faire and honourable before all the sonnes of men graunt mee that I maye desire thee that I maye loue thee so much as I will and as much as I ought Thou art exceeding great and exceedingly thou oughtest to bee beloued chiefly of vs whome thou hast so loued so saued for whome thou hast done so many things O loue which euer burnest and art neuer quenched Sweete Christ méeke loue Iesu my God inflame mee wholy with thy loue with thy light with thy delight with thy desire with thy gladnesse and reioycing with thy affection and swéete kindenesse with thy pleasure and desire which is holy and excellent which is chaste and cleare that being altogether full with the swéetnesse of thy loue altogether pleasured with the feruencie of thy loue I may loue thée my Lord most sweete and beautifull with all my heart with all my soule with all my power and all my diligence with great contrition of hart and a fountaine of tears with great reuerence and feare and hauing thee in heart in mouth and before mine eyes alwaies and euery where so that no place in mee appeare open to false and counterfeite loues Amen Prayers of the Soule thirsting to see Iesus MY soule thirsteth for thée my L. God my flesh also longeth alter thee My soule thirsteth for God the liuing fountaine when shal I come and appeare before the face of the Lord When wilt thou come my comforter whoÌ„ I waite for O when shal I see my ioy I looke for O then I shall bee satisfied when my glory will appeare whom I hunger for O then shalâ— I bee drunken of the aboundance of his house which I sigh for O that thou will soake me with the flowing streame of the pleasures In the meane time O Lord let my teares be to me bread day and night vntil it be saide to mee beholde thy God vntill my soule may there looke vpon the Bridegroome Féede mée in the meane time with my sobbes refresh me with my sorrowes it may bee that my redéemer will come because he is louing and will not tarry because he is merfull To him be all honor for euer and euer Amen Another of the same STrike Lord strike I beséech thée this my most hard heart with the godly and strong point of thy deare loue and pierce déeper to the very bottome with thy mighty power And so bring forth passing much water from my head and a true fountaine of teares from my eyes aboundantly flowing through the excéeding affection and desire of the sight of thy beautie that I may mourne day and nighte receiuing no comfort in this present life vntill I may bee worthie to see thee my beloued Lorde and God in the celestiall bride chamber that there beholding thy glorious admirable most beautifull face full with all pleasure and sweetnesse I may humblie adore and worshipp thy maiestie with those whome thou hast chosen and there at the last replenished with the vnspeakeable ioy of eternal reioysing I may cry out with them that loue thée saying Beholde now I sée that I haue desired now I hold that I haue hoped for now I haue that I haue longed for I am ioyned to him in heauen whom seÌ„t vpon the earth I haue with al my power loued with all loue imbraced to whom with all loue I haue cleaued him I extoll praise and honour who liueth and raigneth God without end Amen A Prayer for the feare of the great Iudge LLord God of gods forceable and mighty vpon all wickednes I know certainely that thou wilt come I know thou wilt not euer be siâ—ent when in thy sight the lightening waxeth violent and in thy course the great tempest shall suddenly come wheÌ„ thou shalt call heauen from aboue and the earth to iudge thy people Then loe before so many thousands of people all mine iniquities shall be reuealed before so many armies of Angels all my abhominations shall he open not of my déedes onely but of my thoughts and words Thou righteous Iudge marking sinnes hast kept all my wayes as in a Sachell and hast numbred my steppes togither thou hast held thy peace thou hast béene silent thou hast béen long suffering But wo is me at last thou speakest as though sore trauailing with child c. A Prayer where the Father is called vpon through the Sonne O Father I beseech thee for the loue of thy almighty Son bring my soule out of prison to praise thy holy name I instantly desire thee through thine onely son coeternall with thee deliuer me froÌ„ the bonds of sinne and thou most highest beeing appeased through the intercession of thy Sonne sitting at thy right hand restore me to life whose owne merits threaten to mée deadly and eternall doome For what other intercessor I should bring to thee I know not but the same which is the onely sacrifice for our sinnes which sitteth at thy right hande intreating for vs. Behold my aduocate with thee God the Father beholde the chiefe Bishop who néedeth not to make an attonement with others bloud because he appeareth glorious imbrued with the blood of his own woundes Beholde the holy sacrifice well pleasing and perfect offered vp and accepted into the sauour of swéetnesse Behold the lambe without spot who before the shéerers of him became as dumbe who beaten with buffetes beraied with spittle and rayled vpon opened not his mouth Beholde him that hath done no sins hath borne our sinnes land healed our infirmities with his owne bloud Amen A prayer of the penitent CReator of heauen and earth king of kings and Lord of al that rule which hast made me of nothing to thy Image and likenes and hast redeemed mee with thy precious blood whome I wretched sinner am not worthy to name neither to call vpon or meditate of in heart I beseâ—ch thee kneeling on my knees and humbly intreating thee that thou wilt pitifully regarde mee thy euill seruant and to haue mercy on me who hadst compassion on the woman of Canaan and of Marie Magdelen who forgauest the Publicane and théefe hanging on the Crosse In thee most mercifull Father I confesse my sinnes which to conceale from thée O Lord I cannot if I would Pardon mee O Christ whome I haue greatly offended both in thought word and deed and by all the meanes in which I wicked fraile man might offend Therfore O Lord I beseech thy clemency who descendedst from heauen for my safety who rearedst Dauid from the fall of sinne pardon mee O Lord pardon mee O Christ who forgauest Peter denying thee Thou art my Creator and redeemer my Lord and my sauiour my king and my God thou art my hope and my trust I beseech and intreate thee helpe me and I shal be safe gouerne and defend mee strengthen me and comfort me confirm me and make mee glad ' inlighten and visite mee ' reare me that am dead because I am of thy making and thy worke Lord dispise mee not because I am thy seruant
