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child_n child_n will_v i_o plead_v have_v any_o nation_n change_v their_o god_n which_o be_v no_o god_n but_o my_o people_n have_v change_v their_o glory_n for_o that_o which_o do_v not_o profit_n v._n 13._o they_o have_v commit_v two_o evil_n they_o have_v forsake_v i_o the_o fountain_n of_o live_a water_n and_o hew_v on_o it_o to_o themselves_o cistern_n break_a cistern_n that_o can_v hold_v no_o water_n oh_o may_v not_o the_o lord_n righteous_o complain_v thus_o of_o i_o have_v not_o i_o too_o much_o decline_v from_o he_o and_o run_v out_o after_o creature_n in_o my_o affection_n and_o desire_n and_o place_v too_o much_o happiness_n in_o other_o thing_n which_o have_v be_v make_v appear_v to_o be_v break_v cistern_n that_o can_v not_o hold_v any_o water_n v._n 14_o 15_o 16_o and_o now_o say_v the_o lord_n why_o be_v thou_o speil_v have_v the_o lion_n roar_v upon_o thou_o and_o be_v thy_o crown_n spoil_v v._n 17._o have_v thou_o not_o procure_v this_o to_o thyself_o in_o that_o thou_o have_v forsake_v the_o lord_n thy_o god_n whon_v he_o lead_v thou_o by_o the_o way_n oh_o may_v not_o the_o lord_n rghteous_o say_v thus_o to_o thou_o be_v the_o lion_n let_v loose_a upon_o thou_o do_v trouble_n and_o sorrow_n come_v in_o again_o upon_o thou_o and_o be_v satan_n let_v loose_a in_o any_o measure_n to_o torment_v thou_o may_v thou_o not_o thank_v thyself_o have_v thou_o not_o bring_v it_o on_o thou_o be_v it_o not_o righteous_a with_o the_o lord_n to_o do_v so_o by_o thou_o v._n 18._o what_o have_v thou_o to_o do_v in_o the_o way_n of_o egypt_n i.e._n to_o return_v from_o the_o lord_n to_o the_o creature_n to_o seek_v any_o good_a what_o ever_o what_o have_v thou_o to_o do_v to_o drink_v the_o water_n of_o shiloh_n or_o the_o water_n of_o the_o river_n or_o in_o the_o way_n of_o the_o aijyrians_n v._n 19_o thy_o own_o wickedness_n shall_v correct_v thou_o oh_o lord_n and_o have_v thou_o noâ—_n make_v it_o to_o do_v so_o and_o thy_o back_n sliding_n reprove_v 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pleasure_n in_o her_o occasion_n who_o can_v turn_v she_o away_o all_o they_o that_o seek_v she_o will_v weary_v themselves_o in_o her_o month_n they_o find_v she_o bless_a lord_n how_o clear_o do_v thou_o point_n as_o it_o be_v at_o my_o wicked_a heart_n which_o like_o a_o wild_a ass_n a_o rugged_a thing_n and_o wild_a also_o very_o untamed_a and_o unruly_a unwilling_a to_o endure_v to_o be_v hold_v in_o by_o any_o bridle_n or_o make_v any_o way_n ferviceable_a to_o thou_o but_o use_v to_o the_o wilderness_n frequent_o converse_v and_o run_v out_o after_o the_o thing_n of_o this_o wilder_a world_n yea_o snuff_v up_o the_o wind_n and_o be_v not_o this_o a_o righteous_a judgement_n from_o thou_o that_o what_o ever_o my_o heart_n run_v out_o after_o but_o thyself_o it_o shall_v be_v but_o as_o wind_v that_o for_o the_o present_a fill_v but_o satisfi_v not_o nourish_v not_o but_o in_o the_o end_n torment_v and_o cause_v pang_n &_o tear_v in_o the_o bowel_n oh_o this_o be_v the_o misery_n 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the_o pursuit_n after_o any_o thing_n but_o thyself_o that_o it_o may_v never_o be_v so_o any_o more_o v._n 31._o have_v i_o be_v a_o wilderness_n to_o israel_n oh_o lord_n thou_o have_v not_o be_v so_o to_o my_o soul_n v._n 32._o can_v a_o maid_n forget_v her_o ornament_n and_o yet_o my_o people_n have_v forget_v i_o oh_o lord_n must_v not_o i_o cry_v guilty_a before_o thou_o here_o for_o do_v i_o remember_v that_o i_o shall_v not_o so_o often_o sin_n against_o thou_o v._n 33._o why_o trim_a thou_o thy_o way_n to_o seek_v lovet_v v._n 36._o why_o gadde_v thou_o
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