o to_o who_o they_o be_v infinite_o oblige_v and_o it_o shall_v make_v we_o consider_v when_o man_n deal_v treacherous_o with_o we_o how_o great_a be_v that_o mercy_n that_o have_v bear_v with_o and_o pardon_v great_a wrong_n which_o i_o myself_o have_v do_v to_o god_n than_o these_o can_v be_v which_o man_n have_v do_v to_o i_o it_o be_v the_o remembrance_n of_o david_n sin_n that_o have_v provoke_v god_n to_o raise_v up_o his_o own_o son_n against_o he_o of_o who_o he_o have_v be_v too_o fond_a which_o make_v he_o so_o easy_o bear_v the_o curse_n and_o reproach_n of_o shimei_n it_o will_v make_v we_o bear_v abuse_n from_o other_o to_o remember_v how_o ill_o we_o have_v deal_v with_o god_n and_o how_o ill_o we_o have_v deserve_v at_o his_o hand_n ourselves_o 6._o and_o i_o have_v observe_v another_o of_o the_o reason_n of_o god_n permit_v the_o fail_n of_o our_o friend_n in_o the_o season_n and_o success_n it_o be_v that_o the_o love_n of_o our_o friend_n may_v not_o hinder_v we_o when_o we_o be_v call_v to_o suffer_v or_o die_v when_o we_o overlove_v they_o it_o tear_v our_o very_a heart_n to_o leave_v they_o and_o therefore_o it_o be_v a_o strong_a temptation_n to_o draw_v we_o from_o our_o duty_n and_o to_o be_v unfaithful_a to_o the_o cause_n of_o christ_n lest_o we_o shall_v be_v take_v from_o our_o too-dear_a friend_n or_o lest_o our_o suffer_a cause_n their_o too-much_o grief_n it_o be_v so_o hard_a a_o thing_n to_o die_v with_o willingness_n and_o peace_n that_o it_o must_v needs_o be_v a_o mercy_n to_o be_v save_v from_o the_o impediment_n which_o make_v we_o backward_o and_o the_o excessive_a love_n of_o friend_n and_o relation_n be_v not_o the_o least_o of_o these_o impediment_n o_o how_o loath_a be_v many_o a_o one_o to_o die_v when_o they_o think_v of_o part_v with_o wife_n or_o husband_n or_o child_n or_o dear_a and_o faithful_a friend_n now_o i_o have_v often_o observe_v that_o a_o little_a before_o their_o death_n or_o sickness_n it_o be_v ordinary_a with_o god_n to_o permit_v some_o unkindness_n between_o such_o too_o dear_a friend_n to_o arise_v by_o which_o he_o moderate_v and_o abate_v their_o affection_n and_o make_v they_o a_o great_a deal_n the_o willing_a to_o die_v then_o we_o be_v ready_a to_o say_v it_o be_v time_n for_o i_o to_o leave_v the_o world_n when_o not_o only_o the_o rest_n of_o the_o world_n but_o my_o dear_a friend_n have_v first_o forsake_v i_o this_o help_v we_o to_o remember_v our_o dear_a everlasting_a friend_n and_o to_o be_v grieve_v at_o the_o heart_n that_o we_o have_v be_v no_o true_a ourselves_o to_o he_o who_o will_v not_o have_v forsake_v we_o in_o our_o extremity_n and_o sometime_o it_o make_v we_o even_o weary_a of_o the_o world_n and_o to_o say_v as_o elias_n lord_n take_v away_o my_o life_n etc._n etc._n 1_o king_n 19.4.10_o 14._o when_o we_o must_v say_v i_o think_v i_o have_v one_o friend_n leave_v and_o behold_v even_o he_o forsake_v i_o in_o my_o distress_n as_o the_o love_n of_o friend_n entangle_v our_o affection_n to_o this_o world_n so_o to_o be_v wean_v by_o their_o unkindness_n from_o our_o friend_n be_v a_o great_a help_n to_o loosen_v we_o from_o the_o world_n and_o prove_v oft_o a_o very_a great_a mercy_n to_o a_o soul_n that_o be_v ready_a to_o depart_v and_o as_o the_o friend_n that_o love_v we_o most_o and_o have_v most_o interest_n in_o your_o esteem_n and_o love_n may_v do_v more_o than_o other_o in_o tempt_v we_o to_o be_v unfaithful_a to_o our_o lord_n to_o to_o entertain_v any_o error_n to_o commit_v any_o sin_n or_o to_o flinch_v in_o suffer_v so_o when_o god_n have_v permit_v they_o to_o forsake_v we_o and_o to_o lose_v their_o too_o great_a interest_n in_o we_o we_o be_v fortify_v against_o all_o temptation_n from_o they_o i_o have_v know_v where_o a_o former_a intimate_a friend_n have_v grow_v strange_a and_o break_v former_a friendship_n and_o quick_o after_o turn_v to_o such_o dangerous_a way_n and_o error_n as_o convince_v the_o other_o of_o the_o mercifulness_n of_o god_n in_o weaken_v his_o temptation_n by_o his_o friend_n desertion_n who_o may_v else_o have_v draw_v he_o along_o with_o he_o into_o sin_n and_o i_o have_v often_o observe_v that_o when_o the_o husband_n have_v turn_v from_o religion_n to_o infidelity_n familism_n or_o some_o dangerous_a heresy_n that_o god_n have_v permit_v they_o to_o hate_v and_o abuse_v their_o wife_n so_o inhuman_o as_o that_o it_o preserve_v the_o poor_a woman_n from_o the_o temptation_n of_o follow_v they_o in_o their_o apostasy_n or_o sin_n when_o as_o some_o other_o woman_n with_o who_o their_o husband_n have_v deal_v more_o kind_o have_v be_v draw_v away_o with_o they_o into_o pernicious_a path_n therefore_o still_o i_o must_v say_v we_o be_v undo_v if_o we_o have_v the_o dispose_n of_o our_o own_o condition_n it_o will_v belong_v before_o we_o shall_v have_v be_v willing_a ourselves_o to_o be_v thus_o unkind_o deal_v with_o by_o our_o friend_n and_o yet_o god_n have_v make_v it_o to_o many_o a_o soul_n a_o notable_a meâ—â—s_n of_o preserve_v they_o from_o be_v undo_v for_o ever_o yea_o the_o unfaithfulness_n of_o all_o our_o friend_n and_o the_o malice_n and_o cruelty_n of_o all_o our_o enemy_n do_v we_o not_o usual_o so_o much_o harm_n as_o the_o love_n and_o temptation_n of_o some_o one_o delude_v â—â—ring_v friend_n who_o we_o be_v ready_a to_o follow_v into_o the_o gulf_n 7._o last_o consider_v that_o it_o be_v not_o desirable_a or_o suitable_a to_o our_o state_n to_o have_v too_o much_o of_o our_o comfort_n by_o any_o creature_n not_o only_o because_o it_o be_v most_o pure_a and_o sweet_a which_o be_v most_o immediate_o from_o god_n but_o also_o because_o we_o be_v very_o prone_a to_o overlove_v the_o creature_n and_o if_o it_o shall_v but_o seem_v to_o be_v very_o commodious_a to_o we_o by_o serve_v our_o necessity_n or_o desire_n it_o will_v seem_v the_o more_o amiable_a and_o therefore_o be_v the_o strong_a snare_n the_o work_n of_o mortification_n do_v much_o consist_v in_o the_o annihilation_n or_o deadness_n of_o all_o the_o creature_n as_o to_o any_o power_n to_o draw_v away_o our_o heart_n from_o god_n or_o to_o entangle_v we_o and_o detain_v we_o from_o our_o duty_n and_o the_o more_o excellent_a and_o lovely_a the_o creature_n appear_v â—o_o we_o the_o less_o it_o be_v dead_a to_o we_o or_o we_o to_o it_o and_o the_o more_o will_v it_o be_v able_a to_o hinder_v or_o ensnare_v we_o when_o you_o have_v well_o consider_v all_o these_o thing_n i_o suppose_v you_o will_v admire_v the_o wisdom_n of_o god_n in_o leave_v you_o under_o this_o kind_n of_o trial_n and_o wean_a you_o from_o every_o creature_n and_o teach_v you_o by_o his_o providence_n as_o well_o as_o by_o his_o word_n to_o cease_v from_o man_n who_o breath_n be_v in_o his_o nostril_n for_o wherein_o be_v he_o to_o be_v account_v of_o and_o you_o will_v see_v that_o it_o be_v no_o great_a wonder_n that_o corrupt_a soul_n that_o live_v in_o other_o sin_n shall_v be_v guilty_a of_o this_o unfaithfulness_n to_o their_o friend_n and_o that_o he_o that_o dare_v unthankful_o trample_v upon_o the_o unspeakable_a kindness_n of_o the_o lord_n shall_v deal_v unkind_o with_o the_o best_a of_o man_n you_o make_v no_o great_a wonder_n at_o other_o kind_n of_o sin_n when_o you_o see_v the_o world_n continual_o commit_v they_o why_o then_o shall_v you_o make_v a_o great_a or_o a_o strange_a matter_n of_o this_o than_o of_o the_o rest_n be_v you_o better_o than_o god_n must_v unfaithfulness_n to_o you_o be_v make_v more_o heinous_a than_o that_o unfaithfulness_n to_o he_o which_o yet_o you_o daily_o see_v and_o slight_v the_o least_o wrong_n to_o god_n be_v a_o thousand_o fold_n more_o than_o the_o great_a that_o can_v be_v do_v to_o you_o as_o such_o have_v you_o do_v that_o for_o your_o near_a friend_n which_o god_n have_v do_v for_o he_o and_o you_o and_o all_o man_n their_o obligation_n to_o you_o be_v nothing_o in_o comparison_n of_o their_o great_a and_o manifold_a obligation_n to_o god_n and_o you_o know_v that_o you_o have_v more_o wrong_v god_n yourselves_o than_o any_o man_n ever_o wrong_v you_o and_o if_o yet_o for_o all_o that_o he_o bear_v with_o you_o have_v you_o not_o great_a reason_n to_o bear_v with_o other_o yea_o you_o have_v not_o be_v innocent_a towards_o man_n yourselves_o
