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look_n will_v be_v amorous_a i_o shall_v often_o steal_v a_o sweet_a ejaculation_n to_o satisfy_v the_o longing_n of_o my_o love-sick_a soul_n when_o i_o can_v thus_o bring_v the_o day_n to_o a_o end_n my_o life_n will_v be_v comfortable_a my_o death_n happy_a and_o i_o may_v then_o say_v with_o holy_a david_n that_o i_o will_v lay_v i_o down_o in_o peace_n and_o take_v my_o rest_n for_o it_o be_v thou_o lord_n only_o that_o make_v i_o dwell_v in_o safety_n bless_a lord_n in_o the_o morning_n of_o my_o creation_n thou_o give_v i_o unto_o myself_o in_o the_o evening_n of_o my_o redemption_n thou_o give_v thyself_o unto_o i_o my_o creation_n be_v wonderful_a my_o redemption_n astonish_v as_o this_o day_n light_n be_v obscure_v for_o the_o rest_n of_o my_o body_n so_o be_v thou_o the_o blefy_v and_o eternal_a light_n for_o the_o rest_n of_o my_o soul_n thou_o o_o bless_a saviour_n be_v my_o light_n to_o direct_v i_o my_o heat_n to_o comfort_v i_o my_o sweet_a and_o safe_a repose_n eternal_o to_o refresh_v i_o gracious_a god_n with_o humble_a and_o deject_a heart_n i_o ask_v forgiveness_n of_o the_o many_o fail_n of_o my_o sinfud_a life_n past_a recall_v my_o sinful_a thought_n to_o my_o remembrance_n lord_n as_o the_o burden_n of_o they_o be_v intolerable_a so_o let_v my_o grief_n for_o they_o be_v unutterable_a lord_n open_v my_o eye_n that_o i_o may_v see_v the_o foulnes_n and_o the_o filthiness_n of_o sin_n and_o apprebend_v the_o greatness_n of_o thy_o wrath_n against_o it_o forgive_v those_o actual_a sin_n which_o this_o day_n light_n have_v witness_v lord_n give_v i_o a_o godly_a sorrow_n for_o they_o a_o perfect_a batter_v against_o they_o a_o fix_a and_o a_o constant_a resolution_n to_o forsake_v they_o lord_n cleanse_v i_o from_o my_o secret_a and_o unknown_a sin_n and_o keep_v i_o for_o thy_o mercy_n sake_n that_o dare_v and_o presumptuous_a sin_n may_v never_o have_v dominion_n over_o i_o make_v i_o a_o careful_a steward_n of_o that_o precious_a time_n which_o thou_o haft_n give_v i_o withdraw_v my_o affection_n from_o the_o vain_a pleasure_n of_o this_o sinful_a life_n and_o grant_v that_o all_o the_o day_n of_o my_o appoint_a time_n i_o may_v wait_v ready_o and_o cheerful_o until_o my_o change_n shall_v come_v chap._n 5._o upon_o our_o approach_n unto_o god_n house_n lord_n there_o be_v no_o mortal_a man_n worthy_a to_o stand_v at_o thy_o door_n much_o less_o to_o appear_v in_o thy_o presence_n and_o yet_o how_o often_o have_v i_o presume_v to_o approach_v unto_o thou_o without_o that_o preparedness_n of_o heart_n without_o that_o dejection_n of_o soul_n without_o that_o true_a and_o holy_a reverence_n that_o become_v thy_o child_n i_o be_o now_o go_v out_o of_o egypt_n into_o canaan_n out_o of_o bondage_n into_o freedom_n the_o sinful_a trouble_n of_o this_o life_n be_v my_o soul_n taskmaster_n to_o load_v it_o with_o a_o burden_n insupportable_a and_o this_o be_v that_o place_n of_o sacrifice_n that_o mount_n of_o god_n to_o ease_v and_o solace_v it_o consider_v therefore_o o_o my_o soul_n in_o what_o relation_n thou_o now_o stand_v to_o thy_o god_n if_o thou_o be_v a_o true_a israelite_n thou_o will_v look_v back_o upon_o thy_o drudgery_n and_o despise_v it_o and_o offer_v up_o thyself_o a_o live_a sacrifice_n with_o cheerfulness_n with_o thankfulness_n of_o heart_n if_o thou_o be_v god_n child_n thou_o will_v love_v to_o be_v in_o god_n house_n long_o for_o god_n presence_n thirst_n for_o his_o favour_n delight_n in_o his_o word_n and_o rejoice_v to_o be_v often_o at_o his_o table_n thou_o will_v make_v it_o thy_o chies_a joy_n to_o be_v often_o in_o that_o place_n from_o whence_o thou_o may_v expect_v thy_o chief_a good_a lord_n by_o thy_o grace_n assist_v i_o will_v now_o unclothe_v myself_o of_o all_o earthly_a affection_n i_o will_v call_v to_o mind_n unto_o who_o presence_n i_o approach_v and_o wherefore_o that_o i_o be_o go_v from_o this_o church_n militant_a to_o that_o triumphant_a that_o thou_o lord_n be_v as_o true_o present_v here_o in_o grace_n as_o there_o in_o glory_n unless_o therefore_o i_o be_o in_o love_n with_o misery_n i_o will_v leave_v behind_o i_o all_o earthly-mindedness_a and_o carry_v with_o i_o a_o pure_a heart_n and_o heavenly_a thought_n a_o lowly_a mind_n and_o reverend_a gesture_n lord_n if_o i_o go_v not_o cheerful_o to_o thy_o throne_n of_o grace_n i_o may_v well_o fear_v i_o shall_v never_o go_v joyful_o to_o that_o of_o glory_n the_o low_a room_n in_o thy_o house_n shall_v content_v i_o divine_a worship_n admit_v not_o of_o disparity_n of_o person_n we_o be_v all_o sinner_n and_o as_o we_o be_v in_o nature_n most_o impure_a in_o thy_o sight_n the_o
worst_a room_n in_o thy_o house_n be_v too_o good_a even_o for_o the_o best_a of_o we_o yet_o decency_n of_o place_n may_v be_v take_v with_o modesty_n if_o not_o seek_v with_o emulation_n during_o the_o time_n of_o this_o holy_a dispensation_n i_o will_v call_v my_o thought_n unto_o a_o strict_a attendance_n and_o make_v it_o part_n of_o my_o precedent_a prayer_n that_o i_o may_v satan_n be_v ever_o most_o busy_a when_o our_o intention_n be_v most_o holy_a which_o when_o he_o can_v divert_v he_o labour_v to_o corrupt_v and_o by_o this_o mean_n when_o i_o desire_v to_o grow_v better_a i_o become_v worse_o how_o careful_a ought_v i_o to_o be_v to_o avoid_v his_o cunning_n who_o can_v cozen_v i_o in_o my_o best_a action_n my_o soul_n shall_v more_o delight_v itself_o with_o the_o matter_n than_o my_o ear_n with_o the_o melody_n of_o thy_o sacred_a note_n church-music_n will_v be_v then_o true_o sweet_a unto_o i_o when_o my_o outward_a joy_n be_v subservient_fw-fr to_o my_o inward_a man_n sinful_a weakness_n shall_v not_o make_v i_o slight_v thy_o holy_a ordinance_n if_o my_o pastor_n have_v fail_n i_o will_v pity_v and_o pray_v for_o he_o but_o not_o despise_v he_o if_o i_o look_v into_o my_o own_o soul_n i_o shall_v there_o find_v work_n enough_o to_o repair_v my_o own_o ruin_n this_o lord_n shall_v rather_o move_v i_o to_o extol_v thy_o mercy_n in_o uphold_v my_o own_o step_n to_o lament_v the_o sadness_n of_o my_o brother_n misery_n lord_n let_v i_o never_o think_v myself_o better_a than_o another_o because_o i_o know_v not_o how_o soon_o i_o may_v become_v worse_o i_o shall_v willing_o continue_v in_o that_o fold_n where_o thou_o have_v place_v i_o and_o hope_v to_o remain_v there_o with_o comfort_n till_o thou_o shall_v lead_v i_o out_o with_o safety_n while_o i_o be_o at_o thy_o feed_n i_o be_o happy_a one_o of_o thy_o morsel_n well_o digest_v with_o humility_n and_o thankfulness_n will_v yield_v i_o better_a nourishment_n than_o that_o other_o food_n of_o my_o own_o find_n the_o very_o mean_a of_o thy_o minister_n may_v afford_v i_o patience_n and_o that_o heavenly_a grace_n with_o thy_o blessing_n to_o boot_v be_v a_o great_a advantage_n if_o i_o receive_v thy_o sacred_a word_n with_o cheerfulness_n with_o earnestness_n of_o heart_n my_o obedience_n shall_v be_v accept_v my_o zeal_n reward_v while_o i_o be_o within_o thy_o wall_n i_o shall_v account_v that_o gesture_n most_o decent_a that_o be_v most_o humble_a and_o those_o ceremony_n most_o necessary_a that_o be_v most_o suitable_a to_o obedience_n all_o matter_n of_o doctrine_n which_o be_v necessary_a to_o salvation_n ought_v to_o be_v guide_v by_o thy_o sacred_a word_n which_o be_v the_o only_a rule_n of_o faith_n all_o matter_n of_o discipline_n which_o be_v necessary_a only_o to_o obedience_n be_v therefore_o leave_v to_o thy_o church_n care_n that_o as_o thou_o be_v one_o so_o thy_o church_n may_v be_v one_o in_o that_o bless_a union_n of_o love_n which_o be_v the_o bond_n of_o peace_n and_o now_o o_o lord_n if_o thou_o shall_v call_v i_o to_o a_o strict_a account_n for_o all_o my_o misdemeanour_n in_o thy_o sacred_a worship_n with_o what_o confusion_n of_o face_n must_v â—needs_o appear_v before_o thou_o how_o many_o evil_a suggestion_n how_o many_o idle_a imagination_n how_o many_o sinful_a object_n have_v i_o often_o entertain_v to_o divert_v my_o thought_n from_o thy_o service_n i_o have_v too_o often_o sin_v in_o absent_v thy_o house_n but_o more_o often_o and_o more_o grievous_o in_o frequent_v it_o by_o come_v careless_o and_o out_o of_o custom_n by_o unbeseeming_a gesture_n cold_a prayer_n heartless_a hear_n profane_a scoff_a curious_a censure_v and_o even_o in_o the_o best_a of_o my_o performance_n by_o serve_v thou_o my_o god_n by_o half_n all_o this_o i_o hearty_o bewail_v and_o earnest_o desire_v thy_o pardon_n and_o forgiveness_n for_o it_o lord_n let_v this_o day_n rest_n of_o my_o body_n bring_v to_o my_o remembrance_n that_o eternal_a rest_n of_o my_o soul_n let_v i_o not_o now_o think_v my_o own_o thought_n speak_v my_o own_o word_n do_v my_o own_o action_n but_o come_v before_o thou_o with_o a_o sanctify_a and_o humble_a soul_n with_o a_o wound_a and_o contrite_a spirit_n repel_v all_o evil_a suggestion_n remove_v all_o idle_a imagination_n divert_v all_o sinful_a object_n enlighten_v my_o understanding_n rectify_v my_o will_n strengthen_v my_o memory_n subdue_v my_o affection_n that_o i_o may_v rejoice_v in_o thy_o love_n delight_n in_o thy_o law_n long_o for_o thy_o presence_n rely_v on_o thy_o promise_n thirst_v for_o thy_o grace_n and_o be_v for_o ever_o bless_v in_o thy_o glory_n amen_n chap._n 6._o upon_o our_o return_v from_o god_n house_n and_o the_o neglect_n of_o private_a duty_n lord_n he_o that_o know_v thou_o will_v undoubted_o delight_v to_o serve_v thou_o if_o i_o call_v thy_o sabbath_n a_o delight_n my_o thought_n in_o this_o day_n will_v be_v pure_a my_o word_n gracious_a my_o action_n holy_a that_o 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fervent_a in_o prayer_n frequent_a in_o meditation_n constant_a in_o all_o that_o knowledge_n will_v make_v woeful_o wise_a which_o teach_v i_o to_o know_v and_o not_o to_o do_v thy_o will_n meditation_n be_v the_o life_n of_o hear_v practise_v the_o life_n of_o meditation_n and_o a_o sincere_a heart_n the_o life_n of_o practice_n when_o i_o look_v into_o my_o life_n past_a i_o find_v it_o to_o be_v all_o sin_n when_o i_o consider_v of_o my_o life_n present_a i_o can_v but_o confess_v it_o to_o be_v all_o shame_n i_o be_o still_o so_o far_o from_o grow_v better_a that_o i_o be_o become_v much_o worse_o this_o be_v that_o bless_a day_n which_o concern_v my_o peace_n if_o i_o embrace_v not_o this_o happy_a opportunity_n i_o may_v just_o fear_v these_o gracious_a offer_n will_v be_v hide_v for_o ever_o from_o my_o eye_n each_o word_n that_o i_o hear_v thy_o day_n be_v of_o weight_n if_o i_o become_v not_o more_o holy_a by_o my_o heavenly_a improvement_n by_o it_o i_o shall_v certain_o 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but_o behold_v i_o in_o the_o beauty_n and_o perfection_n of_o thy_o blessed_a son_n teach_v i_o o_o lord_n to_o see_v the_o rebellion_n of_o my_o own_o wicked_a heart_n by_o his_o perfect_a obedience_n my_o sinfulness_n by_o his_o righteousness_n my_o misery_n by_o his_o mercy_n forgive_v my_o many_o and_o sinful_a compliance_n of_o nature_n which_o have_v make_v i_o a_o stranger_n to_o thy_o grace_n and_o my_o own_o happiness_n the_o great_a neglect_n of_o my_o obedience_n unto_o thy_o command_n have_v just_o call_v for_o the_o great_a and_o heavy_a load_n of_o my_o affliction_n the_o careless_a withdraw_n of_o my_o affection_n from_o thou_o my_o god_n have_v occasion_v the_o sad_a departing_n of_o thy_o holy_a spirit_n from_o i_o o_o that_o my_o loss_n of_o tear_n
and_o with_o thy_o bless_a apostle_n that_o i_o know_v assure_o that_o the_o suffering_n of_o this_o life_n shall_v work_v for_o i_o a_o far_o great_a and_o more_o exceed_a weight_n of_o glory_n in_o that_o to_o come_v to_o thou_o therefore_o o_o thou_o bless_a guardian_n of_o my_o sinful_a soul_n and_o wretched_a body_n do_v i_o address_v myself_o for_o safety_n and_o protection_n i_o confess_v o_o lord_n there_o be_v no_o one_o minute_n of_o my_o whole_a life_n can_v be_v safe_a without_o thy_o gracious_a providence_n and_o yet_o so_o wretched_a have_v i_o be_v that_o few_o or_o none_o of_o they_o have_v be_v devote_v to_o thy_o service_n lord_n i_o be_o not_o worthy_a of_o the_o least_o of_o all_o thy_o mercy_n and_o of_o all_o thy_o truth_n thou_o have_v afford_v i_o even_o the_o very_o best_a of_o all_o my_o action_n have_v just_o merit_v the_o very_o worst_a of_o all_o thy_o punishment_n and_o yet_o thou_o daily_a load_a i_n with_o thy_o blessing_n although_o i_o hourly_o sin_n against_o thou_o by_o my_o great_a transgression_n forgive_v i_o my_o unmindfulnesse_n of_o these_o thy_o mercy_n my_o great_a unthankfulness_n for_o all_o thy_o favour_n and_o fix_v my_o sinful_a soul_n more_o willing_o more_o joyful_o more_o fervent_o more_o constant_o on_o thy_o service_n teach_v i_o to_o keep_v a_o catalogue_n of_o thy_o mercy_n to_o let_v none_o pass_v without_o a_o thankful_a and_o devout_a acknowledgement_n to_o set_v some_o day_n apart_o from_o the_o year_n some_o hour_n from_o each_o day_n to_o praise_v thou_o for_o they_o forgive_v the_o pride_n of_o my_o prosperity_n my_o carelessness_n of_o thou_o my_o coldness_n unto_o thou_o my_o crossness_n unto_o other_o my_o cruelty_n to_o myself_o lord_n pardon_v my_o repine_n in_o adversity_n my_o distaste_n of_o thy_o power_n my_o distrust_n of_o thy_o providence_n my_o denial_n of_o thy_o wisdom_n my_o refusal_n of_o thy_o love_n my_o contempt_n of_o thy_o favour_n my_o neglect_n of_o thy_o grace_n my_o despair_n of_o thy_o goodness_n o_o give_v i_o such_o a_o bless_a frame_n of_o heart_n that_o i_o may_v cheerful_o and_o joyful_o content_v myself_o to_o walk_v in_o whatsoever_o path_n thy_o bless_a providence_n shall_v lead_v i_o to_o o_o hold_v thou_o up_o my_o go_n in_o those_o path_n that_o my_o foot_n slip_v not_o teach_v i_o to_o make_v a_o gracious_a and_o a_o sweet_a improvement_n of_o these_o outward_a cross_n a_o bless_a and_o a_o wise_a advantage_n of_o thy_o inward_a grace_n lord_n lead_v i_o by_o thy_o counsel_n here_o and_o afterward_o receive_v i_o to_o thy_o glory_n amen_n chap._n 16._o upon_o sinful_a anger_n and_o the_o great_a disturbance_n thereof_o lord_n when_o i_o consider_v of_o thy_o patience_n and_o long-suffering_a towards_o i_o a_o miserable_a sinner_n of_o the_o lowliness_n of_o thy_o saint_n and_o of_o the_o great_a humility_n and_o meekness_n of_o my_o saviour_n in_o his_o suffering_n i_o much_o deplore_v the_o woeful_a weakness_n of_o my_o own_o infirmity_n and_o more_o admire_v the_o richness_n of_o thy_o goodness_n in_o admit_v i_o to_o speak_v unto_o thou_o what_o pleasure_n lord_n can_v thou_o take_v in_o that_o service_n which_o be_v all_o sin_n how_o can_v thou_o delight_v in_o that_o which_o thou_o abhor_v thou_o be_v a_o god_n of_o pure_a eye_n and_o can_v not_o behold_v iniquity_n if_o all_o my_o righteousness_n be_v in_o thy_o sight_n as_o filthy_a rag_n and_o menstivous_a clothes_n how_o full_a of_o ugliness_n and_o deformity_n will_v my_o sin_n then_o appear_v before_o thou_o ah_o lord_n thou_o have_v often_o seâ—n_o how_o easy_o how_o sudden_o how_o wretched_o i_o have_v be_v swallow_v up_o of_o sinful_a passion_n how_o i_o have_v violate_v that_o invaluable_a peace_n which_o thou_o have_v give_v i_o by_o revengeful_a thought_n by_o despiteful_a word_n by_o disturb_v action_n i_o know_v nothing_o in_o my_o corrupt_a nature_n but_o to_o know_v myself_o miserable_a i_o see_v nothing_o in_o this_o misery_n but_o terror_n and_o confusion_n affliction_n to_o my_o body_n destruction_n to_o my_o soul_n all_o occurrence_n of_o this_o life_n shall_v have_v rather_o add_v to_o my_o growth_n of_o grace_n than_o disturbance_n of_o nature_n i_o have_v hitherto_o be_v gross_o mistake_v in_o call_v that_o a_o defect_n of_o my_o body_n which_o be_v in_o truth_n a_o error_n in_o my_o soul_n nature_n be_v at_o first_o create_v pure_a no_o disobedience_n be_v then_o in_o the_o passion_n man_n have_v mar_v it_o by_o his_o fall_n all_o the_o stream_n that_o be_v now_o trouble_v flow_n from_o this_o fountain_n this_o barren_a excuse_n therefore_o be_v so_o far_o from_o lessen_v sin_n that_o it_o make_v it_o big_a i_o be_o now_o so_o much_o the_o more_o stain_v by_o commit_v actual_a sin_n as_o i_o shall_v have_v be_v more_o holy_a and_o be_o not_o since_o original_n lord_n let_v this_o teach_v i_o to_o deal_v true_o