of_o these_o great_a confirmation_n that_o i_o hope_v with_o assure_a confidence_n be_v the_o voice_n of_o my_o belove_a god_n and_o master_n yea_o as_o indeed_o it_o have_v be_v with_o a_o audible_a voice_n say_v i_o will_v do_v for_o thou_o even_o exceed_v abundant_o etc._n etc._n i_o will_v sure_o give_v thou_o a_o deliverance_n that_o shall_v make_v thou_o glad_a above_o all_o thy_o sorrow_n past_a i_o do_v remember_v thy_o prayer_n and_o groan_n oft_o in_o this_o walk_n and_o though_o i_o be_v only_o a_o witness_n of_o they_o then_o yet_o now_o as_o i_o have_v see_v in_o secret_a so_o will_v i_o reward_v thou_o open_o the_o time_n be_v now_o come_v and_o it_o shall_v linger_v no_o more_o rejoice_v and_o be_v glad_a o_o my_o prisoner_n of_o hope_n for_o the_o time_n of_o thy_o release_n be_v come_v i_o remember_v thy_o kindness_n and_o know_v thy_o love_n be_v still_o and_o know_v that_o i_o be_o god_n i_o know_v thy_o distress_n and_o that_o thy_o strait_n now_o draw_v near_o but_o fear_v not_o i_o will_v take_v care_n of_o thou_o and_o the_o great_a the_o extremity_n be_v the_o great_a testimony_n thou_o give_v to_o i_o etc._n etc._n this_o thursday_n evening_n the_o 17_o of_o aug._n when_o i_o come_v in_o with_o some_o challenge_n i_o get_v first_o great_a access_n to_o my_o dear_a god_n in_o confession_n and_o the_o sense_n of_o his_o peace_n which_o be_v so_o lively_a and_o sweet_a as_o be_v unexpressible_a after_o i_o find_v some_o sweet_a renew_n of_o former_a confirmation_n with_o power_n impress_v on_o i_o thus_o 1._o as_o your_o latter_a work_n have_v exceed_v your_o former_a so_o shall_v your_o latter_a day_n also_o 2._o as_o you_o have_v not_o make_v haste_n until_o my_o time_n so_o this_o be_v the_o time_n i_o have_v watch_v for_o when_o you_o be_v now_o so_o low_o to_o make_v my_o power_n know_v 3._o and_o do_v you_o fear_v to_o trust_v i_o be_v the_o consolation_n of_o god_n small_a or_o have_v they_o ever_o fail_v you_o 4._o you_o know_v not_o my_o child_n what_o i_o be_o to_o do_v for_o you_o and_o how_o near_o it_o be_v etc._n etc._n after_o i_o go_v down_o this_o last_o night_n what_o confirmation_n have_v i_o from_o god_n further_a and_o now_o this_o morning_n aug._n 18._o i_o have_v some_o lively_a exercise_n of_o the_o same_o nature_n as_o before_o etc._n etc._n and_o now_o this_o saturday_n aug._n 19_o how_o clear_a a_o evidence_n do_v god_n himself_o give_v i_o of_o the_o evidence_n of_o the_o work_n of_o grace_n in_o my_o soul_n in_o some_o most_o lively_a act_n thereof_o so_o as_o to_o rejoice_v in_o he_o as_o my_o alone_a portion_n so_o as_o to_o say_v he_o only_o be_v my_o salvation_n and_o my_o defence_n my_o all_o in_o who_o i_o desire_v to_o triumph_v and_o boast_v and_o therewith_o what_o a_o sweet_a inbreaking_n follow_v from_o himself_o when_o he_o say_v thus_o to_o my_o soul_n i_o will_v deliver_v you_o in_o a_o way_n you_o know_v not_o and_o when_o all_o mean_n fail_v then_o be_v the_o time_n i_o choose_v i_o know_v thou_o have_v none_o to_o look_v to_o but_o i_o it_o be_v not_o you_o to_o see_v now_o but_o bless_a be_v they_o that_o believe_v for_o there_o shall_v be_v a_o performance_n of_o thing_n promise_v do_v thou_o see_v the_o pledge_n i_o have_v give_v you_o and_o the_o conveyance_n of_o they_o with_o such_o sealing_n and_o embracement_n of_o my_o love_n remember_v the_o text_n that_o hope_n make_v not_o ashamed_a because_o the_o love_n of_o god_n be_v shed_v abroad_o in_o thy_o heart_n thou_o have_v be_v long_o trade_n with_o the_o talon_n of_o the_o cross_n for_o some_o fruit_n unto_o i_o but_o now_o i_o will_v also_o give_v thou_o a_o talon_n of_o comfort_n and_o put_v it_o in_o trust_n under_o thy_o hand_n etc._n etc._n and_o o_o how_o remarkable_a have_v this_o evening_n be_v and_o close_o of_o this_o week_n which_o i_o may_v call_v a_o most_o solemn_a confirm_v week_n and_o now_o in_o its_o close_n have_v i_o most_o near_o and_o sweet_a access_n to_o my_o dear_a god_n in_o prayer_n and_o i_o hope_v i_o may_v own_o these_o immediate_a confirmation_n from_o himself_o as_o 1._o what_o shall_v be_v do_v to_o the_o man_n who_o the_o king_n delight_v to_o honour_n to_o who_o my_o honour_n and_o service_n have_v be_v dear_a 2._o have_v i_o say_v i_o will_v never_o leave_v thou_o nor_o forsake_v thou_o and_o