I doe remember holy lorde that good woman Hanna which came to the tabernacle to pray and intreted thee to haue a sonn of whome the Scripture mentioneth that her countenance after teares and prayers was no more diuersly chaunged But I mindfull of so much vertue and so greate constancie am tormented with sorrow and confounded with shame because I beholde my selfe wretch so much abased For if a woman wept so and perseuered in weeping which desired to haue a sonne how much ought my soule to lament and continue in lamentation which seeketh and loueth GOD and loueth to come to him Howe ought such a soul to mourn and lament which seeketh God day and night which besides Christ will loue nothing Surely maruell it is if then the teares of that soule be not made bread for it day and night Looke backe therfore and haue mercy on me because the sorrowes of my heart bee multiplyed Graunt mee thy heauenly comfort and despise not my sinfull soule for which thou dyedst Grant me I beseech thée inwarde teares with al effect which may breake the bonds of my sins and for euer store my soule with heauenly reioysing Another SWeete Christ bountifull Iesu the maruellous deuotion of an other woman also commeth into my minde the which with holy loue sought the liuing in the Sepulcher the which the Disciples going away from the Sepulcher departed not the which sate downe there sad and sorrowfull and wept both long and much and rising with many teares againe and againe shee diligently searched the hollow places of the forsaken sepulchre if happily she might sée thee in any place whom with a feruent desire she looked for Then surely going into the Sepulchre shée had séene it once and againe but too much was not sufficient to her that loued For the vertue of a good worke is perseuerance or constant abyding therein And because before others she loued and in louing wept and in wéeping sought and in seeking perseuered therefore the rather shee first of all others deserued to finde thee to see thee and to speak to thée And not onely for these things but shee was the first tydings bearer to the Disciples of thy glorious resurrection thou instructing and meekely aduertising her saydest Go tel my brethren that they goe into Galilee there they shall see mee If therefore a woman so wept and perseuered in wéeping which sought the liuing amongst the dead which touched thée with the hands of faith how ought the soule to lament and abide in lamentation whâ—ch beleeueth in heart confesseth with mouth thee hiâ— redeemer now ruling in heauen and raigning euery where How therefore ought such a soule to mourne weepe which loueth thee with al heartinesse and coueteth to see thee with all desire Thou alone succour and onely hope of al that are in miserie who neuer is humblie intreated without hope of mercie Giue me this grace for thine owne sake and for thine holy name that how often I thinke of thee I speake of thee I write of thee I reade of thee I conferre of thee how often I remember thee I stand before thee I offer thanks prayers and sacrifice to thee that so often with rising teares in thy sight I may aboundantly méekely wéepe so that my teares bee instead of bread to me day night Verily thou king of glory and master of all vertues hast taught in thy word and example to mourne and wéepe saying Blessed bee they that mourne for they shall be comforted Another AH alas my Lord woe is my soule thou comforter of my soule thou departedst and saidest not so much as farewell Going thy wayes thou blessedst thine neither was I present Thy handes lifted vp thou waft receyued into heauen with a cloud neither did I see it The Angels promised thou wouldest come againe neither did I heare it What shall I say what shall I doe whether shall I goe where shall I séek him or when shal I find him Whom shal I aske who shall tell my deerly beloued that I languish in loue the delight of my heart ceaseth my laughing is turned into heauinesse my flesh and my heart fainteth O God of my heart and my portion thou God for euer My soule refuseth to bee comforted but of thée my delight for what haue I in heauen besides thée what would I vpon the earth I wish for thée I hope for thée I seeke thee my heart hath saide to thée I haue sought thy face I will seeke after thy face O lord turn not thy face away from me O most gracious louer of men the poore is left alone to thee thou art an ayder to the Orphan My onely defending aduocate haue mercie on mee desolate Orphan I am become fatherlesse my Soule is as it were a widow Regarde the teares of my lacke and widowhoode which I offer vnto thée vntill thou coÌ„mest again Ah now my Lord alas Appeare vnto me and I shall be comforted Let me beholde thy presence and I shall inioy my desire reueale thy glory and my ioy shall be full Remember this note SO often as wee doe well the Angells reioyce and the Diuells are sad So often as wee go out of the way from that which is good wee make the diuels