with_o my_o soul_n to_o unclothe_v myself_o of_o all_o sinful_a excuse_n that_o so_o sin_n may_v appear_v true_o what_o it_o be_v and_o may_v become_v out_o of_o measure_n sinful_a that_o my_o anger_n may_v be_v holy_a my_o application_n of_o it_o happy_a that_o nothing_o may_v disturb_v i_o but_o sin_n that_o i_o may_v be_v a_o lion_n in_o thy_o cause_n a_o lamb_n in_o my_o own_o that_o when_o i_o hate_v the_o sin_n i_o may_v love_v the_o person_n when_o i_o rebuke_v the_o offence_n i_o may_v pray_v hearty_o for_o the_o offender_n so_o shall_v i_o zealous_o enjoy_v thou_o my_o god_n religious_o embrace_v my_o neighhour_n patient_o possess_v my_o own_o soul_n and_o now_o lord_n as_o thou_o have_v give_v i_o a_o heart_n to_o confess_v my_o sin_n of_o impatience_n before_o thou_o so_o give_v i_o a_o sweet_a assurance_n in_o my_o saviour_n that_o by_o he_o i_o have_v assure_v pardon_n for_o they_o if_o thou_o lord_n for_o my_o sinful_a anger_n shall_v inflict_v upon_o i_o thy_o severe_a wrath_n and_o for_o my_o long_o continue_v in_o my_o sin_n the_o long_a duration_n of_o thy_o punishment_n yet_o let_v not_o thy_o severity_n exceed_v the_o measure_n of_o my_o christian_a charity_n though_o thou_o continue_v my_o misery_n yet_o withdraw_v not_o thy_o mercy_n o_o make_v i_o more_o and_o more_o humble_a unto_o thou_o my_o god_n and_o more_o and_o more_o meek_a among_o thy_o child_n conform_v i_o to_o that_o bless_a pattern_n of_o true_a piety_n and_o patience_n that_o as_o a_o sheep_n in_o thy_o hand_n my_o bless_a shearer_n so_o i_o may_v be_v dumb_a and_o not_o open_v my_o mouth_n against_o thou_o lord_n banish_v from_o i_o all_o desire_n of_o revenge_n let_v patience_n have_v its_o perfect_a work_n to_o quiet_v i_o here_o and_o crown_v i_o hereafter_o i_o confess_v myself_o to_o be_v a_o great_a and_o grievous_a sinner_n and_o yet_o i_o be_o thy_o creature_n my_o body_n be_v thou_o and_o my_o soul_n be_v thou_o both_o be_v join_v in_o thy_o creation_n and_o both_o be_v join_v in_o my_o devotion_n both_o have_v sin_v against_o thou_o o_o let_v they_o both_o be_v humble_v before_o thou_o not_o to_o satisfy_v thy_o justice_n but_o to_o implore_v thy_o mercy_n not_o to_o merit_v thy_o grace_n but_o to_o magnify_v thy_o goodness_n lord_n make_v i_o true_o sensible_a of_o the_o greatness_n of_o thy_o misery_n that_o i_o may_v the_o more_o devout_o the_o more_o sincere_o sue_v to_o thou_o for_o mercy_n forgive_v the_o many_o violent_a eruption_n of_o my_o sinful_a passion_n give_v i_o a_o meek_a and_o humble_a spirit_n that_o i_o may_v happy_o enjoy_v thy_o presence_n and_o my_o own_o content_a lord_n grant_v that_o i_o may_v patient_o and_o joyful_o embrace_v the_o wrong_n and_o injury_n of_o this_o life_n for_o thy_o sake_n who_o have_v be_v patient_a even_o to_o death_n for_o i_o let_v that_o be_v make_v easy_a unto_o i_o by_o thy_o grace_n which_o by_o nature_n be_v impossible_a that_o nothing_o may_v delight_v i_o but_o thy_o love_n nothing_o grieve_v i_o but_o thy_o displeasure_n nothing_o offend_v i_o but_o thy_o dishonour_n amen_n chap._n 17._o upon_o man_n inordinate_a love_n to_o the_o creature_n woe_n be_v i_o that_o i_o be_o constrain_v to_o live_v in_o meshech_n and_o to_o dwell_v in_o the_o tent_n of_o cedar_n woe_n be_v i_o that_o i_o be_v conceive_v in_o sin_n that_o i_o be_v bear_v in_o sin_n and_o that_o i_o have_v so_o long_o be_v captive_a to_o the_o power_n of_o sin_n how_o vain_a be_o i_o how_o wretched_a to_o beguile_v myself_o of_o rest_n and_o quietness_n o_o how_o unworthy_a to_o defile_v my_o marriage_n vow_n to_o prostitute_v my_o love_n to_o these_o unclean_a and_o false_a embrace_n of_o a_o sâ—nfull_a world_n to_o dig_v unto_o myself_o these_o break_a cistern_n of_o impure_a and_o empty_a joy_n and_o to_o forsake_v those_o live_a water_n of_o
subordinate_a to_o this_o sweetness_n christian_a liberty_n may_v be_v easy_o mistake_v and_o become_v licentious_a wickedness_n there_o be_v oftentime_o most_o danger_n in_o those_o thing_n which_o seem_v most_o necessary_a if_o not_o use_v with_o moderation_n and_o now_o lord_n have_v serious_o consider_v what_o time_n be_v and_o wherefore_o i_o admire_v the_o folly_n and_o lament_v the_o misery_n of_o all_o those_o who_o only_a aim_n be_v to_o misspend_v it_o my_o day_n be_v few_o and_o full_a of_o evil_n o_o let_v my_o great_a care_n be_v to_o husband_n my_o time_n well_o i_o have_v much_o business_n and_o great_a to_o dispatch_v and_o i_o know_v not_o whether_o this_o day_n lâ—ght_n may_v be_v my_o last_o my_o eternity_n of_o joy_n or_o sorrow_n have_v its_o dependence_n on_o this_o short_a moment_n if_o i_o think_v upon_o it_o serious_o i_o shall_v grudge_v to_o spend_v one_o minute_n vain_o lord_n there_o be_v no_o distinction_n of_o time_n with_o thou_o one_o day_n with_o thou_o be_v as_o a_o thousand_o year_n and_o a_o thousand_o year_n as_o one_o day_n o_o let_v i_o serious_o consider_v that_o with_o i_o there_o be_v that_o i_o must_v work_v while_o it_o be_v call_v to_o day_n that_o my_o hour_n be_v swift_a and_o short_a that_o the_o night_n of_o death_n come_v when_o i_o can_v work_v that_o the_o end_n of_o all_o thing_n come_v when_o time_n shall_v be_v no_o more_o by_o thy_o grace_n therefore_o i_o will_v pious_o devote_v the_o remnant_n of_o my_o life_n to_o holy_a duty_n so_o shall_v my_o age_n of_o sin_n be_v nothing_o in_o thy_o sight_n and_o one_o day_n well_o spend_v in_o thy_o remembrance_n as_o a_o thousand_o year_n bless_a lord_n will_v thou_o accept_v of_o such_o a_o sinful_a creature_n as_o i_o be_o to_o appear_v before_o thou_o to_o approach_v unto_o thou_o to_o sue_v to_o thou_o for_o mercy_n how_o bold_a be_o i_o to_o look_v up_o unto_o thou_o with_o these_o adulterous_a eye_n that_o have_v so_o long_o be_v gaze_v on_o these_o earthly_a joy_n how_o much_o presume_v on_o thy_o mercy_n to_o implore_v thou_o with_o that_o tongue_n that_o have_v so_o much_o provoke_v thy_o displeasure_n how_o impudent_a to_o offer_v that_o disloyal_a heart_n unto_o thou_o that_o have_v so_o fast_o be_v wed_v to_o this_o sinful_a world_n lord_n when_o my_o own_o wretchedness_n have_v bring_v thy_o gracious_a visitation_n on_o i_o when_o thy_o hand_n press_v i_o sore_o when_o thy_o arrow_n stick_v fast_o in_o i_o and_o the_o venom_n of_o they_o drink_v up_o my_o spirit_n when_o my_o heart_n be_v in_o hcaviness_n and_o my_o soul_n in_o bitterness_n when_o my_o life_n be_v draw_v near_o unto_o the_o grave_n when_o my_o own_o conscience_n plead_v powerful_o against_o i_o and_o the_o terror_n of_o a_o second_o death_n be_v ready_a to_o devour_v i_o i_o then_o earnest_o implore_v thou_o for_o mercy_n and_o thou_o free_o forgave_v i_o i_o than_o beg_v my_o life_n of_o thou_o that_o i_o may_v thankful_o devote_v the_o remnant_n of_o my_o life_n unto_o thou_o ah_o lord_n how_o wretched_o have_v my_o own_o heart_n deceive_v i_o what_o serious_a vow_n and_o faithful_a promise_n do_v i_o then_o make_v unto_o thou_o and_o yet_o how_o careless_o how_o foolish_o be_o i_o depart_v from_o thou_o how_o vain_o have_v i_o trifle_v out_o that_o precious_a time_n which_o thou_o have_v give_v i_o how_o just_o may_v thou_o now_o deprive_v i_o of_o this_o wretched_a life_n by_o which_o i_o have_v so_o much_o dishonour_v thou_o and_o now_o lord_n when_o i_o have_v even_o weary_v out_o myself_o in_o wickedness_n when_o my_o soul_n be_v overcharge_v with_o sin_n and_o my_o heart_n with_o sorrow_n when_o the_o vanity_n of_o this_o life_n be_v ready_a to_o forsake_v i_o and_o there_o be_v nothing_o leave_v but_o misery_n and_o shame_n to_o seize_v upon_o i_o i_o have_v not_o yet_o resolve_v serious_o to_o come_v unto_o thou_o lord_n leave_v i_o not_o unto_o the_o weakness_n of_o my_o own_o infirmity_n expose_v i_o not_o unto_o the_o rage_a hillowe_n of_o these_o strong_a temptation_n suffer_v i_o not_o to_o sink_v into_o this_o depth_n of_o sin_n to_o be_v destroy_v by_o this_o dreadful_a storm_n of_o satan_n and_o my_o own_o accuse_a conscience_n rebuke_v these_o wind_n and_o wave_n and_o cause_v a_o bless_a calm_n within_o i_o reach_v out_o thy_o hand_n of_o mercy_n and_o support_v i_o strengthen_v my_o droop_a soul_n that_o i_o may_v joyful_o and_o faithful_o lie_v hold_v upon_o thou_o give_v i_o a_o fix_a heart_n that_o i_o may_v serious_o return_v unto_o thou_o and_o may_v this_o hour_n be_v gracious_o accept_v of_o thou_o lord_n wean_v i_o from_o the_o false_a embrace_n of_o this_o evil_a world_n turn_v all_o these_o sinful_a joy_n to_o bitterness_n unto_o i_o make_v i_o to_o see_v their_o foulness_n and_o deformity_n their_o emptiness_n and_o vanity_n their_o shortness_n and_o uncertainty_n their_o falsehood_n and_o flattery_n their_o weariness_n and_o misery_n o_o let_v my_o heart_n be_v fill_v let_v my_o soul_n be_v ravish_v with_o those_o transcendent_a joy_n of_o thou_o which_o be_v for_o ever_o give_v i_o a_o joyful_a soul_n to_o rest_v secure_o in_o they_o a_o ready_a heart_n devout_o thankful_a for_o they_o lord_n moderate_a my_o desire_n to_o outward_a enjoyment_n let_v i_o relish_v no_o sweetness_n but_o in_o thy_o love_n no_o goodness_n but_o in_o thy_o grace_n no_o comfort_n but_o in_o the_o full_a assurance_n of_o thy_o glory_n forgive_v those_o wretched_a hour_n which_o have_v be_v steal_v from_o thy_o service_n o_o lord_n my_o god_n i_o hearty_o bewail_v they_o and_o willing_o resolve_v to_o spend_v my_o day_n in_o sorrow_n for_o they_o make_v i_o more_o watchful_a over_o my_o corrupt_a heart_n more_o careful_a of_o my_o precious_a time_n more_o serious_a in_o the_o weighty_a work_n of_o my_o salvation_n more_o sorrowful_a for_o sin_n more_o mindful_a of_o the_o hour_n of_o death_n and_o day_n of_o judgejudgement_n that_o so_o i_o may_v affect_v the_o pleasure_n of_o this_o life_n sober_o enjoy_v they_o spare_o and_o leave_v they_o cheerful_o amen_n chap._n 20._o upon_o the_o great_a danger_n of_o defer_v the_o hour_n of_o repentance_n consider_v o_o my_o soul_n of_o the_o great_a danger_n of_o delay_v thy_o repentance_n of_o judge_v that_o so_o easy_a which_o will_v prove_v so_o difficult_a of_o think_v that_o almost_o finish_v which_o be_v scarce_o yet_o begin_v believe_v thou_o it_o will_v suffice_v thou_o to_o have_v some_o transitory_a thought_n of_o thy_o amendment_n to_o have_v perhaps_o some_o pinch_a sigh_n some_o sting_n of_o conscience_n some_o show_v of_o sorrow_n for_o thy_o sin_n to_o hang_v down_o thy_o head_n like_o a_o bulrush_n for_o a_o day_n and_o yet_o afterward_o to_o return_v with_o the_o dog_n to_o thy_o filthy_a vomit_n and_o with_o the_o sow_n to_o the_o wallow_n in_o the_o nasty_a mire_n of_o sin_n while_o thou_o continue_v in_o this_o course_n thy_o hope_n of_o amendment_n be_v extreme_a doubtful_a of_o reconciliation_n dangerous_a of_o repentance_n desperate_a if_o ever_o thou_o hope_v to_o inherit_v heaven_n let_v not_o satan_n thus_o delude_v thou_o look_v well_o into_o thy_o evil_a and_o corrupt_a heart_n and_o thou_o shall_v there_o find_v that_o this_o be_v not_o the_o cure_n but_o the_o discase_v of_o sin_n that_o thou_o grieve_v not_o for_o thy_o offence_n but_o for_o thy_o punishment_n that_o thou_o may_v yet_o go_v much_o far_o in_o this_o suppose_a path_n of_o thy_o repentance_n and_o still_o be_v far_o short_a of_o that_o sincerity_n of_o heart_n which_o god_n require_v of_o thou_o and_o yet_o have_v no_o part_n nor_o fellowship_n in_o christ_n thou_o may_v with_o saul_n express_v thy_o sorrow_n with_o thy_o tear_n with_o those_o believer_n in_o the_o gospel_n receive_v the_o word_n with_o joy_n with_o demas_n show_v thy_o inward_a grace_n by_o thy_o outward_a obedience_n and_o in_o some_o sort_n be_v make_v partaker_n of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n and_o have_v a_o taste_n of_o the_o good_a thing_n of_o the_o world_n to_o come_v and_o yet_o for_o all_o this_o come_v far_o short_a of_o this_o unfeigned_a work_n of_o true_a repentance_n alas_o what_o can_v it_o profit_v thou_o to_o bewail_v that_o sin_n which_o thou_o will_v not_o forgo_v what_o reward_n can_v thou_o expect_v for_o that_o obedience_n which_o so_o soon_o faint_v what_o comfort_n in_o that_o joy_n which_o be_v but_o temporary_a remember_v how_o great_a a_o work_n thou_o have_v in_o hand_n how_o many_o million_o of_o lose_a soul_n complain_v eternal_o in_o hell_n of_o this_o neglect_n o_o look_v into_o the_o foulness_n of_o thy_o sin_n and_o then_o into_o the_o trueness_n of_o thy_o sorrow_n if_o thou_o be_v god_n child_n thou_o will_v be_v grieve_v for_o offend_v of_o so_o good_a
joyfulness_n of_o heart_n content_o rely_v upon_o thou_o enrich_v my_o heart_n with_o heavenly_a thought_n give_v i_o that_o better_a part_n which_o can_v be_v take_v from_o i_o lord_n what_o thou_o deny_v i_o of_o these_o outward_a comfort_n make_v good_a unto_o i_o by_o thy_o inward_a mercy_n that_o all_o these_o earthly_a thing_n may_v work_v together_o to_o the_o best_a to_o my_o advantage_n so_o shall_v my_o present_a poverty_n be_v a_o undoubted_a earnest_n of_o my_o future_a glory_n amen_n chap._n 34._o upon_o sickness_n and_o ungodly_a repine_v thereat_o as_o every_o good_a and_o perfect_a gift_n be_v from_o above_o so_o be_v also_o every_o punishment_n for_o sin_n by_o every_o proportion_n of_o sorrow_n for_o misery_n come_v not_o out_o of_o the_o dust_n neither_o do_v affliction_n spring_v out_o of_o the_o earth_n job_n 1.5_o 6._o that_o divine_a goodness_n which_o wise_o and_o affectionate_o dispose_v all_o thing_n to_o the_o good_a of_o his_o choose_a by_o his_o holy_a providence_n have_v suit_v their_o degree_n limit_v their_o power_n and_o appoint_v their_o end_n every_o pain_n in_o sickness_n every_o pang_n in_o death_n have_v their_o just_a number_n weight_n and_o measure_n ied_a be_v the_o lord_n let_v he_o do_v what_o he_o will_v nothing_o can_v befall_v i_o but_o by_o his_o divine_a allowance_n nothing_o shall_v dismay_v i_o that_o my_o god_n inflict_v on_o i_o if_o my_o visitation_n be_v grievous_a i_o be_o sure_a it_o be_v safe_a for_o he_o chastise_v i_o for_o my_o profit_n that_o i_o may_v be_v partaker_n of_o his_o holiness_n bless_a be_v that_o sorrow_n which_o allure_v i_o from_o sin_n bless_a be_v that_o misery_n that_o invit_v i_o to_o mercy_n 〈◊〉_d kiss_v it_o i_o embrace_v it_o and_o with_o humbleness_n of_o heart_n i_o joyful_o and_o patient_o submit_v unto_o it_o the_o lord_n give_v and_o the_o lord_n take_v bless_a be_v the_o name_n of_o the_o lord_n job_n 1.21_o i_o humble_o confess_v lord_n that_o my_o great_a and_o grievous_a sin_n have_v most_o just_o deserve_v this_o great_a and_o grievous_a affliction_n that_o thou_o may_v long_o since_o have_v deprive_v i_o of_o my_o life_n for_o deprive_v thou_o of_o thy_o honour_n that_o i_o be_o most_o unworthy_a of_o this_o thy_o gentle_a visitation_n for_o i_o be_o full_a of_o rottenness_n and_o corruption_n and_o therefore_o can_v expect_v no_o other_o but_o to_o be_v fill_v with_o sorrow_n and_o affliction_n thou_o have_v give_v i_o a_o body_n for_o thy_o service_n but_o i_o have_v defile_v it_o with_o sin_n and_o wickedness_n thou_o give_v i_o a_o soul_n enrich_v with_o thy_o heavenly_a grace_n but_o i_o have_v deface_v it_o with_o unthankfulness_n and_o disobedience_n no_o faculty_n of_o my_o soul_n no_o member_n of_o my_o body_n but_o be_v most_o impure_a and_o sinful_a in_o thy_o sight_n thou_o o_o lord_n know_v all_o my_o foolishness_n and_o my_o fault_n be_v not_o hide_v from_o thou_o thou_o see_v how_o vain_o i_o have_v mis-spend_v my_o precious_a time_n how_o careless_o abuse_v that_o continue_a health_n which_o thou_o have_v give_v i_o how_o serious_o be_v busy_v on_o the_o creature_n how_o wretched_o neglect_v thou_o the_o great_a creator_n thou_o have_v often_o wean_v i_o from_o sin_n by_o thy_o bless_a motion_n by_o thy_o gracious_a admonition_n by_o thy_o gentle_a visitation_n by_o a_o waste_a body_n and_o a_o wound_a soul_n and_o yet_o i_o still_o sin_n without_o cease_v without_o sorrow_v without_o repent_v such_o be_v my_o fault_n so_o grievous_a my_o offence_n that_o i_o now_o blush_v to_o name_v those_o sin_n before_o thou_o by_o which_o i_o have_v so_o often_o and_o so_o foolish_o rebel_v against_o thou_o and_o now_o after_o all_o this_o although_o thou_o have_v with_o last_a patience_n wait_v my_o return_n and_o be_v enforce_v to_o withdraw_v thy_o present_a mercy_n yet_o thou_o be_v move_v to_o behold_v my_o