can_v i_o leave_v thou_o now_o when_o thou_o have_v most_o need_n of_o i_o and_o when_o all_o refuge_n fail_v 3._o i_o know_v thou_o be_v at_o the_o hard_a part_n of_o that_o lesson_n to_o believe_v in_o hope_n against_o hope_n but_o fear_v not_o i_o be_o with_o thou_o which_o in_o a_o extraordinary_a way_n be_v then_o speak_v and_o though_o thou_o see_v not_o what_o thy_o outgate_n shall_v be_v leave_v that_o to_o i_o 4._o and_o what_o a_o marvellous_a and_o sweet_a confirmation_n do_v the_o lord_n give_v to_o his_o poor_a servant_n as_o i_o come_v down_o return_v unto_o thy_o rest_n and_o be_v still_o which_o do_v so_o deep_o surprise_v and_o astonish_v as_o answer_v so_o direct_o to_o what_o that_o day_n have_v be_v my_o exercise_n what_o he_o will_v do_v with_o my_o hope_n which_o seem_v to_o be_v against_o hope_n this_o be_v the_o give_v i_o a_o new_a text_n to_o answer_v what_o i_o have_v long_o be_v upon_o etc._n etc._n he_o spend_v his_o day_n and_o year_n after_o this_o manner_n and_o in_o order_n to_o have_v the_o year_n right_o carry_v on_o it_o be_v we_o find_v his_o custom_n from_o the_o 15_o or_o 16_o year_n of_o his_o age_n to_o his_o last_o to_o set_v apart_o the_o first_o day_n of_o every_o year_n in_o renew_v his_o covenant_n with_o god_n in_o a_o new_a self-surrend_a and_o dedication_n of_o himself_o to_o he_o or_o if_o interrupt_v the_o first_o day_n then_o to_o take_v the_o first_o convenient_a day_n follow_v we_o can_v give_v any_o account_n of_o the_o manner_n of_o his_o do_v this_o for_o the_o first_o year_n of_o his_o life_n but_o we_o may_v guess_v what_o they_o have_v be_v by_o the_o few_o instance_n follow_v 1691._o it_o be_v in_o the_o entry_n of_o this_o new_a year_n as_o i_o have_v do_v now_o for_o many_o year_n pass_v most_o solemn_o that_o i_o desire_v to_o renew_v again_o my_o personal_a engage_v of_o myself_o to_o the_o lord_n my_o god_n and_o for_o he_o and_o with_o my_o whole_a heart_n and_o desire_n to_o enter_v myself_o into_o his_o service_n and_o take_v on_o his_o bless_a yoke_n and_o humble_o to_o lay_v claim_n embrace_v and_o take_v he_o o_o he_o to_o be_v my_o god_n alone_o my_o all_o my_o light_n and_o my_o salvation_n my_o shield_n and_o exceed_v great_a reward_n who_o have_v i_o in_o heaven_n but_o thou_o o_o lord_n or_o in_o the_o earth_n who_o do_v i_o desire_v beside_o thou_o and_o now_o under_o thy_o bless_a hand_n my_o soul_n desire_v and_o do_v here_o testify_v my_o trust_v myself_o and_o secure_v my_o whole_a interest_n my_o credit_n my_o conduct_n my_o comfort_n my_o assistance_n my_o thorow-bearing_a and_o my_o poor_a child_n and_o to_o leave_v myself_o herein_o on_o the_o gracious_a hand_n of_o my_o dear_a lord_n whilst_o i_o be_o within_o time_n as_o i_o write_v this_o the_o 2d_o day_n of_o jan._n 1691._o r._n fleming_n 1692._o it_o be_v in_o the_o entry_n and_o first_o day_n of_o this_o new_a year_n that_o i_o desire_v here_o as_o former_o to_o enter_v in_o this_o hide_a record_n a_o new_a surrender_n and_o offer_v of_o myself_o to_o my_o dear_a lord_n and_o master_n who_o have_v be_v wonderful_o tender_a and_o gracious_a to_o i_o and_o have_v bring_v i_o by_o his_o immediate_a conduct_n through_o the_o day_n and_o year_n of_o my_o pilgrimage_n past_a have_v still_o care_v for_o his_o poor_a thing_n and_o give_v more_o singular_a mercy_n and_o evidence_n of_o respect_n than_o to_o many_o else_o and_o now_o as_o still_o former_o have_v take_v i_o through_o this_o last_o year_n with_o singular_a evidence_n of_o his_o presence_n and_o assistance_n and_o as_o i_o trust_v myself_o to_o my_o lord_n so_o have_v he_o gracious_o answer_v for_o which_o and_o his_o special_a grace_n hitherto_o i_o desire_v to_o insert_v this_o witness_n of_o my_o soul_n blessing_n the_o lord_n my_o god_n and_o now_o i_o do_v here_o with_o my_o full_a and_o joyful_a consent_n testify_v my_o give_v up_o myself_o again_o to_o the_o lord_n and_o to_o his_o work_n and_o service_n here_o and_o wherever_o he_o shall_v call_v i_o with_o desire_n to_o consecrate_v my_o old_a age_n to_o my_o god_n and_o the_o guide_n of_o my_o youth_n i_o love_v my_o master_n and_o his_o service_n and_o let_v my_o ear_n be_v nail_v to_o the_o post_n