glad and defraude the Angels of theâ—r ioy For there is ioy with them ouer one sinner which hartely repenteth Grace before Dinner ALmighty GOD whose prouidence reacheth to the vttermost ends of the world and to the depth of the Sea which nourishest all creatures with sustenance agreeable to their natures the fish the foule the foure-footed beast and the creeping worme we beseech thee that the meate drinke which is set before vs on this table at this present may be so moderately receiued that our bodies therby may be refreshed our senfes comforted through Iesus Christ our Lord Amen Grace after dinner BLessed God eternal thankes and praise bee ascribed vnto thee which hast opened thine hand at this time and made vs partakers of thy benefites and hast supplyed the necessity of our nature with these nourishing elements without the which our life caÌ„not be maintained We beseech thée to kindle in vs a continuall remembrance of thy bountifull goodnes towards vs that as thou neuer withdrawest thy fatherly care from vs so wee may neuer cease to offer vnto thee the sacrifice of praise and thanksgiuing through Iesus Christ our Lord and Sauiour Amen FINIS
THE SINNERS GLASSE Containing AVGVSTINES Ladder to Paradise With diuers Meditations and Prayers both for Morning and Euening Collected out of Saint Augustine and other ancient Fathers LONDON Printed by Iohn VVindet for John Budge 1609. To the vertuous and honorable Ladie Anne Windsor wife to the right honorable Lord Henry VVindsor AFter I had collected certaine doctrines and Meditations out of sundrie works of Augustine to mine owne priuate contentment In time following some of my learned friends by chance perusing and liking the order and method of them it put me in comfort to make them more knowne through the Englishing of them And honourable Ladie first out of that Booke vnder the name of Augustine intituled of the Spirit and Soule I had according to mine owne purpose disposed framed 15. portions or particulars out of many Chapters in that booke They are especiall easie teachings to many that yet know not what themselues are that thereby considering and beholding well of what they are made and their substance which is of the Soule and Body vnited and yet falling too often at variance will not be perswaded the one by the other they may feeling their owne miserie by it seek and desire higher after many diuine knowledges which may keepe their soules and bodies in vnitie and to bee at peace with God Then for the Meditations that follow I gathered them out of that blessed man his woorkes euery where when I thought which might mooue a godly minde not setting downe whole Chapters neither except foure or fiue but parcels thereof and contented partly with breuitie as also some time in a chapter meeting with the ignoraunce and corruption of that time in praying to Saints I left that part out which inuocation is a sacriledge not possible to haue any office allowed it in prayer through the whole scripture but by the large authoritie thereof it is most forcibly extruded And no doubt but Augustine in his time found it so lib. contra Parmenid 2. cap 8. For he sayeth Christian men doe togither commend themselues in their prayers but hee for whom none maketh intercession but he himselfe for all Hee is the verie onely and true Mediator And saith Ambrose lib. de Isaac anima He is our mouth by which we speake to the father our eye by which we see the father our right hand by which wee offer vs to the father otherwayes then by whose intercession neither wee nor all the Saintes hath any thing with God And I intend not that these abstracts out of those prayers and meditations vnto part of which I haue after my iudgment applied some verses out of the Psalmes shuld be vsed of any for or as in stead of their prayers for that cannot bee they haue beene long sithence offered vp by that holy man they were his owne But now they are to be taken as moouers stirrers vp of others to heauenly contemplation contrition and holy sorrow Our perfect prayer with the duties thereto belonging riseth of faith and knowledge which commeth by hearing and reading the Scriptures whereby thorough the holy ghost we are made able to seeke Christ and so the inuisible father who is not found elsewhere but in Christ that thus wee are come to haue a certaine communication with God in which entred into the Sanctuarie of heauen wee haue to doe with three persons As Gregorie Nazianzene vpon the Trinitie writeth I cannot sayeth he thinke of one but presently I am compassed round with the brightnesse and glorie of three Neither can I distinguish of three but suddenly I am brought again to one And so in our prayers it is with vs. Paul sayth thus Gal. 4. God hath sent the Spirit of his Sonne into our hearts which crieth Abba father which spirit so sent proceedeth from the Father and the Son and sendeth vs forth-with to call on the Father through his Sonne And also Rom. 8. That spirit in our hearts certifieth our Spirit that wee are the children of God And the same most holy 3. persons one God keepeth such an immediate course in our prayer that no Saint in heauen can come betweene the holy ghost and our redeemer to intreat him to heare vs or to bee ioyned with him or to bee in his stead for an in tercessor his leue and worthinesse maketh vs worthy through his spirit to come to him our selues As also that holy Spirit which is the cause that wee haue knowledge in the Scriptures prompteth vs how to pray how to edifie and how to answere our aduersaries visible inuisible Moreouer most excellent and heauenly knowledge is learned out of the Scripture in praise of which and comparing it aboue all other learnings Augustin saith de doct Christiana lib. 2. Whatsoeuer a man can learne