do_v you_o never_o wrong_v or_o fail_v another_o or_o rather_o be_v you_o not_o apt_a to_o see_v and_o aggravate_v the_o wrong_n that_o other_o do_v to_o you_o than_o that_o which_o you_o have_v do_v to_o other_o may_v you_o not_o call_v to_o mind_v your_o own_o neglect_n and_o say_v as_o adonizebeck_n judg._n 1.7_o threescore_o and_o ten_o king_n have_v their_o thumb_n and_o their_o great_a toe_n cut_v off_o gather_v their_o meat_n under_o my_o table_n as_o i_o have_v do_v so_o god_n have_v requite_v i_o many_o a_o one_o have_v i_o fail_v or_o wrong_v and_o no_o wonder_n if_o other_o fail_v and_o wrong_v i_o nay_o you_o have_v be_v much_o more_o unfaithful_a and_o injurious_a to_o yourselves_o than_o ever_o any_o other_o have_v be_v to_o you_o no_o friend_n be_v so_o near_o you_o as_o yourselves_o none_o have_v such_o a_o charge_n of_o you_o none_o have_v such_o help_n and_o advantage_n to_o do_v you_o good_a or_o hurt_n and_o yet_o all_o the_o enemy_n you_o have_v in_o the_o world_n even_o in_o earth_n or_o hell_n have_v not_o wrong_v and_o hurt_v you_o half_o so_o much_o as_o you_o have_v do_v yourselves_o o_o methinks_v the_o man_n or_o woman_n that_o know_v themselves_o and_o know_v what_o it_o be_v to_o repent_v that_o ever_o see_v the_o greatness_n of_o their_o sin_n and_o folly_n shall_v have_v no_o great_a mind_n or_o leisure_n or_o aggravate_v the_o fail_n of_o their_o friend_n to_o the_o injury_n of_o their_o enemy_n consider_v what_o they_o have_v prove_v to_o themselves_o have_v i_o forfeit_v my_o own_o salvation_n and_o deserve_v everlasting_a wrath_n and_o sell_v my_o saviour_n and_o my_o soul_n for_o so_o base_a a_o thing_n as_o sinful_a pleasure_n and_o shall_v i_o ever_o make_v a_o wonder_n of_o it_o that_o another_o man_n do_v i_o some_o temporal_a hurt_n be_v any_o friend_n so_o near_o to_o i_o as_o myself_o or_o more_o oblige_v to_o i_o o_o sinful_a soul_n let_v thy_o own_o rather_o than_o thy_o friend_n deceit_n and_o treachery_n and_o neglect_v be_v the_o matter_n of_o thy_o displeasure_n wonder_n and_o complaint_n and_o let_v thy_o confirmity_n herein_o to_o jesus_n christ_n be_v thy_o holy_a ambition_n and_o delight_n not_o as_o it_o be_v thy_o suffering_n nor_o as_o it_o be_v cause_v by_o man_n sin_n but_o as_o it_o be_v thy_o confirmity_n and_o fellowship_n in_o the_o suffering_n of_o thy_o lord_n and_o cause_v by_o his_o love_n i_o have_v already_o show_v you_o that_o sufferer_n for_o christ_n be_v in_o the_o high_a form_n among_o his_o disciple_n the_o order_n of_o his_o follower_n usual_o be_v this_o 1._o at_o our_o entrance_n and_o in_o the_o low_a form_n we_o be_v exercise_v with_o the_o fear_n of_o hell_n and_o god_n displeasure_n and_o in_o the_o work_v of_o repentance_n for_o the_o sin_n that_o we_o have_v do_v 2._o in_o the_o second_o form_n we_o come_v to_o think_v more_o serious_o of_o the_o remedy_n and_o to_o inquire_v what_o we_o shall_v do_v to_o be_v save_v and_o to_o understand_v better_a what_o christ_n have_v do_v and_o suffer_v and_o what_o he_o be_v and_o will_v be_v to_o we_o and_o to_o value_v he_o and_o his_o love_n and_o grace_n and_o here_o we_o be_v much_o inquire_v how_o we_o may_v know_v our_o own_o sincerity_n and_o our_o interest_n in_o christ_n and_o be_v labour_v for_o some_o assurance_n and_o look_v after_o sign_n of_o grace_n 3._o in_o the_o next_o form_n or_o order_n we_o be_v search_v after_o further_a knowledge_n and_o labour_v better_o to_o understand_v the_o mystery_n of_o religion_n and_o to_o get_v above_o the_o rudiment_n and_o first_o principle_n and_o here_o if_o we_o escape_v turn_v bare_a opinionist_n or_o heretic_n by_o the_o snare_n of_o controversy_n or_o curiosity_n it_o be_v well_o 4._o in_o the_o next_o form_n we_o set_v ourselves_o to_o the_o full_a improvement_n of_o all_o our_o further_a degree_n of_o knowledge_n and_o to_o digest_v it_o all_o and_o turn_v it_o into_o strong_a faith_n and_o love_n and_o hope_v and_o great_a humility_n patience_n self-denial_n mortification_n and_o contempt_n of_o earthly_a vanity_n and_o hatred_n of_o sin_n and_o to_o walk_v more_o watchful_o and_o holy_o and_o to_o be_v more_o in_o holy_a duty_n 5._o in_o the_o next_o form_n we_o grow_v to_o be_v more_o public-spirited_a to_o set_v our_o heart_n on_o the_o church_n welfare_n and_o long_o more_o for_o the_o progress_n of_o the_o gospel_n and_o for_o the_o good_a of_o other_o and_o to_o do_v all_o the_o good_a 〈◊〉_d the_o world_n that_o we_o be_v able_a for_o man_n soul_n or_o body_n but_o especial_o to_o long_a and_o lay_v out_o ourselves_o for_o the_o conversion_n and_o salvation_n of_o ignorant_a secure_a unconvert_v soul_n the_o counterfeit_n of_o this_o be_v a_o eager_a desire_n to_o proselyte_n other_o to_o our_o opinion_n or_o that_o religion_n which_o we_o have_v choose_v by_o the_o direction_n of_o flesh_n and_o blood_n or_o which_o be_v not_o of_o god_n nor_o according_a unto_o godliness_n but_o do_v subserve_v our_o carnal_a ends._n 6._o in_o the_o next_o form_n we_o grow_v to_o study_v more_o the_o pure_a and_o wonderful_a love_n of_o god_n in_o christ_n and_o to_o relish_v and_o admire_v that_o love_n and_o to_o be_v take_v up_o with_o the_o goodness_n and_o tender_a mercy_n of_o the_o lord_n and_o to_o be_v kindle_v the_o flame_n of_o holy_a love_n to_o he_o that_o have_v thus_o love_v we_o and_o to_o keep_v our_o soul_n in_o the_o exercise_n of_o that_o love_n and_o withal_o to_o live_v in_o joy_n and_o thanks_o and_o praise_v to_o he_o that_o have_v redeem_v we_o and_o love_v we_o and_o also_o by_o faith_n to_o converse_v in_o heaven_n and_o to_o live_v in_o holy_a contemplation_n behold_v the_o glory_n of_o the_o father_n and_o the_o redeemer_n in_o the_o glass_n which_o be_v fit_v to_o our_o present_a use_n till_o we_o come_v to_o see_v he_o face_n to_o face_n those_o that_o be_v the_o high_a in_o this_o form_n do_v so_o walk_v with_o god_n and_o burn_v in_o love_n and_o 〈◊〉_d so_o much_o above_o inferior_a vanity_n and_o be_v so_o conversant_a by_o faith_n in_o heaven_n that_o their_o heart_n even_o dwell_v there_o and_o there_o they_o long_v to_o be_v forever_o 7._o and_o in_o the_o high_a form_n in_o the_o school_n of_o christ_n we_o be_v exercise_v this_o confirm_a faith_n and_o love_n in_o suffering_n especial_o for_o christ._n in_o follow_v he_o with_o our_o cross_n and_o be_v conform_v to_o he_o and_o glorify_v god_n in_o the_o full_a exercise_n and_o discovery_n of_o his_o grace_n in_o we_o and_o in_o a_o actual_a trample_n upon_o all_o that_o stand_v up_o against_o he_o for_o our_o heart_n and_o in_o bear_v the_o full_a witness_n to_o his_o truth_n and_o cause_n by_o constant_a endure_v though_o to_o the_o death_n not_o but_o that_o the_o weak_a that_o be_v sincere_a must_v suffer_v for_o christ_n if_o he_o call_v they_o to_o it_o martyrdom_n itself_o be_v not_o proper_a to_o the_o strong_a believer_n whoever_o forsake_v not_o all_o that_o he_o have_v for_o christ_n can_v be_v his_o disciple_n luke_n 14.33_o but_o to_o suffer_v with_o that_o faith_n and_o love_n foremention_v and_o in_o that_o manner_n be_v proper_a to_o the_o strong_a and_o usual_o god_n do_v not_o try_v and_o exercise_v his_o young_a and_o weak_a one_o with_o the_o trial_n of_o the_o strong_a nor_o set_v his_o infant_n on_o so_o hard_a a_o service_n nor_o put_v they_o in_o the_o front_n or_o hot_a of_o the_o battle_n as_o he_o do_v the_o ripe_a confirm_a christian_n the_o suffering_n of_o their_o inward_a doubt_n and_o fear_n do_v take_v up_o such_o it_o be_v the_o strong_a that_o ordinary_o be_v call_v to_o suffering_n for_o christ_n at_o least_o in_o any_o high_a degree_n i_o have_v digress_v thus_o far_o to_o make_v it_o plain_a to_o you_o that_o our_o conformity_n to_o christ_n and_o fellowship_n with_o he_o in_o his_o suffering_n in_o any_o notable_a degree_n be_v the_o lot_n of_o his_o best_a confirm_a servant_n and_o the_o high_a form_n in_o his_o school_n among_o his_o disciple_n and_o therefore_o not_o to_o be_v inordinate_o fear_v or_o abhor_v nor_o to_o be_v the_o matter_n of_o impatiency_n but_o of_o holy_a joy_n and_o in_o such_o infirmity_n we_o may_v glory_v and_o if_o it_o be_v so_o of_o suffering_n in_o the_o general_n for_o christ_n then_o be_v it_o so_o of_o this_o particular_a sort_n of_o suffer_v even_o to_o be_v forsake_v of_o all_o our_o best_a and_o near_a dear_a friend_n when_o we_o come_v to_o be_v most_o abuse_v by_o the_o enemy_n for_o my_o own_o part_n i_o must_v confess_v that_o as_o i_o be_o much_o want_v in_o other_o part_n of_o my_o conformity_n to_o christ_n so_o i_o take_v myself_o to_o be_v