present_a misery_n euâ—n_v in_o thy_o very_a wrath_n thou_o have_v compassion_n on_o i_o habac._n 3.2_o while_o thou_o seem_v by_o this_o present_a sickness_n to_o withhold_v thy_o favour_n from_o i_o thou_o gracious_o intend_v by_o this_o bless_a mean_n to_o show_v thyself_o more_o love_o unto_o i_o for_o i_o know_v lord_n that_o thy_o judgement_n be_v just_a and_o that_o thou_o of_o very_o faithfulnesshast_a cause_v i_o to_o be_v trouble_v psal_n 119.75_o theresore_n though_o thou_o kill_v i_o yet_o will_v i_o trust_v in_o thou_o job_n 13.15_o though_o i_o walk_v through_o the_o valley_n of_o the_o shadow_n of_o death_n yet_o will_v i_o fear_v no_o evil_a psal_n 23.4_o behold_v lord_n i_o be_o willing_o and_o joyful_o and_o thankful_o in_o thy_o hand_n do_v with_o i_o what_o thou_o will_v if_o i_o live_v i_o shall_v praise_v thou_o if_o i_o die_v i_o trust_v i_o shall_v go_v home_o unto_o thou_o and_o be_v for_o ever_o bless_v with_o thou_o o_o thou_o father_n of_o mercy_n and_o god_n of_o all_o consolation_n behold_v i_o thy_o sick_a servant_n with_o thy_o eye_n of_o pity_n and_o compassion_n o_o remember_v not_o my_o former_a sin_n but_o have_v mercy_n upon_o i_o o_o lord_n and_o that_o soon_o for_o i_o be_o come_v unto_o great_a extremity_n o_o lord_n my_o god_n i_o be_o trouble_v i_o be_o bow_v down_o great_o i_o go_v mourn_v all_o the_o day_n long_o thou_o write_v bitter_a thing_n against_o i_o and_o make_v i_o possess_v the_o iniquity_n of_o my_o youth_n o_o let_v the_o sweetness_n of_o thy_o mercy_n qualify_v the_o sharpness_n of_o thy_o fatherly_a correction_n consider_v i_o o_o lord_n that_o i_o be_o but_o dust_n full_a of_o frailty_n and_o infirmity_n forgive_v i_o for_o thy_o mercy_n sake_n remember_v not_o the_o sinful_a fail_n of_o my_o youth_n but_o according_a to_o the_o richness_n of_o thy_o goodness_n be_v thou_o mindful_a of_o i_o o_o righteous_a father_n look_v not_o on_o the_o multitude_n and_o heinousness_n of_o my_o offence_n but_o look_v upon_o the_o bitter_a passion_n of_o thy_o bless_a son_n he_o be_v wound_v for_o my_o transgression_n he_o be_v break_v for_o my_o iniquity_n o_o by_o he_o bless_a stripe_n let_v my_o sinful_a soul_n be_v heal_v enable_n i_o to_o suffer_v this_o thy_o gentle_a visitation_n with_o that_o meekness_n and_o contentedness_n of_o soul_n that_o become_v thy_o child_n and_o so_o bless_v it_o unto_o i_o that_o it_o may_v bring_v forth_o in_o i_o the_o quiet_a and_o the_o happy_a fruit_n of_o righteousness_n that_o it_o may_v drive_v my_o thought_n to_o immortality_n and_o fix_v my_o soul_n upon_o eternity_n bless_a lord_n my_o hope_n be_v in_o thou_o my_o soul_n trust_v in_o thou_o and_o under_o the_o shadow_n of_o thy_o wing_n shall_v be_v my_o refuge_n until_o this_o misery_n be_v overpast_v o_o lord_n consider_v my_o complaint_n for_o i_o be_o bring_v very_o low_o let_v my_o present_a anguish_n more_o prevail_v with_o thou_o to_o move_v thou_o to_o compassion_n than_o my_o former_a foolishness_n to_o stir_v thy_o wrath_n and_o indignation_n o_o enter_v not_o into_o judgement_n with_o thy_o servant_n for_o no_o flesh_n be_v righteous_a in_o thy_o sight_n lord_n i_o confess_v my_o wickedness_n and_o be_o sorry_a for_o my_o sin_n for_o thy_o name_n sake_n o_o lord_n be_v merciful_a unto_o my_o sin_n for_o it_o be_v great_a my_o confusion_n be_v daily_o before_o i_o and_o the_o shame_n of_o my_o face_n have_v cover_v i_o my_o heart_n be_v disquiet_v within_o i_o and_o the_o fear_n of_o death_n be_v fall_v upon_o i_o lord_n i_o be_o thou_o o_o save_v i_o for_o thy_o mercy_n sake_n into_o thy_o hand_n i_o commend_v myself_o for_o thou_o have_v redeem_v i_o o_o lord_n thou_o god_n of_o truth_n forsake_v i_o not_o o_o lord_n my_o god_n be_v not_o thou_o far_o from_o i_o have_v thou_o to_o help_v i_o o_o lord_n god_n of_o my_o salvation_n o_o spare_v i_o for_o thy_o mercy_n sake_n that_o i_o may_v recover_v my_o strength_n before_o i_o go_v hence_o and_o be_v no_o more_o see_v amen_n chap._n 35._o upon_o the_o misery_n of_o life_n and_o blessedness_n of_o death_n i_o be_o a_o pilgrim_n and_o a_o stranger_n here_o as_o all_o my_o father_n be_v i_o be_o weary_v out_o with_o travel_n and_o long_o to_o be_v at_o rest_n i_o be_o lodge_v here_o but_o with_o great_a cost_n and_o great_a danger_n this_o seem_a sweetness_n have_v cost_v i_o much_o true_a sorrow_n many_o bitter_a sigh_n and_o ache_a heart_n disturbance_n of_o body_n distraction_n of_o soul_n i_o have_v seek_v for_o help_v here_o below_o but_o can_v find_v none_o no_o creature_n on_o earth_n to_o relieve_v i_o none_o to_o support_v i_o i_o have_v see_v pleasure_n to_o be_v folly_n and_o laughter_n madness_n man_n of_o low_a degree_n to_o be_v vanity_n of_o high_a degree_n a_o lie_n their_o understanding_n vain_a their_o labour_n vain_a
their_o help_n much_o more_o vain_a for_o who_o can_v ransom_n the_o soul_n of_o his_o brother_n sure_o man_n must_v let_v that_o alone_a for_o ever_o my_o substance_n be_v a_o mere_a shadow_n and_o my_o rest_n unquietness_n i_o labour_v for_o holiness_n but_o i_o can_v attain_v it_o i_o search_v for_o happiness_n but_o i_o can_v find_v it_o the_o devil_n beguile_v i_o of_o it_o the_o world_n allure_v i_o from_o it_o yea_o so_o sad_a be_v my_o condition_n that_o my_o own_o soul_n be_v against_o my_o own_o contentment_n my_o understanding_n cozen_v i_o my_o affection_n betray_v i_o my_o memory_n forsake_v i_o those_o thing_n which_o i_o will_v do_v i_o can_v and_o i_o daily_o do_v those_o thing_n which_o i_o will_v not_o all_o that_o i_o be_o all_o that_o i_o can_v be_v in_o this_o life_n be_v nothing_o else_o but_o extreme_a vanity_n what_o shall_v i_o think_v of_o all_o this_o and_o wherewith_o shall_v i_o comfort_v i_o by_o thy_o mercy_n lord_n i_o have_v find_v out_o one_o that_o can_v relieve_v i_o thou_o o_o my_o bless_a saviour_n art_n unto_o i_o life_n and_o by_o thou_o death_n be_v unto_o i_o advantage_n while_o my_o body_n sleep_v it_o shall_v rest_v and_o that_o rest_n shall_v be_v true_o bless_v i_o shall_v rest_v from_o labour_n from_o sorrow_n from_o sin_n my_o sleep_n shall_v be_v safe_a my_o vision_n happy_a while_o my_o body_n sleep_v my_o soul_n shall_v awake_v when_o my_o soul_n be_v unclothe_v of_o flesh_n and_o my_o flesh_n of_o beauty_n my_o spirit_n shall_v be_v make_v ready_a with_o the_o robe_n of_o glory_n while_o my_o dust_n be_v insensible_a my_o spirit_n be_v intelligible_a my_o eye_n shall_v be_v then_o open_v and_o i_o shall_v see_v even_o as_o i_o be_o see_v with_o purity_n and_o perfection_n of_o soul_n no_o veil_n of_o nature_n shall_v obscure_v i_o no_o defect_n of_o organ_n hinder_v i_o no_o cloud_n of_o sin_n molest_v i_o my_o understanding_n shall_v be_v clear_a my_o affection_n pure_a my_o memory_n perfect_a i_o shall_v there_o be_v satisfy_v in_o behold_v ravish_v in_o enjoy_v bless_v in_o retain_v nothing_o can_v be_v there_o want_v where_o i_o enjoy_v all_o that_o be_v that_o be_v that_o be_v to_o come_v where_o the_o happy_a humanity_n be_v eternal_o unite_v to_o the_o bless_a deity_n where_o i_o be_o christ_n and_o christ_n be_v go_n o_o happy_a condition_n of_o my_o sinful_a body_n o_o bless_a change_n of_o my_o immortal_a soul_n the_o one_o be_v sow_v in_o corruption_n that_o it_o may_v rise_v to_o immortality_n the_o other_o lay_v down_o corruption_n to_o inhere_o it_o glory_n though_o i_o now_o leave_v it_o i_o still_o long_o to_o enjoy_v it_o and_o joy_v exceed_o in_o longing_n for_o it_o because_o i_o know_v i_o shall_v for_o ever_o be_v unite_v to_o it_o but_o woe_n be_v i_o even_o in_o this_o happiness_n i_o be_o still_o miserable_a i_o have_v find_v out_o my_o quiet_n but_o i_o care_v not_o to_o enjoy_v it_o death_n offer_v i_o a_o crown_n and_o i_o refuse_v to_o accept_v it_o be_o i_o so_o senseless_a to_o affect_v my_o own_o unhappiness_n to_o rejoice_v in_o labour_n and_o complain_v of_o rest_n what_o do_v i_o here_o any_o long_o the_o world_n love_v i_o not_o nor_o i_o it_o why_o do_v i_o thus_o dote_v upon_o my_o enemy_n when_o it_o frown_v it_o afflict_v i_o when_o it_o smile_v it_o betray_v i_o there_o be_v nothing_o in_o it_o but_o weariness_n and_o misery_n go_v out_o therefore_o o_o my_o soul_n go_v out_o cheerful_o from_o thy_o prison_n to_o thy_o palace_n god_n be_v thy_o father_n and_o heaven_n thy_o country_n thou_o be_v here_o distress_o poor_a and_o wretched_o naked_a bereave_v of_o grace_n despoil_v of_o goodness_n thou_o have_v there_o much_o treasure_n and_o of_o great_a price_n a_o fair_a mansion_n and_o a_o goodly_a heritage_n christ_n have_v purchase_v it_o and_o be_v go_v before_o to_o prepare_v it_o thou_o long_v much_o in_o this_o life_n to_o behold_v that_o which_o thou_o never_o see_v here_o be_v great_a and_o glorious_a thing_n prepare_v for_o thou_o such_o as_o eye_n have_v not_o see_v ear_n have_v not_o hear_v neither_o have_v enter_v into_o the_o heart_n of_o man_n to_o conceive_v how_o earnest_o shall_v thou_o long_o to_o see_v they_o how_o much_o more_o earnest_o to_o enjoy_v they_o how_o willing_o shall_v this_o make_v thou_o to_o express_v thyself_o with_o holy_a david_n and_o say_v my_o soul_n be_v athirst_a for_o god_n yea_o even_o for_o the_o live_a god_n when_o shall_v i_o come_v and_o appear_v before_o the_o presence_n of_o my_o god_n alas_o my_o soul_n thou_o be_v here_o but_o grope_v in_o the_o dark_a daily_o err_v and_o mistake_v hourly_o stumble_v and_o sall_v into_o sin_n into_o shame_n into_o sorrow_n in_o great_a danger_n of_o the_o misery_n of_o life_n in_o great_a of_o the_o torment_n of_o eternal_a death_n all_o that_o thou_o know_v here_o be_v to_o know_v thyself_o ignorant_a thou_o only_o know_v thing_n here_o by_o their_o event_n thou_o shall_v there_o know_v they_o in_o their_o first_o cause_n thou_o be_v here_o weary_v out_o in_o gain_v this_o imperfect_a lame_a and_o empty_a knowledge_n thou_o shall_v there_o delight_v thyself_o in_o know_v all_o that_o be_v desirable_a by_o know_v he_o in_o who_o be_v all_o the_o treasure_n of_o wisdom_n and_o knowledge_n these_o drop_n of_o transitory_a joy_n be_v full_a of_o bitterness_n those_o river_n of_o eternal_a pleasure_n be_v derive_v from_o the_o fountain_n of_o eternal_a sweetness_n thou_o have_v here_o vain_a pomp_n to_o delight_v thou_o thou_o have_v there_o a_o far_o great_a and_o more_o exceed_a weight_n of_o glory_n to_o encompass_v thou_o thou_o be_v here_o enthrall_v by_o the_o misery_n of_o life_n thou_o be_v there_o enlarge_v by_o the_o blesedness_n of_o death_n bless_a lord_n all_o this_o by_o grace_n i_o know_v and_o faithful_o believe_v and_o yet_o by_o nature_n i_o be_o still_o blind_a and_o ignorant_a unable_a to_o discern_v unwilling_a to_o desire_v those_o bless_a thing_n which_o be_v belong_v to_o my_o everlasting_a peace_n but_o when_o thou_o in_o thy_o rich_a mercy_n shall_v once_o open_v my_o eye_n to_o see_v the_o beauty_n of_o my_o heavenly_a home_n i_o shall_v then_o entire_o love_v it_o and_o unfeigned_o long_a for_o it_o i_o shall_v then_o most_o willing_o forsake_v these_o totter_a wall_n of_o my_o frail_a flesh_n to_o dwell_v with_o thou_o in_o perfect_a holiness_n and_o endless_a happiness_n that_o frailty_n may_v be_v swallow_v up_o of_o immortality_n and_o immortality_n may_v be_v embrace_v by_o eternity_n o_o thou_o which_o be_v and_o be_v to_o come_v who_o have_v sweeten_v death_n by_o thy_o perfect_a obedience_n and_o perfume_v the_o grave_n by_o thy_o bless_a suffering_n suffer_v i_o not_o in_o my_o last_o hour_n for_o any_o pain_n of_o death_n or_o terror_n of_o hell_n to_o fall_v from_o the_o fast_o hold_v of_o a_o true_a and_o lively_a faith_n in_o thy_o promise_n to_o lose_v the_o precious_a hope_n of_o immortality_n and_o sweet_a enjoyment_n of_o eternity_n lord_n let_v i_o then_o say_v with_o thy_o bless_a apostle_n that_o i_o know_v who_o i_o have_v trust_v that_o he_o will_v keep_v what_o i_o have_v deliver_v to_o he_o and_o restore_v it_o safe_o unto_o i_o at_o that_o day_n let_v i_o serious_o consider_v of_o the_o misery_n of_o life_n and_o blessedness_n of_o death_n acquaint_v i_o every_o day_n with_o the_o remembrance_n of_o it_o and_o bless_v i_o every_o hour_n with_o a_o desire_n unto_o it_o that_o i_o may_v willing_o unclothe_v myself_o of_o sin_n and_o misery_n and_o joyful_o be_v clothe_v upon_o with_o immortality_n o_o lord_n prepare_v i_o for_o that_o bless_a hour_n and_o in_o my_o great_a weakness_n and_o extremity_n even_o then_o when_o all_o the_o comfort_n of_o this_o wretched_a life_n shall_v fail_v i_o lord_n jesus_n forsake_v i_o not_o be_v not_o thou_o far_o from_o i_o o_o give_v i_o then_o that_o inward_a joy_n that_o bless_a comfort_n of_o thy_o holy_a spirit_n that_o may_v support_v and_o comfort_v i_o in_o all_o the_o terror_n and_o amazement_n of_o this_o dark_a and_o unknown_a passage_n in_o all_o the_o dreadful_a accusation_n of_o the_o devil_n and_o my_o own_o accuse_a conscience_n lord_n let_v thy_o bless_a spirit_n then_o witness_v to_o my_o soul_n that_o i_o be_o thy_o child_n that_o thou_o will_v purge_v away_o all_o my_o dross_n and_o take_v away_o all_o my_o sin_n that_o i_o be_o powerful_o protect_v by_o thy_o grace_n and_o shall_v assure_o be_v make_v partaker_n of_o thy_o glory_n amen_n chap._n 36._o upon_o the_o great_a neglect_n of_o opportunity_n in_o do_v good_a unto_o the_o saint_n lord_n when_o i_o call_v to_o mind_v the_o richness_n and_o the_o largeness_n of_o thy_o bounty_n
deprave_a nature_n this_o sin_n have_v doubtless_o be_v a_o sad_a memorial_n to_o my_o grave_n such_o be_v the_o power_n of_o sin_n once_o grow_v habitual_a o_o let_v my_o sorrowful_a confession_n be_v the_o reader_n useful_a instruction_n that_o thou_o may_v have_v the_o glory_n i_o the_o shame_n of_o my_o mis-doing_a lord_n i_o have_v often_o sin_v against_o thou_o by_o my_o wretched_a violation_n of_o the_o truth_n in_o envious_a detraction_n from_o the_o good_a of_o my_o neighbour_n vainglorious_a aggravation_n of_o my_o own_o ability_n censorious_a taxation_n of_o my_o brethren_n infirmity_n indulgent_a diminution_n of_o i_o own_o iniquity_n i_o have_v often_o grieve_v thy_o good_a spirit_n by_o which_o thou_o have_v seal_v i_o up_o unto_o the_o day_n of_o redemption_n by_o my_o vain_a and_o idle_a communication_n by_o my_o rash_a and_o sinful_a exprobration_n by_o my_o weak_a and_o froward_a objurgation_n to_o the_o great_a dishonour_n of_o thou_o my_o god_n to_o the_o cominuall_a grief_n of_o thy_o saint_n to_o the_o sad_a disturbance_n of_o myself_o all_o this_o to_o my_o heart_n grief_n have_v i_o often_o do_v and_o by_o all_o this_o i_o may_v now_o plain_o see_v how_o much_o i_o have_v hitherto_o be_v the_o servant_n of_o sin_n and_o satan_n how_o great_a a_o enemy_n to_o thy_o glory_n and_o to_o the_o good_a of_o my_o own_o soul_n but_o now_o lord_n by_o thy_o assistance_n my_o special_a care_n shall_v henceforth_o be_v to_o allow_v myself_o no_o liberty_n of_o speech_n but_o what_o be_v aim_v at_o eternity_n if_o my_o heart_n be_v heavenly_a my_o word_n will_v be_v gracious_a my_o action_n holy_a my_o end_n happy_a and_o that_o all_o this_o may_v be_v so_o indeed_o by_o thy_o grace_n lord_n i_o will_v observe_v with_o carefulness_n and_o constancy_n these_o follow_a caution_n 1._o before_o i_o speak_v i_o will_v consider_v that_o i_o be_o in_o thy_o bless_a presence_n that_o what_o be_v once_o â—pâ—kâ—n_o can_v never_o be_v recall_v but_o be_v record_v for_o eterternity_n 2._o that_o each_o idle_a word_n must_v be_v account_v for_o and_o that_o my_o whole_a life_n hitherto_o have_v be_v little_a else_o but_o vain_a and_o empty_a discourse_n tend_v much_o to_o thy_o dishonour_n the_o hurt_n of_o my_o neighbour_n and_o without_o mercy_n in_o christ_n the_o destruction_n of_o my_o own_o soul_n 3._o that_o there_o be_v no_o true_a testimony_n of_o a_o graceless_a heart_n than_o a_o licentious_a tongue_n that_o if_o i_o be_v not_o holy_a in_o my_o discourse_n i_o can_v never_o be_v happy_a in_o my_o action_n 4._o that_o it_o be_v impossible_a for_o those_o prayer_n to_o be_v please_v to_o god_n which_o be_v offer_v up_o with_o that_o sinful_a member_n that_o be_v so_o shameful_o defile_v with_o evil_a and_o corrupt_a communication_n among_o man_n 5._o that_o if_o i_o make_v a_o mock_n at_o christianity_n by_o have_v only_o a_o form_n of_o godliness_n in_o my_o outward_a action_n but_o deny_v the_o power_n thereof_o in_o my_o usual_a