without it if it be faultie or offensiue there it is condemned If it bee profitable there it is found And when whosoeuer hath found all things which elsewhere hee hath profitably learned hee shall finde those things the more abundantly by much which are learned no where else at all but in the admirable highnesse and marueilous humility of the sacred Scriptures Thus Madame signifying vnto you the contents of this briefe Collection I pray to the Almightie to enlighten and direct you alwaies with his Spirit to the increase of true honour through you in this life and to crowne you with glorie in the life euerlasting Your seruant to your honour dutifully affected Timo. Pimm A confession of our Sinnes O Lord my God euerlasting almighty Father I acknowledge and confesse before thy holy and high Maiestie that I was bred and born in sinne and corruption and that since my birth I haue not ceased nor doe cease dayly to transgresse thy commandements In respect wherof I cannot escape ruine and destruction according to thy rightfull iustice Notwithstanding forasmuch as I am sory that I haue offended thée and doe condemne both my â—elfe and my sinne and forasmuch as it hath pleased thée to loue vs euen when wee were thine enemies and for assurance thereof to giue vs thy onely and wel be loued Sonne our Lord Jesus Christ to be a Mediator and aduocate betwéene thée and vs promising that wee shall obtaine whatsoeuer we aske of thée in his name Vouchsafe O most louing God and mercifull Father to pardon and forgiue me in his name and for his sake and not only to clense my heart from all vanity and vncleannes but also to gouerne and guide me by thy holy spirit in all my waies that I may liue according to thy holy and heauenly commandements all the daies of my life to the glory of thy holy name through the same thy welbeloued Sonne So be it Morning Prayer O God and Father of our Lord Iesus Christ whom no man knoweth but by thy speciall gift grant that vnto the rest of thine excéeding great benefites towardes mée this which is the greatest that can bee bestowed vpon mankinde may be added also
the breast of his comfort These be the cleane giftes and comforts which thy Bridegroome hath giuen thee which are sobs and teares He bringeth to thee drinke with teares in measure these teares are bread to thee day night bread truely strengthning mans heart swéeter then honny and the honnies Combe O Lord if these teares bee so sweete which are stirred vp through the remeÌ„brance desire of thee how sweet shall the ioy bee conceiued by the open and mâ—nifest sight of thée If it bee so sweete to weepe for thee how sweet will it be to bee glad and reioyce with thée But why doe we set forth in common these secret conferences of that Why doe we endeuor to expresse eternal affections in common words The vnexpert vnderstand not such things in the booke of experience whom the same annoynting teacheth And other wayes the outward leter profiteth not the reader any whit Litle sauory is the reading of the outward letter except it can take the exposition and inward sence from the heart How the Soule remaineth the feruency of the holy Ghost ceasing for a time O My soule wee haue a great while prolonged speech It were good for vs to be here with Peter and Iohn to beholde the glory of the Bridegroome and to tarry long with him But I would to bee made here not two or thrée tabernacles but one in which wee might bee together and take delectation together But as the Bridegroome saith let me depart for now riseth the morning thou hast receiued the light of grace and the visiting which thou didst desire Therefore the blessing being giuen the sinnow of the thigh mortified and the name changed from Iacob to Israel the bridegroome long wished for withdraweth himselfe for a little time He withdraweth himselfe aswell from the foresaid vision as from the swéetnesse of the Contemplation notwithstanding hee remaineth as much as to gouernment as much as to glory and asmuch as to peace and vnity Here is rendred a cause why the feruency of the holy Ghost leaueth the Soule a little time BVt thou maiest not be afraide Spouse nor dispaire neither thinke thy selfe dispised although the Bridegroome withdraw his face from thee a little while All is wrought for thy good and of his comming and going away thou gettest profite Hée commeth to thy comfert he goeth away as a warning to take héed least the greatnesse of consolation should heaue and puffe thée vp least if alwayes the Bridegroome should be with thée thou shouldest begin to contemne thy fellowes and attribute such continual visiting not to grace but to nature But the Bridegroome giueth this grace to whom hee will and when hee will it may not bee possessed by right of Inheritance It is a common prouerbe that too much familiarity breedeth contempt Therefore he goeth away least by too much continuance he should be contemned and being absent hee might be the more wished for and the more wished and desired he might the more ardently bee sought for Moreouer what is present life which in respect of future glory that shal be reueled to vs is like a riddle by which now wee know in part For wee haue not here an abiding Citie but we séeke one to come Therefore wee should not esteeme banishment for a country a token for a great sum of money The bridegroome commeth likewise he goeth away now bringing comfort then changing our generall state with infirmity a little while hee suffereth vs to tast how swéete he is and before we can fully féele it hee withdraweth himselfe and so as it were with spread wings houering ouer vs prouoketh vs to flie as though he would say Behold you tast a little I am swéet if you will fully bee satisfied with this swéetnes run yee after me in to the swéete sauour