god_n therefore_o they_o shall_v know_v they_o and_o take_v some_o comfort_n in_o their_o presence_n 6._o love_n even_o to_o the_o saint_n as_o well_o as_o unto_o god_n be_v one_o of_o the_o grace_n that_o shall_v endure_v for_o ever_o 1_o cor._n 13._o it_o be_v exercise_v upon_o a_o immortal_a object_n the_o image_n and_o child_n of_o the_o most_o high_a and_o therefore_o must_v be_v one_o of_o the_o immortal_a grace_n for_o grace_n in_o the_o nature_n of_o it_o die_v not_o and_o therefore_o if_o the_o object_n cease_v not_o how_o shall_v the_o grace_n cease_v unless_o you_o will_v call_v its_o perfect_a a_o cease_n it_o be_v a_o state_n too_o high_a for_o such_o as_o we_o and_o i_o think_v for_o any_o mere_a creature_n to_o live_v so_o immediate_o and_o only_o upon_o god_n as_o to_o have_v no_o use_n for_o any_o fellow_n creature_n nor_o no_o comfort_n in_o they_o god_n can_v make_v use_n of_o glorify_a creature_n in_o such_o subserviency_n and_o subordination_n to_o himself_o as_o shall_v be_v no_o diminution_n to_o his_o all-sufficiency_n or_o honour_n nor_o to_o our_o glory_n and_o felicity_n we_o must_v take_v heed_n of_o fancy_v even_o such_o a_o heaven_n itself_o as_o be_v above_o the_o capacity_n of_o a_o creature_n as_o some_o very_a wise_a divine_n think_v they_o have_v â—one_n that_o tell_v we_o we_o shall_v immediate_o see_v god_n essence_n his_o glory_n be_v that_o which_o be_v provide_v for_o our_o intuition_n and_o felicity_n and_o be_v distinct_a from_o his_o essence_n be_v not_o every_o where_o as_o his_o essence_n be_v and_o as_o those_o do_v that_o tell_v we_o because_o that_o god_n will_v be_v all_o in_o all_o therefore_o we_o shall_v there_o have_v none_o of_o our_o comfort_n by_o any_o creature_n though_o flesh_n and_o blood_n shall_v not_o enter_v into_o that_o kingdom_n but_o our_o body_n will_v then_o be_v spiritual_a body_n yet_o will_v they_o be_v real_o the_o same_o as_o now_o and_o distinct_a from_o our_o soul_n and_o therefore_o must_v have_v a_o felicity_n suitable_a to_o a_o body_n glorify_v and_o if_o the_o soul_n do_v immediate_o see_v god_n essence_n yet_o as_o no_o reason_n can_v conclude_v that_o it_o can_v see_v nothing_o else_o or_o that_o it_o can_v see_v even_o create_v good_a and_o not_o love_v it_o so_o the_o body_n however_o must_v have_v object_n and_o felicity_n fit_a for_o a_o body_n obj._n but_o it_o be_v say_v if_o we_o know_v christ_n after_o the_o flesh_n henceforth_o know_v we_o he_o no_o more_o answ._n no_o doubt_v but_o all_o the_o carnality_n in_o principle_n matter_n manner_n and_o end_n of_o our_o knowledge_n will_v then_o cease_v as_o its_o imperfection_n but_o that_o a_o carnal_a knowledge_n be_v turn_v into_o a_o spiritual_a be_v no_o more_o a_o diminution_n to_o it_o than_o it_o be_v to_o the_o glory_n of_o our_o body_n to_o be_v make_v like_o the_o star_n in_o the_o firmament_n of_o our_o father_n obj._n but_o then_o i_o shall_v have_v no_o more_o comfort_n in_o my_o present_a friend_n than_o in_o any_o other_o answ._n 1._o if_o you_o have_v none_o in_o they_o it_o be_v no_o diminution_n to_o our_o happiness_n if_o indeed_o we_o shall_v have_v all_o in_o god_n immediate_o and_o alone_o 2._o but_o if_o you_o have_v as_o much_o in_o other_o that_o you_o never_o know_v before_o that_o will_v not_o diminish_v any_o of_o your_o comfort_n in_o your_o ancient_a friend_n 3._o but_o it_o be_v most_o probable_a to_o we_o that_o as_o there_o be_v a_o twofold_a object_n for_o our_o love_n in_o the_o glorify_a saint_n one_o be_v their_o holiness_n and_o the_o other_o be_v the_o relation_n which_o they_o stand_v in_o between_o god_n and_o we_o be_v make_v his_o instrument_n for_o our_o conversion_n and_o salvation_n so_o that_o we_o shall_v love_v saint_n in_o heaven_n in_o both_o respect_n and_o in_o the_o first_o respect_n which_o be_v the_o chief_a we_o shall_v love_v those_o most_o that_o have_v most_o of_o god_n and_o the_o great_a glory_n though_o such_o as_o we_o never_o know_v on_o earth_n and_o in_o the_o second_o respect_n we_o shall_v love_v those_o most_o that_o be_v employ_v by_o god_n for_o our_o great_a good_a and_o that_o we_o shall_v not_o there_o lay_v by_o so_o much_o respect_n to_o ourselves_o as_o to_o forget_v or_o disregard_n our_o benefactor_n be_v manifest_a 1._o in_o that_o we_o shall_v forever_o remember_v christ_n and_o love_v he_o and_o praise_v he_o as_o one_o that_o former_o redeem_a we_o and_o wash_v we_o in_o his_o blood_n and_o have_v make_v we_o king_n and_o priest_n to_o god_n and_o therefore_o we_o may_v also_o in_o just_a subordination_n to_o christ_n remember_v they_o with_o love_n and_o thankfulness_n that_o be_v his_o instrument_n for_o the_o collation_n of_o these_o benefit_n 2._o and_o this_o kind_n of_o self-love_n to_o be_v sensible_a of_o good_a and_o evil_a to_o ourselves_o be_v none_o of_o the_o sinful_a or_o imperfect_a selfishness_n to_o be_v renounce_v or_o lay_v by_o but_o part_n of_o our_o very_a nature_n and_o as_o inseparable_a from_o we_o as_o we_o be_v from_o ourselves_o much_o more_o be_v it_o not_o digressive_v may_v be_v say_v on_o this_o subject_n but_o i_o shall_v only_o add_v that_o as_o god_n do_v draw_v we_o to_o every_o holy_a duty_n by_o show_v we_o the_o excellency_n of_o that_o duty_n and_o as_o perpetuity_n be_v not_o the_o small_a excellency_n so_o he_o have_v purposely_o mention_v that_o love_n endure_v for_o ever_o when_o he_o have_v describe_v the_o love_n of_o one_o another_o as_o a_o principle_n motive_n to_o kindle_v and_o increase_v this_o love_n and_o therefore_o those_o that_o think_v they_o shall_v have_v no_o personal_a knowledge_n of_o one_o another_o nor_o personal_a love_n to_o one_o another_o for_o we_o can_v love_v personal_o if_o we_o know_v not_o personal_o do_v take_v a_o most_o effectual_a course_n to_o destroy_v in_o their_o soul_n all_o holy_a special_a love_n to_o saint_n by_o cast_v away_o that_o principal_a or_o very_a great_a motive_n give_v they_o by_o the_o holy_a ghost_n i_o aâ—_n not_o â—ble_n to_o love_n muâ—h_v where_o i_o foreknow_v that_o i_o shall_v not_o love_v long_o i_o can_v love_v a_o comely_a inn_n so_o well_o as_o a_o near_a dwelling_n of_o my_o own_o because_o i_o must_v be_v go_v to_o morrow_n therefore_o must_v i_o love_v my_o bible_n better_o than_o my_o lawbook_n or_o physickbook_n etc._n etc._n because_o it_o lead_v to_o eternity_n and_o therefore_o i_o must_v love_v holiness_n in_o myself_o and_o other_o better_o than_o meat_n and_o drink_n and_o wealth_n and_o honour_n and_o beauty_n and_o pleasure_n because_o it_o must_v be_v love_v for_o ever_o when_o the_o love_n of_o these_o must_v needs_o be_v transitory_a as_o they_o be_v transitory_a i_o must_v profess_v from_o the_o very_a experience_n of_o my_o soul_n that_o it_o be_v the_o belief_n that_o i_o shall_v love_v my_o friend_n in_o heaven_n that_o principal_o kindle_v my_o love_n to_o they_o on_o earth_n and_o if_o i_o think_v i_o shall_v never_o know_v they_o after_o death_n and_o consequent_o never_o love_v they_o more_o when_o this_o life_n be_v end_v i_o shall_v in_o reason_n number_v they_o with_o temporal_a thing_n and_o love_v they_o comparative_o but_o a_o little_a even_o as_o i_o love_v other_o transitory_a thing_n allow_v for_o the_o excellency_n in_o the_o nature_n of_o grace_n but_o now_o i_o converse_v with_o some_o delight_n with_o my_o godly_a friend_n as_o believe_v i_o shall_v converse_v with_o they_o for_o ever_o and_o take_v comfort_n in_o the_o very_a dead_a and_o absent_a as_o believe_v we_o shall_v short_o meet_v in_o heaven_n and_o i_o love_v they_o i_o hope_v with_o a_o love_n that_o be_v of_o a_o heavenly_a nature_n while_o i_o love_v they_o as_o the_o heir_n of_o heaven_n with_o a_o love_n which_o i_o expect_v shall_v there_o be_v perfect_v and_o more_o full_o and_o for_o ever_o exercise_v 12._o the_o last_o reason_n that_o i_o give_v you_o to_o move_v you_o to_o bear_v the_o loss_n or_o absence_n of_o your_o friend_n be_v that_o it_o give_v you_o the_o loud_a call_n to_o retire_v from_o the_o world_n and_o to_o converse_v with_o god_n himself_o and_o to_o long_o for_o heaven_n where_o you_o shall_v be_v separate_v from_o your_o friend_n no_o more_o and_o your_o forsake_a state_n will_v somewhat_o assist_v you_o to_o that_o solitary_a converse_n with_o god_n which_o it_o call_v you_o to_o but_o this_o bring_v we_o up_o to_o the_o three_o part_n of_o the_o text._n and_o yet_o i_o be_o not_o alone_a because_o the_o father_n be_v with_o i_o doct._n when_o all_o forsake_v we_o and_o leave_v we_o as_o to_o they_o alone_a we_o be_v far_o from_o be_v simple_o alone_a because_o god_n be_v with_o we_o he_o be_v not_o
