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and_o corrupt_v if_o it_o be_v say_v this_o be_v not_o in_o vain_a for_o fruit_n will_v follow_v etc._n etc._n i_o leave_v that_o to_o god_n and_o only_o suffer_v his_o will_n in_o god_n there_o be_v no_o suffering_n if_o i_o can_v stand_v whole_o in_o god_n there_o will_v be_v no_o need_n that_o i_o shall_v suffer_v god_n keep_v i_o in_o the_o snare_n of_o death_n and_o cause_v i_o in_o time_n to_o go_v into_o the_o nothingness_n of_o myself_o though_o one_o may_v get_v up_o many_o degree_n yet_o we_o be_v always_o to_o descend_v descend_v descend_z until_o we_o come_v into_o dust_n and_o ash_n that_o which_o before_o now_o we_o talk_v concern_v this_o nothingness_n it_o be_v with_o a_o certain_a kind_n of_o pleasure_n yet_o even_o all_o that_o must_v be_v subject_v under_o its_o judgement_n we_o can_v arrive_v at_o this_o nothingness_n but_o by_o the_o exercise_n of_o god_n to_o be_v delight_v with_o a_o righteous_a man_n or_o his_o writing_n word_n or_o work_n and_o to_o have_v a_o kindness_n and_o a_o good_a will_n for_o they_o it_o be_v the_o gift_n of_o god_n when_o any_o one_o be_v free_v from_o the_o creature_n that_o he_o can_v have_v a_o in_o difference_n for_o they_o without_o grief_n or_o joy_n whether_o it_o be_v loss_n or_o gain_n there_o be_v make_v a_o break_n through_o and_o it_o be_v a_o certain_a sort_n of_o a_o singular_a death_n that_o belong_v to_o this_o case_n nor_o be_v it_o the_o work_n of_o man_n but_o of_o god_n many_o suppose_v themselves_o to_o be_v that_o which_o temptation_n or_o trial_n discover_v to_o they_o that_o
for_o where_o the_o virtue_n of_o divine_a will_n be_v feel_v there_o such_o word_n do_v excite_v consternation_n therefore_o it_o be_v not_o for_o he_o to_o say_v i_o hope_v it_o will_v be_v so_o or_o so_o or_o so_o it_o shall_v be_v or_o so_o it_o shall_v not_o be_v and_o the_o like_a but_o he_o say_v thus_o 〈◊〉_d hope_v the_o lord_n will_v do_v it_o christ_n say_v i_o be_o the_o truth_n we_o think_v that_o christ_n be_v with_o we_o and_o that_o he_o be_v such_o a_o one_o as_o we_o be_v by_o nature_n but_o thus_o he_o be_v contrary_a to_o we_o and_o be_v our_o death_n chap._n viii_o all_o ceremony_n conform_v themselves_o according_a to_o god_n and_o be_v a_o representation_n of_o the_o hide_a truth_n but_o they_o do_v not_o conform_v themselves_o unto_o our_o weakness_n as_o some_o say_v yea_o and_o that_o god_n give_v they_o because_o of_o our_o weakness_n when_o as_o other_o wise_a they_o have_v not_o be_v necessary_a to_o which_o opinion_n we_o must_v assent_v yea_o furthermore_o they_o say_v that_o the_o very_a incarnation_n of_o christ_n be_v to_o be_v thus_o adorn_v which_o opinion_n be_v it_o far_o from_o we_o he_o that_o be_v upon_o a_o right_a foundation_n and_o have_v a_o understand_a heart_n will_v be_v whole_o opposite_a to_o these_o opinion_n for_o such_o a_o one_o feel_v and_o know_v that_o without_o the_o incarnation_n of_o christ_n no_o salvation_n can_v be_v find_v on_o the_o earth_n and_o that_o ceremony_n together_o with_o all_o creature_n be_v only_o a_o representation_n of_o the_o heavenly_a truth_n and_o that_o they_o be_v all_o conformeâ—_n according_a to_o god_n but_o not_o according_a to_o we_o and_o so_o also_o they_o ought_v to_o be_v and_o therefore_o they_o judge_v too_o