of_o his_o door_n as_o one_o that_o will_v not_o go_v free_a from_o that_o bless_a yoke_n and_o service_n and_o lay_v in_o hope_n the_o whole_a assistance_n hereof_o on_o his_o grace_n and_o help_v and_o how_o in_o so_o extraordinary_a a_o case_n as_o be_v alone_o to_o my_o lord_n i_o desire_v to_o witness_v and_o renew_v the_o same_o here_o with_o my_o humble_a and_o entire_a reliance_n on_o he_o who_o be_v my_o trust_n from_o my_o youth_n to_o this_o day_n my_o shield_n and_o exceed_v great_a reward_n to_o he_o i_o commit_v myself_o my_o way_n my_o work_n and_o service_n which_o with_o my_o soul_n desire_n i_o offer_v to_o my_o lord_n in_o who_o hand_n i_o desire_v to_o secure_v my_o credit_n for_o the_o gospel_n sake_n my_o comfort_n and_o enlargement_n in_o this_o day_n of_o deep_a trouble_n and_o anguish_n together_o with_o my_o poor_a child_n and_o the_o whole_a interest_n of_o my_o family_n and_o concern_v desire_v to_o put_v myself_o with_o humble_a confidence_n and_o all_o that_o be_v dear_a to_o i_o under_o his_o care_n and_o conduct_n o_o my_o soul_n bless_v thou_o the_o lord_n this_o i_o write_v the_o one_a of_o jan._n 1692._o r._n fleming_n my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n 1694._o it_o be_v in_o the_o first_o day_n and_o monday_n of_o this_o new_a year_n 1694._o that_o as_o i_o have_v former_o through_o most_o of_o my_o life_n past_a so_o now_o do_v desire_n to_o renew_v my_o dedication_n and_o engagement_n to_o the_o lord_n my_o god_n and_o to_o join_v in_o the_o same_o witness_n with_o what_o herein_o have_v be_v former_o with_o my_o whole_a heart_n and_o desire_n and_o to_o offer_v unto_o my_o dear_a lord_n praise_n in_o remembrance_n of_o what_o he_o have_v be_v through_o the_o year_n past_a and_o in_o the_o whole_a of_o my_o life_n who_o gracious_a tender_a conduct_n have_v be_v so_o wonderful_a and_o well_o have_v thou_o my_o lord_n deal_v with_o thy_o servant_n according_a to_o thy_o word_n in_o all_o have_v befall_v i_o and_o as_o my_o soul_n do_v now_o move_v and_o betake_v myself_o alone_o to_o he_o as_o my_o own_o god_n my_o father_n my_o redeemer_n and_o bless_a comforter_n and_o my_o only_a all_o so_o do_v i_o hereby_o witness_v the_o settle_n of_o my_o trust_n my_o hope_n and_o reliance_n alone_o upon_o he_o for_o this_o new_a year_n or_o what_o time_n of_o my_o life_n may_v yet_o remain_v with_o earnest_a desire_n to_o enter_v yet_o again_o and_o continue_v in_o his_o service_n even_o in_o that_o delightful_a service_n of_o my_o dear_a lord_n and_o master_n and_o now_o i_o do_v again_o by_o a_o new_a surrender_n witness_v my_o entire_a commitment_n of_o myself_o my_o poor_a child_n my_o credit_n for_o the_o gospel_n my_o conduct_n and_o comfort_n in_o so_o extraordinary_a a_o juncture_n to_o my_o dear_a lord_n to_o his_o gracious_a and_o compassionate_a care_n and_o providence_n together_o with_o my_o work_n and_o any_o small_a design_n to_o serve_v he_o and_o my_o generation_n and_o i_o do_v entreat_v new_a supply_n of_o his_o grace_n and_o strength_n to_o secure_v and_o make_v his_o poor_a servant_n if_o it_o be_v his_o bless_a will_n yet_o more_o abundant_o forthcoming_a to_o he_o and_o with_o hope_n of_o acceptance_n i_o write_v this_o jan._n 1_o 1694._o r._n fleming_n post_fw-la tenebras_fw-la spero_fw-la lucem_fw-la at_o another_o time_n thus_o flow_v his_o sacred_a pen_n o_o my_o soul_n never_o forget_v this_o solemn_a wednesday_n night_n nor_o the_o last_o monday_n night_n what_o solemn_a visit_v i_o have_v from_o my_o lord_n after_o so_o serious_a a_o work_n of_o trial_n about_o the_o warrant_n of_o my_o hope_n and_o petition_v for_o the_o heighten_v of_o my_o faith_n and_o seal_v testimony_n of_o his_o spirit_n in_o how_o marvellous_a a_o way_n do_v my_o dear_a lord_n i_o hope_v bear_v evidence_n to_o the_o great_a assurance_n he_o have_v former_o give_v i_o etc._n etc._n o_o let_v my_o soul_n bless_v and_o adore_v the_o lord_n for_o this_o sweet_a and_o marvellous_a visit_n this_o monday_n night_n which_o my_o dear_a lord_n i_o hope_v have_v give_v his_o poor_a servant_n when_o so_o near_o sink_v and_o i_o hope_v say_v to_o my_o soul_n fear_v not_o i_o forget_v you_o not_o for_o i_o have_v grave_v you_o on_o the_o palm_n of_o my_o hand_n etc._n etc._n i_o look_v on_o thou_o with_o delight_n and_o the_o time_n be_v come_v when_o i_o will_v give_v thou_o a_o account_n of_o thy_o prayer_n and_o tear_n