in_o the_o poor_a exercise_n of_o the_o grace_n of_o charity_n and_o therefore_o in_o a_o low_a undesirable_a condition_n 3._o you_o will_v want_v the_o communion_n of_o saint_n and_o benefit_n of_o public_a ordinance_n for_o i_o account_v not_o a_o college_n life_n a_o solitary_a life_n and_o you_o will_v want_v the_o help_n of_o the_o charity_n grace_n and_o gift_n of_o other_o by_o which_o you_o may_v be_v benefit_v 4._o it_o will_v be_v a_o life_n of_o small_a comfort_n as_o it_o be_v a_o life_n of_o small_a benefit_n to_o other_o they_o that_o do_v but_o little_a good_a according_a to_o their_o ability_n must_v expect_v but_o little_a comfort_n they_o have_v usual_o most_o peace_n and_o comfort_n to_o themselves_o that_o be_v the_o most_o profitable_a to_o other_o non_fw-la potest_fw-la quisquam_fw-la bene_fw-la degere_fw-la qui_fw-la se_fw-la tantum_fw-la intuetur_fw-la alteri_fw-la vivas_fw-la oportet_fw-la si_fw-la tibi_fw-la vis_fw-la vivere_fw-la sen._n no_o man_n can_v live_v well_o that_o look_v but_o to_o himself_o thou_o must_v live_v to_o another_o if_o thou_o will_v live_v to_o thyself_o o_o the_o delight_n that_o there_o be_v in_o do_v good_a to_o many_o none_o know_v it_o that_o have_v not_o try_v it_o not_o upon_o any_o account_n of_o merit_n but_o as_o it_o please_v god_n and_o as_o goodness_n itself_o be_v amiable_a and_o sweet_a and_o as_o we_o receive_v by_o communicate_v and_o as_o we_o be_v under_o promise_n and_o as_o charity_n make_v all_o the_o good_a that_o be_v do_v to_o another_o to_o be_v to_o we_o as_o our_o own_o 5._o we_o be_v dark_a and_o partial_a and_o heedless_a of_o ourselves_o and_o hardly_o bring_v or_o keep_v in_o acquaintance_n with_o our_o heart_n and_o therefore_o have_v the_o more_o need_n of_o the_o eye_n of_o other_o and_o even_o a_o enemy_n eye_n may_v be_v useful_a though_o malicious_a and_o may_v do_v we_o good_a while_o he_o intend_v we_o evil_a say_v bernard_n malum_fw-la quod_fw-la nemo_fw-la videt_fw-la nemo_fw-la arguit_fw-la vbi_fw-la autem_fw-la non_fw-la timetur_fw-la reprehensor_n securus_fw-la accedit_fw-la tenatâ—r_fw-la licentius_fw-la perpetratur_fw-la iniquitas_fw-la the_o evil_n that_o none_o see_v none_o reprove_v and_o where_o the_o reprover_n be_v not_o fear_v the_o temper_n come_v more_o bold_o and_o the_o sin_n be_v commit_v the_o more_o licentious_o it_o be_v hard_a to_o know_v the_o spot_n in_o our_o own_o face_n when_o we_o have_v no_o glass_n or_o beholder_n to_o acquaint_v we_o with_o they_o say_v chrysostom_n '_o solitude_n be_v velamen_fw-la omnium_fw-la vitiorum_fw-la the_o cover_n of_o all_o vice_n in_o company_n this_o cover_n be_v lay_v aside_o and_o vice_n be_v more_o naked_a be_v more_o ashamed_a it_o be_v beholder_n that_o cause_n shame_n which_o solitude_n be_v not_o acquaint_v with_o and_o it_o be_v a_o piece_n of_o impenitency_n not_o to_o be_v shame_v of_o sin_n 6._o and_o we_o be_v for_o the_o most_o part_n so_o weak_a and_o sickly_a that_o we_o be_v unable_a to_o subsist_v without_o the_o help_n of_o other_o sen._n nemo_fw-la est_fw-la ex_fw-la imprudentibus_fw-la qui_fw-la relinqui_fw-la sibi_fw-la debet_fw-la unwise_a man_n or_o infant_n or_o sick-like_a man_n must_v not_o be_v leave_v to_o themselves_o and_o god_n have_v let_v some_o impotency_n insufficiency_n and_o necessity_n upon_o all_o that_o shall_v keep_v man_n sociable_a &_o make_v they_o acknowledge_v their_o need_n of_o other_o and_o be_v thankful_a for_o assistance_n from_o they_o and_o be_v ready_a to_o do_v good_a to_o other_o as_o we_o will_v have_v other_o do_v to_o we_o he_o that_o feel_v not_o the_o need_n of_o other_o be_v so_o unhumble_v as_o to_o have_v the_o great_a need_n of_o they_o 7._o pride_n will_v have_v great_a advantage_n in_o private_a and_o repentance_n great_a disadvantage_n while_o our_o sin_n seem_v to_o be_v all_o dead_a because_o there_o be_v not_o a_o temptation_n to_o draw_v they_o out_o or_o a_o observer_n to_o reprove_v they_o tam_fw-la diu_fw-la patience_n cuique_fw-la sibi_fw-la videtur_fw-la &_o humiâ—is_fw-la donec_fw-la nullius_fw-la hominum_fw-la consortio_fw-la commiscetur_fw-la ad_fw-la naturam_fw-la pristinam_fw-la reversurus_fw-la quum_fw-la interpellaverit_fw-la cujuslibet_fw-la occasionis_fw-la commotio_fw-la inquit_fw-la cassianus_n many_o a_o man_n seem_v to_o himself_o patient_a and_o humble_a while_o he_o keep_v out_o of_o company_n who_o will_v return_v to_o his_o own_o nature_n if_o the_o commotion_n of_o any_o occasion_n do_v but_o provoke_v he_o it_o be_v hard_a to_o know_v what_o sin_n or_o grace_n be_v in_o we_o if_o we_o have_v not_o such_o trial_n as_o be_v not_o to_o be_v find_v in_o solitude_n 8._o fly_v from_o the_o observation_n and_o judgement_n of_o other_o be_v a_o kind_n of_o self-accusation_n as_o if_o we_o confess_v ourselves_o so_o bad_a as_o that_o we_o can_v stand_v the_o trial_n of_o the_o light_n bona_fw-la conscientia_fw-la turbam_fw-la advocate_n mala_n in_o solitudine_fw-la anxia_fw-la est_fw-la &_o sollicita_fw-la si_fw-la honesta_fw-la sunt_fw-la que_fw-la facis_fw-la omnes_fw-la sciant_fw-la siturpia_fw-la quid_fw-la refert_fw-la neminem_fw-la scire_fw-la cum_fw-la tu_fw-la scias_fw-la o_o te_fw-la miserum_fw-la si_fw-la contemnis_fw-la hunc_fw-la testem_fw-la inquit_fw-la seneca_n that_o be_v a_fw-la good_a conscience_n will_v call_v in_o the_o crowd_n or_o witness_n not_o care_v who_o see_v a_o bad_a conscience_n be_v anxious_a and_o solicitous_a even_o in_o solitude_n if_o they_o be_v thing_n honest_a which_o thou_o do_v let_v all_o man_n know_v if_o the_o be_v dishonest_a what_o good_a do_v it_o thou_o that_o no_o man_n else_o know_v it_o when_o thou_o know_v it_o thyself_o o_o miserable_a man_n if_o thou_o despise_v this_o witness_n something_o be_v suspect_v to_o be_v amiss_o with_o those_o that_o be_v always_o in_o their_o chamber_n and_o be_v never_o see_v tell_v not_o man_n that_o you_o can_v bear_v the_o light_n it_o be_v he_o that_o do_v evil_a that_o hate_v the_o light_n lest_o his_o deed_n shall_v be_v reprove_v 9_o solitude_n be_v too_o like_a to_o death_n to_o be_v desirable_a he_o live_v that_o do_v good_a and_o he_o be_v dead_a that_o be_v useless_a vivit_fw-la be_v qui_fw-la multis_fw-la usuâ—_n est_fw-la vivit_fw-la be_v qui_fw-la sentitur_fw-la qui_fw-la vero_fw-la latitant_fw-la &_o torpent_fw-la mortem_fw-la svam_fw-la antecesserint_fw-la inquit_fw-la sen._n he_o live_v that_o be_v profitable_a to_o many_o he_o live_v that_o be_v observe_v or_o perceive_v but_o they_o that_o lie_v hide_v and_o drowsy_a do_v anticipate_v their_o death_n and_o it_o be_v the_o most_o culpable_a death_n and_o therefore_o the_o worst_a to_o have_v life_n and_o not_o to_o use_v it_o 10._o a_o life_n of_o holy_a communion_n be_v like_a unto_o heaven_n where_o none_o shall_v be_v solitary_a but_o all_o as_o member_n of_o the_o heavenly_a jerusalem_n shall_v in_o harmony_n love_n and_o praise_v their_o maker_n these_o reason_n seem_v to_o i_o sufficient_a to_o satisfy_v you_o that_o no_o man_n shall_v choose_v a_o solitude_n without_o a_o special_a necessity_n or_o call_v nor_o yet_o shall_v it_o be_v take_v for_o a_o life_n of_o great_a perfection_n than_o a_o faithful_a serve_v of_o god_n â—n_o public_a and_o do_v good_a to_o more_o i_o shall_v now_o come_v to_o the_o affirmative_a and_o tell_v you_o for_o all_o this_o that_o if_o god_n call_v we_o into_o solitude_n or_o man_n forsake_v we_o we_o may_v rejoice_v in_o this_o that_o we_o be_v not_o alone_o but_o the_o father_n be_v with_o we_o fear_v not_o such_o solitude_n but_o be_v ready_a to_o improve_v it_o if_o you_o be_v cast_v upon_o it_o if_o god_n be_v your_o god_n reconcile_v to_o you_o in_o christ_n and_o his_o spirit_n be_v in_o you_o you_o be_v provide_v for_o solitude_n and_o need_v not_o fear_v if_o all_o the_o world_n shall_v cast_v you_o off_o if_o you_o be_v banish_v imprison_a or_o leave_v alone_o it_o be_v but_o a_o relaxation_n from_o your_o great_a labour_n which_o though_o you_o may_v not_o cast_v off_o yourselves_o you_o may_v lawful_o be_v sensible_a of_o your_o ease_n if_o god_n take_v off_o your_o burden_n it_o be_v but_o a_o cessation_n from_o your_o sharp_a conflict_n and_o removal_n from_o a_o multitude_n of_o great_a temptation_n and_o though_o you_o may_v not_o cowardly_a retreat_n or_o shift_v yourselves_o from_o the_o fight_n and_o danger_n yet_o if_o god_n will_v dispense_v with_o you_o and_o let_v you_o live_v in_o great_a peace_n and_o safety_n you_o have_v no_o cause_n to_o murmur_v at_o his_o deal_n a_o fruit_n tree_n that_o grow_v by_o the_o highway_n side_n do_v seldom_o keep_v its_o fruit_n to_o ripeness_n while_o so_o many_o passenger_n have_v each_o his_o stone_n or_o cudgel_n to_o cast_v at_o it_o seneca_n can_v say_v nunquam_fw-la a_o turba_fw-la mores_fw-la quos_fw-la extuli_fw-la refero_fw-la aliquid_fw-la ex_fw-la eo_fw-la quod_fw-la composuâ—_n turbatur_fw-la aliquid_fw-la ex_fw-la his_fw-la quae_fw-la fugavi_fw-la redit_fw-la
