jacob_n the_o plain_a man_n wrestle_a with_o god_n unâ—…_n break_v of_o the_o day_n and_o preval_v in_o the_o ligâ—…â—…ereof_o for_o perfect_a victory_n and_o dominign_a over_o esau_n the_o rough_a &_o cunning_a man_n and_o over_o all_o that_o will_v hinder_v he_o from_o go_v up_o to_o bethel_n the_o house_n of_o god_n to_o sacrifice_v unto_o he_o in_o the_o place_n where_o he_o first_o appear_v unto_o he_o whereby_o all_o may_v see_v how_o i_o be_v after_o long_a wrestle_a with_o and_o seek_v the_o lord_n bring_v off_o from_o profess_v and_o preach_v that_o for_o gospel_n which_o make_v not_o free_a from_o sin_n in_o this_o life_n that_o i_o may_v come_v to_o know_v the_o light_n and_o life_n of_o jesus_n manifest_v in_o i_o for_o the_o destroy_a the_o work_n of_o the_o devil_n and_o give_v power_n to_o supplant_v &_o overcome_v all_o that_o will_v hinder_v from_o go_v up_o to_o the_o mountain_n of_o the_o lord_n house_n to_o worship_n and_o serve_v he_o in_o the_o life_n and_o purity_n of_o his_o own_o spirit_n which_o be_v bless_v for_o evermore_o who_o outward_a name_n be_v laurence_n steel_n print_a in_o the_o year_n 1677._o reader_n these_o thing_n be_v require_v of_o i_o to_o give_v forth_o to_o be_v read_v in_o the_o fear_n of_o the_o lord_n which_o if_o keep_v to_o will_v make_v a_o right_a application_n of_o all_o unto_o thy_o own_o estate_n and_o condition_n either_o by_o way_n of_o condemn_v thou_o or_o justify_v of_o thou_o and_o may_v if_o in_o singleness_n of_o heart_n thou_o read_v help_v to_o open_v thy_o understandin_n the_o discern_v of_o these_o thing_n which_o the_o lord_n through_o the_o day_n of_o judgement_n and_o trial_n that_o be_v past_a and_o those_o that_o be_v yet_o to_o come_v have_v and_o will_v more_o and_o more_o supplant_v &_o overturn_v and_o what_o he_o have_v and_o will_v yet_o more_o and_o more_o establish_v and_o exalt_v in_o the_o room_n thereof_o that_o so_o thou_o may_v come_v timely_a to_o escape_v the_o one_o and_o to_o join_v unto_o the_o other_o lest_o the_o day_n of_o the_o lord_n which_o will_v be_v as_o a_o thief_n in_o the_o night_n overtake_v thou_o unaware_o a_o testimony_n to_o the_o gospel_n of_o christ_n jesus_n as_o ancient_o preach_v and_o believe_v in_o by_o the_o primitive_a apostle_n and_o christian_n with_o the_o manner_n of_o my_o come_n to_o witness_n and_o receive_v the_o same_o the_o gospel_n of_o christ_n as_o it_o be_v preach_v and_o witness_v by_o the_o primitive_a christian_n be_v the_o power_n of_o god_n unto_o salvation_n unto_o they_o that_o do_v believe_v in_o which_o gospel_n the_o wrath_n of_o god_n be_v reveal_v from_o heaven_n against_o all_o mark_n all_z ungodliness_n and_o unrighteousness_n of_o man_n who_o hold_v the_o truth_n which_o be_v the_o gospel_n that_o shall_v save_v they_o in_o unrighteousness_n so_o the_o truth_n be_v in_o unrighteous_a man_n and_o testify_v against_o their_o unrighteousness_n in_o which_o it_o be_v by_o they_o hold_v down_o and_o imprison_v which_o keep_v they_o from_o witness_v deliverance_n thereby_o and_o in_o this_o gospel_n there_o be_v no_o glad-tiding_n to_o any_o in_o unrighteousness_n nor_o justification_n in_o ungodliness_n but_o wrath_n reveal_v against_o it_o and_o abide_v upon_o all_o such_o as_o hold_v the_o truth_n therein_o until_o they_o come_v to_o bow_v to_o the_o wrath_n of_o god_n which_o be_v reveal_v in_o they_o for_o the_o cut_n down_o of_o all_o unrighteousness_n and_o ungodliness_n and_o for_o the_o free_n of_o the_o truth_n which_o be_v hold_v therein_o and_o such_o come_v through_o the_o righteous_a judgement_n of_o god_n to_o know_v that_o righteousness_n which_o be_v christ_n the_o power_n of_o god_n to_o be_v reveal_v for_o the_o remove_n and_o take_v away_o of_o the_o wrath_n that_o be_v upon_o they_o and_o the_o bring_v they_o to_o life_n and_o justification_n who_o be_v hereby_o make_v witness_n that_o what_o may_v be_v know_v of_o god_n viz._n of_o his_o eternal_a power_n to_o sanctify_v and_o redeem_v out_o of_o sin_n and_o unrighteousness_n be_v manifest_a in_o they_o for_o god_n have_v show_v it_o unto_o they_o to_o be_v his_o gospel_n and_o power_n unto_o salvation_n who_o do_v come_v from_o hold_v of_o the_o truth_n in_o unrighteousness_n to_o hold_v this_o mystery_n of_o faith_n in_o a_o pure_a conscience_n so_o this_o gospel_n of_o christ_n which_o be_v a_o mystery_n be_v manifest_v or_o show_v to_o the_o primitive_a saint_n to_o be_v within_o and_o how_o be_v it_o show_v not_o by_o tradition_n from_o man_n or_o any_o outward_a letter_n but_o by_o revelation_n therefore_o it_o be_v say_v the_o wrath_n of_o god_n be_v reveal_v mark_n and_o the_o righteousness_n of_o god_n be_v reveal_v and_o paul_n call_v the_o gospel_n which_o he_o receive_v not_o by_o tradition_n from_o any_o the_o revelation_n mark_v of_o his_o son_n in_o he_o and_o how_o be_v it_o that_o christ_n come_v to_o be_v reveal_v in_o paul_n but_o by_o the_o light_n which_o exceed_v the_o brightness_n of_o the_o sun_n the_o