dry_o concern_v they_o who_o say_v they_o be_v toy_n and_o trifle_n as_o also_o they_o do_v attribute_v too_o much_o to_o they_o who_o be_v glue_v fast_o unto_o they_o and_o from_o they_o do_v make_v god_n to_o themselves_o and_o set_v they_o in_o the_o place_n of_o the_o true_a substance_n they_o err_v on_o both_o hand_n wherefore_o we_o be_v to_o wait_v for_o a_o right_a judgement_n in_o all_o thing_n from_o the_o lord_n and_z and_z to_o fear_v least_o any_o thing_n be_v rash_o add_v from_o our_o opinion_n for_o opinion_n deceive_v we_o where_o the_o power_n of_o sin_n be_v feel_v and_o be_v conquer_v and_o break_v a_o man_n be_v cast_v into_o great_a affliction_n but_o when_o a_o man_n put_v that_o affliction_n from_o he_o and_o put_v it_o upon_o christ_n as_o if_o he_o have_v satisfy_v for_o it_o and_o that_o that_o satisfaction_n ought_v to_o be_v impute_v to_o a_o man_n and_o to_o be_v fulfil_v in_o he_o so_o as_o that_o sin_n be_v to_o be_v take_v away_o and_o righteousness_n to_o be_v fulfil_v there_o a_o man_n have_v not_o a_o true_a sense_n of_o sin_n but_o neglectâ—th_v it_o with_o a_o light_a mind_n this_o opinion_n also_o be_v contrary_a to_o the_o writing_n of_o the_o prophet_n and_o the_o doctrine_n of_o the_o apostle_n who_o testify_v that_o christ_n must_v snatch_v a_o man_n out_o of_o sin_n and_o let_v up_o righteousness_n and_o break_v the_o serpent_n head_n and_o overcome_v all_o thing_n and_o that_o this_o victory_n ought_v to_o be_v do_v in_o a_o man_n and_o not_o to_o remain_v without_o he_o rom._n 8._o 4._o for_o they_o ought_v to_o be_v a_o people_n in_o who_o all_o thing_n be_v do_v and_o fulfil_v which_o the_o prophet_n and_o the_o apostle_n and_o all_o ceremony_n testify_v let_v no_o man_n therefore_o deceive_v himself_o by_o impose_v upon_o christ_n any_o thing_n without_o himself_o where_o god_n do_v possess_v a_o man_n there_o god_n reign_v and_o keep_v he_o but_o man_n be_v not_o at_o all_o touch_v with_o any_o care_n for_o what_o belong_v to_o god_n but_o a_o man_n be_v not_o to_o eye_v any_o thing_n but_o his_o littleness_n and_o emptyness_n that_o be_v his_o selfishness_n this_o be_v due_a unto_o he_o and_o upon_o that_o account_n he_o bow_v under_o all_o and_o judge_v himself_o to_o be_v worser_o more_o foolish_a and_o more_o unworthy_a than_o all_o man_n all_o the_o rest_n that_o be_v any_o thing_n be_v god_n and_o be_v due_a to_o god_n nor_o do_v it_o concern_v man_n but_o if_o any_o one_o depart_v from_o his_o nothingness_n will_v arrogate_v to_o himself_o the_o thing_n which_o beâ—ong_v unto_o god_n that_o will_v prove_v the_o high_a pride_n and_o the_o most_o heavy_a fall_v chap._n ix_o when_o any_o one_o be_v give_v up_o to_o the_o will_n of_o god_n there_o be_v nothing_o so_o heavy_a nor_o so_o painful_a which_o he_o can_v bear_v in_o the_o will_n of_o god_n without_o election_n but_o as_o god_n will_v so_o be_v a_o thing_n commend_v to_o he_o who_o will_v do_v all_o thing_n and_o where_o that_o be_v there_o be_v peace_n and_o no_o where_o else_o a_o certain_a person_n say_v such_o as_o the_o judgement_n be_v so_o i_o suffer_v under_o a_o heavy_a judgement_n heavy_o under_o a_o light_a judgement_n light_o when_o one_o also_o be_v ashamed_a befote_n his_o neighbour_n because_o of_o that_o for_o who_o sake_n he_o be_v ashamed_a before_o god_n conscience_n be_v