friend_n on_o earth_n be_v nothing_o to_o his_o love_n o_o how_o plain_o have_v he_o declare_v that_o he_o love_v i_o in_o the_o strange_a condescension_n the_o suffering_n death_n and_o intercession_n of_o his_o son_n what_o love_n have_v he_o declare_v in_o the_o communication_n of_o his_o spirit_n and_o the_o operation_n of_o his_o grace_n and_o the_o near_a relation_n into_o which_o he_o bring_v i_o what_o love_n have_v he_o declare_v in_o the_o course_n of_o his_o providence_n in_o many_o and_o wonderful_a preservation_n and_o deliverance_n in_o the_o conduct_n of_o his_o wisdom_n and_o in_o a_o life_n of_o mercy_n what_o love_n appear_v in_o his_o precious_a promise_n and_o the_o glorious_a provision_n he_o have_v make_v for_o i_o with_o himself_o to_o all_o eternity_n o_o my_o lord_n i_o be_o ashamed_a that_o thy_o love_n be_v so_o much_o lose_v that_o it_o have_v no_o better_a return_n from_o a_o unkind_a unthankful_a heart_n that_o i_o be_o not_o more_o delight_v in_o thou_o and_o swallow_v up_o in_o the_o contemplation_n of_o thy_o love_n i_o can_v content_o let_v go_v the_o society_n and_o converse_n of_o all_o other_o for_o the_o converse_n of_o some_o one_o bosom_n friend_n that_o be_v dear_a to_o i_o than_o they_o all_o as_o jonathan_n to_o david_n and_o can_v i_o not_o much_o more_o be_v satisfy_v in_o thou_o alone_o and_o let_v go_v all_o if_o i_o mâ—y_v continue_v with_o thou_o my_o very_a dog_n will_v glad_o forsake_v all_o the_o town_n and_o all_o person_n in_o the_o world_n to_o follow_v i_o alone_o and_o have_v i_o not_o yet_o find_v so_o much_o love_n and_o gooâ—_n ness_n in_o thou_o my_o dear_a and_o bless_a god_n as_o to_o be_v willing_a to_o converse_v alone_o with_o thou_o all_o man_n delight_v most_o in_o the_o company_n of_o those_o that_o love_v they_o best_o they_o choose_v not_o to_o converse_v with_o the_o multitude_n when_o they_o look_v for_o solace_n and_o content_n but_o with_o their_o dear_a friend_n and_o shall_v any_o be_v so_o dear_a to_o i_o as_o god_n o_o be_v not_o thy_o love_n unworthy_o neglecteâ—_n by_o a_o unthankful_a heart_n i_o shall_v never_o â—e_v so_o unsatisfied_a in_o thou_o but_o shall_v take_v up_o or_o seek_v my_o comfort_n in_o thou_o i_o shall_v then_o say_v who_o have_v i_o in_o heaven_n but_o thou_o and_o there_o be_v none_o on_o earth_n that_o i_o desire_v beside_o thou_o though_o not_o only_o my_o friend_n but_o my_o flesh_n and_o heart_n themselves_o shall_v fail_v i_o it_o be_v thou_o that_o will_v still_o be_v the_o strength_n of_o my_o heart_n and_o my_o portion_n forever_o it_o be_v good_a therefore_o for_o i_o to_o draw_v near_o to_o thou_o how_o far_o soever_o i_o be_o from_o man_n o_o let_v i_o there_o dwell_v where_o thou_o will_v not_o be_v strange_a for_o thy_o love_a kindness_n be_v better_a than_o life_n instead_o of_o the_o multitude_n of_o my_o turmoil_a thought_n let_v i_o be_v take_v up_o in_o the_o believe_a view_n of_o thy_o reconcile_a face_n and_o in_o the_o glad_a attendance_n upon_o thy_o grace_n or_o at_o least_o in_o the_o multitude_n of_o my_o thought_n within_o i_o let_v thy_o celestial_a comfort_n delight_v my_o soul._n let_v i_o dwell_v as_o in_o thy_o family_n and_o when_o i_o awake_v let_v i_o be_v still_o with_o thou_o let_v i_o go_v no_o whither_o but_o where_o i_o be_o still_o follow_v thou_o let_v i_o â—o_o nothing_o but_o thy_o work_n nor_o serve_v any_o other_o but_o when_o i_o may_v true_o call_v it_o a_o serve_v thou_o let_v i_o hear_v nothing_o â—ut_v thy_o voice_n and_o let_v i_o know_v thy_o voice_n by_o whatever_o instrument_n thou_o shall_v speak_v let_v i_o never_o see_v aâ—y_a thing_n but_o thyself_o and_o the_o glass_n that_o represent_v thou_o and_o the_o book_n in_o in_o which_o i_o may_v read_v thy_o name_n and_o let_v i_o never_o play_v with_o the_o outside_n and_o gaze_v on_o word_n and_o letter_n as_o insignificant_a and_o not_o observe_v â—hy_a name_n which_o be_v the_o sense_n whether_o it_o be_v in_o company_n or_o in_o solitude_n let_v i_o be_v continual_o with_o thou_o and_o do_v thou_o vouchsafe_v to_o hold_v i_o by_o my_o right_a hand_n and_o guide_v i_o with_o thy_o counsel_n and_o afterward_o receive_v i_o unto_o thy_o glory_n psal._n 73.23_o 24_o 25_o 26_o 28._o psal._n 63.3_o 4._o if_o god_n be_v with_o i_o i_o be_o not_o alone_a for_o i_o shall_v be_v with_o he_o who_o love_n be_v of_o great_a use_n and_o benefit_n to_o i_o than_o the_o love_n of_o all_o my_o friend_n in_o the_o world_n their_o love_n may_v perhaps_o be_v some_o little_a comfort_n as_o it_o flow_v from_o his_o but_o it_o be_v his_o love_n by_o which_o and_o upon_o which_o i_o live_v it_o be_v his_o love_n that_o give_v i_o life_n and_o time_n and_o health_n and_o food_n and_o preservation_n that_o give_v i_o book_n give_v i_o book_n and_o give_v i_o understanding_n that_o give_v i_o provision_n and_o save_v i_o from_o turn_v it_o to_o pernicious_a fleshliness_n and_o excess_n that_o give_v i_o even_o my_o friend_n themselves_o and_o save_v i_o from_o that_o abuse_n which_o may_v make_v they_o to_o i_o worse_o than_o enemy_n the_o sun_n the_o earth_n the_o air_n be_v not_o so_o useful_a or_o needful_a to_o i_o as_o his_o love_n the_o love_n of_o all_o my_o friend_n can_v make_v i_o well_o when_o i_o be_o sick_a it_o can_v forgive_v the_o small_a of_o my_o sin_n nor_o yet_o assure_v i_o of_o god_n forgiveness_n it_o can_v heal_v the_o malady_n of_o my_o soul_n nor_o give_v a_o solid_a last_a peace_n to_o the_o conscience_n which_o be_v trouble_v if_o all_o my_o friend_n stand_v about_o i_o when_o i_o be_o die_v they_o can_v take_v away_o the_o fear_n of_o death_n nor_o secure_v my_o passage_n to_o everlasting_a life_n death_n will_v be_v death_n still_o and_o danger_n will_v be_v danger_n when_o all_o my_o friend_n have_v do_v their_o best_a but_o my_o almighty_a friend_n be_v all_o sufficient_a he_o can_v prevent_v my_o sickness_n or_o rebuke_n and_o cure_v it_o or_o make_v it_o so_o good_a to_o i_o that_o i_o shall_v thank_v he_o for_o it_o he_o can_v blot_v out_o my_o transgression_n and_o forgive_v all_o my_o sin_n and_o justify_v i_o when_o the_o world_n and_o my_o conscience_n do_v condemn_v i_o he_o can_v teach_v i_o to_o believe_v to_o repent_v to_o pray_v to_o hope_v to_o suffer_v and_o to_o overcome_v he_o can_v quiet_v my_o soul_n in_o the_o midst_n of_o trouble_n and_o give_v i_o a_o well_o ground_v everlasting_a peace_n and_o a_o joy_n which_o no_o man_n can_v take_v from_o i_o he_o can_v deliver_v i_o from_o all_o the_o corruption_n and_o distemper_n of_o my_o froward_a heart_n and_o ease_v i_o and_o secure_v i_o in_o the_o troublesome_a war_n which_o be_v daily_o manage_v in_o my_o breast_n he_o can_v make_v it_o as_o easy_a a_o thing_n to_o die_v as_o to_o lie_v down_o and_o take_v my_o rest_n when_o i_o be_o weary_a or_o to_o undress_v i_o at_o night_n and_o go_v to_o bed_n he_o can_v teach_v death_n to_o lay_v by_o its_o terrible_a aspect_n and_o to_o speak_v with_o a_o mild_a and_o comfortable_a voice_n &_o to_o bring_v i_o the_o joyful_a tiding_n that_o ever_o come_v unto_o my_o ear_n and_o to_o preach_v to_o i_o the_o last_o and_o sweet_a sermon_n even_o the_o same_o that_o our_o â—aviour_n preach_v on_o the_o cross_n luke_o 23.43_o very_o i_o say_v unto_o thou_o to_o day_n shall_v thou_o be_v with_o christ_n in_o paradise_n and_o be_v this_o the_o difference_n between_o the_o love_n of_o man_n and_o of_o god_n and_o yet_o do_v i_o lament_v the_o loss_n of_o man_n and_o yet_o be_o i_o so_o backward_o to_o converse_v with_o god_n and_o to_o be_v satisfy_v in_o his_o love_n alone_o ah_o my_o god_n how_o just_o may_v thou_o withhold_v that_o love_n which_o i_o thus_o undervalue_v and_o refuse_v that_o converse_n which_o i_o have_v first_o refuse_v and_o turn_v i_o over_o to_o man_n to_o silly_a man_n to_o sinful_a man_n who_o converse_n i_o so_o much_o desire_n till_o i_o have_v learn_v by_o dear_a experience_n the_o difference_n between_o man_n and_o god_n and_o between_o a_o earthly_a and_o a_o heavenly_a friend_n alas_o have_v i_o not_o try_v it_o oft_o enough_o to_o have_v know_v it_o better_o before_o this_o day_n have_v â—_o not_o 〈◊〉_d enough_o sound_v what_o man_n be_v in_o a_o time_n of_o trial_n have_v i_o not_o be_v tolâ—_n it_o over_o and_o over_o and_o tell_v it_o to_o the_o quick_a by_o deceitful_a friend_n by_o self-seeking_a friend_n by_o mutable_a erroneous_a deceive_v scandalous_a backsld_v friend_n by_o proud_a and_o selfconceited_a friend_n by_o passionate_a quarrelsome_a vexatious_a friend_n by_o self-grieved_n trouble_a