of my oyntments hauing your harts lifted vp where I am on the right hand of God the Father where you shall see me not by a glasse or in a ridle but face to face and where your hearts shall reioyce fully and your ioy no man can take from you A care and diligence of the Soule that it be not altogether forsaken of God BVt take héede thou Spouse how the bridegroome may turne away himselfe from thee Hee goeth not far and though thou séest not him yet he full of eies séeth thee before behind thou canst neuer hide thy selfe froÌ„ him He hath also about thee spirits his messengers most witty and prudent spies that they should marke how the Bridegroome absent thou behauest thy selfe and might accuse thée before him If they perceiue and finde in thée any signes of wantonnesse or scurrility this Bridegroome is ielous iâ— thou entertaine an other louer if thou fancy to please others he will presently seperate himselfe from thee and cleaue to other yong ones This bridegroome is delicate noble and rich goodly to beholde in beauty aboue the Sons of men And therefore hée doth not vouchsafe or thinke worthy to haue any other then a beautifull Spouse If he see in thee a spot or a wrinkle presently hee turneth away his face He cannot indure any vncleannesse Therfore be thou chast be thou modest and humble that so of thy Bridegroome thou maist desire often to be visited The office and effects of euery one of the degrees by repetition THerefore that those things that are difficultly spoken ioyned and vnited together may séeme the better let vs gather by repetition the summâ— of such thinges spoken of before like as that before noted may be séene in the foresaide examples how those steppes and degrées may agrée together and as ioyntly and seuerally they may surpasse or excell eyther other For reading as it were a ground worke and chiefe meane first offereth it selfe and in matter being ministred sendeth vs to meditation And then Meditation diligently inquireth what is worthy to bee sought for and as it were digging findeth treasure and sheweth it But when it cannot obtaine of it selfe it sendeth vs to Prayer Prayer lifteth vp it selfe with all vehemency when it findeth by the sweetnes of conteÌ„plation the treasure worthy to bee desired Comming to this when it moistneth the thirstie soule with the dew of heauenly swéetnes it rewardeth the labour of these thrée before So then reading is an outward exercise Meditation an inward perceiuing Prayer a desire and Meditation aboue al sense The first degrée is of beginning the second of profiting the third of deuoutnes the fourth of blessednesse But these degrées are so linked together and are so seruiceable in supplying helpe one to another that those going before without those that follow profite little or nothing and those that follow without those that goe before seldome or neuer profite For what profiteth it to vse the time with continuall reading to run ouer the great acts writings of holy men except in breaking and chewing on them wee may sucke the iuyce and passe it through in swallowing it euen to the most inward
although a bad one vnworthy and a sinner But whatsoeuer I am either good or bad I am alwaies thine to whom should I flie but to thee If thou cast me off who shall receiue mee If thou dispise me who shal regarde mee O God I do acknowledge my selfe vnworthy flying againe to thee Lord thy mercy is greater then my iniquitie thy compassion is more then my vngraciousnesse towardes thée Thou canst forgiue more theÌ„ I can commit and canst pardon more then I can offend Despise mee not O Lord neither note the multitude of my sinnes but acording to the multitude of thy mercies pitty me and bee fauourable vnto me a haynous sinner Say vnto my soule I am thy sauiour which saydest I will not the death of a sinner but rather that he conuert and liue Conuert mee O Lord to thee and be not wrathfull against mee I beséech thee most gentle father for thy mercies sake that I may end my life well and with true and harty repentance of all my sinnes Amen Short Meditations THy hands O Lord haue made me and fashioned me I may say those hands which were nayled with nayles for mee Lord despise not the worke of thy hands Beholde in thy handes O Lord my God thou hast writen mee reade that writing and saue mee Beholde I thy creature sigh to thee thou art my creator renew me make me againe beholde thy workemanshippe I cry vnto thee thou art life quicken mee beholde I thy clay looke backe to thee thou art the Potter fashion me againe Lord haue mercy on mee for my daies are nothing c· Another THou full of pittie say vnto mee thy wretched seruant say vnto mee through thy compassions what thou art to me Say vnto my soule I am thy health doe not hide thy face from mee least I die Another SAue mee O Lord which art the true safety and that willest not the death of a sinner Lord haue mercy on my sinfull Soule loose the bonds thereof Sweete Iesu regarde my humility and blot out all my transgressions bee my ayde leaue me not neither despise mee O God mine onely comfort but tèach me to doe thy will O bountifull Iesu although though I haue offended whereupon thou maiest iustly damne mee yet thou hast not lost that whereby thou art accustomed to saue Good lord my Iesu why camest thou down from heauen to what ende yéeldest thou thy selfe to death but that thou wouldest saue sinners of which sort I am exceeding O vile sinner that I am take breath againe be of good cheare thou maist not despaire hope in him whom thou fearest flâ—e to him from whom thou hast fled call vpon him importunately whome proudly thou hast prouoked Say vnto him Iesu for thy sweete names sake do by me according to thy name Iesus is a name of fauour a name most delightfull a name comforting a