of_o thy_o many_o groan_n and_o long_o onwaiting_a have_v i_o speak_v and_o will_v i_o not_o do_v it_o etc._n etc._n o_o thou_o afflict_a toss_v with_o tempest_n in_o a_o acceptable_a time_n have_v i_o hear_v thou_o trust_v thou_o in_o the_o lord_n for_o i_o will_v make_v thou_o a_o sign_n to_o this_o generation_n etc._n etc._n i_o be_o lead_v thou_o right_o and_o thy_o strength_n be_v to_o sit_v still_o be_v the_o lord_n hand_n shorten_v that_o it_o can_v save_v etc._n etc._n o_o how_o shall_v i_o entertain_v this_o marvellous_a day_n and_o appearance_n of_o my_o dear_a lord_n to_o his_o poor_a servant_n o_o wonderful_a condescension_n this_o morning_n after_o so_o sweet_a a_o evening_n before_o that_o he_o shall_v please_v to_o give_v so_o near_o a_o approach_n of_o himself_o o_o i_o hope_v it_o be_v his_o voice_n i_o be_o come_v i_o be_o sure_o come_v my_o servant_n in_o the_o four_o watch_n of_o the_o night_n to_o bring_v forth_o my_o prisoner_n and_o set_v he_o at_o liberty_n who_o have_v stay_v so_o long_o for_o i_o etc._n etc._n i_o embrace_v you_o as_o a_o over-comer_n rejoice_v for_o great_a be_v your_o reward_n in_o heaven_n i_o be_o now_o enter_v thou_o on_o a_o day_n of_o rejoice_v be_v not_o doubtful_a it_o be_v i_o who_o comfort_v thou_o etc._n etc._n and_o when_o i_o say_v o_o how_o shall_v i_o manage_v such_o a_o wonderful_a enlargement_n how_o discernable_o be_v it_o return_v i_o hope_v from_o himself_o i_o will_v manage_v it_o for_o thou_o thou_o have_v stay_v for_o i_o but_o thou_o have_v get_v the_o victory_n and_o the_o day_n shall_v be_v thou_o and_o thou_o shall_v know_v what_o i_o have_v be_v do_v with_o thou_o and_o for_o thou_o o_o let_v i_o never_o forget_v the_o 25_o of_o decemb._n at_o night_n when_o after_o 60_o year_n under_o the_o lord_n be_v special_a conduct_n he_o give_v i_o so_o sweet_a and_o remarkable_a a_o visit_n never_o to_o be_v forget_v o_o what_o a_o night_n be_v it_o when_o i_o go_v home_o press_v to_o sing_v the_o 103d_o psalm_n etc._n etc._n but_o it_o be_v endless_a to_o name_v passage_n of_o this_o nature_n since_o almost_o every_o day_n be_v a_o communion-day_n between_o god_n and_o he_o and_o how_o remarkable_o god_n have_v answer_v his_o prayer_n may_v easy_o be_v infer_v from_o hence_o one_o instance_n to_o this_o purpose_n we_o may_v see_v in_o his_o epistolary_a discourse_n page_n 68_o of_o a_o minister_n who_o have_v a_o violent_a colic_n immediate_o take_v off_o upon_o his_o pray_v to_o god_n for_o that_o end_n it_o be_v know_v to_o be_v himself_o he_o speak_v of_o there_o though_o he_o express_v it_o modest_o in_o the_o three_o person_n i_o shall_v now_o present_v a_o few_o thing_n which_o he_o set_v down_o in_o write_v by_o themselves_o under_o this_o title_n a_o short_a index_n of_o some_o of_o the_o great_a appearance_n of_o the_o lord_n in_o the_o dispensation_n of_o his_o providence_n to_o his_o poor_a servant_n etc._n etc._n and_o although_o the_o brevity_n and_o obscurity_n of_o the_o hint_n must_v needs_o leave_v we_o in_o the_o dark_a as_o to_o the_o full_a mean_v of_o most_o of_o they_o as_o be_v write_v only_o for_o his_o own_o memory_n as_o the_o title_n show_v yet_o they_o will_v serve_v to_o show_v we_o the_o particular_a care_n of_o his_o great_a master_n over_o this_o his_o faithful_a and_o eminent_a servant_n they_o be_v the_o remark_n which_o he_o call_v the_o appearance_n of_o the_o lord_n towards_o he_o in_o his_o own_o word_n 1._o how_o near_o i_o be_v bring_v to_o death_n in_o my_o infancy_n give_v over_o yea_o and_o esteem_v a_o burden_n to_o my_o friend_n so_o as_o my_o death_n be_v make_v desirable_a to_o they_o i_o be_v as_o the_o refuse_n of_o my_o father_n child_n yet_o even_o then_o i_o be_v god_n choice_n and_o in_o a_o most_o singular_a way_n restore_v 2._o that_o remarkable_a deliverance_n on_o receive_v a_o blow_n by_o a_o club_n when_o a_o child_n which_o be_v so_o near_o my_o eye_n as_o endanger_v both_o my_o sight_n and_o life_n 3._o that_o strange_a and_o extraordinary_a impression_n i_o have_v of_o a_o audible_a voice_n in_o the_o church_n at_o night_n when_o be_v a_o child_n i_o have_v get_v up_o to_o the_o pulpit_n call_v to_o i_o to_o make_v haste_n