conversation_n god_n will_v one_o day_n pay_v i_o home_o by_o show_v i_o the_o richness_n of_o his_o suffering_n but_o deny_v i_o the_o benefit_n thereof_o and_o the_o sweet_a enjoyment_n thereby_o 6._o that_o without_o helinesse_n no_o man_n shall_v see_v the_o lord_n and_o that_o such_o as_o be_v my_o common_a and_o most_o accustom_a discourse_n in_o my_o life_n i_o may_v well_o fear_v will_v be_v my_o last_o and_o most_o uncomfortable_a expression_n at_o my_o death_n 7._o unto_o all_o this_o i_o will_v add_v the_o shortness_n misery_n and_o uncertainty_n of_o a_o sinful_a life_n the_o horror_n and_o amazement_n of_o a_o wretched_a death_n the_o extremity_n and_o eternity_n of_o torment_n after_o death_n lord_n when_o my_o heart_n be_v thus_o guard_v by_o thy_o grace_n my_o lip_n i_o trust_v will_v be_v ever_o open_a to_o thy_o praise_n bless_a god_n if_o thy_o holy_a angel_n dare_v not_o give_v rail_v accusation_n against_o the_o devil_n if_o thy_o sainss_n in_o patience_n possess_v their_o own_o soul_n and_o their_o speech_n he_o season_v with_o salt_n administer_a grace_n to_o the_o heart_n of_o the_o hearer_n if_o thou_o the_o bless_a saviour_n of_o the_o world_n when_o thou_o be_v revile_v revile_v not_o again_o but_o as_o a_o lamb_n before_o the_o shearer_n so_o open_v thou_o not_o thy_o mouth_n with_o what_o comfort_n can_v i_o now_o appear_v before_o thou_o with_o what_o confidence_n expect_v a_o blessing_n from_o thou_o with_o grief_n and_o sorrow_n i_o confess_v that_o my_o heart_n have_v ever_o be_v full_a of_o corruption_n and_o naughtiness_n my_o mouth_n full_a of_o curse_v and_o bitterness_n my_o daily_a discourse_n full_a of_o folly_n and_o uncleanness_n the_o whole_a course_n of_o my_o life_n full_a of_o misery_n and_o wickedness_n o_o that_o my_o head_n be_v water_n and_o my_o eye_n a_o fountain_n of_o tear_n that_o i_o may_v weep_v day_n and_o night_n that_o i_o may_v mourn_v continual_o for_o my_o own_o and_o other_o sin_n lord_n purify_v my_o heart_n and_o rectify_v my_o tongue_n that_o both_o may_v be_v accept_v of_o thou_o and_o now_o and_o ever_o gracious_o direct_v by_o thou_o lord_n i_o acknowledge_v my_o fault_n and_o my_o sin_n be_v ever_o before_o i_o o_o let_v the_o sorrowful_a remembrance_n of_o my_o sin_n invite_v thou_o to_o a_o sweet_a remembrance_n of_o thy_o mercy_n that_o thou_o may_v have_v the_o praise_n and_o i_o the_o comfort_n of_o thy_o gracious_a pardon_n lord_n let_v my_o heart_n be_v inflame_v with_o thy_o love_n and_o my_o mouth_n fill_v with_o thy_o praise_n that_o i_o may_v sacrifile_v my_o soul_n unto_o thou_o that_o i_o may_v sanctify_v my_o soul_n before_o thou_o by_o devout_a thought_n by_o gracious_a word_n and_o godly_a action_n that_o so_o i_o may_v with_o joyfulness_n and_o thankfulness_n appear_v in_o thy_o fight_n not_o only_o all_o the_o day_n long_o but_o even_o all_o my_o life_n long_o that_o thou_o my_o god_n may_v be_v glorify_v thy_o saint_n delight_v and_o my_o sinfnll_a foul_a eternal_o comfort_v amen_n chap._n 39_o upon_o holy_a revenge_n for_o sin_n with_o motive_n and_o encouragement_n thereunto_o lord_n i_o have_v ever_o be_v too_o apt_a to_o revenge_v the_o small_a injury_n offer_v unto_o i_o by_o other_o in_o relation_n to_o my_o outward_a condition_n and_o too_o remiss_a in_o that_o holy_a revenge_n of_o those_o great_a and_o insufferable_a wrong_n which_o i_o daily_o and_o hourly_o obtrude_v upon_o my_o own_o soul_n this_o plain_o show_v i_o to_o have_v be_v too_o much_o savour_v of_o flesh_n and_o blood_n too_o little_a mindful_a of_o thy_o kingdom_n and_o the_o righteousness_n thereof_o that_o soul_n which_o be_v true_o sensible_a of_o its_o own_o injury_n will_v by_o thy_o grace_n be_v daily_o mind_v of_o its_o own_o redresle_n and_o that_o sinner_n which_o be_v uncapable_a of_o slight_a offence_n will_v in_o time_n become_v insensible_a of_o great_a my_o great_a enemy_n be_v those_o of_o my_o own_o household_n the_o world_n may_v allure_v i_o the_o devil_n persuade_v i_o but_o it_o be_v i_o own_o false_a heart_n alone_o that_o betray_v i_o and_o my_o own_o corrupt_a nature_n that_o enslave_v i_o my_o great_a care_n shall_v therefore_o be_v to_o bend_v my_o strong_a force_n against_o my_o own_o corruption_n to_o labour_n much_o to_o subdue_v my_o affection_n and_o to_o take_v a_o holy_a revenge_n upon_o my_o sinful_a action_n not_o to_o satisfy_v thy_o justice_n but_o to_o implore_v thy_o mercy_n that_o i_o may_v thereby_o true_o manifest_v my_o perfect_a hatred_n against_o sin_n and_o the_o sincerity_n of_o my_o soul_n to_o thy_o service_n there_o need_v none_o other_o motive_n to_o invite_v i_o to_o this_o holy_a duty_n than_o the_o woeful_a breach_n sin_n have_v daily_o make_v in_o my_o soul_n such_o as_o without_o mercy_n will_v never_o be_v repair_v this_o be_v too_o sad_o prove_v by_o the_o sensible_a decay_n of_o goodness_n and_o the_o too_o powerful_a growth_n of_o ungodliness_n in_o my_o corrupt_a heart_n as_o it_o be_v easy_a for_o that_o castle_n to_o stand_v a_o close_a siege_n that_o be_v well_o fortify_v mane_v and_o victual_v so_o be_v it_o impossible_a for_o that_o fort_n to_o hold_v out_o long_o which_o make_v no_o resistance_n lord_n as_o my_o own_o spiritual_a ruin_n have_v hitherto_o be_v cause_v by_o my_o own_o neglect_n so_o by_o thy_o gracious_a assistance_n my_o own_o repair_n shall_v be_v begin_v and_o finish_v by_o my_o present_a desire_n and_o future_a endeavour_n that_o time_n which_o i_o have_v lose_v by_o former_a carelessness_n and_o coldness_n in_o religion_n i_o will_v endeavour_v to_o redeem_v by_o holy_a vigilance_n and_o christian_a fortitude_n and_o that_o i_o may_v sincere_o be_v what_o i_o intend_v with_o willingness_n of_o heart_n i_o offer_v up_o this_o solemn_a vow_n unto_o
bless_a sphere_n suffer_v i_o not_o dear_a lord_n to_o move_v from_o thou_o there_o be_v no_o rest_n but_o in_o thy_o breast_n and_o in_o thy_o absence_n present_a misery_n o_o that_o i_o be_v at_o rest_n with_o thou_o or_o else_o that_o thou_o be_v come_v to_o i_o since_o in_o thy_o absence_n i_o be_o so_o distress_v thy_o wrathful_a frown_n have_v throw_v i_o down_o and_o raise_v a_o storm_n in_o my_o unquiet_a breast_n come_v lord_n and_o close_o these_o wretched_a eye_n so_o blear_v with_o sin_n and_o misery_n resolve_v this_o err_a heart_n to_o tame_a dust_n which_o every_o day_n thus_o sleal_v away_o that_o it_o may_v rise_v more_o joyful_a and_o more_o just_a the_o sinner_n joy_n all_o my_o soul_n why_o so_o dismay_v why_o so_o sad_a so_o sore_o afraid_a can_v thou_o think_v those_o gracious_a eye_n drench_v in_o tear_n for_o thou_o can_v disdain_v such_o powerful_a cry_n such_o humility_n sinner_n soul_n must_v sorrow_n keep_v man_n may_v mourn_v when_o god_n can_v weep_v 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amen_n the_o sinner_n tear_n the_o entrance_n to_o the_o work_n there_o be_v no_o man_n but_o natural_o desire_v happiness_n even_o those_o unhappy_a one_o that_o least_o endeavour_n for_o it_o have_v oftentimes_o a_o earnest_a longing_n to_o it_o there_o can_v be_v no_o true_a happiness_n without_o peace_n no_o true_a peace_n without_o holiness_n without_o offer_v violence_n to_o our_o corrupt_a affection_n without_o ransack_v our_o soul_n and_o search_v out_o the_o very_a secret_n of_o our_o sinful_a heart_n the_o wordling_n may_v be_v outward_o merry_a but_o none_o but_o the_o son_n of_o sorrow_n can_v be_v inward_o content_v that_o outward_a joy_n may_v delight_v for_o a_o season_n but_o this_o inward_a peace_n remain_v for_o ever_o peace_n be_v the_o rich_a jewel_n in_o a_o christian_n cabinet_n the_o choice_a legacy_n that_o christ_n bequeath_v to_o his_o choose_a once_o in_o it_o there_o be_v a_o complication_n of_o all_o blessing_n and_o without_o it_o a_o expectation_n of_o all_o misery_n there_o be_v no_o attain_n to_o it_o but_o by_o the_o search_n of_o he_o who_o be_v the_o giver_n of_o it_o there_o be_v no_o follow_v this_o search_n but_o by_o that_o path_n which_o lead_v to_o the_o ready_a way_n and_o there_o be_v but_o one_o guide_n that_o can_v direct_v we_o unto_o that_o path_n bless_a god_n there_o be_v no_o way_n unto_o thou_o but_o by_o thou_o thou_o be_v life_n and_o thou_o be_v the_o way_n to_o that_o life_n and_o thou_o be_v the_o guide_n to_o that_o way_n thou_o lord_n be_v all_o in_o all_o unto_o i_o and_o therefore_o shall_v be_v now_o and_o ever_o praise_v by_o i_o in_o all_o awful_a reverence_n to_o thy_o sacred_a majesty_n in_o fear_n and_o tremble_a at_o the_o sight_n of_o thy_o severe_a justice_n to_o impenitent_a sinner_n in_o serious_a apprehension_n of_o thy_o sweet_a mercy_n in_o forbear_v i_o a_o miserable_a wretch_n and_o with_o unfeigned_a forrow_n and_o humility_n of_o heart_n for_o grieve_v thy_o good_a spirit_n i_o here_o dedicate_v the_o short_a remainder_n of_o my_o sinful_a day_n to_o thy_o service_n in_o thy_o name_n and_o in_o thy_o fear_n i_o begin_v my_o discourse_n who_o be_v the_o god_n of_o peace_n by_o who_o holy_a spirit_n i_o be_o guide_v to_o this_o happy_a search_n lord_n lead_v i_o in_o it_o by_o the_o same_o spirit_n that_o i_o may_v become_v a_o instrument_n of_o glory_n unto_o thou_o of_o happiness_n to_o thou_o of_o rest_n to_o my_o own_o soul_n chap._n i._o upon_o the_o consideration_n of_o our_o sinful_a thought_n touch_v the_o sacred_a deity_n with_o holy_a caution_n to_o order_v our_o devotion_n aright_o lord_n when_o i_o serious_o consider_v what_o thou_o be_v the_o least_o glimpse_n of_o who_o eternal_a glory_n i_o can_v no_o way_n see_v but_o by_o conceive_v what_o thou_o be_v not_o when_o i_o look_v upon_o the_o vast_a distance_n between_o thou_o the_o bless_a creator_n and_o i_o thy_o sinful_a creature_n i_o can_v but_o wonder_v at_o thy_o great_a patience_n at_o thy_o rich_a goodness_n at_o thy_o endless_a mercy_n towards_o i_o my_o whole_a life_n from_o my_o nativity_n have_v be_v a_o continue_a course_n of_o sinfulness_n against_o thou_o my_o action_n high_o rebellious_a my_o thought_n finful_o wicked_a even_o the_o very_o best_a of_o they_o a_o dark_a confuse_a indigested_a heap_n of_o misconceiving_n of_o thy_o sacred_a majesty_n thou_o lord_n be_v a_o essence_n most_o glorious_a most_o inconceivable_a eternal_o enjoy_v blessedness_n in_o the_o fruition_n of_o thyself_o thy_o centre_n be_v every_o where_o thy_o circumference_n no_o where_o thou_o admitte_v not_o of_o augmentation_n nor_o of_o diminution_n no_o length_n of_o time_n be_v bâ—yond_v thou_o no_o depth_n of_o wisdom_n beneath_o thou_o no_o height_n of_o glory_n above_o thou_o no_o breadth_n of_o mercy_n beside_o thou_o thou_o aâ—tâ—o_v lord_n a_o most_o pure_a simple_a and_o eternal_a be_v pure_a without_o matter_n without_o form_n simple_a without_o mixture_n without_o composition_n 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come_v when_o i_o find_v therefore_o any_o corporal_a part_n appropriate_v to_o the_o divine_a nature_n i_o there_o see_v thou_o gracious_o descend_v to_o the_o weakness_n of_o my_o frail_a and_o infirm_a nature_n and_o ever_o bless_v thy_o holy_a name_n that_o vouchsafe_v to_o declare_v thyself_o not_o as_o thou_o be_v but_o as_o i_o be_o thy_o eye_n lord_n be_v thy_o wisdom_n thy_o right_a hand_n thy_o power_n thy_o sit_v thy_o immutability_n thy_o stand_v thy_o fortitude_n thy_o anger_n thy_o justice_n in_o punish_v thy_o repentance_n thy_o mercy_n in_o pardon_v thy_o hatred_n of_o sin_n thy_o holiness_n thy_o grieve_v thy_o love_a kindness_n thy_o patience_n and_o long_o suffer_v thy_o goodness_n all_o be_v thyself_o neither_o be_v it_o
resolution_n to_o adhere_v unto_o thou_o that_o as_o thou_o be_v true_o and_o eternal_o one_o in_o thy_o essence_n and_o yet_o distinct_o three_o in_o thy_o person_n so_o i_o may_v be_v true_o and_o entire_o one_o in_o my_o obedience_n although_o distinct_o three_o in_o my_o faculty_n that_o all_o may_v be_v but_o one_o and_o that_o a_o please_a sacrifice_n of_o praise_n unto_o thou_o of_o profit_n unto_o other_o of_o comfort_n to_o myself_o forgive_v my_o misconceiving_n of_o thy_o sacred_a essence_n my_o rash_a approach_n to_o thy_o heavenly_a presence_n my_o cold_a careless_a irreligious_a thought_n distract_a word_n undesent_n action_n lord_n i_o be_o sail_v on_o the_o stormy_a sea_n of_o ignorance_n and_o misery_n o_o be_v thou_o my_o sure_a pilot_n to_o direct_v i_o my_o sweet_a calm_a to_o refresh_v i_o my_o safe_a harbour_n to_o receive_v i_o for_o of_o thou_o and_o through_o thou_o and_o to_o thou_o be_v all_o thing_n to_o thou_o be_v glory_n for_o ever_o amen_n chap._n 2._o upon_o the_o consideration_n of_o god_n love_n and_o man_n unthankfulness_n a_o meditation_n suit_v to_o the_o morning_n bless_a god_n when_o i_o consider_v of_o the_o richness_n of_o the_o largeness_n of_o the_o constancy_n of_o thy_o love_n to_o man_n of_o man_n vileness_n and_o untowardness_n unto_o thou_o his_o god_n i_o stand_v amaze_v at_o thy_o goodness_n and_o my_o own_o unthankfulness_n how_o great_a and_o invaluable_a a_o blessing_n do_v i_o enjoy_v in_o be_v make_v partaker_n of_o the_o glorious_a light_n of_o this_o present_a day_n how_o vile_a and_o unworthy_a be_o i_o that_o receive_v it_o how_o great_a and_o glorious_a be_v thou_o that_o give_v it_o thou_o o_o lord_n be_v light_v inaccessible_a unto_o which_o no_o mortal_a eye_n can_v approach_v before_o who_o glorious_a majesty_n the_o bless_a angel_n stand_v amaze_v and_o i_o be_o dust_n and_o ash_n yea_o worse_o lord_n for_o dust_n be_v thy_o creation_n and_o therefore_o in_o its_o entity_n be_v good_a before_o i_o be_v dust_n i_o be_v not_o at_o all_o this_o not_o be_v by_o thou_o become_v a_o be_v this_o be_v beautiful_a this_o beauty_n immortal_a and_o without_o thou_o this_o happy_a be_v be_v again_o become_v far_o worse_o than_o not_o to_o be_v what_o can_v be_v more_o vain_a more_o empty_a than_o nothing_o ah_o woe_n be_v i_o i_o be_o now_o become_v far_o worse_o than_o nothing_o thou_o make_v i_o all_o goodness_n and_o that_o goodness_n may_v have_v make_v i_o all_o blessedness_n but_o i_o have_v make_v myself_o all_o sin_n and_o this_o sin_n have_v make_v i_o all_o misery_n there_o be_v darkness_n in_o not_o be_v but_o that_o darkness_n be_v incapable_a there_o be_v great_a darkness_n in_o be_v ill_a for_o this_o darkness_n be_v most_o capable_a of_o the_o privation_n of_o all_o light_n of_o comfort_n in_o this_o life_n of_o the_o fruition_n of_o the_o blackness_n of_o darkness_n in_o hell_n for_o ever_o this_o lord_n be_v my_o condition_n in_o nature_n and_o without_o thy_o gracious_a help_n must_v have_v be_v so_o for_o ever_o let_v i_o now_o see_v what_o my_o condition_n be_v by_o grace_n by_o which_o i_o enjoy_v not_o only_o the_o light_n of_o nature_n without_o which_o my_o life_n will_v prove_v uncomfortable_a but_o also_o a_o sweet_a and_o safe_a assurance_n that_o thou_o will_v by_o this_o happy_a light_n conduct_v i_o safe_o to_o the_o bless_a light_n of_o glory_n bless_a lord_n i_o can_v now_o look_v no_o way_n but_o to_o happiness_n i_o now_o find_v a_o true_a sweetness_n and_o composedness_n of_o soul_n a_o constant_a and_o courageous_a setledness_n of_o heart_n even_o in_o the_o very_a height_n of_o all_o the_o disturbance_n of_o nature_n of_o all_o the_o inundation_n of_o sin_n of_o all_o the_o fluctuation_n of_o sorrow_n of_o all_o the_o machination_n of_o satan_n from_o the_o sweet_a fountain_n of_o thy_o mercy_n arise_v those_o precious_a stream_n of_o consolation_n which_o abundant_o relieve_v i_o in_o this_o barren_a wilderness_n i_o find_v indeed_o a_o law_n in_o my_o member_n continual_o rebel_a against_o the_o law_n of_o my_o mind_n but_o i_o find_v also_o thy_o grace_n to_o be_v sufficient_a for_o i_o by_o which_o i_o be_o victorious_a here_o and_o shall_v be_v triumphant_a hereafter_o satan_n may_v strive_v to_o winnow_v i_o like_o wheat_n but_o this_o shall_v make_v i_o the_o pure_a for_o thy_o granary_n i_o now_o find_v a_o total_a and_o a_o bless_a change_n of_o the_o whole_a man_n my_o affection_n which_o former_o be_v captivate_v unto_o sin_n entire_o devote_v to_o thy_o service_n my_o love_n with_o holy_a david_n wonderful_a to_o thy_o law_n my_o hatred_n perfect_a against_o sin_n my_o desire_n eager_a for_o thy_o presence_n my_o fear_n astonish_v in_o thy_o absence_n my_o delight_n in_o thy_o promise_n ravish_v my_o joy_n in_o thy_o performance_n triumph_v by_o these_o