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thy_o reconcile_a face_n and_o favour_n to_o i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o pardon_v my_o sin_n and_o offence_n which_o have_v provoke_v thou_o to_o this_o manifestation_n of_o thy_o displeasure_n against_o we_o bereave_v we_o of_o our_o child_n that_o of_o eleven_o none_o remain_v and_o of_o this_o the_o loss_n more_o grievous_a than_o any_o of_o the_o rest_n though_o they_o with_o she_o through_o thy_o kindness_n very_o desirable_a to_o we_o but_o she_o our_o last_o one_o and_z all_z lord_n shall_v thou_o take_v my_o forfeiture_n how_o destitute_a shall_v i_o be_v not_o only_o of_o child_n but_o of_o all_o thy_o sustain_a mercy_n and_o above_o all_o in_o the_o irreparable_a loss_n of_o thyself_o who_o art_n abundant_o better_o to_o i_o than_o son_n and_o daughter_n good_a lord_n sanctify_v to_o i_o this_o dispensation_n and_o help_v i_o to_o find_v out_o the_o accurse_a thing_n which_o provoke_v thou_o to_o smite_v with_o so_o heavy_a a_o blow_n i_o beseech_v thou_o with_o this_o correct_a 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not_o shorten_v that_o thou_o can_v not_o save_o good_a lord_n take_v care_n of_o zion_n build_v up_o the_o wall_n of_o jerusalem_n that_o in_o zion_n there_o may_v be_v deliverance_n and_o holiness_n in_o thy_o house_n let_v the_o mountain_n of_o thy_o house_n be_v establish_v in_o the_o top_n of_o the_o mountain_n be_v thou_o a_o wall_n of_o fire_n round_o about_o and_o her_o glory_n in_o the_o midst_n thereof_o but_o i_o forget_v myself_o it_o be_v hard_a to_o stop_v my_o pen._n then_o i_o beseech_v thou_o especial_o for_o the_o land_n of_o my_o nativity_n the_o nation_n of_o which_o i_o be_o a_o sinful_a member_n here_o be_v a_o large_a paragraph_n the_o next_o be_v for_o the_o world_n give_v thy_o gospel_n a_o free_a and_o glorious_a passage_n through_o the_o world_n good_a lord_n pity_v those_o that_o sit_v in_o the_o region_n and_o shadow_n of_o death_n then_o i_o beseech_v thou_o be_v merciful_a to_o all_o the_o son_n and_o daughter_n of_o sorrow_n and_o affliction_n the_o 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