to_o the_o unity_n and_o purity_n of_o faith_n speak_v of_o the_o difference_n of_o brethren_n in_o this_o city_n he_o thus_o express_v himself_o i_o be_o amaze_v to_o see_v good_a man_n thus_o tear_v one_o another_o in_o the_o dark_a nor_o can_v i_o understand_v how_o they_o shall_v have_v grace_n in_o due_a exercise_n who_o value_n their_o particular_a design_n above_o the_o interest_n of_o the_o catholic_n church_n and_o who_o confine_v religion_n to_o their_o own_o notion_n and_o model_n to_o another_o complain_n of_o reproach_n from_o pretend_a friend_n his_o answer_n be_v to_o i_o to_o be_v judge_v of_o man_n and_o of_o man_n judgement_n be_v a_o small_a thing_n i_o bless_v god_n i_o value_v not_o my_o own_o name_n but_o god_n only_a i_o do_v confess_v when_o man_n wound_v the_o credit_n of_o the_o gospel_n through_o i_o it_o be_v hard_o then_o to_o bear_v up_o nor_o may_v it_o be_v forget_v what_o he_o have_v say_v to_o his_o dear_a and_o excellent_a friend_n and_o spiritual_a son_n of_o this_o city_n dr._n d._n h._n i_o bless_v god_n in_o fifteen_o year_n time_n i_o have_v not_o ever_o give_v any_o man_n credit_n a_o thrust_v behind_o his_o back_n but_o when_o i_o have_v ground_n to_o speak_v well_o of_o any_o man_n i_o do_v so_o with_o faithfulness_n and_o when_o i_o want_v a_o subject_a that_o way_n i_o keep_v silence_n o_o in_o what_o concord_n may_v prelatist_n and_o dissenter_n walk_v much_o more_o the_o dissenter_n themselves_o have_v they_o more_o of_o this_o balsamic_a spirit_n what_o agree_v in_o principle_n of_o faith_n in_o all_o substantial_a part_n of_o worship_n and_o assert_v all_o of_o we_o the_o same_o necessity_n of_o holiness_n and_o yet_o bite_v and_o devour_v one_o another_o bless_a saviour_n send_v down_o thy_o spirit_n to_o we_o with_o the_o wisdom_n that_o be_v pure_a and_o peaceable_a but_o to_o return_v of_o the_o man_n so_o pure_a and_o peaceable_a it_o must_v be_v add_v his_o triumph_n in_o the_o favour_n of_o god_n be_v transcendent_a triumph_n over_o law_n sin_n death_n grave_a and_o hell_n too_o few_o do_v i_o discern_v to_o aspire_v to_o such_o as_o he_o have_v long_o attain_v o_o how_o dwell_v he_o on_o the_o mount_n how_o oft_o be_v he_o as_o in_o the_o three_o heaven_n what_o a_o jacob_n what_o a_o israel_n be_v holy_a fleming_n such_o a_o wrestler_n and_o prevailer_n with_o god_n such_o a_o moses_n to_o who_o god_n speak_v as_o it_o be_v face_n to_o face_n such_o a_o nazarite_n with_o a_o soul_n with_o a_o life_n and_o with_o a_o name_n darken_v with_o no_o cloud_n except_o but_o that_o of_o his_o own_o humility_n which_o do_v together_o darken_v a_o man_n to_o himself_o and_o beautify_v he_o in_o the_o eye_n of_o god_n and_o saint_n a_o man_n so_o high_o favour_v of_o god_n and_o bless_v with_o so_o much_o of_o heaven_n upon_o this_o earth_n be_v not_o oft_o find_v i_o suppose_v in_o any_o one_o age._n there_o be_v no_o end_n of_o instance_n every_o day_n seem_v to_o have_v be_v a_o holy_a sabbath_n and_o communion-day_n and_o day_n of_o spiritual_a jubilee_n unto_o he_o in_o his_o last_o sickness_n he_o have_v more_o than_o one_o wondrous_a manifestation_n of_o god_n love_n to_o his_o soul_n and_o one_o which_o he_o declare_v he_o have_v not_o strength_n enough_o to_o have_v bear_v much_o long_a but_o now_o of_o his_o death_n in_o the_o lord_n what_o shall_v my_o tremble_a heart_n utter_v it_o be_v but_o july_n the_o 17_o that_o his_o sickness_n seize_v he_o and_o the_o 25_o he_o who_o have_v so_o much_o see_v the_o salvation_n of_o god_n depart_v in_o peace_n on_o his_o first_o arrest_n o_o friend_n say_v he_o to_o such_o as_o be_v about_o he_o sickness_n and_o death_n be_v serious_a thing_n but_o till_o the_o spark_n of_o his_o fever_n have_v rise_v to_o a_o flame_n he_o be_v not_o aware_a that_o that_o sickness_n be_v to_o be_v unto_o death_n for_o he_o tell_v a_o relation_n of_o he_o that_o if_o it_o shall_v so_o be_v it_o be_v strange_a be_v the_o lord_n do_v not_o use_v to_o hide_v from_o he_o the_o thing_n that_o he_o do_v with_o he_o and_o he_o his_o heavenly_a father_n know_v his_o thorough_a preparedness_n for_o glory_n and_o please_v not_o to_o give_v the_o premonition_n which_o he_o see_v he_o not_o to_o want_v sudden_a death_n be_v sudden_a glory_n to_o such_o saint_n yet_o before_o his_o expiration_n he_o be_v apprehensive_a of_o its_o approach_n call_v to_o he_o a_o friend_n he_o ask_v what_o freedom_n