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question_v and_o judge_v as_o nothing_o in_o the_o hour_n of_o such_o temptation_n the_o lord_n teach_v i_o beside_o prayer_n and_o search_v into_o my_o soul_n to_o have_v recourse_n to_o former_a experience_n psal_n 77._o 10_o 11._o and_o psal_n 85._o octob._n 11._o in_o the_o morning_n i_o bewail_v it_o before_o god_n that_o i_o be_v still_o at_o a_o loss_n to_o know_v whether_o i_o love_v he_o and_o after_o prayer_n i_o read_v 1_o joh._n 2_o ch_n and_o i_o be_v make_v in_o a_o more_o special_a manner_n to_o take_v notice_n of_o v_o 5._o whoso_o keep_v his_o word_n in_o he_o very_o be_v the_o love_n of_o god_n perfect_v methinks_v i_o see_v god_n answer_v my_o prayer_n and_o tell_v i_o out_o of_o this_o word_n that_o i_o love_v he_o in_o he_o very_o 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d it_o be_v a_o sure_a sign_n of_o love_n to_o god_n we_o need_v not_o doubt_v of_o it_o if_o we_o keep_v his_o word_n now_o if_o i_o know_v my_o own_o heart_n i_o desire_v to_o do_v so_o if_o the_o love_n of_o 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seal_n to_o this_o as_o a_o certain_a truth_n that_o a_o christian_a by_o the_o improvement_n of_o grace_n may_v if_o not_o triumphanter_n yet_o at_o lest_o patient_fw-la mori_fw-la may_v be_v content_a if_o not_o rejoice_v to_o die_v 4._o add_v for_o a_o conclusion_n the_o apostle_n application_n in_o the_o text_n thanks_o be_v to_o god_n the_o victory_n be_v get_v be_v give_v the_o triumph_n be_v to_o be_v make_v we_o read_v whether_o they_o be_v the_o word_n of_o god_n to_o the_o church_n or_o of_o the_o church_n to_o god_n the_o sense_n be_v the_o same_o isa_n 26._o 19_o thy_o dead_a man_n shall_v live_v together_o with_o my_o dead_a body_n shall_v they_o arise_v for_o thy_o dew_n be_v as_o the_o dew_n of_o herb_n which_o revive_v they_o in_o the_o spring_n after_o a_o kill_v winter_n and_o the_o earth_n shall_v cast_v out_o the_o dead_a there_o be_v the_o victory_n what_o then_o awake_a and_o sing_v you_o that_o dwell_v in_o the_o dust_n there_o be_v the_o triumph_n thus_o ps_n 30._o 3._o o_o lord_n thou_o have_v bring_v up_o my_o soul_n from_o the_o grave_n then_o ver_fw-la 12._o to_o the_o end_n that_o my_o glory_n may_v sing_v prize_n to_o thou_o and_o not_o be_v silent_a o_o lord_n my_o god_n i_o will_v give_v thanks_o unto_o thou_o for_o ever_o thus_o again_o the_o psalmist_n sing_v ps_n 118._o 14_o 15_o 17._o the_o the_o lord_n be_v my_o strength_n and_o song_n and_o be_v become_v my_o salvation_n the_o voice_n of_o rejoice_v and_o salvation_n be_v in_o the_o tabernacle_n of_o the_o righteous_a the_o right_a hand_n of_o the_o lord_n do_v valiant_o etc._n etc._n why_o i_o shall_v not_o die_v but_o live_v and_o declare_v the_o work_n of_o the_o lord_n victory_n be_v always_o matter_n of_o rejoice_v and_o shall_v reflect_v honour_n upon_o the_o conqueror_n we_o read_v 1_o sam._n 17._o goliath_n of_o gath_n that_o monstrous_a and_o terrible_a giant_n come_v forth_o before_o his_o camp_n of_o philistine_n and_o defi_v the_o army_n of_o israel_n who_o flee_v 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