sinner and a name of happy hope for what is Iesus but a Sauiour Therefore for thine owne sake O Iesu be Iesus to me be to me a mercifull Sauiour which art magnified and blessed world without ende Amen Godly Meditations of our Lord his sufferings O God who for the worldes Redemption wouldest bee reproued of the Iewes deliuered by the traitor Iudas and bee bound with bonds like an innocent Lambe led to the sacrifice Also vnseemely to bee brought before the beholding of Annas Caiaphas Pilate and Herod to bee accâ—used by false witnesses to bee tormented with whippes and reproches to be defiled with spittle crowned with thornes beaten with buffets stroken with a Reede blindfolded thy garmeÌ„ts put off wouldest be nayled on the crosse lifted vp thereon reputed among theeues drinke vinegar and gal and be wounded with a Speare O most mighty Lord how wonderful is thy kindnes and pitie that wouldest indure all these extreeme torments shames and cruell death and all for to appease the almighty father and be an attonement betweene him and sinfull mankinde I beséech thée most mercifull Iesu sithence all this was of excéeding loue that through those thy sharpe and bitter paines which I vnworthie wretch now meditate of and call to minde thou wilt defende and deliuer mee from the paines of hell and vouchsafe to bring mee whether thou broughtest the thiefe crucified with thee O meek and vnspotted lambe my onely righteousnesse and iustification haue mercie on me who with the father and the holy ghost liuest and raignest world without end Another HOrde Iesu Christ Son of the liuing God which hanging on the Crosse saying father forgiue theÌ„ for they know not what they do grant that I for the loue of thée may pardon euery one that doth euill vnto me And which saidest vnto the theefe this day thou shalt bee with me in paradise grant me so wel to liue that in the houre of my death thou say to me this day thou shalt be with me in Paradice And which saydst to thy mother Woman behold thy sonne Moreouer to thy Disciple behold thy mother graunt that thy loue and perfite charitie may accompanie me vnto thy mother And which saiedst My God my God why hast thou forsaken me grant me to say in all my afflictions griefes of mind mâ— Father my Lorde haue mercie on me a sinner and helpe mee my king and my God which with thy precious bloud hast redeemed mee And which saydest I thirst graunt that I may euer thirst after thee the fountaine of liuing water And which saidest Father into thy handes I commend my spirit Receiue me yeelding my self vp vnto thee And which saydest It is finished graunt that I may bee worthie to heare that sweete voyce of thine saying Come my Loue my dearly beloued spouse come that thou mayest go vp with me with my Angels and Saints to banquet reioyce and remaine together in my kingdome through infinite worlds of worldes Amen Another O Lorde Iesu Christ for the bitternesse which thou sustainedst for me wretch on the Crosse chiefly about that houre when thy most excellent soule departed out of thy blessed bodie Grant I most humblie beseech thee mercie to my soule in the departure thereof and bring it into life euerlasting Amen Another I Beséech thée Lorde Iesu Christ throgh those thy woundes suffered on the Crosse and bringing Saluation vnto vs wounde this my sinfull soule for which also thou hast vouchsafed to die wound it with thy burning and most mightie dart of thy exceeding loue Thrust my heart through with the arrow of thy loue that my soule may say vnto thee I am wounded with thy loue so that out of that wounde teares may bountifully flowe day and night O Lord strike I beseech thee strike my most hard heart with the godly strong point of thy loue yea deepely to the bottome pierce it with thy mighty power who liuest and raignest worlde without ende Amen Another of the same KIng of the elect I beséech thee throgh him holie of all the holie ones through him my redeemer make mee to runne the way
any thing of the Virgin See how much the holy man strayned himselfe who shut his eyes least hee should behold vanitie lest by chance vnawares hee should respect that which afterwards inwardly he might desire Afterward and after such sort that the prophet hath entreated of the cleannesse of the heart he beginneth to speake of the reward thereof How glorious and delectable a thing it would bee to see the face of the Lord so long wished for beautifull in fairenesse aboue the Sonnes of men Now not abiect and base not hauing a hope with which his mother cloathed him but arayed with a robe of immortality and Crowned with a diademe with which his father hath crowned him in the day of resurrection and glory the day which the Lord hath made Meditation thinketh that in that vision there shall bee that fulnes of which the prophet speaketh We shall be satisfied when thy glory shall appeare Doe you not percerue how much lie our hath flowed out of a little grape how great a fler is risen out of this sparke and how much this little text is extended in the same Meditation Blessed bee the cleane in heart for they shall see God But how much yet might bee extended or enlarged if any one should come that hath proued such things For I feele that the well is déepe and I in these things vnskilfull I haue scantly sound a vessel in which I might draw vp few things The soule inflamed with these lights sacrificed with these desires the Alablaster box of sweete oyntment broken beginneth to sauor not of tast but as it were of an odoriferous sent Of this the soule doth gather how swéet a thing it is to féele the experience whereof it hath knowne MeditatioÌ„ to be so pleasant But what shall the soule doe it burneth with desire to haue it but it doth not find in it selfe how it may haue it and in how much