more_o at_o quiet_a but_o when_o one_o for_o a_o secret_a hide_a baseness_n blush_v not_o before_o man_n conscience_n be_v burden_v and_o therefore_o here_o we_o must_v be_v bind_v and_o no_o man_n ought_v to_o be_v ashamed_a when_o he_o be_v oblige_v to_o confess_v himself_o guilty_a before_o his_o neighbour_n god_n keep_v his_o promise_n but_o we_o understand_v they_o perverse_o until_o their_o own_o â—ime_n come_v when_o we_o see_v what_o they_o be_v and_o to_o who_o they_o belong_v he_o who_o will_n be_v resign_v he_o want_v appropriation_n and_o its_o the_o same_o to_o he_o whither_o the_o thing_n be_v or_o be_v not_o he_o who_o have_v a_o will_n yield_v up_o to_o god_n he_o esteemâ—â—â—_n for_o heavenly_a whatsoeur_fw-fr happen_v to_o he_o for_o all_o that_o be_v god_n to_o he_o and_o god_n be_v heavenly_a whatsoever_o fall_v out_o to_o he_o be_v 〈◊〉_d advantage_n disadvantage_n peace_n disquiet_a riches_n poverty_n bitter_a sweet_a heat_n cold_a hunger_n thirst_n honour_n dishonour_n yet_o aâ—â—_n all_o these_o god_n to_o he_o and_o consequent_o heaven_n he_o be_v also_o without_o appropriation_n and_o nothing_o else_o please_v he_o as_o if_o 〈◊〉_d be_v heaven_n unless_o that_o god_n will_v it_o but_o before_o any_o one_o come_v thither_o many_o thing_n be_v require_v especial_o time_n he_o who_o want_v this_o resign_v will_n esteem_v all_o that_o be_v against_o his_o own_o will_n for_o torment_n and_o hell_n yea_o even_o those_o thing_n which_o of_o themselves_o be_v pleasant_a out_o proper_a will_n therefore_o be_v to_o be_v discard_v and_o to_o this_o purpose_n serve_v our_o exercise_n o_o how_o bitter_a be_v death_n to_o he_o who_o be_v yield_v up_o to_o life_n all_o thing_n perish_v but_o god_n and_o what_o be_v unite_v to_o he_o the_o voice_n of_o the_o spirit_n be_v such_o a_o terror_n to_o the_o flesh_n that_o when_o any_o thing_n be_v spokâ—en_v to_o it_o of_o the_o spirit_n it_o be_v fright_v and_o tremble_v because_o the_o spirit_n be_v its_o destruction_n they_o who_o aim_v at_o a_o mark_n shut_v one_o eye_n and_o always_o level_a at_o the_o mark_n and_o when_o one_o hit_v the_o mark_n than_o he_o turn_v himself_o and_o look_n upon_o all_o the_o rest_n which_o none_o of_o the_o rest_n do_v because_o they_o have_v not_o yet_o strike_v it_o but_o do_v still_o level_v their_o aim_n by_o the_o cross_n god_n cast_v on_o man_n chain_n and_o a_o bridle_n and_o except_o this_o shall_v be_v so_o he_o will_v wander_v into_o error_n in_o time_n and_o though_o a_o man_n sometime_o may_v think_v that_o he_o shall_v serve_v god_n better_o unless_o this_o or_o that_o happen_v yet_o god_n adjudge_v it_o otherwise_o and_o know_v this_o to_o be_v best_a contrary_a to_o a_o man_n be_v own_o opinion_n chap._n x._o a_o man_n always_o require_v time_n and_o space_n and_o think_v that_o he_o shall_v satisfy_v the_o law_n and_o yet_o it_o can_v be_v do_v and_o he_o must_v die_v and_o god_n must_v fulfil_v the_o law_n in_o his_o stead_n that_o which_o a_o man_n think_v he_o shall_v do_v in_o his_o life_n that_o be_v at_o last_o perform_v in_o his_o death_n when_o the_o passion_n and_o death_n of_o christ_n be_v real_o in_o a_o man_n also_o his_o resurrection_n be_v real_o in_o he_o if_o one_o be_v real_a such_o also_o be_v the_o other_o if_o the_o one_o be_v only_o notional_a so_o also_o be_v the_o other_o for_o there_o be_v divers_a resurrection_n a_o man_n give_v up_o to_o god_n belong_v to_o god_n and_o he_o have_v no_o propriety_n but_o be_v a_o stranger_n to_o himself_o whatever_o therefore_o god_n or_o