outward_a natural_a light_n which_o light_n be_v the_o appearance_n of_o jesus_n of_o nazareth_n which_o also_o inward_o show_v he_o and_o prick_v he_o for_o his_o persecution_n which_o he_o see_v not_o nor_o be_v not_o judge_v for_o by_o the_o outward_a letter_n of_o the_o law_n according_a to_o which_o he_o be_v blameless_a and_o paul_n be_v thus_o meet_v with_o and_o stop_v by_o a_o great_a power_n and_o authority_n then_o that_o by_o which_o he_o be_v before_o act_v it_o be_v hard_o for_o he_o to_o kick_v against_o the_o prick_n of_o this_o light_n but_o he_o fall_v down_o both_o he_o and_o his_o companion_n with_o their_o commission_n from_o the_o high_a priest_n and_o all_o their_o letter_n knowledge_n before_o this_o light_n of_o jesus_n which_o be_v great_a than_o all_o and_o here_o paul_n lie_v until_o the_o light_n that_o strike_v he_o down_o say_v unto_o he_o stand_v up_o and_o in_o the_o rise_n up_o after_o he_o have_v know_v the_o inward_a prick_n and_o terror_n of_o the_o lord_n he_o come_v to_o receive_v a_o power_n and_o commission_n to_o turn_v the_o people_n from_o darkness_n unto_o the_o light_n which_o he_o elsewhere_o call_v the_o revelation_n of_o christ_n in_o he_o and_o when_o the_o saint_n hear_v that_o paul_n preach_v of_o and_o by_o virtue_n from_o christ_n reveal_v in_o he_o which_o gospel_n he_o once_o seek_v to_o destroy_v they_o glorify_a god_n in_o he_o mark_n in_o he_o and_o this_o be_v and_o be_v the_o true_a gospel_n and_o the_o manner_n of_o the_o saint_n receive_v of_o it_o viz._n by_o revelation_n not_o by_o tradition_n from_o man_n or_o write_n and_o if_o a_o angel_n from_o heaven_n shall_v bring_v any_o other_o gospel_n he_o be_v to_o be_v accurse_v and_o this_o be_v and_o be_v the_o true_a foundation_n other_o than_o which_o no_o man_n can_v lay_v upon_o which_o the_o ancient_a christian_n build_v their_o hope_n of_o glory_n viz._n christ_n in_o they_o which_o be_v not_o another_o then_o jesus_n of_o nazareth_n who_o be_v with_o they_o and_o now_o come_v to_o be_v manifest_a in_o they_o for_o the_o destroy_n of_o the_o work_n of_o the_o enemy_n that_o so_o he_o and_o his_o work_n be_v cast_v out_o the_o seed_n of_o god_n which_o be_v christ_n the_o great_a power_n may_v only_o remain_v in_o perfect_a dominion_n and_o possession_n of_o the_o heart_n out_o of_o the_o good_a treasure_n whereof_o good_a fruit_n and_o work_n be_v to_o be_v bring_v forth_o to_o his_o glory_n who_o be_v bless_v forever_o now_o this_o gospel_n of_o christ_n i_o can_v not_o meet_v with_o or_o hear_v preach_v in_o any_o of_o the_o profession_n that_o i_o be_v conversant_a in_o who_o faith_n be_v that_o revelation_n be_v cease_v and_o that_o there_o be_v not_o a_o total_a cessation_n from_o sin_n which_o be_v the_o work_n of_o the_o devil_n attainable_a in_o this_o life_n nor_o no_o such_o grace_n or_o light_n give_v to_o mankind_n by_o which_o they_o may_v come_v to_o deny_v all_o ungodliness_n and_o all_o worldly_a lust_n but_o that_o if_o the_o conversation_n be_v reform_v yet_o there_o will_v be_v lust_n and_o sin_n still_o remain_v within_o to_o the_o life_n end_n from_o the_o commission_n whereof_o none_o can_v be_v full_o free_v by_o any_o power_n or_o strength_n which_o god_n have_v give_v on_o this_o side_n the_o grave_a nor_o do_v i_o receive_v this_o gospel_n by_o tradition_n from_o man_n or_o any_o write_n learn_v or_o wisdom_n of_o my_o own_o but_o from_o the_o live_a god_n who_o separate_v i_o for_o his_o service_n from_o the_o womb_n and_o place_v his_o fear_n in_o i_o which_o incline_v i_o in_o the_o begin_n of_o my_o day_n to_o seek_v his_o glory_n &_o honour_n above_o the_o pleasure_n of_o this_o
testimony_n and_o declaration_n and_o be_v a_o witness_n of_o the_o life_n and_o power_n that_o accompany_v mean_o illiterate_a person_n such_o as_o the_o first_o that_o i_o hear_v be_v i_o be_v the_o more_o join_v unto_o they_o who_o prayer_n and_o supplication_n be_v more_o prevalent_a to_o bring_v i_o unto_o and_o keep_v i_o in_o the_o light_n than_o all_o the_o prayer_n and_o fast_n of_o those_o that_o deny_v its_o guidance_n be_v to_o keep_v i_o from_o it_o thus_o according_a to_o my_o earnest_n desire_v to_o the_o lord_n to_o bring_v forth_o the_o work_n which_o he_o will_v establish_v in_o the_o room_n of_o that_o which_o he_o have_v pull_v down_o before_o i_o go_v out_o of_o that_o family_n i_o be_v for_o about_o 2_o week_n among_o they_o in_o a_o testimony_n to_o the_o truth_n in_o the_o rise_n of_o which_o i_o feel_v more_o and_o more_o freedom_n to_o be_v witness_v from_o my_o soul_n enemy_n and_o a_o draw_v i_o again_o into_o a_o watchfulness_n over_o my_o own_o thought_n word_n and_o action_n that_o nothing_o may_v arise_v or_o work_v in_o my_o heart_n but_o what_o be_v of_o god_n who_o be_v now_o come_v to_o judge_v down_o every_o evil_a thought_n and_o inclination_n in_o the_o first_o motion_n and_o rise_v of_o it_o so_o that_o though_o there_o be_v a_o abatement_n of_o that_o bodily_a exercise_n which_o