friend_n that_o have_v but_o bring_v i_o all_o their_o calamity_n and_o grief_n to_o be_v addition_n to_o my_o own_o by_o tempt_a friend_n that_o have_v draw_v i_o to_o sin_n more_o effectual_o than_o enemy_n by_o tender_a faithful_a but_o unable_a friend_n that_o have_v but_o fetch_v fire_n from_o my_o calamity_n and_o sorrow_n to_o kindle_v their_o own_o not_o equal_o share_v but_o each_o one_o take_v all_o my_o trouble_n entire_o to_o himself_o that_o have_v be_v willing_a but_o insufficient_a to_o relieve_v i_o and_o therefore_o the_o great_a be_v their_o love_n the_o great_a be_v their_o own_o and_o consequent_o my_o affliction_n that_o will_v have_v be_v with_o i_o but_o can_v not_o that_o will_v fain_o have_v ease_v my_o pain_n and_o strengthen_v my_o languish_a body_n but_o can_v not_o that_o will_v fain_o have_v remove_v all_o my_o trouble_n and_o comfort_v my_o cast_n down_o mind_n but_o can_v not_o o_o how_o often_o have_v i_o find_v that_o humane_a friendship_n be_v a_o sweet_a desire_a addition_n to_o our_o woe_n a_o belove_a calamity_n and_o a_o affliction_n which_o nature_n will_v not_o be_v without_o not_o because_o it_o love_v evil_a nor_o because_o it_o be_v whole_o deceive_v in_o its_o choice_n for_o there_o be_v good_a in_o friendship_n and_o delight_n in_o holy_a love_n but_o because_o the_o good_a which_o be_v here_o accompany_v with_o so_o much_o evil_n be_v the_o begin_n of_o a_o more_o high_a and_o durable_a friendship_n and_o point_v we_o up_o to_o the_o bless_a delightful_a society_n and_o converse_v which_o in_o the_o heavenly_a jerusalem_n we_o shall_v have_v with_o christ._n but_o o_o how_o much_o better_o have_v i_o find_v the_o friendship_n of_o the_o all-sufficient_a god_n his_o love_n have_v not_o only_o pitit_v i_o but_o relieve_v i_o he_o have_v not_o only_o be_v as_o it_o be_v afflict_v with_o i_o in_o my_o affliction_n but_o he_o have_v deliver_v i_o seasonable_o and_o powerful_o and_o sweet_o have_v he_o deliver_v i_o and_o when_o he_o have_v once_o tell_v i_o that_o my_o affliction_n be_v his_o own_o i_o have_v no_o reason_n to_o doubt_v of_o a_o deliverance_n my_o burden_a mind_n have_v be_v ease_v by_o his_o love_n which_o be_v but_o more_o burden_a by_o the_o fruitless_a love_n of_o all_o my_o friend_n oft_o have_v i_o come_v to_o man_n for_o help_n and_o ease_n and_o comfort_n and_o go_v away_o as_o from_o a_o empty_a cistern_n that_o have_v no_o water_n to_o cool_v my_o thirst_n but_o god_n have_v be_v a_o present_a help_n can_v i_o but_o get_v near_o he_o i_o be_v sure_a of_o light_n how_o great_a soever_o be_v my_o former_a darkness_n can_v i_o but_o get_v near_o he_o i_o be_v sure_a of_o warm_v quicken_a life_n how_o dead_a soever_o i_o have_v be_v before_o but_o all_o my_o misery_n be_v that_o i_o can_v not_o get_v near_o he_o my_o darken_a estrange_v guilty_a soul_n can_v not_o get_v quiet_v and_o satisfy_v acquaintance_n my_o lumpish_a heart_n lie_v dead_a on_o earth_n and_o will_v not_o stir_v or_o quick_o fall_v down_o again_o if_o by_o any_o celestial_a force_n it_o begin_v to_o be_v draw_v up_o and_o move_v a_o little_a towards_o he_o my_o carnal_a mind_n be_v entangle_v in_o divert_v vanity_n and_o thus_o i_o have_v be_v keep_v from_o communion_n with_o my_o god_n keep_v not_o by_o force_n or_o humane_a tyranny_n not_o by_o bar_n or_o bolt_n or_o distance_n of_o a_o place_n or_o by_o the_o lowness_n of_o my_o condition_n nor_o by_o any_o misrepresentation_n oâ—_n reproach_n of_o man_n but_o alas_o by_o myself_o by_o the_o darkness_n and_o deadness_n and_o sluggishness_n and_o earthliness_n and_o fleshliness_n and_o passion_n of_o a_o naughty_a heart_n these_o have_v be_v my_o bar_n and_o bolt_n and_o jailor_n these_o be_v they_o that_o have_v keep_v i_o from_o my_o god_n have_v it_o not_o be_v for_o these_o i_o may_v have_v get_v near_o to_o he_o i_o may_v have_v walk_v with_o he_o and_o dwell_v with_o he_o yea_o dwell_v in_o he_o and_o he_o in_o i_o and_o then_o i_o shall_v not_o have_v miss_v any_o friend_n nor_o feel_v my_o enemy_n and_o be_v it_o my_o sinful_a distance_n from_o my_o god_n that_o have_v be_v my_o loss_n my_o wilderness_n my_o woe_n and_o be_v it_o a_o near_a admittance_n to_o the_o presence_n of_o his_o love_n that_o must_v be_v my_o recovery_n and_o my_o joy_n if_o ever_o i_o attain_v to_o joy_n o_o than_o my_o soul_n lay_v hold_v on_o christ_n the_o reconciler_n and_o in_o he_o and_o by_o he_o draw_v near_o to_o god_n and_o cease_v from_o man_n who_o breath_n be_v in_o his_o nostril_n love_n god_n in_o his_o saint_n and_o delightful_o converse_v with_o christ_n in_o they_o while_o thou_o have_v opportunity_n but_o remember_v thou_o live_v not_o upon_o they_o or_o on_o their_o love_n but_o upon_o god_n and_o therefore_o desire_v their_o company_n but_o for_o his_o and_o if_o thou_o have_v his_o be_v content_a if_o thou_o have_v not_o they_o he_o want_v not_o man_n that_o enjoy_v god_n gather_v up_o all_o the_o love_n and_o thought_n and_o desire_n which_o have_v be_v scatter_v and_o lose_v upon_o the_o creature_n and_o set_v they_o all_o on_o god_n himself_o and_o press_v into_o his_o presence_n and_o converse_v with_o he_o and_o thou_o shall_v find_v the_o mistake_n of_o thy_o present_a discontent_n and_o sweet_a experience_n shall_v tell_v thou_o thou_o have_v make_v a_o happy_a change_n 5._o if_o god_n be_v with_o i_o i_o be_o not_o alone_a because_o he_o be_v with_o i_o with_o who_o my_o great_a business_n lie_v and_o what_o company_n shall_v i_o desire_v but_o they_o with_o who_o i_o have_v my_o daily_a necessary_a work_n to_o do_v i_o have_v more_o to_o do_v with_o god_n than_o with_o all_o the_o world_n yea_o more_a and_o great_a business_n with_o he_o in_o one_o day_n than_o with_o all_o the_o world_n in_o all_o my_o life_n i_o have_v business_n with_o man_n about_o house_n or_o land_n or_o food_n or_o raiment_n or_o labour_n or_o journey_v or_o recreation_n about_o society_n and_o public_a peace_n but_o what_o be_v these_o to_o my_o business_n with_o god_n indeed_o with_o holy_a man_n i_o have_v holy_a business_n but_o that_o be_v but_o as_o they_o be_v messenger_n from_o god_n and_o come_v to_o i_o on_o his_o business_n and_o so_o they_o must_v be_v dear_o welcome_a but_o even_o then_o my_o business_n be_v much_o more_o with_o god_n then_o with_o they_o with_o he_o that_o send_v they_o then_o with_o the_o messenger_n indeed_o my_o business_n with_o god_n be_v so_o great_a that_o if_o i_o have_v not_o a_o mediator_n to_o encourage_v and_o assist_v i_o to_o do_v my_o work_n and_o procure_v i_o acceptance_n the_o thought_n of_o it_o will_v overwhelm_v my_o soul_n o_o therefore_o my_o soul_n let_v man_n stand_v by_o it_o be_v the_o eternal_a god_n that_o i_o have_v to_o do_v with_o and_o with_o who_o be_o i_o to_o transact_v in_o this_o little_a time_n the_o business_n of_o my_o endless_a life_n i_o have_v to_o deal_v with_o god_n through_o christ_n for_o the_o pardon_n of_o my_o sin_n of_o all_o my_o great_a and_o grievous_a sin_n and_o woe_n to_o i_o if_o i_o speed_v not_o that_o ever_o i_o be_v bear_v i_o have_v some_o hope_n of_o pardon_n but_o intermix_v with_o many_o perplex_v fear_n i_o have_v evidence_n much_o blot_v and_o not_o easy_o understand_v i_o want_v assurance_n that_o he_o be_v indeed_o my_o father_n and_o reconcile_v to_o i_o and_o will_v receive_v i_o to_o himself_o when_o the_o world_n forsake_v i_o i_o have_v many_o languish_a grace_n to_o be_v strengthen_v and_o alas_o what_o radicate_v obstinate_a vexatious_a corruption_n to_o be_v cure_v can_v i_o look_v into_o my_o heart_n into_o such_o a_o unbelieving_a dead_a and_o earthly_a heart_n into_o such_o a_o proud_a and_o peevish_a and_o disorder_a heart_n into_o such_o a_o tremble_a perplex_a self-accusing_a heart_n and_o yet_o not_o understand_v how_o great_a my_o business_n be_v with_o god_n can_v i_o peruse_v my_o sin_n or_o feel_v my_o want_n and_o sink_v under_o my_o weakness_n and_o yet_o not_o discern_v how_o great_a my_o business_n be_v with_o god_n can_v i_o look_v back_o upon_o all_o the_o time_n that_o i_o have_v lose_v and_o all_o the_o grace_n that_o i_o unthankful_o resist_v and_o all_o the_o mercy_n that_o i_o tread_v under_o foot_n or_o fool_v away_o and_o can_v i_o look_v before_o i_o and_o see_v how_o near_o my_o time_n be_v to_o a_o end_n and_o yet_o not_o understand_v how_o great_a my_o business_n be_v with_o god_n can_v i_o think_v of_o the_o malice_n and_o diligence_n of_o satan_n the_o number_n power_n and_o subtlety_n of_o my_o enemy_n the_o many_o snare_n and_o danger_n that_o be_v still_o before_o