more it searcheth the more greatly it desireth whilst it setteth before it meditation it setteth before it also sorrow because it vnderstandeth not the sweetnes which Meditation sheweth to be in the cleanesse of heart For it commeth not of reading and meditating to vnderstand this sweetnesse except it bee giuen from aboue for to reade and meditate is as common to the euill as to the good And those Philosophers of the Gentiles by the leading of reason found out in what the châ—efe of true goodnesse consisted But because when they had known God they glorified him not as God but presuming on their â—wne power they sayde bee will magnifie our owne tongues our lipps 〈◊〉 our owne they deserued not to vnderstaÌ„d what they might see They vanished in their owne thoughts and their wisedome is devoured which humane study of discipline had bestowed vpon them not the spirit of wisedome which onely giueth true wisedome which is to say sauory knowledge which when it is in whomsoeuer that inestimable sauor gladdeth and comforteth And of that it is said wisedome doth not enter into a malicious soule For this is of God alone and as God had giuen the office of baptizing to many yet in baptisme he hath retayned to himselfe onely the power and authority of forgiunesse of sins Wher vpon John hath sayde of him distinctly this is hee which baptiseth in the holy Ghost And of him we may say this is he which giueth the tast or sauor of wisedome hee maketh knowledge sauory to the Soule For truely speech is giuen to many Wisedome to a fewe the which the LORD distributeth to whom hée will and how he will The office of Prayer BVt the Soule perceiuing of it selfe that it caÌ„not attaâ—ne to the desired swéetnesse of knowledge experience by how much the more it commeth to the secret heart by so much the more God is exalted it humbleth it selfe vnto prayer saying Lord which art not seene but of cleane hearts I haue searched in reading I haue sought in meâ—itating how true cleannesse of heart may be had that by that meanes I might know thee I did seeke thy face O Lord thy face O Lord did I séeke I haue long meditated in my heart and in my meditation the fier waxed not and my desire more to know thee whilst thou breakest to me the bread of holy scripture and in the breaâ—ing of bread in which then art more knowne And how much more I know thee I long the more to knowe thée not in the barke of the letter but in the séeâ—ng of practice and experience Neither do I humbly aske this O Lord for my merits but for thy mercy Because I confesse I am vnworthy and a sinner but yet the dogs doe eate of the crums that fall from their masters table Giue me O Lord an earnest of the inheritance to come at least one droppe of heauenly raine wherwith I may coole my thirst for I burne with great desire The office of Contemplation WIth these and such burning speeches the soule doth inflame her desire like as shee doth shew her affection With these incantations shee calleth vpon her bridegroome But the Lord whose eyes are vpon the righteous his eares open only vnto their prayers euen those their prayers he tarteth not for vntill they shall end their speech but interrupteth the middle course of their prayer and making speede offereth hâ—mselfe and compassed about with the dew of heauenly sweetnesse meeteth the longing soule and annointed with excellent oyntments refresheth the wearied soule comforteth the hungrie fatneth the poore maketh it forget earthly things quickneth it vnmindfull of it selfe in strengthening it meruailously And as in certaine carnall and fleshely pleasures carnal concuâ—iscence doth so much ouercome that it loseth all the vse of reason So of good right worthyly in this supernal Contemplation carnall fleshly motions are quite consumed and swallowed vp from the soule so that the flesh may contrary or gain say the soul in nothing man become altogether spirituall Signes of the holy Ghost comming to man O LORD how dost thou appeare when thou wilt doe these things and what signe of thy comming Whether are déepe sighes and teares witnesses and messengers of this comfort and gladnesse If it bee so this is a new meaning and an vnusuall signe For what agreement is there of comfort to sighes of gladnesse to teares but yet if these are to bee called teares and not rather the ouerflowing aboundance of the inward dew powred vpon and a signe of an inward washing and an outward clensing Like as in baptisme of Children by the outward washing is signified and figured the inward washing of the soule so here the inward clensing goeth before the outward washing O happy teares by which the inward spotts are purged and by which the burning flames of sinnes are quenched Blessed are you that so mourne for you shal reioyce O soule acknowledge thy Bridegroome with teares imbrace thy long wished for Now bee drunken with the flowing streame of pleasure sucke milke and hony from