profit_v not_o yet_o there_o be_v a_o increase_n of_o inward_a exercise_n to_o keep_v a_o conscience_n void_a of_o offence_n not_o only_o in_o the_o sight_n of_o man_n who_o look_v at_o the_o outward_a appearance_n but_o also_o in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n that_o search_v the_o heart_n and_o in_o that_o family_n i_o meet_v with_o much_o christian-like_a forbearance_n &_o tenderness_n not_o out_o of_o any_o respect_n to_o the_o people_n and_o principle_n which_o they_o esteem_v too_o mean_a and_o low_a but_o out_o of_o respect_n to_o that_o uprightness_n which_o they_o believe_v to_o be_v in_o i_o and_o now_o the_o time_n of_o our_o part_a be_v come_v in_o which_o i_o must_v leave_v they_o which_o because_o of_o that_o love_n and_o endearedness_n that_o have_v be_v between_o we_o it_o be_v hard_a to_o do_v but_o that_o my_o heart_n be_v take_v up_o with_o christ_n be_v come_v to_o receive_v i_o to_o himself_o and_o to_o dwell_v and_o walk_v in_o i_o as_o his_o house_n and_o temple_n for_o which_o end_n he_o have_v separate_v &_o call_v i_o out_o from_o all_o that_o be_v defile_v and_o since_o i_o can_v no_o long_o perform_v the_o office_n of_o a_o chaplain_n as_o it_o be_v expect_v of_o i_o which_o if_o i_o can_v they_o desire_v no_o other_o they_o be_v willing_a to_o give_v i_o satisfaction_n according_a to_o our_o agreement_n for_o the_o time_n that_o i_o have_v be_v among_o they_o upon_o a_o double_a account_n viz._n of_o tutour_v their_o child_n and_o of_o preach_v as_o to_o the_o teach_v the_o child_n i_o be_v free_a to_o take_v consideration_n but_o as_o for_o preach_v notwithstanding_o the_o money_n be_v tell_v out_o and_o i_o be_v urge_v and_o press_v to_o receive_v it_o i_o be_v forbid_v by_o the_o lord_n to_o take_v any_o and_o so_o leave_v it_o but_o to_o clear_v the_o family_n of_o all_o suspicion_n &_o jealousy_n that_o may_v arise_v in_o any_o touch_v the_o ground_n of_o my_o leave_v they_o i_o consent_v upon_o the_o first_o motion_n thereof_o to_o leave_v a_o certificate_n signify_v to_o all_o that_o may_v be_v concern_v that_o i_o leave_v the_o family_n only_o upon_o the_o account_n of_o some_o high_a discovery_n of_o truth_n on_o my_o part_n not_o apprehend_v it_o to_o be_v the_o will_n of_o the_o lord_n to_o be_v worship_v any_o otherwise_o then_o in_o spirit_n and_o truth_n and_o that_o as_o to_o outward_a encouragement_n they_o rather_o exceed_v than_o come_v short_a of_o my_o expectation_n and_o thus_o in_o pure_a love_n and_o desire_n of_o the_o spiritual_a welfare_n of_o every_o one_o i_o leave_v that_o family_n which_o next_o to_o my_o own_o relation_n be_v dear_a to_o i_o who_o have_v a_o full_a sight_n and_o experience_n of_o my_o conversation_n as_o to_o the_o work_n and_o deal_n of_o the_o lord_n with_o i_o in_o that_o day_n this_o be_v about_o the_o seven_o month_n of_o the_o year_n 1673._o after_o which_o i_o come_v forward_o to_o my_o relation_n among_o who_o i_o know_v not_o one_o that_o be_v incline_v to_o the_o truth_n who_o may_v stand_v with_o i_o in_o a_o testimony_n for_o it_o but_o all_o oppose_v it_o and_o join_v with_o their_o teacher_n against_o it_o with_o who_o notwithstanding_o as_o i_o stand_v innocent_o in_o the_o counsel_n of_o god_n which_o lead_v i_o to_o yield_v true_a submission_n and_o honour_n to_o they_o next_o to_o himself_o i_o find_v way_n make_v for_o my_o reception_n and_o also_o open_v the_o heart_n of_o his_o people_n unto_o i_o to_o who_o i_o be_v a_o stranger_n but_o as_o the_o lord_n give_v they_o a_o sense_n of_o that_o upright_a desire_n of_o truth_n and_o righteousness_n which_o only_o bring_v i_o among_o they_o in_o who_o meeting_n i_o wait_v as_o one_o of_o the_o mean_a and_o low_a of_o they_o for_o about_o twelve_o month_n sit_v under_o the_o dropping_n and_o distillings_n of_o that_o life_n and_o power_n which_o the_o lord_n be_v please_v to_o sill_z other_o with_o in_o the_o meeting_n &_o to_o grow_v daily_o more_o and_o more_o as_o it_o be_v daily_o my_o endeavour_n in_o the_o inward_a experience_n of_o the_o redeem_v purify_n and_o quicken_a virtue_n of_o the_o truth_n which_o in_o the_o sense_n of_o that_o love_n of_o god_n in_o bring_v i_o among_o this_o people_n to_o eat_v of_o the_o bread_n of_o life_n when_o so_o many_o wise_a and_o prudent_a be_v leave_v behind_o feed_v upon_o husk_n often_o break_v my_o heart_n and_o cause_v desire_n in_o i_o that_o i_o may_v never_o more_o appear_v out_o of_o the_o live_a stir_n and_o move_n of_o the_o spirit_n &_o life_n of_o christ_n nor_o stay_v behind_o it_o when_o it_o do_v move_v after_o which_o it_o please_v the_o lord_n in_o his_o own_o time_n according_a to_o my_o own_o and_o other_o travail_n and_o supplication_n to_o cause_v his_o life_n to_o break_v forth_o in_o i_o sometime_o in_o a_o few_o word_n of_o prayer_n sometime_o of_o exhortation_n in_o which_o the_o lord_n give_v i_o power_n and_o faithfulness_n to_o ease_v myself_o and_o my_o word_n return_v not_o to_o i_o again_o but_o