but_o in_o a_o just_a measure_n and_o order_n and_o that_o to_o his_o own_o glory_n and_o for_o the_o promotion_n and_o growth_n of_o the_o man_n all_o which_o will_v a_o man_n hinder_v if_o be_v impatient_a under_o the_o cross_n he_o shall_v not_o wait_v upon_o god_n great_a be_v the_o fruit_n of_o affliction_n and_o therefore_o in_o it_o be_v the_o lord_n to_o be_v expect_v i_o expect_v the_o lord_n from_o the_o morning_n watch_n even_o until_o the_o evening_n say_v the_o psalmist_n and_o isaiah_n say_v bless_a be_v all_o they_o that_o wait_v upon_o the_o lord_n for_o they_o that_o wait_v upon_o he_o shall_v never_o be_v confound_v the_o psalmist_n say_v in_o wait_v i_o wait_v upon_o the_o lord_n and_o he_o regard_v i_o now_o if_o there_o be_v neither_o faithfulness_n nor_o good_a will_n in_o the_o lord_n of_o visit_v and_o help_v he_o the_o scripture_n will_v never_o have_v represent_v these_o thing_n to_o we_o in_fw-la asmuch_o as_o it_o speak_v nothing_o but_o what_o be_v true_a the_o lord_n grant_v we_o faith_n paul_n say_v i_o believe_v all_o the_o thing_n which_o be_v write_v in_o the_o law_n and_o the_o prophet_n the_o eye_n of_o our_o opinion_n love_n and_o favour_n be_v to_o be_v turn_v upon_o god_n and_o in_o all_o thing_n we_o ought_v to_o set_v he_o for_o our_o mark_n and_o end_n and_o not_o thing_n create_v if_o we_o will_v continue_v pure_a and_o unburthened_a the_o natural_a state_n by_o the_o fall_n of_o adam_n be_v this_o that_o we_o shall_v turn_v our_o eye_n upon_o those_o thing_n from_o whence_o spring_n up_o to_o we_o nothing_o but_o blindness_n and_o ignorance_n which_o thing_n also_o be_v again_o change_v in_o a_o true_a change_n which_o tend_v to_o their_o original_n but_o that_o then_o happen_v with_o grief_n and_o with_o anguish_n now_o he_o that_o cast_v himself_o into_o that_o original_n he_o arrive_v at_o the_o port_n of_o grace_n and_o that_o be_v reveal_v to_o he_o which_o he_o before_z know_v not_o for_o the_o imitation_n of_o christ_n open_v and_o reveal_v but_o the_o imitation_n of_o the_o flesh_n hide_v and_o shut_v in_o all_o thing_n we_o be_v perverse_a until_o we_o come_v unto_o judgement_n and_o death_n unless_o the_o lord_n shall_v exhibit_v himself_o unto_o we_o and_o shall_v sustain_v we_o by_o his_o power_n we_o shall_v all_o utter_o perish_v whence_o we_o ought_v deserve_o to_o beware_v of_o all_o rashness_n there_o be_v no_o need_n that_o a_o man_n shall_v be_v more_o solicitous_a about_o the_o get_n of_o knowledge_n than_o he_o shall_v be_v of_o attain_v of_o death_n for_o in_o death_n thing_n do_v open_a and_o give_v out_o themselves_o and_o true_a knowledge_n be_v unfold_v whereas_o if_o life_n shall_v remain_v that_o can_v not_o be_v effect_v though_o a_o man_n shall_v strive_v with_o never_o so_o much_o study_v and_o labour_n yea_o though_o he_o may_v get_v knowledge_n according_a to_o the_o letter_n yet_o for_o all_o that_o all_o thing_n be_v still_o shut_v up_o and_o hide_a from_o he_o before_o he_o can_v yield_v himself_o up_o into_o death_n and_o admit_v in_o himself_o the_o die_a of_o the_o guilty_a body_n such_o studying_n and_o endeavour_n