rich_a endowment_n of_o thou_o i_o be_o wrap_v up_o above_o the_o reach_n of_o humane_a misery_n all_o vain_a and_o empty_a desire_n of_o the_o besot_v pleasure_n of_o this_o life_n appear_v true_o as_o they_o be_v but_o thorn_n and_o briar_n to_o disturb_v the_o growth_n of_o my_o felicity_n how_o sweet_a be_v their_o loss_n for_o thy_o gain_n how_o easy_o how_o willing_o how_o joyful_o how_o thankful_o be_v all_o these_o foggy_a mist_n of_o ignorance_n and_o error_n happy_o disperse_v by_o the_o bright_a ray_n of_o my_o ensue_a glory_n beside_o these_o fawn_a enemy_n of_o peace_n which_o flatter_v to_o unquietness_n i_o be_o now_o able_a to_o encounter_v with_o those_o other_o which_o affright_v the_o soul_n even_o in_o their_o first_o appearance_n and_o be_v able_a to_o deject_v the_o carnal_a man_n even_o to_o astonishment_n and_o utter_o to_o expose_v he_o to_o the_o tyranny_n of_o sin_n and_o torture_v of_o punishment_n such_o lord_n be_v the_o vast_a difference_n between_o the_o bless_a one_o of_o thy_o fold_n and_o those_o unhappy_a one_o which_o stray_n from_o thou_o into_o the_o strange_a pasture_n of_o impiety_n no_o sorrow_n can_v surprise_v i_o but_o for_o sin_n and_o even_o this_o too_o thou_o make_v to_o increase_v my_o joy_n what_o affliction_n can_v be_v evil_a which_o be_v thy_o physic_n who_o be_v the_o fountain_n of_o all_o good_a if_o it_o be_v grievous_a in_o the_o taste_n it_o be_v joyous_a in_o the_o effect_n if_o i_o mark_v the_o happy_a close_a i_o must_v with_o joy_n confess_v that_o these_o bitter_a storm_n will_v end_v in_o bless_a calm_n will_v bring_v to_o my_o remembrance_n those_o grievous_a sin_n that_o bring_v my_o saviour_n to_o those_o bitter_a groan_n will_v force_v i_o from_o the_o sorrow_n of_o this_o life_n to_o my_o celestial_a harbour_n will_v bring_v i_o on_o my_o knee_n to_o see_v my_o own_o vildness_n will_v enrich_v i_o with_o the_o grace_n of_o humility_n and_o patience_n and_o together_o with_o they_o the_o sweet_a enjoyment_n of_o thy_o bless_a spirit_n and_o if_o so_o how_o can_v i_o complain_v of_o want_n when_o in_o stead_n of_o earth_n i_o enjoy_v heaven_n lord_n what_o can_v he_o fear_v that_o be_v assure_v of_o thy_o favour_n affliction_n tribulation_n cross_n sin_n satan_n death_n hell_n itself_o shall_v work_v to_o my_o advantage_n as_o my_o cross_n be_v more_o grievous_a my_o crown_n shall_v be_v more_o glorious_a where_o sin_n and_o satan_n have_v be_v most_o prevail_a there_o grace_n and_o goodness_n shall_v be_v more_o triumph_v how_o true_o sweet_a lord_n be_v the_o inviolable_a peace_n of_o thy_o saint_n who_o powerful_o compelle_v even_v the_o very_a rage_n of_o earth_n and_o hell_n to_o work_v to_o their_o advantage_n lord_n sanctify_v the_o trial_n of_o this_o life_n unto_o my_o sinful_a soul_n that_o by_o my_o patient_a suffering_n with_o my_o saviour_n here_o i_o may_v have_v peace_n with_o he_o and_o by_o he_o hereafter_o i_o have_v hitherto_o look_v on_o my_o inward_a happiness_n if_o i_o now_o cast_v my_o eye_n upon_o my_o outward_a i_o shall_v there_o see_v that_o all_o these_o outward_a blessing_n also_o be_v most_o peculiar_o belong_v to_o the_o saint_n the_o wicked_a one_o of_o the_o world_n be_v robber_n and_o shall_v one_o day_n give_v a_o account_n of_o their_o theft_n child_n friend_n stranger_n even_o our_o very_a enemy_n be_v protect_v preserve_v enrich_v bless_v for_o our_o sake_n so_o be_v joseph_n and_o his_o brethren_n for_o jacob_n zoar_v for_o lot_n potipher_n for_o joseph_n the_o centurion_n and_o soldier_n for_o st_n paul_n and_o if_o thou_o lord_n will_v look_v so_o love_o upon_o the_o child_n of_o this_o world_n for_o thy_o elect_a sake_n how_o gracious_o will_v thou_o one_o day_n look_v upon_o those_o son_n that_o shall_v be_v make_v partaker_n of_o thy_o own_o inheritance_n who_o will_v not_o now_o be_v holy_a see_v that_o in_o this_o bless_a condition_n there_o be_v
may_v now_o prevail_v with_o thou_o to_o repair_v the_o loss_n of_o thy_o presence_n in_o my_o sinful_a soul_n lord_n let_v the_o greatness_n of_o my_o folly_n in_o sin_v extol_v the_o richness_n of_o thy_o mercy_n in_o forgive_n restore_v i_o to_o the_o joy_n of_o thy_o salvation_n and_o establish_v i_o with_o thy_o free_a spirit_n so_o shall_v i_o have_v the_o comfort_n and_o thou_o the_o praise_n of_o my_o deliverance_n if_o thou_o lord_n will_v give_v i_o understanding_n to_o delight_v in_o thy_o law_n i_o shall_v also_o have_v a_o sweet_a assurance_n that_o thou_o will_v delight_v in_o i_o to_o do_v i_o good_a accept_v of_o my_o desire_n strengthen_v my_o endeavour_n perfect_a my_o performance_n pardon_v my_o weakness_n assist_v my_o willingness_n forgive_v my_o sinfulness_n nourish_v the_o good_a motion_n of_o thy_o holy_a spirit_n in_o i_o and_o for_o thy_o mercy_n sake_n remove_v all_o danger_n and_o temptation_n from_o i_o that_o when_o the_o short_a and_o wretched_a race_n of_o my_o imperfect_a holiness_n be_v end_v here_o i_o may_v solemnize_v that_o eternal_a sabbath_n with_o thy_o bless_a saint_n and_o angel_n in_o thy_o kingdom_n and_o rest_n with_o thou_o in_o the_o perfection_n of_o true_a happiness_n for_o ever_o amen_n chap._n 7._o upon_o the_o want_n of_o due_a preparation_n for_o receive_v of_o the_o bless_a sacrament_n of_o the_o lord_n supper_n lord_n when_o i_o look_v upon_o the_o inestimable_a value_n of_o that_o gift_n which_o i_o be_o this_o day_n to_o receive_v when_o i_o consider_v of_o the_o majesty_n of_o thou_o the_o giver_n of_o the_o misery_n of_o i_o the_o receiver_n of_o the_o vast_a difference_n between_o corruption_n and_o eternity_n of_o thy_o strict_a command_n for_o preparation_n to_o the_o passcover_v under_o thy_o law_n of_o thy_o bless_a precept_n for_o due_a receive_n of_o thy_o sacrament_n under_o the_o gospel_n of_o thy_o own_o example_n in_o wash_v thy_o disciple_n foot_n and_o thereby_o symbolise_v the_o eternal_a wash_n of_o their_o soul_n of_o thy_o saint_n practice_n in_o their_o solemn_a preparation_n unto_o holiness_n by_o pull_v off_o their_o shoe_n when_o they_o approach_v thy_o presence_n of_o thy_o severe_a judgement_n against_o vzza_n for_o heedless_a touch_v of_o thy_o ark_n against_o the_o bethshemite_n for_o curiousness_n in_o look_v in_o against_o those_o rash_a corinthian_n whereof_o for_o want_n of_o holy_a preparation_n some_o be_v weak_a some_o sick_a some_o fall_v asleep_o and_o last_o of_o that_o dreadful_a sentence_n against_o unworthy_a comer_n to_o thy_o wedding_n feast_n pronounce_v by_o thy_o own_o mouth_n i_o tremble_v at_o my_o bold_a approach_n to_o thy_o bless_a table_n i_o wonder_v at_o thy_o goodness_n that_o i_o be_o yet_o alive_a to_o say_v there_o be_v yet_o mercy_n with_o thou_o that_o thou_o may_v be_v scare_v how_o many_o bless_a opportunity_n of_o come_v to_o thy_o table_n have_v i_o sinful_o neglect_v how_o many_o abuse_a by_o my_o sinful_a resort_n 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thy_o suffering_n have_v for_o ever_o make_v a_o sweet_a conjunction_n of_o we_o all_o my_o sin_n be_v thou_o all_o thy_o righteousness_n be_v i_o thou_o be_v now_o my_o well-beloved_a and_o i_o be_o thy_o choose_a one_o and_o in_o this_o bless_a union_n be_v my_o sweet_a and_o safe_a repose_n for_o ever_o who_o can_v enough_o deplore_v that_o more_o than_o woeful_a separation_n who_o can_v enough_o admire_v this_o more_o than_o wonderful_a conjunction_n this_o more_o than_o happy_a reconciliation_n here_o be_v justice_n undeniable_a mercy_n incomprehensible_a wisdom_n unutterable_a love_v unimitable_a o_o let_v my_o soul_n now_o lose_v itself_o in_o the_o unknown_a path_n of_o heavenly_a contemplation_n let_v i_o this_o day_n apprehend_v thou_o o_o my_o saviour_n fast_v pray_v weep_a groan_a sweat_a bleed_a faint_a die_a for_o my_o sake_n and_o now_o plead_v to_o my_o god_n for_o mercy_n for_o i_o let_v i_o now_o taste_v the_o sweetness_n of_o that_o mercy_n by_o a_o lively_a faith_n the_o fullness_n of_o this_o sweetuesse_n by_o a_o bless_a hope_n the_o fruition_n of_o this_o fullness_n by_o eternal_a love_n lord_z how_o unworthy_a be_o i_o of_o these_o embrace_n if_o i_o bewail_v not_o if_o i_o abhor_v not_o if_o i_o forsake_v not_o all_o the_o wretched_a fail_n of_o my_o sinful_a life_n pass_v if_o i_o rejoice_v not_o with_o joy_n unspeakable_a and_o glorious_a to_o be_v admit_v to_o so_o great_a a_o mercy_n if_o this_o inflame_v not_o my_o affection_n with_o unspotted_a love_n to_o thou_o my_o god_n with_o earnest_a long_n for_o thy_o presence_n of_o grace_n in_o this_o life_n of_o glory_n in_o that_o to_o come_v and_o now_o lord_n since_o thou_o in_o thy_o rich_a love_n have_v free_o forgive_v i_o my_o pound_n i_o will_v also_o most_o willing_o and_o hearty_o forgive_v my_o brother_n his_o penny_n i_o will_v have_v nothing_o to_o do_v with_o malice_n that_o have_v so_o much_o need_n of_o mercy_n i_o will_v unfeigned_o and_o free_o and_o full_o forgive_v all_o injury_n on_o earth_n i_o will_v love_v all_o those_o that_o hate_v i_o and_o pray_v for_o all_o those_o that_o despiteful_o use_v i_o and_o all_o this_o for_o thy_o sake_n who_o haste_n free_o love_v i_o and_o lay_v down_o thy_o life_n for_o i_o to_o who_o be_v glory_n for_o ever_o amen_n bless_a lord_n god_n look_v down_o in_o mercy_n and_o compassion_n on_o i_o thy_o poor_a distress_a suppliant_a who_o thou_o now_o vouchsafe_v to_o admit_v unto_o thy_o heavenly_a banquet_n illuminate_v my_o blindness_n by_o the_o bless_a light_n of_o thy_o most_o sacred_a word_n satisfy_v my_o hunger_n with_o the_o sweet_a refresh_n of_o thy_o gracious_a presence_n enrich_v my_o poverty_n with_o the_o gift_n and_o grace_n of_o thy_o holy_a spirit_n cover_v my_o nakedness_n with_o the_o precious_a robe_n of_o thy_o own_o righteousness_n swallow_v up_o the_o depth_n of_o my_o misery_n by_o the_o height_n of_o thy_o mercy_n that_o i_o may_v this_o day_n appear_v before_o thou_o with_o a_o sincere_a heart_n and_o happy_a soul_n lord_n strengthen_v and_o support_v my_o feeble_a faith_n make_v i_o joyful_o to_o trust_v in_o thou_o constant_o to_o rely_v upon_o thou_o thankful_o to_o sacrifice_v my_o soul_n in_o praise_n to_o thou_o vouchsafe_v dear_a lord_n that_o i_o may_v worthy_o approach_v thy_o bless_a table_n that_o i_o may_v this_o day_n be_v so_o unite_v to_o thou_o that_o all_o my_o joy_n and_o comfort_n may_v hereafter_o be_v for_o ever_o with_o thou_o amen_n chap._n 8._o contain_v pious_a ejaculation_n at_o the_o time_n of_o receive_v lord_n this_o art_n that_o bless_a bread_n by_o which_o my_o soul_n be_v nourish_v to_o eternal_a life_n thou_o be_v that_o fruitful_a vine_n from_o which_o do_v flow_v those_o glad_v comfort_n to_o my_o faint_a spirit_n thou_o be_v break_v for_o my_o sin_n thou_o be_v bruise_v for_o my_o transgression_n and_o the_o chastisement_n of_o my_o peace_n be_v upon_o thou_o lord_n by_o thy_o stripe_n let_v my_o sinful_a soul_n be_v heal_v thou_o take_v into_o thy_o hand_n the_o cup_n of_o tremble_a thou_o drank_a out_o the_o very_a dregs_o thereof_o and_o thy_o precious_a blood_n be_v pour_v out_o like_o water_n for_o my_o sake_n sweet_a jesus_n sustain_v i_o by_o this_o bread_n refresh_v i_o with_o this_o wine_n recover_v i_o with_o this_o potion_n cleanse_v i_o by_o this_o effusion_n that_o i_o may_v this_o day_n receive_v joyful_o return_v thankful_o live_v righteous_o and_o die_v happy_o chap._n 9_o contain_v a_o brief_a meditation_n and_o pious_a thanksgiving_n after_o our_o receive_v i_o be_o this_o day_n joyful_o deliver_v from_o the_o bondage_n of_o sin_n and_o satan_n and_o happy_o restore_v unto_o the_o glorious_a liberty_n of_o the_o son_n of_o god_n i_o have_v rellish_v the_o sweetness_n of_o his_o heavenly_a promise_n and_o receive_v the_o seal_n of_o
his_o gracious_a performance_n i_o now_o enjoy_v that_o bless_a peace_n of_o god_n which_o pass_v all_o our_o understanding_n my_o deliverance_n be_v wonderful_a my_o freedom_n absolute_a my_o peace_n unalterable_a my_o joy_n unutterable_a my_o conscience_n be_v now_o quiet_v my_o spirit_n ravish_v my_o enemy_n vanquish_v and_o my_o god_n wel-pleased_n to_o thou_o therefore_o o_o thou_o bless_a fountain_n of_o eternal_a sweetness_n do_v i_o address_v my_o joyful_a soul_n to_o love_v and_o honour_v thou_o to_o my_o life_n end_v lord_n jesus_n accept_v of_o i_o and_o so_o powerful_o and_o gracious_o assist_v i_o that_o i_o may_v save_o behold_v thou_o in_o thy_o bless_a promise_n that_o i_o may_v happy_o enjoy_v thou_o in_o thy_o holy_a ordinance_n that_o i_o may_v clear_o see_v and_o joyful_o confess_v what_o great_a thing_n thou_o have_v do_v for_o my_o poor_a soul_n that_o i_o may_v be_v daily_o ravish_v with_o apprehension_n of_o thy_o exceed_a love_n and_o hourly_o husy_v with_o recount_v thy_o endless_a praise_n lord_n make_v i_o to_o forsake_v the_o sin_n and_o misery_n of_o this_o life_n make_v i_o more_o watchful_a over_o my_o corrupt_a heart_n more_o zealous_a of_o thy_o glory_n and_o thy_o child_n good_n that_o i_o may_v never_o willing_o offend_v thou_o but_o whole_o sacrifice_v the_o short_a remainder_n of_o my_o day_n unto_o thou_o that_o so_o my_o heart_n and_o my_o flesh_n may_v triumphant_o rejoice_v in_o thou_o the_o live_a god_n mortify_v my_o corruption_n support_v my_o weakness_n accept_v my_o willingness_n let_v this_o my_o humiliation_n before_o thou_o be_v a_o please_a sacrifice_n unto_o thou_o for_o his_o alone_a sake_n who_o precious_a life_n thy_o rich_a mercy_n have_v sacrifice_v to_o thy_o justice_n for_o i_o lord_n hear_v i_o and_o have_v mercy_n on_o i_o for_o his_o alone_a sake_n who_o thou_o have_v free_o give_v unto_o i_o that_o i_o may_v true_o love_v thou_o devout_o serve_v thou_o earnest_o embrace_v thou_o eternal_o enjoy_v thou_o amen_n chap._n 10._o upon_o a_o journey_n undertake_v and_o the_o many_o danger_n incident_a thereunto_o i_o be_o now_o go_v from_o my_o own_o home_n and_o know_v not_o whether_o i_o shall_v ever_o return_v god_n i_o know_v have_v set_v a_o period_n to_o my_o day_n beyond_o which_o i_o can_v pass_v but_o when_o or_o where_o or_o how_o my_o life_n shall_v end_v i_o be_o uncertain_a many_o be_v the_o danger_n that_o attend_v this_o sinful_a life_n and_o many_o more_o my_o sin_n that_o have_v deserve_v they_o i_o can_v neither_o number_v the_o one_o nor_o foresee_v the_o other_o this_o be_v the_o wretched_a and_o the_o sad_a condition_n of_o my_o body_n and_o without_o unfeigned_a sorrow_n for_o my_o sin_n the_o much_o more_o woeful_a case_n of_o my_o distress_a soul_n lord_n there_o be_v nothing_o so_o sweet_a as_o thy_o love_n nothing_o so_o safe_a as_o thy_o protection_n and_o yet_o i_o have_v carelessy_a neglect_v the_o one_o and_o thou_o may_v now_o just_o deny_v i_o the_o other_o thou_o have_v woo_v i_o to_o mercy_n and_o i_o have_v refuse_v to_o come_v thou_o have_v gracious_o invite_v i_o by_o thy_o continual_a preservation_n by_o thy_o fatherly_a sustentation_n by_o thy_o gentle_a correction_n by_o thy_o faithful_a promise_n and_o thy_o rich_a performance_n bless_a lord_n how_o wonderful_a be_v thy_o compassion_n towards_o i_o when_o i_o be_o unthankful_a for_o thy_o many_o favour_n when_o i_o be_o unmindful_a of_o my_o own_o misery_n even_o than_o thou_o gracious_o provide_v for_o i_o and_o yet_o for_o all_o this_o i_o have_v not_o hitherto_o resolve_v serious_o to_o come_v unto_o thou_o such_o and_o so_o many_o be_v my_o sin_n so_o great_a be_v my_o unthankfulness_n that_o i_o now_o tremble_v to_o appear_v before_o thou_o and_o yet_o so_o tender_a be_v thy_o mercy_n to_o i_o that_o thou_o again_o allure_v i_o to_o comfort_n and_o contentment_n lord_n into_o the_o bless_a bosom_n of_o thy_o love_n i_o cast_v myself_o for_o safety_n and_o protection_n and_o in_o the_o midst_n of_o danger_n even_o in_o death_n itself_o will_v joyfuliy_v rely_v upon_o thou_o for_o thou_o o_o lord_n be_v my_o strong_a rock_n and_o fortress_n unto_o which_o i_o will_v always_o resort_v lord_n keep_v i_o as_o the_o apple_n of_o thy_o eye_n hide_v i_o under_o the_o shadow_n of_o thy_o wing_n strengthen_v my_o weak_a faith_n against_o the_o strong_a assault_n of_o satan_n support_v and_o comfort_v i_o in_o all_o the_o fear_n and_o terror_n of_o my_o own_o accuse_a conscience_n protect_v and_o keep_v i_o in_o this_o present_a journey_n let_v thy_o holy_a angel_n be_v my_o bless_a guardian_n to_o protect_v i_o in_o life_n to_o preserve_v i_o in_o death_n