have_v entrance_n and_o as_o i_o keep_v low_a and_o humble_a give_v honour_n and_o glory_n to_o christ_n alone_o in_o his_o appearance_n so_o i_o selt_z the_o increase_n of_o that_o authority_n and_o life_n which_o make_v way_n in_o the_o heart_n of_o they_o to_o who_o i_o be_v send_v in_o who_o conscience_n it_o be_v my_o desire_n to_o stand_v recommend_v and_o to_o be_v feel_v of_o they_o who_o be_v in_o life_n as_o a_o savour_n of_o life_n unto_o life_n and_o thus_o the_o lord_n have_v raise_v i_o up_o and_o spare_v i_o through_o much_o weakness_n and_o labour_n unto_o this_o day_n to_o see_v the_o desire_n of_o my_o soul_n accomplish_v in_o great_a measure_n according_a to_o my_o faith_n when_o i_o first_o lay_v down_o my_o ministry_n i_o do_v still_o wait_v in_o submission_n to_o the_o will_n of_o the_o lord_n for_o the_o day_n when_o that_o breathe_a seed_n of_o god_n which_o be_v yet_o leave_v in_o the_o dead_a and_o lifeless_a profession_n may_v become_v ripe_a for_o the_o harvest_n then_o shall_v there_o be_v no_o want_n of_o reaper_n who_o shall_v put_v in_o their_o sickle_n and_o gather_v they_o into_o the_o house_n which_o god_n have_v provide_v for_o to_o receive_v all_o that_o be_v low_a and_o poor_a in_o their_o own_o eye_n for_o want_v of_o power_n and_o strength_n to_o overcome_v that_o which_o let_v &_o hinder_v their_o perfect_a redemption_n into_o which_o house_n god_n have_v call_v i_o as_o a_o forerunner_n of_o thousand_o that_o be_v yet_o ungathered_a unto_o which_o be_v come_v up_o i_o can_v go_v back_o or_o down_o unto_o they_o but_o can_v free_o serve_v the_o low_a of_o they_o by_o live_a supplication_n to_o the_o great_a shepherd_n of_o the_o sheep_n for_o the_o bring_v they_o into_o that_o fold_n where_o he_o make_v his_o flock_n that_o be_v weary_v and_o drive_v from_o mountain_n to_o hill_n to_o rest_v at_o noon_n in_o the_o bosom_n of_o their_o belove_a who_o tent_n they_o need_v no_o long_o inquire_v after_o or_o go_v to_o the_o watch_n man_n of_o the_o night_n for_o direction_n but_o by_o the_o light_n of_o the_o lord_n be_v they_o bring_v up_o to_o bethel_n the_o house_n of_o the_o god_n of_o jacob_n where_o they_o desire_v forever_o to_o dwell_v and_o offer_v unto_o the_o god_n of_o their_o redemption_n victory_n
world_n and_o by_o the_o riches_n of_o his_o free_a grace_n draw_v i_o out_o of_o those_o way_n in_o which_o many_o child_n be_v walk_v to_o their_o destruction_n so_o that_o in_o the_o feel_n of_o the_o moving_n and_o strive_n of_o his_o spirit_n which_o i_o plain_o remember_v from_o the_o six_o and_o seven_o year_n of_o my_o age_n i_o often_o leave_v my_o companion_n and_o recreation_n that_o i_o be_v engage_v with_o to_o seek_v some_o place_n for_o prayer_n and_o for_o the_o ease_n of_o my_o heart_n unto_o he_o fear_v that_o if_o i_o answer_v not_o his_o call_n at_o that_o time_n i_o shall_v not_o feel_v the_o same_o draw_v afterward_o which_o sometime_o i_o find_v to_o my_o sorrow_n and_o the_o same_o power_n constrain_v i_o to_o cry_v to_o he_o to_o acquaint_v i_o with_o himself_o and_o to_o convert_v i_o from_o every_o evil_a way_n and_o work_n which_o i_o be_v prone_a to_o that_o i_o may_v gain_v other_o unto_o he_o and_o if_o he_o call_v i_o to_o it_o dye_v for_o he_o as_o i_o read_v many_o of_o the_o martyr_n who_o be_v weak_a in_o themselves_o he_o enable_v to_o do_v and_o be_v devote_v to_o the_o ministry_n from_o my_o birth_n by_o my_o parent_n who_o be_v zealous_a professor_n of_o the_o independant-way_n they_o spare_v no_o pain_n to_o instruct_v i_o in_o the_o principle_n of_o that_o religion_n nor_o any_o cost_n for_o the_o educate_v of_o i_o in_o the_o knowledge_n of_o that_o learning_n that_o be_v esteem_v requisite_a for_o that_o work_n so_o that_o about_o the_o twelve_o year_n of_o my_o age_n i_o be_v place_v abroad_o with_o other_o child_n at_o the_o school_n by_o who_o example_n and_o importunity_n i_o be_v draw_v to_o spend_v my_o leisure-hour_n in_o those_o sport_n and_o pastime_n which_o be_v account_v harmless_a and_o by_o reason_n of_o my_o earnestness_n therein_o i_o neglect_v to_o answer_v the_o moving_n of_o the_o spirit_n of_o god_n which_o be_v near_o i_o and_o will_v often_o have_v keep_v i_o back_o from_o go_v with_o they_o who_o vain_a word_n and_o action_n be_v a_o burden_n to_o i_o or_o else_o will_v have_v take_v i_o off_o sometime_o in_o the_o midst_n of_o my_o play_n and_o call_v i_o to_o seek_v the_o lord_n for_o my_o soul_n the_o motion_n of_o which_o be_v day_n after_o day_n quench_v by_o my_o disobedience_n until_o as_o to_o my_o feel_n it_o have_v cease_v to_o strive_v with_o i_o so_o that_o when_o i_o go_v to_o pray_v or_o seek_v the_o lord_n my_o heart_n be_v shut_v up_o and_o my_o word_n return_v unto_o i_o again_o and_o i_o stand_v as_o one_o smite_v before_o the_o lord_n not_o be_v able_a many_o time_n to_o utter_v or_o bring_v forth_o a_o word_n because_o of_o the_o gild_n and_o condemnation_n that_o be_v upon_o i_o when_o i_o come_v to_o be_v