after_o knowledge_n be_v rather_o a_o hindrance_n because_o thereby_o a_o man_n neglect_v his_o own_o self_n and_o become_v forgetful_a of_o his_o own_o concern_v of_o this_o also_o say_v our_o lord_n what_o shall_v it_o profit_v a_o man_n to_o gain_v the_o whole_a world_n and_o to_o lose_v his_o own_o soul_n that_o any_o one_o in_o this_o world_n shall_v not_o be_v solicitous_a nor_o feed_v cark_n care_n many_o thing_n be_v requisite_a for_o there_o be_v some_o who_o take_v no_o care_n at_o all_o because_o they_o labour_v not_o by_o reason_n of_o want_n or_o penury_n and_o many_o be_v such_o by_o nature_n yet_o this_o be_v not_o that_o which_o our_o lord_n say_v for_o the_o word_n of_o our_o lord_n always_o point_v at_o some_o other_o thing_n than_o what_o we_o derive_v from_o adam_n yea_o they_o be_v speak_v quite_o contrary_a to_o that_o which_o we_o be_v in_o adam_n therefore_o our_o lord_n be_v very_o odious_a to_o the_o flesh_n yea_o the_o very_a death_n and_o destruction_n thereof_o be_v christ_n who_o proceed_v quite_o contrary_a to_o our_o nature_n chap._n xxviii_o necessary_a affair_n be_v do_v and_o perform_v by_o the_o choose_a of_o god_n without_o the_o cleave_a or_o stick_v of_o their_o heart_n unto_o they_o and_o if_o it_o be_v not_o thus_o but_o that_o the_o heart_n be_v rather_o burden_v with_o they_o and_o be_v involve_v in_o imagination_n this_o be_v not_o through_o any_o fault_n in_o the_o thing_n but_o because_o of_o that_o defect_n that_o still_o abide_v in_o man_n and_o thus_o a_o man_n go_v away_o blind_v not_o know_v himself_o until_o he_o fall_v into_o temptation_n or_o trial_n but_o when_o he_o come_v to_o a_o feel_a knowledge_n of_o himself_o than_o he_o may_v be_v advance_v which_o can_v never_o be_v do_v afore_o because_o he_o have_v to_o do_v with_o sin_n secret_o that_o which_o a_o man_n sometime_o thought_n be_v hurtful_a to_o he_o and_o his_o hindrance_n that_o afterward_o serve_v to_o advance_v and_o put_v he_o forward_o therefore_o shall_v a_o man_n remain_v without_o any_o choice_n of_o his_o own_o but_o wait_v what_o god_n will_v do_v with_o he_o and_o thus_o yield_v himself_o up_o as_o be_v bow_v under_o the_o divine_a will_n here_o be_v the_o communion_n of_o saint_n and_o that_o in_o the_o high_a degree_n let_v therefore_o the_o low_a degree_n blush_v that_o even_o it_o also_o do_v not_o earnest_o long_a after_o this_o communion_n for_o if_o the_o sun_n give_v himself_o forth_o in_o common_a certain_o then_o the_o moon_n ought_v to_o do_v the_o like_a who_o else_o ought_v to_o be_v ashamed_a if_o she_o shall_v claim_v to_o herself_o too_o great_a a_o propriety_n and_o arrogate_v all_o to_o be_v she_o he_o who_o be_v swallow_v up_o by_o create_a thing_n feel_v from_o they_o either_o a_o pleasure_n or_o a_o pain_n even_o to_o joy_n or_o grief_n so_o as_o he_o can_v have_v no_o peace_n but_o he_o who_o be_v free_a from_o they_o be_v free_a also_o from_o both_o those_o evil_n so_o that_o neither_o what_o be_v pleasant_a neither_o what_o be_v ungrateful_a neither_o gladness_n nor_o sorrow_n reach_v he_o and_o because_o joy_n have_v no_o place_n in_o he_o neither_o also_o do_v sorrow_n touch_v he_o if_o thing_n do_v happen_v other_o way_n than_o joy_n and_o desire_n do_v expect_v and_o ask_v to_o stand_v between_o comfort_n and_o discomfort_v between_o joy_n and_o grief_n