to_o assist_v i_o after_o death_n o_o let_v i_o never_o grieve_v those_o bless_a spirit_n which_o though_o invisible_o yet_o most_o assure_o be_v my_o attendant_n lord_n as_o thou_o have_v give_v they_o readiness_n and_o cheerfulness_n of_o mind_n to_o watch_v my_o preservation_n and_o further_o my_o salvation_n so_o give_v i_o carefulness_n and_o constancy_n of_o soul_n to_o joy_v they_o in_o my_o life_n and_o conversation_n and_o see_v lord_n i_o can_v know_v my_o hour_n of_o dissolution_n o_o teach_v i_o so_o to_o number_v my_o day_n that_o i_o may_v apply_v my_o heart_n unto_o heavenly_a wisdom_n that_o i_o may_v obtain_v a_o sweet_a assurance_n of_o thy_o love_n in_o christ_n unfeigned_a sorrow_n for_o my_o sin_n a_o sincere_a and_o constant_a heart_n to_o thy_o service_n and_o a_o cheerful_a readiness_n at_o thy_o call_n amen_n chap._n 11._o contain_v pious_a meditation_n and_o zealous_a ejaculation_n after_o a_o journey_n i_o be_o now_o by_o god_n gracious_a providence_n return_v safe_a unto_o my_o earthly_a home_n but_o be_o still_o travel_v to_o my_o heavenly_a there_o be_v nothing_o in_o this_o life_n but_o labour_n and_o sorrow_n nothing_o in_o that_o but_o rest_n and_o happiness_n and_o yet_o i_o dote_v upon_o the_o one_o and_o neglect_v the_o other_o lord_n if_o my_o treasure_n be_v with_o thou_o my_o heart_n will_v be_v there_o also_o when_o thou_o give_v i_o more_o knowledge_n of_o thou_o i_o shall_v have_v more_o desire_n to_o come_v unto_o thou_o when_o my_o sin_n have_v make_v i_o more_o sensible_a of_o my_o own_o misery_n thy_o grace_n i_o trust_v will_v make_v i_o more_o capable_a of_o thy_o sweet_a mercy_n lord_n if_o this_o vain_a unquietness_n be_v so_o refresh_v to_o my_o mortal_a body_n how_o true_o bless_a will_v thy_o heavenly_a rest_n be_v to_o my_o immortal_a soul_n when_o thou_o lord_n will_v wipe_v away_o all_o tear_n from_o my_o eye_n all_o aking_n from_o my_o heart_n when_o there_o shall_v be_v no_o more_o death_n neither_o sorrow_n nor_o cry_v nor_o any_o more_o pain_n when_o soul_n and_o body_n shall_v triumphant_o and_o joyful_o repose_v themselves_o in_o thou_o for_o ever_o when_o they_o shall_v drink_v free_o of_o the_o river_n of_o thy_o pleasure_n and_o be_v for_o ever_o satisfy_v with_o the_o fatness_n of_o thy_o house_n i_o confess_v myself_o unworthy_a to_o enjoy_v this_o outward_a rest_n in_o this_o my_o earthy_a home_n much_o more_o unworthy_a to_o enjoy_v that_o inward_a rest_n that_o sweet_a assurance_n of_o a_o lively_a hope_n to_o be_v partaker_n of_o eternal_a rest_n how_o wretched_a be_v my_o body_n without_o this_o outward_a quietness_n how_o much_o more_o wre_a ched_a be_v my_o soul_n without_o thou_o thou_o o_o lord_n be_v my_o shield_n to_o defend_v i_o my_o staff_n to_o uphold_v i_o my_o food_n to_o sustain_v i_o my_o wine_n to_o glad_v i_o my_o belove_v to_o embrace_v i_o my_o pleasure_n to_o delight_v i_o my_o joy_n to_o ravish_v i_o my_o sweet_a and_o sate_a repose_n for_o ever_o to_o refresh_v i_o let_v this_o teach_v i_o lord_n to_o fix_v my_o thought_n on_o heaven_n and_o heavenly_a thing_n to_o use_v this_o world_n sober_o in_o thou_o and_o to_o thou_o to_o view_v it_o true_o as_o it_o be_v a_o barren_a wilderness_n a_o transitory_a vain_a and_o empty_a thing_n far_o inconsistent_a with_o my_o real_a happiness_n to_o desire_v nothing_o to_o enjoy_v nothing_o in_o the_o creature_n but_o only_o in_o and_o unto_o thou_o the_o great_a creator_n so_o shall_v no_o vain_a pleasure_n bewitch_v i_o no_o unjust_a profit_n beguile_v i_o no_o sudden_a sorrow_n dismay_v i_o no_o terror_n of_o conscience_n affright_v i_o to_o thou_o o_o thou_o sovereign_a of_o my_o soul_n do_v i_o devote_v the_o remnant_n of_o my_o sinful_a day_n to_o love_v thou_o to_o praise_v thou_o to_o honour_v thou_o to_o rest_v in_o thou_o for_o ever_o lord_n wean_v i_o from_o the_o sin_n and_o misery_n of_o this_o life_n and_o raise_v my_o thought_n to_o immortality_n let_v the_o sweetness_n of_o thy_o heavenly_a joy_n relieve_v the_o harshness_n of_o my_o worldly_a sorrow_n that_o misery_n may_v
thyself_o for_o i_o and_o to_o i_o give_v i_o also_o unfeigned_a repentance_n that_o i_o may_v hearty_o bewail_v the_o sinfulness_n of_o my_o life_n past_a that_o i_o may_v make_v a_o gracious_a improvement_n of_o my_o life_n present_a and_o faithful_o perform_v the_o vow_n and_o promise_n which_o i_o make_v unto_o thou_o for_o the_o short_a remainder_n of_o my_o life_n to_o come_v o_o bless_a and_o eternal_a comforter_n of_o all_o those_o sinful_a soul_n that_o put_v their_o trust_n in_o thou_o give_v i_o a_o sweet_a and_o full_a assurance_n of_o thy_o love_n in_o christ_n withdraw_v my_o wretched_a heart_n from_o vanity_n inflame_v it_o with_o a_o earnest_n and_o affectionate_a desire_n to_o thou_o open_v my_o eye_n that_o i_o may_v see_v some_o glimpse_n of_o thy_o celestial_a joy_n prepare_v for_o i_o make_v i_o often_o to_o think_v of_o they_o earnest_o to_o long_o for_o they_o and_o ready_o and_o cheerful_o to_o part_v with_o all_o these_o earthly_a pleasure_n to_o enjoy_v they_o lord_n make_v i_o able_a to_o encounter_v and_o withstand_v the_o strong_a assault_n of_o satan_n and_o this_o evil_a world_n give_v i_o thy_o save_a grace_n and_o take_v from_o i_o what_o thou_o will_v without_o thy_o bless_a presence_n all_o these_o outward_a joy_n be_v weariness_n and_o emptiness_n without_o thou_o even_o life_n itself_o be_v bitterness_n unto_o i_o without_o thy_o love_n i_o ask_v it_o not_o of_o thou_o yea_o i_o rather_o beg_v thou_o lord_n to_o take_v it_o from_o i_o that_o so_o i_o may_v be_v joyful_o release_v from_o the_o bondage_n of_o a_o sinful_a body_n that_o i_o may_v love_v thou_o with_o a_o pure_a and_o spotless_a soul_n that_o all_o my_o imperfection_n may_v be_v do_v away_o that_o so_o i_o may_v secure_o dwell_v with_o thou_o in_o perfect_a holiness_n and_o endless_a happiness_n amen_n chap._n 18._o upon_o the_o sin_n of_o uncleanness_n with_o encouragement_n to_o avoid_v it_o consider_v o_o my_o soul_n in_o what_o a_o bless_a relation_n thou_o now_o stand_v to_o thy_o god_n thou_o have_v late_o grieve_v for_o thy_o sin_n and_o god_n have_v also_o gracious_o accept_v of_o thy_o sorrow_n and_o thou_o be_v now_o at_o peace_n and_o union_n with_o he_o his_o holy_a spirit_n be_v thy_o comforter_n his_o holy_a providence_n thy_o guide_n his_o holy_a angel_n thy_o guardian_n his_o holy_a saint_n thy_o assistant_n the_o creature_n without_o thou_o be_v at_o league_n and_o union_n with_o thou_o and_o thy_o conscience_n within_o thou_o be_v a_o continual_a feast_n unto_o thou_o while_o thus_o thou_o continue_v thy_o safety_n be_v inviolable_a thy_o joy_n unutterable_a thy_o peace_n unalterable_a who_o can_v express_v the_o blessedness_n of_o this_o condition_n how_o ravish_v be_v this_o revive_a presence_n of_o the_o glad_n spirit_n by_o which_o thou_o be_v sustain_v sweet_o here_o by_o which_o thou_o shall_v be_v joyful_o refresh_v hereafter_o will_v thou_o now_o lose_v all_o this_o o_o my_o soul_n for_o this_o false_a this_o foul_a this_o momentany_a pleasure_n will_v thou_o lodge_v this_o beastly_a sin_n where_o thou_o now_o lodge_v thy_o redeemer_n consider_v how_o vain_a it_o be_v how_o bitter_a it_o will_v be_v think_v how_o many_o sad_a thought_n how_o many_o ache_a heart_n how_o many_o wound_a sigh_n this_o fall_n of_o thou_o will_v cost_v thou_o what_o distemper_n of_o body_n what_o disturbance_n of_o soul_n what_o unquietness_n of_o sleep_n what_o check_v of_o conscience_n what_o inward_a sadness_n in_o thy_o great_a merriment_n and_o which_o be_v worst_a of_o all_o what_o a_o fearful_a apprehension_n of_o god_n wrath_n in_o this_o life_n and_o woeful_a expectation_n of_o judgement_n and_o suffer_v of_o extremity_n of_o pain_n in_o hell_n for_o ever_o let_v not_o the_o vain_a hope_n of_o god_n mercy_n flatter_v thou_o for_o while_o he_o be_v merciful_a he_o will_v be_v just_a yea_o his_o mercy_n shall_v provoke_v his_o justice_n if_o his_o patience_n and_o long-suffering_a do_v not_o lead_v thou_o into_o 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lord_n the_o righteous_a judge_n shall_v give_v i_o at_o that_o day_n and_o not_o unto_o i_o only_o but_o unto_o all_o those_o that_o love_n and_o expect_v the_o day_n of_o his_o appear_v 2_o tim._n 4.7_o 8._o lord_n thou_o have_v often_o see_v the_o weakness_n of_o thy_o sinful_a servant_n how_o willing_o how_o wretched_o i_o have_v be_v yield_v to_o the_o false_a allurement_n of_o my_o sinful_a flesh_n how_o base_o i_o have_v give_v ground_n even_o upon_o the_o very_a first_o assault_n without_o desire_n of_o resistance_n without_o care_n of_o repentance_n i_o have_v hitherto_o be_v so_o far_o from_o sorrow_v for_o this_o sin_n that_o i_o have_v much_o delight_v in_o it_o and_o often_o grieve_v thou_o my_o god_n in_o frame_v of_o excuse_n for_o it_o bless_a god_n how_o rich_a be_v that_o peace_n which_o i_o enjoy_v by_o thou_o how_o glorious_a that_o hope_n which_o i_o possess_v in_o thou_o how_o wonderful_a that_o mercy_n i_o obtain_v from_o thou_o and_o yet_o how_o careless_o how_o 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a_o father_n thou_o will_v abhor_v that_o sin_n that_o have_v so_o much_o provoke_v his_o displeasure_n thou_o will_v most_o solemn_o protest_v against_o it_o and_o serious_o resolve_v for_o ever_o to_o avoid_v it_o thy_o sin_n will_v be_v ever_o before_o thou_o to_o humble_v thou_o here_o to_o exalt_v thou_o hereafter_o thy_o degree_n of_o sin_n will_v have_v thy_o degree_n of_o sorrow_n thy_o measure_n of_o pollution_n will_v require_v thy_o measure_n of_o sanctification_n as_o thou_o have_v give_v up_o thy_o member_n to_o be_v servant_n of_o sin_n so_o thou_o must_v now_o yield_v they_o up_o to_o be_v weapon_n of_o righteousness_n as_o thou_o have_v be_v drown_v in_o pleasure_n so_o thou_o must_v be_v drench_v in_o tear_n yea_o those_o tear_n will_v be_v thy_o daily_a food_n to_o nourish_v thou_o in_o grace_n to_o enrich_v thou_o in_o glory_n o_o how_o truly-blessed_n be_v that_o soul_n which_o have_v unfeigned_o resolve_v on_o this_o good_a this_o great_a this_o necessary_a work_n 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my_o corruption_n be_v the_o work_n of_o thy_o creation_n when_o thou_o have_v raise_v i_o by_o thy_o grace_n thou_o supporte_v i_o by_o thy_o goodness_n thou_o lead_v i_o by_o thy_o providence_n thou_o draw_v i_o by_o thy_o patience_n thou_o compelle_v i_o by_o thy_o power_n such_o be_v my_o weakness_n such_o be_v my_o feebleness_n by_o nature_n that_o i_o can_v rise_v without_o thou_o that_o i_o can_v stand_v without_o thou_o when_o i_o be_o raise_v by_o thou_o such_o be_v my_o strength_n such_o be_v my_o ability_n by_o grace_n that_o i_o be_o able_a to_o go_v with_o thou_o that_o i_o be_o joyful_a to_o run_v after_o thou_o lord_z quicken_z and_o revive_v i_o from_o the_o death_n of_o sin_n and_o grave_n of_o misery_n sustain_v my_o wound_a conscience_n with_o the_o sweetness_n of_o thy_o save_a promise_n let_v thy_o patience_n and_o long-suffering_a lead_v i_o in_o to_o repentance_n thy_o holy_a spirit_n unto_o perfect_a holiness_n and_o endless_a happiness_n lord_n jesus_n draw_v i_o and_o i_o shall_v joyful_o run_v after_o thou_o my_o body_n in_o obedience_n to_o my_o soul_n my_o soul_n and_o body_n in_o obedience_n to_o thy_o bless_a will_n more_o zealous_o more_o willing_o more_o constant_o to_o my_o life_n end_v amen_n chap._n 21._o upon_o servile_a fear_n and_o the_o danger_n thereof_o no_o child_n can_v fear_v his_o father_n as_o lie_v aught_o that_o be_v not_o jealous_a of_o his_o father_n honour_n that_o be_v not_o feel_o affect_v with_o his_o injury_n and_o zealous_o devote_v to_o perpetuate_v his_o praise_n and_o it_o be_v as_o equal_o impossible_a that_o this_o father_n can_v affect_v that_o son_n who_o obedience_n be_v rather_o enforce_v by_o power_n than_o invite_v by_o affection_n if_o this_o be_v so_o in_o nature_n it_o be_v much_o more_o so_o in_o grace_n for_o thou_o o_o lord_n be_v now_o a_o double_a father_n to_o i_o thou_o be_v my_o father_n by_o creation_n and_o my_o father_n by_o redemption_n lord_n as_o thou_o have_v double_v thy_o goodness_n towards_o i_o i_o shall_v have_v double_v my_o return_n of_o thankfulness_n towards_o thou_o thy_o love_n to_o i_o be_v absolute_a no_o breach_n can_v dissolve_v it_o no_o time_n determine_v it_o thy_o love_n to_o i_o be_v from_o the_o beginning_n and_o who_o thou_o love_v thou_o love_v to_o the_o end_n my_o love_n to_o thou_o be_v fickle_a false_a and_o full_a of_o imperfection_n and_o if_o my_o filial_a fear_n even_o in_o my_o rest_n performance_n be_v full_a of_o spot_n and_o blemish_n in_o thy_o sight_n how_o most_o deform_v shall_v i_o appear_v when_o i_o serve_v thou_o with_o a_o irreligious_a and_o ungodly_a fear_n when_o i_o do_v thy_o will_n repine_o and_o cold_o not_o for_o love_v of_o thy_o mercy_n but_o for_o fear_n of_o thy_o justice_n when_o i_o be_o know_o and_o willing_o consent_v to_o thy_o great_a dishonour_n when_o i_o be_o so_o zealous_a in_o the_o world_n cause_n yea_o too_o too_o often_o in_o the_o devil_n cause_n and_o so_o benumb_v in_o thou_o when_o sorrow_n dismay_v i_o and_o sin_n delight_v i_o ah_o lord_n how_o far_o be_o i_o from_o what_o i_o ought_v to_o be_v if_o i_o go_v on_o in_o this_o path_n i_o perish_v everlasting_o while_o i_o continue_v in_o this_o course_n of_o disobedience_n i_o hang_v over_o hell_n fire_n by_o the_o slender_a twig_n of_o a_o uncertain_a life_n and_o if_o that_o once_o break_v my_o loss_n be_v irrecoverable_a thou_o lord_n have_v say_v it_o and_o thy_o word_n be_v truth_n he_o which_o deni_v i_o before_o man_n he_o will_v i_o deny_v before_o my_o father_n which_o be_v in_o heaven_n lord_n let_v this_o teach_v i_o to_o delight_v in_o thy_o service_n to_o be_v jealous_a of_o thy_o honour_n to_o thirst_v for_o thy_o
with_o this_o subject_n thou_o have_v just_a cause_n to_o suspect_v thy_o love_a to_o fear_v thy_o enjoy_n it_o for_o where_o thy_o treasure_n be_v there_o will_v thy_o heart_n be_v also_o if_o thou_o live_v the_o life_n of_o pleasure_n thou_o be_v so_o much_o worse_a than_o a_o beast_n by_o how_o much_o thou_o ought_v by_o reason_n to_o be_v better_a if_o of_o action_n thou_o be_v so_o much_o near_o to_o happiness_n as_o reason_n be_v beyond_o sense_n and_o yet_o so_o much_o far_o off_o as_o grace_n be_v beyond_o nature_n if_o the_o happy_a life_n of_o heavenly_a meditation_n thou_o be_v so_o far_o above_o vanity_n as_o heaven_n be_v above_o earth_n as_o immotality_n above_o nature_n as_o glory_v above_o corruption_n o_o how_o sweet_a be_v those_o thought_n which_o lead_v i_o to_o eternity_n which_o raise_v my_o soul_n above_o the_o reach_n of_o humane_a misery_n that_o can_v support_v i_o under_o all_o the_o heavy_a pressure_n of_o sin_n under_o all_o the_o grievous_a burden_n of_o sorrow_n under_o all_o the_o sharp_a assault_n of_o satan_n that_o 〈◊〉_d make_v i_o merry_a in_o life_n and_o triumphant_a in_o death_n nothing_o can_v more_o true_o represent_v i_o to_o myself_o and_o inform_v i_o that_o i_o be_o all_o earthly_a than_o the_o dullness_n and_o backwardness_n of_o my_o thought_n to_o be_v heavenly_a who_o can_v ever_o hope_v to_o be_v a_o inhabitant_n of_o that_o city_n who_o language_n he_o can_v speak_v lord_n when_o my_o thought_n be_v more_o zealous_o affect_v with_o thy_o heavenly_a joy_n i_o shall_v then_o hope_v to_o be_v more_o frequent_o acquaint_v with_o thy_o heavenly_a visit_n by_o my_o careless_a neglect_n of_o the_o one_o i_o be_o now_o just_o deprive_v of_o the_o sweet_a enjoyment_n of_o the_o other_o while_o i_o be_o wed_v to_o this_o wretched_a world_n my_o thought_n must_v needs_o favour_v of_o corruption_n but_o if_o thou_o lord_n will_v once_o open_v my_o eye_n to_o see_v the_o glorious_a beauty_n of_o my_o heavenly_a home_n i_o shall_v then_o know_v and_o joyful_o confess_v that_o one_o hour_n thus_o spend_v will_v add_v more_o comfort_n to_o my_o fool_n more_o true_a content_n to_o my_o desire_n than_o all_o these_o outward_a blessing_n and_o i_o shall_v then_o account_v and_o joyful_o confess_v with_o thy_o apostle_n that_o all_o thing_n be_v but_o loss_n and_o dung_n in_o compare_n of_o the_o richness_n of_o thy_o love_n in_o christ_n jesus_n for_o thou_o o_o bless_a saviour_n be_v the_o bless_a fountain_n of_o eternal_a happiness_n the_o joy_n of_o my_o