retire_v from_o my_o companion_n which_o gild_n i_o heap_v up_o for_o some_o year_n until_o the_o reckon_a be_v high_a between_o i_o and_o the_o lord_n who_o judgement_n and_o indignation_n so_o seize_v upon_o i_o at_o last_o as_o that_o i_o know_v not_o but_o i_o be_v forsake_v forever_o and_o have_v sin_v out_o the_o day_n of_o my_o visitation_n and_o will_v have_v bow_v to_o any_o term_n for_o the_o heast_n hope_v of_o mercy_n or_o escape_v the_o torment_n of_o hell_n that_o be_v before_o i_o or_o for_o the_o obtain_v the_o stir_a and_o strive_n of_o the_o spirit_n of_o god_n with_o i_o as_o former_o i_o have_v feel_v it_o but_o my_o cry_n seem_v to_o be_v shut_v out_o so_o that_o my_o life_n become_v a_o burden_n to_o i_o and_o all_o that_o i_o enjoy_v be_v embitter_v by_o the_o wrath_n and_o judgement_n of_o the_o lord_n which_o follow_v i_o wheresoever_o i_o go_v or_o whatsoever_o i_o do_v so_o that_o there_o be_v no_o struggle_v with_o it_o or_o divert_v of_o it_o which_o bring_v a_o waste_v and_o consumption_n upon_o my_o body_n which_o i_o never_o full_o recover_v to_o this_o time_n &_o this_o continue_a for_o many_o month_n in_o which_o i_o scarce_o open_v my_o heart_n to_o any_o but_o the_o lord_n who_o through_o his_o chastizement_n and_o rebuke_n in_o which_o i_o do_v partake_v in_o measure_n with_o christ_n in_o his_o suffer_v &_o baptism_n bring_v i_o by_o his_o word_n of_o power_n to_o some_o hope_n of_o mercy_n and_o escape_v of_o his_o wrath_n not_o by_o justify_v of_o i_o in_o my_o sin_n but_o cleanse_v i_o in_o measure_n from_o sin_n and_o the_o love_n of_o it_o which_o tiding_n be_v more_o precious_a to_o i_o then_o the_o gain_n of_o the_o whole_a world_n though_o my_o body_n be_v leave_v very_o weak_a and_o my_o strength_n decay_v which_o in_o time_n be_v by_o the_o same_o word_n restore_v to_o the_o admiration_n of_o my_o relation_n and_o acquaintance_n that_o know_v i_o in_o my_o sickness_n and_o now_o my_o fear_n and_o distrust_n be_v banish_v by_o the_o rise_n of_o the_o life_n &_o spirit_n of_o god_n in_o i_o which_o wrought_v more_o frequent_o and_o powerful_o then_o before_o draw_v i_o into_o great_a watchfulness_n over_o my_o thought_n word_n and_o action_n and_o into_o a_o high_a abstinence_n from_o the_o pleasure_n and_o delight_n of_o this_o world_n move_v i_o to_o reprove_v such_o as_o dishonour_v the_o name_n of_o the_o lord_n or_o do_v offend_v &_o grieve_v his_o spirit_n by_o the_o misspend_v time_n in_o vanity_n in_o which_o i_o spare_v no_o relation_n or_o other_o and_o oftentimes_o i_o be_v constrain_v to_o warn_n and_o reprove_v profane_a and_o wanton_a people_n upon_o the_o road_n and_o to_o ease_v myself_o in_o evil_a company_n by_o cry_v to_o the_o lord_n which_o bring_v a_o fear_n and_o dread_a upon_o they_o and_o none_o dare_v to_o withstand_v the_o power_n that_o be_v with_o i_o in_o any_o reproof_n prayer_n or_o exhortation_n which_o be_v administer_v in_o the_o denial_n of_o my_o own_o will_n in_o which_o i_o never_o go_v without_o a_o certain_a reward_n of_o peace_n in_o my_o bosom_n which_o be_v the_o best_a time_n that_o ever_o i_o know_v before_o the_o truth_n be_v clear_o manifest_v to_o i_o when_o i_o be_v not_o yet_o settle_v in_o any_o form_n or_o profession_n or_o observe_v any_o stint_a time_n or_o way_n of_o pray_v or_o seek_v the_o lord_n but_o as_o by_o his_o spirit_n he_o move_v upon_o my_o heart_n at_o home_o or_o abroad_o to_o cry_v unto_o he_o i_o obey_v wonder_v and_o admire_v what_o that_o be_v which_o be_v so_o sweet_a and_o pleasant_a in_o its_o income_n and_o draw_v i_o into_o a_o daily_a wait_v for_o it_o as_o my_o life_n and_o by_o which_o i_o be_v break_v and_o tender_v in_o the_o receive_n of_o every_o mercy_n and_o blessing_n as_o from_o the_o lord_n and_o burden_a and_o wound_v with_o what_o be_v dead_a and_o unsavoury_a after_o which_o i_o be_v stir_v up_o to_o seek_v after_o a_o people_n with_o who_o i_o may_v have_v unity_n in_o the_o feel_n of_o the_o same_o life_n and_o experience_n of_o the_o same_o work_n which_o i_o have_v pass_v through_o and_o in_o the_o zeal_n of_o my_o heart_n as_o one_o raise_v from_o the_o dead_a that_o diligent_o mind_v the_o improvement_n of_o the_o time_n that_o i_o be_v entrust_v with_o i_o neglect_v no_o opportunity_n in_o all_o season_n and_o wether_n without_o regard_v the_o health_n of_o my_o body_n to_o go_v to_o hear_v such_o as_o be_v esteem_v lively_a awaken_n preacher_n first_o of_o the_o presbyterian_o and_o then_o of_o the_o independent_n unto_o who_o i_o join_v myself_o as_o a_o member_n among_o who_o i_o feel_v a_o measure_n of_o the_o stir_n of_o the_o power_n of_o god_n which_o bring_v terror_n upon_o the_o ungodly_a and_o seize_v many_o that_o be_v loose_a and_o vain_a with_o a_o sense_n of_o their_o iniquity_n and_o make_v they_o cry_v out_o under_o it_o and_o raise_v those_o hungering_n and_o thirsting_n after_o righteousness_n which_o cause_v many_o to_o break_v forth_o in_o earnest_a cry_n and_o supplication_n