and_o to_o remain_v untouched_a and_o unmoved_a by_o either_o be_v a_o great_a liberty_n and_o the_o gift_n of_o god_n for_o no_o man_n have_v that_o of_o or_o from_o himself_o yea_o let_v no_o man_n undue_o think_v that_o he_o have_v get_v that_o for_o many_o thing_n be_v require_v before_o we_o can_v arrive_v at_o this_o state_n or_o condition_n and_o when_o we_o be_v come_v thither_o yet_o be_v not_o glory_n thereof_o belong_v to_o man_n but_o to_o god_n alone_o and_o thus_o man_n be_v to_o abide_v in_o humility_n without_o judge_v or_o contemn_v of_o other_o chap._n xxix_o sin_n be_v hate_v in_o a_o double_a sense_n and_o that_o by_o divers_a sort_n of_o person_n for_o some_o do_v hate_v sin_n because_o of_o affliction_n they_o thereby_o be_v afflict_v and_o terrify_v in_o their_o conscience_n as_o also_o because_o of_o the_o loss_n they_o sustain_v by_o it_o as_o the_o loss_n of_o their_o soul_n of_o heaven_n and_o of_o eternal_a salvation_n and_o if_o these_o two_o be_v not_o viz._n the_o torment_n of_o conscience_n and_o the_o loss_n of_o heaven_n they_o can_v love_v sin_n and_o be_v friend_n with_o it_o yea_o become_v to_o be_v unite_v and_o to_o be_v in_o league_n therewith_o and_o it_o be_v thus_o prove_v because_o that_o same_o hatred_n of_o sin_n proceed_v not_o from_o the_o nature_n of_o the_o mind_n nor_o from_o regeneration_n in_o as_o much_o as_o there_o be_v in_o this_o state_n still_o leave_v the_o old_a life_n 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then_o â—nto_o the_o understanding_n his_o salvation_n also_o â—n_v go_v no_o further_o then_o into_o the_o understanding_n and_o reason_n so_o that_o it_o must_v at_o last_o need_v die_v in_o that_o death_n that_o be_v so_o necessary_a to_o all_o christian_n viz._n wherein_o reason_n be_v destroy_v for_o in_o this_o death_n there_o remain_v nothing_o but_o the_o soul_n or_o mind_n only_o but_o if_o it_o be_v object_v that_o our_o faith_n and_o knowledge_n do_v penetrate_v even_o into_o the_o most_o inward_a region_n of_o the_o soul_n and_o mind_n i_o answer_v thereto_o that_o then_o also_o it_o be_v necessary_a that_o this_o our_o soul_n and_o mind_n when_o it_o shall_v live_v with_o such_o a_o estrangedness_n from_o the_o flesh_n that_o it_o can_v but_o with_o great_a nauseousness_n and_o tedious_a disdain_n bear_v in_o its_o self_n all_o the_o desire_n and_o lust_n which_o spring_n from_o the_o nethermost_a part_n of_o the_o flesh_n so_o as_o it_o will_v rather_o die_v infinite_a 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least_o burn_a zeal_n or_o breaâ—â—_n its_o impetuous_a assault_n nor_o yet_o do_v this_o external_a abstinence_n from_o sin_n and_o the_o debilitate_v of_o they_o suffice_v for_o it_o be_v necessary_a to_o descend_v to_o the_o very_a bottom_n itself_o when_o even_o the_o thought_n be_v to_o be_v judge_v in_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n far_o therefore_o be_v it_o from_o we_o to_o commit_v sin_n in_o the_o very_a act_n also_o this_o my_o letter_n intend_v this_o at_o least_o that_o thy_o young_a limb_n be_v stir_v up_o both_o night_n and_o day_n to_o the_o worship_n of_o god_n by_o continue_a prayer_n in_o temperance_n purity_n meekness_n of_o heart_n long-suffering_a louâ—_v of_o thy_o enemy_n as_o also_o in_o the_o read_n of_o scripture_n in_o holy_a proficiency_n