do_v you_o find_v in_o prayer_n for_o i_o seem_v god_n to_o because_v to_o your_o petition_n or_o do_v he_o bound_v you_o up_o and_o leave_v dark_a impression_n on_o your_o mind_n this_o way_n say_v he_o i_o have_v often_o know_v the_o mind_n of_o the_o lord_n his_o friend_n tell_v he_o he_o be_v under_o darkness_n in_o the_o case_n he_o say_v well_o i_o know_v your_o mind_n trouble_v not_o yourself_o for_o i_o i_o think_v i_o may_v say_v that_o i_o have_v be_v long_o above_o the_o fear_n of_o death_n his_o groan_n and_o struggle_n argue_v his_o flesh_n to_o be_v under_o no_o small_a pain_n but_o his_o answer_n to_o inquire_a friend_n certify_v that_o the_o iron_n do_v not_o enter_v his_o soul_n always_o he_o will_v say_v i_o be_o very_a well_o or_o i_o be_v never_o better_o or_o i_o feel_v no_o sickness_n thus_o will_v he_o say_v while_o he_o be_v see_v to_o be_v very_o sensible_a of_o every_o thing_n beside_o pain_n the_o malignant_a distemper_n waste_v his_o natural_a spirit_n he_o can_v speak_v but_o little_a but_o what_o he_o speak_v be_v all_o of_o it_o like_v himself_o have_v feel_v himself_o indispose_v for_o his_o wont_a meditation_n and_o prayer_n he_o thus_o say_v to_o some_o near_o he_o i_o have_v not_o be_v able_a in_o a_o manner_n to_o form_v one_o serious_a thought_n since_o i_o be_v sick_a or_o to_o apply_v myself_o unto_o god_n as_o i_o ought_v but_o though_o i_o have_v not_o be_v able_a to_o apply_v myself_o unto_o god_n he_o have_v apply_v himself_o unto_o i_o and_o one_o of_o his_o manifestation_n be_v such_o as_o i_o can_v have_v bear_v no_o more_o open_v his_o eye_n after_o a_o long_a sleep_n one_o of_o his_o son_n ask_v he_o how_o he_o do_v he_o reply_v never_o better_a do_v you_o know_v i_o say_v the_o son_n unto_o which_o with_o a_o sweet_a smile_n he_o answer_v yes_o yes_o dear_a son_n i_o know_v you_o this_o be_v about_o two_o hour_n before_o his_o ascension_n about_o a_o hour_n after_o it_o he_o cry_v earnest_o help_v help_v for_o the_o lord_n sake_n and_o then_o breathe_v weak_a and_o weak_a he_o soon_o give_v up_o his_o precious_a ghost_n the_o renew_a eagle_n take_v flight_n to_o the_o mountain_n of_o spice_n as_o his_o life_n his_o death_n also_o speak_v and_o whosoever_o have_v ear_n to_o hear_v let_v he_o hear_v what_o the_o spirit_n speak_v by_o both_o of_o they_o unto_o the_o church_n his_o diary_n the_o rich_a treasure_n of_o his_o experience_n be_v not_o at_o hand_n and_o therefore_o can_v as_o yet_o be_v bring_v into_o public_a light_n but_o from_o the_o few_o manuscript_n which_o be_v here_o find_v i_o shall_v add_v some_o hint_n that_o i_o judge_v to_o be_v very_a directive_n and_o incentive_a i_o mean_v unto_o the_o faith_n of_o reliance_n and_o of_o assurance_n in_o which_o he_o be_v so_o eminent_a unto_o the_o love_n of_o god_n and_o man_n wherein_o he_o be_v so_o vigorous_a unto_o meditation_n and_o prayer_n and_o heavenly_a mindedness_n wherein_o he_o be_v so_o grand_a a_o exemplar_n they_o be_v indeed_o but_o hint_n and_o if_o any_o difference_n be_v they_o be_v the_o most_o ordinary_a of_o his_o memorial_n the_o more_o sublime_a and_o extraordinary_a one_o be_v keep_v back_o of_o a_o suspicion_n that_o the_o generality_n of_o good_a and_o honest_a reader_n may_v be_v more_o amuse_v than_o edify_v by_o thing_n so_o stupendous_a and_o so_o very_a much_o out_o of_o the_o common_a road_n of_o christian_a experience_n but_o to_o proceed_v aug._n 16_o 1685._o thus_o he_o write_v i_o find_v some_o sweet_a access_n to_o the_o lord_n in_o the_o morning_n in_o the_o lively_a act_n of_o grace_n and_o after_o i_o have_v this_o day_n set_v down_o some_o remark_n of_o the_o day_n before_o i_o have_v some_o clear_a impress_n of_o this_o since_o thou_o be_v careful_a to_o improve_v thy_o talon_n of_o observation_n more_o shall_v be_v give_v and_o the_o oil_n shall_v not_o fail_v whilst_o there_o be_v vessel_n to_o receive_v and_o now_o o_o the_o sweet_a evening_n of_o this_o same_o day_n when_o in_o the_o outer-walk_a where_o i_o have_v find_v a_o sore_a damp_n for_o some_o time_n the_o door_n be_v as_o it_o be_v cast_v open_a with_o such_o a_o clear_a impart_v