love_n further_a than_o they_o subserve_v this_o great_a work_n come_v home_o then_o o_o my_o soul_n to_o god_n converse_v in_o heaven_n turn_v away_o thy_o eye_n from_o behold_v vanity_n let_v not_o thy_o affection_n kindle_v upon_o straw_n or_o briar_n that_o go_v out_o when_o they_o have_v make_v a_o flash_n or_o noise_n and_o leave_v thou_o to_o thy_o cold_a and_o darkness_n but_o come_v and_o dwell_v upon_o celestial_a beauty_n and_o make_v it_o thy_o daily_a and_o most_o diligent_a work_n to_o kindle_v thy_o affection_n on_o the_o infinite_a everlasting_a good_a and_o then_o they_o will_v never_o be_v extinguish_v or_o decay_v for_o want_n of_o fuel_n but_o the_o further_a they_o go_v and_o the_o long_o they_o burn_v the_o great_a will_v be_v the_o flame_n though_o thou_o find_v it_o hard_o while_o love_n be_v but_o a_o spark_n to_o make_v it_o burn_v and_o complain_v that_o thy_o cold_a and_o backward_o heart_n be_v hardly_o warm_v with_o the_o love_n of_o god_n yet_o when_o the_o whole_a pile_n have_v take_v fire_n and_o the_o flame_n ascend_v fire_n will_v breed_v fire_n love_n will_v cause_v love_n and_o all_o the_o malice_n of_o hell_n itself_o shall_v never_o be_v able_a to_o suppress_v or_o quench_v it_o unto_o all_o eternity_n 6._o and_o it_o be_v a_o great_a encouragement_n to_o my_o converse_n with_o god_n that_o no_o misunderstanding_n no_o malice_n of_o enemy_n no_o former_a sin_n or_o present_v frailty_n no_o nor_o the_o infinite_a distance_n of_o the_o most_o holy_a glorious_a god_n can_v hinder_v my_o access_n to_o he_o or_o turn_v away_o his_o ear_n or_o love_n or_o interrupt_v my_o leave_n and_o liberty_n of_o converse_n if_o i_o converse_v with_o the_o poor_a their_o want_n afflict_v i_o be_v great_a than_o i_o can_v supply_v their_o complaint_n and_o expectation_n which_o i_o can_v satisfy_v be_v my_o trouble_n if_o i_o will_v converse_v with_o great_a one_o it_o be_v not_o easy_a to_o get_v access_n and_o less_o easy_a to_o have_v their_o favour_n unless_o i_o will_v purchase_v it_o at_o too_o dear_a a_o rate_n how_o strange_o and_o contemptuous_o do_v they_o look_v at_o their_o inferior_n great_a friend_n must_v be_v make_v for_o a_o word_n or_o smile_n and_o if_o you_o be_v not_o quick_o go_v they_o be_v weary_a of_o you_o and_o if_o you_o seek_v any_o thing_n of_o they_o or_o will_v put_v they_o to_o any_o cost_n or_o trouble_v you_o be_v as_o welcome_v to_o they_o as_o so_o many_o vermin_n or_o noisome_a creature_n they_o please_v they_o best_o that_o drive_v you_o away_o with_o how_o much_o labour_n and_o difficulty_n must_v you_o climb_v if_o you_o will_v see_v the_o top_n of_o one_o of_o these_o mountain_n and_o when_o you_o be_v there_o you_o be_v but_o in_o a_o place_n of_o barrenness_n and_o have_v nothing_o to_o satisfy_v you_o for_o your_o pain_n but_o a_o large_a prospect_n and_o vertiginous_a despect_n of_o the_o low_a ground_n which_o be_v not_o your_o own_o it_o be_v seldom_o that_o these_o great_a one_o be_v to_o be_v speak_v with_o and_o perhaps_o their_o speech_n be_v but_o a_o denial_n of_o your_o request_n if_o not_o some_o snappish_a and_o contemptuous_a rejection_n that_o make_v you_o glad_a when_o you_o be_v get_v far_o enough_o from_o they_o and_o make_v you_o the_o better_a like_a and_o love_v the_o accessible_a calm_n &_o fruitful_a plain_n but_o o_o how_o much_o great_a encouragement_n have_v my_o soul_n to_o converse_v with_o god_n company_n never_o hinder_v he_o from_o harken_v to_o my_o suit_n he_o be_v infinite_a and_o omnipotent_a and_o as_o sufficient_a for_o every_o individual_a soul_n as_o if_o he_o have_v no_o other_o to_o look_v after_o in_o the_o world_n when_o he_o be_v take_v up_o with_o the_o attendance_n and_o praise_n of_o his_o heavenly_a host_n he_o be_v as_o free_a and_o ready_a to_o attend_v and_o answer_v the_o groan_n and_o prayer_n of_o a_o contrite_a soul_n as_o if_o he_o have_v no_o noble_a creature_n nor_o no_o high_a service_n to_o regard_v i_o be_o oft_o unready_a but_o god_n be_v never_o unready_a i_o be_o unready_a to_o pray_v but_o he_o be_v not_o unready_a to_o hear_v i_o be_o unready_a to_o come_v to_o god_n to_o walk_v with_o he_o and_o to_o solace_v my_o soul_n with_o he_o but_o he_o be_v never_o unready_a to_o entertain_v i_o many_o a_o time_n my_o conscience_n will_v have_v drive_v i_o away_o when_o he_o have_v call_v i_o to_o he_o and_o rebuke_v my_o accuse_v fearful_a conscience_n many_o a_o time_n i_o have_v call_v myself_o a_o prodigal_n a_o companion_n of_o swine_n a_o miserable_a hard-hearted_a sinner_n unworthy_a to_o be_v call_v his_o son_n when_o he_o have_v call_v i_o child_n and_o chide_v i_o for_o my_o question_v his_o love_n he_o have_v ready_o forgive_v the_o sin_n which_o i_o think_v will_v have_v make_v my_o soul_n fuel_n of_o hell_n he_o have_v entertain_v i_o with_o joy_n with_o music_n and_o a_o feast_n when_o i_o better_o deserve_v to_o have_v be_v among_o the_o dog_n without_o his_o door_n he_o have_v embrace_v i_o in_o his_o sustain_a consolatory_a arm_n when_o he_o may_v have_v spurn_v my_o guilty_a soul_n to_o hell_n and_o say_v depart_v from_o i_o thou_o worker_n of_o iniquity_n i_o know_v thou_o not_o o_o little_a do_v i_o think_v that_o he_o can_v ever_o have_v forget_v the_o vanity_n and_o villainy_n of_o my_o youth_n yea_o so_o easy_o have_v forget_v my_o most_o aggravate_v sin_n when_o i_o have_v sin_v against_o light_n when_o i_o have_v resist_v conscience_n when_o i_o have_v frequent_o and_o wilful_o injure_a love_n i_o think_v he_o will_v never_o have_v forget_v it_o but_o the_o greatness_n of_o his_o love_n and_o mercy_n and_o the_o blood_n and_o intercession_n of_o his_o son_n have_v cancel_v all_o o_o how_o many_o mercy_n have_v i_o taste_v since_o i_o think_v i_o have_v sin_v away_o all_o mercy_n how_o patient_o have_v he_o bear_v with_o i_o since_o i_o think_v he_o will_v never_o have_v put_v up_o more_o and_o yet_o beside_o my_o sin_n and_o the_o withdrawing_n of_o my_o own_o heart_n there_o have_v be_v nothing_o to_o interrupt_v our_o converse_n though_o he_o be_v god_n and_o i_o a_o worm_n yet_o that_o will_v not_o have_v keep_v i_o out_o though_o he_o be_v in_o heaven_n yet_o he_o be_v near_o to_o succour_v i_o on_o earth_n in_o all_o that_o i_o call_v upon_o he_o for_o though_o he_o have_v the_o praise_n of_o angel_n he_o disdain_v not_o my_o tear_n and_o groan_n though_o he_o have_v the_o perfect_a love_n of_o perfect_a soul_n he_o know_v the_o little_a spark_n in_o my_o breast_n and_o despise_v not_o my_o weak_a and_o languid_a love_n though_o i_o injure_v and_o dishonour_v he_o by_o love_v he_o no_o more_o though_o i_o oft_o forget_v he_o and_o have_v be_v out_o of_o the_o way_n when_o he_o have_v come_v or_o call_v i_o though_o i_o have_v disobedient_o turn_v away_o my_o ear_n and_o unkind_o refuse_v the_o entertainment_n of_o his_o love_n and_o unfaithful_o play_v with_o those_o who_o company_n he_o forbid_v i_o he_o have_v not_o divorce_v i_o nor_o turn_v i_o out_o of_o door_n o_o wonderful_a that_o heaven_n will_v be_v familiar_a with_o earth_n and_o god_n with_o man_n the_o high_a with_o a_o worm_n and_o the_o most_o holy_a with_o a_o unconstant_a sinner_n man_n refuse_v i_o when_o god_n will_v entertain_v i_o man_n that_o be_v no_o wise_a or_o better_a than_o myself_o those_o that_o i_o never_o wrong_v or_o deserve_v ill_o off_o reject_v i_o with_o reproach_n and_o god_n who_o i_o have_v unspeakable_o injure_v do_v invite_v i_o and_o entreat_v i_o and_o condescend_v to_o i_o as_o if_o he_o be_v behold_v to_o i_o to_o be_v save_v man_n that_o i_o have_v deserve_v well_o of_o do_v abhor_v i_o and_o god_n that_o i_o have_v deserve_v hell_n of_o do_v accept_v i_o the_o best_a of_o they_o be_v briar_n and_o as_o a_o thorny_a hedge_n and_o he_o be_v love_n and_o rest_v and_o joy_n and_o yet_o i_o can_v be_v more_o welcome_a to_o he_o thoâ—gh_o i_o have_v offend_v hâ—m_n than_o i_o can_v to_o they_o who_o i_o have_v oblige_v i_o have_v free_a leave_n to_o cast_v my_o slef_n into_o my_o father_n arm_n than_o to_o tumble_v in_o those_o briar_n or_o wallow_v in_o the_o dirt._n i_o upbraid_v myself_o with_o my_o sin_n but_o he_o do_v not_o upbraid_v i_o with_o they_o i_o condemn_v myself_o for_o they_o but_o he_o condemn_v i_o not_o he_o forgive_v i_o soâ—nâ—r_o than_o i_o can_v forgive_v myself_o i_o have_v peace_n with_o he_o before_o i_o can_v have_v peace_n of_o conscience_n o_o therefore_o my_o soul_n draw_v near_o to_o he_o that_o be_v so_o willing_a of_o thy_o company_n that_o frown_v thou_o not_o away_o unless_o it_o