unto_o god_n for_o deliverance_n from_o the_o bond_n of_o sin_n and_o iniquity_n which_o be_v become_v burdensome_a unto_o they_o &_o for_o the_o obtain_n of_o that_o righteousness_n which_o be_v more_o precious_a in_o their_o eye_n then_o the_o glory_n and_o pleasure_n of_o the_o world_n which_o they_o seem_v dead_a unto_o for_o a_o time_n and_o with_o this_o work_n i_o have_v unity_n and_o delight_v to_o be_v with_o this_o people_n in_o the_o day_n of_o their_o tenderness_n and_o to_o spend_v time_n in_o prayer_n and_o conference_n with_o they_o after_o which_o as_o we_o come_v to_o settle_v in_o the_o form_n and_o to_o stint_v and_o limit_v the_o spirit_n of_o god_n so_o i_o perceive_v a_o die_a to_o the_o life_n that_o move_v and_o buble_v up_o in_o we_o and_o cause_v we_o
hill_n up_o to_o the_o house_n of_o god_n where_o the_o god_n of_o jacob_n teach_v and_o give_v forth_o his_o word_n and_o law_n which_o be_v not_o the_o light_n of_o man_n dictate_v or_o example_n but_o the_o light_n of_o the_o god_n of_o jacob_n by_o which_o jacob_n walk_v and_o be_v teach_v to_o supplant_v &_o overcome_v so_o that_o as_o this_o mountain_n come_v to_o be_v establish_v on_o the_o top_n of_o all_o the_o mountain_n and_o hill_n so_o the_o light_n also_o shall_v be_v establish_v and_o exalt_v on_o the_o top_n of_o all_o the_o foundation_n rule_n and_o principle_n of_o the_o mountain_n that_o walk_v by_o tradition_n the_o sufficiency_n of_o which_o light_n shall_v not_o be_v only_o manifest_v by_o the_o benefit_n of_o they_o that_o walk_v therein_o but_o by_o the_o forsake_v of_o those_o that_o shall_v reject_v and_o despise_v it_o the_o cause_n of_o which_o shall_v be_v their_o be_v fill_v and_o replenish_v with_o something_o else_o end_n read_v ver_fw-la 6._o to_o the_o end_n so_o that_o there_o shall_v be_v no_o more_o room_n to_o receive_v christ_n in_o his_o spiritual_a appearance_n as_o a_o light_n then_o there_o be_v room_n in_o the_o inn_n which_o be_v fill_v and_o replenish_v with_o other_o guest_n to_o receive_v he_o in_o his_o outward_a appearance_n because_o of_o which_o god_n will_v cause_v his_o judgement_n and_o rebuke_n to_o pass_v upon_o the_o treasure_n and_o idol_n and_o glory_n of_o the_o mountain_n which_o have_v replenish_v and_o fill_v up_o their_o heart_n so_o as_o to_o stain_v their_o glory_n until_o he_o have_v leave_v they_o not_o a_o staff_n or_o a_o stay_n to_o lean_v upon_o &_o have_v cause_v the_o mark_n of_o his_o displeasure_n to_o pass_v upon_o the_o mighty_a man_n the_o man_n of_o war_n the_o captain_n of_o fifty_o the_o judge_n the_o prophet_n the_o prudent_a the_o counsellor_n the_o cunning_a artificer_n and_o eloquent_a orator_n so_o that_o no_o rank_n or_o degree_n of_o man_n that_o have_v despise_v this_o mountain_n or_o light_n shall_v be_v able_a by_o all_o their_o power_n &_o prudence_n art_n or_o cunning_a to_o escape_v the_o stroke_n of_o the_o god_n of_o jacob_n who_o be_v come_v forth_o in_o his_o spiritual_a host_n &_o army_n to_o supplant_v and_o overturn_v until_o the_o lofty_a look_n of_o man_n that_o look_v scornful_o upon_o this_o people_n and_o light_n as_o esau_n do_v upon_o jacob_n be_v bring_v low_a and_o his_o haughtiness_n be_v abase_v and_o he_o make_v of_o no_o account_n that_o so_o the_o god_n of_o jacob_n may_v alone_o be_v reverence_v and_o exalt_v in_o his_o own_o house_n and_o people_n and_o there_o be_v no_o mountain_n house_n or_o principle_n leave_v to_o stand_v in_o competition_n with_o he_o thus_o be_v the_o second_o time_n ransom_v through_o judgement_n and_o the_o way_n of_o the_o lord_n so_o plain_o open_v unto_o i_o i_o can_v no_o long_o delay_v seek_v out_o some_o of_o the_o people_n here_o describe_v who_o i_o be_v convince_v be_v come_v but_o i_o know_v not_o where_o to_o find_v but_o as_o the_o lord_n put_v it_o into_o my_o heart_n to_o go_v to_o such_o a_o professor_n house_n and_o desire_v he_o to_o send_v for_o one_o of_o the_o people_n call_v quaker_n which_o i_o do_v and_o when_o i_o come_v to_o he_o and_o inquire_v of_o he_o concern_v that_o people_n he_o tell_v i_o there_o be_v in_o that_o village_n but_o three_o or_o four_o family_n of_o poor_a inconsiderable_a people_n that_o be_v mean_a in_o ability_n and_o that_o the_o man_n be_v at_o harvest_n but_o their_o wife_n be_v at_o home_o so_o i_o send_v for_o one_o of_o they_o who_o when_o she_o come_v i_o take_v strict_a notice_n of_o her_o carriage_n and_o word_n and_o when_o i_o have_v discourse_v with_o she_o about_o the_o light_n of_o christ_n which_o they_o profess_v in_o they_o and_o what_o benefit_n they_o reap_v by_o walk_v in_o it_o to_o overcome_v their_o spiritual_a enemy_n and_o to_o work_v salvation_n for_o they_o her_o testimony_n so_o suit_v to_o what_o the_o lord_n have_v before_o show_v unto_o i_o and_o the_o gravity_n and_o saviour_n of_o her_o language_n and_o deportment_n be_v such_o counsel_v i_o to_o mind_v the_o truth_n in_o i_o which_o will_v bring_v i_o further_o as_o i_o keep_v low_a and_o