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the_o place_n where_o thy_o konour_n dwell_v and_o one_o thing_n have_v i_o desire_v of_o the_o lord_n that_o will_v i_o seek_v after_o that_o i_o may_v dwell_v in_o the_o house_n of_o the_o lord_n all_o the_o day_n of_o my_o life_n to_o bekold_n the_o beauty_n of_o the_o lord_n etc._n etc._n and_o how_o true_o may_v she_o call_v sabbath_n and_o ordinance_n her_o delight_n she_o have_v there_o see_v god_n and_o his_o face_n his_o power_n and_o glory_n his_o go_n in_o his_o sanctuary_n yea_o sabbath_n be_v to_o she_o as_o the_o suburb_n of_o heaven_n ordinance_n be_v not_o in_o heaven_n but_o heaven_n she_o have_v many_o a_o time_n meet_v with_o in_o ordinance_n and_o she_o drink_v but_o that_o wine_n new_a now_o in_o heaven_n which_o she_o begin_v to_o drink_v in_o ordinance_n here_o matt._n 26_o 29._o 13._o as_o concern_v some_o further_a evidence_n for_o heaven_n i_o have_v a_o great_a deal_n of_o comfort_n in_o this_o that_o i_o be_o as_o willing_a to_o take_v christ_n for_o my_o 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and_o the_o assurance_n thereof_o be_v indeed_o a_o cordial_n that_o will_v revive_v when_o none_o other_o can_v nor_o will_v none_o to_o that_o this_o be_v the_o very_a life_n of_o our_o life_n the_o light_n of_o our_o day_n the_o â—un_v of_o our_o firmament_n the_o spring_n of_o our_o year_n the_o joy_n of_o our_o heart_n the_o solace_n of_o our_o soul_n the_o strength_n comfort_n and_o support_v of_o our_o spirit_n the_o mercy_n of_o mercy_n the_o blessing_n of_o blessing_n so_o much_o better_a than_o life_n that_o life_n itself_o without_o it_o be_v no_o better_a than_o death_n but_o this_o be_v life_n even_o in_o death_n and_o hence_o the_o prophet_n david_n pray_v for_o this_o for_o his_o cordial_n and_o comfort_n psal_n 119.76_o let_v i_o pray_v thou_o thy_o merciful_a kindness_n be_v for_o my_o comfort_n etc._n etc._n and_o this_o be_v the_o cordial_a and_o comfort_n of_o this_o bless_a saint_n now_o in_o heaven_n in_o all_o her_o trial_n and_o affliction_n while_o here_o 3._o 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this_o hot_a furnace_n but_o dross_n but_o why_o say_v i_o hot_a it_o be_v no_o other_o than_o what_o my_o father_n see_v good_a and_o all_o shall_v work_v together_o for_o my_o good_a if_o my_o corruption_n hinder_v not_o i_o be_o so_o afraid_a they_o shall_v but_o i_o earnest_o desire_v they_o may_v not_o and_o i_o hope_v the_o lord_n will_v rather_o answer_v my_o desire_n than_o let_v it_o be_v according_a to_o my_o fear_n lead_v i_o to_o the_o rock_n that_o it_o high_o than_o i_o the_o good_a lord_n fiâ—_n we_o for_o what_o his_o good_a pleasure_n be_v and_o for_o the_o great_a trial_n that_o can_v come_v here_o we_o have_v no_o continue_a city_n the_o good_a lord_n help_v we_o to_o be_v seek_v one_o to_o come_v a_o city_n that_o have_v foundation_n etc._n etc._n the_o lord_n fit_v we_o for_o the_o day_n of_o our_o death_n that_o it_o may_v be_v a_o good_a day_n to_o we_o the_o good_a lord_n sanctify_v all_o his_o fatherly_a correction_n to_o i_o and_o grant_v i_o may_v by_o all_o 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help_v we_o to_o exercise_v faith_n and_o patience_n o_o that_o we_o can_v live_v more_o a_o life_n of_o faith_n and_o holiness_n and_o more_o sweet_o and_o free_o depend_v upon_o our_o good_a god_n who_o never_o fail_v his_o poor_a child_n in_o any_o time_n of_o need_n o_o let_v we_o cast_v all_o our_o care_n upon_o god_n who_o have_v and_o will_v care_v for_o we_o and_o we_o god_n have_v be_v a_o long_a while_o wean_a thou_o from_o i_o we_o must_v part_v but_o we_o shall_v after_o a_o little_a while_n
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and_o happiness_n and_o though_o i_o have_v not_o do_v so_o much_o as_o i_o will_v have_v do_v and_o desire_v to_o do_v yet_o this_o be_v my_o comsort_n i_o do_v what_o i_o can_v yea_o more_o many_o time_n than_o this_o poor_a carcase_n can_v well_o endure_v and_o this_o be_v my_o comfort_n i_o bless_v god_n before_o ever_o i_o first_o come_v to_o thou_o i_o seek_v god_n to_o direct_v i_o and_o desire_v it_o may_v not_o be_v if_o it_o be_v not_o for_o his_o glory_n and_o both_o our_o comfort_n and_o that_o which_o make_v i_o willing_a to_o enter_v into_o that_o condition_n it_o be_v because_o god_n will_v have_v it_o so_o otherwise_o i_o consider_v what_o may_v have_v discourage_v i_o from_o it_o as_o hindrance_n in_o the_o service_n of_o god_n loss_n and_o cross_n care_v to_o bring_v up_o child_n and_o then_o grief_n to_o part_n with_o they_o etc._n etc._n the_o first_o time_n i_o go_v to_o speak_v with_o she_o i_o find_v she_o be_v at_o prayer_n as_o to_o that_o great_a concern_v 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leave_v thou_o etc._n etc._n will_v have_v i_o continue_v still_o in_o this_o misery_n and_o pain_n we_o come_v together_o to_o part_n and_o therefore_o let_v we_o part_v comfortable_o we_o shall_v meet_v again_o where_o we_o shall_v never_o part_v i_o go_v a_o little_a before_o thou_o love_v i_o and_o will_v thou_o not_o let_v i_o go_v to_o my_o first_o husband_n i_o have_v another_o husband_n and_o if_o he_o send_v a_o messenger_n for_o i_o i_o must_v go_v though_o i_o leave_v never_o such_o dear_a relation_n here_o do_v as_o much_o work_n as_o thou_o can_v for_o god_n but_o do_v not_o over_o