anâ—_n in_o other_o virtue_n conduce_v to_o christian_a discipline_n concern_v which_o thy_o owâ—_n conscience_n will_v afford_v to_o thou_o a_o testimony_n all_o which_o be_v perform_v thou_o wiâ—â—_n every_o day_n rejoice_v in_o thy_o great_a success_n iâ—_n the_o work_n of_o the_o lord_n that_o at_o last_o wheâ—_n thy_o most_o miserable_a condition_n be_v know_v thou_o will_v be_v a_o terror_n to_o thy_o own_o selâ—_n and_o therefore_o thou_o will_v so_o much_o thâ—_n more_o diligent_o call_v upon_o god_n for_o help_v that_o his_o most_o powerful_a right_a hand_n maâ—â—_n at_o length_n gracious_o support_v thy_o soul_n and_o conquer_v the_o power_n of_o the_o enemy_n in_o a_o real_a victory_n the_o lord_n have_v mercy_n on_o we_o all_o and_o heal_v our_o disease_n and_o effectual_o cause_v we_o to_o hunger_n and_o thirst_n after_o his_o righteousness_n lest_o we_o be_v leave_v naked_a in_o our_o own_o impurity_n epist._n viii_o how_o any_o one_o who_o be_v studious_a concern_v the_o way_n of_o the_o lord_n ought_v daily_o to_o exercise_v himself_o most_o belove_a niece_n because_o i_o understand_v that_o thou_o earnest_o desire_v such_o a_o disposition_n of_o heart_n as_o true_o to_o walk_v 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for_o by_o how_o much_o the_o more_o miserable_a the_o more_o anxious_a and_o the_o more_o desert_v any_o one_o be_v so_o much_o the_o near_o be_v god_n to_o he_o the_o help_a of_o who_o he_o then_o most_o speedy_o perform_v when_o no_o comfort_n nor_o help_n be_v find_v unto_o or_o for_o our_o desire_n and_o this_o be_v the_o true_a knot_n of_o all_o piety_n the_o lord_n grant_v in_o his_o own_o time_n that_o thou_o may_v true_o apprehend_v this_o in_o thy_o own_o self_n for_o the_o grace_n and_o word_n and_o promise_n of_o god_n do_v abide_v in_o man_n in_o a_o live_a sense_n nor_o can_v it_o be_v express_v in_o word_n how_o the_o very_a thing_n itself_o proper_o be_v and_o although_o all_o writing_n may_v give_v testimony_n of_o this_o word_n and_o of_o this_o grace_n yet_o be_v not_o they_o proper_o that_o very_a word_n and_o the_o very_a salvation_n of_o god_n for_o the_o virtue_n and_o operation_n of_o these_o aught_o to_o be_v live_o express_v in_o we_o the_o lord_n be_v 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foot_n in_o the_o way_n of_o the_o lordâ—_n now_o when_o he_o be_v yet_o of_o a_o infirm_a age_n and_o be_v more_o infirm_a in_o zeal_n for_o it_o be_v our_o duty_n to_o lend_v a_o hand_n to_o the_o weak_a and_o to_o be_v a_o prop_n to_o they_o as_o it_o be_v do_v for_o we_o in_o our_o youth_n although_o i_o myself_o have_v not_o extend_v my_o age_n very_o much_o yet_o have_v the_o bond_n of_o death_n bow_v i_o down_o under_o the_o judgement_n of_o the_o lord_n in_o the_o prosecution_n of_o my_o misery_n with_o continue_a terror_n the_o lord_n have_v pity_n on_o i_o and_o gracious_o discover_v to_o i_o his_o countenance_n shine_v with_o the_o light_n of_o grace_n and_o so_o enlighten_v the_o darkness_n of_o my_o heart_n epist._n xvi_o a_o fair_a admonition_n to_o his_o cousin_n german_n wherein_o he_o very_o great_o demonstrate_v a_o most_o tender_a care_n of_o his_o soul_n hitherto_o have_v with_o solicitousness_n to_o m._n d._n w._n most_o belove_a cousin_n i_o be_v altogether_o 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