obedient_a to_o the_o cross_n of_o christ_n jesus_n for_o that_o the_o lord_n have_v a_o further_a work_n in_o his_o due_a time_n to_o do_v in_o i_o and_o by_o i_o which_o advice_n be_v of_o god_n so_o that_o i_o can_v not_o but_o confess_v to_o the_o wisdom_n she_o be_v guide_v by_o which_o i_o esteem_v the_o more_o for_o her_o outward_a meanness_n and_o plainness_n and_o afterward_o as_o i_o discourse_v with_o her_o husband_n a_o plain_a man_n in_o his_o return_n from_o labour_n i_o find_v that_o their_o whole_a stay_n and_o support_n be_v in_o the_o spirit_n of_o the_o lord_n who_o teach_n and_o leading_n they_o wait_v for_o at_o all_o time_n to_o guide_v they_o out_o of_o all_o evil_a thought_n word_n and_o work_n into_o all_o truth_n in_o which_o god_n alone_o be_v worship_v which_o testimony_n best_o reach_v my_o conscience_n and_o answer_v the_o spirit_n of_o truth_n in_o my_o own_o heart_n the_o manner_n of_o who_o stir_v &_o move_n from_o a_o child_n and_o of_o its_o be_v quench_v and_o come_v to_o be_v raise_v again_o i_o have_v before_o declare_v of_o concern_v which_o i_o never_o meet_v with_o any_o that_o testify_v so_o feel_o and_o experimental_o of_o the_o inward_a work_n of_o redemption_n and_o regeneration_n by_o christ_n jesus_n in_o the_o sense_n of_o which_o my_o heart_n be_v upon_o the_o first_o meet_v firm_o unite_v to_o they_o so_o as_o from_o that_o time_n not_o to_o look_v back_o any_o more_o unto_o any_o thing_n the_o lord_n have_v call_v i_o out_o of_o but_o resolve_v to_o take_v up_o my_o lot_n with_o they_o which_o i_o signify_v to_o my_o relation_n and_o when_o i_o return_v in_o the_o evening_n from_o this_o plain_a people_n and_o come_v in_o before_o the_o counsellor_n and_o his_o wife_n with_o my_o usual_a language_n and_o deportment_n which_o be_v out_o of_o the_o cross_n of_o christ_n which_o i_o know_v be_v unlike_a to_o the_o plain_a language_n of_o the_o scripture_n and_o behaviour_n of_o christ_n and_o his_o apostle_n i_o be_v soon_o reprove_v for_o respect_n of_o person_n and_o lose_v my_o peace_n and_o life_n that_o be_v raise_v in_o i_o and_o so_o go_v to_o my_o bed_n under_o judgement_n cry_v unto_o the_o lord_n not_o to_o withhold_v his_o peace_n and_o comfort_n from_o i_o nor_o to_o let_v this_o put_v any_o stop_n to_o what_o he_o intent_a further_n to_o make_v know_v unto_o i_o promise_v to_o obey_v he_o if_o he_o will_v spare_v i_o to_o the_o morning_n which_o when_o i_o be_v rise_v and_o have_v seat_v myself_o the_o counsellour_n wife_n who_o i_o well_o esteem_v and_o respect_v come_v into_o the_o chamber_n unto_o who_o because_o of_o the_o fear_n of_o the_o lord_n i_o use_v that_o plain_a language_n and_o department_n which_o i_o be_v convince_v of_o in_o which_o though_o it_o may_v seem_v as_o a_o small_a thing_n i_o have_v great_a joy_n and_o peace_n and_o when_o i_o be_v ask_v the_o occasion_n of_o that_o change_n and_o alteration_n that_o be_v in_o i_o i_o tell_v she_o to_o this_o effect_n that_o i_o be_v now_o confirm_v by_o converse_n that_o the_o people_n which_o i_o preach_v of_o to_o be_v the_o house_n of_o jacob_n the_o plain_a man_n be_v come_v the_o way_n of_o who_o supplant_n shall_v be_v by_o that_o which_o seem_v foelishness_n and_o simplicity_n unto_o the_o nation_n after_o which_o it_o go_v forth_o into_o the_o family_n and_o country_n that_o i_o be_v become_v a_o quaker_n and_o the_o next_o first_o day_n be_v alone_o at_o home_n i_o be_v require_v to_o go_v to_o the_o place_n where_o i_o first_o speak_v with_o the_o woman_n and_o to_o seek_v out_o their_o meeting_n which_o i_o do_v and_o when_o i_o come_v i_o find_v a_o few_o people_n meet_v together_o in_o a_o serious_a manner_n wait_v upon_o the_o lord_n among_o who_o though_o few_o if_o any_o word_n be_v utter_v i_o feel_v that_o presence_n and_o power_n of_o god_n in_o which_o i_o have_v more_o satisfaction_n then_o in_o my_o own_o preach_v and_o pray_v and_o such_o a_o room_n and_o place_n this_o people_n have_v with_o i_o as_o still_o they_o have_v that_o i_o think_v no_o time_n too_o long_o which_o i_o spend_v with_o they_o or_o pain_n too_o much_o to_o go_v to_o their_o meeting_n which_o be_v far_o distant_a from_o that_o place_n and_o the_o more_o i_o be_v acquaint_v with_o they_o the_o more_o i_o be_v unite_v to_o they_o especial_o after_o that_o i_o have_v hear_v their_o