heart_n the_o triumph_n of_o my_o joy_n the_o comfort_n of_o my_o life_n the_o safety_n of_o my_o body_n the_o rest_n of_o my_o soul_n without_o thou_o i_o be_o far_o worse_a than_o nothing_o and_o with_o thou_o i_o enjoy_v all_o thing_n for_o thou_o be_v in_o the_o father_n and_o i_o in_o thou_o and_o thou_o in_o i_o and_o in_o this_o happy_a union_n be_v contain_v that_o fruition_n be_v enjoy_v that_o for_o everblessed_n vision_n in_o which_o the_o 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dutiful_o desire_v thou_o more_o earnest_o long_o for_o thou_o more_o hearty_o embrace_v thou_o more_o faithful_o and_o think_v of_o thou_o more_o joyful_o to_o my_o life_n end_v amen_n chap._n 33._o upon_o unchristianlike_a dejectedness_n in_o poverty_n why_o do_v i_o excruciate_v my_o soul_n with_o apprehension_n of_o a_o seem_a evil_n how_o unworthy_a be_o i_o of_o this_o life_n which_o i_o hold_v from_o that_o god_n who_o i_o dare_v not_o trust_v will_v god_n feed_v i_o with_o the_o delicate_n of_o heaven_n and_o not_o give_v i_o bread_n will_v he_o give_v i_o full_a draught_n of_o the_o river_n of_o his_o eternal_a pleasure_n and_o not_o afford_v i_o temporal_a refreshment_n shall_v my_o death_n be_v precious_a in_o his_o eye_n and_o my_o life_n uncomfortable_a in_o my_o own_o can_v there_o be_v any_o evil_n and_o the_o lord_n have_v not_o do_v it_o shall_v he_o do_v it_o and_o shall_v i_o complain_v if_o poverty_n be_v evil_a in_o itself_o yet_o it_o be_v good_a for_o i_o the_o evil_a of_o sin_n have_v draw_v upon_o i_o this_o evil_a of_o punishment_n so_o this_o evil_n be_v from_o nature_n and_o the_o good_a from_o grace_n by_o this_o affliction_n i_o be_o wean_v from_o the_o world_n and_o make_v desirous_a of_o my_o heavenly_a home_n i_o be_o now_o put_v in_o mind_n that_o my_o treasure_n be_v there_o my_o heart_n shall_v be_v there_o also_o i_o be_o now_o full_o assure_v by_o my_o patience_n and_o humility_n under_o this_o affliction_n and_o by_o the_o quiet_a fruit_n of_o righteousness_n it_o daily_o bring_v forth_o in_o i_o that_o i_o be_o god_n child_n that_o as_o i_o be_o now_o make_v partaker_n of_o my_o saviour_n suffering_n so_o i_o shall_v be_v hereafter_o of_o his_o glory_n that_o i_o part_n with_o earthly_a contentment_n to_o enjoy_v heavenly_a comfort_n lord_n when_o thou_o lend_v i_o thy_o staff_n of_o consolation_n i_o shall_v be_v well_o able_a to_o endure_v thy_o rod_n of_o affliction_n all_o though_o my_o body_n be_v worse_o i_o shall_v then_o find_v my_o soul_n to_o be_v much_o better_a my_o present_a condition_n happy_a my_o future_a bless_a in_o what_o estate_n soever_o i_o be_o i_o will_v think_v that_o best_a because_o thou_o lord_n have_v put_v i_o there_o if_o my_o call_n be_v low_a my_o account_n will_v be_v the_o less_o if_o i_o discharge_v this_o faithful_o i_o shall_v not_o lose_v my_o reward_n thou_o o_o lord_n look_v not_o upon_o my_o greatness_n but_o my_o goodness_n my_o faithfulness_n in_o thy_o service_n a_o pin_n in_o thy_o material_a temple_n be_v as_o useful_a as_o a_o stone_n if_o i_o be_v any_o thing_n in_o thy_o spiritual_a it_o be_v enough_o yet_o let_v i_o not_o content_v myself_o with_o easiness_n and_o indifferency_n in_o heavenly_a blessing_n but_o labour_v to_o supply_v my_o outward_a want_n by_o inward_a grace_n so_o shall_v this_o earthly_a bitterness_n be_v turn_v into_o spiritual_a sweetness_n and_o eternal_a blessedness_n thou_o o_o lord_n have_v allot_v i_o my_o portion_n in_o this_o 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thou_o lord_n as_o this_o holy_a motion_n come_v from_o thy_o heavenly_a spirit_n so_o enable_v i_o to_o the_o performance_n of_o it_o by_o thy_o grace_n to_o thy_o glory_n and_o my_o soul_n eternal_a comfort_n i_o vow_v myself_o a_o serious_a and_o profess_a enemy_n to_o all_o ungodliness_n no_o sinful_a thought_n shall_v surprise_v i_o without_o a_o sorrowful_a sigh_n no_o ungracious_a word_n pass_v i_o without_o a_o sudden_a retractation_n and_o devout_a confession_n no_o wicked_a action_n defile_v i_o without_o a_o sincere_a and_o godly_a humiliation_n unto_o each_o measure_n of_o sin_n i_o will_v allow_v a_o due_a measure_n of_o sorrow_n those_o sin_n that_o have_v be_v reign_v over_o i_o shall_v at_o set_a hour_n be_v constant_o revenge_v by_o i_o and_o as_o my_o body_n have_v be_v a_o deep_a sharer_n in_o my_o sin_n so_o it_o shall_v also_o be_v a_o daily_a sharer_n in_o my_o suffering_n i_o will_v at_o set_a season_n deny_v myself_o somewhat_o of_o these_o outward_a enjoyment_n which_o thou_o lord_n in_o mercy_n have_v allow_v i_o as_o a_o true_a sign_n of_o my_o true_a sorrow_n for_o that_o sinful_a excess_n which_o i_o have_v too_o often_o take_v without_o thy_o allowance_n those_o sinful_a hour_n which_o have_v be_v vain_o lose_v in_o idleness_n and_o emptiness_n shall_v be_v willing_o redeem_v in_o a_o constant_a observation_n of_o religious_a duty_n no_o day_n shall_v pass_v i_o without_o a_o solemn_a and_o devout_a task_n of_o devotion_n no_o hour_n without_o some_o sweet_a ejaculation_n and_o when_o at_o any_o time_n the_o trouble_n and_o disturbance_n of_o this_o frail_a life_n shall_v deny_v i_o happy_a opportunity_n for_o these_o heavenly_a performance_n what_o be_v want_v in_o act_n shall_v be_v make_v up_o in_o desire_n which_o thou_o lord_n i_o trust_v with_o it_o gracious_o accept_v and_o look_v upon_o as_o do_v because_o faithful_o intend_v o_o thou_o infinite_o wise_a and_o for_o ever_o bless_v be_v that_o be_v true_o and_o eternal_o happy_a without_o the_o sinful_a service_n of_o thy_o creature_n and_o yet_o command_v we_o to_o serve_v thou_o for_o our_o own_o sake_n that_o we_o also_o may_v be_v happy_a in_o thou_o thou_o that_o love_v not_o a_o false_a and_o fickle_a heart_n nor_o delight_v in_o the_o sacrifice_n of_o fool_n give_v i_o a_o wise_a and_o understand_a heart_n that_o i_o may_v serious_o consider_v of_o this_o sacred_a vow_n give_v i_o a_o constant_a and_o religious_a heart_n that_o i_o may_v cheerful_o perform_v what_o i_o have_v faithful_o promise_v give_v i_o a_o break_a and_o a_o contrite_a heart_n that_o i_o may_v bitter_o bewail_v what_o i_o have_v foolish_o neglect_v that_o thy_o great_a name_n may_v be_v glorify_v my_o sinful_a life_n amend_v my_o conscience_n quiet_v my_o spirit_n comfort_v thy_o saint_n delight_v thy_o angel_n rejoice_v and_o my_o soul_n and_o body_n eternal_o save_v in_o the_o great_a and_o dreadful_a day_n of_o the_o lord_n jesus_n to_o who_o with_o thou_o o_o bless_a father_n and_o thy_o holy_a spirit_n be_v all_o possible_a praise_n and_o honour_n and_o glory_n now_o and_o for_o ever_o amen_n chap._n 40._o upon_o the_o bless_a condition_n of_o god_n saint_n with_o motive_n and_o encouragement_n unto_o godliness_n lord_n to_o close_o up_o these_o imperfect_a line_n as_o i_o begin_v with_o that_o beauty_n of_o holiness_n which_o thou_o thyself_o be_v and_o be_v essential_o contain_v in_o thou_o so_o my_o soul_n desire_n be_v to_o end_v with_o that_o blessedness_n which_o we_o thy_o saint_n enjoy_v even_o in_o this_o vale_n of_o misery_n and_o be_v eternal_o derive_v from_o thou_o that_o so_o i_o may_v begin_v and_o end_n with_o thou_o who_o be_v the_o beginning_n and_o end_n of_o thy_o creature_n that_o i_o may_v lead_v thy_o servant_n from_o the_o pure_a fountain_n of_o true_a holiness_n to_o the_o sweet_a stream_n of_o inward_a happiness_n wherein_o we_o may_v secure_o bathe_v our_o weary_a soul_n in_o rest_n and_o quietness_n until_o thy_o gracious_a goodness_n shall_v conduct_v we_o home_o unto_o the_o full_a fruition_n of_o those_o joyful_a river_n of_o thy_o endlesle_a pleasure_n i_o be_o no_o soon_o enter_v upon_o this_o bless_a search_n but_o i_o find_v my_o soul_n ravish_v with_o admiration_n at_o the_o greatness_n with_o apprehension_n of_o the_o goodness_n with_o contemplation_n of_o the_o freeness_n of_o thy_o love_n and_o favour_n towards_o i_o i_o see_v thou_o the_o great_a and_o glorious_a god_n of_o heaven_n and_o earth_n from_o all_o eternity_n out_o of_o thy_o own_o gracious_a goodness_n without_o all_o possibility_n in_o i_o when_o i_o be_v not_o either_o of_o desire_v or_o deserve_v this_o inestimable_a love_n of_o thou_o elect_v i_o in_o christ_n of_o who_o thou_o have_v no_o need_n from_o who_o thou_o can_v receive_v no_o benefit_n unto_o holiness_n and_o happiness_n in_o this_o life_n and_o unto_o blefsednesse_n in_o that_o to_o come_v and_o as_o i_o find_v this_o love_n of_o thou_o to_o be_v pure_o simple_o admirable_o and_o eternal_o great_a so_o be_v it_o also_o true_o necessary_o sufficient_o and_o permanent_o good_a if_o it_o be_v not_o true_o good_a it_o can_v never_o make_v i_o true_o happy_a if_o not_o necessary_o good_a i_o may_v then_o enjoy_v happiness_n without_o it_o if_o not_o sufficient_o good_a my_o happiness_n enjoy_v by_o it_o can_v not_o afford_v i_o satisfaction_n in_o it_o if_o not_o permanent_o good_a what_o i_o enjoy_v in_o satisfaction_n i_o may_v want_v in_o perfection_n by_o be_v sudden_o remove_v from_o it_o but_o thou_o o_o lord_n have_v gracious_o afford_v i_o all_o these_o degree_n of_o happiness_n that_o i_o may_v be_v true_o and_o eternal_o happy_a that_o i_o may_v be_v happy_a in_o thou_o because_o there_o be_v no_o attainine_a happiness_n but_o by_o thou_o that_o i_o may_v be_v happy_a in_o soul_n and_o happy_a in_o body_n happy_a in_o life_n and_o happy_a in_o death_n happy_a here_o and_o happy_a hereafter_o thou_o o_o my_o bless_a saviour_n art_n sweet_a unto_o i_o than_o all_o sweetness_n thou_o be_v that_o bless_a all-sufficiency_n by_o which_o i_o be_o both_o full_o and_o for_o ever_o satisfy_v thou_o be_v my_o safe_a repose_n my_o inviolable_a peace_n my_o rich_a rest_n my_o safety_n in_o life_n my_o comfort_n in_o death_n my_o glory_n after_o death_n by_o thy_o patient_a suffering_n i_o be_o more_o than_o conqueror_n of_o sin_n of_o sorrow_n of_o death_n of_o hell_n by_o thy_o glorious_a resurrection_n i_o have_v assure_v hope_n of_o immortality_n by_o thy_o bless_a ascension_n of_o eternal_a glory_n by_o the_o one_o thou_o have_v powerful_o defend_v i_o against_o the_o rage_n and_o malice_n of_o devil_n by_o the_o other_o thou_o have_v gracious_o exalt_v i_o in_o thy_o bless_a union_n with_o i_o above_o the_o nature_n of_o angel_n thy_o peace_n thou_o have_v leave_v with_o i_o thy_o peace_n thou_o have_v give_v unto_o i_o even_o that_o bless_a peace_n of_o conscience_n which_o the_o world_n can_v take_v from_o i_o and_o that_o eternity_n of_o peace_n with_o thou_o in_o thy_o kingdom_n which_o thou_o lord_n in_o thy_o rich_a mercy_n have_v prepare_v for_o i_o o_o that_o i_o may_v now_o lose_v myself_o with_o contemplation_n of_o thy_o endless_a love_n that_o i_o may_v be_v ravish_v into_o ecstasy_n with_o apprehension_n of_o my_o present_a safety_n of_o my_o future_a glory_n that_o all_o my_o faculty_n of_o soul_n may_v be_v but_o one_o entire_a and_o please_a sacrifice_n of_o thankfulness_n unto_o thou_o that_o as_o thou_o o_o my_o saviour_n and_o the_o father_n be_v one_o so_o i_o may_v be_v one_o with_o thou_o to_o magnify_v thy_o gracious_a presence_n here_o and_o to_o be_v for_o ever_o where_o thou_o be_v hereafter_o to_o see_v thy_o great_a glory_n and_o enjoy_v my_o own_o end_n less_o felicity_n from_o this_o for_o ever_o bless_a fountain_n of_o eternal_a happiness_n do_v plentiful_o flow_v those_o pleasant_a stream_n of_o comfort_n to_o the_o soul_n and_o body_n of_o the_o saint_n even_o in_o this_o life_n by_o which_o they_o be_v secure_o quiet_v and_o joyful_o content_v even_o in_o the_o very_o worst_a of_o time_n which_o either_o man_n malice_n or_o the_o devil_n cruelty_n can_v study_v to_o inflict_v upon_o they_o if_o they_o receive_v injury_n they_o return_v prayer_n they_o entertain_v they_o with_o a_o father_n forgive_v they_o for_o they_o know_v not_o what_o they_o do_v luk._n 23.34_o and_o lord_n lie_v not_o this_o sin_n to_o their_o charge_n act._n 7.60_o and_o so_o while_o they_o lose_v outward_o they_o gain_v inward_o &_o godliness_n be_v great_a gain_n for_o by_o patience_n they_o possess_v their_o own_o soul_n their_o courage_n be_v undaunted_a for_o the_o righteous_a be_v hold_v as_o a_o lion_n able_a to_o encounter_v the_o fierce_a affliction_n ready_a to_o withstand_v the_o strong_a
frailty_n commiserate_v his_o infirmity_n forgive_v his_o iniquity_n lord_n purge_v he_o by_o thy_o precious_a blood_n clothe_v he_o with_o thy_o own_o righteousness_n enrich_v he_o with_o thy_o bless_a merit_n and_o plead_v they_o to_o thy_o father_n for_o he_o o_o thou_o holy_a and_o for_o ever_o bless_a spirit_n who_o be_v the_o pure_a fountain_n of_o eternal_a love_n be_v present_a with_o he_o relieve_v and_o comfort_v he_o in_o all_o these_o bitter_a pang_n of_o his_o last_o hour_n endue_v he_o with_o a_o willingness_n and_o cheerfulness_n to_o leave_v this_o transitory_a life_n and_o crown_v he_o with_o eternity_n of_o joy_n in_o that_o to_o come_v and_o now_o o_o lord_n we_o come_v unto_o thou_o for_o ourselves_o who_o be_v here_o at_o this_o time_n upon_o our_o sinful_a knee_n before_o thou_o lord_z open_z our_o eye_n that_o we_o may_v serious_o consider_v of_o that_o last_o and_o solemn_a hour_n of_o our_o departure_n lord_n sanctify_v our_o heart_n that_o while_o we_o be_v encompass_v with_o sinful_a flesh_n we_o may_v lament_v our_o often_o fail_n and_o infirmity_n and_o every_o day_n be_v more_o and_o more_o desirous_a to_o go_v home_o to_o thou_o who_o be_v the_o god_n of_o spirit_n lord_n give_v we_o grace_n that_o we_o may_v walk_v sober_o and_o righteous_o and_o holy_o as_o become_v thy_o child_n that_o at_o the_o resurrection_n of_o the_o just_a our_o soul_n and_o body_n may_v enjoy_v the_o bless_a consummation_n of_o their_o endless_a happiness_n lord_n hear_v our_o prayer_n and_o let_v our_o cry_n come_v unto_o thou_o for_o thy_o name_n sake_n for_o thy_o promise_n sake_n for_o thy_o bless_a son_n sake_n amen_n the_o conclusion_n bless_a lord_n god_n by_o who_o only_a mercy_n i_o have_v finish_v this_o imperfect_a work_n as_o i_o begin_v it_o by_o thy_o goodness_n so_o i_o desire_v to_o end_v it_o with_o thy_o praise_n lord_n accept_v of_o it_o and_o gracious_o afford_v thy_o blessing_n to_o it_o let_v not_o the_o weakness_n and_o the_o sinfulness_n of_o i_o the_o instrument_n be_v the_o reader_n discouragement_n but_o give_v glory_n and_o honour_n to_o thou_o the_o agent_n for_o of_o thou_o and_o through_o thou_o and_o to_o thou_o be_v all_o thing_n to_o thou_o be_v praise_n for_o ever_o amen_n soli_fw-la deo_fw-la gloria_fw-la for_o the_o comfort_n and_o assistance_n of_o those_o that_o be_v ready_a to_o depart_v this_o life_n i_o have_v hereunto_o add_v the_o die_a confession_n of_o mr._n anthâ—ny_n sadler_n minister_n of_o god_n word_n at_o westthorock_a in_o essex_n of_o which_o i_o be_v a_o earwitness_n obiit_fw-la vicesimo_fw-la die_v maii_n anno_fw-la 1643._o the_o lord_n have_v lay_v a_o gracious_a and_o a_o gentle_a visitation_n on_o i_o i_o do_v acknowledge_v with_o a_o thankful_a heart_n that_o this_o weakness_n of_o body_n this_o languish_a of_o nature_n these_o painful_a day_n and_o night_n be_v from_o he_o for_o misery_n come_v not_o out_o of_o the_o dust_n neither_o do_v affliction_n spring_v out_o of_o the_o earth_n job_n 5.6_o ah_o my_o friend_n little_o do_v man_n think_v how_o much_o the_o great_a disturbance_n of_o sickness_n how_o much_o he_o pain_n and_o infirm_a tie_n of_o a_o dec_fw-la ie_v body_n distract_v those_o bless_a thought_n those_o sweet_a and_o happy_a meditation_n which_o the_o trouble_a soul_n desire_n the_o spirit_n be_v willing_a but_o the_o flesh_n be_v weak_a lord_n jesus_n strengthen_v the_o inward_a man_n and_o lay_v no_o more_o upon_o this_o sinful_a bâ—dy_n than_o thou_o in_o mercy_n shall_v enable_v it_o to_o bear_v i_o be_o now_o very_o persuade_v that_o god_n have_v purpose_v to_o determine_v my_o day_n his_o bless_a will_n be_v do_v even_o so_o lord_n jesus_n come_v quick_o he_o that_o look_v into_o his_o life_n past_a that_o ransake_v his_o soul_n and_o call_v to_o mind_v the_o sinful_a fail_n of_o his_o youth_n will_v find_v it_o very_o hard_a and_o difficult_a to_o make_v his_o call_n and_o election_n sure_a i_o have_v earnest_o desire_v to_o leave_v no_o corner_n of_o my_o soul_n unsearched_a and_o i_o find_v myself_o to_o be_v a_o very_a great_a and_o wretched_a sinner_n i_o have_v