part of the heart that out of them wee may diligently consider our state or order of life and study and indeuor to doe their workes whose déeds and writings we couet to reade often Bubow shall wee conceiue these things in minde or how may wee take héede least in meditating on some of them falsly and vainely wee should passe the bounds set downe of the holy Fathers except first we shall be instructed by reading or by hearing for bearing after a certain manner belongeth to reading Whereupon wee were wont to say not only to haue read those books which we read to our selus and others but also those which we haue heard of our Masters Also what profiteth it a man when he may perceiu what may bee done by meditations except he getteth helpe by prayer and Gods grace to obtaine to them Euery good gift and euery perfect gift is from aboue comming from the Father of Lights without whom we can doe nothing It required prayer of the Samaritane woman when he said if thou knewest the gift of God and who it is that sayeth to thée giue me drinke thou wouldest haue asked of him and hée would haue giuen thee water of life The woman hearing this as if she had beene instructed by reading meditating in her heart to bee good and profitable for her to haue this water Therefore inflamed with desire of hauing it turned her selfe to prayer saying Sir giue me of that water that I may not thirst neither come hither to draw Note the hearing of the word of God and the meditation vpon it incited or stirred her vp to prayer For how might she bee carefull and earnest to aske except first meditatioÌ„ had moued her Or what had meditation going before profited her except prayer following did shew what she had requested to attaine to Therefore to the end that meditation bee profitable it behoueth that deuout prayer should follow the effect of which is as it were the swéetnesse of Contemplation Here are declared all these degrees so to bee conioyned that they are inseperable OVt of these we may gather the reading without meditation is barren Meditation without reading is erroneous Prayer without Meditation is nothing earnest Meditation without prayer vnprofitable Prayer with deuoutnesse and obtainer of Contemplation The obtaining of Contemplation without Prayer is very rare or miraculous For God of whose power there is no number or ende and whose mercy is aboue all his workes readeth vp Sonnes to Abraham out of fiue stones whilest or as yet hard and vnwilling hee bringeth them together to assent that they may be willing And so as prodigall as it is a coÌ„mon saying he draweth the Oxe by the horne wheÌ„ not called he putteth in himselfe Which thing and if when wee reade to happen to some men as to Paule and some others yet notwithstanding wee ought not as in a manner of tempting God to take vpon vs diuine things but to doe that which belongeth vnto vs that is to read and to meditate in the law of God To pray to him that he wold helpe our infirmities and consider our imperfections Which hee teacheth vs to doe saying aske and yee shall receiue séeke and yee shall finde knocke and it shall be opened vnto you For now the Kingdome of heauen suffereth violence and the violent taketh it by violence Sée if the properties of the foure degrees aforesaid in their agreeable distinctions can bring to passe how they may agrée together and what euery one of them may effect or accomplish in vs. Blessed is the man whose mind is at leasure from other businesses hee alwayes desireth to be exercised in these foure degrées who althings that he hath being solde buyeth that fielde in which lyeth hid the treasure long wished for Marke yee and consider how swéete the Lord is Who that is exercised in the first degrée héedful circumspect in the 2. deuout in the 3. in the 4. lifted vp aboue himselfe he doth asceÌ„d by these which he hath disposed set in order in his heart froÌ„ vertue to vertue vntill hee may sée the Lord of Lords in Sion Blessed is he to whom it is graÌ„ted to remaine in this highest degrée euen a small time for he may truely say behold I féel the grace and fauor of God behold I contemplate with Peter and Iohn behold with Iacob I am often times delighted with the imbracings of Rachel But let this man beware least after this Contemplation in which hee was lifted vp to heauen hee fall downe by any disordinate occasion into the bottomlesse pitt nor after that visiting ended he bee turned into lasciuious déeds of the world and inticements of the flesh When in truth the weake sight of mans minde cannot long indure the brightnesse of the true light let it descend easily orderly to some one of the thrée degrées by which it had ascended and by course turne now in one now in another it may stay as in consideration of the place and time then is it by so much the nearer to God by how much it is the further from the first steppe or degrée But alas â—he fraile and miserable condition of man beholde wee apparantly sée by the leading of reason and the testimonies of scriptures the perfection of good life to bee contained in these foure degrées And in these spiritual good things mans exercise ought to bee imployed But whois he and we wil praise him To wil is present with many but with a few to performe and would to God wee were of that few Foure Causes which draw vs from these foure degrees BUT there are Foure causes which draw vs often times froÌ„ these foure degrées that is to wit vnauoidable necessity Commodity of honest businesse Humane infirmity and worldly vanity The first excusable the second tolerable the third miserable the fourth culpable For those whom such cause withdraweth from a holy purpose had béene yet better not to know the glory of God then known afterwards to goe backe What excuse shall we haue for sin for iustly can the Lord say what should I haue done for thee and haue not done it Thou wast not and I haue created thée thou hast sinned and madest thy selfe the seruant of the Diuell and I haue redéemed thée thou diddst runne a race of the world with the wicked and I haue chosen thée When I gaue thee grace in my sight would make an abiding with thée thou despisedst me and not onely hast cast behinde thée my wordes but my selfe and hast walked after thine owne concupiscenses But O good God gentle and méeke a swéete friend a wise councellor a strong hâ—lper how vain how rash is he that renounceth thée that putteth back so milde and quiet a guest from his owne heart O vnhappy and dangerous change to put away his Creator and to receiue hurtfull cogitations Yea that secret seate of the holy Ghost the secret of the heart which a litle time before bent and