etc._n etc._n 4._o that_o i_o of_o all_o my_o father_n son_n be_v four_o shall_v be_v spare_v when_o the_o other_o three_o be_v so_o promise_v and_o desirable_a above_o i_o and_o shall_v thus_o come_v to_o be_v the_o only_a male-heir_n survive_v of_o such_o a_o stock_n 5._o that_o solemn_a and_o memorable_a day_n of_o the_o communion_n at_o the_o gray-friar_n in_o the_o entry_n of_o the_o year_n 1648._o where_o i_o have_v so_o extraordinary_a a_o sense_n of_o the_o lord_n presence_n yea_o whence_o i_o can_v date_n the_o first_o seal_v evidence_n of_o my_o conversion_n now_o 40_o year_n past_a 6._o the_o lord_n be_v gracious_a and_o signal_n preservation_n and_o deliverance_n give_v i_o at_o dunbar-fight_n 7._o those_o solemn_a time_n and_o near_a approach_n of_o the_o lord_n to_o my_o soul_n the_o first_o at_o the_o elve_n when_o i_o go_v there_o and_o the_o other_o a_o little_a after_o my_o eather_n death_n in_o the_o high-study_n 8._o that_o scripture_n act_v 12._o be_v by_o a_o observable_a providence_n give_v to_o be_v my_o first_o text_n and_o how_o i_o be_v unexpected_o and_o by_o a_o surprisal_n engage_v therein_o 9_o those_o two_o great_a deliverance_n at_o sea_n in_o go_v to_o dundee_n the_o first_o time_n in_o company_n with_o the_o duke_n of_o lauderdale_n the_o other_o time_n in_o company_n with_o mr._n andrew_n grey_n of_o glasgow_n 10._o that_o extraordinary_a dream_n and_o marvellous_a vision_n i_o have_v twice_o repeat_v with_o the_o unexpressible_a joy_n after_o the_o same_o 11._o those_o memorable_a impression_n and_o presage_n about_o my_o health_n when_o it_o seem_v hopeless_a at_o my_o first_o entry_n upon_o the_o ministry_n and_o the_o strange_a expression_n of_o mr._n simpson_n to_o that_o purpose_n at_o new-mill_n 12._o the_o lord_n be_v immediate_a and_o wonderful_a appearance_n for_o i_o in_o my_o first_o entry_n upon_o the_o ministry_n with_o that_o extraordinary_a storm_n on_o the_o day_n of_o my_o ordination_n and_o the_o amaze_a assault_n which_o follow_v the_o same_o in_o what_o befall_v wherein_o satan_n immediate_a appearance_n against_o i_o be_v so_o visible_a 13._o the_o great_a and_o conspicuous_a seal_n give_v to_o my_o ministry_n from_o the_o lord_n in_o the_o conversion_n of_o several_a person_n with_o that_o marvellous_a power_n which_o then_o accompany_v the_o word_n on_o the_o heart_n of_o the_o people_n 14._o that_o signal_n appearance_n of_o the_o lord_n and_o his_o marvellous_a condescendence_n in_o my_o marriage-lot_n and_o in_o the_o whole_a conduct_n of_o the_o same_o 15._o my_o deliverance_n from_o so_o eminent_a hazard_n of_o my_o life_n in_o my_o fall_n from_o my_o horse_n at_o kilmarnock_n 16._o the_o lord_n be_v marvellous_a assistance_n and_o countenance_n at_o the_o two_o communion_n of_o cathcart_n and_o dillop_n with_o that_o great_a enlargement_n i_o have_v at_o the_o last_o of_o these_o place_n at_o the_o last_o table_n 17._o that_o as_o my_o entry_n to_o my_o charge_n be_v with_o so_o bright_a a_o sunshine_n so_o no_o less_o do_v the_o lord_n appear_v at_o my_o part_n from_o that_o place_n wherein_o all_o thing_n do_v meet_v in_o a_o remarkable_a juncture_n to_o make_v the_o same_o both_o honourable_a and_o comfort_v 18._o the_o lord_n be_v special_a providence_n as_o to_o my_o outward_a lot_n after_o my_o removal_n thence_o in_o many_o instance_n that_o way_n 19_o his_o gracious_a spare_v my_o dear_a wife_n so_o long_o when_o her_o life_n be_v in_o such_o hazard_n in_o the_o year_n 65_o and_o 72._o 20._o the_o preservation_n i_o have_v in_o go_v over_o to_o fife_n in_o the_o year_n 72_o with_o the_o solemn_a time_n i_o get_v there_o 21._o that_o dream_n at_o bonssy_n wherein_o i_o get_v such_o express_a warn_v as_o to_o my_o wife_n removal_n with_o the_o lord_n be_v marvellous_a appearance_n and_o presence_n with_o i_o the_o thursday_n after_o at_o st._n johnstown_n 22._o that_o extraordinary_a warn_v i_o get_v again_o of_o my_o dear_a wife_n death_n and_o of_o the_o manner_n of_o it_o at_o london_n in_o the_o year_n 1674._o 23._o those_o two_o remarkable_a scripture-place_n give_v i_o at_o westnisbet_n in_o my_o return_n from_o london_n 1674_o viz._n that_o in_o rom._n 4._o in_o the_o forenoon_n and_o that_o in_o 115_o psalm_n in_o the_o afternoon_n 24._o those_o great_a and_o signal_n confirmation_n give_v i_o at_o my_o wife_n death_n and_o that_o extraordinary_a voice_n so_o distinct_a and_o clear_a which_o i_o have_v a_o few_o night_n after_o her_o death_n 