i_o the_o strength_n and_o number_n of_o temptation_n and_o my_o ignorance_n unwatchfulness_n and_o weakness_n to_o resist_v and_o yet_o not_o know_v that_o my_o great_a business_n be_v with_o god_n can_v i_o feel_v my_o affliction_n and_o lament_v they_o and_o think_v my_o burden_n great_a than_o i_o can_v bear_v and_o find_v that_o man_n can_v relieve_v i_o can_v i_o go_v mourning_n in_o the_o heaviness_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o water_v my_o bed_n with_o tear_n and_o fill_v the_o air_n with_o my_o groan_n and_o lamentation_n or_o feel_v my_o soul_n overwhelm_v within_o i_o so_o that_o my_o word_n be_v intercept_v and_o i_o be_o ready_a to_o break_v than_o speak_v and_o yet_o not_o perceive_v that_o my_o great_a business_n be_v with_o god_n can_v i_o think_v of_o die_v can_v i_o draw_v near_o to_o judgement_n can_v i_o think_v of_o everlasting_a joy_n in_o heaven_n and_o of_o everlasting_a pain_n in_o hell_n and_o yet_o not_o feel_v that_o my_o great_a business_n be_v with_o god_n o_o then_o my_o soul_n the_o case_n be_v easy_o resolve_v with_o who_o it_o be_v that_o thou_o must_v most_o desirous_o and_o serious_o converse_v where_o shall_v thou_o be_v but_o where_o thy_o business_n be_v and_o so_o great_a business_n alas_o what_o have_v i_o to_o do_v with_o man_n what_o can_v it_o do_v but_o make_v my_o head_n ache_v to_o hear_v a_o deal_n of_o senseless_a chat_n about_o preferment_n land_n and_o dignity_n about_o the_o word_n and_o thought_n of_o man_n and_o a_o thousand_o toy_n that_o be_v utter_o impertinent_a to_o my_o great_a employment_n and_o signify_v nothing_o but_o that_o the_o dream_a world_n be_v not_o awake_a what_o pleasure_n be_v it_o to_o see_v the_o busles_a of_o a_o bedlam_n world_n what_o a_o stir_n they_o make_v to_o prove_v or_o make_v themselves_o unhappy_a how_o low_a and_o of_o how_o little_a weight_n be_v the_o learned_a discourse_n about_o syllable_n and_o word_n and_o name_n and_o notion_n and_o mood_n and_o figure_n yea_o or_o about_o the_o high_a planet_n when_o all_o be_v not_o refer_v unto_o god_n be_v it_o not_o that_o some_o converse_n with_o man_n do_v further_o my_o converse_n with_o god_n and_o that_o god_n do_v transact_v much_o of_o his_o business_n by_o his_o messenger_n and_o servant_n it_o be_v no_o matter_n whether_o ever_o i_o more_o see_v the_o face_n of_o man_n be_v it_o not_o that_o my_o master_n have_v place_v i_o in_o society_n and_o appoint_v i_o and_o much_o of_o my_o work_n for_o other_o and_o with_o other_o and_o much_o of_o his_o mercy_n be_v convey_v by_o other_o man_n may_v stand_v by_o and_o solitude_n be_v better_a than_o the_o best_a society_n and_o god_n alone_o shall_v take_v i_o up_o o_o nothing_o be_v so_o much_o my_o misery_n and_o shame_n as_o that_o i_o be_o no_o more_o willing_a nor_o better_o skill_v in_o the_o management_n of_o my_o great_a important_a business_n that_o my_o work_n be_v with_o god_n and_o my_o heart_n be_v no_o more_o with_o he_o o_o what_o may_v i_o do_v in_o holy_a meditation_n or_o prayer_n one_o hour_n if_o i_o be_v as_o ready_a for_o prayer_n and_o as_o good_a at_o prayer_n as_o one_o that_o have_v so_o long_a opportunity_n and_o so_o great_a necessity_n to_o converse_v with_o god_n shall_v be_v a_o prayerless_a heart_n a_o heart_n that_o fly_v away_o from_o god_n be_v most_o excusable_a in_o such_o a_o one_o as_o i_o that_o have_v so_o much_o important_a business_n with_o he_o it_o be_v work_n that_o must_v be_v do_v and_o if_o well_o do_v will_v never_o be_v repent_v of_o i_o use_v not_o to_o return_v from_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n when_o indeed_o i_o have_v draw_v near_o he_o as_o i_o do_v from_o the_o company_n of_o empty_a man_n repent_v that_o i_o have_v lose_v my_o time_n and_o tremble_v that_o my_o mind_n be_v discompose_v or_o depress_v by_o the_o vanity_n and_o earthly_a savour_n of_o their_o discourse_n i_o oft_o repent_v that_o i_o have_v pray_v to_o he_o so_o cold_o and_o converse_v with_o he_o so_o negligent_o and_o serve_v he_o so_o remissly_a but_o i_o never_o repent_v of_o the_o time_n the_o care_n the_o affliction_n or_o the_o diligence_n employ_v in_o his_o holy_a work_n many_o a_o time_n i_o have_v repent_v that_o ever_o i_o spend_v so_o much_o time_n with_o man_n and_o wish_v i_o have_v never_o see_v the_o face_n of_o some_o that_o be_v eminent_a in_o the_o world_n who_o favour_n and_o converse_v other_o be_v ambitious_a of_o but_o it_o be_v my_o grief_n and_o shame_n that_o so_o small_a a_o part_n of_o all_o my_o life_n have_v be_v spend_v with_o god_n and_o that_o fervent_a prayer_n and_o heavenly_a contemplation_n have_v be_v so_o seldom_o and_o so_o short_a o_o that_o i_o have_v live_v more_o with_o god_n though_o i_o have_v be_v less_o with_o my_o dear_a of_o my_o friend_n how_o much_o more_o blameless_a regular_a and_o pure_a how_o much_o more_o fruitful_a and_o answerable_a to_o my_o obligation_n and_o profession_n how_o much_o more_o comfortable_a to_o my_o review_n how_o many_o fall_v and_o hurt_n and_o wound_n and_o grief_n and_o groan_n may_v i_o have_v escape_v o_o how_o much_o more_o please_a be_v it_o now_o to_o my_o remembrance_n to_o think_v of_o the_o hour_n in_o which_o i_o have_v lie_v at_o the_o foot_n of_o god_n though_o it_o be_v in_o tear_n and_o groan_n than_o to_o think_v of_o the_o time_n which_o i_o have_v spend_v in_o any_o common_a converse_n with_o the_o great_a or_o the_o learnede_a or_o the_o dear_a of_o my_o acquaintance_n and_o as_o my_o great_a business_n be_v with_o god_n so_o my_o daily-business_n be_v also_o with_o he_o he_o purposely_o leave_v i_o under_o want_n and_o suffer_v necessity_n daily_o to_o return_v and_o enemy_n to_o assault_v i_o and_o affliction_n to_o surprise_v i_o that_o i_o may_v be_v daily_o drive_v to_o he_o he_o love_v to_o hear_v from_o i_o he_o will_v have_v i_o be_v no_o stranger_n with_o he_o i_o have_v business_n with_o he_o every_o hour_n i_o need_v not_o want_v employment_n for_o all_o the_o faculty_n of_o my_o soul_n if_o i_o know_v what_o it_o be_v to_o converse_v in_o heaven_n even_o prayer_n and_o every_o holy_a thought_n of_o god_n have_v a_o object_n so_o great_a and_o excellent_a as_o shall_v whole_o take_v i_o up_o nothing_o must_v be_v think_v or_o speak_v light_o about_o the_o lord_n his_o name_n must_v not_o be_v take_v in_o vain_a nothing_o that_o be_v common_a beseem_v his_o worshipper_n he_o will_v be_v sanctify_v of_o all_o that_o shall_v draw_v near_o he_o he_o must_v be_v love_v with_o all_o the_o heart_n and_o may_v his_o servant_n need_v not_o be_v weary_v for_o want_v of_o employment_n nor_o through_o the_o lightness_n or_o unprofitableness_n of_o their_o employment_n if_o i_o have_v city_n to_o build_v or_o kingdom_n to_o govern_v i_o may_v better_o complain_v for_o want_v of_o employment_n for_o the_o faculty_n of_o my_o soul_n than_o i_o can_v when_o i_o be_o to_o converse_v in_o heaven_n in_o other_o study_v the_o delight_n abate_v when_o i_o have_v reach_v my_o desire_n and_o know_v all_o that_o i_o can_v know_v but_o in_o god_n there_o be_v infinite_o more_o to_o be_v know_v when_o i_o know_v the_o most_o i_o be_o never_o satiate_v with_o the_o easiness_n of_o know_v nor_o be_v my_o desire_n abate_v by_o any_o unusefulness_n or_o unworthiness_n in_o the_o object_n but_o i_o be_o draw_v to_o it_o by_o its_o high_a excellency_n and_o draw_v on_o to_o desire_v more_o and_o more_o by_o the_o infiniteness_n of_o the_o light_n which_o i_o have_v not_o yet_o behold_v and_o the_o infiniteness_n of_o the_o good_a which_o yet_o i_o have_v not_o enjoy_v if_o i_o be_v idle_a or_o seem_v to_o want_v employment_n when_o i_o be_o to_o contemplate_v all_o the_o attribute_n relation_n mercy_n work_n and_o reveal_v perfection_n of_o the_o lord_n it_o be_v sure_a for_o want_v of_o eye_n to_o see_v or_o a_o heart_n incline_v to_o my_o business_n if_o god_n be_v not_o enough_o to_o employ_v my_o soul_n than_o all_o the_o person_n and_o thing_n on_o earth_n be_v not_o enough_o and_o when_o i_o have_v infinite_a goodness_n to_o delight_v in_o where_o my_o soul_n may_v free_o let_v out_o itself_o and_o never_o need_v to_o fear_v excess_n of_o love_n how_o sweet_a shall_v this_o employment_n be_v as_o knowledge_n so_o love_n be_v never_o stint_v here_o by_o the_o narrowness_n of_o the_o object_n can_v never_o love_v he_o in_o any_o proportion_n either_o to_o his_o goodness_n and_o amiableness_n in_o himself_o or_o to_o his_o love_n to_o we_o what_o need_n have_v i_o then_o of_o any_o other_o company_n or_o business_n when_o i_o have_v infinite_a goodness_n to_o delight_v in_o and_o to_o