commit_v grievous_a sin_n very_o grievous_a sin_n such_o sin_n as_o be_v not_o fit_a to_o be_v name_v before_o god_n saint_n i_o have_v examine_v my_o soul_n by_o each_o particular_a commandment_n and_o i_o find_v myself_o guilty_a of_o the_o breach_n of_o all_o and_o that_o in_o a_o high_a manner_n especial_o consider_v that_o weighty_a function_n god_n providence_n have_v call_v i_o unto_o i_o have_v not_o only_o sin_v against_o my_o own_o soul_n but_o against_o the_o soul_n of_o other_o too_o who_o i_o have_v corrupt_v by_o my_o ill_a example_n and_o that_o very_a often_o and_o now_o when_o i_o look_v upon_o the_o glass_n of_o the_o law_n and_o there_o see_v my_o own_o vildness_n i_o find_v god_n justice_n and_o my_o own_o desert_n even_o ready_a to_o surprise_v and_o cast_v i_o down_o into_o the_o nethermost_a hell_n and_o that_o most_o righteous_o but_o o_o see_v the_o goodness_n of_o a_o gracious_a god_n i_o now_o come_v to_o lay_v hold_n upon_o the_o promise_n but_o how_o not_o without_o repentance_n not_o presume_o i_o apply_v they_o not_o in_o a_o general_a but_o particular_a way_n i_o do_v not_o only_o believe_v that_o christ_n jesus_n come_v iâ—_n to_o the_o world_n to_o save_v sinner_n but_o i_o believe_v also_o that_o he_o die_v for_o my_o sin_n and_o rise_v again_o for_o my_o justification_n god_n have_v promise_v and_o all_o his_o promise_n be_v yea_o and_o amen_o that_o he_o will_v not_o forsake_v those_o which_o trust_v in_o he_o nay_o he_o have_v bind_v himself_o unto_o it_o by_o a_o oath_n by_o two_o immutable_a thing_n which_o can_v fail_v his_o truth_n and_o his_o holiness_n heb._n 6.18_o and_o god_n have_v say_v that_o he_o which_o confess_v and_o forsake_v his_o sin_n shall_v find_v mercy_n 1_o joh._n 1.9_o i_o acknowledge_v they_o i_o confess_v they_o i_o be_o grieve_v for_o they_o i_o forsake_v they_o i_o abhor_v themwhat_o shall_v i_o do_v more_o god_n require_v not_o more_o of_o i_o tear_n these_o pause_n be_v supply_v with_o tear_n and_o yet_o for_o all_o this_o i_o can_v find_v myself_o assure_v of_o his_o favour_n methinks_v this_o sorrow_n be_v not_o so_o hearty_a as_o it_o ought_v to_o be_v and_o yet_o i_o know_v and_o steadfast_o believe_v that_o if_o god_n do_v not_o work_v with_o i_o this_o sorrow_n can_v not_o be_v and_o where_o he_o work_v there_o can_v be_v nothing_o want_v i_o know_v that_o the_o most_o righteous_a man_n alive_a can_v perform_v this_o work_n so_o perfect_o as_o he_o ought_v and_o therefore_o i_o believe_v that_o he_o which_o be_v ascend_v up_o on_o high_a have_v do_v it_o for_o i_o in_o that_o full_a and_o ample_a manner_n which_o be_v able_a to_o appease_v his_o father_n wrath_n and_o i_o now_o trust_v that_o by_o his_o perfect_a obedience_n this_o imperfect_a work_n of_o i_o shall_v find_v a_o gracious_a acceptation_n this_o be_v my_o hope_n and_o this_o my_o belief_n nay_o i_o can_v go_v yet_o a_o little_a further_o to_o strengthen_v my_o assurance_n that_o my_o peace_n be_v make_v with_o god_n i_o every_o day_n and_o every_o hour_n do_v pray_v unto_o my_o saviour_n to_o intercede_v his_o father_n for_o i_o and_o if_o i_o implore_v he_o he_o will_v intercede_v his_o father_n and_o if_o he_o intercede_v his_o father_n he_o can_v be_v deny_v o_o my_o god_n impute_v my_o sin_n to_o he_o transfer_v his_o righteousness_n to_o i_o and_o then_o i_o know_v i_o shall_v appear_v a_o glorious_a soul_n before_o thou_o amen_n finis_fw-la the_o content_n chap._n 1._o upon_o the_o sinfulness_n of_o our_o thought_n touch_v the_o sacred_a deity_n with_o holy_a caution_n to_o order_v our_o devotion_n aright_o pag._n 2._o chap._n 2._o upon_o the_o consideration_n of_o god_n love_n and_o man_n unthankfulness_n a_o meditation_n suit_v to_o the_o morning_n pag._n 9_o chap._n 3._o upon_o the_o consideration_n of_o divine_a providence_n a_o meditation_n for_o noon_n pag._n 14_o chap._n 4._o upon_o the_o consideration_n of_o the_o sinfulness_n shortness_n and_o uncertainâ—y_n of_o life_n a_o meditation_n suit_v to_o the_o evening_n pag._n 17_o chap._n 5._o upon_o our_o approach_n unto_o god_n house_n with_o necessary_a caution_n for_o our_o behaviour_n there_o pag._n 20_o chap._n 6._o upon_o our_o return_v from_o god_n house_n and_o the_o neglect_n of_o private_a duty_n pag._n 24_o chap._n 7._o upon_o the_o want_n of_o due_a preparation_n for_o receive_v of_o the_o lord_n supper_n pag._n 27_o chap._n 8._o contain_v pious_a ejaculation_n at_o the_o time_n of_o receive_v pag._n 30_o chap._n 9_o contain_v a_o brief_a meditation_n and_o pious_a thanksgiving_n after_o our_o receive_v pag._n 31_o chap._n 10._o upon_o a_o journey_n undertake_v and_o the_o many_o danger_n incident_a thereunto_o pag._n 32_o chap._n 11._o contain_v pious_a meditation_n and_o zealous_a ejaculation_n after_o a_o journey_n pag._n 34_o chap._n 12._o upon_o the_o great_a danger_n of_o security_n pag._n 37_o chap._n 13._o upon_o the_o great_a danger_n of_o prosumption_n pag._n 41_o chap._n 14._o upon_o quench_v of_o the_o motion_n of_o god_n holy_a spirit_n pag._n 47_o chap._n 15._o upon_o the_o consideration_n of_o god_n peculiar_a providence_n to_o his_o child_n pag._n 51_o chap._n 16._o upon_o sinful_a anger_n and_o the_o great_a disturbance_n thereof_o pag._n 55_o chap._n 17._o upon_o man_n inordinate_a love_n to_o the_o creature_n pag._n 58_o chap._n 18._o upon_o the_o sin_n of_o uncleaness_n with_o encouragement_n to_o avoid_v it_o pag._n 63_o chap._n 19_o upon_o immoderate_a mirth_n and_o the_o great_a inconvenience_n thereof_o pag._n 67_o chap._n 20._o upon_o the_o great_a danger_n of_o defer_v the_o hour_n of_o repentance_n pag._n 75_o chap._n 21._o upon_o servile_a fear_n and_o the_o danger_n thereof_o pag._n 79_o chap._n 22._o upon_o the_o great_a neglect_n of_o reckon_v daily_o with_o our_o thought_n and_o the_o benefit_n lose_v thereby_o pag._n 84_o chap._n 23._o upon_o unchristianlike_a dullness_n in_o affliction_n pag._n 87_o chap._n 24._o upon_o uncheerfulnesse_n in_o christianity_n with_o encouragement_n to_o avoid_v it_o pag._n 91_o chap._n 25._o upon_o man_n sinful_a frailty_n in_o the_o hour_n of_o temptation_n with_o motive_n to_o make_v resistance_n pag._n 94_o chap._n 26._o upon_o the_o infirmity_n of_o the_o saint_n pag._n 97_o chap._n 27._o upon_o desertion_n pag._n 101_o chap._n 28._o upon_o sudden_a danger_n pag._n 106_o chap._n 29._o upon_o the_o weakness_n of_o faith_n and_o sinfulness_n of_o thought_n tend_v to_o despair_n pag._n 107_o chap._n 30._o upon_o the_o great_a neglect_n of_o the_o duty_n of_o prayer_n pag._n 111_o chap._n 31._o upon_o the_o great_a neglect_n of_o read_v the_o sacred_a scripture_n pag._n 114_o chap._n 32._o upon_o the_o neglect_n of_o divine_a meditation_n pag._n 117_o chap._n 33._o upon_o unchristianlike_a dejectedness_n in_o poverty_n pag._n 119_o chap._n 34._o upon_o sickness_n and_o ungodly_a repine_v thereat_o pag._n 122_o chap._n 35._o upon_o the_o misery_n of_o life_n and_o blessedness_n of_o death_n pag._n 126_o chap._n 36._o upon_o the_o great_a neglect_n of_o opportunity_n in_o do_v good_a to_o the_o saint_n pag._n 131_o chap._n 37._o upon_o the_o deceitfulness_n of_o the_o heart_n in_o the_o performance_n of_o holy_a duty_n pag._n 135_o chap._n 38._o upon_o the_o unrulinesse_n of_o the_o tongue_n with_o necessary_a caution_n to_o restrain_v it_o pag._n 140_o chap._n 39_o upon_o holy_a revenge_n for_o sin_n with_o motive_n and_o encouragement_n thereunto_o pag._n 144_o chap._n 40._o upon_o the_o bless_a condition_n of_o the_o saint_n with_o motive_n and_o encouragement_n unto_o godliness_n pag._n 147_o a_o comfortable_a prayer_n to_o be_v use_v at_o the_o point_n of_o death_n by_o the_o visitor_n of_o the_o sick_n pag._n 157_o finis_fw-la
not_o only_a safety_n inviolable_a but_o peace_n untterable_a safety_n in_o life_n and_o sweetness_n in_o death_n and_o now_o lord_n when_o i_o inquire_v for_o what_o cause_n thou_o give_v i_o all_o this_o i_o find_v nothing_o but_o thy_o mere_a love_n unto_o i_o when_o i_o ask_v what_o thou_o require_v for_o all_o this_o i_o hear_v thou_o demand_v no_o thing_n but_o the_o return_n of_o love_n what_o be_v more_o easy_a what_o more_o sweet_a than_o love_n and_o what_o object_n more_o aimable_fw-fr than_o that_o glorious_a be_v that_o be_v the_o perfection_n of_o all_o love_n &_o that_o love_n the_o beauty_n of_o all_o perfection_n thou_o can_v not_o give_v lord_n what_o thou_o have_v not_o the_o glory_n of_o thy_o creation_n be_v but_o a_o glimpse_n of_o that_o grater_n glory_n of_o thy_o essence_n lord_n who_o can_v deny_v thou_o love_n how_o sweet_a be_v this_o yoke_n how_o light_a this_o burden_n when_o i_o love_v thou_o i_o enjoy_v thou_o and_o myself_o in_o thou_o i_o possess_v thou_o i_o rest_v in_o thou_o for_o ever_o o_o my_o god_n all_o that_o thou_o give_v i_o all_o that_o thou_o require_v of_o i_o be_v to_o make_v i_o happy_a to_o thou_o be_v glory_n for_o ever_o amen_n bless_a lord_n all_z this_o i_o joyful_o confess_v thou_o have_v do_v for_o i_o and_o yet_o the_o whole_a course_n of_o my_o corrupt_a life_n have_v be_v nothing_o else_o but_o a_o continue_a rebellion_n against_o thou_o my_o eye_n full_a of_o adultery_n my_o tongue_n of_o corrupt_a communication_n my_o hand_n of_o oppression_n my_o ear_n open_a to_o iniquity_n my_o heart_n full_a of_o hypocricy_n my_o foot_n lame_a in_o thy_o path_n and_o swift_a to_o walk_v in_o the_o way_n of_o sinner_n my_o whole_a man_n nothing_o else_o but_o the_o very_a body_n of_o death_n and_o destruction_n i_o have_v sin_v against_o precept_n against_o promise_n against_o mercy_n against_o judgement_n against_o the_o check_n of_o my_o own_o conscience_n and_o the_o bless_a motion_n of_o thy_o holy_a spirit_n i_o have_v even_o tempt_v my_o temptation_n by_o make_v daily_o and_o hourly_a provision_n for_o sin_n and_o have_v be_v so_o far_o from_o sorrow_v for_o all_o this_o that_o i_o have_v resolve_v to_o continue_v yet_o still_o and_o yet_o so_o great_a be_v thy_o compassion_n towards_o i_o that_o still_o thou_o store_v up_o new_a mercy_n for_o i_o lord_n i_o bewail_v my_o weakness_n i_o lament_v my_o wilfulness_n i_o abhor_v my_o filthiness_n i_o hearty_o desire_v and_o earnest_o endeavour_v to_o unrip_v my_o soul_n to_o ransack_v my_o heart_n to_o unlock_v the_o very_a secret_n of_o my_o thought_n that_o i_o may_v have_v all_o my_o sin_n continual_o before_o i_o even_o in_o their_o worst_a appearance_n and_o i_o may_v loathe_v they_o and_o leave_v they_o and_o obtain_v thy_o gracious_a pardon_n for_o they_o i_o confess_v lord_n that_o i_o be_o utter_o unworthy_a to_o enjoy_v this_o bless_a light_n which_o i_o have_v so_o much_o abuse_v to_o thy_o great_a dishonour_n much_o more_o the_o light_n of_o grace_n by_o which_o thou_o lead_v i_o to_o that_o of_o glory_n and_o that_o it_o be_v more_o just_a with_o thou_o for_o ever_o to_o deprive_v i_o of_o these_o happy_a light_n and_o to_o expose_v i_o to_o the_o terror_n of_o eternal_a darkness_n lord_n i_o have_v finned_a and_o can_v choose_v but_o sin_n i_o be_o a_o great_a and_o grievous_a sinner_n and_o yet_o i_o be_o thy_o child_n have_v pity_n upon_o i_o have_v pity_n upon_o i_o for_o i_o be_o in_o misery_n into_o the_o bosom_n of_o thy_o tender_a love_n i_o thrust_v my_o sinful_a soul_n for_o safety_n and_o protection_n o_o let_v not_o thy_o justice_n triumph_n in_o my_o ruin_n but_o thy_o mercy_n in_o my_o deliverance_n so_o shall_v thou_o have_v the_o glory_n and_o i_o the_o sweetness_n of_o my_o eternal_a happiness_n hear_v i_o o_o lord_n and_o help_v i_o for_o thy_o name_n sake_n for_o thy_o promise_n sake_n for_o thy_o son_n sake_n amen_n chap._n 3._o upon_o the_o consideration_n of_o divine_a providence_n a_o meditation_n for_o noon_n bless_a god_n without_o thy_o holy_a providence_n no_o creature_n can_v subsist_v by_o thy_o almighty_a power_n they_o be_v create_v out_o of_o nothing_o and_o if_o thou_o shall_v not_o sustain_v they_o they_o must_v needs_o return_v to_o nothing_o how_o wise_o how_o wonderful_o do_v thou_o guide_v and_o govern_v these_o inferior_a creature_n all_o thing_n be_v at_o once_o dispose_v of_o by_o thou_o and_o move_v successive_o to_o their_o appoint_a end_n but_o above_o all_o how_o gracious_o have_v thou_o provide_v for_o the_o good_a of_o man_n what_o variety_n of_o food_n how_o secret_o how_o sweet_o dispose_v it_o to_o sustentation_n no_o creature_n can_v be_v nourish_v without_o thou_o and_o with_o thou_o i_o enjoy_v not_o only_a nutriment_n but_o delectation_n how_o sweet_a be_v this_o thy_o goodness_n to_o my_o body_n how_o much_o more_o sweet_a thy_o mercy_n to_o my_o soul_n and_o if_o thy_o temporal_a refreshment_n be_v so_o good_a how_o ravish_v be_v that_o celestial_a food_n with_o which_o thy_o saint_n and_o angel_n be_v delight_v lord_n how_o undeserving_a be_o i_o of_o these_o thy_o many_o favour_n thou_o give_v rain_n to_o the_o earth_n and_o it_o become_v fruitful_a thou_o load_a i_o daily_o with_o thy_o blessing_n and_o lo_o i_o be_o unthankful_a even_o those_o creature_n that_o be_v insensible_a be_v daily_o nourish_v into_o augmentation_n and_o man_n alone_o who_o thou_o have_v make_v to_o live_v for_o ever_o content_v himself_o with_o daily_a diminution_n this_o woeful_o appear_v by_o my_o deadness_n and_o dulness_n in_o my_o christian_a calling_n by_o my_o back_n wardness_n to_o holy_a duty_n by_o my_o carelessness_n and_o coldness_n in_o prayer_n weariness_n in_o read_v irkomenesse_n in_o meditation_n by_o my_o faint_a hope_n sick_a faith_n lukewarm_a love_n freeze_a charity_n lame_a patience_n languish_v zeal_n and_o all_o those_o other_o visible_a decay_n of_o goodness_n which_o be_v none_o other_o than_o the_o very_a symptom_n of_o a_o die_a soul_n ah_o now_o lord_n how_o miserable_o deform_a must_v i_o needs_o appear_v in_o thy_o fight_n that_o be_o thus_o ugly_a in_o my_o own_o thou_o that_o have_v compassion_n on_o i_o when_o i_o be_v in_o my_o blood_n and_o then_o say_v unto_o i_o live_v that_o have_v wash_v i_o clean_o from_o sin_n and_o pollution_n and_o espouse_v i_o into_o thy_o own_o bolom_o will_v thou_o also_o love_v i_o in_o death_n will_v thou_o court_v i_o in_o the_o grave_n how_o just_o may_v thou_o for_o ever_o leave_v i_o to_o my_o own_o ruin_n that_o can_v so_o easy_o so_o willing_o forsake_v thou_o for_o the_o pleasure_n of_o sin_n and_o yet_o how_o sweet_o how_o affectionate_o do_v thou_o order_v all_o thing_n for_o i_o even_o my_o very_a sin_n invite_v i_o to_o a_o more_o happy_a to_o a_o near_a union_n with_o thou_o to_o thou_o therefore_o o_o my_o god_n the_o life_n of_o my_o life_n the_o very_a be_v and_o assure_a comfort_n of_o my_o sinful_a soul_n and_o wretched_a body_n do_v i_o address_v myself_o for_o mercy_n and_o forgiveness_n i_o confess_v myself_o unworthy_a of_o thy_o gracious_a providence_n in_o sustain_v this_o frail_a and_o infirm_a body_n much_o more_o unworthy_a o_o lord_n of_o thy_o unspeakable_a love_n in_o revive_v relieve_v embrace_v my_o deform_a soul_n bless_a lord_n who_o be_o i_o of_o who_o thou_o be_v thus_o tender_o compassionate_a when_o i_o be_v in_o the_o womb_n i_o be_v defile_v with_o sin_n when_o i_o come_v out_o of_o it_o i_o be_v cover_v with_o shame_n the_o world_n bewitch_v i_o the_o flesh_n besot_v i_o the_o devil_n beguile_v i_o lord_n when_o no_o eye_n pity_v i_o than_o thou_o bid_v mercy_n on_o i_o and_o now_o at_o last_o when_o i_o be_o run_v from_o thou_o when_o i_o have_v adulterate_v my_o first_o love_n when_o i_o be_o become_v poor_a and_o wretched_a and_o miserable_a and_o blind_a and_o naked_a thou_o free_o forgive_v i_o thou_o call_v i_o thy_o fair_a one_o and_o give_v i_o thy_o love_n o_o my_o god_n i_o admire_v thy_o goodness_n i_o deplore_v and_o abhor_v my_o own_o wretchedness_n o_o let_v the_o sweetness_n of_o thy_o love_n in_o christ_n inflame_v the_o die_a spark_n of_o my_o benumb_a soul_n to_o praise_v thou_o without_o cease_v expatiatc_n my_o narrow_a thought_n with_o day'y_a contemplation_n of_o my_o heavenly_a home_n with_o joyful_a expectation_n of_o the_o sweet_a fruition_n of_o eternity_n o_o give_v i_o such_o a_o bless_a raptasie_n of_o soul_n that_o i_o may_v live_v above_o the_o reach_n of_o humane_a misery_n and_o reign_v with_o thou_o hereafter_o in_o immortal_a glory_n chap._n 4._o upon_o the_o consideration_n of_o the_o sinfulness_n shortness_n and_o uncertainty_n of_o life_n a_o meditation_n suit_v to_o the_o evening_n