25._o those_o special_a confirmation_n give_v i_o at_o my_o first_o leave_v my_o country_n at_o westnisbet_n ridsdale_n stanton_n and_o the_o first_o at_o sea_n from_o the_o sheils_n 26._o those_o solemn_a passage_n to_o confirm_v my_o faith_n from_o heb._n 11._o and_o exod._n 33._o and_o at_o other_o time_n at_o london_n and_o the_o last_o night_n there_o before_o i_o go_v away_o 27._o those_o extraordinary_a and_o signal_n time_n i_o have_v at_o my_o first_o entry_n at_o rotterdam_n 28._o those_o two_o observable_a providence_n which_o do_v occur_v to_o i_o at_o woerden_n and_o about_o the_o business_n of_o william_n mader_n 29._o the_o marvellous_a sign_n give_v i_o of_o the_o state_n of_o my_o family_n in_o what_o happen_v as_o to_o sudden_a wither_v of_o the_o tree_n and_o its_o extraordinary_a revive_n again_o at_o my_o first_o entry_n into_o my_o first_o house_n in_o rotterdam_n 30._o the_o great_a deliverance_n from_o fire_n in_o the_o high-street_n 31._o the_o special_a providence_n in_o preserve_v my_o son_n from_o perish_v in_o the_o water_n 32._o the_o good_a providence_n in_o return_v my_o diary_n after_o it_o have_v be_v long_o lose_v 33._o that_o surprise_v relief_n when_o cite_v by_o the_o council_n of_o scotland_n to_o appear_v with_o that_o sweet_a resignation_n to_o the_o lord_n which_o i_o have_v then_o under_z so_o pungent_a a_o trial._n 34._o the_o remarkable_a event_n of_o a_o warn_v i_o be_v force_v to_o give_v that_o some_o present_n shall_v be_v call_v away_o by_o death_n before_o the_o next_o lord's-day_n 35._o the_o lord_n be_v immediate_a support_v under_o a_o long_a series_n of_o pungent_a trial_n in_o this_o place_n by_o a_o series_n of_o wonder_n i_o may_v true_o say_v for_o which_o i_o be_o oblige_v in_o a_o singular_a way_n to_o set_v up_o my_o ebenezer_n that_o hitherto_o have_v the_o lord_n help_v 36._o the_o remarkable_a appearance_n of_o the_o lord_n with_o i_o which_o i_o omit_v in_o its_o place_n in_o that_o strange_a providence_n relate_v to_o mr._n moneyenny_n death_n at_o preston-pan_n 37._o that_o most_o solemn_a providence_n and_o wonder_n of_o my_o life_n my_o fall_n under_o the_o york_n coach_n in_o aug._n 1674._o when_o the_o great_a wheel_n go_v over_o my_o leg_n so_o as_o i_o can_v feel_v it_o press_v i_o without_o hurt_v far_o less_o break_v my_o leg_n as_o if_o it_o have_v be_v carry_v thus_o over_o in_o a_o just_a poise_n to_o let_v i_o see_v how_o providence_n watch_v over_o i_o etc._n etc._n 38._o the_o comfort_n god_n give_v i_o in_o my_o child_n and_o those_o extraordinary_a confirmation_n i_o get_v from_o god_n upon_o the_o death_n of_o those_o sweet_a child_n who_o god_n remove_v from_o i_o to_o himself_o now_o go_v reader_n go_v and_o do_v thou_o likewise_o for_o blessed_n be_v that_o servant_n who_o his_o lord_n when_o he_o come_v shall_v find_v so_o do_v mat._n 24.26_o 〈…〉_o to_o the_o memory_n 〈…〉_o reverend_n and_o worthy_a mr_n …_o ere_o it_o fleming_n who_o the_o …_o sed_fw-la july_n 25_o 1694._o by_o a_o friend_n my_o pen_n must_v be_v like_a to_o a_o angel_n quill_n and_o my_o weak_a part_n must_v equalise_v my_o will_n shall_v i_o presume_v he_o full_o to_o set_v forth_o though_o in_o rude_a character_n or_o draw_v his_o worth_n extol_v he_o as_o you_o please_v yet_o still_o you_o shall_v remain_v find_v behind_o this_o be_v not_o all_o renown_a man_n and_o righteous_a be_v this_o day_n o_o sad_a prognostic_n quick_o pluck_v away_o rehold_v how_o fast_o he_o be_v go_v as_o if_o he_o grieve_v enjoy_v of_o his_o life_n whilst_o here_o he_o live_v rare_a fruit_n soon_o pluck_v and_o soul_n to_o ripeness_n grow_v too_o good_a for_o earth_n be_v snatch_v up_o to_o the_o throne_n free_a and_o unbiased_a for_o the_o truth_n he_o stand_v live_v all_o he_o know_v know_v all_o that_o be_v understand_v each_o virtue_n in_o he_o do_v so_o equal_a dwell_v man_n hardly_o can_v perceive_v which_o do_v excel_v in_o endless_a bliss_n he_o be_v now_o whilst_o mournful_a i_o nothing_o can_v think_v but_o how_o he_o pierce_v the_o sky_n g'ot_v into_o heaven_n and_o seem_v amaze_v to_o cry_v review_v o_o behold_v eternity_n rich_a throne_n from_o live_v earthly_a mount_v i'm_n now_o go_v vivacem_fw-la nolo_fw-la dolorem_fw-la sed_fw-la memor_fw-la aeterno_fw-la tempore_fw-la vivat_fw-la amor_fw-la finis_fw-la