and_o deliverance_n as_o i_o do_v the_o sacrifice_n of_o praise_n and_o of_o thanksgiving_n for_o evermore_o and_o now_o i_o shall_v shut_v up_o all_o with_o the_o testimony_n of_o the_o pastor_n of_o that_o independent_a congregation_n of_o which_o i_o be_v a_o member_n and_o walk_v with_o for_o several_a year_n who_o best_o among_o they_o know_v the_o bent_n of_o my_o heart_n who_o in_o his_o letter_n to_o my_o mother_n soon_o after_o my_o convincement_n of_o the_o truth_n give_v this_o testimony_n of_o the_o ground_n of_o my_o leave_v they_o to_o come_v to_o this_o people_n in_o which_o he_o have_v confirm_v what_o i_o have_v beforementioned_a his_o word_n be_v these_o the_o great_a stumbling-block_n to_o he_o have_v be_v our_o loose_a low_a and_o earthly_a conversation_n and_o be_v not_o looseness_n lowness_n and_o earthliness_n stumble_v block_n enough_o especial_o in_o they_o that_o profess_v to_o be_v member_n of_o christ_n jesus_n and_o look_v for_o salvation_n by_o he_o and_o to_o be_v gather_v out_o of_o the_o world_n he_o may_v well_o call_v it_o great_a what_o can_v lay_v a_o great_a stumbling-block_n in_o the_o way_n of_o the_o upright_a then_o to_o make_v so_o high_a a_o profession_n a_o cloak_n and_o cover_v for_o so_o much_o sin_n and_o iniquity_n will_v it_o not_o be_v far_o better_a and_o more_o honour_n to_o christ_n to_o cease_v profess_v of_o he_o which_o do_v but_o make_v they_o the_o great_a stumbling-block_n until_o they_o have_v depart_v from_o these_o iniquity_n and_o be_v not_o this_o enough_o to_o acquit_v i_o from_o separate_v from_o such_o assembly_n and_o congregation_n that_o be_v thus_o pollute_v further_o he_o say_v he_o be_v earnest_a to_o get_v up_o to_o more_o spiritualness_n than_o he_o see_v among_o we_o and_o must_v i_o be_v represent_v in_o so_o many_o place_n as_o a_o delude_v deceive_v person_n and_o one_o that_o be_v fall_v from_o the_o faith_n and_o apostatise_v to_o error_n and_o a_o saddene_a of_o the_o heart_n of_o the_o upright_a and_o pray_v and_o fast_v for_o as_o such_o and_o all_o for_o leave_v of_o such_o people_n as_o be_v loose_a low_a and_o earthly_a to_o get_v up_o to_o more_o spiritualness_n or_o can_v i_o look_v upon_o such_o as_o true_a friend_n to_o my_o soul_n as_o will_v hinder_v i_o from_o so_o good_a a_o exchange_n further_o he_o say_v which_o he_o apprehend_v be_v to_o be_v find_v among_o this_o people_n yea_o i_o do_v more_o than_o apprehend_v it_o for_o i_o have_v feel_v and_o experience_v for_o some_o year_n that_o spiritualness_n to_o be_v among_o they_o which_o keep_v they_o that_o walk_v in_o it_o from_o looseness_n lowness_n and_o earthliness_n so_o that_o i_o have_v no_o desire_n to_o return_v to_o they_o who_o conversation_n be_v so_o loose_a etc._n etc._n as_o he_o confess_v further_o he_o say_v i_o be_o persuade_v this_o be_v that_o which_o have_v carry_v he_o among_o they_o more_o than_o any_o respect_n that_o he_o have_v to_o their_o odd_a opinion_n here_o he_o have_v bind_v all_o with_o his_o persuasion_n from_o that_o certain_a knowledge_n he_o have_v of_o i_o for_o many_o year_n in_o which_o he_o know_v my_o bent_n be_v after_o spiritualness_n and_o heavenly-mindedness_a and_o herein_o he_o have_v speak_v the_o truth_n of_o i_o viz._n that_o it_o be_v looseness_n lowness_n and_o earthliness_n that_o stumble_v and_o draw_v i_o off_o from_o they_o and_o that_o it_o be_v with_o desire_n of_o more_o spiritualness_n that_o i_o come_v among_o this_o people_n and_o my_o desire_n have_v be_v therein_o large_o answer_v to_o the_o joy_n and_o satisfaction_n of_o my_o soul_n further_n he_o continue_v to_o say_v if_o we_o gain_v this_o by_o his_o fall_n to_o be_v provoke_v to_o more_o heavenliness_n and_o spiritualness_n and_o to_o savour_v less_o of_o this_o earth_n we_o shall_v be_v gainer_n by_o his_o loss_n here_o he_o shall_v have_v mind_v his_o former_a expression_n and_o persuasion_n and_o have_v consider_v whether_o the_o lord_n do_v suffer_v such_o to_o fall_v who_o great_a stumble_v be_v at_o looseness_n lowness_n and_o earthliness_n and_o who_o be_v earnest_a to_o get_v up_o to_o more_o spiritualness_n which_o be_v more_o according_a to_o the_o will_n of_o god_n or_o be_v they_o not_o fall_v and_o lose_v who_o according_a to_o his_o confession_n be_v still_o where_o they_o be_v many_o year_n ago_o after_o all_o his_o preach_a and_o pray_v be_v not_o get_v up_o above_o their_o looseness_n lowness_n &_o earthliness_n who_o he_o press_v and_o indeed_o it_o be_v high_a time_n for_o they_o all_o to_o manifest_v better_a fruit_n of_o their_o profit_v and_o to_o savour_v less_o of_o this_o earth_n which_o have_v be_v the_o cause_n of_o my_o leave_v of_o they_o and_o to_o get_v up_o to_o that_o spiritualness_n and_o heavenliness_n where_o they_o will_v find_v i_o and_o so_o in_o this_o spiritualness_n we_o shall_v be_v unite_v again_o but_o have_v not_o the_o cause_n of_o this_o unprofitableness_n or_o stand_v at_o a_o stay_v be_v for_o want_n of_o come_v to_o that_o grace_n which_o be_v sufficient_a to_o teach_v all_o that_o learn_v of_o it_o to_o deny_v all_o mark_n all_z ungodliness_n and_o all_o worldly_a lust_n which_o make_v they_o stumbling-block_n in_o the_o way_n of_o other_o that_o so_o through_o the_o deny_v of_o these_o they_o may_v come_v to_o live_v sober_o righteous_o and_o godly_a not_o only_o hereafter_o but_o in_o this_o present_a evil_a world_n and_o so_o not_o stumble_v but_o gain_v other_o by_o their_o conversation_n without_o which_o all_o verbal_a confession_n and_o acknowledgement_n be_v vain_a and_o fruitless_a and_o leave_v they_o no_o better_a than_o they_o be_v before_o the_o end_n